I have not yet entered into a static free zone. Buzz, buzz, buzz…my head is ready to fucking split. I asked him if it still mattered at all.
I am waiting for his reply.
I have been half way around my brain with this shit, and it just keeps coming up the same. And I am repeating myself, here in the dark, not quite alone.
In time.
p.s. patience please, my lovelies...I am listening.
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«Oldest ‹Older 2001 – 2146 of 2146SS, you are beautiful.
Elena, that's an awful thing to happen. I'm so sorry you went through that.
SS, you truly know how to make someone's day don't you? =]
SS you are an angel.
Okay, I am back earlier than I thought.
MissT, SS did something for you. Check his profile.
BRB, I'm going to say hi to the folks at DM. Speaking which, Mayo a new blog would be great.
Sorry paperheart, how are you sweetie?
J, I have just seen. It is amazing. I am overwhelmed by the kindness shown by each and every one of you.
Can we get a group hug here teletubbie style.
That is just so amazing. Wow that both SS and Mayo would do that for you Miss t. Those two are really great people.
Miss Tottenham, I am good.
How are you?
Group hug?
Teletubbie style?
My specialty!!
^_^
*HUG*
SS you have a beautiful soul.
Hi Martha, J, everyone.
I'm okay Martha, you?
How is everyone else?
I think cats are pretty smart, so that is believable if not ironic.
SS, you are truly amazing.
Elena,
L and I both are sorry to hear about your father. Sounds like he was "waiting" for the moment so he wouldn't put you through the pain of seeing him go.
MJ, we're sorry to hear about your mom, too. My mom had breast cancer diagnosed in 1989, right before Thanksgiving. Luckily they caught it in time; she didn't have to have any other treatment besides surgery. She's been clear ever since.
PH, I love you too! I've missed talking with you. When the hungry people start screaming at you, spit in their faces and yell, "FUCK YOU!"
Oh wait, that's not it.
I meant to say, smile at them and say, "One more moment, please, it's almost ready."
;)
J
OPJ, haha, don't think I haven't thought about it!;)
Wow. I am very confused with this whole SS thing, did I miss something? =]
Kapu - I completely agree.
I'd kill someone with my bare hands if I found out they'd killed an animal. Period.
-A
Thanks Kapunua
You know I honestly still miss my dad everyday. When I read what J had written I knew exactly how she feels.
OHHH WOW.
I did not notice that.
How sweet and amazing can you be SS?
You and Mayo both? Wow.
*HUG*
SS, you're made of love, you know that? Cause I sure do. *hugs and kisses*
BTW, your piece of birthday cake is gone from the counter at DM. I'm assuming you got it instead of the Party Sheep? SDock WAS eyeing it the other day, and the Princess threatened to cut her fingers off if she touched it!
love you!
J
Of course you do,Elena. I don't think that ever goes away.
I know Anima, I've just seen. Amazing.
I can't believe it either martha. Mayo, SS and all of you have been my angels through all of this.
Oh God Elena I'm so sorry for you.
Thank you J&L. Thank you very much.
Entropy I'm doing alright.
J - I often thought he had done just that. I just didn't want him to be alone when he left this earth.
Elena, I am terribly TERRIBLY sorry to hear about your dad.
a zillion *HUGS*
SS Miss t wanted to send you a thank you so here it is
Thank You
From Miss T
Thank you Paper. Your hugs are just what I need.
SS
Mustardisbetter wanted me tell you thank you for being such a kind, unselfish human being.
Haha martha got to it before me! =]
Elena,
Losing someone to cancer hurts alot. I can't even tell you how many people in my life have suffered from cancer. I know how you must've felt throughout it all, just know that your father is up in heaven looking down on you. He would want you to live life to the fullest.
xoxo
No ph you got it. I thought it was Miss t who said it not Mib. But I don't think Miss t will mind. I hope not.
I posted this at DM.
Wow, I can't believe how amazing you all have been. And now mayo and SS too.
Sometimes you feel like a little voice among all the others (well I do) but in your hour of need everyone pulls out all the stops.
This is the most amazing place full of the most amzing people.
Elena,
The night my dad passed, it had been sleeting all evening, and my mom was at the hospital with him. She finally said she was going home, and he asked her to call him when she got there, so he would know she was safe.
She did call him, and he said that he was glad to hear she was safe. They hung up.
About an hour and a half later, one of the nurses called and said when she had gone into Daddy's room a few minutes before, he was unresponsive. They took him to ICU at that time.
The CT scan showed that one side of his brain was completely covered by blood from the aneurysm. His blood pressure was something like 280/180, but he was still "alive".
