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and you fail miserably
who you wish to be
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Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Art by: Toujours
No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
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«Oldest ‹Older 2001 – 2200 of 2664 Newer› Newest»MissT hello there! I have seen that. It's hilarious. Oh, I have to go find another one.
Hi Pixie and BC, sorry I missed you!
Hello my pixie chum and my martha chum, I'm good. How are you two?
Yay pixie, the pic worked.
Hi anima, great to see you.
I'm alright miss t I keep getting pulled away from the computer.
Does anyone happen to have a link to this video you have been talking about? The link has disappeared over at buzznet. Sorry to butt in, back to lurking now. Thanks.
This one kills me.
Frank
Anon, are talking about the 'candy' one? I don't have it on hand, but I will look.
<---- does not get the appeal of MPreg.
Also do not get the appeal of real person fiction, though I know these are sometimes two different things. RPF squicks me bad.
Anyone else?
MissT - That picture is horrifying.
What a welcome.
-Amyranth
oh gosh ^^
hello everyone!
hi mayo!
how we all doing then?
Kapu - I agree with your earlier post, about Mayo maybe someday actually having a good chat with us.
I'm still waiting on that "Who the fuck is this Gerard Way asshole?" post, myself.
-A
Calaf / Spooky / amaaaaazing anon, won't you come back? You promised me we'd talk another time. How 'bout now?
And don't anyone else pretend; I'll know.
Hahahaha Ilove those pictures. mainly because I could see them not all of the links have been working for me.
Anon if you want to search the link for the candy video is in this blog somewhere.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xMgUr_7PWr0
Ha! soory to hear that martha, how dare they.
Hi amyranth, kapunua and faraway, how are you?
Anima, that pic is great lol!
hi amyranth, kapunua and faraway :)
Review of Sydney concert.
http://shine-dusk.livejournal.
com/59981.html
Hi Fs how are you?
Has anyone else notice that if a video of Gerard doing something that isn't positive shows up it either gets deleted from Bn or it disappears. I don't think that go fuck yourselves one ever showed up at Bn
Hey, guys, just a quick note to let you know we will be on later this evening, but we are leaving in a bit to do birthday stuff. A little shopping, followed by Olive Garden.
J. thanks all of you for the well-wishes, and loves you for it. The party was wonderful. She had such a huge smile on her face last night!
You don't know how much it meant to her, and me. You guys are fantastic.
Love ya,
L.
anon @ 1.35pm, that was lovely of you. thanks for your thoughts.
I think it is just funny that the 'frerard' obsession has gone to the point of photoshopping Frank and Gee pregnant. It just cracks me up!
K - I will be imaginary if you want me too. ;)
have fun OPs. happy bd J!!
sorry i missed the party!
See you later L.
Buzz buzz, anon.
Anima, but can you be spooky and amaaaazing? I'll just bet you can! ^_^
Mayo, Sweetie,
Please come in a talk to all of us. You know by now we are a great bunch of listeners, and, definitly, talkers.
We're worried about you.
Talk to us like we talk to each other. You are part of this Family. Don't shut yourself out of your own house.
Its all about the love,
It really is.
L.
Amyranth:
So, true!;)
Hey Pix!
God, it's so bloody cold here today!
I could set myself on fire and still not warm up!
-A
sorry hi missT, pixie,K, MJ,anima, anyone else!
MJ the i wanna hear you fucking yourselves was on the gerard way forum i think it still is?? yeh that candy one was deleted i think??
hi L. I wish you and J. a nice day, enjoy the shopping etc and take care *hugs*
BN is an interesting place. I believe their motto is "Only Happy Things". Anything bad just seems to disappear. I think people who say bad things disappear to the corn field. (anyone get that?)
hi MIB, amyranth also!
Thank you so much for the link martha, appreciate the help. The page is slow loading and I would never find it amongst the posts.
and hello elena!
hi faraway, how are you
oh that sounds like a freezing day amyranth *lol*
hello everyone, just hopping on to say I hope you are all well.
