I am sad, no I am devastated.
Never once has this been about favoritism, cliques, or status. I just couldn’t fucking hear with all the noise and needed a little space.
I needed a place where it could be less abstract for me, and for you. I guess perhaps I am a cheap, greedy man.
I can’t stress enough the fact that it was your intense camaraderie that led me to believe that you all had some sort of life line with each other. You finish each others sentences like an old married couple, it's beautiful to see.
I made a mistake by asking one of you to deliver my message, and I am sorry.
In defense of the visitors, they only did as I requested, by keeping the space until I needed it.
I was not attempting to conceal anything. Mayonaise is for you to share, for everyone. It became more your home than mine, and that is amazing.
Kapunua, I would like to speak directly to your recent post, and in doing so speak to everyone. First, thank you. My gratitude may be expected but it carries an enourmous amount of worth. Second, I know that you are not naïve. For you to consider that I would exclude you, or anyone else is to say that you never heard me. And I know that each of you hear me. You are all my insight and my mirror. It is you that I look toward to pass judgment on me, and you have. I have failed you.
I am sorry.
P.S. Please stay, all of you, stay…not for me, but for each other.
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oh, my dear
i'll be always here. quietly, in my own, but here.
love always
xo
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No, it doesn't. Not to me. You did this like over a month ago!
This is the thanks you give us.
No wonder even my teenage daughter thinks you're a shit!
I knew you heard me and and I heard you. And in doing so, I have begun to listen to myself.
You have my faithful heart.
Alfuckingways!
Love to YOU,
S
p.s. Safe at home again
I am not sure if I will continue to stay, or anywhere else for that matter. I had said my apologies, admitting my mistakes, and that is all I could say. We cannot change what transpired last night. I'm sorry.
Well, Damn, BC! What will happen to Mayo's blogs if you leave?
I'm being descriminated against because of my age...
I know that's it...
Fine way to treat your elders!
BC,
I think we all have something to learn here.
I forgive....for you, for Mayo, for myself.
Now, the healing can begin.
We have so much more wonderful adventures ahead.
Mayo I understand the want and need to have your own quiet corner in the universe, I truly do.
I learned something about myself over the last few days. And, for that I thank you. I learned that I don't "do" cryptic well, nor do I care to attempt it anymore.If you want me to understand you, please be blunt. I'm blonde and apparently slow.
I learned that I need to take a step back.
I learned that I do cherish those of whom I've talked to on a regular basis. They can keep a piece of my heart. I'll be around, but I need to find a quiet corner of my own to lick my wounds.
Okay. I feel a little better about all this now, a little more in the know. Thank you for this.
This was truly unexpected.
Lost for words right now.....
thanks for posting mayo. im still confused but i hope everyone can get along and still accept me
Buddy, I'm glad you came along with this post when you did. I was having a hard time keeping the family together.
Thanks!
i do not forgive bc...she's still an attention seeking whore in my eyes
Mya, I love you! And you are far from being an elder.
You don't forgive her for her, you forgive her for yourself.
Do it for yourself, please.
thank you
Are you going to post over at your little secret society now Mayo?
I'm sorry, too.
It's quite a fucking shame if you ask me, that all of this had to end the way it did.
I appreciate your straightfoward words, but I'll have to chew over them to see if there's any honesty behind it.
wow thanks for that mayo. it was good that you posted a new post and said some things, maybe we can have some peace now. I like dit how it was before all that started some days ago... still I´m a lil bit confused... seems to be normal for me....
Will you be more careful with my faithful heart this time?
I know it looks rough as hell, but it still can be broken.
Time for me to head off. I'll be back on again on Sunday, when I return home.
Have a good evening, all!
I still wish you fun rw, take care on your trip *hugs*
Thanks, Pixie!
Bye for now!
Mayo:
Not once, okay maybe that one time when I wanted to throw your head against a brick wall in hopes it would knock some sense into you, have I ever not given you advice or words straight from my heart.
Just know that.
Everything I ever said still stands, and if it got lost in the chaos, I apologize. It's still remains, undeleted.
Go back and take a gander.
This will never be the same, you do realize that, don't you?
Never.
There's nothing that can be done.
Apologies are accepted from everyone by me. I'm a forgiver and I forgive you and the whole lot.
But it won't ever be the same.
An attention seeking whore? Only goes to show you that you do not know me at all. You can forgive me, you cannot. That is only up to you. I am not entirely sure whether to accept your forgiveness sd10. I don't think I deserve it.
Pixie, I am the Unicorn with all the answers.
1. Mayo created a separate blog called:
http://itsmiraclewhip.blogspot.com/
2. He chose BC (of all, he chose the most unstable) to advise the bloggers of his secret tree house of tyranny.
3. The url was discovered yesterday and it was found out that several regulars of this board had been chatting on THAT board in secret. It was also discovered that BC believes Mayo is Gerard Way and she thusly pledged her undying love to him.
4. Some bloggers were hurt by this betrayal.
5. BC had a subsequent meltdown.
So I suppose I should say thank you. I did ask you to shed some light on this shit. I'm listening to TBS right now. Puts me in a good mood. Trust is fragile. It has to be earned. Nuff said.
