I am expended. I have given my soul to you and, without question, you deserve it. I am rewarded by my investment and I know I get more out of it than you. Regardless, at the end of the day, I know its worth.
I am reminded that not so long ago I was so afraid of death that I taunted it, begged it to take me on. For a little while, I allowed its insidious grip to hold my soul. I was seduced by chance and by choice.
Temptation will always tug at my better judgment. I have been successful at averting my attention from ruinous behaviors toward the seemingly benign. Still, I question whether I have just shifted gears rather than changed lanes.
Perhaps I will again fall prey to deaths seductive whisper and allow myself to be captured by the romance of self destruction. It is wise to consider that I tempt fate. The alternative is blind supposition.
For now I am anchored to the rocky bottom. I will drift, but I will not be carried out to sea.
p.s. it takes hours to come down and the fall may lead to my imperfection.
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even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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«Oldest ‹Older 1401 – 1600 of 2127 Newer› Newest»gar i have loadsa catching up to do. I have no idea what Gerard has done now so im sorry if im just chatting shit and not discussing important things
Again, K, everytime I type a comment I am not specifically thinking of you.
hello SIM!
Hello LL
Sim I'm good how about you.
Kapu you are not the only one who feels that way. thank you.
Classical song rec of the night:
Chopin's Les Sylphides Polonaise Op. 40-1 "Military"
No problem K. RW, orange juice makes you high?! Wow. Iced tea makes me feel, I don't know, weird hehe.
Lucylu, I agree with everything you have just said. I will say this: No matter what happens, no matter how bad Gerard gets, I won't stop believing in him. I know there is the good in him that is still there. I have to believe in that.
I think he needs to believe in himself again, and know that he does not have to change his demeanor to prove his worthy to everyone.
Mayo,
How are you tonight? I hope you feeling so good that you can hardly stand yourself. Me? I am fucking sick. Yep. I feel aggravated, irritated, sleepy, tired, ill, impatient, throat hurts, nose hurts, coughy...think that about sums it up. So, I dope myself up and what do I do? I carry the fuck on...that's what.
Mayo, do you ever have one of those days? You know the ones. The ones that make you feel like throwing your hands up in the air, stomping out, and slamming the door and saying "FUCK IT, I'M DONE!" I am having one of those days today. The shitty thing is that I feel bad for everyone around me that I am having one of those days. It's not their fault. I shouldn't yell and scream and take it out on them. But I have to take it out on people who actually give a shit about me or then it is meaningless, right? You only push the people that you know you can push and get away with it. I recognize this as being fucked up because I am a fucked up human being. Do you feel me?
Anyways, so....I have almost made it through the day. I didn't stomp out, I didn't throw my hands up, and I didn't slam any doors. I am quite sure that I said the "Fuck it", but not the "I'm done" part. Mayo, I am never done. I keep on keeping on...stubborn and hard headed to my fucking core. I never quit. But I am not that damn great at starting new things either. Again, the fuckedupness in that statement is acknowledged and noted.
Will it ever be enough? Is enough ever enough? Feeling drained and being pumped for more. They keep coming back to bleed me dry and they will feed on my corpse when I am done. And that is the only way that it will ever stop.
Mayo, my wish for you tonight is that you learn how to slow down and stop before the vultures start circling over your body.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. It's not the fall that kills you, it's the sudden stop at the end.
you know I bet if you asked him (and I'd say the others) if they could just go back to being a little band from jersey playing small venues and just making ends meet they would resoundingly say "yes"
I don't think Gerard wanted this ( I doubt he realised what it would be like), it is a hell of a lot of pressure for a guy who has issues himself and never saw his own worth.
I don't think he knows how to handle it. It's only really been since TBP came out that it's happened and 90% of the time they seem to have been touring.
Lord knows it's probably a huge whirlpool in his mind all the time.
I actually feel a lot of compassion for him.
I cannot imagine how it must feel to wake up each day and have to be "Gerard Way"
Kapunua i just went to the place i saw it before and it its not working on there now either :/ man that sucks i could really do with watching it again.
