I understand your need for answers, information, and reassurance.
I have been asked to offer a tailored invitation to each of you. I cannot in good conscience fulfill your request, not now. With the current climate here, I am afraid this would only escalate hurt feelings and finger pointing. What if I get it wrong?
Some of you are more open and I may know more about you, others are more reluctant to reveal themselves, or are perhaps new…how do I deal with this? I know your names, and yes, I can speak to most of your personalities, but not all...so you can see where that may lead. You have all come here with your individual voices, with your own intent, wanting to be heard, wanting to listen. All valid, yet you do not require my validation to set your sails.
"Mayonaise" is an important place for me. Although I make every attempt, I am unable to read all the heartfelt comments that you leave. I spend time with you after I post, and then I return when I am able to give you my full attention. You would be amazed at how skilled I have become at finding that time...somewhat of an artful dodger. If it ever appears that I have missed something, I apologize.
Please understand I am not evading, I am not ditching your request. I only fear that any misinterpretations at this time could be disastrous to whatever chance you have of restoring friendships. This is no longer about me. Stay here for each other. I will continue to post on “Mayonaise”. You may listen if you choose. Or you can ignore me, and continue to use this space to gather. Or you may choose to disappear.
I cannot take you for granted.
I am accountable for my actions.
I need you.
I have been asked to reveal myself to you. You all know me. I am whoever you want me to be, I am an artist, a poet, a singer, a motherfucker, and a contradiction, a mouthpiece, a friend, and an enemy, a brother, an informant, a whipping boy, a basket case, a queen, and a criminal...(credit to John Hughes.)
p.s. my fear, again...and I am hungry, but often I forget to eat.
"You have the exclusive right to be an exclusive asshole. But I don't have to like it."
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«Oldest ‹Older 1801 – 1921 of 1921m I often miss you posting but I read them. Pets are one of the shining lights of life.
It is just such a shame we have to farewell them.
But they give so much and ask so little in return that they deserve their memories to be treasured.
keep safe.
I'm back!!
Kapunua,
I dunno...she's mixed. She was just the fluffiest purdiest puppy I had ever seen and she came right up to me and she picked me and the rest is history. I love her, love her, love her.
Now I will show you a pic of Rebel...
http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=8f5nvjd&s=1
Hello sd10 I hate this I can see the picture because my computer is running slow.
sdock10
'i have to confess to lurking now'
rebel is beautiful
love
m.
Oh, well Rebel's a lab! But Rogue is really beautiful. That's just the kind of dog I love to cuddle and squeeze.
Original Punks,
By now you have probably become well aware that we are on the same page. We feel precisely the same way. What you have said in your post is verbatim to what has been going through my mind over the past few nights. Glad i'm not the only one with a keen eye.
There is a fine line between forgive and forget. I stand by what I have said a few days back. I'm not one to quickly take back what I have said in the past, y'know? AHEM*GEE*AHEM. Oh but I shouldn't go there should I, Mayo? Anywayyyy...
I suppose that's one thing most people find irritating about me. How I always speak my mind. I can't help it if I'm honest. If you do something stupid, I'm going to let you know about it, regardless of the relationship we have. One thing I will never allow myself to be is fake. Staying quiet just to keep the peace would have been fake on my part.
Trust is the easiest thing to break, but the hardest to mend.
I want this family to be the way it once was, but the truth of the matter is, it won't be. I still love my friends. Only now, it is clear to me who to trust and who not to. Forgive me for being so stubborn. It still hurts.
I will still post here frequently, and so will you two. You are always welcome here. And if someone's giving you shit, you know you have my back. Forget these Anons.
Much love. Take care, m.
This is my bird.
http://s217.photobucket.com/albums/cc303/CarolineW6uh2/?action=view¤t=cid_part_03.jpg
I promise to email you back soon, by the way. I'm just a little busy these days.
ok I really have to go, almost 6 yr old peer pressure is killing me!
She keeps leaning over my shoulder and holding out the box!
I'll try and see the pic later sdock.
We had an adorable red cattle dog who I loved dearly, for 11 years.
We have had other dogs but unfortunately snakes have gotten a couple and one was baited accidently at another property.
and the last one though lovely killed 9 of my new young chickens so he was given away.
It seems we have to choose dogs or chickens which is a shame.(the cattle dog was never worried about them)
so have a good night (I suppose) while I have a rainy sunday!
hopefully back later.
bye!
Hello to everyone.
saklfj; WIFEY.
*hug*
Hi everyone!!
Sleepy-ass Saturday, love it!
I love both cats & dogs, but I've always had cats. My lifestyle wouldn't be fair to a dog.
