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even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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«Oldest ‹Older 1001 – 1200 of 1940 Newer› Newest»Thanks RW. Sweet dreams Miss T.
I am signing off for the night. Goodnight everyone. goodnight mayo
goodnight BC
'Night, BC :)
I'm signing off too. Goodnight to all!
good night bc, and good night miss t!
ergo, i remember what that was like, saying good-bye to the steer. when i was a little kid we had a hobby farm in oregon, and raised one steer each year. it's weird, though, because even though we were sad to say good-bye, you would think we would've cried more as kids, but it was just the way it was.
in fact, i really treasure the memories i have of farm life, even the tough ones like that.
good night resurrected wreck, sleep well. ^.^
Thank you, TJ :) Have a good evening!
night RW
yes TJ it is different when it's your life.
we usually get a little teary but it's just the way it is.
I think at least we know they were looked after (well spoilt a bit)
he was my father in laws
we have one we'll do after xmas, he's part wagu (you know the japanese breed)
Mayo.
Yep, it time for my end of the night ramble. Feel free just to mosey on down to the next comment. I don't mind. Hell if I weren’t writing this I wouldn't read it. So anyway, my day? Not so good. Well, no I take that back. It wasn't bad and it could have been a hell of a lot worse. My youngest was in a wreck. She is ok but her VW I'm afraid has driven its last mile. But hey, she's okay so it's all good. Other than that I worked, didn't decapitate any customers (it was tempting) then came home. What an exciting life I lead. SO hope your day was good. No, I hope it was better than good. I hope you hugged loved ones, talked with friends and took time to listen to the little voice inside your head. The good little voice, I mean. Well dude time for me to get caught up around here. Wash the damn dishes, start a load of laundry and feed the cats. Yeah, it's an exciting life try really hard not to be too jealous. Until tomorrow...
goodnight elena
hope tomorrow is less stressful
good night, elena. it sounds like your other two got home okay? hope so.
sleep well!
ergo, i don't think i've ever heard of that breed, is it like the famous kobe beef?
Warning - any vegetarians may like to skip this
TJ it is kobe beef. A guy up the road breeds them and he's building up to pure bred, Japan won't export wagu cattle only semen so they AI brahman cattle and breed the heifers back with pure semen to develop the breed here.
Bana (our steer) is a brahman/ wagu cross and the guy just rang earlier to see if we wanted to get any more wieners, he has 7 to sell (see he keeps the females and sells some of the males) so we probably will get maybe 2. Our last one was the same and just beautiful beef we grass feed them so the taste and tenderness is superb. We do our own butchering too, and hang the meat 2-3 weeks first.
We've kept pigs too, we catch them feral and feed them up.(They are a big problem for farmers and wildlife)
lol it's spelt wagyu, not wagu (oops)
wow, ergo. i don't eat red meat anymore myself, but i can imagine you must be very pleased to be able to raise that breed.
i think i need to be going to bed. it's after 2 am here *gah* and even though i'm off tomorrow, i still have to get up earlyish. :(
tonight was fun, it was good to just hang out and chat with people! i've been lurking too much lately.
i'll talk to you later, ergo, and get an email back to you soon. :)
now i'll go say my good nights to mayo, and hit the sack!
good night ergo, and any lurkers hanging about. ^.^
mayo,
don't you love how now so many of us sit down at various times and have lovely little chats with you? why do we do that, i wonder?
for me, i guess...
well, it's a little embarrassing to admit it actually! but i've always wanted to just talk with you, grab a corner table in some coffee shop somewhere and have one of those lazy conversations that start nowhere, go everywhere, and eat up the whole day before you realize it.
this is the next best thing available to me, i suppose! it's not really a conversation, but at least i can share some of myself with you. and i can imagine that you're reading it, and maybe smiling when i make a little joke, and maybe sometimes something i write makes you think "but, toujours, don't you think instead it's more like..." and there goes an imaginary conversation, sparked by an opinion of mine.
hey, i can pretend, can't i? ;)
i hope you have lots of those kinds of days, lots of those kinds of conversations with your own friends. to me, that's the ideal fun time. oh hey, it's a little bit like what we do here on the blog, isn't it? well, okay, then. ^.^
i can hear my pillow calling me, and i always obey my pillow, so it's time to go, but i'm looking forward to the next conversations here, and the next imaginary conversation with you. keep a full pot of coffee ready for me, okay?
good night, mayo. best dreams to you, always.
dear kapunua
i am so sorry to hear your news and although i really should not be here i must make the time to say
my thoughts are with you.
faithful pets are one subject guaranteed to bring a tear to my eye and a lump to my throat - and it has brought to mind my own faithful pooch, who died not so long ago as you well know,
my love to you at this difficult time.
m.
P.S - for you
I lie belly-up
In the sunshine, happier than
You ever will be.
Today I sniffed
Many dog butts — I celebrate
By kissing your face.
