So you let that go with little debate.
Perhaps it was inserted too late.
Could you please go back in time
just a minute and revisit the rhyme?
The store remains locked.
But the shelves are carefully stocked
with reasons there for all to see.
You are oh so very close to me.
p.s. trust that I try to reflect back to you what you have given to me.
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I believe in fate.
I also believe there are events and situations that occur that put us in the right place at the right time.
I believe that's what's happened here. We're all here for one reason or another and that we're here to share that experience with our fellow bloggers.
No matter how much we despise some of the antics and no matter how much we hate that the message we all once held in the highest regard has been diluted to water, we were brought here for our love of the music. And now, we get to travel this new road together, and I'm fucking grateful that you all are here with me.
/no more sap, I swear.
Thanks Jennicula, great story from you too.
In the meantime, it's bedtime (yoo-hoo, Franky baby, let's go! Oh wait, I'm delusional. Where ARE my meds...). Talk to you all tomorrow! Wonder Woman says goodnight as well. :)
Peace Out!
J.
Ahh BC, now you know how I was feeling last week when I couldn't sleep due to too much candy, coffee and sugar! Welcome to the club!
=]
Sweet dreams OP J&L!
*hug*
Speaking of sugar shakes, it was the end of tech week at work, and the Head of Wardrobe & designer treated us to coffee, cake, and pecan pie. We were all so buzzed by the end of the day we were practically bouncing off each other!
'Night, Original Punks!
Ooh Just read a bulliten from MCR on myspace!
"Aloha! My Chemical Romance are ending the year with a new show just announced in Honolulu, Hawaii at Blaisdell Arena at 7pm on Fri, 14 ! This show goes on sale tomorrow morning, Sat. Nov 3rd, at 9am HST!!! Click here to get tickets. Aloha."
Probably old news!
And now, we get to travel this new road together, and I'm fucking grateful that you all are here with me.
Hear Hear, Mustard.
How'd I get into MyChem? Well here's what I wrote on my LJ that day:
So yeah, My Chemical Romance got me. It started, I guess, when I read Gerard Way's apparently famous "Hey, girls, you are beautiful" quote. So famous now that if you google the phrase "Hey girls you are beautiful" there are tons of links, but for those who don't feel like doing that, here is the entire quote: Hey, girls, you're beautiful. Don't look at those stupid magazines with sticklike models. Eat healthy and exercise. That's all. Don't let anyone tell you you're not good enough. You're good enough, you are too good. Love your family with all your heart and listen to it. You are gorgeous, whether you're a size 4 or 14. It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside, as long as you're a good person, as long as you respect others. I know it's been told hundreds of times before, but it's true. Hey, girls, you are beautiful." Last week after I read that, I printed it on the back of a picture of said singer and hung it up at work with a message for all the girls to turn it over and read it. Because where I work, we're all always beating ourselves up over how we look: too big, too small, too lumpy, too pointy, etc. I mean, there is a lot of self-loathing. That quote inspired the idealist in me. (OTOH, it made the snarky pessimist in me go, "LOL @ beautiful people trying to tell ugly people not to beat themselves up, Yes Gerard I realize you were fat and miserably abused in high school, but try being unfixably ugly and see if you're saying the same thing then.") I don't know what the context was--whether he planned it or wrote it or said it in an interview or just off the cuff--but it doesn't matter because after all, he said it. And that pretty much rules. (He also said of rock music: Women being objectified . . . so many bad things that are just inherent and ingrained in it that don't have to be that way. and Hey listen up! All you racists, sexists, homophobes, and just plain *ssholes, we've got a message for you...GO THE F*CK HOME! We don't want you here, don't buy our merch, and don’t listen to our music. If you have our CD, break it. We don't want you and we don't need you here. Hurray for that. Even though Kurt Cobain said pretty much those same things about fifteen years ago.)
So I downloaded a few of their songs as you know, fell in love with "I'm Not Okay I Promise" and a handful of other songs. It takes me a good few days to really love a song and I hit critical mass today with a bunch of them. So it was that song, "Helena," "It's Not A Fashion Statement It's a Deathwish", and the hilarious "You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison" that made me spazz on down the road at 80MPH. YKWTDTGLUIP really effing tickles me, with lines like "my cellmate's a killer, they make me do pushups in drag!" and the eerie giggle at the end, which from what I understand is not Gerard Way, but rather Bert (insert "his middle name is Phil" joke here) McCracken from The Used.... Which actually disappointed me because Gerard Way does have an incredible giggle, (the likes of which you can find on youtube,) so infectious it could have come from Plum Island, and so childlike that I swear to god a fairy is born everytime he does it.
The music I guess has been called emo or screamo or scene or whatever, but guess what? It's just straight up punk. I don't love all of their songs, I really just love the ones with melodies, and they are fantastic for singing along. (As much as I try to sing along with 30STM, I'd really rather just listen to them because I don't want to sing over Jared, and I can't anyway as he is too fantastic.) I know if you like 30 Seconds to Mars it's not cool to like My Chemical Romance, but screw you. Like Dr. Ruth always says: "If it feels good, do it." It feels good.
(And to this day, I have yet to listen to "Cancer" all the way through. It's tacky.)
