I Hate Swimming
I am barefoot
and the pavement burns
my pale soles.
I begin to shuffle
first to the left
then, right.
Holding each
until I can no longer stand
without wobble.
I would seek shelter
but, that would find
me leaving you
alone, again.
And, I can’t.
Won’t.
Your willful eyes
and your exuberance
stand with me.
I am here
to brave the burn.
p.s. all that stuff about going blind is a lie.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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«Oldest ‹Older 801 – 1000 of 3282 Newer› Newest»Lovin' your humor 12:18. :D
12:16, you are welcome!
Ergo, sorry for stealing your topper. :(
i know, 12:18, that's why i fel like i had to clarify!!
ergo has it right. he wanted to see all the things the australian post office put on the padded envelope.
timing really is everything though. sheesh.
:)
coffee.
brb
Lovin' your timing Toujours. :D
Another :D for Amy.
ah no problem amy, I wasn't paying attention
*happy dance for amy*
Lil Kim and Tommy Lee. Methods of mayhem. Best line..
"Ride the cock till you hit the spot"
an excerpt from that song. my personal favorite part.
Lil Kim:
Queen bitch red lipstick
The all black harlot call me black Barbie
Fuck a blow job it's a motherfuckin' hobbie
Under 7 inches uhh sorry
Minute men I can't fuck wit them
I like to ride the cock till you hit the spot
Uhh come on baby make it hot
Got a convertable drop the top
Before we do a thing I want the diamonds and the rings
The furs the minks the jewels the links
You know I'm freaky so ya got to eat me and uh
I know you hate it but uh
GET NAKED!
Lil Kim & Tommy Lee:
You ain't lickin' this
You ain't stickin' this we don't want the dick
well that is a song that leaves no need for interpretation
O_O
haha ergo. Sweet dreams. :)
Lovin' Lil Kim and Tommy Lee.
Lovin' the phone ringin'.
Gotsa go. Night! :D
Yep, whatever...
Oh well ergo, you have to take it in turns. Sometimes your on the top, other times, on the bottom.
goodnight anons sweet dreams
^you're
very true
12:36, or the middle.
What?
O_o
Not sure about the middle, it's like being neither here or there.
That's true.
Okay, bottom.
At least you know you're wanted. XD
arthur or martha?
i'm back -- and good night anon(s)!
random semi-topical factoid:
in trucker lingo, when in a convoy, occupying the middle spot is called "being in the rocking chair."
hmmm.
whatever
a term used to dismiss a previous statement and express indifference
Good thing I'm leaving.
I'll join you in the middle Amy. ;)
:D
Goodnight anon. Hi there TJ
amy plus you can lie down, you don't get sore arms and such
Who is arthur or martha?
I'll be back just going to have a turn on the backhoe...
..now that sounds like a euphemism too!
12:49 from the "being neither here nor there" = don't know whether you're arthur or martha
you don't use that phrase?
Thought you left a lonnnnnnnnnng time ago.
*is getting soused*
Me? Nope. Never left. Mayhaps you're confused. Leaving now
just for the night.
I'll be back tomorrow. See you then. :D
Night BC. :D
night anon
If you're gonna go, GO, dammit!
Amy if you mean you're drinking, I'll join you. I've got some viognier.
Goodnight 1:01!
*salutes with her mead glass*
*sloshes mead everywhere*
Well. Fuck.
THAT IS SO COOOL!!!!!
like a giant tonka toy!!
LOL!
Ergo, lemme at it! I've olny had a mead.
A glass.
Okay a bottle poured into a glass.
Hey there mead head! My boobs were named Wendy and Lisa back in the day. Sorry, I was skimming a lot. And Peter Pan, was actually of the awesome.
*SPAM ALERT!!*
Sister midnight comes blaspheming
Screaming in the keys of faith and fear
Unentwining our spines twists me to kneeling...
Spilling like the moonlight on her glistening rear
Defiled at heart
In this perfect hell
Under red leaves bleeding
Over scaled chateau we fell
To demonocracy
Where neither Adam or Eve
Conceived of such iniquities
From pleasure or pain
Or the razor's edge inbetween
Thou art my seventh heaven burning
Going down as with the sun...
Within like a river fluids moves a torrent
Bound to please
On denierred knees
In any wicked way
That her whims may warrant
I hang on every verb
Every dirty word
Interred
In her pornoglossa...
