Sunday, March 16, 2008

Recurrency

It has been the same as far back as I can remember. Even though I spend many conscious moments attempting to force my mind to travel in this beautiful way, I am never able to recreate the flight...not in words, not in ink, not in thought. But, I have learned a day’s dream can fuel a nighttime’s tryst.

And so, it is always late at night and always when I am most hopeful that it begins. At the bottom of the stairs I stand and wait. The moment is always the same. I take a deep breath, and then with my arms outstretched, I lean forward. The lift is immediate. I glide easily up the staircase, out into to the open expanse of the room, and then out the front door.

Once outside, I rise even further and the world below me becomes smaller and I become bigger. I am always alone while I fly. I am light. Flight is effortless and I am unencumbered. I am fearless. And, as I acknowledge that wonderful feeling I become aware that I will soon wake up and it will be over. I will return to my feet with gravity’s hold on me and the notion that I can accomplish anything as long as I stand.






p.s. my pockets are lined with holes big enough to hold coins and small enough to sift dirt.

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Anonymous said...

Oooh, SNAP.

miranth said...

Wendy!

My computer is at the doctor's. I have to make do with a crappy laptop :) - but I wanted to check in ASAP. I appreciate your concern earlier :) Very sweet of you :)) *hugs

BC *hugs* I hope you feel better soon! I left you a note on your blog! Stay cozy :)

Anonymous said...

Goodnight then, Amyranth!

ergoproxy said...

goodnight amyranth!

goodnight King Lear

sweet dreams ....of giant golden men

anima said...

BC, I'm sorry you feel yucky. Take care of yourself okay.

Hi Miranth, I do not think we have ever been on at the same time. Nice to meet you. :)

Well my friends, I gotta get some sleep.

♥ to all of you.

Amyranth said...

*locks her door securely and tucks Lear into bed*

GOODNIGHT!

-A

elena said...

Night Amy

Take care.

Anon616 said...

Stay away from him Amy; HE IS MINE!!!! ;-)

Good night and sweet dreams to you and King Lear!


Elena said...
(Hide you wolf collectables)

Gotcha! Wolf colletables shall be tucked safely away.
Garbage cans shall be cemented to the ground as well! :))

ergoproxy said...

thanks anon, I did read it then but didn't know where it was from.
(though I was backreading so I had more time)

ergoproxy said...

goodnight anima
sweet dreams!

Anonymous said...

Well, I am off to bed.

Goodnight, all you nice and sweet people. Hope you have cool dreams that are exciting without being overwhelming. ^_^

Poetry Anon, thank you.

S(S)S, once again: I know you're out there being happy and doing your thaaang. If you ever come by here to lurk, know that we miss you and are glad if life is treating you well. You are quite a good dude.

Mayo, the same. Also, I really hope you just skim sometimes, because honestly. No one needs to be reading that junk. Your eyes are made for things that flow better instead. So just skim, yeah? ^_^ Sweet dreams to ya.

Anonymous said...

Goodnight and sweet dreams Amy. Ergo, yeah, and it was all because I ate a couple of pancakes. That's what made me sick and they never made me sick before :(

Miranth, Elena, Wendy, Ergo, thank you for the get-well wishes. I'll feel better by tomorrow. Don't worry, but thank you :)


Wendy, I'll be happy to spread my germs >:)

*Smothers Wendy with germ-infested kisses*

Miranth, thank you for leaving me a comment *hugs*

elena said...

Night Anima

Wendy come to Kansas and I'll give you a tour of my store.

Anonymous said...

Anima, thank you *squeeze*

Goodnight K, sweet dreams.

Anon616 said...

ergoproxy said...
quick grab a pointed stick!
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Ummm, okay Ergo!

(psst....why am I grabbing a pointed stick? Will we be roasting marshmellows tonight???)

miranth said...

Hi and goodnight anima! :)

Goodnight amy and kapunua.

Anonymous said...

Oh, before I go (I hate when I do this,) this is crazy: TWENTY TWO THOUSAND DOLLAR CATS.

Honestly, just come down and take a kitten from the hospital. They are lovely and lonely and free. Jaysus.

Anonymous said...

Now you think you can tell Mayo what comments to not read? You want him to skim the bad ones about you now. Laughable. For once I would like to see him put you in your place. Oh wait I saw that already.