Haha RW! That sounds like a day in the life of Paperheart! Always bouncing off the walls and such..
Gods, Paperheartxx, I'd love to see MCR in Hawaii!
missT paperheart and Jen I'm glad I'm not the only one without a deep reason for liking the band.
Some forums you feel like you should, or you won't fit in.
I had a nice childhood and school experience, though I was shy I was funny and had a lot of friends, sure some shit happened but I have managed to cope pretty well.
I think they have an original sound and I liked the theatricality of TBP.
I think that's why I'm disappointed with Gerard's behaviour, it's just cheapening and distracting from the music and the performance.
Like you, Kapunua, it was the message that first grabbed me.
Haha RW! That sounds like a day in the life of Paperheart! Always bouncing off the walls and such..
It's nearly 9 hours later and I'm STILL in a sugar coma 0_0
Kapunua, I enjoyed your story!
I agree that the song Cancer is tacky. Although, the first time I heard it, I cried. Just to hear a song literally describing the pain someone goes through, that got to me. Especially since my Aunt was just diagnosed with breast cancer and lung cancer.
It's nearly 9 hours later and I'm STILL in a sugar coma 0_0
Awwh you'll get over it soon enough RW!
But you will feel deathly tired after!
The perfect reason to finish that movie Kap. You still hold onto your first impressions, though they may now not mean anything.
I printed that quote out as well. I tried to make it a point to read it everyday, just to get a little jumpstart on my self-appreciation. A tear-stained paper is a reminder.
Like you, I don't care how it was said, in what context it was said, or by what method it was said. All that matters to me is that it was said. I want to believe he still believes it, too.
At least it's the weekend, Paperheartxx, I don't have to get up early. My hair appointment is not until 3pm.
That's good RW! I am dying my hair tomorrow, and I am very excited!
&& then a concert on Sunday!! =]
How I got to know of MCR was when I first heard of them through the Used. They were always talking about them,there was always this dude with Bert and I think that was early in '04.
Then I'm not okay came out and I just fell in love with them.I saw the video one day and I just loved the song,but I also just connected with them. They were so different and I can tell right away I can identify with them. I wasn't okay and they were singing a song about that,it was great.
I guess the rest is history,bought the CD then a coulple weeks later bought Bullets.That CD also amazed me. What also made me love them was their live shows,my first one was in '04 and they put on the most amazing one I've seen. It was amazing.
They also had a message. A great message.
I got caught by the music and stayed 'cause of the message.
I also loved their point of view about rock and roll,they didn't have groupies or any shitty thing like that.It was nice and different then any other bands.
What concert, Paperheartxx, and what colour are you doing your hair??
The concert is Boys Like Girls with All Time Low, We the Kings, and The Audition.
Hair, blonde and purple highlights=]
I think this may be the perfect time to share this. It's long, but please read it all. You may have read it before, but it's worth reading again.
"an open letter
tonight i feel i need to tell you something.
i need you to understand that i am doing my best.
i need you to know that i have been sitting on this couch in relative silence for two hours thinking about how i wish i could take your collective sadness and shove it down my throat.
i need you to know that any ill words that may fall from my lips are there simply because of my frustration and inability to fix things.
god, i wish i could fix you.
i wish i could grab you with both arms and hold the back of your head so you would never have to see the horrors. so that you could stay a child. so you could stay happy and wide-eyed.
i want your misery.
i want your sorrow.
i want it all so you will never have to know its depths. i want you to run and fuck and fight and swing and sing. i want you to know that my only true happiness is knowing that i can internalize your hopelessness.
i can handle it. i can. and i want to. i want to hold it all inside me so you can realize the person you were meant to be.
because i know my role. what i was put here for. what my "gift" is.
emotional dumpster.
and im fine with this. i swear to you, i am. because it may be the only thing i am good at. put it through my wringers so you dont have to get your hands dirty. because see, i know how it feels. i know how it feels and ive got it down. i know how it goes. ive done it. i can handle it. and i want it.
i want your insecurities and disillusion because i can handle anything you throw at me. ive gotten up from much worse. i want to tear open your rib cage and dig out the rotten parts and sew you back together with an 'all-fixed' little bow. i want to kill you with kindness and open your eyes to a world that i wish i saw years ago.
i need you to understand that you have a direct influence on this world. that the more happiness you put out, the more you will get back. that a sense of humor is what winds your heart and a young mind is what moves your feet. i need you to see the talent you have been given and what a tragedy it would be if you didnt entertain that to its fullest extent.
but most of all i need you to believe. god, all i want is for you to believe that you are worth it.
every smile.
every hug.
every thank you.
fuck if thats not the only real shit left in this goddamn world.
this moment is not as bad as you think it is. its not. i say this as a fact.
because you owe me.
fuck it, you owe every goddamn person reading these words.
you owe US to be a better person. to smile more. to breathe in deep, smile, count to three then slowly breathe out at least once a day.
i told someone tonight that i try to make every person i love and care about, understand, know and feel their importance in my world.
and i want you to know that you matter.
and i want you to know that if no one else does, i believe in you.
now make me proud and never look back.
just know that i will still be here watching you.
smiling."
