Drill Bit
Tuesday I hear it’s going around;
I’m off...again, knuckled white.
Wednesday I will talk myself into
Round about routes to denial.
If I say it, then it won’t come true.
And, I find comfortable restraint; bound to
Repeating it over and over and over. And again,
It feels better that way, medicated meditation.
Then Thursday everything is white. I eat
From a bland full service spectrum buffet,
Plated and nothing touches.
I won’t even sip from her cup.
By Friday I am unable to tolerate human contact.
And, I count back to the last
In order to find spared time. I’ll be free-
On Saturday what is in the air will kill me.
So, I hold my breath between rooms. Suffocated,
Sunday I become completely restricted.
I will not accept from anyone, anything
That has been anywhere other than here.
Those days, they wear me hard
And to the end, so I have become
Exhausted from the fight. I finally sleep.
Then Monday brings me back, slightly.
With a negligent handshake,
So that again Tuesday I am found,
Wringing dry, anticeptic hands.
I will not allow myself to open a door
I stay; refusal and restraint, withholding.
p.s. its got quite a grip.
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«Oldest ‹Older 1601 – 1800 of 4924 Newer› Newest»His girl has gained another 2 pounds, Elena!!! Jake's gonna have extra tail now!!!!
Yay first!
Pssst... Elena: Jake did like that tail, didn't he?
;)
Sandy Ann says she will get "in shape" before the wedding (if he really, really, REALLY wants a 'lite' version of the original).
And, she said to send him her love and a big, wet kiss!
Sweetcheeks: YAY for both Skid Row and Machine Head! How's Chocolate doing?
mayo,
we started on a new house this afternoon, a well-kept little ranch house owned by well-kept little woman. she must have been in her eighties, and took charge of us the minute she invited us inside.
her home isn't cluttered, but everything there is clearly something she has had and cared for for many years. it's a grandmotherly house (and i'm not talking about doilies, you understand). it was so comforting, i almost wanted to stay, and make a friend of the homeowner, just to have a grandma again.
but we're hired help, so i minded my place and performed my tasks. instead, i did my usual thing of piecing together an idea of who she is from the items around me as i dusted them.
she had a sewing table (a very tidy and compact one), and granddaughters, if the old barbies piled on top of the steamer trunk were any indication. she's alone now, but in the b&w portrait you could see her husband's almost stubborn personality, and herself, a youthful gamine with a spark of wit in her eye. her bookshelf had the usual flotsam & jetsam, but also a large number of nursing books, and even a few old sex manuals -- the medical kind, from the 40's and 50's, to judge from the typeface on the spines.
i'm sure i'll learn more as we clean the rest of her house next week, but just what i saw today alone had me feeling pleasantly melancholy when we left. to meet her, she was just an old lady with a mop of a dog, living alone, the last one in a house that had seen a family come and go. but there is a whole life there, too.
pleasant because she is just as complicated and intriguing as anyone else, with corners that hide her true self from the casual glance.
melancholy because so much of that life will just disappear with her. how imaginary our lives are, afterwards. we are just stories and memories.
it frightens me, to be so fragile, to be lost, someday.
i remember sitting on the bed there in my seattle hotel, touching the bones beneath my cheek and suddenly having a clear image of my own skull. it was an irresistable, uncomfortable moment, like poking at an almost healed wound.
i don't want to be just a collection of scattered clues. i don't want to be a hermit standing on my section of the cliff, shouting my solitary yawp -- as in that poem a few days ago. i want my books to be full of me, and i want to write them from within the midst of life.
i want, not to die, but to become a book on shelves, loved and looked upon with fondness, and shared.
but right now, i'm going to go get some sleep. *grin*
good night mayo. may you succeed in accomplishing whatever it is you hope to do, whether you're good at it or not.
be unforgettable.
I want to go to a concert so bad no matter how shitty the economy is. I am keeping my fingers crossed that MH will do that headlining tour that I've been hearing about.
*keeps fingers crossed*
Chocolate is doing okay sugarplum, but it misses being outside, but it's too cold.
How's Miss Bingles?
Congratulations sweetcheeks!!!!
*throws confetti, beads, blows horns, bangs drums, shoots off sky rockets and squirts whipped cream*
I haven't done that in awhile. It felt good! Especially that whipped cream part!
I could use that whip cream for other things sugarplum ^_~
Thank you for the congrats! :D
Goodnight TJ, sweet dreams.
I had to scan my Ipod for any problems it might have, and it's deleting half of the songs I had on it. Now I might have to start over again D:
Goodnight TJ! Sweet, unforgettable dreams!
No, I shall not start singing Nat King Cole's "Unforgettable". No, I won't...
*starts getting jittery*
*tries to get mind off song*
What Skid Row cd are you listening to, sweetcheeks?
Bleeding Chaos said...
I could use that whip cream for other things sugarplum ^_~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ummm hmmmmm....
;)
J's chocolate sauce with paint brush could come in handy too!
*wink again*
I'm talking in terms of ICE CREAM purposes, of course!
Oh my I wandered off doing research, sorry.
Wendy tell Sandy Ann that Jake likes a healthy girl. She doesn't need to diet for him at all.
That sounds delicious sugarplum ^_~
I'm listening to 18 and life. It's a great song so far
Blasted phoneline!
*shakes fist at*
What's wrong Amy?
I forgot: Sugarplum, thanks for that really interesting Dani interview you emailed. I enjoyed it
*is now retrieving the 140 songs that the damn Ipod lost, including CoF*
Grrr
Sorry ladies! I'm doing four internet things at once and (as you both know) doing that gets me dizzy(er)!
;)
Elena: Sandy Ann is very relieved to hear that. I am too! My poor girl can't possible eat less 'food' than she eats. I think I now know what happened to all the little finch that used to be in my yard! They became doggie treats! I think she might have caught a few (very slow) squirrels too. Thank goodness I was not around to see the carnage! YUK!
Sweetcheeks: Don't listen to "I Remember You". It will get me depressed!
;)
Hallo BC, Wendy, Elena, and anyone else poking around!
I was just gabbing with The Punks for a bit and my phone line cut out. Geez, the phone company doesn't have to be so pushy!
What's going on around here?
Amy!!!!
*pounce tackle hug and smooch*
How are you? How are J and L?
