I am sad, no I am devastated.
Never once has this been about favoritism, cliques, or status. I just couldn’t fucking hear with all the noise and needed a little space.
I needed a place where it could be less abstract for me, and for you. I guess perhaps I am a cheap, greedy man.
I can’t stress enough the fact that it was your intense camaraderie that led me to believe that you all had some sort of life line with each other. You finish each others sentences like an old married couple, it's beautiful to see.
I made a mistake by asking one of you to deliver my message, and I am sorry.
In defense of the visitors, they only did as I requested, by keeping the space until I needed it.
I was not attempting to conceal anything. Mayonaise is for you to share, for everyone. It became more your home than mine, and that is amazing.
Kapunua, I would like to speak directly to your recent post, and in doing so speak to everyone. First, thank you. My gratitude may be expected but it carries an enourmous amount of worth. Second, I know that you are not naïve. For you to consider that I would exclude you, or anyone else is to say that you never heard me. And I know that each of you hear me. You are all my insight and my mirror. It is you that I look toward to pass judgment on me, and you have. I have failed you.
I am sorry.
P.S. Please stay, all of you, stay…not for me, but for each other.
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I think I will take that suggestion anonymous. Nothing I say will change the outcome here anyways so..
November 15, 2007 12:18 AM
Smartest thing you've said since the whole mess started.
Hello Martha, welcome to Crazy Town. If anyone wants to e-mail me I made it available.
Sd10 I was trying to do the same as you last night most listen except for an anon. I not pissed off I'm just hurt but I don't want it to end this way. It won't be the same but I just don't want it to end this way.
12:16 AM Anon: "I think it would be best if you take that break you've been promising to take for ages."
That will never happen. How many times has BC written long-winded posts and comments about the break she so very desperately needs to take? And how long did any of these breaks actually go on for?
She'll just pop up in the comments as another anonymous, like she's been doing, or create a sockpuppet journal, which she has also been doing. Look at the writing styles of some of the new people coming out of the woodwork. Really look at them. They're her.
She's not going anywhere. She'll just piss and moan about how mean everyone is and "Don't you dare call me bad names" and still continue to blather on.
BC = herpes
Annoying as fuck, never goes away.
Hello elena I didn't know you were here. What a fine pile of shit unicorn shit we have now.
It doesn't have to end this way Martha. Really. I think if we tried, we could fix this. If only Mayo would come out and explain his point of view.
i have to go for a bit, but i'll be back.
but i just wanted to say, if mayo didn't feel a connection to us, why would he have bothered posting this blog? he could've just sat back and watched it all completely apart. i'll never believe he isn't just as much a part of this as we are, now.
just sayin.
back soonish.
*that's "fall completely apart", btw.
Anonymous people saying shit,
I don't give a fuck who you are; just shut up. You guys aren't helping anything. If you only want to start shit, then just leave.
Bye toujours! I agree with the no connection thing. Why would he continue posting if he felt nothing? *HUG*
Yo marthajones,
am I in your bad books?
See you later TJ.
Oh, but I would love to hear more from that anonymous! Please, do continue!
As far Mayo not feeling connected... Surely he enjoyed all those kick-ball games and cupcakes that have always been served.
No miss t I'm just jumping around from place to place trying to get a feel for how people are doing.
Hello mya and goodbye tj
So stimulating...
Hello, Martha
MJ, I'm absolutely focusing my blame on mayo and trying to keep everyone else friends.
Some people don't want to hear it.
Hey Everyone,
I'm here. Just not being really talkative tonight. Just observing and trying to hold things together.
wow gerard looked like shit today his comic book signing.wtf is going on with him. http://flickr.com/photos/olddelpasso/2024043093
I know I was kept riveted
Oooh, I posted and then went to eat dinner! Sorry!
Anyway, I'm good. I'm still happy from seeing Duran Duran last night.
Hello Mya, how are you today?
I guess he looked like shit because he felt like shit about the things that have been going on here.
Miss t I don't know what to think but I'm not mad at mayo because the only connection I really to mayo is this blog mayo and I need interact. It was basically I was aware of mayo and mayo was aware of me. Mayo is the person who this blog belongs to. If your mad at mayo be made at mayo. I just don't feel hurt by mayo because I don't have a connection to mayo like I did to the others
Hello, Miss Totten, I am just pissed off - much like everyone else. And you? How are you?
Hello everyone!
Just caught up...wow!
wtf..happened.
New blog, old blog, who cares.
we are still here, that is what matters.
Its us people, we are here for each other.
Now hugs all around.
Mayo, sometimes shit just back fires.
Next time....send out post cards, letters...IM. there are a thousand ways to give us a hint.
But to be sneaky about it...I have been here along time..and not one word, what you do not like PJ's
So how did you think i would feel..
..did i cry, sure i cried.....kicked my feet, screamed at the mailman, and cussed my computer out.
