Shame Folded Neatly
The closet was dark, and the air stale.
I waited until I could no longer hear
the breathing, and cracked open the door.
It took several seconds for my eyes to begin
to adjust to the light; I had been hidden
for several hours, most of the night.
And each breath you withhold, while still
sat across the room, arms crossed, and waiting
is released into the center of the room. I hear you
now your image becomes shadow, then curved line,
then hair, cheeks, eyes, lips, and my racing heart
is released into the center of the room. I hear you
I am fully admitted and betrayed
by the vibrations of that persistent organ
pounding in my ears and of that accidental welcome.
You alight beside me
relieving me of my guard, and returning
my promise of faith.
I thought I had waited long enough, but instead you held fast to your claim that I would emerge faithfully back into the room. And of course, I did. Not yet ready to face our lost time. And the screaming, long since dulled against the cold green plaster walls now cracked by our words thrown hard, aimed at heads and hearts, but missing. In the center of this room all that remains is heated breath and pounding heart. And the two of us are searching our thoughts, and desperately trying to string together enough words to reconnect.
p.s. sometimes in the moment we are unable to see the forest for the trees.
"Yes, I do." so now, back to that question...
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-A
Sarcasm my ass. We'd have a ball with you in chat. Maybe even two.
Some people are plain rude!
Have manners!
Has anyone else ever played with the Bubble Girl? I used to be strangely addicted to her when I was at the desk job at KF and I just remembered her tonight.
You know if you put the last two posts together..
"I Prefer It Twice A Day"
"Happy Endings"
Interesting...
OP J, lol, I think I will. If he's still lurking, I will still continue to stare at his nuts,although I need to take a quick bathroom break. Be right back
"Taking BC's place for a few minutes is her phantom, who goes by the name of CB*
Amy, I've been known to cause a stagger or two in my day.
Sure gave the BoyToy one for his birthday. ;)
J
Goodnight Fim, sweet dreams.
Anon, how the hell are we supposed o have manners when we don't even know who you're talking to?
suck
that
dude
Grab your helmet Bikey and let's go.
and I thought the grabbing was your department!
Be warned, though, you'll leave with a flat tire, a bent kickstand, and a wobble in your back end. ;)
Do you promise??
Umm?
Oh hey, this just in. Entropy clicked that Bubble Girl link and got POP UPS. So proceed at your own risk. It didn't give me any trouble, however.
Kapu, two? You promise?
*eyes AIM warily*
-A
Anonslaught?
-A
Two, Amyranth. Though slightly asymmetrical.
Hello to all my friends and goodnight tho all my friends who have gone to dreamlan
Hehe
Kapunua said "Pop up"
*Grabs Bikey*
Time to ride.
Nice neologism, Amyranth! Brava. Well played.
I did, Bunnicula. I so did.
Good night, MJ!
Bikey,
Yes. I would never lie to you, my little Schwinn.
L's been known to break a chain or two herself, so, you know.
J
Hey MJ
'sgoinon?
-A
Thanks for the link, though! Looks fun. It might have just been me and my lame computer.
Anon, as far as I'm concerned, I have no manners ;p Hot mama... huh? Goodnight Mj, sweet dreams.
Kapu, I DO try.
God, that was an awesome meeting. All fire and brimstone, like I like it.
-A
Wow, check it out guys.
The first and only time Gerard Way* has been on this blog in person*.
-A
*Not really him. Not really real. Gerard Way is merely a figment of our collective imagination.
Hello MJ, out there in Kalifornication. How's it?
J
Sorry I had to do something I'm not off to bed just yet. I was just saying good night to all the people who left.
Amy, I know, it's such a shock ain't it? Too bad he was staring at my boobs. I think he still is, while I continue to stare at Gerard Jr lol ^_^
MJ, sorry about that.
It's creeping up to 11pm here, and I have a looooooooooooooooooooong day ahead of me tomorrow.
Goodnight Family, hope you all get some rest tonight and have a good Monday!
Hi and Bye, Mayo, didn't mean to ignore you, dude. Hope you had a good day today as well. Let me know if you find any evidence of little lamb-chewing on the furniture; Sparkle got out today and had an "adventure". Sorry. I'll pay for any damage done. :D
Love and Faith and Hope to All
J
Goodnight j no problem BC
Goodnight J sweet dreams.
I'm off too everyone. Have fun and I'll see you tomorrow.
Goodnight miss t
Dear SS,
A quick goodnight note and then I'm off to bed.
Sometimes, in the still of the night, you hear the loudest voice telling you to follow your heart and never look back. I've heard that voice a lot lately. Have you ever heard it? I don't know who it is, but I feel it's important to listen.
I don't have an answer yet about where to go, but I expect it will come to me eventually.
Sleep well and take care. I love you, my babydoll.
J
Goodnight, Miss TiTi! Thanks for joining us today. Sleep well.
Hi entropy. Goodnight Miss T, sweet dreams. Goodnight OP J.
While we're at it, I wonder what the question was?
-A
*lighting a cigarette*
Goodnight, my Rose.
I'm going to say goodnight too, Family. I am pretty tired tonight, so I am going to head upstairs to my room. Hope everyone has sweet dreams. Love you dearly.
Mayo,
Hope you had a good day and are truly happy. But don't think of Happy Endings, think of Happy Beginnings. It still amazes me to look back at the earlier posts and now these. It is so evident that you are changing and growing.
I think we have too. We have all been through so much together, and it just seems more and more incredible each day. I am truly thankful we have been brought together to this House.
One day, I wish we could all meet each other in person, a Mayo Family reunion, with you and SS. And it really does not matter WHO you are, sweetie, you or SS.
It really does not matter anymore. Because it is the people who talk to us, who listen to us, who tells us both the good and the bad, who lets us do all of the same. That is what matters. You are always in my heart, and I love you for it.
SS,
Hope you had a wonderful day as well, my friend, and please take care of yourself. Sweet dreams to you. It's all about the love.
Love. Hope. Faith.
L.
