I am so sleep deprived these days
that I am beginning to hallucinate in real time.
Did you see that? (I didn’t think so)
Everyone in the fucking room can hear me
talking to myself, out loud, to you. I am beginning
to think that they hear you also.
Or wait, was that me? It was
me...(don’t be too sure) could have been
all the words are running one into the other.
The whisper soothes, the other screams, and yet
another tells a tale in 250 words or less.
I am privileged to speak in more than one tongue,
last count...Three, “oh lucky me.”
Each purpose served with validity
and temperance, but how fucking loud
must I scream before you down it all?
And that ringing, what is ringing in your ears
when a friend, of a friend, of a girl
who trades innuendo for immortality
to the devil mentions me?
Truth (not even close). It’s not cheap.
And there’s not enough to go around these days.
And I keep all of those trades
in my pocket (thought I was the devil, did ya?).
p.s. and to this day it clings to the words both to and from and the memories.
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Lame
I just ate so much balsamic vimegar that I burned my tongue and it's all ulcerated. For real like layers of skin came off and it is bleeding.
Re that anon
, That's the one from last week we were all talking. To. :D
He told me last night he wishes I would go back to the way I was before. I said "you really want me to be unhappy like I was?" His answer "Yes"
Shit, what do you say to that?
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Good morning/afternoon everyone. Elena, that's terrible. Your husband actually told you that he wanted you to be unhappy? Then obviously, something is wrong.
If he seriously wants you to become unhappy again, my guess is that he does not want you to be truly happy being your real self; it's possible that he wants you to fall back on the same repeated cycle you were before; just a housewife and a mother, nothing else, because he does not want any changes to threaten his comfortable lifestyle.
This, I believe, is another form of emotional abuse no matter how you may see it.
And Elena, if it bothers you so, you really need to speak up and express your concerns, no matter how your husband may feel towards this subject. You cannot allow your unhappiness to eat you up.
You need to take action. The same goes for you VM. Otherwise, you will be stuck in an cycle over and over and over again. If you take action, perhaps it will finally break the cycle.
Alright, I'll be back in a bit. I have to go beat everyone else in internet line to purchase those pre sale tickets for the Chicago show >:)
As Mayo....
I often wish to possess the blind ignorance to myself as most have. My self awareness is a curse and more often than not, I feel disembodied. Watching myself speak and gesture and float through my day. A marionette manned by neuroses and fear. If I focus too much on the awkwardness of my motions, the way I have trained myself to act as if I'm human, the puppeteer is immobilized. A deer in headlights.
However, this is not news to all of you. I have spoken of this before.
The worst of all is that I love my own misery.
Self fulfilling prophecy. I say I want to be hear and understood only to continue asking for it in riddles.
I see myself do this and love the defeat and I hate my terrible cycle and thus begin it anew willingly.
I scream in such a way that no one understands and then is frustrated when no one does.
Speaking in riddles keeps me safe. Misery is safe. To allow oneself the possibility to let someone know who you truly are is a crack of vulnerability and that inevitably means hurt and disappointment.
How much safer to keep pretending it is all of your collective fault that you don't know what I'm talking about rather than my own. How comforting to know that no one will be able to touch me in any meaningful way.
When this revelation sinks and I go down with it, I don't even turn my eyes to Heaven any longer for deliverance.
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This is accurately creepy. I think this is how Mayonaise really feels.
How comforting to know that no one will be able to touch me in any meaningful way.
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Mayonaise, is this why MWM happened?
That "Mayonaise" I was arguing with last year, that was really you wasn't it?
I have no doubt in my mind, if that is the case.
Since no one is here, I just want to say that I just bought my ticket for the show. Yes! >:)
Thank you to whoever gave me the ducatking website. I got my 4 tickets, but it was like pulling teeth. I could only purchase 1 at a time and I had to refresh the page about 20 times to get each order form. I wonder why it was so difficult.
Hello anon. Are you going to the mcr show too?
Yes, I'm going to the detroit show.
That's cool. I got my ticket to the Chicago show. There's supposed to be two though, so I'm looking out for that.
Detroit is general admission. I'm a little scared to be honest.
Anon, I think most shows are general admission. Concerts that are held in small theaters are basically ones where you don't have an actual seat.
So basically, you have to stand.
But how come you're scared? It's not really that bad, as long as you're careful and are aware of your surroundings.
I actually prefer to stand, it's the stampede of 2000 people much youger than myself that is daunting.
Yes, to be honest, that can be quite scary. Whenever I go see MCR, I feel more older than half of the fans there.
I don't like it.
Thanks for the chat BC. I wish I was going to the Chicago show, my nephew lives there, but I work on thursday and friday. I gotta run. Have a great time.
Your very welcome anon. Take care and enjoy your day! And thank you! I hope you have a great time too.
BC, to pretend that I am Mayo....
I was no longer getting the satisfaction, that visceral thrill of connection from this place, so I created MWM in the hopes that I could capture that feeling again. A secret place that only a very few select would know about. A place where I could converse with them and not fear having constant references to Mr. Way shoved down my throat.
I tire of the references, yet lack the fortitude to simply come out and declare a separate identity.
Once again, another cycle reveals its grainy colors.
I hide myself behind words, sadistically satisfied when no one comprehends, yet wish there was someone who could peer behind the fog and actually see myself.
