It is quiet, and the weight of my somber mood holds my thoughts in check. I have given thanks. I meant each and every word. But I can't escape the boundaries defined by custom.
And I am grateful for you. The remarkable way you hold your ground. When I turned to myself for answers, I found strength and pride. When I turned to you, I found wisdom and patience. I could use some of that now.
Balance.
I think I will sleep tonight. I will allow my dreams to lay and lie along with me.
p.s. grateful for you as well (and the diversion).
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«Oldest ‹Older 2401 – 2450 of 2450Failure? Hmm, that's a loaded question.
Personally, failure to me is breaking a promise, even if it's something innocuous like saying I'll call you but I don't. (Take note, all the people I owe emails to, I'm lying in a big puddle of the F word.)
General level? How about, say, our government failing to take care of its own people, failing to end a "war" that wasn't necessary, letting millions of people live in poverty and starvation and disease, putting our nation into irreversible debt...
Gotta stop with that, getting angry. Too late at night for that.
Did that answer your questions?
J
J I'm still here and great nod to Hunter S Thompson.
Night Paper
Punks - Thanks. It's slowly getting better, at least until I get to work tomorrow.
Failure... When you don't live up to your own expectations.
-A
AIM: shewolfkapu
Elena, you and L will have to have a discussion about the Dr. She loves his writing, his way of looking at things. We have the Rolling Stone cover with his pic on it from when he died framed and hanging in our living room. (It hangs next to the one with Kiefer Sutherland on it!)
And L also has "Where the Buffalo Roam", I think you mentioned that yesterday. She likes "Fear and Loathing" better, though.
J
thanks for the quote, kapunua. i've got a hair-trigger worry switch, though, so i'll defer to your sensibilities in this.
as for the failure question: on a personal level, i feel like failure is not using whatever it is that makes me "special", having a drive to do something and yet not doing it, that's failure.
it's also, conversely, failure not being able to do what it seems like everyone can do, those ordinary tasks that somehow seem so out-of-reach and beyond my capabilities, that's failure, too.
so, not being special enough and not being ordinary enough.
nice. :/
Still no AIM, K, sorry.
Email for now.
J
I don't think I want to be ordinary. I like who I am. I don't want to be like everyone else.
I believe everyone is special in their own unique way. I like being unique :)
ugh. did i say hair-trigger worry?
i'm re-reading the post. i'm making with the marge sounds. is that what you were talking about, kapunua?
J - I actually found a signed copy of "Fear and Loathing" for my husband a few years ago. It's one of his most prized possessions.
Don't tell L that, Elena, she may fly to Kansas and fight him for it!
Seriously, she really admires his work. And she's disappointed in him for not taking his own advice. I'm sure you recognize the admonition she uses with Mayo:
"Stay on the ride." I believe Hunter's quote was, "Buy the ticket, take the ride." Well, L was angry with Hunter when he killed himself b/c he went back on his own words.
J
Calaf, or whoever the hell you are, are you still around?
J - He did go back on his words but I don't think there was any way in hell he could stop himself. Sometimes people go in too deep and they can't find their way back out.
Yeah, Elena, we figured he just came to the end of his rope and said "Fuck it, I'm outta here." He had cancer, right? I know that Johnny Depp arranged a 21-gun salute for him with cannons after his death.
J
Just finished watching Extreme Makeover: Home Edition, and as truly incredible as it is, I hope to God I never, ever have to ask for anything like that...
Is that mean to say?
-A
No, Amy. Not at all.
Reality shows in general make my toes curl, so many of them are scripted. The best ones (at least for laughs) were The Osbournes and, God rest her soul, Anna Nicole Smith.
J
Johnny Depp arranged a hell of a send off for him. They had been friends since Hunter had let Johnny actually live with him for a short time. Depp wanted to study him so that he could play him in the movie. I think Depp did an excellent job.
Okay, well, bedtime for me. And the cats.
Especially the cats.