I sound the alarm!
Paperboy — come to kill us all —
Look! Look! Look! Look! Look!
I sound the alarm!
Garbage man — come to kill us all —
Look! Look! Look! Look! Look!
I lift my leg and
Whiz on each bush. Hello, Spot —
Sniff this and weep.
I Hate my choke chain —
Look, world, they strangle me! Ack
Ack Ack Ack Ack Ack!
Sleeping here, my chin
On your foot — no greater bliss — well,
Maybe catching cats.
Look in my eyes and
Deny it. No human could
Love you as much I do.
Good morning Mayo.
How are you this fine day? More settled perhaps in your decision?
Just wondering if less words in your blog mean less turmoil in your mind and life.
Just hoping, really.
Mayo,
Looks like it might just be you, me, and a couple of onlookers this morning. How are you? Something tells me you are well but maybe a little bit worn out. I hope you're still happy. Me? I just woke up and I'm about to have my first cup of coffee. Don't know what I want to eat for breakfast. I'll figure something out. Then, I must make my run to Wal-Mart. Fuckity, fuck that. Again, I only curse myself because I have only myself to blame and Wal-Mart for sucking the life out of every other small business in the world.
So, I suppose I will babble/ramble/spew just a little this morning. Nothing like a good freestyle comment, huh. I'm sitting here asking myself what do I want out of today? Maybe that's my problem in life is that I get bogged down by looking so far ahead. So I think I will try slowing it down. If that doesn't work, I will take it hour by hour and so on and so forth. Sound like a good plan? Yeah? Well, we'll see. I am super good at asking myself things and not so good at the answering part. So I have to answer the what do I want part before I can get my awesome plan in action. So what do I want? I want to do one nice thing for someone, I want to make someone smile, I want to surprise someone, I want to give love and feel loved, and I want to sit down tonight and be able to write it all down. sdock10, good girl, you answered..now plan and execute. I'll let you know how it turns out tonight. Want to do it with me? Awwh, come on...okay I know you are tired. Maybe tomorrow? Just think about it.
Today, I hope you see something that makes you remember something you thought was forgotten long ago.
See you later on tonight, notepad in one had, pen in the other, sitting in my corner, knees tucked under me, looking up from time to time at your empty chair...
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. How hard could it be?
*s (added to mean) grrr at no edit key in blogworld.
OP L,
I swear Mums are highly attuned psychics. They can tell your outer expression and inner thoughts even over telephones.
Toujours,
Snap on the hair modelling. My worst was one hair show where I was tortured for hours being dyed this remarkable burgundy colour and...ringletted. I ended up looking like a freaky doll. Worse still was stepping out into the catwalk spotlight that night, slipping on goodness knows what, and landing with a thump on my rear. Claaassy.
Elena,
I know your daughter loved her car but thank goodness she is okay. Are they trying to give you grey hairs this week?
sdock10,
Have fun at walmart.
By the way, great photos, girls.
Just one more random thing, has anyone ever been to such a good concert, in the mosh, living entirely in the music and the moment, then not been able to recall much the following day other than it was great?
Does the same apply to the musicians performing I wonder?
*kicked eye recovering nicely*
Woohoo!
2:42am It's an early night.
Goodnight all.
Pickled Possum said...
Elena,
I know your daughter loved her car but thank goodness she is okay. Are they trying to give you grey hairs this week?
Could there be a reason my hair is black/blond with purple streaks?
Hell ya. Lord only know what it would look like left on it's own.
Thanks PP
Good morning, am i alone in Mayoville.
It has not been easy to stop by, as i have had to work so much.
But i just wanted to take a minute and tell everyone, most of all the ones who have been here with me for so long.
I do not come here and tell my sad story, i might tell a sad story about something or someone else, but i come here mostly to enjoy every ones company.
So if i am off here for a short time, please do not forget me, all of you have had such an impact on my life.
So much so, i some times want to jump threw this computer and hug everyone....and sometimes grab, cuss, scream and bitch slap a few!
But to all, I feel at home here, i breath when i am here, and sometimes forget you have no faces, ours is a friendship of blind faith and i am so blessed to have found all of you.
I could list everyone, name by name, but no point, if you know me, then you feel me, as when i come here i feel you, and know each one of you are special.
OK i know its crazy, but hay! i am a little crazy, but i have a place in my heart for all of you, and just wanted to say THANKS!
Mayo, A big thanks to you, for allowing us to come together here, i think you have made history in blogdom as the first father, you made this place, and have brought so many into your family, and i may be wrong....but i believe it is a first, and i bet the only time it will ever happen in blog history.....High five!
Got to go!
Ill be back, not going just yet!
Your little ray of sunshine!
PJ
Elena, Sorry did not see you there, good morning!
Thought i was alone and just rambling on and on and on...lol
Hey PJ I didn't see you either. How are you?
Guess its you and me today!
