(It was by chance or perhaps happenstance.)
An Awkward Moment’s Legend.
It was one year ago today that I held your hand.
You asked if he did a good job.
It was a good job, wasn’t it?
It was, thank you.
You were quiet, I rambled
And you held my hand.
Can I get that for you? Oh yeah, sure.
I didn’t want to leave you,
You seemed to need
More time, one less drink, and one more smoke.
And I was intent on permanence.
Then, as is now, time passes like a plunge.
I am far, but not for long.
Do you miss me? Yes, I do.
I can’t hold your hand.
You will, soon enough.
In the meantime, I am waiting, asking
Are you sleeping to the sound of my voice?
I know you hear me, you do.
And this is ours,
A moment in time, continued.
And I am intent on permanence.
(How life can change, so quickly. In a moment, in a hand, it can shift. And everything that was will never be the same, in a good way, in the best way.)
p.s. shall we get matching rings? (Go on, laugh. I am.)
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yaya!!
I Ray comment and me gets first!!!!
hehe now everyone who comes on teh page will read that and I bet they's a ll agree.
him wincing as she pulls a barbie brush through it..
and RAY TORO if you read this and you ever have a little girl you had better let her do it! And paint your nails.
they love it
my spelling truly sucks thus far - and everyone will see that too!
ok am I alone here?
Not completely!
Ray Toro with a daughter would be precious. Actually, all of them having daughters would be adorable, but most likely candidate for a boy is Frank. Sorry Gerard, Ray, Mikey and Bob. Frank's my vote for First With A Son.
-A
*drops pin*
JESUS!
Right on my foot Ergo, thanks a bunch.
No cookie for you. :P
-A
Frank would be a great Dad, he seems so kind and patient
oh sorry amyranth that's why i didn't hear it drop!
*dabs pin hole with antiseptic and applies bandaid*
ergoproxy said...
Frank would be a great Dad, he seems so kind and patient
He's just a kid at heart
oh I just thought - ok I know it's sharpie but you think frank would let his child draw on him, I bet he would, then get it tatooed, that would be so nice
Elena, the "kids at heart" Dad's are sometimes the best. So long as they know Kid at Heart/ Dad in Head.
I can't wait to see my boyfriend as a father, but there's still a few more years yet.
-A
I think that's actually an excellent idea Ergo.
Rather than hang the kid's artwork on the fridge, he'll just let him draw what he wants on dear old Dad.
-A
I hear your sweet voice. Only whispers for now. Thank you.
Best wishes to the "Observer", this day.
Congratulations on acquiring another year's worth of wisdom. Sincerely, all the best.
OH the Matches new album is out March 18th - awesome
Yes happy birthday!
Quiet again.
Everyone must have coloring books too.
-A
Happy b-day Aip
We're not having Birthday Parties as much as we used to. I know AIP'S birthday is today (HAPPY BIRTHDAY)
but who else has one coming that we could celebrate?
-A
my colouring partner isn't back from school yet
and I dare not start without her!
Hey! MJ, what's up?
-A
Amy was Franks wedding supposed to be march?
Hello amy and ep
Ergo, my roomie and I were discussing coloring with our moms the other day, and we both noticed that moms get super possessive over coloring books.
My mom used to yell at me if I didn't color in the right direction.
-A
sorry guys, i got lost in myspace, face book and buzznet.
i am off to bed now, so nighty ngiht and keep it clean.
sweet dreams
xx
Good night FS.
Amy nothing is up right now. How about you anything up?
Ergo, I couldn't tell you. I wasn't invited ;D
Rumor was it was supposed to be in March, but who knows really? I imagine they may say something someday about it. Maybe after Jamia pops out a kid!
MJ, not a whole lot. I have a snoozing guy on my couch, and super that should be cooked, but won't be for a bit yet.
-A
Now that she went to sleep, Fim's birthday is on Friday and we are going to have this big huge naughty bash. Like, last all weekend kind of thing.
hi MJ
Goodnight fimble I wondered where you'd gone to!
I'm out to give a dog we're looking after a run back in a while
Amyranth it is very hard not to try and control the colouring, but I did pretty well, we usually colour facing pages, otherwise you have ..issues.. with colour choice etc, she's good now but early on, easier to just take a deep breath and let it go, LOL
oh cool entropy!
amy we should have a bridal shower/bucks night in their honour anyway, we haven't had them before.
Mayo,
How was your day? Was it awesome, good, bad, or just so-so? Mine was about half and half. Half awesome and half so so. That's pretty good, right? I think so.
Mayo, I'm not full of words tonight. Do you ever get like that? I'm trying to find them, but I'm not looking in the right place. I can feel what I want to get across but there is no way to articulate it. Times like these require actions and not words. The physical...the placing of a hand on one's shoulder, holding someone while they cry, grabbing their hand and promising never to let go, sitting with them while they sit with you, listening to them while they vent, playing their favorite song, calling them on the phone, writing them a letter, doing that one little tiny thing that shows them just how special they truly are.
I hope I did at least a couple of those things today. It's one thing to tell someone how special they are, but it's another thing to prove it. Maybe....just maybe, I helped someone laugh, love, smile, cry, vent, and feel like they matter.
Mayo, I hope that someone showed you today. Showed you that you really do matter to them.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Action not words.
I heard that they got married before going to S. America
Hello entropy how are you
Mayo:
I know you're not here all of the time and don't get to talk to us like you probably wish you could.
I'd just like to tell you that you will not ever find a more caring, more considerate, more helpful, more talented, more genuine, more heart-felt bunch of people than the people you have here right now.
When I'm feeling my worst because of things in my own life, or when I just have a bad day, it's these people I turn to. I'm not really sure what I will do when this place ends or when I have to leave. I know that I will take with me what I've learned from them, and I will cherish it forever.
