Shame Folded Neatly
The closet was dark, and the air stale.
I waited until I could no longer hear
the breathing, and cracked open the door.
It took several seconds for my eyes to begin
to adjust to the light; I had been hidden
for several hours, most of the night.
And each breath you withhold, while still
sat across the room, arms crossed, and waiting
is released into the center of the room. I hear you
now your image becomes shadow, then curved line,
then hair, cheeks, eyes, lips, and my racing heart
is released into the center of the room. I hear you
I am fully admitted and betrayed
by the vibrations of that persistent organ
pounding in my ears and of that accidental welcome.
You alight beside me
relieving me of my guard, and returning
my promise of faith.
I thought I had waited long enough, but instead you held fast to your claim that I would emerge faithfully back into the room. And of course, I did. Not yet ready to face our lost time. And the screaming, long since dulled against the cold green plaster walls now cracked by our words thrown hard, aimed at heads and hearts, but missing. In the center of this room all that remains is heated breath and pounding heart. And the two of us are searching our thoughts, and desperately trying to string together enough words to reconnect.
p.s. sometimes in the moment we are unable to see the forest for the trees.
"Yes, I do." so now, back to that question...
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who wants another poem from mayo's top drawer? yeah? ok.
Ohhhh, Good God!!!!
Helpful anon, that may be so, but the last time I said that I liked someone else. You can assume all you want, I don't care. Like I said, no one here knows what I'm really thinking. I can say one thing, then mean another.
Helpful anon, you really think I'm the only person who thinks Mayo is G? Stop acting like I'm the only one who thinks it.
Dear Anon,
Welcome to Blogbelieve. Nothing here is what it seems. Sit down, have a cup of tea, and lay off the locals, would ya?
JESUS.
-A
it's been awhile, as you can see...
since I last posted a poem for thee...
you still ponder and scratch your head...
you hope and wonder and maybe even dread...
princess loathes my little ditty's...
scared i'll talk about her sister's ti---oops.
what's in the drawer, you do not know...
maybe a figurine of curly, larry and moe...
the blowup doll might be elsewhere...
maybe it's where i keep my tupperware...
on your toes, i know you still are...
lets just hope it's not roseanne barr...
This shit just started, all because of some anon's false assumptions about what I wrote last night. You people seriously need to stop picking my words apart.
Also, if Gerard Way lurks here, he should probably consider being on the lookout for Voluptuosity. I mean, why does the girl spend her life policing BN so she can defend Gerard against any and all attacks? She's never been to a single concert, yet she met him at a comic book signing and gave him a "letter" telling him how much he means to her. I'm quite sure she thinks he remembers him and is grateful to her for sticking up for him the way she does, when in reality, she's one of those loonies who could turn on him at the drop of a hat.
wtf happened to my comment. fucking blogger, deleteing it. shit, oh i cant be bothered with you blogger at the mo. fuck you urghhhhhh
An Anonymous with SENSE?
My God.
My... god!
Is this the Apocalypse?
-A
BC, any one who saw your admissions of love on the Miracle blog know that is exactly who you're talking about. You seem to forget that some people witnessed all the things you said about your love for Gerard Way and how you hope he felt the same etc etc etc.... You think that Mayo is him and that he's always talking to you. You even said so in your comment about the I won't run away, thinking that he was the anonymous and he was talking to you. Even though you said that you didn't really think he was talking to you, you are obviously trying to protect yourself from other's opinions. Opinions like this one. But every one can actually see it. People are worried about you. You need help, you should just go and get help. You won't be happy until you are getting help. I hope you looked at that link and maybe you saw your own problem in there. Its a real disease and you should get treatment.
See, Elena. I told you! ^_~
SS, you don't know what that meant to her. Thank you.
Love,
L.
Mayo's Top Drawer.....
I have to admit, that was pretty damn funny.
Now, where'd Mayo put the keys again?
Let me see if I can't lock you up nice and tight. ^_~
I hear you loud and clear fimble. I consider all of you guys friends, of course. :)
*bows*
Hey L!
Alright Anonymous, THAT'S ENOUGH.
Kid's been through enough the last few days, quit shovelling shit on top of her, would ya?
Got a problem with her? Take it elsewhere, nobody here wants to hear it.
-A
You are so special, Top Drawer.
Hey, Princess! How goes it today?
Love,
L.
You know what anon, why the fuck do you care anyways? Like I said, you and that other anon are making false assumptions about what I wrote last night. Are you afraid because I take a more straightforward approach on how I talk about things? I am never the type of person who keeps opinions to herself. I speak my mind. Maybe you feel challenged by that.
Look, everyone has different opinions about who Mayo may or may not be, so why are you giving me shit for what I think who Mayo may or not be?
Just admit you have claimed you love GW and that you also think Mayo is GW and we can drop it and move on.
I'm doin' purdy good, L.
Just waitin' on five.
KAPUNUA!!!! How many zombies have you killed?????
And just where the hell is MUSTARD????
Exactly, Amy.
Anon,
If you have not walked in someone else's shoes, you have no idea what they are thinking, what they are going through, or what they feel. And to my knowledge, you don't know BC personally, so what right do you have to judge?
Saying you mean well does not make it better. Lay off.
L.
Amy, thanks.
Anonymous,
Who do you think Mayo is????
Me, I think Mayo is.......
Somebody. O_O
Oh, and that other Anon, the one that told Kapu that she should worry herself about stuff that's going to happen anyway?
