Shame Folded Neatly
The closet was dark, and the air stale.
I waited until I could no longer hear
the breathing, and cracked open the door.
It took several seconds for my eyes to begin
to adjust to the light; I had been hidden
for several hours, most of the night.
And each breath you withhold, while still
sat across the room, arms crossed, and waiting
is released into the center of the room. I hear you
now your image becomes shadow, then curved line,
then hair, cheeks, eyes, lips, and my racing heart
is released into the center of the room. I hear you
I am fully admitted and betrayed
by the vibrations of that persistent organ
pounding in my ears and of that accidental welcome.
You alight beside me
relieving me of my guard, and returning
my promise of faith.
I thought I had waited long enough, but instead you held fast to your claim that I would emerge faithfully back into the room. And of course, I did. Not yet ready to face our lost time. And the screaming, long since dulled against the cold green plaster walls now cracked by our words thrown hard, aimed at heads and hearts, but missing. In the center of this room all that remains is heated breath and pounding heart. And the two of us are searching our thoughts, and desperately trying to string together enough words to reconnect.
p.s. sometimes in the moment we are unable to see the forest for the trees.
"Yes, I do." so now, back to that question...
Saturday, January 12, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 1601 – 1800 of 2215 Newer› Newest»Amy, if you're still here, yeah, the Apocalypse thing is something I am looking forward to reading, and it appears all of the NW soul mates are gonna be in Strange Fate. They'll may be more Night World books after that. I can't wait. I like Iliana.
Hi OP J, CTV.
A male praying mantis can mate for up to 24 hours without his head
That's dedication, and no mistake!
Ha ha thanks Wendy. It's good to be back. Take care Amy. Elena, I like having you here. Why go back to the corner? :)
Elena said...
Oh hell I'm gettin' all touchy feely again. I need to pop back to my corner.
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Elena, I just saw it!!!! No wonder you're feeling like a 10 foot tall mouse! That was so sweet..... Get as touchy feely as you would like....
I'm a touchy, feely person myself
I'm sure no one noticed that ;-)
Please pass my note to Mayo:
Mayo,
How are you, my friend? Did your Monday go just like you needed it to? Me? I'm okay. Just feeling a little...no, that's not right. I'm feeling a lot tonight, but what exactly? I have no fucking idea.
So, I thought I would just sit back and talk to you tonight about some of the things that go through my head on a daily or sometimes an hourly basis. Like today for instance, it's all but done and I sat back and asked myself the question you said you were going to ask yourself. "Was I good?" And I answer myself by saying I was probably just good enough. Not great. So tomorrow, I will make a promise to myself to try and do better than yesterday. Have you asked yourself that question today? Were you good or were you better than good? Were you the best you could be? See, why is that? Why do we do things half-assed sometimes? Not only is that shitty to everyone else involved, but that is such a shitty thing to do to ourselves. On the flip side of this, sometimes I take things way too seriously and I will get wrapped up in the littlest of tasks. It will consume me. Like a fire burning in my gut and I can't do anything until I get it done. Relate much? I will kick everything and everyone else to the side just so I can get this one tiny little thing done. It's like for one split second while I am completing this thing and I can watch it come together and see the finished product, that I don't feel empty anymore. But that moment is fleeting and short-lived and soon...the fire is burning again and I must find something else. And so on, I have to keep feeling it and feeding it because I get scared when I don't feel the fire. It's the only thing that let's me know I am still alive. Really alive...the beating of my heart and my breathing just lets me know I exist.
Feel me?
Mayo, my wish for us both tonight is that we keep our fires under control, we don't get consumed by them, and we do our fucking best not to let anyone else get burned.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Keep a safe distance.
Elena, touchy-feely can be good, in fact it can be fucking excellent depending on the touchee and the feeler. :)
Speaking of which, we need to write our soft-pore corn soon...
Course, Six is way ahead of us tonight b/c she's talking about oil and stuff.
Personally, I like my men with a little sweat on 'em. Not all the time, mind you, but, you know, it's rather sexy. Like, you know, youngish, shortish, tattooed guitar players with longish hair, gettin' sweaty onstage...
*loses self in dark, pleasant fantasy world for a few minutes*
MMM-hmm. That's good stuff there.
J
OLD MAACK
are you here?
So what else has been going on? Oh, and Happy Birthday Sonny Moore, wherever you are...and whoever you are. Sorry, Bob, I don't know who he is. Enlighten me?
Srsly? Damn, girl. If I wasn't working my ass off I would give you a 24-hour long biography.
Sweetest kid in the world should sum it up nicely.
Wendy I guess touchy feely isn't so bad. Actually it's kinda nice. I'm just returning to my corner cause it feels safe and familiar. It feels like home. I just miss sdock and GS. Wish they were here too.
L told me what went on earlier with that anon and BC. What ever happened?
OP J, last night I wrote a comment to Mayo, and I mentioned this person that I liked. Today, I guess some anons thought I was talking about Gerard, and well, tensions blew up, blah blah blah, you know.