Bre sent the pictures of your costume to me. WOW!!! Color and paint me impressed. You should go PRO! At costume making that is!
;)
You should go PRO! At costume making that is!
;)
LOL
Yes... costumes... yesss..
And I'm not bad Wendy. I'm sure if the phone hadn't kicked me off I'd still be gabbing. I can't imagine J or L got a word in edgewise! Sorry girls!!
It was really exciting getting to chat with them though, it would be nice to eventually talk with everyone here.
Hey Amy
Good to see you
You're welcome, sweetcheeks. I thought that was a very interesting interview too! Of course, I think all his interviews are very interesting!
Good luck with the retrieving. How dare your ipod delete CoF songs?!!! We MUST do some Voodoo on it!
;)
Oh no. That ipod didn't lose any HIM or Nightwish songs, did it? It's the death penalty for that ipod if it did that!
Lol I won't sugarplum.
Oh Amy, I am downloading all of the songs I lost on my Ipod. It's gonna take me most of the night :/
That would be nice, wouldn't it Amy?!
I still owe Elena and J and L a phone call. Mya and Miranth too!
Yikes! Sorry ladies. I think I better spend some time on the phone this weekend!
Send me your number Amy. I'll gab with you too! I think we need to do one of those "conference" calls.
Amyranth said...
Yes... costumes... yesss..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well, with the current economy and all...
;)
Hallo Elena! Good to see you too, how was your week?
Wendy, I'll pass the number along in email.
Conference calling, huh? Do I get to sit in a fancy black leather chair?
BC, do you need anything I might be able to pass along? I have only a few Cradle songs, but I might have some punk you'd be interested in.
Amy
How was my week you ask....
It sucked, on toast with no fuckin' jelly.
My that sounds rather negative doesn't it?
Amazing how Cherry Beer makes things sound so different.
Sugarplum, it lost some HIM, nightwish, MH, whatever other band I had on there :/
I do have some of the cd's so I'm uploading them on the computer and downloading the songs from there
You can sit in a fancy black leather chair, wearing fancy black leather chaps while holding a fancy fringed black leather whip (with feathers) if you want to Amy!
I promise not to take pictures!
;)
Sweetcheeks: I could send you some great Charon songs too!
Elena: They make something called "Cherry Beer"?
0_0
The wonders of modern technology, eh? Don't let Jake have any! Sandy Ann likes her men sober.
;)
Cherry beer? That sounds pretty tasty.
Well Amy, do you have anything by the Misfits or Souixie and the Banshees?
What Cradle songs do you have?
And thank you! :)
Gotta go
Night all, take care...
Oh it's Cherry Wheat Beer for the record...or for the win.
It's all in how you look at it.
Sugarplum: Yes! do you have any charon songs you can recommend?
Mmmmm Cherry Beer!
Elena, just take it a day at a time. You're gonna have more shitty days than you'd like, no two ways about that. But it'll get better, I know it will!
BC, I've got Lord Abortion, Gothic Romance, Mannequin, Babalon AD, Amor E Morte, Bathory Aria, Born in a Burial Gown, Death Comes Ripping, For Those Who have Died, From The Cradle To Enslave, Her Ghost In The Fog, Scorched Earth Erotica, and Thank God For The Suffering.
I like the oldies.
Goodnight elena sweet dreams
Send her "Byronic Man" Amy! Or, I could do that. I love, love, love that song!!!
Okay, now I really do have to sing!
Byronic Man
Cradle of Filth
As lonely as a poet on the walls of Jericho
Or the moon without the comfort of the stars
I am loathe to know it that a man without a soul
Is nothing but a spilled canopic jar
I proved it
Improved it
Drove a sonnet
Right through it
And in this state of bliss
Evil kissed with wet lips
Pen-filled Fingertips
Which through me
for through me
Illuminati usually pissed
But with words of some hurts worth
I threw a party that extended God's list
Exciting new flames that my fame would claim for me
Reciting back the almanac of travesties
They call me bad
Mad Caliban with manners
Dangerous to know
A passing fad
Taught in all debauch
In excess and in canto
Grown wild
This child
Whole harems defiled
Faustina's and Mina's
Lady Libertine and her sisters between her
What spread of lies arise when lovers die
Which circle of hell is mine when I arrive
They call me bad
Mad Caliban with manners
Dangerous to know
A passing fad
Taught in all debauch
Crow against the virgin snow
Grown colder, my shoulder
Like a boulder beside her
And bolder, not wiser
My dark seed took up root inside her
That mouldered, where older
Beddings would hold a passionate sigh
But Laudanum and soda
Lord Numb coda
Merited a forest of inherited spite
Fleeing grief for foreign maps
I still played vampire aristocrat
Unloading my gun in hot, promiscous laps
Then shooting swans in a gondola
I tripped my foot on a fallen star
And there's nothing like a mouthful of Venetian tar
To let you know just who you fucking are
[Ville]
The patron saint of heartache
I can't see my world is falling
The world is falling down
The patron saint of heartache
I Can't see my world is falling
the world is falling down
[Dani]
Everafter can they hear my laughter
[Ville]
The patron saint of heartache
[Dani]
Never craft a better bed of disaster
[Ville]
The Patron saint of heartache
They call me bad
Mad Caliban with manners
Dangerous to know
A passing fad
Taught in all debauch
In excess and in canto
They call me bad
Mad Caliban with manners
Dangerous to know
A passing fad
Whereupon I tell them
To go fuck their mothers
As so....
On my grave
Apologies if those lyrics offend anyone here.
Me too Amy. Which of the songs do you recommend?
Mayo
Just for the record – Cherry Wheat Beer and a banana should never meet. However I did not get that memo and had uh…several bottles of that yummy beer (seriously it has to be more than several cause beer just shouldn’t be yummy) and then ate a banana. Why I did this I’m not sure. I do know that it was a toss up between a banana and a hot pickle. Love me those hot pickles but damn, I’m thinking Cherry Beer and a hot pickle would have been a recipe for disaster. Not that the banana is fairing well either.
So as you can see I have nothing intelligent to say. Nope, nothing at all. I shall now make my way to the dungeon and feed the dragon. The snow is on its way we are under a Winter Storm Advisory. Can’t let the damn fire go out.
