Walking by your side
My head down, shoulders rounded, heavy
It occurred to me that I should stop,
Check the time, and commit
An endless unraveling of pulled wool thread
Weaved into promises of expository resemblance.
The comparisons are never ending and seldom unfit.
“You wear it for a while.”
I will begin again tomorrow with the same start, at the same seat
With the same saucer, spoon,
And without sacrifice
“I will wear it.”
Then again, I could be
Somewhere else completely.
p.s. it is more than an itch, it is a rhythm, a pattern that forms in my head, then through my fingers…tap, tap, tap. Did you hear it? There is no mistaking the origin, is there?
He is aware of the seepage
Bleeding under the bandage
Yet he can’t quite fight the flow
And who the hell will know
About broken bones
And your superimposed overtones
They will all inspect the damage
Because the charts report more to me
Than you will ever see
But oh, how well you see
(Who rearranged the furniture?)
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a melcryptovestimentaphile (mel-crypt-o-vestement-a-file) is a person, male or famale with an attraction to female black underwear (the looking at or wearing of )
as in
"I wonder if Mayo is a melcryptovestimentaphile? Perhaps we should all wear black underwear"
Good night, RW. Sweet Dreams!
CTV, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hope you have had a good one today!
Kapunua, J. and I both posted some stuff on the anti-valentines day post.
Loli! Cupcake! Good to see you and MISS T. on the blog. Missed you guys!
Hey to GS, Ergo, BC, Star, SDock, Mustard and anyone else I missed.
Love,
L.
Take care, Cupcake!
Oh and hi and bye lovely L!
*huggles*
And Good Night to Cupcake, too!
Love,
L.
Hi K!!!!!!!
Hi star!!!!!!!
how are you guys?
bye cupcake eat up!
hello L how are you and J today?
Hi Ops.
Bye Cupcake.
Ergo - oh, that's the best one yet!!!
That's a good one! All I hav are variations of black underwear, but I reaaaaaalllllly want these swell frilly white ones with bows from Baby The Stars Shine Bright.
And ohhhh golly. I'm not afraid to speak underwear speak. If I could live in frilly undies, I WOULD.
To the anon who spoke to me that day in December, who knew what my question was and answered it, and who said, "Another time, Kapunua," I have left you a gift. Whether or not you were playing Calaf that day I was seeing "Pretty," (I think that was you?) or if you are More Of This Anon, either way, I have left you an anti-valentine.
ALL GIFTS FOR EVERYONE (THIS INCLUDES YOU, SS, WHEN YOU COME BY AGAIN,) are in the comments for viewing and saving.
Spooky Anon, if you ever still lurk, please come around again and check out your gift, okay? It's way at the bottom of the comments, number 41 or so.
Hey there OPL. How is your evening? Take care Cupcake.
GODDDDDDDDDDDDANNNNNNNGGGNABBIT
My 'e' isn't working properly.
Thank you, Cupcake! Hi MissT, hi everyone!
I agree, those damn crunchies should be on everything*.
*Jared Leto
Hi L sweetie,
how are you?
Goodnight CC sweetie.
Good, Ergo! I am feeling much better, not snorting and snoting and sneezing my head off now.
Sounds so good, doesn't it? :)
I filed my income tax today, and I get a refund, so that was good, an then I went to the mall and found some great t-shirts, nail polish, patches and shoelaces at Hot Topic.
The t-shirts are white with skeleton pirates hoisting a tattered skull and crossbone flag. The design is toward the bottom, so it kinda wraps around the bottom to the upper left side. I got myself and J. one.
The nail polish is what I call "Dead Head Red" because it is the color of blood. Sounds bad, but it's really pretty on. I will sometimes wear it with a streak of black polish in the middle of the nail.
The patches are for my plain black hoodie, and I got a Misfits patch and a skeleton badge patch, one to put on each arm.
J. did the Wal-Mart trip, so I think I got the better end of the deal!
L.
Doing well, BC, Miss T.
Miss T. honey, are you feeling better? Really better?
Love,
L.
Oh man...Star, if you're still here, YOU READ MY MIND.
Cemetery Gates is an AMAZING song.
I used to call it my theme song :)
Oh I found Mayo he is a autothaumaturgist (auto-tho-mat-ur-gist)
a coy or cagey person whose mission is to appear mysterious and quite remarkable, they are likely to be considered "fascinating" and work hard at it
OP L, my standard answer for the morning is "fuck off, I'm trying to sleep here."
Seriously, I don't like anyone disturbing my nap. It's the most dangerous thing they could ever do. I get pissy easily when that happens.
Oh, and one more thing. I got The Black Parade on vinyl. Woo-Hoo.
L.
I am feeling better L, I am surrounded by all you lovely people and I feel so lucky for that.
That definition fits him to a tee, Ergo ^_^
Aww Miss T :)
BC, I'm not much of a morning person, and J. is DEFINITLY not. She will maim you if you try to wake her from a sound sleep.
My brother used to come in my room when we both visited my Mum and Dad on the same weekends and wake me up at 7 or so by JUMPING UP AND DOWN ON THE BED. He has always been one of these freaks who gets up at 5 or 6 in the morning, EVEN WHEN HE DOESN't HAVE TO. I have knocked him into the floor a few times. :)
L.
Ergo - I NEEEEED that book.
Okay ladies, I am finished for the night. It is 2 minutes to 3. Bed awaits.
Good night all.
Good night Mayo.
Loli,
I think Six asked earlier why no one left "Love Stinks" on the anti-valentines blog. Check out my link for SS. It goes to a YouTube link for the version from 'The Wedding Singer'. ^_~
L.
Awwww teehee! How swell, L!
I think I'm gonna rewrite Edward Gorey's Gashlycrumb Tinies for BlogBelieve as a Valentine's gift.
Good Night, GS. Sleep well!
I'm glad you are feeling better, Miss T. Please don't doubt your place here with the rest of the Family. Besides, don't you know? Once you're in the Family, you don't LEAVE the Family. You might get to the bus stop, but a bunch of your Sisters will be there to pull you right back into the Castle.
And don't you forget it! ^_~
L.
Goodnight and sweet dreams GS. L, anyone who manages to wake up by 4,5, or six in the morning are what I consider to be freaks. That is NOT normal! ;p
My temper will flare a bit if someone disturbs me from a wonderful dream. I hate it when that happens.
GS
Workman Publishing, New York
1986
ISBN 0-89480-155-4
David Grambs
Dimboxes Epopts and other Quidams
Thank you L sweetie.
Goodnight GS, sweet dreams.
Fuckity fuck fuck fuck !!!
There is another thunderstorm and it's 1 pm!
It doesn't look bad but if I disappear that shall be why !
I hate early risers with a passion!!!
I got my daughter a clock and told her that when the alarm goes is the time to get up - 7am and NOT before!
(I bribed her with stickers)
One day, I wanna dance naked in a thunderstorm.
Can't get much more in touch with nature than that!
You are not having much luck with the weather Ergo.
The urge is back again. To cut. To slice. To release it all. To breathe in deeply. Hold it. Hold it. Hold it.
Exhale.
And the beast is silent once more.
And it will remain hidden. Except to those who look.
Sheesh, Ergo. Have you got the ark finished yet? You guys are having the worst luck with thunderstorms.
L.
HAY MAYONAISE!
Wow, really early post for you, too bad you didn't stick around... even though I showed up a day and a half late. :p
-A
What if you can't stop looking?
