The catalyst of confusion
started a fire
while shopping for
a soul on a high wire.
Until now I was unaware that the remuneration for impropriety exceeded that set for dignity. How much did you get for yours? As for my dignity…I will hold onto it, thank you. I would rather starve than feed my soul from a base wage.
With my voice in repose, I hid behind my own forbearing shadow, and allowed silence to foster absolution. Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary.
I am not so completely unaware. Because I am certain that is common knowledge, your recent presentment was, quite frankly, out of line. Your bravado flames me.
As it happened, I had simply misplaced the why, where, and how. I can identify the sickness in that statement, and I concede fault in my volition. I understand that I can be fucking difficult. My own scathing behavior must remain in constant check.
I am not able to take back that fleeting moment or the injustice it served you. I have arrived at the place from where I must move on. I wish you the same in your departure.
p.s. a fucking doormat.
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hello J, bye J have a nice night
ok so who is this anon. is it a gam?
Yes, I am rude to people who are rude to me. And no: you actually did not answer my question, which was how the hell is telling someone they're an idiot oppressing their freedom of speech?
If you found that Jesus talk offensive last week, you could have said something. But no one did. I saw a lot of people getting into it.
I love these people who assume that because one person pisses me off with their junk about diamonds and fur, that I must be angry all the time. That's a pathetic and grasping way to view it. "Oh, she got pissed off. It must be who she is."
Hey, you go on telling yourself that.
Oh, and please, by all means feel free to keep bringing it back up. 'Cause like I said, I have no problem going there.
What's up, MJ :) How've you been?
Suicide is painless? Manic street preachers quote there? I think so
I just think of the M.A.S.H theme tune. Showing my age obviously!
It must be difficult to live with the amount of anger, frustration, and hurt that you carry with you every day. We all have some of that inside us, but we don't lash out at others who dare to speak their minds when they don't agree with us.
Mayo, my brother, I sincerely feel for you. Whatever happened yesterday obviously hurt and angered you. Go ahead and scream it out, man, that's cool.
Hey guys!
OP's,
There was actually a reason for the Jesus conversation last week that Kapunua started, it's not really something I can discuss here though. I just needed to make that clear :)
Are you saying you know of some reason I started it, that you can't discuss here? Please, share. Or are you saying there was a reason you were involved in it, but you can't say?
I started that conversation because it's a true thing about me.
Suicide is painless? Manic street preachers quote there? I think so
I just think of the M.A.S.H theme tune. Showing my age obviously!
I thought the same thing, GS. Or that maybe it was the prologue to a series of instructions.
Anima I know what you mean about just walking away. But I think if this person were all bad Mayo would have walked away already.
Something or someone has come between them. But more important I don't think they have really talked to each other. Even if it gets into a fight at least it will all be out in the open and not stored up.
Your one smart cookie Kapunua!
I read that anon trying to be jamia but i hadnt realised they had been back since.
Im here at such random times and sometimes with days and days in between that its hard for me to take everything in and not skim other anon comments. It saddens me that a regular feels the need to be an anon on any occasion. I always believe that if you wanna say something just say it, whats the worst that could happen? least you had proverbial balls.
Theres always room for error though, i have learnt that lesson recently, no matter how much evidence/proof you think you may have and no matter what adds up sometimes you are just wrong. I wish i had left my inquisitive mind at the door in the situation i royally fucked up a few weeks ago. I wouldnt have lost a friend if i had just pushed everything i thought i knew aside. Just be careful kapunua, especially if it is someone you classed as a friend.
Anon, are you sweet and spicy?
I hope so. But I doubt it.
Hi PH :)
Hello PH
There was a 'Jamia' anon? Wow, I did miss a lot.
Martha, I totally hear you.
Hey RW and MJ! Did I come in at a bad time? The atmosphere seems tensed up..
RW I'm well and yourself.
Ph it's not a bad time just a bad mood.
ahhhh i think manics did a cover of the M*A*S*H song actually so you are right we all win haha
PH: Yep, you sure did ;) Not that that should keep you out of you want to be here. It appears to be tense most of the time these days.
MJ: I'm well, thank you :) Enjoying the weekend & getting absolutely nothing done.
Ahh I see..
How is everyone going?
*PH trying to send good vibes to everyone*
There was, Anima, and it was ridiculous. It was the beginning of the "vulture" era and we were warned to not believe these people. Yet they keep coming back and people keep on eating it with a knife and fork.
SIM, that's what I'm saying. And it was someone I'd sorta liked as well. I've pretty much got all the proof I need about it, but I'm willing to just let it go if they other party will quit with that crap.
Paperheart!!! How are you? Havent spoke to you in ages :)
007 wife recieves good vibes and plants a big smaccker right on her lips.
yo wifey how you doing paperstar
Anima, I am neither.
Check the time and goodnight.
Just kidding!
