A favorite...oh how I do love fire.
I Pity the Wind
Gerald Stern
I am taking off my glasses
so I can stare at the little candles
and the glass of water
in pure darkness.
I am letting a broom stand
for my speech on justice
and an old thin handkerchief
for the veil of melodrama I have worn for thirty years.
I am dragging in Euripides
for his strange prayer
and my own true Hosea
for his poem on love and loyalty.
After a minute I fall down dead
from too much thought
and turn to the freezing wall
for an hour of quiet sadness.
I start my practice later,
twenty minutes for breathing,
twenty minutes for song,
twenty minutes for liberation and ritual.
My poem is about the airshaft
and Zoroaster
and the soul caught in its last struggle
with the two-headed cow, father of everything.
My elation has something to do with light,
my misery with darkness,
my secrecy and fear and distance
with neither.
I end up with a pillow
and a painted floor, as I always do,
my head on the flowers, a little pocket for air,
my right arm drifting and dangling.
I end up just humming,
true to myself at last,
preparing myself for the bridge
and the hand that will lead me over, the hand I adore.
I pity this hero,
so in love with fire,
so warlike,
so bent on teaching.
p.s. I couldn't resist you and your agile fingers as they swept over my heart filling it with glory. To follow the mass, my own words prey.
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good night resurrected wreck.
night night RW.
kapunua, just out of curiosity -- when did that happen? is it a recent story?
Good night RW.
I don't think it's too recent, but I don't want to mention the exact date because like I said, I don't want this pal of mine to be out in the line of fire. Apparently she was kind of a big name at this event.
Either way, I believe that story abotu Jimmy Urine buying coke next to Gerard's mom over the summer. :/ The guy is trouble in the worst way. I hate him.
G-Way, godamnit, take care of your stupid self, will you? I just want to bounce my fist off your numb skull sometimes. >_> Take care of your stupid self and then go back to being your smart, humble, sincere, honest and good-hearted self. He's gotta be around there somewhere, right?
Yeah, well Gerard's mom should have kicked his ass if she needed to do it to prevent him from marrying her...What the hell was he thinking?!!!!
i can totally understand why you don't want to say the date -- that's cool. thanks for the info.
i'd hope things have changed, but...
even pollyanna would have a hard time with this, i'm afraid.
This place makes me feel, quite honestly, like I matter. I've never been a part of anything like this before and the bonds that we've developed will be unbreakable.
I enjoy waking up everyday and coming on here to see what's being discussed, to see how everyone's doing. I enjoy offering my support and help to those of you who need it. I am very appreciative of all of you that have done the same for me.
Being here has made me feel safe. It's made me feel a little more comfortable with who I am. With every new post, I'm discovering more and more things about myself and about you all as well. You all, knowingly or not, have made this bearable.
We all have our own problems to deal with, and I understand that, but sometimes all it takes is that one smile to make everything feel like it's going to be okay. That's what I've learned by being here, and that's why I desperately try to show you all I am thinking about you. If I miss people, it's only because of this crappy dial-up (You feeling me Sdock?).
All of you, every single last one of you, hold a tiny place in my heart and mind. I think about you guys everyday and hope in my mind you're all doing well. I don't think words will ever be able to express the gratitude I have for you and your words.
Mayo:
It will be okay. Everything that's wrong will be sorted out in time. You allowing this to continue means the world to me. I don't take it for granted, because I know you could up and decide to pull the rug out from under us. But I know you better than that Mayo. You wouldn't do that, would you? If you're contemplating it, don't. I bid you a goodnight and I hope the new day brings you delight.
With all that said, I'm hitting the sack. Thanks for such a great day you guys. I hate that the sun has to set on it. But, good things can't last forever.
Love to you all.
Either way, I believe that story abotu Jimmy Urine buying coke next to Gerard's mom over the summer. :/ The guy is trouble in the worst way. I hate him.
I've been peeking into a couple of MCR forums I belong to but haven't visited much lately, and the kids there are starting to idolize MSI based on their association with MCR. I think that makes me sick to my stomach even more than the whole Sharpie writing thing.
Okay, am heading to bed for real now, just had to put my two cents-worth in about this.
'Night, all!
Ahh, my friend at work calls me "Pollyanna" because I always see the bright side of things.
And the thing is, I always do. When there is one.
Mayo,
Sorry to comment and run, but I must get ready for life as I know it tomorrow...Dentist office, work, and so on.
Here's to us both having a spectacular day tomorrow!!
Please take care of yourself....
Love to You Always,
S
p.s. Goodnight and promises of a next time
Goodnight SDock10, Sleep well.
mustard, you know you do make a difference, without a doubt.
loved everything you just wrote, like you pulled words out of my heart.
sweet dreams to you!
I know how you feel, Mustard. hugs to you, too, and sweet dreams!
good night again resurrected wreck, good night sdock10. ^.^
Ahh, my friend at work calls me "Pollyanna" because I always see the bright side of things.
i swear, i didn't know that! not a psychic, just a witch! lol
Good night Sd10 and RW sweet dreams
Just saw what Kapunua posted.
This makes me mad, sad, and feel helpless.
I don't know what to say or do. I just hope that if he's partaking in their festivities, he realizes the error of his ways and corrects the damage. I just want them all to be okay.
Mustard, that was so heartfelt and honest. I give you a great big {hug} for your comment, and I'm not a big {hugger}
Good night, sdock! Good luck at the dentist's tomorrow.
I've been peeking into a couple of MCR forums I belong to but haven't visited much lately, and the kids there are starting to idolize MSI based on their association with MCR. I think that makes me sick to my stomach even more than the whole Sharpie writing thing.
Well that's my other huge issue. Gerard knows that these fansheep are going to like whatever band he tells them to; he's counting on it. And with knowing what MSI's message is, it just makes my blood boil.
The whole thing is such a dismal mess.
aw love to you too MIB that is so nice, I tink about everyone too ( I am pretty geographically isolated) and it's like having a big bunch of friends.
night!
Thanks you guys. Hugs to you all, and even you Jennicula :) I'm not a hugger either.
