You are all seen.
I am here. Not always present, but I am here. I feel each of you even as I move about my world. I presume we have this in common.
This space is mine in confidence, without interruption, without interception, and without edit.
I carry a bit of debt to you that I have not shared. You have reached me in ways you will never know.
You have helped.
p.s. thank you.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
4,021 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 2801 – 3000 of 4021 Newer› Newest»I live for crazy fucked up love, Sdock!
Bye, ph!
Have a good day!
*hugz*
Hullo there, GV :D
Sparkles!
Mayo, needs his buttons pushed! Want to help?
Sparkle!! GV!! lol. *hug*
Elena, it smells reallly bad! I've burnt my tongue (long story) and my hand around a fire. I'll tell you all about it later! =]
Bye, PH :) Have a great day!
BYE! <3
Ah, hello RW!
I see lotsa button pushing. It tickles, hee!
I see Jules asked a question for Mayo. I will continue to play the game and think up an answer....
I couldn't hack the cold. Nope, no, nuh uh, not even.
Sollysicle anyone?
I prefer flipflops and shorts.
Oh I hate when the page changes. I had to go back and see what I missed. Thank you for the hot chocolate Mustard
sdock you should watch the button pushing. No telling what might happen.
Does one of those buttons set off the ejector seat, do you think?
RW,
Push it and see what happens.
Hello GV and RW
Good to see you both
Elena,
You don't like having your buttons pushed? That's what has been happening in here lately. Someone tapping our buttons. Trying to get a rise.
Stroke on, players!
Oooo! Don't tempt me, Solly!
*RW loves to push buttons*
resurrected wreck said...
Does one of those buttons set off the ejector seat, do you think?
I totally read this wrong. Wow
Sollysicle! We definitely need to get a fire started here. I think he has one of those quick starter logs somewhere.... There it is!
Jules,
(As Mayo)
I don't hate you. The feelings I have for you would make up the craziest roller coaster ever invented on the planet. I love your intelligence, your spunk, your fearlessness. I love when you tell stories of your personal life. However, the vitriol with which you attack Gerard Way sometimes wounds me, though I know it is not directed at me. If I seem shy or to be ignoring you, it is because I made the same mistake I always do. I put you on a pedestal, imagined you existing in a bubble of perfection. But when I saw that, indeed, you are human and have faults, too, the disillusionment I felt was crushing, as always. I am sorry. I still read you. Please don't think I hate you.
How's S&V doing today, anyone know? We seem to be suffering similar maladies, only mine has now progressed to swollen glands in my neck.
Elena,
You dirty bird, I love it.
Someone to share the gutter with me...always.
Now I have the song "Stroke" by Billy Squire stuck in my head.
RW,
I'm sorry you are still feeling bad. I haven't talked to her today. I hope she is better.
The blogs miss her fabulousness!
But when I saw that, indeed, you are human and have faults, too, the disillusionment I felt was crushing, as always.
Sounds like something you might say about G-Way. Hell, sounds like something I might say about G-Way.
STROKE ME STROKE ME!!
Niiiiiiiice!
Solly needs a new word. I think that one is getting a little tired.
Swelllllllllllll!
sdock
The gutter...
A beautiful place
Doesn't have the same ring ;)
I wondered if I might have mumps, Sdock, as I never had them as a child. But I looked up the symptoms and what I have doesn't fit most of them. Perhaps it's just an aggrivated sore throat. And, actually, I don't feel as icky as I did a couple of days ago. I just hope I didn't give anything to any of my co-workers :/
Elena,
Yes, it is. Awwh, the gutter.
Mustard,
How bout....
Cooooooooool??
I'm glad you're feeling better, RW.
I never leave the gutter. Though it's a little smelly at times, it's always wet and warm in there.
Hello GV :)
Sdock:
Wha 'bout, uh, Awwwwwwwsome!!!
Just because it hasn't been said today:
Solly ♥ PPU!
RW you should go to the doctor. I've never had Mumps either but they sound bad. I've never had any childhood illness. Probably cause my parents kept me in a bubble.
Sparkles,
Wet and warm....kind of slick in places. You have to watch your step.
Mustard,
Aweeeesomee is too long.
Sweeeeeeeet?
Does one of those buttons set off the ejector seat, do you think?
I totally read this wrong. Wow
0_0
RW you should go to the doctor. I've never had Mumps either but they sound bad. I've never had any childhood illness. Probably cause my parents kept me in a bubble.
