Saturday, December 29, 2007

Who do you think I am anyway...

The catalyst of confusion
started a fire
while shopping for
a soul on a high wire.

Until now I was unaware that the remuneration for impropriety exceeded that set for dignity. How much did you get for yours? As for my dignity…I will hold onto it, thank you. I would rather starve than feed my soul from a base wage.

With my voice in repose, I hid behind my own forbearing shadow, and allowed silence to foster absolution. Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary.

I am not so completely unaware. Because I am certain that is common knowledge, your recent presentment was, quite frankly, out of line. Your bravado flames me.

As it happened, I had simply misplaced the why, where, and how. I can identify the sickness in that statement, and I concede fault in my volition. I understand that I can be fucking difficult. My own scathing behavior must remain in constant check.

I am not able to take back that fleeting moment or the injustice it served you. I have arrived at the place from where I must move on. I wish you the same in your departure.






p.s. a fucking doormat.

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Anon616 said...

Siobhan said...
Yeah, let's do that! Let's meow and howl and barf little hairballs once in a while, haha!
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Wait, you mean MOST people DON'T do that already???

And let's not forget the CHOCOLATE BODY FROSTING licking off (makes the hairballs come up much easier)
;-)

I knew I would get that darn code wrong. I suppose some of us are just MEANT to be deficient - code wise!

BC: Cake with Chocolate Frosting, I HOPE!!!!

Anonymous said...

Damn, I'm zapping around the channels and guess what's on? 'The war of the Roses'! Haha, I so love that movie.

Anonymous said...

Of course, chocolate body frosting all over!!!
We could eat the lawn off the ground it helps throwing up the hairballs.

Anon616 said...

Siobhan said...
You forgot the < and > didn't you?
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LOL *at myself*

I certainly did *blushes*

We can either chalk that up to a 'blonde moment' or the fact the I was coughing up one of those hairballs ;-)

Either 'excuse' works for me :D

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dei gratia said...

Sorry, had a tissue in the laundry emergency.Aargh!?!?
Been doing some serious flapping (of clothes!)and now it looks like it's been snowing in my kitchen....oh well, it's usually a pen!

I'm going to bed before I do any more damage. I'm clearly not cut out for domestic shit!

Goodnight folks, Mayo,SS!

Anon616 said...

Okay, I've been trying to get that code to work and I give up!

Sorry I left alone to talk to yourself Siobhan. It looks like it was a good conversation though
;-)

This isn't Sierra, but it looks alot like her (except Sierra has one blue eye and one brown)

http://www.gotpetsonline.com/pictures-gallery/dog-pictures-breeders-puppies-rescue/siberian-husky-pictures-breeders-puppies-rescue/pictures/siberian-husky-0111.jpg

dei gratia said...

What's all the deletion?

Anonymous said...

Oh my God! Look at this! People will think I'm a looney and they are right!
Six deleted comments by looney Siobhan.

I'm sorry Mayonaise! I usually avoid talking to you, but I didn't mean to mess up your place!

Anonymous said...

Anon616, I love chocolate, so of course, my cake will be decorated in all chocolate :)

Anon616 said...

Goodnight DG! Oh no.....now Siobhan's comments POOFED.

Were they here at all????
Did I just imagine them????
Was that last hairball too much for her?

These questions and more, shall be answered - if you tune in tomorrow....I hope!

I must run for now. My neighbor is about ready to light his bonfire and I'm bringing the marshmellows, graham crackers and hershey's bars!

I hope you all have a good night/morning/afternoon.

It was good catching up with you a bit Siobhan, SIM, DG, GS and BC!

Love & Hugs to ALL!
#6
Wendy

Anonymous said...

Bye DG!

Bye Wendy! Have fun with your neighbor and enjoy the marshmellows and chocolate!

I'm off as well, ladies!
Laundry day tomorrow. Isn't it an exciting life I'm leading?

I still don't know what I will do tomorrow night! Cozy night in or crazy night out?
If I don't read you again I wish all of the Blogbelieve family

A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Nighty night!!!

Anonymous said...

Goodnight Anon616. Take care

Anonymous said...

Nighty night Siobhan-san. I hope you have a great new year's.

Shame in me said...

Back :) How come theres loadsa deleted comments?

gnothi seauton said...

Good night DG and Six.

Happy New Year to you as well Siobhan :)

Anonymous said...

Hey there shame in me. Siobhan-san was the one who deleted those comments ^_^

gnothi seauton said...

I think Siobhan spent some time in here muttering to herself, it's nothing suspicious, just waffle :)

Hello again SIM.

Shame in me said...

gnothi seauton said...
It means pretty.

Yes, I usually go on the Saturday only because I can't book time off work :(

I missed MCR,I was in a bottle fight though!!!!

December 30, 2007 6:18 PM

hahahaha yeah there are always people whizzing bottles around! haha the animals :/
Thats a bit sucky that you can only go on saturdays. Did you see velvet revolver a few years ago? they were amazing :)

gnothi seauton said...

SIM,

I think the bottle fights are funny! At least they don't throw gallon canisters now!! The ones in the crowd aren't malicious, they're a laugh. Throwing bottles at the bands though, that's unnecessary.


Yes, I saw Velvet Revolver, I thought Scott's voice was a bit weak though.
The worst I ever saw though was HIM, you could hardly hear Ville!

Fimble Star said...

007

i know your not here but i have read your comments. i just wanted to let you know that even though you are 15 years old and one of the youngest in mayos you are very mature for your age. i am proud to know you.

have fun with your guitar
love
#8
xx

Shame in me said...

My god!! Him were terrible!!!! i like HIM but they really blowed :/
Did you see Alice in chains? Saturday 2006? man they were amazing i frickin love that band haha and that is the second time ive wrote that in 5 minutes haha how strange :)

hey fimble :) how are you lass?

Shame in me said...

BC hows the engagement going? :)

Fimble Star said...

ay up burnley bird. nowt bout havin a cuppa and avin a gander at the ole blogs.

how about you

gnothi seauton said...

Did you see Alice in chains? Saturday 2006?

Nope. I'm not really into them so I didn't, sorry :\

My highlight this year was Gallows. They were solid. And having Frank ring his Mum mid performance so we could all say hello was priceless!

Shame in me said...

Fimble you never fail to bring a smile to my chops :) haha
Im just about to have some cocoa before bed, that'll be propa buzzing lass!! Ive locked my doors to keep away the scallies haha theyre all on the street corner near the shop asking people to buy cigarettes and cider for them and then throwing stones at there windows when the townspeople refuse haha, dirty scallies :/

are there any scallies in the usa? do they remind you of home haha :)

Id love to see Gallows GS, bet they were on fire!!! Shame you dont like Alice :/ im zipping my mouth so i dont start preaching grunge again haha
Are you going next year?

Line up is Muse, Foo fighters and ACDC

gnothi seauton said...

