Clutter. Even a precious possession can be set aside, misplaced or forgotten. Another less important object carelessly placed upon it, and another, and another, until it is buried. It is easy to become overrun and all that surrounds us consumes our sanity, our energy. Soon, you are unable to find what you had only a few weeks ago considered relevant. What a fucking mess.
It is usually in haste that I will begin to rummage through the piles. The need for immediate clearance prompts the overhaul. But rationale overrides rage and I trade trash bags for storage boxes. All that has been sorted out is neatly preserved. I am certain six months from now I will be digging through the boxes.
But for now, space has been cleared and I found my jacket.
The Burden of Elevation
I can no longer stand in front
and throw my fist at you, intent
on hearing every word, captured
in the moment spinning out of control.
But, I miss this like second nature
and then again, I was always more
comfortable slightly out of focus.
p.s. what the hell another won't hurt.
Friday, April 11, 2008
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why am i lost in the johnny cash right now. i have only seen the film and i heard a song called, a boy named sue
hello anon, how are you
Ke hekili!
Hey! Snaps for me!
DAMN! Blogger is eating a bouquet of dicks! It killed my comment!
You meffers.
Kidding!
O_O
hey princess, your on top. whoop whoop.
dont go looking at me bald spot
*covers hair*
You do see me.
Hahahaha!
Go me! Go Princess! I'm on top! Yeah! Mayo you know you like it! Whoop! Whoop!
Okay. That's done.
And, let it be noted again that Fimble will eternally be more dirty-minded than myself.
That is all.
;)
No don't you mean I am pathetic and you guys feel sorry for me, Smoke?
mayo likeyoun top?
now stop that right this minute prncess,
No Solly. You are not pathetic and I do not feel sorry for you.
Botch. ^_~
slash, if i could push my buttons, i would tell you wat i would always tell you.
go home, ron jeremy
Summer is best in the evening
on a moonlit night ...
Even if it is dark without moon, it is lovely
when the fireflies dart all over,
or even one or two fly by here and there
with cool lights.
It is also wonderful when it rains.
With you, always....
by Usha Pisharody
In the darkest hour
of night,
I will be your brightest star;
In the longest unending
road ahead,
I am there, walking beside you;
In the deepest sorrow
hanging heavy in your heart,
I am the unshed tear drops in your eyes;
In the quietest moment
of your loneliness....
Am I not there?
With my arms around you?
Every step, every breath
every moment...
my love
I am there, with you
always.....
My dear, you forget who holds the tickets to Birmingham!
Play nice!!!
I'm pushing them right now, can't you feel?
And you aren't doing a damn thing.
;)
i hole them so bow down to me botches. bow down
I'll take them tickets from you. >_<
I'll leave your ass sittin' here in Georgia.
Muwahaha!
Georgia, Georgia
The whole day through
Just an old sweet song
Keeps Georgia on my mind
I love this one.
Okay gotta finish it...
They overtook me down in Juarez, Mexico....
I have no idea if that's how you spell Juarez or not. O_O
When very grand people come, steps are taken to keep a clear space in front of them. But, of course, for ordinary people they won't take the trouble to interfere. If one sends for some priest with whom one has influence and asks him to speak, he will sometimes go so far as to say, 'Would you mind making a little more room there, please?' But the moment his back is turned, it is as bad as before.
Hey guys, sorry I cant stay, I'm super bizzy right now but I want you to know I was just thinking about you all and you brought a smile to my face.
Thank you.
And I am with You always..
Thank you for seeing me.
You guys know I'm writing as Sei Shonagon, right? :) It's from The Pillow Book. She was awesome. ^_^
Hey there!
Glad you stopped by for a sec! We're always thinking 'bout you!
^_^
Take care, okay?
Oh how lovely, anon at 10:28. Thank you.
Hat, tip, the whole thing. :D
Confession:
We were eyeballing your place to see if you'd come out and play!
*slaps mouth shut*
Seriously, very glad you're smiling. Can't say it enough, but we're so thankful for your friendship.
Have a great night, dude!
ohhh you turned that frown up side down i see.
*pats you on the head*
nice to see you and i think about you to. we all do.
now go and spread the word about the toetour2008
run run run :)
You know they were iming and making sure solly didn't look pathetic after that anon pointed it out.
TOETOUR will never die!!!
It will live in infamy.
TOETOUR will never die!!!
It will live in infamy.
O_O
Don't be hatin' on ToeTour '08, now.
You'll be front-row for sure. Blinding everyone on stage with your tiara.
;)
i bet she will get both her toe's signed and even get her 'da rake' toe's signed
I wonder if SS has ever painted his toenails?