The whole thing is such a dismal mess.
That pretty much sums it up, yes.
"We don't hug." "We're not shy." "We're contagious." ^_^
I would never like a band because someone in another band told me to, for any reason, I may listen to them but I am capable of making up my own mind
(though I am a chinese zodiac sheep I am not a fansheep)
I would never like a band because someone in another band told me to, for any reason, I may listen to them but I am capable of making up my own mind
that's how i am, too. i love getting new band names -- every time i read another one in an interview or something i'm checking it out of the library. but if it doesn't click with me, it doesn't click.
*shrugs*
Oooh, herd mentality. I never quite understood that. I'm that goofy cow in the wrong pasture at the wrong time.
I agree Ergo.
Well, I am a hugger, so hugs to all!
You know what I keep thinking about? How the whole deal went down to have MSI open for MCR. I originally thought both bands were on Reprise, but I now know they are not. Obviously it's the Gerard Lyn Z connection, but I cannot imagine that the whole band was in favor of this.
Take care of your stupid self and then go back to being your smart, humble, sincere, honest and good-hearted self. He's gotta be around there somewhere, right?
He most definitely is. There are very few things on this planet that I know by sense alone (mostly good cookies and when it's time to clean the litterbox), but this is... just one of those things.
Well, that sounded frigging ridiculous. How is everyone tonight? How's Mayo-yo doing? Nice of you to join into our little poetry slam. I noticed this poem had quite a few elements of our conversation last night.
-Amyranth just got home from work and over 1000 already!??! Guyyssss!!
One thing I am so relieved about is that me and my friend didn't see MSI at PR, otherwise we would have been flipping the bird during their performance.
Hi there amyranth how are you?
Jennicula said...
Oooh, herd mentality. I never quite understood that. I'm that goofy cow in the wrong pasture at the wrong time.
November 5, 2007 4:00 AM
That makes me think of that episode of south park where all the cows gather around the clock and when they are told to leave they jump off the cliff.
Hello amy how are you?
I remember that episode! :D
Hey Amyranth!
Well, it's time for me to hit the hay. This whole "turn back the clock" thing is messing me up.
{hugs} for everybody. But no more tonight, all this touchy-feely stuff makes me fidgety.
Mayo, be good to yourself.
Good night Jen.
Marthajones and BC - doing well, this evening so far considered. How goes it with you both?
Anon616 - I didn't steal your number.
- AnonAmyranth616 XD
night night jen. sweet dreams
I am doing quite well Amy.
Ah you changed your name I see
Night, Jennicula!
I'm fine Amy I hope you are as well.
PS. Star, I have a Snickers in my purse for tomorrow. I'm sure I'll think of you when I see it :)
Now I'm leaving. Nighty-night
One thing I am so relieved about is that me and my friend didn't see MSI at PR, otherwise we would have been flipping the bird during their performance.
the funny thing about prorev is that i did see msi there, and totally enjoyed their show. it was the highlight of the second stage bands for me (apologies to the bled, who were awesome).
mind, this was the first prorev concert -- none of the drama had gone down yet, msi was just another band on the line-up. i thought they had lots of energy, were fun and sarcastic, got my picture taken with steve righ? -- the whole shebang.
came home, checked out their cd from my library, and you know what? didn't like it. it was too rough, it was too angry, it wasn't fun like the live show.
so, upshot -- not a fan of the band, but i can see how someone could be. and i'm glad i was able to see them before all the lovebird stuff could raise the question of my opinion being tainted.
but these younger kids -- who maybe don't have the self-awareness of that possibility?
*marge sound*
Kinda makes me wish that we could travel back to the summer before all of this crap started.I truly miss the old Gerard *sighs*
:(
TJ marge sound was perfect after that!
I just don't think MSI are that talented.
Shocking and eye catching but would it last?
I think not
Well I'm off to bed you guys have a good night. Don't over do the comments. hell who am I kidding you guys go all out.
and good night to you jennicula! ^.^
Good night, MJ.
I'm off too!
Have a good night, my friends!
One thing I am so relieved about is that me and my friend didn't see MSI at PR, otherwise we would have been flipping the bird during their performance.
My cousin, who is fifteen (that gorgeous little girl you might have seen in that "light for Mayo" photo album? The one that came with me to PR and we talked to Frank together,) wanted to see them at PR. I was like, HOW ABOUT NO.
And now MCR is just outright promoting them to their young audience. VOM.
good night martha!
yeah, ergo, i always have the marge sound in my head for worrisome situations.
d'oh!
^.^
'Night, Jennicula, MJ and Star. ^_^
sweet dreams, star!
night MJ,jen, star
Hi guys!
(Or should I say, het-up ladies?)
I looooooove quizzes!
1) Who was the original blogger that started all of this?
CJ.
2) Who came next?
LoveMan.
3) Who was Mayo originally thought to be? And why?
MSI-broad. Something about fondling, don't make me remember!
4) SS once posted under another name. What was that name?
4B) What does that name mean?
Ignotius, meaning "unknown".
5) Before this blog came along, who was originally thought to be a certain lead singer?
Sdock10, I believe?
Now let's see how well you know your most regular posters, and most regular topics of conversation.
6) Which person often feels ignored or left out?
Entropy. (HUGZ)
7) Who is the youngest known person on this blog?
Paperhearts.
8) Who is the oldest?
Elena, I believe... or ErgoProxy?
I do remember that she's 51.
9) What do you think is the average age of the people who come here?
30's
11) Which posters are sisters?
Sdock10 & Smoke&Venom20
12) Which posters are not sisters but live together?
Original Punks L & J
13) What was "Mustardisbetter's" original name on here?
Anon2007
14) Who wears the boots in this blog?
*ahem* That would be me. ^_^
And don't they look FABULOUS???
15) Who is "Dr. Nut?"
Sdock10, our beloved trainer for the NutBusters' kickball team.
16) Which person on these blogs sees dead people?
Kapunua.
17) The "Original Punks" were at one time thought to be which two women?
Erm... Jamia and Alicia?
18) What is the most quoted band on this blog?
