It is quiet, and the weight of my somber mood holds my thoughts in check. I have given thanks. I meant each and every word. But I can't escape the boundaries defined by custom.
And I am grateful for you. The remarkable way you hold your ground. When I turned to myself for answers, I found strength and pride. When I turned to you, I found wisdom and patience. I could use some of that now.
Balance.
I think I will sleep tonight. I will allow my dreams to lay and lie along with me.
p.s. grateful for you as well (and the diversion).
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Andrea!
How are you?
That was funny reading. I was like, "bile duct?" Why?
Bial
Bile
Dial
Dile
Same difference ;)
Yes mustard, bless you my child.
Hello Katherine!
How are you Andrea?
I must go soon=[
Lol, Mustard. I'm fine, how are you?
Did everyone have a nice holiday?
Paper why must you go?
Is God in the house?!
In my last job, we decided to start a new religion. People said if I came up with a good one, they would worship me.
I tried to think up ten demandments but got fed up after the first.
"Thou shalt always congratulate old people when they tell you their age"
cos they love it.
God is in da hizzyyyyy!
I'm good Paperheart, how are you?
Hey, Andrea, how are you?
I had a good holiday. How was yours?
Paperheart must go because her mother thinks shes been on for too long! ;P
Andrea, I am good!
miss t, you know i already worship you. you are my golden calf.
*burns the incense*
*is blessed*
So, God? Do you think I have some pull you? Like, I can make it through the sparkly gates and all that can't I?
Andrea:
I'm fine, thanks. The holiday was relaxing and I'm definitely not looking foward to it being over.
Hey Elena, How are you?
I didn't see you before.
I'm all over the place tonight.
Okay, this is way off topic, but...
I took a One A Day women's vitamin tonight, and I have crazy amounts of energy.
Can this be possible or am I just nuts?
Well Paper you just tell your mom that another mom said you haven't. On second thought that probably won't work. Damn I hate when me being a mom don't help.
Haha, I'm sure I could stay for another half an hour!;)
You are all my blessed children and pizza heaven awaits you all.
Kapunua.
Never.
Under any circumstances.
Say "hizzzzy" to God.
He isn't pleased.
LOL, I care what god has to say to me? ;D
Hey Star - How are you? I'm losing track of people they seem to be running in and out of the house. I'm gonna start yelling about people slamming the screen door.
Hi Star! My holiday was good, thanks for asking. I'm planning to blog about it... someday.
Would you rather...
Would you rather have no friends, or no family?
Miss T., I am looking forward to Pizza Heaven ^_^
No family
Ahh tough one!
I'd actually rather have no family.
Friends are there to pick you up when you are down, and they can grow to be like your family.
Kapunua:
;)
Would you rather...
Would you rather have no friends, or no family?
No family. I knind of don't, at least as far as blood relatives are concerned.
I'd rather have no friends.
I love my family, they are my friends. i don't need extra ones.
What about you Anonymous.
No friends, or no family?
Anon, good question. No friends. I guess because I sort of grew up that way anyway and it wasn't so bad.
How about you?
I don't have much family anyway, so I'd say no family. My friends are like my family.
hay mayo. little man. where is the picture then. have you manned up yet i want a picture please
Fuck, that's tough.
Um...no friends, real life ones I mean.
My friends haven't been the best, so losing them wouldn't be a biggie.
No friends. But, I can't answer honestly because my cousin, who is my age, is my best friend, so it's weird.
Fimble Star, I'll give you a picture. ^_^ What do you want it to be a picture of?
Would you rather have no friends, or no family?
friends can become like family, so -- no family.
though it's a downer question, dammit! D:
No friends.
Would you rather love and lose, or not love at all?
I would chose family because of my daughters. Now as for the extended family I could do without them quite nicely.
NOT LOVE AT ALL.
You?
love and lose
anything k. i wanted mayo to do a picture to show he can be different sometimes. to show he is more than just words. looks like he only listens to what he wants to here. well i am disappionted in him still. did you hear that mayo
I'd rather love and lose. Because then at least you've felt love.