Wow, I'm beat tonight. It must have been fighting all those zombies that took it outta me tonight. Or perhaps it was crusading to save the world, who knows. Or, you know, the flu.
Anyway, I'm off.
Guys, thanks as always for a fun chat and for the Kool Aid thing again. You know I get such a kick out of that damn pitcher and I don't even know why. :D
Bitches, I need to see more pictures in my blog, okay?
Bikey, nice owning you. ^_^ I owe you one, catch you tomorrow, huh?
Mayo, thank you as always for the castle and for the interesting thoughts. Hope you had a fine weekend.
SSS, same: Hope you had a fine weekend as well. Catch you later, Bill and Ted! And because we're enemies: *Sucker punches SSS again* Damn, man, you make it so easy. ^_~
Tri-staters, hope we all get snow, just enough to make it a cozy day at home. NOT enough to make you have to search for your car in the morning. :D
'Night, Mayo Clinic.
Remember: PICTURES! ANd an idea of what you want to do.
Oh, and uhh, I hope everyone finds their place in the great circle of... stuff.
WEEEOOOO!
Wow, what were you guys up to, Bikey? No, nevermind, don't answer that.
Night, Jules. Sleep well!
Bikey, you're still here? Goodnight OP L, K. Get well soon.
yay I have the computer back!!!
we finished the game and I have commanded nap time! Though now it's play with the cat time first.
goodnight OP's and missT
Goodnight Mistress, thank you for owning me.
Hi Entropy, Miss T was giving me a test drive.
Yes BC, I have been in and out all night. OOPS, there I go again.
I think I had best go now, I can't seem to control myself!
Goodnight all!
and night Kapunua
goodnight bikey, nice to have you about, as long as we all get a turn.
Do you tandem?
bye ♥
ewwww I just found a mouse head my adorable pusska obviously didn't feel desirous of eating.
Goodnight, Bikey!
Goodnight Bikey. Sweet dreams to you. Hi there Ergo. Good to have you back again.
Anyone here?
hey BC I have mastered Spongebob
Pictures? Blog?
I'm lost.
*cries*
-A
Ergo, congrats. Did you enjoy the game? Hi Amy
Hiya Fire.
Sunday nights sure are quiet.
it is fun BC
amyranth what's wrong?
Ergo, Kapu was saying something about posting tons of pictures on the blog?
Wat?
They sure are Amy. It was fun earlier, not it's all quiet. How are you?
Amy, K is writing a story about us. If you want to be in it with your picture, go to her blog. :)
See, no more lostness.
Ah Yez.
Thanks Entropy.
So, no pajama party tonight I guess?
-A
looks pretty quiet Amy,
I can get in PJ's if you want:)
I suppose I got some time to bum around.
I'll get the popcorn!
Ergo what time is it in your part of the world?
Popcorn? Yum!
Goodnight guys.
3:44 pm elena and raining
*comes back with 2 bowls*
Okay, one has butter and salt, the other is plain. I prefer both!
*squishes into the couch*
I still have the edit-cay ard-cay if we want anything.
I don't feel like pizza, how about ribs?
Hey Amy...
Ergo isn't it kinda early for pj's?
Goodnight Mj. Hi elena
Hey BC
Wow it's quiet in here. I think I'll catch up on some reading. Mayo's library is my favorie place in the castle next to the corner of course.
elena probably, but I didn't wan't amy to feel silly on her own at a pj party.
hows things your side of the world?
Elena, yeah it is. I was writing a long comment to post here later on, but I am posting it on my blog instead, but only for tonight. That's how bored I am ^_^
AGH!
Stupid internet!!!
Okay, I think I'm going. My computer is being buggy again.
Night guys.
night amyranth
Night night Amy. Sweet dreams. You know, with the blogs being this quiet, we should be hearing crickets by now lol
*chirp*
*chirp*
*chirrup*
Ha ha. I knew that would happen! :D
*splirt*
*thock*
*glomp*
*
*chi-...*
*backs away from the frog*
*splirt*
*twock*
*glomp*
*mmmmmmmmmm*
*croak*
*
Aww frog, aren't you a cutie? *BC tries to catch the frog, but it keeps leaping away*
Durn frawgs
Ergo, concerning the cricket and frog, that was not you?
Frog, can I keep you as a pet? :)
*hops on BC's hand*
*might have been*
Frog, come out, come out, wherever you are.
I see that not even the crickets are chirping. Lol
Hi there Ergofrog. Aren't you adorable? *gently pets the frog*
^_^
*looks guilty for eating the crickets*
*burp*
Ergofrog, you ate all of the crickets? You poor thing. I bet you were hungry. Would you like me to keep you as a pet? I'll feed you lots of delicious crickets :)
Are we the only ones here?
i'm off for a bit BC
i'll be back later, for TJ's message if she needs chanelling.
you can keep my frog, he's cute and he loves crickets.
(I don't talk to myself I become animals!)lol
be good!
Take care Ergo. I shall be lurking about. And thank you for the frog. He's a cutie :)
I'll be good. Scout's honor.
Mayo
I hope your day was good. I hope the sun warmed your face and love warmed your heart. I hope you smiled. I imagine you have a beautiful smile. A smile that not only curves your lips but shows in your eyes. True smiles are always beautiful.
Tomorrow my hope for you is the same. Lift your face to the sun. Let love into your heart. Feel the warmth. But mostly tomorrow, smile. Just smile. Make it true and it will be beautiful.
Elena
PS. - Okay, sorry for the touchy feely moment. It happens.
(But I do mean it all.)
Mayonaise, my sweet, how are you doing tonight?
Are you feeling happy? Sad? Not so sad, yet not so cheerful? I am not quite sure what to say here. The last few nights, I think I have mentioned almost everything that I had wanted to get out of my mind and off my chest. I think I am almost done writing my long entries to you. What else is left for me to say to you?