Shame you dont like Alice :/ im zipping my mouth so i dont start preaching grunge again haha



Preach away. I say I don't like them, I've not really listened to them that much, maybe I should give them another go.


Are you going next year?

Am already in discussions about the tickets :)

Searching Serenity said...

Great idea Kapunua. I'll play along with this.

What did you get that made you happy?
Tickets to my first concert

What did you get that you did not want?
loniness

What did you lost that you wanted to keep?
My ipod (stolen)

What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of?
bad friends

What surprised you in a good way?
my family came together for once and was actually happy together

What surprised you in a bad way?
losing my grandmother

What delighted you?
meeting my hero

What disappointed you?
my father broke another promise to me

For 2008:


What do you hope to get?
tickets to travel anywhere & new friends

What do you hope to be rid of?
regrets & fear of depression

What do you plan to change?
myself to a better person

What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?
the person I love's future to be better then what it is

What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?
the good memories of my life and good people that I know

Searching Serenity said...

wow that was late to post >_<

Shame in me said...

yes think i will be partaking in Download this year, i was gutted i couldnt go last year all my friends went and my boyfriend and i spent the weekend at home miserable stuffing my face with biscuits hahaha i wont let that happen this year. Plus id love to see Muse again they were amazing when i saw them.

I fair want to go Leeds And Reading too i heard a rumour that MCR may be headlining.

Do you remember seeing Beyonces bouncy castle at download? hahaha big bouncy beyonce ass!! Hahaha that was hilarious i nearly did myself an injury though, i fell of the side slap bang on to the ground haha

Anonymous said...

Hello everyone. Sorry I've been MIA lately. Family stuff for the holidays got in the way.

Miss T, sorry to hear you are so down. We've all been there and I know it's hard but you just have to pick yourself up and FIGHT all this negative shit. I think you make a wonderful contribution here. You certainly made me feel welcome.
I want you to look in the mirror right now and tell yourself that you are a beautiful human being and you deserve to be happy. That's it, say it again, LOUDER! Say it till you know it's true. You will NOT let anyone or anything beat you down!
Feeling better? Now for that neighbor of yours. If you are going to be kept awake listening to music, it might as well be yours. When they crank it up, I want you to do the same, just make sure it's even louder than theirs. Something with thundering anthems. You got any Twisted Sister? They are great for this sort of battle. I guarantee if you do this for a few nights, your problem will be solved.

Anonymous said...

Bikey does the name amanda mean anything to you?

Anonymous said...

Sorry Anon, who is Amanda?

Shame in me said...

Hey there serenity how are you?

hey bikey how are you? Hope you both have had a lovely xmas :)

gnothi seauton said...

Bikey!!

Twisted Sister, yea gods and little fishes, showing your age poppet :)

Hello Serenity, you're new aren't you? I think I saw some comments by you earlier.


SIM - snort!

I loved the foamy custard pie machine!!
Leeds sounds cool, dunno about Reading, I always imagine it as being really chavvy, I'm probably doing it an injustice, what do I know.

Searching Serenity said...

hello =)
I'm pretty good and u?
thanks you for asking, my X-mas was very nice how about urs?

Shame in me said...

im ok too serenity :) bit tired i should go bed but ill stay a bit longer. I had a lovely xmas hehe.
Areyou looking forward to new year?
Who was your idol? In the questionaire yo said you got to meet your idol, anyone exciting?

Yeah il be going Leeds not reading dont know why i put both down haha.
I never had a go on the custard pie thing sounds fun though!!! How come you can never book the whole weekend off gs? whats your profession?

Anonymous said...

Twisted Sister, yea gods and little fishes, showing your age poppet :)

Okay, I confess I'm nearly the wrong side of 30!

gnothi seauton said...

Okay, I confess I'm nearly the wrong side of 30!


A wee spring chicken, I'm 38.


SIM,
I work in a school. We are not allowed time off in term time and to make the weekend worthwhile you've got to really get there by mid day Friday. And if I left last thing Sunday it would take 2hrs to just get out the car park, let alone the drive home on top of that!!

Shame in me said...

oh dear gnothi i see the prediciment you have there.
Shame its not in July then you would be able to go for the full weekend wouldnt you. Do you love your job though? What kinda schiool you work in? Primary, Secondary, special?
I always wanted to be a psychology teacher, hopefully one day i will :)

Anonymous said...

sdock said

Mayo,

How are you tonight? I hope you had a Sunday filled with just the right amount of goodness...either doing nothing and relaxing or doing exactly what you wanted. Maybe a little of both. Me? I'm better than earlier. Let's just say silence is speaking loud and clear in my house tonight.

I won't take up much of your time tonight. Just wanted to say G'nite to you. Some of us have pitched a tent out here. I hope you don't mind if we build a fire and maybe roast some marshmallows or something. Might even sing some songs...might just crawl in my sleeping bag and go to sleep. Work will come calling for me in about 10 hours. Errr.....

So on to the wishes....I hope that as we all start to reflect on 2007 that you look back on the year and realize you did a pretty fine job of making your dreams come true...and as you look forward to 2008, make you continue to dream big.

Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. Resolve to make it better.

gnothi seauton said...

From Sdock:


Pass on to Mayo


Mayo,

How are you tonight? I hope you had Sunday filled with just the right amount of goodness...either doing nothing and relaxing or doing exactly what you wanted. Maybe a little of both. Me? I'm better than earlier. Let's just say silence is speaking loud and clear in my house tonight.

I won't take up much of your time tonight. Just wanted to say G'nite to you. Some of us have pitched a tent out here. I hope you don't mind if we build a fire and maybe roast some marshmallows or something. Might even sing some songs...might just crawl in my sleeping bag and go to sleep. Work will come calling for me in about 10 hours. Errr.....

So on to the wishes....I hope that as we all start to reflect on 2007 that you look back on the year and realize you did a pretty fine job of making your dreams come true...and as you look forward to 2008, make you continue to dream big.

Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. Resolve to make it better.






Mustard,

Blogger is kicking me off the porch now....boohooo!

Shame in me said...

hey Toujours :) Hope you can see me waving to the porch!!! Ill bring you some hot cocoa and cookies out :) cant wait till mayo posts again so you can all get back in, its too quiet here :(

gnothi seauton said...

SIM,
Primary. I work with 5 and 6 year olds. I do enjoy it, they crack me up :)

Keep striving, if you want it it's there for the taking :)

gnothi seauton said...

Where is Toujour? I can't see her anywhere?

It's quiet everywhere SIM, not just here.

Searching Serenity said...

Yes I am looking forward to the New Year's a clean slate a fresh beginning to the new year. Right now I'm trying to get rid of all the shit from this past year. Clear mind.lol but yes I did meet my idol GW it was. Quiet an exciting moment, but I met the artistic side of him.

Shame in me said...

