The catalyst of confusion
started a fire
while shopping for
a soul on a high wire.
Until now I was unaware that the remuneration for impropriety exceeded that set for dignity. How much did you get for yours? As for my dignity…I will hold onto it, thank you. I would rather starve than feed my soul from a base wage.
With my voice in repose, I hid behind my own forbearing shadow, and allowed silence to foster absolution. Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary.
I am not so completely unaware. Because I am certain that is common knowledge, your recent presentment was, quite frankly, out of line. Your bravado flames me.
As it happened, I had simply misplaced the why, where, and how. I can identify the sickness in that statement, and I concede fault in my volition. I understand that I can be fucking difficult. My own scathing behavior must remain in constant check.
I am not able to take back that fleeting moment or the injustice it served you. I have arrived at the place from where I must move on. I wish you the same in your departure.
p.s. a fucking doormat.
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MissT, shoots, do you think that we had anything of importance to say while we were LOLling to ourselves over Jared Leto, Kool Aid and Bert Ghost last night? Hell no! We were just, well, LOLling. Please do not base your self worth on these blogs. It's not important to be important. Hell, I wish people paid less attention to me, it's often not nice to be singled out on here, because people say cruel things. You catch all that stuff about my dog, my looks, a entire life a few weeks back? Hello, my Mom reads this stuff. Sometimes it's better to be ignored.
Your neighbor sounds like a total dick; can't the cops just come and shut him down? Noise ordinances and all of that?
MissT, as far as the regs go who are hiding behind anonymity, hey, do the opposite of me: ignore them. Don't put too much stock in this blog. I mean, it means the world to me, and it means the world to most people here, but don't let the drama that goes on here add to your own problems. Those anons are not your problem. Don't let them be.
If you have nothing to say, don't worry about it! You don't have to have something to say. That's cool; and it's better than what I do lots of the times which is just post something for the sake of LOLs or because I'm bored or waiting to go out.
You are not wrong to come here and talk to people about your depression. Shoots, the very first post I posted here was about depression and how some of the people on here had mentioned it. I still have it, and it read, in part, like this:
Jeez, I've had enough of the anonymice game. I have nothing to hide, I'm not a character in this story at all, just a casual observer. I can't deny that it's interesting though, and even though there are some people on here who are saying how unhealthy it is to keep reading this, those people are still reading too. Right?
This whole thing seems to be about two major issues: Depression and dishonesty.
(snip)
Then: Depression. Lots of comments on here dealing with depression and stuff like that. I suspect that a person who has been so open about their issues with depression (talking about Gerard here) tends to draw people who are going through the same time, hence all of these commenters who are dealing with it themselves. Sure everyone gets the blues once in a while, but to be a true depressive is a completely different animal, you know? And some people are judging THAT. As if people with the actual disorder have any control over it. Okay, so I guess that depression can be controled with therapy, medication and that sort of thing, but no true depressive asks to feel that way. Getting help is hard, it's scary, it's daunting, for some it's very expensive even. But the most important thing is, if you are depressed--I don't care if you're a fan or a hater or if you're Gerard Way himself--GET HELP.
It's not as if you don't belong here because of it, MissT. If anything, you belong here even more. On the other hand, if what you need is to get away, if that's what will work for you? Then you have to do it. We'll be sad, us lot, and hope you'll come back, but you have to look out for yourself. This is just BlogBelieve. Your own life takes presidence.
Commenting on blogs? Hell, hardly anyone ever comments on mine. That's not what it's' there for. Again, don't put too much stock in it. Don't let it define your self worth!
Either way, I do hope to see you on chat. I will hopefully be on tonight if I get back home early enough.
MissT, do what you have to do to make yourself better, okay?
miss t.
i know it was hard for you to put your feelings down like thst. well done my sheffy wag, just know that your place at the table will never and i repeat NEVER be taken.
love to you
mancy bird
xx
Miss T, I admire you for your courage to come back and write what you did.
I just want you to know you can email me any time doll, I'm here for you.
*love & hugs*
Miss t I sent you an email.
Miss Tottenham, ahalan sadiqti!
Eshtaqto elaiki.
Lughati al arabic laisat kama yajib. Ahtaaju an atadarraba 'ala al arabia!
sdock10 said...
Please post to Mayo
Mayo,
My friend, for some reason I think you might need to hear this today. Hell, maybe it's just because I have a heart full of love and nobody to share it with today. Yeah, I am alone again. Seems to happen a lot to me these days.
So anyway...back to what I came to tell you. Mayo, I am so sorry that someone made you feel and treated you like a doormat. Like I told you before, my heart is covered in footprints...most of 'em are size 10's. I want you to know that there is at least one person out there that would never treat you that way. I would never walk all over you or disrespect you. I care too much about you and this place. This has become such a special part of my life. You have always been the most gracious host. Hell, I've even become quite fond of hanging on the porch. It's still a beautiful atmosphere. When I'm here, I belong. I have a purpose. I came for you and I will continue to stay for you, and for me, and for my family.
Mayo, your heart might be a little bruised and stepped on, but so is mine. And you know what? It doesn't stop me from having all the faith in the world in you.
May you feel that faith, hope, and love today.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. You still inspire me.
Temple I think you are missing a very valid point. Sad thing is you said it yourself but you didn't hear. We all have problems. Why would listening to yours be any more of a hardship then listening to anyones elses? It's not. It never has been. Lord knows I understand depression. Nasty bugger that it is. But you know what? This is the place where I can talk and even if no one is listening (and I have to say for the most part when it's important they do) I can put my feelings down in print. It helps me. Why do you think I write such silly things to Mayo late at night? It's because I need to talk.
Please think it all over again. Saying that the family has changed isn't really true. This family is like all families. Sometimes you love them and sometimes you hate them. But bottom line it they are there.Have some of the regs hidden behind Anon's? I don't know for sure. And I don't really care. My true friends are here and they wouldn't do that.
I miss you. That it from the bottom of my heart. Know this now, I will never get tried of hearing about your feelings. Please don't throw all of us away.
And MissT, read back over some of the earlier posts. It has always been like this with anons. Maybe not so many, but it's always been this way and it probably always will be.
So really, not much has changed at all.