Hey RW! We owe you an email. :)
BC, how are you doing? L told me about those crazy anons from earlier today.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself the way you did. You didn't deserve to be attacked. You HAVE been doing better, getting some help, improving your life.
We WILL defend you, because you're Family, and we love you. :)
It just kills me when someone won't let something go, like a dog with a dead rat, just because they think they have all the answers.
All I have to say is:
FUCKING VULTURES.
J
fimble I worked highschool and would get every virus going, never hair lice though, thank god!
The toddler rules must include that about the food
I'm off to Amyranths for banana loaf!!
Well ladies, it's been great catching up a bit with you all! Hopefully I'll 'see' you all tomorrow. I seem to be missing so much these days...
Have a great night RW, OP J & L, BC, Elena, Ergo, Fimble, Amy, Sdock and whoever else is on the porch, Mayo, SS.....everyone!!
*cues exit music*
"Life Is Beautiful"
thank you Nikki Sixx, D.J. Ashba & James Michael (aka: SIXX:A.M.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJDDxHIaaVk
You can't quit until you try
You can't live until you die
You can't learn to tell the truth until you learn to lie
You can't breathe until you choke
You gotta laugh when you're the joke
It's nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful
Will you swear on your life that no one will cry at my funeral
I know some things that you don't
I've done things that you won't
It's nothing like a trail of blood to find your way back home
I was waiting for my hearse
What came next was so much worse
It took a funeral to make me feel alive
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful
Will you swear on your life that no one will cry at my funeral
Alive
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful
Will you swear on your life that no one will cry at my funeral
Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful
Will you swear on your life that no one will cry at my funeral
Love & Hugs to ALL,
#6
Wendy
Hey RW! We owe you an email. :)
Take your time, I look forward to reading it when it arrives :)
night wendy
Old Maack
wher are you
bye Wendy good to see you again!
*loses self in dark, pleasant fantasy world for a few minutes*
J are you back yet?
J? J?
Nope, still in fantasy world!
'Night, Anon616 :)
Came back for one final AMEN for the night!
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Original Punks said...
Hey RW! We owe you an email. :)
BC, how are you doing? L told me about those crazy anons from earlier today.
I'm proud of you for defending yourself the way you did. You didn't deserve to be attacked. You HAVE been doing better, getting some help, improving your life.
We WILL defend you, because you're Family, and we love you. :)
It just kills me when someone won't let something go, like a dog with a dead rat, just because they think they have all the answers.
All I have to say is:
FUCKING VULTURES.
J
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AMEN!!!
Okay, that was two ;-)
Goodnight again and sweet dreams everyone!!!
Love & Hugs,
Wendy
Hello ladies,
Thought I would share something funny with you.
When I was visiting my family recently, my Mom and sister were gossiping about some woman who had apparently been cheating on her husband.
So my sister, who is married with a couple of kids, says she couldn't imagine why a woman would want to do such a thing.
At this point I'm thinking my brother-in-law must be getting something right, when she says "I mean one is pretty much the same as the other. When we're alone in the dark, I can have any man I want without any of the complications!"
True story!
I don't need to tell you I spit out my coffee!
OP J, most of it didn't bother me, because we had the same arguments with other anons a while ago, so it was nothing new, but one of them pissed me off by saying that I had a "fixation" on Gerard and that I was gonna hurt someone. I blew up after that. I don't take shit from anyone, because bullying someone for no reason makes me angry.
I have to say, no one deserves to get attacked. I know these are just blogs, but when someone attacks someone else, all I can say is, you better stay out of my way.
OP J, I love you and L too. No matter what happens, I will have your back as well. Thank you! :)
It's my bedtime, so I'm off!
'Night, everyone :)
As far as viruses go, there was an incident with L when she was a private nanny a few years ago.
Her charges were the twins and triplets she's talked about before, who were 8 and 4, respectively. The only boy in the group, one of the triplets, got the stomach flu, and then L got it. They were the only ones who were sick.
The "best" part of the story is one day, he was going along the hallway to the bathroom to throw up. He didn't make it. He started throwing up in the hall quite a ways from the BR. L was following him with a bucket and paper towels, cleaning it up as she went.
BUT. The sight/smell/sound of it made her throw up, too.
So here she is on her hands and knees, crawling down the hallway, cleaning up the kid's vomit, then vomiting, and cleaning up her own vomit. And so on.
Vomit Relay--play it today! Only from Ronco.
Night Six, see you tomorrow!
J
oh Bikey!!
lol
she's given away the secret women have held for years!
so how are you today?
Hey Bikey
How's it going?
night RW !!
sweet dreams
J EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!
I have done dirty nappies, snot, blood etc but vomit is
one of the things I cannot stand!
Goodnight Wendy. Sweet dreams to you! *hugs*
Hi there Bikey. How are you?
Ha ha, your story made me laugh :D
Ergo, lucky you. Banana loaf bread. Yummy! I love that
Night night RW. Sweet dreams
Hi Elena,Ergo,BC.
