Hi there Ergo. My happiness mood has been spoiled, but I don't feel up to talking about it. Sorry everyone. Miss T, sidekicks are expensive, but I got a cheaper one :)
Goodnight and sweet dreams Miss T. Thanks. Sometime this month I am going to add the AIM on it, so you guys can harrass me even when I'm not home. Ha ha :D
I am slowly giving pressies to people, making my way through the one's I can remember.
I have left them at Lolita's place, Ergo's place, BC's place, jennicula's place. They are spread around. So if you don't see on on lolita's don't panic.
I haven't done tham all yet so don't think I've left anyone out.
When I got home, I was in a pretty good mood, but it didn't last. Me and a family member were talking and they said something that scared me, but at that moment I got really angry that I starting throwing things. I am aware of what responses I may receive because of that, but I don't get that angry unless I am extremely pissed. I was pretty freaked to say the least.
After that I started crying. So there you go. That's my bad side ^_^
Everyone has a bad side, I throw things too. Hubby had to spackle the wall one time from a cd I hurled. You just have to look at the big picture of life. *sings Disney song of your choosing*
it takes a lot to get me angry but if it happens I usually go really quiet but if I get pushed further I tend to say really vicious things and then regret it so much I start to cry, then get angry because I feel that makes me weak. I have thrown things too, but usually when I'm alone (one of my oven trays still has the dent!)
amyranth - thanks for the gift, we must knock back a few someday
THis is gonna sound weird and don't take it the wrong way. But Kapu .... okay I am the one who said you look like Lyn-z. Well..... you do. I'm not saying your LIKE her you just look at her. Also..... stop being down on your looks. Look at those pics of you. That one with you in the mirror reflected with the blue.... the one with the flowers on the mirror, that pic is amazing.... you are beautiful.
-----a lurker who has spoken before but never signed in with a name.
The thing that did made me angry was that this relative tends to scare away by abruptly saying shit like "God won't love you if you don't go to church" or "that you got a disease" or whatever blunt shit like that.
You can worship God wherever you are, you don't need a building to do it. I totally don't go to Church, even though my kid is in Parochial school. I sleep just fine at night. Ok, well maybe I should be asleep now, but that's beside the point. :)
Exactly. I hate to say this, but right now those Christmas presents thing is starting to depress me. My happiness went right down my fucking toilet tonight and I hate it.
not to butt in here, bc -- but i've always thought when people say things like that it's really their own fear speaking. they just don't have any other way of expressing themselves.
that's not to say that it isn't upsetting, it's just that they don't know any better.
Not sure Carrie. It was a lot of fun sending presents earlier, but after what happened, I am not such in a happy mood anymore. I may go to sleep early as a matter of fact. I haven't made my therapist appointment and I have to go back to court sometime this month, not to mention that I'm slowly trying to get my life back together. Not asking for sympathy, just venting here. Thanks squeak squeak.
Ergo, the present thing is alot of fun, but after tonight, it just made me feel blah. I'm really sorry. I hope you guys will still have it up. I'm just trying to deal with this. My relative is scared because I'm recently losing weight and not getting much of an appetite
Don't let it get you down, I know that's kinda empty, but it's all I've got. Hey, my doc wants to put my crazy depressed butt on Prozac, so at least you're not alone. Hey, perfectly happy people are definitely in the minority, just ask anybody here. And on that note, sweet tater, I've got to get to bed. Goodnight and I hope the night and some extra sleep will give you some perspective.
you might not be asking for sympathy, but i know i can say that we all do feel for you, bc. just having such a good mood ruined is sucky enough, without having all that real life stuff heaped on top of it.
venting is good. vent all you want. you can even scream! :D
Thank you Carrie. Your words are comforting me :) Sweet dreams and goodnight. I am definitely going to sleep earlier tonight. Not much in the mood to talk that much tonight.
Squeak squeak, too much screaming will scare people away ;D My relative is just scared because of my weight loss and stuff. I may have to go see a doctor if some thing's wrong, and that scares me. It's so weird too, all of the time I've been here, I've been so strong, but now, I feel a bit frail.
BC make the appointment and look after yourself, lack of appetite is probably stress related, get yourself seen to and don't worry unessessarily you don't need more stress. Like carrie said, everyone needs a bit of help sometimes it's nothing to be ashamed of or worried about. Be proactive and strong
Ergo, yeah, we may go see a doctor sometime tomorrow and I may need to get a blood test. As soon as I'm done here, I am heading straight to bed and I may not be on tomorrow. It depends on how I feel. Thanks Ergo. I appreciate that.
it's good to get the check-up, bc, and ergo is right -- most likely it's stress related. the first weekend i visited my dad when he was really sick, i lost ive pounds. i just couldn't eat. the appetite is alway affected by how you feel, and i'm sure the doctor will say the same thing.
and it's ok to not always be so strong. sometimes always being the strong one can be as much a crutch as anything else. you feel how you feel, bc, and there's nothing wrong with that.
0_o i feel like i just gave you a synopsis out of a half-dozen different self-help books. cripes. sorry 'bout that!
go to bed early, sleep well, that will be good for you bc. :)
that's the best BC, I had blood tests and found I was just really badly iron deficient, and it has heaps of strange symptoms.
It's best to get it seen to, and I too stop eating when I'm stressed. I just don't think of food, which is I tell you a big thing as I ALWAYS think of food
mayo, i just can't seem to resist the lure of stopping here before i go to bed. it's like my day isn't bracketed properly unless i have my coffee first, and chat aimlessly at you last.
that might be changing soon, though. i have a job interview coming up this week -- and i'm feeling optimistic about it, as i'm not likely to get weird looks from a manager with piercings and fire engine red hair, now am i? :)
but it's evenings and weekends. i won't be able to be here when you post your entries, or around for much of the silliness and drama that happens on this blog.
but for sure i need the work. so maybe i'll just have to have my rambles earlier in the night and make them longer to make up for my absence? a frightening thought, to be sure!
i want this job, but i'm going to miss being as full a part of this blog as i am now. and how am i going to achieve my goal of asking a question that you want to answer if i'm not here to ask it? D:
it's okay. i know you'll survive. ;)
i'm off to bed, to fall asleep to the sound of steady and solid rain -- the lovely and soothing winter soundtrack of seattle. i hope you can find something as restful to lure you into slumber tonight. you can borrow my rain, if you need it.
Tastiest of all cakey goods has returned. Hope you all missed me like I missed you, but I was off shopping at goth boutiques and seeing My Chemical Romance. Quite good they were too! Such charisma!
Now someone go to my page, and comment on my latest blog to tell me what's been happening in Mayo world!
Hi, How are you today? Me? I really don't know. I seem to be down about something. Maybe I'm just dreading the busy day ahead. Maybe I just really hate my job. Maybe I can't believe that I'm about to get up and start the cycle all over again....maybe. Maybe it's something else. Feel me?
I'll keep this relatively short this morning for 3 reasons: to not take up much of your time, to not take up a lot of space, and to not take up much of my time. Err, I hate getting ready for work and writing in a hurry. I really hope you are okay where you are and that you know how much you are missed here. Yeah, for real.
So today, I hope you receive something totally unexpected from someone you don't even know, and it makes you smile, reflect, and pay it forward.
Because I believe that we all could do better.....faithfully.
My fave possum! yes, it was Melbourne! and the shops.... oh those shops, I love the upmarket Gothic things almost as much as I love funky little thrift stores.
Mayo, how are you today? I am just dandy! I couldn't sleep last night, so I'm in a rather bitchy mood today. Don't worry, I won't blow up at you or anything. Maybe taking on this job is a little too much for me to handle..? Nawww, I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. My co-workers are really really nice! There is this one guy that caught my eye.. *wink wink* But he might be a little old for me.. All I know about him is that he dropped out of his first year of University this year. Why am I babbling? Okay, on with the work thing. I'm working in my mall right? We got a tour around the place, and WOW. The stuff BEHIND the stores is FUCKING scary! Great. I have to go change behind there too! All by my lonesome! Don't worry, I know what you are thinking.. there are locker rooms! :P
You know, I like babbling on and on about random shit that doesn't have a point. You should try it sometime! Except, don't make it too cryptic. I know you would try, Mayonaise. Anyways, I guess I should offer you SOME sort of advice or something, considering I just wrote this whole pile of silly nonsense. I am going to tell you what my dad tells me EVERYDAY. No, not that school is number one, I take it that wouldn't apply to you, BUT.. SLOW DOWN. You have many years ahead of you. Do you really want to watch everything whiz by? NO! Sometimes you have to stop and smell the mother fucking roses! =]
ORIGINAL PUNK; J Hello there sweetie! My sincere apologies for missing your party! I really wanted to go, but I had to come home and shower and straighten my hair and eat, and try to sleep. (Even though I didn't fall asleep till maybe 2 am?) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!!! <3 A million and a half of GIANT *HUGS* for you!
