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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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And we're pretty aware that people don't like us.
"It's cool, man. Whatever."
Thanks, Elena. ^_^
So MJ, you think that might be the fake SS? because I had always thought that Pretty Purple Unicorn was fake SS. Unless you suspect that this is also PPU? O_O
Anon, It's ok that they hate us. Just as long as we don't hate us. They can stay on their side of the playground, and we'll stick to ours.
It's all about the love.
mustard, that was the most beautiful post...thank you for your words, more than i can really explain. most sweet and restful dreams to you.
and, it hadn't occurred to me that here on the blog we'll be celebrating multiple new year's eve's -- are you guys going to hang out until us west coasters hit midnite too? :)
I did think that too that PPU is the fake SS. but since this person is going by the SS screen name I'm going to go with her just being SS for now.
Oh my our little family isn't just famous we're in-famous.
(sorry one of my favorite "Three Amigos" lines.
K, whyfor not you on AIM too? Don't you lurve us anymore?
I just caught up with all the commentary and want to say this,
VM
You are truly courageous in a difficult situation. You are trying to model a healthy relationship for your daughter's sake, and I commend you for trying to do the best for her. I wish you luck for the future.
Anon,
The people here are not in it for a popularity contest...they have nothing to prove to anyone, they have a generous heart and spirit.
I love you mustard.
the INO girl speaks of blogger on the 27th Nov, but nothing after that
goodnight everyone.
Thanks again, your reassuring words made all the difference tonight.
I hope to be back tomorrow.
-VM
Night VM - Stay Strong
goodnight VM
Goodnight VM, stay strong. My thoughts are with you and your family.
Well goodnight Vm I was off to bed but I'm going to wait to see if anything else will happen.
Carrie, I guess I just don't feel up to chatting tonight. I'll go back to it at some point I guess.
Wait, MJ, you think this kid is SS? Like... you think that our SS is a fifteen year old girl? O_O
good night vm, sleep well.
There's no way the real SS is a 15 year old girl. I live with one of those and while brimming with school smarts, she's an idiot. Not capable of SS wisdom. K, totally understand the not feeling up to chat thing. So sorry about your knee. That trumps my old fat lady back problems any day!
LOL, Carrie!
Sorry I meant fake SS.
no she's fake ss
she was posting in teh "off the Grid " blog, you know attacking BC and when K you had the fake mayo
Anonymous said... BC, do you not realize how your comment made you look like a total cunt?We all know the SS is fake (I'm the fake SS, actually.) And we all know the Mayo is fake (Mayo would never disparage the people here.)
nov 28 4:31
Goodnight everyone, have fun. I'll see you all tomorrow.
K, I'm thinking of you.
I don't want to log on tomorrow and hear of another k catastrophe so take care sweetie.
hello my friends. it is late here and i am tired. i am going to retreat to my humble bed. i just wanted to say thank you for tonight. you all have been a pleasure to read of course.
mayo - remember to listen to the whispers. they have kind hearts
goodnight and goodbye everybody.
xx
I don't think she is SS I just forgot to put fake.
I find it funny how they think we are losers for being here than they go and follow everything we are doing. Typing it down and cataloging our every move.
Goodnight FS and Miss t
Night Fimble - Sweet Dreams
good night miss t. ^.^
ergo, your world trip idea is so cool! i can't wait to see everyone in there. i was thinking, maybe i'll put a sticker on my wall maps (i have one of the states and one of the world) for each person's locale. :)
good night fimble, sweet dreams to you! ^.^
Thanks, MissT. ^_^
oh TJ awesome idea!
It'a amazing where we are all scattered
hey i got one of those body pillows ,that are 5 foot long, it is so comfy I think I shall call it Ray (lol) - but only in my mind, I tend to call it whatever but it needs a name (that I can use with hubby)
ah, but is ray an inconspicuous enough name to use around the hubby? or will he suss it out?
he'd suss it out! hehehe
I could use Bob (from Rohan Atkinson) but it feels wrong
what about ray's middle name? or...could you call it "fro pillow?"
hahahaha :D
hahahahhaha
I'll have to puzzle it out!
he needs a name, he nearly needs his own bed!
ooh I know "ting" short for toro tingles lol
ok for anyone who comes in later please visit
http://noneventmass.blogspot.com/2007/12/mayos-world-tour.html
I would love to get everybody involved
Well Mayo
Sorry but it's that time. Go ahead prepare to ignore...Ignore. Today was better than yesterday so that's a good thing. No car accidents is always a good thing. Right now the house is peaceful (that's my house I'm talking about not yours) and I'm alone. Except for the cat perched on the chair behind me. (Still no sightings of the spider). Anywho we all seemed to have made it through the day and all is quiet for the moment. I gave it more thought. I probably shouldn't have said you were an interesting fictional character. Actually I said you were an interesting character and I totally stand by that. I also stand by the idea that a surprise twist is coming. Only thing is I don't think you are sure what it is yet. Are you? Sleep well Mayo and dream.
Alright. I have one night off watch and the bats come out of the belfry.
So there's some kid running around pretending to be Mayo and SS simultaneously.
Betcha if you looked a little deeper, she also thinks she Sailor Moon, Hermione Granger and one of Snape's wives as well.
The batshit runs thich in a lot of fandoms, and unfortunately it's also in the MCR Fandom.
She can keep posting. We know who Mayo is. We know who he ISN'T.
And if she wants to keep poking the bear, I'll shut her computer down faster than a catholic mother walking in on a wireless porn party.
Darling Mayonaise.
Maybe a little whip wasn't such a bad idea after all.