So, I guess I don't really know how to thank them or you. I could never ever repay you or them even if I tried.
I hope you're well, Mayo.
SS:
Everyone else has had such good words for you today, I think they said it all so perfectly.
We were discussing tonight the impact you've made on us. And we came to the conclusion that it was a great one. One that we hoped you saw.
I can only speak for myself when I say that one day I will have the ability to do what you do, to inspire and to revitalize someone's spirit. I will be able to do that one day. I will live up to the standards you have set.
You should be proud of yourself.
We are of you.
Goodnight, buddy.
Family:
I gotcha taken care of with the old man up there.
See you guys tomorrow. Have a great night.
Goodnight Mib
goodnight Sdock and Mustard
Goodnight
Hey guys!
Well, it looks like I've got my bedroom all cleaned out, now I have to wait till Friday before I get my new bed. I'm more excited than I should be. It's so teeny and it's enclosed on three sides, like a little fort!
I found a ton of old books, diaries I used to keep sort of, where I wrote all the funny and meaningful quotes that my friends and family had said. I wonder what those books would look like if I kept them now. I'd have a bunch of stuff that you guys had written in them, I'm sure. ^_^ Tons of quotes from Fim, I'm sure. :)
S(S)S, thank you for stopping by, it's so good to hear from you again. You are lovely. ^_^
Mayo, I hope you've had a day both peaceful and inspiring. I also hope you don't mind that I borrowed your words for that poem; I meant it as a compliment, huh?
Sweet dreams, BlogBelieve.
NIPPLE FIXATION.*
*Honestly, that wasn't it. It was the marks from the mic cord. Though, I don't know which is weirder. O_o
Hey Martha! I'm good, and you?
Oh, I wonder if I can put "I'm sure" in tha post one more times. I'm sure I can! So sure! ^_^
Oh, Mayo and anyone else: if you want to read that poem, or anything I've written related to anything that goes on here, it's all at my blog; that's the only thing I use that for. I use LJ for everything else. Tried and true. ^_^ All the poems, pictures and stories are at the blogger account.
Okay, long day tomorrow. Good night!
I'm well but I'm off to bed. I can't have any caffeine because of my headaches so I'm off to dreamland.
So you guys have a goodnight
goodnight kapunua
goodnight MJ
sweet dreams!!
Ah, Entropy! Haven't seen you in awhile!
Are you going to let the DJ out to play? ;)
-A
Hey Amy!
Yes, the DJ can actually DJ this time.
HAHA!
I was just watching a Food Network Challenge, and they did Disney Princess cakes, and I seriously cannot believe how bad some of them were.
-A
Darlings!
I just wanted to drop in before my long (hopefully romantic) absence!
Well... not long, Till Monday I'd say. lol
Mayo, I hope you're in good health, and feeling better than just fine.
I won't settle for anything less than fa-fucking-tastic! because I am rather attached to you. XP
SS, Sweetie, I hope you've been around when I get back, I miss your posts very much, They're so uplifting.. and amusing. They always bring a smile to my face.
Blog family!
I'll miss you all so much! even during romantic candlelit dinners!.... but a little less then.
Wish me luck, I really do need it.
Take care of yourselves, and eachother.
Keep kicking ass darlings!
xoxo cupcake
<3
Going into lurking mode, Ladies and Germs, be back in a bit!
(Mythbusters is on.)
-A
Sitting here, thinking endlessly of something to say. Lately, it seems have have nothing. No words to express how I feel. Nothing but empty sentences for you all to read. I actually feel horrible for that, and I'm terribly sorry. My workload has been piled ten miles over my head. Can I get myself out of it before I drive myself totally insane? Doubtful-- but it never, ever hurts to try. I feel horrible about lots lately. Not being around. Not being a great friend to anyone here. *sigh* I try and find time to come and chit-chat, but something always pulls me away. I only have time for these stupid goodnight comments.
I'm totally sorry guys. Really. As I skip on my sluggishly-merrily way to bed, each one of you all are on my mind. ^_^
I hope that y'all know that.
Love you all terribly, and I totally miss you even more;
- 007
<3
Paperheart I miss you terribly too!
Take care.
I miss you too PH
I'm sure you'll see the end of the workload one day and we'll still be about to talk to you.
Don't feel you're letting me down at all, I understand how busy life can get, and I am really glad you find the time to call in and say hello even if it's only a short visit.
I think about you too and am sending a huge *HUG* your way to keep you safe and warm.
Just dropping by to say hi to anyone here! It's been dead a lot lately...
Martha - you're very welcome, but I don't think it helped much. They eventually stopped anyway though so its ok :)
Mayo
So are you proud of me? I didn’t delete last night’s goodnight. Trust me that was hard. I thought about what I said all day. I questioned myself saying “why in the hell did you tell him that shit? Is it really necessary to document just how fucked-up you are?”
Yeah, I guess it is.
See, I can tell you the things I’d never admit in my “real” life. Oh sure they sometimes notice the things I’m doing. Occasionally they might even question my actions but I just smile and say I’m fine, nothing to worry about. My answer is accepted. Either I’m a good actress or it’s because of a lack of interest. Perhaps it’s a bit of both.
So because of this you poor Mayo read my real thoughts. I don’t have to put on the fake smile while I’m writing. I don’t have to lie and say things are fine.
You know what? I don’t want another one of these fucking deep goodnights. I know what my problems are. I will either deal with them or not. Simple as that. Enough said.
Mayo, how was your day? Make any new friends? Eat at a new restaurant? Read a good book? Okay I have to admit this is really hard. I suppose I could answer for you but that really doesn’t work, does it?