Anon:
Please don't do that.
anon, you are talking about making a loaf of bread because i can tell you i love the smell of freshly baked bread, i love to hold the breath and smell of it in. i love to slice it and cut it.
hey guys
Anon,
It's never hidden.
You know it's there.
Please talk to someone who may can help you. You may bleed to know you are alive, but one mistake can change all of that.
L.
Hi Amy, how are you?
Hello, Fimble. How are you doing?
L.
Here we are, guys, the final chapter of the Wordslingers and the Phallic Tower story.
Mayo, I'm just teasing you in this chapter. Hope you don't mind. You seem to have a lively sense of humor. ^_~
'The lines I wear around my wrists are there to prove that I exist'.
The only way to help it is to want help.
hey L, i am grand thanks. just going to read the story. how are you. i hope you are much better
Loli, I *heart* the Gashlycrumb Tinies. ^_^ Awesomesauce.
Anon: Please stop before you start. The fact that you posted here means that maybe you want to stop doing that. So stop before you start, and call someone you actually know in real life. Ask for help. All we can do is give you words here.
The Mayo Gothic continues
The Direful Secret of Castle Mayo
by
Elena and Toujours
chapter 17
he knows you are here.
- a shudder of sourceless dread ran through her. who had mayo meant? had he meant perhaps...his captor? –
Once again the castle was peaceful. Many of the Lovelies left to return to their homes when the calm returned following the attack. Those who remained retired to their rooms. Arabella too took her leave but was finding sleep impossible. The events of the day had taken their toll. She could not help but replay in her mind what had happened in Lord Mayo’s chamber. His voice still rang in her ears, his words etched in her memory. It was hours before she finally fell into a fitful sleep.
The next morning Arabella awoke to find many of her sisters in the castle still talking about the previous night’s attack. When she entered the great hall she noticed many conversations fell silent.
“Arabella” Lucy greeted her warmly. “Did you find a good nights rest?”
She could not lie to her sisters. “I did not. There is much I have to tell you all about Lord Mayo.”
Immediately the woman all gathered around. They found comfortable seating and waited patiently for Arabella to speak. Well, most waited patiently. Kaupunua, a woman of action, spoke.
“Tell us, were you speaking with Lord Mayo when the attack began?”
Arabella nodded, “Yes, I had returned to the cellar and as I had expected the passageway was open.”
“You expected it to be open?” Anima asked.
Arabella sat in a chair in the center of the group. “I could not sleep and thought to go for food. Instead I felt drawn to the cellar.”
“What force ties you to this place?” Magic Pie asked, clearly intrigued.
“I do not believe I am tied to this castle yet I feel in some way part of my being belongs here.” It was hard to put into words the emotions that filled her mind.
“We all feel in some way that we belong here.” CTV said looking around the room at the familiar faces of her sisters.
“Very true.” Mustard agreed, “Yet Arabella must have a deeper tie to this place. She alone seems to be able to control the magical forces in play.”
“I do not know if I control them or they control me.” Arabella said. “But I do feel their pull. I knew the passageway would be open once I stepped into the cellar.”
“So you entered and spoke to Lord Mayo from the cabinet again?” Martha asked.
“I entered Lord Mayo’s chamber.”
There was a collective gasp then all of the women began speaking at once. Arabella waited until they quieted.
“You entered his private chamber?” Soulconnector asked shaking her head.
“He asked me to enter.” Arabella admitted.
Once again she had to pause waiting for the sisters to quiet. When they did not she spoke up.
“Please let me tell you what was said.” Arabella spoke in a loud voice. “When I first spoke to him it was from inside the cabinet as before. He asked me why we had all come to this place.”
Many answers to that question were voiced by the Lovelies. Some had received beautiful invitations that requested their presence, others had heard from those who had received the invitations. Arabella spoke again.
“I believe by asking Lord Mayo was attempting to come to the question he most wanted answered. Why we stayed.”
The Lovelies looked at each other all forming different answers in their minds.
“It was tempting to leave.” Pixie spoke first. “His words were rather unkind.”
“His words were vile.” Sister Midnite said in a no nonsense tone.
“He did not seem to want us here.” Paperheart agreed softly.
I remember when he said, “Perhaps I will even treat you to some creative clashes with absurdity since you consider seeking credibility unworthy of your expense.” Sdock said repeating the lines from heart.
“He did not seem to want us here. Yet some how it seemed he did.” Ergo nodded trying to put into words her thoughts on the matter.
“I’ve always felt he wanted us here. The unkind words did not ring true.” Kapunua stated.
“Arabella, what else did he say?” OPL questioned.
“Did he say anything about his bedside drawer?” OPJ broke into the conversation.
OPL glared at her, “Would you stop being so fixated on that damn drawer. You only wish to learn of Lord Mayo’s undergarments.”
“Ladies” Possum stood between them. Let us listen to Arabella and worry about Lord Mayo’s clothing later.” She looked over at Arabella. “Please continue.”
“I was prepared to take my leave of him because he had grown silent but he questioned me further. He asked me to enter his room.”
“Like a royal invitation?” Amy rolled her eyes. “It’s just a room.”
“It’s his private chamber.” Bella said looking at Amy in disbelief.
“I do not think just any could enter.” Arabella said trying to explain the importance of her actions. “When I pushed open the door and stood inside the room he seemed surprised and pleased.”
“I would be pleased.” OPJ smiled.
OPL once more shot her a silencing glare.
“Please explain.” Carrie said to Arabella.
Arabella took a deep breath, “He said “Tis true you can enter this tower, my prison.”
The room exploded in unanswered questions. Lord Mayo was a prisoner in his own castle? How could this be?
“But we see his silhouette when he speaks to us.” Kass said.
“I spent the night reflecting on his words.” Arabella said “We see his silhouette and hear his words but none have actually seen Lord Mayo in the flesh.”
“You have.” Andibomb said in wonder.
“Blood ties.” Ergo whispered.
“Perhaps.” Arabella said. “Perhaps. I do not yet understand.”
“So if Lord Mayo is imprisoned in the tower who is his captor?” Star asked.
“And why do they speak of seeing Lord Mayo in the village? I have heard the whispers. They say at night he roams the countryside.” BC whispered.
Mya scoffed, “Yes, they say he roams the countryside in search of blood. We have all heard the ridiculous tales. The superstitious villagers and their vampire stores.”
Paperheart seemed deep in thought, “But what if it is an evil force masquerading as Lord Mayo? If he truly is a prisoner here it is possible.”
“Well how do we help him?” sdock asked, “There must be something we can do? Lord Mayo has given so much to us. We must help him.”
Arabella nodded, “I do understand now that our presence not only gives him peace I believe it to give him strength. He has said he needs us now more than ever.”
“Of course we shall stay.” Anonymeese said with conviction. “But we must do more. We must find a way to free him.”
“I believe we should begin by researching the castle history.” Toujours said speaking up to be heard. “The library seems the logical starting point.”
“Agreed” PJ said. “I just hope the books are not all written in Latin.”
The woman all agreed on that point.
“Look” MissT shouted. All eyes turned to the corner of the room she was viewing.
“Ghost” GS whispered.
“Find a way.” The voice floated to their ears. “Help him from the darkness that consumes his soul.”
By the way, everyone, I am going out of town for a few days tomorrow, probably until Sunday. Nothings wrong, thankfully, just spending a little time with my family back home.
