The magician is in the kitchen
Cooking up some fun
Pasteurize the chicken
Then put it on a bun
Load it up with sauce
And then
Put it on a plate
Eat it up and smile again
Before it is too late.
Now ask…too late for what?
The rhythm of my thoughts is calming. The grainy cadence of my voice is a constant reminder that I must, and will, refrain. It rains and it pours, beating the pattern like a tambour in my skull. The words are fugacious, and conservation is my priority. I have the ability to catch the phrases, hold them in sanctuary until they are well, and re-release them back into their natural habitat. I must let them go. Captivity will only foster anxiety, increasing the pacing…the back and forth search for limits.
It is there that they will live out the duration of their lives.
p.s. is it ridiculous to consider the possibility?
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RW, it looks like I've frigged my leg up something fierce! yesterday the chiropractor messed with it and said that it was misaligned (he tried to realign it) and my kneecap is all out of place, like totally not where it should be. Then I guess I went a little too far in Kung Fu last night and shredded some muscles which are now ALL UP IN SCIATIC NERVE'S KOOL AID, which, try to walk with a crushed nerve in your leg. >_<
Ummm, so painkillers and it's all good. :D :D
RW, after my venting, I am feeling much better. Thank you for asking. And how are you? Anima, anima, trying to be the sneaky one aren't you? ;)
K:
Pain=bad
Painkillers=good
But it sounds like you've already figured that out ;)
I'm quite well, BC :) This week at work hasn't turned out to he as horrendously busy as I'd expected, so that's a bonus to be sure.
What sucks, though, is that I just tried to make a donation to SPCA International but their donation/information form doesn't contain enough spaces for my postal code (as I'm in Canada I need 6 spaces, but they only allow for 5, even though the form is supposedly an internationl one, not just for residents of the USA). It's not often that I come across a form that won't let you donate. They're usually very user-friendly. Weird :/
BC, Anima, I hear you.
I've posted similar stuffs over the last couple of days, but I'm not sure if people have been hearing any of it.
MJ, I know how you feel. I was ready to bail last week, and was even reconsidering it yesterday.
But then, I thought about all the great people I've met here, and being able to talk with you all (and Mayo, and SS) is all the reason I need to stay.
Yes, there have been some arguments lately. Remember what I said about GOOD INTENTIONS? That's what I choose to believe was at the heart of them.
We're not always going to get along, and people aren't always going to like each other. But if we all let the negative shit keep us away, then we've let all the asshats (who'd love to see this place go down in flames) win.
Divide & conquer?
Or stay & carry on?
We all make our own choice.
And I'm hoping that EACH ONE OF YOU chooses to stay.
VIVA LA CASA DE MAYO!!!
*waves flag proudly, and struts in shiniest boots*
RW, that's ridiculous for the form to have that. How about trying writing the zip code under the zip code box? Sometimes I have to write between the boxes when I fill out applications :O
Obama...PLS?
sister, to fucking true. words to be remembered in casa de mayo
Sister M, hear hear! I am staying and carrying on. Venting feels great I must say. I went over to the other blogs, and I saw that I have someone bashing me. This person called me a retard and could not even spell surprise at the same time. They spelled it with a z instead. Ha Ha. I am feeling the love now. What a dumbass ^_^
Hi fimble, K, anyone else I missed.
sdock said:
Note for Mayo
Please leave in the corner:
Mayo,
How are you tonight? Did you have a nice Tuesday? I hope so. Me? Mine was good. Everything at work was fine. Nothing bad happened. I stayed out of trouble. Nothing happened. Isn't it funny how sometimes you embrace the nothingness? Yeah....so.
I did finish some of the shit I started today. I did....but not really what I was going for. It's tough to finish shit when you haven't really started any shit that's worth finishing. Whoah, did that just make any sense? Mayo, do you ever feel like you need to try harder and do better at everyfuckingthing? Because that is exactly what I am feeling right now. Sometimes sdock really is just a lost little girl.
Mayo, I want to thank you for disabling the pic option in hopes of helping us "get in". I still can't, but I have like the world's slowest internet connection. Maybe it will work on a new post. Who knows? I know I miss the corner, but I am getting pretty fond of swinging and singing under the stars. It's all good....
So, I will hush now....and leave you with this...Mayo, I want you to remember. Remember what? Nope, I want you to remember why.
Feel me?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. I need to do the same.
Oh my goodness!
I got a comment box!
Yay!!!
My weather is plying havok with my connection.
But seeing as it's being agreeable...
I agree with everything BC MJ and anyone else has said, especially MJ about the possibility of regs posting as nasty anons.
It is the suspicion and other cloak and dagger stuff going on that is hurting people not some girl somewhere with identity issues.
We've had anons and BNer's etc before and it's never been an issue but the constant conspiracy stuff.
Why can't people just speak to each other as they wish to be spoken to.
Disagreements are either kept private or just click the little x and wait a while.
I think we should all (me included and I mean all) take a step back and look at whether we are helping or hindering the atmosphere here.
As Dr Phil says either you are helping a relationship grow or poisoning it.
It's a public blog, we have no rights as regulars, we don't want to lose what we've got and we need to get it back in the fresh air and enjoy it again.
Sorry I am trying to get all this said in case it loses me again.
