Here is a little something I have learned. Or, perhaps it is inherent in my nature.
There is beauty in most every moment...life, and I mean all of it. Seriously, that is not to say that I can find a silver lining in the beating of an old man for his wallet, or the rape of a young girl. But, some of my more elegant words arrive from the ugliest of times, and I suppose the inverse is true, as well. Anyway, I think they are.
There was a ball, a strike, a kiss, and some much needed sleep.
We awoke to a quiet house that, after a few short hours, would be alarmed by uncertainty.
The phone call and waiting cleared my head. All I could consider was what I would miss if I was met with the loss of such a good friend. Those other things, my schedule, would wait. And, the wait was endless. I was anxious because I could not be there to hear firsthand the explanation, the reassurance. But I knew, I already knew why and how. What I needed to hear was that it had been fixed.
And it was. You are fine and I still have you to call when I need a laugh, to shoot the shit, or to find reason in things that make sense only to friends that have been there from the depths. We will have our once every chance we can get (which is not often enough) visits.
I will tell you again that you are my friend.
Still, I can’t let go of the feeling I had when I thought you were gone. In those few hours I was bombarded with memories built on some ten years time. I thought how fortunate I was to have had my life filled with your energy, your support, and all the trust I could ever imagine.
I paced while waiting to hear the news, and as I circled the floors over and again the strangest thought came to me; I would be okay. I have come a long way and I have you to thank for some of that. You give a good kick in the ass. And, there is something amazing in that.
Let's not forget the flood, the funk, the summers, and that high speed departure.
p.s. wherever he is, he’s all over the place.
Friday, January 9, 2009
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1 – 200 of 4709 Newer› Newest»hello Mayo nice to see you again
I have yet to find a better feeling than the one that comes when you find out that everything is going to be just fine.
I think that it's better than the feeling you get when you fall in love.
I am so glad that you didn't lose your friend. it is that period of not knowing, and waiting for news that crystallises all the things we don't want to think, but come unbidden anyway.
It does help us to realise anew how precious each moment we have is, and how quickly and unexpectedly it can be lost.
Treasure it all Mayo
Well put, Ergo!
I agree Amy, that feeling of relief is like nothing you feel any other way
-like when you see headlights turn into the drive after worrying or seeing the face of your child again after you lose sight for only a second which feels like hours.
It also helps you empathise with those who don't have the happy outcome
SS must be a really, REALLY good friend.
Nice to see you again, Mayo.
Nice to see you again Elena!
elena!!!
hi *hug*
hi anon
Thank you Amy
Thanks for the hug, Ergo
No prob!
Are you going to stay for a bit? We've missed you.
missed you a lot!
you too mayo! are you staying at all?
And where's BC?
I still have pulla bread, this isn't normal.
I've been here with you.
I want to thank everyone who has been so kind to me. It really means so much to know people have been concerned.
*pokes Elena*
Well of course we're concerned. Although it's hard to put out an APB for a Saint when our 2 possible resident coppers haven't become coppers yet.
it's what friends do elena ♥,
so glad to talk to you again
So, anyone want some pulla bread?
Anyone?
Mayo?
it is pretty yummy stuff, it's more like a sweet bun texture than bread, and you can spread it with butter, they call it Coffee Bread, I think they dip it
Well now we know for sure, he kissed him.
Hi there elena *hugs*
hi again BC
anon, whoever it was, it's lovely to know that they are ok, and that Mayo appreciates them all the more
Hey BC
Nice to see you.
*wanders in the kitchen, to find more tomato ends on the counter top*
*sighs*
It's more than lovely to know that they're okay.
The only thing worse than finding out someone is sick is not being able to get any info on how anything is going.
LOL, he does appreciate S of S!
2:18, we all do.
very true Amy, it's the not knowing that is the worst, any possibility springs to mind.
I always feel so much for people who have missing loved ones, to never know what happened.
I feel worst for missing children. More and more these days, you know how it ends up. At least with adults you hope they know what was going on, or what they were getting themselves into. It's not always the case though.
for sure Amy
and the ones they don't find at all, must be awful to just not have them
Anyway, girls and boys, I'm going to go. Impromptu day off midweek is a nice idea, but I still have to work in the AM. Yeck.
Mayo, thank you for the new post. I hope your New Year is more good news from here on in.
Ergo, Elena, and BC, when she gets here, goodnight.
SS, goodnight. (Why can't you re-use the ends?)
-A
goodnight Amy sweet dreams
xx
Goodnight amy sweet dreams
Mayo
Well, fuck, just plain fuck. I honestly don’t know what to say. The words are locked in my head and I can’t find the fuckin’ key.
I do know I want to say thank you for sharing your new words, for sharing a part of your life with us. I know that I want to thank you once again for this place. I have been here, just sitting quietly in the corner. It touches my heart to know that so many wonderful people have noticed my annoying voice went silent. But I am here. A promise made.
No, nothing earth shattering has happened to me. Same old shit with a bit of new shit added on. I step back and I know it’s nothing I can’t overcome. I step back and I look at the big picture and I can see that as long as my loved ones are okay then nothing else really matters. But then I stumble and the big picture becomes fuzzy. It will come back into focus. Maybe my brain just needs some downtime. Good Lord, maybe I’ve run out of words. I’ll sit here and wait for my new allotment of words to arrive. It feels good to be here. I know friends surround me. That picture is clear.
