That is not me
Through the mirror
From which I see
Spouting lies
And histories
None that matter
Not to me.
In reverie
I am fabled
Often wickedly
Sprouting eyes
like mysteries
A ghost blown curtain
Through which you see.
And it cycles
Its cycles.
I do not know why.
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even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
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something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
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“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
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Jean-Dominique Bauby
4,808 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 201 – 400 of 4808 Newer› Newest»Anonymous Anonymous said... You would call her out on it in public... all anonymous like? Balls, please.
April 22, 2009 11:05 PM
This is called irony.....
Especially since MJ's comment was anonymous.
Yeah, I know, and the cat and mouse game she played after it... bet you don't really know who I am.
The whole thing was sick. She is a sick person on the inside.
Seriously who does something like that to someone who just lost someone in their family? I can't imagine it??
So you know exactly what was said 11:02, you just didn't jump to conclusions.
"
Seriously who does something like that to someone who just lost someone in their family? I can't imagine it??
April 22, 2009 11:08 PM"
I can't imagine it either. Thats because I have a heart. I don't go into someone's grieving process and start picking them apart.
I am GLAD I can't imagine it. I don't want to be the kind of person who is like that.
I'm not nearly interested enough in you to visit your home. No one knows you? Odd, you sure seem to know everyone. Don't get enough attention by name? Poor thing.
I know what was said because it was posted here. Everyone saw it even if they pretend they didn't.
Appauling.
What does it matter what kind of person I am . You have already decided that I am a piece of shit. So just email me.
Anonymous Anonymous said... I'm not nearly interested enough in you to visit your home. No one knows you? Odd, you sure seem to know everyone. Don't get enough attention by name? Poor thing.
April 22, 2009 11:09 PM
This is called Irony....
Why should anyone email you, I decided what kind of person you are and I doubt that you trying to tell me your not will change anything.
You did a wrong thing. You acted cruel to someone and you are getting off on it. You have no remorse and no heart so...... tell me what would emailing you accomplish.
Really? Then you must have seen the curse too. Or that's not disgusting enough for you?
Irony, not so much. I have no Blogger name to use. If you want me to have a name, I'm afraid we'll have to make something up.
"What does it matter what kind of person I am ."
Ummmmm because that is how people function???
Why did it matter to you if Kapu didn't want to talk about her grandmother or if she DID?
You acted like a heartless person. So that is how I see you.
" Anonymous said...
Really? Then you must have seen the curse too. Or that's not disgusting enough for you?
April 22, 2009 11:13 PM"
I saw it, it wasn't nice but you don't seem to upset that MJ acted the way she did to a grieving person.
Besides I still think 616 wrote it to see if the porch would take it down and to make MJ look better.
After all they have there fancy anonymous web pages or something.
Why is it that when K is rude, we're reminded this is 'only a blog' yet when it's anyone else, it's a punishable crime?
I saw it, it wasn't nice but you don't seem to upset that MJ acted the way she did to a grieving person. You have a double standard anon.
Rude, there is a difference between being rude and attacking someone over the way they are dealing with their grief.
Who reminded that it is "only a blog".
I see a huge difference in the way she gets treated.
Everyone here is "rude" to someone else at some time.
But when she is "rude" to someone.... she loses her job. Her home-town info gets posted.
Even when she isn't "rude" and is mourning. Someone attacks her.
It is..... a little weird.
Amyranth is the rudest person here (and Wendy too, bitch, cunt, rot in hell I think she said that to Karen or Carrie) and you never see them get taken out on them like that.
11:19, don't bother with that. They will use the usual "she was asking for it" routine.
Maybe she should stop being rude?
I know I know. It's OK to treat her like shit if she so much as looks at you the wrong way. Everyone else is off limits. Smooch.
MJ have fun crashing into funeral homes and telling people you don't agree with what they are doing.
" Anonymous said...
Maybe she should stop being rude?
April 22, 2009 11:20 PM"
I haven't actually seen her be rude in probably more then a year. And I have seen many more of you regulars being much ruder..... more frequently.
Anon I am not going to tell you what kind of person i am. I really don't give a shit what yo think about me.
I just think that if you have a problem with a person you should try to take it to them and not drag in a bunch of other people who are not involved in it.
Also don't yo thing bring it up over and over again might hurt someone else. I am "heartless" after. So don't you think giving me all this attention would make me happy.
I've actually never seen her get rude unless someone was rude to her first. With these others it comes out of nowhere. MJ didn't like that she asked not to talk about her dead grandmother.
That is dusgusting.
MJ is constantly rude. She has something to say about everyone. Gerard, his friends, every one.
"
I just think that if you have a problem with a person you should try to take it to them and not drag in a bunch of other people who are not involved in it."
Like you did? By posting on a public board how you didn't like how she was handling her granma death.
Very classy.
Some women carry themselves a bit classier in public than others.