I'm fine, about to finish my second cup of coffee and start on my yard, its warm today for a change.
What about you?
just here for a quick hi. sorry I left yesterday without saying good bye but my internetconnection wasn´t
working anymore.
I wish you all a nice sunday and see you later :)
Hay! I have just been looking at some pictures of the tour, and have you noticed that there are no pictures of worm?
Not even at the airport, its odd, worm is almost always in pictures, and video of concerts and i have not seen any, have you?
Bye Pixie! Have a great day!
Hey Pixie
I'm also starting on my second cup of coffee. It's warm where you are PJ? I'm jealous. We're expecting more bad weather.
I live in Alabama, what about you?
Hey pj, elena, pixie,
How are you all today?
Hi S, fine, and you, how was work this week, no pink slip i hope!
M. thank you, that is a very joyful poem.
Hang on guys, I am about to bitch, big time.
And back to my question, has anyone noticed worm is missing in action?
Or is it just me?
Wow, we are on at the same time...magical.
It was okay. I can't get em to fire me to save my life.
oh well, oh well.
I'm sitting here listening to 3 Cheers on my old timey head phones and I swear I wish I could plug myself directly into the speakers and let it run through my whole body....I'm weird.
Good morning Kapunua!
I always enjoy your bitching....cant Wait!!!
Ok, kapunua...
pj,
I haven't noticed, but I haven't been looking for him either.
I can't sit still this morning...wow. How manic am I today?
PJ I'm in Kansas
Morning sdock Sleep well in the corner?
Morning K - Bitch away!!
S, I wish sometimes i could be fired, iv even told the boss to fuck off a few times.
But the man could not find anything if i was not there, or sign anything, as i sign his name to everything, if he did he would be charged with forgery...lol
*screams I'm not O-fucking-Kay!*
Is it wrong to need music this much? Nah, surely it's better than needing crack or sex or something.
Ya reckon?
Elena, I slept pretty good. How about you? Did you sleep at all?
pj, they won't fire me. I am too much an essential vital part of the organization. The motherfucker would shut down...okay, that's dramatic. Everyone is replaceable right? But it would be really hard for them for a long time.
*screams AWWWWWWWWH SUGAH, slip into the tragedyyyyyyyyyyy*
Well, it's me off to the emergency room today with a busted leg. (Believe me, signs are NOT lost on me.)
I'd love to tell you I was doing something exciting like an aerial kick or fancy Hula move, but really I was just getting into bed when my knee went BANG again. Actually this time it didn't make that popping sound, it just went. I felt a tendon slip, and the cartilage just about shred.
Anyone shredded any cartilage before, raise your goddamn hand. Yeah, you know what that feels like.
They'll take some X rays today, find absolutely nothing, point me towards a surgeon who will schedule an MRI and probably find the ripped cartilage and suggest surgery again. This all happened 13 years ago so I'm familiar with this road.
In the meantime, I can't walk and can barely hop. Which means I'll have to have my poor Mom down here taking care of Trisky and the other dogs and my crow--which is no small job.
Job? I'll be out of that for a while too, WHICH IS JUST FINE BECAUSE IT'S NOT AS IF I NEED MONEY FOR XMAS GIFTS OR ANYTHING.
Which is also going to royally piss off my manager, because we're so short-handed as it is that I was thinking of leaving the sanctuary job to take more hours at the hospital. We really need help there because we get inundated during the holidays.
And let's never mind about how far behind I'm going to fall in Kung Fu and Tai Chi and weapons. Let's never mind that they guy I've been belt-racing from the start is going ot pull ahead of me. (Only fair. He tore his cartilage last year and I pulled ahead of him.)
The worst part of this is that I won't be able to get Trisky to the beach.
S, just thought it is odd, cause worm is in a lot of pictures when Gerald is out and about, i love worm....i bet he is just a big teddy bear at heart.
And here's another thing that was keeping me awake this morning. MCR's stupid tour is over soon and I was getting the feeling--rather the hope--that Leathermouth might do a show around here. Goddamnit, watch me have to go and have surgery, and watch it be ON THAT GODDAMN DAY.
PJ to answer your question, WOrm is about as sweet as the get.
BTW I a just finishing breakfast and waiting for my Dad to come and take me to the ER.
Oh God K I'm sorry. What the fuck is happening to all of us? I wish I could help you. I wish there was something I could do. I'd take Trisky to the beach if I could. Damn it this sucks. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you.
Kapunua, i am so sorry you hurt yourself.
I have never had that happen, but i heard it is painful, just take it slow, enjoy the time off.
Wink! Wink! What was the hurry getting into the bed......ok my mind just went into the gutter, sorry!!!
Damnit, Kapunua. What the fuck do we have a fucking black cloud hanging over this place or what?
Can you kick ass with your good leg if need be?
And blogger stop eating my motherfucking comments!
