Thursday, November 1, 2007

It was the moment when he had the light that it worked.

So you let that go with little debate.
Perhaps it was inserted too late.
Could you please go back in time
just a minute and revisit the rhyme?


The store remains locked.
But the shelves are carefully stocked
with reasons there for all to see.
You are oh so very close to me.




p.s. trust that I try to reflect back to you what you have given to me.

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Anonymous said...

BC, my eyes are practically black, but my grandmother's were hazel. I'm really pale too.

Fimble Star said...

pizza =


The derivations of the word "pizza" are believed to be from an "Old Italian" word meaning "a point", which in turn became the Italian word "pizziare", which means "to pinch" or "pluck". The first time that the word seems to show up anywhere is in a Neapolitan dialect word - picea or piza -circa 1000 B.C.E., referring perhaps to the manner in which the hot pie was plucked from the oven.

Anonymous said...

I never ever knew that, FS! Thanks, that was neat!

Anonymous said...

Wow. So was my grandma star. She was tall, pale, and hazel eyed. I think I inherited my tallness from her because I am much taller than my own mother. And our love for pizza runs in my family. I swear we order it at least once a week.
If not, we go to the store and get boxes of them ^_^
Pizza fucking rules. Period.
Miss T, I would kiss the pizza creator's ass if I could :D

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Anonymous said...

can someone please post the photo links everyone is talking about? Where Frank looks sad?
I can't find them in the blog.

Sorry couldn't cheer today, not much time

Original Punk J said...

gel,

My Mum's brother died from cancer a couple of years ago, and the entire time after he found out he was sick, he would never tell his family he loved them, or hug them.

Mum couldn't understand it. She would visit, and when she would leave she would say she loved him, and he would be silent, looking down. It really bothered my Mum for a long time.

The first time I listened to 'Cancer', and heard the lines "My brothers and my sisters still, I will not kiss you, 'cause the hardest part of this is leaving you", I knew why he had done that.

Weeks later I told my Mum about it, and she smiled and said "I figured that out before he died. I understood."

He couldn't bear to face them, knowing he was leaving.

L.

MissTottenham said...

Ha! I agree BC.

FS your pizza historian skills are second to none.

Anonymous said...

Yes, yes, BC. Pizza is good all the time, any time.

Shame in me said...

hey bc how are you im fine thanx for asking. Just ate a lovely peporoni pizza was very yummy. this is weird for me to be in on a friday night but i slept too long and i am still exhausted so im spending friday night with you guys.
My favourite songs off of tbp are this is how i dissapear, sharpest lives, sleep, famous last words, i just love depressing tragig strong songs but i have to say i had fun stomping round the tesco supermarket earlier tonight listening to black parade (the song) really loud through my headfones haha it made me smile stupidly haha

Fimble Star said...

omg L you have just put shivers down my spine. i am sorry to here about your mums brother.

Shame in me said...

god please excuse my terrible spelling haha my tired sausage fingers arent typing to there full potential haha

Fimble Star said...

oh miss t. you have to be uptodate on pizza knowledge if your going to be part of the cult. bow down to the mighty pizza hahaha

MissTottenham said...

Yes FS, and we should sacrifice garlic bread to our pizza god.

Anonymous said...

Shame in me, I am doing pretty good, although I am eating too much chocolate at the moment. I have alot of leftover candy from halloween.

L, although I know we do not talk to each other that much, I am sorry to hear about your mother's brother.




Miss T, should we start naming our pizza cult now?

Star, the odd thing is, I have brown eyes, which are not fantastic, but sometimes I see people become startled when they look into them. Funny thing is, Gerard is one of them ^_^

Anonymous said...

Rahaha!

MissTottenham said...
Yes FS, and we should sacrifice garlic bread to our pizza god.


And this is yet another reason why I love this place! That was HYSTERICAL!

Anonymous said...

Oh wow, thank you for sharing that story original punks. Its definitely one of my favorite songs because its so honest.
Sorry to hear about your brother =(
I guess ive never listened to it because it reminds me of my grandma, although she didnt die of cancer, it just has always been the song to coincide with her death.

Anonymous said...

*mothers brother

gnothi seauton said...

So sorry L.

People do what they feel is necessary in times of crisis.

I'm glad your Mum understood.

Anonymous said...

Miss T, I would sacrifice my delicious spaghetti to the pizza god anytime ^_^

Original Punk J said...

Thank you, fimble star.

You often hear stories of people who are courageous in the face of terminal illness, but you rarely hear of the reality of the fear.

'Cancer' deals with that side, the side no one wants to talk about. And even though it makes it hard to listen to, it had to be said.

L.

MissTottenham said...

L, that story was heartbreaking. Thanks for sharing.

MissTottenham said...

Yes BC, all food sacrifice is welcome.

Maybe then the pizza god will bless us with a good pizza harvest.

Original Punk J said...

gel, bleeding chaos, GS, thank you.

I was glad she figured it out before he passed away. It made it a little easier for both of them, I think.

L.