Tomorrow, open your eyes, decide on one thing you want to do and do it. Not something you have to do. Something you want to do. Something that’s just for you. And if it makes you happy then think to yourself, “well Elena was right. This was a good idea.”. I don’t get to be right all that often and it would make me happy.
Night Mayo
Elena (I curse you Samuel Adams)
Well BC, they're pretty much all the creme de la Cradle to me, but if I had to make a CD for you with just a few songs on there I'd send you Mannequin, Bathory, Ghost, Burial Gown, Babalon AD, Death Comes and For Those Who Have Died.
Thanks Amy
No prob BC!
I think I'm going to shuffle off, the cats are getting whiny at me.
Goodnight Wendy and BC.
And BC, if you'd rather me email you those songs, let me know and I'll do it in the AM, okay?
Goodnight!!
I sure will Amy. Thanks again. Goodnight and sweet dreams!
Sorry again! My computer is not cooperating tonight!
I was searching for my favorite "fan made" video for Byronic Man and I found this rare and precious gem:
I LOVE IT
Well, part of "Byronic Man" is there!
Goodnight Elena and sweet dreams to you and Jake!
I suppose I should go as well. I still videos to upload other place IF my computer decides to start cooperating.
It's been great chatting and catching up with you Sweetcheeks, Amy, Elena, Martha (next door)! I'll talk to ya'll later today/tonight!
Goodnight ladies! Goodnight Mayo and SS! Sweet dreams to one and all!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ!
PS: Sweetcheeks, I'll send the songs ASAP!
*blows night night kisses*
*makes her exit singing*
"The patron saint of heartache
I can't see my world is falling
The world is falling down
The patron saint of heartache
I Can't see my world is falling
the world is falling down...
I did it all just for her, I did it all just for her..."
Thanks sugarplum! Goodnight and sweet dreams. xo
Goodnight
goodnight and sweet dreams all
Mayo take care
much love EP
xx
SS
be happy
lotsa love EP xx
can't stay, slumber party supervision, all going well, need a rest myself now!
see you tomorrow
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
Morning Blog
Well it's a Winter Wonderland here. Six inches of snow so far. I've got to go unbury my car and make my way to work.
Have a great day everyone!
pfft 80. hold out for that 85.
Secrets of a Matchmaker
A professional matchmaker reveals the keys to successful dating
By Dating blogger Erin Meanley for Glamour.com Updated: Feb 24, 2009
Cover of Samantha Daniels' book Matchbook: The Diary of a Modern-Day Matchmaker
I read a hilarious nonfiction book called "Matchbook: The Diary of a Modern-Day Matchmaker" and loved it so much, I just had to track down the author, Samantha Daniels. She is a former divorce lawyer turned professional matchmaker. In the book, you read about all the crazy singles she meets -- thanks to her business Samantha's Table, which has offices in NYC and LA. She has helped over one hundred couples get married and thousands get into long-lasting relationships. Wow! I just had to ask her some questions.
More Dating Articles from Glamour:
Erin: Tell me about the 80-20 dating rule.
Samantha: In "Matchbook," I spoke of the 80-20 rule --
“any time you meet someone who has 80% of the things you are looking for, you should realize that this is a great person for you.”
any time you meet someone who has 80% of the things you are looking for, you should realize that this is a great person for you. If you throw back into the dating pool an 80% guy, the next guy is going to be 80% again, just a different 80% because it is near impossible to find more than 80% perfect for anyone.
Erin: In your book, you talk about how important timing is with guys.
Samantha: Men need to be ready and desirous of a relationship at a particular moment to get into a relationship, whereas women can be ready at any time if they meet "the guy." Single women need to try to catch the guy when his "ready light" is on. We have all seen men end up with women who just don't seem as good for him as his last girlfriend, and this is because he wasn't ready then, but he is ready now.
Erin: Story of my life. So do you have any dating tips for our readers?
Samantha: Smile -- men want to be with a happy girl. Be open to possibilities, limit your pre-date phone chat to a minimum, and teach him early that texting only supplements phone calls and dates!
Erin: What are some red flags we should look out for?
Samantha: Beware of guys who tell you how great you are before they know how great you are, guys who have shady answers that you just don't believe, and guys who are serial daters.
Erin: I always meet younger guys. I love them, but they're never ready to get serious. Where or how can I meet single men in their 30s?
Samantha: Lounges are better than bars and clubs. Organize small dinners with your friends and their friends, and look around the gym!
Erin: I'm on it! Thanks, Samantha!
And how about that 80-20 rule? I think I meet a lot of 20-percenters, actually. But I'll be careful to look for the 80! Do you often throw good single men back into the dating pool?
The good old days
Mayonaise said...
your reply paperheartxx:
"You have the exclusive right to be an exclusive asshole. But I don't have to like it."
Now, I must go. If you see the ghost, make sure you say "hello" for me.
goodnight.
November 15, 2007 10:51 PM
MissTottenham said...
Mayo,
If this is your idea of an apology, try again.
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I for one will stay here for my friends and you can take a running jump.
Have fun with your special friends.
MissTottenham said...
BC, hi sweetie.
I don't want to fall out with anyone but Mayo. BC has never hidden the fact that an alternate universe existed from me. She didn't give me the link because the blog owner asked her not to. I have no bad feelings for BC people.
Mayo is to blame, he obviously has favourites. So, there was a list of people who were to be invited across eh? I'm obviously not on that list so once again Mayo, FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
November 14, 2007 1:58 PM
Misst was all fired up back then. You are missed Misst.
Sister Midnite said...
Shame In Me said:
sister midnite if you dont care about mayo having another blog then why are you bothered about the people that didnt mention it to you?
sorry but contradiction much?
Fuck You.
I've been talking to BC in email since the beginning of this bullshit. She didn't say one word about another blog, even when I specifically asked her about it. I could are less that you were there, because I don't feel anything but pity for you.
Unlike you, I'm not an ass-licker. Mayo can have 12,000 blogs, if he wants to -- I don't care. What I'm pissed about is that you few thought it was oh, so kewl to keep it a secret so you could be some sad little man/woman/thing's center of attention, while pretending to be part of 'the family'. If you're only here for Mayo, so be it -- don't pretend that you give a shit about anybody else.