What about you Anon?
anon @ 12:38
That depends, I know that some families leave a lot to be desired so your friends became the family you would choose.
But eventually family changes and most have their own. Friends can also show an understanding that some family members don't.
So, that is a difficult question, too hard to generalize. Some family members can be close friends and some friends can be like family. It depends on the personality.
Never mind. I know your answer.
No friends.
Would you rather love and lose, or not love at all?
Love and lose, no question.
Would you rather love and lose, or not love at all?
I've asked myself this question many times. I've been hurt so badly, too many times. But I would rather have the experience and be wiser for it than never love at all.
So many of you chose no family and that is sad.
I love all my family, we laugh so much when we are together. Every single one of us from all branches.
I am so lucky.
I would rather love and lose, for sure.
Once you experience love, you crave it again. (for me anyway)
ANON
Picture or no Picture
see if you can answer that one
Would you rather love and lose, or not love at all?
shite. though it hurts like a bitch, i'd rather love and lose.
Love and lose
love and lose. It makes you a stronger person. It's just a part of life
Love and lose
Mets or Yankees?
Mets, goddamnit.
Mets
Hey Mayo. Tell us goodnight before you go, huh?
Anon, I would rather love and lose.
I lost my dad and me, my mum and sis often say it was better to have known a good dad and have nice memories than to have had a shitty dad.
Better to love and lose people.
No sports questions!!
*RW hides*
That is a good point, MissT. I thought we were talking about romantic love, which I guess is kind of restricting the question. Sorry.
How about famous yet unfulfilled or obscure but happy?
Love and lose.
Would you rather make music, or listen to music?
I am not mayo.
I make music and listen to music. Always have, always will.
Oh, I'm sorry. Then who are you?
Make music. I'd rather make music. I wish I could. Well, I wish I could make better music. Do what's inside my head.
make music (but I'm untalented)
I'm not Mayo either
People's ears would bleed if I tried to sing or play any instrument, so I'm going to go with listen to music.
Would you rather make music, or listen to music?
That depends. If I chose make music, would that mean I would not be able to listen to any music?
Take a name, anon, you're jamming our frequency.
who are you then anon. come on. give us a name
Anon, I'd rather listen to music.
I know that if I were a musician, my work would come out as shit.
As much as it hurts, losing at love can build some emotional resilience. All our experiences good or bad can make us grow. The trick is to embrace it, not to hide.
Listen to music.
Anon, will you be tabulating the results of this little poll and posting a nice bar chart for everyone to see?
That's OK kapunua. Different experiences is all.
I would rather listen to music. I am not a creator, I immerse myself in other people's creations.
Listen to music
Not Mayo
Only Zuul
Would you rather make music, or listen to music?
i choose: music.
make it, listen to it, whatever. as long as there's music and i get to be a part of it.
Are you a reg? Take a name, son. Pull up a chair.
Hi "I am not Mayo".
I'm Mustard.
Anon:
My ass, or
....
.....
My ass?
Just trying to get some conversation going.
Would you rather know how and when you are going to die, or not know?
would rather know your name
Not know.
If I knew how and why I was going to die, I'd live the rest of my life in fear.
We know why you're here anon. No one asked why. We just don't know who you are. Are you a regular here?
Anyway, I think I would rather know. Unless it was going to happen soon.
Not know at all anon.
Not know.
But that depends on the circumstances, because if I was going to be like 113, I wouldn't mind knowing. But I also believe that the future is conditional, and that knowing could either prevent it, or actually make it so. So, yeah.
You?
kapunua,
Your ass, definitely.
I would not want to know if I was gonna die. It would just freak me out and ruin the time I had left. The trick is to live each day like it's you last then you don't have to worry about it. Never leave things unsaid or undone.
I have to go to bed guys.
I know it is saturday but it is 6 in the morning.
Goodnight.
This may sound a bit mercenary, and off topic, but I hope that the death of Casey Calvert brings MCR back together. Maybe if they realize that a bandmate can be lost so suddenly they'll put aside any squabbles & pull together. As awful a price as it was for Casey's family, friends and bandmates to pay, maybe something good can come out of it too. After all, it was a tragedy (9/11) that brought MCR together in the first place.