You know? Toes are just wrong.
Fimble!
Oh my god! Smoke will be first in line. She'll be hoopin' and hollerin', for sure.
You kill me, really. Your humor is ace.
OMG! You guys know I don't like feet! This ToeTour thing is gonna be awkward for me!
^_^
Umm, I would totally get my toes signed. I think....
No, what would suck is if we made flip flops mandatory.
That would be bad.
smok, just get your thumb signed then.
thumbtour for princess over here.
Fuck off.
ThumbTour? Cool. ^_^
Flip-flops? Oh dear God, only if you have pretty feet and well, feet just aren't that pretty so I doubt many people will get to wear them. O_o
Flip flops are the most uncomfortable of shoes. They hurt my feet, I don't see why everyone is all "oooh flip flops are sooo comfy!"
That is a LIE! Perpetuated by the MEDIA!
;D
So we got some pretty disappointing news.
Against Me! was supposed to play the Warped Tour here in Calgary, but they changed their minds, and are passing up the Calgary date in favour of going to Japan.
Real nice.
-A
toes are good
toes are great
without them
you couldn't
stand up
straight
Anonymous said...
I wonder if SS has ever painted his toenails?
It goes without saying, I think! ;D
We knew you'd come around to the idea sometime or another!
Later, alligator!
Anonymous said...
toes are good
toes are great
without them
you couldn't
stand up
straight
Well, okay, you got me. Clever and troofax.
Here's a true story. I know a Hula dancer who is missing some of her toes. She has a hard time doing the turns. O_O
You crack me up, dude. Seriously.
^_^
WE IZ GONNA BE BLOGBELIEVE GAZILLIONAIRES! BWAHAHAHA!
Whoo-hooo!
seriously, you make me laugh so much.
you will to a mighty fine job of spreading the word that way. now, get a t shirt made and you can wear it to your local corner shop.
:)
nice to see you.
take care
I loath flip flops.
I mean, seriously. I do not want shit between my toes.
That's why they make shoes. Not, not, flip flops!
Free commemorative Toenail t-shits all around!
I mean, seriously. I do not want shit between my toes.
O_O Well me neither, Splash.
^_~
amy, who are against me?
sorry, i am with princess on this. eet in general are just eww. i prefer hands. i dont like people touching feet.
princess, i will join you on thumbtour2008. we can join with the toetour2008 and have one big party with bunnies frogs and beatles. oh and we can all wear big toe and thumb hats.
how cool
Fimn, they're a band. My boyfriend is pretty hooked on them, and they're starting to grow on me.
I'm not sure how I feel about that though. I mean, Warped Tour was announced back in... March?
There was a show here in Calgary that you had to "win to get in", and apparently, AM! was pretty disappointed to hear that. They said they'd make it up to the fans here in the city the next time they came through.
Well, now they've scrapped that show in favour of playing a festival in Japan.
Doesn't seem fair to me.
Just sayin.
-A
Even thumbs are a little weird for me, guys. Teeth, too. Teeth are just, I mean, yeah I know we have to have them to chew and it's terrible if someone doesn't have them etc. and sometimes they are very attractive, but, you know. The way teeth click, I hate it!
I can't even watch dentals at work, and if there's an extraction, just forget it, I have to leave the room.
no that isnt fair. but is that the only reason?
who are they like? erm what do they sound like?
i cant think tonight
My jaw pops. When I chew gum.
Just so you know. ^_^
I know that's not exactly teeth but ya know...
I don't like feet at all. I don't like nasty hands either. They have to be extra clean.
I think elbows are pretty odd.
If you really think about it, I mean.
Hey, wouldn't we be really freakin' odd looking if we had ostrich legs? They'd have to change the way they made chairs!
Fimn, check out "Thrash Unreal" on Youtube.
-A
My jaw pops too, really, really loud!
Elbows are all right, but they can get all dry. You have to take care of them.
Knees, I don't like too much. What sacrifices we made in order to walk upright! Knees evolved all damn wrong! They should ideally be so much bigger! Of course that would look really hideous, but we're talking about evolution here, not aesthetics. Or at least I am. Now.
O_o
i will try and find it amy. i cant get utube at the mo, it wont let me on for some strange reason. i will find it in morning.
thanks for that, i will look into it pronto :)
But hands are totally cool!
Hands are awesome.
But, really, you know? There kind of like feet and toes, just longer and less toey.
OMG don't even insult hands like that, they are NOTHING at all like feet! O_O
Hands are the best.
...just sayin
Did you just say 'less toey'?
I can't even begin to tell you how funny that is to me right now.
^__^
No, there are no insults about hands pouring from this mouth.