Just kidding!!!!
No i am not mad, i come here for the fun, not the drama.
all i want is a good kickball game!
And our happy little family back.
Smiles, hugs...any one up for a cold one...Ill bring the chips and dip!
Just for the record, I am not mad at Mayo. Just upset he didn't feel a connection. We were all brought here for him, we tried to reach out to him, and he didn't bother to grab our hands. Rawr.
Mya, that's just what I was thinking.. but again, my beliefs that Mayo is Gerard have all been squished into smithereens(sp).
I'm bewildered mya.
I had a lovely time last night. I was looking forward to telling everyone and I logged on to all this. I'm lost for words.
MJ, I know where you're coming from but mayo did tell those others to keep it quiet. He put them in a bad position and he shouldn't have.
If he wanted peace and quiet, why set up another blog? why not just fuck off and read a book or watch TV?
PJ, *HUG*
I agree. I was just upset at the way people were treating each other last night.
wow gerard looked like shit today his comic book signing.wtf is going on with him. http://flickr.com/photos/olddelpasso/2024043093
Drugs and stress will do that to you.
Yep, someone has been having some wonderful, hilarious times off of this. All I wanna know now is who
Look everyone! An anonymous post! Could it be GOD again?! Or maybe it's just Jesus...
PJ, I love you.
anon at 12:44 i know every new pic that you see of him looks worse than the last.
Mya, I hope it's god. I'd love to kiss his ass.
miss t someone on ino said gerard seemed drunk at the concert you were at. did you notice anything because his new pics from today's signing are pretty bad.
PJ,
I sure would like one of those cold ones right now.
By cold ones you do mean coca cola don't you?
MissTottenham
Love you too!
See this is what this is about, can you not feel it...i can.
We started out for him, and he brought us to each other....now we need to find some help for him now, its like he is begging us now.....screaming to get us to come back to the old way of talking.
Hell! with all the shit going on...i would move out too!!
Mayo you are a little too old to run away from home like that.
Hey miss t I see where you are coming from to but people have free will.
Hello Pj
PJ, I don't think things will go back to normal. Too many hurt feelings.
bleeding chaos said...
Yes, you can joke on me all you like, if that is the case here. I could give two shits. I said what I needed to say and that is it. Nothing to change it now.
November 14, 2007 4:55 AM
BC,
My latest blog entry was never about you in particular.
Get your facts straight before you start assuming things.
I also think you need a vacation from this place.
I agree MJ.
Anonymous, Gerard was not drunk as far as I could tell from two roes back. he didn't do any annoying poses or anything daft that would indicate him being drunk. The only bad things were when he said fuck you at the start, but that changed two songs in, and when they left after the last song without even saying this is the last song.
All the rest was fine. He must not have got much sleep because apart from looking small, he looked mighty fine at the show.
hello everybody. how are you all.
just thought it was time for my weather update.
very sunny, no clouds and a tiny bit windy but no hurricane or anything. oh and it was not really hot. i think i may have rain soon tho. i can feel it in my bones
No Sdock....i mean I need a drink, and i do not drink.
Pull up a stool to the bar girls...Mayo i think you are driving us to drink.
See what you are doing to us.
Hey FS. *HUG*
Fimble,
How long have you known about Mayo's other blog?
I don't care about normal I just want us back all at one spot. I want it to be here because I'm so use to it. If the blog got deleted that would be one thing but I don't want it to end this way.
hello my international spy. i have always been wondering who is your bond girl or should that be your bond Boy?
i giant hug for you to. did you have a nice day with your dad. he gothome last night didnt he. wat did he say about your hair?
Ok well in that case I will have a shot of vodka.
Bartender!!
i knew he had a blog bc told us all a few blog posts ago. dg emailed me last night.
do you make vodka lemon and lime. i could do with a double of that tonight. i am babysitting. the joys hehehe
FS, I am not quite sure who my bond boy/girl is!
My dad did get home. What did he say about my hair? "What the fuck did you do?! Oh well, I like it! Give me a hug!!"
Seriously, no joke. That is what he said.
Damn...Fuck i have to go.
See got me to cussing too!
Please! Time will heal, some are hurt we all care about each other, month after month, i have laughed and almost cried reading the post on here.
I saw somewhere on here someone said lets start over.....good idea!
It starts with I'm sorry....some hugs....some tears.
OR you could just bitch slap each other till i come back.....lol
I'M going to go get that drink!!
Night all...and a BIG HUG to all of you.
FS, I remember BC saying something about another blog he had that no one knew about about a month ago. I didn't believe her so I thought nothing of it. I just found it this morning after reading OPJ's comment on here.
Hello fs
Wow.
So, you actually decided to level with us. For a change.
I agree with the others before me, you've apologized, but it will never be the same around here.
Maybe the next time you don't wanna hear this bunch nattering on, you could just lock your post? Or turn off commenting?