"
Also don't yo thing bring it up over and over again might hurt someone else. I am "heartless" after. So don't you think giving me all this attention would make me happy.
April 22, 2009 11:22 PM"
I don't think you've ever been happy.
Oh please, Kapu's whole blog is about her sadness about her grandmother and how Gerard is "ruining" her game. She is rude abotu Gerard too.
Her grandmother was old. Do we really need to keep hearing about it?
Why don't you just tell us all who you rally are, BECKI.
Almost every single post has been about her grandmother her dog or Gerard messing up her game. She doesn't have a life.
But she does have some "fans" and "BECKI" is one of them. I think Becki is this anon.
I have beer been happy but I am getting off on this.
Anon Please make up your mind. If yo don't you will start making amout as much sense as you think I do.
MJ there is a difference between the thrill you get when you are funeral crashing and being mean to mourning people... and when you are truly happy.
I don't think you understand it.
Some women carry themselves a bit classier in public than others. Just like you/sarcasm
I am not "Becki", I don't know any Becki but yes I do read her journal sometimes. I like it and I think the lady has class and humour.
BECKI!!!!!!!
Hears Background Music....dun dun dun
Why are we arguing with MJ. She is proud of herself for being "stubborn", she likes the fact that you can't reason with her even when most normal people agree that you don't have to run up to mourning people and tell them that you judge their mourning, as wrong.
It makes no sense.... She thinks' she is right. Fighting and hurting others.... she likes it.
Just let her keep spelling things in her crazy way and enjoying the stress she causes. In the end the only one it's going to hurt is her though.
I just can't imagine a life where my idea of a good time was to tell people that I didn't like how they were mourning.
11.30 like the one you get from making shit up about people. The more you write the more alike I see we are.
"Anonymous Anonymous said...
I just can't imagine a life where my idea of a good time was to tell people that I didn't like how they were mourning.
April 22, 2009 11:35 PM"
Be thankful.
You have wasted enough time on this heartless person and so have I.
Making up, what is made up? Your comment was there for all to see and so is the cat and mouse game you played anonymously after it. It is all right there. You admitted it.
11:36 you are right. I can't believe I sat here for a half an hour.
I was so shocked and upset I had to get it out of my system. I have lost people too. If someone said something like that to me I would throw something at them. And it wouldn't take me as long LOL.
Whoever the person was who made up the "curse" (I still think 616) didn't need to.
Anyone who could treat someone like the way MJ treats, is already in misery.
Well I have to write a paper. This was a waste of time.
Sorry blog. I had to get this off my chest and now it's off.
Good luck not Becki. :) Take a deep breath.... release it.... Some people are not worth that much stress.
Dudes, for reals, stop stressing, that shit will kill you.
Mmmm a nice hot bath.
Good night!
"You would call her out on it in public... all anonymous like? Balls, please."
Sounds like you Carrie, was it?
Enjoy your bath, it is very soothing.
And good luck on your paper, not Becky. I actually miss college and writing papers and crap like that.
Now that you've all gotten it off your chests, does this mean you'll stop talking about it? Please?
Dear God in Heaven, please???!!!
Nope, I don't anon anymore, if I had something to say, it would have my name on it, I promise.
I wish you'd write mine for me.
What's it about? Literature I'm semi good at, but I only have a passing acquaintance with science. And I totally wrote papers for other people in college, usually for a six-pack. I was a total geek, I looooved writing papers, and using my oh so state of the art thermal typewriter.
616 didn't write that curse.
She doesn't have that "I Know What Scares You Insight" That I Have.
I believe I left a longggg posting back on the eighteenth.
Check it out!!
signed.
The Dun Dun Dun Anon!!
I think I'll add bubbles to my bath and a glass of wine to drink.
And be thankful for the people in my life and hold thoughts of them close.
There has been so much loss on this blog lately.
I'm sorry for everyone's loss, deal with it however you feel is best for you, you should not be judged.
I hope you all can start to heal soon, youa re in my prayers.
I not worth it yet you keep coming on here to talk about me. If I am not worth it just stop.
The making up stuff is the funeral crashing, that 6 made the curse or that she cheered me on.
I really do think I know who you are but I have no proof but as you or the other anon said about me keep it up the only one it's going to hurt is you.
My paper is poli sci, I hate it.
so much DRAMA........
Shut up MJ, you did your damage and now it is over. Take a bath or have champagne and go to bed.
"
I really do think I know who you are"
This is called IRONY.
Ewww, poli sci, yeah, I kinda spent that class nodding off. Good luck though! I'm sure you're all full of insightful stuff and will do well.
No I need lot of help with that class. It's hard not to keep checking my iphone, soooo boring...
the paper is still blank....
11.50 I did shut up but people kept going on about me. IF they have the right to say what they think about me than I should beable to say something back.
I guess that right only applies to you.
Oh wait why am I bothering.
Now I'm double jealous, in college, and with an iphone!