Taking Back Sunday!!
19) Which person here goes out with a welder?
*dead air* Miss T?
20) Which person here has admitted to intimacy issues and prefers to live with her cats?
*meep* That would be me again. #^_^# I only have one kitty, tho.
21) Who wrote the original cheer for friday night Kickball?
Ergo-baby!
22) Who wrote the original "open letter"? Which band or band member was it written to?
Verita wrote an open letter to Gerard, I think...
23) Which person on these blogs was bullied really bad in school and later got revenge?
I'm thinking Anima, but I could be wrong... Mustard would be my next best guess.
23b) How did she get it?
Went all Kung Fu on their asses?
(Damn, I knew this - I just don't remember today!)
24) Which person did Mayo refer to in his profile not once, but twice?
Sdock10.
25) Who is "The Princess"?
Smoke&Venom20
26) Who here is rumoured to look like Lyn-Z?
Kapunua. But she's better-looking than Lyn-Z.
27) Who is The King?
SS!
27b) What is he the King of?
FuckFest2007©!
28) Who recently lost a good friend?
Mia. *hugz*
29) One time, a man posted that he was probably the only man here. He told a secret. What was it?
The man was m. But I don't recall the secret; there were so many that day!!
30) Which person here is attracted to "wayyyy older men"??
Paperhearts, or Gnothi Seauton...
31) What is the single most quoted song on this blog?
TBS again - "Spin Sugar"
32) Which poster knew the Way brothers when they woked at a book store?
Star
33) Which person on these blogs has the biggest boobs?
That's difficult to answer... one of the posters had 346DD's, after all! (The answer would most likely be a tie; there are LOTS of DD babes here.)
34) Which person is part Innuit?
Paperhearts.
35) Which person uses her great grandmother's name?
Elena
36) Which person here says they are a functioning alcohlic?
Carrie.
37) Which person here posted the secret that they are "afraid to stop moving" and "find failure...."?
Wasn't that an anon?
38) Who's real name is Dawn?
Star.
39) Who went to London and took a Black Parade costume?
Resurrected Wreck. But she hasn't gone yet.
40) Who has tattoos featuring the artwork of Gerard Way?
Entropy?
Very observant, Anon! :)
What's happenin', everybody?
- Sis Midnite (who has mad skillz, but not the kind I can post about on this blog! ^_~ )
Hi Star! Bye Star! ^_^
BC, just to pick on a certain anon616. It's far too much fun.
So what's the scoop tonight? Are we going to continue the poetry slam or move on to other pastures?
-Amyranth is sorta normal tonight. Watch out!
All of this crap makes our worries sbout Eliza seem like such a small, insignificant issue doesn't it? Oh...she's not respecting his wishes, she blogs, she hints...
That's NOTHING compared to Miss Lyn-Z, her band, their lyrics, their drug use, and...well I can't say mediocrity as they are so far BELOW that term....
ok, with that last cheery post...I'm off to bed. 'Night all' Mayo included of course!
FuckFest2007©
i love that you copyrighted it. lol
) Who is the oldest?
Elena, I believe... or ErgoProxy?
I do remember that she's 51.
Hey I'm not that old!!
no I'm not the oldest, one of maybe, but there's a couple older than me
Amy, you are so bad! Lol
good night freddycharles! ^.^
Bleeding Chaos said...
Amy, you are so bad! Lol
I wouldn't call it THAT now. He insinuated that I was trying to steal his numbers. So I did. For a bit.
-Amyranth
amyranth, not steal --
borrow. you borrowed the numbers, and i'm sure you polished them up before you put them back.
:)
wow everyone is gone or very untalkative
toujours said...
amyranth, not steal --
borrow. you borrowed the numbers, and i'm sure you polished them up before you put them back.
:)
He'll never know I had 'em ;)
-Amyranth is singing.
amyranth, you crack me up! i always love your little taglines. ^.^
ergo, did you change your username?
Oh okay. I'm still here.
All of this crap makes our worries sbout Eliza seem like such a small, insignificant issue doesn't it? Oh...she's not respecting his wishes, she blogs, she hints...
Funny, I was thinking the same thing last night. And though I've certainly never been an Eliza fan, I actually find myself feeling a bit sorry for her lately, especially with all the Sharpie messages & PDA going on. I can't help but think that's a deliberate slap in the face to her from Gerard. I don't know what happened between them that caused their break-up, but no one deserves this kind of public humiliation.
I also can't help thinking how awkward this must be for Alicia & Mikey, being Eliza's friends.
That's NOTHING compared to Miss Lyn-Z, her band, their lyrics, their drug use, and...well I can't say mediocrity as they are so far BELOW that term....
All I can say about the Gerard/LynZ thing is: if it wasn't her, it would have been somebody else. The man is just incapable of coping on his own.
*RW can't sleep :/*
Sis Midnite, you rock! You brought down the house with your answers! ^_^
31) What is the single most quoted song on this blog?
TBS again - "Spin Sugar"
Sneaker Pimps. But TBS does reference the song in their song, "Spin." Which I highly recommend. ^_^
This may be hard to believe, but I'm actually bored.
Bleeding Chaos said...
This may be hard to believe, but I'm actually bored.
Then pick a song you haven't heard in a long loooonnnnng time, look it up on Youtube and laugh youself silly.
I'm having a blast doing it myself.
-Amyranth is having a blast.
oh ergo is me ergoproxy it's my other account name
And though I've certainly never been an Eliza fan, I actually find myself feeling a bit sorry for her lately, especially with all the Sharpie messages & PDA going on. I can't help but think that's a deliberate slap in the face to her from Gerard. I don't know what happened between them that caused their break-up, but no one deserves this kind of public humiliation.
I know, I feel the same way. Seriously, what the hell could she have done? It's like a modern day Scarlet Letter kind of thing.
amyranth your little tags are the best part of your posts!
Then pick a song you haven't heard in a long loooonnnnng time, look it up on Youtube and laugh youself silly.
I'm having a blast doing it myself.
Turning Japanese by The Vapours!