Does anyone want to play with me? It's like a meme. Maybe a little like Love, Hate, Miss, Want but better, and more like an "end of the year" kinda thing. (Even though I don't celebrate stupid new years since it's just another day. But I'm making this up anyway 'cause I feel like it.)
Mayo, SS, you are, as always, invited to participate if you want to.
Here are your questions for 2007:
What did you get that made you happy?
What did you get that you did not want?
What did you lost that you wanted to keep?
What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of?
What surprised you in a good way?
What surprised you in a bad way?
What delighted you?
What disappointed you?
For 2008:
What do you hope to get?
What do you hope to be rid of?
What do you plan to change?
What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?
What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?
And of course that should read, what did you LOSE that you wanted to keep. Not lost. Duh.
Oh and one more thing MissT. Being talked over? Hell I'm the original "I don't think anyone's listening" girl. Here is the thing. Even if they aren't listening at that moment I'm speaking. I'm putting my words out there. I didn't really realize it meant anything until a very lovely man (yeah SS) told me that it's the smallest of whispers that get heard. Call me silly but I believe that dude. So now when I feel like no one is listening I remember that while I'm whispering maybe just maybe someone is hearing me.
If nothing else, I'm hearing myself and that is something until recently I didn't do.
What did you get that made you happy?
a second family here
What did you get that you did not want?
a poorly eye
What did you lose that you wanted to keep?
My dog hannah, i miss her
What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of?
weight
What surprised you in a good way?
my friends keeping in touch from a far distance
What surprised you in a bad way?
How much i miss home
What delighted you?
Manchester united winning their football games
What disappointed you?
manchester united loosing
For 2008:
What do you hope to get?
Sense of direction in life
What do you hope to be rid of?
weight
What do you plan to change?
My feelings
What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?
I have no clue i will get back to you on this one
What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?
All of you people in here
I'll play Kapunua!
2007:
What did you get that made you happy?
-Tickets to my first arena concert!
What did you get that you did not want?
-Rabies. (shhh it's a secret)
What did you lost that you wanted to keep?
-My Friend Stephen and my dog Mischa RIP
What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of?
- A few bad friends.
What surprised you in a good way?
-The kindness of the people I found on this blog <3
What surprised you in a bad way?
- How harsh complete strangers can be.
What delighted you?
- The fact I was able to have a wonderful Xmas with my family.
What disappointed you?
- Me.
For 2008:
What do you hope to get?
- A fresh start.
What do you hope to be rid of?
- Fear and pain.
What do you plan to change?
- The world!!!
What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?
- I wish I could make everyone I care about happy, I want them to be safe and healthy, but I can't control everything.
What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?
- All of you.
All of you. :)
Fimble Star, our last answer is the same!
Can we feel the love??
I must go for now, MAYO, All other not lesser but equal darlings, I leave you with a song.
:)
THE DRESDEN DOLLS
"Sing"
There is this thing that's like touching except you don't touch
Back in the day it just went without saying at all
All the world's history gradually dying of shock
There is thing that's like talking except you don't talk
You sing
You sing
Sing for the bartender sing for the janitor sing
Sing for the cameras sing for the animals sing
Sing for the children shooting the children sing
Sing for the teachers who told you that you couldn't sing
Just sing
There is thing keeping everyone's lungs and lips locked
It is called fear and it's seeing a great renaissance
After the show you can not sing wherever you want
But for now lets all pretend that we're gonna get bombed
So sing
Sing cause its obvious sing for the astronauts sing
Sing for the president sing for the terrorists sing
Sing for the soccer team sing for the janjaweed sing
Sing for the kid with the phone who refuses to sing
Just sing
Life is no cabaret
We don't care what you say
We're inviting you anyway
You motherfuckers you'll sing someday...
What did you get that made you happy?
New laptop....now I can smoke and type (I'm only allowed to smoke in the kitchen!)
What did you get that you did not want?
The worst week of my life.
What did you lose that you wanted to keep?
My mind.
What did you let go of willingly and are glad to be rid of?
Oh god, I'm a shocking hoarder...nothing without a fight.
You will always find a use for it one day!
What surprised you in a good way?
The love and support I have from my friends
What surprised you in a bad way?
How easy it can be for families to fall apart if you're prepared to let it. I'm not!
What delighted you?
The holiday with my closet friend....the best!
What disappointed you?
My Dad.
For 2008:
What do you hope to get?
The motivation to GTF on with my Masters. Meh!
What do you hope to be rid of?
The above.
What do you plan to change?
My self-consciousness.
What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?
The situation with my Dad.
What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?
My pert breasts and tight ass*
*Actually I've never had either.
Hello folks!
How are you all?
How are you Mayo? Are things looking a bit better today? Hope so!
SS: How are you,angel?
Here are your questions for 2007:
What did you get that made you happy?
my new laptop
What did you get that you did not want?
extra pounds and arthritis in my butt
What did you lose that you wanted to keep?
my temper, several times
What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of?
guilt over not being involved in organized religion
What surprised you in a good way?
finding out that the internet is not totally full of whackjobs and serial killers
What surprised you in a bad way?
on a shallow note, Gee Way's behavior during Project Rev
What delighted you?
finding like minded people to converse with
What disappointed you?
myself and my lack of motivation to change things that I need to change
For 2008:
What do you hope to get?
a better sense of self, and happiness with that self, if that makes sense
What do you hope to be rid of?
several pounds and self doubt
What do you plan to change?
bad habits, being a drunky drunkerson
What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?
my self esteem
What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?
the friends I've made here, of course! And oh, my sanity, that would be nice too.
Sorry Mayo,
I've frightened everyone away.....was it the tits and ass?
I'll put them away then!
Ah Carrie...I'm not alone!
How are you?
Hello carrie and DG
Hey Martha!
You okay?
Hey dg and mj, just hanging out on Sunday watching the Detroit Lions lose, AGAIN.
Hello girls. How is eveyone?
Oh dear!
Actually, I've no idea who they are Carrie....a sports team I'm presuming.
Hello elena. DG I'm alright.
Hi Elena,
How are you?
How are the girls....did you have a good xmas?
What did you get that made you happy? My godson, for my very sick friend to get better, my lovely crow, new friendships at work and Kung Fu, my green sash, my new car, PRK surgery, a job at the sanctuary, My Chemical Romance, Taking Back Sunday, some concerts, responsibility for babysitting a stranded dolphin, my Crackberry...