Christlike, whipped and weak
Painted nails driven through the meek
Yet in obituary
My dreams still weep
Of dark blood and f**king thee
Thou art seventh heaven burning
Going down as with the day
Baring lunar curvature
Like canvas for a lick of pain
Writhing like a viper
Deep inside her Eden
Forbidden to eat
I kiss leylines to her feet
Then baiting wrath
I steal a path
Back to the fruits of her womb
Back to the crack of her tomb...
Her roseate sliver
Quivers with snuff appeal
The torque of her hips
Lip-sync me in for the kill
Tongue-tied, tightrope and spread like disease
I drain the cup of this Miss Sire
Her water into wine for me
Thou art my seventh angel squirming
'Neath the forked tongue of the beast
Arching toward the fabled
Like a sculptured nymph seeking base relief...
Whilst the world outside
(A wood of suicide)
Would die for this release
Our slow orgasmic fuses greet...
By night and by candle
At each other's throat
In a slick drift of red
Setting god's teeth on edge
We were as wolves preying inside the fold
Of a slaughtered lamb throw
On a four poster bed...
Succulent, Succubus
Laid without rest
In the dead of the night
Succulent, Succubus
In thy arms
And thy wetness
On glossed lips I taste
Conspiracies, secrecies, sorceries laced
With thick unguent rum
Black-rayed suns and Autumn
Always in season for our nightfall from grace
Gorge upon my seed
Starved Persephone
Succulent, Succubus
Succour me.
That I might keep
Thee with me in Hades
Succulent, Succubus
Succour me
>)
hey carrie
haha you do need a bit of coordination amy, just sayin', maybe another time? lol
it is a bit disconcerting though when the whole machine moves as you've dug in too far,
but I was getting good scoops of dirt
:D
you have to use both hands on two levers that go all 4 ways like a computer game toggle thing
sort of..
right is:
down = whole boom out/down
up = whole boom in/up
left = scoop out
right = scoop in
left is:
down = boom end out/down
up= boom end in/up
left = swing boom left
right= swing boom right
and hubby laughed as I had my tongue out to concentrate
Hallo Carrie.
Meadhead is riht.
Hey BC, and Ergo, sad about old wallaby death. :(
Mead is da bomb, has gotten me through many a Ren Faire. See, I hates people all up in my space, so I need a sense deadening cushion. Although I wish the sense deadening would have worked a leetle better in the area of Ye Olde Porta Potties.
hiya carrie!
well they have to die sometime I suppose, but honestly glad we found it today before it became more obvious by smell
Carrie, the porta potties they have at Warped aren't much better, but when you gotta piss so bad your eyeballs are floating, you dont care what it smells like.
True Amy of the floating orbs, and also Ergo of the rotting carcass. :) I know, circle of life, but it still made me frowny, having seen your wallaby pics and such.
Poor Wally B.
He will be missed.
well there is a live one in the yard at the moment so be happy again :]
Yayness! Live Wallaby!
Way to go Live Wally B!
Okay, ALMOST HAMMERED
A Haiku:
Solly, wear orange my friend
rednecks want to shoot
Your brains are too precious, dear
Ha, no idea why I was suddenly possessed to write a haiku, but it is my favorite poem form.
Amy! Hammered Haikus. Always fun.
I am off for the night. Goodnight guys.
Sugarplum: I never got your email. I tried to resend mines earlier. *blows kisses*
Miranth: I never got your email either :/
Night BC!
BC, I will try to email you tonight, just because!
HAMMERED HAIKU!
Under a cold winter moon
Warming drink
A pinkish delight.
Bad Haiku, Bad!
-A
goodnight BC sweet dreams
I meant to ask how the interview went, sorry I remembered too late
I thought it was 5-7-5! Have I been living a lie?
*gives bc a good night hug at the door*
i swear, i'm really back now. sometimes, when mom comes in to say good night, it takes a little while.
no wondering where my rambliness comes from. :)
your mum must be lovely too then TJ!
Rambling my ass.
I've posted drunk, and song lyrics.
Now THAT'S a rambling ass.
-A
aaww, ergo. :)
amyranth, are you challenging me to a ramble-off?
lol
hey, um...i don't know if this is getting old yet or not, but would you guys like to see a few pics that i took this afternoon?
i spent the whole afternoon exploring my folks' woods, so it's more trees and stuff.
yes? no?
Go for it Teej!
