"I don’t know how to pray," she said.
"For this, for you, the end."
She lay at a loss,
Her eyes polluted, steely slits.
Rice paper skin loosely holding in
Vast, venerable veins.
Their purpose fooled
Into considering one more day.
"It is Thursday,
And I have a permanent."
Then her eyes fix themselves
Upon mine, she knows.
"Keep me in mind,
Dear." I won’t forget.
And that is just like her
To hold off death intent
To have her say. Again
She knows, and then does not,
It is time. Fraught
With just enough heart
Remaining, she pulls her way
Loose from her body, barely
What it was when she was put to bed.
It is cold and blue and black and red.
For the last time,
"I don’t know how to pray,"
She said. It is alright…
I will for this, for you, the end.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
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CAZZO
xoxox
Before I go c&p anon, sometimes, just sometimes it'd be nice if you'd just sit back and realise that someone's just trying to be friendly you know. I know you're mad with Mayo or deeply hurt by what he's done and I thought you might appreciate a friendly hand reaching out to you.
This'll probably be lost in a sea of comments but nevertheless I wanted to say it.
Oh bloody hell I'm on top again!
Oo-er missus!
I think I caught a glimpse of Ergo eating chips. Enjoy. There's a fresh pot of tea here Ergo. c&p anon doesn't want it.
Must go now.
Ta ra.
Damn, DTBA, I would have dumped your ass too. You make Fatal Attraction look like a Disney film!
Have you thought about seeing a therapist? It sounds like you have some serious issues to work through.
Don't say it will be alright as soon as he deletes the blog. I can't imagine how you deal with problems away from this blog. What you have done here is far from normal.
what you have done is far from normal blah blah blah
what you have done is far from normal blah blah blah
Have you thought about seeing a therapist? It sounds like you have some serious issues to work through
Dumb dumbs who only have a perfunctory knowledge of the human psyche.
I will post what I like when I like to this moron and I don't give a goddamn hoot what any of you think.
Damn, DTBA, I would have dumped your ass too. You make Fatal Attraction look like a Disney film!
Gosh you ARE stupid. I just want this blog either
a)deleted
or
b) private
That should satisfy most of you fools.
Justify it all you want DTBA but your actions speak for you. You always say it's none of your concern, mind your own business, blah blah blah. Yet you take every opportuntiy to ridicule and harrass everyone here. It's none of your business if they want to talk here, or if Mayo wants to post at his own blog.
I don't care how you look at it. You're actions are not normal.
I just want this blog either
a)deleted
or
b) private
I want a solid gold brick but that's not gonna happen anytime soon.
You can't always get what you want.
Do you have a blog, DTBA?
Or a facebook or Twitter?
Good Morning
Well imagine my surprise that this new post already has so many comments. (yeah sarcasm)
I’m in such a good mood today I’m not even bothered. Today is gonna be great. Mr. E and I had a get away weekend for my birthday planned but that fell through and I thought things were gonna be bad. But bless his heart it’s gonna work out after all. Today I’m gonna check into a hotel by myself. Okay so I’ve never in my life stayed in a hotel by myself. Never. But he made me the reservation. So I’m gonna get to stay in a 5 star hotel and maybe even order room service. Maybe I’ll order a movie that is still in theaters. I just don’t know. Then tomorrow he’ll be able to meet up with me and we’re gonna go to Comic Con. I’m super excited about that and I’m even gonna dress up for it. I’ve never done that before either. Mr. E is the one who suggested it. When he first did I was shocked. I said “well what would I dress up as?” He rolled his eyes and said “Suppose you could dress up like you did for Halloween. That would work.” I couldn’t believe he was suggesting that. LOL But he’s right, damn it. I can and I will. It’s gonna be fun.
Anyway, it was good to see ya here Welshie and Ergo. Take care everyone.
Have fun Elena!
Anonymous said...
I will post what I like when I like to this moron and I don't give a goddamn hoot what any of you think.
March 25, 2011 6:50 AM
Anon I never said you couldn't post what you like to Mayo, it's just that we both happened to be on at the same time and I though that maybe you'd like a chat or something. I was just trying to ease the tension here you know, trying to be friendly. Just a little bit o banter. I guess I shouldn't interfere between you and Mayo. I really did mean well though anon.