I'm doing okay. Is that really a secret among women? I would never have known!
Hello everyone, how are you all?
I heard this song the other day and it reminded me of SS's motto of Faith, Hope and Love.
"Accidents Can Happen"
SIXX:AM
Don't give up, it takes a while
I have seen this look before
And it's alright
You're not alone
If you don't love this anymore
I hear that you've slipped again
I'm here 'cause I know you'll need a friend
And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
Take some time and learn to breathe
And remember what it means
To feel alive
And to believe
Something more than what you see
I know there's a price for this
But some things in life you must resist
And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
I hear that you've slipped again
I'm here 'cause I know you'll need a friend
And you know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
You know that accidents can happen
And it's okay,
We all fall off the wagon sometimes
It's not your whole life
It's only one day
You haven't thrown everything away.
So don't give up
It takes a while.
Thank you Six. :)
BC, thank you too. I'm glad you're none the worse for wear.
Elena, yeah, I'm back, but...that world is only a short trip away!
Bikey, dude, most guys have no clue what women are thinking about in the dark. Don't y'all do that too, sometimes?
J
So Bikey what have you been up to today?
Here it is still raining and now it's more flooding :/
thank goodness we are on a hill...I am preparing an Ark!
Hey Miss T!
Well? Did you hear about your interview?
J
Bikey, I wouldn't know. I'm not married
P.S. I think your screen name is cute. ^_^
Hello hello Miss T. How are you?
Thanks OP J. If people want to talk trash, just email me or something, but usually if you want to, you have to be willing to go more than three rounds with me, because I don't back down ^_^
Believe me J, there is no thinking at all!
Bikey, I can believe that!
Wait...do you mean "all the time", or "just in bed"?
heeheehee
Surely SOMETHING goes through a guys's mind at the time, though, doesn't it?
J
Hi J, I didn't heartoday so fingers crossed for tomorrow.
Hi BC, I'm good thanks how are you? I saw that anon ealier, I wish they would leave you alone sweetie.
Hi Bikey darling, how are you today?
Bikey said...
Believe me J, there is no thinking at all!
Bikey I Love an honest man!
hey guys, i am off to bed now
have fun and i wil catch you all another day, try and be good ;)
Mayo and SS,
good morning, good afternoon, good evening and good night
Goodnight fim, sweet dreams.
Oh, sorry to hear it, Miss T. We'll keep our fingers crossed for you, honey.
J
Good night and sweet dreams fimble.
Miss T, me too, but eh, I'm not scared of them. They recycle the same old shit over and over again.
Bikey, I admire your honesty.
I'm off to bed as well. Good night, Fimble-ho! We will chat tomorrow, y/y? Elena, Bikey, MissT, everyone, good night!
Guys, hit up my blog and get on board goddamnit. ^_^
Mayo, long days and pleasant nights to you. Happy dreams of stuff, too.
SSS, the same for thee. Thank you for having my back again, you are swell. ^_^
SPLASH! Welcome to high speed, darl'. :D
Goodnight K, sweet dreams.
Thank you J and BC.
She did say that if I got the job, she would have to work out the salary first as I would be entitled to more as I have a degree.
I hope that's the reason and she was too busy today.
You have no idea J! We men are at the mercy of parts other than our brains. When that takes over, all logical thought goes out of the window!
Thank you BC, I quite like your screen name as well.
Hello Miss T! Goodnight Kapunua.
OP no I don't think it does.
the male mind is pretty much focussed.
remember women can multitask, men ....it's the rerouting of blood flow that does it I'm sure
Yeah, Miss T, I hope so too. Well, if you got a good feeling off the interview, then that's probably a good sign, right? That's what I think, anyway.
What kind of job is it, if I might ask?
J
night night K. Miss T, you're welcome. I hope you'll get the job :)
*As much as BC is a fighter, she has to try to remain optimistic and happy. The reason why she post those fucking smiles constantly*
We men are at the mercy of parts other than our brains. When that takes over, all logical thought goes out of the window!
Oh Bikey, not you too. I thought you were different, special.
Bikey, thank you
Miss T, lol
goodnight fimble and kapunua
hello MissT !
Probably just busy I'm sure, it hopefully means they need to discuss things with you and it will take a while, still have finger's crossed
Thank you BC sweetie.
J, it as a dental nurse job with good prospects.
Ergo, you're right, of course.
The blood flow goes from one head to the other!
Wow, honesty from a guy, this is cool. Bikey, we can learn from you. And you can learn from us.
Are there any issues that you want to know about? We're here to help.
L from the couch does have one thing to say. Since this was an issue not long ago, she wants to make sure every guy out there knows:
NIPPLES ARE NOT RADIO DIALS. DO NOT TRY TO TUNE IN SIRIUS RADIO WITH THEM.
The guy nearly lost his balls over that.
J
Your welcome Miss T :)
NIPPLES ARE NOT RADIO DIALS. DO NOT TRY TO TUNE IN SIRIUS RADIO WITH THEM.
