Conjecture all around and not a drop to drink. I can not bargain my way out of this one, my lovelies. Remember, be kind.
There is nothing to be gained through the slaughter. Bring on the lambs; leave the wool, the wolf is going to need it.
p.s. held up in a castle up on that hill.
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Find a golden thread and make it your lifeline. Your survival is paramount.
Your lamb, sir. Okay, so technically a sheep, and a flying one at that, but still.
Conjecture is all we have. We, err, conject because we like you, bb.* We just like Frank better** because he has managed, as far as we can tell, to grow into a well-adjusted adult man with a sweet heart who has retained his sense of self and not traded in his sense of fun. Delicate balance.
And you can quit with the persecution mania, because if you take a look at the last, oh say, hundred or so comments you'll see some pretty "kind" stuff in there.
By the by, sweetheart, don't call "lovely" what you haven't properly seen.
*Unless you are some random jerkwad who is leading concerned fans into believing that you are someone you're not, in which case you can suck a fat hairy one. And in which case, by the way, you still need help. Good liars are common. Honesty, on the other hand, comes dear.
**I'm not speaking for everyone here, and I'm mostly being snarky anyway.
P.S. Are there unicorns by your castle?
Just be careful who you choose to try and bargain with.
There are dangerous types waiting to buy your soul.
Keep it safe, precious one.
But you can avoid the slaughter, just look under the elm for..
Harold...He's that most dangerous of animals, a clever sheep. ..
however there are problems, sheep not being creatures of the air
they don't so much fly as...plummet
Take care.
I shall always be kind
This is like watching a train wreck. You know there will be injuries and maybe even casualties, but who and how many mangled bodies will be pulled from the twisted carcass. You hope there is no one you know on the passenger list. You don’t want to watch but dare not look away. And pray for all the souls on board. God Bless
The wolf won't need the wool; all the kiddies know that the wolf is really a sheep who has donned the wolf's clothing.
The rest of the pack can spot this wolf for the sheep he really is, and wish that the sheep would quit strutting around in the guise of the wolf.
Sweetie, if the remarks are unkind, it's because not all of us are convinced. If verbal slaughter is unpleasant, what will you do when the real thing happens along?
P.S. Beware; trouble has a bad tendency to roll downhill. Take care not to lose the castle key, or your 'House of Wolves' will be your hell instead of your haven.
Frankie ROCKS. ^_^
Slaughter is in the eye of the prey
Mayonaise,is this all you see..
Tell me I'm an angel,take this to my grave
Tell me I'm a bad man,kick me like a stray
well then,
Now come one
Come all,
to this tragic affair
(bangs the gong)
I sincerely ask the prey to find some way to come off the hill,click and find the real truth
`sc
(lawyers)credit given to MCR for use of partial lyrics from 2 songs-thx
When do the wolves arrive for the feast?
When hunger calls very few can resist.
And if there's nothing left...?
Caution. A forked road is near.
Blink and it has passed, a fleeting memory, a dak road.
Catch up, while you can.
-s00
Sometimes I wish you weren't involved in the situations you are in.
Sometimes I wish that I didn't care so much.
Even more, I wish you weren't feeling the way you were.
And yet, knowing these things, I wonder if you realized ever, exactly the way I've felt about everything you've done.
I'm through with biting those bullets.
Why don't you call anymore? My number has not changed. I'm awaiting your answer.
There is nothing to be gained through the slaughter. Bring on the lambs; leave the wool, the wolf is going to need it.
p.s. held up in a castle up on that hill
I am not trying to be condescending here but sweetheart, what makes you think that there will be a slaughter? Are you really that blind to see that not everyone is after you as is your mind is trying to convince yourself that they're are? I agree, there is nothing to be gained with the slaughter, but please stop with the exaggerations. There is no slaughter. There will not be one. It is all only in your mind, and sometimes, your mind can be your worst enemy, not countless numbers of people who you "think" are out for your blood.
"Fear is only in our minds, taking over all the time."
You believe alot of the remarks are unkind, but dearest, the only way you can snap out of your reverie is to receive a harsh reality check. Reality in itself is not all happy, perky, and perfect. It is harsh, it is cruel, it is dangerous. Why continue to put yourself in a bubble where you do not allow anything to get close to you? You can push everyone out of your life but you will not be able to force people to stop caring. I will not stop caring and the one good thing about all of this is that you cannot push me away no matter how much you try.
I like you, whoever you are.
Claptrap. Pull yourself together. Your not a child so stop acting like one. If grasping the ring has corrupted you to this extent then maybe it's time to let it go. Unless of course your psychosis extends to taking pleasure from further ruthless manipulation of those around you.
You go Sister Midnite! You said it all. The more you sugar coat something, the more damage you do. Truth hurts. Reality sucks. End of story. Doesn't mean I don't care or I'm not concerned. I am. Don't really know why, but I am.
P.S. - Hell yeah! Frankie rocks!
*just saw the preview for LA Ink next week, he has got to be the sweetest person in the world! :-)
So Condiment, your pal Lovewoman has had a rant about bloggers who enable comments, something about seeking fame, or is it attention? Which brings me to question your paranoid self, why continue this charade? Why not stop the blogs. Haven't you better things to do with the Mrs? Or is she sitting on your lap while you post them. Or do you fear Loveman on the scene again. You do know this was exactly his intention, to get people to call you out.
p.s. Reserve the lovelies comment for your wife.
Kapuna, how do you know that Frank is such a swell guy?
He may have secrets that haven't been revealed yet...or at least people haven't started the rumour mill about him yet.
I'm really starting to believe that this can't be Gerard at all. It's almost like 3 or 4 different people are writing this blog just to confuse people. The writing style in each blog is different from the previous. Some are poetic and others are just completely obvious...
Or this person has a multiple personality.
Or it's just Loveman. Lately the recent posts are starting to sound like Loveman's posts.
Mayonaise, this has gone on long enough. Either come right out and claim that you are Gerard, admit that you are Loveman, tell us you're a bunch of bored University students or just stop this shit altogether.