*evil look at the cats.*
-Amyranth
Oh yeah, Johnny was spot-on. Eerily so. And he had some of the best lines of all time. "Quick, man, like a bunny!" And the one about the bats that you came up with yesterday, that's a great one too. "Poor bastard, doesn't he know he's in bat country? Oh well, he'll find out soon enough."
And who is it that plays that hitchhiker? I know it's someBODY but I can't remember who.
J
Night Amy, and night Amy's cats. Don't be evil to your mama.
J
You said we're not celebrities, we spark and fade, they die by three's
"They die by threes" goes for nursing home patients too, OLOS. What's yer point?
J
J - I think it was Toby Magurie wasn't it?
Night Amy
Elena, yeah, that's it. I was going to say Chris O'Donnell but Tobey Maguire is right. Aw, our little Spider-Man!
J
So Mayo, what now?
I do believe the ball is in your court.
Say it.
I'm waiting.
Elena, I think we've been deserted.
As pleasant as it's been talking with you, I think I'm gonna try to get some sleep, too. This impending rain is killing my head. Talk to you tomorrow, I hope!
Night to all the others, wherever you are. Night to brother Mayo, and my baby, SS. Here's to visions of you both decorated in twinkly lights and garlic--I mean garland. ;)
Talk to you tomorrow, kids!
Love, Peace, Happiness
J
There are lots of balls in lots of courts around here tonight.
i smell bullshit.
Silence.
How typical.
Same old shit.
Why don't you focus on your own relationship and stay the hell out of mine.
You made your bed, go and lie in it.
Night J I've enjoyed talking with you as well
K - It's a fucking Ballroom
Hmm, think I'll hang for a bit longer, Elena. Developments.
Bitter Anon: what relationship? How is Mayo fucking with yours?
J
Hi, laundry.
Hey anon right after laundry, didn't you come on here and say that exact thing once before?
Original Punks said...
Hmm, think I'll hang for a bit longer, Elena. Developments.
Bitter Anon: what relationship? How is Mayo fucking with yours?
Maybe she's addicted to this blog and her husband is going to leave her? ;D
So you remember her too, K? Wow, that was a while back, around October 20, I believe.
Just sayin'.
J
I'm getting up from bed to call bullshit.
And now, back to bed.
-A
Are you airing dirty laundry?
Ooh, K, I bet that's it. Angry husbands/wives are the worst.
Yes, hello Laundry, how are you? Feeling...
Wait for it...
Dirty?
J
An exact date, J.? Wow you're one up on me! ^_^
sup, kapunua?
how's your evening/morning going?
Only reason I remember is b/c it coincided with the Leathermouth show in NYC.
Same weekend I got attacked by an anonymous for being "fangirly" over, let's see, who was it now...oh yeah. Frank Iero.
Again, just sayin'.
J
Yes I did but it bears repeating, for all the good it will do me. This sadistic bastard has selective hearing and doesn't care about anyone but himself.
Try being passive aggressive with ME, and see where it gets you, 'Mayo'.
Feels good to say things anonymously, is that why you have dragged this out so long?
Well Anon, honey, tell us what's wrong. What has Mayo done to you to make you so upset?
J
You're not TInk, are you?
K, I'm thinking someone else. And oh how I wish I had AIM right now!
J
Anon honey, where'd you go? We won't yell at you. Maybe we can help you. We know Mayo pretty well, we could put in a good word or something.
J
New post.
J
He's doing what he does best. Being selfish. He knows it, I know it, everyone knows it but nobody will say anything. They never do. There is no point. I've seen you pull some shit in the past, but this is low. I will fight you on this. Even if you win it will be a hollow victory because the resentment will be there, under the surface. What kind of man uses emotional blackmail to get his own way? I will leave you to think about that. I suggest you take a moment to reflect on your priorities and ask yourself what is really more important.
FITS, where have your been? As for my blog, I deleted all of my posts. I don't feel up to writing one for a while.
I'm too lazy to keep track of thousands of comments on this blog.
And I changed my "About Me" section. Either way, it wasn't necessarily meant to be offensive or creepy. Just me being my weird self.
This is great info to know.
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