A favorite...oh how I do love fire.
I Pity the Wind
Gerald Stern
I am taking off my glasses
so I can stare at the little candles
and the glass of water
in pure darkness.
I am letting a broom stand
for my speech on justice
and an old thin handkerchief
for the veil of melodrama I have worn for thirty years.
I am dragging in Euripides
for his strange prayer
and my own true Hosea
for his poem on love and loyalty.
After a minute I fall down dead
from too much thought
and turn to the freezing wall
for an hour of quiet sadness.
I start my practice later,
twenty minutes for breathing,
twenty minutes for song,
twenty minutes for liberation and ritual.
My poem is about the airshaft
and Zoroaster
and the soul caught in its last struggle
with the two-headed cow, father of everything.
My elation has something to do with light,
my misery with darkness,
my secrecy and fear and distance
with neither.
I end up with a pillow
and a painted floor, as I always do,
my head on the flowers, a little pocket for air,
my right arm drifting and dangling.
I end up just humming,
true to myself at last,
preparing myself for the bridge
and the hand that will lead me over, the hand I adore.
I pity this hero,
so in love with fire,
so warlike,
so bent on teaching.
p.s. I couldn't resist you and your agile fingers as they swept over my heart filling it with glory. To follow the mass, my own words prey.
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Watch the days pass, one by one.
An interview not yet taped.
A shadow be hind him pushed and won.
False words and smiles to seal his fate.
After this,
Nothing! For i will (pasted) away!
But my eyes will still see.
A spirit that can not stay.
A love of all here, but can not be
Be kind to me as i go,
Tears fill my heart, as I bid goodbye.
PS....When you use the word pasted, i will smile.
PS......Pomes, (Poems) was a joke for my pasted.
Anon,
You are not leaving us for good are you?
L.
Anon,
Baby, what happened?
L.
anon.
are you ok??
farawaysoclose,
I don't think he is. Something seems to have happened.
L.
Anon, it sounds like you are calling out for help/attention. *hugs*
Sweetheart, we will ALWAYS be kind to you, and tears fill my heart and eyes as I write this. I don't want to think of what might have made you write these words.
Please don't give up, don't stop loving him. We won't, even if he doesn't want it.
If this is really goodbye, we will still be thinking of both of you, and you know we will see you around.
Pactum Serva. We love you both,
L. and J.
I definitely did not pay enough attention to that post. I thought the Anon was directing it at Mayo, now it sounds as if they were referring to themselves.
Anon:
If you're around, please come back and talk. We need to know you're okay. Because, with the poem you posted, I'm concerned.
A shadow behind him pushed and won.
False words and smiles to seal his fate.
Anon, is this about you? Have shadows and false statements pushed you over the edge?
You now have me worried, if that's what you were asking for.
Anonymous,
Please don't leave us hanging. I know who you are, honey. Please come back and tell us what's happening. I pray to God that we're not too late.
J.
J:
You know who this Anon was?
There is cause for major concern isn't there?
who is this anon??
hope whoever they are they are ok.
J:
Who is this? Who do you think he is, and why do you think something may have happened?
I'm very concerned, but I don't know why.
Mustard, I feel the same way...I've got an eerie feeling.
Wow, so last night I had my first dream about this blog. The dream was that I had woken up today and Mayo had posted another entry. It was also in red, but all it said was, "Why does everything I write here only annoy all of you? Should I stop?"
And I was trying to answer to write, "Fool, did you not see our replies? Didn't I tell you how much I loved the poem you posted? Didn't I send you an entire photo album on photobucket because it inspired me? Don't be like that!"
I was trying to write it but then there were a bunch of people in my house who kept interrupting me and making me leave the computer. Then they pushed the sofa in front of the computer and I couldn't get to it, began to feel like I'd never get the message across.
It was really frustrating!
In other news, if I may take my wn fangirl moment, has anyone noticed how good Frank looks lately with his super-long hair? I sure am liking it. ^_^
Oh hey, and those of you who thought that Mikey as gonna come along and knock some sense into Gerard with this whole MSI thing, well, that's all gone to hell now, isn't it? >_> Bah.
Mustard,
He called you "astute" last night.
J.
Are you sure, J?
Are you positive?
The demeanor has done a 180.
Nothing's changed on his profile to let us know. Does he not want us to?
hey kapunua! i am so with you on frankie and his hair!!
have you seen the pics of mikey in the msi t shirt then??? i was like....that wasn't supposed to happen!!
i'm no clearer on the anon cos i've not been around that much lately. but i hope he/she is ok.
oh yeh and your dream...frustrating much! i've had a few dreams about mayo and the blog, mayo isn't gerard in the dreams, well he is him but doesn't look like him. weird i know??
Kapunua,
I get your dream. It's like you're telling him, "We've told you and told you, but you're not listening." That's how we're all feeling. Like we're butting our heads against a wall. I want to grab him and shake him and say, "Look, motherfucker! We love you, so stop destroying yourself!"
J.
Whoa, wha'd I miss?
Ahh, I'm not so sure about this anon's identity. Does it matter? We want everyone to be okay and to feel like they can continue posting here no matter why they are.
Unless they suck. Then it's a different story.
So anon, why not pop back in and say what's up?
to J and MIB,
you think anon is mayo???
scary.
i'll be back later, gotta go pick my kids up from school.
J., that must be what it's about. That, and an unsettling feeling that he might pull the plug on us at some point. Hate thinking that.
No, Anon "Is Not Mayo",
I don't know anything for a fact, but I have a gut feeling about that.
J.
Kapunua, my fear is that he'll pull the plug accidentally. My stomach is in knots this morning. Has anybody checked the news? Doubt there'll be anything anyway, but it never hurts.
J.
Good morning everyone. I see I missed a lot, per usual. I loved the quiz, I actually knew a lot of the answers! I think one of them was about me, which really made me feel the love. It was one that was added later: "Who sees dead people?" Me! A.K.A. Anon30. Well, I only saw one dead person, but still it was nice to be remembered.
I still have a lot to catch up on and I am work; so I will be in and out today.
Mayo, glad you post another blog for us. It makes me smile. And SS, happy you came to join in as well. Always a pleasure to see you around.
I agree Kapunua.
But, everyone was freaking out making me think bad stuff.
I don't know who it is, but I hope they do return.
No, Anon "Is Not Mayo"
So, you saw the conversation about that then? You have me worried J. If it is "The Ghost," the attitude he has today is much, much different than it was yesterday.
Anima, so YOU were anon30! I was anon33.
I pray to God that every bad feeling I have is wrong, Mustard, but reading the "pome" only gives me bad vibes. Like he's telling us something bad happened, enough so that he's given up, or HAD to give up. "Watch the days pass one by one. An interview not yet taped..."
Don't know if I really can talk about it too much more. Trying to stay positive until we know something for sure.
J.