"I made a mistake by asking one of you to deliver my message, and I am sorry."
I'd have to agree with you on that one.
What message was it Mayo? Cause it sure didn't get delivered!
Just because I'm not here all the time, playing kick-ball and having birthday parties and such, doesn't mean that I have not invested a lot of myself into all this.
Like I said in your previous post, I have been here from the beginning and before. This pisses me off and hurts, OK?
I need to hear directly from you, Mayo. I own my own property too, y'know? And I have received mail, so I know the mailman is working.
That's all I can say...
Elena,
Adam is the shit, isn't he?
BC,
It's done. Let's move on.
ppu,
You are one outstanding fucking purple horsey! Thanks for the recap!
Still lost.
Loosening my grip.
Still not trusting you.
What meltdown are you talking about? I am still here PPU. Yeah, you know, I figure you would be someone who would label me unstable.
huh ppu thanks for that, ok I knew that already, so I´m not so confused as I thought I am or? well shame on me...
but good to know, that you have all the answers, so I know who to ask the next time ;)
We can move on now, but sadly, I am going to begin to wonder whether or not people are going to continue questioning my true motives. I am not sure which hurts more. Trust is a fragile thing.
who the hell is queen of bruises? are they someone who have posted before?
because they are claiming only a select few were allowed into the alternate universe
and i REPEAT......
THAT IS NOT THE CASE< I WASNT INVITED I FOUND IT
so dont stir shit queen of bruises
One who needs "Space" does not post on-line begging responses, but one who needs an ego stroked (along with a certain part of his anatomy)has an exclusive blog. Stroke his ego and all hail the Emo King.
As I stated, this will never be the same.
Talk about Big Brother, Mayo.
You've got it pegged.
Mayo,
If this is your idea of an apology, try again.
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I for one will stay here for my friends and you can take a running jump.
Have fun with your special friends.
I warned about cliques and little groups days ago when I left. I was pissed off and hurt, others were too. A lot of bridge rebuilding had to take place.
You didn't learn that lesson did you. Are you naturally this stupid or do you have to practise to be this good.
m,
lovely words as laways. Id like to thank you for trying to bring me back to the fold the first time.
I will take advise from your words and I will stick around for my friends.
Everyone, I hope we are all still friends and will continue to meet here because I don't want to lose any of you.
I want people to know that I am not one of the people who knew the location of the "alternate universe". You won't find any comments from me there.
I want to be open to everyone here. I don't want any secrets. I as of a couple of days ago have a "secret "blog so to speak.
Pixie set it up and invited me there. It is for her and me only. We use it instead of email because our emails were having difficulty reaching each other. It is a replacemnt email and that is all. I want no secrets from now on. I don't want anyone to feel excluded. I am being honest. No one else will be invited there because it is, as I have said a replacement for our faulty email.
Now, hello everyone. I hope you are well.
ANIMA!!!!!
Thank you! I love you too!
"who the hell is queen of bruises? are they someone who have posted before?
because they are claiming only a select few were allowed into the alternate universe"
I wondered the same this person said "privileged ones" well... sounds a lil bit mean or? ^^
They never was a select few who first saw the alternate universe. I saw it by accident and there was no invitation whatsoever.
awww miss t my uk-chum I thought you got lost *hugs*
How was the gig MissT?
I'd say welcome back, but...you know.
Hi there Miss T. How are you?
Anonymous, I thank you. For what, doesn't matter. Just know that I do.
MissT,
I will still see you around.
*ignores Mustard because it has to be that way*
Thank you.
I needed to hear that. Nothing cryptic. No metaphors (I think). Just honesty.
Forgiveness is not something that comes easy to me. Sarcasm does. As I’m sure you have noticed. I hold onto hate and grudges a lot longer than I should. I am working on that. What you have created here, regardless of why it started, is remarkable. There are millions of chat rooms and blogs on the internet but yet, there is something extra special here. I now have people from all over the world that I call friends and I have never left the Southeastern side of the United States. Crazy, I know. For that, I am grateful. You could have turned this off along time ago. No more creepy shit, ok?
As far as your other house, that is fine. I have no intentions of barging in anytime soon. I prefer this castle, seeing as how I’m the princess and all.
I still hope you are doing well. I hope you do find what you need here. I talk shit to you and about you, but only cause I have come to care about you. Why? I’m not exactly sure, yet. Does it really matter, though? Please, do try to be a little bit CAREFUL. And as always, I do hope will learn how to be still.
To the rest of you:
I do not want you to think for a second that our ‘other’ house was ever a secret. We all discussed that a long time ago when it was getting too hard for us to load comments here. We had that space and the one for our special ‘kickball team’ if you remember. Just a reminder. We would never leave anyone out. That’s not my style. Love you all.
XOXO
Princess
P.S. - The princess has not slipped through your fingers……..yet.
You are right mustard, this will never be the same. Not sure which is worse.
Bleeding Chaos said...
They never was a select few who first saw the alternate universe. I saw it by accident and there was no invitation whatsoever.
November 14, 2007 6:47 PM
And then you just chose to keep it to yourself?
