The magician is in the kitchen
Cooking up some fun
Pasteurize the chicken
Then put it on a bun
Load it up with sauce
And then
Put it on a plate
Eat it up and smile again
Before it is too late.
Now ask…too late for what?
The rhythm of my thoughts is calming. The grainy cadence of my voice is a constant reminder that I must, and will, refrain. It rains and it pours, beating the pattern like a tambour in my skull. The words are fugacious, and conservation is my priority. I have the ability to catch the phrases, hold them in sanctuary until they are well, and re-release them back into their natural habitat. I must let them go. Captivity will only foster anxiety, increasing the pacing…the back and forth search for limits.
It is there that they will live out the duration of their lives.
p.s. is it ridiculous to consider the possibility?
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guess what I'm listening to again!
P.S. Ergoproxy, if the Professor shows up while I am away, I am trusting you with my textbook. You are my study buddy after all! <3
*night night hugs* PH
I shall collect a bag and be right with you alie!
beware. please. beware.
the regs need to be observant
look at the words. compare
please. beware of them
will do PH!
I shall watch for him in the carpark
The stoning is getting boring.
*starts throwing rocks at Andrea and Alie*
goodnight and sweet dreams teddy bear *hugs*
Hello hello entropy, carrie. Goodnight fimble. Kool Aid Pitcher kicks ass too. One of my favorite "Anons" I must say :D
Anon, beware of who?
Compare what?
thanks anon
shall beware of things to be wary of
*Ducks*
Missed me!
*Lobs rock at UCB*
Dude, too tired for this.
Sweet dreams!
<3
P.S. Thanks Ergo!
Anon @ 2:06:
What do we need to be aware of?
ucb you could make a nice rockery.
*hits him right in the noggin*
Ouch! That's gunna leave a mark.
shall beware of things to be wary of
Lol :D
Aww, sorry UCB. Maybe we should stick with something softer. Snowballs perhaps?
We were talking here about Ray Toro? Lemme tell you about the first time I heard MCR. It was while seeing the video for I'm Not Okay after searching for it on Youtube. Okay, it's pretty well known that I'm partial to Frank after having met him and seeing first hand how kind and generous he is, but I have always, since first getting into this band, had an enduring love and respect for Ray Toro. For me, he brought back the guitar. It had been missing in music for so long. When I was a kid I wanted so badly to be good at the guitar; I used to practice constantly. When I wasn't as good as I wanted to be, I eventually put it down. It was one of the biggest disappointments for me, but I eventually moved on to other things. Always though, I had such respect for anyone who could get music to come out of one of those contraptions.
Then afterwards I caught some interviews and LOTMS and I was sold on the guy. It seemed to me that here was one of the most down to earth, sincere and sweetest people anyone could ever be lucky enough to meet. Sweet smile, kind voice, never heard him be rude to anyone. Add to that the fact that you never hear a negative word spoken about him and it paints a pretty decent picture of your basic honest, hard-working and genuinely kind person--rare in that business--and it's hard to deny.
Plainly, I loved Ray Toro from day one.
Even after MCR started to really fail for me, with Gerard's behavior and all, I held on to it for the other guys, but most especially Ray and Frank, whom I held in really high esteem.
Secondly I'd like to address the issue of being punk--you know, what MCR used to be before they changed to "metal?" When I say the word, I'm not usually referring to a genre of music, but an ethos, something that I've always believed in. To me, that's saying what you think, what you truly believe is right, even if it's unpopular and gets you branded as a bitch. I've pretty much even started to take a liking to the word. That doesn't make it any less harsh when coming from a totally unexpected source, out of the blue though.
Me? I say what I mean and I use my name to say it. I don't hide behind passive aggressive games or false names. People know where the hell they stand with me--all people. Anyone who expects special treatment is wayyyyy off. If I love or admire someone, I tell them straight up or I show them. If someone pisses me off, they know it just as well.
And the most important thing about that whole entire ethos, to me, is not kissing ass. To that end, it doesn't matter how much I have loved or admired someone in the past. It doesn't matter what their station in life is. If someone has treated me shabbily, I'm going to treat them the same no matter who they are. If frigging God walked into the room, called me names and took shots at my friends, I would send him on his way, too. I do not kiss ass, ever.
Bitch? Yeah, I guess so. But at least you'll know from the beginning where we stand.
beware of them. compare the words.
2 could be 1. do not let them fool you
think about what has happened. what is at stake? please beware
*busts down the goddamn wall*
OMG WHO AM I? WHO AM I?? YOU'LL NEVER GUESS!
can't snowballs be really hard too?
I heard people get hurt by them (never seen snow but I'd love to, I made a frost ball but it just pretty much ends up a lump of ice)
ok so 2 posters could be one person
but as long as noone is being agressive or insulting I'm just drifting along in the conversational flow.
Is mankind evolving or is it too late? well tonight is the Meaning of Life"
Wrong! It was me!
Hells yes to all that,Jules.
o...k... spoke a little too soon, and the day had gone so nicely.
*sigh*
Oh, you know, I must have ESP powers, I was falsely trying to take credit for the Kool aid pitcher, which really was K, and then you guys tried to pin to oh rlly on her, which fucking WAS me, so suck it. I thought you were nice, now I'm over you.
Thank you, Carrie, Entropy.
There's a difference between playing stupid games like pretending to be, you know, PITCHERS OF JUICE while assuring everyone that it is you, to actually pretending to be someone else.
*sigh again*
can I come play with the dogs ucb?
Card game, ergo?
Ray Toro is kind and honest.
Why, hello there black rose.
sure Andrea you shuffle or shall I?
what'll we play
Blackrose hello!
Though I don't know him he appears to be and I would love to think my impression is correct.
Ergo, you are more than welcome to come play with the dogs.
Hmmm... do you know rummy?
Nice to meet you black rose. How are you?
Hello, Andrea. Hello, Ergoproxy.
How is everything going this evening?
Going alright. You?
Maybe you want to be dealt into our card game?
Hello, Avenger. Your name is quite lovely. I am doing well this evening. How about yourself?