November 14, 2007 3:05 PM
Shame in me! Anybody talked to her recently?
i've not seen shame in me for ages.
i don't think it is a very productive idea to bring up shit from the past. we remember it, we don't need to read it again. MWM was a long time ago and alot has changed since then.
hi mayo!
hope you are doing alright?
and you SS?
hi anyone around!
OK no one around!
seeya guys!
have a fab saturday evening!
good morning ergo! hope the sleepover went OK?!
♥
damn I missed FASC
Well hello anyway.
SS
I miss you so much.
One puzzle to solve, one story to find hidden meaning, one smile through the words. Just one more.
I miss you and the light you brought.
Don't leave, SS. Please.
OPJ put down the dildo you wanted to use on SS and sign in.
good morning1
survived the sleepover Fasc!!
(though being woken up at 5:30 with "can we watch tv?" and then Mylie Cyrus CD about 10 mins later isn't my idea of a perfect Sunday morning, LOL)
but they have been very lovely girls to have over
poor elena! I cannot imagine having to unbury a car!
Hey Ergo
Glad the sleepover was a success.
Yep, had to unbury the car. Think I should send you some more snow!
Anon at 6:04 - Grow the hell up!
hi elena!!
I'd like to see snow but maybe not quite that much of it!!
they are now eating and watching Power Puff Girls dvd
hose is slightly disaster zone, they all slept on a blow up mattress in the lounge last night, so my girls bedroom is ....what's the word? Lets just say you can't see the floor/bed/desk.....
hose = house *sheesh*
Grow up, sorry but I am not the one who wrote a porno list about wanting to do Frank with a dildo and place the list where I was sure he would see it. Who should grow up again???
Oh sounds like good times Ergo
Well time for me to head home. It's getting dark and the temp is dropping fast. The roads will be slick.
Talk to ya later.
drive carefully elena!
I'm not OPJ. I just wanted to let someone know I missed them. If throwing names at every anon to fit your agenda is what makes you happy I really do feel sorry for you.
check out the new fish!!!
I don't know what happened.
Where is everybody? Where is Sdock10 and Smoke/Venom20?
And where is the blog she wolf?
I know something happened..... I missed something. I have been away a long time I come back to check and...
Hardly any familiar faces??
She wolf... gone? Where and why?
Hope you are all doing good.
-swa-
Hello ErgoProxy.
Can you fill a lurker in on whats going on?
swa
swa it's very long and involved, lots of drama, lots of bad feeling over a long period etc
It's real shame but if you go to people's personal blogs a lot are still around, just not all in one place
hope you are well
I'm sorry to hear that ErgoProxy...
Hope it was nothing too bad. I miss them though. Sdock10 is sweet, who could cause drama with her?
Hope you're doing good.
SWA, been a while. Long story about Kap and Sdock Smoke and other Porchies who hardly come here. I dont' know how much you missed.... Kap went to OPJ's blog to ask her to leave her alone, stop accusing her of something, I forget what. OPJ copied-pasted Kap's ISP number and where she lives for all to see. That was a long time ago though.
Then Miss Tot and Kapu were talking about America. Miss Tot made some angry remarks about the American government. Kapu said that Miss Tot was brave for saying them...Said she would get a lot of anger if the words had come from her. I remember this strange day and the next night-morning. Wendy (Anon616) who's brother sadly passed away, her brother worked for the government, she was upset. She spent about two hours ranting, not at Miss Tot. But at Kap. Called her all kinds of mysogynistic (sp) names, bitch, and then ranted at Mayo and said she was going to eat his heart or something. Someone named Karen came on, asked why she was going off on Kap like that, Wendy said she was going to "deal with Karen" one her colonoscoy was done(???) (OK???)
I don't think the Porchies left per say, but I know on DM Kap was saying that she didn't think people should be OK with what had happened and she wanted to stay away for a while. I don't know what else. Don't know what to tell you. Its all crazy.
Actually it was the king of all words you should never call a woman.
Oh also the OPs let an email loose on the blog (copy and paste) that had Sdock's real name in it.... People googled her where she lives and works. It got scary.
Kap explained it on DM, I am not going to quote it here because I'm afraid it will only cause more trouble. Some are still on DM. But DM has a stat tracker too now. I feel funny going anywhere with a stat tracker so its hard for me to visit those people and I miss them too. Oh well the blog was good once, way back when.
That.... just, SUCKS.
I am suprised.
swa.
Haha, it does. Most of the 'regs" and the "lovelies" won't talk about it, as if it didn't happen but you asked so its usually anons who have "the scoop".
SWA are you any other anons?
other people feel that if you wish to ask you should ask the people involved.
It does suck and rehashing things on the blog does nothing for anyone.
Everyone is findable ad I think would prefer to be consulted directly rather than be spoken about in their absence
it smells like ass in here
guess you left SWA. It was nice to see you Old timer.
LIKE I said EP I don't like stat tracker so I don't look at most other blogs. I don't think Mayo uses his stat tracker and I don't care if he knows where I am from.
SWA asked I answered. Sorry if you don't like it.
Hello everyone!
LOL, anon! If you are going to "retell" the story, please tell it properly!
Someone named Karen came on, asked why she was going off on Kap like that, Wendy said she was going to "deal with Karen" one her colonoscoy was done(???) (OK???)
I called K two names. This Karen person then came on and told me I was using emotional manipulation for daring to speak of my brother. I NEVER said anything like I was going to "deal with her" and I still haven't had my colonoscopy done!
Oh, and "rip your heart out and eat it for lunch" was not to Mayo. That was a little of that SNARK and that was for this Karen person too.
And, it was never about MissT's ONE comment which she apologized for. MissT did not, I repeat ~ did not upset me! Stop trying to cast any responsibility her way.
Go back to the last post SWA. It's all right there. I didn't delete a thing!
I also came back the following day and apologized for my atrocious behavior.
That is all for now. I shall return later!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Freddy, Romance, Safe, Pants and CTV!!
*runs back in*
Ergo!!!!!!!!!!
*smooooooooooch*
I'll talk to you in a bit!
Kapunua herself said that she didn't like it when those things got repeated.
"
Oh, and "rip your heart out and eat it for lunch" was not to Mayo. That was a little of that SNARK and that was for this Karen person too."
Snark? More like crazy.
"
I called K two names. "
About a thousand times, for about two hours.