Toujors cant get in, she can read the comments but she cant post :(
Cant wait for things to get back to normal

Yeah gnothi kids are funny little buggers arent they hehe, they say the funniest things.
How long have you been teaching for?

Original Punk J said...

Good evening, all who are here or lurk, how's it going?

J. and I have been out most of the day, at the mall, grocery store, record store (if you can even call it that anymore ^_~) and just driving about. A day well spent.

Miss T.! I am so glad you are back, we missed you, and you do have tons to say, my dear. Don't ever think you don't. We will be answering your e-mail tonight as well. Love you, sweetie!

L.

Shame in me said...

ooo serenity you lucky girl!! I would love to meet GW, i have a hell of a lot i want to say to him. Where did you meet him? PR?
Or Comic signing? is that what you meant about meeting the artistic side of him?

As for New year, yeah its a new start definitly, i normally hate new year but i am looking forward to this one. I am determined to change the bad and have a happy peaceful existence.

Have you been coming here long? I dont think ive seen you before but im not always here so i may have missed you. welcome anyway :)

Shame in me said...

Hello OPL :) Glad to hear you have had a good day. Any plans for New years eve?

gnothi seauton said...

I don't teach SIM, I'm a Teaching Assistant ( although that's pretty much the same these days ).

I've been doing it for 9 years.

I'm an NNEB by training, but you don't have them in schools anymore.


Serenity,
Where did you meet?

gnothi seauton said...

Hi OP L.

Shame in me said...

Ahhh is see, my mother used to be a NNEB when i was a little girl but demand for them where i live was very low so she became a shop assistant. Waste of all that training but couldnt be helped.

I cant wait to get back to college and do something with my life.

gnothi seauton said...

What do you do at the moment SIM?

Original Punk J said...

Hey, SIM, GS.

No, no plans, really, just hanging out here at the apartment. We can see the fireworks from around the neighborhood and you can hear the big celebration downtown.

Probably will be awake though. J. and I both seem to have developed Vampire habits, not going to bed until around 3 or 4 in the morning.

How about you guys?

L.

Searching Serenity said...

When I say' I met the artistic side of him'I mean at his comic book signing. He once said that he wanted the comic book to be away from the band. So instaead of seeing GW the musician I saw GW the comic book writer. I was just discussing on my latest blog of how there are more parts to person than what we see.

Oh and I have been a observer for a awhile now but finally I have gotten courage to speak. To have a avoice in this sea of conversation.
Thank you for your warm welcome. =)
very nice to meet you. I have seen that there are very kind people here. A wonderful atmosphere.

Shame in me said...

OPL - I will be going to my local rockbar to bring the new year in with friends and good music and beeer :P haha

GS- I am unemployed at the moment :/ hopefully new year, i will be able to find me yet another shitty job to tide me over till i can get financial help to go to college.

Serenity- Glad that you have chose yourself a name and joined in the fun :)
How was GW when you met him? What did you say to him? Hope it was everything you thought it would be :)

Original Punk J said...

Searching Serenity,

Welcome and glad you feel at home here. It's nice to meet you too.

We are a strange little Family, but we are Family, and I hope you enjoy being a part of it!

Love,
L.

Original Punk J said...

BTW, I posted this on our blog and at DM earlier:

*******************************

I'VE LOVED THESE DAYS

Two days before New Year, and wondering what 2008 will bring.

2007 was interesting to say the least.

I fulfilled a childhood dream by going to London and Wales in April. Next stop...Venice!

Went to 4 Projekt Rev shows, met MCR in Charlotte, NC. (Thank you, Maddy!)

Wrote 5 songs, and started a novel. One day....

Found out that, yes, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome can be a royal BITCH, and add in a bit of Fibromyalgia with CFS and, voila, you got some crappy days. But I am thankful for the days that are good. Like today.

I found more music that I like this year than I had in 15 years! Oh, punk is back, baby!

I also found my voice, and found it is stronger and more truthful than I ever hoped.

I learned my Mum is far cooler than I thought, and that I am still Daddy's little girl. I also learned that I am a grownup now, even if sometimes I don't want to be.

Jobs come and go, but you should never lose your spirit, your principles or your rights.

Your best friend will always be beside you, and will always love you, even if you whack her in the head with a lunchbox. (Accidently!)

I found a group of people in the most unlikely of places, in the world of BlogBelieve, that have taught me so much about myself and inspired me beyond measure. To those friends, I say THANK YOU, from the bottom of my heart, and I love you.

This was 2007 in a nutshell. Waiting to see what the new year brings, and looking forward to many more adventures.

I hope to never stop learning, loving or laughing.

Its all about the love, my dears,

L.

gnothi seauton said...

Sounds good OP's.

I've nothing planned this year, I usually go to a party at my friends house but I haven't heard anything this year. Knowing her though it will probably be like 9pm and she'll ring up saying ' where are you '. She's like that :)


Serenity,
So, shall we do the ' new boyfriend ' routine? Where do you live, what do you do and we want Mayo home by 10.30pm. He has school tomorrow :)

gnothi seauton said...

SIM - it all comes together in the end :)

OP's - that was lovely! I think I may do something along similar lines.

Shame in me said...

Hey!!! i never got to go out on a date with mayo :( i should get first dibbs before serenity. Il treat him nice i promise :) mwahahahaha

OPL that was a lovely nutshell to read. Glad that there was more good to your year than bad. And the bad days, well, just hang in there. You are very strong. Love to you :)

Original Punk J said...

SIM,

That sounds great! Good friends, good music, etc. Hope you have fun!

GS, I love the "new boyfriend" questions. And also, "what are your intentions, and what kind of friends do you have?"

BTW, GS, J. wanted to know if you got her comment on your blog.

L.

Original Punk J said...

Thank you, GS.

And thank you, too, SIM. I really appreciate that! Love you too.

And yeah, can we arrange a date schedule with Mayo? I want to take him to to the roller rink and coffee shop. :)

L.

Searching Serenity said...

SIM - He was quiet nice I thought something was wrong but we were able to chat for about 5 minutes. That was until some fans were giving me dirty looks to move already ^_^ When we did talk we talked about my name. The spelling of it. Weird,right? But I would of expecting something akward or weird when meeting him.

L- Thank you for your warm welcome as well. I feel like this can be a a second family. ^_^ And I am excited to be part of this family. Oh and don't worry every family is weird or strange in some way.

As for now I must depart for a short amount of time while another member of my family comes to use the computer =)

I'll be back soon =)

Shame in me said...

I think if serenity is going on a date with Mayo we should be asking him these questions not her haha after all we dont want a repeat of the smut we had to listen too back in october haha :D

only joking Mayo, i loved it haha.

Actually probably best if i didnt go on a date with mayo i would only corrupt him further :P

Serenity you are welcome to him!!!

Be careful with him though hes fragile and means the world to us :)

Anonymous said...

Hey everyone. Searching Serenity, nice to meet you ^_^

Anonymous said...