All my love; - 007
P.S. At 7:44 am, when you don't have to be at school till 8:30, you really have lots of time on your hands! =]
If GWay pulls that sh*t here on the 6th there will be a few people who will think he's a prize twat and will proceed to tell him so. It's happened here before with other bands.
I see christmas songs were discussed earlier in the blog.
Loooope Fairytale of New York, by The Pogues and Kirsty MacColl. Bittersweet fantasticness.
Closely followed by the incredibly cheesy Driving Home For Christmas by Chris Rea. While I was at Varsity I had a waitressing job at a hotel restaurant. I always ended up with the Christmas Eve and Day shifts. This song always put me back in festive mood heading home.
I will just add for the British bloggers that your international sportsmen behave worse than shitty-ass rockstars.(restaurant/ hotel secrets 101)
I'm sitting here listening to Trisky (that's my dog) whine--not because her leg hurts, I think, but I suspect because she's been cooped up too long. I think she feels bored and lonely. Usually when I go to work she'll go to my parents' house, but lately she hasn't so she's been on her own a lot. Guys, I think my dog is lonely. O_O I might have to just carry her there. She's antsy and trying to pace.
Anon @ 12:11 and 12:42, thank you a lot. :)
I hope you're all having as good a Monday as can be managed.
Mayo, you are missed. Not just 'cause we need more room to post; we don't. Just hope everything's all right. Why don't you give that ghost of yours a nice long hug?
Mayo, you should post a joke or something cute, huh? Something light-hearted maybe? Let go of all the angst and mystery for a few seconds?
Don't torture yourself dear, I'll save you the trouble. An entendre please, sir, and make it a double!
Maybe he's trying to figure it all out just like we are.
Mayo: Do as Kapunua says. Make amends and love like you never have before. Too much shit in this world to take people for granted. Love your family and friends with all of your heart. We're here when you need us.
SS: Hopefully your rest has caused much of the confusion to subside. At least that is my hope. I hope your day is full of wonder and delight.
Hey Sdock! I'm sure Mayo rads your kind words. ^_^ Are you at work? Ugh. Tomorrow is my suuuper long day so if you want to email me then and take my mind off of it... Just kidding, take your time. ^_^
Hi, Mustard! Lemme tell you, Trisky has a surplus of boydogs. They were, in fact, the catalyst for this disastrous chain of events. O_O
Oddly though, I noticed the pattern yesterday. (Because I "do" patterns.) If she hadn't gotten bitten first she would never have hurt her leg. If she hadn't hurt her leg that day, she wouldn't have had her checkup so early. Then if she hadn't hurt her leg again I wouldn't have taken her to the emergency vet yesterday and would not have found out about all my options regarding the heart murmur thing. I totally think it all happened for a reason.
Just back home (southern England) from the Lake District (very near Scotland) and just finished reading through the posts.
It's a bit late but, Re: TJ vs. Kap debate (for want of a better description),
I loved Oasis when they came out; even though Liam & Noel Gallagher were clearly complete muppets the music was fantastic. I chose to ignore the muppetry because that's how they always were and that's part of being an Oasis fan.
I loved MCR when they came out (well Three Cheers anyway); Gerard (and the others but you understand what I mean!) convinced me he was a pretty sound guy and the music was fantastic. However, I'm finding it hard to ignore his recent muppetry because it's not what I signed up for when I first became a fan and I've been trained to expect better.
Ergo, I don't find the "I wanna hear you f*** yourselves" or the dismissal of past relationships (such bad form, a gentleman never airs his dirty laundry) offensive on their own, but I do find it offensive coming straight after "I'm so, like, respectful of women, me!", because it's being hypocritical.
And that's my belated position on the matter....
Love,
Kass xx
P.S. We had a very emotional get-together for my friend, everyone took turns to reminisce about their memories of his Mum, we all cried and it was very cathartic; then we went out and drunk too much and danced too badly and had a fabulous night.
Kapunua and Sdock, I'm still looking for the right presents for you at Lolita's. (sorry Sdock, but I was really trying to find you a 'new job'....I'll come up with something). I have so many ideas for everyone, but still searching.
I don't want to work today. I agree Sdock, let's do something fun. But what?
That is hot! I'm wearing a black Zelda t shirt and huge black Kung Fu pants with the kanki for "choy lei fut" embroidered in red down the front of the left leg. And a sports bra, polka dot underwear and stupid old white socks because I haven't gotten around to laundry yet.
Do you seriously have on thigh high polka dot socks? Because if you do, you pretty much own.
I am comfy, these pants are the best ones I own. They're about thee sizes too big. We all wear Kung Fu pants big like that because when you do a fast kick it makes a Kung Fu *whoosh* noise and everyone likes that.
Neglected to mention I am also wearing a yearling crow on the back of my neck. O_O
If you want a story, here's a chunk of a poem bored english kids sing on the coach if they're on a school trip:
Paddy McGinty's Goat
Mister Patrick McGinty, an Irishman of note, Came into a fortune and he bought himself a goat Said he, "Sure of goat milk, I aim to have my fill." But when he got his nanny home, he found it was a Bill.
Now Pat McGinty's goat had a wondrous appetite And often for breakfast he'd eat some dynamite, A box full of sparklers he'd swallow with a grin And when he'd had his fill of that, he drank some paraffin.
He sat by the fireside - he didn't give a hang. He swallowed a spark and exploded with a bang. So when you get to heaven you can bet the dollar note, That the angel with the whiskers on is Paddy McGinty's goat.
I can't even wear a tank top to work or cropped pants. I mean damn. It's not my fault some people stink and like to put their armpits in your face. I smell like night-blooming jasmine so give me a break. This place is bugging the shit out of me today. Stupid freakin' job.
Your's was so much more better (English is a sucky subject) than mine.
But, there's a story behind yours. The first time you posted as Anima, I almost typed your name as Enema, and I proceeded to laugh histerically at my own self. It was funny on my end. Made me laugh. :)
Kapunua, your crow is beautiful! And that is amazing about all the birds. But sorry that you have to go through so many losses. I don't know if I could handle it. I tried to save a baby bird that had a crippled leg. I feed him, and whistled, other birds came to feed him....it was amazing, but he died after two days. I thought he was going to make it. It broke my heart.
Elena and Princess Smoke, I am still searching gifts for you.
Sis Midnite (I know you aren't here, but I am sure you will read this), you should have seen the first thing I pulled up for you. It was awful!! I typed in 'sex toy' and some type of butt blug came up. I found something else instead because the butt device was just a little too weird. Haha!
Kapunua, I love those pictures. When I get home, I will post the picture of my little guy. I even have a video where I am sitting the porch whistling to him and he would just chirp and chirp. I wish I would have known you then, you could have helped me.
Gerard Way states that his performance next to the guitarist Frank Iero is a form of fighting some prejudices comun on the society! Gerard says: I am here with the most noble of intentions, to make certain people understand that the fact that a person is an artist or a little feminin-even the boy from work or the boy from school - is not reason to treat them wrong. Rock was full of testosterone for a long time, and that is why I am so interested in forcing it. All this has converging in the way women are treated as inferior, calling people 'deer',as saying, racism, if not totally racist. Many things are linked to stupidity of rock'n'roll and we are completely the opposite, "he explained in an interview to the Herald Sun
Hooray! Gerard Arthur Way Champion of 'Bitches' Rights return to save us all from discrimination.
Lurking anon who has commented before. Sometimes come by to just read.
I think you girls are cute when you are talking about your lives or nothing at all. I think it's nice how you think you all have ordinary lives but you are not ordinary girls. You all have something special. Alone and with each other.