You are tearing a lot of people apart. And confusing the hell out of others.
He will never stop because it's become too addictive. He is seeking the attacks to confirm in his twisted mind that everyone is always out to get him.
Frank's secrets have nothing to do with how he treats people out in the open. Everyone has secrets. Everyone has done things they wish they could do over. The only thing I have ever seen Frank do, is be kind and respectful to people. Something he doesn't always have to do. I think he kind of lives by that golden rule - treat others the way you want to be treated. That's why you never hear anything bad about him.
Think about it folks, if he outs himself 2 trillion teenies will be posting messages of " I luv U Gee!!! on this blog. Quite sickening.
If Mayo came out and said point blank - 'YES, I AM GEE WAY!', would anybody believe him?
My guess is probably not. Not unless I HEARD him admit to it.
Kapuna, how do you know that Frank is such a swell guy?
He may have secrets that haven't been revealed yet...or at least people haven't started the rumour mill about him yet.
The truth is you can only know as much as people let you know. That goes for people who are in your life and those who aren't. Anyone can have secrets; most people do have them. Everyone has something to hide. Everyone is ashamed of something they've done or not done.
But if you want to focus on that stuff, you had better not think the best of anyone then, right? ^_^
So the only thing you can do is go by what you observe. Once again, those goes for people who are in your life as well as those who aren't. You can only go by someone's behavior and the way they make you feel.
To me, judging by what I have observed, Frank seems like a really righteous dude. I have never heard of him acting in any way other than nice and fun towards people. Jeez, people are even head over heels with his fiancee (I met her too and she also seemed like a sweetheart, and GAH, she is gorgeous!) And to be honest, he just seems that way to me. To lots of people, from what I understand.
Gerard also seems like he's got a really good heart and good intentions as well. But he's been acting completely out of character in the last few months, as a few people have observed, and the changes a lot of us have seen in his public behavior just don't seem right. He's gone from a sweet rock nerd to, as Sister Midnight put it, a kind of "wanna get with this" Vince Neil type, at least in public.
So it's concerning. And basically, yeah, you can only go by what you observe.
(Randomly, I love when people misspell my name as "Kapuna" because it means "a spring of water." ^_^ Which is actually ever so much more flattering than "Kapunua" which means "baby bird.")
OK! people wake up, you have been a sleep and dreaming far too long, no one knows for sure about all these blogs going around, what is real, what is not real.
Has the truth really alluded you to the point of not seeing the truth.
What truth, "you say" its in the pictures, pictures of the past, pictures of PR, the wedding pictures, all the clues your looking for are there, waiting for you to take a closer look.
Some where released on purpose, some where leaked out.
Was there a marriage? Maybe of the heart, but very few places will let it happen on paper, O' the truth, what will it bring? Shock! amazement, and so many people thought it would be, just drugs and alcohol, no its a lot bigger than that.
Are you awake now!!
Smoke&Venom, are we like, the same person or something? ;D
He never admits to anything, remember he's "private".
Don't forget he's touched in the head, too.
Kapunua -
They say everyone has a twin, don't they? Or is it great minds think alike?
Has the truth really alluded you to the point of not seeing the truth.
I don't think that word means what you think it means. I think possibly you meant "deluded" but then on the other hand, how can the truth delude you to not seeing the truth? O_o
so many people thought it would be, just drugs and alcohol, no its a lot bigger than that.
Maybe, but is it as big as...
...
....
(wait for it...)
...my ass?!
I DOUBT IT.
Maybe there's a brain-meld going on here. Or maybe we've all been 'touched in the head' (way to go, Smoke&Venom20!), because I'll be typing my comment in one tab only to see that Kapunua or Smoke&Venom20 has already posted exactly what I was thinking. Maybe the Sharpies are getting to us. :)
...stop with the exaggerations. There is no slaughter. There will not be one. It is all only in your mind, and sometimes, your mind can be your worst enemy, not countless numbers of people who you "think" are out for your blood.
Unless I find out that Mayo-ass had my blog pulled. Then I will personally hunt him down and beat him with my boot laces until he begs for mercy!
He will never stop because it's become too addictive. He is seeking the attacks to confirm in his twisted mind that everyone is always out to get him.
I agree with you. I do think that he wants us to "attack" him because it will give him more reason to "believe" that the world is against him and that no one gives two shits about him. Talk about reverse psychology at the extreme.
By the way, I still love you Mayonaise :D
Unless I find out that Mayo-ass had my blog pulled. Then I will personally hunt him down and beat him with my boot laces until he begs for mercy!
Sister midnite, I think that's what Mayonaise wants you and everyone else to do.
You must have a really big ass,Kapunua
and no i meant it just as i said it, do you know what i know? or are you as clueless as the words you type.
Point " your boring"
to everyone else, keep it up, i love reading your post, now i will step back into the shadows and just watch, And no amount of insults will bait me back, iv said what i needed to say.
p.s. To: mayo, or loveman, how is Japan, this time of year?
mh I don´t know where you live, but holy shit, in my city it´s better to look both ways before crossing a street ;)
it´s interesting to see, how many comments you get for each post you have made... hopefully it´s what you want and what you need.
take care on your journey through life, whoever you are.... (we´re always the person, people want to see in us... so is everything a big lie?)
ps: are you a wolf in sheeps´s clothing?
anyway poor lambs... it´s getting colder outside and they have to leave their wool for the wolf... but better freezig as being dead..
You must have a really big ass,Kapunua
and no i meant it just as i said it,
Oh yeah, baby got back!
Point " your boring"
to everyone else, keep it up, i love reading your post,
Jesus Christ, it's "you're" for godsakes, "you're." Why is that so hard for people to get?
And again, I'm not sure that words, phrases etc. mean what you think they mean. Because, "point your boring to everyone else" may have English words in it, but, uhh, it's not really how words generally go.
Ahh, but the servant waits, while the master baits.
This morning, on my way to work, I heard this song that made me think of you and I needed to peek out the shadows once again to try to reach out to you. Hoping once more that you will hear me, but fearing that you still won’t listen due to your damned stubbornness.
