My bizarre take on a strange holiday tradition has produced magical dancing light.
p.s. may all of yours be merry and bright.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
skip to main |
skip to sidebar
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Art by: Toujours
No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
4,481 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 2001 – 2200 of 4481 Newer› Newest»Ergo, hahahaha
Ergo, poor hubby! He's getting teased so badly!
Gonna go snuggle for a bit. Be back.
lol BC it's what I'm there for!
but I assure you I get it back as well
XD
enjoy the cuddles Amy and mister
Always too early or late these days. Had to go for a sleep study last night, not a fun time, electrode abrasions on mah head, not digging it. And I'm gonna have to get one of those machines that make me look like the Creature from the Black Lagoon, because evidently me and breathing aren't so much friends when I'm trying to sleep, oh, that's why I'm terminally tired and cranky. On another note, I watched Sweeney Todd today, finally, and now I get all those Mrs. Lovett quotes. I luuuurved that movie way more than I thought I would.
hi carrie!
so you do have sleep aponea?
Yep, evidently. The first part of the night they put all these electrodes and such on you, and if they think you need it, they come in halfway through the night and hook you up to the other machine. Nice woman claimed after she put the awful mask like device on me I slept like a baby, but yeah, I guess we'll see.
well it's good now they can treat it, you'll probably notice a huge difference once you start sleeping well.
Can't imagine falling asleep hooked up to electrodes, was it uncomfortable? I've seen a sleep therapy show on TV that looks at people with problems like that, they all say it's amazing how much better they feel with proper sleep.
And it's way hella creepy, cuz they are watching you the whole time. I remember waking up and needing to pee, and having to say, hey, I gotta go to the bathroom, and the person comes in minutes later and unhooked me from stuff so I could go.
TJ update:
A quarter to 9 seems very late when you don't have a tv & have spent a rainy evening reading. But it was a good day, wet & windy & here. 24 minutes ago
Oh Ergo it was way uncomfortable, maybe a combo of them telling me I had to sleep on my back and knowing that someone was watching me? I estimated that it took me an hour to fall asleep when they questioned me this morning, but I don't know how accurate that was. I was kinda interested in all the tellemetry stuff they were doing though, I had to take tests before I fell asleep, and again in the morning, dealing with tracking of eye movements, and flexing of muscles and such. I'm kind of a geek about those things.
ugh carrie I don't know if I could fall asleep, considering I have insomnia anything can keep me awake, I hate even having a ticking clock in the room, drives me nuts as I listen to it
I'd want the same, I'd be asking to see their machines and charts and stuff, all that REM ad deep sleep stuff is amazing
Yeah, I could not fall asleep until I put ear plugs in, and it wasn't like there was any sound int he room beyond the heater and stuff. And yeah, I have to say, I'm a lucid dreamer, so the whole time I was dreaming, I was wondering what the chick in the booth was seeing! Which I'm sure affected my alpha or beta waves or whatever. But evidently, after I get this mask, the sun will emerge from the mountains and I will be like Sound of Music Gal twirling around. Me? I'm skeptical, first one they put on me I was like the guy in The Abyss when they are trying to make him breathe that liquid oxygen stuff, felt like I was suffocating. They did get me a different size mask and that felt a little better but still weird. Hey, I'm game, they obviously have the stats to back up something is happening in bad land while I sleep, so I will give it a try. My mom said some guy she works with went through the same thing, and then he started using the mask and lost 35 pounds without even trying, because evidently bad sleep was fucking up his metabolism that bad.
oh bad sleep affects you a lot, all aspects of your health and life, I don't know about you swanning about rolling green hills singing though!
last night I dreamed PP came to visit me, and we were going all over the place, it was really vivid
And now I must be off to suffocate some more, night!
Oh ha, Ergo, I have dreamed about you, but you always are talking like Paul Hogan and you have a knife!!! But not in a threatening way, you're always gonna cook for me, and now, really, gotta go, goodnight
goodnight Carrie, sweet dreams
The hills are alive with the sound of music.....
I'm off too, my friends who moved across country are back over here and we are off for a swim and drinks, so looking forward to seeing them again!
bye all xx
You call that a knife? THIS is a knife!
LOL
Mayo
Goodnight and sweet dreams.
Always.