O_O and yet, XD
Yes, it's true.
Mayo, SS, are you taking notes here? Just sayin'.
J
I am special, Miss T! I can't help the anatomy though. I am not saying that we completely can't control ourselves, but it is extremely difficult. Some men are better at it than others obviously.
Hi Ergo, how are you?
yes J, but if you stick an ariel up your arse and point yourself in the right direction and give them a twiddle, you can pick up BBC world service.
Miss T:
XD XD
You are such a comedian! Lol :D
Bikey, of course you're special
Bikey, you will always be special to me babes.
That anoncalypse (or whatever) was sure boring. I started reading it to understand what BC was talking about and man I couldn't even finish it. So boring.
So how is everyone on this fine evening?
Nipples are not radio dials. They are not chew toys. They don't control the lights in the room either, so stop flicking them like switches.
Same goes for the clit. "foreplay" goes both ways, and I have a mouthful of teeth
-Amyranth IS BACK.
Miss T.
That is so wrong.
I'm afraid to ask how you know that.
BBC World Service, you say?
J
MissT,
Ariel? Like The Little Mermaid?
-A is confused.
So Miss T, did you enjoy the test drive?
missT
XD If i'd had something in my mouth I would have spat it out!
Amy,
Amen, and hallelujah.
Testify, sister!
AND...
Guys, when you DO find the G-spot, DON'T MASH ON IT LIKE IT'S AN ELEVATOR BUTTON. Less is more where that's concerned.
Also, faster is not better in every case. I want to be able to know what it is I'm enjoying.
J
Tee hee J and amy.
Bikey, it was wonderful. I haven't stopped smiling all day. You are one good ride ol' Bikey.
Alie, boring indeed. Anons recycle the same shit over and over again. I have enemies. It all comes with the territory ^_^
Amy, you're back! Lmao!
:D
Guys, when you DO find the G-spot, DON'T MASH ON IT LIKE IT'S AN ELEVATOR BUTTON. Less is more where that's concerned.
Also, faster is not better in every case. I want to be able to know what it is I'm enjoying.
OP J, if I had water in my mouth, I would spit it out just by reading that. Lol
It's not a good thing when someone pulls your nipples ain't it? ^_^
I'm good thanks!
oh boy Amyranth guys really need to remember that!
Wasn't there a rapist who asked a victim to suck him and she just bit real hard?
I remeber an old woman who had an intruder and she grabbed his balls and wouldn't let go!
Doing pretty good. Thanks for asking.
Ergo, all I can is....
O_O <-<- That's gonna be my facial expression for the rest of the night.
I saw an episode of Parkinson where he was talking to another guy and I cannot recall who but explaining they were shown how to find the g spot by placing in finger and pretending to move it like "come here"
PARKINSON O_O!!!!
Ergo, I heard the same thing O_o
Night night K.
lies for a liar,
you are not trusted anymore,
good by alie/blackrose/undercoverbrother.
3 for the price of 1,
multiple personalities.
I have to say the same for you Miss T! We will have to watch it though, I believe people are starting to talk.
Gosh, I'm so sorry, but two more things:
I hear you
now your image becomes shadow, then curved line,
then hair, cheeks, eyes, lips, and my racing heart
is released into the center of the room. I hear you
I am fully admitted and betrayed
I've been meaning to say this for a while. What I really like here is the repitition of "I hear you" and the lack of punctuation after it. You're forced to the rhythm of reading it quickly so that it slides into the next phrase. Instead of sounding senseless and clumsy it reads like either a thought or a whisper. That's how I read it anyway and I find it very subtle and clever.
Second:
So if Mayo does post tonight I just wanted to remind everyone who wanted to take part in the cunning plan to not sign in when posting. For those who missed it, this is to see if it will help the porch people stay in longer by getting rid of the hive of stupid Blogger B's.
So whoever is game to try it, remember that for the next post!
Okay, I'm not a fan of drawn out goodnights, so I apologize for this.
Good night, all!
Oh Ergo, say it ain't so. He's, what, a thousand years old?
J
Hee hee, thanks Bikey.
I say let them talk. I'm up for it whenever you are sweetie.
J I know!!!!
I just thought "hmmm lucky mrs Parkinson!"
I wish I could remember he other guy.
(I'll try google) lol
Goodnight K, I'll remember the not signing in thing.
Yeah, Bikey, let 'em all talk, you couldn't have picked a better person to get talked about with! Miss T is one hot mama. She can teach you a few things, I bet. ;)
J
One hot momma, I like that J.
Go Bikey and Miss T! Ha ha sorry, couldn't help myself :)
LOL BC.
Sorry ladies work in the morning and I must go.
Goodnight all!
Goodnight Bikey my love, sweet dreams.
First comes love
then comes marriage
then comes misst with a...
...tricycle?
L is going to bed, everyone, and wanted me to post this:
"To Mayo, SS, and the rest of the Family,
Hope everyone has a good night and sweet dreams. Hope tomorrow is a good one for all of you too.