OP's,
There was actually a reason for the Jesus conversation last week that Kapunua started, it's not really something I can discuss here though. I just needed to make that clear :)
Are you saying you know of some reason I started it, that you can't discuss here? Please, share. Or are you saying there was a reason you were involved in it, but you can't say?
I started that conversation because it's a true thing about me.
As you wish.
You stated ' elsewhere' that you had started the Jesus conversation as a diversionary tactic to annoy the anons and encouraged people to join in the ruse.
I did.
I found it quite interesting actually.
I forgot I said that. It was part of it, but mostly it was just something that was on my mind, and that is always on my mind around Christmas.
Thats fair enough kapunua, do whatever you think you have to do but just be careful.
Wheres BC? anyone know?
Nice one Anon. ;)
I am anonymous you cracked me up then hahahaha. I wish mayo still said check the time and goodnight i miss that :/
Bert: There's two people in this world. A guy named Everybody and a guy named Nobody. Everybody is the worst person in the world. Everybody likes the shittiest music, everybody's into the shittiest, most vain sense of fashion, and culture. Nobody's a pretty cool guy. He's a loser.
You guys, I'm telling you. This interview is putting like, the hugest smile on my face. I admire this guy so much.
If you wanna get away from everything for a few minutes and hear real, honest words coming outta this guy's mouth, go here.
http://community.livejournal.com/
theused/1240399.html?thread=
13164111#t13164111
SIM, it's been ages!! *HUG*
*looks over at wifey*
Rawr. =]
*HUG & BIG KISS*
I am anonymous; are you m? SS? Mayo? Sdock? MissT? BC? Anyone of importance? ( KIDDING )
Heyyy, does anyone remember the kyeotr blog? I was just thinking about that blog a few days ago..
Well, I did say I was not going to be back on tonight, but I changed my mind. Just for a moment though.
Kapunua said...
Oh, and please, by all means feel free to keep bringing it back up. 'Cause like I said, I have no problem going there.
No, thank you, I've had enough actually. There is nothing to be gained or lost in this manner of "discussion". I really did like you at one point, Kapunua. I'm sorry it ends this way.
I did want to make one thing clear, since you keep bringing up a "Jamia" anon. I sincerly HOPE you are not insinuating it is me or J. Since you are reluctant to revel who you believe it is, it would be wise to follow Shame In Me's advice. You never know who you may be accusing...
Goodnight all, I will talk to you tomorrow.
L.
I miss that too SIM.
CTV: Bert quotes? I've been a fan of The Used for longer than MCR. Bert really is an amazing dude.
OK, I can't resist...
Bubbles,
RAWR!
And Hugs.
I love you, sweetie. No matter how upset I am you always put a smile on my face!
Love,
L.
Hello and Goodbye OPL! Send my love to J! *HUGS* for you both!
I am a person of no importance. Goodnight ladies.
CTV: Bert quotes? I've been a fan of The Used for longer than MCR. Bert really is an amazing dude.
I know, right? I admire his honesty so much. Everything this guy does just amazes me. He's just made my day.
8:56, I get it and I appreciate the gesture. But take a name.
That was all I was trying to say Kapunua, I was trying to stick up for you.
Anyway, fresh start tomorrow, yes?
Good night everyone, be good.
Good night Mayo.
Hi PH! *hugs*
OPs and Kapunua, I really want to respond, but honestly I do not know what to say that would help. I hope this can be resolved.
Anon, goodnight to you.
I hope so, GS.
Goodnight and take care.
'Night, GS :)
I'm heading off also. Goodnight everyone!
I am a person of no importance. Goodnight ladies.
Awwwh, you don't have to leave. I was kidding. =] I come in peace, and I bring hugs and cookies?
I know, right? I admire his honesty so much. Everything this guy does just amazes me. He's just made my day.
I love Bert's personality! My all time favorite song is I Caught Fire. <3
Goodnight RW. Thanks for the visit. Come again soon.
Sweet Dreams Gnothi. Remember, I am always watching you.. ;)
*HUG*
Sweet Dreams RW! *HUG*
Don't worry about it, Anima. ^_^ It's no big deal.
CTV, you must imagine that I admire the hell out of Bert for his honesty and bluntness, too. The guy is very pure. He puts it right out there.
I do not admire the lack of hygiene however. ;) But hey, all I have to do is listen, I don't have to lick him or anything. Also, the dude can sing like WHOA. I think his voice is the bomb.
I do not admire the lack of hygiene however. ;) But hey, all I have to do is listen, I don't have to lick him or anything. Also, the dude can sing like WHOA. I think his voice is the bomb.
It wouldn't hurt for him to wash his hair a little more, it just looks greasy! I agree that he has an amazing voice! Him and G-Way put together = RAWR.
Oh, my favorite song by The Used is Buried Myself Alive. Then probably Hospital for some reason.