Wow, that dates me!
bc, you might be bored because you ran out of horror films. :)
ergo said...
amyranth your little tags are the best part of your posts!
*giggles* Now! don't be sarcastic my dear!
You know, I can't believe Aqua is doing a reunion, and furthermore that I'd probably pay to see them X3
-Amyranth
Let's see, maybe I can listen to that barbie girl song :D
Ha!
Wait, Aqua is doing a reunion?!
Kapunua said...
I know, I feel the same way. Seriously, what the hell could she have done? It's like a modern day Scarlet Letter kind of thing.
My theory? She threw out his favorite shirt because it was full of holes and wouldn't even make a good dust rag.
-Amyranth is going to get yelled at for dredging up the past now.
I know, I feel the same way. Seriously, what the hell could she have done? It's like a modern day Scarlet Letter kind of thing.
Or some fucked-up fairy tale. LynZ is the princess, and Eliza is the wicked witch. Doesn't seem to be room for anything in between in Gerard's world.
I feel sorry for Eliza too,(and any other ex) whatever she did noone deserves this to happen.
Even if it's not directed at her it's still pretty thoughtless
My theory? She threw out his favorite shirt because it was full of holes and wouldn't even make a good dust rag.
BUT IT WAS A PERFECTLY GOOD SHIRT!!
0_0
Bleeding Chaos said...
Wait, Aqua is doing a reunion?!
Hellz yez! Paging Doctor Jones!
-Amyranth is doing computer kareoke
I'm a barbie girl, in a barbie world....
haha
oooh Bucks Fizz !!
now if I mention Dancing Queen will that date me? It was the first single I owned
You know, since you guys are discussing about Eliza, I bet that Mayo is going to come on here and request that you don't mention about the past.
resurrected wreck said...
BUT IT WAS A PERFECTLY GOOD SHIRT!!
0_0
I know!! ;_;
-Amyranth
now if I mention Dancing Queen will that date me? It was the first single I owned
Last Train to London by ELO was mine.
My theory? She threw out his favorite shirt because it was full of holes and wouldn't even make a good dust rag.
BUT IT WAS A PERFECTLY GOOD SHIRT!!
It had a pretty unicorn on it!
ergo said...
now if I mention Dancing Queen will that date me? It was the first single I owned.
When I was younger the only Dancing Queen I knew of was Freddie Mercury ;3
-Amyranth
Hi Kapunua, and thanks for the info.
I think the majority of us KNEW that MSI were a train wreck even before the marriage. Since the first time I saw her & her shitty-ass band, I've kept my own counsel as to what I think of her - I'm not into overtly slamming people I don't know. However, that being said, one of the things I actually *like* about myself is my ability to judge character. (And Kapunua, you'll know exactly what I mean, because your senses are highly tuned-in, as well.) I'm usually right on the money, too.
She is what she is. But it's ot good to automatically assume that she'll get him right back into 'the shit'. I've been seeing life as it occurs backstage for a lot of years, and just because all vices are available doesn't necessarily mean that our dear Mayo will partake on a regular basis.
Yes, I know -- I've been pretty mouthy to the guy. and I'll most likely continue to be mouthy where G-Way is concerned. But don't forget that he's done all this before, and he KNOWS what can happen. If you've never been a heavy drinker, or into the whole drug thing, you're much more willing to get into whatever's being offered to you. I'm not saying that he doesn't partake of the 'party favors' occasionally, and I'm not saying that he isn't. But I do know all too well what life on tour is like, and it's a lot more boring than so-called 'insiders' would have you believe.
If she has any kind of hold on him, I doubt it's through substances. It's more likely through sex -- I don't know a whole lot about the girls he's been with before, but I'm pretty sure that Lyn-Z is his first "bad girl". So personally, I'm more worried that she'll cut off his dick in the middle of the night than I am about the booze & dope factor. As long as she's got him by the gonads, I don't see a whole lotta change on the horizon.
There you have it, my $0.02.
I have change, if you want your money back!
Off to take a shower, my one accomplishment for the day. ^_~
Back in a bit!
((Sis Midnite is in the running for biggest boobs & longest hair!))
You know, since you guys are discussing about Eliza, I bet that Mayo is going to come on here and request that you don't mention about the past.
Apologies to Mayo if that's the way he feels about it(it is his blog, after all). But the girl doesn't deserve what she's been getting.
I can't believe they are going to do a reunion. Oh well.
Bleeding Chaos is currently watching the Sopranos and thinking about bananas.
Doesn't seem to be room for anything in between in Gerard's world.
that's catholicism for you.
-Amyranth is going to get yelled at for dredging up the past now.
i actually guffawed at that one. out loud. my cat is looking at me like i just said something extremely nasty in felinese.
I agree RW. I feel sorry for her as well.
ergo said...
My theory? She threw out his favorite shirt because it was full of holes and wouldn't even make a good dust rag.
BUT IT WAS A PERFECTLY GOOD SHIRT!!
It had a pretty unicorn on it!
Mikey's Unicorn?
-Amyranth made a picture about that once....
toujours said...
-Amyranth is going to get yelled at for dredging up the past now.
i actually guffawed at that one. out loud. my cat is looking at me like i just said something extremely nasty in felinese.
Mine can sympathise.
-Amyranth is getting a new fur coat as we speak.
Apologies to Mayo if that's the way he feels about it(it is his blog, after all). But the girl doesn't deserve what she's been getting.
And you can't change the past by pretending it didn't happen.
*am quoting myself - sorry, forgot to add that last bit before I posted*
Bleeding Chaos said...
I can't believe they are going to do a reunion. Oh well.
Bleeding Chaos is currently watching the Sopranos and thinking about bananas.
I liked the juicy upbeatness of their albums. And the cheesy videos.
-Amyranth is not sure she wants to know where that last bit came from...
You cannot change the past, but you can change the future.
I never seen the cheesy videos, but a niece of mine had their cd. I listened to a few of their songs, but that was long ago.