-A
mr. mayonaise,
hello hello hello. :)
today shouldn't have been a good day. i slept like, crazy long and i have a monster of uncertainty breathing down my collar. but the people here have been writing such wonderful, uplifting things to me on my blog that they've quite burned away the fog that had me so heart-overcast.
i still don't know what's going to happen to me, i'm still afraid that the outcome of this crisis is going to be the worst one, and that scares me, so very much.
but that fearful fog was keeping me from this place, keeping me in the shadowy corners, certain that i didn't belong, that i wasn't wanted.
that i was nothing.
here's what mystifies me: i still feel that way. there's a little ugly voice at the back of my head that tells me it knows what caused this problem of mine, it knows it's because i'm a colossal waste of air and space, and i deserve whatever is going to happen.
it's a nasty thing, that voice, and it's oh-so-believable, but today, buoyed up by the kindness of this blog family, i'm able to not mind it. what it whispers is probably the truth, but today it didn't matter so much.
does this place have that effect on you, too? does it give you the ability to not mind the fears you carry, a little bit of time in which you can just breathe and not think about yourself?
i hope so. who couldn't use a gift like that?
time for me to go to bed, time for me to say my prayer (you know the one, it's that same one i've been saying all along for you) and maybe, just maybe, dream about something good.
if i manage to do that, i'll send it along to you, so you can have a good dream, too.
good night, mayo.
Good timing... I could use an exit.
redrum: wha...?
Morning Mayo!
And how does this fine Monday morning find you?
I'm in a pretty chipper mood considering my 2 work colleagues have both thrown a sickie and I've been dumped on my own. I've decided the mature and professional thing to do is let the phone queue get as long as possible and retreat into the fantasy world in my head.
The Golden Compass was OK. Not fab, but that story hooked me enough to want to see the next installment of the trilogy. On a bitchier note, Nicole Kidman should really stop denying the botox rumours because the girl cannot move anything above her eyebrows!
Love,
Kass xx
Mayo,
How are you? At least better than I am, I hope. It's Monday, Blogger is being a little bitchass, and I had a terrible nightmare this morning when I fell back asleep. I am trying to type this while eating cereal and with a thump, thump of a headache. Throw all this into the mix and I just know it's going to be a great day....but you never know.
Today, I am feeling about as insignificant as one grain of sand. Blowing everywhere. Singularly not having much of an impact on anything. You know? I just feel tiny and alone.
But the more I get to thinking about it, I realize one tiny little grain of sand can have an impact on the world. Ever got a piece of sand in your eye? Feels like a tree stump. Ever bit down on a piece of sand? You will chip your tooth. Ever got some in your shoe or your underwear? Not pleasant.
So I guess through all my useless muttering this morning, I have realized that I probably have a bigger impact on the world than I thought. Positive? Negative? It's all up to me. Damnit, that's almost too much power to have.
Almost....
May you feel your power and significance today and use it wisely.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. time
PP said;
Just one more random thing, has anyone ever been to such a good concert, in the mosh, living entirely in the music and the moment, then not been able to recall much the following day other than it was great?
capture the void said;
Yes, exactly =|
I thought I was the only one. No idea why that happens.
*takes flying leap of joy at CTV, and gives a giant mosh crushing hug*
It's almost like self mesmerisation,CTV, you become so absorbed in it.
I seriously suggest we keep away from professional hypnotists. We're the type of easy subject that would end up stripping on stage.
GOOD MORNING MAYONAISE!
Sorry, I just felt like shouting an early morning wake up - feeling annoying.
At least I didn't sing.
*PP scans Blogbelieve for voodoo figures, bad omens, 13 leaf clovers, black cats crossing paths and leaning ladders*
What is going on with the people at this place at the moment? Do we need to erect a temporary notice warning bad s**t will befall all who visit?
Kapunua,... o_O
*fingers crossed today doesn't throw you any more curve balls*
Kass,
Loved the books, but was the movie completely different in terms of theme?
Nicole Kidman and botox? Surely not. That would be acting with extreme serenity.
I've pulled it's ball out and my finger is up it's hole, and it's driving me nowhere but up the wall.
Bother, I'm off.
Night all.
There's a place for us,
Somewhere a place for us.
Peace and quiet and open air
Wait for us
Somewhere.
There's a time for us,
Some day a time for us,
Time together with time spare,
Time to learn, time to care,
Some day!
Somewhere.
We'll find a new way of living,
We'll find a way of forgiving
Somewhere . . .
There's a place for us,
A time and place for us.
Hold my hand and we're halfway there.
Hold my hand and I'll take you there
Somehow,
Some day,
***
Loving you all muchly, Mayo, apologies for my past absences, and all the absence to come.
Hi PP! Bye PP!
Morning Mayo-naze!
Come talk to us today, okay? I need something to help me get through twelve long hours of whiney-ass phone calls and not-so-broke-ass individuals trying to sweet talk their way out of paying a bill. It sucks like big time, man.
Hope you are doing well today, Mayo.
Hugs and Kisses!
Princess S&V20
Bottle Baby....
Your issue may walk among fine moral spires, But if they went up somebody else built them,
Your store is a small one, your goods have no buyers,
Your parents are raising your children.
O I could have told you the vices won't hold you warm in a coil where you lay,
But high up they hang you, seized by the temple,
And bid you obey and obey...
A heinous, heinous law
Of an endless, endless love
That governs your poor heart
In its velvety chambers, where fellows foul met
Engage in exchanges,
Whose ends are to put out your lights,
Who know from the inside you won't put up a fight
To a heinous, heinous law...
It's winter in my bedroom, I stir the broken spring,
And I have in my head to go crawling,
When the hounds come around I go to the bottle
Like every wet shadow before me.
Now are you angry at me 'cos I'm no longer free?
I don't sound it or say it or feel it.
O but out on the street somebody told me
It happens to everyone.
So I don't blame you, it's my foot in my shoe,
And I seem to have easily filled it,
While the thing in my charge, whether tiny or large,
I fear I may slowly have killed it,
Obeying a heinous, heinous law...
Hi Cupcake! Are you okay today?
I'm ok.... I'm... sick and fucking tired S&V.
Not ok after all.
I know what you mean. Just keep coming back here, Cupcake. We'll make you laugh if nothing else. At least you know when you come here, there are plenty of us that are in the same boat. We all pretty much understand one another.
Hope you feel better.
XOXO,
S&V20
Thanks hun.
Hi S&V20, Cupcake & PP,
"acting with extreme serenity". I love it!
I did buy all 3 books, but due to our fast-food culture of instant gratification I'd rather re-watch Family Guy DVDs than actually get around to reading them.
Apparently Philip Pullman wrote His Dark Materials because he was so incensed by the Christ allegory in The Chronicles of Narnia. It's a heck of a lot of effort to go to when I doubt any kids even noticed!