The offer still stands, give me a bell if you want a cuppa.
P.S. I have chocolate cake:)
Hope you have a fantastic time Elena.
DTBA
dumb dumbs
stupid
fools
these are names you have called these bloggers just this morning
how old are you?
really, dumb dumbs?!
always the melodramatic queen elena. why would you give two hoots what happens on a BLOG? oh sorry, this is the blog of your lord and master gerald...right? and you people have the audacity to say what I'm doing is not normal you should look at your own perceptions of reality. you are all ridiculous.
how old are you?
90
thanks for the cuppa welshie! Hope you have a nice Friday to end the week.
Elena sounds like a wonderful weekend! Hope you have a brilliant time and get spoiled rotten with your 5 star room!!
How fantastic that you were able to work it all out to get away together for a birthday treat.
well, DH is home from working back late, he's had dinner then we both had a bit of cheesecake and now off to bed.
goodnight all!
this is the blog of your lord and master gerald...right?
who's gerald?
and you people have the audacity to say what I'm doing is not normal you should look at your own perceptions of reality. you are all ridiculous.
blah blah blah stupid stupid dumb dumb dumb dumb blah blah blah
Have you got another record DTBA?
Justify it all you want DTBA but your actions speak for you. You always say it's none of your concern, mind your own business, blah blah blah. Yet you take every opportuntiy to ridicule and harrass everyone here. It's none of your business if they want to talk here, or if Mayo wants to post at his own blog.
I don't care how you look at it. You're actions are not normal.
Well that just confirms I'm just as normal as you lot that insist on posting their tedious day to day routines on someone else's blog.
I don't care how you look at it your actions are as normal as mine.
DTBA
you're from the UK, right?
Have you got another record DTBA?
i reserve that for people that have my respect.
What makes you think DTBA is from the UK anon?
Thanks Ergo and Welshie
I'm sure it will be fun. I'm taking my laptop too so I'll be checking in from time to time. Can't let any drama get by me. LOL
Well that just confirms I'm just as normal as you lot that insist on posting their tedious day to day routines on someone else's blog.
No, you're wrong. What they are doing is talking to each other and the blog owner as many others at blogs, facebook and Twitter every single day.
What you are doing is harrassing a group of people who have done nothing to you (aside from Mayo apparently) and you have chosen to sit in front of your computer for hours upon hours reposting the same comment, calling the other bloggers names ridiculing their lives.
What would you do if someone came to your blog, facebook or Twitter and did the same thing to you and your friends?
When's your birthday elena?
Welshie said...
What makes you think DTBA is from the UK anon?
March 25, 2011 7:50 AM
Spelling and phrasing they have used in the past. Either UK or Europe.
yep i'm from
North Yorkshire
Bedfordshire
Bedworth Warwickshire Derbyshire Berkeley Gloucestershire
Berkhamsted Hertfordshire
Berwick-upon-Tweed Northumberland
Beverley
Bewdley
Bexhill-on-Sea East Sussex
Stafforshire.
pick one and i'm from there.
Have any of the posters here attacked or harrassed you personally (aside from Mayo?)
Can't say I've noticed the UK spelling and phrasing anon, but that's probably what I'm used to.
Because you seem to have something personal against them.
What you are doing is harrassing a group of people who have done nothing to you (aside from Mayo apparently) and you have chosen to sit in front of your computer for hours upon hours reposting the same comment, calling the other bloggers names ridiculing their lives.
What would you do if someone came to your blog, facebook or Twitter and did the same thing to you and your friends?
spare me your bullshit. it's not THEIR blog. if i was doing it on their blog it might be harassment which it isn't HERE because my posts are not directed to them.
what a load of TRIPE!!!!!
It stands out to non-Europeans Welshie.
you people think you own this blog. YOU DON'T.
if he has a problem with ME he should goddamn block me!!
yeah teh got me i'm not a yank
what a load of TRIPE!!!!!
yes, you are
this is not your blog either
no matter how you spin it you are in the wrong here
OK anon, it's just I didn't notice it you know. Thanks form answering.