ANd you know, the craziest part of it is that sometimes on the early mornings of those loooong, looong days, as I was getting my ass out of bed a part of me would be thinking, It would be kinda nice... maybe... to have a non-life threatening injury that would keep me out of work for a while. In fact a friend of mine got hit by a car recently. He is still up and about but he has to miss a lot of work and damned f a teeny tiny part of my mind wasn't whispering, "...lucky."
Then I wake the hell up and realize I HATE SITTING AROUND THE HOUSE.
Kapunua, babe, hang in there.
I have to go and get something to eat, and get this damn yard done before the cold weather comes back.
S, luv ya!
hugs everyone!
Kapunua, Sdock, Elena, PJ, pixie, good morning!
Kap, sorry about the knee.
Elena, how are your nerves holding up? Glad your daughter is okay.
pj, luv ya too...byeeeeeee!
Yeah Kapuna, you don't strike me as the type that likes sitting still for too long.
Kap,
I hear you. I still work even in the summer because I get really antsy and anxious when I don't work. There's only so much sleeping and vegging out I can do.
I would think you're the same way because you like your work too.
K- Sucks when you remember...
Be careful what you wish for...
Yeah, that's the thing. I look forward to my days off, but not working is lonely and boring. There's only so many goddamn video games I can play.
Plus, MONEY.
Kapunua,
You could always write. You know how much we love to read ya.
Blogger ate my damn comment.
Oh my goodness, Kapunua! What the hell's going on with us here. We're seriously falling apart. A CONSTANT lingering black cloud.
I'm so sorry to hear that you hurt your leg, especially for all the reasons you gave. I hate having to be dependent on someone else, and you seem the same type. Do me a favor and DON'T read the email I sent you. I feel super bad now, but I sent it before I came here and saw what happened.
I'd ask if there was anything I could do, but that'd be kinda impossible.
How are you feeling? Are you in a lot of pain?
Hey Star
My nerves are a bit stretched. I've decided to bubble wrap my kids. Think they will go for it?
K - Hope the pain isn't terrible.
Aww Mustard, I did read your email, and it was sweet. Up until last night I had all intentions of doing just that. Maybe this is a sign that I shouldn't have even thought of taking her to the ocean. Maybe she wouldn't like it. I don't know.
It does hurt pretty damn bad when I move it. When it's still, it's like it doesn't even bug me. But if I try to straighten or bend it, or shift it, yeah, that's pretty effing painful.
Stupid me, I don't take painkillers, either. I kinda don't like pills. Plus, they're probably made by some company I'm boycotting. >_> Because I'm an idiot like that.
Besides, the first time this happened they gave me Naproxen, and that messed me up but good.
Elena, they probably won't go for the bubble wrap, but it is funny!
Good morning, Mustard! How are you doing?
Hi Mustard and Star
Well, I think my Da is set to go. Thanks for letting me rant, guys. Again.
Ow! Man, that just sucks. I'm so sorry. I've had knee problems since forever and it dislocates every other year or so, so I kinda know where you are coming from.
We'll try to keep you unbored when you run out of video games.
Feel better, Kapunua.
Hey Sdock, how's things by you?
Hey guys! =]
Kapunua, I am very sorry to hear about your knee. That really must be terrible for you!
*HUG*
Star,
I'm me...that's just about the only way to describe it.
How are you today?
Hi Entropy!
Hey everybody, Hey Sdock :)
Dudes, I'm gonna have to hang in DM today for chit-chat. It's taking a while to load. I'll leave a comment for Mayo and SS (WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU, MY MAN?) later on before I can't get on anymore.
So, anyway. I hope you're all doing better than Kapunua is right now. No broken limbs, sicknesses, deaths, ingrown hairs. Everyone's alright, right? I guess all of that, save for mental illness ;) We're crazy here, so that doesn't count.
Okay, going to DM's.
Hey Mustard and Entrophy
Watch out ...
It's dangerous around here.
The Mayo Curse
ph,
121982192891829 fratribiagmazillion hugs for you and your work day today!
Guys,
I gotta go...my day isn't going to happen just sitting here. I must go try and make things happen.
Love you all!
S
Sdock, I'm okay. My sinuses might explode, but the 4 Advil and gigantic coffee are helping.
Hi entropy and paperheart!
Hi Sdock! Bye, take care of yourself.
Hi Star, Elena!
Everyone.
I hope everyone is okay too and nothing more happens to anyone else.
We can't do much protocting from this side of the screen.
Sdock,
457435153743471354 pixalagamagillion hugs!! (its getting hard thinking of numbers!=])
Thank you and have a great day yourself!! =]
Hey Star! *HUG*
Hey MIB! I'll come over in a minute:D
Hey Entropy!
*HUG*
Hey Paper
How are you?
Hi, Paperheart.
Hey Elena! =]
I am good, how are you today?
*HUG*
How are you Entropy?
Thanks for the hug Paper. It warms my heart. I just popped outside on the deck. It's raining ice. I HATE this weather.