Well, writing to you helps bring me solace and it's helping me sort out my feelings, so maybe I am not quite done talking to you yet. Do you mind if I continue doing this? Tomorrow is Monday, and tomorrow I start taking those first baby steps towards reaching my goals. I am feeling a bit nervous, but excited. I am not sure if it’s because of my admittance of the depression, but somehow, I feel as if I am not afraid anymore; that I can finally take that first step.
Some of us are noticing the changes in me as well, and that is making me happy.
There was someone out there that did make me happy once. I still have no idea why, but I would get butterflies in my stomach. I would have a smile on my face each time I would think of him; I would glow. I now wonder if that was only a delusion in my mind. Maybe it wasn’t real. Sometimes I wish I knew. I still do not know whether he returned my feelings, or not. To this day I still ponder about it. It’s better not to beat myself over it, I know, but I wish I knew how he felt.
I liked him. A lot. I still do, actually. But does it really matter anymore? Does it really matter? He probably doesn’t feel the same and I know that even admitting my feelings, it will not change a damn thing about the situation. It's probably a lost cause, right? To some, it may sound stupid that some man might make me smile, but I can't help it. I can like a man and still be strong.
Why am I explaining this to you? I am not sure myself, only that I need to let this out already, I suppose, and hopefully, have someone to hear me out. I noticed many others have already made reservations about my character, but frankly, no one here knows me personally, and they cannot always know what I'm really thinking. I guess it's a good thing about the internet, huh?
Anonymous said...
Please, don't run away again
January 12, 2008 3:58 PM
I am still trying to figure out if you posted this comment. Did you? To answer that question,regardless of who it was intended for, or who the speaker was, my answer: I would never.
I wonder what tomorrow would bring. I worry when you make your new posts. I worry whether or not they would be happy ones, or just plain sad ones. Sounds silly, doesn't it? I bet it is.
I am not ready to say goodnight to you just yet. I shall continue to lurk and do some stuff for a bit.
hey Mayo
Hope your day was great. Mine was wet and cool but considering we're the driest continent in the world (apart from antarctica, you know in the middle it almost never precipitates? True! If you die you mummify. But back to regular programming) we welcome the rain, it would just be nice if it stopped occasionally and maybe didn't come down in such huge quantities! lol, It's the first wet season we've had properly for years, it's a good sign.
I hope your year is like that. Maybe you feel like you are living properly for the first time in years, if not then perhaps it's the time to try and change that. So you can grow and learn and love and be loved.
I like what Elena said on your smile, I hope you do have a smile like that, a really true , happy deep down to your toes smile! And I bet it's a warm smile too, a smile that if it's gifted to someone means they know that you really care.
Are you the person we imagine? If you aren't would you like to be? Your writing shows you are intelligent and sensitive, creative and good hunoured. I don't mind though...
I want you to be the person you want to be, to achieve what you strive for, to love like you can't hold it all inside, to use any gifts you have to bring the best out in those around you, and to use your talents to create great things.
But most of all I want you to be thankful for everything you have, and appreciate all the people in your life, past and present, who have made you who you are today.
How is your nightly question going?
I wonder each night how you answered for that day.
Silly I think of someone I don't know, but I do. Do you think of us?
Wishing love, laughter, health and happiness to you and yours
much love
EP
xx
Ergo, Elena, I love your entries. Are you going to sign off? It's almost three in the morning here, so I guess I have to. I have some errands to run tomorrow.
Goodnight my little jar of Mayonaise; the sweetest of dreams to you *blows kiss* Goodnight SS, BlogBelieve Family, Ergo, Elena, lurkers. Sweet dreams to you guys.
xoxo
toujours said...
mayo,
i'm glad i had yesterday here at your place, because today i had to scurry around and get all my weekend chores done. tomorrow will be spent going up to seattle for my regular check-up with my oncologist. that takes a while with public transportation.
it's not such a big deal to see him, though. i catch up with his staff, he checks out my lymph nodes, i give them a bit more blood. this march i'll be six years out from my diagnosis, and i've been considered officially cured since last year.
but i'm always going to have to see him. there will always be a chance that it will come back, or i'll develop a different cancer.
most of the time, i don't think about it. i actually even forget about it altogether, in light of my dad and my grandma dying of cancers of their own.
until the check-up comes around.
that's when i feel a little shadow at the edge of my thoughts. "you can pretend," it whispers. "you can downplay that year, but i was there with you. i remember even if you don't want to."
every year, the whisper is more faint, but it's still enough to make me clench the back of my jaw. this is how i learned how to do the things i didn't want to do. this is how i learned to walk forward even with my eyes closed tightly.
by tomorrow night, it will be over for another six months, and i'll be persephone aboveground again.
but tonight i taste pomegranate.
that's just how it is. we don't always get to choose what needs to be done. maybe that's why it's so crucial to do those things that we do get to choose, those things that we want to do, those things that fill us with delight, not fear.
balance.
balance, and breath.
good night, mayo. thank you for this place. thank you for joining us here. it balances out so much else, so much more than you might realize.
best of dreams to you, and the best of days.
posted by toujours at 12:30 AM on Jan 14, 2008
hello family/mayo/SS!!
well i've just about caught up.
happy monday morning to all!
*groan*
off to do some work i suppose.
will be lurking now and then so catch you later.
love to all.
Good morning Mayo.
Ready for Monday yet?
I've been thinking about this little line of yours...
The Corner, A Beautiful Place Amongst the Cement and Shoulders
The corner in your house is often a place of quietness, inhabited by the more gentle hearted bloggers that come to call on you.
Cement and shoulders can be both hard and cold.
Does the quiet refuge of the corner offer you warmth, away from the real world, where people have hard attitudes and where they turn their backs on you?
I'm not that surprised, really. There are some very warm giving people in that particular corner.
delivery for mayo!!
sdock10 said...
Please pass to Mayo:
Mayo,
'Morning, my friend, how are you? Please tell me you are still asleep. I hope at least one of us didn't have to wake up with the chickens. Me? I'm awake and stirring, so far everything appears to be okay. Just typing this, watching the news, and getting ready for work. I have to leave earlier than usual to stop by the gas pump. I fucking hate that shit....why? It fucks with my routine and shit.