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand
I would understand
The angry boy, a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light
On a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
So now you believe you are the guest of honor at a slaughter? That slaughter exists only within your own mind. You have been so disconnected from this reality for so long that you can't see that. And you are not the wolf in sheep’s clothing, no; you are the sheep pretending he is a wolf to scare everyone away.
Well, he's on the table
and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they are doing here
And your friends have left
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
I wish that we still talked like we used to so that I could help you through this. Seeing you like this and knowing that I can do nothing is tearing me apart. But I won't give up on you no matter how hard you try to push me away. I won’t be scared away easily by your wolfish disguise. I'm staying right here and I will wait for you to finally realize that you need all friends and support that you can get.
And I
I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
We can put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand
I would understand.
Point " your boring"
to everyone else, keep it up, i love reading your post,
Jesus Christ, it's "you're" for godsakes, "you're." Why is that so hard for people to get?
That reminded me of that episode of Friends, when Ross read that long letter from Rachel and explained that y-o-u-'-r-e is you are and your is your. Way off topic, but it made laugh
Did anyone else not understand this?
Should I start reading your blogs every four words?
So now you believe you are the guest of honor at a slaughter? That slaughter exists only within your own mind. You have been so disconnected from this reality for so long that you can't see that. And you are not the wolf in sheep’s clothing, no; you are the sheep pretending he is a wolf to scare everyone away.
Exactly. Like I mentioned in my other comment, there is no slaughter waiting to happen. It is only in his mind because he *wants* it to happen. In some ways, he probably feels that he deserves to be the prey. Fear and self loathing is distancing himself from this reality.
I won’t be scared away easily by your wolfish disguise. I'm staying right here and I will wait for you to finally realize that you need all friends and support that you can get.
I second that motion. You may try as hard as you like to Mayonaise, but you cannot push everyone out of your life. What I do not understand is why you think that no one cares about you. What makes you think no one cares?
Maybe the Sharpies are getting to us. :)
I used to love the smell of them, but now they just make me think of "ANYTIME YOU WANT" and other ridiculous bits of TMI and I cringe.
Funny thing is this, though: At work we use sharpies for two things: labeling fecal samples and writing information on body-bags. Now every time I have to write info on a body bag I'm tempted to write "(Not) VERY MUCH ALIVE" or "DEAD 4EVA & EVA!!1!11"
Because I am evil like that.
I use Sharpies at work, too.
Or at least, i did. Traded up for the heavy-duty PaperMate markers, because since PR, Sharpies are pretty-well ruined for me.
Except I used one last night to tell my co-worker to ORDER PIZZA. wrote it in big letters across my rack.
Okay, I didn't, but I could have.
Because I'm 'touched in the head', remember?
^_____^
*touches Sister Midnight in the head*
You made me do a spit-take with that "rack" comment at first. :D
Thanks, Kapunua! Now I can run off and say things like 'touched in the head'. ^_~
That gives me an idea... *evil*
If you hear that some chickie at a My Chem show has "GERARD WANNA-BE" written over her cleavage, you'll know whodunit. :Þ
And of course, I was being sarcastic, as usual.
Since Mayo's feeling all persecuted, I wouldn't want to Sharpie "FUCK OFF GERARD" on my rack. Might give the poor guy heart palpitations or something.
((Woke up feeling extra-evil today.))
Heart palps for Mayo, I mean - not Gerard.
I'm gonna be over *here* now...
I'm DISENCHANTED.
Whyfor disenchanted, Blackheart13?
Hello there beloved Mayo.
Not everyone is out to get you..
No one is holding you in that castle on the hill, you are just making yourself feel like a prisoner. If you need some help, just reach out for it.. I'm sure that their are like 1,348,644,684 willing to help you =]
Oh my goodness gracious! We all be touched in the head. See Gee, you ain't alone. You might be just a wee bit more than the rest of us but that's ok.
I admit it, I still love the smell of sharpies.....and gasoline.
X X
___
Blackheart13 is disenchanted because she doesn't know what to think about this anymore. Is this a joke or is this the real deal.
We don't want to care anymore but something keeps pulling us back to this place.
To Mayo the only way there can be a slaughter is if you let it happen.
I am willing to help Mayo out. I believe alot of people do not want to see him suffer like this. I don't. Mayo, do you take the time to read your beloved comments that us readers leave you?
We all be touched in the head. See Gee, you ain't alone. You might be just a wee bit more than the rest of us but that's ok.
Better to be touched in the head than kicked in the crotch.
Sorry, Smoke&Venom said 'Gee', mind said 'crotch'. No more Projekt Rev clips for me. O_o;;
^^
I know I don't like seeing him suffer.. I'd do anything to help him. ANYTHING. I like helping people. So Mayo, if you EVER need someone to talk to.. I shall listen. I am a VERY damn good listener!=P
It's just reflex ain't it? Gee, crotch, Gee, crotch. OOOhh, Uncle Jiggy, crotch. That does it, too.
I don't think anyone wants to see him suffer. Ok, maybe some do. Just a little. Not me, though.
Nope. Not today anyway.
Hey Condi, is Lovewoman part of your payroll. That silly girl seems to think that everyone should shut up. Yes, more followers for the cult. Certainly builds up your bank account. Earth to LOVE girl, this ain't gonna happen.
OMG I fucking love you!!!
But Smoke&Venom20, there are *good* kinds of suffering...
- the pain you feel after a new tattoo,
- the morning after the night before, especially if eyeliner was involved
- making snow angels without a coat
Nope, not many want to see him suffer. That's kind of the point of all these comments, no? Sure, we fuck around a lot, but I'm pretty sure that there's no true malice involved. More like, "What the hell are you doing, man?!"
So Lovie-Woman wants people to shut up. Is she asking for world peace, too? It's just as realistic!
Exactly. I don't think any of us would keep coming back if we didn't feel genuine concern for him, even if he isn't reading any of this. I do hope he gets better, I do hope it all works out. I hope one day he can truly be happy.
And he better be nice to Frank.