Elena
Mayo
I am here. Still. Always.
Elena (just cause I checked back and saw I was the last comment hours ago. I AM a very silly woman.)
Goodnight again
Okay and while I'm here...If you haven't seen "Bender's Game" check it out. If you love D&D, Star Wars and Lord Of The Rings..you will love this movie. And yeah, I’m trying very hard to find my voice again.
Will you do me a favor Mayo?
Will you take a moment of your precious time, and covey that you actually do care for some of your Lovely's still? Despite the fact that they all seem to be incredibly strong and independent women, perhaps a small amout of effort and thought to simply let them KNOW THAT YOU STILL CARE, would be nice.
A few words, Mayo. A late Christmas present perhaps? They have given you much more for a very long time now. It is thoughtful and should be enough of you to keep this place open for them, but a small gesture, a few words, to show that you still hear them (and their pain) would be something more for them to grasp. In the world we live in now Mayo, all we have is today. Please let them know, however small the effort, that you are still listening. That you do still care. About Them.
Some people need a little more than "Just Enough." And they do deserve that extra effort.
Just sayin.
Thank you for your time, Mayo.
Have a great day, Mayo! I'm off for class today. Gotta go let the state of Georgia teach me a thing or 12.
Hi elena
you do know that no matter how soft your voice you have people who hear you ♥
have a good day Sdock
hi Mayo and SS
I just had a lovely afternoon/evening with my friends who moved cross country last year. :]
a thought for you both:
"It's better to be asked to "have a nice day" by someone who doesn't care than be told to "fuck off" by someone who does!"
much love to Mayo
and lotsa love to SS
EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve, see you in my morning
♥xx♥
hi fasFc when you get in, hope you have a great day
and Hi to PP, I dreamed you came to visit me last night, I don't know what you look like, but you looked nice in my dream!
take care all
xx
I don't blame you for not coming around much anymore, Mayo, but these holiday pictures are getting old and rather depressing. Kind of like leaving your Christmas tree up past New Year's, you know?
Hi guys, I'm back. Will find out in feb how it all went. Thanks sooooooooooo much for all the good wishes guys.
K, I heop you are enjoying Uni. 5 hours for one lesson, blimey.
Carrie, I hope you finally get some good sleep even if you do need to wear a mask to do it.
catch you all later.
Bye for now.
xxxx
It's funny who's NOT on that list OPS.
Dig yourself,
Lazarus dig yourself
Lazarus dig yourself
back in that hole
Larry made his nest up in the autumn branches
Built from nothing but high hopes and thin air
He collected up some baby blasted mothers who took their chances
And for a while they lived quite happily up there
He came from New York city man, but he couldn't take the pace
He thought it was like dog eat dog world
Then he went to San Francisco, spent a year in out space
With a sweet little San Fransiscan girl.
I can hear my mother wailing and a whole lot of scraping of chairs
I don't know what it is but there's definitely something going on upstairs....
Yeah, New York City, he had to get out of there
And San Francisco, well, I don't know...
And then to LA, where he spent about a day
He thought even the pale sky-stars were smart enough to keep well away from LA
Meanwhile Larry made up names for the ladies
Like miss Boo and miss Quick
He stockpiled weapons and took potshots in the air
He feasted on their lovely bodies like a lunatic
And wrapped himself up in their soft yellow hair
I can hear chants and incantations and some guy is mentioning me in his prayers.
Well, I don't know what it is but there's definitely something going on upstairs...
Well New York City man, San Francisco, LA, I don't know...
But Larry grew increasingly neurotic and obscene
I mean he - he never asked to be raised up from the tomb.
I mean no one ever actually asked him to forsake his dreams.
Anyway, to cut a long story short
Fame finally found him
Mirrors became his torturers
Cameras snapped him at every chance
The women all went back to their homes
And their husbands
Secret smiles in the corners of their mouths
He ended up like so many of them do,
back on the streets of New York City
In a soup queue,
a dopefiend,
a slave,
then prison,
then the madhouse,
then the grave
Ahh poor Larry...
But what do we really know of the dead?
And who actually cares?
Well, I don't know what it is but there's definitely something going on upstairs.
Dig yourself, Lazarus
Dig yourself, Lazarus
Dig yourself, Lazarus
Dig yourself, back in that hole
I want you to dig
I want you to dig
I want you to dig...