We have discussmayo, it's not hard for us to take the blather somewhere else.
I think the part that hurts the most is that we were all so honest with you, but you couldn't bring yourself to be honest with us. That's going to be a bitch to rebuild.
A house that burns was built on love, a house that implodes was built on honesty.
-Amyranth will wait, and see. Maybe.
Sdock! I'm the crazy blond bitch at the end of the bar.....see you there!
Night!
My dad did get home. What did he say about my hair? "What the fuck did you do?! Oh well, I like it! Give me a hug!!"
bloody hell 007. now i know where you get all the hugs from hehehe. i am glad he liked t. i have been worried for you since you had it done. how long is he home for
goodbye pj. see you later
This is killing me. I don't know what to think.
I've had the most horrendous day at work and it left me feeling things that a person should never have.
Then I see this...it makes me happy one minute, then suspicious the next.
It's hard to come to some sort of conclusion in my mind and heart.
hey there martha. how are you?
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LOOK MAYO, I MADE YOU A CANDLE SO YOU WON'T EVER BE IN THE DARK.
(plus I know how you love FIRE)
Be CAREFUL though.....don't let it go out.
Yay, me! Okay, bye-bye for now!
Toodles.
I had to say this before i leave!
I saw the picture of the book signing.
I saw....sad...tired..white eyes, good sign...and bad hair.
Ok now i have to go....love
Ignore the crappy spelling on my last comment.
Hi FS, how are you?
Hi Amyranth, how are you?
Hi magic pie, how are you?
Hello anyone still here?
First of all, to all that sent well-wishes to my Mum after her eye surgery, thank you. She is doing fine, and is seeing better already.
Second of all, imagine how I felt when I spoke with J. these past few days and heard what had happened to our little "family". I could not believe what I was hearing. To hear that there were those among us that we considered friends, or at least, tolerated in one case, had known about a second blog for two months and never saw fit to inform the rest of us was just too much.
Last week I was blasted for trying to protect all of the people in THIS blog by listing who had been posting. One of the most vehement of these "blasters" turned out to be one of the keepers of the secret. The main one as a matter of fact.
Now, I am going to go on an assumption here for a moment. Suppose Mayo DID get tired of the many, many posts that said nothing or anons who attacked us. Say he DID create a private place to go to write and not be bothered.
Fair enough.
But then some find it, ok, it's the one's who post on Mayo's. Let it go, bring the other's over eventually.
Now, let's consider how LONG this went on, and no one was told. Only the ones who "found" it were able to stay. That my dear Mayo, was your fault.
If you truly wanted all of us there, you could have found a way to let us know, long before it became a blown secret.
"I made a mistake by asking one of you to deliver my message, and I am sorry."
You THINK? You asked the person who is two steps away from Kathy Bates in 'Misery' to trust to let the rest of us know?!
Let's face it, the people who were there we're enjoying the fact that they "knew something" the rest of us did not. They broke our trust, regardless of the reasons. If they had truly not wanted to jeopardize the friendships they had on here, they would have left that blog alone, and stayed with the rest of us out of respect. I did see that some wrestled with this guilt, but it did not stop them from continuing.
No matter how much we want this to be the same, it never will be. It might can be repaired, but our "family" has been hideously broken, and scars will always show.
Mayo, J. and I both have done nothing but try to be encouraging and loving toward you. Even when we have fussed you out, it was ALWAYS for you, ALWAYS to try to help. There are so many people on here who have done that, and you broke their hearts.
Yes, we HAD camaraderie, but you underestimated what certain people would do to further their own agenda.
I don't know if I should feel sorry for you or want to slap the fuck out of you.
You have a chance to salvage this Mayo.
Tell us EACH to stay.
Tell EACH one of us, by our name, WHY you want us to stay, and where.
Can you remember anything about each of us? Do you remember our names?
I can guarantee SS would know each of our names and can say something different about every one of us, and be correct.
PROVE to us that the words in this last post are not empty ones.
After that, maybe, just maybe, we can start to heal as well. But if you don't really care, or if you are tired of this shit, let us know that too, alright?
It's been a long, hard road, and we're ALL a little weary.
This is your chance to prove you are the man we all hope you are, Mayo. I have always believed in you. Now you must believe in us.
L.
Hey everyone.
I'm not the only one that had a shitty day then.
-Amyranth
I can guarantee SS would know each of our names and can say something different about every one of us, and be correct.
.. He referenced me in SV20'S birthday story. I don't think I've ever said two words to the guy.
-Amyranth
Damn, that does not even look right. Oh well.
Toodles, anyway
Goodnight PJ.
Hi L, I'm so glad your mum is doing well.
L said:
You have a chance to salvage this Mayo.
Tell us EACH to stay.
Tell EACH one of us, by our name, WHY you want us to stay, and where.