I am not SS or Mayo. I know how you all like those two guys. I have seen how you all wait for them to make comments and sometimes they do and sometmes they leave you hanging.
It seems like you beloved SS does like you..
I wonder about the Mayo guy, I know or at least I think he seems to like you now.
I just worry that when the next thing comes along that he thinks will fill the void in his heart and soul, he will ditch you.
I don't think he even knows he will do it. I think he really does think that he wants to keep you all and bask in ..... in the glow of your camraderie. That he wants to be a part but doesn't know how..... may be he has a lot to lose.
But I'm afraid for the day when he tires of it all and shuts you all out.
If and when that day comes, remember that you're all still special.
Anon, that was really nice of you to say. I think about the same thing. I wonder when Mayo is going to ditch us. I believe he has enough kindness in his heart to let us know that he is finished with this place. We have shared so much, so it would be ashame for him to just leave us with out a goodbye. However, I think he likes it here. Maybe not all the time, but hopefully it is a welcomed distraction from life's craziness, and a place to learn from one another. It is that way for me.
I hope he will continue to stick around, not just for us, but for himself.
Where have you been? We need kind souls, such as yourself, around here to balance this place out.
You've brought up some very valid thoughts, some I'm questioning as I type this.
I can only say that I hope Mayo does realize and continues to realize what he's done here. He's made a remarkable place. Not kicking us out. Continuing to post.
I look at this situation like a two-way street. Mayo probably needs us as much as we need him. He probably wants to know that we're okay (though he doesn't always ask) just as much as we want to know he's okay. He wouldn't still be here if he didn't.
Anon, thank you for your kind and gentle words. They are needed by me today.
ANON - Thank you for your concern. You are right we have made some great friendships here. This has become a very special place.
As for Mayo who can say what goes on in his head. I honestly don't think he knows most of the time. But all of us are here for him while we can be. That’s just how we roll.
As for SS I truly believe he likes and enjoys listening to what we say. Sometimes I do worry that he feels somehow responsible for us. He worries about us because of Mayo's sometimes lack at attention. This upsets me more than anything. SS has enough to worry about without add all of us. But you know I'm touched that he cares. That is the sign of a good person. A hell of a good person with a good heart and soul.
I agree with both Anima and MJ. You are an extremely observant person, whoever you are. Thanks for the good words. Please come visit with us again if you would like. There is room in Mayo's house for any kind heart that comes knocking.
I felt a little sick so I decided to bake cookies and skip out of Kung Fu tonight. What has become of me? ;D
Anon, thank you and you bring up some good points. So do the rest of you.
One thing you said struck me and made me a little sad. I hope that if Mayo ever wants to join in the conversation--I mean really join in, instead of three halting words here and there--that he feels like he can. The dude always seems so uptight and reserved. I'd crap my pants if he came in one time and was like "Whaddup, homeslices? So today I ruled at Guitar Hero," or something like that. The distance makes me feel a little responsible. Maybe it's because we're all always holding our breath.
Elena, I also worry that SS might feel too responsible for us. SS, if you're out there, I want you to know that as much as we love reading you, you must never feel obliged to amuse us. ^_^
I've also wondered about the end of this blog. And while I hope it isn't anytime soon, there is one thing I hope for all of us. I hope we find out the score at the end. We're all stumbling in the dark, and even though we've all sort of grabbed onto each other it's still dark.
One of my biggest fears in life is that things will end and I won't get answers. That goes for life itself, too. My big fear is that when I die, everything will end and I'll be none the wiser.
I guess the same goes for this blog. If it has to end, then I hope we get to know who our host really was.
HOWEVER. If not knowing is what is keeping this blog alive, then I'll gladly go on not knowing till the end.
Ironically enough, I wanted to write a note to any anons who came asking questions about SS and "J".
Hello to anyone who has questions about "J" and SS.
I am the J that SS speaks to on these blogs. However, I am not Jamia. SS is a person I met when I started posting on Mayo's blog. SS comes and goes, not often, but when he does, he always says nice things to all of us. Sometimes he joins in our conversations. He is a friend, a fellow blogger.
I understand that you have come here because you're a fan of MCR, and that you're concerned for them. I know you have questions that you would like answered, but unfortunately I don't have those answers. Neither do the rest of the people here. We are merely a group of friends who come together to talk about our lives. I'm sorry that you were given the wrong information. It's not that we don't want to give you answers, it's that we don't have the answers.
I'm sorry if I have sounded unpleasant to any of you in the past. Please consider, though, that it becomes a little frustrating to answer that one same question repeatedly.
Thank you for the jappy birthday wishes! And to anyone else I may have missed. You guys were missed at the party. It was so good I don't remember some of it!
Snowed in today, working at home... can't find my other keyboard so bear with me, these laptop keys hate me!
Anima, I left you a prezzie at Lolita's, too. Thanks for the (thought of the) butt plug, now if only I could find one of them clones...?
J, I hope we were able to give you as special of a b-day as we could. I love you dearly, I hope you have a wonderful day. And year!!!
Nice Anon, thank you. We're all aware that this blog could end. But I still believe we all became friends for a reason. That reason is strong enough to survive the blog, although we would miss SS & Mayo dearly.
Truth be told, however, I don't think that any of us expected it to go on for as long as it has. It seems that we give Mayo something he needs. And if it helps him, he's able to keep sharing our lives for as long as he feels the need to. We've become a family, and family is always there for each other. Together, we can survive ANYTHING.
I love each and every one of you dearly, never forget that. I'll always, ALWAYS, be here if you should need me.
Sorry about that animal I made that comment and had to leave the computer for a while Hi how are you I'm well. And Hello to the Ops, Elena, Mib,sis m,pixie and kapu.
I'm tired as well pixie. I woke up too early and last night I couldn't sleep. I wasn't feeling well, but I'm okay now. I'm glad that you're better now. Are we the only ones here?
why is it whenever I'm having some sort of conversation with another person on the phone or computer everyone in my family thinks that is the perfect time to talk to me.
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun like locusts, samaras swarm the sky and skitter to an earthly end, dry like clever words. I want to make them fly up, flip heaven upside down and dance across the top of hell and sing your thoughts to the sound of thunder that you love so well, rip open the littered sky and bathe in the light or draw across the firmament the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have covered the ground, their brief flight yielding nothing permanent on infertile land, a fleeting moment of swarming glory that calls to mind our own short story: Diamonds and petals, the loom and the light, the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh, an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds of childhood reminiscent-- and like the idiot grown-up heart, as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed all our friends playing Some had never tried before and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner from the left and right We did our best to keep them flowing Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished I hope we made someone see How truly beautiful and amazing a poem can be.
Sdock10 March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
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you ok BC?
Mayo, I left you a willy warmer for your penis pokey.
Lol! What a thoughtful gift ;)
Have to head to bed now. I'll catch you guys tomorrow.
Have a good one! :)
Hi there Ergo. My happiness mood has been spoiled, but I don't feel up to talking about it. Sorry everyone.
Miss T, sidekicks are expensive, but I got a cheaper one :)
night RW
that's a shame BC.
everyone has bad days, just don't let it get you down too much.
Just chat about meaningless stuff with us here for a while
Goodnight RW.
I'm off to bed too people. goodnight.
BC enjoy your sidekick.
Ergo, it's actually something that scared me. I ended up crying. I am trying my best to be in a happier mood.
Goodnight and sweet dreams Miss T.
Thanks. Sometime this month I am going to add the AIM on it, so you guys can harrass me even when I'm not home. Ha ha :D
People, one last thing.
I am slowly giving pressies to people, making my way through the one's I can remember.
I have left them at Lolita's place, Ergo's place, BC's place, jennicula's place. They are spread around. So if you don't see on on lolita's don't panic.
I haven't done tham all yet so don't think I've left anyone out.
Hiya!
It's so fucking cold outside that the moisture from breathing froze all of eyelashes together!
-Amyranth is still not warm.
*blowing air in Amyranth's face so her eyelashes unfreeze* Ok, yeah, I did just eat some salami, what of it?
Mmmm... Salami Breath!
Who else has those tree gifty things?
I wanna leave some presents!
-A
I think they are spread all over, I have no clue how to use them, will have to investigate tomorrow.
Amy, I have one! :)
BC is a crybaby ;p
BC you poor thing!