-a
yes please TJ
I'm just going to sit outside in teh cool and have a beer but I'll be checking back
On the flipside, I'm going to have a hot chocolate and Grand Marnier.
Be back in a sec.
mead + mead + mead + mead + hot chocolate and grand marnier?
Just a splash Ergo!
And it was only one bottle of mead!
Rolling in...got off early....my shift ended early!
Hiya Amyranth, Carrie, TJ, BC.
Can't stay...just wanted to wish you all a peaceful goodnight. :)
ok! thank you! :)
they have a really lovely six acres, and it was a great afternoon. i took a lot of pictures, but these were the ones that when i took them i did so because they were things i wanted to show you guys here.
woods. there are deer that live here. just as i was getting my camera out to take this pic, there was a crashing through the trees ahead of me. apparently one of the deer was not happy to share the woods today! i only caught a glimpse of it as it dashed away, or i would've taken a pic of it, as well.
creekbed. it only has water in it during very wet times in winter. all the rest of the time it's this wonderful twisty trail, tangled at intervals with branches and vines. it was great to explore along it. i kept stopping to look at all the rocks. :)
tricolor tree. the colors in the woods are so beautiful now. i thought this was a lovely example.
:)
hi anima! *hugs*
good to see you. i've not been here all the other times when you stop by.
thanks anima wishing you a peaceful, restful night also
Hallo and Goodnight Anima!
Teej, my favorite is the riverbed one!
Ergo, you'll be happy to know I went for a plain chocolate milk, instead of a Hot Chocolate with booze.
-A
beautiful TJ!
the creekbed is now my desktop
i'm glad you liked them, you guys. :)
and, really, ergo? your desktop? gosh! thank you! :D
Goin to ed. Goodnight Lovelies, Mayo and SS!
-A
say good night to ed for me, amyranth. ;)
and sweet dreams to you!
hope you enjoy ed amy sweet dreams!
it is Tj the leaves are really pretty, we don't get that shape often
they have a lot of maples here, ergo. the leaf i really like in the pic is the one on the stone, with its ribs exposed.
it makes me happy to think that you'll be looking at my picture on your computer. :)
maples are only if people specially grow them we have a similar sort of native but not exactly, and I love the leaf skeletons, I always look when we walk to see if you can find a prefect one
I must take a creekbed pic for you so you can see the difference
*perfect one even
i'd like to see that, ergo!
i just figured out today that i'm going to buy a little zip drive to cart back all the stuff i've put on my mom's computer, so i'll be able to take your pic with me and maybe make it my desktop too. (that is, once i get my computer fixed. *sigh*)
but for right now, i need to get some sleep, i think.
thanks again for the fun package today, ergo. the koala has pride of place in the guest room atop the bedside lamp. :)
good night to you, and to any lurkers, etc. sweet dreams all.
0_0
wow
have i got a headache.
well there is certainly a storm coming tonight! lightning and thunder in the distance
TJ I am so glad you like it a little bot of Oz!
sweet dreams TJ
gosh anon are you ok?
bot = bit
I am watching Curse of the Wererabbit so not paying total attention
i'll be fine once this curiously strong, invisible menance stops stabbing my in the left eye & ear with an icepick.
how are you?
i made an inaccurate assumption.
(not an unusual thing to happen when assuming.)
i'm going to be sick now.
goodnight.
Anon if I still knew where my pain medication was I would give you some.
mayo,
it was funny -- as i headed out into the woods this afternoon i really did have a feeling that i was bringing you all along. *grin*
i don't know if you've ever had the opportunity to just ramble through woodland, but once you're out there -- no matter if it's wandering around a few acres or hiking through national parkland -- once you're surrounded by the trees, you become aware that there's life there, beyond the that of the creatures that make the place their home.
today, i was walking down one portion of the dry creek, and i grabbed a tree there to balance myself as i came down the embankment. it's my habit to thank the trees i use that way with a pat of my hand, or a light kiss laid on the bark with my fingertips. today was no different, i transferred a kiss to the tree with my fingers, but then something happened.
this is going to sound silly or weird, but the tree felt responsive. i was surprised by a definite sense of invitation. whether it came from me or the tree, i don't know, but i gave in to it, and leaned in to kiss the tree. it was a young one, no bigger round than a telephone pole, and with smooth bark, here and there decorated with moss.