Can you remember anything about each of us? Do you remember our names?
I can guarantee SS would know each of our names and can say something different about every one of us, and be correct.
PROVE to us that the words in this last post are not empty ones.
*Loud Applause. Bravo*
SS, already took the time to do that with his lovely birthday story.
There's another kickball blog?
L.
Welcome back, We have missed you terribly.
I just want to say I agree with your last comment and you read my mind about what you asked Mayo to do for each of us. Let's see what happens.
Come hang with us in discuss if you feel up to it or if you aren't too busy kicking ass and taking names later.
Love,
S
Magic Pie,
discussmayo.blogspot.com
Come chat with us.
L - glad to hear your mom's doing well. As for what you said to Mayo - BRAVO!
Do I think he will heed your words?
NO, not just no but hell no.
Sorry that's just how I'm feeling.
Elena,
Stranger things have happened in BlogBelieve...he might do it.
I'm already there, sweet thang!
hey miss T!!!! I'm decent as I can be. you?
L, you know I always enjoy reading your posts. I'm glad everything went well with your mother.
As for SS, I have no idea what's happened with him. I pray and hope that everything is okay. I wonder if he knew about any of this. I want his input on all of this.
Like I said yesterday, a comment from him would do wonders.
To my friends that have decided to stop posting, I already miss you. We are going through precisely the same thing. I know how you feel. The family won't be the same, but please don't leave for good. I will try to email all of you. My email is on my profile if you wish to contact me instead.
If Mayo actually DID take the time to do that, I'd piss myself.
I don't think he ever will.
I'm good magic pie.
CTV, I'm going nowhere.
Good.
*hug*
And a giant hug back CTV.
I'm not going anywhere. I already told the stupid mother fucker I was staying. Perhaps I'm just a glutton for punishment.
I was thinking about leaving a few days ago...after all that has happened since yesterday, I SHOULD go, for my own sanity. But I don't think I can.
Magic Pie said...
I was thinking about leaving a few days ago...after all that has happened since yesterday, I SHOULD go, for my own sanity. But I don't think I can.
It's like having an ex boyfriend. You just can't help yourself but lurk.
-Amyranth is lurking.
Mayo,
How are you? Me? Do you really want to know or are you just being polite by asking? Well, I'll tell you anyway. I'm feeling a little numb....kind of like in a state of shock maybe? It's like I really don't want to stop and think about anything right now, because if I stop then the feeling will come back and that's always an adventure. So, I wanted to write you like some well thought out letter or some brilliant poem, but everytime I would stop.....I just got nothing, nothing but emptiness. Do you feel that way sometimes? You're not happy, not sad, not pissed off, not in love, not depressed, not manic, not suicidal....just nothing. You're free floating in the universe...alternate, bloggerville, or reality. It doesn't matter. You feel completely disconnected from your body, your mind, your feelings, your friends, your life. Everything is ambiguous and makes no sense. You don't care about the answers anymore because you forgot the fucking questions. Everything looks distorted....not ugly, not pretty. It just is what it is. And you don't feel like fixing it, or painting it, or decorating it, or blowing it up, or tearing it down. It's just there and your there. And it's a fucking place and it has no meaning anymore. You don't even feel like singing or hearing music...you just want quiet. Because for a few minutes, your mind has stopped talking to you. It has nothing to offer you. No stories, no laughter, no analysis...alone. Insigfuckingnificant....it would not matter if time stopped right in this instant or if your heart stopped beating. Life would either go on without you or the world would stop turning...and it would all be A-O-fuckingK. I'm floating there right now....as I am writing this. I just exist. Beat, beat, beat goes my heart. And there's nothing in it but blood.....blood carrying oxygen. I hear myself breathe. I am alive, but I don't feel anyfuckingthing. I close my eyes and try to remember what it was like, but nothing comes back to me. I am here and that is all tonight.
Where are you? Are you listening to your heart beat? Is your breathing slow and steady? Can you feel your blood flow through your body? Are you alive tonight or do you merely exist?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Blank
Bleeding Chaos:
Second of all, he wanted me to lead you guys overthere, but I supposed no one would believe me now, but check the anonymous comment left yesterday in the previous blog at 4:28 P.M. if it is still there.
BC, I see no posts over on that other blog where he tells you this. So what did he tell you this, through email?
Oh, Mayo, you dog.
but even with the alternate universe, I have never spoken so low about anyone here.
No, but you did whinge and whine about being "left out" and how it 'wasnt fair'.
BC, it was the way you handled the whole situation. You didn't want anyone else to find it, because you felt special that you had mayo all to yourself over there and you could pretend that you were important to him. If everyone found out, you be just another blue name in the crowd again.
Exceot he must have been emailing her. Awwww. BD, the blind little fucking puppy. Just the way he likes them.
Still emailing aren't you??? Trying to 'work through this' no doubt....
