The saddest girl
In the whole world
Sits in thirty day
Thinks she owns it.
Models herself a pro
With every word just so
Crack answers for everything
And a lie to keep you guessing
Is she real or just made-up.
She says she's lost her life
And can't tell where to find it.
So she sold her soul for the high
Of the sweet synthetic lullaby.
Where's the bottom when you need it?
The saddest girl
In the whole world
Just told the doctor she's fine
The problem isn't mine
"It's them." and they've ruined me
And all that I could ever be.
So now she has a new disguise
and half-way covers her eyes
with a crystal crooked crown
Slipping just missing her frown.
She says she's lost her life
And can't tell where to find it.
So she sold her soul for the high
Of the sweet synthetic lullaby.
Where's the bottom when you need it?
She used to be a little girl
The sweetest you've ever seen.
Now she's just a tracing
Of a near broke beauty queen.
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What a sad but also lovely poem. Is it your's?
Is it Elizabeth that wears the crystal crooked crown? Sounds like your poem you posted last time.
Hey Mayo,
You make me think of Rehab... 30 days?
Good to read you again.
And yes, you do remind me of Augusten Burroughs. That is totally a compliment.
Weirdly I just finished that book today. 'Dry: A Memoir' I bought it 2nd hand when you recommended it, mainly because I think you are pretty special, but also because I know I drink too much. I have read it in the last 3 days on and off, it took me so long to pick it up, because in my mind I felt I should have some sober evenings reading it. (I felt the book and subject matter deserved that atleast). They never came, so I ended up reading it when I could through the working day.
It made me laugh and cry, feel guilty, fucked up, and then I realised he was more fucked up than me by far, and that made me feel better. But I know that does not let me off the hook. To normal people I am fucked up. Tough stuff.
Thanks Mayo.
Well, god fuckin damn Mayo.
Thanks for scaring the shit out of all of us for so long.
I'm too shocked to think of anything more to say. Sorry I can't be more polite or comment as I want too on you're post.
It's nice to see you. You total shit. I hope you are alright.
Um, ok then. Love to you Mayo. Hope you are well. Just, shocked. loves, later<3
Hi Mayo!
I like it!
Birthdays and Mickey Mouse ears.
That's what keeps you busy anon? Sounds nice to me.
I'm not Mayo. Sorry for any confusion.
Ha, ok 5:38. I was just talkin to ya hun. Is that alright? I was gonna ask if you meant Disneyland or Disneyworld. Cuz either way I'm totally fuckin jealous. ;p And is everything really better and bigger at the world one, or what? Seems false. Anyway, I shouldn't be hangin. I was hoping to catch Elena -but I figure most still think Blogger is being a bitch. Meh. Later. I'm off, but you have a good day anon (playin with ya ears...).
And you too Mayo, if it's possible. loves guys<3
Fucking hell, cuz I can't not:
To Me anon (at 5:07), I think the only people that are truly fucked up (not to say that we ALL don't have our problems) and have no way of ever getting out of their mess, are the people who deny the issues, especially to themselves. You can say what you want, even to feel safe or better about it all, to other people. But admitting it to yourself (I feel?) is the only real way to begin solving you're shit. I think.. Anyway, kudos to you for saying what you did here. I just wanted you to know I thought that was brave of you anon. Good luck.
Still don't know what to say to you though Mayo. So, just hope you are well. Thanks for venturing back. It's fucking appreciated. Really off now, later guys<3
Also -no P.S? That freaks me out. I don't understand why.
Hope everyone is good, enjoy ya weekend, the daddy's too! Love to ya guys<33
and somewhere, in an alternate universe, an identical post is being dissected...
Where's the bottom when you need it
Good one. I feel like I've been teetering on a precipice now for the last year.
good morning Mayo!!
Hallo Ergo!
Mayo
Damn it I was out with Mom and I suddenly thought "Crap I should check the blog." And I did and you had just posted. But my phone (gives it yet another glare) wouldn't let me comment. Think mom was shocked by the few choice words I had for said phone.
Anyway, it so good to hear from you again. I'm guessing you didn't stick around long enough for me to smack you. Your loss cause you would have gotten a huge hug right after.
So once again gonna give this post some thought. Talk to ya later about it. Take care
that's a really sad poem mayo, makes me think of a lot of those Hollywood True Stories
So many times people aim at a goal but never see how fragile their existence becomes, and it's so much easier to blame others rather than look at all the bad decisions they may have made, to believe in some fabricated world of fame, rather than face the real things, and in the end many driven to drugs and drink, some even to crime and murder.
It's a very tragic story
I remember reading that one of the actors from the Power Rangers TV series was actually arrested and convicted of murder. I guess he and his girlfriend killed two people on a boat and were planning to assume their identities or something.
Sad, but we all choose our own paths. And once we pick the way we go, we're stuck on it until we come to our own forked roads.
I actually gasped out loud when I saw your new post, Mayo. It's really good to see you back; knew you would be, just wasn't sure when.
Poem? Hmm, I don't know, it kind of reads like song lyrics. And it kind of reminds me of somebody in particular. Take the lines
"With every word just so
Crack answers for everything
And a lie to keep you guessing
Is she real or just made-up."
and
"The problem isn't mine
"It's them." and they've ruined me
And all that I could ever be.