^^ I really like Earthquake and Find A Way as well.
Be right back. Getting food and calling a friend.
Goodnight GS and rw.
I like Hospital because for some reason, you just feel like you're in the car with them, and I've never been in that kind of situation before. he's just very good at dragging you into a scene
Goodnight RW. Happy dreams.
From SDOCK10
Mayo,
Dude, I will talk to you tonight. I will. Just give me a little bit to put it together and hopefully someone will post it for me.
Just be patient....
Hospital? Three cheers you fooled them all.
CTV, you must imagine that I admire the hell out of Bert for his honesty and bluntness, too. The guy is very pure. He puts it right out there.
I do not admire the lack of hygiene however. ;) But hey, all I have to do is listen, I don't have to lick him or anything. Also, the dude can sing like WHOA. I think his voice is the bomb.
Darling, you know I love the lack of hygiene. Hobosexual, after all.
Honestly, I can't even put into words how much I respect the guy. He can be such a goof at times, but he knows when to be serious. He speaks from the heart.
Favourite song? Waaaaaay too many to choose from.
Hey Carrie. :D My goodness, eh?
Yeah, Hospital is brutal. I like Paralyzed as well, and I loved when he got all those kids on the stage with him and danced with that little chick. OMG, FTW.
Woo i just won tickets on ebay to see 30 seconds to mars :D Yay!! I frickin love that band!! This year has been some of the most awesome for gigs i have been too and i am starting the new year with 30stm!!! Cant get better than that :)
HOBOSEXUAL! Man, I just can't get into that. In fact honestly? If Louder Now II speaks the truth, I'd probably run the other way from Adam Lazzara. FROM ADAM LAZZARA. O_o
I think that Bert does speak from the heart. I think in some ways he can't help it, too. You know where you stand with that dude. I admire that.
I guess I'd be a hypocrite if I didn't. ^_~
Shame in me said...
Woo i just won tickets on ebay to see 30 seconds to mars :D Yay!! I frickin love that band!! This year has been some of the most awesome for gigs i have been too and i am starting the new year with 30stm!!! Cant get better than that :)
WHAT THE HELL?! WHERE HOW WHEN?!
100% hobosexual. I love it, and I have no idea why.
That's why Frank and I could never work, y'know? Lolz :P
Where? Manchester academy UK
When? January 27th 2008
How? I bid my hard earned money and won!!!
hahahaha
Hope that clears it up kapunua :)
hahaha im sorry i couldnt resist, did you think i had won them like won free of charge or are you just shocked that they are touring?
Hobosexual, i once went on a date with a guy who was homeless. He sold the Big Issue in my town centre...
(Big Issue for those that dont know is a Magazine that homeless people buy pretty cheap and then sell on at a larger sum so they can get back up on there feet)
anyway he was really good looking and seemed very nice but he started pestering me all the time and wanted to go out every single day then shouted at me when i said it was best we didnt go any further with it. I avoided the town centre for 6months after that.
CTV, do you know, my friends call me the Hygiene Queen. I'm a little OCD. The slightest hint of BO and I'm outta there.
SIM: both! Oh man, you are so frigging lucky to be seeing them. I love their live show. I can't wait to see them again. God I miss those boys.
Wow, rough thing about that guy. O_o
just seeing if I can score the comment of the beast
Damn it Carrie, you nabbed it. >_<
yeah, suck it, bendy girl! :)
When did you see them kapunua? Were they amazing? Well if theyre touring uk maybe they will be back in your neck of the woods soon :)
yeah it was a shame about the guy being so pushy because other than that he was really nice. Maybe he was so pushy because he was homeless. Im guessing he probably hadnt had a date for awhile because of his situation, but something as silly as status means nothing to me, having no home doesnt change the fact that he could have been a really nice person despite his situation. he was pretty clean though, even though he had no home washing must have been a high priority for him. I hope he got back up on his feet.
just seeing if I can score the comment of the beast
December 29, 2007 9:53 PM
what the hell does that mean carrie? im missing something here?!
666= mark of the beast, from the Bible. I might not believe it all, but I did read it, and yeah, you know, from The Omen movies and such.
Back. =]
Where did everyone go? :(
I'm here!
Mayo, why did you delete everything off your main page? Just wondering.
ah i see god im such a dumbass sometimes haha
hey paperheart and carrie how are you both?
Im wrestling with whether i should go to bed or not, its the first time i have been able to have a proper sit down here at mayos for a long while i dont wanna leave haha
Hey anima!!! i was wonderingthat and i also wondered when the new colour reverted back to the old layout... how long did the blue last for?
Maybe I will, Carrie. Maybe I will. ;D
SIM, yeah, I get how it might have come from that situation, but it's still creepy to be treated that way.