-Amyranth is getting a new fur coat as we speak.
i'll be getting mine in about...oh, 45 minutes or so.
and is one's computer supposed to be this fuzzy?
toujours said...
i'll be getting mine in about...oh, 45 minutes or so.
and is one's computer supposed to be this fuzzy?
I never have a problem with mold around here, you know. I believe the spores float in and assume someone's already got the territory covered.
- Amyranth has one that sleeps with her, and one that sleeps ON her.
Bleeding Chaos said...
I never seen the cheesy videos, but a niece of mine had their cd. I listened to a few of their songs, but that was long ago.
O_O!!!!
Check out the link in my nick.
-Amyranth
O_O Dude just called me "Milady." I don't know if I think that's cute or if I want to throw up. Or if that's chatspeak for "I actually am going to kill you." ;D
i only have one, but there's been a time or two where i've been pushed off my own pillow...and a time or two i've awakened to find her head on the pillow next to me, and realized we were spooning.
how long is too long to be divorced?
*oh dear*
You cannot change the past, but you can change the future.
A future full of unresolved issues is no place to live.
kapunua, it could be code for closet-SCA.
which might be more worrisome, tbh.
Kapunua said...
O_O Dude just called me "Milady." I don't know if I think that's cute or if I want to throw up. Or if that's chatspeak for "I actually am going to kill you." ;D
Is he a D'N'Der? Last time someone called me "Milady" it was because I was dressed like a wench, and I stomped on his foot anyway.
-Amyranth didn't have a good first meeting with her ex boyfriend's dad.
Holy crap, you go away for a few hours to feed your family and crap and then it takes freakin' forever to catch up! But I do so like it. :) I was just glad that I made the quiz, even though I've only been on here a few times. Kudos to Sis Midnite for catching it! And yeah, kinda sad I make the quiz for being kinda fucked up.
toujours said...
i only have one, but there's been a time or two where i've been pushed off my own pillow...and a time or two i've awakened to find her head on the pillow next to me, and realized we were spooning.
I had a kitten that used to mimic me when he slept. Head on the pillow, paw underneath.
how long is too long to be divorced?
*oh dear*
Right.. about... wait... Nope, not yet.
-Amyranth is cheeky tonight.
And since Kapunua's comment, all I can hear in my head is "Cuz you are Milady...and I am your man." Yeah, I know that's not how the song goes, but that's what I hear, and yeah, I think it might be on the cheesy side, but maybe he's just trying to impress you. Or he likes Napoleon Dynamite a lot.
Right.. about... wait... Nope, not yet.
*whew*
LOL, SCA-er! He admits to having played D&D, but doesn't anymore. I've never played D&D but tbh, I find D&D to be quite charming, actually. It wouldn't worry me.
And I can't judge SCA-ers too hard. I own a cape. O_O
Gonna try this sleep thing again. Though, frankly, I think it's overrated...
G'night, everyone :)
I think it might be on the cheesy side, but maybe he's just trying to impress you. Or he likes Napoleon Dynamite a lot.
Well, I like Napoleon Dynamite, so. ^_^
He is trying to impress me, it's weird. I can tell. I don't miss much, so it's not like he's being obvious or anything, and it's not like he seems to be making things up, but there's a definite effort going on, and I still just don't get it. The dude is really good-looking, what the hell?
Anyway, enough of this nonsense.
G'night again, RW!
G'night RW!
-Amyranth completely missed the whole Napoleon Dynamite thing.
And I can't judge SCA-ers too hard. I own a cape. O_O
i had a hunch you wouldn't be asking me: "er, what does sca mean?"
no offense, of course! (you don't want to see what's in my camping box)
I should know some of these.
1) Who was the original blogger that started all of this?
--LoveMan
2) Who came next?
--Mayo
6) Which person often feels ignored or left out?
--Hmm.. I always express how lost or confused I am... who else is it?
7) Who is the youngest known person on this blog?
--Me. I'm ashamed to say, I'm fourteen.
16) Which person on these blogs sees dead people?
--...That would be me.
21) Who wrote the original cheer for friday night Kickball?
--My guess is ergo.
24) Which person did Mayo refer to in his profile not once, but twice?
--sdock10
28) Who recently lost a good friend?
--I did. (And someone else. I'm so sorry, I've forgotten who.)
32) Which poster knew the Way brothers when they woked at a book store?
--Who?! They'd probably have some fascinating stories.
34) Which person is part Innuit?
--Kapunua
37) Which person here posted the secret that they are "afraid to stop moving" and "find failure...."?
--My guess: sdock10
Kapunua said...
He is trying to impress me, it's weird. I can tell. I don't miss much, so it's not like he's being obvious or anything, and it's not like he seems to be making things up, but there's a definite effort going on, and I still just don't get it. The dude is really good-looking, what the hell?
It's probably just gas. Hot people get gas all the time.
On top of that, he's probably as nervous as all hell talking to you because he knows he likes you. And even if he knows you like him it doesn't mean that he's going to stop trying to wow you. Guys get worried that someday you'll figure out that they're not really glittering gold, it's just that tooth they had replaced from the prison riot.
-Amyranth.
sweet dreams, resurrected wreck!
Kapu, you are just so crazy. I totally don't get the self esteem issues. You are so intelligent, and you are pretty too, and I really mean that. Oh, and on a totally different note, I remember you saying you went to Lutheran school. Were you a believer at the time? I mean, the school my youngest goes to is somewhat liberal in that they don't wear the uniforms and such, but I still dread the day she decides in her little brainwashed robotic voice to tell her older sister that she's going to hell for being gay.
Hey Mayo, what do you think of Robert Browning's "My Last Duchess," sweetheart?
She thanked men,--good! but thanked
Somehow--I know not how--as if she ranked
My gift of a nine-hundred-years-old name
With anybody's gift. Who'd stoop to blame
This sort of trifling? Even had you skill
In speech--(which I have not)--to make your will
Quite clear to such an one, and say, "Just this
Or that in you disgusts me; here you miss,
Or there exceed the mark"--and if she let
Herself be lessoned so, nor plainly set
Her wits to yours, forsooth, and made excuse,
--E'en then would be some stooping; and I choose
Never to stoop. Oh sir, she smiled, no doubt,
Whene'er I passed her; but who passed without
Much the same smile? This grew; I gave commands;
Then all smiles stopped together. There she stands
As if alive....