So now she has a new disguise..."
especially, there's a real vibe here. At least it feels that way to me.
Of course, I could be wrong.
So how have you been? Hope all is well in your world. Drop by sometime and talk a little. Might give you some laughs.
xo jen
Hi Amy!!
Hi Elena!!
nice to have some room :]
hello J!
I know Amy, I often watch those shows, and the forensic investigation ones, it's really amazing how fame, which you think when you're young would create such a wonderful life, but it so often just mucks up peoples lives so incredibly badly.
And it kind of reminds me of somebody in particular.
Who, OPJ?
Hey Amy! Hey Elena! Hey Ergo! Hey Lewis from earlier! And hey Anons! I could hardly believe my eyes: A NEW POST! It's like Christmas.
*hums*
It's beginning to look a lot like Mayo. Has been around this house. If I look right over there, in his favorite chair, he sat in it just some time agooooo....
oh J Dangerhand is very happy to be home, and is feeling much better after some sleep lol
working welding and such for 78 hours in 5 days!
Now he's back building the pig pen
Amy that has a very disturbing undertone LOl
or it's just my mind
He just never quits, does he, Ergo? The Mighty DangerHand, Australia's hardest-working superhero!
So he got some, uh, sleep? And all's better now?
Nice song, Amy, let's see if you can get it recorded!
Hi guys
Good to see you all. As usual I'm surrounded by books and trying to get them processed.
J, that might be a good idea. We'll call the CD, "A Holiday At Mayo's".
And I DO sound exactly like Burl Ives when I sing! XD
Hey Elena! So how many did you buy today?
That's comforting, Amy, we need more Ives-ish singers in this world. ;D
I just sent you a recipe, check your email.
J
I bought about 100 books today. Some really good ones!
wow elena, what good ones did you find?
Oooh, yay recipe! Is it for those Praline Caramel Cookies?
Yeah, let's hear about your finds, Elena! Only 100? You're off your game, girl! ;D
Ah, Amy, it's something even better than that. Check it out, let me know what you think.
I know 100 isn't really all that many. I usually find more but I had Mom with me and she's not really into the book treasure hunting like I am.
Let's see I found 2 Biff Brewster books. They are from the early 1960's and I have a collector that buys them. I found some vampire books. I like them. LOL I found some Star Wars books, yep once again for me. And lots more.
I'm going to run and make something for supper girls. I'll be back in a bit!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in..
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they
think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colours.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what
makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideas.
They give moral support to their
family and friends.
Women have vital things to say
and everything to give.
However, if there is one flaw in women, it is that they forget their worth.
(I just got this in an email, and I wanted everyone to see it.)
Amy that is lovely, thanks for sharing it!
have a nice supper
I am baking some spiced fruit loaf today, it's just rising now
Amy, that's awesome. It all rings true, too. Wow.
I can dig Mom not wanting to traipse all over creation looking for books, Elena. My mom doesn't like going out a lot, probably for different reasons, but I understand what you're saying.
Oh Ergo I also picked up a CD but just cause I thought of you. I haven't listened to it yet but it's called "Ghost Riders" by "Austrailia's Tornado"
Any idea what this is?
no idea at all elena!! I'll have a google, excuse me for a moment ;]
Oh and I got a copy of "Don't Kiss Them Good-Bye" by Allison Dubois. You know the woman who "Medium" the TV show is based on? It's a great book.
oh I know them!!! the are just The Tornadoes here, they tour around all over doing older music and I found their youtube of Ghost Riders and it all came back, it was a dance track and they played it a lot
here's their website
Ergo I can't go wandering to YouTube right now. What kind of music do they play?
60's, rockabilly, old time, they updated Ghost Riders as a dance track it's pretty cool
they have a music player on their site too
That book sounds interesting, Elena. When you finish it, let me know how it was and also some details about her. I really enjoy that kind of stuff.
J
I have already read the book so I'll send this one to you.
Well I will give them a listen Ergo when Mr E isn't sleeping. Don't want to wake him.
Oh cool! Thanks, Elena, I really appreciate that!
I'm gonna get a present, I'm gonna get a present...
heeheehee
elena the "don't call them ghosts" is next after I finish "Don't panic" you should follow neil gaiman on twitter, I do if you want to find him, he has a blog too and writes so well, his last was about walking his dog (who is adorable) watching fireflies while lightning flickers, and said it was like it was a call and answer, made it sound so lovely. Also about a series of dragon stamps being released
I love Neil Gaiman. The man writes such great stuff. You know some authors just have a way with words
Never read Neil Gaiman. If I wanted to pick up one of his books, which one would you girls recommend starting with?
elena just texted me with a head's up and i put my movie on pause and headed right over!
mayooooo! :D
this sounds like a song to me, just so's you know, and the character in it seems to be described fully by the lines, but i wonder...
Crack answers for everything
And a lie to keep you guessing
Is she real or just made-up.
does that mean quick smart-alecky answers, or actually that she uses a drug addiction as her excuse for all she's been through?
hmmm.
anasazi boys, j. it's fantastic.
and now i'm going to get back to my movie (finally found "the curious case of benjamin button" -- tilda swinton is in it! i love her!), i'll be back in a little while!