Have you managed to see it then sweet? Its so fucking beautiful and awe inspiring. And the message, fuck yes i always go on about the polar ice caps its my favourite rant and its close to my heart. Fuck i love those guys so much. Ive decided im going to join the echelon. I love loving a band that have an amazing message and amazing personalities and amazing music. Im devoted to them now.
Sorry about all the deleting on your blog earlier, blogger was being really random and linking all my links back to my dashboard in blogger and not myspace.
SIM, my lovely daughter, how are you? I missed you young lady! BC here needs to go listen to some rock music and let her frustrations out.
*BC goes to get her beloved Ipod*
I know, Carrie: the comment was to everyone but I can only reply for myself. Feel me? Please don't assume that any of us are going into an interview with an agenda.
Mj- im good but i have bad period cramps and im due to get up for work in 4 and a half hours its not looking good :/
Ergo Hi!!!! :)
BC Hi!!! You never emailed me back biatch :/ lol
What has Geetard done? Care to fill me in? Im too tired to catch up please tell me or tell me how far up i should look
ergoproxy said...
I cannot imagine how it must feel to wake up each day and have to be "Gerard Way"
Honestly? I have more sympathy for women who are degraded, used, spoken down to, and treated like crap. My heart doesn't bleed for some guy whose band got huge, you know? OMG, the horror.
Ergo, I guess that's why I still believe in him, but like so many things in life, I can feel both compassion and tough love.
I think what Gerard had in mind regarding his original vision of The Black Parade is not, in the end, what the reality of it turned out to be. Perhaps that's the reason behind the abrupt "flatlining" of the album & the "Black Parade is Dead" DVD.
Hi Martha Jones *waves*
Hi to everyone else who has just turned up *waves*
*waves to Lucy Lu*
:D
Hi Lucy Lu!
Shame in me, what?!? I never responded to your email?!? I did!!! I guess you didn't get it then huh?
K, to some extent, I agree with you. If Gerard never wanted the unnecessary attention, he shouldn't have started the message, and the band in the first place, but when it comes to these issues, I prefer to stay neutral.
I try to see the perspectives from both sides. Nothing is as simple as black and white. It's all grey, regardless if one's view of life may seem like an excuse to others.
Hellooo Lucy Lu. How are you?
BC
Kapunua, we are right there with you.
Bikey, what you said about the him pushing some of the younger fans away - I've had always thought that was the case since all this shit started happening. And you are correct when you said he is pushing away the fans that he might want to keep. I think this goes for whatever the situation may be.
I know I'm missing more awesome comments, but I'm still catching up.
http://www.last.fm/music/30+Seconds+To+Mars
+-+A+Beautiful+Lie/+videos
/+1-JwOya18u8_Q?b=1
Hi K! Hi SIM *waves*
Can't do linkies, hopefully this will work for those of you that wanted to see this vid!
Is it twisted that I have a posthumous crush on Chopin?
There you go though. Gerard and Frank are such different personalities. Frank can see that peacefully standing up for what you believe in and working in small ways can make a difference. Gerard is more the type to fight for it, go get excited and beat everyone over the head with it. Unfortunately that sort if approach needs to see the challenge.You can fight guys throwing bottles of piss at you, but how on earth do you deal with little girls who think you are the Messiah? He is lost trying to deal with that.
Hellloo Anima
Hi RW, Ergoproxy and BC! How are you guys? Are we all mass debating?
hehehehe
Sorry.
Bikey, you may be right. Does it help that I might be getting a migraine?
I just want to tell you all how glad I am that I'm not the only one who sees this, who is disappointed, saddened and worried.
Thank you, guys.
I second this.
Lucy, I think we are. Ha! I'm okay, just feeling a bit funny from the iced tea I drank earlier, but I'm drinking some water now. How are yooouu?
I think we need to throw another pillow fight. That was super fun. I swear we need something to lighten the mood.
That is how I feel Bikey I think he is lost.
Thanks bean!! Im just going to watch it now :)
BC that sux i didnt get your mail :/ ithought you were ignoring me.
Are we all mass debating?
hehehehe
0_0
Side note: Does anyone think that Bob looks totally stoned in the recent pics? I think he looks a little baked. I dunno.