They also had a message. A great message.
I got caught by the music and stayed 'cause of the message.
My experience was the reverse - caught by the message, stayed for the music.
Actually, their May 11 show in Toronto was the first time in 11 years that I've been to a concert. I'm not fond of crowds, flashing lights or loud noises, so a band has to really move me for me to be enticed to see them perform live. And I'll have seen them 3 times this year. I don't usually see three shows a year total, never mind three shows by the same band.
So most of us are older (and the ones who aren't, are wiser,) most of us liked the message of MCR first, or at least it was an important part of the draw, and most of us feel that Gerard's behavior and them taking MSI on tour is destroying everything they've worked for.
I still wonder why we all ended up here, specifically.
oh I just thought,not that it applies to "Cancer", but don't you just hate when a person/ band releases a song and you just think - oh here's the new wedding/ funeral song for the year.
especially wedding ones, like Shania Twain, call me cynical but sometimes it just screams "put this on to sell albums"
Hair, blonde and purple highlights=]
Ooooo! That sounds lovely!
That was powerful, Mustard. Who wrote that?
I still wonder why we all ended up here, specifically.
I don't know. Fate's my best guess.
MIB, I never read that before, who wrote it?
Kapunua, I agree. I ask myself why we all got drawn here everyday.
RW, I am excited!!
That was beautiful nustard,thanks for sharing.
What is it from?
Ergo, I worked at a church for a number of years and heard awful songs picked for weddings.
You know that song by Celine Dion that was the theme song to "Titanic?" That was one of the most popular songs picked for weddings. What I can't understand is: why would you pick a song that basically represents a ship going down? I never thought that was a good omen to start a marriage out on.
(My apologies to anybody that used that song at their wedding - best of luck to you)
RW, pecan pie is da'bomb diggity! It has to be made just right though. Yum-yum. Anywhoooo......
I won't get in to just exactly how I fell in love with MCR because honestly, I'm not even sure now. All I know is the Helena video was on and Gerard kind of creeped me out, but in a good way. At the time I wasn't even sure why. My sister (anyone guessed who yet?) gave me the cd because I told her that I really liked the song. Whatever song I listened to that day just immediately became my favorite. It's still that way now. All three albums. All the songs. I can't name you one song that I don't like. I am partial to Revenge though. I absolutely love Thank You for the Venom and I Never Told You What I Do for a Living. Ahhh, hell. I love'em all.
I don't think there is anything tacky about Cancer. Especially if you have ever witnessed someone suffer. But that's just me.....to each his own.
Night everyone!
Sis Midnite, hope you return to us tomorrow!!!
RW, I am excited!!
Me too! We're both going to be regally coiffed this weekend :D
I know you guys want to know, but I'm afraid if I said, it would detract from the meaning. Would you mind if I refrained? It's not a poem or anything of the like, nothing published. It was an entry in someone's journal.
'Night, S&V20!
S&V20; you have a sister? :)
It seems we both kind of found MCR the same way, with help from our sisters!
No worries, Mustard :)
(My apologies to anybody that used that song at their wedding - best of luck to you)
My first laugh of the night. Thank you :)
AAAGh Jen! I hate that titanic song to, my sister inlaw had it and I said, but she's singing about losing the guy forever!
My sister (anyone guessed who yet?)
Is she on here?
Mayo,
I'm about to call it a night. My day started out aggravating me and now I feel relaxed and hopeful again. Comfortable and settled in once more. I went back and read all of your posts again and realized I was probably a little off the mark with most of my comments. You probably read some of my shit and think where the hell did she come up with that, but my hope is that somewhere in all of my babbling that something strikes a nerve or hits home with you. Or perhaps, you even find a little tid bit that makes you smile. Just know this...it comes honestly and straight from my broken, twisted, scarred, but healing heart.
Wherever you are, I hope you are also settled and comfortable. Find those things that make you happy. If you've forgotten, REMEMBER. Do you need to jumpstart you memory? Look around you, it's right in front of you, to the left of you, to the right of you, and right behind you. Bet you are smiling now.....
Goodnight..
Love to You Always,
S
p.s. Sometimes it's the simplest of things....for me, sharing music with my sister.
Resurrected Wreck, *high five*!
Awh MIB, I understand. ^_^
What if we guessed?
Goodnight princess smoke.
That titanic song was used at my friend's sister's funeral.
So whenever we saw Titanic,he got a bit emotional. Quite the opposite of a wedding.
Sdock10!
Goodnight! Tell your sister, S&V20, goodnight as well!
*hugs* to you both!
P.S. He didn't have my name written on his arm! And it appears Sdock10 wasn't on his neck that night either..
most of us feel that Gerard's behavior and them taking MSI on tour is destroying everything they've worked for.
Behaviour perhaps, but I'm going to seriously say that having MSI around doesn't seem to be ruining their careers. I see a case of Just Married syndrome, which is the same thing Mikey came down with after he got married. The difference is they can't send Gerard on a sabbatical for a few months and just keep going.
-Amyranth
I'm glad I made you laugh Mustard. Everybody needs to laugh.
'Night, Sdock10, have a good sleep :)
Goodnight SDock10. Sleep well.