What did you get that you did not want? Some new co-workers...
What did you lose that you wanted to keep? Trisky most of all, two of my pet birds, my two close friends at work who moved away, my friend who ditched me, my old car, My Chemical Romance, the desire to make a movie I'd been really into doing...
What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of? The job at the sanctuary, anger at my friend who ditched me because I would not marry him, Pretty (kinda,) my desk job at the Kung Fu academy, my glasses, 20 pounds, that same dolphin responsibility--GOD that got boring after a while...
What surprised you in a good way? Meeting my friend Brittany, good music, Barack Obama, huge advances in the AIDS research, this blog...
What surprised you in a bad way? Losing Trisky, the almost complete disregard for said AIDS research, the loss of my friend's parent, the illness of my other friend Brittany's parent, Brittany moving far away, a lot of deaths (especially this last month,) the behavior of a few people, and yes, politics and this stupid country even though I should not be surprised anymore...
What delighted you? My godson, this blog, a few movies, some gadgets...
What disappointed you? That Pretty never explained himself, the behavior of some people even though I expected it, that I did not get the tattoos that I wanted...
For 2008:
What do you hope to get? Published! Perhaps a job teaching dance, too. And a new sword form. New music from TBS and 30STM. To see a Leathermouth concert.
What do you hope to be rid of? A co-worker.
What do you plan to change? How I manage my time, but that's not likely. ^_^
What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can? The frigging world, starting with this mess of a country.
What do you hope to keep for as long as possible? Family and friends go without saying but I'm saying it anyway. I hope to keep my friends and acquaintances here for as long as possible. Mayo and SS, you guys must know that includes you both.
Elena I'm alright how are you and DG?
They are supposedly a football team, American football, that is. I'm not really a fan but my husband is watching.
Carrie, you know? ILU.
Anonymous
hnms=j nefer r sedjem djed=k
Unless you can transliterate heiroglyphs you won't be able to read this.
Your arabic sounds good to me.
Thank you everyone for you kind words. Please don;t think that I am ignoring you.
(For people who are interested it reads: My friend! Good to hear your words)
Hello Kapu
Mayonaise, I have been reluctant in recent weeks to comment here or to address any of your postings. But this one got to me.
To be sure, I've had my frustrations with you. But I can't stand to see someone in pain, especially pain caused by another person you had trusted. I don't know the context or extent of the betrayal, but it clearly hurts you, and for that I am sympathetic and sorry.
I still don't know if you're the person I think you are. If you are, and you know me, then know this: I care about you.
...
Temple @ 12:52, I share many of your feelings. Please don't think you're alone -- you are definitely not alone. I don't comment here anymore because I seldomly feel I have anything to offer that would be meaningful to anyone else. I still observe on a regular basis, but when I try to write comments, my fingers hover motionless over the keyboard as I realize there's nothing I can add. My words are irrelevant.
I am also frustrated by repeated conversations about the same old topics, already beaten into the ground more than once, and the growing frequency of arguments - arguments between regulars and anons, arguments between anons and anons, arguments between regulars and regulars. It gets so tiresome.
Anyway, it's not my intention to complain about the order of business here, as I do believe you all should do and say whatever pleases you. I believe in free and uninhibited speech and expression. But Temple, I wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I don't blame you for your feelings, because I share them too. I'm glad you expressed them here today. For what it's worth, your opinion means something to me, even if I do not always respond to your comments. I imagine there are those of you who feel the same about my own writing, and for that I am grateful.
[Andrea steps back into the shadow and resumes quietly observing]
Miss t are you here to stay for a while?
Hi MJ and DG!
So does anyone have plans for NYE? I'll be HERE.* ^_^
But tonight I'm going to the Kung Fu holiday party. It's cool, I get to see my long-time crush, he teaches at the other school and we only see each other like two times a year. He's going out with some whore but hey, what can you do.
*Why? I'll be waiting. For what? I'll be waiting here... for you, so... if you come here, you'll find me. I promise.
(FF8 fangirl cannot say "I'll be here" without finishing the entire quote, even in real life.)
I'm alright, just enjoying being a complete lazy old mare!
Actually I always am but I feel I can do it legitimately at festive times. Haha!
Hi Andrea, and hi MissT. Hope you're reading the very fine things people have been telling you, MissT, and taking them to heart. ^_^
Hello K. How's that lovely god(dess) son of yours?
See, K, my self esteem is better already. :) I fear for your co-worker though...naw, I'll help bury the body.
Andrea,
I am temple. Thank you so much for letting me know that I am not alone. Everything you wrote there echos my feelings.
Thank you Thank you Thank you.
Good to see you Missy!
Love you Miss T. ^_^
Nice to see you Miss T! I hope you stay!
Hi guys! =]
Is Miss Tottenham back? I read what you said earlier. I cried when I read what you said. I'm very very sorry about everything that is going on right now. I had no idea. *HUG*
I really can't find any words to say what I want to say.
Hello Andrea. No plans for NYE.
On the subject of the same stuff being talked about over ans over again. That topic is what brought us here. I understand that some may not like it but in a way what else do we have to talk about.
When the conversation stops people have put out ideas and they are not always responded to. I just felt that this needed to be said.
Hello PH
Where the hell is everyone?
Hey Martha!
How are you today?
Me? I am good. I'm just hungry as a hippo and about to get food from my kitchen.
Martha, probably on AIM or DM?
I'm well I'm going to have a sundae
MissT:
Next time you see Temple will you tell her I too agree.Particluarly the feeling like you have nothing of value to say, the arguing etc..
I always feel uncomfortable with the marriage and personal life conversations, and I know that's partly what drew us here but *shrugs shoulders*
I just wanted to let people know what is going on in my life.
With all that, it's not always easy to join in when people are having a laugh or talking about famous people's relationships.
Sometimes I enjoy joining in the convos and other times I couldn't give a toss who is shagging who. Sometimes it is hard to dredge up the will to care.
Nothing any of you have said to me has ever offended me, I want you all to know that. I have had nothing but love from everyone and I want to thank you all.