I've just read through loads of the blog and discovered that quite a few are wrong.
Oops.
Of my answers, I mean.
You are totally inspiring me to check out some poetry books from the library. Any recommendations? (And I apologize if I spelled that wrong)
I am so far behind. :/
in her little brainwashed robotic voice to tell her older sister that she's going to hell for being gay.
The only thing that could make that funny would be if her older sister wasn't.
-Amyranth loves awkward silences.
How about a little Oscar Wilde, bb?
...
Like wire-pulled automatons,
Slim silhouetted skeletons
Went sidling through the slow quadrille,
Then took each other by the hand,
And danced a stately saraband;
Their laughter echoed thin and shrill.
Sometimes a clockwork puppet pressed
A phantom lover to her breast,
Sometimes they seemed to try to sing.
Sometimes a horrible marionette
Came out, and smoked its cigarette
Upon the steps like a live thing.
Then, turning to my love, I said,
'The dead are dancing with the dead,
The dust is whirling with the dust.'
But she--she heard the violin,
And left my side, and entered in:
Love passed into the house of lust.
Then suddenly the tune went false,
The dancers wearied of the waltz,
The shadows ceased to wheel and whirl.
And down the long and silent street,
The dawn, with silver-sandalled feet,
Crept like a frightened girl.
silence. said...
I am so far behind. :/
I'm going to be brutally honest with you. I haven't the foggiest idea of what's happened lately either. I came home to almost 1100 posts. XD
Just jump into the conversation kiddo! C'mon, what's your favorite Elder God?
-Amyranth
Amyranth, I would laugh my ass off too. I'm still not sure if it's just a "phase" (and I hate myself for saying that). The hubby and I have joked that she's so smart that maybe she's totally playing us and she's totally a big whore, and we're just happy that boys call her all the time. :) Seriously, most of her friends are really good looking guys.
Amyranth, you crack me right up. ^_^
Carrie, thank you. ^_^ I did go to Lutheran school and I guess I believed in god back then. But back in that day, we just didn't talk about things like homosexuality. It wasn't even addressed, it was ignored. This is back in the 80's and such. Early 80's.
But most importantly, you're the one your youngest will listen to over her teachers in school. ^_^
Hello, I am back... and wondering if I am even welcome anymore...
Thank you to the few who voiced their concerns. I'm still alive and kicking - for now...
In my 3 day absence, have I missed anything? Have there been any revelations that I should know about?
Kapunua said...
Carrie, thank you. ^_^ I did go to Lutheran school and I guess I believed in god back then. But back in that day, we just didn't talk about things like homosexuality. It wasn't even addressed, it was ignored. This is back in the 80's and such. Early 80's.
Once again, brutal honesty, I went to catholic school all my life, and we never, EVER discussed homosexuality as being a sin against God. This is probably why I think Fundies are a sin against humanity. I can't believe that there are organized religions out there that seem to be fine with preaching nothing but utter hate, even though they claim to be all about love.
-Amyranth shouldn't get... ARGH! RANT OUT AND KILL!
I guess I'll jump in.. to my best ability.
Poetry?
One can't forget T.S. Eliot.
Time present and time past
Are both perhaps present in time future,
And time future contained in time past.
If all time is eternally present
All time is unredeemable.
What might have been is an abstraction
Remaining a perpetual possibility
Only in a world of speculation."
That's only a little. The rest is very long.. But I like that part best.
Ya know, I seriously hope that. I just hate my husband's holier than thou attitude toward the whole situation, you know hate the sin, love the sinner and all that. I just don't think a person't sexual identity should equate to a sin, and I can't really express why to him in a rational manner, because I always get upset and start ranting.
And God?
I am an athiest.
I'm lucky, I only had to go to a Catholic school for two years.
Two years were more than enough.
hey I'm back, had to go check out a fire over the hills a bit on another farm, not to worry though - yet (fingers crossed)
-ergoproxy is a volunteer rural firefighter
( I even have a uniform)
My daughter actually went through the Lutheran catechism classes, and that's what turned her off. I guess at that point she already knew she was gay, so the whole homosexual lecture was a big 'ole slap in the face. And also, I am somewhat Wiccan but non-practicing for the most part because I don't want to upset the apple cart. So that whole part of the class was a big turn off too. In the end, she decided to not be confirmed, which was a big hairy deal amongst the family, but I totally respected her for it.
ergo, that is totally cool (or maybe hot)
And Sappho:
I have not had one word from her
Frankly I wish I were dead
When she left, she wept
a great deal; she said to me, "This parting must be
endured, Sappho. I go unwillingly."
I said, "Go, and be happy
but remember (you know
well) whom you leave shackled by love
"If you forget me, think
of our gifts to Aphrodite
and all the loveliness that we shared
"all the violet tiaras,
braided rosebuds, dill and
crocus twined around your young neck
"myrrh poured on your head
and on soft mats girls with
all that they most wished for beside them
"while no voices chanted
choruses without ours,
no woodlot bloomed in spring without song..."
Hello myalyas
Hi myalyas and carrie
well the most important thing you missed was that we Ray Toro enthusiasts will now call ourselves Toro's Tinglers (in honour of his spidey senses allowing hm to know when we are discussing him)and took over the blog earlier to revel in the awesomeness that is all things Ray.
That was my highlight!
Ummmm apart from that not a lot of new news, still sharpie messages, everyone is sick of it, MSI are less than savoury, played at but didn't win any EMA's,
did I mention Ray is gorgeous?
(oh and ergo is ergoroxy, it's my stage name ;])
Whereabouts in Australia do you live, ergo?
ergo.. what's with your profile?
Aren't you ergoPROXY?
Why are you posting under ergo?
I am very confused.
haha i called myself ergoroxy, that is cool
how are you silence?
are all the fires over? Did your various friends lose their homes? It's off our news now (election coming)
Ummmm apart from that not a lot of new news, still sharpie messages, everyone is sick of it, MSI are less than savoury, played at but didn't win any EMA's,
did I mention Ray is gorgeous?