I'll be away for the next couple of days and I'll miss the conversations!
and wouldn't cupcake have been at that concert? It says it was Melbourne. Perhaps she can give her take on the "candy" incident, what,if anything, happened before it
OP - VERY TRUE!
Mayo! Come and shake your presents! Christmas is coming and we're all decorating around here.
-A
hi elena, how are you today? :)
i'm good thanks pixie. i've not caught up on comments theres just no time these days! saw that candy video. am i doom and glooming or is it a drug reference?? i might just be doom and glooming, just wondered what others thought??
Hey everyone!
J&L: Eat some for me, will you?! J, have a great birthday and Happy Birthday again to you.
Ergo:
I've not seen Cupcake in forever it feels like. She went to the date after yours and you went to Brisbane, right?
Hello Elena and Ergo, how are you?
Your welcome anon. Hi ep sorry to hear you won't be with us for a while.
I think mayo should do one of those christmas trees for his next post
I don't know Kapunua if I can be spooky and amazing at the same time? That may be really tough!!
But if your anons do not show, I will fill in for them and try my best. Deal? ;)
good morning ergo :)
Hi mustard, how are you?
Faraway, I also thought it could have been a drug reference.
Gnothi Seauton
Enjoy your present!
If thou canst bear
Strong meat of simple truth
If thou durst my words compare
With what thou thinkest in my soul’s free youth,
Then take this fact unto thy soul,
God dwells in thee.
It is no metaphor nor parable,
It is unknown to thousands, and to thee;
Yet there is God.
He is in thy world,
But thy world knows him not.
He is the mighty Heart
From which life’s varied pulses part.
Clouded and shrouded there doth sit
The Infinite
Embosomed in a man;
And thou art stranger to thy guest
And know’st not what thou doth invest.
The clouds that veil his life within
Are thy thick woven webs of sin,
Which his glory struggling through
Darkens to thine evil hue.
Then bear thyself, O man!
Up to the scale and compass of thy guest;
Soul of thy soul.
Be great as doth beseem
The ambassador who bears
The royal presence where he goes.
Give up to thy soul
Let it have its way
It is, I tell thee, God himself,
The selfsame One that rules the Whole,
Tho’ he speaks thro’ thee with a stifled voice,
And looks through thee, shorn of his beams.
But if thou listen to his voice,
If thou obey the royal thought,
It will grow clearer to thine ear,
More glorious to thine eye.
The clouds will burst that veil him now
And thou shalt see the Lord.
Therefore be great,
Not proud,too great to be proud.
Let not thine eyes rove,
Peep not in corners; let thine eyes
Look straight before thee, as befits
The simplicity of Power.
And in thy closet carry state;
Filled with light, walk therein;
And, as a king
Would do no treason to his own empire,
So do not thou to thine.
This is the reason why thou dost recognize
Things now first revealed,
Because in thee resides
The Spirit that lives in all;
And thou canst learn the laws of nature
Because its author is latent in thy breast.
Therefore, O happy youth,
Happy if thou dost know and love this truth,
Thou art unto thyself a law,
And since the soul of things is in thee,
Thou needest nothing out of thee.
The law, the gospel, and the Providence,
Heaven, Hell, the Judgement, and the stores
Immeasurable of Truth and Good,
All these thou must find
Within thy single mind,
Or never find.
Thou art the law;
The gospel has no revelation
Of peace and hope until there is response
From the deep chambers of thy mind thereto,
The rest is straw.
It can reveal no truth unknown before.
The Providence
Thou art thyself that doth dispense
Wealth to thy work, want to thy sloth,
Glory to goodness, to neglect, the moth.
Thou sow’st the wind, the whirlwind reapest,
Thou payest the wages
Of thy own work, through all ages.
The almighty energy within
Crowneth virtue, curseth sin.
Virtue sees by its own light;
Stumbleth sin in self-made night.
Who approves thee doing right?
God in thee.
Who condemns thee doing wrong?