*head to the door*
*stops at the portrait over the mantel and drapes a crepe paper streamer across the top*
see you all in a little bit!
Cool, TJ, thanks for the recommendation. See you in a bit. Enjoy your movie!
Hi TJ!!
J I love Good Omens he wrote with Terry Pratchett and American Gods
plus he's written so much stuff, and his blog is great here
Wish he'd had a camera for the fireflies. ;)
Thanks for the book nods, Ergo, next time I go to our used bookstore, I'll browse through his stuff.
Have to say I'm partial to the comics he's done. I love Sandman.
and somewhere, in an alternate universe, an identical post is being dissected...
who cares.
I'll have to see if I can find any of those, Elena.
Thanks girls for all the good recco's!
BRB.
"alternate universe"
That always reminds me of the alternate history books by Harry Turtledove.
lunch time, I'll be back too
*dives back into the conversation*
Good Omens is a great book. I read it long before I'd heard of Neil Gaiman or Terry Pratchett, and I need to go back and read it again soon. I've read a couple of Neil Gaiman's short stories too, and those are definitely something else. I think tomorrow I'm going to hit the Library and get myself another card. It's been too long since I read any good books.
Oh J and L, what did you think of Wolverine? Eh? Eh??
*wink, wink, nudge, nudge, conspiratorial bump with elbow*
She is cared about, whatever her condition. The bottom is probably where her friends are waiting.
Amy, Wolverine is quite excellent. Quite so, I must say. That should cover it, hmm? :D
On a much more serious note, I've been talking to L, who's at her parents' for Father's Day. She took baby Logan with her b/c he has meds he takes twice a day for his URI. Well, tonight he at one point started "flailing" around his cage all of a sudden. She got him out and calmed him down, and his head started "drawing" to one side. He couldn't move his right side or limbs. A few minutes ago she said he was breathing really fast, so I told her to go spend time with him. She's gonna call me back in a little while.
I'll still be around, just not talking right now. Be back soon.
No problem J. I hope Logan's going to be okay.
hello, i'm back. :)
j., how frightening, i hope logan will be alright!
Well, let's hope so 10:21 PM. Everyone needs someone.
The time for words has passed.
oh J how awful, I hope Logan is ok
hey there ergo, how was your reunion? ;)
J, I hope your bunny is okay.
So who's here? Big hellos to Amy, J, elena, TJ, ergo
Hey BC and Teej! How's it going?
good thanks TJ it's so nice to have him home :} and thanks for reading my poem too
hi BC
hi again Amy
11:18 if you cannot communicate, what do you have left?
G'Nite Bloggers if you can please come back. The imposter is no longer sufficent.
hi bc, hi amyranth!
i liked your new layout, ergo, it matches your sunflower so well. i tried taking some pics of the cut, but they didn't come out very well, sorry!
and tomorrow the curls will be back, anyway -- which was the point!
Hallo Amy, it's been a while since I seen you. What's up with you?
I'm fending off the heat and watching nip/tuck.
oh well TJ that's ok, you being happy with it is the most important (or happy with the cute stylist!)
Latest bunny news:
L's on the phone, said that Logan's moving around some and his breathing has slowed. He doesn't want her to hold him, though, so she put him back in the carrier. He's seeming to prefer the small, dark place; it makes him feel secure, I think.
So for the moment, all is...maybe not well, but better. She says thank you to all of you for sending your care and love.
I'm so sorry about you're bunny OPJ. I hope he doesn't suffer. :(
Hope you ladies manage to have a good evenning anyway. Good night to you.
oh, j., i hope that his episode is done, i hope he feels comforted by l.
ergo, the stylist (besides the physical appeal, which was considerable!) was a real sweet guy. i've been wearing my hair up at work, it's been so hot. i just coil it up and secure it with a chopstick, and when i took that out, he complimented me on knowing the proper use of a chopstick, and then, instead of putting it down, used it to put his hair up, too!
i was giggling while he started the trim.
Goodnight anon. That's some good news there J. I hope he gets better.
Goodnight 11:45.
J, I hope against hope that he'll make it through the night. Most of all, I hope he's not going to suffer.
a good stylist a a very important find, and he sounds lovely
J it's good the problem has eased, hope it's something that will settle down, could it be the medication? Or is it hot?
goodnight anon
how are you BC, anything happening in your neck of the woods?
Hello again
I'm doing okay ergo, thanks, nothing really exciting going on except that I'm looking over for some tattoo ideas and that we're going through another day of hot weather.
How about you?
Hey elena
Hey BC
So any good tattoo ideas so far?
hi elena, thanks for the text earlier. :)
No problem TJ
So I just got off the phone with Flighty. The conversation started off with "Mom, let's take a road trip." Turns out she wants to try out for American Idol again. In Denver!
I said I couldn't and get this she had a plan she thought would make me say yes. She goes on to tell me that Gerard Way's fiancée tried out in Chicago. At this point I'm just confused. Finally I realize she's talking about Eliza Cuts. Who I guess really did try out in Chicago. So I inform her she's a little behind the times. LOL I told her he totally married someone else in 2007. I'm still not sure how that all was supposed to make me what to go to Denver. Flighty confuses me.