Get over it. He is not your precious "poetry anon" and most people have to admit he can probably not even stand you. You have to stop putting him on the spot, then you'll see this too

ergoproxy said...

wendy the anon said kapunua was in hostile territory, we should be armed
<_<
>_>

goodnight kapunua, take a pointed stick in case

Anon616 said...

Elena said...
Night Anima

Wendy come to Kansas and I'll give you a tour of my store.
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Hot Dang! Now I know where I want vacation this summer!

I must meet my future son-in-law, Jake, too :D

*hugs for you too Miranth*
Sorry to hear about your technical difficulties :/

Anon616 said...

ergoproxy said...
wendy the anon said kapunua was in hostile territory, we should be armed
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Oh! Darn, I was in the mood for roasting marshmellows!

Oh well, maybe we can do that tomorrow night :)

ergoproxy said...

*chucks bag of marshmallows to wendy*

here I have some in the cupboard, sure Mayo won't mind a little fire, maybe elena could light one, she says she's good at it!

Anonymous said...

I wish I would have a real tragic love affair and get so bummed out that I'd just quit my job and become a bum for a few years, because I was thinking about doing that anyway. ....TA VMPR Sorry did I say that out loud!

Anonymous said...

I have never seen anyone get attacked so massively and with such disgusting personal attacks as Kapunua has. You might find her annoying but she has done nothing to deserve the disgusting things people here say to her. You should all be ashamed of yourselves you fucking pigs. And I hope Mayo DOES see how you behave.

Anon616 said...

*catches bag of marshmellows*

Thanks Ergo!

Triston, is that you?

Rasputins Revenge said...

Good morning ladies and Gentlemen
Just thought I would break up some of this anon bickering here!!

Anon616 said...

Darn it, I keep misspelling MARSHMALLOWS!

Anonymous said...

Triston, is that you? Hello there

ergoproxy said...

triston?

hi if it's you

Anonymous said...

If you are asking if I am Triston I am not. I'm a well known lurker and sometimes commenter and even I get annoyed by K sometimes because she's obviously got a big mouth and a lot to say. But the attacks on her are ridiculous and worse than what anyone here has ever gotten. They are made by a bunch of juvenile pigs. The people saying those things should be ashamed. I said so here and on her blog too where they also have gathered. I've never witnessed anything like it. It's truly vile.

Rasputins Revenge said...

Hello, well I like to think the humorous one is mine.

ergoproxy said...

hello triston how are you today?

Rasputins Revenge said...

It is I...but everytime I've been here to play there have been some serious conversations going on...I have my own dark writings for that. I pwould rather keep it light when I am out and about.

Anon616 said...

What a gentleman you are, Triston.
Thank you!

I do believe all should heed your advice regarding The Dungeon.

Don't worry about me, though.
I never pass out! ;-)

How are you on this windy night?

Anonymous said...

Triston, how is your evening?

Anonymous said...

Annoying? She is an out and out bitch. Everyone knows it.


"And I hope Mayo DOES see how you behave."

I do too!!! Because you know he agrees even if he doesn't say it. And even if he doesn't what is he going to do send me to my room? What kind of a threat is that??

Rasputins Revenge said...

I awake, and am just great.

Anonymous said...

We have our own resident vampire in the house. Cool ^_^

Anon616 said...

Did you just awake, Triston?

The midnight hour is approaching.

Rasputins Revenge said...

It is very windy isn't it....Things blowing around outside I like it. Makes it easier to take flight....I may bounce off a few thing though before I clear the houses.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
I have never seen anyone get attacked so massively and with such disgusting personal attacks as Kapunua has


Do you remember what happened to the OP's? It still happens.

Anonymous said...

You are seriously fucked up.

And I think you know exactly what I meant about the hostile territory.

Anonymous said...

Anon, yeah, it still does.

Rasputins Revenge said...

Yes it is ahh..I have a few hours left to write think and feed. Its great to sleep in.

Anonymous said...

Do you remember what happened to the OP's? It still happens.



That was baby shit compared to talk like this. And she is a constant target. This is fucked up stalkery shit. I have never seen anything like it.

Anonymous said...

And I think you know exactly what I meant about the hostile territory.



Why don't you just come out and say it? Go ahead, say it, you know you want to. Start something. Just say it.

Anonymous said...

Triston, yes it is. Great to sleep in. Where did everyone go?