*high fives FimbleStar*
not know
Wow, anon. Your choice surprises me.
Sweet Dreams Miss Tottenham! *HUG*
Would you rather know how and when you are going to die, or not know?
Not know. I don't want to live my life with that feeling of fatality hanging over me at all times.
Goodnight, Miss T.
Would you rather know how and when you are going to die, or not know?
usually one says they don't want to know, right? but i think i might like that. i've got a good hunch i know how already, so it would be nice to know when too, so i can plan things out better.
and this isn't conversation, this is a quiz. interesting, but one way, so far.
not know
I actually like this choice of a game.
It'd be nice to know who the quiz master was... ;)
Night Miss T
Would you rather know how and when you are going to die, or not know?
I would only want to know if there was enough time to say goodbye to the people I care about.
Toujours, how do you know how you're going to die? Always in motion is the future. Wise words.
RW:
I love your view on this. Sometimes the worst things can have the best outcomes.
As an aside:
Howard Benson produced HH's album. I thought that was kind of ironic.
I agree, Paperheartxx.
good night miss t! or, er...good morning! ^__^
RW, I hope they are at least thinking about that.
God, it makes me so nervous.
Goodnight Miss T
so anon. do you have a name? maybe clive. or boris. or isaac.
Or SS;)
Question anon, have you visited here before?
Nah, PH, I don't think so. Not this time. Some regular, maybe.
A name, son. Take a name. You new around these parts or what?
007. i dont think it is any of them.
Nervous?
Kapunua, I'm kinda at the point where I'm so nervous I wanna throw up.
Kinda like you did earlier.
All of this is just too close to home, ya know?
It's like talking to a Ouija board sometimes.
Yeah, I don't think so either K.
Anonymous, do you have another question? I actually like answering them!
Toujours, how do you know how you're going to die? Always in motion is the future. Wise words.
well, it's a hunch, but i've had three close relatives die of various cancers, and i'm at greater risk now because of my own and its treatment, so...
but you're perfectly right: the future is like jello you just put in the fridge -- it hasn't gelled yet. ;)
It's like talking to a Ouija board sometimes
Lol, exactly! You never know who or what is going to show up.
Mustard, one never seems to be enough, you know? I'm not going to break out that old "in threes" cliches, but just when you think you're pre-disastered, it comes again, and usually closer to home.
I should stop talking.
Tj, *HUG*
Just because you are pre-determined to get cancer doesn't mean you will necessarily get it. And even if you did,it doesn't mean you wouldn't beat it.
They don't all have to be so serious.
Would you rather have no eyelashes, or no fingernails?
Sorry for the delay, I have a slow computer.
No Eyelashes.
I get very grossed out when I see someone whose fingernails have fallen off.
Eww.
No eyelashes. You can get fake ones. They both serve an evolutionary purpose but I can see eyelashes getting phased out.
So who the hell are you?
&that is alright begin to hope.
I am glad you have a name!
*HUG*
no fingernails
that is better negin to hope. nice to meet you
Anon, I like the new name.
No eyelashes. I need my fingernails at work.
Eyelashes, definitely.
I talk with my hands, so missing fingernails would be icky.
I thought about the "threes" thing myself tonight.
It's an old superstition, but fuck if it doesn't come true every damn time.
And you're sure your dream was just about cigarettes?
Please say there's been nothing else.
aw, thank you paperheartxx! you're always full of the warm&fuzzies, aren't you? ^.^
*hugs ya back*
I had a friend play around with one of those boards, I mean usually I am highly skeptical of the paranormal but something managed to stay with her, and she had to have her house "cleansed".
Oh I am TJ.
I also understand the whole cancer situation. We won't get into detail though, but there is lots of cancer in my family as well.
*HUG*
Would you rather have no eyelashes, or no fingernails?
Oh gosh. I suppose my fingernails are more useful than my eyelashes. My eyelashes are always falling out and getting in my eyes. I need my fingernails to scratch and open things.
So no eyelashes. But I'll bet I'd look funny without them. ^_^
Ahh I have a ouija board.