My worst fear is my most desired hope.
Perhaps my desperate hope is my worst fear.
I repeat myself. And then say it again.
I do not want people to care what my name is. Or my job. Or who I sleep with at night. For I consider these things immaterial to who I actually am, beneath the pale, weak flesh.
I hope to find someone who would not blink at my visage, independent of what results.
Gentle vengeance, all of those passages you have just posted, I think they absolutely reflect what Mayonaise is thinking.
I find that to be accurate and somewhat creepy, as I mentioned before.
I wish I could ask the real Mayonaise those questions, but, I am going to assume is worst fear is finding someone who may understand him.
I find an odd sort of joy in this game, so if you like, ask away. Though I must go to bed shortly.
Let me pretend you're Mayonaise, and I will then ask you this: Why did you start this blog?
There's other questions I like to ask, but I'd be putting myself in the crossfire if I did such a thing..
Real Mayonaise, as much as I would like to get answers from you, I don't think I'll get any anytime soon, so I am going to ask Gentle Vengeance, since she is the mediator in this.
As stated a few days prior, I started this blog purely as a lark.
Seeing Loveman's success in drawing people to his stunted, half-baked cryptic style, I knew I could do the same far better. I observed that he was pretending to be someone directly outside of the band and decided the perfect counter would be to pretend to be a star either within MCR or closely related to them.
My passion for mysteries and mind games runs old and deep. I knew it would afford me at least a couple months' enjoyment.
Imagine my shock when I found myself, almost against my will, integrating actual signs of myself into this.
GV/Mayonaise, you didn't know that "Love Man" was actually a she?
Imagine my shock when I found myself, almost against my will, integrating actual signs of myself into this.
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That's only because I told you to ;p
Do you think this blog might last throughout the year, or do you think that it won't be too long before it's gone?
The surges come and go. Sometimes, it is easy to compose a nugget of trivial niceties wrapped in the excuse of an identification device every 2-4 days. Often, however, dragging the words out of myself is getting to be a chore. However, there are surges.....
I know this cannot last forever. Yet I feel as if I have trapped myself again. I did not expect it to last this long. I do not quite know how I would wish it to end.
I know the cruelty inherent in simply ceasing to post, in letting everyone hang. But exposing myself, truly, has now become just as dangerous a proposition as it is in the physical realm. I know I repeat myself, but I feel as if I am running out of places to travel to.
Since no one is here, I just want to say that I just bought my ticket for the show. Yes! >:)
I was unable to get to the website in time to get mine. And am quite put out by this turn of events.
hrmph.
Now I have to wait until Saturday, with the rest of the unwashed masses.
There are so many people whose homes I wished to visit that I have now missed because I must sleep. I have a night job and if I don't sleep soon, I'm afraid I won't sleep at all.
Farewell, BC!
I know the cruelty inherent in simply ceasing to post, in letting everyone hang. But exposing myself, truly, has now become just as dangerous a proposition as it is in the physical realm. I know I repeat myself, but I feel as if I am running out of places to travel to.
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Perhaps you do, but it's possible that "you" may feel as if you do not want to expose a more vulnerable side, for fear of being seek as "weak" and "cowardly."
Who ever knows if the real Mayonaise will read this, but even so, this is one of the reasons why I am not always convinced that you act like a big teddy bear with a heart full of gold. We can try to reach and reach, but I believe you will never fully reveal the good side of you.
And that is why I still have my reservations, regardless of what others think.
Real Mayonaise, I hope you're paying attention.
Sweet dreams GV. Hello Moth. I'm sorry to hear about your misfortune.
Moth, I think the pre sale lasts most of the day today.
It's almost three in the afternoon, and no one is here. I have this place to myself! Muhaha >:)
*Strips clothes and streaks*
oh bc, keep your clothes on ;)
ok mayo, thanks for the new post,hope your doing fine.
I have to say, you surprised me, I´m just not sure if it´s a positive or a negative surprise. well depends on your intentions I guess... but I´ll wait and see, right?
hi bc, how are you? *hugs*
Hello my dear pixie. How are you? *Hugs*
This is the second time I streaked on the blogs >:)
*Puts clothes back on*
good you ahve your clothes back on ;) hehe
I´m ok, we spent the whole day at work cleaning, desinfecting and washing everything, because one of the kids got a pinworm.... bähhh ^^
how are you?
Lol. A pinworm? Wow. Are they feeling okay?
Sorry it took me long to respond, I was writing a really long post on my blog.
I'm doing okay, a bit cold, but otherwise, okay.
jep the other kids, my workmates and i are still ok... let´s just hope it stays like that. some kids are missing, but our manager refused to tell us, who the ill kid is. he said the parents are mortified... ^^
Pixie, that's good. I would be mortified if I was the parents too. That's just nasty.
Hey everyone ^_^
it is, but for us it would be much easier to know, which kid is the ill one, you know?
anyway, I came home and immediately put all my clothes from yesterday and today into the washmachine and had a looooong shower... ^^
hi ctv how are you?
hello all i'm just popping in!! i can't stop sadly. just hello to all and hope everyone is ok??
will catch you tomorrow, well some of you.
anyway love to all!
you too mayo man and SS!