:O
Wow, that sounds very cold Elena!=]
I'm okay, thanks Paperheart.
You?
Elena, I love bad weather and all but cold rain sucks. Is it really windy too? That always makes it alot worse.
I am alright Entropy.
Yeah it's windy.
I'm putting the weather out of my mind.... la la la
There that's better. So anyone have any happy news?
I work today for 6 hours. Does that count as happy? =]
Hello everyone!
Paperheart, thanks for the treats you left. They truly were delicious! :)
How is everyone today?
Hey jade! =]
I'm glad you enjoyed them! I am good, thanks! How are you today?
*HUG*
That's great to hear PH! I'm doing well thankyou. Your baked goods really did just top off the yummy roast dinner my nan cooked for me a while ago :)
Yay for hugs! I can always rely on a good hug from you, Paperheart.
That dinner sounds great Jade! ^_^
I have to go get ready for work. I hope you have a great day today sweetie!
A zillion and a half hugs&kisses;
- 007
Awh, speak to you soon! I hope you enjoy your day too.
Stay safe.
Lots of love, hugs and kisses!
xx
Mayo, care for a chat? You really should visit more often. I've grew fond of you, and I would love to hear about your plans for today :)
Hey Jade. How's life?
Hello Elena. Well, not too bad actually. How about yours?
How are your daughters doing? Are they okay?
Well the one who went into the ditch it fine.
The youngest who was in the wreck last night says her neck hurts.
Tomorrow if it still hurts I'm taking her to have it looked at.
Of course the roads will be worse since it's sleeting right now.
Oh crap I'm starting to whine.
Anyway thanks for asking. I really should be counting my blessings.
Oh Elena, my thoughts are honestly with them. I hope they feel better, and her injury isn't anyting to worry about. Send them my wishes.
I'll tell them. Thanks Jade.
So any happy thoughts? I really looking for some.
Your welcome Elena. How are you coping with it all?
Hmm, happy thoughts? Well, my wrist is healing dramatically. It's been like 3 days since I injured it and it's improved alot. So, if it carries on this way, it will be healed by christmas! That's all I'm hoping for.
Keep thinking positive thoughts. Hope you're all better by Christmas.
I'm telling you there is a Mayo curse. I'm thinking he owes us all very nice Christmas gifts. We risk life and limb to be here. LOL
Oh defiantly Elena! You hear that Mayo? :)
I don't think he's listening. Maybe he needs another poke from my Mayo stick.
Good idea Elena. Then again, I'm constantly told how long my arms are. Weird I know, but still, I could reach out and give him a sly poke.
and people say chivalry is dead....
Hey Magic
How are you today, Magic?
We do risk life and limb. Elena, get onto the man! Tell 'im how we feel! ;)
I'll just be in and out. Sdock and I are having dial-up problems, so I assume we'll be at DM's for most of the day. That is until something extraordinary happens or until our nightly signoff.
Hope you're all doing well. Kapunua's posted updates on her leg over there if no one's seen.
Hey, guys, I am leaving in a bit to go to my parents and will be gone until Wed. so I can help Mum with her eye surgery.
Kapunua,
Bless your heart, one thing after another. I hope you feel better. Years ago on Thanksgiving, I stumbled on stairs and bent my left foot completely back, then came down on top of it. I pulled tendons and ligaments off my foot, and that was just tons of fun. The doc told me he had good news and bad news. The good news was I didn't break my foot. The bad news was I would have been so much better off if I had.
I really hope things get better for you and Trisky. Know I am thinking about you and love you.
Elena,
Hang in there honey. If you can, keep everyone home until the roads clear up. I know it has been rough for you lately but things have to get better. Right?!
Miss T,
Take care of yourself and count the good things in life. We are always here for you sweetie, never forget that.
PJ,
What you wrote this morning about our little Family summed it up perfectly. I agree. I don't believe this has ever happened in blog land before and I don't think it will ever be repeated. What we are all a part of is something special, something wonderful, and I am so proud and pleased to be one of the Family.
For all of my sisters (and possible brothers) out there in Mayo land, I will talk to you when I return. Please be safe and care for each other. I love you all dearly.
Hope. Love. Faith.
L.
Back from the ER and here's the story so far: Looks like the same thing as last time (called it,) which is a shredded cartilage that has gotten trapped between the joints. There's no way to put weight on it, no way to straighten it, and no way to totally bend it either. So I'm basically holding it up and using crutches until the surgery.
Which I don't even know when that will be because I have to schedule an MRI first.
Things that are difficult with one leg: going to the bathroom. Showering. Carrying cereal to the computer.
Things that are impossible: playing with dogs. Watering the Xmas tree.
That's me.