What, am I banned fro talking dirty last night???
OP's, no email yet?
Kapunua, I'm answering yours now.
If Amyranth is Mayo & SS, Sdock is Amelia, can I be Elizabeth Bathory? :)
Awwwh, thank ya'll, m. and Kapunua.
Those are my 2 babies.
I love em both, but Rogue is just special cuz she picked me.
Ray, as we all know, is simply a guitar legend with magic fingers.
Yes. ;)
I enjoyed your review, Kass! Glad it was fun!
Hi CTV, a huge hug from one wife to another!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
See you later Ergo, have a nice day.
Hello CTV amd mib how are you?
MissT,
My stupid computer won't let me see the pic.
Hey Nik@nite!
Did you come for more dirty talk?
Hi everyone else I missed!
Comments are getting full, I might disappear at any moment.
Hunt me up at discuss if I go missing.
Good evening Mayo.
Good evening everyone.
How are you all?
Hi Sis M,
Hi mustard,
How are you both?
Hey, yellers is waiting to hear if you thought he was gorgeous.
Hello marthajones. Just fine, yourself?
SS, no idea if you're going to be able to read this. I'm becoming anxious just to hear anything from you. I want to be sure that everything is fine. These days, we can really use some of your beautiful words and thoughts.
I know you have not abandoned us. We just want to be sure that you're okay.
Come to Canada. I'll buy you some Timbits sometime.
Much love.
Hi guys!
I won't be able to post anymore over here. The comments take too long. I just now got it loaded back up.
I'll be over in the kickball blog if anyone needs me! ;)
What happened to the game by the way? I got left in outfield singing "Desert Song" for a day.
*is not really bothered by that*
See ya over there!
Hi GS, how are you?
That's a shame sdock cos he's a cutie.
I will indeed track you down ha!
Hello GS and sis m how are you guys. CTV I'm ok. it seems computer problem are the in thing at Mayo's
Hi Miss T - better than last night . I spent a good hour bent over the toilet. Bloody kids and their bloody germs!!
I saw RW today, she's LOVELY!!
Hi Martha. Sister M , SDock, Mustard and anyone else I've missed.
Mayo, we need a new blog -- care to indulge us, babe?
I'm here, at discuss, and trying to answer emails -- I'm making my own 'puter problems. Jeez.
Hi, MJ, CTV, GS, Miss T, Mustard, Sdock, K, everyone I missed! Doin' okay, thanks... had a WIKKED dream, and couldn't find him when I woke up. :(
- Sis Midnite / Naughty Nikki
GS, I hope you managed to get it all out, yuck!
Sis m last night "Oh Marco Marco, do it again Marco".
ha ha ha!
Mayo,
With regards to your post, thankyou for at least offering an explanation.
I don't think we were under any impression that you would be able to speak to us individually.
In fact, I'm not sure I want you to.
You have made a wise move.
The first of the week.
I'm going next door to play.
I might see you tomorrow.
Goodnight Mayo.
TTFN
LOL at Miss T's comment!
It was one of those dreams where you can feel & smell everything. And nothing sets me all a-quiver like a good-lookin' Italian guy. *droooool*
Ernie has Sharpie'd your name on his collar, by the way. :) (And your email keeps sending mine back to me!)
Is anybody still here, or are we all over at discuss?
I'm still here sis m.
I guessed the tone of the dream didn't I?
That Ernie is a little cutie. *tickles under his chin*
Are you trying to email me?
CTV,
Good to hear from you! We love your post. And we understand about the email, take your time.
Sister Midnite,
Try emailing us first, it seems to work better that way. Don't worry about talking dirty, it's sometimes the best way to talk!
Miss T,
Check your email.
Kapunua,
Gotta believe, honey.
Seems we have more friends here than we thought.
We will gladly explain our position to anyone who wants to ask. Please feel free to email us if you want. But also, please don't ask us to change our principles. We will always state what we believe, because that is how we live.
And we have never wanted anyone to kiss our asses.
Peace
J and L
J and L,
can I kiss your cheeks?
I promise the one's on your face and not your ass.
Miss T,
Of course!
Y'know, we've never ASKED anyone to kiss our asses.
But if they request it...
We usually oblige.
HEE HEE!
J and L
I guys understand how you fell OPs J&L. I have had people who have betrayed me to the point of being the same way as you. I would never ask you to change if you need to vent go right ahead. I want all my family here no matter how they feel. I would rather you not talk to some of the family than for you to leave.
Miss T: Yup. I finally got around to answering yoru email from earlier this week, and it's been kicked back to me twice. Yahoo is fucked up, maybe.