Mobilizing participation in modern politics..... bla bla....
"IF they have the right to say what they think about me than I should beable to say something back."
Even when someone didn't say anything to or about you you should be able to say something back.
But that doesn't mean that you SHOULD. And sometimes, it shows that you are a bad person.
"Anonymous Anonymous said...
Mobilizing participation in modern politics..... bla bla....
April 22, 2009 11:57 PM"
Uhm.... Yeh good luck with that! That's out of my league!!
hello, i'm back!
had a phone call...*grin*...and was trying to figure out how to transfer files from old man laptop to my flash drive. the old man doesn't want to recognize my flash drive.
hmph.
Anon I didn't tell you you couldn't talk about me I just asked you to email me.
You can let lose all you want on me. Go on and on and non. There will be no one to stand up for me or to call you out.
Now I want to take a bubble bath too. But I don't have a tub just a stand up shower. Sob sob.
MJ your damage is done. Go to bed or read a book or something.
PolySci anon there is a web page called The Monkey Cage that might be able to help you.
WOW
Thanks. I should finish it. Thanks.
Ha I said Thanks twice. Sorry!
Anonymous said...
MJ your damage is done. Go to bed or read a book or something.
April 23, 2009 12:00 AM
Why don't you join me. We are so much a like yo and me after all. It would be fun.
I don't want to talk about MJ any more.
Give her the last word.
I want to talk about the fact that my sister has a crush on Zac Efron. what the fuck???
who is zac efron?
A teeny actor from a teeny movie.
I like the KOL anons... I'm starting to get into them!
12:06,
Lol are you serious? Zac Efron is fugly. I don't like them way too pretty boys. They creep me out.
http://teenhollywood411.files.wordpress.com/2008/10/zac-efron-portada.jpg
I totally have a dirty old lady crush on Zac Efron. I mean, not in an actual want to do him sort of way, but I don't mind checking out pics of him jumping a parking meter and all flexing his young studly parts. And I will admit to having a sticker on my laptop of him, but it was more for the fact that he is so gayly prancing that it cracked me up. :)
I have to admit he has a six pack though.
Young studly parts LOL
http://geekusa.files.wordpress.com/2008/12/kings_of_leon7214.jpg
Brrrrrr
speaking of brrr my bath waters got cold.... I want my bath. Sweet KOL dreams!!!
oh, ok, yeah i've seen him in tv interviews lately. huh. don't know much about him, but he sems to be pretty serious about becoming a good actor.
it will be interesting to see if he will achieve that, or just be another pretty actor.
12:11,
Thank you. I rather look at KOL than Zac Efron.
good night anon, hey there carrie!
Have a nice bath! BC, the Zefron doesn't do it for you? I just think it's funny that I remember him being on this show called Summerland, and he had a big ole gap in his teeth that magically disappeared, plus, he had some weird hair going on. I would have never pegged him for the next Hollywood teen pinup!
Hey there carrie. Lol, nope he doesn't do anything for me.
Goodnight anon
Hey TJ!
how's it going, besides admiring boys? lol
It's okay, went back to work tonight, I felt kinda "spacy" in my head, but I'm sure I'll get back in the groove (or rut, more like) soon enough. I am missing the southern weather, that's for sure! How was your day?
it was a pretty slow day, actually. last year the opening day of the quilt show had the store packed butt-to-butt apparently, but attendance is down this year.
and then store drama dragged it out several hours longer...bleh.
but it ended very nicely. :)
it always takes awhile to return to the usual way of doing things when you've been gone, especially when it was as sudden a trip as your was, carrie. hang in there, consume your beverage of choice and you'll make it.
"I brought it up because I never saw anything so disgusting on my whole time on the internet as what you did to her. It shocks you. Why couldn't you just leave her the fuck alone.
Fucking shocking and disgusting."
They must spend most of their time at NickJr . com or at the Seaseme Street forum.
WOW is right.
Ha at butt-to-butt, that's quite the imagery! Glad it ended nicely though. :) Speaking of ending, I think my day is over, time for me to crawl in the bed and shove my earplugs in because I can hear Terry sawing logs upstairs. I'm glad he's here though. Oh ha, I think he just woke himself up. Goodnight!
good night carrie, good to chat with you!
Goodnight carrie
actually, i think that's a good idea carrie. i'm going to head to bed too -- my sleep was interrupted last night. *heh*
good night to all who pass by. :)
goodnight tj
mayo,
one of the things i like to do these days with your poems when you first post them is to read them without trying to interpret them. i used to try to look between each line and glimpse all the meanings you'd layered in, but lately, i've been letting that happen at a slower pace. i allow myself to enjoy the surface pleasures of your poetry.
so tonight, your poem is something almost tactile to me, just rhythm and the shapes of words and fleeting suggested imagery.
tonight, i just admire that your poem, like all pleasurable poems, is full of hints, a story left deliciously half-unexplained.
thank you mayo. :)
good night.
woah!
fun times here
again
lol anon, pretty much.
hi I'm home from work and had a pretty good day, but have a student coming so can't hang about
so a pop in and say "hi" comment
so
Hi!!!
hi anon, hi BC
hope you're both well
sweet dreams TJ
Hi ergo!!! Hope you're well.