I'm on aim if you want to talk about it (for bit longer anyway I think I'm tutoring)
Hi amyranth!!!
*offers a few koalas for warmth*
Why are you a crybaby?
I have a tree Amyranth.
we need a list lol
Goodnight guys, we are going to sign off for now and I will put J. to bed.:)
She said to let you all know that she had a wonderful time, and thank you all so much, from the bottom of her heart.
Its all about the love,
L and J
P.S. SS, if you swing by later, there's a huge piece of your favorite cake cling wrapped on the counter for you at DM. :)
When I got home, I was in a pretty good mood, but it didn't last. Me and a family member were talking and they said something that scared me, but at that moment I got really angry that I starting throwing things. I am aware of what responses I may receive because of that, but I don't get that angry unless I am extremely pissed.
I was pretty freaked to say the least.
After that I started crying.
So there you go. That's my bad side ^_^
EP - Thank you for Koalas.
My tree is up, but real and virtual,
but the real one is eating my living room.
Also, I'm terrified it's going to die on me.
-A
Everyone has a bad side, I throw things too. Hubby had to spackle the wall one time from a cd I hurled. You just have to look at the big picture of life. *sings Disney song of your choosing*
aw BC I won't judge you.
it takes a lot to get me angry but if it happens I usually go really quiet but if I get pushed further
I tend to say really vicious things and then regret it so much I start to cry, then get angry because I feel that makes me weak.
I have thrown things too, but usually when I'm alone (one of my oven trays still has the dent!)
amyranth - thanks for the gift, we must knock back a few someday
Thanks Carrie. I'm trying to cheer myself up, but usually it doesn't work. Apologies.
Amyranth, that's why I go the fake-o route. Well that, and the fact my SIL is allergic to real trees. :)
THis is gonna sound weird and don't take it the wrong way. But Kapu .... okay I am the one who said you look like Lyn-z. Well..... you do. I'm not saying your LIKE her you just look at her. Also..... stop being down on your looks. Look at those pics of you. That one with you in the mirror reflected with the blue.... the one with the flowers on the mirror, that pic is amazing.... you are beautiful.
-----a lurker who has spoken before but never signed in with a name.
Ergo, thank you.
amyranth I put up ours yesterday, it's fake but big, and all gold and red decorations.
we must all post tree pics before christmas, I'd love to see all the cold country christmases
(as I sweat here)
oh I remembered there's a few aussie carols too
"6 white boomers, snow white boomers" about santa and 6 white kangaroos pulling his sleigh
EP - If we can speak italian and snuggle koalas, I'll be there in 25 hours.
-A
Also.
HAY SANTA CLAUS, YOU CUNT! WHERE'S ME FUCKIN BIKE?!
-A
BC, if you don't mind me asking, what was the fight about?
*walks in, plonks herself down on the couch*
so, i am really bad at multi-tasking. i wander away, and forget to wander back. *sheesh!*
how's everyone doing, whoever is left?
oh Amy you know that one!!!!
that is a classic, true classic!!!
fettuccini ferrari maserati,bucatini my sweet!
Carrie, it wasn't really a fight. I just got freaked out. They think I contracted a disease. On top of admitting my depression and now this. *sigh*
I'm around, at least for a few.
EP - Baci, baci ma Bella!
-A
A disease, WTF? Too weird.
The thing that did made me angry was that this relative tends to scare away by abruptly saying shit like "God won't love you if you don't go to church" or "that you got a disease" or whatever blunt shit like that.
Sometimes I hate them when they're so fucking blunt like that. It scares me.
You can worship God wherever you are, you don't need a building to do it. I totally don't go to Church, even though my kid is in Parochial school. I sleep just fine at night. Ok, well maybe I should be asleep now, but that's beside the point. :)
Also kap I hope your dog get's better.....
Exactly. I hate to say this, but right now those Christmas presents thing is starting to depress me. My happiness went right down my fucking toilet tonight and I hate it.
Why?
not to butt in here, bc -- but i've always thought when people say things like that it's really their own fear speaking. they just don't have any other way of expressing themselves.
that's not to say that it isn't upsetting, it's just that they don't know any better.
sorry you had such a scare. :(
BC I agree with TJ it' usually means they have the issue not you.
why is the present thing depressing?
it's just for fun.
please don't get too down about it
(TJ I emailed you too)
Not sure Carrie. It was a lot of fun sending presents earlier, but after what happened, I am not such in a happy mood anymore. I may go to sleep early as a matter of fact. I haven't made my therapist appointment and I have to go back to court sometime this month, not to mention that I'm slowly trying to get my life back together. Not asking for sympathy, just venting here.
Thanks squeak squeak.
Ergo, the present thing is alot of fun, but after tonight, it just made me feel blah. I'm really sorry. I hope you guys will still have it up.
I'm just trying to deal with this.
My relative is scared because I'm recently losing weight and not getting much of an appetite
Don't let it get you down, I know that's kinda empty, but it's all I've got. Hey, my doc wants to put my crazy depressed butt on Prozac, so at least you're not alone. Hey, perfectly happy people are definitely in the minority, just ask anybody here. And on that note, sweet tater, I've got to get to bed. Goodnight and I hope the night and some extra sleep will give you some perspective.
amyranth I am actually cooking a sort of take on amatriciana sauce but with chorizo sausage and fresh mint aded at the end for dinner
bella penne vongole rigatone !
you might not be asking for sympathy, but i know i can say that we all do feel for you, bc. just having such a good mood ruined is sucky enough, without having all that real life stuff heaped on top of it.
venting is good. vent all you want. you can even scream! :D
(TJ I emailed you too)
(boo-yah! *grin*)
Thank you Carrie. Your words are comforting me :)
Sweet dreams and goodnight. I am definitely going to sleep earlier tonight. Not much in the mood to talk that much tonight.
g'night carrie. ^.^
Squeak squeak, too much screaming will scare people away ;D
My relative is just scared because of my weight loss and stuff. I may have to go see a doctor if some thing's wrong, and that scares me.
It's so weird too, all of the time I've been here, I've been so strong, but now, I feel a bit frail.
BC make the appointment and look after yourself, lack of appetite is probably stress related, get yourself seen to and don't worry unessessarily you don't need more stress.
Like carrie said, everyone needs a bit of help sometimes it's nothing to be ashamed of or worried about.
Be proactive and strong
bye carrie
Hey everyone, just dropped in before I head off to sleep.
I would like to add to the Italian flavor at he moment.
J,
Buon compleanno a te per domani. Hai una bella cuore.
E per gli altri, buona notte!
Ergo, yeah, we may go see a doctor sometime tomorrow and I may need to get a blood test. As soon as I'm done here, I am heading straight to bed and I may not be on tomorrow. It depends on how I feel.
Thanks Ergo. I appreciate that.
it's good to get the check-up, bc, and ergo is right -- most likely it's stress related. the first weekend i visited my dad when he was really sick, i lost ive pounds. i just couldn't eat. the appetite is alway affected by how you feel, and i'm sure the doctor will say the same thing.
and it's ok to not always be so strong. sometimes always being the strong one can be as much a crutch as anything else. you feel how you feel, bc, and there's nothing wrong with that.
0_o
i feel like i just gave you a synopsis out of a half-dozen different self-help books. cripes. sorry 'bout that!
go to bed early, sleep well, that will be good for you bc. :)
hi katherine,
sleep well, sweet dreams (please translate in your head into italian!)
that's the best BC, I had blood tests and found I was just really badly iron deficient, and it has heaps of strange symptoms.
It's best to get it seen to, and I too stop eating when I'm stressed. I just don't think of food, which is I tell you a big thing as I ALWAYS think of food
Ergoproxyatore
I had my own tomato sauce with penne for supper tonight too.
Buono, baci chorizo alla farfalle!
Parmagiano, reggiano, et spumante!
-Amyranthioli
I won't be about for a couple of days either as I'm off up to Townsville for Elton John and have no computer
i wish you luck in your starbucks quest, ergo. i send you postive successful vibes from the homeland of your new addiction. ;)
Amyranthioli
try adding some chilli and fresh mint it's really yummy and a bit different
I had better go now everyone, I'll call in before I go in the morning
keep safe and have a good night and tomorrow.
luv from me!
Time for me to camp out too.