Ray who?
Oh, and Mayo updated his profile.
More sharpie messages? Does he own stock in the company or something?
-Amyranth
silence I am on the mid Queensland coast (in from the actual coast on a range of hills, farming land)
sort of where the whitsunday Island's are (if you know them)
and I have 2 emails with gmail and it depends which I log into it's ergo or ergoproxy
same me though =)
and I keep typing messages before I realise and if you try and change it then you have to do it over, and I'm lazy
For the most part, the fires are out.
I still have to fish the ash out of our swimming pool though.
That is going to be a bitch to clean up. :/
It is inescapeable that someone I know lost their house in the fires, as I lived in THE BURNED AREA for nine years. Oh, man, I am seriously wishing that I haven't lost my book full of addresses and numbers. Communication is patchy, ,so it's near impossible to get through to them. The people who stayed with us came home to s house that was still standing.
Yes, I understand the ergoROXY thing, but why aren't you using your ergoproxy acount?
Because then you could be an impostor! (Dun dun dunnnn)
(Silence is just saying.. :/ )
Ergo, that's awesome of you. ^_^
Here's one more for you, Mayo. And it's important, so listen up.
Should lanterns shine, the holy face,
Caught in an octagon of unaccustomed light,
Would wither up, an any boy of love
Look twice before he fell from grace.
The features in their private dark
Are formed of flesh, but let the false day come
And from her lips the faded pigments fall,
The mummy cloths expose an ancient breast.
I have been told to reason by the heart,
But heart, like head, leads helplessly;
I have been told to reason by the pulse,
And, when it quickens, alter the actions' pace
Till field and roof lie level and the same
So fast I move defying time, the quiet gentleman
Whose beard wags in Egyptian wind.
I have heard many years of telling,
And many years should see some change.
The ball I threw while playing in the park
Has not yet reached the ground.
Dylan Thomas was Layne Staley's favorite poet, did you know? Of course you didn't. Said he could relate to the feelings. Our friend gave him a book of the complete works for his birthday, the last gift she ever gave him.
Well my dear, time has ticked a heaven 'round the stars. Take care of yourself, fool, and don't make me go and bounce my fist off your thick skull by doing anything dumb, okay?
Goodnight, all. Long days and pleasant nights. ^_^
And hang in there, yeah? Pactum serva and that kind of thing?
Understandable.
Sorry, I'm slow.
I used to live in Adelaide, and once went to Bungaree, and tons of other farming places for a school trip. I think that is near to you.
Ergo I didn't know you were in Australia! I love that accent.
I used to work for Michael Hill here in Canada, and one dark and stormy night I had to spend loads of time on the phone with a tech from Brisbane with an utterly dreamy accent.
Probably some old codger, but the voice was niiice... X3
-Amyranth
Goodnight, Kapunua.
Aw, nuts.
I have to go to bed now.
Goodnight ergo, connie, & kapunua!'
(everyone's probably already gone but silence says oh well.)
Ray who?
shun the non believer, shuuuuuun
would you like me to tell you of him?
He is a mystical music man with finger skills a mere mortal could not posess.
His head is haloed by a magnificent mane of curls,
and his smile lights even the darkest realms of a womans heart
silence I was checking my other emails and gmail seems to change the blogger account too
it just does it by itself
Oh gosh, one more thing. Don't you hate that? Words of wisdom from my young god(dess)daughter:
Well, I hope Gerard can pull his panties out of his crack; I jumped on the MCR wagon a little late but I really enjoy them, and if he's going to throw it all away because of an early mid-life crisis you know what I'm going to have to do...
~winding motion~ right to the vagina. POW.
I LOVE HER! What a fantastic little girl. ^_^ Or young lady now. O_O
Goodnight, all.
Alright esteemed Poetessesesses... can you continually pluralize something to death? Anyway.
Who wrote this?
If you no longer live,
if you, beloved, my love,
if you have died,
all the leaves will fall in my breast,
it will rain on my soul night and day,
the snow will burn my heart,
I shall walk with frost and fire and death and snow,
my feet will want to walk to where you are sleeping, but
I shall stay alive,
because above all things
you wanted me indomitable,
and, my love, because you know that I am not only a man
but all mankind.
-Amyranth
kapunua - classic classic child!!
a real goddess worthy as her mum
(i'm back in my other emails now)
ergo said...
Ray who?
shun the non believer, shuuuuuun
*is shunned*
would you like me to tell you of him?
He is a mystical music man with finger skills a mere mortal could not posess.
His head is haloed by a magnificent mane of curls,
and his smile lights even the darkest realms of a womans heart
He's SANTA CLAUS? o_o
-Amyranth
I gotta attempt to go to sleep now, need to try to be a real person tomorrow. Goodnight everyone!
amyranth he could pop down my chimney anytime, heck i'd even build a chimney!
and I used to live in Brisbane, grew up there, before moving north for teaching.
Our accent is different, there is actually a tv show on tomorrow night about it, so i would sound like that guy did, though different states sound a little different, and we have different words for stuff, togs, bathers, swimmers, things like that.
night carrie, it's only 4:30 in the afternoon here
shun the non believer, shuuuuuun
charlie...
chaaarlie...
chaaaarrrrlie....
*gigglesnort*
ergo, that's funny that you told me what time it is where you are. I was actually going to ask that but thought it was geeky. :) It's 1:30 a.m. here.
ergoproxy said...
amyranth he could pop down my chimney anytime, heck i'd even build a chimney!
Toro Claus? It sure beats the Grinch!
-Amyranth is thinking about Christmas, since we already have SNOW.
Last night, I had a dream...
I was hanging out with Mayo...
He was talking his usual jibberish...
Then I reached over, grabbed him, and gave him the most long and luscious kiss...
He started talking normally after that...
Myalyas said...
Last night, I had a dream...
I was hanging out with Mayo...
He was talking his usual jibberish...
Then I reached over, grabbed him, and gave him the most long and luscious kiss...