And its funny how you still blame her for upsetting you when all she said was that if she SAID the things that Miss Tot said, there would be anger directed towards her.
And I don't think you apologized to her or to Karen but whatever.....
For SWA, here is what happen
Blogger Anon616 said...
I've done some more thinking...
for all of you American hating bitches: FUCK YOU!
(Not MissT, she was talking about politcians)
YOU can kiss my tiny little ass!
My brother gave his last ten years of his life/his BEST ten years of his life to YOU.
FUCK YOU for disrespecting him, his memory, and all those who went before him! Yes, you are a bitch and a cunt! Deal with it! Bitch!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Amy: I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS: And, THAT IS how I really feel!
February 11, 2009 6:07 AM
Blogger Anon616 said...
Was THAT clear enough for everyone? I hope so!
February 11, 2009 6:08 AM
Blogger Anon616 said...
Again: FUCK YOU, Bitch!
Just in case I wasn't clear the first time I said it!
xoxo,
Wendy
February 11, 2009 6:11 AM
Blogger Anon616 said...
One more thing:
You can kiss MY ASS! You didn't 'coin that phrase' anymore than you did 'killing zombies'.
Get it? Got it? Good!
February 11, 2009 6:28 A
Blogger Anon616 said...
My daddy, also, didn't raise me to be "no fool"! I offer my friendship to you and you slam the door in my face ~ three times ~ you are OUT!
You call my friends psychos and assorted other names: you are OUT?
Get it? I hope you do. Because, there is no middle ground for you and me.
You insult my friends/my family constantly, I will rip your heart out and eat it for lunch. Without any dressing.
Get it?
February 11, 2009 6:47 AM
Anonymous Anonymous said...
My name is Karen. You want my address and telephone number? Or perhaps my employer's address so you can get me fired?
February 11, 2009 9:36 AM
Anonymous Anonymous said...
Teh internetz iz srs bzns, Karen. Didn't you know?
February 11, 2009 9:59 AM
Blogger Anon616 said...
I am powerless nowhere, 9:32. Just ask the people who know me!
*evil laugh*
I'll get to you as soon as my 5 year follow up colonospcopy and endoscopy is done.
The only thing she forgot was 'and your little dog too".
Well I'm sorry 10:19, but a question was asked. Its not to hurt feelings that have already been, but to answer the question. It's not like seeing it again is going to make it worse. Its already out there.
Who is Karen and when did she insult Wendy's 'family constantly?
Only if you take everything a person says literally anon!
For instance, if a blogger here told someone to "stick their head in a bucket of ticks" or other such statments.
Hmmm... I really don't see much difference between that and "rip your heart out and eat if for lunch".
Please explain to me how one bit o'so called snark is "crazy" but the other is not.
I shall look for your reply when I return. I have other stuff to do now!
.... Kap went to OPJ's blog to ask her to leave her alone, stop accusing her of something, I forget what. OPJ copied-pasted Kap's ISP number and where she lives for all to see. That was a long time ago though.
This has been posted over and over and has been explained before. OPJ posted what she did on HER OWN BLOG, with no IP number to prove to Kapu that Kapu had been visiting her blog and leaving horrible messages which OPJ deleted at the time. An ANON brought it to Mayo's and added the fake IP number. Kapu never set the record straight until an anon asked her flat out.
The OPS never posted that e-mail at Mayo's, an anon did. I received a copy of it before it was posted and I think several others had it. Do you know WHY someone posted it? Because Kapu was telling everyone that OPJ had named Mustard, Smoke, Miss T, and everyone else on DM as those who "set her up". I read the e-mail. It never mentioned any of them. OPJ even told Sdock10 if she told her she had nothing to do with it she apologized. That apology was turned down.
Apparently you only see what you want to see. Go back and look. It was, let's see, over a fucking year ago.
Kapu is not innocent. She needs to buck up and take some of the blame for what has happened here.
Still harping on Kap. SO much for the apology.
The "horrible messages" were left from a staten island account, which Kap said was not hers, so all that was for nothing. Soap opera...
And how did you get to see the emails from the OPS? Who are YOU? Are you the one who posted it here with Sdock's name? Or did OPJ just send it out to many "anons"?
And I don't think you apologized to her or to Karen but whatever.....
Well, since THAT was brought up again; I will repost my apology. Take it or leave it, "anons"!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hello! Before the booing and hissing starts, I would just like to say that I returned for one reason and one reason only ~ To apologize to anyone I may have hurt and/or offended.
I won’t make any excuses for my atrocious behavior. There is no good excuse. I was wrong.
I have said many times that I don’t agree with the namecalling and rude behavior and I don’t. It isn’t right when you/she/he/them do/does. It isn’t right when I do it.
I would also like to apologize to the people I made feel uncomfortable. Once again, I am sorry.
I admitted just a few days ago all the things I could be: a bitch, hypocrite, sinner, fighter, lover and so on.
I don’t think anyone can question those first 3 three now!
For the people here who were and are understanding and forgiving, thank you. I’ll still be here for you, just not “here”.
I wish you all the best in life. I do mean all!
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
AND:
Once again, my behavior was atrocious and I should have handled myself differently. Well, I never claimed I was perfect. I never claimed I was less than human.
I do screw up. I do make mistakes. I have said things in the heat of anger that hurt people and for that I am truly sorry.
But, I can't force anyone to accept an apology or even acknowledge it. All I can do is offer one and not make any excuses for my own bad behavior. Then, go about my merry way (and allow the whole experience to teach me yet another lesson and inspire me!)!
Thanks, again, Mya, J, Anon! I do appreciate the understanding and words of support.
*huge hugs*
and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Now I'm off... that STUFF awaits!
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The OPS never posted that e-mail at Mayo's, an anon did. I received a copy of it before it was posted and I think several others had it."
HAHAHAA YOU LOSE.
I think Miss Tot's exact words were "FUCK YOU AMERICA", even I was a little shocked! But she is entitled her opinion!!
Anonymous said...
Still harping on Kap. SO much for the apology.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
No anon, I'm harping on your double standards and hypocrisy!
I will look for a "logical" answer when I return.
Thank you!
I feel sorry for the Staten Island person actually. Their ISP got posted by OPJ too saying it was Kap's.
But it was KAP who used that terminology. yet you brought her up again.
This is terrible.