Smoke and Venom, I would say that at least 99.9% of peeps here wish him well despite the sarcastic comments. See Mayo you have to cop what you put out. But it's all in jest. I do hope you have a sense of humor. You may think your're an evil little fucker, but you seem more like Ernie in a Grouch suit.
And he better be nice to Frank.
Yup. No more temper, Gerard.
Didn't anybody ever tell him it's not right to pick on people smaller (and cuter) than him???
Sdock10 we miss you!!
Hey Condi, is Lovewoman part of your payroll. That silly girl seems to think that everyone should shut up. Yes, more followers for the cult. Certainly builds up your bank account. Earth to LOVE girl, this ain't gonna happen.
It seems as if Love Woman herself wants to shut me up because of my blogs and is also trying to shut up a few other bloggers, but I am sorry, that is not going to happen. Emotional blackmail will not stop me from expressing how I feel about all of this. I admire people who speak their minds freely, without caring what others think.
(Ugh I finally get into comments an hour and a half after I wanted to, stupid computer)
ok from ages ago
Anon at 9.44 said Has the truth really alluded you to the point of not seeing the truth.
And Kapunua suggested it should be "deluded" and was told -no alluded was what they meant.
well seeing as alluded means to refer to something. I makes no sense, I believe the term would be
"eluded" as in escaped
Just wanted to get that off my chest.
I know who Lovewoman is and I know she means well, to leave Gerard alone, but it's a free world and I don't see anyone here wishing him harm.
It is important people can express their feelings and concern.
We will uncover the truth eventually and either we may be making some small difference to a precious man, or we are wasting our time on a fraud.
Either way I find I enjoy it.
and you know, i didn't even realise I owned a sharpie until I noticed it written on the side a few weeks ago ( I actually wondered what they were - duh )
he's not the messiah, he's just a very naughty boy
What the hell ever gave Love Woman the notion to try and 'shut people up'???? Go ahead and try to shut me up. I dare ya. Love Woman, you ain't got the balls. Literally and figuratively speaking.
P.S. - I kinda, sorta, in some small way even though I hate to admit it, miss sdock10, too. :-(
I'm really surprised that no one in the band has come forth to either squash these rumours or admit that they are true. I know that they are a private bunch but with all the stuff that is being said about Gerard and the band's future online, I would have thought that something would have been officially said. Frank's usually good at sending messages to fans through the official forum but so far there's been nothing.
Mayo I hope you have contacted your old friend from post 12.25 a.m. Don't let shame and remorse get in your way.
They are not saying anything because maybe we are all making sense.
Wutwut, sdock10? I totally admit that I miss him/her.
Thing about this blog is we all probably know this isn't Gerard Way. But there's a chance all of this will get back to him. The guy isn't computer illiterate and dude, if it were me, I'd be all over web pages about myself. ^_~
Smoke&Venom20, are you sure we're not related? No? Maybe another life, then.
It's all well and good if Lovie-Woman means well. Thing is, so do most of us kittens. If she can't handle anyone questioning Gerard, she may find the Buzznet forums a lot more to her liking. There's so much blind hero-worship goin' on that I'd be surprised if more than 10 people were in touch with reality.
Asking people to take down their blogs is not a smart idea. The whole "I'll-take-mine-down-if-you-remove-yours" shit sounds like someone is scared of getting caught.
And you can bet your condiment collection that at least some of the guys in the band know about the blogs. They'd have to be offline completely not to.
So - and I mean this in the nicest possible sense - suck it up, Lovie-Woman. We ain't going away anytime soon.
I got a question. It's not really related to any of this, well kind of. Why do I get the feeling that Mikey is just as messed up as Gerard? I know he doesn't "act out" like Gerard but there is just something about him that makes him seem so unhappy. He just looks so sad all the time. They are both just two very sad little boys. Okay, enough about Mikey. I was just wondering if I was the only one that thought that way.
This is Geeeerard's blog!!!!! Mikey will have to get his own. Or maybe he already has.
Sister Midnight, the condiment collection gives me an interesting thought. Frank should start his own blog called MUSTARD, because he's kinda HOT and spicy :)
Why is "Mayonaise' mis-spelled? Is there some message in that too?
Kinda hot? He is totally hot. He can have one of his little spastic fits on me anytime. I think I can take it.
How about Tabasco?
It's a smashing pumpkins song.
And he better be nice to Frank.
Too right. No more baby-shaking on-stage incidents. It's not cool, man.
To freddycharles. It's a smashing pumpkin song from their album Siamese Dream, and with the same spelling.
OMG! Baby-shaking. That is too funny. I don't know why he seems so little to me. He's actually a couple inches taller than me. I guess Marilyn Manson would call me a dwarf, too. Jackass.
I use Sharpies at work, too.
I use Sharpies all the time at work! O_O
You don't suppose it's a plot by the "real"" MCR fans to use them as tracking devices to keep tabs on us nasty haters, do you??
Smoke and venom Tabasco leaves a bad after taste. Don't think he does.
Hmmmm. I'll have to think of a better one.
Love Man Awaketh! New Post.
Still asking self, WTF?
smoke&venom20 - I concur
though it does sound like he's casting doubts.
If Gerard and Frank get to be condiments how about Ray and Bob,
salt and pepper ?
not flamboyant but totally essential.
Looks like Loveman is confirming he doesn't want a girl to challenge his ways, likes someone that turns a blind eye to things.
O_o That last Loveman post is like getting stoned without the dealer/expense/munchies/brain damage/etc. Makes me feel like I've been *whapped* in the head.
Pretty interesting, tho... this one has the smell of an insider.