So today it's back to the daily grind. I surely hope that you do something for a living that makes you feel happy and fulfilled. If not, make a mental note to yourself that taking people's hard earned money for taxes isn't the way to go. Gotta love working for the people. Everyone should have to do it at least once. It really puts stress on your core character...ya know? But I see it as a challenge, let's see how many people I leave dumbfounded just by being nice. You'd be surprised by how many people just need someone to listen to them.
It doesn't always work for me, but I think I will at least start the week by trying.
Mayo, I know that sometimes we all feel like we don't have shit to say or like we don't have anything useful to give, but my wish for you today is that you find those words and those words make their way to the person who needs to hear them most.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Surprise yourself
7:09 AM, January 14, 2008
MAYO,
It sure has been a while...
I'm so behind everything, but I hope your life is reaching a point where you're content.
I've been at a little music festival.
I cleared the air with an ex, I met up with old friends, made new ones...
Sadly one of my older and dearest friends is going down a terrible path.
It saddens me that I wouldn't be surprised to hear that he'd died in a gang fight, or a high speed car crash.
But so far he's still here, and I'm so thankful for that.
I had so much fun darlings, but underneath it all a feeling of bittersweet loss.
One of my greatest talents has always been pretending I'm ok.
It's time I face the music.
I have some grieving to do my beautiful friends.
I may be gone sometime, but I will be ok, I don't need pity.
I just need to deal.
love to you all, and Please read my latest blog on whore? where?... it will explain things a little better.
xoxo cupcake
Original Punks said...
I'm sorry, but this HAS to be said.
Bikey:
How good a ride are you?
===========
HAHA! A perfectly legitimate question, me thinks ;-)
Good Monday morning all! How was the weekend for everyone? I trust you all had fun and wore the proper protective gear for the contact sport of your choosing :D
BEST/WORSE Pickup line:
Well, once a guy introduced himself to me and then said "I would do anything to be with you...
I'll beg, cry, get down on my knees and drink out of your shoe.."
Yeah, what a POET he was!
And he did get down on his knees, took off one of my shoes, poured his beer in it and DRANK IT! After nearly choking on my own laughter, I DID give him my phone number and we dated for 7 months! And a wonderful 7 months is was ;-)
WORST Pickup Line:
I think I just 'received' that one.
A picture of a naked guy covered in chocolate with a strategically placed strawberry and the line
"This is me covered in chocolate. Now what are you going to do?"
Oh my......Kind of scary...haha!
Good luck with the toddlers J!!!
I hope everyone has a decent Monday....
To ponder:
Listen with regard when others talk. Give your time and energy to others; let others have their own way; do things for reasons other than furthering your own needs.
- Larry Scherwitz
Love & Hugs to all,
6
Wendy
p.s I'm still writing it, so if it's not entitled 'the great pretender' it doesn't matter.
xoxo cupcake
Cupcake!!! You beautiful creature!
It's good to see you. I've missed you!
I'm happy to hear you're getting out and enjoying yourself. Sorry to hear about one of your old friends though :(
Hopefully, he will see the light; before it is too late.....
Morning also to Sdock and FASC. Great to see you ladies as well!
Love & Hugs,
6
Wendy
Hello family,
MissT said,
Bikey, I can't wait to wrap my hand round your handlebar
That one made even the computer blush! Your best badness so far.
Toujours,
Please consider it a recollection of past dibbings on of rooms noticed by an obsessive compulsive reader ^_^
*sidesteps from the L word*
Backs for TJ. Shoulders for PP.
OP J said,
We've often referred to it as the Loch Ness Monster.
THAT is the Scottish in him, apparently.
You named it!
I swear I snorted unbecomingly and then promptly choked laughing at this.
*looks with different eyes at Lochie monster toy with a tartan hat on it's head, given by a relative*
*giving rise to thought of a commercially viable idea of themed and nationality patterned prophylactics*
Reposting kapunua's idea again incase people missed it the first time...
Kapunua said@5.14pm
In other news, I HAVE A CUNNING PLAN. /baldrick
Hear me out, okay? 'Cause this might work. So, our regs started having to porch it when those stupid blogger B's showed up, right? Before that, no one got ecto'd. So maybe, just maybe, on the next post, if none of us signed in, then the blogger B's would be gone and everyone could get in again? I know it's a long shot and it opens us up to a bunch of crap, too, but could it be worth a shot?
Just putting that on the table.
If you don't know how to do this, just tick the nickname option in the comment box and type your normal screen name in.
So,
Empire magazine gave great reviews for blog movie favourite Juno (as recommended by PH), and loves Sweeney Todd, but Empire should get extra credit for referring to the Bratz movie characters as "The little slut dolls that make Barbie look like a feminist icon...
Yet these dolls continue and continue to sell O_O
Before I go...
The post is on both my blogs. If you want to know how I really am, look there, and have no fear.
I've missed you guys, just so you know.
xoxo *endless devotion to you all, including Mayo and SS *
...cupcake.
Hi there Cupcake.
Hang around for a moment sweetie. We hardly see you anymore.
What music festival did you go to? Any interesting band worth recommending?
*pooft!*
*and cupcake was gone*
Left you a message at your home, sweetie.
Night everyone.
Happy Mondays to you all.
Morning Mayo
Just me again, (don't roll your eyes, Mister)
Remember don't forget to smile today!!!
That is all.
Well it's Monday, Mayo-man.
*Princess stumbles downstairs to get coffee.
Why? Explain it to me, please. Why is there such a thing as Monday's. I mean really, you should be able to just sleep all day, right?
So what are your plans for today? You gonna be all cryptic and shit and go confuse people today? Good. Go for it. While your at it, go confuse some people for me. I'd help you but it's too early right now.
Sorry if I'm rambling. No I'm not. I don't give a shit, really. ^_~
Have a great day and be good. Okay?
Hugs and kisses to you, Mayo-man.
XOXO,
Princess
Afternoon Mayo!
I was refreshed & perky this morning after my sojourn to the capital. Now, however, I've spent 5 hours at work and I want to kill people.