Trisky isn't doing so well either. The pain meds just aren't cutting it enough for either of us to be happy. She's not in excrutiating pain (unless she rolls the wrong way) but there are times when she's clearly uncomfortable. So I just called EEVEC and they said to bring her down for some serious pain management, like a pain patch and shots that will last up to three days at a time. BUT AS I CANNOT WALK, I can't drive her down there and my Dad has to do that, too.
I'm not going to kid myself; this isn't going to go on for more than a few weeks, and if these things don't work, then not even that long.
Me, I'm about to hit critical mass and probably detonate.
Thanks for letting me rant.
Hiya guys, hi OPs. That is exactly true. They told me that the first time this happened, too: broken bones are easier than the soft stuff. Almost the same exact wording, too! "Good news: your leg is not broken. Bad news: your leg is not broken."
Sucks.
Kapunua hang in there. I know this is a lot of shit at once for you but you're strong. You can handle it. I'm pulling for you.
Mayo,
You have no idea how wonderful it is to see you coming in and interacting with us, and opening up. We have been trying to tell you, you are a part of this, the MAIN part of this, and that we love you. I realize you may not trust very easily, but please know we truly have your best interests at heart.
We love you unconditionally.
How much more unconditionally can it be than not even really knowing your name, your face?
Read what PJ posted this morning. She is right. You have created something that will never be repeated, but hopefully will continue as long as we ALL need each other and beyond.
Listen to your heart, Mayo, listen to those who care for you. Listen to your friends and family who do have your best interests at heart.
It can be difficult to know who does really want what's best for you, and not just to further their own agenda.
Listen carefully, love. You will know.
Take care of yourself, my friend. And stay on the ride.
I love you,
L.
K, it really hits home how unair life can be when crappy stuff happens all at the same time :( And at this time of year, no less, when we're supposed to be joyful & looking back on the past year with nostalgic satisfaction.
Squeezes to you & Trisky and the rest of your brood.
Thanks guys. I will hang in there. It just makes it a teeny bit harder, you know? I have all these phone calls to make, like work, all my classes, that kind of stuff.
Well, it gives me an excuse to just sit the hell down and write out stupid Xmas cards anyway.
Kapunua,
I'm so sorry. I know how you feel. I wish there was something we can do. All I can say is scream if you have to, throw something at the wall, or just cry it out. But know we will be here too. I will be at my Mum's but I will be thinking about you, and J. will be here.
Take care of yourself, sweetie. It has to get better. After you've dropped your fifth cereal bowl you will cry and then laugh. I can see it now.
Because sometimes that's all you can do.
Love you,
L.
Well, it gives me an excuse to just sit the hell down and write out stupid Xmas cards anyway.
Oh hell! I'd meant to get that done this weekend, & I totally forgot! 0_0
Best Xmas card ever
SS,
Even though you haven't made yourself well known lately I know you are here. You are always here.
You don't know how much it has meant to us the times you have shown up and gave us just the right words, at just the right time. Our angel.
I hope we have been able to do that for you as well. I have a feeling you have been lost and confused about a great many things lately.
What I said to Mayo holds for you too, honey. Listen with your heart, to those who want the best for you, not them. You deserve to be loved and cared for, to feel safe and happy.
You are one of the most selfless, loving people I have ever had the joy of crossing paths with, and I hope you understand that I mean that completely.
Please take care of yourself. Get some rest, sleep easy and peaceful.
Its all about the love,
L.
OP - Enjoy your time away, and I hope your mums eye surgery goes well.
Kapuna - It's great to see your hanging on, just make sure you keep it up. It must be such a difficult time for you right now but I know that you will get through it. All my love to you and Trisky, and I hope things get better with your leg.
Bye Guys, See you later in the week.
J.
I saw what you did with the pics last night.
Just wait till I get back.
Hee Hee Hee....
Love,
L.
See you OP
Take care.
x
Hi Mayo,
I trust you are still well and happy!
I’ve been thinking…..Space. When I first read it I thought you were just giving us a new blog that loaded quicker and inviting us in to chat.
During the alternate universe nightmare you said there was too much noise; now there’s static and buzz buzz.
You said you wanted someplace quiet…..Space…….is that what you want?
‘Let me get the door for you’…….you want us to go, give you space; ‘pick a door, you’re leaving!’
Or are you leaving?
‘Almost ready, are you’……ready for the end, the big reveal; is this why you asked us about it the other night?
Reach for your hand……’almost ready, are you?’ To be lead someplace quiet, another alternate universe?
I will reach out my hand to you, but I’m hearing horror movie style music. You know, the kind that plays as they push the door open not knowing what’s inside. Like when you see the kids swimming and you hear the Jaws theme.
What are you up to, Mayo?
You're kind of a sweetie, so please don’t do anything shitty. There are people here that I’ve come to care about who don’t need it at the moment, you know!
Having said that, though, I guess you’ve got to do what you’ve got to do.
You too are my lovely. Look after yourself!
I like how you have interpeted that, DG. What you have said makes absolute sense and does fit in with Mayo's happenings. However, I really hope this blog isn't coming to an end.