kissing trees isn't unusual for me, right, but then i just impulsively wrapped my arms around the tree and it felt like receiving a real hug. it was so comforting. i stood there for quite a while, just clinging to this tree.
and the thing is, while standing there with my cheek to the bark, i realised that the tree was truly alive. that sounds like a "duh" moment, but you know how when you lean against a lamp pole or something similar, it's just a support, just a thing. but the tree today had a resilience to it, a livingness. it made me realize all over again how special trees are. maybe feeling like it hugged me back wasn't so odd after all.
i don't know. it was wonderful though. what a nice tree. *grin*
do you remember earlier today i told you to keep an eye out for a leaf from kentucky? well, at one point today i was standing looking up at the tops of the trees above me, and at just that moment, a leaf fell. i watched it spiral down through the air over my head, and land at my feet.
i could only grin. here's your leaf, mayo.
and so, good night, mayo-sama. sleep well, and have a lovely day tomorrow.
Mayo
well the lightning is flickering closer by the minute and the thunder is getting louder so I shall be brief. Must say though this is what means summer is just about here I find them exciting but I can't help being scared too. Though as I didn't want my daughter to be scared like me I actually became braver by just acting braver, I did the same with needles, still don't like it, but it doesn't worry me nearly as much. Would you do that for someone Mayo? Put aside your fear so they don't learn the same reaction, when you know it isn't a positive, pretend you're brave and find it actually starts to be real?
Try it if you haven't, you'll be amazed/
Wishing you all the good things you dream of for the weekend
much love EP xx
SS
hope all is well, haven't seen you for a while but I know you're always about. Do you like storms? or do you hide? Though I feel braver that fear is always there, as the thunder rolls I can still feel it, but it doesn't worry me so badly now, unless I don't feel safe then , all bets are off!
sending you the wonders of teh natural world and the freedom you need for a fabulous weekend
lotsa love EP xx
time for dinner, then storm watching
goodnight blogbelieve, see you in my morning
♥xx♥
do take care of yourself anon
hope you feel better soon
thank you marthajones.
i feel better now.
lost a little blood
but i believe i still have a good 5 & 1/2 quarts left.
goodnight to you.
O_o blood loss!?
I hope you are all right and goodnight.
And I started another new anime skip beat. I am also watching when they cry. that is the english name for it's release.
anon glad it's better, you want to watch that blood loss though
hey MJ is the anime good?
skip is about a girl who moves to the city with a male childhood friend He wants to become a star and he does. But he was just using the girl till he could get to the top. She finds out and is now out for revenge.
when they cry is blood. it is about a small village that was going to be destroyed so a dame could be put up. But there was a gruesome murder. and now every year around the same time a person dies and another disappears.
oooh when they cry sounds good, you download them don't you? we don't get many on TV
When they cry is licensed and has been released in the us. skip beat hasn't.
But from what I have heard you don't get stuff like when they cry. Because of sex or violence
ep you might also like Ga rei zero it is a supernatural show. But if I tell you anymore than that I will be giving to much away.
Shikabane Hime is also another supernatural one but I only saw 3 episode and than it was licensed.
depends on the channel, a lot is shown on pay but really late and I don't tend to remember to record it
seeing the whole of Ergo Proxy was probably the only one I've done
but I have watched movies, that's usually easier
I have a lot of anime I need to catch up on but there is so much I don't know what to watch
there is an awful lot!
storms still aren't here yet but getting closer radar
We could use about ten storms like that in a row here in ca. But i think we still wouldn't have enough water
a lot of australia is like that still, we've had terrible drought, where I am is ok but out west and south isn't. In the state capital the dams have only 40% now, and that is highest they've been in about 3 years and they've had years of water restrictions, there are high hopes this wet season may be a good one
It's only been two years for us and our dams are at 25%
ours only came up from that this last 6 months or so, there are some towns with none, they truck water in, it's funny as we had major floods and all, but some areas have had no rain for so long, farmers waking off farms, lots of suicides, it's probably similar over there in some places, no one realises how much you take water for granted until it's gone, I hope you get some good rain soon
I do as well
well I am off to bed, see you tomorrow (well mine) MJ
*bows to Snickerdoodle Queen*
could you bless my snickerdoodle making for tomorrow?
goodnight are ep
*takes some cinnamon and sprinkles it on ep*
may you snickerdoodles come out perfect every time
*throws cream of tarter over ep*
:]
g'night
Hi Martha!
I am just passing by. :)
ergo - How did your lessons go?