God in thee.
Who punishes thine evil deed?
God in thee.
What is thine evil meed?
Thy worse mind, with error blind
And more prone to evil
That is, the greater hiding of the God within:
The loss of peace
The terrible displeasure of this inmate
And next the consequence
More faintly as more distant wro’t
Upon our outward fortunes
Which decay with vice
With Virtue rise.
The selfsame God
By the same law
Makes the souls of angels glad
And the souls of devils sad
See
There is nothing else but God
Where e'er I look
All things hasten back to him
Light is but his shadow dim.
Shall I ask wealth or power of God, who gave
An image of himself to be my soul?
As well might swilling ocean ask a wave,
Or the starred firmament a dying coal,
For that which is in me lives in the whole.
Hi Pixie and MissT
How's things in your worlds?
Hey MissT!
I'm sorry to run out on you all, but I've got to get some things done. I'll be back in a couple of hours.
Have a great day if I don't see you again!
Hello present how are you?
Elena, it is raining heavily in my world.
I've never heard rain so loud on my windows.
she was on earlier and she has a blog about it,i just commented her
8:31 am is on of her comments
Hello present, how are you?
Later mib
MissT - I love the sound of rain on the windows. Unless it's a cold rain. I hate that!
See you later mustard. Have fun.
hi present and mustard and all I missed now...
oh it´s snowing in my world elena so everything is fine ;)
Present!
Thank you for the gift last time!! Very thoughtful of you!
I haven't gotten my pictures ready yet though... ;_;
-A
Hi all!
Finished work early so I thought I'd drop in.
Kapu, I hope Trisky is better.
Ergo, you are a fine diplomat, accepting all forms of life.
Present, I don't think we have met before, hello.
Elena
Forget the Maria. Focus on the Elena!
Maria Elena you're the answer to a prayer,
Maria Elena can't you see how much I care,
To me your voice is like the echo of a sigh,
And when you're near my heart,
Can't speak above a sigh,
Maria Elena say that we will never part,
Maria Elena take me to your heart,
A love like mine is great enough for two,
To share this love is really all,
I ask of you..
Maria Elena say that we will never part,
Maria Elena take me to your heart,
A love like mine is great enough for two,
To share this love is really all,
I ask of you.
hi again everyone. how are you?
Hello all.
Just dropping by to wish you all well. My internet has been down for the whole weekend, and I've only just managed to get it working again.
I'm off for a shower, but shall be back very soon.
Hugs.
- Jade
(Yes, I've finally made an actual account! Damn, I'm much lazier than I realised.)
I like that girls review from sydney
hi present!
hi there jade
hi BC, jade and present - haven't met before present but hello to you anyway!
hi j and kd and hi again bc :)
Hello Jade and BC, how are you?
Hi there faraway how are you? Hi Miss T, pixie, present, Amy, Ergo,katherine, anyone else I missed.
Hey errbody!!!
Hope ya'll are having a great day/evening/morning/night or whatever!
Present - Thank you so much. I will consider this my first gift of the Holiday season and what a gift. A Michael Buble song. Thank you for thinking of me. Gosh, I'm smiling like an idiot.
Hello S&V20, did you manage to get home from the party OK?
I'm doing okay Miss T, just filling out some applications and watching Jeopardy. How are you? Thank you for the lovely presents over at Lolita's. I love them :)
Hi there smoke. How are you?
Hi KD! Thank you so much. I feel so much better now because Trisky ate a HUGE dinner tonight. That's always a good sign. ^_^
Mustard, forgot to mensh: I did get your pressie and I LOLed. Did you get mine? I got you Taking Back Sunday!
Friends
Hello, thank you all for welcoming a present once again. One hopes you are all enjoying your presents.
You all give the biggest gift of all to a present, you bring a smile to ones face. For that, one is forever grateful.
Hey guys. What's Crackin? I hope you're all doing fine on this lovely today, yes?
J, I'm sorry I couldn't make it last night. Looks like you and the girls had a blast though! Good to see.