Hey CTV, how are you? Pixie, that's good that you did that. Maybe for the kid's protection, they didn't want to reveal their name.
hi and bye faraway and take care :)
Hello faraway. Bye faraway!
I hope you're all doing well.
S'been pretty quiet lately, yeah?
I'm okay CTV. Yeah, it's been quiet.
Frankie and Mikey supporting TUA. Kinda wondering why. Not why they are supporting it, but why they are both wearing stuff now.
Maybe because they like it, anon. Gerard is the writer of the comics after all.
bc is right and it´s nice to support your friends :)
or maybe they didn't have anymore clothes to wear.
That does come off as a bit peculiar, considering the timing and whatnot.
I'm not making anything out of it though. Isn't a final issue coming out soon? That would explain much.
Thank you for sharing.
CTV, yeah, the last issue is coming out in another week I believe.
it´ll comes out tomorrow, 20th of february
Well, duh. But I did say now. I asked at the wrong time. Should wait for smart people.
Thank you, Capture! Smart you are.
Well, thank you for the insult anonymous. Pixie, tomorrow already?
jep that´s if I remember it right from reading it at the end of nr. 5 ...
but don´t count on me, I´m confused lately ;) haha
Hey Mayo
Just thought I'd mention that I'm never gonna write as "Mayo". Shit, I have enough trouble being me without trying to be someone else.
Thanks pixie. I'll check the date on the dark horse website.
hi elena, how are you?
Hi Elena. I left a comment for you earlier on in the blog. How are you?
Hey Pixie and BC
I'm fine. Just sitting here at work. Thinking of all the things I need to do and NOT doing them.
Elena, I don't mean to be a nag, but I do hope you're alright. I read some of your comments from earlier today, and I left some advice on the previous page here.
I hope some of my advice will help. Sometimes it's weird giving advice to people who are older than me, but I hope it'll help.
ok I´m off to bed now, take care bye *hugs*
Goodnight and sweet dreams Pixie.
By the way, you're comment number 666
lol
hahaha bc that´s because I live in HeLL-sinki ;)
LOL. Goodnight pixie!
hello everyonme this is a flying visit I have tutoring and managed to sleep through the alarm , and so sis my girl!) though I needed it.
Update - leg is still fucking sore and a bit puffy, keeping a close watch
PP thanks for your note! I am very mush hoping it doesn't get infected
hello Pixie hope you're well
BC glad yu got the tickets
FASC hI and bye
gidday CTV
Elena I really hope you can work something out
VM - wow I just mentioned you last night, I have been wondering how you were, knowing you were in the same boat as Elrna and sdock and me.
I was really lucky, if it had been my bro in law or dad in law they wouldn't have been so understanding -not at all, they are very traditional ,I'm the man type people, it's still not perfect but he's made a real effort. Just communicate all you can , that's the only way and if they don't listen then it's the most difficult decision, but exhaust all avenues first.
I've missed people I'm sure but hello to everyone who's here or comes and I'll be back for a bit in a few hours
Hi Ergo. I hope you're doing better than yesterday. Your leg is puffy? I think maybe you need to get that checked out. Maybe your wound might be infected.
Take care
Well, Mayonaise, since there is no one here, regarding the things Gentle Vengeance had posted earlier, I decided to write something for you.
It's also my newest post. I hope you pay attention.
I often wish to possess the blind ignorance to myself as most have. My self awareness is a curse and more often than not, I feel disembodied. Watching myself speak and gesture and float through my day. A marionette manned by neuroses and fear. If I focus too much on the awkwardness of my motions, the way I have trained myself to act as if I'm human, the puppeteer is immobilized. A deer in headlights. However, this is not news to all of you. I have spoken of this before. The worst of all is that I love my own misery. Self fulfilling prophecy. I say I want to be hear and understood only to continue asking for it in riddles. I see myself do this and love the defeat and I hate my terrible cycle and thus begin it anew willingly. I scream in such a way that no one understands and then is frustrated when no one does. Speaking in riddles keeps me safe. Misery is safe. To allow oneself the possibility to let someone know who you truly are is a crack of vulnerability and that inevitably means hurt and disappointment. How much safer to keep pretending it is all of your collective fault that you don't know what I'm talking about rather than my own. How comforting to know that no one will be able to touch me in any meaningful way. When this revelation sinks and I go down with it, I don't even turn my eyes to Heaven any longer for deliverance.
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Gentle Vengeance created this when pretending to be Mayonaise, but I cannot help but think that this is what he may have been possibly telling us all along. So many things wrong with this passage; it screams of desperation and despair.
I often wish to possess the blind ignorance to myself as most have. My self awareness is a curse and more often than not, I feel disembodied. Watching myself speak and gesture and float through my day. A marionette manned by neuroses and fear. If I focus too much on the awkwardness of my motions, the way I have trained myself to act as if I'm human, the puppeteer is immobilized. A deer in headlights.
Mayonaise, do you absolutely loathe yourself that you are willing to yearn to possess the trait of blind ignorance? You are too much of your own tough critic, to the point of crossing the lines of self-loathing and self-hatred; are you aware of that? I wonder sometimes what is it that you loathe about yourself because whatever you see, I don’t see it. But perhaps, I am a blind fool myself. Do you consider yourself a puppet; not entirely aware of your surroundings, just going through the motions of what humans perform daily?