Fimble Star said...

all hail pizza lets all do that chant lol

oh pizza
oh pizza
oh we love thou pizza
juicy tomatoes
stringy chesse
may all our toes be smoothered with tress.
oh pizza
oh pizza
oh we love thou pizza


all together now hahaha

Anonymous said...

Maybe Miss T, although i did have a good harvest the last two nights already :)


origninal punks, you are truly welcome.

Anonymous said...

That is a very beautiful chant fimble :D

Original Punk J said...

Thank you, Miss T.

J.'s dad died from cancer 19 years ago. This song was hard for her, but she said it was the image, the memory that gets painted by the feeling in the words, that made her hurt to listen to the song. She said it's what Gerard can make you feel with his voice, as if he is feeling it too, like he knows EXACTLY how you feel, and is expressing it for you.

One of the rarest gifts, a voice that can not only please an ear, but can touch a heart, is what he has.

See why we love you, you motherfucker?

Goodnight all,
Love,
L.

MissTottenham said...

Good night L. Once again, thanks for sharing.

gnothi seauton said...

Goodnight L, love to you and J.

Fimble Star said...

goodnight L
speak to you soon

Anonymous said...

Night, L and J! Sleep tight!

Anonymous said...

Goodnight L. Take care

Anonymous said...

Hello everyone!

Mayo! you are a nut!

And i know this is way out there, but!
I just wanted to say something about my experience with a band.

I grew up with bands, my ex-boyfriend was in a band.
His band lasted for six years, did everything together on and off stage, for a long time it was fun and little things did not seem to matter, but with life, comes change.
People change, you find you are not the same person you where six years before.

His band changed, when one member decided it was time for him to move on to something else.
And it came out of the blue, a band that thought they where so tight, so tuned into each other, was about to loose someone who had been with them from the beginning.

They played together the whole year, but knowing it was there last year together, brought stress into the band, it made the other members start questioning if the band should go on.

Arguments started between members, hurt feelings and harsh words where exchanged between all the members of the band.

Girlfriends and wives started to put there two cents into it and before long, a gig was just a job to do, no one spoke to each other, just played and went home.

This has no happy ending, the band did break up.
They could have gone on with out that member, replaced him, wished him well and at the start of the year, that was the plan.

It was the stress of it all, feelings of abandonment, and betrayal started to break them apart, one by one towards the end of that year.

Friendships where lost with no hope of forgiveness, in a band that called each other brothers.

Lets hope this is not happening with this band, but the signs are there, pictures say so much that they can not say.
I feel for all of them, because i was on the side lines, helpless to do anything.
And unless someone in the band is willing to make a stand, and try to bring back what is lost, and is brave enough to fight to save a sinking ship, that ship will sink with no survivors.

It is not my intention to bring down the mood here, its just been on my mind for so long and the last picture's worried me, as iv seen those looks before.

Now someone bring me out of my depression, give me some hope please!!!!

Anonymous said...

Hi there PJ. Let's hope something like that will not happen with this band as well. Such a waste of talent. How are you?
We were talking about pizza earlier.

Anonymous said...

Where did everyone go?

Anonymous said...

I dont think their is no need to worry or set our minds on fire.
The Pictures may seem to be pointing to all these signs, but pictures and videos catch only a small moment in time.
One thing about this band, is that all members are VERY close to each other. While they may get into fights and argue at times, they have this bond that i have never seen amongst any other band. I guess that is why the idea of them breaking up has never crossed my mind, despite whatever shit occurs.

Anonymous said...

I'm still here. I was looking for a snack in the kitchen!

Anonymous said...

I totally agree with you ,gel!

Anonymous said...

That's good. I am trying to contemplate whether to make some soup. It is pretty chilly here.
so what happened with the kickball game?

Anonymous said...

Pizza pizza
I love to eat a pizza
tomato and a cheese
pizza pizza please

( care of The Wiggles)

(BC - still here just not constantly)

gnothi seauton said...

Umm, umm, bring you out of your depression?

Ice-cream, pizza, chocolate, all available in Mayo's house!

Food for the soul!

Anonymous said...

I'm still observing.

My toes are cold... that's all I can contribute without seriousness.

Anonymous said...

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHERE PICTURES ARE!!!

Entropy said...

The pizza talk scared me away,I don't know about everyone else.

PJ,that is sad that happened.
I don't have much hope that it won't happen to this band so I can't say anything to you to bring you out of that.

Anonymous said...

Hi ergo!

BC, I had soup twice today! Soup is good anytime!

Fimble Star said...

i am here. just watching a film as well

Entropy said...

http://www.buzznet.com/tags/mychemicalromance/photos/mcr-at-the-2007-emas/?id=27326091

You can look around there.

MissTottenham said...

PJ, someone posted this on VV's page a few days ago:

Walking on eggshells all the time is an exhausting task to accomplish.
Too exhausting to deal with the stress of a farewell tour?
It's not only the fans who turned their backs on their messiah.
Remember, not all apostles were loyal till the end.
Kiss. Kiss.

Anonymous said...

Hi! BC, believe it or not, I'm eating pizza right now!