I got a LOT of housecleaning to do, plus a tree to decorate! That is one THIRSTY tree!
See y'all in the AM, I actually have a day off tomorrow!!
-Amyranth a.k.a Amyranthioli
'bye ergo, 'bye amyranth. ^.^
Thank you Squeak squeak, Ergo.
It's 12:35 a.m. right now but I'm going to sign off and go to sleep.
I shall see what happens tomorrow.
that's best, bc. sweet dreams to you. ^.^
mayo,
i just can't seem to resist the lure of stopping here before i go to bed. it's like my day isn't bracketed properly unless i have my coffee first, and chat aimlessly at you last.
that might be changing soon, though. i have a job interview coming up this week -- and i'm feeling optimistic about it, as i'm not likely to get weird looks from a manager with piercings and fire engine red hair, now am i? :)
but it's evenings and weekends. i won't be able to be here when you post your entries, or around for much of the silliness and drama that happens on this blog.
but for sure i need the work. so maybe i'll just have to have my rambles earlier in the night and make them longer to make up for my absence? a frightening thought, to be sure!
i want this job, but i'm going to miss being as full a part of this blog as i am now. and how am i going to achieve my goal of asking a question that you want to answer if i'm not here to ask it? D:
it's okay. i know you'll survive. ;)
i'm off to bed, to fall asleep to the sound of steady and solid rain -- the lovely and soothing winter soundtrack of seattle. i hope you can find something as restful to lure you into slumber tonight. you can borrow my rain, if you need it.
good night, and best of dreams to you, mayo.
THE BITCH IS BACK!
Tastiest of all cakey goods has returned.
Hope you all missed me like I missed you, but I was off shopping at goth boutiques and seeing My Chemical Romance.
Quite good they were too!
Such charisma!
Now someone go to my page, and comment on my latest blog to tell me what's been happening in Mayo world!
Love you like sisters xoxo
CUPCAKE
Mayo,
Hi, How are you today? Me? I really don't know. I seem to be down about something. Maybe I'm just dreading the busy day ahead. Maybe I just really hate my job. Maybe I can't believe that I'm about to get up and start the cycle all over again....maybe. Maybe it's something else. Feel me?
I'll keep this relatively short this morning for 3 reasons: to not take up much of your time, to not take up a lot of space, and to not take up much of my time. Err, I hate getting ready for work and writing in a hurry. I really hope you are okay where you are and that you know how much you are missed here. Yeah, for real.
So today, I hope you receive something totally unexpected from someone you don't even know, and it makes you smile, reflect, and pay it forward.
Because I believe that we all could do better.....faithfully.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. There doesn't have to be a reason.
"I wont try to make you a hero or a dream, I wont look for your faults or highlight them. I will see you. I will let you be"
- Vivienne O.
PP in a dyslexic moment last night said to anon:
"That was a lovely birthday gift for L."
PP knew, and should have said JJJJJJJJJJJJJ.
*pp should sleep more, as should anon*
Hi SD10,
Have a good day at work today. No residual headaches from J's party, I hope.
Cupcake,
Welcome back! Was that the Melbourne concert you went to? I would love to hear about those fantastic goth clothing shops.
My fave possum! yes, it was Melbourne! and the shops.... oh those shops, I love the upmarket Gothic things almost as much as I love funky little thrift stores.
Fake it until you make it!
Really - smile at people if you feel shitty, eventually they'll smile back and make you feel better.
Mashed cauliflower makes a low-calorie, vitamin-rich alternative to potato.
Mars
MAYO
Don't fight it, be it.
Marattacks,
Thanks for the advice...I think I will.
Or I will feed their body through a woodchipper and scatter it along the Satilla Riverbanks....
Just kidding on the latter of course...muahhahahahah
*laughs hysterically to self and mumbles under breath*
Today is going to be an OUTSTANDING DAY! I can feel it!
Don't you?
Cupcake, I haven't met a person yet who doesn't like Melbourne. Thrift shops are like windows into social history.
Mars,
You can mash cauliflower o_O
*coughs*
Hello sDock, dontcha love me anymore?
Sure PP, if you cook it long enough you can mash anything!
mash it, squish it, flatten it, squash it, pulverize it...you get the idea?
or as we like to do in the south, batter it up and fry it!
Hi all,
I am so supposed to be working today!
shhhhhhhh
But I am faking it..
Cupcake,
My beautiful darling, of course I love you.
I am sorry for not speaking to you, but I am trying to look like I am busy not blogging....
*hugz* to you
Good morning mayo.
I agree with SD10.
It is going to be another great day.
Have you smiled yet today, Mayo?
PP
Morning everyone.
So...I watched the "I'm gon' kick your ass" video just now.
I'm not going to lie to you. I find that video more worrisome than just the "Gerard, you said you should never solve your problems with violence" bit.
The way he's talking there, like, he sounds angry. Fuck whatever "candy" he's talking about.
"I don't need your candy, 'cause you know why? Because I'm already.Out. Of. My. Fucking. Mind."
He has me so worried.
How is everyone? I'm gonna go back and catch up.
Socky,
Shhh. You're going to have to be quieter. I heard you.
*pretends to not hear socky so she doesn't get her blogging arse fired*
PP cares for socky.
Hi PP! Hi Mars! Hi Cupcake! Hi Luci! Hi Mustard!
How is everyone this morning???
I have to work twelve hours today and I'm just so excited about it. I love my job. I love my job. I love my job.
Mayo, how bad you been?
My guess is pretty damn bad but that's just me.
Mustard,
I'm trying to not worry too much about the candy video.
For all we know, he might've already warned the kid about the 'candy' earlier and the kid kept doing it.
I am not defending him...I'm just saying.
I say inappropriate shit on my job on a fucking daily basis. I definitely could handle myself better and so could he.
We just don't always do it...
...shhhhhhhh, I'm going back to work now.
Love you guys!
Mayo, I love you too! Are you smiling yet? Fuck yes you are...
cares for socky...
and her highly pulverised, mashed, mangled,battered,fried dubiously nutritious, vegie recipes.
Good morning guys!
Mayo, how are you today? I am just dandy! I couldn't sleep last night, so I'm in a rather bitchy mood today. Don't worry, I won't blow up at you or anything. Maybe taking on this job is a little too much for me to handle..? Nawww, I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. My co-workers are really really nice! There is this one guy that caught my eye.. *wink wink* But he might be a little old for me.. All I know about him is that he dropped out of his first year of University this year. Why am I babbling? Okay, on with the work thing. I'm working in my mall right? We got a tour around the place, and WOW. The stuff BEHIND the stores is FUCKING scary! Great. I have to go change behind there too! All by my lonesome! Don't worry, I know what you are thinking.. there are locker rooms! :P
You know, I like babbling on and on about random shit that doesn't have a point. You should try it sometime! Except, don't make it too cryptic. I know you would try, Mayonaise. Anyways, I guess I should offer you SOME sort of advice or something, considering I just wrote this whole pile of silly nonsense. I am going to tell you what my dad tells me EVERYDAY. No, not that school is number one, I take it that wouldn't apply to you, BUT.. SLOW DOWN. You have many years ahead of you. Do you really want to watch everything whiz by? NO! Sometimes you have to stop and smell the mother fucking roses! =]
ORIGINAL PUNK; J
Hello there sweetie! My sincere apologies for missing your party! I really wanted to go, but I had to come home and shower and straighten my hair and eat, and try to sleep. (Even though I didn't fall asleep till maybe 2 am?) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!!! <3 A million and a half of GIANT *HUGS* for you!
All my love;
- 007
P.S. At 7:44 am, when you don't have to be at school till 8:30, you really have lots of time on your hands! =]
No, no, Sdock.
I mean everything BUT the candy part.
The tone of his voice when he says "I'm out of my fucking mind" scares me.
*thinks back to pummel*
MIB, that video worried me for a few reasons.
1.) Promoting violence.
2.) Gerard's tone
3.) Candy? :S What if it wasn't candy?!
Darn it, I was on a roll yesterday! I had this whole rant set up!! Why can't I find the guts to say it all now? Damn!
Hello S&V20,
12 hour days are hard work when the daylight hours are so short. Leave in the dark, get home in the dark, ugh.