You're welcome here anytime, Present. Thanks for dropping by.
MissT, my Frankie-clone helped me get home. ^_~
I can't say he's made it back home to J though. (I'm really holding him hostage)
Hi there K, CTV.
hi ctv and smoke, how are you?
Glad to hear that your doggie is feeling better K.
That's good BC, good luck with those.
Hello CTV my beautiful wife *snog* how are you?
Thank you to all the people who got me pressies. I think that I've actually given one to everybody on Lolita's page. They weren't all done on the same day so you'll have to do some scrolling.
hi CTV, S&V anyone else. all i've said today is hi to everyone. my brain isn't up to much else!!
Glad to hear that present, you make us smile too.
S&V20, you hold onto that little fella. I won't let on to J that you still have him. You could say that you sent him back but he got lost in the post.
Thanks Pixie,
Hi BC, CTV, Miss T, S&V, Elena and anyone I have missed!
I'm so pleased to hear that Kapu, It's hard to see a member of the family suffer. I feel the same way about my spaniel.
I'm well, thanks. It's not even 5 PM here and it's getting dark. Another reason to hate wintertime.
Miss T, I didn't see you on at all yesterday. Missed you, wifey.
ok I have to go, you all have fun while I'm away,but not too much fun, lol
think of me and please ask whatever deity you prefer that it doesn't rain on dairy farmers Stadium in Townsville tonight, don't really want to see EJ in the rain!
And we are supposed to be ging to the casino after so wish me luck!!
(it's great going away with no idea where you are staying or what you are doing lol)
btw I am wearing pale blue denim shorts and my new Muse tour shirt (saw you were doing that earlier)
bye everyone, stay safe and be good to each other !
"I'm well, thanks. It's not even 5 PM here and it's getting dark. Another reason to hate wintertime. "
haha when it´s snowing like today, then it´s nearly dark at 3pm here ;)
I missed you too wifey. I was at the party at DM.
Ergo, have a great time and tell us all about it when you get back.
Thanks Miss T
oh and thank you Katherine always try to be a friend to the various creatures of this amazing cosmos
Bye EP Have Fun
Hope you win in the casino
Hey Katherine
Hello to everyone, again.
I've returned from my shower and I'm now feeling a zillion times better. I really needed that.
Anyways, Miss.T im doing well at the moment. Yourself?
Oh and a special hello to present. I dont believe we have met.
Kapunua said...
I guess the same goes for this blog. If it has to end, then I hope we get to know who our host really was.
HOWEVER. If not knowing is what is keeping this blog alive, then I'll gladly go on not knowing till the end.
You have evolved into a family and as with all families, there are sometimes conflicts and differences of opinion, but disagreements are soon forgotten and your love and respect for each other is clearly evident.
The human spirit is truly remarkable, I believe your friendships will survive and continue to flourish even if your host is not the person you suspect.
If someone stumbled upon the truth, should they tell you? Would you rather not know, or would you want to know?
Anon, I don't mind knowing and I don't mind not knowing because I come here to talk to the people I've met here.
Knowing who this blog belongs to wouldn't change that fact that I want to come here to chat with my friends.
Our friendships would still stand regardless of what happens here. Our ties are too strong. I would want Mayo and SS to stay friends as well since they are a part of this too.
If someone stumbled upon the truth, should they tell you? Would you rather not know, or would you want to know?
As Kapunua said, if keeping the owner's aminimity is keeping this blog alive, then I would rather not know; but if that is not the case I would want to know.
bye ergo!!
anon i don't know if i want to know to be honest. i'm happy as things are.
I would rather know but that's just me. I think what we have found here will continue regardless of what happens.
What is truth anon?
Can truth be really all about an individual's perception of a situation?
I don't care one way or the other who Mayo really is. All I know is he brougt us all together. That is the special magic.
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and.................
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I'm not being mean I'm just saying.... its uncanny. A little more lippy a little less brain.....
I'm starting to make a connection.