I gotta call it a night. I got a test first thing in the morning. goodnight ergo, sweet dreams. Goodnight anon.
Mayo
So I told you last night about the Japanese artwork I found stored away. I’m not sure if the painting is done on bamboo or maybe rattan. All I do know is it’s really quite beautiful. The material is weaved into a beautiful pattern then the artist painted the cranes. I wish I knew something about the artist. I finally remembered this came from an estate that had so many beautiful Japanese items. Yeah, I used to collect Japanese items too. I have cloisonné vases, dolls and tapestries. Oh and I have a beautiful silk kimono. Anyway, I decided to hang this one for a while. I hope the pictures come out okay but PhotoBucket and I have a very problematic relationship. The fucker hates me. Anyway I hope I am able to share the beauty of this artwork with you.
Well hope all is well in your world. Take care.
Night Mayo
Elena
Japanese picture 1Japanese picture 2
I see Blogger is still having a bit of trouble with links running together. Oh well, if you want to see them they are there.
goodnight BC sweet dreams
hi elena, it looks really beautiful, and old too
Hi Ergo
Yep it's old. Very old.
How are you?
I just wrote a huge comment. I didn't post, why do I do that?
Hi everyone. I've missed you. ♥
Love After Love
"The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other's welcome,
And say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was yourself.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life."
Derek Walcott
I may be too late. Looks like everyone is gone at the moment.
*strokes chin* what to do?
ooops sorry elena
I'm really good thanks
and Hi anima!!
I had to go make a new house box for my guinea pigs, the old one was just cardboard and a bit icky now, this one is my old catbox lined with a cat litter box plastic liner filled with straw for easy cleanout!!
and hello g'nite!!
UH, I won't even ask.
Goddamn.
People need to get lives. Seriously.
If you have this much time to troll other people's comments, then you have time to do something constructive in life.
And I see Anons shit all over my request for peace. Nice one.
That said, anyone here?
Hi mianth, I just had pizza for dinner and am watching Ghost Whisperer while checking emails
how are you?
I am good ergo! I slept too long! I got up earlier but LOST was a rerun and I was tired so I passed back out.
I think I am going to cook dinner soon. :) I know its morning, but I hate morning food, except cereal.
Ghost Whisperer is a good show. I haven't watched in a while, but I believe they killed off the husband? That sucks if so - he was a cutie.
I will prob. watch ghost hunters while I cook if the DVR caught it.
I am trying to read back here, but well, I said it above!
PS - Do you think the mirror allusion in this post has anything to do with Mayo likening this place to a mirror/reflection?
Curious.
Anima - Good to see you! *hugs*
I hope you are well?!
Elena - beautiful image. Thank you for sharing. :)
SisM - I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I hope you can find a method of treatment that works for you with less side effects.
And I have no Twitter or FB either. People keep bugging me to sign up for them, but I can't be bothered.
And speaking of Twitter, it looks as if I am responding to things copied and pasted from there, though I had assumed them to be original comments and treated them as such. Sorry, my ignorance.
Poli Sci Anon - Its called Karma. He's a bitch! You should have been researching your topic and instead you were busy rubbing salt into people's wounds. As someone who is recently bereaved and certified to teach poli sci, I feel free to tell you the truth.
Mayo - Please check my reflection/mirror comments as I am concerned that maybe the post refers to this place and all the BS. And as for other meanings of the poem, not to be sappy, but, in your heart, you know who you are. Take some time to meditate, it always helps.
And please see Ergo's analysis.
Ergo - Rereading your analysis of the post last night, I think all of the above may be the correct answer, to a greater or lesser extent depending on the individual. If we only stopped to think with such clarity as you do.
BTW Anons - Mayo (whomever he or she may be) does acknowledge many of us, just under the radar as it were, to avoid the BS that some of you bring.
And yes, to respond to another anon, I do recall hearing 'its just a blog' when someone actually accused me of using my niece for 'attention' when she was very ill. That both saddened me and pissed me off.
If you were actually able to garner people's attention in real life, you would know, as I do, that its not a good thing.
Take Care and Have a Great One Everybody!
PS - To all the British who celebrate St. George's, may you enjoy the holiday!
♥
I used to think I hated Zac Efron, but then I'd never seen him in anything. I used to avoid that High School Musical shit like the plague. But then I went to see 17 Again because I like Matthew Perry and Zac kind of won me over.
He's a good actor (really!) and he has amazingly expressive blue eyes.