J. will be here, in control of Punk Central, so if the wires fry an the buttons blow off the console, to quote Han Solo:
"It's not my fault!"
Hope you all have a wonderful either Valentine's Day or Singles Awareness Day. I myself will be in all black, slapping roses out of the hands of the more obnoxious flower-getters.
(Not really, but you know...)
I am going to go for now as well, J. wants to write some e-mails and I have to catch up on a few things before I pack.
Love to all my sweet Family, and Good Night!
Love ya,
L.
Hey Amy, Fimble. How are you guys? OP L, I just responded to the email you guys sent.
Couldn't leave without commenting on the story, Elena. Wonderful as always! I know J. will love her lines. :)
Good night, love.
L.
Goodnight and sweet dreams OP L.
Oh elena! great!!
I was knocked off for a bit then and I got back to find a new chapter from both! I'm off to read Kapunua's now
Thank you BC.
Elena, we sent you one too.
L.
Have a great trip L stay safe and enjoy
Mayo,
I am not sure what this post is about, but that's pretty much the norm around here, isn't it?
I only know that you seem to feel trapped in a situation, and have resigned yourself to it.
It doesn't have to be that way, no matter what you think is at stake. Many times I have thrown caution to the wind and took a chance on something I felt strongly about.
Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't, but so far, I haven't regretted it. If it is something really important, it is always worth the risk.
Be yourself. Don't think that yourself is not good enough, because it is. Believe in yourself.
I know it is not much advice, but it's all I have to give, and I give it with love.
Please take care of yourself, Sweetheart.
Stay on the Ride.
Love you dearly,
L.
Hi fimmy babes.
L, I hope you have a great time sweetie.
Tj and Elena, that was great. I'm enjoying the story so much.
K, your story is great. Those pics are amazing too. Sad to see that it is the last chapter though.
take care L stay safe.
jules, bravo bloody fimtastic.
elena and tj, well done on your story. loving it.
bc, i am good thank you for asking. i hope you are well
Mayo,
How are you? Fine? Yeah, me too. No, really it's true. I am. I've been worse. I've been better. So yeah, I'm fine.
Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Are you bleeding pink and red and chocolates and teddy bears and roses and balloons and candy and cards and hearts and shit? You should be. You should do your best to throw some hugs and love and surprises on all the special people in your life tomorrow. You know who they are. Tell them. And then, show them. And then, tell them again. And show them, AGAIN.
So...um...your post. Scratch the surface? I start scratching and can't stop. I dig at it and I study it and I pick at it until I'm bored or satisfied. Then I start again, scratching, digging, picking, searching. Better be prepared to deal with the shit you find beneath the surface. If you keep looking for something hard enough, you'll eventually find it. And it just might not be what you were hoping for, right? On the other hand, if you don't dig deep enough, you might miss finding something or someone you really need. I'll keep riding this one out with you. Fuck knows what we're going to get into next.
Other than that, I'm pretty lost at what to say tonight. I start to type something to you and it fucking doesn't feel right so delete. Poof, it's gone. And I read again and I think of something else, but that also seems wrong. Hell, you don't need me to dissect it for you. You know what you were trying to say when you wrote it and let's just say...tonight, I think I get it.
Mayo, I hope your day tomorrow is wrapped in love, smiles, hugs, kisses, and everything special.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Yeah, I think I do.
Brilliant Kapunua !!!
*walks in and shakes tushy*
Well hello one and all, is there any lovely jars or mayonnaise in here tonight?
*walks around mayo's like a super mayo model*
bye sdock, have a good night.
Hello Fimble good to hear you are grand!!
*click*
*click*
*flash pop*
iye ergo, totally grand ;)
Snap
Crackle
Pop
Guys, my fifteen year old goddaughter is a writer. She writes for fun, for joy, for the hell of it, and she rules at it so hard that she blows adult writers out of the water. She does it with such ease that I envy it.
Does anyone mind if I post one of her short stories here?
Hello rice crispies, jar of mayonette, papa
SS,
Hope you are doing well, and staying out of trouble! Some of the Family were talking tonight about how we all say "I'm fine" when someone asks how we are, either out of habit or not wanting to bother others with our troubles.
I hope you know that it's ok to say "No, I am not fine" if you are not somedays. We all have those days, and days we need each other on here. There are so many wonderful people who pull together when it is needed, who help the weak, sick and wounded, even when they aren't so strong themselves.
Know you are part of this Family, and you will find all that love and support for you as well. I don't know exactly why, but I felt you needed to hear that tonight. To know that.
You are loved, more than you may ever know. J. and I both have faith in you, and think of you often.
Rest, my dear, when you can. Take time to rest body, mind and soul. And take care of yourself.
Its all about the love,
L.
fimble the new kids I'm tutoring have an older sister who's going to the UK for a year in 2 weeks and she said she wants to see Manchester United play! I thought of you :)
GIVE ME COOKIES
*MUNCH*
*MUNCH*
*MUNCH*
Fimble, I'm okay, just a bit disappointed.
And THANK YOU GUYS for the comments on my story, and also, for the comments earlier today on the video I made. This all means so much to me, all of you.
Thank you, Ergo, Miss T., Fimble. I will.
Love and Good Night,
L.
Cookie Monster, can I give you a hug?
ergo, tell her she has to and seriously needs to buy a shirt. they are the best. where about is she going?
So did anyone else see the announcement for the US tour?
*prays* Please, please come to Canada, PLEASE!
-A
why are you disappointed bc?
This is the first part of my young goddaughter's fanfiction.
“They’re my favorite flower, bambina.”
That’s what he had said when he’d first showed them to her, and that’s what the card had read the first time he’d sent them - Lana remembered that much. The simple message had become something of an inside joke between them, and from that point on, she couldn’t lay eyes upon their delicately curled yellow petals without thinking of him and the way he’d smiled so widely when she told him that, yes, they were pretty, and she loved them, too. Her thoughts had turned from affection to despair following his death, of course, but that was to be expected: She’d soiled his memory, mocked his murder, all for the safety of her sister. The sight of them made her stomach roil now, so she’d established a rule - no more flowers, not even on Valentine’s Day.
Naturally, the reasoning behind the fact that a single yellow Chrysanthemum had shown up on her desk on February the 14th evaded her completely.
She had almost been afraid of it at first: The Phantom Flower, out to avenge the memory of her fallen amigo; it was, quite possibly, the most ridiculous idea she’d ever had. It lay on the unforgiving polished surface like a jewel-embedded trap ready to spring the moment she touched it, glowing with an otherworldly radiance that both enthralled and perturbed her, begging her to move forth, to come closer. She’d stood in the doorway for several minutes, analyzing the situation - of course it might have been a test, life was a test - and after a long hesitation, she’d swept up beside it regally as a queen and picked it up by its stem in feigned disdain of the memory the gift-giver had left behind. It shed naught a petal at the sudden motion, smiling up at her with its sunny rays curled upwards, as if pleading for an embrace, and its unruffled feathers had irritated her.
“No tag?” She noted aloud, bothered by the notion. Her irrational side deflated in disappointment - no label that read “they’re my favorite flower,” no endearing note, no Neil Marshall. “Guess that means ‘return to sender’ isn’t an option...”
The Chief Prosecutor pinched the flower with her nails like it was something disgusting to touch and hovered over the wastepaper bin, tempted to release it and let it wither. She waited, however, and her eyes scanned the shadows of her office, irately checking to see if the perpetrator was still lingering there, watching her and waiting.