Night Mayo
Elena (fuzzy)
goodnight elena
sweet dreams and never forget you're loved, even though we might be far away
♥
good morning mayo!
thank you for the new words. it's always good to read you!
i'm glad your friend pulled through. no one wants that kind of phone call, and the waiting is such torture! it's crazy but events like that certainly make you put things into perspective, and that is a good thing.
take care of yourself mayo, and have a great friday!
SS you too!
hey everyone, happy fridays to you all.
elena it was good to read you again. take care.
Whoah, Mayo. I know exactly what you are talking about. I've got the friend. I've had that same phone call. I know those feelings.
Can't stop now but I'll have more to say later.
Thank you for the new post, Mayo. I've missed you! ^_^
And it was awesome to see Elena back. I've missed her, too!
Have a great Friday, errbody!
♥♥♥
fasFc have a great day
Mayo lovely to hear from you, so glad everything worked out and hoping your friend continues to recover and live fulfilled
wishing you appreciation, gratitude, respect and wonder
much love EP xx
SS hope you are well, have you ever felt so mellow you could happily sit and chill for hours? I hope you have and if not I hope you do soon, It is pretty nice,
sending you relaxation, fulfilment and serenity
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
Mayo,
Thanks for your new words. They give me a lot to think about as always and sometimes I find that you post a little something that kind of goes along with another something that I was just thinking about...in my head, anyways. In this one, it's about the moments in life. I was pondering on that very thing a few evenings ago after reading an email from a really good friend of mine. He and I love to discuss all of our unanswered questions and theories on bullshit and life in general. And after that is when I realized that life is just a series of moments and it takes all of them to get you where you are at today. You can't fast forward through the bad, you can't rewind back to the really amazing stuff and you can't pause on those one or two or twelve moments that you want to make last forever.
Crazy, right? That it's taken me 34 years to realize that or that I still fuck myself by spending so much time worrying about shit that I have no control over? Either way, I'm working on it.
Just like I'm working on being a better friend. I am so lucky that I am surrounded by people (thanks to you, they now surround the entire planet) that will pull me up, help dust me off, and put me back on my right track. They force me to be better, to do better because somehow they can see in me what I can't see in myself. I feel like a really shitty friend most of the time because I don't know if I do the same in return. It's not because I don't want to. It's because I honestly don't have the confidence in myself to feel like I could be that strong, let alone help them. But, like I said, I'm working on it.
Which brings me back to those moments and those really good friends in our lives...I agree with you about the beauty in all of it, even the ugly parts...death, heartbreak, failure, sickness, tragedy. Because even through all that bad stuff, we get through (with help from those friends) and we learn from it (with help from those friends). Life teaches us so much shit and most we forget until something scary or almost awful happens to remind us.
And sometimes, the reminder is just the kick in the ass we needed to put things in perspective. It forces us to imagine how different our life could be and makes us either make the adjustments we need or keep fighting the fight to hold on to things just as they are.
Fuck, I got really, really long winded this morning. Anyways, I hope some of it makes sense. Because, God knows, I'm forever brilliant in the not making sense department.
Have a great Friday, Mayo.
Love to YOU Always,
S
Elena,
It was so nice to see you back 'round here.
BlogBelieve,
Have a grrr-reat Friday! See you later on!
OK this is from the last post but I needed to say this.
such simple terms as "feminism" and "racism"
Kapunua, feminism and racism/anti-racism are anything but simple, both as 'terms' and when put into practice.
Oh, Carrie, I noticed on the last post that you saw Sweeney Todd and Tropic Thunder! Awesome, right? ^_^
Now, you gotta see Pineapple Express cuz it will make you laugh and want to squeeze James Franco. And if you haven't seen American Psycho, watch it too and see if it makes you laugh like I do. I'm sick. I admit it. I tell you what, if you have seen it or if you do watch it and you start to think to yourself, "Why in the world would this movie be funny to anybody? There's something seriously wrong with her.", don't come back and tell me! Hahaha!
Mayo,
I meant to say this earlier, too. I'm glad your friend is okay. I was in a rush and forgot the most important thing! Sorry!
♥ ya!
SS,
I seez you!
Not really. Made you look over your shoulder though right? ^_~ Miss ya!
Okay, time for my phone to start ringing off the hook. >.<
Later all!
"Wherever he is? Looks like he's all over the place."
You are right, of course.
Oh, did Kirk say that? Damn! After the dude gets blown up, right?
Well, Mayo, I have to say, in this case you are a stronger person than I would have been, because I would have been a hysterical mess!
You need to teach me this skill of patience and acceptance. ;D All I have is neurotic worry. I seriously would have been pulling my hair out.
Either way, I'm real glad that your friend is all right.
OK this is from the last post but I needed to say this.
such simple terms as "feminism" and "racism"
Kapunua, feminism and racism/anti-racism are anything but simple, both as 'terms' and when put into practice.
January 9, 2009 8:06 AM
Yes, anon, they are far from simple, but they are also not as fluid as some selfish people would like some of us to believe.