SS, thank you again for being the sweetie that you are. I know Elena was thrilled to read your comment on your blog.
I will be back tomorrow with news about my surgery date. Until then, take care of yourselves and each other!
Love you all dearly,
L."
J
goodnight bikey sweet dreams!
Goodnight Bikey, have a good one!
J
I like that one Ergo.
Goodnight L *waves at L*
Miss T, what is this "not signing in" thing? To cut down on the "B"s?
But even if we don't sign in, there's still an icon next to the name. How will that help the Porch Patrol?
J
Goodnight L. Sweet dreams. Goodnight Bikey.
goodnight L!!!
Ergo, if I'm not mistaken, there is an Anti rape product in some parts of Europe that is either a condom with barbs that become embedded in the penis, or a plastic "tampon" that has a metal spike in the other end.
-A
J, I'm not sure. It's something we were going to try.
The other icon is not colour so maybe that will help, dunno really though.
L perhaps the lack of colours may make a difference or the clickability of the names?
we can try anyway, taking off the pics made a bit of difference
amyranth - brings tears to the eyes!, but how deliciously appropriate!
I see, Miss T. Thanks for the info.
J
Amy, those contraptions sound fantastic.
Ergo and MissT, they warm the cockles of your black little hearts don't they?
Some kid was almost abducted 5 blocks away from here, you can bet I'll be carrying my work knife with me for a while now.
-A
Thanks, too, Ergo.
Hmm. I'm going to venture a hypothesis on this.
Wouldn't this increase the risk of getting false posters under the same names? Like, if someone posted and then some anon posted using their same name, wouldn't this be causing a different problem? We would have trouble figuring out who was who, I would think.
Don't know. Just a theory.
J
Amy, tasers are banned in the UK, but I found a german website and they said they ship me one no probs hee hee.
I'm gonna get one one of these days, bugger the law when it comes to personal safety.
oh amyranth! how awful!
I don't blame you.
I remember an Oprah episode years ago and this policeman said "never go to the second location", and I'll always remember it, he said do ANYTHING but don't let them take you anywhere
That's true J.
I don't know what's gonna happen.
MissT, I'd use a taser, but it would be really noticable.
That's why I just keep my pallet knife on me, usually slip it up my sleeve after I get off the bus. I've been followed home too many times in the last 2 months to take a chance now.
-A
I have a knife too amy.
J that was my thought, if they do I'd say log in and give up the idea. Most of us know the way each other write and if an anon tried the person or some other would probably twig to it.
OPJ
I think after this long we'd know who was who online and when.
Well, hopefully.
-A
Miss T, tasers would be good. I would also sign up for some martial arts/self defense classes. I always wanted to try them.
Goodnight everybody.
Have fun and I shall see you all tomorrow.
missT when we camp or travel "in the outback" we have at least 2 hunting knives.
Plus they do come in very handy where we are, and a rifle (we are licensed) I would hate to have to do it but if it was me or them or my family...
Night Misst.
-a
Just popping back to answer BC.
Yes, i'm thinking of giving martial arts a go too.
Goodnight again everyone. See ya.
goodnight Misst
fingers crossed for you tomorrow!
Miss T, excellent! Goodnight and sweet dreams to you.
Night Miss T, sleep well.
Yeah, Ergo, Amy, good points. Like I said, just a theory. Who knows what will work.
For now, though, I think I'll head to bed as well. It's been a rough day, besides being tired and crazy, my throat's hurting from sinus drainage (ooh, like you all wanted to know that!).
Goodnight, everyone, see you tomorrow! Have pleasant dreams! Amy, be careful out there, ok? Watch your back.
Goodnight Mayo, enjoy your day tomorrow, and get some rest, ok? Maybe we'll pass each other in the hall then.
love to all
J
Dear SS,
Thank you for leaving that comment for Elena. You always seem to know who needs your kind words, and just when they need them, too.
Hope all is well with you. Are you taking care of yourself? You'd better be, no excuses from you, mister. You know how I worry.
Next time you look at the stars, see if you can find the one I've sent you. It's the brightest one in the sky.
love you, babydoll
J
goodnight to you OP J
goodnight J!
sweet dreams
I think I'm going to kick off too. I just turned out one of my one of my Banana loaves and it had a raw part in it. Not impressed.
-A
oh no Amyranth!
scoop it out and put ice cream in it.
Have a good night!
Night night Amy. Sweet dreams
Ergo, Ice Cream?
-A
well icecream can make any warm cake yummy
just eat the cooked bits!
Mayo
So did you smile today? If so, was it a smile that touched your eyes?
A smile, that came from your heart? I hope you did.
I smiled today. It was a smile that came from my heart. It felt wonderful.
Your assignment tomorrow (should you decide to accept it) is to laugh.
A laugh that isn’t forced, or hollow. A real laugh that crinkles the corners of your eyes. I’m sure you’re young enough you don’t have to worry about wrinkles so this shouldn’t present a problem.