After a few hours of waiting to see what would happen, the ICU dr. told us that if Daddy made it through, he would be unresponsive for the rest of his life.
Mother told them to take him off the respirator. He died about an hour later.
You know what the worst part was? He was supposed to have come home from the hospital later that very day.
J
Anonymous said...
anima said...
This may be a really random question, but does anyone know about Frank's old tattoo, the flame on his chest? I think it's the one he covered up recently.
The flame is remarkable similar to the logo of a Chicago band that I love. Well this band broke up a while back, but they are playing 3 shows in January/February. One in Jersey, one in Florida, and one in Chicago (I already have my tickets!). I thought maybe he was a fan of them, so I thought I'd ask.
Okay, that was probably a silly question. But you never know what people know about these guys. Right?!
Word on the street is they have added another Chicago date, Anima, my friend.
^ Was this SS or was this Amyranth?
A confused lurker x
I don't mind at all Martha but for the second time tonight I will ask if you are pissed lol!
J, I am very sorry to hear about your father.
I couldn't even imagine life without my dad. I try not to care about him, because he is never home, so I hold that against him. But really, I couldn't imagine life without my father.
All of you are soo fucking strong. You pulled through the muddy waters. Whoever you all lost, just know that are now in a better place, looking down at you and smiling.
SS next time you have a chance please visit our friends over at discuss mayo. They can't get back on to Mayo's blog after it hits a certain amount of comments thank you
Okay, I think I've calmed down a little.
On the cancer thing, Madeleine, my co-worker died from cancer as well. A form of leukemia, I can't remember the name, but it was aggressive enough that the doctor told her flat out that treatment would not save her life. She agreed with the doctor and thankfully died peacefully in her sleep. As much as I wanted her to see Christmas (we were planning a christmas party for her the night she died), I am almost glad that she didn't. The pain and the suffering would have been too much for all of us to bear...
-A
That was beautifully said, Paperheart.
HUG!
I must be Miss t I'm all over the place tonight Thank you for not being mad about my thank you post.
Pssst... Mayo.
What are you getting ready for?
-A
J - I know how hard it was for you to share your story. Thank you. By sharing my story and hearing yours I feel better somehow. I had never before told anyone how badly I had felt not being at his side when he passed.
PH, thank you. I took a great deal of comfort from Psalms at that time, especially number 121. Something about it just made my heart rest easy, you know? At the time, I wasn't really religious, and I'm not an active church-goer now, but I do believe, and the Psalms are so beautiful, no matter how you feel about God. You know?
J
Amy I'm sorry to hear about your co worker. Well at least she is at peace now.
Amyranth,
I am sorry to hear about your friend. *HUG*
Amyranth said...
Pssst... Mayo.
What are you getting ready for?
Don't you kinda feel like you're poking a stick at a sleeping bear?
I know what you mean J.
Martha, why on earth would I be mad. Are you OK?
Here, you get another hug.
*big hug for martha*
Anima, today when you posted the video for that techno song I realized why that line kept going through my head. I even posted it without making the connection to the Messiah references earlier. Who loves you and who do you love just popped into my head. How strange that my brain made the connection without me even knowing it.
Thank you for the hug Miss t. I thought that you might be mad because it isn't my place to say thank you to someone for you without your permission.
Anonymous said...
anima said...
This may be a really random question, but does anyone know about Frank's old tattoo, the flame on his chest? I think it's the one he covered up recently.
The flame is remarkable similar to the logo of a Chicago band that I love. Well this band broke up a while back, but they are playing 3 shows in January/February. One in Jersey, one in Florida, and one in Chicago (I already have my tickets!). I thought maybe he was a fan of them, so I thought I'd ask.
Okay, that was probably a silly question. But you never know what people know about these guys. Right?!
Word on the street is they have added another Chicago date, Anima, my friend.
^ Was this SS or Amyranth? Also what band are they talking about cos neither of them said the name.
A confused lurker x
Elena,
Hey, it's L.
J. was reading me the comments and I wanted to share something with you.
Last year my sister-in-law Pam's mother passed away from congestive heart failure. She had been in the hospital for a week and the doctor told them it would be any day.
Pam stayed in her room day and night, and didn't sleep for the last two days and nights because she wanted to be there when she passed. But she was so scared about how she would handle it. Around 3 in the morning, for the first time in that 2 days, Pam dozed off to sleep for 15 minutes. When she woke up, her Mum had passed. When she told my brother, he told her "she knew you couldn't handle it. She waited until you were asleep." He believes God made Pam sleep for those few minutes.
She was able to handle it better, and is now grateful that is how it happened.