No, no, Andrea. Cards aren't my thing.
thanks ucb
*whistles*
Fetch!!
I don't Andrea but I can learn!
Good thanks Blackrose how's yourself?
Thank you black rose. I like your name as well. I am doing pretty well. Thank you for asking.
Ergoproxy, making snowballs out of frost is completely different from actual snow.
Real snow is soft at first and after a few days gets to the hard, good snowballs that hurt the most.
The soft snow is good for snowmen.
is alie still about?
I wanted to be......... a Lumberjack! Leaping from tree to tree as they float down the rivers of British Columbia
haha well there you are!
yes I'd think frost wouldn't be good, Snow looks like so much fun
I'm a lumberjack and I'm okay
I sleep all night and I work all day
Yes, I am still around. I'm trying to fix my aim. It froze.
Whistle while you work
*whistling noise*
Kapunua said...
Yeah, J., that nothing wasn't exactly nothing, was it?
And you know what? I don't want to say what I am "insinuating" to your face here. You know why? Because I still don't want to hurt you that badly. It's not worth it.
Hey, you're not worth it
===========
Back from Mambo practice and:
OH MY GOD! Okay, First things first.......SHE (J)IS WORTH a lot to me and to MANY others.
KAPUNUA: What the hell is wrong with you? Can you really NOT SEE that you are turning into that bitter and cruel boy that bullied, belittled and ridiculed you when you were young? DO YOU NOT SEE THAT?
I am truly sorry you had to go through that. No one ever should! But can't you see some of the same traits in yourself now?
First, you tell people to "crawl back into their mother's wombs and have themselves ABORTED". Then, you call Mya an IDIOT. Now, you're calling J dumb and trying to make her feel less valuable than you????
And you DO NOT mean to hurt them???
Some here have tried and tried with you- only to have the door slammed in our faces. We have asked for a little common courtesy and respect. We have asked for you to think before you type......
Is it too much to ask? I don't understand THAT at all!
I have spoken my peace - OUT IN PUBLIC - for all to see/agree/disagree/whatever......
Love & Hugs to ALL,
#6
WENDY
hey wendy and the day was going so nicely
whatcha workin on ucb?
alie try completely exiting and restarting
Guys, I've gotta go somewhere else for a while. The arguing is killing me. I've had enough for one week.
I'm working on cutting down trees and destroying all our natural resources.
Alie, don't attack me!
Attack you?? I'm not a tree hugger. I like trees. That doesn't mean that I hug them or make-out with them.
Weirdo.
Alie, UCB, blackrose, ergo, anyone else who's interested... I'm heading over to my blog. It's been designated a drama-free zone for the weekend. You're welcome to join if you wish. Otherwise, I'll catch you later. Have a good night all!
On my way!
Both Mayo and SS have addressed you since your big "discovery". Both of them sounded pretty pissed. Can't say as I blame them, especially since you all but called SS a liar. Really nice, there.
You think what hurts you,hurts her?
No.
Take care Andrea
Hold on, let me get the door for all the ladies.
Thanks BC, you take care too. Have a good night.
ucb single handedly!
as long as you aren't a multinational corporation clearfelling virgin rainforest I'll let it slide this time
lol
and I think alie heard you
ergoproxy said...
hey wendy and the day was going so nicely
=========
*le sigh*
Oh well, I haven't been to bed yet; so perhaps when I wake up later today things will be CHIPPER again!
(If ya'll are going to be cutting down trees a CHIPPER might come in handy) ;-)
I'm off to do some laudry now. LOL, I DO have such a strange schedule....
Love & Hugs,
#6
Wendy
*big, big, BIG hugs for the very worth while and special OP J - who is just as worthy as all others here*
It's about my dinner time so I'll head off too.
Hope to catch everybody tomorrow
Much love xx
and TJ if you see this I did think of you today and missed you!
Thanks Andrea. Goodnight to you.
Take care Ergo.
And now, I am going to bed. Which means I won't be answering. OH NO!!
Mayo,
I apologize for using your home as a sparring arena. Sometimes you just gotta go with what you feel, you know?
I apologize to you, my friend.
I will talk to you tomorrow.
J
SS,
I'm sorry you had to witness that, too. I needed to say something, and I did. I don't regret one word.
Now you know why we're called "Punks". But I think you know that already.
I'll talk with you tomorrow, during office hours. Again, sorry you had to see that.
J
Goodnight and sweet dreams J.
WTF. High BC I have Internet connection right now but its so so. So I might disappear
well i guess I'm out. no one is here
MJ, I'm afraid it got a bit tense here earlier tonight.
Hi BC and KD I'll be here as long as the connection lets me.
Mayonaise, not one to be afraid of keeping her opinions to herself, but sometimes your house fucking sucks. Why? Recent drama. I meant what I said about sometimes hating this place a while back.
Things got a bit tensed between Kapu and OP L. And then J arrived, and basically, they're done with K, L is done with carrie ( I think) and also entropy.
Hi there KD. Besides this, how are you doing?
I see that but why?
Well other than being confused yet again. I'm well. KD and BC how are you?
MJ, it had something to do about the accusations about K and some others sending emails or something about what happened a couple of days ago, when we thought that the blogs were going to go down. I'm not sure if I explained it right.
Anyways, and then OP J was discussing about K's attitude towards the other bloggers and the way she treats them or some shit like that.
I don't like talking about the other bloggers like this, but you guys can read some of L's earlier comments.
Sighs.
Alot of us left because of what happened earlier, and I was already gone to bed after the drama unfolded.
I have been reading the earlier comments. But it is still confusing. I want to hear it from a third party. Someone who isn't so mixed up in it.
I understand Bc that you don't want to comment about the others. But some shit is going down.
KD, I'm sorry to hear that. Is your friend okay? MJ, I guess we have to wait until tomorrow to see what happens. I got fed up with the drama, so I mostly stayed out of it.
I will sign off now. MJ, KD, goodnight and sweet dreams.
Take care
MJ, definitely.
Goodnight guys.
Hello to all
mayonaise said...