So here we are. I don’t want to talk about me and well. damn it man, you aren’t talking. Hell, I don’t even have an amusing story to tell. Promise I’ll work on that. Tomorrow night I will have thought of something interesting to say. Something that will entertain and maybe even put a smile on your face. I’m tired of feeling down. Think the sun will shine tomorrow? Yeah, I think it might.
Night Mayo
Elena (not clicking on that little trashcan)
Pickled possum - I answered your query as best I could on my blog :)
It's funny, I thought maybe the anons would fill up in here without the majority of us around, but it's proving to be the opposite.
I just read about The Ashley Treatment, has anyone else heard of that?
-A
Hi Amy!
And no, I've never heard of the Ashley treatment. What is it?
hello miranth
how are you today?
no amyranth what is it?
Hi ergo! I'm good. How are you?
felling pretty excellent thanks!
Don't quite know why but I'm enjoying it, i'll be having some winw and cheese soon (it's only 5:30pm here, sun is just starting to set)
wine, of course!
It's after 2am here. My turkey is still baking, so I have to wait and take it out when it's done. I didn't realize how big it is :)
Enjoy your wine and cheese. Reminds me of Wallace and Grommet... :)
oh I love Wallace and Grommit, when ddi you start roasting the turkey?
I have never done a whole turkey, they are so big! Is it for an occasion?
I started the turkey sometime after 10. It's not for an occasion, we just needed freezer space, so I thawed it and forgot about it - oops, but it's still ok. Its actually our own turkey - I live on a small organic farm :)
The Ashley Treatment was done by a family on their profoundly disabled child. She's physically 9, but has never mentally developed past 3 months of age. They had her breast buds and uterus removed so that she wouldn't have to face puberty, and they gave her hormone injections so that she would slow down in growth.
I personally agree with it, in that specific case.
-A
I honestly don't know about that Amy. I don't know if I would do that, were I in their situation.
But, I assume the parents weighed the risks and made their decision accordingly.
Mira, I just checked out the website and there is a huge amount of emails supporting the decision, mostly all are from parents who have children much like Ashley, if not worse.
Really, I can see the uterus removal thing. I'm perfectly cognitive, and there are DAYS where I'd sell that little piece of muscle on the black market, just to be rid of it once and for all.
How bad would it be for a person who has the mentality of an infant? Most infants express displeasure through shrieking.
-A
LOL :D Yeah, I understand :) I've felt your pain :)
The parents of children in a similar situation would have a better perspective than I would for sure. I was - mainly - referring to the risks associated with elective surgery. Also if cancer risks are greater than normal in those who have the surgery, though they may be reduced for all I know. That's why their viewpoint is more trustworthy than outsiders.
Also Amy, I worked with autistic children my first time through college, and sometimes with different cognitive teaching strategies - not all of the time mind you - significant progress can be made. So I'd also weigh whether I'd done all I could for the child first. Though the window for progress is usually early on - before 3 or 4 years or earlier - and there are so many theories and techniques that it would be difficult to judge which would be best with any given child.
I concur!
And with that, I think I need to get to bed.
Have a nice DayNight Ergo and Mira!
-A
Goodnight Amy!
Amy I forgot,
P.S. Hormone injections could also have links to cancer, etc., too.
Morning Mayo,
3-0, woo-hoo!
Thanks to Fimble & FASC for your congratulatory words, no doubt with fingers crossed & teeth gritted. I will, in turn, concede that compared with the "Arse" and the "Pool", Manyoo are the least of 4 evils.
Ergo & Amy,
As someone struggling through life with "Rayhair" I shall quietly hope that his children inherit their locks from their mum. I also think Bob'll be first with a boy - mini-Bob would be so precious!
And in the spirit of Anon, "I love you all!"
Kass xx
3 evils, unless you count Spurs, obviously...
Good night/morning/afternoon Mayo, SS, Ergo, Amy, Miranth, FASC, Possum, Kass, nice anonymous folks, night owls, early risers and insomniacs!
How are you all? Did you all find your little piece of heaven yesterday? I hope so! I found mine. It was hiding in an Almond Joy wrapper!!!! Heaven can be delicious!
I saw SS was here. HI SS and BYE SS! Thank you for dropping in on us. Even though I always seem to miss you *pout*, your kindness warms my heart. Thank you!
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Pickledpossum said…..
Maybe a caterpillar ate him being a dalia and all ^_~
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Oh no……not only did I chase the Dalai Lama away; I also turned him into a FLOWER which led to his being eaten by a carnivorous (and hungry) caterpillar! What have I done???
*hangs head in shame*
Please forgive me brethren of blogbelieve. Umm….I don’t suppose we could try to find the little pieces left of him and glue him back together? Nah…..didn’t work so well with the ming vase!
:D
Smitten? Where? When? Why? How? Who? Me? NO!
If you had said ‘bitten’, I may have owned up to that! ;-)
But that smitten anonymous sure does sound like a sweetheart *sigh*. Whoever he is smitten with is a very lucky lady!
FASC: I am doing much, much much better; thanks for asking. Still not 100%, but I’m getting there :)
How was the park?
Ergo: wine and cheese sounds yummy! Pass some this way please! I have the early morning munchies.
Miranth: I had freezer problems yesterday too. The darn thing broke! What a mess. YUK!
I hope your turkey is cooked by now!
An Old Friend: Happy (belated) Birthday!
For the friends we are missing AND to ponder/inspire:
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"Old friends pass away, new friends appear. It is just like the days. An old day passes, a new day arrives. The important thing is to make it meaningful: a meaningful friend -- or a meaningful day."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
May we all have a good, meaningful day!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Morning Kass!