Love,
Kass xx
Philip Pullman.... now what did I read of his..... *thinks*
Hi Kass!
Oh well.....
Goodnight/day people.
xx MAYO
p.s Your issue may walk among fine moral spires....
Repeat greetings friends!
It's been a weird day. There's normally 3 of us in the office and when one goes AWOL it's a nightmare; when 2 go missing I just tune out the 'work' and let the day flow over me.
Sad to hear the news about Trisky, Kapunua & Elena's daughter's crushed Beetle. Hopefully the law of 3 sh*tty occurences will hold and the rest of you can get through the festive season unscathed.
We need to keep it together in order to repel the attacking masses of the Mayo-hayt'rz. If they just got a chance to know us they'd love you all like I do!
Kass xx
If I sound a bit high^^ it's because I can't leave the phones to get lunch so I've spent the day drinking coffee and chewing nicotine gum (I've never smoked but it's an appetite suppressant) to take my mind off my growling stomach. The cumulative effects are just beginning to kick in...
Kass xx
Awwwww, I wish I had some coffee.
We have a coffee maker here at work but there are some nasty folks here and I don't think it has ever been washed. Yuck.
I can't be doing with the instant stuff so I have my own cafetiere and Starbucks Evil Corporation-blend ground coffee and drink gradually cooling cups as the day progresses.
I'm so hopelessly addicted I petitioned to bring my espresso machine in to work but got vetoed on the grounds of 'health & safety'.
Kass xx
SS,
Where are you? People keep disappearing on me. I haven't seen you in a while. Hope you're still doing okay. Love you to pieces.
XOXO,
Princess S&V20
Dear Mayo, just thinking about you. Hope all is okay in your world. If you need us, anytime, we are always here for you. Just as we are here for each other. Don't forget how much we care about you and want nothing but wonderful things in your life.
SS, sames goes for you my dear.
Hope to hear from you guys soon. We miss you!
Love,
Anima
Hello everyone. I don't know if you remember me telling you this but today is the day there is a threat of voilence at the High School where my 3 daughers attend. The school gave the parents the option of sending your kids or if you chose you could keep them out of school it would be an excused absence. I sent mine this morning. I don't want my kids to live in fear. This kind of thing has happened at their school before and nothing happened. On the way to work I went by the school. 3/4 of the kids aren't there. The parking lot looks so deserted. There are several police cars parked there. I will second guess my decision all day. Waiting for 3:00 when they get out of school is going to be so hard.
smoke&venom20 said...
Awwwww, I wish I had some coffee.
We have a coffee maker here at work but there are some nasty folks here and I don't think it has ever been washed. Yuck.
======
Yuck is right! And, EWWW too ;-)
Good morning Princess, Cupcake, Kass, Mayo and EVERYONE else! How are you all today?
Me, I'm doing much better. I can finally breathe through my nose again. I almost forgot how marvelous breathing through ones nostrils was! I think I shall go out and smell the roses today. Yes, my roses are still blooming!
The wonders of winter in the South; right my fellow southerners
;-)
Before I do that, I think I'll listen to some BLACK SABBATH (in honor of Ozzy's recent Grammy nod -and it's about darn time, isn't it)
Who feels like singing along?
"Hand Of Doom"
What you gonna do? Time's caught up with you
Now you wait your turn, you know there's no return
Take your written rules, you join the other fools
Turn to something new, now it's killing you
First it was the bomb, Vietnam napalm
Disillusioning, you push the needle in
From life you escape, reality's that way
Colours in your mind satisfy your time
Oh you, you know you must be blind
To do something like this
To take the sleep that you don't know
You're giving Death a kiss,
Oh, little fool now
Your mind is full of pleasure
Your body's looking ill
To you it's shallow leisure
So drop the acid pill, don't stop to think now
You're having a good time baby
But that won't last
Your mind's all full of things
You're living too fast
go out enjoy yourself
Don't bottle it in
You need someone to help you
To stick the needle in, yeah
Now you know the scene, your skin starts turning green
Your eyes no longer seeing life's reality
Push the needle in, face death's sickly grin
Holes are in your skin, caused by deadly pin
Head starts spinning 'round, you fall down to the ground
Feel your body heave, Death's hands starts to weave
It's too late to turn, you don't want to learn
Price of life you cry, now you're gonna die!
*******
Hmmm.....I do believe I prefer HIM's version of that one. Shhh...don't tell Ozzy ;-)
Take care everyone! As always, love and hugs to all!!
6
Hello to Anima and Elena!
Elena: I think you did the right thing in sending your daughters to school. You're correct, we can't lock ourselves in our homes and live in fear. I'll be thinking of you today.......and hoping 3 pm comes as fast as possible for you!
*big hugs*
hello mayo.
hello everyone.
just popping my nose in to say hi! elena i'm thinking of you! roll on 3pm!
right popping back out now. take it easy guys!
Hi Elena, wow this is going to be a long day for you. I will keep you and your daughters in my thoughts.
Sending you a huge hug. *HUG*
P.S. I am sick of the ice. We are supposed to be getting more freezing rain today. My dogs slipped around on the back porch today. It was kind of funny. But I felt bad for them.
Hi 616 and FASC!
I need to get back to work. I will be lurking. ;)
Oh gosh, Elena. That is terrible. I can remember having the same things happen at our school. They still do. I would probably have done the same thing as you. I know my Mama would have. She would have been like "Get your ass in the car now! You're going to school!!! Don't make me go get your Daddy!"
Why do some have to stir shit and cause trouble and threaten innocent people? It is beyond my comprehension.
BTW, Hi Anima! Hi FASC! Hi Anon616!
Anon616 said....
I think I shall go out and smell the roses today. Yes, my roses are still blooming!
The wonders of winter in the South; right my fellow southerners
It was ninety friggin' degrees here yesterday. Unreal. December and flipflops. Christmas trees and mosquitoes.
Gotta love the South. ^_^
Hello Anon616 & Elena,
I do remember you writing about that and you've made the right decision. I went to quite a posh private school and we had a couple of bomb threats phoned in. Both times my parents sent me in on the grounds that whilst the bomb scare would most likely amount to nothing, the threat of us kids growing up afraid was very real.