If someone stumbled upon the truth, should they tell you? Would you rather not know, or would you want to know?
That's such a difficult question. Yet, indeed I'd be grateful to know who the owner of this blog is, but this is not the reason I come here. I come here each day to see the people here that I love. Who understand my problems, who are there for me when I'm feeling down.
When I first come here, I was frustrated to reveal every little secret of Mayonaise. I wanted answers and I wanted them quick. Now, I practically ignore the posts of Mayo, and choose to spend my time chatting to people I call my friends, instead of scurrying over cryptic messages.
So, knowing the true identity would be nice. Because, it would make no difference. Who ever the fuck this person is, would not effect me coming here. I come here for a different reason now.
So yes, I would like to know who the owner of the blog is, because that's who brought us all together.
"That is the special magic."
it´s destiny ;)
Thank you for the kind words, Anonymous. To see good-hearted Anons posting every now and then really does us good. It's appreciated.
However, I do believe that the majority of people here no longer believe that our friend is you-know-who. Some do, some don't. The thing is, it'll be nice to know, but right now at this point I don't feel as if I need to know the identity of this person. I'm just thankful that he occasionally give us something new to discuss, and he even joins in at times.
Honestly, I would rather not know. Is that bad? I have no idea. I just wouldn't want to know. Maybe, like Kapunua said, if he was to put an end to this blog, I would want to know. Not at this point and time, however.
Anon, what are you talking about?
OH! I have it. Kapunua is Lynz! I knew it!!!!
I don't understand why you feel the need to bring up the whole Lyn Z/Kapunua thing. It's been discussed. It's done and over with.
Move on?
What the piss?
Is that what those links are about? They weren't working for me for some reason.
Anyways anon, I suggest you catch up. Your a bit behind.
Anon, I think you have it sussed. It's kind of like when clark kent has his glasses on no one knows that it's superman.
When K doesn't have the lippy on she is ordinary. But one swipe of the lippy transforms her into superlynz and she can backbend to save the world.
Keep this under your hat though. Mum's the word.
Are you still with us, Anonymous?
CTV, I think Anons have left.
I'm almost done with the workday!!!
Let's hear it for the Backbend of Justice
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LOL sorry, I posted that cause it is fucking gross, no-one wants to see what your shit looks like!
What a great life the anons lead, eh? Whenever trouble emerges, they just run away.
If everything was that easy.
I'm not being mean I'm just saying.... its uncanny. A little more lippy a little less brain.....
I'm starting to make a connection.
Anon,
Sorry, I find the correlation that you are trying to make slightly incredulous.
Firstly, Gerard was involved with that woman well before the creation of this blog, secondly I see no physical resemblance.
K was that you doing that fucking fantastic back bend!!! i tip my hat to you oh supple one!!!! i only looked at a couple of them and then realised where anon was coming from!
anyway ive got to leave now. i feel fucking knackered and a tad subdued but hey tomorrow is another day!! whoopyfuckingdo! bye for now have a fab night and catch you tomorow. hope mayo posts tonight.
LET ME YELL IT THIS TIME.
WHAT.THE.PISS????
Anon, that lynz is one classy lady *vomits on words*
anon i was going and then i bothered to look and yeh not pretty at all! wear trousers if you're gonna do shit like that!!!
Anon, if you didn't want to see that shit, you shouldn't have posted the pic in the first place. Simple as that.
Wait, what are the pics? I gather that they're of Lyndsey but I can't go to buzznet (thank god) because the two times I did it jacked my 'puter with every trojan under the sun.
What's the "classy" one?
I would ask what it is, since I can't pull up BN but I don't think I want to know.
Funny.
If it was Eliza in that picture, she would have been torn apart. There's no denying it. But now that it's Lindsey, I'm constantly seeing "LOL ID TOTALLI GO LEZ 4 HER". Sickening, to say the least.
sorry i'm british so in trousers i mean pants! which in the uk is underwear but whatever! oh and fags are cigarettes, rubbish=trash there are so many differences!! love you guys and bye for now!!