Notice how the laugh like the smile must touch your eyes? Know why?
Because the eyes are the windows to the soul.
Let the world see what we here, your lovelies, already know. You have a beautiful soul.
Night Mayo.
Elena
SS
I don’t believe I’ve ever told you goodnight before but well it’s just something that’s called for tonight.
The smiled I told Mayo about, the one that came from my heart, was of course because of you.
Thank you my friend for giving this mouse a much needed reminder that she is part of a wonderful thing here. Sometimes I let old doubts and insecurities weigh me down. I remember what it is like to be invisible and instead of fighting the feeling I embrace it. Your words remind me that I am heard. Yes, I still whisper but now that whisper is getting stronger with each passing day.
I am part of a wonderful group of people. I am not alone. They hear me and they accept me. It just feels so damn good.
Sleep well the mouse will be quiet for now.
But tomorrow….Well, tomorrow is another day. (really I said that in my best Scarlett O’Hara voice)
Peace out
Elena
Goodnight Elena. Sweet dreams
hiya Mayo
I hope you had a good day, we are getting a bit of rain here, I think I shall be building an ark soon!
I really hope you had a day full of fun and laughter, and are looking forward to tomorrow.
I have a little joke for you,
What do you call a dog with no legs?
Doesn't matter it's not going to come anyway!!
*guffaw*
I really need some sun, it's starting to affect me!
lol
And I put your credit card back in that drawer and I promise I didn't peek
Anyway, wishing love, hope, cheer and peace for you and yours
much love
EP xx
Take care Ergo.
Goodnight Mayonaise, goodnight BlogBelieve Family, goodnight lurkers. (Yes, I was up this whole time reading some books) Goodnight.
xoxo
toujours said...
mayo,
one of the unexpected gifts i've received from this blogbelieve of ours is the reacquaintance with my artist-self. making the leonard & fred drawing at christmas reawakened a part of me i really thought might be permanently asleep.
one of my favorite things to do back when i was with my ex was to sit at the table together all afternoon and just draw. we would work on our own projects, or paint award scrolls for our medieval group, or play drawing games. heck, one of our first dates was to sit side-by-side and color in coloring books!
it was such a satisfying feeling, and an invigorating one too. what he drew inspired me in my work, and what i drew inspired him, and of course, we never lacked for models when we were both sitting there at the table!
after the divorce, though, the projects i was working on just slid away. i didn't have the energy for them. they seemed unimportant, and held no enticement. my artistic self was so entwined with his, i didn't know if it was truly mine anymore.
but it is. it is mine. i'm drawing again, encouraged by everyone here, and the feeling of it is just so right. tonight, i sat here at my computer, ectoplasmic at your place, wandering around the rest of blogbelieve, and drawing.
just, drawing!
this place we have here, it's making me whole again. how is it doing that? is it a little bit like what you're getting out of it, too?
i hope so, because this is a fantastic feeling. i'm becoming me again. and i honestly don't know if that would have happened without this unique experience of ours.
and i still need to say thank you. every night i need to say thank you! i close my eyes and it fills me up, this gratitude for everything that's been happening, here and in the real world, a sweet bubbling spring within me that brims up in a smile curving the corner of my lips. i can't help it. it's too good.
share some of it, won't you, mayo? there's enough.
and so good night to you, and sweet dreams and sweet days.
(oh, and the check-up was fine. i'm all good, persephone aboveground again. *grin*)
Aww squeak squeak. I'm glad to hear you're enjoying being an artist again. That's amazing. Goodnight to you and Ergo. Sweet dreams guys.
Morning Mayo!
Oh, dearie me I had a bit of a nightmare yesterday - I couldn't seem to open my mouth on here except to change feet.
But to answer the question Kapunua asked just after I left:
Murderers are more likely to be successfully rehabilitated into society than other violent sexual offenders because murder is (generally) a crime of necessity rather than desire.
A few kill for the thrill (serial killers Dennis Rader, David Berkowitz, etc...), but most murders are committed for reasons displaying (not particularly obvious!) rational thought patterns. For a child molester or serial rapist the thrill is in the act itself so they have the same compulsion to commit the crime as an addicted smoker has to lighting up another cancer stick and rehabilitation is always more challenging when it involves "rewiring" the subject's entire thought process.
We did this^^ as part of my General Studies A-level.
Kass xx
hey kass i just beat you at DM!!
*giggles stupidly to herself*
morning mayo how you doing??
morning family hope we are all tickety boo (i know i'm crazy) this dreary morning (very dreary in rainy england i'm afraid!)
mornin SS you little gem!
ok thats me done. off to catch up!
Please pass to Mayo:
Mayo,
How are you? Well and warm, I hope. Me? I'm sleepy and dragging my ass this morning...not really in a hurry to ready myself. For whatever reason, saying what I need to say is more important than primping in the mirror.
Not saying that what I have to say is important at all.