Stop the tracks, take your time, breathe, and observe the world around you.
You have to.
The worst of all is that I love my own misery. Self fulfilling prophecy. I say I want to be hear and understood only to continue asking for it in riddles.
Maybe it is because deep down, you do not want to be understood. At least not always.
I see myself do this and love the defeat and I hate my terrible cycle and thus begin it anew willingly. I scream in such a way that no one understands and then is frustrated when no one does.
You only love the defeat because it is so much easier to give up the struggle, rather than fighting day by day by day to escape from it. You give up too easily, and that is your problem. And that makes you a certified coward. You are not trying hard enough.
You want to scream to make sure one will understand you? Cut the fucking cryptic shit and lower your tone. That should help.
Speaking in riddles keeps me safe. Misery is safe. To allow oneself the possibility to let someone know who you truly are is a crack of vulnerability and that inevitably means hurt and disappointment. How much safer to keep pretending it is all of your collective fault that you don't know what I'm talking about rather than my own. How comforting to know that no one will be able to touch me in any meaningful way.
Speaking in riddles, and misery does not make you safe because you allow yourself to be its’ victim, which only brainwashes you into believing that you are safe. You allow that false illusion of invincibility to override you. One event, or one person, is all it takes to shatter that invincible bubble that surrounds you. As long as misery keeps you company, you will never experienced the joy and happiness that comes with having someone to know you or understand you, regardless if the hurt and the pain comes later.
No one is invulnerable to pain. No one is above anyone else when it comes to it. We all experience it every day, regardless of what you think. I understand you do not want to be hurt, but you cannot prevent pain from occurring. You are asking of the impossible. Pain is inevitable, no matter how hard you try to numb yourself. Sometimes it makes you stronger and wiser, not weaker.
But with pain, comes also joy.
And you prevent yourself from allowing that to ever happen. And as long as that happens, you will remain miserable and frustrated, and then you will continue to complain and whine as to why no one understands you.
Your biggest fear is knowing that someone out there understands you, but I think deep down, you also hate it because it may reveal your biggest vulnerability to it.
Your other problem is that you think no one will understand you, but I think someone does. You just never saw it coming.
GV if you are trying to say you're NOT Mayo and convince people of that, you're failing and doing the opposite of it. YOuc an say all you want that it's just because you "understand" Mayo but it looks more and more like you're really jsut telling the truth about how "Mayo" feels because you ARE him.
The best evidence is yours and Mayo's feelings for Kapunua. You say that you hated her one time. And Mayo seems to have gone through a phase of hating her or ignoring her too. Now you are after her and now "Mayo" is talking to her again. The biggest evidence of this is her movie and the whole anti valentines. Of course Mayo ignored it. "He" didn't have to say anything about it because you already said it all.
The best evidence AGAINST you being Mayo is how you feel about BC. "Mayo" seems to have realized that BC is unintelligent and he doesn't talk to her anymore. But you continue to converse with her all the time. That could be to cover your tracks though. If "Mayo" starts conversing with BC again it will be even more obvious that 'HE' is 'YOU'.
It would be easier for you if you just said it without pretending and without riddles. What you're doing is wrong. What you're doing to the people who really like 'MAYO' is wrong, especially Kapunua who seems to think she found a msyterious kindred spirit and the OPs who think they are talking to Gerard Way and call him "brother" all the time. Especially Cupcake and PaperheartXX who are vulnerable and have come to depend on "MAYO" and especially Sdock10, Elena and Toujours who almost worship "MAYO". You know it will hurt them to find out. But it's hurting them worse to keep lying.
It looks like you're trying to tell the truth. GV, please just tell it and let these people go.
Elena here. Still just being me.
BC I did read you comment and thank you for your concern. I will be fine. I always find a way to hold things together. Not for myself but for others.
Anon, GV is not Mayonaise. She is just goofing around.
As far as Mayonaise is concerned, I don't care if he talks to me or not. I'm not a baby who yearns for his attention.
I only care that I try my best to help him when or if he needs it.
I don't give a flying fuck whether I get hurled with constant insults or being slammed on a daily basis; that stuff is not important, as long as I try to help, that's all that matters to me.
Elena, your welcome. Whatever happens, you have my support, and a ear to listen to as well.
"Mayo" seems to have realized that BC is unintelligent and he doesn't talk to her anymore. But you continue to converse with her all the time. That could be to cover your tracks though. If "Mayo" starts conversing with BC again it will be even more obvious that 'HE' is 'YOU'.
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When did this happen?
I wonder why Frank is wearing multi-layers of clothing. I'ts like he decided to wear all his clothes and strip off a few layers each night. Is it that cold in South America?
exodus, do you still believe that "mayo" is gerard.
Random anon, that's what I heard. Weather's been a little nuts lately.
Anon, doesn't matter what I think anymore. I'm not important, right?
i'm a different anon. i just want your honest opinion. do you still believe "mayo" is gerard.
Anon, to tell you the truth, I don't know, but even if he wasn't, it doesn't change anything.
exodus, does your "source" still believe it's gerard.
Mayo,
Thank you for hoping that we are all happy and wishing us sweet dreams.
However, if you did indeed 'see' and 'hear' us all you would know that happiness and sweet dreams are the furthest thing from my world. And yes, I was there when you posted it; the first time in a couple of weeks!