That is all.
Kass xx
Morning, SS!
Did you think I had forgot you? Hell no. Never. Are you sleepy like me?
Must.Have.More.Caffiene. ^_^
I hope you are okay today and you are happy, happy, happy!
EEEEK! Wanna go play some Texas Hold'em? I'll show you how if you don't know! Promise, I won't cheat.
You just let me know when you're ready.
*Princess is starting to wake up and carefully crosses her fingers behind her back.
Well, gotta go for a bit. I have to go make myself fabulous. The royal hair could use some tending to and my tiara needs polishing.
MAYO!!!! COME GET MY TIARA SO YOU CAN POLISH IT!!!!
Alright, have a great day, Flash.
^_~
Love ya to pieces!
Princess
SS
Just in case you happen to pass by I wanted to say hi!
I'm here, still whispering, still trying to be a good friend to everyone here. Your words continue to give me hope that I can make a difference. Yeah, I want to be the mouse that roared!
Peace out
Elena
He was not a serial killer. Oh my god, I can't believe I have to write this. In all of his entirely pointless and wasted existence, all the fatass ever did was take up space and murder one of the best and most inspiring musicians who ever lived.
He did it for attention, the world's biggest attention whore, although he maintains that he had the delusion of "saving the world."
Not only did he assassinate him, but he did it in the most cowardly way: shot him in the back after having looked him in the face, talked to him, shaken his hand and gotten his autograph.
He keeps asking for parole and he keeps getting shot down, thank TPTB.
Obviously murder is generally considered a bad thing, but if he'd killed a "normal" person he'd be out by now, and he's hardly a danger to the general populace at large.
Plus, John Lennon ditched his first wife and son which makes him an evil b*st*rd, music genius or not...
Kass xx
Wait, what?
Kass, bitter much? He got a DIVORCE from his first wife and due to complications between them, didn't have much of a chance to get to know Julian. It happens every damn day.
Are MY CHEM not playing Bamboozle in Jersey or is that still up in the air or definitely not?
There are plenty of evil bastards in the world that leave their wives and children. There are evil bitches as well that do the same thing, are you saying he somehow deserved what he got?
Me, personally, I believe in an eye for an eye so to speak.
You get what you give, basically.
This man thought about, planned and executed an unarmed, undeserving individual. That alone makes him a threat to everyone.
I don't care who he killed. He lost his rights to freedom when he pulled the trigger.
I have no idea about Bamboozle, Anon.
I'm usually the last to find out stuff like that.
Kassanova said...
Obviously murder is generally considered a bad thing, but if he'd killed a "normal" person he'd be out by now, and he's hardly a danger to the general populace at large.
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So true and I
can't remember ONE TIME when I thought that cold blooded murder was a good thing!
He may have been a musical genius, but that don't make you a good person.
Let's not forget the fact that he hit his first wife, cheated on her and was very controlling....and tried to erase everything about her from Beatles history.
Did he deserve to be shot? Of course NOT. Should he be made to be a Martyr of men? HELL NO!
Well, that's my two cents/opinion on that whole matter.
Morning Kass & Morning Princess!!
Love to you both!
6
Wendy
You misunderstand me:
"I don't care who he killed. He lost his rights to freedom when he pulled the trigger."
But a lot of people do care who he killed, and that's my point. I don't give a rat's ass if the victim is Lennon, Kennedy, or a migrant worker from south of the border, the sentence should be the same. Chapman is behind bars for far longer than those who've committed a similar crime, because he killed a famous musician. Please explain how his crime is greater?
Kass xx
P.S. If you read interviews with Julian Lennon, he does say that he's angry because his father "deserted" his mother. Ergo, greater relationship crimes than the oft-criticised Gerard Way.
Anonymous said...
Kass, bitter much? He got a DIVORCE from his first wife and due to complications between them, didn't have much of a chance to get to know Julian. It happens every damn day.
January 14, 2008 10:35 AM
Why should I be bitter? I'm neither divorced, nor a child of divorce. I just think that having a musical talent shouldn't allow one to escape criticism for their insensitive behaviour. See also Bono's hypocrisy re: Africa.
Kass xx
I agree with you on that, Kass. The punishment should be the same and there are plenty of serving less time for more horrific crimes. That is not fair at all. Should he be paroled? Hell no. Not in my opinion. If you kill someone in cold blood and for no reason at all, that should be the end of your freedom. It was just so unnecessary.
It was just the way you made it sound that caught me off guard.
He wasn't just a musician. He was a humanitarian.
And there are people in jail who have committed only drug offenses and are serving life.
There are people in jail who have committed murder and are already dead by lethal injection.
He deserves to stay in jail, no matter WHO he killed. He's insane.
X_X said...
I agree with you on that, Kass. The punishment should be the same and there are plenty of serving less time for more horrific crimes. That is not fair at all. Should he be paroled? Hell no. Not in my opinion. If you kill someone in cold blood and for no reason at all, that should be the end of your freedom.
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Agreed Princess! I certainly will make no arguement for the 'rights' of violent offenders.
But it is sad that our society puts so much value on 'celebrity'.
If Chapman had shot you or I, he would have been parolled years ago.
There are cases around here of people getting 5 years for 1st degree murder. 5 FRICKEN YEARS for taking someone's life.
I'm willing to bet if that SOMEONE had been famous, they would have locked the shooter up and thrown away the key......as they should!
Obviously murder is generally considered a bad thing, but if he'd killed a "normal" person he'd be out by now, and he's hardly a danger to the general populace at large.
How do you know? The dude still wants attention, there's no way you could say for sure that he is not a danger.
Besides, once is enough. I'm not the one who draws up the legal system: I don't think any cold-blooded murderers should be free, whether they're still a "danger" or not.
Plus, John Lennon ditched his first wife and son which makes him an evil b*st*rd, music genius or not...
I don't think he was a musical genius, nor do I believe that any man who leaves his first wife and child is "evil." Even people who cheat aren't "evil," neither are women. They are just cheaters.