Hi PH,
*hugs*
You get tired at first working girl, but you'll settle into it soon. Just watch the effect on your grades though.
*PP all boringly sensible tonight*
Okay, so we don' thave as much time as we thought we did!
I have to go drink my green tea and walk to school in this gorgeous -30 degrees Celsius weather!
xoxox
- 007
PP, thank you! ^_^
Have a good day!! *HUG*
xoxox
P.S. Spelling mistakes in other comment. Darn it. I suck. =]
Mustard,
Sorry I missed you.
If GWay pulls that sh*t here on the 6th there will be a few people who will think he's a prize twat and will proceed to tell him so.
It's happened here before with other bands.
I see christmas songs were discussed earlier in the blog.
Loooope Fairytale of New York, by The Pogues and Kirsty MacColl. Bittersweet fantasticness.
Closely followed by the incredibly cheesy Driving Home For Christmas by Chris Rea. While I was at Varsity I had a waitressing job at a hotel restaurant. I always ended up with the Christmas Eve and Day shifts. This song always put me back in festive mood heading home.
I will just add for the British bloggers that your international sportsmen behave worse than shitty-ass rockstars.(restaurant/ hotel secrets 101)
*tumbleweeds blowing through Mayo's*
To the Master Hat Tipper if reading through,
It was actually kind of 'pretty' in the end,in a scary 'what can I do'kind of way.
Apologies for any ensued embarrassment. *sniggers quietly at corruptness of photoshop*
Don't forget the cake the OP's left for you at DM's.
OP J,
Today is now the third.
Happy, Happy Birthday to you.
Birthday hugs and kisses XOXO
*carefully leaves behind a bouquet of lilies and blowsticks, tied with purple ribbon for the birthday girl*
Goodnight to all.
Good Morning Mayo, I hope you are doing okay. Not hearing from you has me worried. I hope you can come hang out with us soon.
SS, a hello to you as well! *tips hat*
Hello everyone! It's Monday. Awesome! Lots of work to do today, but I will be checking in.
Love to all of you and have a lovely week!
Mornin' guys! Hope you're all doing well, huh?
I'm sitting here listening to Trisky (that's my dog) whine--not because her leg hurts, I think, but I suspect because she's been cooped up too long. I think she feels bored and lonely. Usually when I go to work she'll go to my parents' house, but lately she hasn't so she's been on her own a lot. Guys, I think my dog is lonely. O_O I might have to just carry her there. She's antsy and trying to pace.
Anon @ 12:11 and 12:42, thank you a lot. :)
I hope you're all having as good a Monday as can be managed.
Mayo, you are missed. Not just 'cause we need more room to post; we don't. Just hope everything's all right. Why don't you give that ghost of yours a nice long hug?
Mayo, you should post a joke or something cute, huh? Something light-hearted maybe? Let go of all the angst and mystery for a few seconds?
Don't torture yourself dear,
I'll save you the trouble.
An entendre please, sir,
and make it a double!
I totally made that up, LOL@ me. ^_^
SS is you go floating or bouncing through here, hello, darl'. Hang on in there, okay?
Kapunua,
I agree Mayo is missed terribly and I've told him that a few times, but I'm not sure he hears me.
I hope you and your doggie have a wonderful day.
I owe you like 7 emails, sorry.
Love,
S
*tips imaginary hat to SS*
He hears you Sdock. Don't worry.
Maybe he needs some time to gather his thoughts?
Maybe he's trying to figure it all out just like we are.
Mayo:
Do as Kapunua says. Make amends and love like you never have before. Too much shit in this world to take people for granted. Love your family and friends with all of your heart. We're here when you need us.
SS:
Hopefully your rest has caused much of the confusion to subside. At least that is my hope. I hope your day is full of wonder and delight.
See you all in awhile.
Kapunua:
Get Trisky a boy dog to play with ;)
Hey Sdock! I'm sure Mayo rads your kind words. ^_^ Are you at work? Ugh. Tomorrow is my suuuper long day so if you want to email me then and take my mind off of it... Just kidding, take your time. ^_^
Hi, Mustard! Lemme tell you, Trisky has a surplus of boydogs. They were, in fact, the catalyst for this disastrous chain of events. O_O
Oddly though, I noticed the pattern yesterday. (Because I "do" patterns.) If she hadn't gotten bitten first she would never have hurt her leg. If she hadn't hurt her leg that day, she wouldn't have had her checkup so early. Then if she hadn't hurt her leg again I wouldn't have taken her to the emergency vet yesterday and would not have found out about all my options regarding the heart murmur thing. I totally think it all happened for a reason.
Mayo,
I'm sorry. I do know you hear us, but I hope you believe us and you feel it in you heart.
You are so very special to us.
Love,
S
Hi Guys!
Just back home (southern England) from the Lake District (very near Scotland) and just finished reading through the posts.
It's a bit late but, Re: TJ vs. Kap debate (for want of a better description),
I loved Oasis when they came out; even though Liam & Noel Gallagher were clearly complete muppets the music was fantastic. I chose to ignore the muppetry because that's how they always were and that's part of being an Oasis fan.
I loved MCR when they came out (well Three Cheers anyway); Gerard (and the others but you understand what I mean!) convinced me he was a pretty sound guy and the music was fantastic. However, I'm finding it hard to ignore his recent muppetry because it's not what I signed up for when I first became a fan and I've been trained to expect better.
Ergo, I don't find the "I wanna hear you f*** yourselves" or the dismissal of past relationships (such bad form, a gentleman never airs his dirty laundry) offensive on their own, but I do find it offensive coming straight after "I'm so, like, respectful of women, me!", because it's being hypocritical.
And that's my belated position on the matter....
Love,
Kass xx
P.S. We had a very emotional get-together for my friend, everyone took turns to reminisce about their memories of his Mum, we all cried and it was very cathartic; then we went out and drunk too much and danced too badly and had a fabulous night.
Hi, Kass. ^_^ I agree, that's the aspect that bugs me out the most, too. Worries me as well, to a point.
Welp, I'm supposed to be doingmy laundry, cleaning the crow's cage, and writing out Christmas cards.
Spooky anon and/or Calaf. Are you around? Kinda miss you and your weirdness. Amuse me?
Hey Kapunua,
I'm around..not supposed to be, but I am.
Let's amuse each other and anyone lurking...
What can we do?
Hi Kass, how are you?
Kapunua and Sdock, I'm still looking for the right presents for you at Lolita's. (sorry Sdock, but I was really trying to find you a 'new job'....I'll come up with something). I have so many ideas for everyone, but still searching.
I don't want to work today. I agree Sdock, let's do something fun. But what?
Welp, it's just us. We can tell stories? ;)
So, umm...*cough* What are you wearing?
Ha! Um, I am wearing...a business suit. Hot huh?
What are you wearing?
Mayo, what are you wearing?
That is hot! I'm wearing a black Zelda t shirt and huge black Kung Fu pants with the kanki for "choy lei fut" embroidered in red down the front of the left leg. And a sports bra, polka dot underwear and stupid old white socks because I haven't gotten around to laundry yet.
Yeah, Mayo, what are you wearing?
Actually I think Mayo's wearing a purple bathrobe and Pikachu slippers.
I do I have my thigh high poka-dot socks on though. NO ONE knows!!!
Kapunua, you sound so comfy. I want to be comfy.
OH! Purple, good color for Mayo.
I wonder if he wears boxers or briefs under his robe. Or is it commando, Mayo?
Sdock, what are you wearing?
Do you seriously have on thigh high polka dot socks? Because if you do, you pretty much own.
I am comfy, these pants are the best ones I own. They're about thee sizes too big. We all wear Kung Fu pants big like that because when you do a fast kick it makes a Kung Fu *whoosh* noise and everyone likes that.
Neglected to mention I am also wearing a yearling crow on the back of my neck. O_O
Hi Anima & Kapunua,
If you want a story, here's a chunk of a poem bored english kids sing on the coach if they're on a school trip:
Paddy McGinty's Goat
Mister Patrick McGinty,
an Irishman of note,
Came into a fortune and
he bought himself a goat
Said he, "Sure of goat milk,
I aim to have my fill."
But when he got his nanny home,
he found it was a Bill.
Now Pat McGinty's goat
had a wondrous appetite
And often for breakfast
he'd eat some dynamite,
A box full of sparklers
he'd swallow with a grin
And when he'd had his fill of that,
he drank some paraffin.