I take it you're talking about some sort of sporting event.
I shall just smile, nod and give a little cheer for the team you wish to win!
GOOOOO KASTON'S TEAM!
RAH RAH RAH!
SHISH BOOM BAH
GOOOOO TEAM!!!!! YAH
How's that?
*big cheesy grin*
And what's wrong with RayHair? I kinda like it! RayHair is much like Slash Hair.....
not a thing wrong with that ;-)
Ta very much 616 - "Go Chelsea!", indeed. You should now expect Fimble & FASC to try and turn you to the "Red Side" but you must resist!
RayHair is fine when it's done properly or ironed to within an inch of it's life, but generally mine either goes too frizzy or it falls flat - witness the horror of the fallen 'fro in the South American TV interview.
And so I must return to the daily grind...
Kass xx
good morning mayo!! hope you have a good day!
good morning SS! so lovely to see you around yesterday. always a pleasure. have a good day too!
good morning blogbelieve family! hope everyone is ok?!!
kass i am glad to hear that man utd are below arse and liverpool on the hate list!!
oh we were discussing MCR babies!! i am with kass on the frizzy hair! don't wish that on any girl ergo!! apologies to ray but the cost of hair products for her when she's older would be extreme to say the least!!
as far as MCR kids i can picture frank, gerard and bob with boys and ray and mikey with girls. i have no idea why??!! they'll all make wonderful dads i'm sure. its special seeing dads play with their kids or read them stories. sometimes i think boys never really grow up. they still have the kid thing going on even when they hit their 30's. i like that its kind of innocent.
elena good on you for not deleting!! hugs to you!
Oh no……not only did I chase the Dalai Lama away; I also turned him into a FLOWER which led to his being eaten by a carnivorous (and hungry) caterpillar! What have I done???
*hangs head in shame*
Please forgive me brethren of blogbelieve.
wendy you are hysterical!!
hello to PP when she arrives!! and if ergo and miranth are still around hi to you too!
right guys i'm heading out. have lots to do!!
love to you all and have productive days!!
witness the horror of the fallen 'fro in the South American TV interview.
indeed kass!!
ah ladies nice loose ringlets like my daughter has would be fine, I would never wish to curse a child with frizz!
The fro needs a lot of maintenance and a little assistant hairdresser could be a wonderful asset (though probably a lot of tangles along the way)
*passes wine and cheese to wendy kass fasc*
It was very nice :]
Amy Mira sorry I didn't get back earlier, wine cheese then dinner!
Amyranth I had heard of that just not by the name it would be an awful decision but I can totally understand the reasoning behind it
Mira a friend of mine just had her son diagnosed as autistic at 4, he is resoponding well at the moment but it's a long road, They were though happy to find out what was wrong so they can start to help.
Hope the turkey is nice, we are on a little farm too, kill our own meats and grow a fair few veges and have horses and chickens.
MCR babies I could see Bob with a boy too, and a little girl would probably completely wrap Gerard about her little fingers
Mayo
interesting topics, do you have hair issues? I do mine is straight and fine, I would love some thickness and a bit of curl, but then I can work it well (well I think so)sometimes.
Hope you had a lovely day and continue to cherish the moments you have , good or bad, as learning experiences. And I wish happiness prosperity delight and enjoyment to you and yours
much love
EP xx
SS
so glad you are well and sounding very chipper! It was so lovely to hear you and you are very welcome for the thoughts and wishes. It is lovely to know there are people thinking of you all over the world. I find it such a delightful thought and am really thankful to have become part of this community.
And you are a lovely part of it too.
keep safe and well and love all those around you as they love you (or even a little more)
lotsa love
EP xx
Goodnight everyone and I'll see you all tomorrow (or later in your days!)
Mayo,
Hi, how are you today? I know you think that's just my typical opening, but I sincerely do wonder. And I can only hope that you are happy, well, warm, and surrounded by love...friends and family. Guess what? I'm sleepy. I feel so behind on my rest and it will catch up with me sooner or later. Lately, I'm forgetting to remember to take care of myself. Not mentally, but physically. Really silly, I know. Must make a better effort at that.
Do you ever do that? Become so wrapped up in everything else that you forget to take care of yourself? Sometimes I wonder if I do it on purpose. It's much easier to take care of everyone else and put myself way down the list. The truth is more that I don't forget at all. I would rather focus and worry about others than stopping and remembering myself. Seems by the time I let myself start to remember, there's no time left.
What a silly thing to do. Oh well, oh well, oh well...I must try harder. Can't help anyone if I can't help myself.
Mayo, stop and remember.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. A lot that needs fixing.
You know who you are.
He's lying just to keep you here!
March 4, 2008 2:30 PM
Thank you for your concern. Please know, I am neither gullible nor foolish.
Good Morning Mayo. May your coffee be hot and plentiful. Good luck with all you do today and remember to be good.
616 said
GOOOOO KASTON'S TEAM!
RAH RAH RAH!
SHISH BOOM BAH
GOOOOO TEAM!!!!! YAH
oh no you dint missis hehehehee. you can not say that. you have to be on the best team in the world's side. you have to be a red devil all the way. come on 616, would you want to be a red devil, the best in the world or a dirty blue, just plain dirty. serioulsy tho
MANCHESTER UNITED BABY
kass, i see what you are doing,trying to gain people on your side. it will not work. reds all the way and you even know it dressing up in that devil outfit, yep you cant take that picture back, there is proof outhere that you are a red devil ;)
good morning everybody, well its a sunny day and i have 1 hour to get ready and clean the house. looks like i am throwing everything in the cupboards. out of sight out of mind hehehehe.
have a lovely thursday and have fun what ever you do. its nearly weekend whoop whoop
xx
Goodmorning Socky, princess, Miranth, FASC, Kass, TJ, Mayo, SS, timid sweet anons, and shadowed people passing by.