:)
I hope well!
I will be back - I have to go retrieve Outer Limits DVDs from the car. My friend loaned them.
Its a long distance, but I will hurry back. :D
hello Miranth
I was off doing other thinks how are you?
I am good. I got to see my friend who is leaving the state and we saw other friends, so we had a great time.
I can't ask for more.
How are you?
I am alright
I am glad to hear you say your friend and had a good time
Yes, it was fun! :)
I met a lot of cool people too.
I am surprised so many weighed in on the MSI/LM thing!
I am trying to read back, but I am tired.
To respond to this:
So, let me get this straight - when you are given a poem with metaphorical meaning, you instead decide to discuss the shallow meaning at the surface?
Why?
(I'm not trying to be rude, I'm truly just curious)
November 7, 2008 10:38 PM
Not that you were speaking to me, but I already said, I am too tired to cogitate at this time, and I respect others' feelings on the matter too.
I do believe the poem may also refer to the blog, if that helps, but perhaps I am guilty of being arrogant.
I do know that if I were mayo, I couldn't abandon this group lightly.
Hell, I'm just 'miranth' and I can't abandon these 'lovelies' lightly .
And I mean 'lovelies' in this sense - with no derogatory meaning intended.
That's what this place is for.
OK no one is here. I am tired anyway. Past my nap time :)
Wendy!! I hope you got my message!
FASC - good to see you! I am sorry I missed you. I hope everything is well with the family.
Everybody - I can't be sad that LM is 'touring' with MSI if it brought out so many much missed friends. :)*
*though I didn't entirely catch up as I had a busy day.
ergo - I hope you are enjoying the new job(s)! :)
Mayo - I hope everything is good with you and those you love. And I left my response to your poem above.
I am glad you do not abandon us.
PS - Sorry for the (seeming) banality of my remarks, but I do mean them, nonetheless.
Take care, Everybody!
And have a good weekend!
♥
goodnight Miranth
You are right, Martha, and I did want to say that MCR did so well, so quickly, because they put a positive message out there.
-- Whether they believed in it or not. (It could have been Brian S.'s brainchild.)
[Its not just the quality of the music.]
The point is that karma works that way, regardless the intent.
And I sincerely believe that was what was at play here, record company influence notwithstanding.
They would disagree, I am sure, but they would be fools.
And, yes, I don't care if anyone does read my opinion.
:P
Goodnight now, Martha,
- I'll stop now!
:D
Miranth I keep having trouble getting onto blogger but you don't have to stop talking.
Good morning everyone!
Yank my Doodle (It's a Dandy)???
O_O
Bwahahaha.
Have a nice Saturday Mayo, SS and errbody! I have a headache and I'm supposed to go see Madagascar! Whoop! Whoop! ^_^
XOXO
Carrie,
A haiku of my very own! Thank you, it was lovely! I never did make it out for that walk yesterday. It was too freakin' hawwht! Maybe today.
BlogBelieve,
Have a great Saturday! Chew lots of gum and blow bubbles!
Catch ya'll later!
Good morning all
I still feel terrible but I did sleep a few hours last night. At lease I'm not as sick as some people here.
Hope everyone has a great day.
Mayo - uh...nevermind. I'll talk to you later.
SS - miss ya!
Mayo's post is a metaphor...
about doing something you really don't want to do, in order to please someone you care about.
Even if it is morally wrong and makes you feel sick. Swimming isn't considered that bad, just uncomfortable for some.
Mayo's post is a metaphor...
about doing something you really don't want to do, in order to please someone you care about.
Hmmmm. Then the timing of this post is interesting.
Good 'whatever it is, wherever you are' Mayo, SS, Ergo, Amy, Miranth, Sweetcheeks, Martha, Elena, TJ, Sdock, Smoke; the often thought of Kass and DL; various anons, watchers and lurkers; all master (or mastur) carpenters, chefs and fishermen/women (careful with that 'bait') in the land o'blogbelieve!
How are you all today? Happy, well or soon to be well, I hope!
*checks possum trap for signs of escapage*
Hmmm...
Awww.....the reposted comments from Siobhan made me sad. I miss her! Pixie too!
Ergo: I did receive my parcel, yesterday! Thank you so much!!!! I love my new Australian goodies. My cigarettes are resting comfortably in their pouch!!!