She's not going anywhere. She'll just piss and moan about how mean everyone is and "Don't you dare call me bad names" and still continue to blather on.
BC = herpes
Annoying as fuck, never goes away.
I agree but yet, Mayo is emailing her.
Now, let's consider how LONG this went on, and no one was told. Only the ones who "found" it were able to stay. That my dear Mayo, was your fault.
Also the fact that he has to be emailing her.
If you truly wanted all of us there, you could have found a way to let us know, long before it became a blown secret.
I Agree
Gah! it's so damn true too!
Amyranth = one smart cookie :)
Sdock, that was... well. Let's just say I can relate.
Here's to existing.
Thank you mayo. I hear you and I am glad you hear me. I will always stay and lend a helping hand to you and to others. I love this place, and I thank you for it. Thanks all who are hear and listen. Thank you sdock, soul connector, bleeding choas, martha jones, miss t. kapuna, aip, ss, and the many others too.
Paula
Mayo, you should go over to discussmayo and watch them allllll.... walking the fuck away from YOU.
It's what you deserve.
Here's to you, my friend.
Existing...
Someone throw a rope round sdock before that girl floats through the stratosphere. I don't want to bloody lose another one.
*giving SDock a massive hug*
I have been here from the beginning, but I don’t post much. Hell I don’t post at all except for this
Anonymous said...
Sorry to burst your bubble folks but the post on zimbio is Donna for sure. I know you have no reason to believe me. All I can say is I am no teeny and anyone who knows her will know it is her. She is really a very sweet lady and would have no reason to lie. Indeed, I don't think she would have it in her to do that. So please, stop worrying and let these kids get on with their lives in peace.
September 30, 2007 5:59 PM
At the time I recall one or 2 other anons did back me up on this. Not only was I not believed, I was accused of pretending to be the other anons as well.
Since then, I have lurked but not posted. At first I was intrigued, I like games and mysteries and it all seemed like great fun. Then I felt as though I got to know all of you. Believe me you are all such lovely, intelligent ladies. I so enjoyed your comments. I laughed with, I cried with you, I hated when nasty anons came to attack you. All along though I knew that Mayo was a fake and I felt so bad because no matter what I would try to say you would never believe me. It seems that now some of you are receptive, but I am still seeing people here having trouble separating the Mayo persona from the person so many believed him to be. Please believe me this is NOT Gerard, so stop blaming him. Whatever mistakes or bad judgements you think he has made lately, please know that Gerard would NOT DO THIS!! Forget the guy on stage, forget the public persona, he’s just a regular kind of guy. Sure, he’s quiet and shy and sometimes that gets mistaken for arrogance, but he is not this sort of SICK FUCK!
I am not sure who is doing this, but I think a few of you have a good idea. I think that same person has been many characters in this drama.
Please stay together and don’t be too hard on those that went to the rental. They were manipulated as well and meant no harm. You are the smartest, loveliest, and most caring group of ladies. Please don’t let that change.
Thank you P.
discussmayo.blogspot.com
if you wanna hang
I have a chocolate sheep, will that do?
-Amyranth
Awwwh thank you guys....It's kind of tight around my neck though...Hey, guys.. I'm choki...
Please believe me this is NOT Gerard, so stop blaming him. Whatever mistakes or bad judgements you think he has made lately, please know that Gerard would NOT DO THIS!! Forget the guy on stage, forget the public persona, he’s just a regular kind of guy. Sure, he’s quiet and shy and sometimes that gets mistaken for arrogance, but he is not this sort of SICK FUCK!
Thank you. So very much.
That is precisely what I needed to hear to stop driving myself nuts.
-Amyranth
Hello paula,
Hello witch,
pleased to meet you.
Someone loosen the noose on sdock. Maybe we should use something a bit less chokey. What about one of those baby harness things that makes you look like you have your kind on a leash.
HAHAHAH! MissT
That actually made me laugh!
Maybe the feeling is starting to return.
witch,
Man-naze is just a blogger...just like the rest of us. Well, at leat I attempt to blog. I'm not that good yet.
I completely stopped believing that this could be Gee and that SS could be Frank a few weeks back. I wrote here that I wouldn't believe it anymore without tangible proof...and I still stand by that.
Thank you P.
discussmayo.blogspot.com
if you wanna hang
November 15, 2007 2:33 AM
Thanks sdock; I have been absent (had surgery last week and oh yeah bought a new house too) and apparently I have much catching up to do. WTF happened.
Come over and we'll talk about it.
Hi Miss T, hello everyone
Why do you all think Mayo picked the stupidest most obssessed person to 'lead you'..... why do you think???
Anonymous said...
Why do you all think Mayo picked the stupidest most obssessed person to 'lead you'..... why do you think???
Because she was so far up his arse that he couldn't think of anyone else?
Okay, sorry. But if you had SEEN some of the stuff I started typing last night...