I'm sorry I asked. Please stop. If Kapunua doesn't want to read that again.... she shouldn't have to.
I am sorry this happened. Kapunua if you do read this, I assure you you are NOT the terrible things you have been called.
I don't blame her for staying away.
I hope it's not forever.
SWA
Sorry I missed a question.
I have posted anonymously in the past but I was pretty sure you all knew it was me. SWA.
if not, then it wasn't really important.
Its funny. When I don't use SWA sometimes people skip over my comments. Not every one just some.
Anonymous said...
The "horrible messages" were left from a staten island account, which Kap said was not hers, so all that was for nothing. Soap opera...
And how did you get to see the emails from the OPS? Who are YOU? Are you the one who posted it here with Sdock's name? Or did OPJ just send it out to many "anons"?
Nope anon, there were messages from Staten Island and Kapu's town. Again you see what you want to see. The one she posted matched to a comment.
I don't know how many received the e-mail, I didn't ask. She was upset that people were lying about what had happened, and so were others. Someone apparently thought they were helping by posting the e-mail. It wasn't me, but I understand why they did. The name should have been removed, but it wasn't. That was wrong, but to keep harping on OPJ is wrong too.
I saw ONE from Kap's town that matched Kap going to OPJ's and saying to leave her alone. If I remember PJ said there wre other's but she had deleted them, LOL. yeah right.
And by the way, who are YOU that OPJ sent you an email with Sdock's name in it? You never did seem to answer that question. I didn't know that OPJ was in the habit of sending emails to anonymous people that she doesn't know who they are....
Why would OPJ post a long list of Staten Island hits if she didn't think that was Kap?
Right after Wendy blew up, an anonymous joked about Kapunua's parents dying.
My theory is that they were trying to get her to act crazy like Wendy did.
People have been saying shit to her like that for a long time. I have a theory that they are just tryiing to get her to lose her shit so that they can try to make her seem so terrible.
10:42 do you realize how ridiculous you sound? Who are YOU to have so much information about what you THINK happened?
Mother, please.
hmmm. looks like a good night to work on documents.
*waves to lurkers and friends*
i'll be back later, mayo!
I just remember what was posted on the blog. I don't have any of the emails from OPJ.... like you obviously do. I see you still can't answer the question.
Hmmm who else always says "mother please"??
You are only making yourself look worse OPJ.
10:42 do you realize how ridiculous you sound? Who are YOU to have so much information about what you THINK happened?
Uhhh actually I have "that information" too. Because it was posted on the blog.
I never got any emails from anyone here. It is common knowledge.
But if you are getting emails from OPJ with peoples real names in them, then I guess you must be one of her friends.
Didn't wizbef come out and admit that she was "dead dog" anon after Kap's dog died that day?
10:46 you are quick to accuse aren't you? I am NOT OPJ. I admit I picked up the Mother, please from her, but I am NOT her. Tell me, how many fingers am I holding up right now? You know so much.
Oh, you never told me your name. You are...
I'm sorry I brought this up. I just missed some of the old-bees that used to be here.
How it used to be.
Kapunua.... if you do come back keep your head up. (If anyone should see her please tell her.... her old friend SWA said hello, Sdock10, SmokeVenom too).
I'll just be going now.....
SWA
"
Oh, you never told me your name. You are...
Carrie, a different carrie. A long time lurker. Not worth it to get a blog, I don't like most of this anyhow, sometimes I get some popcorn and read it, it's like a car accident. But sometimes it turns really nasty and I feel I have to say something.
So which one of OPJs friends are you?
"I am NOT OPJ. I admit I picked up the Mother, please from her, but I am NOT her. "
HAHAHAHAA LMFAO.
Fail.
Here we go round the mulberry bush,
The mulberry bush,
The mulberry bush.
Here we go round the mulberry bush
On a cold and frosty evening.
http://www.shipmentoffail.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/03/fail.jpg
"Anon" fail.
I'm just sick of all the lying shit here. It's a horrible place to be, and I honestly don't know why I even bother. I saw a friend being crucified once again and felt I should say something. It doesn't matter, you'll only take words and twist them into your own version, so to hell with it.
Why don't you and all YOUR friends just say you don't care about anyone else and come back in to do what you do best.
I won't be here to answer.
OK, bye J.
Holy shit that was EPIC fail and I'm saving that. 'I have that email from J with Sdock's name. OPJ never did anything wrong! No of course I am not J herself!! Mother please! What's your name? Who are you? I no one you know and I am NOT OPJ'!
Oh, shut up, K.
10:55, I know! At least she could have tried. That's the second time she got caught.
Accusing me of being a regular isn't going to work. All's I did was quote what I saw here, YOU never answered my question and you gave yourself away. I just find it funny....
Anonymous said...
Holy shit that was EPIC fail and I'm saving that. 'I have that email from J with Sdock's name. OPJ never did anything wrong! No of course I am not J herself!! Mother please! What's your name? Who are you? I no one you know and I am NOT OPJ'!
You know what, I don't care if you believe me or not. It's the damn truth. OPJ knows, her friends know, and I know. That's all that matters. I told you you would take what I said and twist it. Now, who says EPIC FAIL all the time? Should I accuse you of being someone? No, I'm not going to. You are WAY to obsessed with this blog.
Wow. That was amazing. I almost feel sorry for the OPs.
Where's K?
"OPJ knows, her friends know, and I know. That's all that matters."
So OPJ just emails Sdock's name to anonymous people on the blog. Anonymous people who's email she finds out through looking up their ISP I guess...
Most people on the internet says Epic Fail. But I have only heard one other person say Mother please.
Oh my cow, will you give it up already?
I wondered when this was going to hit. Plan, plan, plan. So how many of you are here? You are so predictable it's not even funny. If you want to see "epic fail" look in the mirror.
ROFL!!!
Why in the hell don't you both sign in and then you will know who is who?
Un-american" is one of the scariest, most despicable words in the American language (brits are thankfully exempt of this word).
Only people entirely oblivious to world political history can afford to ignore the putrid odor of fascism exhaled by the usage of this word (from the 50's House Un-American Activities Committee proceedings to our days): at its best, it justifies censorship (thus, blissfully ignoring 1st Amendment Rights), at its worth it is used as an excuse to legitimate inquisitorial proceeds against any kind of political opposition.