Watch this. And then tell me it doesn't make you want to go out and fight things.
-A
let's bury the fire said...
A while back I told the others that there was someone else that I liked. Where were you when I was talking about him?
let me guess.....frank?
Anonymous said...
Just admit you have claimed you love GW and that you also think Mayo is GW and we can drop it and move on.
Uh, no. YOU drop it and move on.
And then fuck off. I have no patience for you.
-A
Anon @ 3:12
No. Now drop it and leave me the fuck alone. You have a problem with how I feel? I'll deal with it, not you, or anyone else. No one is going to tell me how I should feel about someone, and you are assuming wrongly.
OP L, thank you.
Did Mustard leave, Smoke? Or just not sign in yet? I haven't been on, so I may be out of the loop today.
It's those last two hours on the job that bite, ain't it?
J. came back from helping her sister with the daycare, and I knew it was bad when she told me to stand where I was after she came in the door, and she came over and laid her head on my shoulder and started muttering.
Apparently one toddler screamed for 45 minutes straight, it set off another, who kept trying to crawl places she shouldn't go, and just overall, she wasn't very jappy!
Love,
L.
Anonymous said...
let's bury the fire said...
A while back I told the others that there was someone else that I liked. Where were you when I was talking about him?
let me guess.....frank?
Everybody likes Frank.
Quick, come up with something INTELLIGENT to say.
-A
hi and a nice afternoon/evening girls. how´s everyone? *hugs*
You're welcome, BC. No problem at all.
Love,
L.
Everybody likes Frank.
Yes, yes,yes.
Who wouldn't?
Hey, Pixie!
I don't think we had been on at the same time since you came back.
How are you feeling?
Love,
L.
Anon @ 3:17
This person doesn't have anything to do with the band or the blogs, for that matter. Fuck off.
Hi there pixie
That's right. Who wouldn't like Frank? He's amazing.
Everyone likes Frank. I bet you $10 my mother would like Frank, and she's never met him.
Well, neither have I actually. But still.
-A
No, you gotta say it like this BC....
He's amaaaayyyyzzing.
There, like that. ^_~
hi L, honestly? I feel bad ^^ still no luck with the flat and everything seems to be too much at the moment, I have enough^^ today I started crying while I talked to my mom on the phone, she soundes so helpless... I mean she´s thousands of miles away and can´t help me ^^
but how are you? everything ok?
My mama would love Frank. He'd make her laugh. My mama is twice as mean as me but I bet he'd get her to laugh. ^_^
All it would take is one giggle....
It is not about who you think Mayo is or your stupid belief that he is always talking to you. Your the one saying it so I'm saying what I think about it. You can express yourself....... I am expressing mine.
I and others are worried because your feelings towards Gerard are dangerous to you and he.
Wow.
Have any of you ever looked up bands you USED to listen to just to see what they've been up to lately?
Dani Filth's hairline has really disappeared in the last 4 years.
He's getting OOOOOOLLLLLLDDDDDD!
-A
And as for activism, It is true that we cannot stand by and let everything "just happen". Sometimes it may only be one person making a stand, but it is still heard.
For me, it means not buying products tested on animals, supporting the no-kill shelter in Atlanta, buying cat and dog food and toys to give to the Humane Society, and being politically active.
I know it makes a difference. It makes a difference to a cat who is able to stay at the no-kill shelter instead of being shipped off to the pound to wait for their death. I know it made a difference when I talked to my niece about voting, and how she should listen and inform herself of the issues before she votes.
And the letters I write for Anmesty International may or may not get to the leader of that country, but I have to try. And yeah, that puts me on a "watch list" here in the States, but so be it. It's more important to do what you can.
I may be quieter than some, but I still get my message across. We all help in our own way.
As the singer from Rise Against said:
"If you're not angry, you're not paying attention."
Love,
L.
Ha ha thanks XX.
Anonymous said...
Also, if Gerard Way lurks here, he should probably consider being on the lookout for Voluptuosity. I mean, why does the girl spend her life policing BN so she can defend Gerard against any and all attacks? She's never been to a single concert, yet she met him at a comic book signing and gave him a "letter" telling him how much he means to her. I'm quite sure she thinks he remembers him and is grateful to her for sticking up for him the way she does, when in reality, she's one of those loonies who could turn on him at the drop of a hat.
January 14, 2008 3:00 PM
Where the hell did this came from?
Amy, thanks for sticking up for me. Asshole anons, I guess you have nothing else to say to me. Some advice from me to you: Don't start shit with me unless you're prepared to duke it out for a long while. Other anons tried doing that in the past and they eventually give up and leave.
Alright, I asked for intelligent and at least you didn't answer in gibberish.
But you're still shovelling shit when you don't need to.
So, for the second to last time, get the fuck out. Why don't you take your little spiel to BN or INO?
I'm sure there's more people in either of those two pools that need help more than Fire.
-A
Pixie, honey, I am so sorry. Sometimes you just have to sit down and have a cry and then look at what you can do from there.
I will keep you in my thoughts, sweetie, you know that, and I hope things brighten for you soon. I know you were talking about going back home. Is that something you are still thinking about?
Love,
L.
thanks so much for your nice words L you´re a sweetie, I can really need them at the moment *hugs*
I´m still thinking about going back home, my contract ends in june and I think after that I´ll go back and find a job there. maybe ins ome years I´ll go again into another country, but then to an englishspeaking country...