Re: 30STM, I saw them about four times. I met them twice and the new bassist, Tim, once. Each time they were awesome. Their live show is fantastic; Jared is a force. He's also am annoying rock star on the stage, but his voice is incredible. And also try to get to a place where you can watch Shannon play. There's a reason he's Shanimal. Shannon Leto > most drummers out there today.
If you get the chance to meet them, take it. They are sweet as pie.
SIM, I totally understand. I haven't had much time here at Mayo's and I don't want to leave either.
SIM it was prior to 3 posts ago I think, before the thank you one.
HEY SIM! I'm good yourself? Listening to some 'Lies for the Liars'<3
I was wondering the same things about Mayo's profile/main page..
AIM: Kapunua
FROM SDOCK10
Mayo,
How are you? I hope you are well. I hope you are at a calm, happy place in your life. I hope you are looking forward to the new year. Me? I'm still okay. I really need to get my own shit together...really, I do. Hey, I'm at least almost acknowledging what I need to do...almost.
So, I've done nothing but read and reread and rereread this last post. It was raining here and I was stuck on the porch by myself for most of the day, so I had lots of free time. And I so hate dwelling on myself...so I figured I might as well dwell on you today. Feel special? You should. :) Awwh, I made you smile.
Mayo, I have no idea when you wrote this or who it's about. For all I know, this could have happened to you 2 days ago, 2 months ago, or 2 years ago, but I am glad you decided to share with us. Like I mentioned to you earlier, I love the honesty. It sucks that some relationships don't work out. You invest so much in them...time, love, self, heart, soul, faith, hope. And to see it fail or turn sour is a terribly raw emotional experience. Sometimes you can pinpoint the exact time that everything changed and why it went bad...sometimes you can't. Sometimes you can place blame on one party or the other. But it really doesn't matter, does it? People change...people fuck up. We acknowledge, and we move on. We pick ourselves up and we take our heart, our soul, our faith, our hope, our love, our time and we invest it all over again in someone new. Hoping against all hope and all our shitty life experiences...that this time we get it right.
Mayo, may you keep learning from your mistakes, having faith in others, and moving forward in your life.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. To Love Another Day
10:11 PM, December 29, 2007
*gasp*
K: I have yet to add you on AIM!
Yeah i would jump at the chance to meet them, i missed them at the start of this year they played a smaller venue and its real easy to meet bands there, at this one they are playing in january its a step up but you can still pretty much meet them if you hang around long enough and they come to greet the fans.
I prefer gigs of this size to arena and stadium gigs. I wish i could have seen MCR at a small venue.
Hahaha what do you mean by jared is an annoying rockstar on stage? What does he do? haha
Wow thats amazing you have seenthem so many times. Did you ever get to see Alice in chains?
Man i was gutted that Layne never recovered, in my heart i always prayed he would sort himself out and get back to what he did best but i knew deep down he was done for after Demri died. I saw Alice play at Download 2006 though with the new singer and although nothing could replace Layne it was overwhelming watching a band i had loved for so long in front of my eyes. I cried throughout the whole set, it moved me so much, what moved me the most was 60,000+ crowd singing the words back to the band and cheering them on and Jerrys smile at the end of the set, man he musnt have expected the reaction he got that day. Brings a tear to my eye thinking about it. Happy memories.
anima we shouldstay till we drop :) haha
paperheart im am just fine thankyou very much :) getting a bit nostalgic haha
Beautiful post Sdock.
You're gonna like this one.
FROM SDOCK10
It's like blogger is sucking a long nasty cock hair tonight.
And I am frustrated as hell...
Mayo, sorry dude...I feel like I'm yelling at you from outside.
*sdock is hoping she has an unobstucted view of the southern skyline so she can get Satellite 'net*
LOL Sdock!
I'm glad that you are well Anima. =]
Truth be told, I had to look up the definition for 'nostalgic'. *blushes*
dont worry paperheart, my dictionary comes out everytime mayo has a new post, i know some fancy words but i learn from mayo every new post :)
Hahaha what do you mean by jared is an annoying rockstar on stage? What does he do? haha
he just does every single "rock star" like you're supposed to do. He is very bombastic. But he's fun, and he's funny. ^_^
Wow thats amazing you have seenthem so many times. Did you ever get to see Alice in chains?
Man i was gutted that Layne never recovered, in my heart i always prayed he would sort himself out and get back to what he did best but i knew deep down he was done for after Demri died.
But he wasn't, he wasn't, not at that time. There was a time when he really had it together, even after she died. I mean, that's the thing, the dude had a chance. Then there were other times when people were like, "Oh my god, he's going to die, he's on so many drugs" etc. and a lot of people--me included--were just like, "No way. Don't speculate. he's not acting like he's wasted. He's HAPPY. He's very HAPPY." He always said he was afraid of death, especially by his own hand, but then he killed himself. I just think that maybe if more people had addressed the fact that he was not all right, that he was so messed up and the "I'm cool" thing with him was a big act, he might still be around. The people who did know what was going on with him, eventually they just got frustrated and turned away from him.