Gal, thank you for the encouragement, it has been hard thinking the way i have lately.

Anonymous said...

Hey, Ergoproxy:
I'm not good at this. I hope it's right!

http://www.theblackparade.net/showthread.php?t=5593&page=19

Anonymous said...

I could go for some tomato soup right about now. Eh.

Anonymous said...

hi there pj. you're eating pizza now? Lucky duck! ^_^

Anonymous said...

ergoproxy, here's a link to the pictures:
http://community.livejournal.com/chemicalromance/2987486.html#cutid1

Anonymous said...

It's so good to see the whole gang here on the blog.

Shout out to all of you!

Hugs to all!

gnothi seauton said...

AIP - :)

Anonymous said...

Hugs, PJ!
Wow, I really can't stomach Livejournal anymore since I've been hanging here.

MissTottenham said...

AIP, do you want to borrow my slippers?

Anonymous said...

Yea! Friday is pizza night here.

I really do need to spice it up sometimes, gets boring same ole same ole, every Friday nite!

Fimble Star said...

lol i have just scrolled the entire page for the link to the pics but sorry i cant find it but i see i would have been late lol oh well sorry

srgo have you seen them?

Anonymous said...

I hate having cold or wet feet. Wow, I better stop posting random comments.

Entropy said...

Ergo,did any of the links work for you?

Anonymous said...

Oh shit!!! I just thought about that.
I have no life! Friday nite, pizza and internet.

But i do have you guys!!!
And makes me smile!
You are so much better company!

gnothi seauton said...

Random is good Star. Random makes a lot of sense to me!

Anonymous said...

ICE CREAM? Pemegranate chocolate chip, please!!

MissTottenham said...

PJ, tonight most of us have done pizza and internet. You are not alone ha!

Anonymous said...

aww thank you PJ ^-^

Anonymous said...

Thanks, GS!
I feel very relaxed when I'm posting here.

My husband and I went out to dinner tonight, and he said, "So, what's up with Mayo?" I laughed hysterically.

Anonymous said...

“gnothi seauton said...
AIP - J”
Yeeeessss?

“MissTottenham said...
AIP, do you want to borrow my slippers?”
Depends on the size… I have small feet and shoes tend to be clown-like on me.

Star- Random is good, it amuses me.

Anonymous said...

Well if my drummer broke his wrist and i have a huge fucking lawsuit to deal with, i would be pretty sad looking to.

I think thats part of the reason why they didn't look, so enthusiastic. I mean no Bob=no party.

So anything new on this lawsuit thing?

Anonymous said...

Holy cow, Kapunua, that sounds like awesome ice cream!

gnothi seauton said...

At least you can talk to him about it!!

I've got no-one.

And talking of random, I am currently dancing like a 70's disco dancer in full lycra and perm in Miss T's pizza temple.

Top that!

Anonymous said...

I know I'm way late on this, but the "Sleep" conversation has caught my eye.

"Don't you breathe for me. Undeserving of your sympathy. 'Cause there's no way that I'm sorry for what I did. And through it all, how could you cry for me? 'Cause I don't feel bad about it."


That honesty. That. Up there. That's what I want to hear all the time. That's nothing but words straight from the fucking heart. I applaud that.

I remember distinctly Gerard saying that this song was a "culmination of every stress and fear I had." He said it was very much about fear and a desire for peace.

Very honest.

Anonymous said...

That is the best ice cream! Also HawaiianLehua Flower Honey Cream. NOMNOMNOM!

Anonymous said...

Well gel, it appears the university is seeking at least $20,000 from the band.

Fimble Star said...

gs you make me laugh sooooo much. you carry on dancing gal. whoop whoop

Anonymous said...

GS, he tolerates it pretty well. And it's more fun to talk about them here anyway.

MIB, I wish posts from Mayo could sound like that!

Entropy said...

when I was a teenager I loved bubblegum ice cream. Now it's none in particular,no wait,I really love the cake one.

gnothi seauton said...

AIP - :), not J.

I'm just saying you make me smile:)

MissTottenham said...

GS, you shake it girl.


AIP size 5 UK.

Fimble Star said...

i love the cookie dogh ice cream.

Anonymous said...

I agree Star, but maybe posting poems and song lyrics tells us how Mayo really feels because he cannot form the words himself. Sometimes lyrics express exactly how or what I feel, depending on the situation.

Anonymous said...

Heard it on my drive home, broke down a little bit because...I don't really know why. Made me think of Mayo.


Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what i choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you

Anonymous said...

Entropy, bubble gum ice cream from Baskin Robbins was my favorite!
Mint Chocolate Chip is my fave, though. I wrote and essay about it in creative writing during 11th grade. We had to use our 5 senses to describe something. I wrote something about mint choc chip looking appealing whether it was in a plastic bag, or if I was licking it off of Simon Le Bon's chest. The nuns called my Mom to tell her about it, and she laughed at them.

gnothi seauton said...

You know what they say Fimble ' dance as if nobody's watching ':)

That should be my mantra!

MissTottenham said...