One thing I have noticed about a lot of you people is that you are very set in your ways and you don't give new things a chance. Like Kings of Leon, for instance. How many of you have not even clicked on any of the performance links that have been posted here, but think you don't like them based on...what? Also, if all you've heard is Sex on Fire you haven't heard Kings of Leon. Just like if all you've seen of Zac Efron are pictures on teeny mags, you don't know Zac Efron.
Gerard Way was on teeny mags at one point too.
You are allowed to get into more than one new band (translation: a band formed in this century) other than MCR.
hey Miranth I do recall Mayo saying this blog was like a mirror for him a few times, the relation to this post brings interesting questions if that is the interpretive direction you take. Many things to ponder.
But who really ever knows but Mayo himself
and thanks for the appreciation of my analysis, it came to me as I pondered the general concept while I showered (as you do LOL) see what I write for Mayo tonight too.
They did kill off the hubby in Ghost Whisperer, however his spirit entered the body recently vacated by another so the actor remains in the show, eye candy qualities are retained ;]
7:09 I think it is most important to try new things, sure some you may not like a lot of it but now and then you find someone or something that really syncs with you. And how would you ever know if you don't try!
There is a whole wonderful world of choice out there and to limit oneself is a real shame. Hope you continue to look at new things or be open to rethinking things you may have passed over before..
..and may I suggest MUSE if you haven't listened before?? lol
gotta give them a plug ;]
I have some students that suggest bands I may like and sometimes they are right which opens a whole new door for me to explore
Ergo - I look forward to reading what you write later, no pressure!
I'll have to check Ghost Whisperer out then! ;)
7:09 - I second ergo's support of Muse! I also like Ashes of Soma, Sirenia, the Killers, blessthefall, Atreyu, Bullet for My Valentine, Lacuna Coil etc. Too many to name! And those are just the rock derivatives. :) But I will check out KOL again.
Mayo
Mirrors are really interesting things.
You know the reason they suggest for the vast majority of people not liking photos of themselves, is that we always see ourselves as a mirror image, whereas a photo isn't. In a mirror our right is on our right, left on our left, but in a photo our right is on the left and vice versa, so to us we appear backwards to what we normally see. However that is how we are seen by other people. So if we don't like ourselves in a photo, then we don't like how we look to others, but only really because it is an "us" we are totally unfamiliar. So therefore do we see ourselves as we really appear to others, or are we judging it from a perspective which by it's very nature means we are unable to view ourselves as we really appear? So which is right? Can we learn to see from a perspective quite foreign to our usual and if we did would it give us a clearer view of ourselves and therefore a greater insight into our strengths and weaknesses?
Things to think about
much love EP xx
SS
hope you like what you see in the mirror each time you look. But does a mirror show anything when we aren't looking in it? Is there another aspect to reality we cannot observe, as by observing we render it non-existent?
I give you these lyrics as they are one of my favourites, just because of the concepts they suggest (I bolded my favourites)
Where Your Eyes Don't Go - They Might Be Giants
Where your eyes don't go a filthy scarecrow waves its broomstick arms
And does a parody of each unconscious thing you do
When you turn around to look it's gone behind you
On its face it's wearing your confused expression
Where your eyes don't goWhere your eyes don't go a part of you is hovering
It's a nightmare that you'll never be discovering
You're free to come and go or talk like Kurtis Blow
But there's a pair of eyes in back of your head
Every jumbled pile of person has a thinking part that wonders
What the part that isn't thinking isn't thinking ofShould you worry when the skullhead is in front of you
Or is it worse because it's always waiting where your eyes don't go?
Where your eyes don't go a part of you is hovering
It's a nightmare that you'll never be discovering
You're free to come and go or talk like Kurtis Blow
But there's a pair of eyes in back of your head
Where your eyes don't go a filthy scarecrow waves its broomstick arms
And does a parody of each unconscious thing you do
When you turn around to look it's gone behind you
On its face it's wearing your confused expression
Where your eyes don't go lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
Miranth I like Bullet for my Valentine too and the Killers very mush, I can also add Alkaline Trio and Kill Hannah, and I only choose them as they are on my current "listen to a lot" mental list, and that changes regularly, so ask me again next week!!
take care!!
mush = much
*waits for elena to come in and yell at 7:09 for using the term 'you people'*
it's not about the message here, it's how it is said and who says it.
Anon
Sorry I'm just not in the yelling mood. And for that matter I don't really yell all that much, do I?
I wouldn't fret about a few people refusing to give KoL a chance, 7:09. They have a much broader demographic than MCR and they aren't hurting for fans.
I get your point that people should be more open-minded, but MCR fans are notorious for not respecting others' opinions.
KoL anons would probably be well advised to promote their band elsewhere.
Well then I guess that's cleared up. Anyway I have a book to recommend to anyone who loves "The Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy."
It is titled "Don't Panic" by Neil Gaiman. This book tells about Douglas's life and all about the Hitchhiker books. Also about the radio show, TV shows ect. A very interesting read.