"Un-american" belongs to a solid line of thought, that seems to consider that in order to preserve democracy (or some people's idea of democracy, as the case may be), one can and must go to the greatest lengths to gag dissent.
The mere word "un-american" is the most un-american concept there can be...
"Un-american" belongs in the same word category as "political purge", "gulag" or "freedom control" and this is not the vocabulary of a free democratic country.
And if you believe totalitarianism needs concentration camps or summary execution to be frighteningly effective, then you need to read Orwell and Huxley again...
I would never move to that country. I'm glad I don't live there.
I guess I am a cunt and a bitch too. I will gladly join in with Kapu in being those things.
I am Carrie. And sorry but I never got a blog. I have a live journal.... But I'm not telling you freaks where it is!!!
I am Carrie. And sorry but I never got a blog. I have a live journal.... But I'm not telling you freaks where it is!!!
February 28, 2009 11:04 PM
Now who is the other one? I don't blame you Carrie. ^_~
I don't know who the other anon is, I can't really deny that I think OPJ is defending herself (who else would have OPJ's email AND be using her catch phrases AND talking about poor OPJ getting "crucified" which is what OPJ always says about herself)?
But I admit, I am obsessed with this blog sometimes!! Not all the time but sometimes. It's like a crazy soap opera and you have to tune in next week!
Anonymous said...
I wondered when this was going to hit. Plan, plan, plan. So how many of you are here? You are so predictable it's not even funny. If you want to see "epic fail" look in the mirror.
February 28, 2009 11:01 PM
They do see it in the mirror. That's why they do this shit.
Bye, SWA. :(
It's been OPJ, Wendy and Mya who have truely gone psycho. I honestly haven't seen anyone else act this way on the blog.
I do read Kap's live journal though. I admit it. I think she's funny and she has some interesting things to say. I do like her toughness. I'm not a "fan" because I don't think regular people need to have fans but I'm also not a "friend", just a reader of her live journal. I like her. I admit it.
Some people just entertain you. :)
You can see the pattern, can't you? Kapu takes off and drags her "friends" with her, almost no one on here mentions her or talks about wanting her to come back, so she gathers up her group, plans all this, and hey, just for kicks, takes a swipe at Anon616 and OPJ. They're right, you are so predictable. Why is this place so important to you? Didn't you say repeatedly that "it's just a blog?" Why do you feel the need to plan out a blitz for sympathy or cruelty or whatever you are doing it for?
i like her strength too 11:16. i also like her snark.
^I read her once in a while but sometimes not so much. There's only so much I can read about karate before going to another page. ;D That's not an insult it's just not my major interest. Sometimes I can't follow her but sometimes, I can and I agree she can be really funny and humourous.
You think I am Kap? Haha, no, just an anon who has been around and finally told you her name.... because you asked. I wish I had friends I could drag around though.....
11:18 / OPJ, get caught, blame someone else? You got CAUGHT. AGAIN. I almost feel sorry for you. But just because you keep doing it doesn't mean that other people do it too. Like I said. I am not one of her "friends". I have talked to her for a few times.... I don't think she knows my name. None of you knew it until recently.
11:21
are you saying you are ALL the anons here? I don't follow you. How many personalities do you have?
No, if you read back I said I didn't know who the other was and that I just told you my name.
Sorry but I have to get up early tomorrow so I can't play with you anymore. It's been fun, freaks!
-CARRIE-
What's wrong with hating America? America has done some atrocious things. I agree. Aren't we allowed to have an opinion without being called a cunt?
. I wish I had friends I could drag around though.....
You mean like the name calling crew? They are the ones not signed in doing the name calling around here.
Well, I am one of OPJ's friends but you don't believe me, so why should I believe YOU? Are you the anon that keeps saying that BC copies all of Kapu's sayings that apparently are only for ONE person and no one else? You logic is flawed.
I will say it one more time, and as I said I don't give a damn if you don't believe me.
I am NOT J. I think one of YOUR friends said "you can say it all you want, it doesn't make it true."
I don't know what youre talking about. I haven't called anyone any names. I don't like the names that other people got called either. Who do you mean?
Now argue with yourself. I'm done with this fucking place.
Are you DW?
Are you the anon that keeps saying that BC copies all of Kapu's sayings that apparently are only for ONE person and no one else? You logic is flawed.
Umm, no, I don't know what "sayings" you mean. What did BC do?
"
I am NOT J. I think one of YOUR friends said "you can say it all you want, it doesn't make it true.""
Not that I remember..... Why are you accusing me of knowing this person?
All this fuss because a couple can't get along. Kinda ruins it for everyone else.
Anonymous Anonymous said...
Now argue with yourself. I'm done with this fucking place.
February 28, 2009 11:29 PM
You always say that.
"All this fuss because a couple can't get along."
I think that the rant that Wendy did for no reason was a little more than people who "can't get along" because there was no original attack in the first place.
And I still think that the Karen person got the short end of the stick!
I dont' think Fimble Star left either.
If you're not OPJ, which I think you are, then you must be OPL. How could we forget OPL.
I think that the rant that Wendy did for no reason was a little more than people who "can't get along" because there was no original attack in the first place.
She has been "waiting" on her chance to call Kapunua a bitch. She saw her chance and ran with it. She probably got brownie points with the others that don't like her. I think it made her look stupid.
I dont' think Fimble Star left either.
February 28, 2009 11:35 PM
Why did people have a problem with Fimble? I liked her. Oh, i forgot. She was Kapunua's friend. They don't like people who like her. How very adult of them.
Hello (again) Mayo, SS, anons 1-20! I am back!
Now, now anon; I had very good reason for my "legendary rant". I could try to explain it to you; but, you either wouldn't understand or you would try to twist my words. I don't like when people twist my words! So, I won't bother.
If any of you are waiting for another "rant", you'll have a long long wait. Sorry, that only happens every 5 years or so. I think I'm entitled to blow my cork every now and then, aren't I?
Afterall, 5 years worth of spreading joy, love, smiles and SUNSHINE can be quite tiring! I need a good release (of temper) at least twice a score.
She probably got brownie points with the others that don't like her. I think it made her look stupid.
It also made her appear to be a hypocrite.
"Now, now anon; I had very good reason for my "legendary rant". "
No, there is never any reason to that.