Speaking of insiders, Frank can be Plum Sauce. Pleasant aftertatse, just spicy enough, and goes with damn near anything. :D
Frank is Sweet Chilli Sauce?
for the same reasons as Plum Sauce.
or sweet chilli plum sauce ..mmmmmm
though I like it salty.;)
Mayo - You're making my head hurt. Why so cryptic? Have something to say then say it. Unless of course you really don't have anything interesting to say then in that case I understand why. I feel like I was dropped into the middle of a movie. I know who the characters are but not what is happening. Do you know? Maybe you woke up one morning, looked in the mirror and saw someone else. Hell, that's got to be scary. But did you ever stop to think that maybe the person looking back at you from the mirror really was you? Perhaps you bought into the hype, the created "Way". That's not you. That's the illusion you see in the mirror. You know deep down who you are. Look for him, he's not gone. Find him not only you need him but a hell of a lot of us need him. FIND HIM! It's not too late.
Guys we have to move onto the relishes. How about corn & Chutney?
Good evening everyone.
I've asked myself so many times:
"Why do I keep coming back here."
Every cryptic post is like a verbal stab in the heart. I have said before that I wear my heart on my sleeve. Not good, not good at all.
I admit that I have made quick attachments to many of you.
Why? You listen. You don't judge (most of the time). But most of all, you all care, not just about Gerard, not just about me but you are all caring people in general. I sincerely feel this.
Now Mayo,
There is so much speculation about your identity that I can't begin to comprehend it all. Are you really this cruel? Do you like to play these sick games?
I guess you cannot come out and say who you really are- if you don't know for sure yourself.
I, for one have grown weary. I am just another blogger who comes here to show how much they care about you. You don't realize how many of us care. How can we be against you if we are not even sure of your identity. Isn't more important that YOU'RE SURE of who you are?
If you will do me one small favor, ask yourself: "Who the hell am I now? Am I someone that I'm proud of being or am I ashamed to be me?"
Everyone has had to ask themselves something along those lines once in their lives. You are no different.
Assuming who you are, you have sang so many times "I'm just a man, not a hero."
Assuming who you are, I have invested myself in you to the point I feel it has consumed me.
Assuming who you are, I have fallen for you and follow your blog like a lovesick puppy.
Assuming who you are, I feel a bond with you that I fear may never go away. Most of all I fear I will always have a piece of my heart reserved for you.
Mayo, I assume that you are indeed Gerard. This might make me the dumbest person on the internet. But I will put myself out there and take the risk.
I know there are so many girls that want you even when it is announced that you are taken. I know you are adored by so many, it's hard to believe someone can love you for who you are. The depression doesn't help that concept either. You want to accept love but you feel like you don't deserve it. I know.
I know there is a possibility that you are in love. Nothing I can do about that. Just know that she is not the only woman that loves you.
My heart is bleeding like the "blade you stain." I don't know how much longer I can be this masochistic. My fellow troubled soul, my dark knight in shining armor. I fear your indifference, paranoia, stubborness and disregard of other people's feelings; You have broken my black little heart.
Did you know your wife's chinese astrological sign is THE SHEEP. Yours is THE SNAKE.
I do not see a wolf. You are more like a python squeezing the life out of all who care for you. If you choke them all- who will be left.
No one:
Just the SILENCE OF THE LAMBS.
Hold on to the wool. You may have to keep yourself warm for you are as cold as the iceberg that struck THE TITANIC.
So I say to you Mr. Way:
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?
What's the worst thing I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
P.S.
I say cheers to you, ICEMAN.
I drink a toast of apple cider to THE GHOST OF YOU and your CORPSE BRIDE.
Who ever is actually the owner of this blog probably pisses him/herself with laughter everytime he/she reads your comments.
Sister Midnight, the condiment collection gives me an interesting thought. Frank should start his own blog called MUSTARD, because he's kinda HOT and spicy :)
Because he's kinda hot and spicy? Ha! You guys make me laugh :D
So my dear sweet Mayonaise, are their any intentions for you to deny what Love Man has admitted on his/her own post? Or are you going to continue to stare at the empty mirror until you discover your true self again? Are you going to keep pretending that everything is okay? Frankly, I miss the old you. I did not like witnessing the arrogant prick I saw prancing around on stage a couple of weeks ago. I did not like seeing him at all because that was the very first time I had seen that other part of Gerard. I miss the fact that you used to look so happy and smiley. What happened to you? Nowadays you look so miserable and now you hide behind your motherfucking shades more than ever because you do not want anyone to see the real truth that are hiding in your beautiful eyes.
What happened to you?
case in point, mayonaise
does not matter if you asked for it,want it now or think you do not deserve it,many think...
sadly.. case in point
`sc
ha!! i love it how lovewoman posted saying im not doing this for fame, im dissabling my comments!! Shes only dissabled her comments because nobody left any. Shes embarrased that no-one gives that much of a damn to comment all the tripe she writes. she cant silence anyone. what happened to freedom of speech, being able to form an opinion whether that be opposing or not? its bullshit. im a bit tetchy this morning.
Awwww, what is she like 12?
i love reading all your comments guys. i have been lurking here since the beginning but have never left a comment. anyway thanks for all the entertainment you provide, i really do appreciate it! the relishes chat has had me pissing myself!!
keep up the good work!
Let me begin by explaining my absence to my friends here and to you dear Mayo (at least humble me for a minute or two. I was not held under arrest, but held in close grips of my family and friends. I was not trying to bury myself alive, but burying a dear loved one. I was not at a castle on a hill but at a church by a river. Funny how we walk the same parallels but never quite touch.
I write this next part just for you (Mayo) and I. How magnificent we are at making our own misery. I'm personally thinking about getting a patent and seeing if I can bottle and sell it. Surely, my misery is better than yours. We both know that it is just as much self inflicted. We can be just as blessed and as cursed as we choose to be. Don't try and blame others for wallowing in your own bullshit! How blind we must be by our own self loathing that we can't see the outstretched arms of those waiting and wanting to embrace us. I often wonder if the reason I'm so good at giving love is because I suck at receiving it. Fucked up? Absofuckinglutely! Life would be so simple if it were just about YOU. But look around, there are people invested all over. Tragic, I have said that before that people give so much of their lives trying to save others from themselves. I also know that some will be smart enough to walk away and save themselves. They walk away from a long ago lost cause and find a new one.
So when you call for your soldiers sitting up there in that castle on the hill, don't be surprised when only a handful come to your rescue. Ready to wave the white flag yet?