Bob's Birthday is tomorrow =).
I wish that man the quickest recovery and an amazing day.

Shame in me said...

I would like to lie with Mayo under the stars and feed him cake, play him songs on my guitar and just hold him until he sleeps. So that i know he is safe and content for one night.

*goes all dreamy eyed*

Im a loser :(

Shame in me said...

BC your back!!! Im gonna have to go soon though :(
I keep staying up all night here and then not gettin a lot of sleep in the day. i need to be perky for festivities tomorrow :(
Boo!!! I dont wanna go

gnothi seauton said...

BTW, GS, J. wanted to know if you got her comment on your blog.


Just seen it and just replied :)

Amyranth said...

Hello Everyone!

Well! A new friend? The boyfriend routine works with me.

Serenity, if you're going to take our Mayo out, please no kissing until the second date.

-A

gnothi seauton said...

Actually probably best if i didnt go on a date with mayo i would only corrupt him further :P


This is why we never asked you the ' new boyfriend ' questions! We already knew what you had on your mind, you dirty girl!!!

Original Punk J said...

SIM, you forgot to add, "bats eyelashes sweetly". :)

No, actually, that sounds like a very nice date. I think he would like to feel safe and peaceful sometimes.

Hello, BC. How goes it?

And gel,

Absolutely! We have to remember Bob for tomorrow! Poor baby has had more trouble with injuries, sickness and who knows what this past year. My present to him would just to have a "stay out of the hospital" year!

L.

Anonymous said...

Shame in me, I don't want you to go, but if you have to, then you have to. When you do leave, please leave some hugs for mummy dearest. I saw your question earlier about the engagement thing. It's going great. If you saw my blog, the fiancee left a short verse for me ^__^

Hey there Amy how are you? Gs, I have to agree. him was disappointing to see when I went to see them at my PR show.

Shame in me said...

GS!!!! I feel shocked and saddened and humiliated that you would think of me that way.....
Nah!!! Haha who am i kidding, your right, so right :D hahaha....

....But it didnt stop me climbing through Mayo's window when no-one was looking!!! Mwahahahaha :P

It was the best night of my life O_o hahahaha

Original Punk J said...

Ah, Amyranth, the Queen of Retail!

How goes it today?

Love,
L.

Anonymous said...

Hi there OP how are you? So, what shall we do for bob's birthday tomorrow? The poor dude had too many injuries this past year.
Shame in me, don't feel like a loser. I would like to take care of mayo and keep him safe too ^_^

Anonymous said...

Hey, no fair! Mayo gets all the ladies!

Original Punk J said...

Sorry, Bikey! Did not mean to forget you!

So where do you want us to take you for a date?

L.

Anonymous said...

She wolf, then why do you stay?

ergoproxy said...

hello everyone!!

Amyranth, BC OP SIM GS gel

um searching for serenity - HI!

and hello Bikey!

Shame in me said...

Did HIM blow at PR too? was his voice really weak and shitty? Man these brilliant singers ruin there voices with cigarettes.

There was an mcr special on Radio! on my birthday and they were replaying an Mcr gig from April and man it seriously seriously blowed. Gerard had his Breathless Duck on helium Voice and i have to say it was the most painful i have ever heard MCR sound. Probably still amazing if you were there though.

OP L i hope that Mayo would like the date too. I think he needs to feel special at the moment.
Mayo i am formally asking you on a date.... il take no reply as a YES!!! haha

gnothi seauton said...

Hey, no fair! Mayo gets all the ladies!

This is coming from the man who has just been thanked for having testosterone. Yeah, you're so deprived of female attention my heart bleeds for you:)

Anonymous said...

Bikey, you're here! How are you? Aww, don't feel bad. I'm sure someone will ask you out on a date.

gnothi seauton said...

Belated hello's to BC, Ergo and Amy.

ergoproxy said...

616
you a virgo too!

We must go and passionately date -lol

sounds like a good year ahead, I can't wait to meet my new easy communicating companion

Anonymous said...

Shame in me, Ville Valo couldn't stop lighting up a fucking cigarette, and since I despise smoking, I could smell it just a few feet from where I was standing. I was in the pit. HIM just sucked. I could say the same thing about MCR. The tension with the band was bad enough, I couldn't exactly enjoy myself with their performance. That was the worst performance I had seen from MCR so far.
Hi there Ergo, how are you?

Searching Serenity said...

Ahh thank you everyone for allowing me to take out Mayo and for sharing Mayo as well. I'm very lucky.^_^

SIM - Yes of course your date with Mayo would come before mine. No doubt about that. And yes, of course I will take very good care Mayo I know how important Mayo is to all of you. I have observed. He means alot to me too.

The Avenger - Thank you for your warm welcome. Nice to meet you too. ^_^

Amyranth - lol surely there will be no kissing until the thrid date >_< I'll make sure. Very nice to meet you

Sorry but I might not respond so quickly one of my family members and I are trying to share the computer.hahaha

Shame in me said...

Right this really blows but im gonna have to go bed :( im so tired.

hey ergo and amy :) nice to see you.

Serenity nice to meet you :)

everyone else bye!! Sweet dreams and have fun :)

special kisses to my mum BC!! Love you!! (((hugs)))

Anonymous said...

Hi again GS. I hope you are doing well :)

Original Punk J said...

Hey Ergo, BC, doing fine, thanks!

SIM,

We watched HIM at ONE of the PR shows and that was plenty. He sounded horrible. Placebo was really good, as was Taking Back Sunday, and of course, MCR. Linkin Park sounded great too.

But yeah, I wouldn't give you two cents for HIM.

There are several times that you can hear G.'s voice hitting that not so nice range, and it's a little rough. He has a wonderful voice, but like everyone, he's got those days...

L.

Searching Serenity said...

Hello, ergoproxy! How are you and very nice to meet you ^_^

Shame in me said...

Im sorry mum i started smoking :( dont be mad .... *quickly runs to bed before Mother BC catches her* hahahaha

Anonymous said...

Special kisses and hugs to my lovely shame in me. Sweet dreams and good night dearie. Love you!
Serenity, you are welcome ^_^
I

Fimble Star said...

hello sweet child o mine.

Original Punk J said...

Goodnight, SIM!

Love,
L.

gnothi seauton said...

Good night SIM.

Amyranth said...

OP - The Queen us about ready to set her throne on fire. Fucking retail.

Hello to anyone I've missed!

Serenity, heck make him wait until he's 40, out little Mayo isn't ready yet for cuddlins.

At least, I'm not ready to think about it yet.

-A

Shame in me said...

OP L- this concert the whole show was sang in the not so nice range.

The highlight of the concert though was Gerard speaking in between songs and he put a Cockney accent on and said "Owhite London, 'Ow ya doin?" and it was hilarious he sounded like he was from London for real!!! But he also sounded Sooooo Camp!!!! haha bless him.

saw placebo in december last year and they were ok but i felt rather let down by their performance.