Defining "feminism" by not bothering to learn your trade and instead dancing in a short skirt and then marrying your way into higher position while allowing your husband to exploit that relationship is just as much of a ridiculous stretch as writing derogatory songs about "n*ggers" and "f*ggots" and calling yourself anti-racism and anti-homophobia.
Also, Solly, you and are are on the same boat with the worrying thing!
Sorry, but I gotta run, you guys! Later!
Oh! Oh, LOL, okay, I'm so retarded! One of my favorite movie quotes and I didn't even get it the first time!
Mayo quoting Tropic Thunder TFMFW! ^_^
♥
Okay, and I'm out. I hope to pop in later, you guys!
I'm not sure I know what TFMFW means.
TMFWFMTMFTWWTFM!
Right!
Hey Jules!
Oh! Oh, LOL, okay, I'm so retarded! One of my favorite movie quotes and I didn't even get it the first time!
Mayo quoting Tropic Thunder TFMFW! ^_^
I know! I totally didn't get it either! Hahaha!
See you later! ^_^
The thing in that movie that set me off the worst was the slow motion blowing up scene near the end, and it's all soft focus and artsy, and you can hear Jack Black's character yelling MY ASS!!! We had to stop the movie we were giggling so much.
I fall out every single time I hear RDJ open his mouth as Kirk Lazarus. I mean, that dude was hilarious. And how could you not love Satan's Alley? ^_^
Hey Princess! It took me a while!
Actually a few lines of this post took me a while. My first thoughts on "ball strike and kiss," admittedly, were about baseball.
My second thought was far more amusing: "Someone punched Mayo in the groin? And then kissed him?" And it made me think maybe he was also taking Kung Fu or something. "How can a fistfight be romantic" indeed.
Then I went, "Oh, duh, new years eve."
This all in under fifteen seconds. Haha!
Carrie, okay, I have to admit that my favorite part was with RDJ as the Chinese farmer. For really, really superficial reasons. ;D
Don't bother watching the commentary with him unless you want to be really annoyed. He actually does do the entire commentary in character as Lincoln Osiris, up until when Osiris turns back into Lazarus, then he does the rest of the commentary as him. I guess a lot of people found that amusing, but I just found it irksome. Also, he kept interrupting everyone.
Still hot, though! ^_^
And, Jack Black's "MY ASS!" always gets a huge laugh. ^_^
Satan's Alley totally wins. I love when Enigma starts to play and they're fondling each other's beads. It just slays me every time because you know that would be such a huge fandom. ;)
Yeah, when we first starting watching, Terry was messing with the laptop (ew, that sounds nasty) and didn't realize the movie had actually started and that was a fake trailer, so he was looking at me all O_O. Also, I just bought myself a Sweeney Todd poster to go behind this uber gothic hanging lantern thing my friend gave me for Christmas. My room, it looks like a teenager's.
I'm glad you told me cuz I was like, "Why was Mayo watching a baseball game? That's so not Mayo."
O_o
Duh.
I almost always need someone to interpret Mayo for me though. Hahaha!
I loooooove Sweeney Todd. I only watched it about a month ago and I am trying to force Solly to watch it. I have to make her buy it first though. :)
p.s. wherever he is, he’s all over the place.
is he here there and everywhere mayo?
I liked Sweeney Todd, too! I was at first so worried about it, because I was so madly in love with the original one with Angela Lansbury and George Hearn. But aside from the movie version having Mrs. Lovette start out far too rich, I really liked it.
So far the film adaptation is the only one I've seen. I remember hearing the name Sweeney Todd when I was little, and thinking it was some musical about a British chick. Yeah, not so much!! I'm trying to convince Terry we should watch it for family movie night tonight, you know, to give the kids some culture. Or maybe just nightmares.
You mean the original one? Well it might be a little weirder for you seeing that after seeing the big Hollywood production. Actually, the original is on youtube.
But to me, that one just outshines any other production.
Umm, except for the guy who played Toby. Holy crap, I wanted to shove a sock in his mouth. He was such a doofus.
Carrie, you're into the Wii, right?
Yep, I loves me some Wii.
I can't imagine that you haven't played Twilight Princess and Resident Evil 4! They kind of change your world for a few weeks. :)
Oh, well, that's cuz I kind of suck at games that you have to actually be good at! I mostly just do the Play games, the Wii Fit, and um, Harry Potter. I like the idea of being a gamer, but I am an uncoordinated spaz and I have a low frustration threshold. Any actual games, I mostly just end up watching someone else play!
Carrie, trust me on these two. RE4 is hard, but you can set it on easy and once you get the hang of it, you fly through it. There's something inherently and viscerally satisfying about being a hot two dimensional man and blowing the heads off chainsaw wielding zombies. It's unexplainable.
At least treat yourself to Twilight Princess. It's so beautiful. Visually and emotionally lovely.
Ooh, but I see it has puzzley parts too! That does sound like something I might like!
Blowing the heads off zombies sounds like fun for the whole family!! :)
Oh man, Zelda games are famous for their visual logic puzzles. :D
And there are some logic puzzles in RE4, too!
I WAS NUMBER SIXTY NINE, YAY!