Look below you. Can you see me way down there? I'm waiting for you to jump and I PROMISE that I will do my best to catch you. At least I can break your fall.
P.S. I'm trying but I don't believe I can.
sdock10!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!
Sdock10, finally your back. I extend my condolences to you, but at the risk of sounding cheesy it's SOOO good to read your posts. YAHHH!!!!
Welcome back, sdock10. Missed ya!!!
This morning, Frankie = Cheez Whiz.
Ya know you waaaaant it!
Can't resist it. That or Jif Peanut Butter. But only the smooth peanut butter. Frankie is smooth. Like but-tah!
Yes, but now I'm thinking about spreading him.
*whaps self in head*
Oops? #^_^#
Sdock10, I send my condolences to you and your family. I hope you're hanging in there.
I agree with your current comment. Dear Mayonaise, I hope a part of you prepares that maybe not everyone will be willing enough to save you or rescue you from yourself. I believe the only way you can save yourself is that you are willing to accept any form of help on others' behalf. Otherwise, you will have no one to be there to catch you when you fall.
dirty talk! Now the posts REALLY get interesting!
Peanut Butter is the perfect spread for Frankie. Sweet and nutty ;)
Smoke&Venom20 probably won't share evil with me anymore. :(
Frankie's safe from me, I'm like 1/2 a foot taller than him. :)
It's okay, Sister Midnite. I'll still share my evil. I have plenty to go around.
Glad to hear it, Smoke&Venom20. Some days I have a deficiency.
Let's have a spread-peanut-butter-on-Frankie party!!!! ((LMAO picturing Frank's face - "WTF???"))
And if it was the chunky kind, we could throw the stray peanuts ate Gerard. >;)
Hell yeah! Frank is YUMMY! YUMMY! YUMMY!
Sister Midnite, if Smoke&Venom20 won't share her evil with you I'll be glad to give you some of mine. I have plenty in reserve.
Make sure you don't ask to touch her tiaras or her mirrors...you might draw back a nub.
I mean this with love...with love.
I'm sure you do got plenty to spare, Luci, I mean sdock10. That's the benefit of being a demon. Don't touch my tiaras or mirrors, eh? Well, better be careful around that pitchfork, Sis.
I am so glad you back, dock-dock!
Pitchfork? Oh come on Smoke&Venom20. I only bring that out on special occasions. But Sis Midnite can borrow it anytime. I'm sure she's handy dandy with the sharp pointy objects. I prefer the fire myself...now that's where the fun really begins.
All this talk of evil, tiaras, mirrors, and fire is exciting. I could go play like 3 games of kickball right now.
I wonder if Love Man is busy?
Don't be rude Smoke&Venom20, you know his anxiety won't let him play kickball anymore!!
Awww, thanks, sdock!
Feelin' the love here. :)
Don't worry, Smoke&Venom20, tiaras aren't my thing. Mirrors, maybe, but not today... the friggin' Zit Fairy visited me last night. >.<
Damn, Sdock10 has figured me out -- I loooooove pointy objects, as long as they're not Sharpies. M&M throwing is wonderful, too: those mutha's can do some damage.
No need of your pitchfork, however, Sdock10. I have my own.
I forgot all about his acute anxiety attacks. I bet that's why he didn't come to practice.
(You can't stop me or my kickball comments, Love Man!!!!)
Because like I tried to say so many times before - I've been down with kickball since like the 3rd grade.
You guys are nuts! I do mean that in a good way. First the talking about spreading peanut butter on Frank, and now this. Ha Ha ;)
Do you play kickball with your tiara, Smoke? I bet you're the prettiest kickball player on the team. Do you have someone hold your mirror while you run the bases?
first base, second base, third....
Oh sorry, you said bases.
You bet I'm the prettiest. My tiara is permanent. Ya'll can play on my team though. I'm sure Love Man won't mind.
Frankie can be the mascot. :-)
***I gots nothin' but love for Mr. Iero!!!!
first base, second base, third....
Smoke&Venom20, that's not the kind of evil I had in mind!
*grr* Choke your chicken on your own time, Gerard buh-dy.
***I gots nothin' but love for Mr. Iero!!!!
I agree with that. Damn, I should have given that man a hug when I met him last year. I was too busy staring at his tattoos though, but I did give him a thank you. Damn.
Frank absolutely deserves all of our love! I admire the fact he sees things the way they are.
Choke you chicken on your own time
Oh sister midnight you crack me up!!
You know he'll soon develop jerking off calluses if he's not careful. But then again there's an extra set of hands next to him. O_o
On another note, Loveman really has been hitting the wacky tobaccie lately. Is he trying to tell us this union was not exactly a meeting of the minds? Or has the saviour who once appeared to be Homo superior, morphed in one tour into Homo Erectus.
After initially wrestling with the decision to comment on this blog, I have to confess it felt good to get some things off my chest - a kind of perverse catharsis that forced me to actually face some painful but necessary home truths of my own. Spilling my guts anonymously is remarkably liberating.
Sometimes there are things that so desperately need to be said, things that are so brutal that if they were not covered by a veil of anonymity they would forever remain unspoken. Cowardly? Perhaps. Necessary? On occasion.
I'm the first person to acknowledge my many weaknesses and faults, but I have always considered myself to be a good person, a loyal and trustworthy friend. I was genuinely moved by the empathy and concern I received in response to my comments - it was totally unexpected and I thank you all. It was never my intention to return to this blog, I just wanted to say what I needed to say and leave it at that. I thought I had it under control. However, you guys are so grounded and challenged me and made me question my values and my priorities - I think I needed that.
I have always known that no matter what, I would always be there for my friends. We have all helped each other endure and overcome the trials and tribulations that life has thrown at each one of us. Now I find myself asking - what kind of friend am I? If a friend is making what I consider to be poor choices or decisions that make me feel uneasy, what do I do? I give my opinion and my advice but ultimately I give my support. I thought I was being a good friend. I can see now that I have failed as a friend and I cant begin to say how much that kills me. It's tearing me apart because it didnt have to be this way.