Apart from that I'm good, day is cooler, animals are happy, sun is out (for now) dinner is on (corned meat) and it's a hoopy cool and froody day!
hey bc. how ae you apart from pissed
RW, that's ridiculous for the form to have that. How about trying writing the zip code under the zip code box? Sometimes I have to write between the boxes when I fill out applications :O
Trouble is, there's a box specifically for the zip/postal code. I could put the code in the Address 2 area, but it won't let me leave the Zip/Postal Code box blank. I can't carry on & complete the donation until that field is filled out. I have send an email to the SPCA site about it. Hopefully they can fix it.
oh ok it's being nice to me
>_>
*eyes blogger suspiciously*
hey BC, I saw the comment about you, people need to get over themselves, and if you're insulting, spellcheck
SisM - nice boots
I wore my long boots a while ago (too hot most days now) and thought of you!
Kapunua that's bad about the sciatica, I used to get it then actually busted a disc so take care.
FS hiya!
RW -that is weird about the form, can you email them?
hey anima !
hey ergo
Hi there Ergo. I agree with your post as well, and sadly, I am fully convinced that we now have regulars posting as anons. There is no doubt in my mind anymore. We need to enjoy this place again indeed.
Fimble, actually, I am feeling better now. Thank you for asking. And how are you?
RW, I was thinking. How about attaching a seperate piece of notebook paper and writing the full zip code on it? I know it sounds somewhat silly, but maybe it could work?
Sphincter-clenching moment in politics tonight.
i am good, just plodding along. god i keep saying that. so whats happening tonight in the world.
Ergo, exactly. The funniest thing is that I think Amy pointed out the other day is, when anons are making mean comments about you, they usually misspell. This anon did. It was hilarious.
BC isn't it an onlne form she means?
BC I am unsure but if they are it says more about them than their targets.
well here in Oz fimble ummmmm, Nicole K is preggers,some footballers in trouble, the indian cricket team are being difficult over some racial sledging one of their players did, some areas are recovering from flash flooding and others have bushfires.
we had our federal election 2 months ago, it's nothing like US elections
That's good fimble. So, do we know if Hilary or Obama won the caucus in N.H. or not yet? I read that the McClain man won already.
RW -that is weird about the form, can you email them?
Yep. I sent them a message about it. I've never come across a situation like that before with a charity organization. It's very frustrating :/
RW, I was thinking. How about attaching a seperate piece of notebook paper and writing the full zip code on it? I know it sounds somewhat silly, but maybe it could work?
It's an online form though, so unfortunately that won't work.
Ergo, that's what makes some of the anons funny. They can spell the curse words right, but not any others. The form that RW mentioned, it does sound like an online form.
Time for me to heard to bed.
'Night BC :)
'Night EP :)
'Night everyone!
Um... make that *head* to bed...
:S
My ears are burning. Did someone say my (online) name?
-A
Night night RW. Sweet dreams
That was me Amy. :)
night RW
hello Amyranth
Clinton is still ahead. O_o I don't want to have to vote for her because I love Obama! But I will if I have to.
Hello Fire and Ergo.
Back to the nightshift for me. How's everyone tonight?
-A
Amy, don't worry, it's nothing bad. As for the caucus, I'd vote for either one of them.
Pain = killed, me = nervous.
MORE PPL ON AIM PLS.
Hi there Amy. How are you? I'm doing okay.
Are Hilary and Obama both in the same political party?
So they are running to be the one who runs for president?
Mayo - Where are you?
SS - I miss you
Hey, I totally want to write another poem again. I promised one to More Of This Anon and hopefully I get to do that tomorrow.
I can't promise it'll be a rondeau redouble (maybe I reserve those for Mayo? Yes, Mayo, you get the rondeau redouble; that is your form,) but another cool form perhaps...?
Anon, do you have a specific subject or image or theme? If not I can come up with one, but if you wanted something specific. ^_^
Fire - not too bad. I have a full belly now so I'm happy.
Your elections take forever though.
-A
Yup, that's how it works. Same party but vastly different people. most of the people I know don't vote by party but rather by the issues. Although I do know some folks who vote entirely by party and completely ignore this issues, which is very WTF to me.
Yeah, Mayo and SS, you know what? Those of us on chat at least, we agree that we are so very much feeling the love tonight. SS, we are totally feeling the love.
That's not painkillers talking, I swear. We are feeling it so hard.
OMG did you read what I jsut said! Heee!
it appears that hilary just won the caucus
Our party leadership is decided within the party and then we vote for local people in electorates who are with the major parties, minor or independants.
And separately the Primeminister.
there are 2 voting forms (House of Reps and Senate)
I usually work the elections running a booth or taking votes, we also have state elections for Premiers and local for council.
well that's a lesson in aussie politics nooone probably wants!
I have no idea how Canadian politics work, but I DO know it only takes us 2 months to pick a Prime Minister.
And they usually don't fuck up too badly.
-A
so if Hilary wins Obabma is out completely?
Amy, that's good. As for the elections, oh yeah, they definitely take long. But I am looking forward for the presidential elections. I feel that Bush has been in office forever, but the good thing is, he can't stay president after running two four year terms. Woo.
I wonder what Michael Moore is doing right now!
Is there going to be a new book from all of this?
I bet there is!
Fire - Eight years with the same fuckup is too long for ANY relationship.
-A
Hi all.
Kapunua, just passing through and saw mention of your kneecap problem. There is a rower in my family who has the same kneecap issue. Usually the problem stems from tendons being more developed on one side of the thigh, thus twisting the kneecap. If not treated correctly it can develop into patella tendonitis.
It requires strapping and physio to correct, with several weeks to two months of no exercise depending on the severity.