Sdock and S&V?
Are you guys the sisters?
Hey is it Sdock!?
By the way,goodnight to you,sdock.
smoke&venom20 said...
At the time I wasn't even sure why. My sister (anyone guessed who yet?) gave me the cd because I told her that I really liked the song.....
November 3, 2007 4:59 AM
sdock10 said...
p.s. Sometimes it's the simplest of things....for me, sharing music with my sister.
November 3, 2007 5:03 AM
That's what made me guess.
Heh-heh.
Guess who's the evil sister and who's the angel?
P.S.- Night Luci!
S&V20
Are you the evil one? ;)
I'm retreating to my inner sanctuary. Tomorrow's a new day. I'll make the most of it. All of you have a wonderful day or night, depending on your side of the globe.
Mayo:
I still have faith that all of this can turn around. But, you have to have it as well. It's a two way street here buddy. You give a little and you take a little. I'm tired of giving so much, so could you fill in the blank areas. It can happen, but you have to want it to. Until tomorrow.
S&V20
Are you the evil one? ;)
Do you even have to ask? ;)
Man,you told us how long ago, and I never would have guessed.
That little thing you guys did was like a mini puzzle,really cool.
Goodnight MIB!
Sweet dreams!
*hug*
I wish my sister liked MCR, so we could have something in common to discuss. Alas, she doens't even know who they are :/
10 and 20?
oh and Titanic is far more a funeral song.
Shania Twain should just write wedding songs, seems it's pretty much all she does
Goodnight mustard!
Goodnight, Mustard. Pleasant dreams :)
I guess I don't have to ask Resurrected Wreck!;)
Paperheartxx,
I'll let you decide.
^_~
XOXO,
S&V20
resurrected wreck said...
I wish my sister liked MCR, so we could have something in common to discuss. Alas, she doens't even know who they are :/
I wish I had a sister.
-Amyranth
I'm guessing you are smoke&venom20!;)
I don't know though..
It's a close call!
For those who want a sister, you can have one of mine! :P
Goodnight Mustard.
Amyranth, you can have my sister. :)
Great minds think alike Jennicula! ;)
I wish I had a sister.
You can have mine.
That was a terrible thing to say, wasn't it? :/ But I barely talk to her. We've never been close.
That was a terrible thing to say, wasn't it? :/ But I barely talk to her. We've never been close.
Awh! I wish I were closer to my brother..
My brother is great. We really get along well. He's just a lot of fun. My sister is like a wet blanket. Not much fun and is always saying stupid stuff like "oh, that's illegal" or "Dad's going to find out" or my favorite "are you really going to wear that outside?"
Ahh!
Was everyone abducted by aliens?
I have no siblings and it sucks so mush ass.
Entropy, If you want a sister, I'll mail her to you toute suite.
Haha nevermind.
You know how usually, your siblings are supposed to keep secrets for you? My sister tells my parents EVERYTHING. Ooh well, that's how you know they care ! =]
My sister is the ultimate suck up. I refuse to play that game. I love driving her nuts.
I'd love one,thanks Jen.
Haha, I admit, I can sometimes suck up to my parents..
Ok, Entropy, you'll get her in the mail sometime next week. Please be prepared for some general bitching about your person or home. Then settle in for some mind numbing conversation about her.
When you're ready to blow your brains out, you can return her. I'm sure one of my parents might miss her sucking up to them.
Haha Jennicula, I loved reading that!
Great,expect her a day later!
Could you please keep her for a week?
Entropy said...
I have no siblings and it sucks so mush ass.
My dad used to say the reason why I have no brothers and sisters is because they "tried it once already, and didn't like it".
That's my dad.
-Amyranth
Oh Amyranth, your father must be related to my warped family tree.
:O That must've really hurt Amyranth!
Jen,I'll try but no promises with the way you talk about her.
Entropy, I forgot to mention she doesn't cook or clean. Please be prepared to entertain her. I guess you can send her to Amyranth when you're done. :)
What time is it in Milan right now?
Jennicula and Paperheartxx - Not really. I have a very similar sense of humor to my father, in reality it's because my parents have differing RH Factors in blood types which makes it very hard to conceive a baby.
My mother's body essentially sees the baby as foreign tissue and expels it. So they HAVE tried, but after 3 miscarriages and a near-miss (that was me) you can only put yourself through it so many times, right?
Mayo, are you taking notes? I'm going to quiz you on my life story in another blog or so.
-Amyranth
Well,I do have alot of games,but she can't get near my laptop.
Amy,you up for it if I send her your way?
Ooh. Lol.
My dad and I don't get along. My mom says it's because we are so much alike. We bitch and complain about everything. We're stubborn and don't admit when we are wrong.
I hate my dad for being gone for 5 years of my life, yet love him at the same time for it.
P.S. Amyranth, I hope Mayo is paying attention! Quizzing him is a good plan.
Amyranth, I'm glad there is humor for you and I'm glad it was something they couldn't help (Rh factor and everything else tied to that).
6:44 am
I was thinking that if I stayed up a bit the kids from vienna might wake up and give us some reviews from last nights show.