Mayo, I just love Nick Cave. His new one is no Murder Ballads (what is?) but that title song is so fantastic. I have to recommend it to everyone.
S(S)S, there is still this chemistry reading to be done and I don't see you getting on that for me. Chop chop!
^_~
I actually do have to go and do some homework so I'll catch you guys on the other side of that. :)
Hi Jules! Hi MissT!
Just poppin' in for a sec. I'm going to have my hair 'did' today. It's gonna be even blonder than it is now and it's gonna be sooooo snazzy. Jealous Mayo? Eff yeah you are! Hahaha!
Okay, so probably not.
Later peeps!
Hope everyone is having a good one!
Hiya smoke sweetie,
Oh no, even blonder hair. Not only will you blind us with your tiara but your hair will burn our retinas too.
I iz blind I tells ya!
hello mayo!
hello SS!
hello everybody!
K, go study girl! eeek it's scary isn't it? using an unfamiliar part of the brain again!
princess hope the appt isn't too long! can be boring!
hello miss T! so you have to wait til Feb to find out!! that's a way off!
ergo hope your daughter and her friend didn't trash your house too much? i find they tend to make a mess with kiddy makeup (smeared on carpet), kiddy nail varnish (smeared everywhere!), beads, sequins, mini pompoms and glue, and the worst...meffing glitter! drives me crazy!
hi L nice to see you around!
oh and hey i was room 11 here in the castle. (can you think why miss T?!)
elena i miss reading your long goodnights to mayo!
Hiya FASC, how are you sweetie?
Yeah, a long nailbiting month it will be waiting. If I am successful, I have to go back for a medical and fitness test. That will be scary.
oh and hey carrie, glad they found something wrong with your sleeping and hopefully they will fix it! that's great news!
i am crap at actually getting to sleep, i think too much that's my bloody problem!
hi miss T!
i am pretty good thanks!
god a medical and fitness test, how nasty!!
when we moved and i registered with my new GP i had to have an assessment with the practice nurse. usual shit. i had to take all 3 kids and my little boy was only about 18 months, not a great age for staying sat quietly while i answered questions! so i was hassled and stressed!
anyway so i did all the questions, lied alot!
do you smoke?
nope!
how many units of alcohol do you drink per week?
what's alcohol? (fuck!)
so i'd got through that and i'm feeling guilty for lying my arse off!
and then she wants to take my blood pressure, i roll my sleeve up and there is one big meffing bruise! and i actually got it when out on the piss with my great mate! i know!! but sometimes it has to be done! so i'm cringing and go for the other arm! she is giving me that look like "your husband beats you doesn't he!!" i am now breaking out into a sweat.
then the kids start playing up, we've been in there 20 mins!
and amaaayzingly my blood pressure was fine! it really should have been through the roof!
LOL FASC, the medical from hell haha haha!
And if you'd told them that your husband didn't beat you, they wouldn't have believed you.
You little lair hahaha! (look inocent) what's alcohol hahaha!
Too funny.
I've been reading about the tests and altough the fitness one doesn't seem to hard, as they say, they just want people to have a reasonable level of fitness, the medical tests seem a little over the top.
They do a hearing test and they suggest before hand you get all your earwax removed and don't stand near motorbokes starting or other loud noises before the test. That sounds a bit over the top and anal.
liar not lair obviously.
it does sound OTT miss T!
are you interviewing for a non uniform police woman type of person? i cannot for the life of me think of the name? a civillian working for the police??
sorry i did read it and now i have forgotten!
It for the role of Police Community Support Officer.
Yup, it's uniformed. It's a good way to start actually. rather than become a PC straight away and not like it. the probation period is a year and they tell us that most people who like it become full PC's after a year.
hello, everyone. i woke up today feeling low so i sacrificed the two-zone fare to get some comforting library time.
miss t, are you really going to go into law enforcement? that's amazing!
Hiya TJ, how are you sweetie?
seems like ages since I've chatted to you here.
Yup, if I am successful, it looks like i could be doing so. Although I have now got an interview about the teaching course as well.
It for the role of Police Community Support Officer.
yep yep yep like those one in The Bill! not that i've seen it forever, but that is fantastic miss T and a great way to get your foot in the door!
great pension also! god how fucking sad do i sound?!
TJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
man how are you doing? we have missed you!
great pension also! god how fucking sad do i sound?!
LOL FASC, you'll be wanting a warm cardigan and sensible shoes to be going along with that.
that's so very cool miss t., i hope it works out for you!
hi faraway! i miss all you guys too, so very much. i just keep plugging away at trying to get something permanent set up, but it's no fun not being able to tell you all about it.
LOL FASC, you'll be wanting a warm cardigan and sensible shoes to be going along with that.
nice look!!
TJ it's been so quiet here though. really quiet. even Mr Naise hasn't been around for the longest time!!
but i miss seeing your name. this place is very comforting, there's something about it here isn't there?!
Thanks TJ sweetie.
And FASC is right, we miss you when you're not here.
i really thought that i was going to see a new post from mayo, faraway -- i suppose the new year has kicked off to a busy start for him.
my time is almost up, unfortunately. i can only sign on for an hour at a time...
it's so good to know that i'm missed, miss t.
TJ!!! FASC!!! MissT!!!
Hiya guys!
*waves to everyone in blogbelieve*
Why is it that Kapunua can call somebody SHE is not with a 'beautiful boy' but when OPJ calls SS Precious or makes remarks to him about his looks or how she feels about him it's endless pages of how disgusting she is?
You don't know how Kapunua's 'beautiful boy' feels about her. Maybe he is with someone else too. Maybe he doesn't like her, maybe he feels uncomfortable by the way she calls him that.
But it is OK for her to do that, yet somehow it is NOT OK for OPJ to talk sexually about SS?
I smell another double standard stacked against OPJ.
ANIMA!!!!!!!!!
FASC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe...
4.51 what the fuck is the point in your comment other than to stir up shit that doesn't need to be stirred. if all you want to do is come here and make trouble then i don't know why? i think we are all aware that the OPs and K will never be friends again. they have dealt with that, accepted it, so why can't you just drop it?!
it ruins it here and god help us this place is dead enough of late.
Ok sorry about that i just don't see the point.
I can't stay, but I just wanted to come by and say hello. I miss you all so much!
Mayo, I miss you like crazy too. Duh, right?
i'd better say good bye, the computer kicks you off automatically at the end of your session!
miss t, fraway, it was so good to get to chat a little! big hugs to you both! :)
mayo,
maybe there'll be a new post when i next find my way back to blogbelieve?
yesterday i was having such a good day -- it was great to be back in the city proper, and i just wandered around, soaking it up while getting soaked in the rain.
but this morning i woke feeling so homesick. i haven't had a place to call my own since i left on the road in april, and while for the most part it has been a great adventure, i'm beyond ready to have a place to stay, a home of my own again.
i know that everything could change tomorrow, so i'm hanging on to hope, but today i'm tired of the wandering. today the exploration isn't so much fun. today i want a couch of my own, a coffeemaker in the kitchen, and a cat on my lap.
instead, i'll be heading back out to look for a job.
but i was accepted at the braille library to do radiowork for them, i have my orientation next week. it's volunteer, so it doesn't help me actually survive, but i'm looking forward to doing real voicework. maybe i'll be a voice actor eventually! lol
take care of yourself, mayo.
see you all again soon, i hope!
bye for now.
and anon i just want to say i didn't mean to sound so angry but sometimes i just think it needs to be dropped.
ANIMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
beat ya!
how are you doing babe?!
oh and TJ if you have had to go?? be safe and take care.
FASC, I agree. When I read the comment, I sighed big time. I mean, what is the point really?
Afternoon people!
FASC! MISS T! ANIMA! TEEJ!!
I got today off. :3
sorry anima i didn't read properly!
seeya and take care!
and TJ you too, take care, good luck and i hope to see you around here soon!
So short and sweet TJ, it was great to see you though.
HIYA ANIMA sweetie! How are you?
TJ, take care! It was so awesome to see you here.
FASC, I'm doing alright. :) How have you been?
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I win!!
Damn. I missed Teej.
Hi Amyranth!
MissT! So you're gonna be an officer? That sounds super cool.
hey anima!!
it irks me!
i just think that there is no point!!
hi amy!
nice having the pm off!!
i'm good thanks anima!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am a kid!
