The whispers are only for myself, and I repeat them often enough to know them all by heart. The truth, I held it under my tongue and prayed...all the while losing my hold on the meaning. Now my words are bent and broken from the release. Questionable promises have crumbled in my fist, and what remains is dry and falls through my fingers. It crashes to the ground in small piles, which I blend back into the earth with my shoe. I grab a handful and press it against my lips; it is rough against my cheek. And I am reminded of where it all began.
p.s. what has changed is mistaken for truth without question.
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Hi, PJ. Good to see you around :)
(heading to bed now...)
Oh shit, i just remembered he writes messages to Lyn Z, maybe she is the one wanting the divorce and he is telling her something.
Sorry! too much coffee, i have to work tonight.....lol
The end of the performance reminded me of the same when he attacked Frank,when he ran around afterwards.
Throwing stuff, yeah. When he threw that bottle of water at Frank even as Frank was retreating off the stage I was like, "You little beeotch."
I get annoyed at my friends sometimes. I don't attack them, throw down, and then throw crap at them as they're walking off. Hell, I don't even attack them.
When and why did SS change his latin and what does it mean?
He is catholic and it's not that he can't it's jut looked down upon.
Oh and he has used "catholic" before. I think someone mentioned it earlier. Not sure what it means and do not really care. It just looks cute ;)
Anymore suggestions? Maybe this one.
The marriage was not conducted by a priest, therefore the catholic church would not technically recognize him as married, even though he signed a legally binding certificate.
Hello all! How are you all doing?
Sister Midnite said: "I'm on the numb train to Nowheresville with Sdock & anima. (It'll make more sense when you're caught up, believe me.)"
Currently, I'm on The Night Train Express! I will be catching that numb train at the next stop and joining the three of you. Then, perhaps we can all jump aboard that CRAZY TRAIN.....ALL aboard!!!
Clean and Sober?
Who? Gerard?
Damn....
No wonder he looks pissed
There's one other thing I was thinking of, you guys. It concerns that anon who came in here saying "see who's on stage tonight" or something like that and then "make your call on the tour."
Well, I can only imagine that--seeing as how Gerard's wife was on stage as if she is now a part of their show--that this anon was someone who knew that they were going to pull this kind of thing.
Which leads me to this: that whole "cancer" kissing thing was pre-planned and a few people knew he was going to do it.
YUCK. Is that another cheap shot at his past relationships? Because whatwith that anonymous "warning", it sure seems like it is.
I flipped every switch
that I could find on my way out just to upset you more
just to keep you busy
just to make you angry
just because you were right....
Myalyas said...
What type of birth control do catholics use nowadays?
That was funny! and maybe in there case....abstinence.
ok i may have spelled that wrong.
Catholics were sometimes seen as martyrs in the past.
Maybe the way he identifies himself.
Mia, I think he changed it about an hour before the ema's started (fuck, I'm not for sure). It says "clean and sober."
Reminder, he always writes on himself. Nothing new.
Anonymous,
Good point. And consider this: if (and notice I say IF) they were both mentally incapacitated, shall we say, they could get the union annulled.
J.
If "Catholic" was a message to Lyndsey (sorry, I refuse to type it any other way) perhaps she is having a change of heart and thinks maybe the marriage is a mistake? Gerard's message could be his way of telling her that he won't give her a divorce quite so easily.
I know it sounds far-fetched, but maybe she's realizing she's bitten off more than she can chew (Hello, bipolar crazy-man who changes his mind more often than some men change their socks).
In addition, his performance tonight sucked. He sounded as winded as he used to sound after a long set circa Warped 2004. He also looked miserable.
Bob might indeed have a broken arm, but something's up with Gerard's voice as well.
Ahh. Man that sucks and is just really sad.Thanks for pointing that out K.
The only thing up with Gerard's voice is what has always been up with Gerard's voice, mainly breath control - or lack there of
It wasn't about his wife.
The one that blew me a way was the anon that said something about one not going on this tour.
It was on a post a few weeks ago, i remember cause we thought it might be Frank.
This blog is turning into the twilight zone!!
That, and he's fucking around, screwing up...
For all the damned partying I did back in my day, my rule #1 was never, ever drink while I was singing. It does a number on your vocal chords a lot more worse than the cigs do.
Anonymous said...
Catholics were sometimes seen as martyrs in the past.
Maybe the way he identifies himself.
A few weeks back, L posted something to Mayo that stated, basically, "Get down off the cross, you don't have to be a martyr."
Doesn't G respect Joan of Arc? Correct me if I'm wrong, but didn't she have a cause?
J.
Not about his wife? Then what?
Maybe he has always written on himself but it use to be things he thought of that day,as so he said in an interview once.
know he uses it as secret messages to his wife,how can we tell the difference whether it was just something he felt that day to a message to her?