I saw Alice play at Download 2006 though with the new singer and although nothing could replace Layne it was overwhelming watching a band i had loved for so long in front of my eyes. I cried throughout the whole set, it moved me so much, what moved me the most was 60,000+ crowd singing the words back to the band and cheering them on and Jerrys smile at the end of the set, man he musnt have expected the reaction he got that day.
Cantrell is a dick. He was one of the first people to turn his back. I won't lie; he could be pleasant. But any pleasantness from him was an act. He used to love Layne at first, but then he jsut became motivated by money and chicks. He knew once Layne was out of the band AIC would be over so he pushed him and pushed him to continue, and once Layne couldn't do it anymore, it was like, "See ya." And then he just up and replaced him. I can't stand the guy.
Everytime some doomed rock star starts talking about how content he is, I'm like, "Hey Kurt Cobain, Shannon Hoon, Layne Staley and everyone else."
That always seems to be the last stage. "I found peace. I'm happy. I can breathe now. I have the love of my life / a new child / something to live for now. It's all good." Then someone finds them in a bathtub, in the garage, or two weeks dead on the couch, 80 pounds and with needles stuck under them. It's ridiculous.
The next person who says something about fighting monkeys is gonna fight me.
Monkeys. Gawd.
-A is one day closer to a day off!!!
Hey Amyranth!
Finally, I have THREE whole days off!!
This is what we're watching in chat tonight. It's Blind Melon's "No Rain." We're introducing Fimble Star to the 90's. ^_~ Where Bee Girl opens the gate, pretty much everyone gets chills, right?
I never thought of it before, but Shannon Hoon reminds me of Bert. He's Bert-ish.
ANd Nirvana's Where Did You Sleep Last Night. The whole thing is beautiful, and I remember watching it the night it came out. Remember it like frigging yesterday. I had just come back from TJ Maxx (a local store) where I had bought a fake faberge egg for my friend who was obsessed with eggs, and this Unplugged was on. That week I had also found out I'd gotten the part I wanted in this play. I was all kinds of happy. Then I watched this and it was that look, that one look on Kurt's face, right there at 4:03, and I said, "It's all over."
Shoots, I'm supposed to be making with the LULZ. I forgot. Lemme try to think of some LOLs.
I read that Layne had approached Jerry in 2000 i think it was and wanted to record with him again and because Jerry was concentrating on his solo stuff he said no. When i read that, for a long long time i hated jerry with a passion. I belived that if that was indeed true, maybe he had stopped the one thing that could have got Layne on the road to recovery. To be cast aside and given up on by your best friend/ musical partner must have been a terrible blow to Layne.
I really hated Jerry for a long time for that, plus his solo music blowed.
I came to realise though that you cant belive everything you read on the internet so i let the hatred go a little, il never know if that was true or not.
I think the new singer has a good voice and i dont mind him singing for Alice in Chains because it gave me a chance to see them but he will never replace Layne. Did you meet Cantrell then?
Did you see Alice live? Can i ask where and what was it like if so?
Ive always wanted to ask if you were ever a boardie on the Jerry Cantrell messageboard too, since i found out you were an aic fan i have always wanted to ask that but never got round to it.
Im guessing no now, i hated Jerrys music but it was more of a meeting ground for AIC fans than it was for Jerry haha he must have hated that his board was used to discuss his old career and not his new one. I wanted to ask because you just emind me of a woman on there under the name of "redflowers" and i always wondered if that was you....
Guess there is a Kapunua on every board haha :)
Shannon Hoon, man yeah he didnt even make it past his debut record launch party did he? It is ridiculous.
I always thought Scott weiland would go the same road as the rest of the grunge kings but he pulled himself through. I think hes a cock though as much as i love his music, i watched an interview where he took the piss out of Layne for being a Junkie and because his teeth had fallen out and i just thought to myself any bit of respect i had for you you have ruined. How can you take the piss out of someone who is suffering from the same addiction as yourself? What a tosser
Did Scott Weiland really say that? OMG, what nerve.
Nope, I have never been on a Jerry Cantrell board. Really the only places I hang out are here, and once in a while the 30STM board.
I never did get to see AIC live. I saw Cantrell a few times though.
I'm not sure if Layne approached Jerry; I lost all contact after '99 by choice.
I love the video to "No Rain" :) Hope you are introducing Fimble to AIC, STP, Mudhoney, Pearl Jam, Temple of the dog, Soundgarden and Mad Season too :)
Fimble aint here on mayos is she?
Theres a bit in would? on Aic unplugged, the end bit where Layne sings " am i wrong have i run to far to get home" he turns to the camera and hes not wearing his shades and the sorrowful look on his face and the anguish in his eyes, man it gives me chills.