Now ask…too late for what?
to have some fun
perhaps... night time nookie.
(blushes)
Regards to you, mayonaise; to words spoken openingly, and worth living for.
mayonaise said...
p.s. is it ridiculous to consider the possibility?
I could be way off, but the first thing that popped up, "Bun in the Oven". Help us out, ok? (smiles)
Right now, I see mayonaise's place; as a little rowboat trying to stay afloat ^^^ in a large turbulant sea of words.
Thanks to J for saying "Sorry" to the family, though.
love to go around
`sc
This shit is really getting out of hand. We have anons attacking and family members at each other throats.
KD you don't have to stay my Internet is bad and keeps going in and out. So if you need to go go. I can do some surfing
Goodnight BC
KD id your friend alright.
Hello SC
Okay MJ,
Goodnight! Try to catch you tomorrow!
Goodnight
I am here, martha and KD.
Is it still pouring, martha?
KD, sad to hear about your friend.
SC no not right now it's not raining but we have to wit till Tuesday for a repair person to come out. So we have no Internet or cable. I just happen to find a signal that i could use.
Mayonaise, it's good to hear you again.
So good.
All my darlings, sorry I'm no longer regular on here, I miss you terribly.
Sorry I cant stay!
All my love,
xoxo cupcake
Hello and goodbye cupcake.
KD,
Oh...so it hard for him, because he has to deal with the illness plus complications?
martha
You had quite a storm and it came down the state, last night and hit here.
No one knows how to drive in the rain, so it is much more dangerous.
Ok, maybe exaggerating, but there has been alot of accidents. I can hear them.
Are they giving him anything for the pain.
SC we had a few accidents up were I am as well. But mostly tress falling on stuff.
KD I just had to drop back in to say I'm so terribly sorry about your friend *hugs*
Take care honey.
Take care all of you.
xoxo cupcake.
I'm sorry KD but i must leave. Every other time I hit the refresh button it messy up and I get no comment box.
I wish you well and I hope that your friend is at least being made comfortable. Stay strong you know that we are all here for you.
Goodnight KD, SC and cupcake
I'm so sorry KD I wish I had words to comfort you. I wish I could make your friend better.
All I can do is listen.
KD
Is there anything I can do for you?
While I still have a comment box. Really SC. They said the worst of the storm would hit this week end but it hasn't been bad. We had thunder earlier in the day.
My brother laughed at me because I was turning out all the lights in the house.
Ok KD
Do you want me to delete, also?
KD I don't think you should delete the post. We are a family and we want to help you out.
Well I'm off for real now I'm getting kicked off the computer.
Goodnight
KD
I have a special blog to release anything you want. curse away on the days you need to without leaving personal info.
love to go around
`sc
anyone is welcome.
martha and KD,
I am headed off to bed.
Thanks for talking and sharing your time with me.
`sc
Goodnight mayonaise (echo)
You bad, bad boy with the bad,bad wit.
Be sure to clear things up,or else.
You know what happens here...
assault with a deadly word
a friend
`sc
mayo,
i had a feeling you'd come around while i was gone tonight. i'm sorry i missed you!
but it was worth it. i had such a fantastic evening -- went to a local show and saw four great bands. and was right up against the stage for the lashes -- which was my first time so close! it's so different!
i don't know how i managed to get along as long as i did without having this sort of experience. there were moments tonight when i almost couldn't breathe i was caught up so tightly in the energy of the music.
and that there are people who can do this, and give the rest of us this...
i honestly can't comprehend it. it's an actual mystery. i just feel so grateful that it's so.
i've read your entry, and the poem made me giggle, but i'm going to need to re-read the rest tomorrow. after i've slept for ten or twelve hours. *grin*
i smiled to see that you stayed around and chatted...maybe i'll catch you next time, yes?
good night, mayo.
I just wanted to say although I myself am new to this place, I was not grandly frolicking in the background while the lovely family here (that semmed to care greatly about each other- before the drama of certain Other Newbies arose just a few days ago) began attacking each other.
Did no one think this division here was THEIR Ultimate Plan? Very Bn mature in my opinion. -That is sarcasm in case anyone is wondering. Screw the imposters and to Kapunua and The OP's and Entrophy -and anyone else that seems to have fallen into what appears to me to be a vile and pitiful trap -good luck to you.
I hope you can see the way back to your true friends. Beacuse that is all I have seen in here since I started reading the words shared here: Real and true friendship. Nothing more, nothing less. Please work it out and let go of your anger. I think you all care about each other more than you are willing to admit -even to yourselves. Please don't let them win. Think with your hearts. Listen from there. Please, thanks. -L
Hello everyone!
Damn! I always miss Mayo.
I have to go to work, just wanted to stop in and say Hi.
Good morning mayo,
Okay, after re-reading your bad, bad wit, I'm definitely not looking at chicken the same way again.
My head could not get any lower in the gutter if it tried.
I liked it XD
The analogy was vivid, and as for your p.s.is it ridiculous to consider the possibility?, this excited me. The positive optimist that is me says yes, everything is possible.
Nothing is ever too ridiculous if it is something that you have ever hoped and longed for to happen but never felt you were worthy or that it would happen to you.
Keep your mind open, be open, and good things do happen.
Good morning Lewis and PJ's in blue.
PJ,
Hope you remebered to get changed for work first.
Cupcake,
I miss your visits but this means you are actually having a super time in the real world, which makes me smile. Don't forget that sunblock okay?
OP L,
Your Pinkle is one lucky expat NZ bunny. It's feral cousins here are fair game at the Annual Central Otago Easter Bunny Hunt. Think angry farmers with guns and 10,000 bullets.
*NZ and OZ think early settlers should have just stuck with sheep*
Professor Anon,
Eek, a test!
*considers pulling the old 'absent due to timezone' note out of pocket*
Hey lewis,
That was nice to read it from someone elses point of view.
You know there is stuff all you can do with tumbleweeds. They just have a tendency to drop and roll no matter where I put them.
Mayo,
Fair warning.
I'm b.o.r.e.d.