Anon@5:02. Like i said, I do want to know. But I think that us not knowing is what keeps Mayo posting here, so if that's what it takes, I'd rather Mayo kept posting, because I like what we have here.
But if and when Mayo decides to pull the plug, I'd like to know who we were talking to this whole time.
Also, please don't assume that everyone--or anyone--here thinks that Mayo is Gerard Way anymore. In fact if you go back to the beginning you'll see that I never believed that anyway.
Twice now Mayo has posted when MCR was on stage, so that should tell you something.
The picture?
She has one of her legs high in the air, exposing her *~area~*. I've got to say I'm surprised she's wearing underwear. She strikes me as the 'Paris Hilton' type.
LOL i posted if fora laugh. what a classy lady...... NOT...
Kapu,
I'm afraid it's not classy at all. One of those between the legs shots.
I find her rather masculine in appearance, maybe that's the attraction.
Capture This Void said...
The picture?
She has one of her legs high in the air, exposing her *~area~*. I've got to say I'm surprised she's wearing underwear. She strikes me as the 'Paris Hilton' type.
December 3, 2007 5:45 PM
CTV jesus thank god for the underwear!!!!!!!!!!!
i am really going now,
love to all.
I find her rather masculine in appearance, maybe that's the attraction.
oh i know KD thought that too!
right that is it i am gone!!!!!!
Thanks for the info, CTV.
Anon, while I don't get what's "uncanny" about two chicks having dark hair, I will go ahead and take it as a compliment. Because differences aside--what her crappyass band stands for and the fact that I do not share the tendency to show my cooch to the general populace (call me crazy, I know!)--I also happen to think she's got a beautiful face. Thanks, I guess?
HOWEVER. You also totally trolled my photobucket, and while I know it's not a private one, that's still a little weird.
FASC, yeah, I could do the backband thing since grade school and to be honest? I don't know a single woman in my age group who can't do it. It's part of our Kung Fu black belt warmup. Also I have hypermobility in most of my joints, (my elbows bend backwards for instance, it's disgusting honestly,) so I could to all Cirque Du Soleil once in awhile. ^_^ It's not healthy, though.
Goodbye, FASC. Take care.
it takes to long for me now to refresh this side... I should maybe see that as a sign and go sleeping....
see you all tomorrow and take care *hugs*
Anyways, I'm dying my hair and making a chick patty*. What's everyone else doing?
*Vegetarian chicken sandwich patty. Don't you totally think they should call those something else? It sounds like something a cannibal would eat at a barbeque. So does "aspergers" actually.
*Dyeing, even.
See you, FASC and pixie.
Sweet dreams.
And wow Kapuna. I just managed to get the picture up of your backbend. That's incredible. Im 15 years old, I'm supposed to be flexy. Yet, I'm no where near capable!
Just realised I spelt your name wrong. Sorry! ^^
Goodnight my pixie chum. Goodnight faraway.
sweet dreams girls.
You just reminded me.
I need my roots done.
Ughhh.
My personal opinion, Kapu, I did peek at your pictures, and you are far more attractive.
On the subject of appearances, the prettiest externally, may be the ugliest inside. Remember Dorian Gray.
And for the record, I highly doubt Mayo is G Way.
Thank you for your comments. You have certainly given me a lot to think about...
Thanks, Jade. You know, I put that pic up for a few friends and there was a reason I never wanted it to get over here and stuff, but, well. ^_^ Anyway, thank you. Like I said, I have hypermobility, it's gross sometimes and also causes a lot of crackling noises and loose tendons, and really severe arthritis (which began when I was 12,) as well. Partly the reason I have to keep my back and leg muscles so strong is that if I didn't I'd be like a pile of jangled bones. So I can do things like splits and bends and I can aerial kick over the heads of all my training brothers, all of which is perfectly useless in real life. ^_^
Katherine, thank you so much. I actively hate my face. Any picture you see of me is only because I've let it through ten more ones that were hideous, honestly.