*smoooooooooooooooooch*
Elena: I'm sorry to hear you're sick again. I hope you (and the other people around there) get well soon!!! Don't kiss Jake. They can catch the 'people germs'!
Amy: CRADLE OF FILTH!!! CoF!!!Cradle!!! Filth!!! Whatever you choose to call them/it, I absolutely positively adore your spam!!!!!! Thank you!!
*apologies for shouting ~ it's the excitement*
PS: I also love it when you're tipsy! ;)
Sweetcheeks: I'm going to try resending the e~mail ~ to your other other e~address. I hope it goes through this time! Have a great Saturday!!!!!
To read or not to read today
(pondering ~ also ~ optional):
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"If opportunity doesn't knock, build a door."
Milton Berle
"He has all the virtues I dislike and none of the vices I admire." Winston Churchill
"Be careful about reading health books. You may die of a misprint." Mark Twain
"If everybody's thinking the same thing, then nobody's thinking." George S. Patton
"There are two kinds of people in the world: those who divide the world into two kinds of people, and those who don't."
Robert Benchley
"I had a rose named after me and I was very flattered. But I was not pleased to read the description in the catalog: 'No good in a bed, but fine against a wall'."
Eleanor Roosevelt
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
That Eleanor Roosevelt was a hoot, wasn't she?
I hope you all get to spend some extra time in bed (or against a wall, if you prefer), this weekend.
Rest, relax, recover, rejuvenate, reinvigorate, reinvent, rediscover ~ and enjoy!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, PPU, SC, Magic Pie, P anon and MissT!!!
if the person Mayo is talking about in this post really cared about him, they wouldn't make him do things he didn't want to do just to please them.
Please excuse the interuption anons. I have to do this!
*SPAM ALERT*
or
*an ode to Amy*
NYMPHETAMINE
Cradle Of Filth
Laid to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A "V" of black swans
On with hope to the grave
And though Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain....
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again
Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above onto me?
For once upon a time
On the binds of your loneliness
I could always find the slot for your sacred key
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
Nymphetamine girl.
Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
My Nymphetamine girl.
Wicked with your charm
I'm circled like prey
Back in the forest
Were whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt...
(keeping Sodom at at bay)
Fold to my arms
Hold their message away
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days
Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay
Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above onto me?
For once upon a time
On the binds of your loneliness
I could always find the right slot for your sacred key
Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission
None better...
Nymphetamine
Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
Nymphetamine girl.
Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
My Nymphetamine girl.
*blows kisses to blog believe*
10:52
Maybe that person doesn't really get that whatever it is makes him unhappy. Maybe he's good at hiding his true feelings. Just a thought.
Maybe he wants to do it. It could be that he isn't put out by it at all.
Sometimes we have to break out of our comfort zones for the ones we love. Maybe he sees how much "swimming" means to them and he wants to make his loved one happy. They want to share with him why they love "swimming" so much.
In my relationship, it was very one-sided and I should have known that it was never going to work that way. I always wanted him to share in the things I liked, to come along with me to the places I liked to go, not because I was trying to force those things down his throat but just because I wanted him to see this other side of me, but he never did. And in that way he never truly got to know me, he just wasn't interested.
It's a shame really because he just might have ended up enjoying himself.
You have to make an effort for the one you love. Now, this does not mean run out and smoke crack or jump off a building just to see if you can fly. Get me?
Jesus, I can't even form a complete thought this morning, but I hope you guys can get what I am trying to say.
I get you sdock
You are a wonderful person, it was his loss.
Thanks, Elena.
I think you're wonderful too and I can't even imagine the sacrifices that a wife and mother have to make on an minute by minute basis.
Mayo's post is a metaphor...
about doing something you really don't want to do, in order to please someone you care about.
Hmmmm. Then the timing of this post is interesting.
people will do all sorts of things they would never usually do to avoid hurting/losing the people they care about.
....and sometimes there is nothing you can do.
that's why i said i found so much loyalty in this poem -- sometimes your feelings for the individual are stronger than your dislike of whatever the activity is. tis poem is such a lovely expression of that.
and good morning everyone.
:/
i always seem to come in on the end of discussions.
oh well.
anyway, i slept in today, only just woke up. it's good to crash every once in awhile, even though here when it happens it's considered a topic worth discussing for a day. or two. (retired folks. they don't get out a lot.)
so i'm going to go catch up on all the internets that i let slide while i was working on my article.
toodle-pip.