I am going to try like hell to connect to myself today. She's been hiding from me and I need to talk to her again. I think she might be tired of yelling at me and having me never listen. I do listen. I just don't always like what she has to say. How's that for honesty? But I will see if I can lure her out. Maybe she can fan those flames for me today...what do you think?
Mayo, my wish for you today is that you also reconnect with yourself. I know I said this to you the other day, but I think it's important. Don't forget to remember yourself.
I'm off to primp now. Until the next time, my friend.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Remember who?
FOR MAYO FROM DM
sdock10 said...
Please pass to Mayo:
Mayo,
How are you? Well and warm, I hope. Me? I'm sleepy and dragging my ass this morning...not really in a hurry to ready myself. For whatever reason, saying what I need to say is more important than primping in the mirror.
Not saying that what I have to say is important at all.
I am going to try like hell to connect to myself today. She's been hiding from me and I need to talk to her again. I think she might be tired of yelling at me and having me never listen. I do listen. I just don't always like what she has to say. How's that for honesty? But I will see if I can lure her out. Maybe she can fan those flames for me today...what do you think?
Mayo, my wish for you today is that you also reconnect with yourself. I know I said this to you the other day, but I think it's important. Don't forget to remember yourself.
I'm off to primp now. Until the next time, my friend.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Remember who?
6:49 AM, January 15, 2008
oops already there. aah wells!
Curse you FASC!
Although it hurts less than I thought it would.
Villanelle,
Thank you! I love AR, especially when he being so deliciously evil in Robin Hood. Way to act Kevin Costner off the screen....
Kass xx
Murderers are more likely to be successfully rehabilitated into society than other violent sexual offenders because murder is (generally) a crime of necessity rather than desire.
Just want to point out before I go to work that rape is not about desire, but about power and domination. There's usually no "desire" involved. I think that murder and rape are pretty closely related, actually.
And as far as rehabilitation goes, well, not going on a case by case basis and in the broadest of terms, I say, Why bother? If someone had murdered someone in my family and then people wasted time "rehabilitating" them and they were released, not only would it be a slap in the face to me and the rest of my family, but then there'd be another murder to deal with.
Some people just need to rot.
And on that cheery note, I'm off. I won't be able to load the page till much later tonight.
Later, guys!
Hi Kass, FASC, Kapunua, Sdock, (anticipating soon)616, and quiet lurkers.
Hi there Mayo,
How is the day accommodating you so far?
Did your toaster play nice with the bread this morning?
Simply tonight/this morning, live well and enjoy the day.
PP
For SS,
You are proof that a simple moment of thought and time for someone else is one of the greatest gifts that can be given.
I hope you felt the smiles that warmed BlogBelieve today with your message for elena.
It is the simplest gestures that can make the most difference and mean the most.
PP
truth seeking
Good night all.
*waves toodle-oo*
I probably should clarify for Kapunua:
That's not "desire" as in "sexual desire", I'm referring to a compulsion as in the "desire" to eat, drink, take addictive drugs, etc... I concede bad terminology!
Unfortunately or otherwise, our current justice system is based on the principle that a man can change. Unless a person's never made any bad decisions in their lifetime, they're in no position to judge those that have. After all it takes less than half a second of irrationality to pull a trigger in an argument over a hedge and many convicted killers have gone on to find religion and do great social work.
My grandfather was held at a concentration camp in Czechoslovakia during the Second World War and had friends who died there. He didn't spend the rest of his life bitter, he turned to his religion, forgave and moved on. I'm not sure I could do the same, but I admired him immensely.
Forgiveness is a quality that's in very short supply - how many lives have been lost to racial and religious hatred? - but the World would be a much better place with more of it!
Kass xx
Haha, boy do I have a lot to say about her. Her tattoos mean nothing. Nothing at all. She thought it looked cool so she got them done. Yeah. Stupid. She really does suck at playing the bass. No skill at all. Oh, and the only song I actually like by MSI is "Faggot" and I didn't realize that it was their song until PR when I heard them playing it.
Arg!
She is also the most annoying person ever to talk to.
What a lie said next!!!!!!
Like you would know a lie
Good morning Mayo, SS and everyone!
Hope you all have a wonderful day!
XOXO,
S&V20
Hi S&V & Alie lies,
Are you saying LynZ's a great musician and her tattoos are meaningful?
"She really does suck at playing the bass."
Well, I couldn't comment on her general bass skills as my own guitar playing is abysmal, but I did think it was funny when she took of her bass, jumped into the O2 crowd, emerged then re-installed her instrument - all without the music changing!
I do quite like Shut Me Up, though...
Kass xx
Good morning Mayo, Princess, Kass, AL, Possum (hope I'll prove to be worth the wait *wink*), SS, voyeuristically inclined people!
How is everyone on this tantalizing Tuesday morning/afternoon/whatever it is for you? Well, it hasn't been very tantalizing for me YET; but I can hope, right???
In keeping with my "T" theme this morning, how about more SIXX:A.M lyrics:
T'is a great song to start the day and ponder a bit ;-)
"TOMORROW"
SIXX:A.M.