Hmm.. I know that Frank and the others from Leathermouth manage their myspace. Right now they are online, so I am wondering whether that could be Frankie..
Well, they were online 5 minutes ago, now they are gone.
Oh! Did MCR play last night? How did I miss that??
Does anyone know if they're still doing the full Black Parade stage show?
Maybe 'cause the idiot(who also runs the myspace) didn't put it on their website.
I swear,this person sometimes.*shakes head*
Entropy said...
Well,I do have alot of games,but she can't get near my laptop.
Amy,you up for it if I send her your way?
Hmmm.... How good is she at shoveling snow? We're getting some here pretty soon.
-Amyranth
Amyranth, my sister does no manual labor, but will tell you how to do it right. Would that help?
I'm nodding off in front of mu comoter screen. It's nearly 2am - why am I still up??
Must fall into bed...
Have a good night, everyone!
Jennicula said...
Amyranth, my sister does no manual labor, but will tell you how to do it right. Would that help?
Wow. I'm a slow learner, so she'd probably have to show me, because I'd drive her nuts doing it incorrectly.
Did I mention I'm slightly evil as well?
-Amyranth
Goodnight RW! My sugar rush is rubbing off!
*hug*
Goodnight RW! Sleep well.
and to anwser your question,no they're not.
Mine too, Paperheartxx, I'm crashing fast!
Oh :( That's disappointing, Entropy. I'd thought that the European & Australian shows were going to be full-on BP. Still, they put on a good show regardless.
Good night RW. Don't fall asleep on the keyboard.
Amyranth, you and I could have fun with her then. She doesn't have much of a sense of humor, which entertains me at no end. I'm a bitch. What can I say?
I agree.. Crashing pretty badly here too.
Mayo! Study!
Everyone else! Good night and sweet dreams!
-Amyranth has 2 cranky cats to put to bed now.
Goodnight Amyranth.
Awwh! I told you it would happen Resurrected Wreck!!=]
lol.
Jennicula said..
Amyranth, you and I could have fun with her then. She doesn't have much of a sense of humor, which entertains me at no end. I'm a bitch. What can I say?
Apparently, that you're a bitch! XD
G'night!
-Amyranth
Goodnight Amyranth!!
*hug*
Goodnight Amy!
Sleep well.
'Night, Amyranth :)
'Night, all!
*heading to bed for real this time*
Well, I guess I'm off too. My warm bed is waiting for me. I'm freezing my nubbins off. Maybe that's why I'm so bitchy this evening. Wait, no, that's just me everyday. :)
Goodnight everybody!
Haha Sweet Dreams RW!
*hug*
Goodnight Jennicula!
*hug*
Sweet dreams!
Goodnight Jen!
Sleep well.
Rawr
I am very bored/tired, but I don't want to go to bed yet=[
Ha,I love rawr.
I don't want to either,it's friday.
And I'm curious about last night's show.
I am too Entropy!
=]
How was your day today?
Okay,normal. Almost got caught being on here while at work though. That kinda sucked.
You?
Awh man that sucks! Uhmm school was boring of course. &I feel kind of bad because my friend was going to ask me out a few days ago, but I told someone else that I didn't like this guy that way> Then yesterday, he lost his big football game, and we avoided eachother all day. Then today, he didn't show up at all for school..
I hope he's okay.
Aw,how sad.
I'm sure he's okay and everything will work out.
Yeah I hope so. I know he was feeling a little sick, so I really shouldn't worry myself!
There you go!
Good attitude.
=]
So where was the show tonight?
I best be off to bed now!
Goodnight Entropy!
*hug*
Tonight as in the 2nd? or tonight as in the 3rd?
Seeing as how it's 7:30 in the mourning over there it's a whole new day.
But I think I know what you're talking about and I'm just blabbering 'cause it's late.
Haha,anyway,it was in Vienna,Austria.
Goodnight Paperheart!
Sleep well,have pleasant dreams and talk to you tomorrow.
Is anyone here?
I am here, but only lurking and reading comments...
but hello anyways BC.
morning/evening/middle of the night???
couldn't make it last night.
hope you had a fun time.
got a busy weekend ahead but will try and pop in at some point.
bye for now all.
I see from earlier posts that everyone was sharing stories of how they discovered MCR, and how it made them feel. Annoyingly, my story is nothing special, and the feelings I wish to describe seems impossible. But, like the others, i'll take my shot at it. And Mayo, I hope it makes you smile.
Okay, so I havn't been a fan from the beginning, I do not own LOTMS, and i've never been to see them live. I came across them when WTTBP was released and really liked the tune. I'd never been a fan of rock music but for some reason I really liked this record. Me, being a teenager felt like I had to be like everybody else. I was a bitch, I was popular, I smoked, I drank, and I pretty much was a horrible and nasty person. I listened to hip hop music, and so did everybody else. Anyone that didn't was usually bullied and terrorised. Everybody was scared to be unique.
So, after hearing WTTBP I kept it to myself how much I liked the song. I wanted to prevent getting shouted 'grunger' at me by my 'friends', and I didn't want to fall back into the catagory as those others. Stupid, I know. But the pressure of todays society surrounded me and I was overwhelmed by such fear.