Rest is important.
Take care with it, okay.
Hell yeah it is Amy. Bush is an idiot, and this prick went to Yale on top of it! I had the unfortunate and unwilling opportunity to pass through his hometown when I went to visit my family in Dallas this past summer. I had shivers running down my spine when we drove through there (Lol) Now I am more so looking forward to the presidential elections. They will be held this November I believe, and then the new President will be introduced into the Oval Office come the following January.
Amyranth - very true!!
we just changed party and prime minister for the same general reason (though Howard wasn't too bad)
Our new PM has a myspace too! and one of the opp leaders has too, and he comments you back if you ask him stuff.
I was really chuffed.
I actually do have patella tendonitis and have had for about fifteen years, since the first surgery. O_o
Umm, no training for a few months? Uhhh...
Wow BC like it's still a year away?
I thought it was happening soon!!
Gosh that's a long time.
Hello hello pickled possum.
Hillary totally just won the the N.H. O_o
Ergo, the elections are later this year, like I just mentioned, but when they induct the new President next Jaunary into the Oval Office, that is basically when Bush's final term comes to an end. Technically, we have to wait another year like you just mentioned.
K, yep. I was watching a new SVU episode, and then the news interrupted it and said that Hilary just won O_o
It puts the lotion on it's hands or else it gets the elastic bands...
Wow... A bottle of lotion on a cold day feels SO nice.
-A
Well Oprah shall be pissed.
BC, fuck the bashers, I say.
Fuck 'em all. Fuck 'em in the ear, then fuck 'em in the other ear, and then pop their eyes out and skull-fuck them.
Non-violently, of course. ^_^
RW, is there room in the 'Country' box to add your postal code? Is what I usually do...
Boots are necessities. ^_^
Just sayin'.
Lol, yeah Ergo, I think she will ^_^
Sister M, yes, fuck 'em all!!! Some of the those anons are going on a highway to hell, because AC/DC says so. LOL! I knew that quote you mentioned is familiar somehow. It's from Goodfellas. That's one of my favorite movies :)
It puts the lotion on it's hands or else it gets the elastic bands...
You have no idea how funny this is to me. Leave it to South Park to make something so twisted into something so fucking hilarious.
Kapunua, the no training time is dependent on the extent of the problem and the intensity of the sport/exercise.
Rowing is leg intensive so it may be not be as long for the kung fu... but past injury history counts as well. Soo..ugh.. sorry. I do know your knee must be hurting a lot. I hope you have you some anti inflammatories.
*waves like a maniac back at BC*
Lurk you all later.
xoxox
'Playing Lambs' .... So messed up.
PP, I'm on them. It's the only reason I'm sitting at the computer right now. They do a lot more than just plain pain killers.
make you loopy, too. ^_^
Alright guys. We need some humor here. This guy completely rocks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZoO8LyizLA
This isn't exactly worksafe, and it comes in a little loud, so turn your speakers down, then up as needed.
-A
*Waves like a maniac back to pickled possum and realizes that she almost always spells pickled's name wrong* Take care pickled possum! Hi there Anima
I'm off for a while
catch you all later
hopefully to a new Mayo post
*leaves big bowl of bran cereal and prune juice to ensure Mayo is regular*
yeah, I kind of self-medicated but it's cool. It was a prescription I had from when I busted it a few weeks ago, and I never bothered to take them because it didn't actually hurt too badly. I hate, loathe, despise, DO NOT WANT pills.
But I couldn't move before 'cause the nerve runs the length of both legs so I was like, "SCREW THIS" and ate one.
oh a quick hello to katherine!
might see you later
Hey KD!
He's completely straight, he's got a girlfriend.
I just find that particular song hilarious!
-A
KD - I like him, for a kid he's got quite a bit of talent.
When you get the chance, check out the rest of his clips.
-A
Yeah, it's sciatica, but that's just a symptom. I think the actual problem (uhh, and this is thus far self diagnosed) is that I frigged up some muscles in my thighs and in my butt. (This is true. I looked it up on the internet.) It's just crushing the hell out of the sciatic nerve. Eww, that's gross.
In honor of Sister Midnite's comment:
For the Mayo Family
"Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are"
WE'LL CARRY ON!!
VIVA LA CASA DE MAYO!!!!
The lovelies WILL carry on...
For the lovelies?
I haven't met you yet.
*sniffs you a little*
I think I've been spending way too much time with my cats...
-A
Kapu - A funny story.
I used to be on the injectable Birth Control. My Doctor at the time, was also my Gyno and she used to give me the shot in my lower back, just above my actual butt. She said it was because it took effect quicker, and there was less pain and swelling.
Well, I went in for my shot once, and the doc was on vacation, so a nurse gave it to me in the arm.
My now ex-boyfriend said that he found it funny that my lesbian doctor liked to give me shots in the ass, and a straight one gave it to me in the arm.
He also thought it was strange that my lesbian doctor was also my gyno. I had to remind him that she was there when I was BORN, and probably was not "checking me out" like he assumed she was.
-A
Amyranth, I'm glad you sniffed first. I just never can tell. Is it a good anon or a bad anon? Hmmm.
Those damn gluteus muscles!
Gee, that lovelies anon rendition reminds me of WTBP for some reason.
Hello, Amyranth.
Just to clarify, I am not Mayo or SS.
I thought Sister Midnite's comment deserved a sequel.
AMy, jeez! LOL.