On the DJ it says "it's certainly the most outstandingly brilliant book to have been written about The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy since this morning." Yep Adams gave that review himself. LOL
Oh and lets talk new music..
Every hear of "Crooked X"
Go to YouTube at have a listen. They are outstanding. Listen first and then read up on them. I think you will be amazed. I really believe they have a bright future.
Hi, just popping in to say that I gotta be up early in the morning so no late night blogs for me tonight.
Have a great weekend everyone.
xxxx
It's okay Elena. All the people who "matter" here still think you're "cool".
it's nice to see the epic stories kapunua's built up in her head have completely diverged from reality.
Hope you have a great weekend too, MissT
Anon, uh... Okay. I'm pretty far from "cool" but if you think so I guess that's good.
Hello Mayo, SS, Elena, Ergo, Miranth, Sweetcheeks, MissT, Martha, TJ, Carrie, various anons and various lurkers... everyone!!!!
How are you all today? Well and good, I hope!
Speaking of new bands (as in bands you may not have listened to before), might I recommend some BLACK LABEL SOCIETY???!!!
I just had a shredgasm watching this live performance:
BLS In This River LIVEO_O OMG and WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There are no words. There simply are no words to describe the amazing talent and musical ability of Zakk Wylde!
Ozzy did pick him for no reason, ya know!
;)
Ergo: You're pretty amazing yourself! After reading your latest comments, I just wanted to make sure you knew that!
*smoooooooch*
Sweetcheeks: Check out ZAKK!!!! I know I posted the music video for his tribute to Dime; but, you have to watch that live performance!
How's Bugsy and Chocolate?
Elena: Crooked X, you say? I shall have give them a look see and listen to!
JAZZ FEST starts tomorrow!!!!! All I can say about that is: YAY!!!!
That is all for now. I just wanted to share my "shredgasm" with you all! It made me EXTRA HAPPY! Hopefully, it will do the same for some of you.
:P
Have a great day, everyone!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ!!!
Ooops! That should have been:
"Ozzy didN'T pick him for no reason"
*hugs and kisses Elena on her way out*
Kisses Wendy right back..
Please do listen to them and then read about them. I think you will be amazed.
*runs back in once more*
Did I mention "such precision with that tongue" at 8:18?! Ha!
Remember boys and girls, practice makes perfect!
;)
I shall do, Elena! Right now, I need another shower!
:P
Ohh.. Sandy Ann said to give Jake all her love!
I'll talk to you later!
good morning!!
Elena I haven't read "Don't Panic" but I have "Hitchhiker" the biography by M Simpson. Douglas Adams was a fascinating man. I will have to look into the other one
thanks wendy *smooooch*, and I'll check the vid in a bit after I do the morning organising
Good morning to you Ergo
I will include the book in the next package I send your way. I'm just waiting for the UA to arrive so I can mail lots of stuff at one time.
All you need is beauty, brains, a good body and balance
"handsome millionaire taking applications for a wife"
go get him!
*jumps back to avoid stampede*
rawkstah's should use the same criteria...
3 out of 4 ain't bad for rawkstah's anon. ^_~
Some get lucky and get all 4.
oh elena you spoil me!! really you do!
I am still collecting things for you, I don't get to the shops as much so I am taking a bit longer than I want to :/ but it'll get there eventually!!
anon if only I weren't too short, possibly not as "healthily bodied" as he'd wish (lol), and already married I'd be beating a path to his door......though one wonders if the "billions of bad dates" were due to the women or him. Surely you'd have to start thinking that if this is always happening to you, maybe the problem is you, not every other woman you come across.....but good luck to him, you've got to try anything I suppose and being an incredibly good looking awesome billionaire you can employ someone to weed out the best possibilities.
Heck for that cash I'd matchmake for him!!
"Surely you'd have to start thinking that if this is always happening to you, maybe the problem is you,"
He's too great a catch for the problem to be him. Didn't you read his bio. He's a smart, handsome, successful, hard working self made millionaire and an amazing man. It has to be those billions of women. Maybe he should have offered to put them on the payroll. Might have been able to get a second date that way.
Ergo I sent you an article I found today I think will interest you.
"Surely you'd have to start thinking that if this is always happening to you, maybe the problem is you,"
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That's what I thought when I read the article, but then another part of me was wondering if the whole thing is just some scam.
thanks elena, I'm just getting ready for work
Aerialist
Her life is the wire—she can never come down.
Sometimes she stops and sits on it to eat,
even sleeps there, her whole body stretched
as the wire is stretched. In sleep
she keeps her balance,
feet curled like a monkey’s
the habit of grasping:
she has never fallen.
She never will, not entirely.
Once in a while a slip
causes her to hang for a moment by her hands.
It isn’t the danger of falling that slices through her dreams
but the wire itself, drawing
a line through her body,
leaving a mark on the soles of her feet,
her buttocks, her back.