*drums fingers on tables*
I would have watched the Bridge To Teribithia, but some guy in an interview blew that ending for me.
So I watched Cold Mountain instead,
*film spoiler follows if PP possibly not the only one existing in the world to never have seen this film*
just to see some guy walk all that way, get the girl (once!) and die.
So now I'm bored.
I have black nail polish ready in my hot, little, bored hand.
Lying in again!
What on earth have you been doing lately.
Oh yeah, chicken stuff.
*mayos Missus very understanding of bored visitors talking to her husband in their room - rolls over*
You know people find getting their nails painted by someone else very therapeutic.
Maybe I should have brought yellow in your present mood.
No buts though, guys look better with black.
*does a completely crap job of mayos fingernails*
Niiiice!
*PP pushing her luck up hill now*
Somebody needs to come save mayo.
He's too sensitive and polite in the morning to tell me to get lost...
and you might want to bring some nail polish remover if you have any.
*pokes mayo to see if he is breathing*
*ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ*
*decides to take a walk outside to hang with the porch dwellers if any are dwelling*
*leaves loaf of bread on the kitchen bench, and some cereal, since there was none there the other day for socky when she asked*
alie. said...
Well, only one person had the password besides me. I never thought that he would give it out or have it somewhere that someone else could have found it. I trusted this person but after events that have recently happened I no longer have trust for him anymore. I have changed my password on many things. We shared my bn together. We made it together. We used to have a picture of us together on it as the picture but then people said it was a fake and to stay away from drama I took it down and made it private and put up the one that is on there now.
A few of my friends and I have the suspicion that it is my friend's other half. She isn't too fond of me. We aren't positive though.
So Alie, let me get this straight. I understand you drop hints that you know Gerard and the other members of MCR. If you REALLY had a picture of you and aforementioned famous person (otherwise why would people say it was a fake)then it would get you out of all kinds of shit if you used it to clear your name. Also, why would people say it was a fake? Lots of people have pictures of themselves with famous people/members of the band. Why should YOUR picture be accused of being a fake? Unless of course you were running your mouth off about how this 'famous' person and yourself were like BFF. If that is the case, then why so coy now? People who actually ARE friends with the band usually aren't so secretive about it, why should they be, after all because they are friends they don't view them as idols or heroes, they are just their friend and are matter of fact about it. Just because someone knows a famous person and is upfront about it does not mean they have to spill every secret they ever shared with that person, you will actually find they don't talk about them much at all. At the moment the majority of people feel you are delusional. You don't know the band, UCB is not Ray Toro. I'm sure your 'friend' wouldn't mind you showing us the photo, ask him, why should he care? If he is 'famous' then there's probably hundreds of pictures of him floating around the internet so I'm sure there could be no harm in it. Are you also UCB, Alie? You both have the same poor spelling and grammar. Or are you all Andrea? If your famous friend is the person you suspect hacked into your account or that his other half hacked in, let me ask you this? Why would they write about Gerard and Lyn-Z splitting? No member of MCR or their wife/girlfriend would do such a thing. I have to be honest, you scare me, you are clearly unhinged. As for staying away from drama, you are the one that brought it here. As long as you are here this blog is in danger of collapsing.
Good Morning Mayo
Once again thanks for sticking around a bit last night. It was nice. We all understand you are busy but still we really appreciate you taking the time.
I'm still thumbing through my "Mayo for Dummies". Very interesting read.
Much love to you Mayo. Hope your day is good, filled with love and laughter.
Elena
*PP trying to be positive*
*visualising a happy day at mayo's*
*visualising really, really hard*
Mayo, I think I need a blanket!
Excuse me, please.
*bolts under mayos sheets*
*PP = mr & mrs mayo contraceptive*
One more thing...
alie. said...
I would rather not reveal people's names out of the respect for them. Unless I get direct permission to say their name I won't say it.
He does have a blog on here, though. It's fairly new. I think it came to be yesterday.
alie.
January 6, 2008 12:58 AM
blackrose said...
Ray Toro is kind and honest.
January 6, 2008 2:27 AM
Totally NOT unexpected for a new blogger to show up at this point.
Different people? All the same person? I'll let you decide. So now Alie is saying that 'black rose' is her aforementioned famous friend. That will be the one you no longer trust, right Alie. Well, great to have him/her/another of your alter ego's on board, as we clearly don't have enough trust issues here already. If you were that concerned about privacy you would not have even mentioned the fact that this person had a blog on here, or the fact that they had only just created it. This stinks of RP. If that's what floats your boat then that's great but please don't bring it here to Mayo's house. Black Rose, UCB and Alie seem to like dropping hints that Mayo is playing us and they are the ones that should be trusted, because..uh..yeah they either know or ARE members of MCR. Mayo has given us more reason to trust him than you ever have. My concern is that this blog will turn into a huge joke and Mayo and SS will get fed up and walk away. Nobody knows who those 2 are, but they have been pretty good to us these past few months. Whoever they are, I know many of us enjoy reading their words and sometimes chatting with them and the thought of losing the 'relationship' with them that we have built up from NOTHING because of some RP bullshitters really pisses me off. What happened here was a fluke, pure and simple, if we lose Mayo and SS it would never again be repeated. We will lose them forever. Mayo used to be cold, aloof and distant and he has opened up so much to us in 4 months. We all really treasure Mayo and SS and I am thankful they give us as much of their time as they do. Both of them have seen the shit that is going down because of these people. Both of them seem unimpressed by it. Sorry for my long rant but I can see this place slipping through our fingers and there's not a damn thing I can do about it.
Oh by the way, Andrea you say you don't like the drama but you could not make it any more obvious you are hinting that you know members of MCR if you took out a full page ad in the New York Times. Everyone can see the comments you leave in each others blogs and you know it so you fail at being subtle and discreet...or do you win? I suppose it depends on your agenda and what you want people to believe, doesn't it? If you are in on this, or you ARE these other people, then you suck, Andrea. If you are just guilty of being a gullible idiot, then you have my sympathy. But if everyone around you can see these newcomers for the shit stirrers they are, then it begs the question, why can't you?