Anon616 said...

Bleeding Chaos said...
We have our own resident vampire in the house. Cool ^_^
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Yes we do, BC!

He seems to be quite the charmer too!

Watch out for those FEMA trailers, Triston. Some of those might be flying at you in the wind.

Why don't you settle down with us for awhile? You can tell us one of your dark stories while we roast marshmallows (provided by Ergo).

I have a lovely Cabernet I can open.....
Plenty of glasses to go around.

I trust you brought you own...ummm....beverage ???
:)

Rasputins Revenge said...

Hello Ergo proxy and Bleeding Chaos....very nice to see you again.And You as well anon616.

Anonymous said...

I'm done. You are some evil fuckers. Yes you

And you should stop trying to drag Mayo into it. You should leave everyone alone.

Anonymous said...

Marshmellows. Yummy.

ergoproxy said...

be careful when you take off then wouldn't want you hurt!

Rasputins Revenge said...

But what is wrong with stalking anon...my entire existence is based on it. If you don't make calls You won't get any sales...if you will.

Anonymous said...

It's nice to see you here again Triston. Anon 12:38

I agree. But hell, if you haven't been here long enough, I suggest you need to develop a tough shell. Shit flies constantly here on a daily basis :/

Anonymous said...

Which one of you was the one who asked Kapu if her dog even died after Mayo put up a picture without even being asked (to prove how much he hates her). She had a name for you but I forgot what it was. Anyway is this you stalking her and saying this about her?

miranth said...

Hi Triston!

It's good to see you. I hope you're not out for blood this evening as the anons are... though I think I'd prefer your way of obtaining it :)

Anonymous said...

But what is wrong with stalking anon...my entire existence is based on it. If you don't make calls You won't get any sales...if you will.



Oh I guess you missed when sick fucks were putting up Kapu's personals sites and saying the most disgusting things they could think of to say about her. Unless you think that is funny too. And people get pissed at her when she is weary around new people.

Anonymous said...

When did Mayo put up a picture of Kapu? Never, you liar.... or maybe your just stupid.

Anon616 said...

Triston Anatole said...
But what is wrong with stalking anon...my entire existence is based on it. If you don't make calls You won't get any sales...if you will.
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And he has a sense of humor too!
BC, Ergo: I think we have hit the charming vampyre jackpot.

Miranth: Where did you go? You should have marshmallows with us!

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry, I keep reading triston anasshole and I am giggling.

Anonymous said...

Hi miranth *hugs*

ergoproxy said...

ah alas wendy BC triston I must be off for my next night of tutoring!
Hope you're about again when I'm less busy, hopefully I may have a bit of time to get something done tomorrow!!

have fun and save a bit in the bottle for me Wendy and I'll have it while I wind down later

love to you all

Method Actress said...

Spooky.

Anonymous said...

triston, you a girl?

Rasputins Revenge said...

For I am the lucky,for I have the gift of ignorance to this entire drama. I start at square one...a clean sheet. Isn't it nice.

Anonymous said...

Triston, your comment made me laugh ^_^

Wendy, I agree! Hey, can I have some marshmallows?

miranth said...

Wendy -

I keep meaning to read back over pages and pages of comments, but I think I'd rather have marshmallows with you :)

Anonymous said...

Bye Ergo ♥

Rasputins Revenge said...

And yes I do have my own beverage. I'm into those peach wine coolers now...they go down like a soft drink, but the end result still feels the same.

ergoproxy said...

oops and miranth!

triston anasshole? lol that made me giggle too

and a charming vampyre certainly is better than a crass one don't you think?

Anon616 said...

Miranth said...
Hi Triston!

It's good to see you. I hope you're not out for blood this evening as the anons are... though I think I'd prefer your way of obtaining it :)
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I think I prefer his way as well Miranth!

You have just been insulted by an anon, Triston. Congratulations, you're officially one of us now...
there is no escape!

You can try to leave, but you will keep returning to the fold....

Anonymous said...

Then maybe you should think a little before making jokes.

And anon don't be an ass. I didn't say he put up a picture of HER you stupid fuck. If you don't know then I'm not even going to tell you.

Rasputins Revenge said...

Ergoproxy. I wish you a wonderful night and I love all the kind word you leave me...Thank You.

Anonymous said...

LMAO, picture of her.

The DOG, dipshit.