Coolness, I think I know where my next paycheck is going! Gotta go rustle up some lunch, and check out Sweeney on YouTube, thanks for the heads up on that and the games! Later!
I hope you enjoy it!
I have to put Havoc away and start some reading. I'll be back and forth. ^_^
Hiya Mayo, I’m glad to be reading you again. Thanks for letting this group of lovelies swim around in your head every now and again.
An experience in my life popped into my head when I read your words. I won’t get into the dirty details, but serious lines were crossed. My lines - by a friend whom I’ve known since I was 12. There were a lot of factors involved at the time, and I don’t think they quite remember what exactly transpired. But following the incident, I had to take a step back and try to figure out what it meant and how it might affect our friendship, if at all.
I understood the magnitude of their actions and I was honored and scared at the same time. It was all so sudden and unexpected. What did they expect of me? Why me?
I realized that the friendship we had meant more to me than what happened and I needed to make this work for us. I had to make it work in my head. They have been there for me when the sun stopped shining and when life was great. They always have my back and kick my ass when needed. I love them no matter what and that hadn’t changed. So, maybe I know a little bit more about them than I needed or wanted to know. Isn’t that what best friends are all about? To love and celebrate you even in your weirdest moments. And that’s what really mattered the most to me.
I’m glad things worked out for you and your friend.
Kapunua - I love, love, love the Zelda games. I don't play RE games, but my boy does.
A subtle kiss that no one sees, a broken wrist and a big trapeze...
Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind
Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go, can you read my mind?
Hello E, hello Bunnicula!
Bunn, of course you've got me curious now (your life does seem like it's been a very intense one!) but I get what you're saying and that's all that matters.
Here's a line that sprang to mind:
"Here's to the few who forgive what you do
And the fewer who don't even care..."
Leonard Cohen. ^_^
And, oh man, me and Zelda games, it's insane. :) Your boy has some good taste, too. You should give it a whirl!
I've just been trying to do some math, and even though I know it's simple, it's just boggling me. Boggling.. I'm worried that this stuff will be on a test and even with a calculator I'll be boggled.
Come on, Mayo. Do my math for me, won't you? Are you numbery, Mayo? Are you all mathy?
I had to stop reading and look away from the book. Everything was blurring together. >_<
Anonymous said...
I've done a pretty conscious job of keeping my comic and the band separate
A pretty conscious job? As opposed to what, an unconscious job? Sorry, Geetard, but you aren't making sense here.
Maybe he meant he could do a conscientious job or make a conscious effort. I'm not sure, but it's a good thing he has editors for TUA, because the dude can't write for shit.
True that. Which is why I never thought he was Mayo. Gerard is somewhat grammatically challenged.
I remember once when he told Steven on Fuse that he "got mistook" for Billy Corgan and Steven actually corrected him by saying "mistaken". Too funny.
Is that way all those comics and all the merch advertise the fact that it is GERARD WAY OF MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE?
And now he's plugging MSI and his wife's "art" on his twitter for some friend with cancer.
Why not just give the money himself? He rented a monkey for 5000 after all.
So, so, so glad they changed the Toby character for the Sweeney Todd movie, all I could think of was Simple Jack, and I kept waiting for him to say his eyes were gonna rain or something. But the original was quite awesome with that exception. I think I still prefer the film though.
I'm home!!!!!!
*slams door and sings*
"Thy blossom, in the bud laid low,
Yet ripened shall upspring.
See! From our love once more shall grow
Thy light, thy joy, thy hope, thy glow!
And clearer yet one day shall ring
The song our land shall sing."
*le sigh*
*misses Finland, already, BUT is happy to be home (for now)*
Hyvää päivää! Hyvä iltaa Mayo, SS, Ergo, Mya, Sweetcheeks, Amy, J and L, Elena, Possum, GS, FASC, Andrea, Sdock, Jenn... everyone!!!!
*hugs everyone, tightly*
It's great to see you all again. How are you all? Is everyone well and happy? I hope so! I've missed you!
I had an absolutely fabulous time in Helsinki. I love, love, love, love, love it there (yes, despite the freezing temperatures)! I started missing Finland the minute the plane took off. The country, the city and (especially) the people totally captured my heart and soul. I am definitely going back. Sooner rather than later!
GS: Yes!!!!!! It was everything I hoped it would be and thensome! I wonder if I can "do" that dual citizenship with Finland? Hmmmmm.......
Mya: I thought of you while I was there too!!! I wish you could have come with me. Well, maybe next time! YOU would love it too. Trust me! And, don't worry, I have hundreds of photos and some darn good videos!
*huge smile*
Ergo: *smoooooooooooch*
That one is NOT frozen! I'm back to temps in the 70's F in good ol' Louizianna. Ohhh..... they have streetcars in Helsinki! I felt so much at home there (except for those temps)!
Sweetcheeks: *humongous hug and kiss*
How are you? What's new with you and your two guys?
Amy: Two pairs of wool socks, at once, and snow boots and my feets were still cold!
Possum, Mya, J and L, GS, FASC, Andrea and Sdock: Thank you all for looking at and commenting on my Family Christmas pictures! Just... thank you!
*huge hugs*
Pixie and Siobhan: I waved to both of in while at the Frankfurt airport! Did ya'll see me?