Black Rose...isn't there someone on BN who is fond of handing out black roses to people? Just sayin'.
ANON said...
Mayo used to be cold, aloof and distant and he has opened up so much to us in 4 months. We all really treasure Mayo and SS and I am thankful they give us as much of their time as they do.
Truer words have never been spoken.
Thank you!
THANK YOU for seeing past my 'anon tag' and understanding that I don't mean to be malicious, Elena. I am just really, really worried about this place and wanted to share my observations.
Mayonaise,
Thankyou for everything.
Gnothi Seauton signing out.
Are you seriously trying to drag them into this? Wow. That's pretty lame. 'Cause it has nothing to do with either of them
Then why is it so important to her that they talk to her again? Remember this quote?:
"Mayo, back when you used to hear me..."
Maybe 'cause I like to hear from him? Like we all do? You might notice that I don't go all wingnut when they don't respond, however. Hey, you brought it up, not me.
See, I remember shit like that. And I don't usually forgive about it either.
It is your good fortune, then, that other people do.
As for the rest, I will email you, because I see that you're trying to use the names "Mayo" and "SS" as weapons and I think that's just, well, weird.
See, here's the deal, and I'm so tired of everyone tiptoing around it. Undercoverbrother, a guy who has been ridiculously rude and has also taken shots at this entire place, is supposed to be Ray Toro. This isn't some Big Secret. Alie spent a good, long, strange time IMing me with very bizarre and random stuff the other night, a lot of which made me really uncomfortable. I don't actually believe any of this, but I stand by what I said: That for as much as I totally heart the Ray Toro--or anyone--if he walked into the room taking swipes like that, I'd say exactly the same things I'd say to anyone else.
The OPs I guess thought my comment was directed at them (why? I have NO IDEA) and started accusing me of being those two anons and ran with it. I thought we were actually all right until "OMG KOOL AID!" Please, I've said over and over again who I am during those stupid little late night cartoon games, mostly because my 12 year old self thinks it's hilarious and I want to take credit for it.
Anyway also, apparently Alie she was "engaged" to Gerard and he ditched her for "some whore" (NOT my words) etc. Again, this is not some Big Secret: it is on her other blog. No, not that one, the other one, with the mentions of TMZ and all of that. Now, Black Rose whatever is supposed to be Gerard Way.
Well, most of us know that this is ridiculous.
But the big problem came when Alie started emailing various people and it hit the fan, like I have already mentioned, when she brought it into my LJ and I had no idea who the hell this person was who was prying into something I have specifically tried to keep off of there--and during a really sensitive subject no less. The fact that she had taken the time to email so many of us and seemed to know a lot about us sent alarm signals going off. Haven't we all talked about anons who seem to know an awful lot about us? Once again: That is why I pulled down the last few posts of the oher blog. And that is why I warned everyone to stop talking about themselves. Did I ever say "the blog is going down?" No: I wanted you guys, and Mayo, to know that there was trouble lurking around the corner.
And look, here it is.
Am I sorry I had to go to bed and then go to work after that? HELL no. That's life. You saw how long that post was; there was no way I could address those questions while I wa at work; it took me a half an hour to write that up. I wasn't able to answer my emails 'cause it's hard to get to Yahoo at work? Too bad, so sad.
A few of us knew that this stuff was going to start going on, and a fwe of us who had gotten those weird emails and random stuff like that wanted it to stop and did not want to see this place turn into MCR roleplay.
Well, they're here now, so there's nothing to be done about it.
And GS, I seriously hope that doesn't mean that you are leaving for good.
Hey Mayo.
I was pretty sure you’d post yesterday night. Glad you’re feeling better.
So, Happy Epiphany day, my friend!
Yeah, today is the last festive day here in Italy. The Epiphany Day.
Now, I’m not talking about the epiphany that was theorized by Joyce (that would be a strange festival, wouldn’t that?), but about another kind of epiphany which comes from a centuries-old tradition.
Till the beginning of the century children waited the night between the 5th and the 6th of January because a little old lady used to bring them gifts and candies during that night. A female Santa Claus in fact!
Then, the myth of Santa Claus became popular, but that little old lady’s never been forgotten.
Now, it seems her gift for me, for us, is hearing you’re okay. Thank you!
Just a thought, though: reading your words, it occured to me that maybe you’re living Joyce’s epiphany, the one about revelation…?
I really hope so, my dear. You deserve it.
Stay safe, my friend, and take care. I’ll wait outside your house, under the porch, and I’ll have fun with the rest of the family.
You can join us sometimes….I’ve just found out we even have a new trampoline!
Love to you
SS, my dear, thank you for your last visit . You can’t even imagine how much we needed it.
Love to you
PS: you’re invited at the porch as well!
Good morning family! Happy Epiphany Day!
Just have a great day everybody!
Talk to you later.
Love you all
*HUGS & KISSES*
I love you Kapunua. I really, really do.
Marry me.
*hurk* I'm not the marrying kind. ;)
So K you're like the Bert MCracken of the blogs.
good morning everyone. how are we all
well a lot has happened!
To the anon at 8.46am and 9.40am I would like to say thank you, I agree with you on certain issues
Andrea I like you. I have liked you from the start so I disagree with everything the anon said about you.
However I do agree with the fact about certain new people. I am nice to new people and I am nice to some anons. If they show respect then they get my respect (for what it is worth). if it was another time that they tried to come in I am sure it would be different and a lot of people would be nice and they would feel completely welcomed but I have to say that there are too many things that I do not believe.
That is my choice, I do not have to believe their story but I have to say that most things in here has turned sour since their arrival. Family is gone and people are leaving. It’s a shame but its life and I am sorry that it has happened like this.
I hope that today is a better day and that everyone is ok.
i am going out for a bit, so have fun people
Posted by Mustardisbetter over at the porch:
mustardisbetter said...
Someone post this at Mayo's for me?
You know what? I've desperately tried to remain a neutral party all this time. I'm still trying to do that. This is not about picking sides. It's not about who can run faster or jump higher. It's not about who has the most friends or who has the better car.