Elena, I got some ideas. I think I want one of them to be a wrist tattoo, something using calligraphy
are you going to try to figure out a way to go with her, though, elena? it could be so fun!
Elena, I think you need to invent secret decoder rings for parents to use on kids.
BC, did you know you can get inkjet tattoo paper? You print on it what you want your tattoo to look like, and then you use water and make a temporary tattoo out of it. I just found it this week at Michaels, and I'm dying to try it out.
I really wish I could go with her but I just can't right now. Besides last time they told her that her voice was too classically trained whatever that means.
oh, that's too bad, elena -- she's still going to go, though? maybe the judges will see past the labels this time.
I didn't know that Amy. That sounds so cool though, thanks for the tip!
Elena, it probably means she's not marketable like a pop star would be. Same with Susan Boyle, she's got a stunning voice, but she's not what they're really looking for.
I feel bad for poor Adam Lambert too. He doesn't win AI, which is one thing, but then in an interview with Rolling Stone they drag his sexuality out of him, even when he's protesting that it should be about his music, and not who sleeps in his bed.
People. *snorts*
Hello Mayo, Sweetcheeks, Mya, Amy, J(and L), Ergo, Lewis, Elena, TJ, Me, SS, various anons and lurkers!
How are you all tonight? Good, I hope!
Mayo: What a beautifully sad and tragic piece. The tragedy is not beautiful, of course. The way you write of that tragedy is beautiful.
My favorite lines:
~~So she sold her soul for the high
Of the sweet synthetic lullaby.
Where's the bottom when you need it?~~
Strange thing about those "sweet synthetic lullaby(ies)", there are no depth markers. There is no "bottom" for some. For some, there is only a free fall and the desire to find that bottom ~ in another world.
And there ~ amidst all the broken crystal crowns, the pieces tarnished by lies, halftruths and erroneous blame ~ lies the tragedy.
Thank you for sharing your words (no matter how sad and tragic) with us all!
J: Please tell L that I'm thinking of her and little Logan. I hope he makes it. Poor little fur baby.
Mya: I hope you're having a great time at the piggie roast!!!!
Me: Thank you for sharing too!!! I hope you're well!
So, how is everyone else tonight? Did you all have a good day?
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, BI, DA, Possum and Mel!
BC, it definitely makes it easier, because you can see ahead of time if it's gonna work or not, which you generally don't find out until it's done and you can't do a damn thing about it.
I want to get a bunch of colored stars starting on my side and trailing down over my hip and down my leg. In my mind it looks great, but in my mind I'll be 26 forever.
When I'm 60, it'll be a meteor shower.
Amy: I loves me some Adam!!!!
:D
Elena you must be very proud of your daughter.
Hiya sugarplum, how are you tonight? *blows popsicle flavored kisses*
Amy, one of my nieces just got her foot tattooed with a bunch of colored stars. It looks pretty nice. I think you should go for it.
BC, I might. Feet don't sag. :D
Wendy, he's very good looking and he has quite the voice as well. ;D
Sweetcheeks: I'm doing good, thanks for asking! How are you?
Elena: Good luck to Flighty!!! I hope she makes it. She does sing like an angel!
Hi Wendy
Yes Anon I am very proud of her. What is really sad is that just because she can sing opera doesn't mean that's the only thing she can sing. The girl can belt out a tune like no other. Man can she sing Celine Dion or Whitney Houston, she really can but she never got the chance.
Amy: OM NOM NOM!!!! Did you see that Rolling Stone cover? I posted the link to it a few days (or so) ago.
I loved that snake. LOL!!!
*must now go listen to Adam's and Allison's rendition of "Slow Ride"*
I love it!!!
Is your dad still there?
Elena, it's not about whether one can sing; they are looking for the commercial value of that person.
I'm doing alright sugarplum, doing some searching
Anon do you think she isn't pretty enough? I don't understand what you mean by commercial value.
Wendy, Dad's still here. I think he'll be here until the end of the summer, unless he asks Mom for a divorce. *rolls her eyes*
Anon, that's the truth. And even then, from time to time you get someone who IS commercially marketable, and they're still not "good enough". C'est La Vie I guess.
No elena, she is pretty. But in marketing it's like a package, or what "they" think they can mold you into. All an illusion.
Amyranth said...
Wendy, Dad's still here. I think he'll be here until the end of the summer, unless he asks Mom for a divorce. *rolls her eyes*
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
LOL Amy! I suppose you better let him stay until the end of summer and hope you don't want to ask for a divorce (or strong medication) by then!
;)
Sweetcheeks: What are you searching for?
Elena: I think Flighty is plenty pretty!
Thanks I think she's darn pretty. I think I get what you're saying anon and if that's true then I really wouldn't want anyone to "mold" her into anything other than what she is. She's a beautiful person inside and out just as she is.
Wendy, he's actually pretty good to have around. Like right now, Mister's gone on vacation with his dad and his brother, and if it wasn't for Dad being here, I'd be alone for two weeks. And slightly paranoid.
He's a "handyman" so to speak!
Enjoy him and all he can teach you, Amy.
:)
got distracted by a little bit of writing i was doing.
elena, i think your daughter has enough energy and drive that the american idol auditons are not going to be the only way for her to achieve the success she wants.