If You Love Someone
Put Their Name In A Circle
Not A Heart, A Heart Can Break
But A Circle Goes On Forever
A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else.
Love is blind; friendship closes its eyes.
Toxic friends are best parted with.
i'd rather have a heart that can heal than one that is afraid to be broken.
but i do like the quote at 1:05. it's a nice image, brings to mind the circle of one's arms.
LeATHERMOUTH SHOW DATES WITH M.S.I.
Body: Our good friends M.S.I. asked us to do four East Coast tour dates with them and how could we say no. We couldn't. We are very excited to be able to play a handful more shows before the new year and with some good people as well. So, we hope to see you all out there .
12.04.
08 Thursday @ The Station
Portland, ME
M.S.
I and Tub Ring
272 St.
John Street
tix: $20.
00
times: 7:00 PM
ALL AGES
12.05.
08 Friday @ Lupo's Heartbreak Hotel
Providence, RI
M.S.
I and Tub Ring
70 Washington Street
tix: $20.
00
times: 7:30 PM
ALL AGES
12.06.
08 Saturday @ Starland Ballroom
Sayreville, NJ
M.S.
I and Tub Ring
address: 570 Jernee Mill Road
tix: $22.
50
times: 7:00 PM
ALL AGES
12.07.
08 Sunday @ Toad's Place
New Haven, CT
M.S.
I and Tub Ring
address: 300 Yorke Street #1
tix: $20.
00
times: 7:30 PM
ALL AGES
annnnnd, now i'm done.
all caught up. :)
i like the quotes about friendship, too, btw. i's had limited luck with friends before, but that's changed since the blog. this is a good place.
truly.
see you all later!
*big squeezy blog-wide hug*
♥
that should read: "i've had limited luck"
*sheesh*
ciao. :)
"...and how could we say no? We couldn't."
Interesting wording.
morning!
haha I come in and have to go. see you in a couple of hours
...and thats the point, Elena.
Frank's a sell out
I'm sure he's been called worse, anon.
Gerard must have something on Frank for him to talk that way about MSI.
I think he is just trying to be diplomatic.
I think people are assuming GW has way too much sway over FI or anyone else, if frank was doing it to please gerard then really he is a much weaker willed individual than I ever had the impression he was, and so are the other members of leathermouth. I cannot believe that G is so controlling that all these other people capitulate just to please him, or that he is a person that would expect it.
He did well to get away with just four dates.
anon...
you been reading these quotes about friendship?
Just wondering.
Can you imagine the fallout, both personally and professionally, if he had said no?
Gerard wasn't being a good friend to Frank when he didn't go to any of the Leathermouth shows.
J made a very good point about Frank and Gerard's relationship, and without context, its all too easy to make assumptions about the motives of either party.
If you feel that Frank has somehow disappointed you or let you down, if you feel he is no longer the same person with the same values and beliefs as he was before he agreed to share a stage with MSI, then there is probably very little he could do to convince you otherwise.
Just because you don't get to hear about his reasons, doesn't make them any less valid.
yes 6:49 having a backbone is far more detrimental than conceding for a business decision or the blatant career promotion, of the love of someones life.
Are you sure he didn't go to any LM shows, anon?
Do you really know the reasons that are behind what is going on?
I don't.
But I do believe there is a reason and I believe Frank is a good person. Oh hell, I believe Gerard is a good person too.
Yep, just my belief. A belief I hold on to tightly.
Gotta go.
Just because you don't get to hear about his reasons, doesn't make them any less valid.
Well, that's true. But if we don't know what they are then we can't really be blamed for coming to our ouwn conclusions based upon the little info we've been given, can we?
Not only would it have damaged their already fragile relationship; it would have been the kiss of death for My Chemical Romance.
elena I agree with you
Anonymous said...
Gerard wasn't being a good friend to Frank when he didn't go to any of the Leathermouth shows.
I seriously doubt either party felt that way.
...and that would be the end of life as you know it. how could you exist without mcr?
Anonymous said...
Gerard wasn't being a good friend to Frank when he didn't go to any of the Leathermouth shows.
anon lack of evidence does not logically indicate a lack of the event, just remember to be balanced
I don't know. I just don't know.
Guess I would have to find other false idols to worship.
It's okay 7:26. I'm sure there is some other management out there just waiting to groom someone into the next messiah.