I'm going to give it a few more days as i don't actually feel ill. If the swelling persists, I'll go to a clinic (I don't have a doctor in Ontario).
Sweeeeeet!!! That it will be! :)
Aaaaaaand, let the dirty talk commence! ;)
Mustard,
The dirty talk never stops.
Sorry RW
Sometimes I read things wrong and when I realize it I have to laugh at myself.
My mind = gutter
That's so true.
Huh. Yeah. It never does!
Mustard, hi! Are you feeling alright, today?
GV, hi again! I suppose I am, thank you. You're doing well?
I like Elena's idea.
Mayo should change the heading to:
The Gutter...Between a Rock and A Hard Place
That'd be funny, right?!
Indeed. Went to bed way later than I desired to this morning, but I must have gotten some incredibly deep sleep because after only 6 hours, I got up freely.
To be honest, I was stunned how adamantly the anons believe I am mayo.....
The Gutter...Between a Rock and A Hard Place
Good one Mustard. Yeah I like it!
Mayo should change the heading to:
The Gutter...Between a Rock and A Hard Place
HAHAHA!!
I LOVE it!!
Mustard,
That's nice. I like that.
Katerine Sparkle,
The anons change their mind like the wind changes direction about who Mayo is.
Your Mayo is really good though.
But, we have to work Elena's "A beautiful place" in there.
Her idea.
So, Elena? How 'bout it? Where do you want your beautiful place to go in Mayo's heading?
And as Sdock would say right about now, there's no where else this can go but way down.
And down we go
And down we go
No wait...
I'm already there. I never leave.
Sweeeeeeeeeeet!
Thank you, Sdock.
I began to really think about the anons' assertion a few nights ago that I was an alter ego of Mayo.
And I began to really meditate on it. I realized, in a way, I am. I understand absolutely everything Mayo does and why. There isn't really such a thing as a cryptic post from him. Everything he types, I know what he's really getting at, emotionally and philosophically, at least.
He really is kinda some sort of weird twin out hiding out there.
The Gutter... A Beautiful Spot Between a Rock and a VERY Hard Place
HI RW, Elena, Katherine GV Sparkle, Sdock, Mustard!
How is everybody?
RW, sorry about your throat. :(
When I get a sore throat, and I am so crabby because it hurts to even speak. And I never stop talking so, it's annoying.
*gives RW some homey and lemon*
I have to ask you then, GV, what the heck is in that grid photo Mayo posted a while back?? It's still driving me crazy! 0_0
Katherine,
I'm right there with you. I can look at from every possible angle and understand each one of them.
So maybe Mayo is.....
ALL OF US. We each take turns being him.
YES?
Uh... I don't think that's supposed to be hard at all, Elena. You may want to go get that checked at a doctor's.
Hi Baroness Dawn!
How are you today?
Elena, I love it. Mayo should love it, too.
Star:
HELLO!!! Nice to see you again :)
And Mayo said we already knew him. He was everything we wanted him to be. He is us.
RW, sorry about your throat. :(
When I get a sore throat, and I am so crabby because it hurts to even speak. And I never stop talking so, it's annoying.
*gives RW some homey and lemon*
Hullo & thank you, Star :)
Hey Star good to see you!
ROCK and HARD remind me of the very dirty MWM post.
I am groovy, Sdock. My husband is cooking chicken soup from stock, and I am just chilling out.
Are you off tomorrow?
How's everything going in GA?
So maybe Mayo is.....
ALL OF US. We each take turns being him.
YES?
Damn, Solly, don't give the game away!
If you notice, the grid and the picture of the deceased take place close to each other. I was on a picture kick and was experimenting with adding visuals to emphasize my words.
Sdock, I love that interpretation. Together, we make a collective Mayo.
Anonymous said...
ROCK and HARD remind me of the very dirty MWM post.
Fuck yeah it does!
Star,
Nah, I have to work tomorrow. Otherwise, everything in Georgia is warm and toasty.
How's NJ?
Anon,
Sweeeeeeeeeet!
RW,
I didn't give away who was Mayo on what days. I'm keeping that on the down low.
If you notice, the grid and the picture of the deceased take place close to each other. I was on a picture kick and was experimenting with adding visuals to emphasize my words.
I see!
Well, actually, not really :/
I didn't give away who was Mayo on what days. I'm keeping that on the down low.