Love you,
L.
Are you that same anon who said that last night?
Anon - Must've been SS, because I don't even know what band Anima is referring to.
-A
hello everyone
"to live on in the hearts of those we leave behind is not to die"
had my iced coffee, it is sooooo hot here, just for you freezing people
and no more spiders :)
the gang is all here!
elo
Elena said...
Amyranth said...
Pssst... Mayo.
What are you getting ready for?
Don't you kinda feel like you're poking a stick at a sleeping bear?
December 7, 2007 9:26 PM
I just hope it's been fed!
L.
hi everybody.
kapunua, i just wanted to say how sorry i am about your news, but i love your plan to take trisky to the ocean. i'm sure it will be a very special day for both of you.
as i was catching up, i went over and took a look at ss's blog, too. ss, you gave me shivers. you're such a good person. ^.^
Hey, Ergoproxy!
Want some freezing rain?
How are you?
Hi ep and Br how are you guys?
It was probably just some random anon.
And thank you, TJ.
L - That is truly a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing it with me. My dad and I were very close. I'm an only child. He thought the sun rose and set with me. I always wanted to make him proud. I now believe he did wait until I was gone because it was so hard for me. I still hope daddy's proud of me.
Thanks Amyranth I just got confused cos I thought it was SS but then thought it might be you cos it looked like you had posted not signed in and I was wondering what band it was.
Original Punks said...
Elena said...
Amyranth said...
Pssst... Mayo.
What are you getting ready for?
Don't you kinda feel like you're poking a stick at a sleeping bear?
December 7, 2007 9:26 PM
I just hope it's been fed!
L.
Sometimes. Maybe I should start supper.
-A
Confused lurker, I do not know who it was, but I do not think it was Amyranth. *waves to Amyranth* Hi, and thank you for my presents at Lolita's. I loved them and I think we need a vacation too. I am still weighing our options. Where do you want to go?
Messiah Anon, I feel you on that one. It did take me a second. My first thought was Lords of Acid. Thanks for bringing it back to me.
I'm just downloading radioheads new album.
just a random thing to tell you!
Speaking of poking a sleeping bear, do you guys remember an interview (actually several interviews I think) about GW wanting to spend 5 years in the woods on his own?
Ok, as someone who grew up in the real life woods, I can tell you, he wouldn't make it 5 minutes, bless his heart. I could take him to a campground up in the Smokies, leave him with the standard camp equip, (oh, no cell phone service) and come back the next day.
If I can get the zipper down from the tent after it has no doubt been glued shut, I think we would be ready to come back.
All I could think of when I saw that interview was "Puriena Bear Chow".
L.
Hello everyone who just joined us.
Why does this song keep going through my brain....
"I can feel it in the air tonight"
Hey tj how are you?
Funny thing KApu I said the same thing about it being just some random anon posting those comment here but over at the Dm and it turn out to be SS.
hi Tj I am half way through replying to your email. It's taking a while, sorry.
glad you enjoyed your concert!
L, that is an amazing story.
Hi Ergo, Tj and bitter revenge,how are you guys?
L- I am laughing so hard
"He wouldn't make it five minutes bless his heart"
Gotta agree on that one.
Elena,
I'm sure he is. You will always be Daddy's little girl.
That's why I when I put the toddler pics of J. up on the photobucket link for her birthday that I included two of her with her Dad. She was so proud of him, and he was of her.
Love ya,
L.
K, first of all I am so sorry about Trisky, and yes I did post Who loves you and who do you love. I actually meant it as the lyric, not an actual question. I never made the connection between my post and the Messiah references until I saw Animas post. Very weird.
Oh and speaking of bears. Now I can't get the photo of GW in the bear suit out of my mind.
Hahaha the poking a bear with a stick remarks are funny
hey elena misst Br mj gs rw ph K anima star anon op's and anyone i've missed
i am really hot though star freezing rain may be a little too extreme lol, thanks for the offer though
kapunua, you're welcome. i'm another one who has grown up with animals. i know what you're going through.
hey martha, hey miss t -- i'm alright. how are you guys?
ergo, i'd be very surprised if you could reply to that long-ass email i wrote in a short while! i'm looking forward to it, but take your time, say what you want to say. :)
Anon - I've only been to one show lately, and that's AOF, Anti-Flag, The Bled and Saosin.
-A
Hi ANIMA!
I'm thinking "Anywhere But Here". How about you?
-A
Ergo, I was listening to Radiohead today. I kept thinking about songs that really move me and I thought of them. It was just what I needed. :)
MissT, Dominic's name was said around the world. That is just amazing.