Hallo FASC! You're telling me! I slept in most of the day!
Hallo Anima! Did you recover from New Year's yet?
Miss T? You're going to be a cop? O_O
I am such a kid too FASC! Gotta love it!
Well, I'm going to go get a few things done - hope to swing back by in a few.
I'll miss you guys!
Amy, still recovering! It totally kicked my ass!! But it was good. Thanks for asking!
See you guys in a bit...
Well, I hope I will be Anima, we'll have to see how it goes.
Yo Amy dude, how you doin?
See you later Anima sweetie.
I hope I will be Amy. Gotta wait til feb to find out.
I just hate double standards. OPJ always gets called on her behaviour towards SS but no one ever calls Kapunua on hers towards that boy.
MissT, that is impressive. I've wanted to try to go for police training, until Mister pointed out that I'd make a better human shield for a criminal, than a cop for the city. :P
It sucks being short.
I think you can do it though!
sorry my mum phoned and she is never quick!!
seeya anima!
gotta go too!
have a fun afternoon amy!
miss T have a lovely rest of your evening.
mayo and SS *hugs*
love to you all!
Night FASC!
LOL Amy, that's cruel but funny.
I hope I do OK. I think they are recruiting a lot of people so hopefully I will get in there.
Nighty Night FASC sweetie.
5:15 i agree
5:15
there is no double standard. Kapunua doesn't talk about fucking Beautiful Boy in the ass, like J does about SS.
Well, it's definitely something to go for. And if you get on with the police, you'll end up making good money, no doubt.
Kapu knows him in real life. I think that's another difference where they're friends and they can joke around.
And Amy, the pay in London is quite a bit more than in the rest of the country.
MissT, even better. I know that cops here in Calgary make a decent wage, but they're also in the middle of trying to keep teenagers involved in gangs from killing innocent bystanders. I imagine it's a little less active in London?
It's the kids stabbing each other that's the problem here but they are tending to go after other kids. At least it's not bystanders getting stabbed, they just get kicked in the heads by drunk people.
Yeah, I think I'd take a kick in the head to a bullet any day.
It's a drug war here in the city. Two groups that were friends in high school are no longer, and they're having fun chasing each other around the city. Problem is, one guy has already been blinded, and one guy was killed trying to leave a restaurant after a gang shooting.
The police Chief is worried now, because if they're starting to be so brazen as to shoot up a restaurant to get their targets, it essentially means that no one is safe.
That's bad Amy. But on the plus side, if they are being so blaze about things now, surely they will fuck up. They might be easier to cath cos of that.
What I read last night, is one of the two gangs have started to divide into "cells". They're pooling money and buying houses to run operations out of, so that even if they get raided by the cops, the gang isn't really affected, because it's only a small portion of where they are.
It's scary.
That is scary. That needs to be stopped before they get to be a bigger operation.
I said to Mister yesterday that what they should do is start releasing names of known gang members and associates, so that people who don't want to get themselves killed can stay as far away as bloody possible.
The neighbourhood I live in has quite a few people with gang ties that have been shot and killed, that called this place home. Cocaine Busts, guys getting shot in the alleys.. I wanna know if my neighbour has been arrested on weapons possession, so that I can help keep tabs on his activity.
hello!
I had a sleep in this morning, it's another rainy day too, so it was lovely.
have no idea what I'm doing today, might have our friends over, plans from last night were a bit vague
Hi missT, HI Amy
fasFc the house survived, but I have to now sort though all the stuff thrown off her bed into store boxes they pull everything out and put nothing back, as you'd know! lol
Hallo Ergo! Sounds like a wonderfully lazy day for you too!
I might nip off for a nap.. I haven't decided yet though.
I've just had to reboot the computer twice. I think there is new updates to install. It always goes tits up when there is.
I agree Amy, there will come a time when we will all need to know exactly what the people around us have done and are capable of. The do gooders will always moan about privacy and human rights but if you've got nothing to hide then you've got no worries. If you do have something to hide then others should know cos it makes you dangerous.
Hiya Ergo sweetie, how are you?
*claps*
Excellent point MissT. I agree that basic human rights are a necessity, but if you knowingly engage in activities that make you a danger to others, then the public should be informed.