My dad, who meant the world to me, died from serious head injuries just over 2 weeks ago.He was 58.
I am currently trying to write the statement that I have to make to the coroner's court who are investigating it.
Mostly I feel numb and still believe it is a bad dream that I will wake from.
When not numb I feel consuming hurt and anger. I felt like that last night and still feel it tonight.
I don't know or care who you are, which is perfect 'cos you feel the same about me.
You won't recall because it will have been amongst the uninteresting shit that you skim, but months ago I offered you my hand in friendship. I'm gonna put that hand back in my very naive pocket.
I realise that although my life has been torn apart 'life does go on' but this is just how I feel.
Nice guilt trip. Since when does Mayo have to befriend everyone? There are sometimes 3000 comments on this blog. No one can read all of them and certain names stand out. I'm a regular and I have no clue who you are. You shouldn't put so much stock in the internet. Talk to your real friends. Don't put such a burden on someone you never even met. But I'm sorry about your dad.
By the grace of god, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You have my condolences.
Other anon, despite the possibility of you innocently asking me a question, you should know better than to ask me that.
No one knows who Mayo is.
Kapunua should stand up and tell Mayo / GV to tell the truth. "THEY" listen to her.
An regular posting as an anon? Typical.
Anonymous 6:15
You truly believe that GV is Mayonaise? That is the same shit many of your kind pulled when you thought I was Mayonaise.
Get over yourself.
Well, if you are a regular and you have no idea who I am then that just proves what a 'family' this really is.
Goodbye!
by the grace of God Anon. You have my deepest sympathy. I know how it feels to lose your father. Mine has been gone two years now and somedays the pain is just as fresh as the day it happened. My heart goes out to you.
Hello "By the grace of God"
I think I know you you are. Life really can be shit. I don't envy you your ordeal but try to be strong.
I know, perhaps more than most, the devestation you are feeling. I hope you have lots of support (real world), that really is all that counts.
Take good care.
EB37 x
If anyone really believed that you were Mayonaise BC hey would have to believe that you were putting on a hell of a stupid act as BC. GV is smart at least. I'm sorry if that hurts you because aside from your arrogance you're pretty nice. You are arrogant because you believe that you're such hot shit that Gerard Way fell in love with you and you're going to be a model. You talk down to people, you explain simple things that everyone else already understands. Other then that you're nice. Just not smart. It's OK to be unintelligent. I'm not saying so to hurt you because you can be very sweet. It really is OK to be unintelligent, after all some days it's not important to spell Tuesday.
Take care Grace. Hello Eliza.
by the grace of god said...
Well, if you are a regular and you have no idea who I am then that just proves what a 'family' this really is.
Goodbye!
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Not many people here, including BC and Elena, seem to know who you are. And I'm sorry about your dad, really, I mean that.
Oh and ANON who thinks I almost "worship" Mayo....
As soon as I stop laughing about this I'll get back to you.
No,no let me say it now. Mayo to me is someone who has given me a chance to speak. To be heard. For this he does hold a special place in my heart. However how that equates to "worship" I'm not sure.
Del gratia
You are not forgotten here. I am so sorry for your loss, and if I could offer words of comfort for your pain, I would.
Just do not place too much emphasis on "Mayo". He is very confused himself.
Anon, where in the hell are you getting such twisted information? I do not talk down to people, and as far as being stupid is concerned, it does not bother me.
I take insults almost every day, and when someone calls me stupid, I don't go to my room and cry about it. As far as being arrogant is concerned, yes, sometimes I am.
There's traits that I have that people don't like, but if you don't like it, I can't help you with that. That's just how I am.
I never said anything about GW being in "love" with me. You and so many others have twisted the words around so many times that it is not even amusing anymore.
I have never said anything about that. And I never claimed that I have. I think this is what happens when you get information second hand.
And I don't make a big deal out of someone's misspelling. I know it's not important, but you need criticism sometimes for your own good.
I know who you are, DG, I heard you. Even if it wasn't for the obvious translation of your name and the title of your blog, I would remember. And I'm so sorry. I wish you would not leave, but if you feel like you have to, then do what's best for you. I also hope you have support in real life for this. I can't even imagine what you must be feeling and I'm just really, really sorry about your Da.
Anonymous said...
Kapunua should stand up and tell Mayo / GV to tell the truth. "THEY" listen to her.
Kapunua should chill out after a really long day of work and eat her dinner, is what Kapunua should do.
Another thing I wanted to say was that I'm sorry for my weird post this afternoon when you guys had some serious stuff going on. in my defense, I can't usually load all of the comments OR see the comment screen (blind typing on a crackberry, FUN!) and sometimes even when I can, I don't have time to read through the posts. You guys were talking about your husbands and how cruel they are and how unhappy you are with them and I'm all "OH HAI GUISE I BURNED MY TONGUE!!!111" Sorry about that, it was crass.
Unless it made you laugh. ^_^ Because I really did burn the everloving Christ out of it, seriously, it looks all cut up, it's really gross.
I was having Deep Thoughts about Mayo's post on my drive home just before so I'm going to type them up once I cook and eat dinner.
DG, was that you? I'm really sorry.
And as far as the modeling thing is concerned, I am not hot shit. Never claimed that I was.
I'm just a dork.