Hi folks...everyone okay?
K, sorry about your knee. Would gladly do that scan for you right now. I'm too many million miles away from you though,I guess. (Slight exaggeration, I know!)
J, hope everything goes well with your mum's surgery!
Elena, MissT; hope you're feeling better.
In fact, love to everyone.....why are shitty things happening all over the place?
SS: I've not seen you for ages, angel! Have you been by?
Hope things are good with you!
Thanks Jade, how are you?
I'm well thankyou. I've had a huge lazy day! :)
Yourself?
Ahhhh, She wolf. Poor She wolf......
Hello mayo, how are you today? I hope you are well. Are you getting into the christmas spirit yet?
Hello ss, how are you? I hope you are well. I wonder if you have any special christmas plans.
Hello everyone, how are you? What have you been up to?
K, I'm so sorry to hear about your knee. It seems to be one thing after another. That's the way it goes sometimes.
I hope you and Trisky is not in too much pain.
L, how are you? Please snd my best wishes to your mum.
hello everyone.
i almost said "good morning" -- i only just woke up! it's the noon hour for me -- i never sleep this late, i'm not a late-riser. i feel so completely out of it.
kapunua:
well damn the luck, that is bad news about your leg. i'm sending you the juiciest, greenest healing energy i can imagine. hope you heal up fast.
pickled possum:
Snap on the hair modelling. My worst was one hair show where I was tortured for hours being dyed this remarkable burgundy colour and...ringletted. I ended up looking like a freaky doll. Worse still was stepping out into the catwalk spotlight that night, slipping on goodness knows what, and landing with a thump on my rear. Claaassy.
*yowch* i feel for you -- that was always my worst fear!
how is everyone else doing today?
I'm sorry, I meant your L's mum's surgery
I was reading a post of J's over at DM before writing that; got confused and completely fucked up. I apologise!
Sorry if I'm drastically late on this, but has anyone seen Frank's new hair cut? Apparently he lost a bet and had to cut it, and he has changed his parting to the opposite side.
Frank's new hair.
And now I'm in such a fluster I can't put a sentence together!
Sorry L!
Hi toujours.
Hi Miss T.
Hi Jade, how are you today?
Not bad thanks, Jade. Had a lazy day too.
Hey MissT, how are you felling today?
God,I'm an idiot....or maybe you are chopping down trees?
hello jade. ^.^
hi girls I wish you a nice afternoon/evening. how´s everyone?
I'm pretty good thankyou. You, Miss T?
Hello pixie!
Hi Pixie!
Hi DG, I'm feeling much better thank you. How are you sweetie?
Hello TJ*wink wink* How are you today?
Hello my pixie chum, how are you? Are you looking forward to your party on Saturday?
DON'T FOR GET PEOPLE, PARTY HERE FOR PIXIE ON SATURDAY
jep miss t we´ll have a lot of fun or? ;)
hello there miss t, hello pixie, my dear!
*winkela*
(yes. "winkela" shakespeare's not the only one who can make up words.)
hi toujours *hugs how are you? :)
Winkela, I like that.
hello everyone! not caught up but will have a browse now. hope everyone is jappy!
Hello FASC! How are you today?
hi faraway how are you?
toujours, winkela actually sounds finnish *lol* ;)
Hi Faraway, how are you?
Hello FASC, Toujours.
You had a good weekend?
hi jade, pixie, miss T. i'm fine thanks! went to see the golden compass today and theres this guy in it that looks like a 50 yr old frankie, ok slightly bigger nose, but my 8 yr old daughter said it's frankie and my 5 yr daughter old couldn't stop giggling. then when ever he was on screen the 3 of us were pissing our pants!!
twas very funny!
" 5 year daughter old"!!! wtf! sorry bout that. hi DG.
That's good to hear, FASC! Wow, is the Golden Compass any good? Awh, bless your daughter. If I see it, I will be constantly looking out for this Frankie look-alike now! :)
sorry it took me so long to return your hug pixie! i was checking my emails.
*big ol' hug!*
what would "winkela" mean in finnish?
hello faraway, hello dei gratia. ^.^
jade he's not as pretty as frankie but you'll spot him. the film was very good, i've read the book and they've condensed it alot which i suppose was necessary but still really good. i love stuff like that.
pixie! you're good luck!
it just started to snow!!
XD
Toujours i left you a comment. Thankyou so much.
Hows everyone?
awww toujours send some snow to me, it´s raining here ^^
winkela isn´t a finnish word but the sound is like finnish *lol*
hi shame how are you? I´m okay... :)
I'm good SIM, how are you?
Awh still, it would be nice to watch a film with someone who even looks slightly like Frankie in it!
Hello Shame!
im alright i guess miss t thanks for asking. what have i missed here? Much? feels like i havent come and sat down in the house for ages. feels strange. is everyone looking forward to xmas?