*sticks tongue out, mainly because that's just the way it's going to be from now on ;)*
I think the hardest part of all of this is that fucking little voice in my head. The one that says ha ha you wern't included again. Well shut the fuck up little voice. I was included in something far more important. This place. I was accepted by these people. Acceptance is really what it's all about. Right Mayo? We all wanna feel we belong.
Mayo do you feel you belong? I know we've tried fucking hard to make you believe. Guess that's why it's hard to see you hide out from us. That's why it's so fucking hard to read the blogs over there. You talked to those people like friends. Not the cryptic messages we got. You talked to them. Nice you talked to us now. Will you continue?
"I think the hardest part of all of this is that fucking little voice in my head. The one that says ha ha you wern't included again."
don´t feel like that elena *hugs* the most of us didn´t know about that so you´re in best company ! :)
Not really. Mayo had said for himself that if anyone else found out about the private blog, he would know.
No problem Mya - you are a doll and I do not want you to ever think you are not heard or left out. Feeling left out sucks. Especially when it gets so crowded in here. I will always remember you as Anon51...we have been with each other for so long. I will never forget our roots.
The reason BC did not wish to share the other blog with you is because she felt special. She felt she could say things like:
"As countless others may desire to want to say this to you, yes I am in love with you. Yes, I do love you. Not the rock star you. Just the regular Gerard. I could give a flying fuck about the rock star persona as far as I’m concerned. I do realize that after admitting this to you, others may seem to believe that I have gone entirely insane. Maybe I have. I will not hold a grudge if that does happen."
So, BC, you're saying the private blog was just for you and Mayo?
Im confused.
But firsty, I couldn't care less at the minute. When I met Gerard today I walked out crying my eyes out, however I cant work out whether they were happy tears or sad.
You didn't have your sunglasses on, I was impressed. But, as you stood infront of me and shook my hand, I was frozen. I couldn't keep eye contact with you. Everytime you looked at me in the eyes I hid behind my hands and looked to the floor. I was scared of something, but I dont know what. I feel so fucked up right now it is unreal. I've been crying since I left you today at 12.50. I dont know what to do anymore. All of this is just confusing my emotions.
Hello my pixie chum.
Hello AIP, thank so much.
Mustard hello, the concert was fantastic, review to follow.
BC, hi sweetie.
I don't want to fall out with anyone but Mayo. BC has never hidden the fact that an alternate universe existed from me. She didn't give me the link because the blog owner asked her not to. I have no bad feelings for BC people.
Mayo is to blame, he obviously has favourites. So, there was a list of people who were to be invited across eh? I'm obviously not on that list so once again Mayo, FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You guys nothing has changed. We are all still here and we are what made this place so fucking spectacular. Mayo is still here and Mayo is Mayo. That's all we need to know. We come, we share, we hang out, we bitch, we piss and moan, we get mad, we get sad, and we get over it all....with each other.
jade...did they say anything about frank today?
Thanks Miss T. Your words mean alot *hugs*
Anima, thanks! Yes, I was Anon51, but before that I was just another anonymous because I was scared to post otherwise, y'know? My first comment was made on LoveMan's blog, before Mayo started.
I haven't always had the time to hang here indefinately, but right now I could really kick myself for what time I did waste here
Nope, nothing about Frank was mentioned unfortunatley.
http://www.nme.com/news/my-chemical-romance/32518
Yeah that is true sd10. So you forgive us? To be honest, I am not angry for alot of things that were said about me or anyone else. I just want to bury the hatchet and make a fresh start. I said my apologies and I hope that will be enough to start the healing process.
well I wasn´t invited.... so I think we´re the non-privileged are in great company, aren´t we?
jep I also knew that there was a second blog,bc mentioned it to me and miss t once, but I had no idea where it was and also no hints to search for. miracle whip, sounds easy... well.... ^^
Bleeding Chaos said...
Kapunua, yep I posted a comment at 10:37 but that was after the miracle whip blog was
erased. I was a little too excited I suppose. Oops.
October 17, 2007 2:32 AM
Kapu... you DID know. You SAID you tried the link. You said, and I quote, you saw it and you tried it.
You GOT the post that BC made at 1037 You were the one who got it. YOU. So you DID know.
What the fuck?
sorry for my bad english this evening ^^
Hey there pixie. how are you?
i too would like to make a fresh start. If anyone wants to bitch at me i would prefer it if you did under a familiar name.
I truly am sorry that i dint think.
Im only human and i feel sick to my stomach.
anonymous, please do not try to start this on Kapunua too. Just leave it be already.
hi bc I´m fine thanks it´s evening *laugh* how are you? I had to leave so fast this morning when you were also online.
All of my thoughts go out to Frank and his family for whatever they may be dealing with.
My thoughts are with you Frank.
*Thank you for posting Anon.
you're welcome, mib.
Don't be sorry shame in me. We all make mistakes. We have to try to pick up the pieces.
As countless others may desire to want to say this to you, yes I am in love with you. Yes, I do love you. Not the rock star you. Just the regular Gerard. I could give a flying fuck about the rock star persona as far as I’m concerned. I do realize that after admitting this to you, others may seem to believe that I have gone entirely insane. Maybe I have. I will not hold a grudge if that does happen
That's why he chose her. He LOOOOOVEs the weak, stupid ones.