With you there FS on the ice cream front.

We shall serve it for afters in the temple of pizza.

Anonymous said...

http://www.onlineconversion.com/clothing_shoes_womens.htm

I would be a 3 ½ according to that. Maybe I can manage a 4. *sigh*

Thanks anyways…

Anonymous said...

cookie dough ice cream is the best type of ice cream imho, without all the choclate chips

Fimble Star said...

lol gs i do that even if people are watching hahaha. no wonder people look at me funny oh well who cares i can dance how i like.

party on down
shake ya shimmy shimmy
lol

gnothi seauton said...

Miss T,

I like to move it,move it.
I like to ... MOVE IT!

Anonymous said...

I used to always get bubblegum ice cream at baskin robbins as well. Those bastards stopped selling it for some reason :(

Jennicula said...

I'm a jamoca almond fudge kinda chick.

Fimble Star said...

ohh we can have the ice cream after the pizza like you said miss t good idea.

do we need to make a chant for the ice cream then?

Anonymous said...

Wow AIP, you have small feet. I wear a size 10.

Fimble Star said...

HELLO JEN

how are you today i was wondering were you were

Anonymous said...

Mustard-
That happens to be in my top 10 all time favorite songs.

Jennicula said...

Hiya Fimble, Fimble, Fimble. How are you?

MissTottenham said...

AIP, I can squeeze into a four too. I'm sure I can find something to warm up those tootsies.


GS, WE LIKE TO MOVE IT!

FS, knock yourself out on the ice cream chant ha!

Anonymous said...

I’m 4’ 10” … bigger feet would be hilarious looking.

Anonymous said...

I'll make a note of that AIP. A terrific song. Heartwrenching, but I've yet to figure out why. Passionate and striking.

Anonymous said...

Hey Jennicula! How are ya?

Smoke said...

OK, Just wonderin'

Does anyone know how long it takes Sister Midnite to get from work to her home in Deadmonton? Do you have to go by boat or something? Cuz it feels like it's been like 8 hours since she left and I don't know how much longer we can keep this kickball game going.

Seriously though, just a little worried about our co-captain. That's all.

Anonymous said...

Wow you are small then AIP. I think you would only stand up past my waist ^_^
GS, those lyrics remind me of that song! 0_o

Fimble Star said...

jen jen jen i am fine thanks. i will speak to you over bc if you are still there?

Anonymous said...

got photos finally, thank you =)

I wouldn't read too much into them, they look like someone has taken them when probably heaps of photos were being taken.

But I must say the one with Ray with his hand near his mouth *sigh*
that man is just lovely.
and I love Mikey all dressed up

I have really little feet too AIP

Anonymous said...

MIB, his voice and the strings do it for me. Violins almost always make me cry. Well, unless it's like a crazy gypsy violin piece. Then I dance!

Anonymous said...

I don't know S&V. Now that you mention it, it has been awhile since she last posted. I hope everything's okay. Maybe something came up and she had to run some errands?

Entropy said...

I hope our sister is okay.I'm sure she is,just probably got held up.

sdock10 said...

AIP,

I'm 4'11" with shoes on and I wear size 5's. Short people are badass!!

Oh Hi everyone! I'm still here, just hanging on the sidelines.

Jennicula said...

Hi Star, AIP, BC, Smoke, Mustard, Kapunua, and anybody else I didn't mention. How is everybody?

Original Punk J said...

Oh man, some nights you just can't stay away.

Hey again everyone. L and I have been sitting here talking about Gerard, and the music he and the others in MCR have given us.

We thought that all of us could write a little piece to Gerard telling him why his songs are special to each of us. We've all (well, most of us) been telling him we love him, to keep fighting, to do what's right, etc. These are great things to hear. But, you know, when you're full of self-doubt, it can help to hear that other people value your contribution to this life, and think that you matter, and why.
Maybe they all need to hear this. The songs are about more than the words; the music itself has affected us all, too. Plus, the other guys help write lyrics, they're not all Gerard's.

I'll start us off.

The song that hit me the most--at the time--was "Helena". I had heard of this band called My Chemical Romance, and thought, What a great name, wonder what they sound like? I found the video for "Helena" on On Demand, and we watched it.

I was amazed. By everything. The singer's voice. The look of the set. The dancers. The double guitars. The fact that this guy sounded like Freddie Mercury but was a hell of a lot cuter. They seemed like a young bunch of guys to be emoting like that, but it was awesome, in the true sense of the word.

Now, I come from a background of music. I grew up on radio, watched MTV the day the channel premiered, knew all the cutting-edge bands before anyone else did. I knew all the lyrics to everything I heard. But as time went by, the music I heard became stale, stodgy. BORING.

Suddenly, after decades of hearing shit, I'd found a band that was worth listening to, and learning about. Punk meets hardcore rock meets glam rock. All the right ingredients for success.

Guess what? They proved me right.

I'm still listening to them, learning about them.

They renewed my faith in music, and showed me that life is more than watching everything pass you by.

Gerard, Frank, Mikey, Ray, Bob: you guys woke me up. I will always be grateful for that.