This is supposed to be about a family.
I came here to get away from harmful words. I came here because of music. I came here because I was shunned everywhere else.
Now it's happening here, too. Can we lay a ground rule? If you don't want to, that's fine. Just a suggestion to try to get this place back to being a comforting place to come to.
If you are unable to say anything nice, refrain from saying anything at all.
Take care of it with email, because I don't know about anyone else, but I don't enjoy seeing seeing them take place. I'd rather just not know what's going on.
The argument that took place last night was petty. It should not have blown up into what it was. But, I'm just like any other person, if something is said to me, I'm going to give my opinion on it. Once I'm done, it's done. So, I can't fault either party. But maybe next time, whoever is involved, we could take care of it behind the scenes.
Regarding Mayo and SS:
I feel, I FEEL, not anyone else. Just me. I feel that it's becoming a bit of a popularity contest with these two. SS has told Elena that even the smallest voice can be heard. If Mayo or SS doesn't answer you, know that they are human. Know that they may just not want to answer your question. It's okay for them to do that. I know that. So, don't get upset with them. I'm not saying anyone has done this, but just keep it in mind.
Regarding the mayhem that took place:
I was one of the AIMers the other night. All of you know that if you went to DM's, because I couldn't get over here to Mayo's to tell my story. If you didn't know, now you do.
J:
I'm addressing this to you, because you were the one that threw the accusation. We had cause to be worried. As you can now plainly see. What we did was the only way we knew how to get Mayo's attention. Maybe it did, maybe it didn't.
We didn't just drop the ball, then run away. I tried my best to get the explanation out to everyone that I could. I was tired and it was in the wee hours of the morning. You know this. You may have not been addressing me in the comment you made at Mayo's, but I was in the AIM chat so I feel partially responsible.
And I don't understand this because you were part of the Circus, too. In fact you and L. wrote the whole riddle to get SS over there:
Using names like you were in a plastic bubble and no one could hear or read what you typed. I read every single word ever written there.
We felt somewhat safe there. I don't understand what you mean.
And to be honest, the "I'm done with you" comment upset me, as well as the "You're not worth it" comment. First of all, don't just be done with everyone here, Kapunua, Entropy, or Carrie. And secondly, there's no one that isn't worth words, in my opinion. Just think about that the next time you want to say something like that. Please. Everyone here has worth.
And I'm not afraid to say that I admire Kapunua's way of standing up for herself. I've told her this. She gets dealt a lot of shit here, by Anons and "family" members. If I was talked to the way she's been talked to, I'd be long gone, and I wouldn't ever look back. I'm glad she's decided to stick around and I hope she doesn't leave. Others may disagree and I don't care. If saying that puts a red 'X' on my back, so be it.
I'm sorry that shit happened, and I hope it doesn't ever again.
11:45 AM, January 06, 2008
Further to what the other anon said, Alie said she deleted the post and emailed all the people who replied to her BN post about the Ger-Z split. I would have been more impressed with a public post apologizing and explaining what happened. More than just the people that replied to that post will have read that article. The least you could have done was issue a formal and public retraction. Or did that post just get deleted by BN? Can you say psycho?
And I think you should have followed your own advice and e-mail your opinion to the OP's instead of posting it here!
Hi everyone, hope everyones ok aside from all the drama.
Has been an interesting read :/
Fimble my lovely how are you?
Mayo, hello :)
Good Morning, everyone.
I wanted to come in to talk to all of the Family this morning.
I know we are all stressed, and it seems like not a day goes by without some kind of drama going on. I know J. regrets her involvment with the argument last night, and she will be on in a bit to talk to everyone.
It seems lately that the divide and conquer anon from before was calirvoyant.
We are tearing each other apart from the inside.
Please, no more.
Kapunua,
I have gone back, at J.'s request, and deleted her commments from last night. I am asking you, nicely, to remove yours. Not for J., not for you, but for the Family.
If we don't treat each other with respect, all of us, this will all go belly-up. And I don't believe there is even ONE of the Family that wants to see this happen.
I believe there are several from other places who are hell bent on turning us all against each other, and destroying this all from the inside.
The Trojan war went on for 10 years when the Greeks attacked the walls and the gates. But when they got the horse on the inside...
Troy burned to the ground.
Think of BN and INO as the soldiers in the Trojan horse.
Love. Hope. Faith. PEACE.
L.
Siobhan,
It's ok, honey. Mustard did e-mail us, and she was just trying to get the message out this morning to all of us to respect each other.
Love,
L.
Now, I am going to have about 82 cups of coffee and will be back later.
Love you,
L.
Okay! I shut up now!
hey hunny. how are you. whee have you been, not seen you for a while
xx
Ive been ill fimble :( ive been holed up in bed whinging :P lol
Ive got sore throat, lung ache, toothache and stomach ache, they arent all connected i am just unlucky and i think missing sleep has weakened my immune system so i have been catching up. Also whenever mayos gets to the point of obsession with me, ie./ i start dreaming about mayos new post LOL thats when i know i need some time out haha.
I kept dreaming he posted something ground breaking and i would desperatly cling on to what it said knowing that i needed to remember when i woke up but then i do wake up and its gone gone gone....
How are you fimble my sweet bird? :P xxx
oh i am so sorry to hear that hun. have you been to the good ole doctors.
i have been better. just tired mainly but thats no ones fault but my own. i went to you house to leave you a note. i thought it would make you laugh.
i am actually just about to take xmas decs down and go to the pool shop so i will be one. will you be on later on?
xx
hello everyone!
thanks for the new post mayo. i haven't a clue what you are talking about but thats ok, it's still lovely to read you.
and my god you are trying to be more sociable with us! well done! i know 40 or so very independant women (a couple of blokes also) can be very scary!! i was giggling to myself catching up with the comments when you posted!! i think you hung out for as long as you could bear. i could almost feel you looking at the clock and saying "right i've hung with them for 38mins surely i can leave now?? will that be long enough to keep them happy?"
and hey a smutty comment also!! well you know we tend to like all that so good on you!!!
anyway nice to know you're still alive and kicking!
ok so i've just popped in and now i've got to head off but will be back later.
love to all.
i havent checked my house yet, i will go check now. yes i should be on and off for as long as i possible can :)
Its a date then my sweet manc bird haha.... hmmm wonder if burnley rocks my socks will be on? LOL
farawaysoclose Hello :)
and yes i noticed to Mayo was here socialising, good for him :)
I wish i could be here when mayo is i always always miss him, i never get here till 300+ comment onwards :( one day mayo me and your lovely self will actually speak i would like that very much :)
Hi there, folks!