I'm going off on a tangent a bit now but it frustrates me that all the time in the British press we have stories about schools banning trips and even conkers and councils bulldozing playgrounds because a child could get injured; my big fear is eventually children wont be able to do anything 'fun' and we'll end up with a generation who'll die prematurely of obesity because they aren't allowed to get active outside.
Rant over, new feeling of calm...
Love,
Kass xx
Thanks for your kind thoughts guys. All of you here are the only ones I can tell my fears to. It means so much to me.
S&V you make me miss the South.
^_^
Ask me how I feel about the South come about June, Elena.
It will be a whole different story. This place literally becomes Hell on earth. There is a difference between 110 degrees in Arizona and 110 degrees in South Georgia. The humidity here is just unbearable.
I do love this place though. The only thing I hate about the South is you're pretty much shit out of luck when it comes to having anything to do. Unless you count riding around the local Dairy Queen as fun. O_O
Oh I do remember the humidity!
Lord that was something. I miss the fresh sea food.
Ooooh, shut your mouth. There ain't nothing like some fried catfish,cheese grits, hushpuppies and fries. Especially my mama's. She's the best cook in the whole world. ^_^
Ok here's one for you. My friend who had lived in Charleston her whole life introduced me to her favorite snack. We went to the "Pig" and bought a loaf of bread and a can of condenced milk. You dip the bread in the milk and enjoy. I pretended to like it but it was hard!
I swear I'm gonna lose it. My husband just called. He was going to go down and get my daughters stuff out of her wrecked car. The lot won't let him take anything out of the car until the insurance pays for the tow. Not our insurance but the guy's who hit her. Who know how long that will take. She's upset cause her iPod is in the car This is crazy. Oh and by the way in the light of day it's obvious the car is totaled. Crap Crap Crap on a Crap Cracker.
That's crazy, Elena!!!
They should at least let you get the stuff out of it.
What a fun fucking day. Oh and over on DM I have an ANON who thinks I was wrong to send my kids to school. That I sent them into a dangerous situation. Well fuck as far as I'm concerned sending them out of the house everyday could be considered a dangerous decision.
Elena, that Anon is a dick.
The anon is entitled to their opinion. I just don't agree. I explained why over on DM.
Thanks to all of you for your support. I love you all.
Hey everyone
I found this
http://www.journalfen.net/community/wank_report/518.html?page=12
go to the 20th one down and then read the anon mayo comment that comes after it
Mayos comment for those that cant be bothered going to the link:
Mayo
(Anonymous)
2007-12-10 01:45 pm UTC (link)
Mayo ain't Gerard Way. I know this because I'm Mayo. I thought it would fun to rile up the fangirls. Instead I found I'd assembled a group of kind-hearted, smart, soulful individuals the like of which you'll never find at BN, LJ or INO. They know I'm a faker, but simultaneously what we've created is 100% FOR REAL.
Mr. Mayonaise
Hi guys,
My, there was a lot of nudity last night!
How is everyone?
Fimble:
You are a beautiful voice; I hear you. Quieter isn’t less important; just feels that way sometimes, I know.
It’s easy to feel ignored and unheard in all situations in life. I think for the most part it’s not intentional; people genuinely don’t truly hear or see you and it’s not because of you. It’s human nature I guess; often people are just pre-occupied with their own lives and their own need to be heard and just kinda zone out a bit.
VM:
Wow, I can’t begin to describe the respect I have for you...you’re an amazing woman who deserves to be truly happy.
'I expect that, and that is the problem'
Me too! I hope, like you, I can always stay true to that. I don't see it as a problem.
I hope things work out in the best way possible for you and your daughter.
'Island of Misfit Toys'
Beautiful J, maybe with the support here we are all healing a little?
Mustard said:
'It has honestly been my complete pleasure to be a part of this with all of you'
Amen!!!!
Ergoproxy: 'tis done
Toujours:
'it knows it's because i'm a colossal waste of air and space, and i deserve whatever is going to happen'
Utter nonsense; don’t you ever let me hear you talk like that again, young lady, you hear!
Elena:
You are brave, beautiful and strong.
The whole world is crazy and dangerous. Living in fear is not truly living.
Hello Mayo,
Are you around today?
SS:
Why haven't I seen you lately? You okay? I miss you, you know! Love to you.
By the way my keyboard won't let me Ctrl B and I.
I don't know!?!?
Hey guys. Still here. All I can say is that this is really really hard.
Mayonaise, are you about to just come out and talk to us without any cryptic messages? You get lleess cryptic each post. And I don't think it's just me.
But I've been wrong before.
By the way, hi all.
Hi K,
Keep your chin up.....probably best keep that leg up too!
How are you?
Hi dg, shae and kapunua, hope you are ok kapunua :/
Hey Shae,
I kinda the miss the cryptic; I'd only just got the hang of it!
Hey DG - Thanks.
Kapunua - How are you doing? I'm worried about you.
Hey Shame!
Please excuse the typos guys...I'm slipping into idiot again!
Hello Elena,
You're very welcome!
I agree Dei Gratia. I was starting to like interpreting the billion-plus things Mayo could've been talking about.
Hi guys how are you?
Kapu I hope things are better today than they have been.
Elena I saw what happen in the Dm. I personal would have kept the kids home but you had your reason and they are valid so you did what was right for you
Hey all, being Peeping J for now.
Hello to everyone who's not at DM! Dei Gratia, how're you doing? Fimble, your words are wonderful, don't stop. TJ, you are one of the Family, you are NOT a waste of space.
VM, I didn't speak to you last night, and I apologize for that. I'm proud of you, and support you 1 bazillion percent.
EP, I've fulfilled your demands! Don't hurt me! ;)
K, hang on. We're ready to catch you when you need us.
Mayo, hi. Just...hi. Hope all is well, or at least better, in your life.
SS, sugar, I'm beginning to worry about you. No word in like a week...wherever you are, I hope these words get to you. I love you, and I just want you to be happy.
Going back to DM for a while. I'll be back tonight. Have a good day, everyone.
J
Good thanks J,
I'll catch you over at DM in a little while, I'm starving!
Hello Martha.