We have an anon mystery? I need to catch up on the newer posts.
Magic Pie, I thought you were Anon33, but I wasn't sure! I love that all of us are still here. Seems like so long ago that we were so mysterious. Now look at these blogs/comments! I can barely keep up.
Anima, I was quite the bitch as anon33. I was still an unconvinced fan at the time. Boy how things have changed!!!
Welp, the really bad vibe I've had has been around for a while.
Incidentally, do we all see dead people? I remember making a comment once, "I went all 'I see dead people' on you guys last night" or something.
I've never seen any, but L has seen a few. I occasionally feel uneasy around certain areas or objects, but never see anybody. If you read our blog, L talks about her Tower of London experience this spring.
J.
What makes me think that this is NOT him:
In the last post of Mayo's, the Anon that said "pasted" posted a comment about the EMAs and how everything will be fine and dandy, to just give it a little while.
In the same conversation, SS came in and corrected another Anon, not the Anon that said "pasted," but another Anon. Plus, I don't believe that SS would have even used the word "pasted" in the first place, as it isn't even a word. He's may not be "as eloquent or articulate as Mr Way," but he's a sharp fella.
I'm thinking this Anon is someone completely different.
Mustard,
Even our SS can make a typo.
J.
I went out of town and holy moly looke what happened. Can anyone provide a recap of what is going on. I would certainly appreciate it.
FYI went to the Alabama LSU game and I tell you those tigers are going to kill us fans. We need a standby defibillator to get through a game.
p
Oh, I know.
Just let me live in denial once more. :)
This will give him another chance to correct me and take back his "astute" comment if and when he comes back.
I just hope everything's okay and even if this Anon isn't SS, that they're okay as well.
I'll be back later.
P.S. I do remember the "dead people" night. We all posted our weird happenings. Twas scary.
I am so confused right now. I’m supposed to be actually working but I can’t. What the hell is going on?
I really do hope everything is ok but…….is it?
I don’t like this. I don’t like it at all.
Still catching up...looks like I wasn't the only one who thinks the "dead person" question was about them. Oh well, I think a lot of people mentioned seeing dead people. I love it here.
Sorry to interupt; just had to mention that. Okay, must go back to work. I'll catch all of you later.
Love to all of you!
I remember telling stories about me seeing ghosts but not dead people ;)...then again ghosts ARE dead people
One of you OPs, I don't remember which, said something to me once. Not exactly in defense of the decision to take MSI on tour with them, and not as an excuse, or even a reason or justification... but just for perspective I guess. You said that when Gerard made that decision he was all kinds of drugged out and that in that state it was like having a brain injury of some kind. That hasn't been out of my mind since you said it.
These days I see dying people more than the actual dead.
Memento te amari? Memento mori.
Kapuna posted:
More from said friend of mine:
...i was a pretty well-known promoter and DJ in(personal info deleted) before that. I booked shows, coordinated CD-release parties, shit like that. I worked for a series of clubs, one of which MSI played at frequently on tours. I definitely remember things being pretty ridiculous for the show/release of "(album title deleted in case people are lurking)" or whatever that lame album with the (album art deleted) on it was. They were train-freakin-wreckage, no mistake.
IIRC there was a huge fracas because the club security caught one of them banging some chick in the restroom and tried to throw them both out, there was a lot of "don't you know who i am?!!" dickwaving (maybe literally?), clearly everyone was blown to pieces on drugs, etc.
Night. Mare. It was a repulsive restroom, even. Not that any restroom is like, sweet sexy lovenest or something, but if you had to pick a restroom in which to hit it, this was NOT THE ONE.
The world is full of people massively depressed and mentally screwed up--(personal info deleted), so i doubly feel for this Way fellow. Too bad he didn't serial (monogamy) into someone more balanced and unfucked-up, who could have been a stabilizing factor. :(
Thank you Kupuna for posting this information. It is frightfull. It truly makes me sad to read this, and I want to hope it is false. However my instincts tell me it is very true. What is sad is that Gerard has spoken on stage about this type of bad band behavior and how disgusting it is.
Yeah Gerard Way and other band members of MCR do you remember those days. Or was it just shit talk?
p
These days I see dying people more than the actual dead.
Ditto K - I like to call them the walking dead. So true.
p
Ok still trying to catch up. What do guys make of this one? Is mayo leaving us. I sure hope not. This is my happy place.
"Anonymous said...
A POME, sure to kill me.
Watch the days pass, one by one.
An interview not yet taped.
A shadow be hind him pushed and won.
False words and smiles to seal his fate.
After this,
Nothing! For i will (pasted) away!
But my eyes will still see.
A spirit that can not stay.
A love of all here, but can not be
Be kind to me as i go,
Tears fill my heart, as I bid goodbye.
PS....When you use the word pasted, i will smile.
November 5, 2007 1:46 PM"
(I know I am anonymous, but I have been here since day one like rest. Please don't ignore.)
p
Mayo-
Don't leave without us.
-Amyranth is worried
A big good morning hug to "anonymous P"! How 'bout them Tigers and Saints!!!
Anonymous @ 1:46 gets the biggest hug of all this morning. He/she seems a bit melancholy :(
Kapunua, that was me referencing the brain injury similarities. I used to be a speech pathologist, and have worked with patients at different levels of functioning.
Gerard reminds me of those people, with the erratic behavior, the mood swings, the blank stare, even the inability to see logic. Or rather, see his own logic.
My comment was more explanation than excuse. Just to give you guys perspective on the substance abuse and what it causes.
Thing of it is, there's still a brilliant mind in there with him. He's just smothering it in booze and coke. And it kills me to see him killing himself.
J.
A big good morning hug to "anonymous P"! How 'bout them Tigers and Saints!!!
Thanks for the hug. What can I say I am Louisiana gal and an LSU grad. I am going to the cardio dr. to have him check my heart. I think I might have had a couple heart attacks over the weekend.
GO TIGERS!!!!!!!!!
p
Rereading the poem, I'm still as confused as ever.
I don't think it's SS. If it's anyone, I think it may be Mayo. If that's the case, it worries me that he may not return. I hope we hear from him once more so I can say my final goodbyes.
I'm thinking about you all today. There's a knot now that won't go away.
"One Love"
"Gerard reminds me of those people, with the erratic behavior, the mood swings, the blank stare, even the inability to see logic. Or rather, see his own logic.
My comment was more explanation than excuse. Just to give you guys perspective on the substance abuse and what it causes.
Thing of it is, there's still a brilliant mind in there with him. He's just smothering it in booze and coke. And it kills me to see him killing himself.
J."
Thanks J. I quite agree and definately see the behavior. It is so sad because he isn't getting any younger and I see so much child like behavior in him. I think he is a scared little boy in a grown up body.
"I'm thinking about you all today. There's a knot now that won't go away."