Can't stop a charging bull.
-Amyranth
Good evening/morning all! Hi Sdock10, Miss T, P, Redrum (I love that name), Magic Pie, Amy, Elena, CTV, all lurkers and Anonymous folks. I hope everyone is doing well.
For all those feeling hurt, betrayed, abandoned, heartbroken, or just a little sad: BIG hugs. I know it's not much; but, hugs always make me feel better.
For those SINCERELY asking for forgiveness: Yeah, well, OKAY - you are forgiven. Sdock10 is correct. A forgiving nature can often times help you - the person doing the forgiving - more than it does the person asking to be forgiven .......Just my opinion!
For some strange reason, I've been thinking of The Turn Of The Screw all day.
"The story had held us, round the fire, sufficiently breathless, but except the obvious remark that it was gruesome, as, on Christmas Eve in an old house, a strange tale should essentially be,........
"If the child gives the effect another turn of the screw, what do you say to two children--?"
I do love a good ghost story!
Hi 616, that hug was great.
God, I totally haven't said hello to redrum. Hi redrum, how are you?
I hate missing people out. I always forget who I have and haven't hello'd.
Wow, okay.
AIM: shewolfkapu
On now. Anyone, everyone.
Post your AIM here so I know who the hell you are.
You can another 10 or 12 hugs Miss T! I never tire of them ;-)
Hi Anon616,
We need all the hugs we can get here.
Thanks.
616, I'll take all the hugs you've got sweetie.
Hi Kapunua! I don't do AIM :/ I yahoo! Well, I do have an AIM account; but I forgot my password long ago. Please, think no less of me for my horrible memory ;-)
Kapu - I haven't got AIM either.
Just MSN. That dirty whore.
-Amyranth
That's okay, 616. ^_^
Once again, I am confused....Mayo was emailing some people directly? Oh crap, I feel REALLY REALLY crappy now. Why never me?
Hi Sdock10! I think I'll open an "all you can eat (up)" HUG buffet. It's located right next to that bar!
freddycharles said...
Once again, I am confused....Mayo was emailing some people directly? Oh crap, I feel REALLY REALLY crappy now. Why never me?
A lot of us are asking similar questions. I think the sheer magnitude of it hasn't completely hit some people.
freddycharles, I got no email from Mayo.
I don;t think many did.
I have my password written down - somewhere, Kapunua. I'll find it for you. Or, I'll just create a new account!
Hi FreddyCharles!
freddycharles,
Don't feel by yourself. I never got my email either.
I'm afraid I have had no time to read all the comments left on here, and man am I behind, bloody outside world, always interfering.
I feel a little like two pages were turned at once, but I feel like this time it is my fault for not reading through everything, fuck, I've been busy.
I miss you all, though I realize it's impossible to miss me, for I'm still new here.
I have been lurking though since the start.
Just so everyone knows I have NEVER posted as an anonymous, it wouldn't have sat right with me, to just drop in, stir up shit and bugger off again like so many do.
I apologize for how out of context this comment is, I just wanted to drop by and wish you ALL love.
All of you.
It pains me to see any of you hurt, so let me just say I personally care a great deal for you all, perhaps I'm naive and stupid to feel that way, but I do.
So, Love & Mercy, cupcake.
Darn, I guess my e-mail was delivered to the wrong address - AGAIN!
hi anon616 and sdock10, misstottenham!...
Love is coming back to you cupcake.
Hi ya, Cupcake!
anon616...the 616 is not your area code by any chance?
You guys I just want to let you know that you are all welcome on the discussmayo.blogspot.com
Some of us are hanging there now if you just want to shoot the shit with us.
mayo emailed who? BC!? Gasp i didnt see that one coming, no really i didnt. are you sure?
No FC, not my area code. :)
THANKS! It's nice to be informed and invited.
Hi freddycahrles.
People, my email is always up on my profile. No AIM though.
I don't think he emailed her ever...there was the time she thought he was visiting her on her blog and posting song lyrics to her though (which was too funny for words). But the way he told her to spread the word about the other blog was here in the "The ink hasn't dried yet..."blog:
Anonymous said...
BC,
perhaps you should lead them there now. But please...remember discretion and use concealed routes. I trust you.
November 13, 2007 4:28 PM
Personally I don't think he realized how obsessed she is because all of her comments on the other blog were deleted almost as fast as she wrote them.
Shame in me said...
mayo emailed who? BC!? Gasp i didnt see that one coming, no really i didnt. are you sure?
We don't know for sure. Correct, I don't know for sure.
-Amyranth
crikey, the plot thickens huh?
I dont know what to say.
Hi Shame in me! Ohhh, I like shooting the shit, Sdock10. Thanks for letting us know! I'll be there when I return. Yes, I'm jetting off again!