He wasn’t. But the scent of cigarette smoke was; the scent of leather, the scent of Neil.
She froze and sniffed at the air like a wild animal that had caught the scent of a predator in the wind, blocking out the memories in favor of going on the alert. Nothing but the homey smell of her office returned to greet her - it had been her imagination.
Cautiously, she turned back to her desk (all the while grasping the flower with the tips of her fingers as if it were something despicable and foul). It was still polished, still unfazed by her inner turmoil. She stepped proudly over to it, wrenching open one of the vacant drawers with unneeded force. With a sudden onslaught of gentleness and care, she decisively placed the flower within it - and there it would remain, she knew, even long after it became dilapidated and dusty-brown with age. That’s what love is, after all.
Amy, I heard about it already. Are their any tour dates announced yet or no?
I read they are going to perform in a festival in Arizona on March 28th, which is one day before my birthday.
This is the second part of my goddaughter's fanfiction:
Maggey had come to accept the fact that the loss of Detective Gumshoe’s friendship left her feeling ill.
It was frustrating for her, to express it in simpler terms - she couldn’t identify with those songs on the radio that had whiny boys with over-the-eye haircuts bawling over their lost girlfriends, because it just wasn’t like that, not to her. There was no sadness involved, just guilt, regret, and emptiness; it had been gnawing at her ever since she’d gotten over her blind self-pity (and she still had to thank Mr. Wright and Maya for that - maybe she’d send them flowers), and the bitterness had driven her into a frenzy of desperation.
Her apology to him was completely planned out in her head; she’d gone over it a million times. The only thing left to do was gather up the courage to face him after all the things she’d said. Exactly a week had passed since the conclusion of a case he’d had heavy involvement in - State vs. Sister Iris, to be exact - and this was vital solely because she was now officially out of excuses. There was nothing left to blame for her unwillingness to approach the disheartened detective, no further convenient distractions; it was February 13th, and she knew that if she didn’t beg for his forgiveness soon, she would lose him for good. That was unbearable for her to even think about.
The jerking stop her car made in front of her house had tossed her already uneasy stomach, making her wince. Maggey flopped against her car door to jar it open, her potential failure hanging over her like a thick smog of despair - that she was fully conscious of the fact that her own stubborn foolishness was the culprit of this entire chain of events only made her feel worse. She released some of her pent-up emotions by fiercely punting an unfortunate pebble near her feet on her way up to door, pausing only when she saw it hit against a distant package on her doorstep.
A small pot with a green bush sat whimsically on her ‘Welcome’ mat, splashes of white Gardenia flowers hanging off of its branches. Maggey suppressed a gasp of pleasant surprise, sprinting the rest of the distance between herself and the unexpected gift and lifting it up to further examine it with the delight of a child in a candy store. There was no card, no name, no defined origin; just the pot of flowers.
That, and the distinct sound of carnage from behind the house - the metal garbage cans propped up against the fence had fallen, certainly not on their own.
Curious but still giddy, the cop-gone-waitress hopped off of her porch excitedly with the Gardenias held gingerly in her palms. She rounded the corner to investigate the noise, and the sight there to greet her stopped her in her tracks.
There, buried alive under the toppled trash cans, was Detective Dick Gumshoe.
“... Sir?” For once, Maggey was speechless; completely cowed.
Dick Gumshoe clambered to his feet, flinching anew at the sound the crashing cans produced. His cheeks gradually gathered up a radish-red blush, doubling in embarrassment when he saw the flowers being cradled in Maggey’s arms.
“... I tried to make a clean getaway, pal,” he admitted, avoiding her eyes. “I, uh... The fence. I tried to jump the fence, and...” His flush deepened under Maggey’s unyielding stare of awe. “... But, I, uh... I got you flowers, pal.” The detective’s grin was that of a child caught with his hand in the cookie jar, but her lack of vocal response filled him with dread. She was still angry with him; it was obvious.
Maggey tenderly set the Gardenias down at her feet, her eyes still wide from obvious surprise. She sheepishly shuffled towards him, baby steps, watching him as he cringed like a cornered animal waiting to be devoured. For a moment she found herself debating her next course of action; before she could make a rational decision, however, she’d already run at him and grabbed him up in a tight embrace, to which he responded quite gratefully with the same.
And as it turned out, that was better than any old practiced apology, anyway.
I WANT TO EAT YOU BC
*MUNCH*
*MUNCH*
*MUNCH*
I'm sorry those were so long, but she's amazing.
Fimble, someone I know thought that I was those anons and that I was the impostor Mayonaise that appeared here earlier.
Goodnight everybody.
Thank you for reminding me why I keep coming back here.
I shall see you all tomorrow.
Ex, there's a post on Chemrom on LJ, and on the MySpace account too.
-A
was it a friend? or an accuiantance? (yes shit spelling haha)
dont worry bout them you know the truth
nighty night miss t
Kapunua
Good Lord woman I was laughing so hard at your story the whole house thinks I've finally gone off the deep end. Mayo's comments at the end? Holy shit thats funny...
and..
It is Elena who breaks it. "His hair got long," she says.
Yeah, that would totally be me saying that!!!!
Fim I cannot recall except that it started with "S" and it wasn't a place I'd heard of, but she is going with a friend as her cousins live there and then she hopes to rent a room in London and find work and then travel too.
We have a Man U shirt actually my brother got it for my hubby in asia (it would be a rip off one but it's nice)
K she has talent I hope she keeps it up
Goodnight and sweet dreams Miss T. I love you. Fimble, yes it is a friend, but right now I am trying to correct things. Anyone who knows me know that I would never do such a stupid thing.
Amy, thank you. I am going to check it out.
Cookie Monster, no way in hell will you eat me ;)
Amyranth said...
So did anyone else see the announcement for the US tour?
SHOW ME!SHOW ME!SHOW ME!SHOW ME!SHOW ME!SHOW ME!SHOW ME!SHOW ME!
Thank you Elena! So glad you liked it. I am enjoying yours, too. ^_^ Brava.
Sometimes Mayo reads like that to me, I dunno. Sometimes he just makes me LOL.
Ergo, isn't she amazing? She absolutely will keep it up; I won't let her stop. I'm sure that she will get into any college on a writing scholarship (that's what I did.) We're similar in that way: both utterly fail at math and history, but RULE at English and creative writing. (I also ruled at science, but that wasn't until I got into 10th grade and then in college decided on a whim to take the pre-med science classes and fell in love with them.) But the thing about her is that she is a billion times better at fifteen than I was at fifteen. Hell, than I was at twenty five. And she writes with the kind of ease that I don't even have now.
She has an incredible future in this.
I WANT TO EAT YOU BC, COME TO PAPA COOKIE MONSTER
*MUCNH*
*MUNCH*
*MUNCH*
*RUNS AFTER BC*
Oh I just saw the myspace blog there are quite a few dates there, at least they still have some time before they start.
And the DVD will be out! I heard April and he said NEW ALBUM - fantastic!!!
iye bc i am just sorry you keep getting the brunt of it. its bloody annoying day in and day out. are you ok
Hmmm, The dates end 2 days before Bamboozle in NJ.
What are the odds?
AND....
Small venues!!!!
Billy Talent and Drive By as support!!!
Ahhh.
Goodnight everyone :)
Have a nice rest of the night, and I'll see you all around tomorrow.
nighty night splash
Oh, BC,
I just sent you two e-mails.