Anon@6 PM, what have we given you to think about, and why?
Mayo, that's not you, is it?
Anon, are you saying that you do know who this blog owner is and you are debating whether or not to tell us?
That is for you to decide.
This place always gives me alot to think about.....
Miss T, anyone else who reads my posts, the blog is public again.
Just one small post though.
^Also a possibility, MissT.
These anons, they tend to wander off when we ask questions. Unfair, I say. Anon, will you stick around and be fair with us?
Sweet dreams Pixie
I'll check it out BC.
Anon, if you truly know the identity of this blog owner and would like to know if we would want it to be revealed, why don't you do an actual poll where everyone has their say.
Mayo, we need you like a bad habit. One that leaves us defenseless, dependent and alone. ^_~
Kapu, I am so sad to read that. I find you quite beautiful. I am wondering if you have had negative early experience to form that view.
The conventionally attractive soon lose their appearance with age. I believe this is the great leveler. Having a beautiful mind is so much more important, and it improves, like a fine wine if you develop it. Something I always try to do.
(Come on just say it) Are you ashamed to (Come on just say it) say what you want to tell me you want to!
She says live up to your first impression
(Come on, just say it),
Well my best side was your worst invention
(Come on, just say it),
Why can't you live without the attention
(I need you defenseless, dependent)
Why can't you live without the attention?
Sorry, but you know I had to go there. ;)
KD, you are way, way too kind. ^_^ Age is the great leveler, that's true. I hope to be an awesome old person, by the way. I've got it all decided. I'm going to leave my hair long and let it go white and down to the floor. Then I'll be sagely also. ^_~
MissT, my vote for knowing Mayo's identity is in: Like life, I want the answers at the end. ;D
I want to do the right thing, but at what cost? Perhaps it would be better if I just walked away.
Anonymous said...
The human spirit is truly remarkable...
I agree, and very hard to break.
Even with a chainsaw.
lyn-z is looking a little marilyn mansonish in this pic.
http://www.buzznet.com/www/search/photos/lyn%20z/?id=30957091&p=5
Anonymous said...
I want to do the right thing, but at what cost? Perhaps it would be better if I just walked away.
December 3, 2007 6:19 PM
The right thing, at least at the moment, is to not walk away.
Mayo, is that you? Or SS?
K, I agree on the hair front. I'm gonna leave my hair all white and long. I can't be doing with those old biddie perms.
Okay, lookit. I have to go rinse my hair and take a shower. Hang around for a while, yeah? You want to talk, got something on your mind, my email is this name at yahoo.com. 'Kay? You interest me.
Anon @ 6:19
Can we help you in some way? Do you need some advice?
Kapu, I too, have long hair,(nearly down to my waist) and want to be an old lady with long hair (I'm 28).
If you have to think about it Anon, then you already know walking away is not the answer.
Anon, ultimately the decision is yours.
You have to do what feels right in your heart.
For the record, I'm not bothered either way about knowing.
Anonymous said...
I want to do the right thing, but at what cost? Perhaps it would be better if I just walked away.
Why would you do that?
I just got home! Yay!
Anon, discuss it with us and maybe we can help you decide.
Anon, stick around and chat awhile.
Hello everyone, Mayo,SS!
How're you doing?
Anon:
At this point it matters not. But I'm with K on knowing when it all ends.
Do what you feel is right!
Anon, you shouldn't feel that just because you know something that you're not sure you should share, that you have to leave if you don't share it.
You have every right to stick around and chat.
Change the subject and talk about something else instead if you want to.
Anon you could always set up a private blog where you write down who mayo is and than give it to us if we ask for the link give it
Anon - NO walking away.
You can't just get all up in here and get our interest, and then wander off - it's teasing! :(
Do you have something you need to say? Kapunua's offered you her email, and here's mine:
Sis Midnite
Anon @ 6:19
Why would you want to walk away? Can you see how much of a tight-knit family we had all become? There is so much love and encouragement here. You do not want to throw that away. Not something as precious as all
of this.