Ditto MIB.
p
Mayo,
My dear, How are you? I'm very unsettled today...churning emotions. Do you ever feel like your emotions are just about to get the better of you? Today is one of those days for me. I suppose it really started last night when the one closest to me (as in right next to me in my bed) gave me a good ass chewing for reasons only he knows. Now, I feel everything stirring like acid boiling my insides and razor blades tearing at my skin. I'm trying so hard not to let it all spill forth. That could be so terribly messy, but things are bound to blow up eventually. The funny thing is that I'm comforted by these feelings. So familiar...the only ones I truly recognize. The ones that let me know I'm still alive.
Can we talk about fire one more time? I found a little something that you might like. Not a well known poem, but I think it fits.
The Boy with Fire in His Eyes
The boy with fire in his eyes
Stands there waiting.
It is his soul inside;
It keeps him standing.
And if ever the fire goes out,
He will freeze in the cold.
It is his heat
And all that keeps him living.
Or if it never is put to use,
It will consume him;
He will burn to the ground
His ashes left behind.
But if the fire blazes,
If kindled, kept and carried,
If the boy with fire in his eyes
Finds life inside that fire,
His fire will light the world,
Will pierce the mist,
A fire to drive the dark away
Forever and ever more.
Daniel Nairn
(Thanks Daniel for letting me borrow without asking.)
Crazy how fire is just like love, isn't it? It can grow uncontrollably or fade away. Provide you warmth and fill your heart or burn the shit out of you and leave you fighting to survive.
I hope you are finding all it is that you need today. Me? I'm still searching for something to fill an empty space....something to complete me.
Love to You Always,
S
p.s. Explosions sure make pretty fireworks....
good morning all.
just re-read the anon poem, and i have to say, it is disquieting.
j., i share your concerns over this. let's hang on to hoping for the best.
Anon P: I remember all the Mondays my dad and uncles needed to see their cardiologists thanks to those Tigers. I only peek into the games every 15 minutes or so to see the score. I'm a BIG football fanatic too ;)
Oh, my goodness Sdock.
That poem is amazing. That describes my current situation, and this one as well, perfectly.
Tell Daniel that I said he should publish it.
Beautiful.
mustardisbetter (not signed in) said...
"I'm thinking about you all today. There's a knot now that won't go away."
Right back at you MIB! Good morning TJ, OP J and Sdock10. How are you all today?
I really like that poem, sdock10. The last stanza made me sad, though, for some reason.
Toujours, as long as there is life, there is hope. That's what I'm waiting to hear about.
Anonymous, remember I don't have anywhere near all the answers. Just observations from what experience I have.
J.
Hi guys,
I'm at work right now and my blood pressure feels like it's 999/999 right now. I hope you are all doing well.
MIB, I always love to read what you have to say. Please don't think I ignore you, but my computer is so damn slow that sometimes I don't catch your comments until way later. About the poem, I found it this morning and it might be published but I'm not sure. Again, thanks Daniel!!
I'll be off and on today. You guys keep holding it down...
Love,
S
Toujours, as long as there is life, there is hope.
and the magic of prayer to help sustain that hope. i'm saying mine.
"Crazy how fire is just like love, isn't it? It can grow uncontrollably or fade away. "
Sdock10
Also crazy how fire is like hope....
p
Kapunua, I believe your dream is about your desire to converse with Mayo, alone, without anyone else butting in.
"I only peek into the games every 15 minutes or so to see the score. I'm a BIG football fanatic too ;)"
Ditto otherwise I start breaking shit. I love football too, but I am Tiger fanatic. It is a Louisiana tradition. I have to say though, the Crimson fans were very gracious to us bosterous Tiger fans. I have to say I was a little sad to see Nick on the other side of the field. But oh well, Tigers are doing fine without him.
p
Amen, Sister Toujours. We've been saying ours for months. We're still praying.
Anon, I like your observation on K's dream.
J.
hi i'm back for a bit.
so that anon hasn't commented again. even if it isn't mayo or SS it still is somebody which is worrying.
lovely poem sdock.
i was looking through the quiz and i knew 2 people here were sisters but i wasn't around to find out which 2?? was it sdock and smoke and venom??
"Anonymous said...
Kapunua, I believe your dream is about your desire to converse with Mayo, alone, without anyone else butting in."
My interpretation of Kapunua's dream is this:
She is feeling frustration over the fact she can not give Mayo the 'vunch' (or the male equivalent of) she feels he needs at his moment in time. She is trying desperately to get through to him. (Just my interpretation there)
A good 'vunch' could work much better than any lecture! ;-)
I'll be seeing you at those Tiger's games/tailgate parties in a couple of years Anonymous P. My niece will be attending LSU and somebody has to keep an eye on that young lady!!
I'm off to my doctor's appointment. I hope my cholesterol is down a few dozen points.
Hang in there -- everyone!
Hey,at work too but just had to say, that I don't think that anon is ss.
Pasted aint no typo,that is a whole new word. That is someone thinking that is a word,he is way smarter than that.
Pst is a typo.
They also left this comment in the other blog:
Anonymous said...
Smart, very good.
I leave you now, with a heart filled with hope.
Forgive my spelling error in my
last post.
Being laughed at reminds me i am only human, and i laughed as well.
Felt good.
Goodnite.
Notice another spelling error. But it just seems they are trying to hard to be cryptic and like SS or mayo or someone with 'inside info'.
I don't know, I just don't think it is.
faraways..
You guessed it..The Fair Princess Some&Venom20 and I are indeed sisters.
To all, I am typing now, J. is having breakfast, if she can.
L.
Watch the days pass, one by one.
An interview not yet taped.
What interview is yet to be taped? And what will it tell us? I am afraid to know.
L.
thats cool sdock.
hi entropy, L and anyone else.
Kapunua, I believe your dream is about your desire to converse with Mayo, alone, without anyone else butting in.
I think we'd all like that, don't you? It's so much harder to pretend when you're alone.
My interpretation of Kapunua's dream is this:
She is feeling frustration over the fact she can not give Mayo the 'vunch' (or the male equivalent of) she feels he needs at his moment in time. She is trying desperately to get through to him. (Just my interpretation there)
Truly. We're all hammering down the wall, or at least trying to.
Also, there is no male equivalent of a vunch. It's all the same. ^_^
I'm depressed and worried now. Who wants to play a game? It'll be a nice one.
There is suppose to be an interview thing friday.
Hey faraway.
Entropy,
What type of interview? Do you know where it will be broadcast?
L.
It will be on the radio. Live lounge I think it's called.
oh fooey, kapunua. you always come up with neat games for us, but i can't stick around for this one. i have to go get my groceries. :(
maybe you'll still be playing it when i get back?
anyway, see you guys later. i'm hoping there will be some good news when i return!
Ok, Mayo.
If you can, PLEASE give us some kind of answers. Obviously, there are people on here who care deeply about you and are scared for you, as well as SS. If you return our love at all, talk to us.