Bring that band back to us.

Peace, Love, and Understanding

J.

Anonymous said...

Oh no, someone said Ice Cream.

Okay let's see... Bubblegum, Neapolitan, Vanilla with toppings, Butterscotch Ripple, Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough (I'm known for making dough strictly for eating, not baking), Dinosaur Bones, Udderly Divine, Moon Mist, Hoofprints, and Heavenly Hash.

I can guarantee that most of you haven't ever heard of the last 5.
http://www.scotsburn.com then products, then scoop ice cream.

And my shoe size is 6.5 and I stand 4'11" tall. Is this eventually going to wrap back around to bra size, or are we measuring other things now?

-Amyranth wants ice cream. Thanks guys :(

sdock10 said...

OH, you guys I bet she just stopped at the store to buy some new BOOOOOTS!!!

Anonymous said...

Billy Corgan was one of my first celebrity crushes. Decades later and still no one understands.

BC, how tall are you? I'm laughing because my 14 year old son is just shy of 6'.

Ergo, I shop in the children's section for the best fit. Cheaper too. :)

Anonymous said...

I'm a 6 aust, 5 UK , 71/2 US
in shoes.

Anonymous said...

Must be Star. The arrangement, the lyrics, the instrumentation. It all provokes a sense of defeat and loss, and at the same time, as sense of hope and spirit.

A true mastermind, Mr. Corgan is.

Anonymous said...

Okay, everyone have a great evening. I'm sleeepy!

Anonymous said...

AIP me too! Though it depends, I am usually a womens small.
I'm 5'3. my brother at 6'2 got all the height!! (but I got the looks lol)

Anonymous said...

For some odd reason, for those of you who are small in height, I want to hug you ^_^

Anonymous said...

sweet dreams and nighty night star!

Anonymous said...

my first real celebrity crushes were Davey Jones and David Cassidy

Entropy said...

I'm 5'5" with size 8 shoe.

Goodnight Star.

Anonymous said...

AIP, I'm about 5'7 or 5'8. Did you guys know that Gerard wears a size 9? My brother is about the same height as him but he wears a size 12 shoe

Jennicula said...

Nighty night Star.

MissTottenham said...

I'm 5,8" with size 5(uk) feet. That's quite small for my size.

I have tiny hands and a very tiny head, miniscule is the word.

I have to buy gloves, rings, headware and sometimes shoes from the kiddie section.

The last time I bought a ring for my pinkie finger, I had to get it from the infant section.

My christening bracelet I've had since a baby still fits me as I have tiny wrists too.

God, I sound like a freak.

Fimble Star said...

good night star

my first celebrity crush was


shane filan from westlife

arghhh i let my secret out shhhhhhhhh

Smoke said...

That's ok, BC. I may only be 5'1, but I'm 6'3 with my tiara.

Anonymous said...

*looks way up at Entropy & BC*
*trembles a bit*

Damn! I would love to be able to reach something without help for just one day.

Bet you guys are allowed on all the good rides, too.

gnothi seauton said...

Goodnight Star.

Anonymous said...

Miss T, you are not a freak at all.
I have big hands but small wrists but my feet are a okay size although I do wear a size 10.

MissTottenham said...

Good night star.

resurrected wreck said...

MIB, his voice and the strings do it for me. Violins almost always make me cry. Well, unless it's like a crazy gypsy violin piece. Then I dance!

I love the violin. My favourite musical instrument, for sure.

MissTottenham said...

S&V20, that's a fucking big tiara.

Anonymous said...

hahaha I am often asking for help to getthings in supermarkets, either that or I climb up !!
That's why guys are useful..getting high things, opening jars and rescuing me from spiders.

I'm actually very independent and resourceful, but I have a killer helpless female look!

Smoke said...

BC, you got a big ass foot.

I can say that cause mine are a size 5. You're like double.

Again, I'm just messin' with ya.

It's all good. Mary Kate & Ashley make some kick ass shoes.

Entropy said...

Aw,AIP,don't tremble at our height.
I think BC is way tall,I think I'm short. I mean Frank is 5'5" and that boy is short.

Anonymous said...

Good idea OP's. I'll take this challenge.


The first time I saw the guys would have been the video for "I'm Not Okay." That's my first encounter with them, but that really had nothing to do with it as you shall see.

Nearly four years ago, I was a complete wreck. I thought I had pretty much sunk as far down as I could and I had no one to help me get out. A shy kid, the one that waits around in the corner, content. That was always me. Never told anyone my secrets and my dreams, not even my parents.

I had come to a point in my life where I had to decide what I was going to make with the rest of it. What I wanted to be for the remainder of my existence. I thought working with dead people would be an okay job. So Forensic Science it was. I realized that was too much work, so the next best thing was Psychology. Sorely mistaken.

I was a semester into my first year as a Psychology major. I didn't even know myself. I didn't want to know myself. I stuck it out as long as I could and it all ended one night as I propped my head up against a pillow in my bed.