Cool :)
It's 38 degrees, Sdock, but it feels colder than that. I'm doing laundry, and I can't wait to put on my toasty thermal royal blue owl pajamas!
Yes, my life really is this EXCITING!
*tap, tap, tap*
I'm pushing my own buttons now.
Sweeeeeeeeet!
Yours & mine both, Star!
Everytime I read "MWM," I think of Mayo being a wrestler.
It's funny in my head.
Sdock! Out in the open?
I guess anyone who has a blog must have a bit of the exhibitionist in them, though...
Star, it's also almost 40 here. But I can't seem to warm up. Eep.
Sounds more exciting than mine, Star.
It's the simple things that mean the most, right?
RW, there's worse fates to have in life, right?
Elena, is it still snowing?
RW, there's worse fates to have in life, right?
Indeed!
Katherine,
I'm forever naked or running around in a jeans and bra in this blog.
I'm wearing shorts and it's over 70 degrees here.
Are you guys super jealous?
Fuck yes, you are.
Don't worry you can turn the tables on me when it's 122 degrees in July.
Are you a blog streaker, Sdock??
Streaking would imply that I just do a quick pass through, RW.
I'm just a naked lounger.
mustardisbetter said...
Everytime I read "MWM," I think of Mayo being a wrestler.
In mud or jello?
I'm just a naked lounger.
Ah, a nudist by nature! My mother's the same way.
Star - it's still snowing! The inches just keep coming.
Um, let's go Jell-o.
Or let's not go anywhere, 'cause that is one hell of a sight.
Nevermind me saying anything O_O
Eeek!
Yes, Sdock, I am very jealous. I don't mind the cold, but I occasionally like to see the sun.
I'm so pale I look like a piece of loose leaf paper. Well, without the thin blue lines, but you know what I mean.
Katherine, it is that kind of day where I can't warm up.
Mud or jello?
How about wresting covered in baby oil?
No, I can't take this any further down. No, nuh uh, no way.
I think I shall pretend to get something done today.
Of course, I will probably be back.
I love all of you! Have fun being naked. Is it wrong of me to lick you when you're naked..... :)
Guys,
I am going to hang outside for a bit.
If Mayo pops in, tell him I said
tap, tap, tap!!
Sweeeeeeeeeeet!
*sdock woke up with a brand new personality this morning and kind of likes her*
Later babes!
Elena said:
Star - it's still snowing! The inches just keep coming.
I am totally going to leave that one alone. Yeah.
sdock go go go
Baby oil gets my vote
Bye, Sdock & GV :)
Sdock, and Katherine, have a good day, see you later!
RW,
How's work? Are you very busy?
Bye GV! Goodbye Sdock!
I must head out as well, but I just want to say something really quick.
I just want to thank you guys for being here. And thank you for listening to me when you don't really have to.
I'll see you all later. Lots of love and air kisses.
See you, Mayo! Have a good day!
You, too, SS! Be safe.
Star
Thank you for leaving that comment alone. I didn't mean that!
Or did I? LOL
Hey everyone. Bye GV, Mustard, sd10.
Bye, Mustard! :)
RW,
How's work? Are you very busy?
It's picked up, Star. We had fittings last week & there are not lots of costume alterations to be done, and lots of bustle pads to be built!
*Elena is waving goodbye to her friends*
Hey BC
For thems wot is interested:
Costume pics from Tosca
Oh! Hullo, BC! :) I didn't see you, you snuck right past me!
Hi Elena. Bye Elena *waves*
Good afternoon/evening RW.
I just came on, but now I have to get ready to go to the store. I'll be back in a bit. Take care guys.
Have fun, BC :) See you later!
I'm the anons? Heee. Right, well you got me. Yes, I'm the anons. I haven't slept in two whole days because I've been posting throughout the entire night and insulting myself. Because my Mom loves to read that kind of stuff.
When I play the anon game I try to let you all know it's me. Like I'm pretty sure you're all aware that I am at least one of the poetry anons and I'm sure you know I'm Weaver Girl and on occasion I've been the Spin Spin Sugar anon, although lately someone else has taken up that mantle. I don't know why though.
Mayo/GV, thank you for answering my question. All this time I thought you were just looking at my rack at first, then when you looked at my face you were like, "WHOA! Okay, backing away." KIDDING. ^_^ Just kidding. Honestly, I just wanted to say "rack."