We love you both, dammit!
L.
Since we're all dithering and worried today and the vibe in here is all kinds of dark, here's the game I propose we play: Love, Hate, Miss, Want. It's just what it sounds like, you make a list of those things.
Things you love? This doesn't have to be people, but little things. Moments or pieces, rags and patches and trinkets, stuff that gets you through the day or week when you think you can't.
Stuff you want, this can be anything, it doesn't have to be in your reach, it can be totally crazy.
Keep the lists down to small phrases or single words, no need to go into huge explanations or justifications. Let the fragments speak for themselves.
Mayo, I invite you to make your list, it really is fun. Make your list of stuff you love and then dwell on it for a while. Only please don't talk about blowjobs again.
I guess the "stuff you hate" part is a little negative, so anyone can skip that if they want, and maybe "stuff you miss" can be depressing, so skip that too if you want. Or, go for it. Write that all out and then don't dwell on it.
I'll show you.
oh fooey, kapunua. you always come up with neat games for us, but i can't stick around for this one. i have to go get my groceries. :(
maybe you'll still be playing it when i get back?
Absolutely. ^_^
theres a live lounge thing on radio one in the uk but mcr aren't in the uk yet??? does anyone know any more about it?
by the way apparantly world premiere of the new "mama" vid is tomorrow 6th in new zealand cos they are ahead of us. c4 4-6.30pm and Added this week at 8pm. i don't think there are any kiwis amongst us though but no doubt it'll be on you tube pronto.
will get back to you on the game kapunua. am multi tasking at the mo, 3 annoying kids, cooking them tea, mayo, i mean wtf i'm only human!!
Stuff I love:
Dinner with family, shopping with Mom and Gran, yardwork with Da, my two young cousins, chatting with cousin Chrissie in the middle of the street, my dogs' wet noses on my hand, the smell of baby birds, living by the ocean, the way the smell of ocean air mingles with flowers, slippersocks, green tea, Balsam fur trees, giant hawk feathers, giant hawks!, the sunset out my window, sunrise over rte 105, ocean beaches, Ponquogue Bridge, a movie and a pint of Ben and Jerry's, being kama 'aina to ka Mokupuni Lo'ihi nani, being hanai haumana, long talks with my friend Kim, the broadsword form, hardcore Kung Fu drills, doing Small Wheel right, bluejays and other corvids, O Keahi A Lonomakua, fire goddess Pele and Kilauea, firedancers, Michael Palin, Monty Python marathons, Cloud Strife, my favorite jeans, listening to Bob Marley by the pool in July, coconut Malibu rum, Disney's Polynesian resort, all my Hula brothers and sisters, my Kung Fu family, tiki torches, summer parties, Makaha Sons, the smell of chlorine, pea soup, smoked Tofurkey sandwiches, pomegranate juice, Legend of Zelda, going to fancy places with my friends, going out dancing, chocolate soy milk, dying my hair, the first time of the year you feel the sun, the first time of the year you feel the chill, my bed, laughing at work on a Friday, Non-Creepy Backrub Day, making videos, Stephen King (Roland of Gilead!), my car, the sound Gamecube makes when it starts, orchids, garlic string beans, Hula seminars, my iPod, surfing, hot baths in the winter surrounded by candles with some music playing, Leonard Cohen (the voice, the words, the poetry, the man himself,) my Kung Fu Assassin jacket, Engrish.com, Tuesday nights, Beatrice the rooster, Captain Hook, Captain Jack Sparrow, Chinatown, birds that everyone else hates, Mitsukoshi and all of Epcot Center, hilarious typos, tomb warriors, the perfect witty phrase (especially if I said it :P ,) Quantum phyics, string theory, JW Waterhouse, honey graham crackers, the smell of crows, boys with hazel / green eyes...
And this blog. I love this blog!
Okay, anyone else!
maybe you'll still be playing it when i get back?
Absolutely. ^_^
ex-cellent. then i'm out of here.
stay hopeful, people!
and mayo, i'd like to echo original punks - l.'s request. if you will, if you'd like, is there anything you can say to ease our worries? or at least make them less amorphous?
Hello hello and good afternoon/evening everyone. How are you all doing today? What's going on in the wonderful world of Mayonaise?
not nearly as in depth as yours kapunua but:
love
my children, my family, the bloke,large glass of wine, cold beer (preferably stella) on a hot day, chocolate (i'm female),mcr (of course), and yeh definitely this blog.
hate
my job, certain aspects of my life, bits of grissle in sausages!! makes me gag! the fact that i've cooked a nutricious tea for my kids and they aren't fuckin eating it!! i'm threatening them to miss out on the firework display tonight....empty threats, and they know it!
miss
my dad, my partying days pre kids, my old gang of mates.
want
gerard way! joking joking joking!!!
erm.......bigger tits?? straight hair!(important!) to stay the age i am but gain in knowledge! a bloke that isn't jealous of my new found internet pals! my kids to eat their tea and stop fighting!
^I love how you talk about "cooking" and "eating" tea. Here we just boil it and drink it. ^_^ That's maybe the coolest post on here yet.
I'll play along.
Love: the sunsets when they're perfect, last night when I went running outside and I could see every star, fall nights, driving my car with the windows down and music busting my eardrums, hearing songs I haven't heard in ages, coloring outside of the lines because I can, the smell of rain, bundling up in a huge coat and facing the winter weather on my own, Diet Mountain Dew, pretzels, chocolate covered strawberries, running, wasting my day on you all, learning, wondering. Obviously there's more, but I won't bore you. :)
Hate: judgment, dishonesty, not trying, ignorance, falling asleep at night thinking of the day and realizing you've lived the same day for over five years, being alone, to an extent-authority, lots more.
Miss: my grandmother, junior year, family gatherings, when it was easy, awkward conversations, being myself.
Want: untainted ears, a new beginning, a day where I don't have to think, a new iPod 'cause my battery's an ass, a safe haven, a real smile, to finally meet the person who wrote all of those words that kept me sane, a release.
no i mean 'tea' as in a meal. we call tea the evening meal as in supper or dinner, not the drink. does that make sense??
I know, I just think that's so cool. ^_^
Mustard I love your lists and I agree with mos of that stuff on there. Chocolate covered strawberries ftw!
Let me make it clear, wasting my day on you all is the greatest thing ever. That's why I love every one of you. I love "wasted days and wasted nights."
Sdock:
I know you don't ignore me. Don't feel as if you need to apologize, because you don't :) I hope he gets that published. That was beautiful. I don't have another word to describe it.
Love: NOOOOO!!! I forgot Toro's skillz with a 'z'!
I forgot MCR in general, but if I named them, I'd feel obligated to name every band I love and that would take entirely too much time. :)
Faraway:
Oh, now I've never heard of that.