Anonymous said...

You have just been insulted by an anon, Triston.


Insulted? Why am I not surprised that you are starting trouble. It is not an insult. I was pointing it out. If you don't want to get involved and you dont' know what you're talking about then don't bother or you will look stupid. That is not an insult that is advice.

Anonymous said...

and a charming vampyre certainly is better than a crass one don't you think?

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Ha ha, definitely. I think I am smitten already ^_^

Lol

Anonymous said...

It SOUNDED like they were saying he put up a picture of her. It's not my fault if they can't write well.

Anon616 said...

Good night Ergo! It was great FINALLY being able to say more than HI and BYE to you!

So, it's marshmallows all around!
*tosses marshmallows to Miranth and BC*

How about you, Triston?

Do you have time to grab a bite ??

Anonymous said...

Hey anons, are you guys talking trash about K because she locked you out of her blog?

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the marshmallows sugarplum :)

Anon616 said...

Anonymous: the ONLY one starting trouble here IS YOU!

Triston is new here. We met him last week and requested he return.
We are enjoying a converstion with a new friend.

Perhaps you should let go of your anger and hatred and spend a nice evening chatting with your friends.

Rasputins Revenge said...

No anon I am not a girl...but it would appear you are having your period...hmmmm Pardon my bloodlust.

Anonymous said...

Locked out of her blog? What are you talking about you moron? No one is locked out of her blog. We are talking about her because she is what she is which is a huge bitch to everyone. And because she post poetry to herself and pretends it's someone else, probably Mayo. And because we KNOW he doesn't like her like most people here even if they don't talk about it much. Because SHE should have been the one to leave. Alot of reasons. But mostly because she is a huge bitch.

miranth said...

Grab a bite! Wendy you make me *giggle :)

Bye ergo!! Pleasant dreams :)

Rasputins Revenge said...

I am a fun loving vampire.

Anonymous said...

Hey Triston, since you're into the whole vampire thing hard core, do you know whatever happened to the guy from Mad Mad House? I liked him, even though I can't remember his name.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous: the ONLY one starting trouble here IS YOU!

Triston is new here. We met him last week and requested he return.
We are enjoying a converstion with a new friend.

Perhaps you should let go of your anger and hatred and spend a nice evening chatting with your friends.




I see you are enjoying these anons who are talking fucked up shit about K and you are putting down people who are telling them how fucked up they are. That is what I call making trouble. You are so obvious. And if Triston doesn't want to get involved then he should leave the conversation alone. Saying "what is wrong with stalking" after what just happened is plain stupid unless he means that it was OK. But of course you won't admit that because you are enjoying this.

Anonymous said...

Freeeaaak. Fucking freak.

Anonymous said...

I was only asking out of curiosity anon. Wendy, ignore that anon.

.but it would appear you are having your period...hmmmm Pardon my bloodlust.

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I'm not sure whether to laugh or go O_O

Anon616 said...

Miranth said...
Grab a bite! Wendy you make me *giggle :)
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*innocently bats eyelashes*

Rasputins Revenge said...

There is always time for a bite or two or three.

miranth said...

BC - I laughed! I am not ashamed to admit it :)

Anonymous said...

Triston, are you really that hungry? ;)

Anonymous said...

Don, his name was Don. Damn, I loved that show. Gotta love a vampire named Don.

Anonymous said...

Miranth, that was funny, but if I had a drink, I would have spat it out just by reading that comment ^_^

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...

Freeeaaak. Fucking freak.


Holy shit I agree. That was fucked up.

Rasputins Revenge said...

We must all learn to love the humor in this..There is so much to loose fighting. It is not worth it. What ever is eating everyone,pardon again.maybe should be let to pass and everyone can start having fun again. Maybe a deal could be struck.

Anon616 said...

anon @ 12:55

It would appear you have missed what Triston is. HE IS VAMPYRE!

VAMPYRE's stalk their prey.
Get it?

He is not talking about anyone here. I am not talking about anyone here. The only one talking and trying to start trouble is you.....

Move along, little girl with the bait. Triston might decide to eat you!

Anonymous said...

Mayo, here's a recap of what happened on your blog in the last hour.

A bunch of anons posted Kapu's personal dating site. They called her names. Some of us defended her. Some others did nothing and seemed to not mind. Some people said you hated her.