How is your world today?
Hi Elena sorry it took me so long to respond I thought I was the only one here. I'm well
Hello is anyone here? I don't feel like going to the DM because I don't care for unicorns. Hello
I think everyone went to lunch.
Wish I could take off too but I'm the only one here at the moment.
All by myself. Don't want to be all by myself.
Just sing to my self while I wait for someone to show up.
Well I'm home from work and I'm glad to be out of that place. I don't even want to think about it.
So Mayo what's going on on your end of things. IS it all cool have you work things out or are you still waiting?
Other than that are things good bad or so-so?
I'll be back in a few
She wolf your absence here feels wrong. You are wanted here. Your family here loves you. the Calafe anon loves you. Mayo..........well who knows but you ARE the protagonist.
So please do come back when you are ready.
Martha, I'm sorry you were all by yourself and I missed you. :(
(Can't stay though. I have to be a lurker today. I'm so friggin' busy at work.)
Hey MAYO!
Where are you, man? We miss you already. Come back and talk to us, okay? Even if it's just about what you had for lunch today. Mine sucked, just so you know. I'm still waiting on you and SS to feed me grapes at my castle in the clouds. ^_^
Hugs and Kisses!!!!
Princess S&V20
Just a quick note - My kids are out of school. There was no trouble at all today.
My gift to the blog today...just because it sums up how I'm feeling...anyways..enjoy.
If you could read my mind, love,
What a tale my thoughts could tell.
Just like an old time movie,
'Bout a ghost from a wishing well.
In a castle dark or a fortress strong,
With chains upon my feet.
You know that ghost is me.
And I will never be set free
As long as I'm a ghost that you can't see.
If I could read your mind, love,
What a tale your thoughts could tell.
Just like a paperback novel,
The kind the drugstores sell.
When you reached the part where the heartaches come,
The hero would be me.
But heroes often fail,
And you won't read that book again
Because the ending's just too hard to take!
I'd walk away like a movie star
Who gets burned in a three way script.
Enter number two:
A movie queen to play the scene
Of bringing all the good things out in me.
But for now, love, let's be real;
I never thought I could act this way
And I've got to say that I just don't get it.
I don't know where we went wrong,
But the feeling's gone
And I just can't get it back.
If you could read my mind, love,
What a tale my thoughts could tell.
Just like an old time movie,
'Bout a ghost from a wishing well.
In a castle dark or a fortress strong.
With chains upon my feet.
But stories always end,
And if you read between the lines,
You'll know that I'm just tryin' to understand
The feelin's that you lack.
I never thought I could feel this way
And I've got to say that I just don't get it.
I don't know where we went wrong,
But the feelin's gone
And I just can't get it back!
p.s. really I can't get it back
I'm so glad, Elena!!!
oh great elena, sigh of relief!
hello anyone/everyone/mayo?? tis very quiet in here tonight/this afternoon/morning??
damn those time differences!
i wish you all a nice afternoon/evening/morning... wow it´s really quiet here...
everyone busy with chritmas? :)
seems that way pixie. i've gotta go and write my many christmas cards now!!! catch you later. bye everyone have a fun evening!
have fun writing your christmascards faraway I already did that yesterday and brought them all to the post today, so I´m done with cards for this christmas yay ! ;) :)
I have yet to do my card!
morning everyone
I have annoying tummy pains and I was going to go xmas shopping, I'll see how I feel in a bit
oh elena that's good!
most of the time they just want the drama they can cause.
hi ergo and a nice morning to you! oh that sounds not so good I hope you´ll feel better soon *hugs*
well it´s quiet here, no one is here... maybe some lurking ;)
Hello everyone! How are you all today?
MIB:
What you posted lastnight was really sweet. You always seem to sum up everyones thoughts just perfectly.
And to everyone else, thanks for the sweet dreams you all sent me last night. I did eventually get some sleep thanks to you all.
UPDATE:
My writst is healing really well. It's only been a few days but already I now have grip back in my fingers. This helps a lot, since I can type with two hands again! :)
My dad reckons it will be healed for christmas after all!
That's good to hear, Jade.
Hey pixie and anyone else not at the flip-side.
Hello again Mayo!
hi jade how are you? I´m fine time to go to bed soon *lol* good to hear that your writs heals so well :)
hi dg how are you? :)
I'm okay pixie, thanks!
Tired. How are you?
Hey, DG and Pixie.
Im well thanks, Pixie. Awh, We never get a chance to have a good long chat, eh? I'm sure we will though next time.
Ergo hope you feel better soon.
Jade glad you're wrist is getting better
Hello Pixie
Hello FASC
If I missed anyone sorry!!
well I'm going to get dressed and see how I go. I can always come home but I'm sure I'll be fine.I don't feel too bad now. I think it is probably a fair bit of dehydration, you don't realise how much fluid you lose in this weather.
I'll catch up later
Elena- no one minds the winging
Jade- good to see you got some sleep and your wrist is healing
thanks to everyone who has added to my blog,
if you haven't
http://noneventmass.blogspot.com/2007/12/mayos-world-tour.html
hi elena how are you?
well i´m fine dg just tired to *lol*
that´s true jade we have to do that in th enext days :)
damn always the same now some of you are here and I have to leave soon, damn timezones ^^
Of course, Pixie.
Thankyou, Ergo and Elena.
See you late hopefully, EP!
MAYO!!!!!!!!!!!!
COME OUT AND PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'LL BE FUN, I PROMISE!!!!^_~
ok I´ll have to go to bed now... have a nice afternoon/evening/morning and I´ll see you tomorrow *hugs*
Goodnight, Pixie.
Sweet dreams!
xx
Bye Bye Pixie. Take care.
HI Mayo, how are you? Are you getting into the Christmas spirit?
Hello SS, how are you? I wonder if you realise that you being fatasised about my naughty women who call you SS Claus and want to sit on you knee.
Hello everyone, how are you?
Jade, I'm so glad that your wrist is going to be OK. Thank you for your sweet comments on my blog.
Has anyone heard how k's scan went today?
Hey everyone.
I had to let Trisky go today. the only word to describe the emptiness in the house right now is "profound."