Hands rock. I still don't know what the eff it is about them, but they're so cool.
Hands are really cool, I do kind of love them. I'm a little handist I guess.
Hand have gotta be clean though. No dirty fingers. Ewwww.
I really did say "less toey."
And looking back on it, that's perhaps the oddest thing that has escaped my mouth today.
Splash, did it escape your mouth or your fingers?
Agreed, hands have to be clean!
Now sometimes an artist will have constant ink stains on his hands, and that's all right. As long as they are hygienic! And I can't complain because in the summer when I feed my baby birds blueberries, my fingernails get stained blue for weeks.
Less Toey
That is funny as hell.
Hot damn!
Wouldn't Toro be like a million times more awesomer if he had Toe Skillz!?
Sorry, thought bubble.
No, that's fine. Just no greasy, nasty, dirty hands.
Ewwwww.
Well, perhaps it escaped both because I said it out loud, too.
I probably should have stopped with the mouth and not let the fingers get involved.
yeah, ok, gotcha, I saw that, ucky. should just stick to selling the damn shirts, man.
Hi Mayo! Hi SS!
This goodnight comment probably won't make too much sense but that's ok because I'm drunk. It's the weekend, life is vrilliant and I feel really happy.
Mayo, thank you for writing a new blog and giving us lots of space. Glad you found your jacket, let me know if you find my earrings.
SS, thank you for just being you. I take your recent interest in toenails as a postive sign for toetour 2008. You won't regret it. Toenails are the future.
Thankyou and goodnight.
Mayo,
You made me laugh and smile this morning. Thank you so much for your post and your comments. Made me chuckle like no end.
So you did a quick spring clean? didn’t your mother ever tell you that you just cant brush those dust mites under the rug. You have to get your shovel and throw them out in the rubbish or out on the street, but I am glad you didn’t do that, I am glad you brushed them under the rug, I mean they are your words and you can do what you please but there are so many memories, so many emotions and thoughts that it would be a shame to just simply throw them away.
I have to say, I liked your comments to and your veiled comments. You are a sneaky boy but you do it with charm. That also made me smile this morning.
Well, tonight my keyboard is broken, it decides to miss letters out and place them all together so this comment has actually took me ages to write, but also I haven’t a clue what to say, just words coming out of a wordless mind so heck, step up, prick up and smile.
Goodnight mayo, sweet dreams and turn that frown upside down.
xx
I probably should have stopped with the mouth and not let the fingers get involved.
THAT'S WHAT HE SAID.
I have to say, I liked your comments to and your veiled comments. You are a sneaky boy but you do it with charm. That also made me smile this morning.
Q to the F to the T.
Fim said it best, Mayo. ^_^
You are terrible!
I need to think before I type, right?
Yeah, I should start doing that.
Well you are naughty, Splash. You are just plain naughty. ;D
"You make your wantonness your ignorance."
Heeee.
Because no one on AIM has heard this song and some currently believe I'm making it up, here are the lyrics. ^_____^
Detatchable Penis, by King Missile
I woke up this morning with a bad hangover
And my penis was missing again.
This happens all the time.
It's detachable.
[ background singing begins:
"detachable penis" over and over ]
This comes in handy a lot of the time.
I can leave it home, when I think
it's gonna get me in trouble,
or I can rent it out, when I don't need it.
But now and then I go to a party, get drunk,
and the next morning I can't for the life of me
remember what I did with it.
First I looked around my apartment, and I couldn't find it.
So I called up the place where the party was,
they hadn't seen it either.
I asked them to check the medicine cabinet
'cause for some reason I leave it there sometimes
But not this time.
So I told them if it pops up to let me know.
I called a few people who were at the party,
but they were no help either.
I was starting to get desperate.
I really don't like being without my penis for too long.
It makes me feel like less of a man,
and I really hate having to sit down
every time I take a leak.
After a few hours of searching the house,
and calling everyone I could think of,
I was starting to get very depressed,
so I went to the Kiev, and ate breakfast.
Then, as I walked down Second Avenue
towards St. Mark's Place,
where all those people sell used books
and other junk on the street,
I saw my penis lying on a blanket
next to a broken toaster oven.
Some guy was selling it.
I had to buy it off him.
He wanted twenty-two bucks, but I
talked him down to seventeen.
I took it home, washed it off,
and put it back on. I was happy again. Complete.
People sometimes tell me I should get
it permanently attached,
but I don't know.
Even though sometimes it's a pain in the ass,
I like having a detachable penis.
[ background voices continue to sing "detachable penis" for
a while, then out ]
Mayo-naze!!!!!!!