But the odd part about what you said was that there was a time, somewhere in the middle, where I was thinking, "You know? These words really feel like they could be Gerard's. Maybe...?" And I was much more brutal about Gerard back then. Also much more worried. I think I've toned down both not because I have changed my mind so much as it doesn't matter as much anymore. My feelings toward Gerard these days are like sad resignation, a kind of, "Well, he's gone I guess, and nothing I can do about it."
Mayo, though? Yeah, Stockholm syndrome, you and me, GV. Can we huddle in the basement together and when he brings us water, talk about how kind he is? ;D
So what is it now? Mayo is our group consciousness and does not exist outside of our perception. Nice, I can dig that. Well, can I be Mayo next? The next post is going to have either a pretentious "I ARE TEH ENGLISH MAJOR" bent or, alternately, "quantum physics in laymen's terms turned philosophy" angle. Then you'll know I've hijacked the group consciousness that makes up Mayonaise. ;D
RW, what a beautiful job on the costumes. And the production looks amazing. ^_^
WAIT! Katherine talks about a broadsword on her blog. Kapunua has a broadsword she talks about too. That settles it! GV and Kapunua are the same!!!!!1111 THAT explains why they are nice to each other, because they ARE each other!!! Think about it K is tall...GV is tall... And they both like to write, too!
That is why they are nice to each other FOREVER...
AND EVER!!!111oneoneSharpie111!!!
I hate chain letters and I usually instantly delete them, but this one I got just now said this:
Tomorrow at 9:12 AM somebody will address you and tell you something you have been waiting to hear.
So I'm interested to see who says what at 9:12 tomorrow morning. I hope it's like, winning lottery numbers or something.
Thank you, K :)
Wow guys. Almost at 3000?
I really shouldn't take weekends off from this place, should I?
-A
That is why they are nice to each other FOREVER...
AND EVER!!!111oneoneSharpie111!!!
ZOMG, I know, rite??
0_0
Mayo's is a full-time job, A!
The only anon game I ever played was the Amaaaaayyyyyyyzing Life of RW and Kapu, and the Trapped In The Kitchen one.
-A
I played Tumbleweed and Jackrabbit street team anon.
RW, it sure SEEMS that way doesn't it?
I defintely kill a few good hours with this place.
-A
Same, A.
....
Apparently we're the only ones. I don't hear any choruses of "Yeah! Mee too!!"
-A
Had a feeling that was you, A! in chat we always say, "Okay, was that you? No? It wasn't any of us? I wonder who it could have been!" It's fun.
And of course I think everyone knows who the various food / drink / utensils and other objects anons usually are.
hello everyone!
mayo and SS!
man the comments are creeping up. whats the record?? i know its over 3000 but can i be bothered to go check???
erm nah!
SWEET NEWS MAN!
Rise Against are doing Warped this year, but only from August 6th to the 17th.
August 6th is the date for the Calgary Show!!
HAHAHAHAHHAA!!!
-A is petty like that.
man the comments are creeping up. whats the record?? i know its over 3000 but can i be bothered to go check???
3600 or something, I think. Or maybe a bit less.
well i did go and check cos thats the kind of girl i am!!
it was "off the grid"
3555 comments.
hey we could beat that if mayo doesn't appear!!
hi RW!
you were very very close!
OOO! Excellent, FASC :)
I'm still in my PJs and my hair looks like a fright wig. It is wrong that I can't be bovvered to do anything productive today?
RW, I spent the majority of the weekend like that.
Then I got up today, cleaned the fish filter, scrubbed down the cupboards, did the dishes, and now we're going for lunch.
When I come home, I'm marinating chicken for supper, and baking some chocolate chip banana loaf.
-A
You've been much more productive than me, A! I did laundry yesterday, and cleaned the bathroom, but nothing else.
Oh yes, and I grocery shopped.
Oh! Laundry.
I have to do laundry too.
I've already warned everyone that if I come back after being out of town for 3 days and there's a single dirty dish anywhere in the house, they're all eating out for the rest of their time here.
-A
amy you have been/are going to be very productive today!!
i cleaned and washed yesterday! woo what fun! then i did more washing today! washing is never fucking ending i tell you!
The joys of being a mum, FASC! I only have one or two loeads to do every weekend.
*loads
that sounds nice RW!! i must do 7 or 8 loads a week and thats not including when i do everyones bedding. its crazy!! i hate with a passion putting all the neatly folded clothes away. no one helps at all!! i should be stricter but sometimes its easier just to do it yourself!!
god my life is THAT fucking exciting i tell you!!