So DTBA, you're a Brit?
I'm from Snowdonia, North Wales. Land of castles, lakes, mountains and sheep shit.
DTBA
Are you even capable of commenting without sounding like you are close to snapping?
I would be very worried about you if I were in your life away from the computer.
Your response to everything is to yell, call names and harrass.
What did the bloggers here do to you?
i'm not spinning anything you are
i'm not in the wrong you people are, he could have stopped me ages ago.
My birthday is tomorrow, Welshie.
8:01 i'm not paying attention to your fake pretense of "worry", i find you quite ignorant, sorry if that offends you.
this is not going to stop unless he stops it.
i'm not in the wrong you people are
What did you people do to you? You have far too much hate for them for it to be just because they are here.
I said I would be worried if I were in your life away from the computer. Not here.
i find you quite ignorant, sorry if that offends you.
Not at all. Your opinion of me counts for nothing. As mine does to you. Forget opinions. What are the facts? What did the bloggers here do to you that caused such anger toward them?
What did you people do to you? You have far too much hate for them for it to be just because they are here.
see what i mean about stupid comments? automatically assuming the extreme. it seems to be a very american trait to over-exaggerate everything and also relate everything to themselves.
Seriously I have enough people hating me in real life, I don't need people hating me on a blog.
Can I ask what I've done to offend you DTBA?
sorry i do find you ignorant. if you really thought about it, if i was so determined to "harass" these people i would do it on their own blogs. i will no longer respond to you. think what you will about me i don't give a damn. i don't think you are very rational person.
I think it's fair to say when you call people names, make fun of them and harrass them it would be due to a personal issue. If you feel they have done nothing to you than why are you lashing out at them? Why does it bother you who they talk to? Can you really not see the problem?
if i was so determined to "harass" these people i would do it on their own blogs.
Doesn't matter where you harrass them it's the fact that you are. You just have them here in one tidy group and seems like you are intent on Mayo seeing what you have to say to them too. Is that why you do it here? If you are only concerned with Mayo and getting him to delete the blog, why bother the other bloggers at all?
i will say this. i only "lash" out at blog owner which is MY prerogative. i don't call anyone else names here. as i stated, if he doesn't like it, he can stop me.
Are you in the north of England now or in London, DTBA?
i'm anywhere you want me to be
Doesn't matter where you harrass them it's the fact that you are. You just have them here in one tidy group and seems like you are intent on Mayo seeing what you have to say to them too. Is that why you do it here? If you are only concerned with Mayo and getting him to delete the blog, why bother the other bloggers at all?
Sheesh, make some sense...
who is bothering the other bloggers? talk about a sense of entitlement on this blog.
i don't call anyone else names here.
elena you are so full of it
always the melodramatic queen elena
welsh ass
elena is a twit
Is your memory really that short or you just sprouting off at random?
You do know by now I know who you are, don't you DTBA?
Doesn't matter, and I'm not going to out you, but I would like to know exactly why you are doing this.
omg haven't you ever called anyone stupid or silly? and yes elena was being melodramatic and it's a bad trait she needs to work on.
your favorite rockstar calls people motherfuckers and worse, why don't you all go and say the same things to him?
tell me who am i?
out me
come on! out me!
i'm waiting
When you come up with a good answer let me know. I wish the bloggers and Mayo had never gotten involved with you but it's too late for that now.
Keep your hate and let it keep burning inside you. Eventually it will burn out. Just remember it will leave nothing but a black lump where your heart once was.
Good day.
i'm still waiting. tell everyone who i am
haven't you ever called anyone stupid or silly?
yes but i didn't turn around a few hours later and say i never call anyone names.
coward and you are wrong. you don't know who i am
i don't consider stupid or silly a name unless i am over sensitive and cannot handle things.
No need to out you anon.
You can deny it with all your indignant might. After all, your just an anon, right?
I just wanted you to know.
Let you mull that over for the rest of the day.
When you come up with a good answer let me know. I wish the bloggers and Mayo had never gotten involved with you but it's too late for that now.
Keep your hate and let it keep burning inside you. Eventually it will burn out. Just remember it will leave nothing but a black lump where your heart once was.