Shut up and go to bed. ^_^
SS,
You are too funny. Too meffin' funny. I'm glad we make you smile. You always know how to make us smile, too. You crazy person. ^_^
Have a great rest of the night, BlogBelieve!
XOXO,
S&V20
Damn, I would comment right after the Detachable Penis song. O_o
Detachable Penis - The video
But of course, Princess! ^_^
SS
Well, its good to see you turned a frown upside down, and I am glad that you stopped by to say hi. The feeling was mutual, I and I am certain others, thought about you today.
So you are interested in toenails and spreading the word of toetour2008, well good on you, you have to shout from the roof tops, and if they cant hear you, then pick up a toe and throw it. If you happen to smash a window tho, just point to someone else and run, run like the wind. Heehawed I think that would be funny cos if you do end up hiding you would probably be giggling at the same time. J
So anyway, thank you again for stopping by and I would just like to say, if you do ever paint your toenails, then you should paint them black and red. You could have ladybird toenails. I think that would be awesome and you would totally rule the roost, cos anyone with ladybird toe’s rule’s in my book.
Sweet dreams SS and I hope you are safe and well.
Take care, friend
xx
Mayo,
I went back and visited our history here, re-reading the words like they were brand new. I was a little shocked to realize the impact the stories, verses, and thoughts you've shared have made.
From the corner.
Always offering their host a taste of what that experience could be.
I walk among them undisturbed,
sharing the endeavor with their glorious insight discerning the way.
I'm confused by some things, Mayo. I hope a lot for you. I hope for you the things I value greatly, the things I don't have, the things I'll probably never have.
But it's your wish to have these presently non-existent things? I guess, after all of this time, the big question is what is it we have that you don't? Because from where I sit, my life is less than extraordinary. "It's so fucking mundane." And I don't have but one thing.
It seems a bit hypocritical of me to say, but the life you lead carries worth. I know there are days, weeks and months even, we'd like to be walking around in someone else's shoes, because we think they have it so much better than we ever will. But we are who we are. We make the life we live and it's a special thing though it takes moments of clarity to realize it.
I really know nothing more than you tell us, Mayo. I don't know you. I only know the you that you'd like us to see (something I've come to know too well). But that person is a cool motherfucker and I sometimes wish he'd acknowledge that.
I hope you're happy, okay, overjoyed, full of thought, full of answers, only half-full of questions, and mostly I hope you reach your destination.
Goodnight, Mayo.
SS:
Sometimes I feel like I run out of ways to say "Thank You." I'd do it in song seeing as how I've never done that before, but I don't know a "Thank You" song. I could try and make one up, but me and words don't go together, so it seems that we're shit up a creek for new ideas.
Thank you for stopping by tonight! You think your smile is big when you think about this place, dude? When you pop in, and even when you don't, I don't think words could convey the image of our faces!
Keep fighting the good fight. Pretty sure you have an army right beside you.
Night, SS.
we're fracked.
Oh, Mayo. ^_^
I got lots to say but in a little while. I'm getting tired but I can't sleep yet. You know that feeling? ALl tired, zoned out, can't stop thinking?
Sorry I missed saying goodnight Kapunua. Sweet dreams.
Well, today sucked really badly, like I thought it would.
I don't know where, if anywhere, this is all going to lead. I know what I want; now I have to find out if it is practical, workable, doable, affordable, feasible and all of that stuff.
What if it isn't? And what if my current situation stays as poisonous as it has recently become?
What then?
Well anyway.
Mayo, you were puckish and naughty last night and I thought it was cute. Once again, I am sorry that I missed you, as I am always sorry if I miss you. And yeah, thank you. You are really swell.
Mayo, gosh, there is a poem in my head, or rather an image, and I just don't have the spit to write it yet! It's still kind of forming. How odd.
Again and as always, thank you for this blog. I won't quote Sei Shonagon tonight; instead this calls for Nakanoin Masatada no musume:
WHEN I FIND A PLACE WHERE PEOPLE ARE SYMPATHETIC AND WRITE POETRY, I STAY.
^_^
S(S)S, you are too funny, too nice, too cool for words. Thank you for your light-hearted goodness. It's so pleasing when one doesn't take oneself so seriously.
S(S)S, a sense of humor and a sense of perspective almost always go hand in hand.
I know you're not lurking, so I'm sure I'll say that again a thousand times. :D
Blogbelieve, good night! ^_^ And as always, thanks for the laughs. :D
And that's how it usually is here. :)
Oh Bean, you didn't! Good night! :D
And good night Splash, Solly, Fim and Principesa, too. ^_^
goodnight to you too, heinous beeyotch.
Were the clear light of this bright moon not shining,
I would be all alone as I travel on this dark path.