Bean? That's a video of a dude sitting against a wall for about four minutes. O_O Maybe 30's not as inspiring as I thought? ;)
Not so much lost, as unwilling to listen to reliable and trusted friends who are trying to guide him in the right direction. Most people when lost, try to find their bearings, search for a way out and look for help. Mr Way is behaving as if he needs no help from anyone and appears to be pushing those closest to him away.
Aww shame in me, you know I would never ignore you my sugarmuffin ^_^
Lucy thanks for the link but thats just a video that someone has made and not the official video :/ thanks for trying for us sweetie (((hugs)))
can someone tell me what gerards done or give me a link?
Mass debating! *totally steals that*
LOL @ ME!!
Epic Fail!!!!
It is SO cold in Calgary today!!
(How cold is it?)
It's SO cold my....
Mayo, SS and Bikey, please scroll past
It's so cold, my pad froze to my crotch!!
-A
Clinton won Florida.
Damn, this race is super close. O_O
The funny thing abut this is that I think GW before the changes had a lot of respect form his peers. He has a great band and good music and a message.
And even if he has hundreds of fangirls lusting for him he can still make a difference.
Those girls would follow him to the ends of the earth if he told them to. So why not keep up the message to them. It's not like they can't learn how to be a better person. That there is more going on in the world than a pretty face in a band.
They don't have any really good role models. all he had to do was be himself and say what he believed and he could have made a differences.
how on earth do you deal with little girls who think you are the Messiah?
A very good publicist can take care of that, no problem.
Good evening everyone. Gerard the topic? What did he do this time?
-A
O_O
Amy!
K, she won Florida already? Dammn. Good evening Potato Head Amy. How are you? I hope you don't mind me calling you that hehe.
We're supposed to have a winter storm here in the morning, which absolutely sucks.
The whole trying-to-push-little-girls-away theory is valid, but I don't know if that's it.
This summer it was as if we saw a completely different person. Literally, in a matter of weeks I saw a genuine, respectful adult morph into a freaking child. Honestly, it can't be for no reason at all. Something drastic had to happen.
I don't know if he's having a crisis. I don't know if all of this is a cry for help.
I just want him back.
Nay mind think i found it.
Haha what a crock of shit!!! im so over him.
BC you said it perfectly, when you mentioned about slowly losing interest and then not caring and then the music doesnt mean anything anymore. Thats exactly how i feel. Exactly. They, but mostly him have tired me out.
I still love them ya know but not in the same way. And my interest in anything he says or does nowadays is at a very low level.
ergoproxy said...
I don't think Gerard wanted this ( I doubt he realised what it would be like), it is a hell of a lot of pressure for a guy who has issues himself and never saw his own worth.
Ergo what you said I believe it very true. I don't think he knows how to cope with all the pressure that comes with so much attention. I don't think he understands just how much worth he truly has. I don't think he believes in himself that that is heart breaking.
Stepping back a moment I realize I probably take his new attitude so badly because I have three daughters. All the crap that is thrown at women in today's world hits home. Look at TV and how women whore themselves out and it's called entertainment. Yeah, it's totally acceptable to go on a show and compete for a man. Just like a show dog. Oh look if you win you get this guy. Aren't you lucky? You now have self worth cause some dickhead picked you over all the other women trying for his attention. Yeah I'm ranting but shit.
Gerard Way once spoke of women in a positive manner. He said it didn't matter what size they were. He stressed the importance on the kind of person they were inside. I want that message for my daughters. I want them to believe in themselves. So yeah, I'm disheartened that he doesn't see the need "to send a message" that it is just about a rock show now.
Bottom line is the message was important. He did once care to speak the words and they were beautiful.
awww its ok lucy its the thought that counts and you made me smile chick :) hehe
AMYRANTH!!!
hi and really bad image there girl did you thaw ok?
Watch this. It's so pretty and the music is lovely!
resurrected wreck said...
Are we all mass debating?
hehehehe
0_0
Count your lucky stars I changed it. I was going to ask if we were all mass debating about GW and then thought better of it! LOL
*realises I tooootally defeated the point of not mentioning it*
They don't have any really good role models. all he had to do was be himself and say what he believed and he could have made a differences.