I don't mind doing the laundry. I hang things rather than fold them. The bedding, though, can be a pain to put back on.
RW do you live in canada?? i keep forgetting where everyone lives!!
Yes, FASC, I'm in Toronto :)
You're in England, yes?
*tap, tap, tap*
I'm back.
What's up?
Oooo! Hullo, Sdock! :D
It's been pretty quiet in here, you haven't missed much.
I am struggling today to find something meaningful to offer everyone. Why won't the words come to me? Why? Am I purposely blocking them out? Are they there but I just can't find them? Am I not looking in the right places?
My palms are sweaty. I hate typing with sticky fingers. It makes my keyboard feel dirty and icky. Kind of the way I feel. Dirty and icky inside and out.
I need fresh air. Not the kind you get when you step outside. I need a brand new atmosphere. A different view. Slanted perspective. I've been to the edge of this cliff and peeked over a few times. I need to climb a different mountain. Challenge myself. Hang on by my fingernails. Dangle. Slip and almost fall.
Then, maybe I will get it. This thing. This life. This lack thereof.
excuse me,
i just farted
ooh i was right RW!
yup i'm in england.
hi sdock!
i hate it hot. i don't do heat at all!! i'm a spring and autumn girl. my fav seasons.
RW,
You won't mind if I just babble off some stuff, will you?
I'm letting the words come to the tips of my fingers. Will they make sense to anyone at all? I don't know the answer to that one. I roll them around, chew them up, and spit them at the screen. I catch them in my comment box.
anon,
You are so polite. Not many people say excuse me anymore.
But you know what the say, right? More room on the outside than the inside.
*tap, tap, tap*
I'm pushing your buttons now. Do you like it? Are my fingers magical?
You won't mind if I just babble off some stuff, will you?
Feel free, Solly :)
Hi FASC,
It's warm here. Like it might rain or something.
Dude is outside. At least he's not piercing holes in me with his gaze.
FYI, I just shaved his head.
He wanted me to.
Whereabouts in England, FASC?
sdock you can do it. "Look into your heart, you know it to be true."
Sorry Stars Wars moment there.
But I mean it woman, you are stronger than you know. Believe in yourself!!!
Your farts might inspire me to create something I never expected.
Or they might make me turn greenish and vomit.
Part of the fun is the not knowing!!
FYI, I just shaved his head.
He wanted me to.
0_0
Hullo again, Elena :)
I like the way you're thinking today, Sdock. ^_^
And, you don't have to tell us anything meaningful. "Meaningful" is overrated. Just tell us what you're wearing. Oh, wait, you did. ;) Well then, what color underwear do you have? Mine are straight up black. But I'm not too crazy about them because the elastic is snapped in places and they're creeping around everywhere. I'll have to switch them before I go to Tai Chi later because the last thing you want is to be pulling your underwear out of your crack while you're trying to focus.
Elena,
I still don't believe you. I mean I believe YOU, but I don't BELIEVE you.
Does that make sense?
Are you going to the KC MCR show?
Jules,
And that is why I love you. My underwear are....wait.
Little orange bikinis with a blue and pink trim. I think these are fairly new because the elastic is not shot to hell in them and they seem to be hole free.
I'm not wearing any underwear 0_0
RW,
Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet! I can't do that. I have to wear underwear.
Hey everyone. I just got back, but now I'm leaving again, so this is just your basic hit and run comment.
I'll be back later, but just in case I don't, it may be due to the fucked up weather we have currently having, which right now is rain, windy, and in the 50's.
I lost power a while ago, and in case I can't comment later on, you'll know why.
Love to all.
Hugs.
I'm just sitting at home in my PJs, Solly, so underwear is not needed.
Hi and bye, BC!
sdock
I'm just gonna keep saying it until you believe. Don't waste a single minute of you life not believing. Listen you your own words, hear what lays beneath them. Be fucking happy, make it happen.
Hell yeah I'm going to the KC show!
RW,
If you say so! I admire your freedom.
Nice, Sdock! RW, wtf, are you Gerard Way all of a sudden? ;D
I think later I'll wear my peach colored underwear. Theonly style I like is hi-cut bikini briefs, size five, from Tar-zhay. Those are the only ones that stay in place and are nice and comfy.