Hello Everyone.
Elena I hope you are able to work things out with your family.
Vm good to see you again.
DG,
I am sorry for your loss. Please do not feel that you need to leave.
We are all here for you.
Hello MJ.
Hi, Mayo. I've tried to clear my head and think about this post. One thing has been itching at the back of my head.
I am privileged to speak in more than one tongue,
last count...Three, “oh lucky me.”
Each purpose served with validity
and temperance, but how fucking loud
must I scream before you down it all?
If my "three different tongues" you mean actual languages, then go, you.
If by "three different tongues" you mean that you post here as two other people--like, say, two other anons?--then I guess I sorta think maybe that's kind of cool? Depending on which people you are? I don't know, I guess I just often wondered if you popped in here anonymously once in a while or as a regular semi-anon and said a few things. I think a bunch of us wonder that sometimes.
No, I am not talking about Katherine, because I don't believe you are Katherine. Once you said that you weren't duplicitous. I don't count posting as a semi-anon and waiting for people to guess it's you as "duplicitous." I've done it, (Weaver Girl, Kool Aid, Spin Spin Sugar [sometimes], various foods and objects, junk like that,) but rather as part of the game. Katherine being you, that would be duplicitous. And I don't think you are because, looking back at your old posts, it occurrs to me that you probably never actually lied.
I dunno, it's just something about when people tell me, "I'm being straight with you; I'm not lying; I'm not duplicitous," I believe them.
I don't think Katherine is a liar either. I just don't think she would do that. (Besides, when did Katherine ever hate me? O_o )
Oh, and if by "three different tongues" you mean that you actually have three different tongues, then you and I are going to go on a date. No just kidding, because really that's creepy, ecchi! And you can go take your tentacle porn somewhere else!
;D
My soup is too damn hot to eat. >_<
You see DG, some people who seem like they read everything here really don't. And some of the ones who seem like they don't read much do read it and know who you are. I know who you are too and I'm sorry.
Kapu if you asked, she would tell you.
I was thinking that Mayonaise might have more than one blogger account, but I do believe that sometimes he can be more than one anon.
Anon 6:42, I actually don't think so.
Hello BC and Kapu and EB37
Don't think she would tell, BC or don't think Mayo is GV?
Anon, I don't think Mayo is GV. GV said she was pretending to be him.
Katherine, GV, and Sparkle. are they the three tongues?
I knew you were going to ask that. I wondered that myself, but eh, I don't care.
Anonymous said...
Kapu if you asked, she would tell you.
She's said over and over again that she's not. And Mayo has said that he hasn't been duplicitous. All we know is what we're told. I believe them.
So is it wrong I sorta like the three actual tongues idea?
Seriously, stop with the paranoia already. GV is not Mayonaise.
Elena, I actually though the three tongue topic was about lizards.
DG
I thought it was you. I feel so sad for you but I know nothing can really help right now. Its just one of these awful things to be lived through.
It is always difficult to understand how everybody else's life just carries on as normal when you are feeling as if the world caved in. I remember the day of my mother's funeral-it was a beautiful sunny early September morning. I saw people laughing that day and wondered if I would ever laugh again-I have done, eventually.
It is also true that some people do not want to consider an alternative reality for themselves without their parents and I can understand that because that reality is shit.
Please don't feel badly about perceived slights from people here you don't know. It just reflects badly on them, not you.
I hope it all works out ok for you and your family.
Everybody else, "Hello".
Elena said...
So is it wrong I sorta like the three actual tongues idea?
Well I'm not one to judge or anything, I mean, uhh, whatever blows your hair back, you know? ;D
Hey Eliza! Good to read you again.
You believe Mayo now Kapu because he was nice to you. If he went back to ignoring you you would be a bitch to him again and calling him names.
*sigh*
Hello everyone! HI BC, Elena, anonymous(es), Eliza, K....everyone.....
DG: I am so sorry you're feeling this way and wish I could do something to help. Stay strong and know that we are here for you.
*My love to you*
It would appear that K is thinking the same as me. I asked Mayo some of these questions early this morning:
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Mayo said…..
“I am privileged to speak in more than one tongue,
last count...Three, “oh lucky me.”
Would it would be too much to ask, of the forked tongue, to point us in the direction of the other two tongues? (Unless you meant tongue as in language; if so, NEVERMIND !)
Mayo asked…..“but how fucking loud
must I scream before you down it all?”
Perhaps volume is not the problem.
Perhaps the problem is tone…….
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Possum: I'm sure gonna miss you girl! I hope you find everything you're looking for out there - in the real world - and don't forget to come back and visit us!!!!
Siobhan: Thank you, thank you, thank, my love!!!!!!!! I miss you!
Hugs and love to all,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hello Eliza.
The whisper soothes
the other screams
another tells a tale in 250 words or less
Could these be the three tongues?
Wendy!!! How are you? *smothers Wendy with kisses*
Well, I think Mayo is Bert McCracken, so, it's pretty much whatever.
Elena, Cupcake, and PP:
I went by your houses today. Hang in there.
It sounds like it to me anon.
Elena said...
So is it wrong I sorta like the three actual tongues idea?
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There is NOTHING wrong with that Elena. Uh-oh......you where this is leading, right?
;-)
Hey mustard. How are you?
Kapunua said...
Elena said...