J
goodnight Mustard! sweet dreams!!
J how come BC gets 2 emails and I don't get any *pout*
probably because I have muddy feet and my whole yard smells like a swamp!
:)
I must get SS some frog spawn, we have a lot! lol
OP J, thanks for letting me know. Sorry guys, I was just on Myspace and saw the U.S. tour dates for my chem. They're coming here on April 17th. I can't wait!
Screw MCR. Gerard has ruined it for me. Which sucks because otherwise I would have loved to bring said god(dess)daughter to see them again. She's over them, too. She's got a hell of a lot of class and does not wish to be treated the way Gerard treats his audience.
Besides which, if I took her there and he started telling the girls to eff themselves and telling them to moan for him and she was in the audience? I'd walk out. So it's a good thing I already know what we'd be in for and neither of us has to waste or time or money.
BC, what is the link to the My Chem MySpace?
J
Fimble, yeah, I'm okay. After a while you get used to it, but thank you for your concern :)
So guys, check it out. I'm going to our annual Oceans of Hope marine life benefit like I do each year, with a bunch of people I work with. (I call it "Oceans of Ho" because we all get tarted up. It's like going to a ball once a year and we all get to go for free, as our boss pays our way.)
I really need a dress to wear. Dress code is anything from cocktail dresses to ballgowns.
If I post some gowns and dresses, would you guys try to help me decide which one to buy?
OP J, the myspace link is www.myspace.com/mychemicalromance
Please let me know if it works. I'm not sure if I remember the correct link.
Hell, I would still go to the show, just to shout "fuck you" to him.
but bc, you shouldnt have to get used to it. i dont know what to say just chin up, know you will.
Kapunua, post them.
I could lend you the costume we rented for Hello, Dolly!, but it's a little over the top.
It worked BC, thanks!
J
well i am off to bed, i am tired.
nighty night family
nighty night kermit
I'm willing to go a little over the top, but not too much. ^_^ Okay, here's what I've got so far.
This is the one I was all set to buy, but alas, they are sold out of it and will not get it in time. I would love something like this, though.
This is cute, too.
I VERY BADLY WANT THE DRESS IN THIS PHOTO! However, they are selling the gloves, not the dress, and I can't find it anywhere.
This was my second choice. I'm into criss-crossing ribbons.
Scarlet Baroque dress.
And theeeen there's this one: Black satin dress with tons of criss-crossing ribbons. Kinda on the pricey side though, when I was thinking of spending something more along the lines of 70 bucks. Still, I like the design. I wonder if I could pull off something like this. O_O
Well, well, well. Here we go again.
Well, well, well. Here we go again.
I know it has been a long time since we have written you guys. We have been very, very busy touring in places that we have never been to before. To all of our fans in Southeast Asia, THANK YOU from the bottom of our hearts. What an amazing time we had and you all made us feel so welcome the entire time. We will be back in your part of the world as soon as we can.
We are also just finishing up the process for our CD/DVD "THE BLACK PARADE IS DEAD!". As soon as we have a solid release date on it, we will let you all know. It was filmed over a few weeks in October and looks incredible.
We wanted to let our fans in the US know that we are going to give it one more pass before we go write a new record. We are really excited about the tour. Our good friends Billy Talent and Drive By are coming with us. We could not think of a better tour to go away from The Black Parade. Below are some dates and there will be more coming. We promise to keep you guys posted as we get them booked. We wanted to come to these places. We selected them. We really love the venues we are playing and wanted to get away from big shows for a while. When we started this thing, we could feel you guys right in front of us. It is time for that to happen again. See you soon.
Fri/3-28 Tempe, AZ On Sale Thu, 2/14 at 10:00 am MST
Sat/3-29 Tuscon, AZ
Sun/3-30 Las Vegas, NV
Thu/4-3 San Francisco, CA @ The Warfield On Sale Sun, 2/17 at 10:00 am PST
Sun/4-6 Irvine, CA --> BAMBOOZLE ON SALE NOW!
Tue/4-8 Portland, OR
Fri/4-11 Salt Lake City, UT
Sun/4-13 Denver, CO @ The Fillmore Auditorium Pre-Sale Fri, 2/15 at 10:00 am to Fri, 2/15 at 6:00 pm MST
Tue/4-15 Kansas City, KS
Thu/4-17 Chicago
Sat/4-19 Detroit
Thu/4-24 New Orleans, LA
Fri/4-25 Baton Rouge, LA
Sat/4-26 Houston, TX
Sun/4-27 Dallas, TX
Mon/4-28 Austin, TX
Fri/5-2 Memphis, TN
Good night, Fim! Hope to chat you soon. :D
I'm off to bed, too. Thanks, guys, for your input. Also for the comments on my story and the video. I can't thank you all enough. You are wonderful. ^_^
Hey guys
Sorry I've been in and out all night at Casa Mayo. MCR is really gonna tour again? Holy shit they have KCK listed. Where the hell are they gonna play in KCK? We lost Verzion Amphitheater (just a mile from my house) and that's the only place in KCK I can think of they would play. I'm very confued but very happy if it's true.
Kapunua I like the scarley baroque one, but they are all nice, my least liked is the second choice one, I didn't like the bodice but the skirt and ribbons are nice
Elena,
It's actually your bookstore they are going to play at. They just haven't told you yet!
J
K,
I love the iridescent copper one.
Second favorite is the red one.
Goodnight K, fimble. Sweet dreams guys. Fimble, thank you. OPJ it worked? Yay! I responded to your emails. Those fools are SO gonna be busted. Just you wait >:)
*Detective Chaos is going to bring out her magnifying glass*
Walking by your side
My head down, shoulders rounded, heavy
It occurred to me that I should stop,
Check the time, and commit
An endless unraveling of pulled wool thread
Weaved into promises of expository resemblance.
Whenever you're ready. Whenever you think it's right.
Mayo, you know we'll keep walking beside you.
scarlet not whatever I typed!
a comment said it was smaller venues this time, but I hope you can get there elena! (and convince them they should tour Oz again too!)
Star, I like that one, too. I might choose that one. ^_^ Thank you. :)
Okay, for real this time. Bed. :D
Ahahaha, Elena!
They said they are playing small places!
Imagine?
Hi there Elena. Yep, a new tour. According to the post, they might play more smaller venues, not big arenas, I think.
J
That is an excellent idea. Hell I could even set up a signing for Gerard. He could sign copies of Umbrella Academy then sing after that.
Oh, Ergo! Almost missed you there. yeah, the bodice on that oen isn't my favorite, but the color intrigues me. (The price, too. ;D )
Star, BC
I am doing the Happy Dance right now. Crap I want to go to Chicago or Denver too. I see a road trip in my future. Just got to figure out how to run away from home to do it.
Elena, if you come to Chicago, maybe I will see you there. That would be pretty awesome! :D
Impostor Mayonaise, consider yourself busted, you fake little fucker. Or should I say, the impostor Exodus? I got you where I want you >:)
kapunua the colour is fab and it would be good for an ocean theme thing too, anything else that colour?
But it may look nicer on too, some dresses do that
have a good night and tomorrow
And they're coming to Memphis! YAY! Maybe they'll play Nashville, which is even closer to us than Memphis.
Elena, wouldn't it be great if the three of us could meet up in Memphis? How far is that from you?
J
BC what are you doing?