If she were to cut the wire (she dreams of this)
the sky would break like a mirror into the sea
and nothing would be whole again.
Virgin of the Apocalypse standing on a crescent moon,
she is keeping
Heaven and Earth apart.
King Arthur: [after Arthur's cut off both of the Black Knight's arms] Look, you stupid Bastard. You've got no arms left.
Black Knight: Yes I have.
King Arthur: *Look*!
Black Knight: Tis but a flesh wound.
__________
Yep I just found my Monty Python and the Holy Grail Black Knight Action Figure. Forgot I had it. Now I want to stop working and go watch the movie!
Elena, does it spurt real blood?
The Elephant is Slow to Mate
The elephant, the huge old beast,
is slow to mate;
he finds a female, they show no haste
they wait
for the sympathy in their vast shy hearts
slowly, slowly to rouse
as they loiter along the river-beds
and drink and browse
and dash in panic through the brake
of forest with the herd,
and sleep in massive silence, and wake
together, without a word.
So slowly the great hot elephant hearts
grow full of desire,
and the great beasts mate in secret at last,
hiding their fire.
Oldest they are and the wisest of beasts
so they know at last
how to wait for the loneliest of feasts
for the full repast.
They do not snatch, they do not tear;
their massive blood
moves as the moon-tides, near, more near
till they touch in flood.
- by D. H. Lawrence
what a great poem, anon. :)
i especially liked g'nite's poem selection last night, though. that one has been a favorite of mine for a long time. it's such a wonderful way to think about oneself.
hello everybody! just got home about a half-hour ago or so, had dinner with my boss on the company dime (she wanted to thank me for my support of her in yesterday's drama).
loved your pics of the painting elena, that is is cool. glad you've decided to keep it for awhile!
Piano
Softly, in the dusk, a woman is singing to me;
Taking me back down the vista of years, till I see
A child sitting under the piano, in the boom of the tingling strings
And pressing the small, poised feet of a mother who smiles as she sings.
In spite of myself, the insidious mastery of song
Betrays me back, till the heart of me weeps to belong
To the old Sunday evenings at home, with winter outside
And hymns in the cosy parlour, the tinkling piano our guide.
So now it is vain for the singer to burst into clamour
With the great black piano appassionato. The glamour
Of childish days is upon me, my manhood is cast
Down in the flood of remembrance, I weep like a child for the past.
D. H. Lawrence
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I like this one
Hey Amy and TJ
Amy this is what the box says...
That manufactures wish to apologize for the following disclaimer: Black Knight does not posses any special affect blood spurting mechanism, nor does he at any time taunt or goad you into sword play. He also shall in no way hop about on one leg or claim invincibility. Nor will the Black Knight come in any other color. If he happens to do any of these things please send him back for a full refund.
It is possible, however unlikely, that he may kick Arthur in the side of the head as he prays. PLEASE IGNORE THAT LAST COMMENT. It was a renegade statement and shall not be heard from again.
i need to see that movie again, it's been waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too long. :)
How was your day, TJ?
hi everybody. i like this one too.
"Our Day is Over
Our day is over, night comes up
shadows steal out of the earth.
Shadows, shadows
wash over our knees and splash between our thighs,
our day is done;
we wade, we wade, we stagger, darkness rushes between our stones,
we shall drown.
Our day is over
night comes up.
D H Lawrence
oh wow! i have blog on my phone! never got it b4 still working it out. i am out sitting on x country course atm. hello anyone
hi there bc. :)
it was pretty long, elena! but i feel like i did good work, cut fabric really fast and kept the customers smiling with my chatter, too.
and there was a documentary crew in the shop today! they're doing a doc on the town, and the quilt show is a big ol' segment of it. they were filimg everything, and stayed at my table for awhile, filming me cutting fabric and all that. it was weird, but fun. i even had to sign a release.
don't know when it'll come out, or if i'll be in it, but that was neat. :)
what did you do today?
hi ergo!!! *waves*
i'm liking all these d.h. lawrence poems. yum!
Hi anon, ergo, tj
Hey elena
hi amy tj elena bc anon. i watched mp & hg yesterday
Hallo Elena, Teej, BC and Ergo!
Hallo Amy
hi amyranth. :)
ergo, i remember the first time i saw that movie -- i was about 12 and a friend and i had been listening to cassettes of the skits nonstop for months. she spent the night and we rented it, and the moment they came clip-clopping over the hill with coconuts, i was won over completely.
Teej, my favorite part is:
"And in the frozen land of Na'dor they were forced to eat Robin's minstrels, and there was much rejoicing. (Yay!)"
i like the opening titles and the llamas. i am really proud i figured phone out. now just have 2 remember how.
Anonymous said...
"Surely you'd have to start thinking that if this is always happening to you, maybe the problem is you,"
He's too great a catch for the problem to be him. Didn't you read his bio. He's a smart, handsome, successful, hard working self made millionaire and an amazing man. It has to be those billions of women. Maybe he should have offered to put them on the payroll. Might have been able to get a second date that way.