And sports bras, you know? I can't say enough about sports bras. Although they can give you UniBoob, they're just comfy and nice and warm and they take really good care of my rack, especially in class.
And that's my underwear dissertation for today.
hi K, elena, sdock!
hey RW i'm not wearing any underwear either!
but thats only cos i'm freshly showered and in my PJs.
oh i live on the south west coast of england in a naval port called Plymouth which is famous for the pilgrim fathers who travelled from Plymouth to America.
The Pilgrim Fathers set sail from Plymouth on 16th September 1620 in the 'Mayflower' captained by Myles Standish and steered a course for Virginia. The ship was a double-decked, three-masted vessel. However, a storm blew them off course and they reached land at Cape Cod which they subsequently renamed Plymouth Rock. Anchor was dropped on November 21st 1620
so there you have it!
Elena,
Smoke and I are thinking about Memphis right now.
My dude says if I go then I can pack my shit and leave. He is forbidding it.
He says it's idiotic to drive that far to see anyone.
RW, wtf, are you Gerard Way all of a sudden? ;D
^ ^
0_0
Jules,
I have to double up on sports bras to keep everyone safe when I am working out.
My dude says if I go then I can pack my shit and leave. He is forbidding it.
I think this is the perfect opportunity for you to leave, Sdock. Forbidding you? What does he think you are, a child??
He says it's idiotic to drive that far to see anyone.
Hell, I flew to another country to see them!
sdock10 said...
Jules,
I have to double up on sports bras to keep everyone safe when I am working out.
^_^ LOL Sdock! Can't 'complain, huh? ;)
My dude says if I go then I can pack my shit and leave. He is forbidding it.
Words like "forbid" and "allow" and "let" are deal-breakers. Hey, have you ever tried forbidding him to do something?
Hello again!
Underwear? You know, underwear's a pretty cool thing. It's just, well, cool.
Glad to know I'm not the only one that makes Target French sounding. It's a lot more fun.
RW,
I don't know what he thinks, but it seriously started a huge ass chewing last night. He ripped me a new one. I'm "stupid. Not thinking. Want to go see a bunch of queers from New Jersey".
He said mark it down because it ain't gonna happen. Just put that shit out of your mind.
My dude says if I go then I can pack my shit and leave. He is forbidding it.
you gotta go girl!! he's bluffing but call his bluff and see what happens!!!
Jules,
that's what I tried to explain to him last night but he wouldn't let me talk. He said he would never want to leave home for anything like that. There was just no getting through.
If I like something, it must be stupid.
My dude says if I go then I can pack my shit and leave. He is forbidding it.
EXCUSE ME? Oh fuck no. Cold day in hell when my husband would ever try that shit with me. I drove 600 miles each way to see them in Denver. He didn't say a word. Why are you putting up with this shit? You are a grown woman.
Does he talk like that to you often, Sdock?
Hello again, Mustard :)
I'm "stupid. Not thinking. Want to go see a bunch of queers from New Jersey".
I would have ripped him a new one on TWO different fronts here.
sdock seriously go for it!! it makes me mad how he treats you!! i know i get a tonne of shit aswell but you have no ties!! get out and live your life and be happy!
However did you end up shackled with someone like that, Solly?
FASC,
I think you're right. I'm going to go. I just haven't decided for sure what show yet. That much is a done deal.
It's all on him...he can throw me out if he wants. And then when people ask him what happened he can tell them that I was a crazy bitch who started talking to these other crazy bitches on the computer and drove 10 hours to a concert. And people will go, so?
And he will be like yeah I put her ass on the road. I showed her. And people will say...stupid fucker.
Solly, the word "queer" would be a deal-breaker, too. You're so much better than someone who even thinks that way.
And he will be like yeah I put her ass on the road. I showed her. And people will say...stupid fucker.
Too right!
Solly, why wait? If he's going to throw you out, and he treats you so badly to begin with, why not just walk? Who cares what happens to him or what he says afterwards. Let it be your decision and not his. Be proactive!
Solly, the word "queer" would be a deal-breaker, too. You're so much better than someone who even thinks that way.
Right. That was hole number two right after "stupid."
He talks to me like that all the time. I'm using the wrong pots or I didn't stir something just right. I'm wearing the wrong thing. I don't sweep the floor correctly.
It's his way or the highway. That's what he says.
Yet, he's never made me leave.
I ended up with him because I truly loved him. He was someone who was hurting and I wanted to show him that he could be loved.