How are you hunting them down?
Gosh, I try to go into my bedroom and photons start hitting me.
Mayo, I hear you. Just wanted you to know.
Ergo, I thought the same thing, the ocean motif. :)
BED! LIKE NOW! ^_^
Ergo, my job is done. The impostor Mayonaise that was here earlier was the same one who was trying to impersonate me. It was a comment they posted at 4:47 earlier today. Oh they are so busted >:)
Oh I see that's the same blogger Id, and it's not your profile
Well, kids, it's been fun but I'm beat. I'll say my usual goodnights and then off to Sleepytown for me.
Hope you all have a great day tomorrow, or night, or afternoon, or maybe even all three. ;)
I'll be back tomorrow, to NOT celebrate the hated V-Day with you ladies. Take care, all!
love, hope, faith, detective work, and dead, wilted flowers
J
OPJ, thank you for helping me out! Take care, sweet dreams and goodnight to you! Ergo, yeah, it's definitely not. Fake Mayo's profile is also private. Who knows if that was accidental or intentional, but at this point I don't care. I feel triumphant >:)
goodnight J sleep tight
Ergo, are we the only ones here? Has it stopped raining yet?
Dear Mayo,
Yep, it's almost time. For what, you ask? Well, I'll tell ya.
MOTHERFUCKING VALENTINE'S DAY, that's what.
...I'm sorry, did I say that out loud? Pardon my uncouthness.
*clears throat*
*opens mouth to try again*
Naaah, I had it right the first time.
Oh, never mind me, I just get a little cranky about it all. I went to Wal-Mart today, Land of Holiday Overkill, and saw approximately 95,000,000 stuffed monkeys, heart-shaped boxes, and gaudily-decorated sugar cookies.
I did not enjoy this excursion.
Anyway, hope you're well, rested, and ready for anything. Take care of yourself, ok?
love to you
J
P.S. Why monkeys, of all things? Who decided that gorillas were the embodiment of undying love? I just don't feel it, I tell you.
hey BC I think so plus I must be off to get meet the bus. I'll be back a bit later on
it's the blog witching hours
take care
Take care Ergo. I have to go look for some stuff for my curtains. I haven't even put any up yet since I moved year :(
Dear OPJ,
I agree. What correlation to Fucking Monkeys and Fucking Valentine's Day have?
-A
I meant to say here, not year. Silly me
Yeah seriously. What the fuck does monkeys have to do with Valentine's Day? I don't get it.
SS baby,
No, I don't have a stuffed monkey for you. I'm sorry.
If you wanted one, though, I would surely get it for you. Although I see you as more of a bear man.
Or would that be..."bare" man?
HEEHEEHEEHEE, I couldn't resist! (Sorry. Or am I...)
Well, I WILL say this: if you don't have anyone that calls you their own, I'll be your valentine.
Yes, I will selflessly sacrifice my single, non-valentine-having-or-being status, just so that the others won't feel sorry for you and give you those token "You're a special friend" cards.
*coughbullshitalertcough*
Really, though, you're my favorite valentine every day of the year. Who needs a specific day? :)
Have a restful night tonight, and a happy day tomorrow. *squeezy hugs*
love you, precious!
J
Quick P.P.S. to Amy and BC:
Motherfucking monkeys. Worst mascot for any holiday...ever.
What is it, "I love you, here's a banana"?
Or...maybe the "banana" reference is, uh, euphamistic.
(:O
Nighty night girls!
J (who might be persuaded to participate in some froggy love! ;))
What is it, "I love you, here's a banana"?
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This made me laugh. LOL. Goodnight and sweet dreams J. I'm gonna go find something for my Anti-Valentine's Day post ;p
Monkeys are a bit creepy
Ergo, aren't they?
Mayo
Wow it seems like only yesterday I was writing a goodnight to you. I am rolling my eyes at my own lameness.
I am sitting here and for the first time ever I’m trying very hard not to let my true feeling out and it makes me sad. Talking to you each night I have been able to let all the crap I keep inside out. Yeah, opening a vein, I guess. But tonight I can’t. The cut would be too deep and I don’t think I could stop the bleeding. I don’t think I would even want to try.
So I will do what I do each morning. I will carefully apply the mask. The one that hides the truth. The truth that even though I want to believe I’ve become a stronger person I really haven’t. I’m still the stupid, scared girl I’ve always been. Only thing now it I can hide it better. Oh the wonders of years of practice.
Remember this morning? The ominous feeling I described? Yep, I nailed that one. So maybe I did get some of the psychic gifts that run in my family. Of maybe I just realize the inevitable. Doesn’t really matter. My next line was going to be “nothing really matters” but I realized that’s not true. I’m not ready to give up. So maybe in a just a small way I have changed because before that would have been the line I would have used. It would have been the line I meant.
Well enough feeling sorry for myself. Life is what it is. I travel down the path that I chose, well I was sorta pushed down it but still I allowed it to happen. I think you understand this feeling but I pray that you don’t.
Tomorrow is Valentines Day. Actually it’s today now I just realized it’s after midnight. I’ve heard lot of my family here weigh in on the holiday so guess I will too. I think it could really be a beautiful day. Now that was skirting the issue wasn’t it? Yep, that’s me. I can always find a way to get around the truth. No actually I don’t get around it, I just ignore it. Little old me with my fingers in my ears blissfully singing “la la la”. Can’t hear the truth then it can’t hurt me. Sadly I need to cover my eyes now because I don’t want to see it either.
Mayo, I hope Valentines Day is beautiful for you. I hope that you never have to plug your ears or cover your eyes to avoid the truth. I wish for you all the things I can never wish for myself.
Elena (singing la la la)
goodnight elena - hope you have a good 14th
sweet dreams
cookie monster said...
I WANT TO EAT YOU BC, COME TO PAPA COOKIE MONSTER
*MUCNH*
*MUNCH*
*MUNCH*
*RUNS AFTER BC*
February 13, 2008 11:03 PM
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O_O
Hello! Mayo? SS? BC? Ergo? Is anyone here?
*takes a quick glance in all the rooms*
Well, since no seems to be around this morning/night, I suppose it's okay to say HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY and put some music on
(since I am in such a 'sappy' Valentine's day mood :D )
I promise not to turn the volume up to loud.
For everyone in blog believe:
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The Day I Met You
Do you remember when our lives were so complete?
Long cold Decembers, so bittersweet,
But if you could set aside one day,
That I could hold forever
I would save the day that I met you.
Is it still magic although we've grown worlds apart?
It seem so tragic, so frail the heart.
But if I was blessed with just one wish
To take me through my lonely life
I'd wish to go back to the day that I met you
And when you fell you're on your own
Well just believe you're not alone
And you feel the warmth
That we shared years ago
Don't be blue
One painful morning, I stared straight into the sun,
It overwhelmed me, I came undone
So, if you can find it in your heart
To be forgiving to a broken man,
We'll go back to the day that I met you.
(Lillian Axe/Steve Blaze/Ron Taylor)
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The song is beautiful and the pictures are very pretty too!
;-)
The Day That I Met You
Since I can't STOP at just one beautiful song, here's some Bon Jovi for ya'll!
Bed OF Roses
And for those who don't like the love stuff:
This Ain't A Love Song
Okay, that's all for now; but, I make no promises to NOT return later with more LOVE songs :D
Hugs and Love to all!
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
PS: It could have been much worse. I could have come bearing MONKEYS with hearts and bananas!!!