I know I said I was out of here, but I needed to say one more thing, so don't fucking hound me.
I can no longer stand in front
and throw my fist at you...I was always more comfortable slightly out of focus.
Is this about you? You're talking to yourself, a mirror. Look, I don't know where you're coming from, and I won't ever claim to, but, dude. This is rough shit.
Maybe in this case, the focus needs to be reset, and you need to forget everything I said this morning.
Please take care of yourself.
Moonlight
The high Midnight was garlanding her head
With many a shining star in shining skies,
And, of her grace, a slumber on mine eyes,
And, after sorrow, quietness was shed.
Far in dim fields cicadas jargonéd
A thin shrill clamour of complaints and cries;
And all the woods were pallid, in strange wise,
With pallor of the sad moon overspread.
Then came my lady to that lonely place,
And, from her palfrey stooping, did embrace
And hang upon my neck, and kissed me over;
Wherefore the day is far less dear than night,
And sweeter is the shadow than the light,
Since night has made me such a happy lover.
Jacques Tahureau
Mayo,
How are you tonight? Really. Me? Well, if I am going to try and force you to be honest then I guess I have to as well...let's see...I'm not sleepy, I'm a little hot, slightly irritated, worried about someone, missing someone, unsure, and a little off. Does that sum it all up? No, probably not. I rarely can fit all my shit up into a nice neat little package. I'm sure I am leaving out something.
Mayo, lately, I have been fighting the urge. The urge to be a little self destructive. It's a funny thing...okay not, ha, ha funny, but weird. I'm not a big drinker. I don't do many pills. I have dabbled in some other things, but I'm not a big partier. Okay, so here is the funny thing...sometimes, I miss it. I miss the feeling that it gives me. I miss the illusion of control or maybe the illusion that I don't give a fuck. I'm not sure which. Once you try it, you can never ever take it back. It's always in the back of your mind. And it fucks with you....it's there as a little fake coping escape mechanism. It doesn't solve anything and I know this. I'm a terribly logical person for the most part, but there are days when I just want to turn it off and put the shit away. It's almost like when I'm drunk or I take a pill...I feel normal. I feel comfortable. Is it so bad to want that feeling all the time?
So, anyways, I have fought that all week and I guess I will fight it for the rest of my life. There will be times when I will lose some battles, but I will hang in there and keep fighting the war.
Sound like a really bad cliche? Fuck yeah, I do.
Mayo, I just feel the need to tell you to hang in there and keep battling...whether it's for yourself or someone else...trust me, we're all worth it.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Playing way out in left field tonight.
SS,
My friend, what can I honestly say that hasn't been said already?
You rock my meffin' socks off!
Perfect for the ToeTour, right?
Thank you!!
Always,
S
Mayonaise said...
Hey, I gotta go for now.
But before I do, I just want to say to everyone who isn't here tonight...I am sorry that I missed you and I hope you are all doing well and are happy, healthy, and relatively sane (that is in relation to me, of course).
April 11, 2008 2:18 AM
Mayonaise;
I understand you were doing spring cleaning, and I will learn to accept it.
Thank you for the warm wishes to all of us absent bloggers. Sorry to burst your bubble, but I'm not totally happy, and not really sane. Just stupid shit went down with some friends, and it's upsetting me because I don't know who I can trust anymore. After a night of talking, crying and hugs, my friends got stuff out of me that I never thought that I would tell anyone.
In a way, I'm glad I told them, but then in another way, it all becomes real once I admit and face my demons.
I'm just on my home computer because my laptop is being gay and not connecting to the internet. I hope I get on soon, cause I miss everyone! (soon as in like 15 minutes)
xoxo;
- 007
<3
hi de ho!
Kapunua I remember "detachable penis", I have it on a compilation cd :)
Hello Mayo, SS, Paperheart, lurkers!
How are you all on this beautiful Friday night (or Saturday)?
Helloooooooo.....
*hears echo through the halls*
Where is everyone?
Paperheart: I hope to see you in about 15 minutes, love! I'm sorry to hear you had a tough day; but, sometimes it is good to get things out in the open. Take a deep breath, love; and know you now have backup in battling those demons. *big hug*
Moonlight! *swoons*
Goodnight and sweetdreams to all blogbelievers who recently went to sleep....
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Well, I got my laptop working again.
^_^
(told you all it would not take long)
Hi Ergo!!!!
*big smooch*
You have a detachable penis on a cd? That's an ODD place to keep it!