-----------------------------------
MJ, exactly. Just be your own fucking self. What is wrong with him not being himself? I like him the way he was before. Shouldn't that be enough?
P.S. I lust for him on a daily basis. LOL
*BC is attempting to stifle a giggle with her hand clamped to her mouth. Hehe*
Elena, what you said was awesome, your view of how women are viewed in the entertainment industry is spot on, and I am SO glad that you're out there raising children.
RW I Love it!!! ♥
I loe the music so much wow thats a really interesting piece. Thanks for sharing that sweetie pie :)
^_^
Mustard!
Hiya Ergo and Pantera!
Mm,mmm.... potatoes...
I'm somewhat better tonight. :D
-A
Y'welcome, SIM :)
*skips in and sits right down on the couch*
well hello everyone, you certainly bee bizzy today hey and i know the conversation.
so anima if you are here i really hope you had a nice day today.
la la de dum de dum la la la
Count your lucky stars I changed it. I was going to ask if we were all mass debating about GW and then thought better of it.
We coulnd't possibly be, we have no glow sticks ;)
elena I absolutley agree with you.
I don't think he realises what he's doing and hopefully he will listen to someone and get an idea.
and I refuse to watch reality shows like that, it's awful (well any actually as I think it's a poor excuse for entertainment)
It's so cold, my pad froze to my crotch!!
^ ^
0_0
^And I really mean that!
It's so cold, my pad froze to my crotch!!
Totally made me LOL.
Hey Fumble! *hugs*
RW, excellent point!
You know my daughters are the ones who introduced me to MCR. They showed my LOTMS and I was blown away. Here was a man allowing himself to be filmed drunk and in doing so showing kids how fucked up that really was. He talked about "Shitty ass rock dudes" and in doing so showed girls that they deserved respect.
The man was awesome. The whole band had a fucking important message.
How can it be gone? Where the fuck did it go? Can't Gerard see the wonderful oppertunity he now has to he heard? All these young girls do listen to him. Yeah, he's just a normal fucked up guy but one who can make a difference.
Potato Amy, I'm glad to hear you're doing more better tonight. Hello fimble. I am not sure if I said hello to Elena yet.
Hi Elena!
HOUSE.
BYE.
CTV, you didn't have to get on the bus.
I have a bald spot now. :(
-A
Enjoy the show K
bye
Fim sweetest :) how are you? look im mingling are you proud? hehe
I have a bald spot now. :(
*chokes on her ice water*
i am always proud of you sim, i hope you are well and live n kicking.
*BC wonders if she was talking to herself when she posted the last comment* lol
All this venting is making me tired.
God ive missed a lot.
To the anon with eating troubles. Email me if you want too.
nearly a decade of ana/mia experience.
maybe i can help you, maybe you just want a ear either way i hope you get in contact.
I just don't have it in me to bash this man any more. We've had too many harsh, ugly, hateful words around here lately.
I'll probably get gutted for my opinion, but whatever. Gerard isn't responsible for the fate of every teenager in the world. Kids need to form their own views about things, with their parents' help. We can't rely on rock bands to raise our kids.
J
oh amyranth OW!!
bc you need to chill dont let that asswipe get you to the point where you wanna pull your hair out. ive missed you bc. I thought you didnt care when you didnt email back :/ we have to get on aim sometime.
Fim im not well but im happy. Ive got sore throat and puffy eyes and period pain but im still floating on a 30stm cloud after Sunday :) hehe ive also got to be up for work soon. its looking like im not gonna go. What you been upto fim?
OP J, I agree. It's the same old shit, and all of the venting that went on today only made me feel drained. Not to mention I had an unfortunate event with an anon today.
I'm just tired. How are you?
hello J
good point, but as well it's hard to raise them right if they have negative influences.
I don't want MCR to become like that and I really hope he works it out.
I still believe he can.
oh Fimn Home and Away started again Mon night :)
Which asswipe shame in me? I had to deal with one earlier today. And don't worry about the pulling hair thing. There will be none of that. I'm just tired right now, and the weather today did not help with my mood.