Good to hear pixie. I missed hearing from you. Still have the flu unfortunately. Who ever thought it'd last this long?
Nothing has been done to me personally. I am absolutely fine as wine. He had another blog...big deal. For all I know he left hints about it and I was too stupid to pick up on them. I say what I need to say to him right here. Or, he knows where to find me...
Not anyone's fault...
Mayo Mayo Mayo.
You disappoint me as well, like our missing friend.
One thing I'm thankful for is that you have the balls to come out and talk to us. For once.
Mayo, why the Hell did you go through this bizarre, nonsensical farce? Just for some SPACE? You know, it would have been so much easier to say, STRAIGHT OUT, "People, shut the fuck up, my head hurts. And all you anonymous people, I'm locking you out." I don't get the secrecy, the Magical Mystery Decoder Ring shit.
But then again, there's that comic-book hero slant, so...\
Anyway, next question. Why did you choose Bleeding Chaos, of ALL FUCKING PEOPLE, to share this with? Was it because she loves you so much? Because she tells you how wonderful you are? But yet, she changes her mind about 47 times an hour and calls you an asshole, thoughtless, whatever. Right after saying "I love you Gerard". Yeah, that reminds me, why did you let her do that, and still call you Mayo, if she was supposed to keep her mouth shut? I know discreet, and that ain't it.
Not attempting to conceal anything? Well, let me say a little something here. I got an email from Toujours that said I could ask her about it if I liked. I asked about 5 questions. She answered one, then said she couldn't answer the rest because she'd made a promise and couldn't break it. Now, to me, that sounds a little like "concealing".
If you wanted us all to be together, and happy, why not, oh, be a TAD more clear about your intentions? I've told you, so have others, that you are too fucking cryptic all the time. Maybe a well-directed email or two would have helped? Maybe, oh I don't know, some TRUST?
Yeah, a lot of us do have a lifeline with each other. I notice you didn't include yourself in that statement. I got a few others I'm cutting that line with, by the way. And you know who you are.
If we were talking too loudly, you could have left. Or, as I said before, told us to shut up. Why why why do what you did? I defended you, you motherfucking sonofabitch.
Suddenly, the events of the past few days have become really amazingly fuckingly clear to me. Painfully clear. And if you are the man you ought to be, you'll know what I'm talking about. Be Careful what you say, though. The walls have ears. And they're Bleeding.
Telling Kapunua that she never heard you is total bullshit. She, in fact, seems to have heard everything you've said, and then some. K, you go, girl. She-wolf, indeed. I'm proud of you.
So is this why SS left? Did he find out what's been going on and get in your face with it? I hope to God he did.
Shitsubou Shita is 1000 times the man you will ever hope to be. But, really, you know that, deep down in your gut.
So, come out and tell us to our faces: which one of us did you ask to deliver your message? And what the Hell was the message? "We're better than you are"? "I'm only allowing the rest of you pathetic, pitiful fools to play at helping me and really laughing at you"? Or maybe "I like this suck-up a fucking great deal better than I like the rest of you intelligent people"? I could go on, but why bother.
To quote the dubiously admired Gerard Way, "I'm not okay...you wear me out."
Come back out and answer all my questions, you motherfucker. I'm expecting answers. Soon.
J
mayo:
that you received some benefit from this, i had no doubt. i could hear the changing tone in your posts.
but to receive such open confirmation of it -- i am moved, i am having difficulty explaining how much this means to me.
thank you.
and as for staying - of course.
You can call me stupid all you like. It has already been done. No hard feelings
No offence bc but i dont think its for you to say that i shouldnt be sorry.
But thanks for tring to make me feel better
Thanks for making an old lady cry... and feel older...
Bye
No problem shame in me. I was hoping my words would make you feel better. You supported me and I wanted to give that back :)
Read this carefully enough and it seems as though Mayo is blaming us for the entire thing. He told one, who was to tell another.
?anonymous?
"Good to hear pixie. I missed hearing from you. Still have the flu unfortunately. Who ever thought it'd last this long?"
well maybe you ahve the long one like I had? I hope not *hugs* it was just awful ^^
I cant cope with this bullshit anymore. I wonder if I'll be beter without it to be honest.
Anyway, next question. Why did you choose Bleeding Chaos, of ALL FUCKING PEOPLE, to share this with? Was it because she loves you so much? Because she tells you how wonderful you are?
Because she's weak. Easily manipulated. And stupid. Look at her, she can't even type a complete sentence without fucking up the spelling. She uses words wrong.
Shame in Me and BC, please do not feel bad any more. I wonder if I had known about it would I have done the same thing. To be a part of a secret place and not to be overlooked by 1000+ comments; I can understand. And if you were told to keep it a secret, then that is a tough call.
No apologies, no forgiveness... it is all okay. I still care about you.
The person I am most distrusting of right now is Mayo. I do not understand who he is or what he wants from all of us. I love coming here to hang out with all of you, but it bothers me not to know who's house this belongs to. I really would like some answers, but doubt I will get the truth from him.
better*
I dont care about my spelling mistakes actually. I'm in a pissy mood.
I do appreciate that Anima. Thank you.