I would hate to be involved in the music industry. Especially if you're young and hungry. There are always those that lie to you, promise all sorts of things, or willing to exploit. It's a difficult industry, but I suppose it's no different to any other business where big money is involved.
Life, in general is hard work and it's easy to forget that any job can strip you of your humanity.
The music and movie industry seem to both be particularly good at that though, I'd be wary of getting involved with the AI machine. Most of those "winners" have rarely been heard from again.
Hi TJ!!! Welcome back!
Just some random crap sugarplum ^_~
hi there wendy. :)
Hi I'm back hubby got hold of the computer looking for a car, and I wasn't allowed to butt in
The music and movie industry seem to both be particularly good at that though, I'd be wary of getting involved with the AI machine. Most of those "winners" have rarely been heard from again.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
That's true! I think I would hope NOT TO WIN American Idol.
Look at Chris Daughtry, Jennifer Hudson, Clay Aiken, Bucky Covington, Bo Bice. They're all doing fine (or better than fine) without the title.
Then, look at Taylor Hicks and Ruben. Both were dropped from their record labels. Wasn't Fantasia dropped too? Due to poor record sales ~ not lack of talent.
I do think the exposure of AI is a wonderful thing! If you have the stomach for it!
hey ergo, that's so not fair! i hope you elbowed mr. ergo off the computer? *heh*
Hello Ergo!!!!
*smooooooch*
Is hubby looking for a new set of wheels?
Sweetcheeks: Would this "random crap" involve green shirted drummers or vampires with southern accents?
;)
oy, you know what? i'm super tired. i want to stay and chat -- especially after last night's weird non-blogger business! -- but i'm dozing at the keyboard.
good night wendy and ergo and elena and bc and amyranth (and j., if you're lurking)!
sweet dreams, everyone.
yes we need to update the ute at some point, just looking about at the moment
elena AI seems to be a very commercially driven contest now, I think it isn't in touch with what may actually make good performers, and is instead looking for people they can push hugely to make as much money out of before the next thing comes along. It's more about the show making money than actually trying to help up and coming talent.
Flighty has a great voice and could go far, but having said all that before, with the recent success of the classical style Britain's Got Talent, and the winner of Aust version was a classical singer, they may have a broader view of what the public may actually like this time
Hi, ladies!
Elena, that is so exciting about Flighty! What would she be singing for the audition?
*raises her hand*
I need to argue that point Ergo. I feel that overseas and definitely in the UK they have a greater respect for classically trained musicians, whereas here in North America it's not the case at all.
It may be another few years before we get to that point, because as we all know too well, sex sells, and it's almost currency here in North America.
goodnight TJ sweet dreams
hi wendy
Goodnight Teej! Sweet dreams!
May I think you are correct so no argument needed :]
it may prompt a slightly different view in auditions though, but I think unless they showed (as I think Flighty would ,given the chance) a more mainstream commercial appeal they wouldn't get further.
That's true Ergo
And all I want is for her to be happy in whatever she decides to do with her life.
May = Amy of course
Sex is the currency in most westernized countries. It's the attitude about it that's so different compared to European countries.
LOL! It's cool Ergo, you were close.
I've called you Erog enough times anyway.
Ok, here's the last update for the night:
Logan is holding steady right now. He's breathing shallowly but not as fast as before. He's tried several times to get up, but keeps falling slowly back down on his left side. He becomes agitated when Lisa tries to pick him up. I told her that sometimes after a stroke, the 'victim' doesn't like to be touched, especially on the affected side. So she's leaving him in the carrier, which is what he prefers right now.
He also becomes agitated if she's out of his line of vision. She's been talking softly to him, petting him in spots that don't provoke him. Tomorrow she's going to make some calls to see if maybe the meds triggered this. And Ergo, to answer your other question, she made sure all day that he had plenty of air conditioning so as not to get too hot.
I told her to call me if Logan takes a turn for the worse overnight; otherwise I'll talk to her after I get up tomorrow. So when I know something, you'll know something too.
For now, I'm going to bed. Goodnight Elena, Ergo, Amy, TJ, BC, Mya, Wendy, and Anon. Thanks to all of you for the prayers, good thoughts, and, well, everything. Goodnight Mayo, maybe we'll see you soon.
xo jen
mayo,
what i was thinking about earlier was if your character in this post is laying down a glib surface, then what is she hiding? i never believe anyone is totally lost, even though i've felt that myself a time or two (or more). there must be something very painful and tender that she is protecting with her lies and disguises.
She used to be a little girl
The sweetest you've ever seen.
Now she's just a tracing
Of a near broke beauty queen.
you know, neither of those extremes are very solid personas, she seems to have gone from one dress-up costume to another, and skipped a whole bunch of self in between. what did she do with her interior life, what happened to her dreams?
that's what i start to wonder about when you post a song like this. i start to try to figure out the character's story, just like i try to figure out the stories of the people i see out and about in the world.
i think if i saw her sitting near me on the bus, i wouldn't be able to see any of what the song is about. instead of showing the cracks in her mask, you show us glimpses of her external defenses from within her, peeking out at the shiny pretty armor through the gaps in her inner self.
it's interesting. *grin*
i'm very glad to see you post an entry again, mayo, very glad to see that you still have things to share with us. it was so strange last night, writing my truncated good night to you over at my blog, a good night that would never be read. i had a glimpse of what it will be like when the blog isn't a part of my evenings. it was quite disconcerting, actually.
hope you're doing well, my friend. good night to you, and sweet dreams.
thanks for letting us know J, it does sound like a stroke, but it may be a temporary thing, *fingers crossed*
Probably good she had him cool too
sweet dreams
and love to L
hello Mya
Good night TJ and sweet dreams to you!