HI jade, hi pixie :) nice to see you both :)
Sorry if I'm drastically late on this, but has anyone seen Frank's new hair cut? Apparently he lost a bet and had to cut it, and he has changed his parting to the opposite side.
Jade, that looks like an I'm-going-to-my-grandma's-funeral-I-have-to-look-respectable haircut to me.
*pushes the snow toward pixie*
hello shame in me, i got it, and replied. thank you for what you said.
*hug*
hi resurrected wreck. ^.^
that looks like an I'm-going-to-my-grandma's-funeral-I-have-to-look-respectable haircut to me.
that was my thought when i first saw the cut too.
hi rw :) nice to see you ;)
"*pushes the snow toward pixie*"
thanks hun *hugs* :)
Nice to see you too Shame.
Hi RW. I agree.
theres a party here saturday? is it christmas party?
SIM, party for pixie's bday on saturday.
hello RW Shame TJ Pixie Misst FASC DG and anyone else
K if you're about, sorry about your knee, hope it is functioning better soon and keep Triskey comfortable, there comes the time that's all you can do. Much love
How is everyone else?
I'm good having my first coffee and getting ready for the gym.
It's the last week of school before holidays
Hi Ergo, how are you?
hi ergo I wish you a nice mondaymorning! :)
Sorry if I'm drastically late on this, but has anyone seen Frank's new hair cut? Apparently he lost a bet and had to cut it,
Who in their right mind bets something that risks their hair???
Hey ergo how are you? have a good time at mcr and muse?
aww pixie how old will you be? I hope to be at your party :)
hey there ergo. ^.^
I'm good thanks guys.
looks like it'll be another sunny hot humid day here,
funny when you're all snowy.
how are you pixie I haven't been on with you for ages!
Hi everybody (Hi DR Nick) how are you guys today.
Kapu, My god that just sucks. If ain't one thing its another. I hope that things get better soon and that you can take Trisky to the beach like you planned. Here is a hug for you and trisky.
Pixie I had a fantastic time.
Muse were amazing and I would love to see them again so much. I was listening to them yesterday and remembering - or musing- about the concert. lol
MCR were fantastic, so great to hear the songs live and the show was awsome.
When either tour again I'll be there!!
hello MJ how are you today?
hi mj how are you?
long time no see ergo! wow sounds as if you had an amazing time :) that´s cool!
I´m fine, it´s time for bed soon, it´s 11.54pm now....
shame I´ll be 26 years YOUNG ;) hehe
Hi MJ, how are you?
Hello Ep and Pixie I'm doing pretty good today. I wish we all were
awww bless you pixie :) it will be my 24 years young at end of december too. Im not celebratng though. think i will sleep through it. What celebrations do you have planned pixie aside from the party here at mayo's
hello miss t I'm good and are you still well?
lol....i remember being 26...*sigh*
hope you have a great pre birthday week !
and you have a lovely birthday Shame
I'm still good MJ.
What have you been up to?
oh cool, another one who´s birthday is in december! :)
I don´t really have any plans, a friend of mine will visiting me so let´s see what she has planned *lol*
since I´m not living at my parents anymore I´m not really celebrating, I was working the last years on my birthday...
Hey guys. How are we all today?
Pickled Possum said...
Just one more random thing, has anyone ever been to such a good concert, in the mosh, living entirely in the music and the moment, then not been able to recall much the following day other than it was great?
Yes, exactly =|
I thought I was the only one. No idea why that happens.
Kapunua, darling, I'm so sorry to hear everything that's been going on in your life. These past couple of days have been really shitty, huh? I wish I could be there to somehow help out, or just give you a long ass bear hug. Maybe an online one will do?
*hug*
It's almost Pixie's birthday! :)
hello martha. ^.^
and hello capture this void!
(i turn around and another one pops in! *grin*)
Hello Tj, CTV and SIM how are you guys? I'm doing very good today
hi ctv how are you? :)
Hello CTV, how are you?
*snog*
HI CTV !
I do the same with concerts then slowly recall bits and pieces over the next few days.
Hey guys. Me? I'm well, just bummed out that it's already dark out. Anddddd I missed my Magic Pie yet again.
Miss T, we missed you yesterday!
*gropes*
I haven't seen Sister Midnite in ages? Where's she at?
I had a christmas do yesterday CTV. I came here later but I missed you *gropes back*
I haven't seen sis m in ages, I miss her.
glad to hear that you're having a good day, martha. :D
any particular reason, or just one of those nice days that come along and give you a kiss on the cheek?
okies I'm off to do school drop off and the gym
(I have been once in the last 3 weeks- it's gonna hurt!)
I'll be back in a couple of hours.
don't do anything I wouldn't do !
Thanks, CTV. ^_^
take care ergo :)
hi kapunua I´m sorry, I hope you´ll be better soon *hugs*
elena and jade, sorry i wasn't here when you said hello.
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