I'll set up that new AIM account too. I shall be talasoyalawz
But, SHHHH.......don't tell a soul!
Sorry,
Sorry, really I am. I just couldn't help myself! It's that diabolical mind of mine ;-)
Have a great night everyone!
(an extra special hug and kiss for anyone who can figure out what tala soyala means)
I got me a blog of my very own!
woo hoo right?
*silence, a tumbleweed blows across the screen*
thanx for the hello anon616, its appreciated aswell as unexpected. How are you hope you are well and the bad shit hasnt brought you down too much :/
Mayo,
I am off for the night. Will hope for rest, but I will settle for sleep.
Don't worry I'll be back to feeling tomorrow....Trust me, it always comes back.
You feel me?
No, do you really?
Hope all is chill and swell in your world. Spinning like it's fucking supposed to what and alll and everything.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Diphenhyramine works every time.
Yo cupcake, nice to see you in colour so to speak.
Woo hoo indeed.
Goodnight, Sdock. Take it easy.
And hello and/or goodnight to the rest, depending on which is appropriate. You mysterious people, you.
Thanks miss t, redrum.
XX
Goodnight sdock. Sweet floaty dreams.
You know, this is quite a change from the last few nights, before the house fell down.
-Amyranth
How exactly did the house fall down? I missed it!
cupcake said...
How exactly did the house fall down? I missed it!
Somebody kicked the supports out from under it. Metaphorically, of course.
Check out discussmayo, and you'll get the gist of it.
-Amyranth
Hiya everyone
Thanks Amyranth, I'll give that a go
XX
Hi ergo! how are things?
Hi Ergo.
Hmmm so I've been doing some reading and it would appear a giant 'mind-fuck' orgy has been going on...
Good thanks, I ahve just come from the pool with 5 and 6 yr olds.
just to explain something else, though i wonder why I am bothering, I suggested BC stop giving out the link yesterday becasue people were already worried about where people were (as lots were at discussmayo)and the whole blog deletion rumour and I thought it would be easier to sort that out first, I was suspicious of the anon and I didn't want a huge cock up but that happened anyway so it became a moot point. Then I saw Mayo blogged again and I thought it would allow us to regroup (that is us here) before starting to email anyone, so I posted at MW that it didn't go as he planned.
I wanted to try and make sure everyone knew where we all were before seemingly dividing up again.
hey ergo how are you?
Gawd, I still don't know what the fuck is going down, not sure I care at this point.
I still have a lot of love for people here, but it looks like we have a whole lotta people getting ready to jump ship.
Hmmm I wonder if I'll just stay here and go down with it.
cupcake, you're not bloody leaving too.
*grabs on and holds tight*
No miss t.... I always stay to the bitter end, I cannot bear to abandon anyone.
*hugs*
I have a feeling that the anon that started the blog deletion rumor was someone from your side.
Just a theory.
-Amyranth
sides? we have sides now? *cries*
I still wonder, who is "May." It was weird how they showed up a couple days ago asking about the anonymous Eliza letter on ino (in a weird way I might add), and then they were saying this blog would be deleted and everyone was going to the other blog. Have they been around since? Weirdness.
People. No more explanations are needed. let's just be friends.
If the blog owner is playing us off, by falling out, he is winning. Come on people, we don't wanna give them the satisfaction.
Ergo, someone asked if you are OK. Are you?
LLL, I have no idea.
just a thought but may=mayo?
could he be that obvious?
hey miss t, it sucks to come from the gig to this doesnt it :(
im so sorry
cupcake said...
sides? we have sides now? *cries*
Ugh. I didn't mean it like that.
No sides. Just... ah never mind. I can't fix that.
-Amyranth
Shame in me, it sucks.
Not really, about my life yes, about all this no.
I just don't understand the depth of emotion.
but anyway, there doesn't seem much point for all the people who preached understanding and forgiveness there seems to be a real lack of it.
and there was never a "side". I found it, posted a few times and that was it. I barely thought about it except to wonder how many comments BC had deleted.
apart from that.MissT the concert sounded great. I'm so glad that gerard seemed back to normal, though the latest photos are a bit less than comforting
He looked great at the concert. He should have gone to beddybyes early after the show. maybe he wouldn't have looked like shit then.
I barely thought about it except to wonder how many comments BC had deleted.
haha me too!! thats the first thing that has made me laugh all day haha
yeah miss t he looked very nice on tuesday :) i liked his outfit very much. wish i could go back and do it all again *sigh*
They must have such stuffed up sleeping patterns.
They set a pretty hectic shedule but I suppose seeing it on paper would be a lot different to living it.
So how was Ray's singing? it got such a fleeting mention before.
Shame in me said...
I barely thought about it except to wonder how many comments BC had deleted.
She is not a girl who is on the level. And that is what concerns me the greatest.
-Amyranth
Shame in me, I was gonna ask the stupidist thing.