Then, came the release of Famous Last Words. This song had such an impact on me. I gazed at the T.V screen as I watched the video, looking at how amazing these 5 boys were. For the first time, I actually appreciated music.
I was straight onto the internet, researching the guys. Looking for interviews, shows, anything! I downloaded the rest of their songs and couldn't believe how fucking good they were. The feeling that I got when watching the first few interviews were strangely exciting. I had this feeling in my stomach, almost like butterflies, but it rose all the way up through my chest. 'These guys are amazing', I thought. The intensity of how much they loved doing this suffocated me. I wasn't used to this. They had so much passion.
Soon, they're kind words and messages completely overwhelmed me. That day has changed me forever.
I'd never bought CD's before. 'I've got my computer', I used to think. 'I'll just download'. But allthough I had downloaded all their songs, I felt the need to give them money. Money I felt they truely deserved.
So, I was out with my 'friends', and I went into Virgin Megastores, picked up all three albums and went to pay for them. My friends gave me the most weird look, and they couldn't stop laughing at the picture of the guys on the back of the Revenge album. I felt sick, but happy at the same time for I finally did something for my own sake this time, not everybody elses.
Since that day, I play all three albums religiously. Without your music, I dont have the will power to change anymore.
Because of you, I stopped drinking. I saw the effects it had on you Gerard, and I didn't want to be the same. I saw a clip on LOTMS of you in a drunken state, and I actually remember how my body started to tremble. Gerard, and alcoholic? It made me feel so numb. Then, that sensation came through me. You're sober now! You got rid of that monster, and your an amazing person. I wanted to be the same.
Soon, my 'friends' and I grew apart. They didn't want anything to do with me, I didn't want anything to do with them. They were bullies. They were horrible, horrible people. I currently dont have a lot of friends, but im so much happier this way. I have gained respect from all of those that felt like being different was a bad thing. I am a good person now, and I couldn't have done it without you. Your music has brought to me something I thought i'd never have... A heart.
- Jade
jade. that was great to read and the reason MCR are so fantastic. thats what its all about. that is the point. thanks for sharing.
Thanks FASC.
MCR are truely worth every second I devote to these blogs.
- Jade
Jade,
That was so well put. You must always be true to yourself no matter what others think, otherwise you live a half life.
Embrace all people, beliefs and tastes and you will grow to be an even more rounded human being :)
Thankyou for sharing.
TTFN
I don't have a great story to tell about how I got into MCR. I just remember seeing the INO video on Kerrang and thinking it was a really unusual video. I loved how when the camera panned out at the end they were just a bunch of guys playing in their garage. They also supported Green Day at Milton Keynes and I just thought it was cool that the guys from that video were right in front of me. Bought 3 cheers first then Bullets and then TBP.
They still inspire me even though it seems obvious something is going on with them at the mo. I was quite upset to see the pics of Frank from Germany, and I agree with the person who said it seemed like he was hiding his face or not making eye contact with the camera cos he shows so much emotion through his eyes and he didn't want us to see it. I got the impression something went down before the EMA's, maybe they had a fight or something cos Frank seemed to be making an effort but his heart wasn't in it. It was like he was hurting on the inside. I know what that is like cos I sometimes end up fighting with my bf just before we go out with friends and it pisses me off that he can be sweetness and light and the life and soul of the party with our friends when only an hour before he may have been shouting and swearing at me. Makes me feel like shit but I have to try and pull myself out of it or everyone thinks it is me that is the party pooper. Excuse me for feeling upset cos my bf has just used me as an emotional punching bag!
Morning all! Or night, depending on where you are. Hey Sissy! You up yet?
Jade -
That was a nice comment. You should see how my co-workers look at me when they shut my office door and see my MCR poster on the back. I think it scared them. They've learned to just shake their heads and laugh. I'd dare any one of them to even THINK of making a smart remark. It would be on like donkey kong.
SISTER MIDNITE......WHRE ARE YOU???
Myabe you should start being truthful to yourself and others.
Maybe*
does anyone know what prompted SS's latest latin phrase?
Good Morning All,
Good Morning Mayo,
I hope everyone is bright eyed and bushy tailed this crisp fall morning. I actually got to sleep late so as I type this I'm drinking coffee and still trying to wake up. This day has the potential to an absolutely, spectacular one. (Nothing monumental planned...just feeling very much alive today.) I'll let you all know how it turns out.
So, you all finally figured out our secret. The Princess is my little sister and make no mistake about it she is the best one EVER! You asked who's the angel and who's the devil? Well, all I will say is don't let that cold, hard, but fabulous outer shell fool you. Underneath lies a heart of gold and more strength of soul than I have ever seen in anyone. What can I say except that I am so lucky that we get to go through life learning and leaning on each other. However, it probably doesn't help the Princess that I spoil her to death....concert tickets, Pencey Prep Tees, MCR everything, but it would only be half the fun if I had to do it alone. The truth is that I'd give her my last drop of blood if she needed it. No question...
Jade and everyone else who shared their stories, Thank You so much. It seems we all share similar tales. I will just add this and put it as simply as I know how: MCR makes me feel...everything. Music hadn't done that for me in a long time and I felt awakened. When people say there is SOMETHING special about this band, it is no exaggeration. I never grow tired of listening to them, watching them live, or reading about them. "Helena" was the song that started it all, and I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard it. It gave me chills, and this band's music called to me. I bought the CD and everything else I could get my hands on, and and the rest is history.