Of course I do care my lovely, unfortunately, sometimes I have problems sending emails :/
Happy Birthday, Anima.
Kinda the same, BC, kinda the same. People do wear me out.
Sorry you had another "anon" blast. Fuckin' vultures don't know when to quit. Was it our, uh, lovely crowd from before? Someone new? Don't these scavengers have lives?
Hey Elena, Amy, Ergo, everybody. Just kinda "tired of" tonight, kids, sorry for being a downer.
J
Well, guys, it's time for me to head'er. Going to have a shower, then bitch-slap my headache into oblivion with some medicine.
Have a great night! :D
sorry that should be fim - not fimn!
how are you?
and you J
Puh.
I don't judge Gerard Way on his life, because he doesn't blog about mine. Plain and simple.
Besides, I have worse problems. Like, how am I gonna cover this bald patch?
Also, how do I keep my glasses from freezing over completely? I missed the bus this morning because my glasses had such a thick layer of ice, I couldn't see!
-A
goodnight RW hope you feel better tomorrow!
im gonna try and sleep. see you all tomorrow when im skiving work :/ bye take care
well sim, i have been in lesson today but yet again shouldnt really be there cos all i did was stare out the window and think. global marketing = crap
accounting = crap
oh well, at least i saw the clouds a lot.
you should be in bed but if you are not going in, it is good to see you here. fantastic review, you sounded like you had a blast. i am very jappy for you.
ergo, did home and away stop for some reason?
The Secret of Fimn?
-A
amyranth you need a mirkin
Hello Ergo, BC, OPJ, Entropy, Amy, SIM, Fimble, others lurking about!
RW:
Goodnight, and I hope that headache goes away.
KD:
If you're here, I hope everything's okay. Let us know if you want :)
Anima:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AGAIN!!!
*runs and jumps ontop of entropy*
arghhhhhhhh where have you been pimp, how was your day?
And Happy Birthday, Anima, hope you've had a good day! Lots of cake and some nice prezzies, time with the hubby, whatever was fun for you.
Ergo, yeah, I know, sometimes all the "Gerard is responsible for the a) extinction of the dinosaurs/b) Great Flood/c) plague of locusts/d) whatever else is wrong with the world" thing that some turn it into makes me weary. That's all.
J
It stops over christmas they break for 6 or so weeks
Hello to everyone who has returned and goodbye to all who have left.
Goodnight RW. Sweet dreams. Hello Mustard. Goodnight shame in me. OP J, thanks. And yes, unfortunately, he/she/they were bitching about the same topic the anons were bitching about the other day :/
Hey Mustard. Hey Fimmy. Hey everyone.
Wow, Fim. You don't smell all that bad, you didn't work, huh?
Gerard is responsible for the extinction of dinosaurs? I didn't know that. LOL :D
*chokes on her apple crisp*
No thanks! I have enough MIRKINS!
-A
i heard it was global warming.
Can't Gerard see the wonderful oppertunity he now has to he heard? All these young girls do listen to him. Yeah, he's just a normal fucked up guy but one who can make a difference.
Ahh, the exuberance of youth! We all think we can change the world. Funny how that illusion wears thin after 30!
Perhaps he questioned if anyone was really listening or just following.
I think there is still a message there. Words are cheap though and if you keep repeating yourself, you end up sounding like a parody.
With that ladies, I bid you all goodnight.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANIMA!!
So Gerard is responsible for global warming huh? LOL
I sure have been feeling quite moody today. I hope it hasn't offended anyone. Sorry guys.
entropy, i smell of roses hahaha, actually i just had a shower just for you. so i hope you appriciate it.
did you have a nice day?
Goodnight and sweet dreams Bikey.
Heya Mustard, how's life on the porch? Tell 'em all hello for me and L. :)
BC, figures. They're like a dog with a dead rat. I'm sorry you had to deal with that.
Bikey, I know you're not here, but your comment from approximately 8.30 was exactly it. I'm with you, buddy.
J
aaww. bikey left.
*waves good-bye with lace hankey*
Aw, I do appreciate it! Thanks, my favorite ho.
Night, Bikey.
Mustard? You still here kiddo?