I was gonna say, what were you wearing, I might have seen you.
No wait, don't tell me. let me guess, black ha ha ha !
Quit with the excuses, already.
What's done is done.
The gloves are off.
Mayo, I'm calling you out.
Time to 'fess up, Blogger-boy: Are you or are you NOT who people assume you to be?
BC & friends kept the whole alternate shit-niverse secret, and they're knee-deep in shit for their part in your little fiasco.
But what about you?
What were YOUR intentions??
The game is over, it's time for all sides to come clean. (And I'm *not* referring to your little X-rated fairy tale, either. As well as you may write, sexual encounters are obviously not your forte.)
You obviously like having people kiss your ass. If they don't, do you have any use for them?
We're still waiting to find out how this little experiment of your turned out.
- Sis Midnite / Nikki
p.s. Hoping against hope that you're not just a sick little fuck who needs to assume somebody else's identity just to get it up.
SIS M is here to kick mayo ass. I'm standing well back.
It's ok Amyranth XX
i was wearing a dark denim skirt, black tights, Purple furry raver boots they were really purple you will know if you spotted them haha. erm and a black top and a purple cross neck choker. what about you? hehe
Ergo, ray went mad on the last song. You've never seen passion like it.
He flung down that guitar, refused another, grabbed his mike with both hands and sung his heart out. Bless him ha!
Some people here never check email TSK!
Sis M, you kick ass like no other! *TAKES COVER BEHIND BAR*
yeah im concerned about bc too amyranth :(
and i applaud your note too mayo sister midnite.
Dont worry i wont say anything else that is all ..
Shame in me, I was the one in the black.
ha ha ha ha !
Ass kicking?
Darling friends, I haven't even started.
You should have read what I wrote this afternoon. I think there might still be a few sparks coming out of my Recycle Bin.
Mayo wants to fuck around?
Fine. Let him fuck with the big girls. I'll have his liver for breakfast (with some fava beans and a nice Chianti, of course) and smoke his ass for desert.
Y'up for that, baby?
Hello all sister m did you get my email?
lmao!!!! haha yeah think i saw you then miss t haha. it was such a great night, the best gig i ever went to. even better than alice in chains and that is saying something coming from me :)
I'm running away from sis m now.
*sobbing*
mummy, mummy, that lady isscarring me.
with a space between the words obviously.
She is not a girl who is on the level. And that is what concerns me the greatest.
Amyranth
on the level? you mean honesty or mental stability?
I saw a couple of post before deletion and they were all basically like the ones left."I do love you, and understand you" that's why I am worried about her.
Kiss ass?- where did I do that?
sorry missT I"ll check now
ergoproxy - Mental Stability.
I have this feeling she's not coping well with this at all. Hasn't been for awhile.
-Amyranth
It's getting scary in here, I feel my own little fists aching too unleash the whoopass, but I'm still not sure who to kick or kiss!
I'm a lover, not a fighter!.... unless you piss me off...
I'm sorry people but not enough of you, in fact no one, laughed at my wearing black joke. Try again people.
I did, MJ. Thanks. *HUGZ*
(Will answer, too.)
Ergo, did I mention you specifically just now? Did I mention *anyone* specifically? No.
This afternoon, I wasn't just ticked.
I was the whole friggin' clock shop.
Needless to say, I've calmed down quite a bit since then. I'll even offer an apology to Shame In Me, for saying 'fuck you'.
Now then, let's carry on, shall we?
Sorry miss T! It was funny! I lol'd!
hello anyone here?
Sis m, I love you.
amyranth I agree, a lot of the reason I have spoken to her is because I' am actually really concerned she's basing her life on this fantasy world
good to now
Is someone hinting that Kapunua looks like Lyn-Z?
I don't see it, at all.
Sorry.
Another lurker comes out of the shadows. Been lurking since Loveman but can't quite keep up with comment sections that top 2000 posts. That said, congrats to all who can.
Just wanted to thank Miss T for her review--cause you know the reason I lurk here? I love My Chemical Romance. Kinda that simple. Thanks for reminding me of why I love them, Miss T. Cause it is easy to forget in here, sometimes.
And honestly, I don't care who is Mayo. Cause I lurk here now to see what all of you are up to. Because I find YOU interesting. How 'bout them apples?
Though I do have to say that I find it difficult to believe that Gerard Way, Mr. Self-professed geek, eternal outsider, lover of the (sing with me now) beaten and the damned would have time to start not just one blog but two, and that he would make the second as exclusive as a misogynistic, antisemitic, racist country club.
Okay, back to lurking. Don't really feel a need to crash this party. But thanks for letting me watch. I hate when the internet gets all elitist--isn't this supposed to be a true democracy in action?
that's ok sisM just got a little defensive , sorry.
and misst hahahahahaha
I replied to you to.
I want more Ray detail though!
anon, where was that hint?
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