He sat by the fireside -
he didn't give a hang.
He swallowed a spark and
exploded with a bang.
So when you get to heaven
you can bet the dollar note,
That the angel with the whiskers on
is Paddy McGinty's goat.
Love,
Kass xx
P.S. I'm going home now - it's 5pm here.
It's true. I am wearing the socks. They are pretty cool. Screw the dress socks, they suck so bad. I only where them if I absolutely have too.
The swooshing noise would be cool. I want swooshy kung fu pants!
The crow sounds like the perfect accessory! How little is it?
Ooooooooh, are you guys ready?
I am wearing my favorite pair of blue jeans...
Some nike tennis shoes with white socks...
An orange polo County Tax shirt...
my hair is long and free flowing in the wind..
Strawberries & Champagne perfume...
Mayo, What you wearing....
pajama bottoms? black with a red t-shit?
socks...no shoes...
Oh and I forgot the best part.....
wearing a smile on the outside and a scowl on the inside...
hmmmm
Thanks for that song, Kass! Definitely, uhh, interesting and cultural. ^_~ Cute, too.
Anima, you officially own. I want long polka dot socks, too.
My crow? He's pretty big! Not as big as some I've seen, but then he's still pretty young, though. I've got tons of pics of him in my LJ, actually. ^_^
I'm wearing nothing.
Kidding ;)
"T-shit"
^^^New Word!
No fair. You all sound so comfy and stuff. I got to wear stupid effin' dress clothes. Dress slacks, top, trouser socks and dress shoes. Yuck.
I like to be prissy and stuff but not every damn day of the week.
I want my big Georga Bulldog football jersey!!!! I want it now!!!
Sdock, do you think he liked the tshirt combos? or would they be silk? Muwahahah.
Hi K!
Aww Sdock. But isn't it great to be wearing your favorite pair of jeans? ^_^
I just bombarded you with yet another email, too. ^_^
I'm still going with the Pikachu slippers for Mayo. Just call it a hunch.
SS... Are you wearing a hat? is it purple?
Sdock, that sounds sexy!
Mayo, I don't think you are wearing a t-shirt. *imagines Mayo without a shirt*
T-SHIT. O_O
OMG. That is the first time I laughed all day today. Except when I was reciting lines from American Psycho.
Hi, S&V20! I wish I could wear something nice to work once in a while. Scrubs get so boring.
black with a red t-shit?
I love you for that, Sdock. ^_^
K-do you just have the one crow?
(Target has the best over the knee socks right now. Love 'em).
Princess Smoke, I agree. Dressing up every damn day sucks a big one.
"I could't give two shirts about your T-Shit. Fuck off!"
Mayo's line for the day. Actually, I may even use that.
Oh and Mustard, thanks for the 'enema' you nerd. ;) I left something for you too!
"I could't give two shirts about your T-Shit. Fuck off!"
That just made my day!!!
Anima:
Thank you for my gift :)
I hope my dream comes true, too.
Just the one, for now. Over the summer I will have upwards of around 60 birds, but most of them will go free by the fall.
Up till last year I had two beautful non-releasables: a grackle and a tame, singing bluejay. I lost them both and it gutted me. :(
It gets old. Real quick like.
I can't even wear a tank top to work or cropped pants. I mean damn. It's not my fault some people stink and like to put their armpits in your face. I smell like night-blooming jasmine so give me a break. This place is bugging the shit out of me today. Stupid freakin' job.
I bet SS is naked with a purple hat on. (What the hell is wrong with me today?!.....Sis Midnite, I need your pervy support!)
Oh, I wonder if Frank is still naked and tied with a bow for J.
I'm in my happy place now.
Weird.
Your's was so much more better (English is a sucky subject) than mine.
But, there's a story behind yours. The first time you posted as Anima, I almost typed your name as Enema, and I proceeded to laugh histerically at my own self. It was funny on my end. Made me laugh. :)
t-shit?
muahahah that's what I get for typing in a hurry!
Do you like my t-shit?
Fuck yes you do!
I LOVE your muther effing t-shit!
SS is wearing a white t-shirt..clean of course and blue pajama bottoms.
And socks and slippers...
and possibly a hoodie...
Kapunua, your crow is beautiful! And that is amazing about all the birds. But sorry that you have to go through so many losses. I don't know if I could handle it. I tried to save a baby bird that had a crippled leg. I feed him, and whistled, other birds came to feed him....it was amazing, but he died after two days. I thought he was going to make it. It broke my heart.
SS is wearing a white t-shirt..clean of course and blue pajama bottoms
Why do I feel like I've seen that somewhere before???
SS, I bet he's all showered and pretty.
Mustard, I love your gift! I remember when you told me that you mistake my name for that. It was very thoughtful. :)
Princess, where have you seen that before? Interesting.
..
..
..
One more pervy thought and then I will stop.
You want me to rip off that T-shit Mr. Mayo? Fuck yeah you do!
Hi everyone. I just got home. Damn I'm glad to see the mood is good here today.
Just a random picture I saw one time. I do have to say it was very sexy. ^_~
Hi Elena!
How ya doin'?
OH! I think I know what you are talking about. Very sexy indeedy.
Hi Elena!
Hi Elena!
Elena and Princess Smoke, I am still searching gifts for you.
Sis Midnite (I know you aren't here, but I am sure you will read this), you should have seen the first thing I pulled up for you. It was awful!! I typed in 'sex toy' and some type of butt blug came up. I found something else instead because the butt device was just a little too weird. Haha!
So was the party lots of fun? I hated to miss it.
Okay, so I made a photo album of my wild birds over the years.
The two most important pics on there are:
These girls as hatchlings,
and the same girls the day before release.
Those four came in bloody, hypothermic, covered in fleas and mites, and starving. That just shows you how tough the littler ones are.
They also mean a lot to me because they were released on September 12th 2001, which is kind of weird.
It sounded fun.
After all, I was in the closet with Mikey and Ray half the night "learning songs."
Really, I was in and out. I felt bad for not being able to stay.
Kapunua, I love those pictures. When I get home, I will post the picture of my little guy. I even have a video where I am sitting the porch whistling to him and he would just chirp and chirp. I wish I would have known you then, you could have helped me.
OMG. That even sounded dirty.
Damn.
I was in and out of BLOGGER. I had things to take care of. And my head hurt from looking at the screen.
Mustard, you were in the closet with them?! I missed all the fun.
Mayo's Super Nymphs strike again...and down we go..and down we go...
muahahhaha
*sdock10 is counting down the hours til 5*
Mustard, you were 'in and out'? You are a filthy girl.
Sdock, yes it seems we have a way of going down, 'way down.'
Gerard Way states that his performance next to the guitarist Frank Iero is a form of fighting some prejudices comun on the society!
Gerard says: I am here with the most noble of intentions, to make certain people understand that the fact that a person is an artist or a little feminin-even the boy from work or the boy from school - is not reason to treat them wrong. Rock was full of testosterone for a long time, and that is why I am so interested in forcing it. All this has converging in the way women are treated as inferior, calling people 'deer',as saying, racism, if not totally racist. Many things are linked to stupidity of rock'n'roll and we are completely the opposite, "he explained in an interview to the Herald Sun
Hooray! Gerard Arthur Way Champion of 'Bitches' Rights return to save us all from discrimination.
When will he be rewarded to key to the city?
Smells like PR, smells like bullshit.
Yup. Ray was teaching me the solo in "Venom" and Mikey tought me the whole bass part to "Vampires."
Or, at least that's what they told me to say ;)
Mustard, that sounds kinda hot. I'm very jealous.
When will he be rewarded to key to the city?
When will he....what?
I dunno S&V. I just saw it posted on Buzznet.
I don't know what the hell he's talking about.
Gerard Way states that his performance next to the guitarist Frank Iero...
Okay. Yeah, uh-hum.
I am here with the most noble of intentions [...] is not reason to treat them wrong.
I barfed...about...
[Here].
Dude, just come out and say you fucked up. You'd be bigger in my eyes for doing it.
Lurking anon who has commented before. Sometimes come by to just read.
I think you girls are cute when you are talking about your lives or nothing at all. I think it's nice how you think you all have ordinary lives but you are not ordinary girls. You all have something special. Alone and with each other.