Now tell me, why do some people just assume that gay people are going to be attracted to ANYone of the same sex? That just doesn't make any sense. You know?
lol amy!
I doubt any gyno is thinking of sex in the middle of an "internal".
Hello for the lovelies anon. Nice to meet you. Hello hello KD. How are you?
SS won't be coming back and I think you all know why.
Hey BC!
How are you tonight?
Kapu - I love that assumption. Nothing like thinking things that are rumored are true! Please. You'd have to have a pretty freakin big ego to think every homosexual out there has a thing for you.
KD - The best part is, she helped deliver me, so she's seen me at my worst, literally.
I'm sure she was looking at me after dragging me, kicking and screaming from my mother's womb, started thinking "Yeah, that's hot."
-A
Anonymous said...
SS won't be coming back and I think you all know why.
Carpal Tunnel?
-A
Hey that KD. I'm doing good, just fresh out of the shower. How are you doing? Anon, didn't someone say the same thing a long while ago?
Amy,
You are in fine form tonight :D
Putting this all over, to try and get our poirch-dwellers back inside Mayo's living room. ^_^
OK, I found a link that will let us report the problem.
You'll have to be signed in to your Blogger account, though (I think):
Bug/Issue reporting
I'm filling it out now. ^_^
SS is tired of being question and harrassed every time he comes in here by certain people.
He loves some of you but not all of you. Some of you are not nice and treat him badly.
Amy, lmao!
Anon, that's not fair.
Anonymous said...
SS is tired of being question and harrassed every time he comes in here by certain people.
He loves some of you but not all of you. Some of you are not nice and treat him badly.
So he's like Jesus?
Naw, only kidding.
Listen, none of us BOUND SS here. He came of his own free will. He'll go of his own free will. If he truly felt that way, he'd let us know. But hey, if he has really left, at least he got some nice parting gifts!
-A
Goodnight sister midnite
BC, I had a shower before I went online, so now I'm nice and snuggly ;)
Amy is right. Everyone is here of their own free will. If SS does decide to leave, we can't really stop him, can we? KD, I feel nice and snuggly too! :)
It is not fair but you know who to blame for that. Remember he tried, tried to be so nice to you.
Anon, who are we supposed to blame? I don't understand. I hope you are not jerking our chains.
Thank you, lovelies Anon.
That was nice of you. :)
"SS-isn't-coming-back"-Anon: WHATEVER. Let me guess, you know because SS told you this?
(Amyranth's comment wins.)
WHATEVER. Buh-bye, now.
Kapunua, I can relate, kind of.
I've had patella-femoral syndrome since I was 15, and I never had the surgery. When the weather changes, I can end up eating Advil like candy... anti-inflammatories don't do anything for me, and I hate pills that make me not function. So, um, yeah. ^_~
I'm heading towards bed early tonight, I think... good AM/PM to you all, and see you tomorrow! :D
Anon, cancel my subscription, I'm over your issues.
Anyway guys, I gotta go to bed. See Y'all later tomorrow!
-A
Night night Sister M, Amy.
Anon, did SS tell you he was leaving? *sarcasm*
It is just obvious that he was fucking hurt and pissed. And over one person's lack of faith and trust. Now is ruined for all of you and you know why.
Did that had anything to do with the recent drama because I am still fucking confused. Whatever happened to cause someone to have lack of faith and trust, I know nothing about how that happened :/
Mayo, I'm sending my sleeping pill bills to you.
Anon, clearly we DON'T know why, who, when, where, or that Mustardisbetter did it in the spa with an inflatable sheep.
What? She did.
Also, until SS himself says anything to lead us to believe what you're frothing is indeed true, we're merely engaging the horse's hindquarters where we should be entertaining the horse's facial features.
Get it?
-A
Mustardisbetter did it in the spa with an inflatable sheep.
Amy, she did? Where was I when this happened? ;)
Lol
ANON I'm sorry but I just don't believe you. I can't believe SS would just write us off like that. He has too kind of a heart to do that to us.
I can honestly say I miss him and his kind words terribly but I understand he has a life and can't possibly stop here all that often.
I believe he will return when he can because I believe in him.
She questioned his integrity and that is not a nice thing to do. he said it himself. She questioned his integrity and it hurt him very badly. Now tell me, was that done out of love? NO. It was done out of paranoia and being mean and petty.
KD, I suppose maybe they are bored. I do not believe SS will leave us. He is such a strong and stubborn guy. He's an inspiration.
Suppose he comes back. Who do you think will be first on his IGNORE list then?
reread what ss said. reread it and then come back to us and say that he was upset with her. because i was there that night and to me he wasnt upset with her. in my opinion he was upset with bloody anons trying to be him. he was upset with people who LIE. he was upset with people causing shit.
that is my opinion on how he felt but no one will know how he felt except ss himself
maybe you should reread and apologize to kapunua and a big apology to ss himself.
anf again i will say. think about it son
ANON please stop. It is obvious you are just trying to point the finger of blame at someone. Trying to make us turn on someone. Funny thing is if we do that then it would be totally against what SS talks about. He wants us to stand strong, together. So really just stop, okay?
Then she tries to make it up to them writing a poem. 'Pay attention to me! I still love you..look how smart I am!' But guess what, sometimes.... that just isn't enough.
Anon, I have no fucking clue who he'd ignore if that was the case. I do not know what had transpired. I was not there.
Ach, guys it doesn't matter. Anons will talk and we can't do much more than ignore.
So that's probably the best course of action.