Anon @ 3:30
That's funny because I haven't mentioned Gerard in quite a while already, and when I don't mention him, some inconsiderate dickhead such as yourself eventually brings him up again, just like you or the other anon did a few minutes ago concerning what I wrote last night. You think my "feelings" are dangerous? Go pay attention to some chick name Voloupsity on Buzznet.
You want to go talk to someone crazy? Go to buzznet, my friend.
"Don't start shit with me unless you're prepared to duke it out for a long while. Other anons tried doing that in the past and they eventually give up and leave."
Duke it out? Haha there is no fight to 'duke out'. We said what we had to say. You have a problem. You need help. That is all. You can argue all you want but any one can really see it. And any one who was around for Miracle blog knows the things you were saying. So theres really nothing to fight about.
Alright Anon,
If "You and the others" are worried, then who ARE you and the others? Do you have an entire team ready to whisk her away at a moments notice should she mention (insert person in band's name here)?
YOU are actually coming across as being a bit obsessive here. Most people don't continue to DEMAND someone admit something that has nothing to do with them, while hiding behind a curtain.
So, Anon, tell me, what was your childhood like...
L.
"You think my "feelings" are dangerous? Go pay attention to some chick name Voloupsity on Buzznet.
You want to go talk to someone crazy? Go to buzznet, my friend."
You are a hundred times worse then any one of them because they only think he can do no wrong. You admitted youre in love with him and that you think he returns your feelings. One of them, the buzznet ppl, is just teen age rock star worship. But yours is erotomania. And your way too old for that anyways.
That's right OPL.
I used to work at PetSmart, and my PETA cousin would get on my case all the time for working at a pet store that sold pets.
However, PetSmart uses store space to set up adoption cages for agencies so those cats and dogs don't get euthanized.
Yes, they sell fish, birds, reptiles
and small animals, but unfortunately sometimes you have to dance with the devil to do the work of an angel.
I adopted my dog, and my 2 cats from a shelter. Merlot was buried in the snow under a shed on someone's property and left to die at 3 hours old. Hazel was kicked out of the house she was brought into because of her "sensitive stomach" and the owners "didn't want a cat that shits on the floor".
Before you start saying that there's nothing that can be done, and the world is the way it is, try listening to some stories. Ask questions, find out WHY.
Work to fix it.
-A
Hi Guys,
Everyone okay?
Mayo:
How are you?
Is the forest starting to look clearer? Take a big fucking chainsaw to them sweetie....I'll lend you mine when I've finished with it!
SS:
Missed you again! Thanks, Elena will be chuffed. You're an angel.
Last time I spoke to you I said I didn't feel like joking...I still don't really; but anyway, this is the best I've got at the moment;
A man went to his appointment with the urologist.
In the examining room he told the doctor, 'Don't laugh!'
'Of course I won't laugh', the doctor said. 'I'm a professional. In more than twenty years I've never laughed at a patient.'
'Ok then', the man said, and proceeded to drop his trousers, revealing
the tiniest 'willie' the doctor had ever seen. It wasn't any bigger
than a triple A battery.
Unable to control himself, the doctor started giggling, then fell to
the floor laughing hysterically. Ten minutes later he was able to
struggle to his feet and regain his composure. 'I'm so sorry', he
said. 'I really am. I don't know what came over me. On my honour as a
doctor and a gentleman, I promise it won't happen again. Now, what
seems to be the problem?'
'It's swollen', the man replied.
Love to everyone!
Pixie, I hope things work out for you. If you do go back in June, that may give you time to decide what you want to do. And since you have been sick, it may give you time to rest and heal. Family is good for that most times. :)
L.
Hey Anon, you've said what you've had to say.
Either unmask and tell us who "you" are, or go fuck yourself.
Seriously, what kind of loser are you, that you need to harp on someone else for attention?
-A
Anon, I have a problem? Yes, I do....You! You are making false assumptions about last night, because you and the other bloodsuckers want to find that weak spot and use it against me because you probably always think that I'm always talking about Gerard just because I mentioned a man. I seen that behavior when other anons pick on the other bloggers.
They're like predators; they want to find that weak spot in order to use it against you and humilate you. And don't try to deny it; you are doing the exact same thing. You either don't like someone because of the way they present themselves, or maybe, deep down, you are just jealous, or you don't want them here because you see them as a "threat"
As far as I'm concerned, I AM dealing with my problems, that is why I have been writing for the last number of nights already.
And if you think I have a problem, the problem is, you're fucking insensitive and inconsiderate. I just lost a family member to a brain disease, and you come up and start sturring up ridiculous drama that I was talking about Gerard. You know what? I don't talk about the man 24/7 hours a day, and you want to make me believe that I do.
Go find another prey for you to pounce on. If you think I'm gonna run away because you're trying to humiliate me, then you are failing. I am not going anywhere.
Amy are you still here?
Still trouble I see!
Very true, Amy!
One of our cats (Rain) came from the Humane Society that was set up at a PetSmart in Atlanta. Almost every weekend they would adopt out all the cats and dogs they brought there.
We will go by the table when they are set up and ask them what they are running low on that week, and then we will go buy some of it from PetSmart and take it back to the volunteers from the Humane Society. Usually it's food, but sometimes they will ask for toys, or training pads, and I think once it was for ear wash.
Hey DG! How are you doing today? Bad, bad joke. But in a GOOD way!
Love,
L.