Muse on the other hand were phenomonal!!! I was blown away by them!!!

Anonymous said...

In my opinion, I thought placebo was too boring, but I thought that Julien K was pretty good, but I think it was because Chester from Linkin Park was doing the lead vocals for that band when I went to the show.

Shame in me said...

SHIT!!! just remembered i was going to bed!! See, you guys are sooo addictive you make me forget my real life and nees for sleep haha.

Going, going, gone!! Nite xxx

ergoproxy said...

goodnighht SIM

I'm good thanks SforS !
I'm an aussie so you have an idea where I am, I'm the one a day ahead of everyone (it's lunchtime Monday)
Along with Pickled Possum (NZ) and Cupcake (Aust)
if you want an idea of where everyone is check my Mayo World Tour blog

http://noneventmass.blogspot.com
/2007/12/mayonaise-world-tour-2008.html

(I'm also someone who cannot get the link thing right!!!)

Hope you are well.

gnothi seauton said...

Muse on the other hand were phenomonal!!! I was blown away by them!!!


Muse are just, argh, sooo good!

Anonymous said...

Shame in me, don't worry about that smoking. It's your choice. Hello hello fimble. Long time no see. How are you? Missed ya
I also thought the pit at PR sucked donkey shit, and this is coming from a first timer :O

Original Punk J said...

Bikey,

You still with us? Or did the idea of 40 or so women just render you speachless? ^_~

Oh, just to be sure, you are legal, right? In all countries? :)

L.

ergoproxy said...

SIM I saw Muse on Nov 21 and they were the best concert I've ever been to.
Silverchair were good too.

MCR on Nov 28 were great Gerard sounded really good,and Circa Survive were great. But Muse -WOW !!!

gnothi seauton said...

The highlight of the concert though was Gerard speaking in between songs and he put a Cockney accent on and said "Owhite London, 'Ow ya doin?" and it was hilarious he sounded like he was from London for real!!! But he also sounded Sooooo Camp!!!! haha bless him.


Or the equally funny:

" Would you like to DARNCE "

He sounded like Austin Powers. Too, too funny.

Anonymous said...

Or perhaps you won't stay. Perhaps this is it.



Mayonaise, perhaps one of your pawns will walk off the board now. Will you be glad to see the back of her? I wonder if you care about the lovelies as much as you say you do.


She wolf if this is it, please do not disappear. I would miss reading your words.

Fimble Star said...

well hello avenger. thanks for your warm welcome.

gnothi seauton said...

I saw MCR November 2006 at the Brixton Academy.
Very good performance, their shows are really suited to dirty, dark places.
I wouldn't like to see them at a large venue, it wouldn't seem right, does that make sense?

Fimble Star said...

anon.

please stay i have seen you a couple of times.

how are you, i am sure your she wolf wont be going anywhere. she will be on soon.

did you have a nice xmas

Original Punk J said...

Hey kids, we've pulled the ol' "bait and switch" routine again. ;)

It's J, now. Hi! How's everyone? I can feel the love tonight...

We have new people? Helloo?

BC: spectacular icon. I seem to recognize that man from somewhere...;)

J

Amyranth said...

Here are your questions for 2007:

What did you get that made you happy?

A house! A real house, and it's all mine!

What did you get that you did not want?

Bills, bills, bills. :(

What did you lose that you wanted to keep?

My virginity? Nah, that was years ago...My Grandmother.

What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of?

A not-so-great job.

What surprised you in a good way?

This blog.

What surprised you in a bad way?

Aphids. God, I hate aphids

What delighted you?

Being a home owner

What disappointed you?

Being a landlord

For 2008:

What do you hope to get?

Engaged

What do you hope to be rid of?

My Roommate

What do you plan to change?

Job, wage, and bedroom color

What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?

Size of the house.

What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?

The friends I've made here, and Mayo and SS.


-A is a sap.

Amyranth said...

Anon - Kapu isn't here all the time. She's got a life outside this blog, and a new nephew to care for.

Why do you keep baiting Mayo? He's never done anything to you.

-A

ergoproxy said...

ergo you are always in the fucking garden!!
and i know you live in oz but fuck most or us cannot imagine hot!!

thanks DG.
hello GS!!

December 30, 2007 5:34 PM


farawaysoclose said...
or is it NZ ergo?? sorry i would hate to annoy!!

haha I just saw this !!

FASC it is Oz and it is hot but we wait for the cooler afternoon when the shade hits.
And I do seem to be in the garden a lot lately
I'll have to post a pic so you can see what i'm talking about when it's finished !

gnothi seauton said...

Anonymous,
Kapunua has gone out for the evening.



I'm off everyone, it's 3.40am.

Good night all.
Good night Mayo.

TTFN

Searching Serenity said...

Amyranth - hahaha wow my cuddles. I usually don't give for so much cuddling I guess that you might the first to warn me about my cuddling. Beware: Serenity's cuddling. I will save everyone the trouble and stay away

Fimble Star said...

looks like the anon has gone now. i am sure you wanted to stay but unfortuantly couldnt.

i will tell your she wolf that you visited. do you want to leavea little kiss for her when she returns

Anonymous said...

Fimble, you are welcome. OP, I discovered that lovely pic of Frank on buzznet, and thus, decided to post it as my avatar. Such a lovely gesture he displays in the picture isn't it? To be honest, I think that's one of my favorite pictures of him. :D

As far as bands though, I think they perform and sing better at indoor arenas. That's just me though.

Searching Serenity said...

Hello J I am new, and I have been welcomed kindly by everyone how are you?

Anonymous said...

Goodnight GS. Sweet dreams

Anonymous said...

Hi Mistress J, Serenity, Ergoproxy, Fimble Star and Avenger!

How is everyone this evening?

Fimble Star said...

hahaha my jersey star has arrived.

are you bright at this time of night

Amyranth said...

Okay, so I'm going to be back and forth for a bit. Family is coming to visit, so I'm cleaning like a mad thing.

See y'all in a bit!~

-A

Anonymous said...

Yes, Miss Fimble Star! I'm good.
And how are you? How is everything?

Anonymous said...

Hi there star how are you? I'm doing good.

Jennicula said...

Hi guys!

Fimble Star said...

its fine and dandy miss star. it was 85*F here today and i was stuck in a mall. i hate bloody shopping but i had a coffee and everything seemed bright again.

how was your day

Anonymous said...

I'm groovy, avenger!

Hello, Jennicula! How are you doing?

Jennicula said...

Hi Star, how are you? Ready for New Years?

Anonymous said...

That's good, star. Hi there Jen

Fimble Star said...

hey jen. have you been drinking your prune juice.

have you got them moving now. does it feel gooooooooooood

Original Punk J said...