-A
Ignore this anon, they are trying to rile everyone up.
Wow, I almost missed this, and I wish I had. To be honest I wasn't even reading the comments, just every five or ten minutes refreshing the front page to see if Mayo had posted yet. ;D
Thank you Fim, thank you everyone.
Hey, in all the time I've been here? The one thing I've never done is presume to speak for another person.
Yeah, so.
Ignoring is good indeed. Another attempt at drama has failed.
Anon,you obviously don't know SS.
But you do because of who you are behind that anonymous name,right?
Stop blaming someone for something that hasn't and won't happen.
Bye anon
Even if he comes back, trust has been broken and betrayed. The way she treated him was uncalled for. So maybe the rest of you are in the clear. But think about it. Poems are not enough to say 'I was wrong'. it is a bad attempt. Watch. Wait. See.
Okay then anon. I will watch. Wait. See. Lol.
so poems are not enough but an anon is enough. cheers for that son. catch you on the flip side
I have said what I needed to say, what needed to be said and heard and understood by all. SS I understand if you do not return. I understand if you think it is too awkward. I understand.
That is all I need to say and it had to be said.
hi again KD saw your comment to kapunua about the sciatica, and I did have a slightly prolapsed disc which went kapow one morning and I couldn't move and had to get an ambulance to get to hospital.
Valium for a while (hate to have to use it) 3 months physio and gym work since and it's great but
K- get it checked out, it can go with very little notice!
ooh anon you're here too, so now you don't really know that SS isn't returning?
you seemed so positive but now the "if"
hang on let me re-read your words (as I do know where to find them)
Anonymous said...
SS won't be coming back
Anonymous said...
SS I understand if you do not return. I understand if you think it is too awkward.
yep can read them just fine this time
Hi there Fimble. So anon, you are not sure that SS will not be returning?
ah KD - the good 'ol days
oh we'd laugh and the kids would come back from chimney sweeping their little faces black with soot and we'd share a crust and a thimble of scotch....
Sighs. I miss the old days.
I guess no one is here then?
just stopped in before i went to bed
nighty night everyone and good night ss. still missing you.
Well, I'm heading to bed in a few minutes.
Mayo, if you come on, then hello. Hope you will have a good night, okay? Take care.
Clinic folks, goodnight and I will see you guys tomorrow. :D
Anon: GTFO, loser; let people speak for themselves or not at all. And hey, that poem? Yeah, it's brill. You go ahead and try to do better if you think you can. ^_^
Night night fimble, K. Sweet dreams.
night fimble night Kap.
Mayo?
Hey Ho Let's Go!!
(just thought I'd say that!I'm still feeling hoopy cool and froody! Hope you are too!)
Ergo, are you going to be taking off as well?
oh BC I call in and out this time of day, see if anyone is about,
and I look for TJ's goodnight post she usually leaves at DM and bring it over here to post.
So I'm not really here properly.
You take care and I'll catch you properly again tomorrow.
I've got a new poem if you want a read.
:)
Ooooh a new poem eh? I shall check it out. I won't be sleeping in for a while yet, and I am quite bored. Take care Ergo.
for mayo
from toujours at DM
toujours said...
*pads quietly up to the porch in bare feet*
*takes out a note, folded origami-style, and pins it to the wall*
*looks about, hoping it's not too late for someone to take it to mayo's*
*sighs philosophically and slowly walks away into the night*
mayo,
nothing i can think of to say sounds right.
i've started writing this note about a half-dozen times now. sometimes i ask you how you're doing, and wonder if you're heartwhole, other times i describe for you my day and its darkening mood.
none of it sounds right.
i don't know what to say to you tonight.
i think it's because i'm back in that tight spot again, where i was last month, and my teeth are clenched with the fear of it. i can't settle my thoughts. usually i just quiet myself and think of you, and then i know what i want to say. it rises up in me, effortlessly.
but tonight...
tonight i wish i had someone sitting here with me, someone to hold my hand (which hasn't been held for so long), someone to encourage me with solid and strong words that shore up my shaking heart.
would you mind, mayo, if i imagine you as a hero, for just a little bit? if i read your words and hear in them strength and courage, and look to you as a light to help me get through this? it would just be for a little while. just let me idealize you for a little while.
i'm sorry. that was wrong. i wrote about my situation on one of my blogs, and maybe i should have left it there.
but this is who i am tonight. tonight is dark, even with the lights on. i'll be better tomorrow. somehow i'll get through this.
look at this. what a messy note. everything's scribbled out and re-written, and even smeared in a couple of places (from tears, probably). i should just scrap it, a melodramatic waste of imaginary paper.
but it's my truth for the night. things aren't always pretty, i guess. and maybe there's something here that's still useful.
and maybe i'll be embarrassed by this tomorrow.
fuck it. i'm going to post this, no matter what anyone thinks.
good night, mayo. i certainly hope your day was better than mine. i like to think of you smiling.
4:36 AM, January 09, 2008
just popping in to say good morning everyone.
mayo and SS also.
have good days!
love to all.
couldn't resist having a quick catch up.
well an interesting evening was had with anon!!!!!
*sigh*
must away!!
fasc beat me to it tonight,
Well it's good to know TJ has more than one messenger.
Mayo I know you've been about, the change in the user pic showed that.
Thank you!
I hope next blog it will make it easier for the porch dwellers,though they've made it very comfortable out there, I'm sure they'd rather be inside.