Oh no……not only did I chase the Dalai Lama away; I also turned him into a FLOWER which led to his being eaten by a carnivorous (and hungry) caterpillar! What have I done???
*hangs head in shame*
Please forgive me brethren of blogbelieve.
616, you better start lighting incense sticks, candles, and BBQ flares for the size of that misdemeanour!
Goodnight Ergo. I swear one day we're going to make it here together ^_^
Oh, are we talking The Beatles today. Everyone always, justifiably, mentions Lennon and McCartney for The Beatles songwriting, but I tend to find George Harrison's input way more creative and musically interesting.
*always looking at the less showy ones*
Princess, catch and release is always the way to go with something freespirited. Good job.
*had planned on replacing little plastic monkeys with drunken Arctic Monkeys, but, shhh, don't tell*
*they might have made SS fall over anyway*
SS, *bows* My pleasure. Good to read you. You sounded so chipper you brought a smile to my face. I do hope things are going okay for you and yours.
Go make some amazing memories today
How about laugh out loud (maybe one day) memories?
Imagine lying down on the ground to get closer, and putting your pony tail into a half full paint tray. Then, deciding to finish painting the skirting boards, because you're a stubborn so and so and like seeing things finished, only to find your paint-coated hair has now dried >_<
I tried 'working it', really, but in reality I just resembled a giant correction fluid brush.
*PP sporting significantly shorter hair tonight*
MissT, thanks, that was nice ^_^
*nibbles ear and snogs back*
Mayo, sorry about the wallpaper tonight. And if the castle ever needs painting... apologies in advance, but sorry, I'm not your girl, okay?
Well, I guess I guess I must away.
Keep thinking happy thoughts or you'll keep the Karma Police busy.
'Night all.
Morning BlogBelieve!!!
One more day to Friday! YAY!
Mayo,
Wassup with you? You okay? Yes? No? Don't really know? Me either. Oh, I meant to tell you yesterday and I forgot. Shocker! The matching rings question? Uh, no. Just no. Not now. Not ever. You know mine has to be WAY, WAY fancier than yours. Sorry. I know you're the queen and all but just...no. ^_~
Yes, I'm joking. Have a good one, Mayo.
SS,
Don't you ever change, okay? Not for anyone. I know sometimes change is good and for the better and in my case, I can honestly say that I have changed in a good way. Why? Well, because of this place and because of you. Thank you for everything.
We do worry about you. We do care about you. We will always be here for you.
Faith, Hope and Love.
I haven't typed that in a while, have I? I haven't forgot it though.
HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE!!!
XOXO,
S&V20
Goodnight to some Good Morning to others.
Well another day is here. So far the sun has decided to shine. I'll take that as a positive sign. Hell, I'll take anything as a positive sign at this point.
Good wishes to all.
*runs back in*
*trips over dirty feathers and...
a fallen halo?!?!?*
*picks self up*
*waves hi...*
Don't forget to hide the dirty dishes in the oven with a teatowel in front of the glass window, FS!
*...and bye at FS*
*runs back out*
Goodmorning, BlogBelieve!
Mayo:
I hope that today is bright for you. I hope that only good things happen and that you pause to witness them.
Have a great day, and maybe we'll see you around a bit later.
See ya, Mayo!
SS:
I feel weird "giving advice" to you, because, dude? You get it. You get this life stuff. But, I do wish you a great day. I hope you're happy and all sorts of good stuff.
See you later!
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Hey guys! Not that you all care, but I'll just say it anyway.
Remember back a few weeks ago when I had a moment of clarity and inspiration and decided I wanted to do something for other people, real-life people.
I'm going to. Yesterday I decided that I would. I'm going to try and find a local chapter or something that is involved with the Save the Music Foundation. I'm going to try that out.
It's something I feel really passionate about and I think that it will help so many kids see how important it is to have a music program in their school.
So, that's what I'm going to do. :)
Have a good day, you guys! I'll see you all a bit later.
What do you want from me? What else can I give you that I haven't already sacrificed?
It has been determined that you will never give this up. It stopped being cute five months ago.
You know the end of 1984, where the main character sits on a bench with his lover and the thought police don't bother them because they know there is no real meaning behind the act, because they know they have broken them and their ability to feel completely? That's what I feel like when I visit here. Doing so out of habit, doing so out of ritual.
Anonymous said...
"What do you want from me? What else can I give you that I haven't already sacrificed?"
Approximately 4.7 litres of the red stuff would be a good start; anything to stop those fingertips of yours from typing bullshit. Mayo's OURS now bee-atch!!
Anon at 7:39, the person that message was meant for would not have answered as anon. I am surprized she didn't get it.
He's lying just to keep you here.
Hi to the cryptic Anons lurking about!
Anon @ 10.18am,
Please stop being so overdramatic. Mayo's achilles heel is his/her anonymity - if you do know who (s)he is and you're that angry post up a link. Sigh.
Sparkleflowernymph,
Ouch, but physiologically correct!
Anon @ 11.02am,
What, are our sparkling personalities not enough to keep a person here?!
I wish you all the same feeling of inner contentment that I get when I've got only 15 minutes to go.
Kass xx
Interesting tidbit for those who would like to know.
A month ago, you had 43 "regulars" posting on this blog.
For this post, to date, you have 26 "regulars" still posting.
Not a good sign Mayonaise.
hi guys!!
anyone around?
It is a good sign for people. Who like Mayo. We don't care, see. The writing is still good and so are many of the friendships. I still look forward to reading as do many of us.