;)
*start singing to herself*
Walk the streets, what do I see
Shit on legs approaching me
Alright I really want it
Oh yeah I gotta have it
Come on baby let's dance again
Jerk that head and be my friend
Merging Zeus and Spartacus
In rendezvous with anus
With Anus
B.O.S. Buns of steel
Spandex ass to make me kneel
Gonna give you electric shock
gonna give you electric rock
Come on baby let's dance again
Jerk that head and be my friend
Merging Zeus and Spartacus
In rendezvous with anus
With Anus
Looking good and feeling clean
Classic buttocks on the scene
Cars go by they're out of luck
Eyeball ass - eyeball stuck!
Come on baby let's dance again
Jerk that head and be my friend
Merging Zeus and Spartacus
In rendezvous with anus
With Anus
With Anus
With Anus
With Anus
With Anus
With Anus
With Anus
With Anus
With Anus
With Anus
Anus
Anus
"Rendezvous With Anus"
:D
My love, my heart, I see your words:
"When you close your eyes
will you describe
what it is you say you see
when you say you see me?"
When I see you, I see:
"everything i've always wanted
and more"
More is indescribable. There are not enough words created by Man to express my feelings for you.
When I see you, I see a man I am proud to know, a kind, loving, intricate, complex man who is more than what most people expect. I see love, strength, understanding, patience, devotion, humility, calmness. I see passion, desire, a need both to conquer and to be conquered, gentleness, forcefulness.
What do I see when I say I see you? I see my love, my heart, my only, my soulmate.
I see you. And you are all I need to see.
hi wendy
well it does come in handy sometimes......
come....in....
hahahahahaha
hello PH! *HUG*
hello angel
Hey Ergo, Six, and Angel.
*hug*
Hello everyone
Hello Angel, BC, Paper and Ergo (again)!
I hope you are all well and happy tonight!
Ergo: It can, it can!!!! ;)
BC: How are you sweetcheeks?
Paper: How was the guitar lesson today?
Angel: How's your love?
angel he's a lucky guy
I think they are BOTH lucky, Ergo!
:)
Beautiful greetings to all my friends, Wendy, Ergoproxy, Bleeding Chaos, and Paperheartxx. I trust this early morning finds you well? Wendy, I am in a pensive mood tonight. As for my love, he is tired, but otherwise well.
Hiya Wendy, how are you sugarplum? *Runs and smothers with sloppy kisses*
I'm okay, watching some Addams Family on the TV Land channel, and also, considering hanging my head in shame because I am developing some sort of attractiveness towards some of these band guitarists in these band websites I checked out and also for Philip, even though he's like 15 years older than me.
*bows head in shame while face turns red*
I'm well thanks (it's only 3 in the afternoon here) I've been shopping ths morning and am heading out for a little while soon.
hello elune! how are you?
I am well, Angel; thank you!
I'm sorry to hear of your pensive mood. Anything we can do to help?
Hi Ergo, Elune, Angel, PH * waves*
Hey BC and Elune!
Six, my lessons are in 12 hours, so your a day ahead of yourself dearie! :P
I am well Angel, thank you. I hope your mood will improve.
hi BC
looking never hurts, *thinks of lovely brown eyes and ringlets*
Hello to the Goddess, Elune!
How have you been, love?
Well, I hope :)
BC: WHO could blame you for developing an attraction toward PHILLIP??? I certainly can not fault you for THAT ;)
*hugs and sloppy kisses back*
Ergo: You're leaving ME AGAIN...so soon? *pouts*
Thanks Ergo. That's it. I need to go hide my face in a pillow ;p
I find one of the guitarists from machine head attractive although he's probably like 35 or something. How weird is that? :/
Ergoproxy, Wendy, Elune, thank you so very much for your sentiments! I am indeed the lucky one, I feel. Bleeding Chaos, age should make no difference when it comes to love. When you find your true love, nothing should stand in the way of your union.
ergoproxy said...
hi BC
looking never hurts, *thinks of lovely brown eyes and ringlets*
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Hmmm.......
would those lovely brown eyes and ringlets belong to a guitarist with the initials RT ???
;)
Are you feeling okay grasshopper? I read your comment from earlier.
Ha ha, thanks sugarplum. You always make me feel better *squeeze*
BC not at all, some women like older men, some like younger *raises hand*
Thank you Angel. I'm just lucky enough to be of legal age, ha ha ^_^
angel said...
Bleeding Chaos, age should make no difference when it comes to love. When you find your true love, nothing should stand in the way of your union.
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That is SO TRUE, Angel!
Age is just a number.
I mean, we don't ask someone how much they weigh when we first meet....
why on earth should age be such a big thing.
LOVE is AGELESS!
Thanks Ergo. Now I feel less ashamed lol.