"Tea" is another word for dinner? I'm so gonna start saying that. Confuse the hell out of all of them!
Kapunua:
Chocolate covered strawberries are life.
oh cool kapunua. thanks!
liked yours MIB.
gotta dash, the bloke is home!!!
See ya Faraway!
Kapunua, I'm never sure if you love Gerard Way, or hate him.
Morning, everybody.
Anon @ 1:46 & 1:54:
WTF, sweetie? What's wrong???
You can't leave us like this...
*sigh* Great, bad feelings seem to be running rampant around dese here parts today. Can you say "worried", kiddies? I knew you could do it!
I don't know if the Anon is Mayo, SS, or somebody else all together, but I do NOT like the quality of finality in their poem. I've been a little on edge lately, especially since it appears that I may have been channeling someone else's 'S-word' (ends in 'idal') thoughts on the 31st. (I'm not suicidal, and haven't felt THAT shitty in quite a few years. The feelings were gone the next day.) And I know that some of you have been feeling rattled, too.
No one wants this blog to go away, but I'm a lot more worried about the state of affairs with these guys right now. Our European friends, we be counting on you for info's!!
(And yeah... guess it's time to let you all know that I've taken the liberty of creating a Yahoo group, aptly named 'Mayo's Guest-List', in the event that this blog ever does go away. I can't speak for anybody else, but I would absolutely HATE not being able to talk to you all like we do here. So keep it in mind, and feel free to email me if you forget the group name. My email's in my profile.)
Kapunua, I like the idea of your game. As soon as I can wrap my head around it, I'll post my answers.
As another form of distraction, what astrological sign is everyone?
I can't speak for her, and I know you weren't asking me, but I've and additional $0.02 in my pocket that's burning a hole.
I have a love/hate relationship with him. Love for the music, lyrics, and message and hate for what has happened to him and the message. The music's still the same, I just question it more.
TO THE ANON THAT SAID TO "JUST BELIEVE":
Are you around here, "observing" and whatnot? I need you to come back and post.
I just have to say this. I don't hate Gerard.(No one was accusing me or anything) I don't think I can or ever will. That doesn't mean I don't hate his choices. Unfortanatley I think he fails to see people hate his choices. Sorry that is just my opninion.
Sorry for all of these posts in a row.
SisterM:
I don't know if it was the Anon post this morning or whether it was some deep-seeded feeling, but thinking about yesterday and all the fun we had, I wonder if this really is it. If that post was Mayo, maybe he didn't want to rain on our little parade and decided to hold off until today. I don't know I'm just thinking out loud. By the way, who's thoughts were you channeling on Halloween? I don't remember the conversations that were held.
Thank you for taking the time to make that. You can bet, if this ever goes away, that I'll be in there.
Sign:
Taurus
mikey
That is bullshit.
So disheartening.
Sis Midnite, so good to read you as always. Great idea you've got there, although I very much hope it doesn't come to that. Yeah, we're all pretty frigging rattled today, that's for sure.
Me, I've been rattled about this whole thing for a while.
Anon said:
Kapunua, I'm never sure if you love Gerard Way, or hate him.
"You love him but you resent him. Love-hate! Hate-love! Like for Mama, no?"
"But I didn't hate my mother; it was an accident!"
Heh.
Anyway, the answer is neither. I admired him, I respected him a lot, for not only his talent, but his vision and his advocacy. On a more personal note, also for his humility and what I mistook for sincerity and honesty at the time. I don't know, maybe it was there back then. Whichever, it's gone now.
I don't hate him, I just hate seeing what's going on here. I resent the swaggering yet weak-willed pod-person who took him over and I hope that pod-person goes away soon and delivers up that other guy. I miss him. He had a sweet smile.
These blogs must be connected in thought. This is the exact conversation that's being somewhat held at BC's.
This is what I posted there:
When I saw the pictures of Mikey and last night's show, I was floored. That means we now have 2 out of the 5 that have publicly displayed their support for MSI. I'm tired of beating around the bush with this. I want some answers.
I don't get it.
Anonymous said...
mikey
That is bullshit.
So disheartening.
November 5, 2007 6:22 PM
It is, isn't it? Yeah, I remember a few months ago people couldn't wait till Mikey got back because a few people thought he was going to "talk sense into Gerard." I never had a feeling that this was going to happen. I'm not too surprised.
OTOH, the day that Frank wears an MSI anything, is the day I truly walk away. I'm hanging on for Frank.
Love –
Hearing my son laugh, watching my demon of a husband give me that shit-eating grin of his, my SISSY!, my family, music, NASCAR (more specifically, Tony Stewart#20), watching old movies, forensic tv, riding around singing to myself, laughing with my co-workers about stupid shit that nobody else would find funny, MCR!!!, that moment right before your favorite band hits the stage and you get all excited and just scream (hello, Frank, yes that was me in Tampa waving and screaming like I was 12), my mama’s cooking, a nice nap on Sunday afternoon, Frank’s sweet spirit (wish I had some of that), clothes that fit just like you want them to, and THIS PLACE!!!!
Hate –
Lies, deception, sorry-ass no good bums that live in my town, ignorance, stupid questions, steak (yuck), golf on tv
Miss –
My kitty-cat Sugar, my husband.
Want –
My son to grow up happy and healthy, a new job, to never worry about money, to stay 29 forever, new BOOOOOOTSSSS! (right, Sis Midnite?), something to eat right now cause I’m fucking hungry, people to stop calling me asking stupid fucking questions cause I’m hungry and I don’t care.
Okay, this is not easy to do when your stomach is growling. I get mean when I’m hungry. Or meaner, I should say.
Oh, and I almost forgot, I’m a SCORPIO. I’m 100% Scorpio. The whole loyal, devoted once committed but good God don’t ever cross that one Scorpio. Revenge can be so sweet.
Just finished a work project and had to come back. I loved reading all of your lists :) I wish I could spend more time on here and really get some of my thoughts out there. I have so much swimming through my mind. I feel so close to all of you (didn't mayo say that too?!).
I know I don't come here much and even when I do show up - I clearly lack in the poignant things to say category. I do enjoy coming here (even if for not very long and quite intermittently)...damn what am I trying to say? Oh well,....
I'm an Aquarian.
I just have one more thing to say about Mikey's t-shirt and then I'm dropping it, because afterall, it is just a t-shirt and Gerard probably made him wear it without asking his permission to physically adhere the t-shirt to his body *is going to hell*:
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ANTHRAX, MIKEY WAY?
We understand Anima. No matter how long your visit or how lengthy or short your comments, we love you just the same :)
You make me want to dance and wave my arms high up into the air to a popular 70s tune ;)
I think that Mikey wearing that shirt is a kick in the teeth for a lot of people because everyone wants to believe that MSI going on tour with MCR has just been something that Gee approved of. Him wearing that shirt confuses people now.