;)
Mayo: How the heck are you? Did you miss me? Ah-huh. Sure you did.
;)
Thank you for the new post/painting/piece. I'm so happy to hear your friend is okay. Ergo is correct. It is THOSE moments that we realize just how insignificant all the "silly" stuff is, isn't it?! It's in those moments ~ when we are faced with the mortality of those we love ~ that pretty much all disagreements, arguments, fights, words spoken/screamed become insignificant. All that remains, in those moments, is love...
and, perhaps regret.
I'm happy you and your friend have another chance to lay all the "silly" stuff to rest.
*huge hug for you too*
SS: How are you? Yeah, I know you missed me too!
*another wink*
I hope you are well and your new year is off to a great start!
Okay, I really need to get some sleep. I is exhausted! 18 + hours of traveling will do that to a person.
I think I'm going to sleep for 3 days. Hopefully, my luggage will be here when I wake up! Chicago decided to "keep" it for a few extra hours. It seems the plane was too full and too heavy!
O_o
Delta Airlines did call and say would deliver my luggage to me no later than 5:00 p.m. tonight. I was very relieved to hear that. Afterall, my nephew is dying to see/read his big Dinosaur book and I can't wait to hear him try to pronounce those words in Finnish!
Enjoy what remains of the day, everyone! I'll post my pictures and videos after some much needed rest!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, DA, BI, Mel, Lewis and MissT!
Welcome back Wendy!! Sounds like you had an awesome trip. Did you smuggle any 18 year old Finns through Customs?
Hi Carrie!!!!
LOL!!!! Well, I tried my best to smuggle two 18 year old Finns and one 18 year old Italian guy through customs; but they wouldn't let me. Can you believe that?
I mean, it's not like I was trying to bring fruit back into this country!
;)
Oh well, maybe next time!
:D
I'll see you later Carrie! I hope you and your family are all well!
*blows kisses before she passes out*
If you don't try to save one life, you'll never save any.
To stop them, you have to destroy the brain.
Shoot them in the head.
I'm sure you boys didn't just tag along so we could sing Kumbiya together at some boyscout bonfire, then again, maybe you did.
NIIIIICE!
But then again, maybe you did.
Oh damn, you already said that line.
Didn't you just love Leon? He was such a doofus sometimes. :D
We're gonna run through the lobby.
welcome back wendy!!
glad you had a fantabulous time!!
leon i don't know who you are?
hold on i'll google you.
oh resident evil!!
i love the name "Leon". and that film is the best! well one of them anyway.
and i still don't get the There was a ball, a strike, a kiss, and some much needed sleep.
is the ball like a fancy dance type thing? i mean is that what Mayo is meaning? i get the strike of the clock and the kiss, and the much needed sleep.
anyways this is just a brief in and outfor me!
have a fun evening guys!
and good morning ergo! for when you wake up!
love to you all.
damn that fucking space!!
hi K!!
hope you are good?
Hi, FASC! I'm one of the Leons but there is another one, which is very sexciting for me. :)
Oh, and out this way we drop a big glowing ball at midnight on new years day. ^_^
FASC, did you actually see Degeneration? ^_^
I have to tell you, I liked Old Leon much better, back in the game when he had a different face model and a really cheesy goddamn sense of humor!
Old Leon,
New Leon.
What do you guys think?
This is VITALLY important.
;D
Oh nuts, is it just me again? Well I will go back to having fun by myself while I cook my dinner.
Or, I'm sorry. Cook my tea. :D
And I have to get to be early tonight because I have to go to uni tomorrow.
^__^
God I'm so pretentious.
Oh, and out this way we drop a big glowing ball at midnight on new years day. ^_^
well we don't do that here! thanks for explaining!
mayo, multiculture is the way forward my friend! stop being so bloody American, I don't understand you!! jesus, you are often hard enough to get anyway!! ^_~
FASC, did you actually see Degeneration? ^_^
no i didn't K. que?
oh i think both Leon's look very similar?
maybe the older one is a bit prettier?!
we conflicted errors there Kapunua!
was it good for you?!
My... That's a very big thing you've got there. But I don't like it when men play rough.
oh shit have i missed you K?
i wasn't stopping but anyway.
hope you have a nice tea.
Oh, FASC I think I totally blog-humped you because I didn't get a conflicting error!
Ohhhh, I thought you were saying you had enjoyed the movie and I was like, "It's weird that anyone else aside from us game geeks has actually heard of it."
YES, he was way prettier back then, thank you for seeing that. It is vitally important that I'm not the only one who sees the difference.
;D
Did you see me trying to be all British? :)
My tea is almost ready, thanks! ^_^
Oh, FASC I think I totally blog-humped you because I didn't get a conflicting error!
well that is cos you were blinded by your lust/love for me K!!
i like your attempts to be more British!!
and thanks for sharing some more Americanisms with me. even the spelling of things. you guys are "z" whores and we are "u" whores!
weird how it is so different. i can see more European influences in us (quelle suprise!)
anyway i really have to go but i hope you are good and well and happy!
♥
oh i get you now K!
i love the name "Leon". and that film is the best!
i meant this one!!
byee!