Ernie's back leg is twitching, and he's making heart-eyes at you. :)
(You nailed my dream, too!)
OP's: Will do! Glad to see you here! *hugz* We're at discuss, this blog is too big for dial-upper's.
OP's,
I just wanted to say that I support your right to feel the way you do.
J and L,
bend over and I'll pucker up.
ha ha ha ha!
Thank you for that, Martha. We hope everyone can understand.
J
You guys are welcome.
Sis M, cool beans.
GS, thank you so much.
Miss T, any freakin' time. :)
J
Sis m,
I'll look out for the email. It may reach me eventually ha!
OOOOoooooooooooooooo marco!!!!!!!!!!!
Here Ernie *tickles behind ear* He sure is looking smart in that uniform.
Good evening Mayo, goodevening lovely ladies. Still catching up. I am almost done....
Hello anima how are you?
Hi Anima, how are you?
I fangirled out over at DM. You guys should go look at the pics. ^_~
I missed a lot. Damn. Catching up sucks. I am sure it is a hell of a job for Mayo.
Mayo, new blog please!
L & J - love you two very much.
K is Mayo? Of course she is! Or is it Mayoranth? Hmmmm.... maybe they are the same person! Actually everyone is in on it! I knew it!
Crap, there is much more to address, but my memory is failing me.
Hi MJ, Hi Miss T.... Heading over to DM for a peek at K's pics.
BRB.
Shame in me - of course. Only the best view for my fellow bloggers!
How is everyone? I had to duck out on a fish rescue emergency.
-SS Mayoranth
Anima - We're all the same person, except for you.
Welcome to the Twilight Zone.... MUAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAAACH ACK! HACK! *coughs more*
I can't do evil laughter today.
- SS Mayoranth
You know, I thought of the funniest thing when that anon was saying i was Mayo, but then I forgot to write it! I was going to say, "It's like Anon is Gabriel Byrne, this blog is the audience, and Mayo is Kevin Spacey and we're ten minutes away from the best ending ever of the best movie ever!"
But it's not nearly as funny now.
And if you know what I'm talking about, SHHHHH! Because we do not discuss that movie!
Damnit, not Gabriel Byrne, Chaz Palmenteri. I'd be Gabriel Byrne.
Now I messed it all up!
Hey Anima!
Love you too. And thanks.
Mayo? SS? Come on, people, think about it. There's two of them...there's two of us...obviously...it's US.
Phew! Glad I finally got that off my chest. What a relief.
Carry on.
J
Kapunua
Why don't we discuss that movie? It is in my top 5 of favs.
Wow, J and L it was you all along. you had us fooled you sneaky so and so's.
*wink wink*
OP'S - you can't be Mayo and SS! I'M Mayo and SS!
At least that's what my shrink says.
- SS Mayoranth
It's apparent we can't hide it anymore, Miss T.
We had to out ourselves.
Wait...did that come out as wrong as I think it did?
J
You guys are not fooling me anymore. I have it all figured out.
Amyranth, you are the alterego of Kapunua. L & J you are the alterego of Kapunuaranth. SS and Mayo are the same but different when they take their medicine. And when they take their medicine they are one person and that person is Sdock. Did I get it right?!
I just got a pop-up ad that said,
"Whack five aliens! Get a hot ringtone!"
I swear to all that is holy.
What is the world coming to?
J
I know 5 aliens that I would like to whack.
Hello amy or should I say SS or is it mayo. Well just to let you know I'm pasted.
Anima said...
You guys are not fooling me anymore. I have it all figured out.
Amyranth, you are the alterego of Kapunua. L & J you are the alterego of Kapunuaranth. SS and Mayo are the same but different when they take their medicine. And when they take their medicine they are one person and that person is Sdock. Did I get it right?!
SOMEBODY STOP HER! SHE'S GOT IT FIGURED OUT!!
- SS Kapuayoranth
Jeez OP another exclusive. Anything else you'd care to share.
Let me guess, you killed JFK.
But AmySSKapunuamayoranth,
Your therapist told us we were Mayo and SS, I'm sure of it! But now that Anima has this new theory, we're not so sure anymore.
Ok, how many people live in my head...there's me...and L...and SS...and Mayo...and Amyranth...and Kapunua...and SDock...and the aliens with ringtones...
J needs some meds too maybe?
Is Gerard still an alien cause I want to whack him. All this talk about when we went out on tour with MSI four years ago and give a hand to MSI. I don't care and I don't want to hear it.
I knew it!! Gosh this whole thing is all coming together.
My therapist says this blog is not real and all of you are characters I made up in my head to cover up some tramatic experience I had in my childhood.