Since I've never had a prob with MSI going on tour with them, it doesn't bother me.
hello again everyone. Sorry I took off. Had some chores to do.
Thank you Mustard! That means a lot. :)
Magic Pie, you and I have always been same regarding MSI. It doesn't bother me either [as I have openly admitted to liking MSI]. I do agree that this will cause some confusion. Mikey, I still love you, but you may have caused some fans to go bonkers.
Hi BC!
Again, I need to run off. My stomach is growling.
J's List.
LOVE: My family, my friends, my cats, L's bunnies, L herself, reading great books, almost every kind of music, pizza, watching the seasons change, sunsets, MCR, Franky, 24, MY momma's cooking, the smell of the ocean, soft blankets, pajamas, Tab, my teddy Bear that I've had since I was 3, oh so many more things.
HATE: Lying, hypocrisy, condescension, unequal rights for those who don't fit in for whatever reason, abusers of both animals and people, stupidity, bullies, bad music (hint hint), rednecks. Oh man, I got more but don't wanna get maudlin.
MISS: My dad. Gone for almost 20 years, but I still miss him like it was yesterday.
WANT: A good man, some extra money, less medication, for everything to work out like we all want it to (pipe dream, yes, but hey).
I do love all you guys, too. So does L.
I am a Sagittarius; L is a Gemini.
J.
You come up with the greatest things.
Love: My family,friends,food,rain,bad weather,sleeping,animals,mexico,books,driving,music,attending concerts with your best friends,flowers,this place/you people,hospitals,tv,my camera,the smell of the lake,the sound of waves.
hate lies,ignorance,homophobia,crowded places,the mall,seeing babies/kids withought shoes,paresnt not watching their kids when they walk from the door to their car,bad drivers,being alone,being hated,feeling left out.
missmy family,my friends,seeing my favorite bands(haven't seen any in a long while),being a kid and not having to worry about anything.
wantto eat,go on a road trip,live somewhere else,everything to be ok.
The thing with mikey wearing that,is sad.Disheartened is one way of saying how I feel. Also disappointment.
OTOH, the day that Frank wears an MSI anything, is the day I truly walk away. I'm hanging on for Frank.
That is exactly how I feel.
Just the other day I was saying that to someone. That I realised that Frank is mainly the only reason I haven't given up on this band yet.
Oh and i'm scorpio all the way!
Hi hi anima. How are you?
The most beautiful things in the world are not seen nor touched. They are felt with the heart.
Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.
Love- my sister, my nephew's laugh, the way my family sticks together, the way my mother takes care of me, my father's calm nature, My dogs-Rebel & Rogue, my back porch, dirt roads, Georgia in the summertime, sitting around a campfire, fresh vegetables, buying my sister stuff, my music collection, a full moon, concerts, Andrea Bocelli's voice, coconut, the smell of grilled hamburgers, Marty Stuart's respect for music, Johnny Cash, MCR, Gerard's eyes, Frank's passion, the way I argue, my boyfriend's way of telling the cold hard truth, blue jeans, Mayo, SS, and my dysfunctional blogger family
Miss- My cousin, Lauren and her blue eyes, my innocence, Johnny Cash, my hair before the gray
Hate- ignorance, my job, traffic, rude people, Wal-Mart, people who stand up in front of me at concerts, dial-up internet
I am a Libra (Could you tell?)
Hi everybody how are you guys?
Anonymous said...
The most beautiful things in the world are not seen nor touched. They are felt with the heart.
Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about
Thank you so much for that. I most definitely needed to be reminded of that today.
I believe that sentiment can be applied to people too. I live by it.
Thank you anonymous! sd10, you hate Walmart? My cousin thinks they're an evil corporation ^_^
But alas, I hate that store too. It's Target all the way.
Hi there martha how are you?
Love
My family,pets friends this place, being able to smile and the possibility that good things can happen to me.
Miss
My great grandmother, mom, grand father, our cat and dog that died, my childhood and always being able to smile.
Hate
Not being as smart as I thought, not living up to my potential and people who want to bring you down because they are down.
I'm an aquarius
I forgot to add a few more things to my list. I also love Gerard's beautiful hazel eyes of course; the way he laughs and smiles, I also like how Frank smiles as well It's very cute ^_^
Who the hell am I kidding? I admire and love the entire band for their talent and hard work and dedication. I cannot pick favorites.
Hello BC and Sd10 i'm pretty good today. What the anon said helped me think of the things I love. My family can be a real bitch sometimes but I still love them.
Anonymous said...
The most beautiful things in the world are not seen nor touched. They are felt with the heart.
Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about
What a beautiful thought!!
Holy Hell, I go away for a day and look what happens!
I loved the quiz
I'm the one who feels ignored.
I use my Great Grams name
I have G Ways artwork as 2 tattoos
Did I miss anything else? I've been trying to catch up so quickly.
The Anon poem is frightening.
Crap, can anyone say...MAYO TALK TO US -WE'RE HERE FOR YOU.
hi there everyone.
MIB you made me laugh here:
I just have one more thing to say about Mikey's t-shirt and then I'm dropping it, because afterall, it is just a t-shirt and Gerard probably made him wear it without asking his permission to physically adhere the t-shirt to his body *is going to hell*:
we can only hope!!
anon @ 6.56pm thanks for that.
love your list guys.
i'm a pisces.
Hi there faraway. How are you?
Martha, I feel the same about my family sometimes too. Sometimes I hate them, sometimes I love them
Hi everyone again
I'm still at work so I'm popping in and out, but the anon got me to thinking as well. And here's a quote I love:
"Love is a condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to that of your own."
I have that up on my fridge and remind myself of it daily.
i'm fine BC.
great quote sdock.
Are you the "Just Believe" Anon?
I think you are, and you have me in tears.
It's in my heart. I would let myself down if I gave up on it. But, it's so hard. Sometimes I don't have the strength to fight it.
Hello FAWSc hoe are you. to answer bc's question I pretty good. Work has been okay lately so nothing big or bad going on.
i'm good martha.
are you ok MIB? what anon do you mean?
Thank you for your kind words.
We all have free will. We can either give up or carry on.
I know I could never make it through a day without thinking of him.
So I will never give up on him.
sorry MIB you mean the anon at 6.56pm is the just believe anon?
words of wisdom anyway.
Please Mustard, I cannot bear to think my words have upset you, that was never my intention.
Forgive me.
Anonymous said...
Thank you for your kind words.
We all have free will. We can either give up or carry on.
I know I could never make it through a day without thinking of him.
So I will never give up on him.
I don't think you realized how much we needed to hear that today. Thank you!
I will never give up or stop believing....and now I'm reminded of someone else I should keep fighting for.
and also the anon at 7.15pm.
hello anon.
sorry i was confusing myself.
i know i don't go a bloody hour without him creeping into my thought let alone a day! kind of a killer actually!
and by creeping i don't mean in a creepy way!