It's like asking for help in solving the case after the killer has been caught.
good thanks , about to exercise and do my yoga (2 1/2 hr shows on tv)
Amy sounds scary where you are, it's a shame people have to be involved in all that stuff
I agree Amy. the emphasis has to move from protecting the criminals anonymity to letting the public know who is a danger.
How's the weather down under Ergo. It's been tits freezing weather here. We've had a little snow but it's finally getting warmer.
Well, it's beddy byes time for me.
It's been great chatting guys.
Have a great weekend.
Nighty night.
it's hot and humid missT lots of rain about
sweet dreams :]
Hi Everybody!
How's it going? I spent all day in class learning about tax stuffs and collection procedures. It was taught be the state. Not too bad of a day.
Except...
I haven't talked to my sister all freakin' day long and I feel like I am going through some sort of withdrawal here.
Smoke, I miss you!!!! Is your hair all purdy and platinum?
Mayo,
Okay, time for me to get all emo and sentimental and shit, but I heard this song on the way home tonight. Every time that I hear it, it makes me think of the blog. Mostly, it reminds me of Mustard and our long running thing about being tied together and "taking our walk". Do you remember that? Well, anyways...tonight, it made me think of Elena.
Elena, this one is for you....
I hope you know how much you mean to this place and I hope you know that we are here for you if you need us.
Long Trip Alone
It's a long trip alone over sand and stone
That lie along the road that we all must travel down
So maybe you could walk with me a while
And maybe I could rest beneath your smile
Everybody stumbles sometimes and needs a hand to hold
'Cause it's a long trip alone
It's a short piece of time but just enough to find
A little peace of mind under the sun somewhere
So maybe you could walk with me a while
And maybe I could rest beneath your smile
You know we can't afford to let one moment pass us by
'Cause it's a short piece of time
And I don't know where I'd be without you here
'Cause I'm not really me without you there
Yea, Yeah
Yea, Yeah, Oh
So maybe you could walk with me a while
Maybe I could rest beneath your smile
Everybody stumbles sometimes and needs a hand to hold
So maybe you could walk with me a while
Maybe I could rest beneath your smile
Maybe I could feel you right beside me til' I'm home
'Cause it's a long trip alone
A long trip alone
So, Mayo, I know I've said it like a ca-jillion times, but thanks for keeping this space open. Sometimes, hell, most times, I guess we need it more than you do. And in those times that you do need it, I hope you can still come here and find some piece that you might be missing and, well, maybe just some peace of mind.
Isn't that what we're all looking for?
Love to You Always,
S
Long Trip Alone
I really love his voice. It's calming. You don't have to like country music to like this if you listen to the words. ^_^
Well, I'm blonde and I'm tired! Hahaha! The girl that did my hair and I spent an hour talking about people we went to school with and how attitudes have changed. It was fun!
Mayo, SS and BlogBelieve,
♥ you guys!
goodnight smoke and sdock sweet dreams
MSI is taking some shots at Ville Valo and HIM. Hahahahahaaaa
Probably out of jealousy anon.
Because he's a braying jackass?
Huh, I dunno really, but some anons were talking about it at Verita's as well. Though I'm not sure if it was Braying Jackass 1 or Braying Jackass 2--I get them confused. I know that Braying Jackass one has some kind of stupid hairdo and that I would love to binh choy his flapping mouth shut forever.
I'm not sure if that answers your question, anon, but one of them was saying something to the effect of Ville Valo not being a good performer or something and that they hate when people "fake it."
MSI must have redefined "faking it" to mean "actually singing and playing your instrument as opposed to dancing around to a backing track," is my guess.
But then they also like to redefine other such simple terms as "feminism" and "racism" as well, so there ya go.
In other news, I did all my homework; I am a good girl! Then as a reward to myself I had a nice long soak in a hot bath, and then started writing again just for the sheer pleasure of writing. Shock! ^_^
Now I'm going to eat a bunch of cherries while I watch X Files. :)
Everyone, I hope you're having a lovely day; I'm sorry I didn't backread too much.
Oh, but I did read mention of Beautiful Boy, and yes, just to let you know, he jokes around with me even more than I joke around with him, in fact just last night while punching each other we had a really good laugh over something he said, and then he threw me to the ground and I was still laughing like a fool and I forgot to tuck my chin and today I have whiplash.