-A
goodnight Bikey
Funny how that illusion wears thin after 30!
you realise an awful lot as you get older, I hope he isn't jaded at 30, he can still make a difference, he may just need to rethink it!
sweet dreams!
BC, TJ, yeah, G taught the dinosaurs to smoke. He handed out Marlboros to all the 'saurs and said, "Smoke 'em if ya got 'em!"
Pompeii? Yeah, that was Gerard.
Mt Vesuvius? Him, too.
Katrina? Actually, Hurricane Gerard.
It's all true. I made it up myself. :P
J
Hi entropy!
I am off for some lunch and housework lol - I am forcing myself from the keyboard it's stuff that will take some time not jun back and forth from.
I shall return periodically and catch up!
and there appears to be a storm between us and town so I am really hoping I don't lose power.
I'll be lurking
da dum daaa dum da dum dum dum dum dum dum
♥
OPJ, I heard that Gerard was also responsible for the fall of the Ottoman Empire.
Didn't he also invent the Ebola Virus?
-A
J
Krakatoa?
wow he gets around!
OP J, thank you. I also have to thank MJ and Ergo. Their words really helped as well, and I finally managed to address the issue earlier on as well. I needed to get it over with.
Wait wait wait...Gerard invented the Ebola virus?! He was Hurricane Katrina? What about the fall of the Soviet Union? XD
Amy, it's true. Also the Roman empire, and I believe also the House of Usher.
Ebola virus, anthrax, cold sores, hangnails, and heartburn.
Yes, he's one-stop shopping for any and all catastrophes!
J
See ya later, Ergo.
OP J:
Lmao!
well, as the resident professional sycophant, allow me to say:
aawww, poor gerard. :(
wait, sorry, just checked the manual. let me amend that:
aawww, poor gee. :( ♥
Ergo,
Yep, Krakatoa.
Stonehenge, Easter Island, Atlantis, the pyramids, UFO sightings, and he is close, personal friends with Bigfoot.
I think they were at art school together.
J
he is close, personal friends with Bigfoot.
I think they were at art school together
-----------------------------------
Now this made me really laugh!
Teej, he invented guilt too.
JUST KIDDING!
*snuggle*
-A
P.S - OHMYGOD, GERARD INVENTED CATHOLICISM!
***AMYRANTH IS CATHOLIC, PLEASE FORGIVE ME***
Oh Amy, nooooo! NOT CATHOLOCISM TOO!
L's gallbladder? The stones? Totally G at work there.
J
if gerard invented catholicism then i am severely conflicted as a pagan who went to a catholic college.
thank him? blame him?
the head spins.
Amy, J, you guys are totally funny! :D
Gerard is also the horrible force that has caused me to turn into a fucking lovey dovey marshmellow ;p
Gerard invented Marshmallows?!?!!?!
...
Well, fuck. He can't be ALL bad.
-A
bc, you made me spit on my screen. :/
i need this computer. don't make me laugh like that again.
please.
:)
Bikey said...
Ahh, the exuberance of youth! We all think we can change the world. Funny how that illusion wears thin after 30!
Really now? That's funny. I'm 35 and I still believe in it.
Meh, still not going to kiss the ass of some arrogant, sexist rock star. Never have, never will.
I'm afraid he did Amy. He turned me into one, but that was way before all of this shitty behavior started apparently ^__^
I also like colored marshmellows.
Aww squeak squeak I'm sorry if I made you do that. In real life, I enjoy making people laugh :)
Oh but BC, don't you remember? He's the reason you turned into a dangerous, crazed, homicidal lunatic! Remember? That was all his fault.
And he caused me and L to become gushy, self-centered, know-it-all fangirls who excuse all his bad behavior!
Remember?
Oh, and it's GOT to be his fault that I talk about having sex with Frank, and/or SS, every 10 seconds. In nasty, vivid detail. Wouldn't it be great if I could get Frank and SS at the same time? Hopefully, they'd like each other enough...
OOOOHHHH, that just makes me tingly all over!
...well, that's what happened according to SOME people.
:D
J
it's quite alright, bc. my computer survived. :)
Going on AIM, folks. See you all in a few. ^_^
If it wasn't for Gerard Way...
um...