I uploaded a bunch of my favorite pictures of her if anyone wouldn't mind going by and taking a look. They are here. But there's a lot of them, so if you have dialup you might want to skip it.
These are my two favorites, this one, and this one.
Thanks for hearing me out over the last week about this, you guys. It has meant so much to me.
Has anyone heard how k's scan went today?
I've been wondering the same thing MissT. Hopefully she will swing by soon to let us know that she is okay.
Wow that was weird. Same time and everything.
I'm so sorry, K.
Awww, K, I am so sorry. I wish I could come up with the words, but nothing sounds right.
I'm gonna go look at the pictures. You don't go anywhere. Or I'll see you at DM's.
Hey, that was ridiculous of me last night to get all defensive over the "protagonist" title, huh? my emotions were all over the place. Sorry about that, it was silly.
Miss T:
Thankyou. And you are welcome, it's always a pleasure to say nice things to good hearted people.
Kapunua:
Oh, K. I am so so so sorry. I cant stress enough how much of a tough time you must be going through right now. It's hard, and you will begin to feel hopeless, but you've got to keep fighting. I just checked out those photos, and K, they brought tears to my eyes. Trisky is so beautiful. Hang on in there, things will start to brighten up soon, I promise. Trisky is in a better place, with no more pain and no more worries. Everything will be okay.
All my love, K.
Mayo:
How are you doing? I presume the non existent reply from him is still hanging on to you. He listened to you though, just remember that. He didn't just push you aside without reason. He took the time to hear you out, and that is a big step. I have faith that he will come round. You should have some too
Everyone:
I'm off to bed. K, you and Trisky will be the ones with me in my dreams tonight. With you both there, maybe I will sleep more at ease. I'll be online after school tomorow, hopefully.
I love you, all.
(always)
- Jade
xoxoxox
Goodnight Jade, sweet dreams.
K, I'm so sorry my thoughts are going out to you.
Your pictures are beautiful, Trisky was gorgeous.
Goodnight Jade.
Aw K, your pictures made me cry and I don't even like stinky dogs. I'm so sorry she had to leave you.
The school gave the parents the option of sending your kids or if you chose you could keep them out of school it would be an excused absence. I sent mine this morning. I don't want my kids to live in fear.
I'm only just catching up on this blog today, but I'm going to assume that your daughters made it through the day & home again just fine, Elena.
And, for what it's worth, I would have made the same decision you did.
K, I'm so sorry. I know what it's like to lose a treasured pet. They truly are members of the family.
Thank you guys, all of you, so much. Not only for your comments but for looking at those photos. Yeah, from the day I brought her home and she looked at me in the dark with the witchy eyes I knew she was mine forever. The only reason she looks friendly in those pics is because I was behind the camera. But with most other people she was just like, "GTFO, you do not belong in my sphere."
Here's a weird thing. Sano, my now-eldest dog who absolutely adored Trisky above mere mortals, just seems a little confused. But Kohaku, the dumb puppy (he's two and half actually but is still a puppy--Salukis mature very slowly,) he gets it. He was always in Trisky's face, bugging her, and she was always putting the smack down on him.
So, first so you know, this is a BIG house with three apartments, and my parents live upstairs, my Gran in the apartment next to mine. So Sano and Haku were with my parents while the vet was at my house. (Also, the vet assistant are both very good friends of mine; in fact we all work together. That made it a lot easier.
But the weird thing is that as soon as the vet injected her, Haku started barking randomly, and really loud. I asked my Mom later when I collected the boydogs what had got him started and she said she had no idea.
Now he's just lying on the bed Trisky was on today and he's whining. I guess I should give this little man more credit--maybe he's deeper than I thought he was.
Ah, shoots, and I forgot a photo I wanted to include. My Mom took this one two months ago in my yard. This was the entire pack, together.
*The vet AND the assistant, I mean.
I just also got a call from a friend of mine who used to work with me but moved away after getting married. The both of us were always like pathologically attached to our dogs, and the cool part was that Trisky's birthday was the day before her birthday, and my birthday was the day before her dog's birthday. Hers is an awesome little terrier named Chant that I absolutely adored and have missed since they moved away.
The crazy part is that she just called me tonight to inform me that she has to have Chant put to sleep on Friday, because Chant has cancer that has metastasized everywhere as well.
God, that sucks.
RW nothing bad happened today to the school. However I talked to the mother of one of my oldest daughter's friends. This was a couple of hours before school let out. She all but called me the worst mother on the face of the earth. Most of my daughter's friends didn't go today.
K - I am still wishing there was something I could say that would make you feel better. I'm afraid only time will lessen the pain.
Thank you, Elena. And hey, don't listen to those dicks. They don't understand that anything can happen at any time and you have to choose your battles.
Oh, Carrie, what's really cool about Salukis is that they have no undercoat, so they don't smell like dogs. The only time they smell bad is if they get themselves dirty. Well, the two boydogs are always pissing on each other and rolling in the mud, so they do get a little nasty. But other than that...
Kapunua,
I don't know what to say, I just caught up...I'm truly sorry, my thoughts are both with you and Trisky.
Elena, you are a gutsy lady. I agree with what you did.
Kapunua thanks for your support. It means a lot to me. Being surrounded by all these wonderful people here is the best feeling in the world.
I just hope to shit we don't lose power. The ice is falling as I speak. Places around us are expecting it to be so bad they have the National Guard on stand-by.
I wanna be anywhere but here right now.
KD, again I can't thank you enough.
Yeah, it would suck to lose power, Elena. But if it happens, light some candles, chillax, read a book by candlelight. ^_^
Hey, this has nothing to do with anything, but I thought maybe you guys'd like to see a crow macro that I did, featuring Havoc.
You had a difficult decision to make today, Elena. You chose to show courage in the face of adversity. I believe your daughters will be the better for having an example like that to look up to.
K, your remark about your dogs made me think of that line "Well other than that, how did you enjoy the play Mrs. Lincoln?" Nah, I just meant dogs as a species, I mean, I like other people's dogs, but I'm just too tightly wound to be a dog owner--they always sense that and I think are somewhat uncomfortable with me. My cats, well they could give two shits what kind of mood I'm in, or at least the ones I have now. (cats, not moods) Wow, this is quite the disjointed post. Think I will go watch mindless drivel on tv now and that will restore my equilibrium. And Elena, kudos to you to not giving in to the fear mongers.