Worth it! ^_^
So quit trying to pretend you know any of the people in my life or how we are together, okay? :)
Mayo and S(S)S, I do, in fact, miss you both and hope you are doing well. :D
Meffers, and I miss our AIM chats very much. Maybe we can do one again soon> I would love that.
Good night everyone.
TA WATH. :D
Oh, P.S. because this is funny, but then after class I was getting ready to drive the Empress Teishi home and Beautiful Boy called out, "I'll text you, I'll text you!" and I didn't really know what to say or if he was even talking to me or what, and then in the car I realized I should have perhaps said something.
Homeboy can text me till the lemurs come home; I have a landline.
>_<
Okay, really going now. Byeeee!
HI BC
HI K
sweet dreams
Kapu I know when Amyranth called you a biatch she said it with hate, meaning to hurt. But..... when I say you're a biatch I mean it in the best possible way!!! Your sarcasm and way of talking always makes me laugh. You are a smart biatch who is also funny..... I say that with respect! Hi EP!
Pathetic
'ello 10:53
'ello 11:03
hope you're well
And now I get all the Tropic Thunder quotes along with the Sweeney Todd ones. I have watched some kick ass movies this week, for sure.
Hi Carrie, I haven't seen either yet, I'll get around to it one day.
How was your sleep last night?
I'm well EP hope you are too
Hi Carrie I remember the TT quotes, those were fun days......
I am thanks anon, been doing some baking.
What have you been up to? have a good new year so far?
Yeh pretty good.....
Hi Ergo and anon. My sleep was good last night, mainly because I wasn't hooked up to a ton of crap and I could sleep on my side like I usually do! I still think the whole thing is sort of a scam on the insurance company, but I will give the machine a try. I have no idea when I will get one though, I have to wait for some health service to call here and set up an appt. and such. So I guess I can assume my condition is not so much with the life threatening. :)
And speaking of sleep, I need to go get me some of that. Goodnight blog!
I bet it was a lot more comfortable!
I hope they can give you a go sooner rather than later, but the health system isn't always known for it's promptness!
I was supposed to get called by a department 6 years ago, funnily I still haven't heard from them!
Lucky it wasn't vitally important.
Though I do know, at least over here they are very understaffed and overworked a lot of the time, esp out of the metropolitan areas.
goodnight carrie, sweet dreams
*sigh*
it's so quiet these days
*tidies up lounge*
*plumps pillows*
*straightens painting above fireplace for TJ*
*places out plate of fresh pulla bread*
*leaves fresh breadcrumbs for the dustkin*
*settles back to read*
*sniiiiiff*
Dude, I smell fresh bread!
Hey ergo!
HI Amy!
it's pulla bread from Finland
thought I'd bring some in ready for Wendy's arrival home
actually hubby's mum used to make it so he had a go, it's nice flavoured with cardamom
hi hi everyone
HI BC
Back from ya supa seekreet blog.
Ooooh.. Cardamom Bread!
Hallo BC!
We went to an Artisan Bread store today, and I had a cinnamon roll that had WAY too much cinnamon on it. I was disappointed.
Hi Ergo, how was your day?
Hallo Amy!
So, it looks like Mayo's busy pumping out a bunch of cops around here! BC, if you're still thinking about pursuing criminal justice, MissT is trying to get on with London's Police Service as well.
I think that's neat.
oh too much cinnamon isn't good, it gets so bitter in large amounts.
Days going well thanks BC pretty quiet, I have a party tomorrow though an after xmas/new year with heaps of friends, should be really good
Ergo, that was what happened. Not enough sugar to balance it out, and the cinnamon made my mouth go numb and dry. Yeek.
That's awesome Amy :)
I have to take some tests first before I can be admitted to the Public Affairs school, but I've been thinking of changing my major for a while.
what a strange person!
So you noticed that too 1:43.
yeah, he's done it now. he's gone and admitted it.
New post.
I'm not surprised SS doesn't visit.
my arm parts!
I AM THE GOD OF HELLFIRE!
I AM THE GOD OF HELLFIRE!
I AM THE GOD OF HELLFIRE!
I AM THE GOD OF HELLFIRE!
I AM THE GOD OF HELLFIRE!
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
MAN LOVE RULES OK
Post a Comment