Is everyone still my friend?
Do you want the review?
Frank, my thoughts go out to you and your family.
Anon at 7:12, please let's not continue with the insults. It is really upsetting to hear.
oh jep miss t, tell us how it was *hugs* :)
im sorry im gonna have to say it. im pissed at mayo. this could all be the work of him and he writes a little apology and everyone falls at his feet. I dont know what to believe anymore and i know thats probably rich coming from me seen as i was "keeping a secret" but something isnt right here. I believed in you mayo. There are just so many unanswered questions regarding this whole past day or two...
am i the only one who thinks this?
I use words wrong because I am a fast typer. What does my misspelling have anything to do with this?
Right.
So, Kaounua has said what was on her mind. I was there when the shit went down, too -- so now, it's my turn.
I don't care that Mayo has another blog. Hell, in the beginning I didn't even care about *this* one. But now that I've met so many FANTASTIC people, I'm not leaving unless I'm asked to do so. Even if my presence here is not wanted.
Mayo: If you want me to leave, you're going to have to grow some balls and TELL ME to leave. I'm betting my sheep that you won't have the guts to address me.
p.s. If you find all this funny, fuck you. On the slim-to-none chance that you really are Gerard Way, you won't find it too funny when no one is left to line your pockets with cash.
Everyone else, you're welcome at the kickball blog. Email me if you need the link.
As for our so-called friends, especially those that fucking LIED to me -- you're getting what you deserve. Enjoy it.
Setting traitors to permanent ignore,
- Sister Midnite / Nikki
No you are not shame in me. I have thought of those things before myself. Pixie, it may be the long flu, but I doubt it. It may take another couple of days to recover though and the cold weather doesn't help especially with my stuff nose.
That Nikki has some real spunk.
thankyou so much anima :)
Miss T, can your share your review?
Well, this blows more than a three dollar whore, doesn't it, Mayo? Not even your apology is being heeded. Oh well, this is what you get. Karma. I just really abhor seeing everyone upset over this. J said it right. "Shut up" is simple, isn't it? Most people will listen.
Bye Mya!
Love,
Anon30
Damnit, I knew I always wanted to be a Nikki!
Love to you Sister!
BC, just don't comment back. Try your best to ignore.
I will try to do my best anima. Thanks.
sister midnite if you dont care about mayo having another blog then why are you bothered about the people that didnt mention it to you?
sorry but contradiction much?
I've had enough of this shit now. I'm out.
This whole 'Mayo' buisness is just fucking my insides up. I cannot be bothered to deal this shite anymore. It's just making me depressed. We all run here, and for what? What answers have we actually got yet? Because im sitting here, and I've got nothing. MAYO you mean fuck all to me right now. This is too much for me too handle.
You know what really strikes me a funny? Some of those "elite" at the other blog were there because they were getting tired of all the anons and new people, right? What's funny to me is that I remember when THEY were new!
Shame in me said...
Yeah here is much better, i like secrets though haha, the other blog lost its magic
when loads of people found out.
October 18, 2007 5:39 AM
No one was excluded huh?
Go Sister Midnight.
Hey Mayo, still waiting for an answer, Honey. Are you gonna talk to us like friends? Or are we just the flock. I just wanna know. Cause if we are the flock you are not the shepherd you are the wolf.
MAYO you mean fuck all to me right now. This is too much for me too handle.
I feel the same way Jade.
Anonymous said...
Shame in me said...
Yeah here is much better, i like secrets though haha, the other blog lost its magic
when loads of people found out.
October 18, 2007 5:39 AM
No one was excluded huh?
November 14, 2007 7:24 PM
OHMYGOD! get over it already do you have to repeat yourself you stupid fuck? i have answered this before, anyone who wants to see my reply look back, im not repeating myself for the millionth time to some stupid ass anon with nothing better to do than copy and paste. Grow up
This will never be the same.
Said again for emphasis.
No matter how much you want it to be the same, it won't. I want it to go back, too. But, I don't have false hopes.
i thought his xxx blog was hot
Anon @ 7: 27 P.M.
Lol
OK people, I will do this in stages or else it will be a big comment.
First off, my sis couldn't leave work until 3:00pm. By the time she'd have got home and got dressed and gone to the arena, it would have been after five. The doors opened at 6:30pm and I knew there would be a giant queue by something past five. So, I was sad enought to go alone and save her a place in the queue.
I got there at 3:30pm. As soon as I got there and joined the back of the queue, I sat down and the two girls in front turned to me and said "Hi". They were lovely girls and it was a pleasure to spend hours in the company of Becky and Louise from Retford.
It got very cold very quickly. Becky asked if I wanted a drink. I told her I never drink at gigs cos I don't want to loose my place for a toilet break. I went with her to get a drink while her friend kept our spot. She got a couple of teas, but her friend didn't like tea so I had to have it, I couldn't let her waste it.
Later on my sister and her friends came after five. At this point I did need the loo. There was no way I was gonna go inside, once I got in I was headed for the front of the stage, no time for loos.
At the side of the queue was some trees. Yes people, with the help of my sister to cover me, I peed in the bushes ha!
More to follow.
This has turned into the very place we didn't want to be. Take a step back and look.