Hello Serenity! I'm ok, a little tired tonight after L and I went to the mall. If you've been reading for a while, then you probably know there are two of us Original Punks. L and I are best friends of 20 years, we share an apartment, and almost share a mind! We sometimes switch off typing in the middle of commenting, but we always sign our initials at the end so you'll know which one of us is talking.

Tell me a little something about yourself, if you would, I didn't see your first comments here. Are you in the States? England? Where do you hail from originally? And other stuff. :)

BTW, I just noticed that your screen name initials are the same as one of our friends'. Cool!

Hi Handmaiden Star! Ready to celebrate Bob's birthday tomorrow?

BC, yes, I can feel the love coming out of that picture. It's flowing freely all over us. :D

J

Anonymous said...

You still with us? Or did the idea of 40 or so women just render you speachless? ^_~

Oh, just to be sure, you are legal, right? In all countries? :)


Speachless indeed! Sorry ladies, I have already confessed my age once today. I was told I am a spring chicken, but I feel as old as the hills! Last time I checked I was somewhere between legal and still breathing.
Still trying to think where we can go on our date. Ooh, shall we go to Atlantic City? I'm not usually a gambling man, but I can make an exception.

Anonymous said...

Yes, Jennicula!
I'm not doing much. My husband is working, so I'm going by my parents to hang out and eat.

What about you?

JocelynHolly said...

Good evening guys. =]

Fimble Star said...

Fimble Star said...
007

i know your not here but i have read your comments. i just wanted to let you know that even though you are 15 years old and one of the youngest in mayos you are very mature for your age. i am proud to know you.

have fun with your guitar
love
#8
xx

December 30, 2007 7:53 PM


just so you know

Anonymous said...

How was skating, Miss Paperheart?

Original Punk J said...

Bikey,

Can I go with you and L to Atlantic City? We'd have the best time...

How 'bout it, can you handle two women at once?

J

ergoproxy said...

hi Fimble, Star PH *hug*

and Sfor S is a cuddler, we shall be hugged and cuddled from all sides......you prepared Bikey?

I suppose I'm out of date range, being so far away and all, I'll just virtually tag along

JocelynHolly said...

Oh wow FS.

You may not think that you said much, but that really means a lot to me.

Forever and always will you be in my heart Fimble. *HUG*

JocelynHolly said...

Hey Star, Ergo and OPJ! *hugs*

Star, skating was very fun, but very very cold. How was your night?

Searching Serenity said...

J - Well I have been an observer for awhile now. Yes I have noticed that there are 2 originalpunks. And both of you have been very kind. ^_^ Yes I am from the states. I will just say from Boston, MA for general terms. hahaha. It's really nice to meet you. I don't know what else to say really hahaha sorry =\.

Amyranth - I know hwo you feel my father is rreturning form his trip to his homeland. I have to clean like never before that too is the reason why I'm back and forth and don't respond so quickly. Good luck!

Paperheartxx - Hello there! ^_^

Anonymous said...

Pretty good, Paperheart.
I hung out and watched some football.
Just chilling!

Original Punk J said...

Hi Ergo, PH, Fimble, and everyone!

Ergo, L and I thought of you today while we were grocery shopping. We looked at the price of chicken, and I said, "You know, I think I'll ask Ergo to FedEx us a chicken..." :)

That would be, like, the funniest thing to happen.

And just for the record:

I am NOT advocating cruelty to animals. :)

J

JocelynHolly said...

Hey Serenity!

Star that sounds lovely! I had to teach my friend how to skate, and holding her hand made me spend a lot of the night on the icy ground.

Original Punk J said...

L wanted me to tell you guys a story that she'd forgotten.

When she went to the comics store last week to get the next issue of TUA, she saw an ad poster for it that had been signed by GW, Gabriel Ba, and James Jean. She asked the clerk if it had been sold, and he said yes, that it had been signed "by the artists". Well, she went over and looked at it, and saw the infamous XOXO G up above the other two names. She told the guy, "No, Gerard signed it too." She showed him the signature, and he said he thought that was just part of one of the other guys' signatures.

Then he said, "Shoot, if I'd known that, I would've asked for more money for it!!"

J

Jennicula said...

Fimble: bite me.

BC: Hi there.

Star: I'm hanging in there. Getting ready for New Years. We have a blow out at the homestead. I'm looking forward to it.

Fimble Star said...

hey J. how are you hun. i am sorry i aint replied to your email you i will get on that tonight.

ergo hello my dear. how is your garden

007 - i just wantedto let you know that you are a valued member of the family. you are very mature for your age more so than some bloggers but i wanted you to know that keep commenting

Searching Serenity said...

Paperheartxx - How are you? How was your day? ^_^

Original Punk J said...

Hi Jen, early happy New Year since it sounds like you'll be busy tomorrow night!

J

Fimble Star said...

jen you know if you say those 2 word to me i will always say

harder bitch


oh and nimble says hello to badger if badger is above ground tonight!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hi everyone

Searching Serenity said...

L - That's so funny! it really is. ^_^ hahaha

Anonymous said...

Hey MJ, how are you?

Paperheart, you are a good friend teaching your friend to skate!

Searching Serenity said...

hello martha jones ^_^ how are you?

JocelynHolly said...

Fimble Star; Thank you. I've always worried, despite the fact that you've all told me otherwise, that I'm just looked at as a kid, and not taken seriously on the blogs sometimes.

Serenity (I love that name btw, I suggested it to my sister for her baby if it was a girl- She went with Noel instead), I am good! My day was good too! How was yours?

JocelynHolly said...
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Jennicula said...

Hi J; I'll probably zip on tomorrow after a few toddys. So, if I make no sense, blame the martinis. I'm making chocolate ones this time.

Fimble: Don't make me get your pimp to smack your bith ass down. Yeah, I said it. Bith ass.

Original Punk J said...

PH:

Ditto to what Fimble said. You're a peach. :)

Bikey,

Have we lost you again? I didn't mean to scare you!

J

Anonymous said...

OP, lol.
Bikey, you're still here? How are you?
Hey there teddy bear. How are you ol' adorable one? *hugs*

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello star and searching serenity. I'm well and how are you?

Martha Smith-Jones said...
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Fimble Star said...

007 your never looked upon as a kid by me. i just wanted you to know becuase i think we all need to know these wthings especially when there is hate in here sometimes. so put a smile on that pretty face and bask in the glory that you call 007.

jen seriously my pimp will bite your constipated arse back to kingdom come so beware. i know people in high places

JocelynHolly said...

Hey Jennicula and Martha! *HUG*

How are you guys?

Jennicula, if you could pass the message along to AIP, please tell her that I miss her and that I hope she is well!

Original Punk J said...

Hey MJ! How are you, dearie?

J

Anonymous said...

Hi there mj.
Jen, you're making chocolate martinis'?
That sounds good!

JocelynHolly said...