Mya!!!! How was the pig roast?
Fuck.
Jen, I'm sorry to hear about Logan. If he were a human, I would definitely say that it sounds to me like he's had a stroke. But he's not, and I'm not a veterinarian.
anon, it sells unfortunately, and big business needs to appeal to the widest audience, and that is the lowest common denominator.
But at least as aware consumers we can make choices for ourselves
G'Night, J! Tell L that I hope Logan will be alright!
Hi, Wendy! Lots of people came to my brothers! A good time was had by all!
Goodnight J (and L and Logan)!
Thanks for the update, Jen! I just wish the news sounded better.
:(
mya said...
Hi, Wendy! Lots of people came to my brothers! A good time was had by all!
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I expected to hear nothing less than that!
;)
I'm so glad to hear you all had a good time. Well, all except the piggie, of course!
Circle of life. Circle of life!
Dear SS,
Seems as if the Punks, and Punk Central, have been under a dark cloud for quite a long time now. We sort of thought things were going to improve, but I guess we're not done with the bad luck.
The second bunny on this page looks a lot like Logan except Logan's a dark silvery-gray. Otherwise, they're the same size, shape, etc.
Man, this just sucks so bad. Bunnies' average lifespan is about 8 years, and we know all the fur babies got to go eventually, but damn if it doesn't hurt like fuck each time it happens.
Keep a good thought for Logan, would you please? I would really appreciate that.
I pray I don't get any calls from Lisa tonight.Don't want to have to miss another baby.
Goodnight, Precious. I love you.
My (hopeful, worried, fragile) heart to yours, always.
xo jen
Mya did you have some nice roast pork?
as you said it this morning I ma going to have a pork roast for dinner too!
My brother rents one of those big smokers and cooks the pig for about 24 hours. Its great!
Goodnight J, TJ, sweet dreams. Hey mya.
Sweetcheeks: Would this "random crap" involve green shirted drummers or vampires with southern accents?
;)
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Sugarplum: Hehe, nope. It concerns a guitarist who's in the same band as lust bunny. My crushes tend to get wacky and strange sometimes ^_~
oh yum!!!!!!!
Sorry, I got lost! Jen posting the pictures of the bunnies made me want to show off my Miss Bingles Bunny!
~Here's her impression of a chipmunk.~
She does a wonderful job, doesn't she?!
~And here's her latest photo!~
She's such a diva!
Sweetcheeks: Lust bunny's guitarist? What would that make him? Hmmm....
Mya: A slow roasted piggie! You're getting me somewhat hungry!
Did I ever tell you about a "mule roast" I went to ~ back in the day?
LOL!!!! It's probably best I don't tell you about it.
Well, the music and beverages were good!
Beautiful Bunny!
Wendy... Mule Roast? Please, dont tell me someone roasted a mule...
I have no idea sugarplum. I'm weird becsause I had a crush on him before, but now it recently came back full force, hahaha.
Thank you, Mya!!! She's my littlest fur baby. She weighs a little over a pound! And most of that weight is in her cheeks!
Yes... I did. I went to a mule roast where an actual mule was, indeed, roasted!
Special permits were needed and acquired and that thing never did cook! I think it was a case of people wanting to say "we roasted a mule/had a mule roast" more than anything else.
Poor old mule!
Thank goodness for Pizza delivery. We would have starved!
Ugh... I don't even want to think about it
Awwww wendy your bunny is soooo adorable :D
It's not a pretty thought, Mya! But hell, it was fun (except for the poor old mule, of course)!
Sweetcheeks: We'll come up with a lustful name for this guitarist. Sooner or later!
;)
Well, I must be off for awhile. I have things to do and stuff that needs doing!
Goodnight Mya, Sweetcheeks and Amy.
Goodnight Ergo and Elena if ya'll lurk (or come back)!
Goodnight and sweet dreams to one and all!!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Goodnight PJ, Em and KOL anons!
G'Nite, Wendy
Thanks sugarplum ^_^
Goodnight and sweet dreams!
*runs back in*
Thanks, Sweetcheeks!!!!! I'd love to see a new picture of Chocolate and Bugsy!
*blows night night kisses*
goodnight wendy!!
I suppose a mule is an edible animal, but I can't imagine it'd be better than the usual fare, and obviously not in the hands of those fellas!!
I'll stick with pigs on spits
Getting late here so I'm headed to bed.
Take Care!
goodnight mya sweet dreams
Goodnight Mya and Wendy!
Man, I got hijacked by The Bride again. Are the shoe prints visible on my face?
*grabs Amy drink to settle her nerves*
was it ok?