Of course you are not going any where. As long as you think this is Gerard Way's blog and he is answering you you will stay here and hold on to your dream of him. Then one day it will fall apart and you won't be able to deny the truth that he does not love you or even know you....... and that is when the trouble will start. Willyou hurt yourself or him. Thats the only question.
BC, do you have a job? Or do you sit at home all day thinking that you are poring your heart out to Gerard Way and he is listening to you and he loves you? Well if you have a job you may have insurrance. Use it to get help. Or you will keep on suffering.
BC
Let is go. It's not worth getting upset about. If you do then they win.
We are with you and you know that. Don't let an ANON get you down.
Hey L,
Good to the OP's back and in fine fettle!
I'm alright...kinda. Thanks for asking!
"Pixie, I hope things work out for you. If you do go back in June, that may give you time to decide what you want to do. And since you have been sick, it may give you time to rest and heal. Family is good for that most times. :)
L."
thanks L, I think it´s really the best for me and my health if I go back and start again and I have a lovely family, so they´ll help me :)
The only attention I seek is the attention that should be given to an obviously psychologically impaired individual. Attention to a problem that with some therapy could be treated. I suppose that my efforts will be wasted. But in a last ditch attempt here goes:
BC, Mayo is not Gerard, and Gerard does not know you. Please stop talking to Mayo like he is (Gerard)and does (know you).
You can deny it until you are blue in the face, they all really know the truth. They may defend you, but they know you could probably stand to some professional help.
The regulars need to consider who they are helping and hurting by defending you.
Seek the help of a professional. this blog may be "cheap therapy" but I am afraid it is just feeding your delusion.
hi dg and elena, how are you? *hugs*
Good to see....obviously.
Jeez,idiot!
Anon,
I wish we could have "insurrance" that you will go away.
L.
Anonymous, we all talk to Mayo like he knows us.
Does this make us all delusional?
If that's the case, you're the only sane in a house full of crazies, and you don't wanna know what the crazies will do when you're unprotected.
-A
Anon @ 3:55
What dream are you talking about? I have none.
You are a hundred times worse then any one of them because they only think he can do no wrong. You admitted youre in love with him and that you think he returns your feelings. One of them, the buzznet ppl, is just teen age rock star worship. But yours is erotomania. And your way too old for that anyways.
January 14, 2008 3:44 PM
You believe I am a hundred times worse? Then, I must be doing something right because I got you to hate me, but obviously, there is something about me that you must like, otherwise, you wouldn't have launched a full-frontal attack against me when I was not even on the blogs earlier. You and the other anons are all the same; I actually think that by humiliating me, you are trying to kick me out of the blogs because you see me as a threat.
Elena, to tell you the truth, I'm actually not mad. I'm just amused. All my anger I had about this subject, it disappeared a long time ago. All of this is just funny to me.
Hey pixie *hug*
It's the anoncolypse!
Okay, I clearly FAIL at killing zombies. >_< Should've got the stupid guide book after all. Except I can't focus my eyes up close to read for too long because there is an incendiary grenade going off in my heaad.
Will take a happy pill later! (Prolly just be a tiny motrin or tylenol) and then I will work on the story, promise.
Guys, please go comment and I need more pics. I have a really cute idea!
Hey, Elena! I left you a message earlier. Told you!
DG, Yep, we're back and in..some kind of form. :)
I hope you have better days, sweetie. I know it's been rough on you, especially through the holidays. Has any progress been made?
Love,
L.
"; I actually think that by humiliating me, you are trying to kick me out of the blogs because you see me as a threat. "
A threat to yourself and to Gerard Way.
Anon, what delusion? So now, I can't even have my own opinions of who Mayo may or may not be? That's like telling me that I can't like someone, because it's "wrong."
O_o
Hi AMy! DG, good to read you. PIxie, *hugs*. Elena, the lady of the hour! :D
Okay, enough with the hurtiness in my eyes and head. Will try* to kill more zombies. Long distance focus feels better for some reason.
*Fail
You do not get it. As long as you are disturbed you never will. To like some one is different than being obssessed by them to the point of thinking they love you back. Most of us saw your Miracle comments. Its a shame that you are still holding on to your delusions.
I keep saying get help but you are too deep in your delusional world. You think you are helping yourself by writing to Gerard Way but that is only re inforcing your delusions that he returns your feelings.
I just hope you get help before it is too late.
hi kapunua how are you? :)
ANON stop.
You are trying to humiliate her under the guise of caring and concern. Do you really think we can't see that? If you truly cared and believe what you were saying you wouldn't be writing this here. You know what you're doing and it's mean. As for needing professional help...hell's bells. Who doesn't have problems? What did you just get here? We all need help from time to time and we're all here for each other. Leave her alone.
A threat to yourself and to Gerard Way.
So, this is what all of this is about? You're trying to get me to leave this place? Hmmm....I smell a Buzznet kid lurking about.
Everyone knows I'm not a threat to either myself, or to Gerard.
Amy, I understand that you feel the need to defend your friend. But surely you understand our concern for her. She has proclaimed her love for someone she does not know. She has made references to him loving her in return. This is a sick person and she needs help. Maybe as a friend, you should encourage her to displace her obsessive attention on something that would be mentally healthier.
Just finished my 1st day at work havent read through the comments yet but whats going on? whos giving bc shit?
Amyranth said...
Anonymous, we all talk to Mayo like he knows us.
Does this make us all delusional?
If that's the case, you're the only sane in a house full of crazies, and you don't wanna know what the crazies will do when you're unprotected.