I am supposed to go use it in a cemetery soon.. I am waaay to chicken to actually. It wasn't my idea, it was a friends.
Ouija Boards = no no
I never mess with ouija bouards, PH. Too risky, if you ask me.
Sorry guys, I can't stay!
I must be off. I've been here for 4 hours already!!
All my love to you all;
-007
*HUG*
P.S. Nice to meet you begin to hope!
Paperheart, don't do it.
You never know who you might end up with.
Just because you are pre-determined to get cancer doesn't mean you will necessarily get it. And even if you did,it doesn't mean you wouldn't beat it.
i did get it, and i did beat it, but it's like i feel i'm in its sights now, you know?
*shrugs*
Would you rather have no eyelashes, or no fingernails?
my grandmother actually lost her eyelashes, and that was fine, so: no eyelashes.
Paperheart,
Please don't mess with those boards.
It is very risky RW, I've encountered some scary shit using it.
That is a story for another day.
I love you all! And thank you guys for the support on my blog!
*HUG*
Just say "NO" Paperheartxx
Do you have another question, Begin to Hope?
Don't worry guys. I am too scared to use it again.
*HUG*
goodnight 007. sleep tigt hun
Yes, Begin To Hope, hit us with another question!
Night, PH :)
you're so kind, paperheartxx. you take care. *hugs*
and just make sure you do the protective circle thingy if you use a ouija.
nighty-night!
Last night I did actually sort of dream of this blog, but in a roundabout way.
I had to go back to my grammar school for some kind of reunion type thing. My school was a parochial school and we had a little chapel that we had to go to every Wednesday. So I went there dressed exactly like I had been on Halloween. (I've already decided in real life that if I ever got to go to see Leathermouth, that's what I'd wear. And a hat. ;D )
Anyway, I showed up there and the chapel was really beautiful, bigger than it is in real life. I was trying to take pictures of it with my digital. I was taking them so I could show them to everyone here, but none of them were coming out nicely. I was getting frustrated because the light was really good.
Then all of a sudden it was dusk and I had missed whatever function was going on there. I was okay with that though. My parents showed up for some reason. I told my Dad I was going to go outside and have a smoke. I knew he was going to be disappointed in me because I've never smoked before.
But I went outside anyway with a lighter and I was trying to light this cigarette. Even though I felt really grossed out and knew I was going to hate it. I was disappointed in myself but I was going to smoke anyway.
Then I looked down a flight of stairs and I saw my goddaughter there also trying to light a cigarette. I was like, "WHAT?!" Then all of a sudden I realized that I couldn't be doing this.
By and by she turned into my cousin, who is my age and who has kind of gone and ruined her life in the last ten years or so.
I decided not to light the cigarette and I went back up the stairs. My shoe fell off, though.
Then there were these little candles all around the chapel and I was trying to take pictures of them thinking, "This is the light. This will be awesome."
Then I woke up.
Doubt it has to do with anything, but there ya go. ^_^
Goodnight sweetheart :)
Paperheart?
Ouija boards are awesome. ^_^ Things only have the power that you give to them. That goes for objects and people.
I grew up with a Ouija board. Played with it all the time. My parents kind of insisted; it was one of the things we used to do at parties.
That crap works, yo.
Would you rather be oblivious to everything, or hold the burden of knowing everything?
Night Paper
Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all
Like I am now, oblivious.
Then there were these little candles all around the chapel and I was trying to take pictures of them thinking, "This is the light. This will be awesome."
*shivers*
Hope, I already know everything.
Except for if this is your first time here or if you are a regular who is playing with us.
Oblivious to everything.
I don't want that much power and knowledge.
Knowing everything imposes too much of a burden, but it does give you a lot of power. Then, how do you use this power?...Another question.
Know everything.
If I didn't know anything, and was oblivious, I would always be wondering. If I knew, I would find some way to come to terms with it. Knowing what I'm dealing with is better than being surprised or blindsided.
To decide who lives and who dies. obviously. ^_~
Would you rather be oblivious to everything, or hold the burden of knowing everything?
That's a tough one. I think I would have to say the burden of knowing, though it would be by only a small margin.