What do you think about that? I made all of you up! Yay me!!
J's still curled up in the corner from the last batch of meds you gave her, L.
I dunno. But if I have to keep sharing my spot with Kapu, and she hits me with that sword one more time, who ever is hosting this CRAZY PARTY is going to get an awful headache.
- SS Kapujmayolranth.
Ok, this is L.
J. has lost her fucking mind and is sitting in the corner rocking back and forth saying "But I AM SS, I AM SS..."
Actually, she's getting her dinner ready, but it sounded better.
Miss T,
No that one was not us, it was the aliens. But we did have Jimmy Hoffa whacked.
marthajones, I don't know if anyone is really sure anymore...
L.
Sorry anima but your wrong you are all a dream I am having right now. Nothing more than the product of that spicy food I ate last night.
P.S. I am folding laundry in an alternate universe.
MJ,
So this is kinda like Dallas?
L.
MJ, burp that shit up. We need our lives back!
Oh, I see what's going on here. You guys are trying to steal my identity.
I confess, I am MAYO!
It said so last night on google.
So will the real Mayo please stand up?
Will the real SS please stand up?
Yes when I wake up my dead husband will no longer be dead he will be taking a shower. Wait my husbands not dead.... wait i'm not even married. Who the hell is in my shower?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
MarthaJones said...
Yes when I wake up my dead husband will no longer be dead he will be taking a shower. Wait my husbands not dead.... wait i'm not even married. Who the hell is in my shower?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
HOLY SHIT.
You have a shower?!?!@
- SS Kapujmayolranthima
MJ, that was scary!!!
Hi Sdock!
No SD10 you are Gerard so I must whack you. Aip is Mayo. Now SD10 what in the hell where you thinking bring that shit band on tour.
Eliza Bennett37 said...
Kapunua
Why don't we discuss that movie? It is in my top 5 of favs.
Because if we did, we might give it away to the uninitiated! So it's best to say, "This is the best movie ever, watch it," and then just leave it at that. ^_~
Original Punks said...
What is the world coming to?
My ass.
Man! It's been too long since I've said that. And that was so inappropriate.
Amyranth said...
- SS Kapuayoranth
Wow. Color me (us) impressed!
MarthaJones said...
Is Gerard still an alien cause I want to whack him. All this talk about when we went out on tour with MSI four years ago and give a hand to MSI. I don't care and I don't want to hear it.
God, I know.
"Look, all you people who are complaining that we sold out our values with this tour: It's not the first time we've sold out our values!" God, gross me out. Difference is that the first time the tour was more than likely set up for them, and this time Gerard pulled the strings for his own personal gain.
OMG no more alternate universes, please! ^_~
MJ, call the police ha!
The one in your shower, martha? Oh that's just the imposter Mayo that everyone thinks is running this place.
I mean, really...
Do what you like with him.
L.
"SS Kapujmayolranthima" = alternate universe on the alien planet of ringtones.
When and where did he say this.
"Look, all you people who are complaining that we sold out our values with this tour: It's not the first time we've sold out our values!"
Its like he want to destroy everything he worked so hard for. Well just the respect and credibility
Anima,
Sounds nice. Can we go? And what do we pack for such a trip?
Oh, and SDock10,
YEAH, What the hell were you thinking?
L.
He didn't say it, MJ, I was just saying what it sounded like he was trying to get across. ANd it's cheap.
It SS so that's where you have been hiding. Ewww he looks like a wet dog. Been in there a little to long. You had better pay the water bill for all that hot water you've been using.
So, anyone wanna trade pictures?
- Back to Amyranth. Too many people in my head.
Ok, I need to go, J. is starting to draw on herself with markers and she's already got a half a scorpion on her neck by now.
It's dinner time, really. But again, sounded so much better!
We'll probably be back on later tonight.
Thank you, thank you, all for being here. We love you.
L and J
Did someone say Gabriel Byrne?!! Fave actor of ALL time!
Even if he didn't say it it sounds like something new Gerard would say. Isn't that say I didn't question that he said it I just wanted to know the interview it was said in. Yep respect and credibility fading fast.
MarthaJones said...
Even if he didn't say it it sounds like something new Gerard would say. Isn't that say I didn't question that he said it I just wanted to know the interview it was said in. Yep respect and credibility fading fast.
But remember, this is the fandom where no matter what they do it's not good enough. Everytime they turn around they're "selling out" or "have no work ethic" or are "assholes because they wouldn't buy me a coffee when I saw them at Starbucks!".
The fandom, girls. The fandom.
-Amyranth
CTV...the Timbits! haha that's it! Us Torontonians and the one Hamiltonian MUST get together for Tim Hortons very soon!