Yeah! Ok, yes, we're all insane. I see the light now. I don't know why or how I could have missed it!
Oh, thank you, thank you, Anon, for making me realize just how completely and totally FUCKING crazy we all are.
Bye, bye now, Sigmund. Nice meeting ya!
L.
Thanks L, I appreciate it.
No, it only seems to be getting worse but, hey ho! What can I do?
Dude, what the hell :|
Okay, enough with the hurtiness in my eyes and head. Will try* to kill more zombies. Long distance focus feels better for some reason.
Kapunua, you are so funny. ^_^
anon why dont you leave bc alone. what the hell is your problem?
Well, DG, just join in with the rest of us. Apparently we're insane, but we're the happy kind.
Love ya,
L.
hi ctv and sim, how are you?
"Maybe as a friend, you should encourage her to displace her obsessive attention on something that would be mentally healthier."
Thank you. No-one here is actually helping here and most know the truth of the things she believes. Her arguments are insane and she is hurting really bad. One day my fear is that she will turn her anger on the object of her love. Most of them usually do. Or on herself. And you know how that will end.
If you care about her don't encourage the behavior.
Hye Pixie! I'm on the mend, it's cool. Thanks. :D
X_X said...
Okay, enough with the hurtiness in my eyes and head. Will try* to kill more zombies. Long distance focus feels better for some reason.
Kapunua, you are so funny. ^_^
♥ you Princess! :D
And once again before I seriously bail: MUSTARD?
Anon,
What's this "we" business? You got fleas or something?
If I thought ANYONE here was A danger or IN danger, yes I would say or do anything within my natural* power to help.
The fact that NOBODY HAS, might lead you to think that we see nothing amiss with Fire, aside from the fact that she has recently had a family tragedy.
Srsly, if you're not going to say WHO you are and WHO you're speaking for, then don't open your mouth.
-A
Anon, let me explain this in simpler terms. I am not reinforcing any delusions and besides, I have not talked about him in ages, so stop recyclying the same old shit from last year.
Just by reposting and mentioning the same old shit, over and over and over again, you are trying to get others to see how very "delusional" I am. If I'm not mentioning him, you or the other anons are. And your stupid assumptions are blinding you into thinking that I was talking about him.
You and the other anon don't really give a shit about my concerns. You would know better than to outright attack someone by humiliating them and using their vulnerable spot against them Any psychologist would know that.
It's called bullying.
Hey everyone. Hi Pixie. I hope you're well, yes?
Anon, please. We've had enough.
Thats the biggest pile of bullshit i have ever heard.
I have had many a crush AND STILL DO AND NOT FOR ONE SECOND WOULD I HUNT THE VICTIM DOWN AND HURT THEM THATS THE BIGGEST PILE OF CRAP I HAVE EVER HEARD.
yOU ARE SICK FOR THINKING THAT WHATS YOUR PROBLEM?
AND WHY ARE YOU ANONYMOUS? GROW SOME BALLS ALREADY
Hello everyone. Sorry I haven't said hello to each and everyone of you but I was too busy getting annoyed by "Oh look at me, I'm so concerned" ANON
Anyway, yes L you were right! I'm not invisible. I am heard. Damn, I have to say it feels good to know.
Kapunua, I'm not sure how to leave a picture.
Anons who usually don't give themselves names are too afraid to do so because they're afraid one of us might go after them.
And guess what? That's not gonna happen.
hi everyone hows everyone aside from the shit smell in mayos tonight :/
that´s good kapunua! :)
Amy, BC has just admitted that it is her "vulnerable" spot. Now, please tell me again how we are making all of this up and she, in fact, is not in danger.
Hello my lovely ladies! ❤
How are you all?
Elena,
Can I have two minutes to dance about singing "told you so, told you so," or would that be too much? ^_~
Love ya,
L.
Concerned my ass
you need help mate cause you are only doing this for a laugh or to see people squirm not to help anyone.
and if all that bc is guilty for is caring about someone she doesnt know then you may aswell put us all in a fucking padded cell you asswipe
Bloody hell.
Let it go. Please. You're not even remotely helping anyone in any way.
Hello, Siobhan, how goes it?
You know, I broke my own rule about not talking to mean and cruel anons, but I was in defense mode.
I see that doesn't work with some.
So I will go back to my usual way of dealing with them, and recomend the same, guys.
IGNORE THE FUCK OUT OF THEM!
L.
There is a difference between having a crush on someone and believeing that you are in LOVE with some one you never met and that they have feelings for you too. If you missed the Miracle comments then maybe you don't know. She talked alot about her LOVE for Gerard and her hope that he loved her back. SHe really thought they had something. Tell me if you really believe that Gerard Way loves Bleeding Chaos. If you dont believe that then you have to admit she is delusional.
hi siobhan, how are you? how is good old germany? *hugs*
Leave her the fuck alone and get a life seriously if you were so concerned you would speak to her personally not in front of all her friends, i see what you are doing here and you are sick. If i ever find out who you are.....
Hi there Elena. Thanks for sticking up for me. Hi K. As for the video game, the guide will definitely help you.
One day my fear is that she will turn her anger on the object of her love. Most of them usually do. Or on herself. And you know how that will end.
If you care about her don't encourage the behavior.
January 14, 2008 4:12 PM
You actually think I would hurt someone?! I would never do such a thing. I don't hurt anyone. I don't even hurt animals, for that matter.