I'm seriously done with this. I'm not participating in this circus anymore.
Now's the time I'm gracefully bowing out.
All is forgiven.
No harsh feelings.
I've learned from every one of you.
Till next time.
Mustard.
Jade, don't go.
This is driving me batty.
Anonymous said...
i thought his xxx blog was hot
OMG don't start me giggling on that one again.
Miss T peed in the bushes? Ha! :D
Anonymous said...
i thought his xxx blog was hot
November 14, 2007 7:27 PM
That wasn't a XXX! He didn't say nothing about wiping his cum off her chin or even fucking her in the ass and then having her suck him off. Young twit...
Lolita, how are you holding up?
miss t can i see your review? i had an amazing time last night hope you did too
miss t you made me laugh! the poor bushes *lol*
mya, low class much?
Mustard please keep in touch.
haha loving the review so far miss t :)
No, sweetie. I know the difference in X and XXX.
It is a peaceful coalescence that I desire.
p.s. with all the finger pointing I can barely hear you anymore.
This means more now than ever.
He wants you to stop pitting one against the other.
Frank, love,
Take care of everyone there, if illness is indeed the reason you left. Hopefully it's not Grandpa Frank. Whoever the patient is, please let them know I'm praying for them. And for you as well.
Hope, Faith, Love
J
Mustard, please don't leave. I love talking to you.
Shame in me, I had a great time too.
Mya said...
No, sweetie. I know the difference in X and XXX.
perhaps, but you definitely dont know the difference between seriousness and tounge in cheek.
Anon, THIS is low-class:
I love watching her delicate hands as they fumble to open my belt buckle. You can bet I never go without one when I am with her. During those few moments just before she opens my pants to pull my dick out rock fucking hard, I can hardly breathe. It is like that every time. She looks up towards me, her eyes are warm and giving. They tell me everything I need to know. I feel love in her eyes. Yet, she seems so fragile, as if she needs my approval before she begins her rapture on my cock. So it plays out this evening as it does each time I request she suck me off...and each time it is a privilege.
p.s. prompted by the lovelies.
Posted by Mayonaise at 1:26 AM 53 comments
Anon, which character are you here?
mya, thats just hawt.ZOMG!LI!U#(###
mya, thats just hawt.ZOMG!LI!U#(###
perhaps, but you definitely dont know the difference between seriousness and tounge in cheek.
Hey, that's fair, I don't know what 'tounge' in cheek is either, and I'm 18 years old.
But...I think...Let me be sure here...I have a tongue...in my mouth...
BC, I'm confused. It's insanity, but I guess I'm a-okay otherwise.
like ZOMG it was a typo...wtf...gah
Yeah, right now it is pretty out of control here.
First off, I d like to say that Frank wasn't there but Gerard never mentioned it. No explanation which I thought was strange.
The protecnhics were fantastic. The show was fantastic. The two temps were really fantastic too, they did a great job.
Gerard didn't look drunk or out of it. I was on the second row, right in front of him. He really was in fine voice. Pixie, he did sound a little donald ducky on a couple of songs.
More to follow.
Mayo said...
You are all my insight and my mirror. It is you that I look toward to pass judgment on me, and you have. I have failed you.
So make it right. None of this "Oh damn I fucked up" shit. Treat us like people who care. Yeah, it can get loud in here but I know you can still hear if you try.
Are you listening?
Can you hear?
Fuck yeah you can.
Sorry for the harsh words but that's the mother in me. People I consider friends are hurting. I just want to make it right for them.
As for the PS I plan to stay and it's for my friends and for you, you stupid mother fucker.
Anonymous said...
Mya said...
No, sweetie. I know the difference in X and XXX.
perhaps, but you definitely dont know the difference between seriousness and tounge in cheek.
November 14, 2007 7:36 PM
Perhaps it is you don't know the difference, eh? One thing is for sure, you definitely don't know how to spell tongue.
myra, it was alrdy pointed out. biiiiiitch
huh he sounded like donald duck again? ^^
wow second row, good job miss t :) but strange, that gerard didn´t mentionw hy frank wasn´t there... the pyro were cool right? :) it looked amazing last week...
Anon, isn't about time for you to say something like, "Fuck yeah ya do" or one of your regular sayings?
That is Miss Biiiiitch, to you, Anon-hole.
like ZOMG it was a typo...wtf...gah
Why don't you throw in some wicked dance beats, if you know what I mean.
Anonymous,
Seriously, chick, what do you get out of taunting people? Head rush? At least learn to do it better.
J
It is a peaceful coalescence that I desire.
p.s. with all the finger pointing I can barely hear you anymore.
This means more now than ever.
He wants you to stop pitting one against the other.
You don't even hear (me) each other.
I think do (not) I hear you.
Were you the one I just pasted in the halls?
Anonymous @ 7:50 it takes more than a comment to get people to listen to you.
Thanks anon.
Yeah.
Mass hysteria here.
Sorry, mis-spelled pyrotechnics.
MSI:
To be honest, the songs were shit. They all sounded the same. I could only distinguish one song and that is because it was called motherfucker and said it a lot.