*big wink*
Yay Wendy is here!!! How are you? *runs and tackles wendy with hugs and kisses* I left a little something Anti-Valentine's day on my blog, but that's up to you guys. I could care less.
Darn it!!! Blogger doesn't like Valentine's day either *pout*
Not to worry, I will try again
;P
Wendy, I don't like it either ^_^
ERGO!!!!!!!!!! *pounce, tackle, hug, kiss*
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!
How are you honey bunch?
Trying these links again.
(I AM a determined woman)!
This Ain't A Love Song
SS
I know I don’t usually tell you goodnight but tonight is different. I feel like I need to tell you goodnight. I need to tell you how much you have meant to me. SS you were the first person to tell me I was heard. The first person to make me believe I could be more than the scared girl who read this blog long before she spoke. I was afraid my words wouldn’t be heard. I was afraid that if they were they would be ignored. I realize how I sound tonight and I’m trying so hard to keep my fears buried. I fear getting lost again, I fear becoming silent once more. I’m holding on to the belief it’s not too late. The belief I can still be the woman I want to be. There are so many people here waiting to stand me back up if I fall. I will do the same for them. It’s just a bad night. I keep repeating “it’s just a bad night” I keep repeating.
I said on the Anti-Valentines blog you are an oozer. You do ooze love, my friend. Happy Valentines Day.
Elena (holding on, afraid to let go)
Wendy!! The links are finally working!! How are you doing honey buns? Happy Valentine's Day.
Bon Jovi, eh? I grew up listening to them. My younger brother was such a big fan of theirs.
Hi BC!!! And a very happy YOU KNOW WHAT to you!
*hugs and kisses*
How are you, love? Did I miss anything exciting today?
I only read up to Paperheartxx comments :(
*big hugs for Paperheartxx*
Second attempt - for everyone:
The Day That I Met You
Exodus said...
Wendy!! The links are finally working!! How are you doing honey buns? Happy Valentine's Day.
Bon Jovi, eh? I grew up listening to them. My younger brother was such a big fan of theirs.
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YAH!!! They work now!
I love Bon Jovi, BC (sweet cheeks). Their songs bring back some fond memories of younger years :)
I especially love this song:
Bed Of Roses
*pass the tissues please*
*Hugs and kisses Wendy back*
I'm doing pretty good, just listening to my Ipod at the moment. How are you? Well, I had some more anons today, and someone tried to impersonate me, and we had an impostor Mayonaise, and then we talked about cakes, birthdays, new U.S. tour dates for MCR, etc etc.
*passes the tissues to Wendy*
There ya go sweet cheeks! ;)
Happy Valentine's Day ELENA!!!!
LOL (at myself) I thought Ergo had come back :(
*takes tissues from BC*
Thank you, love!
Ohhh......I just scrolled up and saw the U.S tour news.
Does anyone mind if I say:
YIPPIE for me!!!!
So, who's coming down to NOLA?
:D
Hey Wendy *hugggggg*
I'm not abuot much but i'm checking in
Wendy, I'm excited too, but I think waiting just two months for them to come back here is much too quick, but I can't complain.
I'm hoping it won't be at the big arenas because it's such a long distance from where I live, not to mention that I don't usually come home until one or two in the morning, and by then I get so damn tired.
ERGO! You ARE here!
You didn't know I was psychic, did ya? ;-)
Didn't the comment say something about smaller venues?
I think the small venue shows are so much better than arena/theater/festival shows!
The atmosphere is more intimate and the sound is so much better (in my humble opinion).
:)
I absolutely agree Wendy! I love the smaller venues better, and they're more closer to my home location, so it's all good.
You and I shall hope for a small venue show then :)
I'm taking a youtube stroll down memory lane right now.
Umm....does anyone else here remember when MTV had a top 20 METAL countdown???
*sigh* I miss those days.....
Queensryche EMPIRE
^love, love LOVE IT!!!
Wendy, I don't even remember that. Hell, I don't remember the last time MTV played an actual music video. Have you ever heard of a band called Paradise Lost?
I think you're right BC! You need MTV HITS or MTV classics to see actual music videos these days.
T'is sad is what is it!
Paradise Lost? That name sounds familiar.
Ohhh.....I have heard EXODUS! Is the new name a tip o the hat to them?
Wendy, exactly. No music videos, No MTV, and yet, they still pin that title to their sorry asses when all they mostly play is crappy reality TV shows. Blah!
Actually, my name is inspired from a song title from one of my favorite bands, Evanescence. I never heard of Exodus(the band) until recently when they sent me a friend request on Myspace!
The other day I downloaded a song from Apocalyptica called "Bittersweet." I think it has Ville Valo singing in it as well. I love the violins in the song.
Okay, now YOU'RE psychic! How did you know I was watching Apocalyptica videos now??? LOL
I do love Bittersweet!! The other vocalist on that song is from The Rasmus - Laurie something. Where's Pixie when we need her?. I like his voice too, although not as much as Ville's!
Here he is singing Life Burns with APO:
Life Burns
Wendy, that was just a guess ;)
I will take a peek at the video
And, since you mentioned Bittersweet; you KNOW I have to do this:
Bittersweet
I just can't pass on an opportunity! ;-)
Wendy, that was such a beautiful video. And I knew Ville was in it! >:)
BCeeeeee? Is you still here ;-)
I have to TRY to get some sleep, sweet cakes. I have another busy day/night ahead of me.....
Enjoy the videos and I'll talk to you later.
*hugs and smooches*
Good night Ergo - if you're lurking the halls!
Good night everyone and
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!
:D
Love and hugs to all,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Gooodnight and sweet dreams honey buns. Yes, I am still here. Sweet dreams to you. Hugs and kisses!
Exodus said...
Wendy, that was such a beautiful video. And I knew Ville was in it! >:)
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There you are!
I agree! It IS absolutely BEAUTIFUL!!!
*love, hugs and kisses again*
Sweet dreams BC!!!
Sweet dreams Wendy!!
mayo,
i'm feeling a little embarrassed bout my comment to you last night. i always end up regretting it a tiny bit when i write to you from pure emotion, without tempering.
today was calmer, but still...i can feel it simmering just underneath. i'm keeping the lid on it tonight.
and i didn't even tell you what i thought of your post. now that i've had a chance to read it under better conditions, i have to say it's unusually disjointed. i'm not sure what to make of that, but the image in the first two lines grabs at me. i find i want to know who it is you're walking with.
i know i'll be left wondering. there's always so much to wonder about in your posts. it's good. strangely enough, all your uncertain meanings give me solid ground. they are a nice constant.
everything else, though...
well, everything else has slipped away, and i don't know what i think about any of it.
do you remember, just a little while ago, when a few of us had that pillow fight? and then we were scurrying around to pick the place up, trying not to wake you. that was the same night ergo and i ended up listening to tbp together, and i was so content to be corporeal again i stayed overnight on your couch.
i enjoyed that evening very much. our ability to pretend here is such a lovely bright thing. this is my first experience with online pretending. i love that we can be kids again like that.
i'm glad, too, that ergo and i pretended me being ectoplasmic, because that's a skill i think i need to rely on for a little while, until i can find my place at your table again.
don't worry. i won't float away. i can't. i have this little silver spider's thread, see. you tied it fast.
good night, mayo. be safe.
sorry wendy and BC bad weather and dinner making prevented me getting back before now. I am full of herb bread and chicken tomato pasta - very full
goodnight to you both
Mayo
I hope you had a good wednesday and are heading into a great thursday. Do you celebrate Valentine's Day? If you do I hope you and your loved obne have a wonderful day, if you don't ...well I still hope you have a wonderful day. There are so many factors that can conspire to affect our lives for good and bad, It seems many of our blog believers are finding the going hard at the moment, I hope we all find our place and can enjoy our times here, but if time is needed to reassess and regroup then I hope we can all feel when that may be right for us, and you know when it may be right for you.