Like I said a while ago, you and the other anons don't know me personally, so stop with the judgements. And don't pretend like you give a rat's ass about me.
Yes L that would be too much. You many have only 1 minute to sing around and dance.
Hey Siobhan. Long time no see.
"
You actually think I would hurt someone?! I would never do such a thing. I don't hurt anyone. I don't even hurt animals, for that matter. "
I didn't mean to hurt anybody. I would never hurt anybody.
Does that sound familiar? It is what most stalkers say after they snap. Because they really think they are peaceful and they dont see they have problems, that they are wrong.
I bet he loves her a damnsight more than he would ever love you cause to be honest you are ugly for what you are doing and must not have much sense of humanity huh?
Seriously fuck off & leave my friend alone
Thank you, Elena. I will keep it to one minute. :)
Seriously, that was such a sweet thing he did. And I think some of his sweetness is rubbing off on Mayo.
(From the Things That Sound Dirty But PROBABLY Aren't collection..)
L.
You really believe that I have said that Gerard "loves" me? What the fuck? I never actually believed that, to tell you the truth. You anons are fucking nuts, man. I would have slapped myself silly if I had believed that.
First, you believe that I am going to hurt someone, and now this.
You anons sure know how to make me laugh.
I care, BC. Let me give you a big, caring hug, I think you need it.
It will all be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
Anon,
If this is what YOU believe, then why do you need OUR validation?
You've said your piece, now leave.
-A
Hello OP(L)!
Hello Pixie!
Germany is good and old as ever, hehe.
This is for you ladies!
Smell the fresh flowers!
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C'mon Bc lets go on a killing spree cause we think gerards lovely, on the way we will have to stop by Jareds house and various others that rock my world.
God how dare they be so damn sexy and nice it makes me angry, they will pay for being so lovely, grrrrr
You see how ridiculous that is anon?
I know bc well and would she ever do such a thing? No.
If you want mentally unhinged come after me dickhead
Gotta go, guys, but I will be on later, and so will J. if she has the strength. :)
And remember...Ignore, Ignore, Ignore...
Love ya,
L.
Anon @ 4:25
Like I said, you don't know me personally. I can never see myself hurting anyone. And like I said, you really don't give a shit about the people here. You just want to stir up shit.
La La La
*Elena is ignoring*
Think I'll just mosey on into the libray for a good read...
...because a Vulture is a Vulture no matter the score...
L.
Hello there, Elena!
How are you?
bye L take care and thanks again *hugs* xxx
Anon @ 4:27
What the fuck? You're kidding.... right? You want to...hug me?!
Shame in me, ha ha. Thanks for making me laugh :)
good to know that it´ll never change... the good old I mean.... the flowers are lovely siobhan! :)
(From the Things That Sound Dirty But PROBABLY Aren't collection..)
Oh L I love that collection.
Siobhan I'm good today. Thanks for asking. How are you?
Amy I got home from work and saw you asked me a question out on the porch...My bookstore is in Leavenworth Kansas.
Thank you, Pixie! I wanted to lighten up the mood, but I think it didn't work. Meh!
OP L, exactly. And thank you! Take care. Pixie, I'm sorry. I didn't get to say hi to you. Hi! How are you? Hello hello my pancake-zilla. How are you?
Anonymous said...
I care, BC. Let me give you a big, caring hug, I think you need it.
It will all be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
January 14, 2008 4:27 PM
Whoever this anon is, they made me laugh for the second time today. Thank you :)
Hi Mayo!
Hi Fimble!
Hi Everyone!
Hope you are all okay this evening.
Safe on the Waves
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echo
charley
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can you hear me,
and the fact that you know of and read all the comments on mwm suggests you are either a regular or an anon that has way too much time on their hands yet not enough balls to be a real person and have a name. Must feel insignificant being you huh? Loser
ANnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnyway
my 1st day at work was superb!! It was ace apart from the fact they dont like you having breaks, i know my legal shiznit though and nobody stops me having a break
That was a beautiful act, SS. Elena, you must be glowing, eh? ^_^
He's got a beautiful heart, that one.
Yes, the things you said on Miracle Whip were saying that you wondered if he returned your feelings of love. You thought you had a chance. People who weren't on that blog or weren't told what you said, by people on that blog, might not know about it. They think you have a fan girls crush. When in fact you are dangersouly obsessed with him. Your lucky your "friends" missed your words to Gerard Way on there..... or are you? You would be luckier maybe if they cared enough to try to help you.
Erotimania, part of it is lieing to get out of it when people tell you the truth, saying that you never said that, or you dont' mean those things any more. That goes for any mental illnesses with delusions involved.
YOU know the truth. The ball is in your court. Will you get the help you need and be honest when talking to a psychiatrist, or will you lie until you finally snap and hurt him or hurt yourself?
fancy seeing you hear SOTW
how are you doing.
fimble!!! how are you manc bird?
Bc im on aim if ya need a chat :) *hugs*
Safe, darling. I haven't seen you in a while! How've you been?
whos sotw?
oh shame. demand those bloody breaks and if they dont let you have them then tell them you know a mancy lass and a burnley rocks that will go and sort em out.
hey was the people nice to you at least
sotw = safe on the waves.
magic fingers fim is being very very lazy. lol
Anon,
All I read from you is:
Blah blah blah and more blah blah blah. You want to believe that I would hurt someone, but I have more self control than that, and I actually have a conscious! :O Shocking, isn't it?