SO it was at least a fairly uneventful day for a change. What would life be without the occasional drama.
Mostly fuelled by the fact so many have become very comfortable here and feel very "protoctive".
Well I hope to hear from you soon, life takes many twists and turn, but I hope it's treating you well.
Wishing health and happiness to yu and yours.
Much Love
EP xx
Morning Mayo (& FASC)!
Since you're an, ahem, married man, here's my present to you:
How a marriage works
A newlywed couple had only been married for two weeks. The husband, although very much in love, couldn't wait to go out on the town and party with his old buddies .
So, he said to his new wife, "Honey, I'll be right back."
"Where are you going, coochy cooh?" asked the wife.
"I'm going to the bar, pretty face. I' m going to have a beer."
The wife said, "You want a beer, my love?"
She opened the door to the refrigerator and showed him 25 different kinds of beer brands from 12 different countries: Germany , Holland , Japan , India ,etc.
The husband didn't know what to do, and the only thing that he could think of saying was, "Yes, lolly pop...but at the bar...you know...they have frozen glasses..."
He didn't get to finish the sentence, because the wife interrupted him by saying,
"You want a frozen glass, puppy face?"
She took a huge beer mug out of the freezer, so frozen that she was getting chills just holding it.
The husband, looking a bit pale, said, "Yes, tootsie roll, but at the Bar they have those hors d'oeuvres that are really delicious... I won't be long, I'll be right back. I promise. OK?"
"You want hors d'oeuvres, poochi pooh?" She opened the oven and took out 5 dishes of different hors d'oeuvres: chicken wings, pigs in blankets, mushroom caps, pork strips, etc.
"But my sweet honey... At the bar... You know...there's swearing, dirty words and all that..."
"You want dirty words, Dickhead? Drink your f***ing beer in your Goddamn frozen mug and eat your motherf***ing snacks, because you are Married now, and you aren't f***ing going anywhere! Got it, Asshole?"
Love,
Kass xx
Lol
Kass in recognition of marriage guidance counsellor of the year...
*hands over a slightly splattered fishwife apron and a harrassed look mask on a stand*
...for speaking and guiding people to the truth.
Awww, PP!
You've crawled your way back into my good books after blanking me on the porch.
Love ya!
Kass xx
Hello Kass (that was HILarious, btw), Possum, Mayo, everyone beginning to stir around the estate....porch and pool house included!
How is everyone on this wonderful Wednesday? Good, I hope!
In honor of January's WOLF MOON:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6FxSM88H-G4
(yeah, ya'll STILL have to do it the old fashioned 'copy & paste' way....sorry) Siobhan did try 'a-learnin' me......
I FAILED!
Have a great day/night and everything in between everyone!
Love and Hugs to ALL,
Wendy
sdock10 said...
Please pass to Mayo-Man:
Good Morning Mayo,
How are you, my friend? Awake yet? Drinking your 1st or 2nd cup of coffee? Me? Well, I'm awake...no coffee. Grrrrrrrr....
Just wanted to wish you a way-cool Wednesday. It is Wednesday, right? Ok, good. I hope something happens to you today that (s)excites you. Are you wondering what that might be? Yeah, well that's half the fun....not knowing.
Or maybe, you know exactly.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Yes, I said...sexcite.
To My Anon Song Swapping Partner:
I said this on the porch last night, but just in case you missed it. Thank you. You made me smile and yes, I am reaching.
SS,
You are missed. Just wanted to let you know. I hope you are well, my friend.
Faith, hope, love,
Always,
S
7:10 AM, January 09, 2008
Hi 616,
Loving the song, but loving the hair more!
Kass xx
Hi ya Kass!!! Hmmmm.........maybe I should try a 'beehive' today?
I wonder how long it takes to do one of those dos????
Nah, don't want to give the neighbors MORE to talk about ;-)
Howdy Doody MacArudey.
Uh, yes, you Mayo.
Have you fini...
Whoops, hold it for a moment.
Sorry, back again.
There was a song on the radio that I find it absolutely compulsory to dance(badly)to. Hope the neighbours enjoyed the backlit shadows on the curtain of the weirdo dancing next door, at 1am. Alas I opened my eyes and realised the shadow problem too late. Who cares. Well, possibly me when I say hello to them later today.
Anyway.
...shed painting your toenails?
Didn't think so. I wouldn't go near those toes either.
I am going to apologise in advance for what surely will be an outbreak of my crabby moodiness.
I am a chocoholic (there, said it!)and I am going cold turkey. It will be hell for all.
Christmas fare left behind a pair of impressively pneumatic gifts and although the construction men down the road seem to appreciate them, I refuse to run anymore in this heat trying to get them down in size. Anything bigger than a full handful is a waste of space. Although they have been a little fun to play with.
*train ticket to Hell on way*
It won't be easy. I don't drink, I don't smoke. This is my big crutch. Normally I would light some incense but it has some irritative qualities for some of your lovelies and I don't want their eyes watering.
I'm just going to take my little Tibetan singing bowl over to one of your corners instead.
I apologise if I hit and rim it harder than I normally would.
*finds the corner*
*tries to feel the om*
*tries not to feel anything else*
*fails at omming*
Eek, sorry Kass! So busy dancing and being pissy I didn't see you there.
Hi 616 and porchsitting sdock.
The porch was repainted from my last visit kass.
I seriously thought I was hallucinating.
*PP not coping with cocoa withdrawal well*
Hey there SS
How are you doing?
I hope the new year has started well for you and your family.