Fuck i love Alice in chains so much, i may have an AIC bed day tomorrow its been awhile
yeah he really did, i lost all my aic stuff years ago, links and that when the computer blowed up, one day il collect my links again.
The JC board was 6 years ago i dont even know if it still exists.
What other bands you seen kapunua?
I haven't listened to them in about 8 years. O_o
Oh, gosh, lemme think. This is gonna be one hell of a looong list.
I just realised the grunge talk has driven everyone away!!! haha where did everyone go?
8 years is a long time how come you havent listened for that long? They will always be my favourite band i think i will be playing my grandchildren Alice :)
Going way back? Bon Jovi, Skid Row, Ozzy Osbourne (a few times,) Anthrax... Drawing a blank here. It will come to me later.
Then back in the 90's it was all like, The Ramones, Mad Season (without Layne) the Wilson sisters from Heart, Mudhoney, Bloodloss (Mark Arm's awesome side project,) Hater, Tad, The Ramones, Hovercraft, Presidents of the USA... Holy hell, I honestly can't remember them all. I would go to this festival, Bumbershoot, you'd pay ten dollars to get in all day and you'd see every band under the sun. I also lived a few blocks away from Crocodile Cafe and I'd go there every Saturday, so like... just tons of bands there. Oh, and Jerry Cantrell. >_<
Then for a few years I quit going to concerts, up until 30 STM came along. Then since then I've seen them, Saosin, Street Drum Corps, whoever the hell else was with them on the Two Dollar Bill (tons of bands there,) a bit of The Used, Taking Back Sunday, Him, and most recently, MyChem.
Damn, I was going to make this comprehensive list and I can't even really remember most of them. Sad.
I dunno, I guess it just kind of brings some stupid memories back. My favorite AIC album was actually Sap. I have good memories from that one. Facelift reminds me of going to the beach every Wednesday one summer to go bodysurfing at the ocean. ^_^
But I think my favorite AIC song is Sunshine.
"With my voice in repose, I hid behind my own forbearing shadow, and allowed silence to foster absolution. Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary."
Mayo, are you sure the other person didn't feel like they were getting the silent treatment..People will often say or do hurtful things just to get your attention.
Flippany, sarcasm or scathing comments are sometimes the weapon of choice for the broken hearted.
I myself have experienced betrayal so I am just projecting my own experience onto your post. I really hope you can get through this Mayo.
K, you've seen Saosin? I'd kill to see them live! Their concert with Alexisonfire sold out before I could buy tickets!
Anonymous, I like your take on this. We've all felt betrayed and ignored at one point or another. We've all given or got the silent treatment.
Saosin was really, really cool. ^_^ I hope you get to see them, PH. You['ll love it. :)
Oh I hope that I see the Silverstein/illScarlett show in Feb. and that MCR comes back so I can see them!
I love sunshine too :) and i love the power and sinister element behind LOVE HATE LOVE.
My favourite alice song is "Shame in you" though, those lyrics are fucking amazing
"And you must change patterns all we trained
Or n'er regain peace you seek
Now you hear me, for the things I see
Yeah, I believe in inner peace, yeah
Throw out, blow up, hold in
Show fine, no signs, grow blind"
I just loved Laynes lyrics so much, Jerrys lyrics in Aic were great too. They were a perfect pairing musically. They really had a sound of their own that no-one has ever come close to replicating.
I always meant to listen to Heart, they really are spectacular singers from what ive seen of them and i love the contribution on Sap.
Man i just realised what i just asked you to do haha i cant for the life of me remember half of the bands i know i have seen. Fuck haha. I definitly need to make a definitive list. Sorry didnt realise how hard what i was asking you to do was :)
Ive seen in no particular order aside from that which i remember them in haha:
Nine inch nails, Black sabbath, System of a down, Velvet revolver, MCR, Damien Rice, Killswitch Engage x2, Nightwish, Lacuna coil, Stonesour, TheSTART, AIC, The Prodigy x2, Pendulum x3, Korn, Deftones, Tool, Perfect Circle, Fear Factory, shit i cant remember half of what i have seen. I missed seeing all my favourite grunge bands due to age and lack of money :/ kinda sucks.
They dont make music like they used too, although MCR, Perfect circle and 30stm filled a hole for me :)
Paperheart, I only get two in a row, and that's the 31st and the 1st.
But at least I can actually RELAX for a change!
-A
hey shame in me. i am here. is everything ok
Man, you have seen some awesome bands, SIM. You saw NIN! That rules. ^_^
YOu know, I never liked AIC's final album. They had lost a lot of heart on that one.
You've all seen so many people in concert!
Me? I've seen Jeremy Fisher, Brand New, The Audition, We The Kings, All Time Low, Valencia, and Boys Like Girls.
((you all have probably never heard of them))
Wow, I missed a lot.
Grunge wasn't a huge thing with me growing up.