And no, you are not "entitled" to call someone a cunt.
Sorry.
Well anon, I admitted I could be a hypocrite. Can you do the same?
How do you explain your different set of standards for different people?
"I need a good release (of temper) at least twice a score."
And Kapunua happened to be there and you don't like her, so that makes it OK.
If you think you are "entitled" to call someone a cunt and go crazy on them like that then you should stop using the word Namaste .... because you obviously don't understand the meaning.
Oh... I think I am, anon. Free speech would guarantee me that right!
Now, was I right to do so? No, I was not and I can admit that. Can you admit when you were wrong?
"Well anon, I admitted I could be a hypocrite. Can you do the same?"
yes I can. Everyone is a hypocrite sometimes. We all say some things and then not do them.
But mos people don't think they are "entitled" to call someone else a cunt or say "I'm sorry, BUT I had a reason". That's not a real apology. It's just justification.
Yes, legally you are allowed. But "entitled"?? "I am entitled to scream at Kapunua and call her a cunt. I don't like her. I had a reason". Sorry I disagree.
And I also hate America and a glad that I don't live there!! Guess I am a cunt too!!
I understand the meaning, completely, anon. Do you?
I understand that no human being is perfect. That we all make mistakes. That making mistakes does not make us less human, it makes us more human.
I can recognize the "inner light" of every person (with the exception of a few such as serial killers and those who abuse children, the elderly and animals).
I'm a different anon.
No, I too can behave hypocritically. I will admit that.
However if you really believe in the philosophy of something, namely the words on your profile, you would not use the use the words you did, anger or no anger.
I don't have a different set of standards for the rest. It applies for everyone.
11:48 ~ You are entitled to hate America and say it. I'm not going to tell you don't have those rights.
I am an advocate of free speech!
"Blogger Anon616 said...
I understand the meaning, completely, anon. Do you?"
No. I know that I'm not there yet and I dont' have a full understanding of it.
I also don't think I am "entitled" to call someone a cunt and lose my shit for a night because "I have my reasons".
I guess that's the difference between us. You understand "Namaste" but you still think that "it's OK if you have your reasons".
Blogger Anon616 said...
11:48 ~ You are entitled to hate America and say it. I'm not going to tell you don't have those rights.
But does it make me a cunt?
hello there wendy, hi anons. just popping back in.
hey, i forgot to mention this last night, it's funny (i think so, anyway). yesterday, coming back from a job site, we passed by a church and its message board actually said "jesus came because he loves you."
someone wasn't using all the cylinders in their brain when they put that up on their sign, were they! *heehee*
Thank you 11:51. I happen to agree. The ones who are supposed to be "snarky" and "bitches and cunts" seem to be the ones who don't do things like that.
Toujour, you had better not make fun of Jesus.
Hey all
Yea my Internet just came back up. Probably won't last long because of the snow.
Just wanted to say hello while I have the chance.
"jesus came because he loves you."
LOL!
LOL!
I definitely see the Inner Light of all you fucking stupid cunts! BITCHES! I see your fucking inner light! Cunt! I will get you, cunt! I will eat your heart out! But I see your inner light!
I do believe in the words on my profile. That's why I wrote them!
I also believe that all people make mistakes. Do and say things that go against their "philosophy". It's all a part of being human.
Gandhi did. Mother Theresa did. Most (if not all) of the Dalai Lamas and Popes have.
I'm certainly not even CLOSE to being in the same league as those people! I never will nor do I want to be. I don't see why I should be held to higher standards. I don't see why anyone should.
O_O Better watch out! Jesus is coming! (sorry, i couldn't resist!)
Hi Elena! How are you tonight? How's Jake?
11:58 ~ You might want to calm down a bit, sweetie. You wouldn't want to blow your cork tonight, would you?
11:58 ~ You might want to calm down a bit, sweetie. You wouldn't want to blow your cork tonight, would you?
March 1, 2009 12:02 AM
I think she already popped a brain cell. I bet she feels better already.
Um, hello?
hi elena! glad to see that you made it home safely. :)
if i had been drinking something when i saw that sign, i would've performed an actual spit-take!
hi, bc. how are you doing tonight?
Hi TJ, I'm doing alright, thanks. How about you?
LOL!
11:58 and 12:00 ~ Do you really think people here can't see what you are trying to do? Press every button you want. The batteries in your remote are completely dead.
Come back in five years. You might hit the right one then.
Hey, what did ya'll think of that special Cradle of Filth T~shirt?
Did ya'll ever see the one I'm talking about?
You can read all about it here
People were actually arrested for wearing it.
Cradle of Filth = one of my favorite bands!
Long live free speech and freedom of religion!
*big smile*
I still don't see how that makes you "entitled" to talk to anyone like that. Most people don't. I'm not talking about Ghandi or Mother Theresa. I'm talking about most people. I have never witnessed anyone doing or saying anything like that. And then I never witnessed them trying to say that they were "entitled" to.
Hi TJ and Sweetcheeks!!!!!
How are ya'll tonight?
Sweetcheeks: I tried and tried to e~mail you those songs. It wouldn't go through!
I'll try again tonight. This time I'll try sending ONE at a time!
wait until you get married. You will find you how fast you can say bastard in the heat of the moment. ^_~
Don't you see, you are not being held to a higher standard , it's more a trust issue; you cannot say things and not adhere to them.
I'm not saying that you should be inhuman and never be angry or hurt about things, but if you wanted to get your point across you could use words like I'm outraged ..., I'm so angry ... I feel etc ...
You are above calling people names.
hello TJ
hi elena
hi wendy
hi BC
oh TJ I do hope someone let them know the phrase on their sign doesn't read quite the way they intended.
I finally have a quiet house, and can get back some semblance of order, and I need sleep
Wendy, I see people are getting on your case but, have you thought about getting help for this anger you face? I know you feel you are "entitled" to treat people like that but it's not healthy. I mean for YOU.
Ghandi made mistakes too you cunt! i am a human, and I am "entitled" to call you a cunt. Because you are LESS than a human to me.... so it's is my right, protected under free speech of your great country of America. Bitch! Kiss my tiny little ass! After I have my colonoscopy I will GET YOU, CUNT. maybe they will find NAMASTE up there while their looking!! BITCH!
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