And remember that there are also some new ppeople. Also that some people who. Used to post regularly are having computer issues etc.
Also it's kind of nice when it is quiet.
Hey there mayo, hope you are having a good day.
hi K. hope you are surviving work??!!
Hey guys - just stopping by for lunch.
hi jen!! long time no see!! how are you doing??
Hi FASC. Long time no read.
I'm doing alright. How are you?
Talking about MCR kids? Best Dad Ever.
OPS, it's obvious that you or your sycophants wrote the comment about Mayo not having as many regulars. Please stay at your locked blogs and talk about how you didn't insult everyone and then blame it on innocent people.
STOP TRYING TO GET MAYO TO BEG YOU TO COME BACK. It's insulting to everybody and you've done enough damage.
Thank you
Worst Dad Ever
Regarding the number of regulars:
It is a quality, not quantity issue.
Some times less is more.
jen!! i am so sorry i disappeared earlier!!
how rude of me!
i was preparing food and stuff and then my daughter logged me off and i never got back on!! so i'm very sorry bout that!! good to see you for that teeny tiny moment anyway!!
anon @ 1.08pm.
just quit will you and leave the OPs alone!
anon @ 1.06pm totally agree with you!! frankie is going to be a wonderful dad!!
anon @ 1.22pm (are you the same one) totally disagree. i think gerard will also be a brilliant dad. attentive, caring and creative with his little ones. i really do, but like i said earlier they all will cos they are all decent and caring guys.
That makes me sad that you posted that, "Worst dad ever" anon. I find it horrible that you would even make such a statement. Who are you to make such an assumption?
Some have ill feelings towards him because of his past behavior, but I'm sorry, this is ridiculous for you to suggest.
The OP Anon, please let it go and leave them alone.
FASC, I agree. :)
Hello anima and fasc how are you guys?
hello anima!! how are you??
hi martha! you ok? i'm fine thank you. did you get hold of bikey?
Fasc I am well for being a sycophants. But anyhoo yes I did get a hold of bikey.
hello all. :)
i'm back for my r.d.a. of blogbelieve. i was starting to feel faint.
You're lying just to keep her here.
Hello TJ how are you?
great martha. i just know that lewis wanted to pass on that bit of advice to him and i've not seen him around so hope he gets it.
how's the headaches?
hi TJ! you ok? is your computer fixed yet? and how is the gothic progressing????????????!!!!!!!!!
They are better. I hadn't given Lewis's advice to him yet but I will get it to him. I was just happy that I was able to speak to him that i forgot.
Anon, who is lying? Nevermind, I don't even care.
Hi FASC, Martha, and TJ! Wonderful to see you lovely ladies.
hey martha, hey faraway!
i'm okay -- my computer's still not fixed yet, but i'm working on getting the money. send me your good vibes ok?
and i started writing my chapter last night! it really does take a little longer by hand -- the thoughts don't flow as rapidly as when i'm typing. sorry. :(
i'll try to make it really good to make up for it!
anon, i don't know who you think is being lied to, but i believe this is a place where mayo can be honest with himself, and with us. i don't think he's lying to anyone.
and anyway...can't you stop with the hints and just say what you mean? you're going to short out my inner nancy drew if you don't reveal just a little something!
hey there anima! :)
TjI like writing out stories by hand better. I'm not that good at typing or writing but at least with pen and paper I feel I have more control.
But than again the computer has spell check so that is a big help.
Hiya TJ!
I'm at work, so I need to run off for a bit. GRRRR!!!
Man I just. Got the SWEETEST raise! Hey carrie remember when you said to say, "pour some sugar on me"? Heee, I said exactly that.
Man, EPIC raise. :D
Hey everyone! Hope you all are having a great day!
Kass did I miss your birthday? I'm sorry; happy birhtday! :D
Well we will be waiting for you anima
Hello Kapu
Man I just. Got the SWEETEST raise! Hey carrie remember when you said to say, "pour some sugar on me"? Heee, I said exactly that.
Man, EPIC raise. :D
Hey everyone! Hope you all are having a great day!
Kass did I miss your birthday? I'm sorry; happy birhtday! :D
see ya, anima and hello kapunua at work. :)
martha, it's kind of weird for me, because as much as i love writing by hand, when i create by keyboard i can almost get inside the story -- it's like i'm just typing up what i see in my head. that's fun.
sending good vibes TJ!
catch you later anima.
great martha thanks.
good for you K! and if it was kass's bd then i totally missed it too which makes me feel bad! what makes you think it was her bd K??
TjI am the other way I get more involved with the story If I'm writing it by hand. But than I always get to involved with the story and can't find the words to express it the way I want to.
Anon @ 3:32, give us a hint, who?
thanks faraway! :D
that's cool martha -- it's neat how everyone has a different way of creating. whatever works, whatever way makes it the most exciting -- that's the right way.
i just wish it worked for me at all.
martha, have you ever thought about writing an outline of your story, first? that way when you lose track, you'll have a skeleton of what you wanted to happen to get you back on track.
Anon, quit it. We already know that he wants to keep Kapunua here.
I've done that Tj but I also get to involved in the outline. I can see it so clearly in my head but I can't put it to words.
hmmm...i never had much luck with outlines either, to be honest. i've read about some authors making a series of post-it notes to describe their plotlines -- the size of the post-it notes help them keep to the point -- but i can see a lot of disadvantages to that system (like, electric fans...)
don't give up trying to find what works perfectly for you, martha! if you like writing, it's worth it to find the best method. :)
god sorry bout that guys. the phone rang.
and as dull as i am i have to head off now.
see you tomorrow hopefully TJ and martha and anyone else around.
bye for now mayo and SS!
love to all.