I layed there and stared at the cieling for a couple of hours evaluating my nonexistent progress and asking myself what made me happy. Because Psychology wasn't it. I thought back to one song that got me through the previous year and half and I knew immediately what I had to do with my life if I wanted to stay around this place much longer. I had to be surrounded by music, every day, forever.

Back to present day, I waited patiently for The Black Parade to hit store shelves. You all have read my story, so now you know the back story of what finally culminated into a breakdown during "Famous Last Words." That song was my anthem. I admired that singer and writer for having the guts to feel something and say something that I would give anything to be able to say. That song gave me hope. That song, out of all the others, made me feel safe in my own skin after the lows I had had for about four years. I was going to be okay.

That's when I was truly able to say that My Chemical Romance had affected me. That was when I knew I could do things I never thought possible. I knew that I could do it alone sometimes, that it was okay to be scared, that I could make it. That's when I knew.

And I guess the rest is history.

Anonymous said...

Original_Punks - I know many have shared their stories about what MCR means to them, and how they came to that point with the band, and I just realized that I've never shared mine.

On December 5th, 2007 my family lost a close personal friend. Errol James Payne, also known as Jimmy, passed away from a rare form of cancer that he had suffered from for almost 12 years. Jimmy was a musician, an incredible drummer, and he had played with my father for years. Dad and Jimmy had played in the house band at the King Eddy Hotel here in Calgary for about 5 or 6 years together, Jimmy on drums and vocals, and my Dad played bass and did back up vocals.

When we got the news that Jimmy had gone, there were very few tears that were shed, only because we had known for so long how sick he was, it was just a matter of when he would go.

On December 15th, 2007 I woke up early to get ready for work. When I turned on the TV to check the weather, I hit the wrong channel and ended up on Muchmusic in time for the end of one video. I was about to change the channel when "Welcome to the Black Parade" came on.

I have never heard any song so clearly the first time it was played as I did this one. As I watched the video, heard the lyrics, I shook on my living room floor.

For the first time since Jimmy's death, I cried. I cried for him.

I later got a copy of TBP from a friend and spent all day replaying that song, singing along and crying because to me, regardless of who wrote the words, the beat, the melody, that song was for Jimmy.

Now, everytime I hear it, I tear up just a bit, and at the Black Parade show here in Calgary, I cried openly and sang along in the pit.

I still shake when I hear it.

-Amyranth

Anonymous said...

“God, I sound like a freak.”
Normal people scare me. I can’t even imagine what it is they’re hiding.

Jennicula said...

AIP, to get on the big rides you have to tease your hair and wear platform shoes. It works for me.

Anonymous said...

missT maybe a teeny bit of a freak.

only kidding,I prefer the word dainty.

Smoke said...

Yeah, but damnit short people ROCK!

Frankie is MY SIZE!

You tall folks might scare him.

Oh, and btw-

At concerts, will ya'll please sit the fuck down? My tippy toes hurt from standing on them for 2 hours. I can't walk for like 3 days. From now on, if you should see my 'big ass tiara' just kindly step aside.

Pretty please?

Entropy said...

I love the violin too.I use to play it. Whenever there is a great orchestra in the background of a song,I love it right away.

Anonymous said...

Jennicula- I even get carded for things. My son can get into movies but I can’t without ID. Platform shoes would kill me, lol.

Jennicula said...

I got carded not too long ago, but I think the guy was just skeevy and wanted to see where I lived.

MissTottenham said...

Aw Ergo, thanks for that.

I agree AIP, there's something not quite right with normal people.

sdock10 said...

You know what my man says to me?

"Little bitty feet but some big 'ol titties!"

"How do you hold yourself up?"

Sorry, this conversation is turning to teetahs once again.

MissTottenham said...

sdock10, I bet when you look down you can't even see you little feet under you titties.

Anonymous said...

music challenge answer time..

Really I just liked the music.
nothing earth shattering.
They reminded me of a lot of stuff I liked from 70's and 80's punk and I hadn't heard much I liked recently, I'd gotten out of the music "scene" with moving to the country and being a grown up and the hip hop/ pop stuff being churned out.
Sure if I'm down some songs help, but no more than some stuff by other bands.
LOTMS made me feel I knew them a bit better and they looked like really nice people, I felt sympathy for Gerard and his issues, but didn't really identify personally, except for being more shy, quiet and intellectual.
They probably helped awaken an appreciation for music again and I've found other bands since as well.
plus I may be one of the only people in the whole fan base but I most times skip "Cancer" just because I find it a bit dull. I know it's meaningful, and I've lost friends to cancer etc, but yeah, just generally a bit boring when I want to listen to music
(please don't hurt me)

resurrected wreck said...

Sdock10, it always comes back to the teetahs ;)

Entropy said...

Man, I couldn't agree with you more smoke. At my second MCR show in '05,there was this very tall guy in front of me. It sucked but by the time MCR came out I kind of got to the right of him thank goodness.

Haha,sdock,that cracked me up.
Boobs.

Anonymous said...