*sips the drink gratefully*
I think so. I mean, she's not too far gone yet... I was trying to talk her out of putting the words "cash gifts only" on the bottom of her invites. That was interesting.
yes that a bit blunt
do you do the "wishing well" thing there, here you can put that there will be a "wishing well" at the reception, indicating you'd like money
goodnight mya
I think she said she is doing that, I mentioned registering for a few gifts as well, but she doesn't want to have to drag a bunch of stuff back to the apartment.
I mean, it's her choice, and I can't stop her, but I made sure she knew about the wedding I went to last summer. The bride and groom had registered for expensive stuff, so a bunch of us put in for a sheet set ($200!) and we kept the receipt, in case they were registering to return for cash. Kind of unfair in my books.
I don't like being told what I should give as a gift, I think it is presumptuous
you can hint, or actually speak to people and say you ahve a lot of stuff already and would prefer vouchers or cash but on the invite looks tacky to me
plus cash means they know how much you spent which makes some people feel they would look bad if they can't afford more, but a gift can be a few people, or you find things on sale etc
and they can be returned, or exchanged which we did with some, and they didn't mind at all, some stuff we barely used, but a lot of people gave money as they knew we had a house
I don't think people need to be told what to do
Agreed on all points, especially the "people can do what they want" because that's precisely what will happen. She can register and people will pick other gifts. She can say "No Gifts please" and people will give money.
But like I said to her, I'd be horribly offended if someone told me that they wanted cash gifts only, because I'm notoriously short on cash, and I would prefer to get a physical present anyway.
It also makes it seem like you're paying for the honor of being at the wedding, which is similarly insulting. I always felt people gave cash when they didn't know what to get you.
Runnin n droppin ladies, I hope everybody is doing good.
So I still don't want to say too much at the moment. But I know it is completely rude not to give back even a little thought to your post, Mayo. So, fine. This one made me feel 3 things off the bat -So I will comment about just those. Pissed off, very sad, and uncomfortably embarrassed. I thought of an L.A. kind of mentality with this too, immediately.
The 1st because when people are drowing themselves, willingly, the only person that can truly save them is them. And when it seems like they won't even fight for themselves, what the fuck are the people around them, who care, supposed to do? How do you keep standing by, fighting for someone when they give you no sign that your care is reaching them? That there is a chance they will make it out of it. Feeling useless while someone is no longer fighting at all to survive get/feel/be better is fucking agony. And it comes out/turns to anger in me, unfortunately.
Sad because it's happened more than can be counted. It's going to keep happening more than can be counted. And if you have eyes, you can see it all around you. I have no doubt every person alive knows someone like the person in your post. Theres too many in my mind at the moment to even register. And that is killing, as there is nothing to be done for any of them. You could say they are already lost. And that is a fucking waste.
And third, cuz I've been that person before -in certain aspects (I'm no beauty queen of course), just like I believe every person has been. And I have little doubt, once more that I (with everyone else) will venture to fake 'it' (fill in the blank) on occasion (while blaming someone else and denying it outright) again in the future. It's sad. But I'm pretty sure we have all been there. And there is a lot to fill in there. Not just emotion, drugs, lifestyle, protecting yourself from the truth with lies to them, yourself.. The options and what can be related to are vast with what you have put in this post. There is too much to say here with that.
And, I don't know about other people, but I sometimes prefer those synthetic lullaby's to what has been given instead. Some people use music to escape. Just so long as that isn't all they have, then I think it's alright to hide once in awhile.
There's a lot more I could say. And there is a lot more to this post. But that's what I've got tonight. Sorry if I'm confusing. I'm tired. It's nice to see you again Mayo. I hope you are well.
And you ladies too, I hope everyone is doing good.
And I always fittingly feel so rude, not saying howdy to everybody else:
That whole mule/pig stuff is rank. My god, I heard a pig slaughtered once. I had played with it ALIVE with my buddies earlier. Will never forget that sound. Ick. Ick. Spew. Misery.
BC, love to chat tat with you sometime. Will try to catch you... ;p
I'm sorry about Logan, J and L. That really sucks. Not much you can say about losing a pet. I'm sure he has had an awesome life with you girls lovin him, no matter what. I do Hope he is feeling better soon though. fingers crossed.
Good luck with the wedding situation Amyranth, sounds like you'll need it. ;p Glad hub is home for you Ergo. Do let him get some rest though ya?? ;) And Elena, I hope Flighty goes for it. She'll always regret never trying. You gotta live, right? She's amazing in my book loves.
Anyway, hope you guys can all have a goodnight. Thinkin of ya, Love to ya
Nighty night<33
it is a bit like that, give cash or a voucher as you can't be bothered thinking or trying
Mayo
Okay first I have to say, damn it was good to read your new words today. I’d just gotten in the car and suddenly I had this feeling that I should check the blog. And there you were. So yeah, I shouldn’t have cursed the phone when I couldn’t post a comment because mom was with me. At least she’s stopped saying she should wash my mouth out with soap. And for that I’m very grateful. Believe me the woman has done it. When I was six or seven I made the mistake of cursing in front of her. Shit, that soap tasted bad but you know what? I didn’t do it again. I honestly never said “fuck’ until I was over forty. Oh and I didn’t use the “F” word today. That particular word probably would have gotten the soap threat.