Hey, this has nothing to do with anything, but I thought maybe you guys'd like to see a crow macro that I did, featuring Havoc.
Lol! I love it, K!!
K - I'm still at a loss for words. I even took sometime away to play with my pups and love on them. And now I'm still lost. I guess there are no words.
k, have you ever heard of a university in carbondale, illinois? Their mascot is a saluki. It's pretty cool. Not a lot of people know about saluki(s) [sorry, don't know the plural].
Katherine, Carrie - Thanks
I just want my girls to become strong women. I don't want them to ever let anyone or anything make them live in fear. I found out that only 32% of the kids went to school today.
Thank you, Anima. I have actually heard of that team, mainly because I've always image googled Salukis over the years. ^_^
To me, they are the best breed for my lifestyle and personality. They don't tend to rely on affection. In fact Trisky usually turned affection away. ^_^ They're loyal, they love to be with their people, but they're just reserved and they have high standards.
They have also been clocked running upwards of about 45 MPH. Salukis need to run or they'll just wither and die (or become overweight and die. They have to remain thin.) They're the first known pure breed; in fact the rumor is that when the Bible mentions dogs, they mean Salukis, because that's what people kept as pets in that place and time.
Except Salukis weren't so much pets as companions. Later on when other breeds of dogs came along, Salukis were the only ones allowed inside the tents, and allowed to sleep on beds. They were for royalty because they were actually considered royalty themselves.
Oddly this seems to be a breed memory, because Salukis to this day have a tendency towards understanding their privilege, and if they're denied what they consider their privileges they become very defiant.
They are defiant as a breed in fact, because unlike most dogs, they aren't bred with the desire to please anyone. It makes them a little difficult to train, and in fact neither of my Salukis were actually ever trained. We only ever get by on compromise. They have to want to do something or want to stop doing something. They don't take orders so you always have to offer the something better in exchange. They are constant negotiators and they're very good at thinking around corners.
So they're really not for everybody. ^_^
Elena, I'm so sorry that that anon was slagging you for your decision. You did the right thing, we can't let others dictate our lives with violence.
Can I ask what trouble were the police expecting?
Over at DM, a bunch of people have decided to light a candle for Trisky.
The point is, look at what you wrought here, Mayo. Look at the kind of people you drew here.
Kapunua, that's awesome. It is actually interesting how they came up with the saluki for their mascot. It has to do with the Egyptians and the similarity to mounds found in southern illinois. I think?! Oh, maybe I should look that up first. Sometimes I don't know what the hell I'm talking about. ;)
K, in Egytian mythology dogs (annubis) were protctors of the dead body and priests would wear dog masks as ther wrapped and mummified the body. After each layer they would say a prayer and leave an amulet.
See, A spiritual colour acndle for a spiritual special dog.
ANima and MissT, those are both very awesome connections.
K, ignore the abominable spelling as I am sat in the dark here with only a lamp on.
K,
I lit a candle for Trisky over at DM. I am truly sorry. I know how it feels, believe me.
Love you!
Mayo,
I wanted to post this tonight while I had the chance. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to pull this up again. I hope you know what we've got here. Notice that I said we because it's not just you and it's not just us. Just think about it. I hope you'll come visit us soon. You know we wait for you.
Hugs and Kisses,
Princess S&V20
Thank you again, guys. I can't believe how much I have to thank you all for.
Mayo, the princess is right. We do wait for you, hoping you will hop on and chat once in a while. You may wonder why. I guess cause we like you.
K, this is really cool.
All for the Saluki
I'm so, so sorry for your loss Kapunua. My thoughts are with you, love.
*hug*
Yes Mayo, I guess we do like you and we want you to be part of our gang of friends.
MissT a note was found in one of the bathrooms at the school. I guess it said something terrible was going to happen and on what day. The school didn't release the actual contents of the note.
Thank you so much, CTV.
MissT, that is awesome. It's funny they mention the problem of overbreeding, because that is a big problem with Salukis and breeders. They are getting less and less reputable. A good line is really rare these days.
Heck Mayo I already told you I liked you. I believe I called you a crazy Mother Fucker, in a nice way of course.
Mayo,
How are you? Happy and healthy, I hope. Me? Well, I'm okay, but my heart is hurting for one of my family members here. She lost someone very precious to her today, it sucks to not be able to find a few words to ease her pain. I guess that is something that only time can do, so for tonight, I will sit back and listen.
Loss...it's a funny thing. It has to be something or someone significant in your life to feel the impact. Like who cares if you lose a sock, but lose your fucking car keys and everything goes to hell. Or death...if we all knew we would live to be 110 years old and our children would never die before us, well, life and death would be pretty meaningless. Instead, we walk around every day taking life, our family, our health, our pets, everything for granted....and that's exactly what we have to do. We have to take it for granted, we have to suffer loss, and we have to constantly be reminded what a gift life is to keep it special. Now, I will be the first to say that this is probably my own twisted fucked up way of looking at things, but that's just the way I see it. Damn, this is turing into quite a babbling kind of comment that I am not sure makes good sense. Anyway, it's just raw emotion tonight....
My crazy train of thought is way off the fucking tracks. Sorry. I was probably much more helpful to you when I left myself out of the equation. So how is the debate going? Still debating? Found a middle ground yet? Balance? Agree to disagree? Listening and learning? Shhhh, are you really listening? It must be a pretty important debate to cause you this much inner turmoil. I trust you to know when to let it go or to keep going with it, do you trust yourself? Awwh come on, Mayo...sure you do. Your heart won't fail you. I promise.
So I didn't really mean for this one to run so long and to be so completely scattered. I'm usually so much more together than this, but you know what? Life happens and sometimes it's painfully unexpected.
I have something for you. It's another song about how you are your own worst enemy and your inner demons and shit....relate much? Fuck yeah...