I'm okay. You know how someone posts something that is relevant to their life, but it's also really relevant to you. That's what this Anon has done.
I also think this Anon may be the "Just Believe" Anon who was here yesterday. They came in and said "just believe, just believe." They posted it a few times, and I finally asked, "What are we to believe?"
In response, he said, "believe what is in your heart, not your head."
I asked that the "Just Believe" anon return this morning, that I needed to hear from him again. And I think that's him.
Bleeding Chaos said...
Thank you anonymous! sd10, you hate Walmart? My cousin thinks they're an evil corporation ^_^
But alas, I hate that store too. It's Target all the way.
YES! Thank you! I boycott Walmart, too. Tar-zhay all the way. ^_^
Sdock10
Listen to your heart, make your decision and never look back. You will find an inner strength to do what you need to do.
My heart goes out to you, you will be in my thoughts.
Remember, life is short.
Anon:
They haven't upset me in a bad way. It's like I said- sometimes people say stuff without thinking how much it will affect the other(s).
That's what you did and have been doing, and it makes me realize some stuff. It's making me realize that my priorities are a little jumbled.
I thank you. No need for an apology.
Anon, Thank you again.
I needed to hear exactly that.
Your words have really hit home and now I must dig deep within myself for that inner strength. I know it's there somewhere.
Love,
S
gotta get my sprogs to bed.
see you all later.
I hope you don't mind Sdock, but I'm borrowing your words. I can't say it any better:
Your words have really hit home and now I must dig deep within myself for that inner strength. I know it's there somewhere.
Anon:
You don't know how needed you are around here. You speak wisdom and honesty. I will ponder on what you've given us, and I'll straighten myself out. Be patient with me. It takes me a little while to reach my goals.
Not sure if anyone has said this yet but the MAMA video is supposed to air in NZ tomorrow. God Bless YouTube.
Anonymous:
Are you the author of our poem this morning? The one that made us all worry?
J,
You are stronger than you realize.
You will find strength in your moments of weakness.
Above all else, remember who you are, be true to yourself.
Has anyone been trolling any MCR news or rumors sites? I'd love to know if anything is going on. But it's hard to find any sites where people aren't so rabidly fannish that they see everything through their fansheep glasses. "OMGz so Gerard threw up / threw Frank to the ground / had a hissy fit / had an epileptic seizure / sprayed the audience with bullets from a semi-automatic!!!1111 WHO DOESN'T HAVE A BAD DAY ONCE IN A WHILE, HATERZZ!!!111 BTW I heard a rumor tha Bob is pregnant LOLOLOL!!111 Can we PLS get back to just jerking each other off and laughing about it plse!!!11111 OMG and Lyn Z is HOTT I would be a lesbian for her b/c Gerard said so!!!!111"
Point is, hard to find unbiased news out there, and I am worried.
I don't know if "Thank You" is good enough. I wish I could repay you for the advice you've given.
Anonymous said...
Above all else, remember who you are, be true to yourself.
The hardest thing to do is to be true to yourself. Some days I don't even recognize myself.
Hello Mayo, hope you are well.
Hello anon, how are you?
Hello everybody here, how is everyone?
I thought I'd join in with the list.
LOVE
My family, my friends, MCR (particularly Gerard),Christmas, summer, the seaside, holidays abroad, Egypt, Football
(Tottenham Hotspur of course), F1, my time at University, Liverpool, London,Manic Street preachers,It crowd, Vic and Bob,
Monty Python, Blackadder,Buffy,Johnathan Creek,CSI,Queen,The Beatles,Elvis,Pizza, a good lie in, this place of course and
all you lovely people.
HATES
Violent people,losing loved ones,MSI,Lewis Hamilton,crap weather,feeling depressed,having to get up early.
MISS
Dad, Cousin, Grandmother, Nan,Smokey the cat,Snowy the cat,Nipper the cockatiel,Childhood,school days,university days,friends
THE OLD GERARD.
Nope Kapunua.
You pretty much summed up everything I've seen.
And that's why I'm here :)
That's very true Sdock. I told that to Mayo in response to his poem.
I don't know who I am half the time. Maybe that's my problem.
I must say hello again to everyone and add something to my hate list my computer.
Whoever this anon is their words are nice for lack of a better word.
Hey MissT.
Hey MJ.
Welcome to confessional hour...or days, possibly months. :)
BTW, earlier L posted an entry on our blog about her own battle with alcohol and depression. She felt that Mayo might gain some perspective from someone else's story. If any of you would like to read it, please feel free.
J.
Hello hello Miss T. How are you and George doing? ^_^
Kapunua, so we have another Target lover on our hands ^_^
Yes!!
Okay, I can play now. ^_^
Love: My family, my kitty, my friends, all my characters, coffee, booooooots (duh), books & reading, Tarot cards, music, being different, the smell of leather, pretty men, my sense of taste, thunderstorms, the smell of rain, sunrise, sunset, sleeping in, shampoo, lazy days, being strong (inner strength, fortitude) Christmas cookies, Hallowe'en, and all you guys!
Hate: Intolerance, ignorance, the 'double standard', the redneck mentality, my intimacy issues, techno dance music, split pea soup, vomiting, authority, complacency, shortcuts to thinking, blind acceptance, and Sambuca. ::shudder::
Miss: My grandfather & grandmother, my baby (kitty) Minky, TK, RFB, road trips, being able to drink like a rock star, my lack of cynicism, youth, innocence.
Want: For my family/kitty/friends to stay happy & healthy, to feel excited again, to be able to make a living as an author, more free time, for my head to STFU once in a while, Johnny Depp (^_~), to throw away all my prescriptions, new road trips, for this blog to continue!
I'm a Pisces, but I was supposed to be an Aries. It's the last time I was ever early for anything in my life. #^_^# As you've all probably already determined, I have qualities that are both Fire and Water. (Add my ascendant of Aquarius, my Venus in Taurus, and my moon in Gemini, and you'll begin to get an idea why I'm so strange!)
Hello miss t, mib and the OPs how are you guys?
hi and a nice afternoon/evening :)
how´s everyone?
Hello sister Midnight how are you and I also believe Kapunua is here too same question.
Great list, Sis Midnite! hey, I have Moon in Gemini, too! Must be why we like talking and writing so much. ^_^ And can do it so quickly. ^_~
And of course, by the way, I am Scorpio. Cancer ascendant.
hey MJ, how's it going? Throw your computer out the window and grab a chair in the worry circle.
did you read the poem from this AM? how about any of the rest of you guys that just came in, did you read it? what's the general consensus?
J.
Lets see we have Pixie and the anon hello and how are you today?
I'm worried today, MJ, for our addled ray of effing sunshine. How are you?
Hi mustard, MJ, BC.
I forgot to add my wants.
WANT
My family and friends to be healthy,to get the most from life, to get the old MCR back, to win the lottery ha!