I am not sure what you mean by your post, I have some thoughts but nothing seems concrete yet, perhaps new words will bring greater understanding.
Wishing faith hope strength and love, to you an dyour s
much love EP xx
SS
I haven't seen you around, but then the new arrangements make it harder to catch up. I'm sure you've been checking in, I hope you too have a lovely 14th with your special other, whether it is Valentine's or not.
Lotsa love
EP xx
TJ seriously we must be psychic I noticed you hadn't posted so I did mine, clicked to pst and there you are!
Keep safe and you know I'll be looking for tingles of knowing you're floating about!
goodnight everyone
we have a severe weather warning out so think of all of us over here in sunny (?) Queensland, another teen drowned in the floods and a 36 yr old woman died after holding her baby boy in floodwater until they were rescued, a heart attack they suspect, but THAT is love, pure and simple.
Pray there'll be no more tragedy, but nature is a cruel thing sometimes. I will be praying for some respite, it's not good over here, not at all...
thanks everyone
EP xx
Morning Mayonaise!
Stupid Blogger changes - 'cos reading back through 3 days worth of comments isn't hard enough work as it is.
Anyhoo, I had a fabulous couple of days off - I even saw Dave Berry (English TV presenter & Hottie) at Earl's Court Tube station and passed by the Rambo IV premiere just as Sly Stallone was walking the red carpet. Ooh, the excitement!
The main act I went to see on Tuesday were OK (New Young Pony Club) but the crowd weren't hugely into it so the atmosphere was a bit flat, but the support act (Metronomy) were bizarre-but-ace electronica. Just how tragic is it that I used my mobile phone to access the blogs in between sets?
Pottered about London yesterday, ate one too many Krispy Kremes and achieved nothing even remotely constructive. Yay for me!
Hope I find you all well today,
Kass xx
bonjour ma famille!!
(i am not very good at french!)
hello mayo! well i missed 2 posts whilst away in france!! i knew i would but hey they were 2 "biggies" in my opinion!!
anyway i need time to read and think!!
hello SS. hope you are good.
well we had a fantastic time at eurodisney! really great fun!! my legs are stiff from loads of walking! my voice is hoarse from screaming like a girl on the rollercoasters!
i have consumed my body weight in bread products!! the french are big on bread products!!
i have consumed my body volume in alcohol!! seriously!
i have excelled at being totally crap at most card games!!
the kids had a brilliant time! we are all totally exhausted. got home at 1 am last night after having a tyre blow out on our car on the M25 (busy busy motorway). pitch black and freezing. mr bloke, me and the 3 little uns huddled in a small wood on the other side of the crash barrier awaiting the rescue man to come and save us!! which he did thank god!!
so i am home. the kids decided to get up far too early considering they went to bed so damn late!! the car is still full of all our luggage etc!! first point of call "mayos"!!
i missed you all loads. thought of you all loads! thought of you all particularly on the "rockin rollercoaster" its a rock themed rollercoaster. ok so they play "love in an elevator" by aerosmith!! still thought of you all!
right gotta go!! will pop in much much later!
hope everyone is good and well.
Oh, and HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!
Hi Kass and FASC!
Hi Blogbelieve
Hi latenight/early morning lurkers!
Urghh!!!
Excuse me please for a moment. That was a particularly evil extra thick coated wasabi pea.
*dashes off in search for an extinguisher of some sort*
*returns with:
1 glass of coke zero
1 glass of milk
1 large box of tissues
and more wasabi peas =)*
Mayo,
Morning! Happy Valentines Day!
*hands Mayo a milk chocolate heart and a stuffed red devil*
How are things? I hope they are arranged just the way you like them. Comfortable and pretty. Me? I'm so so so. I slept like crap. Again. Yeah, I should try going to bed before midnight. Make mental note to self to check the time and commit to sleep. He will be home tonight. I will have no choice.
I woke up this morning, and I still get it. The post, I mean. Did you think I meant my life in general? Oh no, I didn't have any revelations like that in my drug induced rest.
You know what's funny. I keep hoping someone will start to scratch beneath my surface. I desperately want to be seen, but not really. Does that make sense? Let me try and explain. I want someone who sees me for me. All of it....the broken, twisted, manic, fucked up mess. But, I don't want to have to look them in the eye. Never face to face. How can I connect to people when I purposely keep them so far away? Then there's him, he's the one who's supposed to know me. I've been with him for 6 years. Trying like hell to make him see me, but he never does.
Mayo, I'm finally beginning to realize that the person I must connect with is myself. Only then, will I be able to let others really see me.
Hey, would you mind if I wear it today? Is that okay? Thanks.
Like I said to you last night, I hope you have a Valentines day wrapped in love, hugs, kisses, and everything special and meaningful.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Hands to hold and hearts to heal.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!
"Today it be St. Valentine's and all the morn betide,
And I a maid at your window to be your valentine!"
Then up he rose and donned his clothes
and ope'd the chamber door,
let in the maid that out the maid
ne'er departed more!
"My lord before you tumbled me
you promised me to wed."
He answers:
"So I would I have done
by yonder sun
an' thou hadst not come to my bed."
BlogBelieve Family,
Solly wishes you a Happy Valentine's Day!
Valentine's Day in BlogBelieve is niiiiiiiiice. More than enough love, hearts, hugs, kisses, chocolates, cards, flowers, poems, candy, teddys, and balloons.
This will be the best one we ever had.
Thank you all for making every single day special!
Love you ALL Bunches!
Solly Dolly
So.. everyone is still getting used to the furniture being rearranged I see.
616,
I swear you are a veritable ray of sunshine.
I'm going with you and Kass on the whole Valentines Day thing. I actually hate the commercialism of it. And I hate that guys are pressured and live in fear of one day where they feel they have to rush out and show their appreciation of their loved one with expensive jewellery and flowers.
True love doesn't need a date on the calendar to prove it exists.
What it does do though, is give shy young men and women the chance to anonymously declare their affection for someone. Nothing grand - just a single stem or note from the heart. It is a tentative step that may embolden them to eventually talk in person to the individual. It is the start of hopes and dreams and maybe's.
So to all the dreamers-
Happy Valentines Day!
To all the Anti Valentines Day people -
Happy VD!
Just kidding! There's some very funny stuff over at Kapunua's that people should take a look at.
Declaration:
PP NEVER does Valentines Day.
Note: Still suffers trauma from past life of being a single civilian female working at a military base on Feb 14.
sdock10 said:
"I've been with him for 6 years. Trying like hell to make him see me, but he never does."
Dump him. If he doesn't get you now, he's never going to; if you think you don't like him now, you're going to really despise him in another 6 years.
It's Valentine's Day - never a better opportunity!
Dump him. If he doesn't get you now, he's never going to; if you think you don't like him now, you're going to really despise him in another 6 years.
It's Valentine's Day - never a better opportunity!
Bert? O_O
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