I will add this..If you have never seen this band perform live, you only have half the equation... Because the interaction between this band and their audience, is like none other. You can't really grasp the passion we all have until you see standing and singing in a room together.
OK...enough babbling.
Love,
s
p.s. "Helena" still gives me chills.
I am back.
Do not ask me.
I will not answer.
This is the only way, typing can reveal too much.
Post to follow.
Behaviour perhaps, but I'm going to seriously say that having MSI around doesn't seem to be ruining their careers.
Note that I didn't specify it was ruining their careers. The mney keeps rolling in; the teenies keep buying into it. The teenies and fansheep will like any band that Gerard tells them to like, which I think is also part of his "this band is amaaaaayzing, amaaaaayzing" nonsense.
I said "everything they've worked for" meaning: their message, trying to get sexism and racism out of the industry etc.
Well then, bonjour!
To give ease of mind to all of you.
An argument before the EMA's made all the sad faces.
It has pasted now.
You will see more smiles, and more of the old ways, enjoy.
Say, didn't see you there, anon. Whoever you are, why not just reveal everything? Mystery is so overrated.
An argument before the EMA's made all the sad faces.
It has pasted now.
You will see more smiles, and more of the old ways, enjoy.
Sorry, I don't trust ny inside source that tells me "an argument has pasted." Are you from INO.net?
An argument before the EMA's made all the sad faces.
Actually there was only one sad face. Frank tried to discuss something calmly with Gerard and ended up being 'punished for his thoughts'.
He knows only too well that Gerard is the master of passive aggressive punishment. How dare Frank tackle such a sensitive subject with Gerard! In a battle of wills between the two, and as long as Frank feels it is better to suffer an injustice than to commit one, Gerard will always win.
Nah, Gerard might win the battle but Frank will win the war. He won't stoop to that childish level.
P.S. - Frank's got a whole bunch of folks here willing to beat Gerard's punk ass.
Gerard is incredibly charasmatic, he can wrap Frank and the others around his little finger, especially Frank.
Gerard needs to be careful, if Frank is getting 'weary', he might finally be ready to give up and I don't think Gerard realizes how lost he would be without Frank.
So much would be solved if those two would just do it.
Kidding. Really! ;)
P.S. - Frank's got a whole bunch of folks here willing to beat Gerard's punk ass.
Yeah, you tell em' S&V
Gerard needs to be careful, if Frank is getting 'weary', he might finally be ready to give up
I don't think that is necessarily what Frank meant by his location.
Gerard is incredibly charasmatic, he can wrap Frank and the others around his little finger, especially Frank.
Gerard may be charismatic, but the rest of this statement is totally untrue.
Actually there was only one sad face. Frank tried to discuss something calmly with Gerard and ended up being 'punished for his thoughts'.
(ACTUALLY) It was an argument anyway you put it.
And it did affect the band as a whole.
I dont wish to be pedantic, but what happened before the EMA's was between Frank and Gerard.
I will concede the aftermath of the discussion between the two affected the whole band, as it always does, but that is only because Gerard makes the others feel as if they should take sides.
I take my leave!
Till next time.
And there will be a next time!
Chin up everyone.
Sorry, I don't trust ny inside source that tells me "an argument has pasted." Are you from INO.net?
Yes, because we were with the band before the EMA's happened and know exactly what went on.
Uhh, so i see more rumors
Thats was a lovely story Jade.
My story of how i got into this band is very similar to yours, without the drinking though.
I was pretty much a horrible person who just followed the crowd until they came along.
So much would be solved if those two would just do it.
Kidding. Really! ;)
No you aren't! ;)
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And so, the Anons are back at it again. "Yes they did!" "No, they didn't!" I, for one, do not wish to read your arguments. It'd be great, since you all seem to know so much, if you could get your stories straight.
Anon @ 3:12-
Care to share how you know that a certain guitarist may be "weary." And you know what I mean. I choose to not elaborate, seeing as how he wouldn't want me to and how these blogs may be "patrolled."
What makes you so certain?
I apologize, please forgive my intrusion. I did not mean to 'argue' with anyone, my intention was only to correct the anon at 2:35.
No apology necessary, but you can understand the frustration when you have two people who have not built up a trustable reputation correct each other in what seems like a ping-pong match.
Who are we to believe?
*Or maybe three people. It seems there may be three Anons. Are there three Anons? This is why I stay confused 85% of the time. :)
Good morning all.
Anons, Anons everywhere.
I for one go on facts not rumors.
But the one anon who wanted to (ease our minds) might be real.
Anon did not want to say much, and was very coy about it.
The other anon on the other hand dose want us to believe it knows something we do not, i for one think that anon is the one full of shit.
I also do not believe it was the same anon, that was arguing with the other anon, did that make sense?
because that anon did say it would not respond back.
OK I'm losing my mind!!! must have coffee!!!!