It's just that sometimes when I feel this way and someone says "you are quiet" I want to say about my troubles and my life and why I feel like shit. But then I see people having fun and I don;t wanna offload on them or spoil the mood. So I stay quiet and then I feel less like joining in cos the convo is passing me by. Then I give up altogether.
It's a shall I shan't I question. Tell them and spoil the mood or not tell them and get sadder and sadder quietly.
What do I do?
Here are your questions for 2007:
What did you get that made you happy?
A chance to see MCR,
a friend who really understood me
What did you get that you did not want?
an ability to fuck things up
What did you lose that you wanted to keep?
The friend that understood me, i lost him and now its clear he wants to sever all ties :(
What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of?
My paranoia
What surprised you in a good way?
Finding someone who really got me, who i really connected with
What surprised you in a bad way?
How quickly i lost him
What delighted you?
Seeing Mcr, Damien Rice, Nine Inch Nails and TheSTART. Meeting Aimee Echo :) Finding Mayo
What disappointed you?
Myself
For 2008:
What do you hope to get?
My friend back, i wont hold my breath though, i might die.
What do you hope to be rid of?
Weight i dont like
What do you plan to change?
Myself, I plan to be more assertive, happy, and creative
What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?
The past and something that is happening to me
What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?
The friends i have made that mean the world to me and my sanity.
hi guys!
how are we all?
Tell us sweetie, we're your friends!
you tell us the truth! If we ask, we want to know, you don't have to fake a smile if that's not how you feel.
Miss T you're back :) Hope you are holding up ok. If you ever need a chat you know where to find me love :)
Tell us when you are sad. that way if you don't like the subject of discuss we will have to change it.
What I said wasn't meant to hurt anyone just to let them know there isn't much else to talk about sometimes. When the conversations in here get slow that topic always comes back up.
Miss T, when you have time, check my blog. Since I couldn't comment on yours, I left you a message on mine.
Miss Tottenham, I understand what you are saying. I know how you feel when you think you don't have anything of value to say, when you feel left out, or like you don't want to 'ruin' the fun, or like you don't want to dump what's wrong in your life on everyone.
I haven't told any of you half of the stuff that was bugging me in life. The timing never seems right. Like Andrea said, you aren't alone my dear. It may feel like you are sometimes, but you never are. I also agree with what DG said, about being a little uncomfortable and like I'm prying when we get too personal and such.
Hey FASC! ^_^
Hello Fasc and Sim.
Paperheart *HUG**HUG**HUG*
Hey Dei Gratia! *HUG*
Hello MissT
Glad to see you!!!
On that subject that makes some of you uncomfortable why not take the opposite side and debate why you feel we shouldn't talk about it. Or try introducing a new subject.
As much as I love to talk about that subject i see it as a fall back for when there is nothing else to chat about.
Mayonaise this is for you...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQbCOh43CX8
Well its good to know that youll be okay
Ive been waiting for this
And Ill be there to sit while you pray
No ones blaming me
Im not supposed to wait
When they open up your heart
Oh i, I have been good
I understood
Like a machine Ill fix you from the start
Im in repair
Life that we share
I know that Ill be lost and
But were always in repair.
Lock the door, Lock the door
And its good to know that youll drive away
From this car crash nightmare
And I'll be there to help you again
Theres no danger
We're just killing time again
While they order up new parts
Take this time to figure it out
The wise, the views the things that you doubt
The air, the earth the metal the mouth
The something, something, something
http://zombieelle.livejournal.com/3168.html
"Boogity Boogity Boogity Boogity! I want to hear all the ladies fuck themselves (Elle says to Kate: "oh dear god hear we go." Because we all know what stuff happens during prison intros)
Because I'll have you know I fuck myself on a daily basis. It goes like this.
You're gonna touch yourself make it sound convincible
Ladies…you're gonna spend most of the rest of your lives doing this.
This is what it sounds like.
uh uh uh uh uh. let me here you go"
*crowd erupts into noises*"
That's right. The ladies. JUST the ladies.
miss T i left a comment at DM for you.
if ever you want to expresss anything go for it, surely that is why we all stay here!! that and our love for SS and our mood fluctuating (but still sweetie deep down) host!! we have discussed mr way, mcr, bert, all our music obsessions,breast size, weight issues, ghost stories, movies, blow job techniques, porn,god knows what else a zillion times and i still can talk about them endlesssly but you are a person who is actually here, even if in a blog, so you immediately rise to the top of the list if necessary......thats unless gway has done something fucking crazy and then you'll understand if you have to take 2nd place while will flame the poor bastard!!!
anyway hang in there babe!!!
as SS would say 'its all about the love!'
Hey everyone. Miss T, where have you been? I missed you
MJ, I don't totally mind it, but then afterwards, I feel kind of bad because I felt like I was prying into personal lives. It's not all bad.
Anonymouse, what was the point of that? We've all seen and heard about this.
Martha, I get what you're saying but it's hard to jump into conversations. This is when you can inadvertantly get overlooked and feel like you're not important or that you have nothing of value to say.
The only times I've felt ignored have been when a discussion has been going on, but I do understand how you can be unintentionally missed in these instances.
Dg I don't have the words to explain what I want to say.
But believe me I know the feeling of having your comments overlooked or ignored. Hell I had a comment about being ignored ignored.
I'm just trying to put out some ideas so that this place doesn't become like buzznet. I don't want it to become I don't like that topic so you have to stop discussing it.
I am off for a bit.
Martha, I read your comment about being ignored. So it technically wasn't ignored, I didn't respond because I didn't know what to say. (If that helps at all)
Everyone, have a good day!
- 007
<3
Actually it wasn't those comments. It was one I did to try to get peoples attention. But thank you PH
Martha:
I know what you're saying, darlin'....it's cool!
I just find it easier to retreat from things I'm uncomfortable with, thats all.
That's just me though!
I don't think we'll become like those other places.....can't grasp the excessive use of the 'z' key if nothing else!
i think we all get ignored at times but i think of it as our comment was read and digested but not always replied to. i try not to let that bother me cos i read and digest other peoples comments but don't always acknowledge and that doesn't mean i don't care about that persons thoughts.
does that make sense??
Dg I do same the same thing. That's one reason why I'm so quiet.
Huh, okay. "JUST the ladies." "This is what you're gonna be doing all your lives."
Right, this is exactly why this band never gets another goddamn penny from me nor another iota of support. I'm through with them. I want nothing to do with their message, it's disgusting.