Sure, I like the dude, but I don't love him. I don't know what the fuck I was thinking when I said that stuff. I make mistakes obviously, but I was not the one who brough the subject of him up today, now did I?
No. I think deep down, you guys actually like me :)
Yeah fimble they were nice and theres a girl there who i used to work with a year and a half ago somewhere else so its all groovy :)
Im really hopeful about it and i get tomorrow off too yay!!!
How are you manc lass? Scally 5000 misses you.
I found him wandering the streets picking up dockers!!! hehe he told me to give you this ♥
Hello my BC! Don't let anyone get you down! You go, girl! ✿ ♡
Thank you shame in me. How was your first day of work?
Hello to anyone I missed and Goodnight all!
Have to go to bed...have a good night!
Hi CTV!
Hi SIM(roast)!
Hi Fimble!
How are you guys?
Thank you my pancake-zilla. I love you *bats eyelashes* lol. Those flowers are pretty. How did you make those?
"but I have more self control than that, and I actually have a conscious!"
You probably mean conscience. Most people who snap think they have one too. Thats the thing, they think they are doing the right thing.
"I don't know what the fuck I was thinking when I said that stuff. "
The same thing you still are thinking today even though you deny it.
Denial is strong.
Just get some help.
Hi and bye DG!
Hello Siobhan! I'm fine, thanks. Yourself?
Goodnight DG.
to right he should give me my ♥ back. i swapped it for a pogg like 5 years ago but the pogg was faulty so he owed it me back. bloody devvo.
i am glad you had a nice day. it was your first day and you ge tomorrow off, you lucky cow. are you going to wear your tutu for work hahaha tutu in lidle hahaha
Oh silly anon, you've got it all wrong, Gerard is obviously in love with me, not that that matters here in Mayo's blog. Didn't you hear him on that SNL repeat a couple of weeks ago? He was clearly singing "CARRIE on." Now seriously, stop picking in the guise of concern.
Hi fimble and CTV. How are you guys? Sorry about the anon shit. I didn't think it would go down the way it did.
Yes, fancy seeing you here Fimble...it's like it was planned or something.
Hi CTV, I'm well how are you?
SOTW
Normally I refrain from commenting on anything I feel is non-productive or borderline nasty, however this has gone on for far too long.
BC, I agree with the OPs and Elena that you really should now ignore the Anon as we are now into repitition. You have stated your case and you should just take the moral high ground now.
Anon, I believe in everybody's right to speak freely. I just want to say that if you really believe that you are speaking to someone with a serious mental illness then your behaviour is dispicable. Is this how you behave in real life to those who are vulnerable and potentially at risk-you belittle and goad them? That is just evil. History holds many examples of evil disguised as kindness.
You scare me!
sorry guys it is a sweeping visit yet again, need to give niece her tea.
be on later to catch up
check you laters girlies.
xx
Anon, what exactly am I denying? I said earlier that I liked someone else, but you idiots mistook it as that perso being Gerard. There's nothing for me to deny. And please, stop with the "pretending to be caring" bullshit. You know you don't really care.
good morning every one.!!
I won't name this time, I'm not sure who's here and who's not!
I need my coffee to be more lucid
Hey BC. It's not your fault, no worries. It just gout of control. Maybe we should just ignore them from now on, yes?
Safe, good to hear. I'm well, just studying and stuff. Exams coming up soon, sad to say.
I conjured them up for you, sweetie!
*hehe*
& #10047; ➽ ✿
& #10048; ➽ ❀
Without the gaps!
haha hi bc, I´m here since nearly 2 hours ;) how are you? just ignore the anon! ;) I´m well, don´t let me start again ;)
and hi to everyone who showed up while I got sidetracked ;)
Let me take a deep breath for a few minutes. This jerkoff is affecting me, at a much critical level. *Breaths in, then breaths out* I feel better.
Eliza, thanks. I'll try.
Look, I have always been a ballsy, forward person. I can't help it. Anyone who knows me in real life would know that. I even brought some flowers and candy for a guy friend when he was going to have surgery on his back once.
Second, to everyone, if there is an anon who's trying to piss me off, can someone referee? Sometimes I get too worked up, and then I don't know when to stop. Thank you.
What are you studying for CTV?
Safe.
I'm fine too, CTV. Thanks for asking!
"Thus, regardless of overwhelming evidence to the contrary, the erotomaniac is convinced that his or her feelings are reciprocated - in other words, that you are equally in love with him or her. The erotomanic stalker interprets everything you do (or refrain from doing) as coded messages confessing to and conveying your eternal devotion to him and to your "relationship".
(The way you used to write on Miracle Whip how Gerard was sending you messages to your blog. The way you still think that these posts are to you because your convinced this is Gerard Way talking).
They are driven by their all-consuming loneliness and all-pervasive fantasies.
Consequently, erotomaniacs react badly to any perceived rejection by their victims. They turn on a dime and become dangerously vindictive, out to destroy the source of their mounting frustration – you. When the "relationship" looks hopeless, many erotomaniacs turn to violence in a spree of self-destruction.
(You get too worked up? What going to happen when you get too worked up over Gerard Way and realize that you are delusional? Who will referee then)?
Hi there pixie. I'm doing okay, but my adrenaline is pumping at the moment. I'll try my best to ignore that dork. I'm glad to hear you're okay.
I'm sorry everyone. This shouldn't have happened.
Photography, English, and Math.