I wouldn't spend an extra $5 CND for the Umbrella Academy.
That awful, awful, bastard.
-A
OP J oh yes, I do remember all of those allegations vividly. Those vicious words really hurt my feelings. Those who are spiteful desires to destroy our love in any way possible! *sniff sniff* It's all his fault. LOL
I remember those mean words the evil ones have told you >:(
:D :D
See, Amy, he's driving you to bankruptcy.
We bought a copy each, yesterday. SIX GOOD AMERICAN DOLLARS LINING HIS POCKETS!
The man must...be...stopped.
J
Take care K. Squeak squeak, as long as it made you laugh, then I'm happy. One time I saw something funny, while I was drinking some water, and when the funny clip came on, I had spit water all over my tv ^__^
BC, they're trying to destroy our love! Whatever shall we do?
Maybe you should try to do something, uh, "dangerous" to them. Like love them to death.
HEEHEE!
J
OP J, he's gonna drive us all to bankruptcy eventually. His fault of course.
*busts down the goddamn wall*
WHAT THE JESUS IS THIS?!
*cough*
I mean,
OHH YEEEEAH!
Excellent idea J! How about we try some excess snuggling and kissy kisses?
:D
Iseh de dennin-go mit de gonnab-meeehh!
Yeah!
Yay! Kool Aid Pitcher is back!
Oh yeah
Buckwheat, what the hell was that? I couldn't understand why you just said. And how are youuu?
*lurks in the corners*
*gently tips over*
Come, minions. Bathe yourselves in my red # 4! Like a waterfall of sugary sweetness to surround and inspire you! Hear the soothing sounds of my tinkling juices.
BC, I like the way you think. And the more syrupy the better. Wait, I feel a fangirly moment coming on...
Hold on a sec...
*picks up picture of Frank, the one from Warped Tour where he's showering outside*
OMG! FRANKY YOU'RE SO HAWWWWWWWWWWWT!!!!!
...ok, sorry, I had to let it go. Now, what were we talking about?
J
Helllo Irony
Are there any men I can be on? I need to make someone look like a pair of pliers wearing a band-aid.
*stalks beaches*
You're so vain...you probably think this blog is about you...
I challenge you, you Jug of Sugar Water!
Kool Aid Pitcher said...
*busts down the goddamn wall*
WHAT THE JESUS IS THIS?!
OH YEAAAAHHHH!!
....
wait....
DAMN YOU!!!
LOOK WHAT YOU DID, YOU BIG RED BASTARD!!
-A
Why hello Speedos. I think we are perfect for each other. Adorn me.
KAP, that did not sound right, but I would like a glass of #4. OP J, ha ha thank you. I am thinking of retrieving my unused wedding dress, find a way to kidnap GW, and then get married in Vegas. Remember that story I wrote a while about? Well, all of the things that were written in there, it will happen eventually hehe
:D ^__^
Oh you wanna go Amyranth? You wanna go?! Well let's go!
*tries to throw off clothes*
Oh, wait.
OMG I HAVE SPENT MY LIFE NAKED.
Speedos?
Is that what's in Mayo's drawer?
-A
Helllooo Speedos, Stevie Nicks, hairy, greasy man, Hi-C man.
*BC wishes for her own anon to play around with*
Now we're ready to rock and roll.
Why hello, ladies! Care to rub some suntan oil on my leathery skin?
*high pitched noise*
MY....
EYES!!!
-A
Amy, Lol!
Good evening my wild-eyed does! Would you care for a glass of fine champan-ye?
You mean cham-pag-nee. We call it Daby Buck here in Canada.
And Kool-Aid.... one day!!
*shakes fistful of Tang*
-A
Hello hairy greasy man. Does anyone want to rub suntan lotion on him? OP J, we can also try pinching our loves' cheeks like a couple of adorable babies. They shall drown in our sea of love!
LOL
Do you enjoy some spice in your video life? Maybe... we could make a movie together!
Stevie! Why are you singing MY song?!
Hello Continental. Nice to meet you
That's ok babe, you can keep the tip!
Pantera, maybe with a 30 foot pole, while wearing a Haz-Mat suit standing behind a blast shield.