The only AIC song I really like is Whale and Wasp. For some reason, I wanna put that on headphones around my belly when I'm pregnant.
PH - I've seen illscarlett live, last Warped Tour, I'm hoping to get tickets to that as well as V FEST, which is going to be here in June. I hope they have some good bands playing V FEST.
-A
Silence failed, and I have become intolerant of flippant commentary
Maybe it was only flippant commentary in your opinion but maybe to the person commentating it was coming from their heart you know? You can never be too sure that you wasnt being flippant yourself in regards to what the person has said. maybe they were just trying to make amends you know? maybe they were spilling their heart?
Maybe you have the missed what someone was trying to say to you, everybody gets sucked up into playing the martyr once in awhile. Dont let that be you Mayo, if letting go is what you need to do for yourself to feel complete, then do it let go, but you have said yourself that you can be fucking difficult but dont overlook a friendship because of stubborness. Sometimes i wish i could give you the power to let go of hurt and move along with love by your side.
Only you can do that though Mayo.
One thing though mayo, i hope you have told said person that you are moving on. Because it is cruel to let someone try to make amends over and over knowing full well that you have no intention of salvaging your friendship. I doubt a blog will suffice.
Whale and Wasp was awesome. I could never deny that Cantrell is a fabulous guitarist and songwriter. AIC changed music with their harsh minor chords and dissonance. Their sound really took some getting used to. That was what drew me.
I'm off school in June, and my 16th is in August. I should ask my dad to send me to V Fest as my gift! I just like watching live bands!
Bands - Billy Talent, Rise Against x 3, Anti Flag, Alexisonfire, Dropkick Murphys, Cradle of Filth, Killswitch Engage, Saosin, Warped Tour '05 '06 and '07, Bad Religion, MCR.
Best Concert Moment - When I was onstage during Spicy McHaggis' Jig at the DKM show in November 2006. Video is on YouTube.
Songs that give me the shivers live - Famous Last Words, Sharpest Lives, Disenchanted, Swing Life Away, Dancing for Rain, Ready To Fall, Drones, The Dirty Glass, Captain Kelly's Kitchen, Fields of Athenry, Anything by Anti-Flag.
I actually met Pat Thetic at the last Anti-Flag show I went to.
-A
PH - VFEST is June 21st to the 22nd. Outdoor, all day concert on the banks of the Bow River. I'll compare it to Warped after the show, as Warped will probably be the month following.
-A
:O I'd rather go to Warped.
I am off for now. Oddly enough, I'm very VERY energetic/hyper right now, so I'm going to go eat/practice my guitar!
xoxo;
- 007
<3
Amyranth, NICE!
Kapu - Nice on what now?
I'm easily confused tonight.
-A
Hey fimble just wondered where you were thats all :)
Hey anyranth :)
Yeah Nin was amazing, trent Reznor is a genius, i love the stomping industrial songs but its the slow heartfelt songs that amaze me most, man he writes ballads that break hearts, so atmospheric and dramatic.
Nin, Damien Rice, Alice and Mcr aremy favouritest concerts ever :)
I know what you mean Kapunua about the last album, it kinda lacked the rawness and honesty of the other albums but i still love every song. I think aswell it wasnt as great because Jerry wrote the lyrics for over half that album and as much as i love his lyrics they dont compare to laynes.
Did you ever read the book wrote about Layne by Adriana something or other, cant remember her name, i used to have it, lent it someone and never got it back, it was pretty badly wrote. Theres some guy who comments on all AIC vids on you tube who reckons he knew Layne and is writing a new book because he feels that the Adriana book didnt cover enough of the drug addiction aspect of Laynes life, when i found out i wrote to the guy telling him what a dick he was for dragging it all up and for what? a few dollars in his pocket * shakes head in disgust* if he was any friend of Laynes he would leave the past in the past and let Laynes memory rest in peace.
I always belive that someone should be remembered in death for there talents and what they acheived in life not the evils they succumbed too :( It saddens me
AIC changed music with their harsh minor chords and dissonance. Their sound really took some getting used to. That was what drew me...
Thats an awesome way of putting it kapunua! although as soon as i heard them i knew they were "my" band. I fell in love with them like you do with a first love. Fast and hard and i will never get over them :)
I can safely say MCR didnt save my life but i know that AIC did.
*busts down the goddamn wall*
SIM
"and all the papers had to say, was that Marylin was found in the nude"
unfortunately the ending often outweighs the life in the eyes of the press
I saw that book, SIM, it was ridiculous. >_< Layne didn't want it written anyway.
I AM DEAD. Shhh. Every time you LOL, god kills a blogger.
i sit infront of my mirror 18 hours a day and take pictures of myself just to show everyone. esecially you anonswers you little bum chum
*hates on Fimble Star* Grrr. Go diez Fimble z Starz
*is somber*
I will kill you all if I hear a PEEP or merriment, me-damn it.