*raises her hand in unison with Ergo*
Note: Unless it's Phillip, Nikki Sixx or Paul Stanley (there are probably a few others.....like Type O guys)
;p
Elune,
It's Philip Anselmo. He's the lead singer of Down and former singer of Pantera :)
Elune, the lessons are coming along just fine! I'm just doing some guitar homework. I'm trying to keep myself busy.
BC, thanks for the concern. Just a huge fight amongst a group of my friends. All because one of my friends won't confess to saying shit about us all, and not being able to trust anyone anymore. The story is soo long actually.
most younger guys are trainable
and less hung up on shit
Oh, no, my use of "pensive" was not meant to imply I am unhappy! I am simply thoughtful, looking at different aspects of my life.
PH unfortunately that happens all too often
if they won't admit it, you just can't trust them
my sis in law does that about people but forgets that we tell each other so we always know
Who is Phillip?
Well, I'm so glad you asked that question, Elune!
(It gives me an excuse to post a Pantera video)
*big smile*
This Love
:D
angel perhaps introspective would be a better term?
Aw PH, I'm sorry to hear that *hugs*
If you're friend won't confess, maybe you should forget about them. It doesn't sound like they are not being a great friend.
It would be hilarious if one day I took a tattooed man who plays in a band home, just to freak out my older brothers. They're so overprotective ^___^
Oops, sorry Angel.
angel said...
Oh, no, my use of "pensive" was not meant to imply I am unhappy! I am simply thoughtful, looking at different aspects of my life.
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Oh....well, I'm happy to hear you're pensive in that case!
;)
Ergo, it also makes me mad that she lied to my face. I asked her about what she said, and she straight out lied. She turned all of my friends against me, she turned all of my friends against eachother!
Own up to what you did, honestly. And if you have a problem with one of us, come to us directly! Don't go to other people because it'll just make it fucking worse!!!
(PH is obviously still pissed)
Elune, I wish. They were here a couple of months ago I believe, but not coming back anytime soon.
And with a woman like me, it's best never to go to metal concerts alone. No way.
Paper: I'm sorry to hear about the trouble with your friends. But, like I said ^up there, sometimes it's best to get everything out in the open....
to clear the air.
*big hug*
*sigh*
That's what it looks like may happen.
All of my friends and I all had stuff to admit to eachother. It was only hard for me because I told them shit that I've been hiding from them, and everyone for a couple years...
Perhaps, Ergoproxy. Introspective it is, then.
There is something to be said for younger men, ladies! *winks*
PH in an ideal world honesty like that is great, that is actually one of the reasons I prefer male friends, but it rarely happens
I would say she's a fairweather friend, adn your other friends wioll see through her too
BC: Who are planning to watch play? LOL, I missed a few things.
I was in my Pantera HAPPY zone ;)
But, like I said ^up there, sometimes it's best to get everything out in the open....
to clear the air.
And that's exactly what we all did, but it didn't help that the girl who got us all where we were, ran off crying, and didn't show up at school today. I texted her, and she was acting like everything was fine...
We told her we weren't mad, we told her we wanted to talk, and she didn't listen.
angel said...
Perhaps, Ergoproxy. Introspective it is, then.
There is something to be said for younger men, ladies! *winks*
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Indeed, Angel!
I sure agree angel!
PH it's best to get it all out, you'll understand each other better and the friendships that continue will be stronger
Angel, that's why I'm mostly attracted to guys my age, but well, I think age doesn't really matter if the guy is not a self-absorbed, uncaring asshole.
PH she sounds a bit manipulative
Wendy, Elune was asking me if I was going to watch Phil play, but the band was here a few months back I think. It's too late now. And I wouldn't go alone :)
Paper: Just give her a few days. She's probably embarrassed right now and doesn't quite know what to say - having been caught......
I'm sure in a few days she'll be ready to talk to you again.
She really played us all against eachother. And the fact that we finally figure her out, and then she denies it all? That's what really hurts the most.
BC: I told you they were coming home next month! Just get yourself down here ;)
I'm away for a bit, probably be back in an hour or so
say hi to triston if I miss him
and I was pissed mayo posted the one night I'm out! ;)
but I'm sure he missed me lol
Paperheartxx, I am sorry that your friend has chosen to deceive you and the rest of your group. I have had similar experiences in the past; they are never easy to recover from. Is there anything we can do to comfort you?
That sounds like emotional manipulation PH.
Sugarplum, if I had the money, I would. And then we could have stalked Phil, ha ha.
I was watching some old Pantera home videos on Youtube and Rex sounds almost like Steve-O from jackass lol
Ohh and the worst part was she got all of my friends to make up excuses to ditch me and not hang out with me this weekend.