I'm still throwing flowers at the lovely freshness of it.
Each day always brings a smile but if the day is a bit reluctant to smile, do something that makes someone else smile. Positivity all the way.
F,H,L makes the world go 'round.
*PP seriously has to stop with the incense burning at home*
*throws the gold record on to counterbalance*
*ommmm ommmmm ommmmmmm*
This om-ing just isn't working for me either Possum; not without the enclosed room, non ventilated aroma of incense. Perhaps we should move this to the pool house? Do J and L mind incense burning? How about Sparkle - the new little lamb?
I demand to know WHO is responsible for that one!!!!
It's oh so quiet.
Just me and my little singing bowl.
It will be all be fine until the shakes and headache kick in =(
*PP going through feeling sorrow for the loss of cocoa in her life*
Have a good day all =)
Love PP
xoxox
616!
*hugs like crazy*
I was just off.
I love you!
*cocoa deprivation invokes extreme emotion*
I hope J and L don't mind. I heard they were coming back to the casa soon though.
Is Sparkle the love lamb of shaunette and PPU, or shaunette and the party sheep?
*not implying shaunette has loose morals*
Mayo, please post a new entry today. Your pasteurized chicken sandwich is going bad and starting to smell funny.
*pounces on Possum and hugs her like a mad woman - which I may be, ever so slighty*
I think we'll know who the guilty party is in a few weeks Possum. I mean, if a little horn pops out of Sparkle's head......
ya know what I'm saying ;-)
Baaaaaa-d Shaunette!!!
Ooops! And I LOVE YOU TOO POSSUM!!!
:D
Mayonaise,
Are you in hiding my dear? I hope not. I know that there's been tons of 'drama' lately, but don't let that chase you away. This is YOUR home.
How are you doing lately Mr. Mayo-Man? Me? *sigh* I am alright, just busy with exams and work. Luckily, I only have two shifts next week because the mall is DEAD! Honestly. Last night I had like 30 costumers, so I made a puppet out of a paper bag. What else was their to do? Life goes by too quickly, enjoy it. That's why I always say. Or. I say, you only live once, take a risk. Everytime someone asks for mayonnaise with their fries, and I tell them it is 27 cents for two, I think to myself, "Oh, no! Mayonaise is worth MUCH more than 27 cents!!". So in my mind, I am sticking up for you everyday. (Haha that's totally stupid, but I'm running out of things to say).
SS, where are YOU my dear? Are you off hiding with Mayo in a corner? I miss you tons, and worry about you, and Mayonaise, everyday.
I hope that you both take care, and don't change for anyone.
All my love;
- 007
<3
P.S. Professor Anon!
Where are you my sweet? I want to thank you dearly for the text book, but how can I show you my appreciation if you are never here? I hope that you read this, because if not, then WOW! That was a waste of one minute! =]
<3
Hi Paperheart,
Mayo is just about worth my 2 cents.
Groan.
Kass xx
*PP feeling the lovely slightly looney love from 616*
Lucky for shaunette horns grow after,616.
anon said, your pasteurized chicken sandwich is going bad and starting to smell funny.
Um, no.
It was a bit whiffy to begin with.
PH,
Young lady, you have a super day at school today.
*hugs and hands over a pcked lunch full of PP's massive chocolate stash*
Night all.
P.S. Hey Mayo...
*blows Mayo a kiss tonight... because tomorrow it will probably be a slap*
PH, I'm glad I caught you. Sorry I missed you the other day. I'll still accept your work even though it is late. If you want to drop this class maybe you can sign up for my next semester class entitled SS: The Man, The Myth. Please wait until the new textbook comes out this spring. The 2007 edition is written in Latin, but the 2008 edition will be in English. We hope to attract many more students this way as few actually know the Latin language. Thank you again for your interest in my class. I'm leaving for the day so I'll say goodbye to you.
Professor Anon, thank you for stopping by. I am really excited for the next course "SS: The Man, The Myth." The Latin portion will be tough, but I think we can all handle it. ;)
Goodmorning everyone!
Hi Mayo dear. Hope your day is lovely and full of all things wonderful.
SS, sending you lots of love, peace, and hope today.
Well, everyone, I gotta get back to the 'MF'ing grind. Hope to pop in real soon.
Love to all of you.
can yall do me a favorite....
someone post here what this says from skeleton crew
tanks!
Hello friends!
Hope you all had a nice holiday and a safe New Year. 2007 is dead and gone, so here's to a regret free 2008. Some new developments are as follows:
Please let us all welcome NEW TOMORROW to the S//C family. They are an amazing band from California and I'm sure they are going to have a bright future. So check them out and show them your love.
A huge thanks to all of you that already set up street teams and also to everyone who took the time to tune in to the David Costa NJ recording session. I gotta say that kid has flow. He continues to get better and better. It blows my mind.
A huge thanks and much respect to all the artists and writers that submitted for our virtual gallery...You are all very talented, also congrat's to all the winners as well.
We also have found a new writer that will be showcasing in the next few weeks. So keep your eyes out for F.T. WILLZ.
Update 2:
We have a new division of S//C we are creating called The K.G.B.. The K.G.B. is open to all and consists of young people taking it upon themselves to make this world a better place. I promise you 1 person can make a difference...but millions can start a revolution. The K.G.B. will take up homework assignments for the greater good. Now I know you guys are probably real busy with school starting again and I'm sure all your blogs need attending too but if you have any free time. Here are your homework assignments:
#1 If you're 18 and live in the United States. Educate yourself on the issues at hand and register to vote! You can do this online at www.rockthevote.com. It's real easy, fill out the form online and print it out to sign and mail. If you're not 18. Find out about the issues and discuss them with your parents and friends. Express your opinion to them and make sure they vote. This is our world and we do have a say.