He started talking normally after that...
*blinks*
- *blinks again*
Amyranth, thanks for repeating that. I enjoy remembering it.
no worries carrie, I think it's funny ,the time zones that is
ooh Toro Claus, nice,very nice
"oh I've been a baaaaaaad girl"
myalyas, lucky you!
Maybe that's all he needs - an older woman...
HaHaHaHa!
Ergo, in my dream, it was he who was lucky!
i came, i posted, i lurked, i laughed.
and now, i leave! ^.^
good night all!
a beautiful day to you, mayo!
Myalyas said...
Amyranth, thanks for repeating that. I enjoy remembering it.
I'm glad I'm able to play the part of a human Kodak in your life.
-Amyranth
oh I seeeeeee
hehehe
I am sure he should experience the wisdom of an older woman.
actually I do think Gerard would benefit from someone who'd whip him into shape, we must keep you in mind!
Hi Carrie!
Kudos to Sis Midnite for catching it! And yeah, kinda sad I make the quiz for being kinda fucked up.
Don't be sad, Carrie. In some way or another we're *all* fucked-up. I really believe that's another one of the reasons we all ended up here. We may have originally wandered over for the musings of our favorite condiment, but we stayed for US. ^_^
Hi Silence! How are you???
Hi Myalas!
Of course you're still welcome here! *hugz* We all lose it now and then. You spoke what was in your mind & heart, and here at Mayo's that will NEVER be a bad thing.
I'm trying to answer emails, download email and play with everyone here at the same time. Can I multi-task well, or what? ^_~
<--- has snow here, too
hello again everyone. How is your evening/afternoon going?
Thanks, sis-midnight.
good BC hoping we are going to get some rain, but not a bad storm.
waiting for hubby to arrive home,
playing snap with my daughter,
watching spongebob
pretty average afternoon, at least it's cooler
Enough computer for the day, I'm off to bed. G'nite, everybodeee!!!
That's good Ergo. Night night Sister M! I'm going to update my profile, and then I am off to bed. Good night everyone
40) Who has tattoos featuring the artwork of Gerard Way?
Entropy?
No honey,I only wish haha. If I'm not mistakan that is elena.
I think.
Goodnight Sis.
Myalas,I'm glad you came back and of course you are welcome here.
How are you doing?
How is everyone else here?
Goodnight BC.
goodnight entropy :)
Goodnight and sweet dreams to you Mayonaise
oh drat I've just had 2 lovely glasses of white wine some brie, blue brie, salami and crackers and everyone has gone !
oh well.
Mayo I won't wish you good night, as you are most likely close to waking up!
Curse these time zones ! the europeans should be up soon, so hello to all of you when you arrive.
I shall off to the kitchen to cook our dinner, satay chicken and rice tonight.
haha I'm just filling in time seeing as I'm the only one here.
Before I go to sleep, I wanted to post this pretty poem by Robert Frost. I hope you guys may like it.
Bond and Free
by Robert Frost
Love has earth to which she clings
With hills and circling arms about—
Wall within wall to shut fear out.
But Thought has need of no such things,
For Thought has a pair of dauntless wings.
On snow and sand and turf, I see
Where Love has left a printed trace
With straining in the world’s embrace.
And such is Love and glad to be.
But Thought has shaken his ankles free.
Thought cleaves the interstellar gloom
And sits in Sirius’ disc all night,
Till day makes him retrace his flight,
With smell of burning on every plume,
Back past the sun to an earthly room.
His gains in heaven are what they are.
Yet some say Love by being thrall
And simply staying possesses all
In several beauty that Thought fares far
To find fused in another star.
Take care and good night/afternoon Ergo. Anyone else who is still lurking, I bid you good night. Good night Mayonaise.
XOXO,
BC
Good morning/afternoon/evening all! Is anyone still around? BC?
Ergo? Entropy? Sis Midnite? Kapunua? That's it! No one is present. I'll have you all know this is going on your PERMANENT RECORD ;-)
And I had such a lovely poem for you all. It does seem to be poetry day again - thanks to Mayo.
Here is my contribution. T'is one of my favorites:
The Invitation
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithlessand therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day,and if you can source your own life from its presence.
The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer, book cover
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
by
Oriah Mountain Dreamer
Makes ya think, don't it?
Have a terrific day everyone. Hugs for all!!!
Oops, just ignore this line:
The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer, book cover
I must add copying and pasting to the ever growing list of things I suck at!
hello everyone!
i'm sure theres no one here at the moment but no worries.
just had a quick re cap....
you had a quiz! that looked like fun! god alot has happened since all this started hasn't it.
anyway gotta crack on.
take care guys.
oh god i've just read through your fan girl moments last night. i'm laughing so much i'm getting funny looks!!!
another quiz moments:
Which two members bloggers were once known as anon30 and anon33?
33 was short lived.
for question 2, I think that the next blogger wasn't Mayo...I think it was either Love Woman, BC or someone else...I forget that third option.
HOLY FUCK!
I'm gone for less than a day, new post, and over a thousand comments?
Mayo, this poem seems a little revealing about your identity. Was that your intention? Now, I haven't read any comments, so I don't know what went on. I really enjoyed your poem though, what a wonderful choice! I love fire as well, which is probably why I always get stupid burns. If you get to close and cozy with fire, you'll end up getting hurt.
can't seem to get this pic to you as apparantly my html cannot be accepted, tag is not allowed??
anyway on buzznet there are some pics of mikey at milan nov 3rd and
at first i thought oh mikeys wearing a nice t shirt and then it clicked.
its a MSI t shirt!
it made me feel a bit nauseaous!
may be some one who is better with a computer (pretty much anyone) can get the link??
Far Away,
I'll go look at it! =]
Okay, just read back a bit. I must say that Lyn-Z sure is started to act like another Eliza, or so it seems. && the Mayo blog quiz is such a good idea! =]
I'll read it all later!=]
Much love to you all!
Mayo, you sure are getting alot of attention lately! =]
Love;
-007
*hug*
Good morning mes ami(e)s!
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