-A
C'mon, Kool-Aid Boy, you have arms (somehow)! Let's duke it out for the honor of artificially-fruit flavored beverage drinks everywhere!
Carly hun, don't be mad. It's the only way I could get your attention. Why don't we discuss this over dinner tonight?
Wowie wow wow wow! The view from up here... is intoxicating.
... Like fine champan-ye!
Beauty is so important, especially in these times. Because without beauty, the terrorists will have truly won!
BC, yes, of course, the Vegas wedding sounds marvelous, darling. Frank and I will be there, of course.
Eternal bliss for all.
And, uh, BC, you know, I noticed that Stevie Nicks stole one of Carly Simon's songs earlier. I wonder if Carly knows?
J
Amy, ha ha. Hello leper and Carly
I want to see KAP and Hi-C duke it out!
Let's go, Hi-C, let's go, pansy ass! Come on! I can fit your entire being into my opening!
Oh, wait.
Continental, are you looking at a pair of boobs?! O_o
Thank you OP J. And you and L are invited to attend the wedding, as bridemaids!
I think Carly knows about the song swapping as well
Bow down before me, inferior beverages.
EEWWW Kool-Aid Man, I know you're more famous than me, and all? But I never got into that kind of stuff.
For me, it's always been about The Kids.
Ha ha that so did not sound right KAP XD
I'll be looking for my royalty check, Stevie!
Hello Coke Blak
Kids? Well, those little bastards LOVE me, they drink it AAAALLLL up. Suckers! Literally.
You wanna go a round? I'll go! Float like a butterfly, sting like a bee, bitch! You know I'm pretty!
You heartless glassware -- you should never have made it off the breakfast table!
That's it. You insult the KIDS, you insult ME.
You goin DOOOWN.
I am going to place money to see who is the most dominant of them all: Kool Aid Pitcher or Hi-C
Let the duking begin! :D
*BC places five hundred for KAP*
Is bored.
You will respect my authorit-ay.
Hello Blog and Cartman
GLASSWARE? GlASSWARE?! I am more than mere GLASS, foolish mortal (drink.) I am FLOWING with the life's blood of children of the 50's through the 80's. And beyond!
I am not only immortal, I am eternal!
*steam begins to rise from huge hole in head*
Do you dare to challenge me, oh puny paper packaged-one? I will sacrifice you to the gods of beverages!
And apparently I speak for everyone. Wow!
Wow, it's just like WFW, or WCW, or some other badly-faked wrestling program.
*sits back with bag of chips and can of Tab to watch the shedding of artificially-flavored children's beverages*
J
OPJ, I'm watching for the Carly Simon/Stevie Nicks THROWDOWN.
THE THRILLA IN GOLD ALBUM-VILLA!
-A
Seriously, I taste like shit, please somebody mix me with something, anything...
See? This is exactly why the entire beverage drink community nominated me to come forward and challenge you!
You have grown too big for your non-existant britches! You started out in paper packets just like all the rest of us!
*rolls up sleeves*
*sets straw hat firmly on head*
*launches self at pitcher*
MAGNUM P.I. KARATE CHOOOOOOOPPP!!!
KKKII-YAAAAAAAH!!
KAP, you sure know how to make me laugh!! That was a really funny comment XD
Blog, indeed you speak for everyone :D
OP J, this is just way too funny. I thought for a second that everyone left because I didn't want to be alone with these mischievous anons
Neither one of you are as nourishing as me!
Teej?
Why the hell are you attacking the Kool Aid Pitcher?
-A
It was the eighth episode of the 88-89 season of "Knight Rider".. David had just started to grow his hair too long, you know? And I thought it needed to be cut. So, I snuck onto his set and I hid under his trailer with a pair of scissors.. but he never showed up! He knew that I was there! He needed a haircut, but he left me lying there like a fool! I hate you, David Hasselhoff! I hate you!!
CRAP!
i blew my cover!
DON"T HURT ME O GREAT KOOL-AID PITCHER!!
the jell-o jigglers made me do it!!
Tab, I actually thought Tank tastes pretty good
*BC is going to switch computers. BRB*
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