Have a nice dinner L & J.
Amyranth, what kind of pictures?
*gets head out of the gutter*
K - I think that sounded about right.
MJ, at least it is SS. Have you been keeping him captive? Damn you. I wanted to keep him captive naked in my shower. :(
O_o @ naked in shower!
All he has to do is go back to being the GW that cared. Or acted like he cared. I never felt they sold out I still don't I just think GW fell down the stairs one to many times and his head ended up his ass. It was there for a while now its up some chics body part.
Anima said...
Have a nice dinner L & J.
Amyranth, what kind of pictures?
*gets head out of the gutter*
Well, I have a picture of a Giraffe, if you know what I mean.
Wanna see my giraffe?
-Amyranth
See you later J and L.
Magic Pie
Gabriel Byrne is a good actor. I remember tv parts he played in Ireland before he went into movies. He has always played strong silent types (rugged).
I prefer Liam Neeson though.
Show me, show me!!!
Anima is from the Show-me State, anyone know which one that is?
Later Ops. Yes SS has been in my shower this whole time but now he looks like a prune. He is naked but its not pretty right now.
I like Liam Neeson too. But I love me my Gabriel. He made me swoon in Man in the Iron Mask ;)
Googling not allowed!
Goodnight anima have sweet dreams.
By the way, good evening Eliza!
MJ said:
I just think GW fell down the stairs one to many times and his head ended up his ass. It was there for a while now its up some chics body part.
I had a picture of Gee wearing LynZ as a woolly hat. With her legs dangling down and tied under his chin ha!
MJ you crack me up. ^_^
Awww a pruny SS. Poor thing.
Not recalling Gabriel. Now I must google. Damnit.
Anima - You asked for it!
http://amyranth.deviantart.com/art/Giraffe-9318208
TeeHee.
-Amyranth
::sniffle::
When do I get to be Mayo, huh?
Here, lemmee show yoiu how I do cryptic...
Lobster feathers on a bed of orange dahlias; alien body odor does not satisfy these wrinkled tables.
What do you think?
Do I have to audition?
(Amyranth, I can has picture?)
Guys, we're steaming up DM. Come over. ^_^
Wait, what? MJ are you making me go to bed? Anima is sad. :(
MAYONAISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Where are you my friend?
Come out and play with us! We are playing so nice tonight and getting along so swell.
It would be super duper if you would come join!
MJ, you're making me ROFL!!!!
SisM, you can has picture.
http://amyranth.deviantart.com/art/White-Tiger-9317705
Whee!!
-Amyranth
Ohhlala Amyranth, that is a nice Giraffe. Bring more pics to DM. For some reason I can see yours, but not Kapunua's. :(
Heading over to DM. See you there!!!
Okay I thought anima said goodnight but she said Google. I need glass or to stop staring at a wet pruny SS
new mayo post
It would be nice, wouldn't it Sdock? Hey, I answered your call over at DM, you naughty. ^_^
Someone earlier posted something to Mayo that I felt shouldn't get lost in the mix. I can't even remember who it was but I thought it was neat.
Mayo, last night you hung around for a few minutes and asked us if there was anything we'd like to ask you. (I did, and you were like a little Ouija board when you answered me. That's how I pictured you.) Someone today posed that same offer to you.
Mayo, is there anything you'd like to ask us? We'd be a good Magic 8 Ball or Ouija board. ^_^
Or perhaps you could just shut down your computer and get some rest, dream of squirrels or something. Whatever blows your hair back because I want to make clear, as much as we do like you (much of the time,) you're not obliged to post crap at our whim. And like you said, we don't require your validation. We just like your conversation sometimes.
Even still. We like each other's as well.
SisM, your cryptic writing is better than mine.
Black Cat trips to cars with streamers, flipping neon on chocolate milk.
Now, that just made no sense whatsoever.
-Amyranth
Possible last word here on this post - but not likely the final word:
Words by mayo
"I have been asked to reveal myself to you. You all know me. I am whoever you want me to be. I am..."
Hmm,
Trying to be so many things to so many people.
Trying to be what they want you to be, trying to be what they be.
Do you know yourself anymore?
Can you be yourself anymore?
Would you choose to be yourself anymore?
p.s. Thank you for keeping the mayo universe alive.
And you know that despite the rampant objectifying earlier, people here would actually take personality over looks everytime.
man i have just been backreading the MWM saga!!
mayo you so and so!
happy days!
It has been almost 18 years ago, the years burn. I can feel them scorch my being. Anyway, i revisit this place still and often. It is a way to go back in time, for a little while. Memories drifting on by around here and i smile.
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