Princess said:
I don't care who he killed. He lost his rights to freedom when he pulled the trigger.
Well said.
But a lot of people do care who he killed, and that's my point. I don't give a rat's ass if the victim is Lennon, Kennedy, or a migrant worker from south of the border, the sentence should be the same. Chapman is behind bars for far longer than those who've committed a similar crime, because he killed a famous musician. Please explain how his crime is greater?
I agree, and by that token, all murderers should get the same treatment. Sexual predators / murderers, though? I have way different ideas about those. THat's a completely other topic, however.
Ergo, greater relationship crimes than the oft-criticised Gerard Way.
I've said it before and I'll say it again: I don't care who Gerard Way bangs, ditches, marries etc. He's the one who wants everyone to care and he's the one who's waving his relationships around like dirty underwear, calling his exes "lousy" and suggesting that he cheated on Kat. The fact that he seems to want to hurt them so badly and he seems to want everyone to know, and most importantly that he's dragged it all onstage with him, that's where part of my problem is with what he's doing to the band. But as you know, my biggest problem with him is the "jerk off for me" thing he's doing to the kids. So I'm not sure why you're dragging him into this thing about Jimmy Urine and Mark David Chapman?
Sorry S&V,
Reading Kapunua's original comment reminded me of my "nemesis" who was murdered. I wrote about it a month or so ago but have since deleted the comments. It just annoys me that her killer will be up for parole in five short years and he'll probably get it because she does have 'fans' campaigning to keep him in. Justice should be seen to serve all people equally, no matter how unpalateable.
I'm not sure about "humanitarian" - obviously I wasn't around in the '70s but the "bed-in" and the acorn-planting always struck me as being in the Angelina Jolie mould, i.e. a little self-serving.
Apologies if I missed something!
Kass xx
doesn't have fans campaigning...
I once heard that there's a guy in jail for life for odometer fraud, hello? Yes, it's screwed up. But that doesn't mean that killers should go free because of it.
By the way, anyone heard from Mustard?
Kassanova said...
Sorry S&V,
Reading Kapunua's original comment reminded me of my "nemesis" who was murdered. I wrote about it a month or so ago but have since deleted the comments. It just annoys me that her killer will be up for parole in five short years and he'll probably get it because she does have 'fans' campaigning to keep him in. Justice should be seen to serve all people equally, no matter how unpalateable.
What the hell? I have no idea what you're talking about or what I said to set you off. Your "nemesis? Sorry, you lost me.
Suffice it to say--again--that yes it should be equal, should be the same for the person who murdered JL and the person who murdered your "nemesis," but just because it isn't doesn't mean that one killer should go free. It means that none of them should. I don't remember saying that it should be different for certain people so I'm not sure where you're getting that.
I don't make or enforce the laws so I have no control over what happens in your case.
Nope, I haven't heard from Mustard.
I worry about her when she's not here.
And Sister Midnite has forgotten about me....^_~
Frankie no like it when Princess feels forgotten
this blog o' mayo's is about makeup sex.
Sorry Kapunua, I wasn't trying to get at you personally, it's just that your original comment echoes the feeling that a lot of people have regarding the killers of famous people.
Here we had a TV presenter called Jill Dando who was murdered a few years ago. Her 'killer' was practically tried & convicted by public opinion, yet the evidence was, at best, flimsy and he's struggled to get his appeal heard.
Also I do believe in the principle that a man can change and be rehabilitated. Just think, if a "life" sentence really meant that prisoners would have nothing left to lose, i.e. complete freedom to run riot and would become uncontrollable for those brave souls who get enough grief as it is working for the prison service.
I am, however, in favour of castrastion for rapists & child molesters...
Kass xx
WHAT. mayo has sex with make-up?
omg shocking
Awwww, thank you for thinking of me, Anon.
I can't see what it is though.
It's blocked. =(
And now I'm going home because I'm finally free, I'm tired and explaining myself so badly.
Hi Yoda!
Kass xx
Always recognizes me, Kass does.
Makes me crazy paranoid, it does.
My original comment says no such thing. Just because my feelings on Lennon's murder are strong doesn't even imply that my feelings on other murders are weaker. And you confused the christ out of me, I had no idea what you were talking about with your "nemesis." I felt like we had gone from conversation A to conversation B and no one had sent me the memo.
I agree about rapists, too. But what makes you think that murderers can be rehabilitated, but they can't? Just curious what your take on that is.
Hey, Fim. Have you heard from Splash since two days ago? O_O
K i think kass has gone??
kass's nemesis was a girl she knew at school and a number of years ago she was raped and murdered after leaving a night club. i remember kass saying about it a while ago.
just popped in. off to feed my kids!!
bye for now.
Hey FASC.
That's plain awful. I still don't get where my anger over Jimmy Urine's statement implies that I think more highly of other murderers, or that I think they should be paroled when Chapman should not be. There's not even a suggestion of it.
Interesting story: My Dad is a retired cop and he worked at the Sheriff's office in the jail. I've met murderers. When I was about two, one of them really liked me and he fashioned a little photo-frame out of magazine pictures that he weaved together. It was a very clever little design. My picture is still in it, too.
Creepy, no?
Okay, well today I'm going to get rid of some old clothes in the clothing drop, play some RE4, and work on that story.
Three things for everyone:
CUNNING PLAN. Are we going to try not signing in on Mayo's next post in hopes of getting rid of the swarm of Blogger B's so our ecto / porch friends can stay in longer?
STORY: Get thee to my blog and post a picture, and some small thing you'd like to say or do.
MUSTARD! Where are you, Splash?
Toodles, you big poodles.
sorry i wondered off.
i havent heard from splash. is she taking a break? maybe her legs have turned back again and she has gone for a swim. who knows.
i am going to email her for the
Search of Splash
is there anybody here?
well it looks like i am all alone,
dont worry people, i wont start talking to myself. i will just go for a wander around the net.
ss if you turn up then hello to you and smile. i hope you wash behind your ears!