Hey BC! *HUG*
I am good. Just a little sleepy (must rest to get my party on tomorrow night)


Fimble, you plastered a smile on my face that you could see from a mile away. You tend to do that to me all the time!
If it weren't for you, I would not be known as 007, or Paperstar, or be apart of the "Nocturnal Club" way back when.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello J, Jen, PH, BC and FS. How are you guys I'm well

Anonymous said...

You are my ethereal being

Fimble Star said...

007. i seem to only call you by that name. because after all you are the international spy.

oh and i wanna see that smile plastered on you till you become an aunt. then you can make it bigger. ohhhhh it is coming up are you excited. i want pics i hope you know that

hey there martha. how is the doctor lately

Anonymous said...

That's good teddy bear. Got any plans for tomorrow night?

JocelynHolly said...

MJ. I am well as well! (WTF, makes no sense)

Fimble, once my sister pops out that baby, and I get pictures taken with it (Noel for a girl, Noah for a boy. To me.. Piglet=]), I will post them just for you.

Anonymous said...

That's good mj. I'm doing good, just trying to make plans for tomorrow night, but maybe I'll just get drunk in my own home and celebrate ^_^

Fimble Star said...

well i will be waiting for them. you know that for sure

Original Punk J said...

Doing well, MJ, can't complain too much. L and I went to the mall today.

Let me tell you guys something:

The mall, crowded with mostly teenage shoppers, is no place for a couple of 40ish, arthritis-riddled, tire-out-easily women with no money and less patience.

Present company excluded, Bubbles.

Please don't make me go back there.

J

Martha Smith-Jones said...

The Dr is fine FS. We are going on a trip somewhere foe NYE. He said it was a surprise. I'm a bit scared.

Jennicula said...

Hi Martha!

J - yes, chocolate martinis. They're dangerous.

Paperheartxx - done.

Fimble - you talk tough, but I don't see your pimp guarding your ass at all. Now I'm going to smack your skinny ass down. SMACK! (and, I know you like it!)

JocelynHolly said...

BC, skating at the Forks, (This place in my city, where there's a market place and restaurants, and it marks where two rivers meet), then a sleepover with friends.. maybe. Annd we have some rum.=]

Do you have any plans?

Anonymous said...

Anon, who are you talking about? Teddy bear, guess what? My sister's nickname is piglet. It's my nickname for her ^_^
OP, ditto on the mall topic :)

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...

Then why do you stay?

Anonymous said...

She wolf, then why do you stay?


Assuming you're both the same person, hi. It's funny you should ask this, because I thought very, very hard about this on my way to the party, while Gerard's words were still really fresh, and really, really stinging. I halfway had the answer from the beginning, but it was being shouted down by my initial reaction of wanting to just dramatically exit the blog in a flurry of meaningful TBS lyrics. I do have an answer, and it's become very simple. Nothing like a night out with my beloved and sorely missed training brothers and sisters to really sort me out. I hope you won't mind if I address the answer to Mayo though, because I think he deserves to know.

Mayo, I think you deserve to know this. Whether or not you care to--even though you always say you care--is something I will never know. (You're silent but strong, [yeah, I'm playing that card] and you're noticing nothing again.) But I have to tell you anyway. Mayo, I'm not going to just assume that I have your attention just because I wrote in bold print. I'm not going to assume that I have your attention because you've said that we've all had your attention. I'm not going to assume that I have it just because I had it once or twice in the past, either. I'm through with assuming things tonight; now I'm just going to tell you straight up, so that you don't have to assume anything, either.

Mayo, I stay here because you're not Gerard Way. I get messed up when I force his image onto you, and I admit that it has happened in the past. If I've ever been really exasperated with you, if I've ever snapped at you or been rude for seemingly no reason at all, it's because--my fault--I think the long-standing rumors of your identity, no matter how I denied them, were always there in my mind. But as of tonight, you're definitely two different people to me. (My double standardized suspicion is remedied, oh, my blue heaven, sometimes it just feels better to give in.)

I could not speak a civil word to a man who dislikes and disrespects me just because I don't have a penis. I could never share riddles, poems and secrets with someone who verbally abuses teenage girls under the flag of "feminism"--so much more dangerous than any drunken retarded ass-slapping fratboy, because most girls at least know that they do not pretend to represent feminism.

I guess it's possible, Mayo, that you at least know of Gerard Way, and hell, maybe you've even met him at some point I guess. You came over from Love Man's blog just like the first bunch of us did. I remember your first "anonymous" post there, sweetheart. El oh el at you trying to play the anonymous game. I get it though; you gotta play the game, folks.

But you, Mayo, are articulate, clever, and kind. I realized that I can no longer reconcile the man who would put up a picture of my dog as a tribute with the man who tells women that they'll be jerking themselves off for him all their lives. I know you say you're difficult, and I know you have your moments, but something tells me that you recognize how hurtful words like that are and you wouldn't use them. I feel frustration from you, Mayo, sometimes anger and exasperation and stubbornness. By your own admission you can be snippy, childish and selfish. By your own admission, you are full of mistakes and flaws. Aren't we all? But you are not cruel. You--Mayo--you wouldn't do something like that.

Gerard Way?
(I use the inconsistencies to undress the machine, you're the poster boy, their selling point, the focus for their new campaign.)

I probably don't have to tell you that he was what drew me to MCR. It was his feminism and his activism that made me curious about the music, with which I fell in immediate and passionate love. It was "I'm Not Okay," I cried the first time I saw the video. I thought, "These guys get it." (From saint to sinner, well which one is it? Just who do you think you are?)

At least most times in the recent past, I thought he was still in there, that maybe he was going through a phase or some kind. That he was just a mess, he maybe didn't realize what he was saying or how many people he was letting down. I thought maybe he was just falling apart. (Sad, small, sure in porcelain, you're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck, I got a bad feeling about this.)

I thought for a while that maybe he didn't realize that his words were not only harmful, but hurtful, too. I had hoped, at least early on, that the guy who said such awesome things was in there somewhere. That even if he stopped needing to say them, he still actually believed them, and would not do the direct polar opposite of them.

Does someone like Gerard Way realize how much it hurts to be spoken to like that? How awful of a feeling it is to be disrespected, not because of anything you've done, but just because you're a different gender than he is? How helpless of a feeling it is to watch him verbally abuse little girls who don't know any better, who think that it's the greatest thing they've ever heard? And then for him to turn around and call it "feminism?" And that you can't say or do a thing about it, because he's rich, famous and successful and has a horde of devoted followers who would sooner piss on your corpse than let you speak a word against him?

Does someone like Gerard Way understand how much it hurts to laughingly be told "this is how it will be all your life?" This is what women should expect from men. This is what women should expect from men who are feminists. Women, this is as far as you go in life. Jerk off for me and moan for me. It's all you're good for.

He used to say that he understood how much things like that hurt, but like with so much else, he lied. There is nothing in words like that but cruelty. Have you ever put your faith in someone and been wrong? (You're down for sellin' me out, while I play dumb, it's cool cause I let you, thought I'd never catch you...)