I am a shitty friend who has been hiding behind cliches and platitudes 'You cant help someone who doesn't want to be helped' 'Its his life. Let him make his own decisions.' Ironically, by trying not to strain or damage our friendship, I may have lost him anyway. Only time will tell.
I may have 'not rocked the boat' - but at what cost? This is bigger than all of us. I dont even want to contemplate the fall out. Like I said, the world would go to shit. I will never betray his trust.
Guys, here's your other option.
"Hey Lyn Z, I'm gay."
"Hey, so am I, lots of people already know that."
"But Reprise isn't ready for that yet, also I wanna be an adult and start a family! What do you say?"
"Well I like girls, what's in it for me?"
"Uhhmmm, how about an arena tour in Europe and tons of exposure for your band."
"OK!!"
"Here, have a sharpie!"
You have to do what you feel is right, man. We can all sit here and make assumptions and judgements but you know first hand everything that has happened, don't you? Hope you keep coming back. Not just for my sake or because I think this is just entertainment. We may joke around in here but there is one thing we all have in common, a genuine concern for everyone involved. I do hope everything works out for the best.
To shitsabou Shita. Despite what you think, you are a true friend. You appear to be soul connected. Consider this, If you have rocked the boat what would be the outcome. I guess you know the answer already. Some people need to experience the desolation and rock bottom despair before reason permeates their thinking. Unfortunately it causes immense suffering to close ones. Having been in this position myself I can only recommend, wait, watch, listen, do not judge but be ready to catch the fall. Luck be with you.
Shitsobou Shita,
It wasn't your boat to rock. You did what you thought was right at the time and that is all you can be expected to do.
Hindsight is always 20/20. It's such a shame such clarity can't come to us prior to the decisions we have to make.
If you had acted differently perhaps you wouldn't be in a position to help later. Trust may have been lost and friendship destroyed.
You may feel like you've lost a friend but perhaps it is only on a temporary pause.
Be there to encourage and support, because you will be needed again.
I feel, by your words you are an honourable person, when the time is right I'm sure you will know what to do.
Remember that anything you said earlier will be remembered, and when the need to face consequences arrives, I'm sure you'll be called on as a friend once again.
And although you may want to friends never give up, and neither do any of us.
WOW! shitsubou shita,
a bright light shines...
may it touch your friendship
`sc
Shitsubou. we will never go and never stop caring. We also support you. :D
I agree Ergoproxy. Hindsight is always 20/20. You always go back and think well maybe if I had said this, or maybe if I had done that, things would be different.
Shitsubou Shita, I don't think you are a shitty friend. You are human. It's so much easier to keep the peace sometimes than to actually question that person or call them out about fucking up their life. The question you have to ask yourself is, if something were to happen to this person, did I do everything and I mean everything in my power to help them? And that might mean risking one of the greatest friendships you have ever had. And once you can answer that question and say yes, then you have to let go. Stop feeling responsible for things you have no control over.
No, I don't think you are a shitty friend at all. If you were, you wouldn't have been concerned to begin with.
I absolutely agree with you smoke&venom.
Shitsubou Shita, do not beat yourself down just because you show much concern for your friend. You should be proud that you really do care about him and his well-being and if cannot see that for himself or value your friendship, sadly, it is his loss.
Ask yourself this: if you could have the power to save him, even if you were risking the frienship, would you? If I were in your position, you bet your ass I'd do anything to help someone I care about so much. Nothing in the world would change that. Please remember that none of what has happened is your fault. I'll tell you, the one thing I cannot stand at all is having some friend you care about allowing a woman to come between a friendship and break it in half. I put my blame on him, not you. This is not your fault. If I were in his position, I would be glad to have such a caring friend such as yourself. His lack of judgement is blinding him and turning him into a complete fool.
Sorry, I am late to the party. Who is love woman?
Sdock10, welcome back. Once again, my condolences. I'm not the praying type, but my best thoughts are with you. (Also, I freely admit--with a lack of decorum that rivals our Mr. Way at the height of Projekt Revolution (okay, maybe not that bad)--that I have a non-sexual crush on you. Go fig!) O_O
Smoke&Venom and Sister Midnite, I'm joining you in the fangirling of Frank once again. Sister Midnight: me too, I'm also about 6" taller than he is. We're, like, height sisters or something! ;D
Ergoproxy, Blackheart13, SoulConnector, Shame in Me (my fellow AIC fan!): Just, HI! Hope you are all doing well. Good to read you all again.
Bleeding Chaos: Any word on that letter those folks were sending via Veritavenom? (Which, where has V V been? Because V V makes sense.) As far as my personal concern for the people in the band that I like goes, it's still there. But so is my FULL-ON AGREEMENT with how selfish it is for MCR to take MSI on the road with them and expose their disgusting crap to their young audience, mostly just because Gerard fought against that stuff for so long. That's kinda a big issue for me so I'm wondering if those people got through.
Shitsubou Shita, I have been down that road and I know it sucks. I went there with my cousin who at one time I loved more than anything. We grew up together and I always looked out for her. Then in one month everything changed. I couldn't tell if I should challenge her for making the mistakes she was making, or if I should support her while everyone else shouted her down. I remember that I did a little bit of both, and I cried every single night of that month because she was just wrecking herself, totally by choice, and there was nothing I could do. She was like a pod person, and at the same time I wished that I could step into her life and be her for a while so that I could make decisions for her and keep her safe. My point is, you do as much as you can and then you stop blaming yourself. You really can't live someone else's life for them. The hardest part is when you have to make the decision to either let them go because they're breaking your heart and taking you down with them, or to follow them down, which also breaks your heart. My cousin's story didn't have a happy ending. She's went from being this bright, hopeful, beautiful person to a miserable waste, and we barely talk anymore. If you'd told me back then that I would have let her go, I would have punched you in the face. But that's what happens. People grow up, and some of them you have to let go. You seem pretty mature so I'm sure you know that by now, I'm just saying I know how that feels.