Just me FS, but I think I'm going to make some spaghetti.
Mmm.... sketti.
-A
Hello All
I hope all is well. I have not had time to catch up since last Monday but hopefully things have calmed down a bit-I swear I must do some kind of detox thing in February, or maybe just stop drinking.
At one time I toyed with the idea of studying Law. I thought it would be a good way to make a difference. I now know differently. I can tell that the discussion hese about murder has been emotive but there are so many factors to consider. Is it murder when someone dies because of negligence eg medical, car accident-if it is someone you love that has died then chances are you will believe it is murder but rarely are these cases treated as such.
I have always liked John Lennon-he and George Harrison were my favourites of The Beatles. I don't know very much about Chapman but I would imagine there must be/have been a mental illness. Cases where mental illness is apparent have to be treated differently and I believe where there is a personality disorder eg psychopath then they should never be released. However, it is important that they be treated with care and understanding because it is not their fault that they have a mental illness. My heart goes out to both the victim and murderer when I hear of cases where people with Paranoid Schizophrenia have tried to get help but the authorities are overburdened and they are over looked then go on to carry out what evil voices are telling them.
On a lighter note, I laughed out loud at the conversation between Miss T and Bikey. Miss T, you are so funny.
Anonymous said to Kapunua...
How do you sleep when everything bothers you? The world is what it is.
How can you sleep if it doesn't bother you?
You can be the change you want to see in the world.
I promise you 1 person can make a difference...but millions can start a revolution.
Take initiative and try to make this world a better place.
Every little bit counts.
I promise you 1 person can make a difference...but millions can start a revolution.
Try getting everyone on the same page. Not easy.
-A
wow, i walk by and people are here
hey amy
hey eb
hey anon
how are you all
Thanks, anon. ^_^ Good to read you.
And for the record, I sleep like a rock, it's astounding.
I've totally blog-hogged since I've been home sick so I won't do it again this time. Hugs, sucker punches etc. all around. :)
you are totally a blog hog but arent we all jules.
if we didnt hog the blog then it would be a pretty boring place wouldnt it
well bugger me blue and call me mary, i must smell to make everyone piss off again.
i had a shower today, honest, i did
i am going into lurking mood. check you all later.
Bloghoggery isn't a bad thing, unless someone has a craving for HAM!
HA! I kill me!
-A
Take initiative and try to make this world a better place.
I want to, Anon. I do. I just don't know what to do. I run out of time and I want to do something good. But what?
Sometimes I feel like there's not enough hours in the day.
Alright, see how do you do that?
You just made me smile for the first time today. I found out some stuff about my current employer and it just sucks. Why do they insist on taking from people that work so hard each and every day?
ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!
Well, anyway. You are funny and you made me smile. That's what matters.
I just wish I could be that way.
SS
i just want to say i am sure elena will be happy once she see's what you have done.
cheers mate
SS, are you still around? Come chat awhile if you feel like it.
ok so if there is anyone here you can all help me please. my computer crashed the other night. it was dead so i rebooted it. I lost everything like files and music so i am uploading my music on there. so far i have muse, oasis and the killers, oh and a few bouncing souls thanks to someone. but i need other bands/artists to listen to.
can anyone suggest any good music?
does anyone know what the bee girl song was called and who it was by?
Blind Melon - "No Rain"
*Princess was secretly in love with Shannon Hoon.*
Ok, so maybe it wasn't that secret but I did love Blind Melon back in the day.....
Hey FS! How's Daytona today?
I see you are all talking about the man who killed Lennin. He was crazy and he had delusions that a "rock star" was intwined with his destiny. There are two ways to feel about this, one of them is delusions of grandeur and craziness. Mark David Chapmen. Then.......
"There was someone out there that did make me happy once. I still have no idea why, but I would get butterflies in my stomach. I would have a smile on my face each time I would think of him; I would glow. I now wonder if that was only a delusion in my mind. Maybe it wasn’t real. Sometimes I wish I knew. I still do not know whether he returned my feelings, or not. To this day I still ponder about it. It’s better not to beat myself over it, I know, but I wish I knew how he felt.
I liked him. A lot. I still do, actually. But does it really matter anymore? Does it really matter? He probably doesn’t feel the same and I know that even admitting my feelings, it will not change a damn thing about the situation. It's probably a lost cause, right? To some, it may sound stupid that some man might make me smile, but I can't help it. I can like a man and still be strong."
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erotomania
Erotomania. The belief that a rock star is in love with you. This often leads to violence.
Bleeding Chaos, get help, get it fast. This is not a judgement of your character but a concern. Everyone on this whol epage knows who your talking about. I doubt if you even met Gerard Way. Even if you did he probably didn't look at you and you imagined the whole thing. You can convince yourself that you met him and you had a thing with him or whatever but to every one else, they see the truth. You are disturbed and troubled. PLEASE JUST GET HELP. I say this to help you. And to Gerard Way if he is ever lurking around here or gets wind of this, be careful. People who "love" you can turn on you when you dont' return there 'devotion'....... Even if they talk all sweet to you and abotu you. Stay close to Worm.
"but frankly, no one here knows me personally, and they cannot always know what I'm really thinking. I guess it's a good thing about the internet, huh?"
No, that is the scary part.
its sunny as hell but i bit nippy. did you feel me thinking of you today. i drove past the track like i do everyday and there are certain days where you can go in and watch them train. i thought omg princess would love that. sat there with your tiara and a pint, going crazy lol
cheers for the title. i will look into that. do you know any other good bands? oh and i have the used to. how could i forget them. shame on me
I did feel you thinking of me, FS!
Ok, I know I've said it a thousand times but I would seriously die if I lived near the race track.
Atlanta is about as close to me as Daytona is.
Screw it, this place is a geographical oddity. 4 hours from everywhere and everything....
ARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!
Uhhhh, let me see....
What about Taking Back Sunday?
I ♥ TBS.
Anybody know when Leathermouth's cd will be released???
I am seriously like sitting on the edge of my seat waiting on that one.
Oooh, I hope my cd's come today!