Lol Smoke, I am aware of how big my foot is but you should see my hands ^_^ I inherited it from my family. Entropy, aww not my fault that I'm tall. I blame my height sorely on genetics dammit! ;D
Curse them.

sdock10 said...

MissT,

You would be correct in your assumption.

RW,

Everything comes full circle eventually.

Anonymous said...

That's funny you should mention boobs sd10. We were talking about them earlier.
Miss T was making fun of mines ^_^

sdock10 said...

Actually, I could shop at Baby Gap if it weren't for my ginormous hooters.

MissTottenham said...

BC, just cos you can't squeeze yours into a coconut bra.

resurrected wreck said...

Good idea OP's. I'll take this challenge.

So will I, in the form of a letter I wrote to Gerard & handed to him after the Toronto PR show in August. It's long, so I've posted it in my blog rather than here. Please feel free to go over & have a read, if you'd like.

MissTottenham said...

sdock10, that really made me laugh.

Jennicula said...

AIP: I have black boots with stacked heels. My husband calls them my "Frankenstein" shoes. I wear them when I want to mean business and kick some ass. You should get a pair. (of shoes, I'm aware the topic is now boobs)

Original Punk J said...

Mustard, Amyranth,

Thank you so much for sharing your stories. This is exactly what we were talking about: why they inspire us. It's not about who's married to who, or who wears bad t-shirts, or whatever. It feels like we've lost sight of why we all met here. It wasn't to bitch about other people's choices.

It was to help a fellow human being. Or five.

I applaud you, ladies.

And for the others of you who may have already shared your stories, would you please consider reposting them? I think we could all use a refresher course.

Again, thank you. I'm still wiping my eyes.

J.

Anonymous said...

I also blame genetics as well Miss T ^_^
Although it is not quite bad having big boobs.

MissTottenham said...

I liked your letter RW.

resurrected wreck said...

Jennicula, my sister is even shorter than me (yes, I'm a shorty too) @ 5'1". Her husband is about 6'2". She's got this pair of Spice Girl platform boots that she insists on wearing everywhere. I, on the other hand, seem to be attracted to shorter guys, so I have not had to do that.

By the way, met Frank in August. He was taller than I imagined. Laugh if you must, but he's tall to me! :P

resurrected wreck said...

Thank you, Miss T :) I find myself wondering sometimes if Gerard ever read it.

MissTottenham said...

Send some my way BC.

I've never known what that feels like.

Original Punk J said...

Kapunua,

Sorry, didn't mean to overlook you. Thank you, too, for your beautiful story.

These are the memories that join us all as friends.

J.

gnothi seauton said...

My story,

Late 2004, in preparation for the June 2005 Download Festival, my sister lent me a pile of CD's. In the pile was Revenge.

It was perfect.

A blend of punk and rock and goth and glam, played with passion and vigour. It ticked every box and filled a hole that was missing at the time, a band that made unique music. And it just appealled to every part of me and renewed my faith in the creativity of people.

Long may they continue to do so.

And Anonymous @ 11.53pm. No, it's not difficult and if you think we don't care then you have been reading a different blog to me. It's just that some days it's too hard, just too much to take.

Does that make sense?

Goodnight all.

Goodnight Mayo.

TTFN

Entropy said...

I think there are more cons than pros to having big boobs.

(Haha,I typed big bobs then re-read it and corrected myself)

resurrected wreck said...

Goodnight, GS :)

Entropy said...

Goodnight GS.

Anonymous said...

Unfortunately, I think plastic surgery is complete bullshit. I do not admire the shallowness of it, so I came to accept who I am and the way I was made. Although it sucks having big boobs sometimes, I would never change it. I like who I am.

Original Punk J said...

Princess Smoke,

Yay for short people!

I'm 5 ft and 3/4 inches with a size 8 foot.

What d'ya think, could we share Franky? (BTW, I like to call him "fun size".)

Maybe all 3 of us could pass the tiara around. Wait, he's got some of his own! I forgot. Well, maybe he could loan ME one, and then we'd be triplets. Hee hee!

(L is 5 ft 10 inches with a size 8 1/2 foot. Add to that her 40DD bra size, and you see why we all call her "Wonder Woman"!)

J.

... said...

At concerts, will ya'll please sit the fuck down? My tippy toes hurt from standing on them for 2 hours. I can't walk for like 3 days. From now on, if you should see my 'big ass tiara' just kindly step aside.

Ya, I get so self conscious about standing up in huge crowds cause I am rather tall... I feel bad when I see people trying to see over the top of me. The only good thing about being tall, is that you can hoist someone up on your shoulders so that they can see heaps high and tell you what's going on.

resurrected wreck said...

What d'ya think, could we share Franky? (BTW, I like to call him "fun size".)

*spits iced tea at computer screen*

JocelynHolly said...

Rawr ?!

=]

MissTottenham said...

well people, I don't have any big heartfelt stories about getting into MCR.

I first found them when I was surfing the channels. I had my head in a magzine and my finger on the remote. I stopped on a channel and without looking up I heard Helena.