Pj, that anon was really right on. It's kind of strange.
Damn! I hate to leave, i miss this so much, but i will catch up later.
we may never understand him.
But! something is up.
Original Punks,
She burned on a stake for her beliefs.
Connect the dots...this post...Joseph Mayo Wristen.
Something is being lit up, burned for the past, to atone, for a fresh beginning.
The vocal chords are just like any other muscle in the body. Alcohol relaxes the muscles and they "release". They thicken and lengthen and are just not "tight".
Then you can't sing worth a shit.
Haven't you people ever gone to any karoke bars?
Bye PJ.
Anonymous:
How long past?
J.
he wrote "CATHOLIC" on himself a few years ago, I saw pics of it.
(Pointing again to Adam Lazzara's post about "Catholic brother"--not that it necessarily means anything. Although it was in the "golly, gee" post. Hmm.)
He could be using himself as the messenger.
Does not matter what happens, willing to destroy things, himself, the marriage adds to the disemboweling.
Just a thought.
And if it is about his wife, then that makes my heart patter.
Just for a second, think of what it would be like living the life that they do.
I know we all care, but personally I will not disect his love life. However, I am optimistic.
ETA: Still with a really bad vibe. Hang in there, G-Way, you spastic moron.
By the way, I am soaking in a hot bath with some nicely scented dead sea salts, while sipping on a glass of red wine.
So maybe, that makes me:
Cactus ac ebbro?
Gerard talked a lot about Joan of Arc being "touched in the head." He also talked about being "touched in the head" himself right after he started the band.
I've lived with one of those "touched" people and they can convince you of anything, for a while. But eventually, reality sets back in.
Mine couldn't live with reality when his brain chemistry wasn't making him high, so he escaped into drugs and alcohol. Two years ago, he shot himself in the head.
I pray every day that the same thing doesn't happen to Gerard.
But Adam's post was way before right?
What do you think about it exactly?
His sharpie messages are overrated. They are personal. We will never understand. Yet I am still amused.
P.S. Have any of you been the girl of band member? If so, then you understand, well kind of. Regardless, it is different. Give everyone a break here.
Anonymous:
What sort of message would he be hoping to send?
J.
"Can I take your order?"
"Uh, yes. I would like a blog, non-criptic, light meaning. Hold the Mayo."
Mia, I am jealous. Sounds wonderful.
hello everyone
k
mib asked me to say this
Can someone tell Kapunua that I think she may be right on with the comment she made about "Cancer"?
Hey elena,hey FS.
I'm not sold on the Joan of Arc interests that Gerard has...I honestly think he does not get it. And if he does, well I would like to hear more about it.
hey entropy how are you tonigt
Entropy, how are you? My head is about to explode reading all this shit. It's an emotional roller coaster.
good night everyone. have lovely dreams and just switch off
night night
x
Mayo posted a new blog
THIS IS FROM MUSTARDISBETTER.
"This is in regards to the 'S' word. *Shhh... we're not supposed to say that around here* I'm scared for Gerard's life. I have been for a while now. I have been since about 5 months ago when I started doing a lot of research on Nirvana and Kurt Cobain. Then, everywhere I turned, magazines, documentaries, instead of seeing Kurt Cobain, I started seeing Gerard Way. Then VV's post came not too long after that, completely unexpected as it had not been discussed on INO, Buzznet, or here about the similarities I was seeing between Kurt and Gerard. That's a scary feeling to be thinking something for 2 months and then a complete stranger feels the same thing. I'm not going bullshit myself around this. I'm afraid all of this is going to become too fucking much for Gerard to handle. All of it. This rockstar life he's living, the stress of touring, the stress of trying to live up to people's standards, the whole kit and caboodle. I'm scared shitless that one day, I'm going to wake up like people did that horrific day in April of '94 and see "Gerard Way, lead singer of the popular rock band My Chemical Romance, takes his own life at the age of (at the rate we're going, 31)" That's what fucking scares me."
Hi FS! I do not understand why you have to ask for them, but then again I am confused about a lot of things. :)
Goodnight everyone. I must sleep. Happy dreams.
Kapunua said...
1anon 2many said...
Kapunua, I assumed the hat tipping comment directed at you was SS. Interesting to see the Frankenstein mask tipped on his head like a hat.
Maybe I'm just reading too much into this. I'll shut up now.
It's a nice thought, but I don't think I'd reach quite that far. ^_^ That performance came before that comment anyway; I think he just left it at that.
Besides, a few days ago I made a hat-tipping comment to SS. ^_^
IF it was SS who tipped his hat to you, he wrote that comment a couple of hours before the EMA's.
Speak softly... The world will listen
Take your time... The world will wait
Good morning Everyone! Hiyo Mayo!
Has the Crazy Train left the station yet? I still have my ticket!
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