Well, whatever, I'm off to the party right now. Later.
Makes total sense FASC. I think that happens a fair bit.
Sometimes you don't know what to say or it might not seem appropriate when things have moved on quickly.
Later Kapu
Fasc I understand what you are saying. It's just sometimes you think you have something important to add and it gets overlooked. Or it justs keeps happening over and over again. And you can't help but feel that no-one cares or that you aren't important.
yep DG.
K have fun, yes i know why does he think we will be doing that for the rest of our lives???????
Maybe to piss people off. OR to see how far he can go.
MJ i'm probably not here as much as alot of you so may be you notice it more.
i don't know what to say other than don't take it to heart. i like reading your comments. as i've said before i totally picture you in my head as martha jones from dr who!!
if i ever ignore you it would never be intentional it would normally be cos i'm having a rant about something!!
did you get the dr who christmas special in the usa yet?? it was on christmas day here and we sat glued shushing the little ones!! it was the one with kylie in it. very good. i am in love with david tennant as dr who i think!!!
I'm sure it's not the case though, Martha.
Really, I think it's just human nature. Everyone just wants to be heard and acknowledged and sometimes the pursuit of it can lead you to missing others.
How many times have you been out and about and seen someone you know and they just walk right past.....not 'cos they are deliberatly ignoring you but because they are caught up in their own shit, you know. I've done it I'm sure!
Human beings are inherently self-absorbed at times, unintentionally for the most part.
Yes, but he didn't used to act like that, that's what guts me. He used to pretend he respected women. Now he just hates us and it makes me sick, I don't understand it. I mean, it just wrecks it for me. Wrecks the band, the music, this blog, everything.
Well, I'm out.
No we didn't FASC I think we have to wait till the season ends in the Uk and than we get it.
Hello people!
Hello Miss T.!
It's good to see you back! You are so important here and your post was overwhelming since I feel about many things you were referring to the exact same way!
It was only yesterday when I remembered commenting here for the first time as an anon and being very curious about this place and the people gathering here to talk to each other. I asked many questions, just like other anons did and still do. Many people ignored me then and refused to answer me, but I also remember you and Sdock10 being so incredibly kind to me right from the beginning. You talked to me and answered my questions. You didn't ignore me! Because of you I wanted to come back and become a part of this.
I want to thank you for that. You're wonderful!
K i just got a new (unofficial) book for christmas about MCR, can't even think of the name now and can't be arsed to go upstairs to get it. but anyway i read some of the really early quotes about what they were about and why they are in it and i just thought oh my god this is pretty unrecogniseable in lots of ways now!! i know we see old gway quotes and they are fucking great quotes, clever switched on guy!! but to see them en masse in the book in black and white brings home the realisation that intentionally or not everything has changed!! even if he's not aware and it was him growing or wtf ever it is poles apart now!! i wonder if he really actually realises?? i mean really??
Then why do you stay?
Hello Siobhan
Hey guys. Wow. Lots of random crap went down last night, huh?
Bert's hair said...
*wants washing*
December 30, 2007 2:02 AM
Whoever wrote that is made of win. Honestly had me laughing for hours.
Miss T, holy crap! I've missed you and it's only been two days. I'm so glad to see you're here. I'll email you soon, promise. Much love.
Hello Martha! How are you doing?
Hello CTV
martha our new dr who series doesn't start for a while so you might get the christmas special before that?
Hello Martha, Siobhan, FASC, and everyone else.
You guys. It's Bob's birthday tomorrow. Hell yessssssss. Where's the Bob love, you guys? The blonde needs some appreciation too.
I'm well Siobhan
How are you Siobhan and CTV
Hi Siobhan, CTV
Well BBC American Hasn't even shown the episodes With me yet. So I have to wait for the Scifi channel. I think they start showing DR who in June. I know that is when I saw last years Christmas episode.
Ladies I want to add something here!
Please, don't be ticked off when I say this, but what really bothers me is when you are addressing Mayonaise and/or Shitsubou Shita you are almost always using the word 'we'!
We all miss you! We love you!
Well, I don't!!! I don't want to stir up shit and I know you don't have bad intentions, but I would appreciate it, if everyone would speak for themselves!
I don't know these people and I also don't trust them. I don't know what they're up to and I think people who act like this play a game (and not a funny one) or have something to hide.
I just wanted to get this off my chest!
Hey DG.
Martha, I'm fine thanks.
hiya CTV! yes bobs bd! is he 28yrs?? blesss him! what a cool day to have a bd!
Hello CTV!
Hello Fasc!
Hello DG!
How are y'all?
I'm doing well! Thanks for asking, Martha!
hello again everyone
Hey Siobhan it's no problem. Maybe we should just have a get shit of your chest day.
Siobhan, I mean this in the nicest way possible and I'm just curious but if you don't like them, well why do you come here?
I'm not trying to be funny or rude, please don't think I am.I'm just wondering.
Hi BC! How are you, doll?
Long time, no read!
Hi BC!
did people see this?
http://www.lilchris.co.uk
/forum/showflat.php
?Number=101503
But I don't know if it's true or not I couldn't actually see it at MTV2
No problem, DG! I said that before here!
I'm here for you; the Blogbelieve family.
First, I was intrigued as well. I thought that it could be fun to experience a little bit of mystery, but it soon became really annoying for me!
I'm interested in the people who come here.
I dare to visit this house until Mayonaise kicks me out.
Perfectly understandable, Siobhan.
Hello BC and EP
Hello hello Siobhan-san, DG. I missed you guys. How are you? I'm doing okay.
that guy acts like it's a joke.
on a similar vein can anyone access their official site?
I wanted to look at the merch and I haven't been able to get it for a couple of days
Hi there MJ, Ergo.
Siobhan-san, last night I got engaged. You missed out on all the fun ^_^
Ergo, the site still isn't working. Check back in a couple of days.
Ok,Siobhan. Thanks for answering!
There's a few things in that that don't add up.
The date and the LOTMS reference. ????
Hi MJ BC DG PH Siobhan Kap SIM FASC aan danyone else!
Siobhan I can understand what you mean.
oh and It's Bob's birthday today !
Yay Bob
EP could you re post the link but not broken up I can't get it to work.