I was nodding my head along thinking, I really like this. Until then, music had gone stale for me too and I was listening to old stuff like queen and the beatles (I always return to the old stuff when things go stale).
I can honestly say I liked their sound before I knew what they looked like.

The programme was the making of the Helena video. I looked up and started to listen to what they were saying. I'm one of those people who can't listen to a band if I think the people in it are total knobheads. I liked how they talked, they seemed like really nice guys.

I got the three cheers album first and went onto bullets next. I just couldn't get enough. It was fresh and exciting but just what I liked, ray's guitar solos are so Brian Mayesque.

I started to look out for interviews with them. the beautiful message thay had was so unlike any other band, I just fell in love with all of them. That is why this current behaviour is so sad to me, because the message I loved them for is slowly dying. I'll still love the music, but them as people won't have the same hold over me anymore.

Like Ergo, I also skip the song cancer. Why, because it is about the usual death scenario. My mum has beaten her breast cancer, so at the moment I don't have such negative conotations with that word. I know that makes me lucky. So I guess the reason I skip it is because a part of me says, at this time I don't HAVE to listen to it as it doesn't mean that to me. Does that make sense.

Claudia V said...

SS is back?
Woahhh I have definitly missed alot. :/

MissTottenham said...

Good night GS.

Smoke said...

J.,

I'm not one to share usually but I know Frankie would insist. He's got enough love for everyone!

Wonder Woman,

I just hope I stay on your good side from now on.

Entropy said...

Haha! Rawr,paperheart,rawr!

Entropy said...

Hey silence!

Original Punk J said...

RW,

Thank you for sharing your letter. I'm sure it meant a lot to Gerard. Beautifully written.

J.

Anonymous said...

hey there silence. How are you?
paperheart, remember RAWR! :)

resurrected wreck said...

Oh, good lord, Frank was wearing an "I love Gerard" t-shirt in Bratislava!

And I thought it was just a joke 0_0

resurrected wreck said...

Thank you, Original Punks :)

JocelynHolly said...

How did I get into MCR?

Well, I was about 12 when I first heard of them. This was when my sister was dearly in love with them, and she was 16. I thought that they were creepy! Then one day, I was sitting there watching Much Music, and the Helena video comes on. Wow, I loved it!! That was the first time I listened to them. The Ghost of You and Helena. Those were the only two songs that I would listen to for a while. Helena, because I knew it was for Mikey and Gerard's grandmother, and I was close to my Grandma when she passed away in 2002, &&The Ghost of You because I loved the sound of it. Then, I gradually listened to more and more of My Chemical Romance. By this time, my sister had "outgrown" them, or so she says. I loved their lyrics, I loved the message, and I loved the bond they had. For me, it was about the music. I'm not some teen who liked them for their looks, it was the music that pulled me in. My sister was the one who introduced My Chemical Romance to me, yet whenever I say something she's like "What? Which one's Mikey?" or "Oh yeah, Frank was the hot one!"
=]

Entropy said...

RW,I thought it was just a joke too until I saw a pic.

JocelynHolly said...

Haha Rawr!

Wow I certainly remember BC! =]

Original Punk J said...

Princess,

L says "No worries." She only throws down on those who earn it.

(Psst...Mayo...are you listening?)

J.

resurrected wreck said...

I just found a pic a few minutes ago, Entropy. I immediately saved it to Favourites.

Jennicula said...

I followed the Grateful Dead for 10 years. Highly (no pun intended) devoted to them until Jerry died. I know there were others in the band, but Jerry was it for me. I was kind of lost musically after that.I bumped around and listened to the radio for a change.

One day I saw a t-shirt with "My Chemical Romance" on it. I liked the artwork and the name intrigued me. I found them on line and started to listen to their music. For some reason, it just fit me. The more I listened, the more I liked the music, guys, attitudes expressed. I realized I had musically changed directions and it was a good thing.

I can't say they saved my life. But when I listen to their songs loud and proud, I just have to smile.

Anonymous said...

Rawr! :D
Right now I'm too buzzed on sugar to explain how I got into MCR. All I will say is that I got into them not even two years ago. Next month will be the 2nd year anniversary ^_^

MissTottenham said...

yeah Jen, the music makes me smile too.

JocelynHolly said...

:O Bleeding Chaos, too much sugar?!
There can NEVER be too much sugar.

Original Punk J said...

Hi Paperheartxx,

Thank you for your story, too. So many different beginnings, but we all ended up here. Isn't it great?

J.

Fimble Star said...

goodnight one and all.
have fun tonight

Anonymous said...

Well paperheart, I had too much candy, plus i had a couple of cans of sierra mist. I am buzzed ^_^

MissTottenham said...

Good night FS.

I'm gonna call it a night too. I hope you continue with your getting into MCR stories so i acn read them tomorrow.

Have fun everbody, good night.

Jennicula said...

BC: I had an issue with Skittles and a Dr. Pepper at work today. Never thought I'd get the "sugar" shakes.

JocelynHolly said...

OP,
You are welcome ^_^
I agree, it is great. We all have different stories, different backgrounds. It is truly awesome how we all ended up here, able to talk to different people about everything.

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