Mayo, is the thing you wanted to 'mention' or am I way off here?
Also, Anon, we really want this to be a safe place for everyone - and if someone wants to keep their identity to themselves then I respect that. The only problem I have is if someone is hurting us, themselves, or their family by remaining anonymous.
Perhaps it would be better if I just walked away.
Who am I kidding? My conscience would never allow me to just walk away without explanation.
It sucks to be between a rock and a hard place.
Anon, if you're worried about letting people down, then let US make the choice.
If we ask you, will you tell us?
(those of us who are ready for the truth, I mean)
Yes it does suck. But if you feel you need to tell than tell.
All of your answers are so good.
See Anon, we really want you to feel okay with your decision. Whatever that may be. Or you can change the subject and join in the conversation? Maybe get your mind off of it for a while.
Anon, like I've said it is your decision.
I understand that it must be difficult for you but I don't know what we can say to help you.
I for one wouldn't want to be in your shoes right now.
Anon, are you okay?
You're sending bad vibes, darlin'.
Whatever it is, maybe we can help.
I offer my email as well.
Good evening Mayo.
Good evening all.
I don't wish to butt into the conversation but I must reply to Present.
Oh happy state! when souls each other draw,
When love is liberty, and nature, law:
All then is full, possessing, and possessed,
No craving void left aching in the breast.
Your gift is treasured.
I no longer kiss you on your cheek, but on your eyes, ears and fingertips.
You see, hear and feel us.
Thankyou.
Hi GS!
Anon, you've kind of got us all worried about you now.
I for one wouldn't want to be in your shoes right now.
Me either.
Sometimes walking away is necessary in situations that effect you so negatively it makes you emotionally ill. And you do require support in these situations.
As for the other party/parties, have you considered a written explanation? It can be perfunctory for the time being.
Anon, sweetie, we are all contactable if you need to.
Don't be a stranger!
Anon, if you want to do the right thing, the first would be NOT letting us believe you are either of our friends--Mayo or SS--if you're not. Right?
I understand our position. Why are you coming out with it now?
Hello dg, gs and KD how are you?
Good question K. I think I am a little scared because I do not want this to explode one way or the other. Anon, could you answer some questions first?
Let's talk about a few things first. Is that okay?
Anonymous,
Here's my hand, take a hold, you're with friends.
Come sit a while.
Hi S&V :)
Thankyou to RW and Miss T and Sister M for my Xmas pressies :D
Good thanks Martha, how are you?
Have you got your computer back yet?
Thank you Katherine, that does make sense. I need to think this through, along with the potential consequences of any decision I make.
Kapunua, I am coming out with this now because certain things have only just come to light.
Anon, I think this is the question you need to ask yourself.
Do you have the blog owners permission to reveal all
I think you know what is the right and wrong thing to do.
Hey GS, long time no see!
You okay?
Back.
Anon:
You've got another one lined up worried about you. It's never an easy position to be in, between a rock and another hard place.
You have to do as you see fit. It's only your decision, and you have to know what's in your heart.
Chin up?
Btw, Hello everyone I haven't seen in a while!
You are welcome GS.
I'd like to say thank you to everbody who got me a gift too. Cheers.
Anonymous said...
Kapunua, I am coming out with this now because certain things have only just come to light.
December 3, 2007 6:50 PM
So you thought Mayo was someone but then found out he was someone else?
Are you Mayo? Or are you SS? That's one thing that should come to light before we continue.
I also don't envy you your position. I'm sorry you're in this place. I get the sense it's not your fault.
Hi MJ. I am well and you?
Anon, some things are hard to articulate...however you are not alone.
Only you can decide that anon. Your decision will be respected either way, I'm sure!
Take your time; follow your heart!
Hi DG and Martha :)
I'm fine thanks DG. Yourself?
I feel a bit awkward actually having a conversation in the middle of all this. Maybe if we whisper?
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