Hey Ergo!
There you go, Martha
yeah I saw that about the LOTMS there are a lot of sites quoting it, but like I said I tried MTV2 and it's not in the news but I don't know how to get to any archive.
Probably another teeny scaring rumour someone made up to cause drama
Bob's birthday is tomorrow right? Fuck yeah! There's this funny picture of Bob that I found on Buzznet, but I have to go look for it.
Here are your questions for 2007:
What did you get that made you happy?
a new wonderful friend that sprung from no where really but really gets me and matters.
this blog!! (is that fucking sad?) yep probably!!
What did you get that you did not want?
a jealous husband!
What did you lose that you wanted to keep?
precious days always! time flies so quickly.
What did you let go willingly and are glad to be rid of?
god nothing sadly. there alot of things i could get rid of but not yet i suppose?
What surprised you in a good way?
that i still have a creative mind! i forgot that existed for a while.
What surprised you in a bad way?
i'm not supported in my ventures as i assumed i would be.
What delighted you?
my beautiful children......always.
What disappointed you?
sadly mr bloke not recognising my need to be needed.
For 2008:
What do you hope to get?
god knows!! if i win a minimal amount on the lottery that would be fab just to sort the shit out and a holiday for my children.
What do you hope to be rid of?
my paranoia (never) and my obsessive compulsion!! (i'm not that bad really!) i'll keep the bloke he is lovely on alot of levels!
What do you plan to change?
my outlook on stuff. i am either over exuberant or under exuberant, some middle ground is probably more healthy!
What do you wish you could change, but don't think you can?
my husband!! oh man this is depressing! i actually love him to bits he just doesn't get me and in his own words "doesn't like me so much!!!" in fairness he's always been the same. he thinks i've changed but infact i feel my true self has emerged.
What do you hope to keep for as long as possible?
my very precious and beautifully innocent children/my sanity/mental abilities!!
oh yeh and you guys who have been very special to me!
finally got round to answering!!
not necessarily inspiring but actually makes me feel better for doing.
There was a thread about that on the MCr forum on Bn. But a certain person didn't like it and told the person who started it to close it.
But from what they were saying it was a joke from about a year ago.
Thank you Siobhan
BC, I'm fine as well! You got engaged! Wow, congratulations!!!!
Am I invited to the wedding?
Hello Ergo! How are you?
I think somebody made that up! But I have to add it wouldn't surprise me! With Frank having his 'sideproject' now it could only be a matter of time when they split.
Good evening Mayo.
Good evening Everyone.
I have re-read your post Mayo and do you know what, this could have been written by anybody here.
Every single person on this blog could have written this.
Every single one.
Because we've all been there.
So there you go Anon's, if you want to know why we all come here, this is why.
You're welcome :-)
Hello GS
*is watching 'Brotherhood of the Wolf' right now*
Evening Gnothi.
Yeah, I have been there!
FASC: I have read it but I just don't know what to say....*hug*
Hi GS! Good to read you again! Whazzup?
ok I'm off to the gym and to get a load of chip bark for the garden.
I should be back around in a few hours.
I want to try and get off early, it looks to be a hot day today!
Have a nice evening and I'll catch up a bit later
Hello Martha, DG, FASC, Siobhan and anyone else I've missed.
*Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! watches girl with little lamb getting slaughtered by the monstrous creature*
Bye Ergo, Have a good day!
I posted it as it seems to have made a reappearance, I think because the site is down.
But yeah as they mention LOTMS it makes it a little less believable (sarcastic)
It's around as a myspace bulletin today.
so thought I'd give you all a heads up.
Plus MTV2 is always very reliable lol
see you!
Hiya Siobhan.
Whazzup?
Nufink much! I am in a ' tawkin' dead common ' mood tonight :)
ergo you are always in the fucking garden!!
and i know you live in oz but fuck most or us cannot imagine hot!!
thanks DG.
hello GS!!
or is it NZ ergo?? sorry i would hate to annoy!!
With regards to the split, I can't find any news anywhere yet.
Siobhan-san, yes, I got engaged. Of course you are invited to the wedding. I'd be stupid not to invite you! Thank you!
Good evening GS. How are you?
Take care Ergo!
Bye Ergo!
New topic! Isn't it a shame what happened to Mickey Rourke's face? Was so god damn handsome, man! The Michael Jackson effect I would say.
Not too bad thankyou BC, you?
Hello everyone.
Just back from the grocery store. You know it's bad enough you gotta buy the stuff but then you have to carry it in and put it all away.
Yay, I'm invited!!!
*greedy Siobhan drools by thinking about the yummy wedding cake*
regarding the link saying that mcr split did any one bother to scroll down to the bottom? thought not it says
I got this from Daryl on Myspace who adds:
Only kidding. Respost this if you think it will give an emo kid a heart attack. Hahahah.
*note from Daryl: I nearly had a heart ttack does that mean Jordan's right and I'm getting more and more emo!?!?!*
Look, if you can't take a joke, take a hike!
The forum has been quiet lately and is overdue for a little wake-up!
Hello Elena!
What a cool light saber, haha!!!
May the force be with you!!!!!!!!!!
congrats BC thats fab!!
mickey rourke...... i know it went bad!!
i'm off guys. love to all and catch you tomorrow!
wow new years eve!! i do love a party!
all of that was at the bottom
i didnt say this forum needed waking up just to be clear haha
Hello Mayo, SS, Martha, Siobhan, Ergo, DG, GS, BC, FASC.... any one I missed. YAH, MissT came back!!
Good to read you MissT and welcome back!
How are you all? Any of you planning exciting New Year's Eve bashes?
I have good news today. I have a beautiful new doggie niece. She's a Siberian Husky, 10 weeks old. She's so sweet and lovable! And, just like Kiska, she loves to give big sloppy kisses.....all over your face - T'is PURE JOY!!!!!
Who wants to read their 2008 LIFE and LOVE horoscopes? Hmmm....sounds as though it's going to be a pretty good year for us VIRGOS *cough The Virgin cough*
I don't know, I much rather the usage of The Lover to describe Virgos ;-)
~~~~~~~
LOVE: Many changes await your love life, this year. You need to feel harmonious in relationships, and that the loyalty of the people around you is strong. You value kindness and trust between people above all things, and enjoy tender moments, flowers and sensuality. You are also changeable in your affections, and may want something different and exciting on the spur of the moment. You will learn how to transform your partnership energy by being aware of the internal changes and differences in your own attitudes.