People pretended to roast marshmallows while this was going on and then Triston said he was a vampire and wants to eat BC's period.

There you go Mayo there is a recap for you.

miranth said...

Wendy - you did that on purpose - naughty* :)

BC - I don't think its safe to ask Triston if he's hungry ;) I am thankful I didn't have a beverage as well!

Anonymous said...

Oh damn, they don't like to make deals around here, you missed the memo.

Anonymous said...

We must all learn to love the humor in this..


You see humor in the way people are treated here? With people posting private sites and taking swipes at girls with the most fucked up things they can say. Yeh haha, funny.

anima said...
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Anonymous said...

which is why she is a girl.

Anonymous said...

Sorry Mayo did you miss that. Triston is going to eat BCs period.

But I just hope no one posts any poetry.

Anonymous said...

And good Lord, all I can hear is Anderew from Buffy saying Vampyre.

Anon616 said...

Triston Anatole said...
We must all learn to love the humor in this..There is so much to loose fighting. It is not worth it. What ever is eating everyone,pardon again.maybe should be let to pass and everyone can start having fun again.
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Very good advice, again!

Unfortunately, some nameless ones are just so full of negative emotions/energy. They just won't let it go. They can't get past anything. They just love to stir the pot until it boils over....

I shall now go back to ignoring that one.

Who wants another glass of wine?
Another marshmallow, perhaps?

miranth said...

Anon

I do my best to ignore anons at this point. I got very angry the other night and I realized it's not worth it... so *continues roasting marshmallows* Would you like one? They're delicious!!

Anonymous said...

LOL I know. The trendy way to spell it. Does she say it like that too?

Rasputins Revenge said...

Goodness...I have said all of this. Sounds somewhat....kinky. I should have to hide this in one of my dark literary works.

Anonymous said...

Oh no, I see someone being treated beautifully, anon.

Anonymous said...

Unfortunately, some nameless ones are just so full of negative emotions/energy. They just won't let it go. They can't get past anything. They just love to stir the pot until it boils over....



Yes god forbid I defend someone who is getting trashed! Oh but I forgot, if it is someone you hate getting trashed it's OK to let it go on and we should keep our mouth shut. Otherwise it is starting trouble.

Rasputins Revenge said...

ANON go read my work, it is not all fiction..and one day the things you have done and said will all come crashing back to you. Its not at all worth it.

Anonymous said...

Sorry Mayo did you miss that. Triston is going to eat BCs period.

Anon, Triston was not talking to me. He was talking to one of the other anons.

O_o

Rasputins Revenge said...

I have not seen anyone here being trashed. I was always taught not to play with my food.

Anon616 said...

Triston: when you decide to take flight tonight, please look for Elena. It seems we lost her!

miranth said...

*Wishes upon asterisks* for anon comments to be disabled... and some more asterisks for good measure****

Please Mayo!?!

I have colored marshmallows for any who want them!!!

Anon616 said...

Bleeding Chaos said...
Sorry Mayo did you miss that. Triston is going to eat BCs period.

Anon, Triston was not talking to me. He was talking to one of the other anons.

O_o
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BC, sweetcheeks, like you said; don't let them bother you.

Anon616 said...

Miranth: I have a pointy stick he can use for roasting those colored marshmallows!

And, don't forget, I have wine!

Anon616 said...

Triston Anatole said...
I have not seen anyone here being trashed. I was always taught not to play with my food.
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And do always do as you were told, Triston?

miranth said...

Thank you for the wine, Wendy, I think I have some cheese.... it looks like Brie is all we have left and wheat crackers mmmmm - Have some!

miranth said...

Well, Triston, if you don't play with your food, I know we're safe! :)

Anonymous said...

Wendy, don't worry, but that comment made my eyes do this: O_O

^_^

Anon616 said...

Thank you Miranth!

I think I'll pass on the Brie cheese, but the crackers look yummy!

Want some cheese and crackers, BC?

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ELENAaaaaaaaaa!!!!

*sorry for shouting*

miranth said...

Elena!!! *calls*

Wendy - You ARE ever so naughty! I am very impressed!

BC - feeling any better? *hoping*

Anon616 said...

Triston, Miranth:

There is a new Mayo post and that is where everyone seems to be now.

Shall we take our party into that room???

Anonymous said...

=_>="

Anonymous said...

Damn guess aska & chage got spam foldered(?)

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