April 23, 2009 7:01 PM
I know who you're talking about!
Batman, right?
Right?
Um...hello?
Hey everybody, what'd I miss?
i like the opening titles and the llamas. i am really proud i figured phone out. now just have 2 remember how.
BATMAN?
Word of the Day:
SHREDGASM
as coined by Wendy.
I like.
ok still kinks lol. hi j
*waves*
Goodnight everyone! See you later!
Well, it sounded like Batman to me, Amy. If it's not, who IS it about?
Batman's hot. Just sayin'.
And not Christian Bale, either. I'm talkin' THE BATMAN. Oh yeah.
Hey Ergo! New phone, or old phone with new feature?
I'm trying to catch up from earlier. Am reading the poems. Just now going to read the elephant one. Be back.
hello j! and good night amyranth? or were you joking...?
i think i ought to be trundling off, i just fell asleep between this comment and the last one. oops.
Hello again everyone
Had to throw out the hubby. Now that he's off to work I'm back.
TJ the movie star!! How cool.
Hey BC and J
Oh so now I know where Ergo went. We were having a nice chat with text messages. The blog lured her away.
Goodnight Amy, and possibly goodnight TJ! Sorry to, uh, run you guys off? ;)
Anon Posting DH Lawrence Poems, I like the ones you've posted so far. Are there any others you have in your collection?
same phone. just got it 2 work. might b signal hasn't worked b4 but i'm in town. sitting on dirt road watching kids run past.
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, Batman!
no autographs, please! *hee*
j., you didn't run me off, nothing like that at all -- this week has me pretty dead beat, and i need to get up a bit earlier in the a.m. to take a shower since i didn't get one in tonight.
i think i really amm going to go to bed, guys. i just finished my laundry, and my eyes are still all e_e
talk to you all tomorrow, i hope?
sweet dreams!
Yeah, TJ, I know I didn't run you off, it's ok! Hope you get some good rest tonight so you can handle the Cornucopia of Quilters tomorrow! *saw that you liked my suggestion* *is pleased*
12.09, :D. Although THAT Batman wasn't hot, either. Just...cheesy.
Hey Elena, what'd you do today? Is Fred still working on her project?
Goodnight tj, amy sweet dreams. Hey there J, how are you?
Night TJ
Hellooooo Batman
The Enkindled Spring
This spring as it comes bursts up in bonfires green,
Wild puffing of emerald trees, and flame-filled bushes,
Thorn-blossom lifting in wreaths of smoke between
Where the wood fumes up and the watery, flickering rushes.
I am amazed at this spring, this conflagration
Of green fires lit on the soil of the earth, this blaze
Of growing, and sparks that puff in wild gyration,
Faces of people streaming across my gaze.
And I, what fountain of fire am I among
This leaping combustion of spring? My spirit is tossed
About like a shadow buffeted in the throng
Of flames, a shadow that's gone astray, and is lost.
D H Lawrence
Actually J Fred finished that project. I'll send you an e-mail later so you can see.
mayo,
something has happened to me this week.
as i've had to do my job quickly and efficiently, i've improved at it dramatically, but i've also developed a bit of style -- i have a "patter" now almost. i want the ladies who come in to buy fabric to be happy, i want them to think of shopping in our store as the highlight of their trip to paducah.
i don't know why i feel that way -- i think part of it is because my boss -- who is a sweet and funny lady -- gets such shortshrift from the california uppity-ups, here in town for the show. they think she's just a dumb hick from kentucky i guess, but i saw how much her regular customers love her, and come to get their fabric from her and no one else. she makes everyone who walks in the door feel like a friend. it's amazing.
maybe part of it is also because i have been given a lot of responsiblity at this job, and so quickly -- this is only my third week, but here i am, the first one at the shop, opening the place and taking care of the morning till and making decisions about product and employees...
and my responsibilities are only going to get greater -- she really hired me to be her assistant, to run the shop so she can take days off (which she hasn't been able to do forever). after quilt week, i'll be her only employee.
that trust in me, and that responsibility (when i never had a job that wasn't "standard worker bee" before) makes me feel very loyal to her, and to the shop.
weird.
so when i'm cutting fabric, i'm chatting up the customers, being strangely super-bubbly, making jokes, admiring their fabric...i am onstage.
and it's fun.
so very, very weird.
take care of yourself, mayo, and good night, friend.
TJ, I get you, totally. That's me in the deli. I get to act for a few hours. Sleep well.
Hey BC! I'm tired, but otherwise alright. And you? :)
Elena, that would be most wonderful. I'm sure Fred did a bang-up job. As usual. ;D
Anon, another lovely poem. Very illustrative of the season. Keep going if you have more, please?
Hey Carrie, how're you doing?
Sorta crappy. Sorta ok. It varies.
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