I do But I find right now I have no inspiration. I get most of my story ideas from my dreams. But I haven had any good ones lately
see you later, oh-so-very-not-dull-at-all-faraway!
Goodbye FASC see you later
my ex used to write all his dreams down -- it was amazing how once he started he seemed to remember more of them. it was like he trained himself to remember them.
i carry around a little book, and when i think of something -- a what if? or someone interesting -- i jot it down. i'm on the bus a lot, so i have plenty of time with my thoughts.
These people can't get past the confusion,
They can't overcome the delusion.
They make up this world of pretend.
Then they destroy the world we can no longer mend.
Hello Martha and TJ
I'm at work wanting seriously to throw books.
Next person comes in gets it...
I'm on the bus a lot as well. I can think out the story from story to finish. But when the time comes to write I can't get it out of my head.
As far as My dreams go I usually remember the really good ones.
Hello Elena. I would ask how you are but I can see it's not good. I wanted to throw some heavy objects at people the other day.
But did you actually do it Martha?
I'm thinking it might make me feel better.
hey there elena!
anon, i seriously hope you aren't suggesting that by being here we're destroying blogbelieve.
martha, i'm always jotting things down. i'd forget them too if i wasn't.
Elena no I didn't but the person I wanted to hurt didn't come back.
TjI think my problems Is that I visualize the story but what I need to do Is See the words instead of the picture.
oh, i get it. i usually think in words -- i tell myself stories, all the time, and had to work a long time to get skilled at visualization because i'd drift off into describing what i should have been seeing -- so that's not a problem for me.
i wonder if there's a way you can work with the visual aspect to get the story down?
elena, have you chucked anything at a customer yet?? :D
In contact, lo! the flint and steel,
By sharp and flame, the thought reveal
That he the metal, she the stone,
Had cherished secretly alone.
If you do Elena make sure it is paper back.
TJ I'm working on it. I might have to find a way to combine the two
anon, don't know what you're trying to say, sweetie.
*pats on head*
Hey TJ I keep meaning to ask you. You actually named Arabella. Did you get that from the Georgette Heyer book?
that would be cool, martha. i hope you do!
no, i didn't elena. it just popped into my head. i think i used to know an "arabella" back when i played a lot in the sca.
oh, but elena! you know that picture you sent me in email? i saw the book today when i walked into the library. totally couldn't keep the smile off my face. :)
Paperback? Oh hell no! I'm doing for a hardcover "Pride and Prejudice"
I'll be back in a bit
TJ
Think he looks like Lord Mayo?
Oh before I forget. I brought my camera to the story and took pictures. I'm gonna try to figure out how to download them and put a link so you can see my bookstore.
i kind of think he does! but...how do we know that it isn't actually...artemus on the cover? ;)
and it would so cool to see your store! (although i'm still hoping to see it in real life...*fingers crossed*)
hello
don't tell me I've caught TJ here?
Hi MJ elena kapunua anons
ergo!
*glomp*
:D
I've got my fingers crossed too. I really hope you can get here. We can cause all kinds of trouble. (good trouble of course)
heh. the best kind of trouble!
Hey Ergo
How goes it?
I always get ideas for a bit of a story or poem -often the end so then i have to write how to get there, it either happens for me or not, if it's not I just stop, I can't force it. I do like writing longhand as I'm not stuck in one spot, but as I retype it I often change it
Elena just don't hurt your wrist throwing, remember to do some warm ups first
I'm pretty excellent thanks!
TJ *glomp* so nice to see you!!
I haven't got a lot of time my girl is getting the class award at school assembly this morning
Fine Ergo I'll start with throwing paperbacks first.
Hey I gotta get. Time for shift change. I'm headed home. Talk to you all later.
oh, fooey. my time is almost up. :(
ergo, you owe me an email now, you know!
er...not to be pushy or anything.
talk to you later elena!
congrats to your daughter ergo!
Hello Ep, Elena and Tj.
Ep How are you?
I'm so sick of Kapunua being the favorite. I mean so what, she can write poetry. Big deal.
Don't get me wrong, I like Kapunua, but Mayo shouldn't have favorites.
I'm not a "regular", just someone who reads these blogs.
i have to go now, too.
hey, mayo --
hope things are bright for you these days. your posts give me that feeling, so i'll just go with it, okay?
i'm feeling a bit more upbeat myself, even though things are more uncertain than ever. i guess i just don't know when to worry. i do when i don't need to, and don't when i ought. *grin*
take care, mayo-sama
i'll be back tomorrow hopefully -- so goodbye all and hello to everyone on the later shifts!
i'm glad i could at least say hi to you ergo!
Talk to you later Elena.
TJ ttfn
I know TJ I am getting onto that this morning :]
and pushy? I'd never notice!!! lol
see you elena, I'm off too must get moving early today!!
back later
unless someone turns up it'll be pretty quiet in here!
oh hey MJ!
I wasn't sure if you were still there.
i'll have to catch up with you later. I am trying to be organised and early to school for once so I can do a couple of things before assembly starts.
so I'll be back in maybe 2 hrs.
see you then!
Later EP
I'm going with french vanilla.
I think I'll take a nap
lombard said...
I'm going with french vanilla.
I'm sure you and Mr Vanilla make a lovely couple
*walks in, twirls, blows kisses in all directions, makes way to the corner*
Hi Mayo!
Hi BlogBelieve!
How is everyone?
Lights out,
I still hear the rain,
These images that fill my head,
Now keep my fingers from making mistakes,
Tell my voice what it takes,
To speak up,
Speak up,
and keep my conscience clean when I wake.