Restlessness spurs you to seek out new and exciting ways to maintain your interest levels. You need to have someone in your life that enjoys keeping up with the lively activities that you pack into your busy social calendar. Your independent nature will feel satisfied, and you won't feel guilty for being away from home when your free spirit needs to wander. You will enjoy the deep instinctual connection and will be more willing to merge your sexuality and enjoy having an interpersonal relationship. In spring, you should definitely be rocking and rolling with this new love that brings charm to your world.
Family will become more important to you as the year progresses, and you definitely feel thankful and blessed in many areas of your life. You will enjoy being taken out to concerts and social events and being around others that will appreciate your cultural tastes. By the end of the year, your attractiveness and desire draws a unique and lasting connection with someone else (if it hasn't already). Communication between the two of you is easy, gentle and kind, and you are well matched.
OVERVIEW: The focus for Virgo, this year, is on developing creative endeavors to better serve mankind as a whole. Your socially independent nature will attract wonderful new people into your life and you will gain more chances to expand your circle of friends. Your self-discipline will help you accomplish great things in your life.
As you passionately create, and brilliantly express, the earthy practical ideas that are abundantly flowing through you, your focus shifts to communicating your talents more publicly. Take advantage of the opportunities that present themselves to you. You enjoy organizing and monitoring fundraising events that promote fresh ideas. Changes in your personal identity will prompt you to be more engaged in self-development and participate in new physical activities.
Your home environment will be influenced by all the changes you are experiencing, and reflect the happiness you flourish with beauty and creativity. The new you may be attracting an intimate relationship that provides the nourishment you need to keep your balance in the face of change. By the end of the year, you may feel more interested in settling down and enjoying luxury and comfort -- it's the perfect time for passionate weekend getaways.
~~~~~~~~~~~
So.......WHO would like to go on a PASSIONATE weekend getaway with me??? :))
Love & Hugs to ALL,
#6
Wendy
i forgot three important bands on the list of who i have seen,
Muse, Placebo and Counting Crows... if i didnt add them now i would go insane, sorry im really anal about things haha
Hi SIM!!! I missed you. Sorry 'bout that!
Hi SIM!
Hi Wendy!
Awww, I want a sloppy kiss, too!
I'm watching 'Brotherhood of the Wolf'. Do you know that film? Isn't it sad? The poor creature!
Hey Sioban. I'm such a nerd. I got the Darth Maul lightsaber for Christmas. I have other lightsabers but his one has lights and sounds. So cool it's double-bladed.
Hey 6 :) how are you? I missed you too!!! What a lovely thing to say.
I have a picture up of myself in my blog if anyone wants to see who i am, it wont be there for long though haha
Hey elena and siobhan :) Hugs and kisses to all :)
Hello hello Anon616, Shame in me. Anon, I missed you! Shame in me, my lovely daughter, how are you? *hugs* Anon616, would you mind doing my horoscope? You got a Siberian Husky? Lucky! I always wanted to get one. Faraway, thank you! I'm sorry I didn't get the chance to talk to you. Take care!
I am doing well GS, just trying to take it easy on my left leg. Thank you for asking. Siobhan, I will make a super delicious cake just for you :)
Hello Elena and SIM.
Siobhan - yeah, I saw that, I was trawling the sites though just in case. Saying that, if it's not on INO or BN then it's nowhere. Credit where it's due, they always get the gossip first!!
I really ask myself, if you would start a side project if you are totally content with the things happening in your 'main' band? Isn't this almost always the beginning of the end?
Just saying.
*pounces on Siobhan and gives big sloppy kiss(es)*!
Will be back to give big sloppy kisses to Elena and SIM after I check out SIM's picture......
I'm doing good, by the way. Thanks for asking!!!
Hi there Elena. How are you? That is one cool light saber you got there.
Hello SIM, BC and GS.
Hi Wendy, will need to see a picture of this new cutie, if you please.
Hello Six - new dog? I want it!
Siobhan - it doesn't always have to mean the begining of the end, I know what you mean though.
Thank you, BC!!!
Bye Fasc!
BC!! My beautiful Mum :) how are you *kisses* hehe
Hey elena cool light saber haha :)
Hi GS and DG :)
Im glad MCR arent splitting up i think i may have been slightly gutted if they were.
Hi to anyone i have missed
Hello SIM,
Nice piccie...you're a sweetie!
SIM - you're purdy.
By the way, do you always go to Download?
I have to do my laundry tomorrow. I don't wanna, but I really have to, if I don't want to enter the streets naked.
Your welcome Siobhan-san. Shame in me, you are simply beautiful. I left a comment on your blog. I am doing great right now *hugs and kisses back*
SIM you are lovely!
BC: What's your sign BABY? LOL
I shall be happy to post your 2008 hororscope!
DG and GS: Keep your paws off my doggie niece ;-)
Her name is Sierra and my sister, niece and nephew got her yesterday. They were missing Kiska so much......
I'll get my niece to send me a picture of her to show you all. If that niece of mine answers her e-mail today. Teenagers do sort of live in their own world! But, it's a nice little world, me thinks!
Purdy haha i dont know what that means but it made me laugh so thankyou :)
Yes i always go download although i didnt this year due to health problems so i missed MCR being bottled the poor babies :(
Do you go?
Thankyou for th comments everyone thats real sweet and cheered me up :)
Siobhan: I never saw "Brotherhood Of The Wolf" if you can believe that! Every time I go to blockbuster I forget about that one. I did hear it was a good movie -- and sad, like you said.
:(
If you get bored doing your laundry, you can do mine.....
Or, we can run through the streets naked together!!! ;-)
Guys, a message from bellatrix. She having trouble getting on here.
Take care and please,say hi to everybody at Mayo's.See you tomorrow!
*HUGS & KISSES*
Anon616, thank you! As for my sign, I am an Aries. I do enjoy reading horoscopes sometimes.
I gotta go have a bath but i will be back in an hour or so :) have fun everyone xxx
Hugs and kisses back to you, Bella. Take care
It means pretty.