Oh, whaddya know, there is a movie called Leon! Well gotta tell ya, the Japanese are crazy about that name. They have a whole cadre* of heroes named "Leon."
I do have so much lust for you FASC, that's because I remember your true identity.
^_^
*Three that I know of.
Byeee FASC! Keep on being hot. :)
haha!
thanks K!
will do!
I'm actually sitting here reading "REsident Evil 4 gamers confessions" on IMDB and some of them are hilarious.
"I threw eggs at the merchant."
"I stabbed a cow until it headbutted me."
"I can't play this game at night."
"I shot the merchant."
"I died 300 times."
"I love it when Leon pushes crates."
"I killed Ashely several times with the knife."
"I tried to sell Ashley to the Merchant."
"In the lab, I was too afraid to pick up the freezer key because I knew the second I did that awful regenerator would wake up. So I spent about 5-10 minutes just staring at the key before bringing myself to pick it up."
HAHA! I love it!
Where is everyone going? Bingo?
Ahhh, I liked that quote too. :D
Did you send out these invitations? I told you: No more than fifty people!
Stay with me, Luis!
Hmm, there is such a pattern in my own tastes. Clearly I like all my heroes tough, clever, resiliant, tall, pretty, conflicted and a little bit retarded. I'm not sure how typical that is. O_o
You guys all know what my favorite quote is. I don't need to write it out again; I''m sure you've seen me do it once or twice anyway. :D
I'm going in for a shower.
Later, anon! :D Later, lurkers. :)
You catch on quick, as expected. After all, you and I both know where we come from.
Talk to you later. Leon out.
Hello Mayo (:
&& everyone else.
Mayo thanks for the new post (:
Happy Belated New Years to you and to all!
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This year started great for me and then something hit me. I might have stomach cancer. isn't that just swell?
:(
Awwwweeee! What fun in here today! I've never seen RE but oh well! Yay!
Hello to anyone here!
Hello Mayo!
Hi :)
RE ANON! You made me smile so much!
Princess, one of these days you and Solly are going to come up for a few days and I am going to show you all my video games and make you watch them. ;D
Belle, what's this now? What's going on?
How old are you and have you seen doctors about this yet, and if so what are they saying?
Oh damn, Belle! I'm sorry! I just saw your comment. That's terrible! What's going on?
I've got to go for a bit and you are gone before I get back, Belle, I truly am sorry. I hope everything will be okay.
*if you are gone
I've looked at a computer screen all damn day today and it's all getting blurry. O_o
You still about, Belle? Or is it just Smoke and I?
I'm going to sign on to AIM, guys, because I've just about had enough of looking at numbers today and trying to figure it out on my own. :)
Belle
I'm so sorry for what you are going through. If you need to talk with someone or just if you need someone to listen to you talk PLEASE e-mail me.
(\__/)
(='.'=)
A kittykatmeow!
hi all
thanks for the good morning fasFc,:]
Hi K
HI elena
Hi belle, I hope everything ends up ok belle, do you have to have more tests? Is there treatment they are suggesting? I really really hope everything works out.
and hi anon
you know I really love sunshowers
AND
I was just walking up from checking our rain gauge, and on our cement driveway there was an earthworm, travelling slowly along, now it was at least 5m from any ground and was heading to another garden bed.
What possessed his* wormy mind to want to change where it was? How did he even know about the existence of another area of soil? Was he like Magellan Worm? Setting out to prove there is more out there to all his wormy pals? Did he farewell his worm family knowing that he may never return?
These things we may never know, but he did find the garden bed, so he must be vindicated in his own wormy mind. I suppose even the lowliest of creatures can yearn for something more, and some are brave enough to believe in themselves and try.
*I do refer to him as a he, though they are hermaphrodites, it sounds better, lol
hey K what math are you doing?
WENDY!!!!!!!!!!
*SMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOCH*
so glad you are back safe, and had a fantastic time xx
Hi Ergo!
I am doing really really simple math. Just conversions and stuff. Things I should have learned to do in high school but could never manage.
I figured I'd really apply myself this time, but same as always, the numbers are getting all jumbled up and they just don't make sense.
K just do a bit then leave it and come back in a couple of minutes, the more you stare at it the worse it gets. Try writing out the conversion factors over and over before you try and do any. Rote learning went out of style but it works
How many are in your course? Is it a big uni?
It's odd, the first equasion he gave us, I was sure I'd never even begin to understand. Then that night in bed, it seemed a bit clearer. I hope against hope that the same will be for these.
It's a pretty small place, and all of my classes are in a row! Literally 202, 203, 204 and 205! Simple. ^_^
equations generally follow a pattern, if you get the pattern it doesn't matter what numbers et put in, they always work the same, so concentrate on the pattern
lucky your rooms are easy to find, I had to wander across half the campus sometimes to get to mine, but once I specialised they were at least all generally in the same building, which was zoology/botany.
Oh I just remembered being in a 3rd year lecture which was only small as it was pretty specific and we were sitting and looked out the window into the great court and a guy stripped off and lay down naked to sunbake. O_O Our poor lecturer took a while to figure out why we were not paying attention.
We also used to sit in patterns too, like every 2nd row, all on one side, diagonal, he knew us all well by then and just used to sigh.