I am not SS or Mayo. I know how you all like those two guys. I have seen how you all wait for them to make comments and sometimes they do and sometmes they leave you hanging.
It seems like you beloved SS does like you..
I wonder about the Mayo guy, I know or at least I think he seems to like you now.
I just worry that when the next thing comes along that he thinks will fill the void in his heart and soul, he will ditch you.
I don't think he even knows he will do it. I think he really does think that he wants to keep you all and bask in ..... in the glow of your camraderie. That he wants to be a part but doesn't know how..... may be he has a lot to lose.
But I'm afraid for the day when he tires of it all and shuts you all out.
If and when that day comes, remember that you're all still special.
Anon, that was really nice of you to say. I think about the same thing. I wonder when Mayo is going to ditch us. I believe he has enough kindness in his heart to let us know that he is finished with this place. We have shared so much, so it would be ashame for him to just leave us with out a goodbye. However, I think he likes it here. Maybe not all the time, but hopefully it is a welcomed distraction from life's craziness, and a place to learn from one another. It is that way for me.
I hope he will continue to stick around, not just for us, but for himself.
Thank you anon that was so nice of you to say those things about us
Anonymous:
Where have you been? We need kind souls, such as yourself, around here to balance this place out.
You've brought up some very valid thoughts, some I'm questioning as I type this.
I can only say that I hope Mayo does realize and continues to realize what he's done here. He's made a remarkable place. Not kicking us out. Continuing to post.
I look at this situation like a two-way street. Mayo probably needs us as much as we need him. He probably wants to know that we're okay (though he doesn't always ask) just as much as we want to know he's okay. He wouldn't still be here if he didn't.
Anon, thank you for your kind and gentle words. They are needed by me today.
Mustard
ANON - Thank you for your concern. You are right we have made some great friendships here. This has become a very special place.
As for Mayo who can say what goes on in his head. I honestly don't think he knows most of the time. But all of us are here for him while we can be. That’s just how we roll.
As for SS I truly believe he likes and enjoys listening to what we say. Sometimes I do worry that he feels somehow responsible for us. He worries about us because of Mayo's sometimes lack at attention. This upsets me more than anything. SS has enough to worry about without add all of us. But you know I'm touched that he cares. That is the sign of a good person. A hell of a good person with a good heart and soul.
Anima,
You said it perfectly.
Anonymous,
I agree with both Anima and MJ. You are an extremely observant person, whoever you are. Thanks for the good words. Please come visit with us again if you would like. There is room in Mayo's house for any kind heart that comes knocking.
J
Jappy Birthday J!!!!
Sorry I missed all the partying. It looks like was a great time.
Hi Marthajones!
Anon, again thank you. :)
I felt a little sick so I decided to bake cookies and skip out of Kung Fu tonight. What has become of me? ;D
Anon, thank you and you bring up some good points. So do the rest of you.
One thing you said struck me and made me a little sad. I hope that if Mayo ever wants to join in the conversation--I mean really join in, instead of three halting words here and there--that he feels like he can. The dude always seems so uptight and reserved. I'd crap my pants if he came in one time and was like "Whaddup, homeslices? So today I ruled at Guitar Hero," or something like that. The distance makes me feel a little responsible. Maybe it's because we're all always holding our breath.
Elena, I also worry that SS might feel too responsible for us. SS, if you're out there, I want you to know that as much as we love reading you, you must never feel obliged to amuse us. ^_^
I've also wondered about the end of this blog. And while I hope it isn't anytime soon, there is one thing I hope for all of us. I hope we find out the score at the end. We're all stumbling in the dark, and even though we've all sort of grabbed onto each other it's still dark.
One of my biggest fears in life is that things will end and I won't get answers. That goes for life itself, too. My big fear is that when I die, everything will end and I'll be none the wiser.
I guess the same goes for this blog. If it has to end, then I hope we get to know who our host really was.
HOWEVER. If not knowing is what is keeping this blog alive, then I'll gladly go on not knowing till the end.
Back to cookies.
Well hello, Kapunua with the deep thoughts in her head :)
I agree with all of that. I want neither of them to feel obligated to us. Just be with us.
Just be.
*never wants to see this blog end*
Ironically enough, I wanted to write a note to any anons who came asking questions about SS and "J".
Hello to anyone who has questions about "J" and SS.
I am the J that SS speaks to on these blogs. However, I am not Jamia. SS is a person I met when I started posting on Mayo's blog. SS comes and goes, not often, but when he does, he always says nice things to all of us. Sometimes he joins in our conversations. He is a friend, a fellow blogger.
I understand that you have come here because you're a fan of MCR, and that you're concerned for them. I know you have questions that you would like answered, but unfortunately I don't have those answers. Neither do the rest of the people here. We are merely a group of friends who come together to talk about our lives. I'm sorry that you were given the wrong information. It's not that we don't want to give you answers, it's that we don't have the answers.
I'm sorry if I have sounded unpleasant to any of you in the past. Please consider, though, that it becomes a little frustrating to answer that one same question repeatedly.
Again, for the record, I am not Jamia.
Thank you for listening.
J, from Original Punks
hi how´s everyone today?
Hi J, happy birthday! *hugs*
Sometimes I am deep, Mustard. But other times...
...
.....
......
My ass.
Anima, Pixie,
Thank you for the jappy birthday wishes! And to anyone else I may have missed. You guys were missed at the party. It was so good I don't remember some of it!
K, I like what you say.
Pleasant Anon, if you're still here...
Are you Pasted?
J
Kapunua:
Did you receive the gift I left you?
good to hear that the party was great J :) I wasn´t online the whole sunday, damn that I missed it....
Hi friendz & family!
Snowed in today, working at home... can't find my other keyboard so bear with me, these laptop keys hate me!
Anima, I left you a prezzie at Lolita's, too. Thanks for the (thought of the) butt plug, now if only I could find one of them clones...?
J, I hope we were able to give you as special of a b-day as we could. I love you dearly, I hope you have a wonderful day. And year!!!
Nice Anon, thank you. We're all aware that this blog could end. But I still believe we all became friends for a reason. That reason is strong enough to survive the blog, although we would miss SS & Mayo dearly.
Truth be told, however, I don't think that any of us expected it to go on for as long as it has. It seems that we give Mayo something he needs. And if it helps him, he's able to keep sharing our lives for as long as he feels the need to. We've become a family, and family is always there for each other. Together, we can survive ANYTHING.
I love each and every one of you dearly, never forget that. I'll always, ALWAYS, be here if you should need me.
Love,
Sis Midnite (Nikki)
hi sis m, how are you? snowed in? wow sounds like a lot of snow ;)
it´s snowing here to... :)
Sister M:
Thank you.
Hi Pixie! Hi Mustard!
What can I say, snow makes me all lovey-dovey. ^_^
Sorry about that animal I made that comment and had to leave the computer for a while Hi how are you I'm well. And Hello to the Ops, Elena, Mib,sis m,pixie and kapu.
hey everyone
hi martha and bc, how are you?
well sis m, snow is just amazing or? especially in christmastime :)
Hi there pixie. How are you?
I'm doing okay, just a bit somber, but otherwise okay.
I´m okay bc just tired. didn´t feel that well this morning and at work but better now...
I'm tired as well pixie.
I woke up too early and last night I couldn't sleep. I wasn't feeling well, but I'm okay now.
I'm glad that you're better now.
Are we the only ones here?
nope we´re not bc, but it´s still quiet here. I bet it´ll be crowded when I leave later on ;)
why is it whenever I'm having some sort of conversation with another person on the phone or computer everyone in my family thinks that is the perfect time to talk to me.
ha ha I bet pixie. Hopefully I will see you later then pixie. Right now I have some stuff to do. Take care *hugs*
Pixie I'm doing alright
So I left presents at Lh's tree but I don't see them now what happened?
ok see you (maybe) later bc, take care *hugs*
Hello Mayo, how are you today?
Hello SS, how are you today?
Hello everybody, how are you today?
Right, hello's completed. I hope this cheers you up.
Have you seen this?
hi miss t *hugs* how are you?
wonder of technology right? ;) not always a pain in the *insertwordhere*
the pic is just sooooo funny *lol*
Hi miss t how are you?
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