Besides, he won't throw you out. He'll just keep abusing you. And that's why he's going to keep you around until you walk away.
It's all on him...stupid fucker.
Yeah to all of that. It's not you, it's 100% him, Sdock.
He's jealous of everything. Of my family, of my sister, of my nephew, of my love for music, of MCR, of Mayonaise, of BlogBelieve, of the computer, of anything.
I could join a knitting club and that would be wrong. It's always going to be something.
Right?
I ended up with him because I truly loved him. He was someone who was hurting and I wanted to show him that he could be loved.
But, what about you?
Yeah, Kapunua and that's where my stubborn nature won't let me walk away. It's like a battle. He wants to force me to walk away so he can say....she left me, boo hoo, she's so bad, she's just like all the other women.
And I'm not...I'm not like all the other women out there.
Fucked up? YES! YES!
He talks to me like that all the time. I'm using the wrong pots or I didn't stir something just right. I'm wearing the wrong thing. I don't sweep the floor correctly.
I don't know how you can stand it.
*is relieved she answers to no one but herself*
I ended up with him because I truly loved him. He was someone who was hurting and I wanted to show him that he could be loved.
thats so sad solly but he is seriously taking the piss now.
you have the rest of your life to live. i know its so damn hard but god i dunno what to say i want to give you a big hug!
so in true PH style
*BIG HUG*
i'm not a touchy feely person so you are kind of honoured with that one!
sdock you are NEVER gonna please him. Trust me I know this one from heart. I'm so stupid I use the wrong color onions. I have make believe friends on the Internet. I can't do anything right. Never had. But I'm trapped because of my situation. You aren't. Get out now. Don't let him do this to you.
Besides, he won't throw you out. He'll just keep abusing you. And that's why he's going to keep you around until you walk away.
QFT.
Mustard,
I don't love myself. He is not in love with me. What did I expect out of this? To show him that people are not all what he expects them to be. Oh my GAWHD! I sound so twisted. That some people actually put others before themselves.
I don't know. It doesn't make sense probably.
I kept thinking there was a good guy in there with a heart that could be fixed.
Sdock:
You can't show someone that doesn't want to see.
FASC,
I am honored. Thank you for the hug!
Elena,
I feel trapped.
sdock10 said...
Yeah, Kapunua and that's where my stubborn nature won't let me walk away.
If I may? Solly, I don't think this is stubbornness as much as fear of the unknown.
It's like a battle. He wants to force me to walk away so he can say....she left me, boo hoo, she's so bad, she's just like all the other women.
And I'm not...I'm not like all the other women out there.
But right now, you are. Because most people would feel the same way: too scared to leave.
Be unlike other women who get stuck in this situation and get your sweet ass the hell away from him. BE HAPPY. Follow YOUR bliss. Don't wait for him to make you leave; he's not going to. He likes his little doormat too much to let her go. Don't think for a second he's not getting off on his power trips, because he is.
Plus, he used the word "queer" Solly. You shouldn't have to hear slurs like that.
Yeah, Kapunua and that's where my stubborn nature won't let me walk away. It's like a battle. He wants to force me to walk away so he can say....she left me, boo hoo, she's so bad, she's just like all the other women.
You can't keep living a living this way because of what other people might say about you if you left. Fuck them, it's your life. Do what makes you happy!
Good afternoon/evening/morning Mayo, SS, Solly, Elena, MIB, RW, FASC, K......everyone! How are you all today?
Underwear, eh? Well, I am wearing a black silk bikini with an ivory lace overlay in the front and two tiny ribbons on each side....
I have a matching bra, but no need to wear a bra for hanging around the house ;)
Solly: Have ever tried giving this wonderful (not) man of your's a few ultimatums of your own?
You know, what's good for the goose is good for the gander!
Perhaps it would SHOCK him into REALITY! *big hugs*
Love and hugs to all!
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Mustard,
I don't know how to give up either. I just don't know how to quit someone.
Let me ask you this:
Do you think there's still a good person in there? Someone full of love and faith and hope? Someone you would die for?
Is that person still there?
Elena, and why are YOU trapped? God, I can't take it! Women who are unhappy who think that there is no other alternative. There is always a way. Follow your BLISS.
I know you guys are right about everything. I just don't know that I'm ready yet.
I am closer than I've ever been though.
Hullo, Anon616 :) Saucy underwear, and no mistake!
FUCK YES, 3001! First!
Post a Comment