Ergo, I wish it were that easy. It's hard to explain how equasions just don't go into my head. Or even if the short ones do, once I apply numbers to them they get all jumbled up. I get sums that have nothing to do with anything. It's crazy.
Today I got my hospital gown in the mail. Apparently we have to sit in some of the classes and play "patient" so we know how uncomfy it is to hang around mostly nakie.
LOL, I like your nakie guy story! I wish something like that would happen during one of my classes!
Oh, wait, I guess it kind of will. ;)
FOR SOLLY
and also meeeeeee :D
For Jules
And me!
Do you know the best way to make a dream come true? Do you? It's to wake up.
And what exactly was the point of that Redrum? So many people here, and everywhere, forget that there are those who care about them; no matter how quiet the care is.
I can't take much more of this. I feel like I am screaming. And I am tired of it. Good luck to you. Good luck to everyone.
do you get to draw on each other? That's always fun. I didn't do it but I had friends in med, physio etc who did. You'd know when as they'd get to lunch with pen on their arms and legs.
We got extra credit in psych if we voluneered for experiments for masters and doctoral students too.
Queensland Uni was huge so we had the full range of students, right down to the very feral and weird, but naked guy was def. one of the the strangest things I did ever see.
Do they have tutors for the maths? It might help if they can suggest a later year student who could help you. But do remember not to keep telling yourself you can't do them, that's the biggest obstacle any person I've tutored has had to overcome, self talk is a huge block. I had major problems with maths in school but if you can get someone who shows you how to approach it it makes a huge difference, now I wonder why I couldn't see it then.
You can try explaining each step out loud, like you're teaching someone else, it's a technique which not only helps reinforce but can highlight the exact thing that is the problem, rather than just looking at it as thinking , none of this makes sense.
thanks anon,
I have no idea what you're talking about but good luck to you too :]
...All this...while I was sleeping.
Ergo, yup, we have to draw on each other as well as put sticky dots on each other!
They do offer tutoring, and if it gets really involved then I might go ahead and do that. It's free, but the problem is the university is an hour and a half away from my house. O_O
Oh Solly, that is so nice and lovely.
He is such a huge bit of man-steak.
Yum.
Not that Benicio man! Gahhhh! I never got that one. Hahaha!
Of course, this coming from someone who had a crush on Bruce Willis. Only in Die Hard though. That's it. ^_^
Hey again. Only here for a sec.
Oh, so Red has deleted their blog? Why Red? :(
I like Redrum. I hope they are okay.
It's a good idea, it's better to get it sorted early too, you can't do it one day you are already there? In first year we had tutorials timetabled, which made it easier
who is the guy?
SOLLYYYYY
I'm so into the gray streaks and the dark circles, wtf.
oh did redrum go? That's a shame :[
I like his eyes. That's about it.
We'll see how the next class goes, Ergo; or maybe I'll just talk to the professor and ask him if he thinks I could do it with a little help from him. In the last class he really whizzed through it and I only got to ask one question.
The guy is Benicio Del Toro and he is BEAUTIFUL. :D
Redrum closed down his blog? That's sad, I also liked Redrum.
Phantom keeps walking in and out of my front door. O_o
Unfortunately all I can think of when I think of Benicio anymore is that Scarlet Johansen quote where she said that she met him in an elevator and she thought maybe they were having sex, and it was really gross, but she wasn't totally sure.
WTF?!
And then they asked Benicio about it and he was like, "Uhhh...no?"
I'm sorry I didn't get to AIM with you guys.:( I had to go eat at my mother's house and ended up in the kitchen with her.
Well, see you guys later.
Nick Cave has that same kind of "tall dark and creepy" appeal for me that Benicio has.
I'll cradle the balls, stroke the shaft, work the pipe, and swallow the gravy. Get it over here, buddy. Let's do this.
hahaha! Nice! ^_^
Being an actor's no different than being a rugby player or a construction worker, save for the fact that my tools are the mechanisms that trigger human emotion.
First, take a big step back... and literally, FUCK YOUR OWN FACE! I don't know what kind of pan-pacific bullshit power play you're trying to pull here, but Asia Jack is my territory. So whatever you're thinking, you'd better think again! Otherwise I'm gonna have to head down there and I will rain down in a Godly fucking firestorm upon you! You're gonna have to call the fucking United Nations and get a fucking binding resolution to keep me from fucking destroying you. I'm talking about a scorched earth, motherfucker! I will massacre you! I WILL FUCK YOU UP!
I hate to admit it, but he was good in that role.
Soooo, maybe you do have nine lives. But it doesn't matter now, Meeestair Kennedy. I've sent my right hand to dispose of you!
*waits*
*sigh*
Your right hand comes off?!
gah! my daughter just came inside all itchy! and we have a party this afternoon, I have her covered in rolled oats, lol
now it's calamine lotion
I think there was an itchy grub on the trampoline >:[
EUW! ITCHY GRUBS!
itchy grub?
That can't be good.
Like, does it tickle you with a feather? Or does it climb on you an ooze some kind of itchy gel?
Hi Amy
Hi Elena
no they are hairy and the hairs make you itch, we get them in the tree which is over the tramp, and it was raining and she was in a bikini
she's ok now though
We are all dressed and we are off to the party :]
have a great night and I'll see you tomorrow
♥xx♥
Have a good party Ergo!