A bunch of assignments and tests piled on top of that. I've been pretty stressed out lately.
Are there two anons here or just the one?
thanks for the love fimble hehe
ahhh man!!!! pogs!!! i loved pogs haha asif you sold your heart for a pog!!! I cant talk though i once gave my soul away for some drugs back in the bad days haha
Siobhan keep the hell away from m4e LOL please dont eat me :/
No, maybe kindness disguised as evil. Nice words sometimes don't work. she needs help and no-one is helping her.
Anon, you really don't get it, do you? What you don't get is that I never expected everyone to believe me about those comments, or about who Mayo is. I never had a problem with that. I respect that everyone has different opinions. That's why I dropped the subject a long time ago. Either way, I'm done with you.
"but my adrenaline is pumping at the moment."
I´m sure it is ;)
ohmygod seriously anon have you not finished? seriously your repeating yourself and its boring and seriously i think you need help have you not got anything constructive to say at all about anything other than this? seriously go away
No, maybe kindness disguised as evil. Nice words sometimes don't work. she needs help and no-one is helping her.
January 14, 2008 5:05 PM
Anon, stop pretending like you give a damn. You don't know me. Cut the bullshit. And besides, some other anon a while back told me I was crazy. Does it really matter if you or the other anon try to recycle that term here?
No.
ohmygod seriously how many times did i say seriously then? hahaha *hides face in shame* LOL
Of course no-one believes you. But you still believe it and thats what's important. Thats' why you need help. I can't force you to get help but your friends SHOULD be able to talk to you about it. Too bad there all too busy pretending nothing is wrong. Or maybe there not your friends after all. Because friends don't let you go on being delusional.
Shame in me, they're pretending to be all smart and knowing so that they can figure me out and try to out me as a crazy. I think they're trying to kick me out of Mayo's blog.
Photography, English, and Math.
A bunch of assignments and tests piled on top of that. I've been pretty stressed out lately.
I know where you are at CTV. Just remember to relax, take a breather. Take some time out for yourself to enjoy. =] *HUG*
I've been MIA since Saturday, and returned today to write a blog. Just popped over to Mayo's to see what was up. =]
Love;
you-know-who
<3
anon
ok so you say she has a fixation on Gerard BUT who is the one who is convinced they need to practice armchair psychology on a person they've never met and who they obviously have watched for some time to the point of remembering her posts from months ago and feels the need to have her confirm their diagnosis.
Obsessive much?
anyway Hi BC pixie CTV OP Eliza Safe Elena Amyranth SIM DG Kapunua
Siobhan
bc just ignore them now. Are there two anons here or just one? come on aim love and ignore this asswipe
^^I am NOT that anonymous up there.
well said ergo!!! :)
It makes me sick get over it already whoever you are, i really hope this isnt a regular :/
hello PH *Hug*
Hello everybody!! How are you all?
Anon, what's funny is that you believe I'm "delusional" but what if I was right all along?
No one has ever thought of that potential outcome. What if I was right? What would you do if you found out I was right? Would you think if I was crazy then?
Nothing is impossible in the world of BlogBelieve. We have fucking unicorns and sheep here for crying out loud.
Awee, thank you PH :)
You've just put a nice smile on my face. We haven't had much of a chance to talk. I hope to see you soon too, love. Remember to relax as well. You've been working really hard lately.
Much love.
Hey Ergo. How've you been?
and anon if you really wanted to help her you wouldnt be persucuting her at this time cause shes had a tough week so if your intentions are true then leave her alone now yeah?
Hi Ergo=]
It was the hardest 2 days of my life not being here!
oh news flash on our rain situation:
the main highway noth is cut by floodwater either side of the next town up from us (about 60 miles away) poor things, that is the "Whitsundays" for anyone who's heard of the area.
and there is flooding in heaps of other cities and towns and they are predicting more rain from a "persistant monsoonal low" off the coast
hola villanelle, long time no see. how are you? how was your holiday at home? *hugs*
Hi there my young grasshopper. How are you? *hugs* Hi there Ergo. How are you? And thank you!
That possibility of those anons following me for months scares the shit out of me, but it makes sense. That's why I asked earlier if they liked me, because they seem to be getting on my case about the same old thing :)
Hi there Villa. Where have you been? I missed you! I'm okay, but full of adrenaline at the moment :)
Capture This Void said...
Photography, English, and Math.
A bunch of assignments and tests piled on top of that. I've been pretty stressed out lately.
January 14, 2008 5:05 PM
Sounds like a lot of work! Don't get stressed about it though, just take one thing a step at time.
Safe
Hey pixie! How are you?
I started my classes again today, and my visits to the blogs ;)
The holidays were great. I miss Madrid's nightlife :(
How was your holiday?
CTV, anything for you. *hug*
I am going through the exact same thing as you right now, so I guess we both just need to settle down and take life as it comes. =]
Everyone, have a great day, and I'll miss you in the time I am gone. =]
Love,
you-know-who (who is reminding self of Lord Voldemort from Harry Potter)
<3
P.S. Mayonaise, I hope that you are remembering to take time out for yourself as well. I mean, try to make yourself happy for once. It's what everyone needs at certain points in their life. I think I'm taking my dose of happy at a young age. =]
Dude, take care of yourself, and see you in a little while. I couldn't just leave without saying goodbye. <3
good thanks CTV how're you?
PH it would be so hard, I hate leaving for few hours! lol
So are all your exams finished?
Thank you, Safe.
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