3 billy goats gruff walks over the bridge and to their surprise sees a troll.
wow you are looking hot tonight troll wanna have some fun. you will have to speak to the fairy pimp for my charges
*smites*
I know what you mean Kapunua about the last album, it kinda lacked the rawness and honesty of the other albums but i still love every song
The boldedness pleases me. ^_^
Are we going to have some porn?
Fimble, I have tattoos.
Did somebody say porn?
spank me troll. you know you ike it. harder harder
ARE YOU READY TO ROCK?
WE LOVE YOU!
WE'RE GONNA COME BACK AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN!
I WANNA HEAR YOU SHOUT!
FROM YEEEEESTERDAY!!!
Hilarity ensues?
-A
Was that joy I just heard? *smites Jared Leto Spirit*
i wanna have sex on the beach, come and rub my body,
sex on the beach, rub my body all night long
You will feel my wrath for days to come.
HOLY BOREDOM BATMAN!
-A
bert ghost sidles up to jared leto, hey pretty eyes, smother me?
*sidles up to Jared Leto*
Hi sailor.
My computer is being a little bitch. And I have a cold. :(
-Anima is not very happy.
Threesome?
Hi KD
Hi Jen (oh jen I don't know if you noticed I mucked up your world tour bit, i fixed it up)
well hello captain. may i sink your anchor.
Ergo, that's ok. It was in your heart and I appreciated it. I didn't want to tell you because you worked so hard on it.
We are currently on Saturday Night Live.
Yeah, I'm lost.
Threesomes?
I'm going to be in the kitchen if anyone needs me.
-A
OH GERALD!!!111
"sidles" or "slides?"
HOW MAGICAL IS THIS. My tv is randomly on a channel, and guess who's on? MCR performing WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE, and WHAT IS PLAYING ON MY IPOD? WELCOME TO THE BLACK PARADE!!!
Sorry this excites PH.
Hi Ergo & Jenn,
Yawwwwnnn to the trolls!
*rules the world*
I step away for 10 minutes and all hellbreaks loose!!
ergo very true, shame it has to be that way :/
although in Laynes case his whole death was overshadowed by Lisa "left eye" Lopez dying. MTV didnt see fit to pay homeage to Layne :(
and even now it is still Kurts face plastered all over Magazines every April, and not Laynes. Always wondered if it had been the other way round, if Kurt had died how layne did, and Layne had died at the peak of his career would people be saying Kurt who? I hate the media so much at times.
I dont want to see know troll porn thanks :/
Hahaha LOL LOL LOL which bloggers did i kill with my laughter? Everyone ok? Take cover!! LOL LOL LOL :)
*owns music*
Yeah, that's where I am watching them! SNL!
I love acting like a fangirl! ^_^
sorry about it Jen , I was cutting and pasting with an atlas open to figure out a logical route.
I noticed when I read it the other day so it's good now!
WE'LL CARRIE ON!
il rub your body jared :P
hey im gerald gay!!! How dare you!!!
Never mind them. Watch me mack Bert Ghost on the beach instead.
PH coincidences like thata just win!
Toro owns music - absolutely!!
Is it an SNL repeat?
*struggles*
Hey your getting sand in my crack jared
*tries to ensue*
Oh, thank you, thank you, Gerard, for noticing me and saying my name, I luvs you too
I didn't know we were going to be smoking crack Bert Ghost. I am straight edge.
i love things to be dipped into me. that is what i live for. would you like to dip yourself into mayonaise. i bet you would
We have something together, Carrie. That song is my special language to you.
When i was a young boy....
I love ghost porn.
Spread yourself all over my breads, Mayo.
i dreamt of you carrie....
come on hilarity!!
you can ensue if you really try!!
Oh Gee, I was a young boy once too!
i want your mayo all over me big boy :P
I am good with Mayo too. We have something special together.
Ergo it sure is a repeat!
I love those coincidences! And coincidentally, I was just talking to my friend about my addiction to MCR, and I even blogged about it! I am in a very hyper mood, in case no one noticed!!
Mayonaise, I like dipping french fries in you. ^_-
Were's Bert ghost when you need him?
I need support! I am dying! I cannot ensue!
ok I may log in so I don't disappear in the ghost porn going on
I dreamt that we would be lost in coma and covered in cake
It's a repeat. I never saw it the first time. They were really good.
(secretly anima does not like the beginning of WTTBP...she wishes it was different, but can't help it.)
Give me bananas
I love you, my foodstuffs.
go hilarity!!
I am sending you all my psychic ensueing energy!!!
PH I love at the end where Gerard hugs Ray on tiptoe- for some reason that is so cute!
oh paperstar, do you like mayonaise. would you like to have mayonaise at your wedding. does your wife like mayonaise
wink wink
I hate you!
Will I be on top or bottom of the mayo?
im allergic to bananas they can kill me :(
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