I will be back, must go get coffee!!!!
good morning everyone.
the anons are back oh well. there was one anon that wrote to act like it was mayo - well i dont believe it for a minute. dont now why but really why bother trying to act like mayo. you know hey writes on his profile.
anyhoot how is eveyone these days.
I understand your frustration. It is prudent to be cautious of anon's that claim to have the latest inside scoop on the band, divulging personal information as this would not happen.
I trust most of you are able to discern a genuine message from someone trying to provoke controversy or cause dissension among you.
If a band member visited this blog, very rarely would he feel the need to interrupt the flow of conversation. If he leaves a comment, his intention would be to enhance the discussion by providing a different perspective to contemplate and consider.
The greatest obstacle to truth is not ignorance - it is the illusion of knowledge.
we appriciate that if a band member does comment on here that they are nice and they do try and enhance the conversation. but understand that it is a bit hard when you have about 4 anons at 1 time saying things and you cant identify which is which cos they dont have names. do you understand. thats why we look to the profiles. well i do anyhoot.
HOW U DOIN BB! ^+^
Now everybody STFU, we'll probably never know. All we really can do is be concerned.
That said, today is my Grandma's 88th birthday. Happy birthday, Gran!
Well I'll take a stab at your identity without having to "check the time." It's a pleasure.
Please accept my apologies for showing massive amounts of frustration and untrustworthiness. Normally, that is not my demeanor, but in cases such as this, it's better to be cautious.
You have shown me I need to be more observant. Thank you for that.
hello k and mib. how are you both.
happy birthday to your gran k. does she read her to?
Finally an anon with something worth listening to!
Happy Birthday to your Grandma
^-^
If I may ask, what is it you're weary of?
Thanks, guys! I will tell my Gran that you all said happy birthday. She doesn't know you guys but she'll like that anyway.
(By the way, this is the first time, I think, that an anon speaking in third person referenced "someone in the band" and I find that a little eye-opening.)
Back to business as usual.
Haha,"pasted".
Happy Birthday Kapunua's Grandma!
Anonymous said...
I understand your frustration. It is prudent to be cautious of anon's that claim to have the latest inside scoop on the band, divulging personal information as this would not happen.
I trust most of you are able to discern a genuine message from someone trying to provoke controversy or cause dissension among you.
If a band member visited this blog, very rarely would he feel the need to interrupt the flow of conversation. If he leaves a comment, his intention would be to enhance the discussion by providing a different perspective to contemplate and consider.
The greatest obstacle to truth is not ignorance - it
Sorry!!! I still do not believe you are someone who knows something.
So just give it up, most here have been here along time, i think we know bullshit when we read it.
And yes we are smart when it comes to anonymous, trial and error has made us weary of anons who clam to know stuff.
But feel free to continue your little fantasy, we also love fiction, sci-fi and horror, oh and ghost stories.
i am off to have dinner on the river so i will see you all soon. bye bye
But feel free to continue your little fantasy, we also love fiction, sci-fi and horror, oh and ghost stories.
I do love a story! *nudge nudge*
I dont think they visit THIS blog, but have lurked around other websites without interfering. How else would Gerard know people accuse him of drinking again.
Kapunua, 88 years old, I hope she has a wonderfull birthday.
Give her all the love you have, i never knew my grandmother, but she lived to be 98 years old.
We all love a story!
Afternoon everyone...I've missed so much this week and I have no clue where to begin. Looks like I have some reading to do here!
On a random note, paperheartxx, I quickly read that you were putting purple in your hair??? I actually JUST got back from my hairdresser and I had purple chunks put into my hair as well!
Ok we could talk about ghost.
I'm just making a point here, but with all the video technology, you would think, we could have proof of ghost and UFOs.
Do not get me wrong, i believe strongly in the after life.
hello hello everyone. What is going on overhere?
How else would Gerard know people accuse him of drinking again.
I don't know. How would he? I've never heard him state that, "The people on Buzznet and INO think I'm tipping the pitcher again." Has he and I've missed something?
I think we decided awhile back that there are probably people from Riot Squad and Warner/Reprise monitoring this blog. And do you remember Andy? He said he found out about it from his younger cousin. The word of mouth about this place is traveling at a fast pace. And above all of that, if any of the group members looked at INO or Buzznet, they'd see a direct link to here, for those are the two places these blogs were posted to begin with.
As an only child and the end of my line.
Everyone i love is gone, and sometimes i feel so a lone in this big world.
I would give anything to see or hear them once more, but alas i have only heard my Aunts voice once, but that was enough to convince me, I'm not really a lone, and there is life after death.
Entropy:
Are we on the same page about the story? I think we're due another.
Hello BC, nice to see you, or read you, that is...lol
Hello pj how are you? Remember that you are not alone. You have us *hugs* ^_^
Well he has never directly sated it, but at the Maxwell show, he went out of his way to assure people his drink was a Red Bull. So obviously they arent clueless.
We are on the same page and definitely due for another.
But, holding to your beliefs that they've "observed" the goings-on at Buzznet and INO, they will have seen a link to Love Man and here, along with the others that were around. I'm fairly certain that they know about it and I'd be willing to bet they or the label and management company know our concerns. Is it going to change anything? Probably not, but it's worth it to try.
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