#2 We have new designs in the works and they will be out soon. However, if you can't wait or already have all the S//C gear you want. Then please go to www.aspca.com. If you pledge around $19.00 they will send you some awesome gear and a photo of an animal you have saved.
#3 Read Gandhi's autobiography. "My experiments with truth". I promise its a really interesting read and his teachings will touch your heart.
...and last but not least!
#4 Do a selfless deed... Help someone who truly needs your help without expecting anything in return. It could be as simple as buying a homeless person a sandwich or volunteer your time at a soup kitchen or a children's hospital. Every little bit counts.
More homework assignments will be passed out later. Take care of each other and believe in yourselves. It sounds cliche' but you are the future. Take initiative and try to make this world a better place. Until next time, keep the faith friends.
xo
Frank + s//c
Should be "anon's bitch", obviously...
Surely Anon, it takes longer to write out the blue link than it does to copy & paste?
Also, are you short, green and 899 years old?
Hello, Family, Mayo, SS
I wanted to let you all know I may not be around the next few days. My Dad was put in the hospital yesterday afternoon. They will be running test today.
Also, to Anima:
Congratulations on no longer being a chickenshit and kudos for the confession. I'm glad that I really don't recall what was said (remember, I try to ignore Anons). Let's put it all behind us, OK?
lol why, yes, my bitch, I am.
how did you know?
*looks around all paranoid-like*
Good morning everyone. Hello there anon's bitch.
Mya, I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself. Sending you loads of hugs.
To the Anon who can post a link but not copy and paste, not sure what the deal is, but okay.
Frank is such a sweetie. That is also cool that S//C teamed up with the ASPCA. Maybe I'll make my donation early this year. ;)
Thank you, Anima!
Also, will you all join me in celebrating my Grandmother's 106th Birthday?
Yes, you read that correctly: 106! and still sharp as a tack!
much like myspace, I am also blocked from livejournal. That's probably how anon's bitch knew who I was.
EFF YOU, EFFING FILTERS!
Good morning Anima. Mya, I wish you all the best. Take care.
Oh hey BC! Hi Yoda!
Gotta run again. I should really stop refreshing the page.
Wow! 106! Yes, tell her everyone in blogbelieve wishes her a Happy Jappy Birthday!
Yoda, after realizing it was you, I figured you had issues with accessing the site. Damn filters!
Anon, I'm guessing LJ does not like you very much. Happy birthday to your grandma Mya!
Ha ha that was Yoda? Hello there Yoda. Take care Anima. I am going to head back to bed soon.
Yoda, I am.
Anon's bitch, memory too good.
Distract you all with Frank and Jamia Goodness, I will.
Thanks, guys!
If anyone would like a chuckle:
Yesterday I posted a video on my blog of the greatest comedian to ever walk the earth. I think this video is less "offensive" than most of his others, but beware of language anyway.
Gotta go now! Take Care!
Anon's Bitch used the force and would know Yoda anywhere.
Hellos to Mya, Anima & LBTF too,
106 is very impressive, Mya's Gran, so props to you!!
My great-uncle Jack will be 100 soon and he's still walking around and grumpy as hell. He was a proper Canadian lumberjack back in his youth, though sadly no suspenders or bra...
Kass xx
Your welcome Mya. Take care!
Good morning Kass. Yoda, Jamia and Frank make such an adorable couple. Awwwww!!! :)
BC
*Suitably distracted, Kass wonders exactly how tiny Jamia is*
Permanent markers are for pussies, you've got to indelibly write the love on your chest. Go Framia!
Kass xx
Kass, I agree. Sharpies are so yesterday.
*hugz to Mya* Happy Birthday to your Grandma, Mya!
Hi everybody!
Hi, Pickled Possum!!! *glomp*
Long time, no see! ^_^
Erm, well, you know what I mean. ^_~
So how's everybody this morning?
<--- still sleepy
And to last night's anon who knows everything: Go suck an egg. :Þ
(Just wanted to say that.)
TTYL! (work - bleh!)
Hey :) Anyone here?
I had a lovely dream about Jared Leto lastnight, he won and archery competition and he looked very lovely in his chain mail then he romanced me hahah im smiling this morning (actually its afternoon) still ill though :/
How is everyone?
Good morning Sister M. Hope you're doing well. I'm fucking tired. Good morning/afternoon shame in me, my lovely daughter. How are you?
Hi SisM & SIM,
I don't dream about JL, but I am going to see 30STM in 3 weeks time.
Yay for me, sucks to be the rest of you!!
Although I did watch My So-Called Life religiously, trying to ignore the irritant that is Home-wrecker Danes...
Kass xx
Kass i am too!!! at manchester!! Where you seeing them?
I like your new name kassanova haha and BC why are you up so early? Have you been to sleeep yet? How are you?
hi guys!
just a brief pop in whilst making the tea for my little ones!
hope everyone is fine and dandy!!
Hello hello faraway. How are you? I'm doing okay, just a bit tired. Shame in me, I woke up early so I can charge my Ipod. I am going out later on today. I'm tired, but right now I am writing a story to ease the boredom. Your dream sounds nice too :)
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