Yes, I usually go on the Saturday only because I can't book time off work :(
I missed MCR,I was in a bottle fight though!!!!
Enjoy your bath shame in me. *Hugs*
Six - pictures would be cool:)
Hellos to Bellatrix via DG!
Let's see what the new year holds in store for BC......
Aries:
OVERVIEW: New opportunities arise this year, resulting in a positive turn for your career. You will learn to master your energy to meet your goals. You are good at taking leadership, and you'll make deep, transforming changes and tap into this abundant energy in new and dynamic ways. Even though you may feel pulled to accomplish great things, you will still be able to keep balance in your personal life and your energy alive and renewed.
Amidst this change, you will be able to remain mentally focused. You may become more methodical and practical than usual in managing your responsibilities. Stopping to think things through carefully will impact you and your surroundings in a very profound and positive way. Seize the opportunity to think things through during the first few months of the year. Even though you enjoy beginning new projects, make the time to relax a bit to complement your natural tendency toward activity, both physical and otherwise.
As you successfully achieve your career goals this year, it will be important to maintain a watchful eye over the security of your family life. You may find yourself doing some remodeling in your home and you will take pleasure in spending more time and energy enjoying the creature comforts you have created. You will cultivate good relationships through the end of the year, which will reflect positive changes in your life. Your will enjoy socializing more than usual. You will be networking and connecting with different types of people from all over the world and it will feel like a breath of fresh air. As your career takes off, it will be much easier than usual to express yourself with warmth and charm.
LOVE: You might be feeling the need to give more of yourself to have your own needs met in this relationship. You may find some existing associations may change in some way. Perhaps frustrations that have been building over time will come to a head, or the relationship may transform itself utterly by ending.
You will feel comfortable and will like the idea of being with this person in a long-term commitment and get more of your personal needs met in your home arena. Many of your prayers will be answered. You like being in love and the idea of nesting, having children and a family, and may want to settle down in a new way that you never felt possible before.
As you see more of a serious benefit of having a love partnership, you put a lot of energy wondering if this is the right person and will eventually feel a deep peace of mind about being connected more deeply and more personally than ever. Expressing your needs will be very easy and you will feel you have a good balance in your relationship. Financially, this is a good time to tie the knot and you will feel secure in moving forward.
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Don't forget to invite me to the wedding BC! ;-)
Hugs and kisses back, Bellatrix!
Wendy, yeah, let's be naked! Let's run through the streets and scare old men, hehe!
You see BC, you made the right choice accepting your proposal!
Can you do Cancer please Six.
Have a good bath SIM! I'll see you later :)
GS: Do you know how to do the link thingie? I like to prepare ahead ;-)
Well, I suppose I could do it the old fashioned way and just have you copy and paste. I would probably get the link code srewed up anyway!
And, for GS, the crystal ball predicts a year of:
(Oh, coziness!)
OVERVIEW: Cozy Cancer will have a great year focusing on the home front. So much of your energy will be giving more to your personal relationships and partnerships. Security and home is such an important part of your makeup and will take center stage in your priorities. Being emotionally sensitive to good relationships that are nourishing and loving will help add harmony in all aspects of your life. The changes you experience in your life will be deeply felt and lasting.
Positive things come from the deep level of attention you give to these transformational opportunities. You will reap great rewards as you learn to expand your communication skills and be true to your inner self and your own personal needs. You are learning new ways of maintaining harmony in your individuality at work and around friends and family. It is important for you to maintain a positive self-image the way you define who you are and how you feel about life as you bring your energy out into the world.
You desire recognition and the more you focus on keeping up a good attitude about your career and life in general, people that you thought overlooked your good efforts will be your greatest and most supportive allies. New opportunities to venture out on your own in business will open up for you, yet if you decide to stay where you are, you will be reaping financial rewards as well. Keep your optimism strong no matter if you decide to move on or stay where you are. Between juggling your own needs and maintaining balance in your relationships, summer will be a wonderful time to get away and take time out for yourself to enjoy relaxing by the sea, swimming and enjoying life.
LOVE: By putting so much energy into your individual growth, it won't be surprising if you attract a wonderful new love into your life that reflects all your inner work. Take advantage of the opportunities for adventure that await you as you establish a harmonious relationship this year. You and your true love can nestle away in bliss and have the open communication that is the basis for a solid foundation in your future. Creating balance despite a demanding lifestyle will help you to attract the person you desire.
Having a romantic love in your life will open up your whole existence to feeling wonderful in all areas of your life. You magnify the good feelings you already have, and your partner can match your moods in an uplifting way. The more time you invest in creating happiness within your own heart and mind, the more your whole existence will feel wonderful. You have long awaited a commitment and your passion is hard to hide. Relationship security is very important, so going with the flow and appreciating what you have are will help you gain that which you want.
Stimulating moments can bring struggle and blessings at the same time. Spend time to reflect and meditate if insecurity or feelings of uneasiness strike. Consider practical solutions to move this relationship to the next level. What you do to draw on your inner strength will affect how you manifest expression in all areas of your life. The end of the year will be more fluid, bringing the rewards you are looking for.
~~~~~
I would appreciate an invite to relax by the sea with you GS!
;-)
It's
(a href="paste URL here")write here whatever you want. It will appear in blue letters as the actual clickable link.(/a)
Instead of ( and ) you have to use < and >.
GS: Do you know how to do the link thingie? I like to prepare ahead ;-)
Hahaha, I can just about use the keyboard!!
Old fashioned copy and paste would be great thanks :)
Siobhan said...
Hugs and kisses back, Bellatrix!
Wendy, yeah, let's be naked! Let's run through the streets and scare old men, hehe!
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Sounds like FUN to me, Siobhan! Can we howl too? Or, at least MEOW at the top of lungs??? I find the audio effects add to the scares ;-)
Yeah, let's do that! Let's meow and howl and barf little hairballs once in a while, haha!
Financially, this is a good time to tie the knot and you will feel secure in moving forward.
Now this is what I call a twist of fate. GS, you are absolutely right. I have made a good decision accepting the proposal. Anon616, thank you for posting my horoscope. I thoroughly enjoyed it. There will be a big cake for everyone ^_^
You forgot the < and > didn't you?
Thankyou Six!
Well, that could answer a few questions for me.
And , yes, anytime you want Six!
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