Don't make this easy,
I want you to mean it,
Jasey; say you mean it
You're dressed to kill,
I'm calling you out; don't waste your time on me
Now there's an aching in my back;
a stabbing pain that says I lack,
the common sense and confidence,
to bring an end to promises,
that I make in times of desperate conversation,
hoping my night could be better than theirs in the end.
Just say when.
Don't make this easy,
I want you to mean it,
Jasey; say you mean it
You're dressed to kill,
I'm calling you out; don't waste your time on me
I've never told a lie,
and that makes me a liar,
I've never made a bet,
but we gamble with desire,
I've never lit a match,
with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames,
are getting out of control.
Call me a name,
Kill me with words,
Forget about me,
Its what I deserve,
I was your chance,
to get out of this town,
but I ditched the car,
and left you to,
Wait outside,
I hope the air will serve to remind you,
that my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath,
and my words are as timed as the beating in my chest.
The one thing they forgot to tell you:
There is no happy ending.
He's lying just to keep you here.
I can't handle it anymore.
Well cross my heart and hope to
I'm lying just to keep you here (I'll keep you here, I'll keep you here)
This glass house is burning down
You light the match, I'll stick around
I'll give you everything you want
And wish the worst of what I was
Okay, I'm done.
*plops down on the couch, pulls out notebook and pen, looks around almost hoping for interruption, starts writing*
Scribbles, Doodles, Words
Thoughts and incoherent phrases
Today is not the day
I will write anything that amazes
I've marked out, rewrote and erased
this poem about 10 times
I can't seem to get it going
or find any badass rhymes
WTF? I say
Why am I not inspired?
Could it be that I have nothing real to say?
Or is it that I'm just tired?
I'm feeling rather pleased
that I've made it this far down
Talking about absolutely nothing
and going round and round
If you take the time to read this
I must apologize
I've wasted minutes of your life
and straind your precious eyes.
Somewhere there's someone
breathing a huge sigh of relief
that Solly's not a published poet
that they are forced to read.
Niiiiiiiiiiiiiice!
*rips out paper, folds it into a paper airplane, writes Air Mayo on it, and sends it flying up to Mayo's door*
MAYO!
I totally spelled strained wrong and I halfassed punctuated.
Sorry....I hope that doesn't give me a bad grade.
You have to admit the airplane kicks ass, right?
Fuck yes, it does!
*skips out to the porch*
*whispers*
Hello Mustard and Sdock.
=]
ph,
Why are we whispering?
*hugz*
Sdock. *hug*
I don't know. Just thought that I would. =]
As quickly as I've come, I really must go.
xoxo;
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Hello, Goodbye PH.
See, I could do this all damn day.
Thank you for your note, PH.
I'll be suiting up for the game shortly ;)
Anonymous said...
In contact, lo! the flint and steel,
By sharp and flame, the thought reveal
That he the metal, she the stone,
Had cherished secretly alone.
Sexy. ^_^ I had to google this, and it's got an interesting story, huh? Booley Fito?
So, okay, I feel like I need to address a few awkward things and I pretty much fail at that, so here goes nothing.
Not once have I ever thought that I was Mayo's "favorite." But let's for a moment go with it. My only answer to that would be: SO WHAT? Everyone here has favorites. I've got people on here that I like and cherish more than others. That happens naturally in a group of people; you gravitate towards certain ones. Those are called "friends" believe it or not. So why would the rest of us lowlifes be allowed to have those, but Mayo is supposed to be above that? This is unfair to everyone involved. And whether you realize it or not, it puts Mayo on a pedestal.
Not only that, but if you don't mind, this way of thinking makes me feel awkward. Even though I haven't done anything, it feels like I have put our host on the spot. But why shouldn't I talk to him? I talk to everyone else. But with this sillyass mindset going around, if he does happen to answer me or whatever, there would be more cries of "OMG FAVORITISM!!!111sharpiesharpie" Do yourself a favor: Look to the right of this blog. Mayo reads pretty much everyone here when he can; he has said so. So what if he were to like someone, to feel drawn to them, to feel friendly towards them? Why are the rest of us entitled to do that, but he isn't? Quit with the idol worship. He is just some dude. We are just some chicks. We should be allowed to talk to whomever we like, whenever we like, without cries of "STOP LIKING THAT PERSON BETTER IT IS NOT FAIR!!!!" It is fair. It's the way of things. This is not a harem.
I haven't made a secret of the fact that I've developed an intellectual crush on Mayo. That's no big deal, I get crushes on lots of people, like Calaf, like Bikey (we had some great emails ^_^ ) and Sdock. :D I had a crush on PPU for godsakes about two weeks ago because he was clever. But you can only like a person as much as you know them, so let's be realistic: there is no great romantic conspiracy going on here for godsakes. It's just people talking. Just back off and let it be that.
None of which is to imply that I believe myself to be a "favorite" or anything. In fact I think some anons are coming along and saying things like this specifically to make things awkward. Why would you do that? I don't see anyone else's friendships getting sabotaged by awkwardness. In short just quit with that.
And for anyone who missed it? I got a huge raise today at work. ^____^ I felt that bore repeating. :D
Oooo yay!
More money to put towards our Adam Lazzara fund.
Oh.
You didn't know about that? No?
Yeah, we have one.
Solly, your words inspired,
as they often do,
and you know I've long admired
your writing as well as you.
When scribbling your lines,
please give yourself more credit:
your faith, it always shines,
no matter how often you edit.
With your gentle lead
this blog is always graced
and the time it takes to read,
is never, Solly, a waste.
So do yourself a favor:
give heed* to your friend K,
your wit has never wavered,
not even for a day.
I know the need to write
is something like a fever--
now see how you ignite
the fancy of the weaver!
*Heed, pervert.
'Mo Money! Sweeeeeeeeeet!
Hey Jules!
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