30 Seconds to Mars - that's another good one.
Anybody here happen to listen to Steve Earle?
No?
Oh.
I got that one coming to.
And The Misfits. ^_^
lol you got your black little heart in there. ha
i will check them out. i should have to it by now with all the adam fangirling so i will see. hahaha
oh and when is the big race coming up princess, there are big signs everywhere promoting it but there is no date. duh
The Budweiser Shootout is Feb 9th and the Daytona 500 is Feb 17th.
GAAAWWWDD!!! I wanna go soooo bad.
Anon @ 2:05:
You know what sweetie? I was not talking about Gerard. You only assumed I was because I didn't mention this person by name, and some would assume I would mention him just because I talk about this dude. I was talking about someone else, not him. Like I said, you, or anyone else for that matter, can read what I'm actually thinking. Please stop with the assumptions.
SS
The mouse that roared can't begin to tell you how your kind gesture has touched my heart.
I am honored to call you my friend.
Thank you!
Elena
P.S.
Anon, just for that matter, I find writing here at Mayo's to be some form of cheap therapy, as I had to deal with a loss of a family member quite recently, otherwise you wouldn't understand that. Stop assuming that every time I mention a man that I am talking about Gerard. Like I said, no one here knows me personally, no one can read my mind and know what I'm actually thinking. I appreciate that you're trying to help, but please stop with the assumptions.
Fimble, do you have any NIN, Smashing Pumpkins, Blink 182, Anti-Flag, Dropkick Murphys, illscarlett, Sum 41, Rise Against, Coldplay, Stone Temple Pilots or Green Day on your comp?
I can send you a few songs.
-A
SV, this is going to be the first year I won't have the Shootout or Daytona on my TV.
-A
why dont you go princess?
and thanks for those i will go look at the music now, see if i like them. where is splash at this time. she is really good with bands. tuh tuh tuh
Search for Splash
oh and princess, wont they have the release date on the lehermouth website (do they even have a website)
Elena, I'm glad you're on to see that! That's made of win. ^_^ Elena, hit up my blog and post, okay? You should be in it.
Fimble: You know I'm going to say Lo Fidelity Allstars, right? :D
What about Taking Back Sunday?
I ♥ TBS.
OH HELL YES.
30 Seconds to Mars - that's another good one.
HELL YES TIMEs TWO.
Okay, back to shooting some zombies.
oh amy i have 3 greenday songs. ph showed me ilscarlet song once but i cant remember the name. i saw the video and they were in a house.
god i am so behind in music blah blah blah
SV, this is going to be the first year I won't have the Shootout or Daytona on my TV.
O_O I'm speechless......
PUMPKINS!!!! How could I forget the friggin' Pumpkins?!?!?!
Yes, you must, FS.
I also ♥ da Pumpkins.
I wish I could go, FS. Believe me, I would if I could.
Erotomania. The belief that a rock star is in love with you. This often leads to violence.
Um, when the fuck did I ever said anything about some "rock star" being in "love" with me? Never! What the hell? Second, I don't believe nor condone violence, and third, you are making another assumption.
A while back I told the others that there was someone else that I liked. Where were you when I was talking about him?
Fimble, check them out on Youtube.
My personal favorites:
DKM - Dirty Glass, Captain Kelly's Kitchen
Rise Against - Swing life away, Dancing for rain, Drones, Ready to Fall (WARNING, THIS IS A HARD VIDEO TO WATCH)
illscarlett - Nothing Special
Anti Flag - 1 trillion dollars, The Press Corpse, Spaz's House Destruction Party
Green Day - Holiday, When I come around
Smashing Pumpkins - 1979, Ava Adore, Bullet with Butterfly Wings
Sum 41 - Fat Lip, The Hell Song, In too deep
Blink 182 - What's my age again?, Dammit, All the small things, The Rock Show.
NIN - The Perfect Drug.
Stone Temple Pilots - Big Bang Baby, Sour Girl.
-A
is the whole race in daytona on tv.
omg if it is i am so gonna get on tv.
you will have to look out for me. i will wear some stupid outfit to get noticed and i will hold up a sign saying
blogblievers like hellmans best
FS - That's Nothing Special. That's my ringtone on my phone for anyone who isn't my boyfriend or work. My boyfriend got James Bond's theme from Casino Royale, and work got House of Wolves.
SV - Mom and Dad took the Harmon Kardon stereo system with them when they left. Now, they sound like cars in a tin can :(
I'm rolling for Junior though.
-A
amy ilu forever like.
i will check them out. is the illscarlett one of them in a house?
Sighs. I'm sorry about that everyone. How are you guys doing?
Ya know, I kinda sorta remember Mustard saying something about being gone for a couple of days. Think she said it on DM, but I'm too lazy to go looking for it. I think she should be back soon though.
lol
ho2 lazy? never hahahahahahahaha
ilu carrie
Fimble, yep. One of the most commerically popular right now. Also check out One-A and Mary Jane.
The most recent CD is awesome. I saw them live at Warped this past summer. Worth every penny. The lead singer is incredibly short though, I swear he's easily my height.
-A
lol amy its not always about the size hahahahahahaha
Hi Carrie.
Fimble, SO TRUE.
He probably has to roll it into his pants.
His mic cord.
-A
lmfao.
oh my god amy you are on fire today. i was seriously thinking you was talking about .........
haha.
right kiddies i am off to find these music talents and i will be back later on ok.
bye bye and thank you everyone who helped.
The Pumpkins are the most overrated band in the history of the world.
No, I was hallucinating, Mustard was just saying that it was doubtful she would be on for the rest of that day (yesterday) See, I did get the gumption to go look! And hey Fim, BC, and Amy.
BC, during the alternate universe fiasco, you made it quite clear that you thought Mayo was Gerard and that you had been "in love" with Gerard for some time.
We all saw it.
Anon, I didn't listen to them much, as you can see, a few songs here and there.
I'm still not so sure about Tarantula myself. We bought the CD, and I've heard it all... and nothing is really catching me.
-A
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