So is it wrong I sorta like the three actual tongues idea?
Well I'm not one to judge or anything, I mean, uhh, whatever blows your hair back, you know? ;D
That really would!
Well, BC, thank you. :)
BC just goes along with whatever anyone else says. Does anyone else notice that? Then when some one says something she says 'Oh yeh I thought so too!'
Exodus said...
Wendy!!! How are you? *smothers Wendy with kisses*
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*pounce, tackle, hug and smooches BC*
I'm good, sweet cheeks! How are you?
I read that you got your ticket!
HOORAY for you!!!!
Anon, no I don't, but what that other anon implied was something I thought about a few days ago. Nice to know that you can't tell what I'm really thinking.
You just proved my point. And anyway how could you have thought of it a few days ago when Mayo only posted that yesterday.
Wendy, I'm okay I guess, but am happy that I got my ticket, and happy to know that I am not going alone.
Those bastards at Ticket master finally posted the dates up, but they haven't posted the date for the extra Chicago show.
I'm a bit peeved about that.
Anon, I thought about it yesterday. There. Does that make you feel better?
mustardisbetter said...
Well, I think Mayo is Bert McCracken, so, it's pretty much whatever.
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MIB! Hello, how are ya?
Truth be told, I think Mayo is the one and only
v
v
v
v
v
GENE SIMMONS!
All that talk of tongues and demons. The 'two selves'......
pants around the ankles.....
YEP, GENE SIMMONS - no doubt!
:D
Anon, for the love of Bob, lay off BC. Your superiority complex is wearing thin.
God no! Not Gene Simmons! Why can't he be Phil Anselmo instead? Lol.
Anon 7:14
Thanks.
Hello 6
No, because you didn't think of it yesterday. If Wendy and Kap and Elena didn't think of it until tonight there's no way in hell you thought of it at all. You wouldn't have thought of it unless someone else said it. You always do that, you wait for someone else to have an idea then you say 'yeh that's what I think'.
Superiority complex? All the more reason why anons are trying to make me as a stupid person.
Anon 7:17
Believe it or not, my mind is like a planner, and I think about possibilities and theories that others might not mention yet. I happen to be very observant.
I just don't mention it every time I think of something.
Anonymous said...
Anon, for the love of Bob, lay off BC. Your superiority complex is wearing thin.
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YEAH! Lay off my sweet cheeks -
PLEASE.
Hello kind hearted anonymous!
Hello Martha! *pounce,tackle...and you know the rest* ;-)
How are you today, love? I saw you had quite a night with Mr. Tennant last night :D
BC: I'm telling you, he's Gene Simmons. This post if further proof!
"It's not so much the burn, but the stench."
Umm...hmmm......How many times did Mr. Simmons burn his hair while breathing fire???? Burned some flesh a few times too.....
No one in their right mind believes that BC. You do nothing but talk and talk and talk all day constantly, probably because you don't have a job or an education or a life. If you had thought of it you would have said something. But you never think of things, you let other people think of it then you say 'I knew that, I just didn't want to say anything'. It's pathetic.
Nthed Anon.
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Anon 7:17
Believe it or not, my mind is like a planner, and I think about possibilities and theories that others might not mention yet. I happen to be very observant.
I just don't mention it every time I think of something.
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LMFAO. That is all.
Wendy, he is not Gene Simmons! ;p
Anon, like I said, internet means you can't read what I'm thinking. And eventually, one of you will fuck up your accusation of me being stupid.
It will happen. I'm not stupid, and you are nothing but a vile little piece of shit if you have to stoop low calling someone stupid.
Thank fuck I'm not the only one who sees that about Bleeding Chaos. It makes me ill. Thank you anon. You're not alone when you think those things.
Yes, i did and he sends his love over to you 6.
Anon enough already. Leave BC alone. You don't like her we get it. But all you do is say the same thing over and over again. Let it go.
You do nothing but talk and talk and talk all day constantly, probably because you don't have a job or an education or a life.
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And why the fuck do you care? You don't dictate to me or tell me how to run my life.
Hey anons, let me make it clear that I don't give a rat's ass if you hate me. Not everyone will like me. Your opinions are not important, and I don't give a shit what you think.
You're just pissed off because I wasn't the sweet and nice person I was before in the beginning.
Anonymous at 7:23,
Will you PLEASE stop - PLEASE?
What has BC ever done to you?
All she has ever done is offer everyone here her friendship and love.
HEART goes a long way in this world; and she has THAT in spades!
And, she is NOT stupid.
*big hugs for BC*
I don't hate you. I think you can be very nice. You're just not smart, and you take credit for other people's ideas.
You do nothing but talk and talk and talk all day constantly, probably because you don't have a job or an education or a life.
If you had one yourself Anon you could come up with something better to do than sit on your ass for hours throwing dirt at someone. If you'd like I could help you think of a few things to pass the time in future?
Btw, hi everyone :)
You're just not smart, and you take credit for other people's ideas.
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I'm not smart? Wow, is that phrase so fucking overrated. Go complain to someone who cares. I don't care what you think.
I have a job. I come here on my days off like the rest of you do.
Thank you Jade. How are you dear?
Martha Jones said...
Yes, i did and he sends his love over to you 6.
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I feel it Martha! Tell him thank you for me, and give him this:
*big sloppy smooch*
Well ladies, I must run for now.