Good day.
stop guessing and tell me who i am. i want to know who you think i am.
and you can ramble on about "hating" the only person i would attach this word to is the blog owner.
all of you should take a good look at yourself. your behavior has been less than exemplary towards other people and you are STILL playing the victim cards.
Mull mull mull, anon.
Smile.
Good day.
8:37 you are a coward, aren't you Mayo?
if you really knew you would out me. you're full of shit. what are you going to do? email the others and discuss your big secret. what a load of crap.
No need to out you anon.
You can deny it with all your indignant might. After all, your just an anon, right?
I just wanted you to know.
Let you mull that over for the rest of the day.
so you gonna let me abuse you for another day!! weee!!!
i told you get all your friends and make this private. that's all you need to do
that's what it's always been about. all your indignation about not having the blog to yourselves. like all of you are so important to "hate". laughable.
get this straight: my posts are to this blog owner ONLY and if he doesn't like it he has to stop me. my comments are to him. if you butt in and post a comment related to me or my comments expect a response!
otherwise mind your own business!
thank you and have a nice day ^_^
Mayo
Your post is haunting yet beautiful. It's never easy to hold the hand of someone you love and watch them stuggle through to the end. Thank you for sharing.
Keep your hate and let it keep burning inside you. Eventually it will burn out. Just remember it will leave nothing but a black lump where your heart once was.
Good day.
one more thing. this i could not resist to respond to. my heart is in excellent working order, perfectly capable of love, devotion and loyalty to a person who respects me enough to treat me with the SAME courtesy!
the only ones with the black hearts here are the intolerant and the people that consistently lie and cheat while they are in existing relationships.
my heart is in excellent working order, perfectly capable of love, devotion and loyalty to a person who respects me enough to treat me with the SAME courtesy!
What courtesy are showing him by obsessing over an ex? Does your new love know you spend hours and hours on the lying cheating bastards blog? If you were happy you would forget about this place entirely and move on, with or without it being deleted.
oh yeah! i wonder if his wife knows about this place and all the time her husband invested in it and the things he suggested to various women. maybe he should listen to dtb anon's common sense, respect their feelings, make it private or delete it and be more faithful to his wife!
asses with stupid logic.
didn't answer the question anon.
can you?
there is no question
if i was the new boyfriend i'd be scared out of my mind to know what dtb anon was doing to an ex!
new boy better hope he has a few bodyguards around if he breaks up with her.
you're an idiot.
knowing now that the dtb anon has a new boyfriend and still comes in here for hours and hours to harrass her ex i can totally say that is creepy and scary.
like i said, stupid people with stupid logic
oh really? it's different when someone creates a blog behind his wife's back and then posts for close to four years while making suggestive comments to a number of women behind her back. that's not creepy.
didn't say it wasn't. just saying that what you are doing is even more creepy and scary. does your new boyfriend know what you are doing?
i mean, does he call you to go out and you say
not now, dear. i have to repost something 400 times on my ex's blog. should take at least half the day!
yeah
that's sane
does your wife know what you're doing? it's not creepy and scary. I am standing up to your disrespect. if you had any sense of morals you would stop this blog or make it private.
i don't care how you try to frame me. just stop this, that's all i'm asking. i don't bother you in your real life.
you can try to change the subject but lets face it, what you are doing is downright disturbing. do you not see that? can you not answer a question about your own actions without trying to turn it back onto someone else?
frame you? what are you talking about?
what is wrong with you?
i'm not mayo btw. so please stop answering me as if i were him
i don't bother you in your real life.
this is part of real life. it's not the pages of a storybook, or a movie. you may write these words on a computer but they are being read and felt by a human being. have you forgotten that?
look, just take a step back and think about what you are doing here. it's not fair to your new boyfriend and it's not fair to you, either. if you were badly hurt by mayo don't punish yourself more by wasting time and energy you could be spending with someone, who according to you, loves you and respects you.
if what you say is going on with mayo and his wife it will come around in it's own time. don't waste life on revenge.
you are not part of this and it's not your business.
is that your answer for everytime someone tries to talk to you about this? you have no problem getting into others business. you can't have it both ways.