How are y'all? I barged in without a proper greeting.
I'm sorry.
hey siobhan :) how are you?
To the Mayo Family:
First I would like to apologize for what happened last night. As I've explained before, I do have a flash-fire temper, and it can get the better of me.
I will say that I stand by my convictions. Those will not change.
If I was going to address the issues that I had, I should have done so in a different way, in a different manner.
And, I think that if I tried now to explain what my intentions were last night, I would probably fuck that up some way and make it all worse. So, I won't do that. I did have my reasons, though; I didn't start anything that I wasn't prepared to defend.
Mustard, please know that I have nothing bad to say either to or about you. You did your best to email folks and explain what you guys were trying to do. I do appreciate that, and thank you for thinking of our peace of mind. Please accept my apology if I hurt or offended you. That was not my intent.
I also apologize to everyone for spoiling the good mood and disrupting the fun last night. It WAS fun, and I enjoyed being part of it. Thanks, guys, for letting me play.
For what it's worth, I am going to refrain from any more drama. If anything even remotely looks like drama, I'm turning around and heading the other way. Yes, I'll still voice my opinions on things, but as for getting into any kind of confrontation, forget it. There are more important things for me to focus on than arguing inarguable points.
Again, I'm sorry for the way I spoke, Family. I should not have brought this to the House.
I understand if some of you don't want to talk with me after this. I hope that's not the case, but if so, I understand.
Thank you for letting me say my peace.
J
Star and Mustard, I can't thank you enough. Star, you know my thoughts especially. :D Please believe me when I say that the comment you're referring to did not offend me or horrify me in the least, but I do understand if it bugged you out.
L. you have asked me nicely and you have done the same, so if it will make things quieter, I will delete some of my posts. I emailed you and you know where I stand.
The ones explaining the situation with the people who have recently come in here causing such mayhem, I will not delete. This is, in part, what the bunch of us were talking about the other night: these people trying to make it seem like we are not only getting played, but that members of MCR are coming in here and slating the lot of us. Links to here getting posted all over the stupid internet. It's ridiculous, it's false, a few of us saw this coming when we started getting pestered in our emails and other places and when we found some stuff out, and my posts on those matters are not going anywhere.
I have to leave those up, because if SS comes around, perhaps now he will have a clearer understanding of why what he said the other night was like a huge weight lifted off of our shoulders--the ones of us who were trying that night to let everyone what was going on.
Star and Mustard, your comments mean the world to me.
Also, one of these clowns (the one who is pretending to be Gerard) is taking a shot at Mustard. Dude, pretend to be Gerard Way all you like if that's what you think is going to get people to kiss your ass. But even looking at Mustard sideways is going to get me on your ass. We all know that threats over the internet are cheap and retarded, and I don't resort to them. But the game you're playing is a mean and stupid one, and anyone who thinks that you're on the up and up and that this has anything to do with Mustard is a bigger fool than even you are. Take down your reference to Mustard and run along.
Anonymous said...
So K you're like the Bert MCracken of the blogs.
January 6, 2008 11:48 AM
I admire Bertles for his honesty; I have a lot of respect for him. But he's way prettier than I am, and I wash my hair.
Anonymous said...
I love you Kapunua. I really, really do.
Marry me.
It's gotten rough with anons in here, so if you are Calaf or if you're just someone being cute and funny, hi. If you're someone having a go at me, put your name on it. Please understand that I can't tell who is who anymore, and things like this make me edgy.
SIM, I'm really sorry to hear you're not feeling quite the thing. chill out, drink lots of green tea and acai and pomegranate juice, and you'll be in form soon enough. But if you think you have some kind of infection, get thee to a doctor. This is not something to be messing around with.
Fimble, I love you, you naughty thing.
Hi, FASC. ^_^
Hi SIM! I'm fine. I'm eating pancakes. Pancakes make me happy, hehe.
I hope you get well soon. *big hug*
OP(J), I would never want to miss talking to you. *hugs*
Hi there, Kapunua! How are you?
Anonymous said...
So K you're like the Bert MCracken of the blogs.
January 6, 2008 11:48 AM
I admire Bertles for his honesty; I have a lot of respect for him. But he's way prettier than I am, and I wash my hair.
Let me stop you right there K, in my opinion bert is nasty LOL no offence to him but theres no way that greaseball is prettier than you, you are rockin!!! O_o
Im deadly serious :)
and thanks for the advice, i cant stand green tea but i am getting plenty of liquids and fruit, i personally just think its a cough and cold but i just feel deathly because of the stomach ache and tooth ache on top of it but i will be going docs if it hasnt cleared up by tuesday.
Cant afford to be ill i need to find a job and quick
siobhan you lucky thing i LOVE pancakes :P mmmmm
do you have chocolate sauce? or lemon and sugar? Honey? or savoury pancakes? or just pancakes in their original form?
Hahaha i sound like a pancake maniac :P *drools*
Thank you, Kapunua, for deleting the comments. I think you SHOULD leave the others. It does explain what all has been going on.
And, Family, J. didn't want to mention this because as she told me, "it's no excuse", I will say it.
Most of you are aware she is a Type 1 diabetic, also know as Juvinile Diabites. She has been since she was 7.
When her blood sugar gets really high, it's like a hormonal hell in her body, and if she is angry, it is 10,000 times worse.
When she checked her blood sugar level last night before she went to bed, it didn't even register on the meter. Which meant it was over 500.
It is down some today, and I am staying her for the day instead of going to my Mum and Dad's, at least until tomorrow.