Lynz is the most pointless band member of all time. She wasn't even playing her bass. her fingers rarely touched the strings. In fact all she does do is stamp her foot and shake her head a lot. I'm actually not sure the other guitarist was plugged in either. It is all prerecorded and the only live thing about it was the drummer and singer.
I was quite disguste with the little teenies who were making heart shapes with their hands to LynZ. She lapped it up then thought she was the leader of the group and is was all about her. She jumped into the croud right next to me. I turned by back and totally ignored her. Yes, we got the pointless backbend at the end.The end, it couldn't have come quick enough, I stared at the ceiling almost the whole time they were on.
Jimmy Urine, actually was quite personable. he didn't say anything offensive, gave nice compliments and although their lyrice are disgusting, put on a good show. he told us it wasn't fair that we had such a good mall cos it encourged him to spend. he said he loved topshop and wanted to make a model of kate moss out of womens clothes(she has a clothes range with them). yes, he joked and seemed quite nice. I 'll never like that band bcause of their monstrous lyrics but I'm so glad he didn't say anything inappropriate in front of the young ones. The songs,well, you couldn't tell what he was saying.
Sdock, hitting the bottle early today, are we?
Pasted.
I was never invited or allowed into the alternate universe...I feel, what's the word?... HURT!
This IS a crappy day made worse.
sdock10 said...
I think do (not) I hear you.
Were you the one I just pasted in the halls?
Well I just messed that all up.
I think I do (not) hear you.
Were you the one I just pasted in the halls?
Now, that makes sense.
Mayonaise,
Where is the rest of your explanation? Your answers? Do you have any? Probably not.
Mustard, if you're still reading, honey, take care of yourself. I don't blame you for leaving. I don't LIKE that you're leaving, but I get it. Please stay in touch. L and I love you.
J
ppu,
You caught that? You are a quick little unicorn.
I'll sure as hell give you that.
Anonymous said...
It is a peaceful coalescence that I desire.
p.s. with all the finger pointing I can barely hear you anymore.
This means more now than ever.
He wants you to stop pitting one against the other.
You don't even hear (me) each other.
November 14, 2007 7:50 PM
OH, SHUT UP!
Haven't you caused enough trouble already?!
Hi horsey.
I'll be a-throwin' bottles if you keep neighing like that.
You're not all that bad, actually. I just wonder why you've stayed.
same at our show miss t, lynz is good in shacking her head and at one point she went to the crowd at the front row, the screaming was unbelievable. the songs definetely all sound the same, but I have to agree, jimmy makes a good show and talks a lot... mh well I can´t really remember what he told us, but he also threw chocolate into the audience etc...
Miss T said,
In fact all she does do is stamp her foot and shake her head a lot.
Kind of like a horse counting. Or is that a unicorn?
J
i thought that they sounded pre recorded to miss t but i wasnt sure but i saw lynz take her hands off of her bass a few times
MissT,
Thank you for the review. Your opinion is still revered.
I tried.
If necessary, I will try again.
Listen to each other as you would like to be heard your selves.
Now, I am pasted and retreated.
freddycharles said...
I was never invited or allowed into the alternate universe...I feel, what's the word?... HURT!
This IS a crappy day made worse.
November 14, 2007 7:53 PM
I repeat!!! No one was invited, i accidently found it. dont feel hurt freddycharles
I heard you.
Please pasted around here again sometime.
Okay?
Miss T - Thanks for telling us about your experience. Always interesting to hear about what goes on.
So you are the pasted anon then?
Well, it never hurts to try again.
Shame In Me said:
sister midnite if you dont care about mayo having another blog then why are you bothered about the people that didnt mention it to you?
sorry but contradiction much?
Fuck You.
I've been talking to BC in email since the beginning of this bullshit. She didn't say one word about another blog, even when I specifically asked her about it. I could are less that you were there, because I don't feel anything but pity for you.
Unlike you, I'm not an ass-licker. Mayo can have 12,000 blogs, if he wants to -- I don't care. What I'm pissed about is that you few thought it was oh, so kewl to keep it a secret so you could be some sad little man/woman/thing's center of attention, while pretending to be part of 'the family'. If you're only here for Mayo, so be it -- don't pretend that you give a shit about anybody else.
Try Try Again.....
Help me out here, Elena.
What can we do?
Shame In Me,
There is a quotation that may apply here:
"Methinks thou doth protest too much."
Just sayin'.
J
They play pre-recorded because a lot of it is put together on Ataris. I'm not kidding. But you're right. They do play pre-recorded....They still play their instruments, but you probably won't hear a skip in the bass or guitar because it's tracked. That's what's with industrial, though. I mean....Think Skinny Puppy.
Freddycharles, you are not alone in those feelings. Come on, hold my hand. I've fallen out with Mayo but not with ANY of my friends.
AIP, you are always a sweetie.
I shall contine.
Where were you stood shame in me?
They came on. Mikey is looking mighty fine these days. Yay, Gerard's long hair is most definitely back. Ray has shaved the beard people.
Ray came on in a night in armour mask with an plastic axe on his back but partway into the first song, they fell off due to enthusiastic headbanging.
The first song was the new one people are calling stay. They did another new song later but I don't remember much of it.