what's this really about?
don't preach to me, just to hang on to a blog. you know nothing of me. how much longer do you want this to go on for? another ten years? look at yourselves
what business is there? this is not their blog but somehow you think you own it.
give me a good reason why you need to post here and not on your own blogs?
if what you say is going on with mayo and his wife it will come around in it's own time. don't waste life on revenge.
you are mistaken this has nothing to do with revenge. you are very limited thinkers. this is just not healthy--for everyone.
i'm not even talking about hanging onto a blog or owning anything. you are the one jumping to that conclusion. nor am i preaching to you. i'm just gonna suggest you take a long hard look at what you are doing and see if it's worth it to you. because if you keep all the hate and obsession you will wind up sabatoging any realationships. that's not a threat, preaching or order.
it's a suggestion. what you do with it is up to you.
this has everything to do with revenge
what you do with it is up to you.
Arrivederci
you are assuming things.
if i really wanted revenge there are a lot worse things i could do...but i wouldn't.
i told you. i want this blog deleted or private. you can be happy with yours and i can have a family with mine. lets just put this behind us. no revenge.
Hiya guys, how are you all?
Hiya Mayo, how are you? Good to see you back in the land of blog. Beautiful words once again sweetie, I wish I could write like that but I'm too straight talking. Maybe it's cos I'm a Yorkshire lass ^_^
Hiya Welshie sweetie, long time no see. How are you doin? I'd be more than happy to share your brekkie with you but I've just had my Friday pizza and I'm stuffed. As a daft birthday surprise on Sunday my sis got me a pizza hut staff top, one of the purple ones. Sure made me laugh and she's made me wear it today while I eat my pizza.
Hiya Elena sweetie. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope you have a brilliant day babes xxxx
Hiya Ergo sweetie, I hope you've got some of your jokes lined up cos I've missed em. How's things down your way *hangs upside down and waves to Ergo*
As for the anons arguing, I won't even pretend to guess what that's about. I just hope that everyone who wants to have some fun here gets to do just that.
Hugs and sloppy snogs for everyone xxx
Hiya Miss T:) I've so missed seeing you about.
I missed your birthday?:(
I'm so sorry petal. Hope you had a great day.
I'll get some Yorkshire Teabags in ready for your next visit.
Proper builder's tea for a Yorkshire lass.
Yorkshire tea, that sounds champion Welshie ^_^
I'll take that cuppa off with me while I go and watch TV. Nighty night Welshie sweetie xxx
good morning!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELENA!!!!!!!
(it is here already!)
hiya welshie & miss T
MissT here ya go!
A guy walks into a bar, orders 12 shots and starts drinking them as fast as he can.
The bartender asks, "Dang, why are you drinking so fast?"
The guy says, "You would be drinking fast, too, if you had what I had."
The bartender asks, "What do you have?"
The guy says, "75 cents."
Hello
Thanks for the B-day wishes Ergo, Welshie and MissT. And yep I know it's already my birthday at your place Ergo. Am I having a good day? LOL
I'm all checked into my hotel room. And getting ready to watch the KU game. But first I have to go back out to the car to get my diet Coke and bourbon. I'm such a party animal.
Oh and the weather for my B-Day????
Well it's gonna start snowing tonight so pretty sure it's gonna be a white one. YUCK. Oh well I'm sure MR E and I will get to Comic Con. So....
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow....
ღஐƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄ƷஐღHAPPYღஐƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒஐღ
ღஐƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄ƷஐღBIRTHDAYღஐƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒஐღ
ღஐƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄ƷஐღELENAღஐƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒஐღ
this has everything to do with revenge
yes it does, doesn't it. because it's your revenge you bastard
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Gosh thank you Ergo. That's so pretty. And a special thanks to you and BG. You two are the first to sing Happy Birthday to me. Well it's still not really my B-day yet. But it's less than half an hour.
I'm back in the room trying to decide that to do next. Maybe gamble some more. I've actually been winning. But maybe I'll just watch a movie. You know as fun as this is I'm missing Mr E. Wish he was here.
Oh well he'll be here in the morning. Then we go to comic con....yea!
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