But Mayo, I think that someone like you does understand things like that. I admit that for a while, somewhere in the middle, yeah, I really thought you were Gerard. I thought I heard the voice that wrote the lyrics that I used to love. But how can you be? There's no way you could possibly be the same person.

My Chemical Romance?
(I traded my conscience for your, for your confidence, attacked my lungs with lies to pass the time...)

They're in it together and I can no longer deny that. I always said that I was "holding on for Frank, Ray, Bob and Mikey." But by their tacit approval of Gerard's malicious words and actions, they're just as much a part of it as he is. Could not a single one of them ever have said, "Hey, Gerard, maybe it's not a good idea to treat girls like that, especially after the things we used to say we believed in." Or "Hey Gerard, I'm happy that you're finally married, but maybe putting a band that plays 'Five Year Old Panty Shot' on stage to your young audience isn't the best move for us." I know that sometimes friends get put in a rough spot and we are all forced to bear things we don't agree with at some point. But is he that much of a tyrant that not a single one of them was able to ask him to quit it?

I haven't listened to them in a while--I just couldn't--but tonight I deleted every MCR song off my iPod. I took out every MCR video from my favorites list on Youtube. (I know that sounds like such a small thing, but I actually cried a bit when I did it, because there was so much, and I really, really loved it all.) Worst for me, though, was that I took down those trailers for that stupid movie I had been working on earlier in the year. I know, I know, no big. A lot of people didn't like the idea anyway. But Frank liked it, and I liked it, and the people who were working so hard to help me, they liked it, too. We all worked incredibly hard on the scenes we had finished. And I really will treasure that note of permission from Frank, and I really will treasure that time I got to talk to him and how nice he was to me and to my cousin.

I also know, as I'm sure many people would love to point out, that none of this will ever make a lick of difference to the band. Nor would it even if I said it directly to any of them. They've got their fans. They've got enough money and adulation that one girl walking away (for the right reason) isn't going to phase them in the least. Gerard Way, he's got to know that he's got all these young girls eating out of his hand, and he's feeding them a future of misunderstanding what it is to be a woman, and he's doing it on purpose now and laughing about it. "Hey, it's just a joke, I wanna see how far I can go." "Hey girls, you're just a joke. How fan can I make you go?" Nothing I say or do is going to change that. Rock stars have been treating women like whores since rock and roll began, even before. A small amount of women have been asking them not to for just as long. None of them have ever listened, so it's not about to change now--I get that, I do.

And I originally came here because there was one place on the whole godforsaken internet where I could discuss the latest rotten antic that Gerard pulled with his audience and not get crucified for it by wailing teenagers. (All tired scream safe haven, let's get this out and on the table.) I guess I somehow felt that if I ranted enough, that if we all did, it would get back to him and he'd have to at least hear us. If nothing else, it made me a more straightforward writer. (She says live up to your first impression, my best side was your worst invention, why can't you live without the attention?)

Really all I can do is shake my head and hope that someday, when those girls grow up, they'll look back on their crush on Gerard Way and simply be embarrassed by it. All I can do is hope that they will figure the world out and realize that they are good for more than acting like whores because some dude with a microphone told them to. (Say you won't care, say you won't care, try to avoid it but there's not a doubt, and there's one thing I can do nothing about.)

But that's Gerard Way, Mayo. That's not you. (And her eyes never batted when she said it, it's a long night, open, know it...) I just know that you're not cruel enough to be Gerard Way. You say you hear us. Gerard Way doesn't hear anyone but himself. You, Mayo, whoever you are, you are a decent guy. (This glass house is burning down, you light the match, I'll stick around, I'll give you everything you want, and wish the worst of what I was.) You're someone I actually respect, because you have respect.

So to answer the question that you didn't even ask, there's no reason for me to leave this blog. Much to the chagrin of the people who were waiting for me to storm out of here dramatically in a flurry of meaningful TBS lyrics, no doubt.

(Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
Tonight won't make a difference
)

JocelynHolly said...

FS, you will see the pictures! ^_^

OPJ, haha, I work in the mall, and believe me, I want to punch some people in the head when they come to my cash register!

Jenn-- Thanks! =]

Anonymous said...

teddy bear, that sounds like alot of fun. Just stay safe little one :)
As for my plans, I'm such a homebody so I'm staying home and maybe drink a little.

Fimble Star said...

oh jen you didnt just go there. now my pimp is gonna come in big and hard on your constipated arse.n you beware. no one mess's with the fimblestar

Anonymous said...

I apologize for the length.*














*that's what he said.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello Kapu how are you?

Anonymous said...

I'm great, MJ, I just came back from a wonderful party! ^___^ I had awesome food and flirted with two of my favorite boys, one of whom flirted back all night. It was great. It meant nothing, but it was great. :D

Anonymous said...

Hi K. Where did everyone else go?

JocelynHolly said...

Kapunua-- Reading what you wrote; I could just feel how you must've felt while writing that. Wow. I'm speechless. Everything you said, I agree with, I am just nodding my head and thinking "She just put everything together that I never could".

All along, I've hoped that what we would say would somehow get back to the band. At times when someone would come in, saying they had "inside info", I'd believe them and have hope that the band that I fell in love with, would come back from the darkness. I came here, thinking that this blog did belong to Gerard Way. I quickly figured out that it wasn't him. I part of me still hopes that he is the blog owner, but that is only a decimal amount of me. I agree, Mayonaise is a much better person than G-Way is. Mayo actually thinks about other people, he's empathetic and compassionate.

I'm here now for the people I've met, and I'm not leaving until all the stars fall out of the sky.

Kapunua, you said that you hadn't listened to MCR for a long time and that you deleted every song. I can understand why, because I did the same thing. A few days ago, for the first time in weeks, I listened to 'Cancer' live on youtube, and cried. Then yesterday, watching SNL, I still saw parts of the band that I loved. Parts that aren't there anymore.

Again, what you said, just blew me away.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Flirting with boys Kapu. What will the anons who think you can't get a man think.

JocelynHolly said...

BC, I can't believe you call your sister Piglet!! Wow. That's just amazing! My sister calls me "Auntie Pooh", and I refer to her baby as Piglet, all the time! I promise to stay safe!

Anonymous said...

FS garden is going fine, All is planted and being covered in wood chip as I type (and I need to help!)

OP umm J or L I can't remember lol

I could Fed Ex a chicken we have about 5 young roosters one is for my dad in law and the other 4 are for dinner. They are Plymouth Rocks bred for eggs and meat

off again back later

Original Punk J said...

BC, I meant to ask you a question.

What was all that earlier about you being, uh, engaged? I must have missed something.

J

Martha Smith-Jones said...

i had a hard time listening to MCR for a long time. I started to listen to them again but I still find myself fast forwarding through their songs. They just aren't the same anymore.

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