Err, I know there was something else I was going to say but I forgot. Hope you will all have a pleasant Friday. ^_^
Hi there kapunua. I hope you're doing well. As far as the letter is concerned, there is no word that it got through, but there's no gaurantees that it'll be read or taken into consideration. The authors themselves decided to send me the letter instead because they think I take their words into consideration considering the blogs I write, but I told them that there is nothing to be sure that any of the members will take the time to read the letter or take their words to heart. It's pretty much a lost cause. Although I will say this: I feel sure that they might know about the lyrics. They do lurk on the internet and they do pay attention to what people have to say about them. It happened before.
Hi Kapunua! How you been, babe?
Are you 6" tall in boots, too? ;)
Shitsubou Shita, you are NOT a shitty friend. As Smoke&Venom20 put it (so well, too), you'd only be a shitty friend if you didn't care. Yes, it's really hard to be a friend to someone who's disintegrating -- please understand that it's in no WAY your fault, and that you cannot take responsibility for stopping it. People will do what they're going to do, even if those close to them can see that everything is fucked up. You can't stop them, and you can't make the demons go away. All you can do is be there to help when he needs you again. And he will need you. I'd bet my life on it.
You guys are all awesome. At first, I came here out of curiosity, like so many others did. Now I come here to chat with y'all. You make me laugh, you make me think, and you make me feel like there are other people out there as weird as I am. :)
I hope to Christ somebody makes him read this. Maybe then he'll realize that he's done something pretty fucking amazing.
Depending on the boots, I can go over 6'. ^_^ I'm 5'9" and a shade, a real brick house, also because I train in Kung Fu, like, a lot and I can hand someone their ass. ;D I scare insecure little boys. ^_~ But I've dated brave, short men who have no hangups. Heh.
But I've dated brave, short men who have no hangups. Heh.
LMFAO!!! Me too! There was this one cute little bass player from Montreal... ^_~
Hell, I scare my own family. ;)
Being on the tall-ish side is fun!
You're right about the boots, too; last Hallowe'en, I was 6'4". ^_^
(BTW, are you a fan of Ai No Kusabi?)
WHOA, go you! Awesome, I wish I could wear heels but usually they just make me fall. ;)
Ai No Kusabi, never heard of that, care to fill me in?
The boots I was wearing were serious platform stripper boots. ;) I usually fall, too... the only way I can wear them and not kill myself is when I consume a plethora of alcoolic bevvies. ^_~
Ai No Kusabi is an awesome two-part yaoi anime. Do you like slash?
Slash is a tough one for me because it's usually written by teenage girls who don't know the first thing about sex in general, never mind gay sex. And RPS, ugh, forget it, that's my squick point, one of them anyway. (You may have guessed that the sexualization of children is another. S'up, Mindless Self Indulgence?)
However, the idea of two men getting it on is dear to my heart, so... ^_~
Sorry, slash probably wasn't the best word. What I meant was guy-on-guy.
Still haven't talked any of my bi friends into it yet. I only wanna watch...
If this is Gerard - I have a couple of things to get off my chest.
First off I'll start on some good points, well done with the comic, the reviews were pretty good.
Now I'll get serious about this shit.
Some people say they see the sadness in your eyes, the depression, the emotion, the glasses wont help anything. We can see right through you. What's wrong? Why so sad? Your married. JUST married. You should be happy with your new 'amazing' wife. It's just you don't seem it. Perhaps you got married because as seeing your younger brother happy with Alicia, settling down with her, maybe since you are slightly older, you feel your time is running out to ever find happiness. Please don't feel that way, you are not that old. But you are not that young either, so why act like an immature prick on stage? Yeah as you've said ''I'm not myself onstage'' It isn't a very good exscuse. You never used to do it before, before you used to interact with your fans, rant on about treating woman with respect, etc. Your little fans looked up to you with alot of respect. Keep that in mind. Now, what's happened to you. What's happened to the man who spoke aloud about alot of things that was important in the world. What the hell has happened? Where is he? We don't want this idiot who talks about how much he's in love on stage. We do not want this total prick who cops a feel on stage, hoping to get a reaction from the teenies. Okay yeah I admit, it was great at first. Everybody loved it. Perhaps the attention has gone to your head. Because since then you've been doing it more and more. Here's a thing Gerard; Some poser fans may love it but your REAL fans are losing alot of fucking respect for you. I mean it, alot of them. They will always stand by you through thick & thin, you have a fucking awesome fan base. But they are losing faith in you Gerard. They may deny it, because people on forums are pretty harsh, they could be afraid to speak out. But alot of them have turned their backs on you. Fuck, even a couple of them have claimed they've torn down the posters of you on their wall. All your posters, all of MCRs posters. You may not give a fuck. You could be too up your own ass to give a shit about your fans opinion. But you know what, it's all gonna come crashing down on you sooner or later, so end this nonsense now, while you still can. You may think this is just another fan rant to make you get rid of LynZ but it isn't. It's because I care about you. I may not know you, I've went to a concert a couple of times, and I'd like to add you've still got my boa :/ but where is the guy we all used to know and LOVE.
''Awake and unafraid.''
You are afraid.
Afraid of being alone. Well let me tell you something, if you keep this up you WILL be alone. All by yourself. Noone to be there. Listen to your friends. They love you, they want to help you. Just listen to them. Okay if this isn't going to change anything fine, but this isn't just about you. It's about the band. You are dragging it down with you, slowly, but most effectively. It seems it isn't about the music anymore, but more about that cock you love to touch. Trust me, it was better when it was more about the music. Just get a grip and make your head come back down to size. For your sake, for your TRUE fans sake, for the bands sake and for your dear friends who care about you deeply.
Please.
Mayo,
Contact me please...I want so much to help...give me a chance. I offer no guarantees. (That's the best I can do with poetry; not my forte) I gave Stacy something for your forever ago. Not sure she was ever serious about giving it to you and I'm not sure she has seen you. Nontheless, I'm sure she COULD have gotten it to you if she had wanted to do so. So, please do this...I am out of ideas...and you have nothing to lose...
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