Are you not answering your own questions anymore? Fingernails or eyelashes?
Would you rather be oblivious to everything, or hold the burden of knowing everything?
oblivious, because then you can always learn, and that's fun.
kapunua, have you pulled any meanings out of that dream yet?
Kapu, your responses are always spot on.
Just that I should be a good influence on my kid cousin/god(dess)daughter.
And that I should stop taking every picture with the thought, "I wonder if my BlogBelieve friends will like this!" in the back of my mind. ;D
Thank you, KD. ^_^ I'm usually thinking that I'm amusing no one but my lame self.
Kapunua,
I have posted here as an anon before(not a weird, creepy, or insulting one). I had some fun with the marriage post last night, actually.
Nice to officially meet everyone.
Kapunua,
I have posted here as an anon before(not a weird, creepy, or insulting one). I had some fun with the marriage post last night, actually.
Nice to officially meet everyone.
You weren't "god" last night, were you? because no one's officially claimed that one yet.
Nice to meet you, too. Thank you for answering my question. How'd you come to find our little BlogBelieve?
So were you Paul? Because Paul was pretty goddamn hilarious.
Sorry for mistaking you for Mayo at first. S/he said s/he was going to come back later, so I just took a wild stab in the dark. ^_~
Hello Begin to Hope
Nope, I wish I could take credit for that but it wasn't me.
K - I was Paul
Nice to meet you, Begin To Hope.
Hey Begin to Hope: We have a way of remembering anons, too. What else did you post?
That's right, Elena, I'm sorry. I meant God, but BTH has already denied that one, too.
So which one were you? They were all pretty funny.
K - I was Paul
That one totally rocked, Elena! I was laughing so hard I couldn't see straight!
No problem, I'm honored to be mistaken for SS.
I found loveman's blog(don't even remember how) back when it was started and subsequently found mayo's when it was started. I'm a long time lurker, you could say.
Hi begin to hope, good name title ;)
Wow, so you've been around for quite some time, then. That's about when I signed on, too.
So who else did you post as? I trust that you weren't mean.
Think you'll stick around some? Get an account, play along? That sort of thing?
hey everyone. What's going on here?
Oh my god.
MissT fessed up to being God.
She said, "Let there be light."
And it....was good.
Hope is what you shall be called!
Hmmm...I so hope that dude's doing okay. Seriously.
Hmmm, I was the anonymous at 1:13, creepy anon, blog detectives, and rw's #1 fan.
hey mustard. miss t wasnt god. she was asleepat that time
OMG what?
Yeah, like Mustard said:
OMG what?
Very clever, begin to hope
Well played, Hope.
You should stick around.
Aw, Fimble. I thought she said she was. I cracked a joke about me getting into heaven and she seemed willing ;)
Guess I was mistaken :)
Well, shit. Who do I need to talk with about getting in there?!
lol sorry but no if your talking about the god last night on the last post then no its not miss t. we are still trying to figure out who that was
i was dropped, now i'm found. ;)
And that I should stop taking every picture with the thought, "I wonder if my BlogBelieve friends will like this!" in the back of my mind. ;D
this made me grin! but, it's creepy, isn't it, how this place infiltrates our brains?
rw's #1 fan was well-written, btw. eerily, even! :)
Hi begin to hope. Nice to meet you
Ahhhh.
Okay.
I feel much better now.
Kapunua!!!!
Oh my god what?
Srsly. Tonight isn't the time to be OMG-ing and leaving us hangin'!
Kapunua,
I don't think I ever posted anything too memorable. I did some detective work with the story SS wrote, tried translating some latin. I think I posted 'new mayo blog' once. See, nothing too memorable.
Well, thank you for translating, then. ^_^ That was nice. What makes you decide to join us on this night of nights?
Mustard, nothing in particular. Just things and stuff. And my own sense of exasperated hilarity.
Oh. Well ho hum.
Oh. My. Gawd! Look at that!
*points over your head*
Hi, everyone. I feel like I know you all already. I would love to stick around.
toujours, yes, I scared myself writing that.
I figured it was time to just jump in and post. I guess I just can't stay quiet anymore.
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