I hope to catch up with ya'll later!
I have a feeling there may be some fresh bodies when I come back
;-)
Love and hugs to all,
6/Wendy
I'm not smart?
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She finally got it!
And yeah, have nothing better to do than to bully people online. What a loser.
*runs back in to give Jade a huge hug*
Hi Jade!!!! I can't stay and chat; but, I shall visit you at your place later!
It's great to see you, love!
Take care Wendy. And thank you!
Anon 7:34
How did I finally got it when you keep repeating the same shit over and over and over and over and over and over again for the past week?
I am more aware of what is being said than you think.
I'm not stupid.
Your welcome BC.
I'm not too bad thanks, and yourself?
Hello Jade and by Wendy
Hi Wendy!
Okay hun! Speak to you soon.
Hugs.
- x
I'm okay Jade. Thank you for asking.
Hello Martha.
So, what made this anon start kicking up a fuss in the first place, BC? Sorry, I'm too lazy to read back.
Jade, the usual same old shit, you know? Anons constantly calling me stupid. It's been happening for a week now.
They just hate the fact that I'm a free-spirit that doesn't give a crap what people think of her.
Take care Wendy. And thank you!
Anon 7:34
How did I finally got it
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HOW DID I FINALLY GOT IT, lol
Dear Anon, please tell us all about your awesome and fulfilling life. I'm sure you must be super happy and well-loved by everyone who knows you. Your personality simply shines.
I'm sorry to hear that BC. Luckily I'm not around enough for the anons to even know my name, so I get to miss all that crap. Anyways, it's all down to jelousy in my eyes. These people that have the time to waste bitching on someone obviously cant hate them that much. If I found someone to be 'stupid', I wouldn't give them the time of day.
Conclusion: There jelous of what they dont and wont ever have.
So check this out. My Mom told me that my brother called today (he thought it was her birthday, which it wasn't,) and he told her that my sister Donna is "so thrilled" that she's talking to her sister again.
I'm like, when did this happen? I've spoken to her once, and it was that day I told you guys about it. She said she would call or email and I haven't heard from her since, LOL!
I mean, it doesn't make a difference in my life or anything, because I've never known her at all, but still.
There jelous
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Two of a kind.
BC, you're not a free spirit. You just don't have a mind of your own.
There are two of us here.....
I'm glad I made you laugh anon. Jade, sadly, anons say shit out of these reasons: Jealousy, hatred, or boredom.
Everyone knows I'm not stupid, and I'm not one of those people who laps up their words and believe it myself.
Anon 7:46
I would like to hear that as well, considering the other anon's only good time is to bully others on the internet while they probably have their hands stuffed down their crotch.
FYI: This is getting ridiculous.
Kapunua:
That's great! I hope you continue to talk to her.
Jade:
Great to see you again. I hope everything's going better for you.
Bored, yes. Wrong, no.
Jade, they're calling you stupid.
Anon, I do have a mind of my own, and even if you see it, you would still talk shit about me.
Unlike other people, I talk and I fight back, and you can't stand that. You probably think I will just sit there and take it.
Oh darn. I'm fifteen years of age and I still make mistakes. You thought by now I would have learned.
Silly me.
BC:
But by engaging them, you're adding fuel to an already blazing flame. Try and pay no mind to their words and they will have nothing to use against you.
Jade, does this mean that I can't allow to make mistakes either? Oh darn.
mustardisbetter said...
Kapunua:
That's great! I hope you continue to talk to her.
Well that's just it you see, that's what I'm on about. We're not actually talking.
I'm bored too anon. And I see what you're talking about and I agree.
But I also think it's time for me to stop. Unintelligent people never think they are stupid. They always think they're so smart. And you will n ever convince them. As for the people who stick up for her, secretly they know she's stupid too but they are too nice to say so, or they are pretending to be too nice in order to SOUND like a nice person. So even though it's good to vent, I have to stop.
I do have a mind of my own, and even if you see it,
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DOn't you mean SEEN it??
wow, gerard looks really hot in this pic from Brazil.
http://mychemicalobsession
brasil.com/gallery/details
.php?image_id=5099
Hi Kapunua.
Hi Mustard.
Dont worry BC. I find it highly amusing. If people want to pick out my faults then they're more than welcome to. It only makes me laugh more.
Well that's just it you see, that's what I'm on about. We're not actually talking.
But, maybe your conversation with her the other day had an impact.
Well, I gotsta go upload some pics of my bed, because I think my friend Janey wants it. is it ridiculous of me to be so freaking excited to be getting a new bed, one that is less than half the size of the one I have now? Oh, but it's so neat! It's like a little cave! I can hibernate. ^_^
Nah Splash, I doubt it. But like I said, that's cool. ^_^
Jade, well then, I admire your faults. I think some of these anons think I have to be perfect or something.
I also admire fimble's misspelling.
Who's jealous of LynZ because she gets to fuck him?
Anon, the url is not working.
So jade, how was your day today?
Yikes!
Star, you summed it up perfectly. Hi!
Hmm, not bad really. I had school. That was kind of boring. But I had a really deep conversating with my step brother a little while ago. It was really nice. He really opened up to me and I realised who he really was. It made me smile to know he could open up to me like that.
How about you?
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