I will tell you from experience, that she says things she does not mean to when her blood sugar is that high.
Like I said, she didn't want me to mention it, but I really wanted to let you know that part of it too.
Love,
L.
Awww SIM! Bert is greasy but he is still prettier. ^_^ I fully admit it.
Anon @ 9:40:
Who the fuck cares?
Hey everyone.
I just had 'original' pancakes and put tangerines and sugar on them. Or tangerines and Nutella. Or just Nutella. Or just sugar.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Greedy, greedy, greedy Siobhan.
Hello, my BC!
How are you doing?
Sorry for leaving last night without saying goodbye. I watched the two episodes of 'Smallville' and got so tired (remember, I was a very assiduous person yesterday) and fell asleep afterwards.
Siobhan you sound like my perfect eating partner in crime haha we should definitly go for a picnic :)
Kapunua, i will argue Berts skankyness till i am blue in the face, that man is not pretty.
Gerard is pretty, Frank is pretty, Jared is pretty, even Layne (RIP) was pretty, but bert? Hell no, he has a rugged dirty sex appeal and i guess he can look cute but i'll be damned if that man is pretty, especially prettier than you :/ END OF.
LOL :)
Hello OP J & L
Glad people are making peace not war
Hello hello Siobhan-san. I see that you sound a bit hyper as usual today lol. How are you? Aw you don't have to apologize. I'm doing okay, but I am not really in a good mood today :/
BC!!! My beautiful mother and friend, how the hell are you? i missed you (((hugs)))
Shame in me, my lovely daughter, where have you been young lady? I've been worried sick *big hugs* ;p
How are you?
I didn't say he was pretty, SIM, I just said he was prettier than me. ;D
Well, soon I'm off to a birthday party in which I might end up punching a bitch in his ugly mug.
No, I really won't do that. But I have to be in the same room as the guy and that makes me vomit a little. I will make the best of it and try to at least get it on his shoes. ;)
SIM, are you sure you want to have a picnic with me? There would be nothing left for you. You would eat with 'Greedy Siobhan' or even better said, watch me eat, hehe.
BC, why are you in a bad mood?
Siobhan-san, because of last night and then I posted a comment saying that sometimes I hate this place and that sometimes it fucking sucks. I still stand by what I said.
I am in one of those moods where I want to piss people off
But it'll pass, eventually. :/
Kapunua you make me chuckle :)
Siobhan haha you greedy monster i may fight you for the food ;) LOL but i think that you are too nice to watch me starve, maybe i am wrong i will take the chance though and if my trust in you is wrong then you better watch out because food karma will coma back and kick your ass.
It will be like that episode of the twilight zone where that guy has all his favourite foods and hes shovelling it in at a frightening speed and hes loving it but then it keeps on coming, theres more and more and everytime he tries to leave the table hes automatically brought back to it and it becomes his destiny to forever sit at that table eating food, it never ends.. scary stuff
I cant remember whether he blew up or not, i cant remember the ending, but be warned siobhan the food karma monster will torture you mwahahahahahaha
Mum i have been ill :( im sorry you worried.
I wanna hug :) *Flutters eyelashes*
how come you are in a bad mood? anything i can help with? Hope you are ok.
Feel free to chat it out on aim if need be my sweetest (((hugs)))
I know what you mean BC.
But I just got the answer for how to treat certain people here from now on. Saves a lot of energy and prevents stress and anger.
Okay, SIM! I will share the food with you. I can't watch people drool in front of me while I'm eating. ;-)
Hi everyone!
I have no idea what went down last night, but I would like to say:
We are family. Let's not let the vultures destroy our spirit.
Mayo and SS, you know how much you both mean to all of us. That will never change. Love to both of you. Always.
Shame in me, I'm sorry to hear that. Here's some hugs to cheer you up *big hugs* Why in a bad mood? You can imagine I am getting fed up with the dramatic bullshit we've been having lately, and we already lost a couple of friends who are not gonna come back anytime soon.
Then, I just found out that they might pull the plug on my sister in law's father (He's currently in a coma) I cannot imagine how hard that is going to be :/
Oh BC that is terrible, thats a horrible thing for yours and her family to be facing. My thoughts and prayers are with you (((hugs)))
Come on aim if you wanna chat, il try and cheer you up.
as for mayo drama, in every sky some rain must fall, i know that we are experiencing a downpour and we are upto our knees in shit but keep the faith sweetie :/
Whos left? I skimmed over comments :/ bad me... i know mya left other day, who else?
But I just got the answer for how to treat certain people here from now on. Saves a lot of energy and prevents stress and anger
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Hmmm....Ignore them? Lol. Honestly, I am getting tired of seeing some of our friends leave because of all this. When I am in a bad mood, I drag people down with me. I am truly sorry, but that's how I am.
I am happy to see OP J and L back though :)
That's tough, SIM :( I just found out recently that my parents have named me in their living wills as the one who gets to make the final decision if they are ever very ill/injured & are hooked up to life support (neither one of them wants to be kept alive that way). At least I can take comfort in the fact that it will only come down to me if both of them find themselves in that predicament at the same time. if it's only one, then the other will make the decision.
Ooops! Apologies, BC. My comment above was meant for you.
BC, I'm so sorry to hear about your sister in law's father. *biggest bear hugs*
Shame in me, thank you for your thoughts. I appreciate that. My sister in law is a parole officer and so, she has to deal with so many bastards day in and day out so all this blog shit is fucking nothing compared to that, and a while back, she accidentally shot herself while on the job so for a while she had to stay at home. And then she began to develop depression, and I'm afraid she is still going through that rough period, especially now with what's going on with her father.
A few months ago, he was perfectly fine, but a month or two ago, the doctors diagnosed him with some form of brain disease that pretty much eats away your brain. He changed from a functioning adult to a child trapped in an adult's body. He has to have people take care of him now, and when you see that sort of image, it smacks you right in the face. It's pretty unbelievable.
My older neice and two nephews are caught right in the middle, and they're getting alot of the stress out of all of this :/
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