*shudders at the thought of hairy grubs dropping from the sky*
*sips her hot chocolate*
itchy grub
there are different types, from little to fat
we generally get little ones, but they all itch!
see ya!
It was nice of Mayo to post the Tropic Thunder quote..... I guess he didn't really think the movie quotes were beyond pathetic.
*squeals*
Thanks Ergo, now I can stay up all night scouring my house for itchy grubs, spiders and BOT FLIES.
It's nice of Mayo to not play favorites with anyone, isn't it? :)
Yeh, I like how he says that no one should dictate what does or doesn't belong on the blog, its more fair that way.
And I like how he doesn't make anyone feel excluded, regardless of what they have to talk about.
He COULD have just come right out and say that Amyranth was his favorite but instead he decided to play fair and not name her as his favorite..... you know throw a bone to the pathetic porchies.
"And I like how he doesn't make anyone feel excluded, regardless of what they have to talk about."
Amaranth would never do that to anyone. She would never say that certain things would be better kept off the blog.
He also doesn't talk down to people, which is awesome. SS is the same, I can see why he hangs out here from time to time.
10:46, I wouldn't want to be labelled as a favorite of anyone. It's not fair and it's quite exclusionary.
No he doesn't talk down to people. Except the ones he told to go away and masturbate that time..... Actually I can see him calling someone pathetic because he has gotten insulting before to certain people. He was sticking up for some people. I guess he has his tastes on what he thinks is pathetic and what he likes.
'SS is the same, I can see why he hangs out here from time to time.'
He hung out doing movie quotes quite a bit too.... back in the day.
'And I like how he doesn't make anyone feel excluded,'
I like how so many people thought of belle today when she came on because that sounded really bad. Those people, didn't make her feel excluded.
That's C-4, dipshit. Put that back. I said a detonator! I need some dudes who speak American god dammit! He's making a fucking sweater here, I'm tryin' to put Tiger Balm on this jungle's nuts.
Defining "feminism" by not bothering to learn your trade and instead dancing in a short skirt and then marrying your way into higher position while allowing your husband to exploit that relationship is just as much of a ridiculous stretch
as slut-shaming other women and blaming women for the effects of the patriarchy?
I don't get how you can be such a huge Kurt Cobain fangirl and have missed so much of what he spoke about, stood for and supported.
She can play bass. She's an average player. She plays what is required of her. Like most male bass players. Expecting a woman to do better than what you expect from a man and requiring them to be absolutely perfect before you deem them acceptable isn't feminist and only reinforces what you claim to be against. As for the awesomely feminist 'dancing in a short skirt' crack, watch some footage of her on stage and in the crowd that isn't a carefully selected 30 second clip.
as writing derogatory songs about "n*ggers" and "f*ggots"
Those words can be used in non-derogatory ways. Maybe the guy who wears a red jacket with 'only faggots wear red' written on it isn't using those words (or writing songs) in the straight-forward derogatory way you claim that he is? I do have problems with how those words are used in some of their songs but attacking them in such a simplistic and inaccurate way only serves to benefit them.
10:53, everyone does, and they're entitled.
10:54, ah yes. Back in the day when we were all a happy family, when we actually worried about each other, and didn't feel the need to attempt to belittle each other.
10:56, nice to see someone else has chatted with belle before.
Anonymous Anonymous said...
9:49,
Don't try to bait me.
For those of you who think they know what I do and do not wish to read, don't put words in my mouth.
I never fake it.
Most know me when they see me.
And to those who do, thanks for all of your incredible interpretations of my story.
October 27, 2008 9:59 PM
So now we are ALL about the Sweeney Todd, from the tallest to the smallest. That, is some good shit.
Hallo Carrie!
I haven't seen it. I'm afraid of JD overkill.
Oh noes, do not be afraid. It is soooo worth it. I am ate the hell up with it, and not afraid to admit it.
:S
But.. but...
I can't even watch Pirates 3 anymore without rolling my eyes. I'm not enamoured of JD, and I probably never will be.
Well I'm not singing Power Ballads every time I see him either, but this is just a good adaptation. And I feel you on Pirates, I was never that enthralled with that whole franchise, which would probably earn me a smack from my daughturd.
Kapunua said...
Oh Solly, that is so nice and lovely.
He is such a huge bit of man-steak.
Yum.
January 9, 2009 7:49 PM
nothing sexist about that comment. nothin at all.
that is why so many people don't like her. she can't see what a judgemental hypocrite she is.
imo
I'd probably get beaten publicly if I ever said it out loud. I just didn't find Jack to be a good character, I spent most of the movie wanting to kick him, real hard.
no, no stonings. :) I did enjoy the Jack character though, I will admit. Sometimes I like over the top, which in retrospect sounds kinda nasty.
Hello anon, how was your day?
I can't help but think Ergo is lurking, waiting to take that top spot on the next page. Ergo are you luuuuurkiiiing? (sung, since I'm in a Sondheim mood now)
She's at a party tonight Carrie.
Her daughter got attacked by an itchy grub.
Oh no with itchy grubness. Itchy grub might also be a good punk rock band name, methinks.
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