Where ya gonna be tomorrow?
How ya gonna face the sorrow?
Where ya gonna be when you die?
'Cause nothing's gonna last forever
And things they change like the weather
They're gone in the blink of an eye
Just look at yourself, can you see where you are?
Look at yourself, now you can't hide the scars
Just look at yourself 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you know
Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.
And are you terrified by sadness
And have you given into madness
You're running out of places to hide
'Cause everybody's got a reason
To justify how they're feelin'
Maybe you should open your eyes
Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?
Just look at yourself, 'cause there's nowhere to go
And you'll know
Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.
Are you waiting for the reason to change?
Are you waiting for the end, has it came?
Nothing's gonna stand in your way...
Just look at yourself, do you like what you see?
Look at yourself, is this how it should be?
Tomorrow
You're gonna have to live with the things you say
Tomorrow
You'll have to cross bridges that you burned today
Tomorrow...
And everything you do, it's coming back for you
You'll never outrun what waits for you
Tomorrow.
And for your listening and viewing pleasure (copy and paste)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=19VBVifnuVQ
credit to 'lavamatica' for the video
Have a great day everyone! Try to make it as tantalizing as possible; for yourself AND others.
:)
Love and Hugs to ALL,
6
Wendy
Oh, here's another video of same song:
Dedicated to all the recovering addicts out there.....
Since conquering the very ungracious, ugly demons of addiction IS what THE HERION DIARIES is all about.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LTe05o4fn8&feature=related
credit to 'julesjules68' for that one
Heeeeey, errrbody.
Yoda, you is sooo funny.
Knew you'd like the errrbody, Yoda did.
At least I know someone is paying attention to me! ^_~
Hi YoYo & 616!!
*also paying attention to S&V*
Kass xx
Hello Mayo and whoever else is here! I'm at work and we're wide open, so I can't be here much right now. Hope everybody is doing great!
Hot-diggity-dawg!
I'm doing great Mya and I'm feeling all the love in the World right now.
Have a great night!
Peace, Love & Empathy,
Kass xx
Hey Kass and Mya!
Thank you for paying attention to me, Kass! You know how I love attention.
Alright peeps, I've just discovered something......
I'm friggin' bored as hell. >_<
I'll pay attention to you..
So what does this job pay again?
However much you want cuz Mayo's writing out the checks.
^_^
How are you today, Elena??
I'm good but sitting and writing out bills. Not fun.
How are you?
Hey if Mayo is paying the bills think I could use his check book to pay mine?
Oh, I'm sure he wouldn't mind. If he does, just let me know and I'll kick his ass for you.
Then I'll make him pay them anyway.
^_^
*Princess is in an ass-kicking mood. Yay.
Is somebody home?
So, bored-as-hell Siobhan has to talk to herself then. Not as if it would be the first time!
Hello, Siobhan! I am here.
How are you, my dear? ♡
Oh, hello Siobhan! Nice to meet you here. I'm bored. What about you?
Me too, Siobhan! It's awfully quiet here. *sniffs* Wait! What's that smell?
Good evening everybody!
*sniffs* I don't know! Smells like...
Sorry Siobhan, I just interrupted your conversation :D
how are you?
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Who is this? Did you hear that Siobhan?
Relax, Siobhan! It's Villanelle. She's nice.
Hello Villanelle! I'm bored but alive. How are you?
I'm fine, I promise I won't steal your "precious"
I can't believe there's only two people at mayo's...
hello voyeurs!
Okay. *stops breathing into a paper bag*
Come out, come out! Wherrrrrrrrrrever you are! hehe
I think we're just too boring, Villanelle. No drama, no fun, hehe.
Irrelevantettes always, even to anons and lurkers :D
hey voyeur! comment allez-vous?
Irrelevantettes rule!!!
We are the unofficial queens of the blog world! ♛
Hello Voyeur! Ça va?
We are too Irrelevantette for 'Voyeur' to answer us, I suppose.
either that, or (s)he doesn't speak french
I'm fine, just siting at my desk at home doing my taxes and checking in here to take a break from them.
Real exciting stuff.
Haha! This could be the case, Villanelle.
Taking a break from whom?
Taking a break from my taxes.
Villanelle, did you enjoy my christmas gift for you? Did they wear you out or was it the other way round?
Siobhan, voyeur, I have to go now... a friend just gave me a call and we're going to meet in half an hour! and I'm still in my pajamas!
See you later, but in the meantime,
enjoy some hot guys
I think I'm a youtube addict
I loved my christmas present, there's never enough of them hehe!
In the end they all were exhausted ;)
Now I'm really leaving...
See you later! Take care!
Bye, bye! Have fun with your friend, Villanelle. À bientôt!
Okay, good to know! *giggles*
So, it's just us again, Siobhan.
RANDOM CONFESSION TIME....
Traveling Soldier from the Dixie Chicks makes me cry buckets!!
'Bedshaped' by Keane makes me cry. ☹
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