I've always had my own personal issues, and demons, and when my friends told me that she asked them to do that, I kept asking myself "what the fuck is wrong with me? Am I not good enough?"
It felt like I had no friends.
And friends don't do that to friends.
paperheartxx said...
She really played us all against eachother. And the fact that we finally figure her out, and then she denies it all? That's what really hurts the most.
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Yes, it does hurt when that happens. The really SAD thing is, it's not just teenagers who do that type of thing....
at least she has that excuse *wink*
Take care Ergo. See you soon.
Thanks Angel, BC, Ergo, and Elune.
Angel, I'm not sure you can do anything, unless you can magically come here and like bitch-slap my friend for me? =]
It just kind of helps to sit here and rant and bitch about it. Don't even worry about reading my comments. I'm just going to babble and bitch for the next little bit. =]
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Ph, you are good enough to be anyone's friend, and what your friend did, was a real shitty thing to do.
I think for now you should take some time for yourself and let the situation cool down a bit, until your friend eventually or possible admits what she did was wrong.
If not, she's not worthy of being your friend. She should have considered your feelings.
angel and elune you are both so lovely :)
everyone else too but you two have such gentle phrasing
paperheartxx said...
Ohh and the worst part was she got all of my friends to make up excuses to ditch me and not hang out with me this weekend.
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I'm sorry, Paper......
Wait, Is this the weekend you're supposed to go meet your 'musician' friend???
You haven't decided to go alone, have you?
babbling and bitching and venting helps alot grasshopper ^_^
to PH's "friend"
*BITCHSLAP*
:)
Elune: You can call me Wendy too!
LOL, I always wonder who this Anon is you're referring to! *wink*
Bye Ergo and have fun!!!!
pssst....BC, I know exactly where to stalk him too.....shhhh.....
;)
Elune, that is such a sweet thing to say! I am quite sure he is looking forward to the time we will see each other again.
Ergoproxy, if I do not speak with you again at this time, have a lovely rest of the day. We will see each other again soon, I hope.
This whole thing made me feel so fucking worthless. What did I do to deserve this? I was always there for this specific friend whenever she had boy problems (believe me, there was a new one every week). I mean, I've had a tough life, and major trust issues since I was a kid. I can't stand people who lie to someone's face, especially if the person knows they were caught.
She tried to pin the blame on my friend whose been there for me, and who's been my best friend since I was three! How could you fucking to that? That friend has been there for me through it all! I can tell her anything, and she always knows what to say. So for someone to pin the blame on her.. no, you can't do that.
Ooo and you're not gonna tell me Wendy? ;)
Ohhh....and I do believe Triston found you on myspace thanks to me....or Ergo ;)
Ergo: We shall tell him you said hello if he is not too exhausted from tonight's performance to pay a visit to blogbelieve!
I have some songs to download. Be right back!
Six: Uhmm not this weekend. That's supposed to happen next weekend, but I decided not to go, but I really want to.
Sugarplum, he did! He said he found me through your page and figured it out a WEEK ago, but didn't want to say anything because he thought it would be fun not to send me a friend request at the time.
Bleeding Chaos said...
Ooo and you're not gonna tell me Wendy? ;)
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NOT where the whole WORLD can see...
and, not until you come down to NOLA to visit me!
*hehe....I'm trying to lure you into a visit*
;)
Not fair! *pouts*
^_^
paperheartxx said...
Six: Uhmm not this weekend. That's supposed to happen next weekend, but I decided not to go, but I really want to.
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Well, if you instinct is NOT to go; I think you should go with that. Even though you really want to go!
Listen to that 'inner voice' :)
angel said...
Elune, that is such a sweet thing to say! I am quite sure he is looking forward to the time we will see each other again.
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A 'heavenly' reunion awaits the two of you. Of this, I am certain!
Six, my inner voice is telling me to go, but I'm just not going because I don't have anyone to go with.
elune said...
I'm so sorry you are hurting Paper, and yes, true friends do not behave that way.
It does sound manipulative, and that is always a sign of either control or insecurity.
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You are also correct, Elune.
I have a very hard time dealing with 'controlling' 'manipulative' personalities. I don't like them. I don't like them at all!
And, I don't understand WHY anyone would seek to control/smother another.
paperheartxx said...
Six, my inner voice is telling me to go, but I'm just not going because I don't have anyone to go with.
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Perhaps your 'inner voice' is really saying 'don't go'....but your eyes are remembering him and saying GOOOOOOOOOO.....
It is then, outside forces must come to your rescue and make sure you hear that 'inner voice' and STAY HOME ;)
Haha thanks guys.
I'm just writing a blog about what happened. It's making me feel better.
okay, I'm back.
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