Anyway about your post….your words made me think of someone I used to know. Funny how sometimes you can read something and it triggers a memory you’ve thought long gone. This girl, while having the outward appearance of a well-adjusted person, was truly “set to self-destruct”. Funny thing was it took me a long time to realize it. She was a very good actress. She knew how to play on others weaknesses. Hell, she was so good she could do something totally mean and within minutes you were convinced she was the victim. It took me a long time to realize how she could so this and when I did it just made me sad. See she could convince others because it was an honest emotion. She really believed it herself, she could lie to herself and it came out as the truth.. All her lies became her truths. It’s easy to sell that shit to others. What she said was never a lie because she made it the truth. Maybe she didn’t have a conscious. Maybe she was born without one. No fuckin’ Jimmy Cricket for her. I just don’t know. I think the line that really triggered this memory was
“The saddest girl
In the whole world”
Because believe me she was always “The saddest” or “The happiest” or the “Most misunderstood” IN THE WORLD. No one else could even come close. And those of us around her believed for so long because she believed.
Well there you go. That is how your post made me think. And I agree with a lot of others who said it would make a great song.
Thanks again Mayo, for everything. For more that I will ever be able to put into words. Take care.
Night Mayo
Elena (just maybe the nightlight is as much for me as it is for you)
hello Lewis!!
agree with you totally on the feelings on mayos post, you said it so well
thanks and he is getting some rest, but not all the time :]
love ya!!
Alright, I keep getting hijacked. I'm going to bed.
Goodnight Elena, Ergo and Lewis!
Goodnight Mayo, SS, Lurkers and Anons!
Goodnight MOON!
goodnight Amy sweet dreams
goodnigth elena sweet dreams
talk to you tomorrow
Mayo
so nice to see you again, very thought provoking post, thanks for sharing it,and I do hope, if the woman in it is a real person, that she does have some real hope, to not be lured into the world she may crave, but that is ultimately ruinous, and to find some real truth in herself and no longer feel the need to hide. Responsibility is difficult to accept sometimes, but it is the only way you really can begin to heal.
Hope you're well
much love EP xx
SS
How are you today? Hope the week ahead is going to be wonderful, every day be thankful that you have it to share, and aim to make even a little difference to make the world a better place
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
Hope everyone is having a good day. Soon we are off to Flighty's apartment. She is making her dad a special lunch for Father's Day.
Have I mentioned Flighty can't cook? Believe me she would be the first to admit that so this is bound to be interesting. But of course it's the thought that counts.
Take care, see you all later.
Hello...
I slept a very long time. I would still be sleeping if my daughter hadn't pulled me, literally, out of bed.
All due to a "synthetic lullaby". I took some cough medication that has hydrocodone in it. 60 mg/5 mL and I'm still feeling foggy.
Change of subject...
Ergo reminds me of one of my sisters-in-law, who I consider one of my best friends. My sister-in-law is a "super woman" in that she can do anything and everything. She's a wife and mother, works full-time, keeps the house clean, can cook like nobody's business, a handyman that can fix a toilet, build shelves, tile a bathroom, wallpaper, etc. And she is the most level headed person I know. If I'm having a problem with something, she always has something to say that helps. Oh, and she's one of the wittiest people I know. ("We going to smoke a pig? Damn! Where are we going to find rolling papers big enough for that?")
Anyway, Ergo reminds me her. I love my sis-in-law and appreciate having her in my life and my family. And I feel the same way about Ergo.
Hope everyone has a great day!
Afternoon, all. I bring news of Logan.
Lisa said he had a few rough episodes through the night--once, just shivering for a few and then stopped; once, having his heart beat so hard she could see it through his chest. BUT! He ate really well this morning, took his meds fine, responds to his name, drank about 1 oz. of water, has been letting her pick him up for a few minutes at a time, and even sitting up! When he tries to stand, he just leans to the left and then gently topples over.
But he's improved since last night. That's the good part!
Just wanted to let everyone know about Logan. I'll probably be back on tonight, so I'll see you all then. Take care, Happy Father's Day to all the dads out there!
xo jen
Hallo Everyone!
Happy Father's Day to any Dads that bum around here!
(Unlikely, but it's nice to be polite.)
I got my Dad exactly what he wanted. A case of beer. He's a happy clam for the next few weeks. Mister wanted to know what he was getting for Father's Day before he left and I smiled and said "A baby?"
He turned white.
No, I'm not pregnant. I just like scaring him like that.
I'll be in and out all day, see you later guys!
Some good friends of mine, never know who may be interested in this
or even maybe this un
The Rain Song
"Some good friends of mine, never know who may be interested in this"
Because Frank and Gerard own this blog. As hinted (or said sometimes) by Elena and OPJ. and Frank will sign the band to his label.
Hell I'm surprised that Elena didn't come out and wish Mayo a happy first father's day.
I hope not...the guitar player is deceased.
What are you talking about? Frank doesn't own this blog. Unless you are saying Frank is Mayo?
Happy Father's Day Mayo!!!
Oh shit anon
now poor anon at 4:53 is gonna be hurt they were so sure I was gonna be the first to say it.
You anons are funny today.
Ergo
Ergo rules
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