I am a pisces.
I'm worried today, MJ, for our addled ray of effing sunshine.
This made me chuckle slightly. "Why?!," you ask.
Because I read it as if the sun were Ray's head, and he had sunbeams protruding from it.
*should probably just not be here right now*
I'm fine thank you Op J, it must be time for me to get a new one. As far as the poem goes I'm not sure what to think. Can someone please repost that poem I wanted to read it again but I'm having trouble finding it.
Hello to my pixie chum.
Hello j, how are you?
J, could you copy the poem cos I think I missed it.
what´s going on?
I'm really good right now my brother brought me a burrito. I am so hungry.
Goodbye Elena.
Mib has Ray on the brain but that is a good thing and why is elena saying goodbye.
I've only just arrived myself pixie so I couldn't tell you.
Hello Elena.
Hello Pixie.
Elena:
Why they "Goodbye"? You just showed up. Are you okay?
Pixie:
I'm not sure, quite frankly. Now I'm more confused by Elena's comment.
Elena are you still here? if you are you can't say goodbye I just saw your name. Hello Elena how are you?
ok :)
Elena:
Don't leave us hanging like that.
Please come back and let us know things are okay.
We automatically have thought the worst.
Are you alright?
Here it is, guys.
anonymous said...
A POME, sure to kill me.
Watch the days pass, one by one.
An interview not yet taped.
A shadow be hind him pushed and won.
False words and smiles to seal his fate.
After this,
Nothing! For i will (pasted) away!
But my eyes will still see.
A spirit that can not stay.
A love of all here, but can not be
Be kind to me as i go,
Tears fill my heart, as I bid goodbye.
PS....When you use the word pasted, i will smile.
November 5, 2007 1:46 PM
Anonymous said...
PS......Pomes, (Poems) was a joke for my pasted.
November 5, 2007 1:54 PM
J.
OP, that poem is very sad. I don't like the vibe at all.
I hope anon is not leaving us. And what about this interview?
That leaves a bad feeling in my stomach.
As does the disappearance of Elena. Are you there? You are worrying us.
Has anyone heard from Elena?
What's up with everyone being all mysterious and "'kay, bye!" today? >_> Jaysus.
No MissT. I left her a message on her own blog. I don't know if she'll look at it though.
I really hope she comes back. I don't know what could have happened.
Thank you op
I left a comment at her blog too.
I've only just arrived so when I saw her say goodbye, I just said goodbye too cos I thought she'd been here a while. I didn't know anything was wrong till all you people mentioned it.
If I hadn't said goodbye, maybe it would have gone unnoticed too.
I´ms till clueless... anyway...
huh sio what happened to hear? I would have thought the same miss t...
hello everyone.
just caught up -- i loved what the anon had to say. even though they were words specifically directed to individuals here on the blog, i think they have a great inspiration for everyone. i certainly felt renewed reading them.
thank you, anon. ^.^
I've reread that thing, and I'm not as sure as I once was concerning its veracity.
First of all...the use of "will pasted" is incorrect no matter how you cut it. SS misspelled "passed" originally; in this new post, it's reading "will passed". He doesn't talk that way.
Second, "can not" in two separate instances. The correct usage would be "cannot", and I'm sure he knows that, too. Also, "be hind"?
Third, "tears fill my heart"? More than likely, SS would've said "sorrow" or "despair" instead of "tears".
Fourth, "as I bid goodbye". Also the wrong usage. It should read "as I bid YOU goodbye". SS is smarter than this.
Fifth, the second anonymous post came EIGHT minutes after the poem. And it specifically pointed out the spelling error of "poem", like we wouldn't get it.
Read it again and compare it to previous SS posts.
We also know that SS wouldn't leave us hanging out to dry. He loves us enough to give us reasons and explanations. He wouldn't rush through a post about anything really important, he would give us more than this. He knows how much we care about both him and Mayo. He's always tried to reassure us, even if it was bad news.
Plus, the Latin hasn't changed.
Shitsubou, if you're reading this, please let us know if we're worrying unnecessarily. We trust you to give us the truth.
love from all
J.
Pixie:
I know a lot is going on. We're concerned why everyone is deciding to up and leave.
It all started with the POEM that was posted this morning. It sounded like a goodbye. We don't know who it's from. Our thoughts were it being from Mayo, SS, or simply another Anon.
The Anon that's been in here today posting inspirational things, I think he may have been in here before, as in yesterday. They kept saying to "just believe." That's why I've termed him the "Just Believe" Anon.
Now, we don't know why Elena has posted "Goodbye" even though she had not posted at all this morning. We're concerned, like we were with the Anon that posted the poem, that she may be leaving us as well.
So, we really are just as confused as you :)
Usual lurker...
Anyone else think that Mikey's tshirt is bullshit propaganda. A lot of people think that they disagee over the bassist bitch and some people think Loveman is Mikey. Maybe this is another fake happy smile to make everything seem fine between them to stop the fans from worrying. Either that or Gerard pushed Mikey into wearing it. I think Mikey would do anything for his big brother that he has always followed and looked up to.
Whoa, wait, people were thinking seriously that anon was SS? I must have missed that part.
My worry just comes from a not so vague feeling I've had for a while, and it's just yuckier today.
J:
What you've pointed out is what I've wondered all morning. I think that they may have been just another Anon. But, if there is truth behind that poem, I hope they're okay.
SS hasn't changed his Latin since yesterday morning when Mayo first posted. His "dulce" is in reference to the "Sweet & Spicy" name we gave him. We weren't sure if it was him or not. Okay. So I wasn't sure. But he let us know.
I'm with you on this though. Your points are very valid.
Kapunua:
J. thought that this morning it may have been from SS, yes.
Loveman isn't Mikey; Loveman talks as much smack about Mikey as she does about Gerard.
I'm through defending either of them, though.
Hey Frank, if somehow, one way or another, any of this ever gets back to you? Please don't do that MSI-plugging thing. I swear to god, I'll hurl.
"Hey listen up! All you racists, sexists, homophobes, and just plain assholes, we've got a message for you...GO THE FUCK HOME! We don't want you here, don't buy our merch, and don’t listen to our music. If you have our CD, break it. We don't want you and we don't need you here."
Gerard, did you make that band you dragged out on tour with you break your CDs?
J, those are all good points. It doen't really come across as ss at all when you really look at it.
way to have little faith in Mikey's own sense of self, anon. *sarcasm*
J, I think you have made excellent points.
I'm worried about Elena too. Maybe she had to up and run/I hope we are over thinking this and she is okay.
Anon above, I doubt anyone made anyone wear a shirt of all things. It could be something as simple as he ran out of clean shirts and needed something. And if Mikey likes MSI, well I do not think it is a big deal, but that is just me. [I'm in no way trying to be mean, it is just what I initially thought when i read your post]. :)
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