Gerard started out with a big fuck you. After the fist song he aasked if we were enjoying it then said "I don't care". I thought here comes the shit.
Oh, I forgot to say that mikey was dressed in black and so was gerard. No MSI T-shirts, no sharpie, and no sign of LynZ.
More to follow.
So anyfuckingways, can we move on now or what?
Is this all done and over with?
I'm typing this so fast to try to get it all in so please excuse the spelling mistakes people.
Pasted Anon,
If you are so eager to tell us what went wrong, please then, lay it out for us. Seems like there's little left to lose.
J
sdock it will just take time. Hurt feelings will heal. Our host has to understand this. He needs to speak to us as friends. Time will heal the wounds. Ok most of them.
missT,
I am living the moments through your words.
Thanks for sharing.
"Gerard started out with a big fuck you. After the fist song he aasked if we were enjoying it then said "I don't care". I thought here comes the shit."
welllll he said the same last week ^^ seems he really doesn´t care...
Does the she-wolf return. Question of the hour.
I am done with this. I apologized, I admitted my mistakes. I just want to move on and forget about all of this.
who exactly is the she wolf? kap?
did mikey also had to whistle at your show yesterday? that´s what he did last week, when gerard just held the mic in front of mikey´s face during houses of wolves.... *laugh* miukey´s face was priceless :)
Anonymous said...
Does the she-wolf return. Question of the hour.
Do you miss her?
FUCK this, why her. Why Kapuna. Why not one of your faithful dogs. Why not your own woman at home?
“I just want to move on and forget about all of this.”
Easy for you to do. We can’t delete our feelings as easily as you delete your words.
Now, where could that anon-hole have gotten off to? Hmmmm...
Oh, and a lot of this explains why SS didn't mention anything about me in his little story - I wasn't in the click.
Yes, there are a lot of things coming together now. Or, uh, should I say, coming apart?
Sister Midnite said...
Shame In Me said:
sister midnite if you dont care about mayo having another blog then why are you bothered about the people that didnt mention it to you?
sorry but contradiction much?
Fuck You.
I've been talking to BC in email since the beginning of this bullshit. She didn't say one word about another blog, even when I specifically asked her about it. I could are less that you were there, because I don't feel anything but pity for you.
Unlike you, I'm not an ass-licker. Mayo can have 12,000 blogs, if he wants to -- I don't care. What I'm pissed about is that you few thought it was oh, so kewl to keep it a secret so you could be some sad little man/woman/thing's center of attention, while pretending to be part of 'the family'. If you're only here for Mayo, so be it -- don't pretend that you give a shit about anybody else.
November 14, 2007 8:05 PM
excuse me sister midnite if bc didnt tell you how is that my problem? i dont think i have ever even spoke to you on here properly before but i would have given you clues if you had asked.
I am not mayos ass licker, i was concerned about him but i tell you that is fast fading now. I dont believe this is anything more than a sick joke. I havent had time to be a part of this family up until the past week and i have tryed to fit in and form connections within this past week. Believe what you want but i do care for the people here.
Im not goin over this again and from what i rememeber you said you were gonna ignore the traitors. maybe thats for the best. ive said i am sorry and i truly meant it. If you dont like me ignore me
Anonymous said...
FUCK this, why her. Why Kapuna. Why not one of your faithful dogs. Why not your own woman at home?
She challenges him. Makes him look at himself. Something I don't think those who surround him do.
Oh, and is that supposed to make me feel better? Because it does not. This is the internet here. The only thing I can do is apologize and hope that it may be enough.
Kapunua is the wolf and I am the faithful dog...SWEEEEEEEEET!
mya,
persecuted much? You are begging to be heard. We hear you. We heard you, let it rest. And, really no one gives a shit about your age. It is irrelevant with this group.
Do you miss her?
Yes. Do you?
No, I am not Mayo.
I am some one who is concerned and sees her as a voice of reason. Not hate. Just truth. Loud and aggressive but as a warrior.
Thanks pixie, Elena, sdock, AIP and anyone else who is enjoying the review.
Good news guys. After the first two songs, Old Gerard came back. he made a point of telling us to look out for people who had fallen. He pointed people out to the security who needed help. After the third song, he stopped to tell us that he loved us and that they had a special bond with England and that although they spoke funny, they felt this was their home.
Gerard told us he thought it was funny how sticking up one finger is different to stickin up two and that he didn't really get it.
Then he told us how Mikey had an idea on the tour bus. he got Mikey to tell us but as soon as he took the mike, everyone screamed and we couldn't hear him.
Gerard ttok the mike to tell the story. he said Mikey had had an idea for a programme about a hooligan rugby tem who all lived in the same house with a little old lady called scrubber. He begged the BBC not to steal his idea.
Elena, surely you don't still believe Mayo is Gerard Way?
Yeah, I'm begging for you, and Mayo, and SS to all come out from behind your curtains and show who you really are. It's all been a big fucking game hasn't it?
This jig is up
miss t i was stood a few rows back from the front dead centre i had a perfect view. I thought gerard was gonna be off to with his fuck yous and i dont care but he seemed to warm to us by the end of it. i thought they left a bit abruptly though. i wanted more hehe
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