"The beast in me Is caged by frail and fragile bars
Restless by day And by night rants and rages at the stars
God help the beast in me
The beast in me Has had to learn to live with pain
And how to shelter from the rain
And in the twinkling of an eye Might have to be restrained
God help the beast in me
Sometimes it tries to kid me
That it's just a teddy bear
And even somehow managed to vanish in the air
And that is when I must beware
Of the beast in me that everybody knows
They've seen him out dressed in my clothes
Patently unclear
If it's New York or New Year
God help the beast in me
The beast in me"
Dude, are you kidding me? Of course, Johhny Cash recorded it.
Mayo, my friend...may you always feel wrapped up in the faith, hope, and love of our little family here.
Your chair is empty and I'm doodling...and waiting.
You hand is reaching, but are you ready for me to take it?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. strength from within
Elena, "crazy mother fucker" is a term of endearment in my family. :)
You hand is reaching, but are you ready for me to take it?
Sdock, wait! THAT'S NOT A HAND.
Okay, sorry, I'm just playing wityoo because I needed a laugh. ^_^ As always, what you've written is beautiful.
Does anyone want to play a fun game?
Kapunua,
Trisky was a beautiful girl. Her spirit will always run free through the starlight, watching over you, Sano, and Kohaku. Believe that now she can see the ocean in all its wondrous power and majesty, and she is amazed that she can run above it like never before.
I will light a candle for her as well.
Peace, sister. I love you.
J
Jenn it's a true term of endearment worldwide.
Okay maybe not but it should be.
sdock damn, I love to read what you write but it always makes me feel sorta bad. Like maybe its too personal and I shouldn't.
Thank you so much, J. That was so lovely.
K,
Of course I wanna play...if bloggers little bitch ass will let me.
What you wanna play?
Sdock, I love everything you wrote, but this "We have to take it for granted,.."
I go through life trying not to take a single thing for granted. And having no regrets. That's my motto.
Epic mood swings and random crying jags FTW.
Okay, Sdock, you and I can play. Anyone else, too. I hope you're able to load this page so you can play.
Here's the game:
Go to the Wikipedia home page and click random article. That is your band's name.
Click random article again; that is your album name.
Click random article 15 more times; those are the tracks on your album.
Here's what I got:
Band name: Pyrazolopyrimidine
Album name: Amar Sin Mentiras (Weirdly enough this is an ACTUAL ALBUM NAME.)
Tracks:
List of acronyms and initialisms: I
John Tyndall (A physicist--I actually would so write a song about this.)
Australian Automobile Association
2000 reasons of the Supreme Court of Canada
Moo (Monster Rancher) (The irony here is that I HATE AND LOATHE song titles that have parentheses in them.)
Siege of Avalon (Sounds more like a Led Zeppelin song.)
Sarfaroshi ki Tamanna
Aluminium sulfate
Kismet (chocolate bar) Again with the parentheses!
Tsutsujigaoka Station ("Pardon me, boy. Is this the Tsutsujigaoka Station?")
The Pentagon Spy
Glycerol-2-phosphatase (My band is obviously a bit science driven. No surprise there.)
Ethyl Green (CHEMESTRY this time.)
Dicycle ("I want to ride my dicycle, I want to ride my...." You know what? Never mind.)
Black sapote
Welp! Hope to see you all on tour.
Wait, what are we playing? I missed that.
Elena,
Thank you for reading it. It means so much to know that maybe someone gets it.
Blogger is testing my limited patience tonight...like for real.
sdock10 is losing composure
Anyone else get an error message?
Betcha it translates to "Too many bitches on this fucking plane.... err... blog."
-Amyranth is in a really FUCKED up mood tonight.
Sdock, hang in there!! Should we bring it to DM?
Thanks Elena, I guess it was better to be on the safe side.
I want to play. AIM is being a total bitch right now so I want to play something fun.
Do you have to give all the links like that?
Mayo
(Anonymous)
2007-12-10 01:45 pm UTC (link)
Mayo ain't Gerard Way. I know this because I'm Mayo. I thought it would fun to rile up the fangirls. Instead I found I'd assembled a group of kind-hearted, smart, soulful individuals the like of which you'll never find at BN, LJ or INO. They know I'm a faker, but simultaneously what we've created is 100% FOR REAL.
Mr. Mayonaise
Mayo - If this was indeed you, thanks for setting the record straight. Those fangirls don't want my brand of Internet Fuckery messing up their pretty little message board.
Habbo Hotel anyone? ;)
-A
That's my motto. I forgot to mention that sometimes it is hard to stick to it. But I think of it often.
I need to head out everyone. K - take care. We love you to pieces.
Can't wait to see the pictures tomorrow.
Love to all of you.
sdock Honey take a deep breath. Steady...Don't lose your cool.
Oh and what you write. I get it so much sometimes it makes me cry.
Obergerlafingen
Sérgio Luís Donizetti
1.WFXQ-CA
2.Okra (one of my faves)
3.Pascal Mulvey
4.Whau River (in New Zealand kinda freaky)
5.Home-Start International (a crowd pleaser)
6.Adam Balding (a great footballer)
7.Saukam Khoy (Cambodian shout-out)
8.Hippotragus
9.HLA-DR5 (it's a code)
10.Baie-Mahault
11.Gymnosporangium
12.ABD (TV station)
13.Guo Songling
14.Grand antiprism (a slow ballad)
15.Nixon v. Fitzgerald (hidden debate track)
ROCK ON!
K, can't do it as cool as you.
Elena,
And that's why I love this place so much, because I have found people who are almost as broken and messed up as I am.
....almost.
Goodnight Anima.
*runs over to hug sdock*
sdock we aren't broken and messed up we are just unique.
Believe me you and I are the same.
I'm ready for my first tour.
Akiyama (swordsman)
Zirconium (IV) Silicide
1. Figuera de Castelo Rodrigo (guitar pickin' intro)
2. Canaan Street Lake
3. Tabas - a song of flowers
4. List of Lakes in Minnesota
5. John MacHale (lived in Mayo Ireland)
6. Sand Point
7. Setaria Faberi (Chinese foxtail)
8. Thornton Dale Railway Station
9. Samuel Denmeade
10. Eccles Rail Crash
11. Beleffani (shaviyani atoll)
12. Sgoldstino
13. Norwood, North Yorkshire
14. Lu Shao (Heavenly Prince)
15. Steel Gunner 2
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