Hey Anon, was that your first post here?
Bubbles,
Are you still here? Or have you left yet?
Love and Hugs,
L.
Hi Roger, I hope you are well.
*wink wink wiggle*
SS,
You still hanging with us or did you have to go?
If so, take care of yourself, get some rest. Drop by soon, we miss you and Mayo both.
Love ya,
L.
Completely off subject. Sorry.
but,
I just saw the Queens of the Stone Age playing on SNL (some best of) and Wil Farrell was playing the cowbell (in the outfit) with them.
Priceless.
anima I just realized their free download ends monday so thought I'd better get to it ( i am so slack)
I just love "Paranoid Android" it's something about the way it sounds, it really appeals to me musically.
Anima said:
MissT, Dominic's name was said around the world. That is just amazing.
I know, I am beaming with pride. you are all so wonderful.
Mayo,
Hey, how ya doing? Still pretty good? Excellent. Me? Dude, my heart is full of so much love for this place and all in it tonight. I can't even explain it. I do have a little headache again...I'm pretty sure it's lack of caffeine. I'm such an addict.
So I got lucky enough to pull up a comment box. I am shocked...I've been shut out of your house most of the night. It's okay though..I'm used to hanging out on the front porch. My friends and I are sitting around on the steps talking to each other and enjoying the night air. The stars sure are pretty. Nothing like the night sky. I changed my pic...it's of a fire that I sat around tonight in my back yard. Isn't it pretty? Something about fires...they draw you in and you can stare for hours.
We've had quite a week in here. But we've pulled together like good families always do. One day at a time...and no matter what time of the day it is, no matter what country we're in, there is always someone here....someone to listen....someone to share...someone to laugh with..someone to cry with. This is a fucking magical place made up of the most amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. Do I repeat myself much? Of fucking course I do...but this shit bears repeating over and over.
Mayo, again I thank you. I know you could have never imagined what you would create here, but this lost little girl is so damn glad you did.
I will end the day on the same theme that I started with:
Faith, Hope, Love...May you have all 3 in abundance for a lifetime, my friend.
Love to You Always,
S
p.s. Just Be
Anima, that is one of the greatest sketches.Total classic.
Hi Roger, I hope you are well.
*wink wink wiggle*
miss t, that looked especially tantalizing with all that sparkley fringe you're wearing. oh my.
*wink*
*swoon*
Oh right. Songs that make you cry.
Let's see...
- Rise Against "Ready to Fall"
It makes me wanna cry and fight stuff at the same time. For the love of God, don't watch the video.
- Josh Groban "You are Loved"
The voice gets me the most. I listen to it when I'm having a particularly shitty day.
- Foo Fighters "My Hero"
The day after Dale Earnhardt died, they did a tribute to him using this song. Sometimes I cry, other times I get this cold chill on my spine.
- Everclear "Wonderful"
"Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now."
Yeah, most of my formitive musical years were the ages of 14 to 19.
-A
Anima - Did they do "Dick in a Box" yet?
-A
Amy - I love "Wonderful" that one make me tear up every damn time.
Oh and Josh Groban - the man has the voice of an angel. I was lucky enough to see him in concert once.
Wow TJ, honestly how did you know I had a fringe.
We are having spooky night at DM's. I think it has spread here too.
haha TJ it was perhaps the longest email I've ever had !
I am getting to it in installments, but I loved it
And to add to the general confusion, we've switched operators here at Punk Central Command again. L has left for the couch, and I have accepted the mantle of power back from her.
In other words, I'M BACK!
Man, this Chronic Fatigue Syndrome thing sucks big ones. Yesterday L slept 17 hours, and she's still having trouble today. It's not the sleepy factor, it's the muscle fatigue. And she hates being "down", it makes her angry that she has no energy.
J
miss t, i heard the "swoosh" and i just knew that if you were wearing anything, you'd be wearing fringe. ;)
ergo, i'm glad you liked it, but i'm sorry about the length! i tend to go on and on and on and on and on and on and on...
*ahem*
Anima, sorry it took me so long to reply, and no that is not my first post. I have been here a long time. Thanks again for the video.
TJ, you are so cool.
You know, I've noticed the number of ugly anons we usually draw has dropped drastically in the past couple days.
*knocks on wooden stick we keep around for the vultures*
Watch, now that I've said something, there'll be a swarm of them appear.
J
I am really saying goodnight, but I had to check here and I'm wishing these topics could be carried over.
Really quick,
'Dick in a Box' ...
Classic. It is funny in so many ways.
P.S. I will be downloading Radiohead tomorrow. ;)
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