So...the moral of this story is
a) never put your trust in a musician
b) same goes for politicians
Best to reserve that energy and trust in yourself to follow your conscience and make the right choices for you.
p.s. it helps to have good friends and family
I have to say personally I have never considered any entertainer as a basis for my moral or ethical decisions, I just see them as entertainers, I may listen to their opinions but they have never been the base
7:35
I have found my new false idol. It is you. Should I bow down and kiss your ring before I start worshipping the ground the walk on.
I'm going to save some of the dirt you walked upon. Will you spit on it for me?
We are on the same page EP.
Obviously a lot of you don't seem to understand why some of us are upset.
It is not about using people in the entertainment world to make my moral or ethic decisions in my life. Nor was it about some sort of idol worship.
It was about showing support for a group of people who shared the same moral and ethical standards that I did. I don't go out and see a lot of movies because I disagree with something an entertainer has done or supports.
Today was awesome in so many ways, and just plain emotional in so many other ways.
Gotta go shower. Later!
It was about showing support for a group of people who shared the same moral and ethical standards that I did.
I do respect your position MJ.
But do you really think that particular group of people has changed their moral and ethical standards. Or is it the packaging that's changed?
I think the active ingredients are the same as they've always been.
I do respect your position MJ.
But do you really think that particular group of people has changed their moral and ethical standards. Or is it the packaging that's changed?
I think the active ingredients are the same as they've always been.
November 8, 2008 8:06 PM
Yes, I do think they have changed their standards and ethics.
Everyone will falter on what they believe in from time to time. But when that person goes as far as to promote and give support to a person or group that doesn't share their standards something has changed.
7:52
I don't go for ring kissing and the like.
I am just your average person, and I'm quite happy with that.
8:06
You don't understand, it's the packaging that helps sells the product.
Mj I really understand you view in this situation
My point was more generally toward the anon stating the need for the finding of another "false idol" as they seem to imply everyone views entertainers as some kind of icon.
8:17
I do understand about the packaging. When it comes to entertainers, that pretty package can seem more like a prison cell. Sometimes they have to break out.
;)
Are you sure I can't kiss your ring?
ergo proxy nsi said...
Mj I really understand you view in this situation
My point was more generally toward the anon stating the need for the finding of another "false idol" as they seem to imply everyone views entertainers as some kind of icon.
November 8, 2008 8:28 PM
Ep I wasn't just addressing you but some of the anons as well. No matter what blog i go to there are always people who think that I worship this band as some kind of false god.
Or thinking it is funny that I am disappointed in Frank's choice to open for msi.
I just want to set the record straight.
No 8:34. I don't believe in idolatry of any sort.
Save your worship for people who are really inspirational. And they are most likely your every day joe.
Hello Ergo, MJ and Anon(s)!
How is everyone?
Hello smoke i am well how are you?
I'm good! I'm debating on whether or not to buy a Ludo t-shirt or a hoodie.
Hmmm....
I would go with the hoodie.
I could always do both. O_o
Gah! I want them all! They have such cute stuff. And I really want the Broken Bride EP because it's got live footage and stuffs.
Dilemma!!!!
Martha, I'm quite sure no one is suggesting that you idolized GW and the like. Far from it.
Most of the idolatry is coming from teenagers, and some adults, who are highly suggestive.
Oh well, if he thinks that being legally tethered to a heavily tattooed women her band and their style, changes their image, then it's a cases of wait and see.
I wasn't accusing you of idol worship MJ. I think you are one who truly believes in ideals not idols. I was initially responding to the comment at 7:08.
Anonymous said...
...and that would be the end of life as you know it. how could you exist without mcr?
November 8, 2008 7:08 PM
I'm sorry if my response offended you.
I know your life would be fine withouth MCR, Leathermouth or any other band.
No matter what blog i go to there are always people who think that I worship this band as some kind of false god.
Yep. I hear that.
*cough* *sneeze*
*swills from the bottle of Buckley's*
Order it all, Smoke! Go crazy!
Hi Everyone!
How are ya'll?
Hello amy, anons ep. I didn't say that earlier.
I wasn't offended by what either of you said. I just want to get that out.
Well, I can honestly say that Leathermouth touring with MSI doesn't really bother me that much. Do I like it? No. Do I understand it? No. Would it stop me from seeing Leathermouth? No. So, I guess I just don't have much to say about it.
I would like to tell Jimmy Urine to have a listen at Lords of Acid. Cuz, OMG, he owes them some money for the way he's ripped them off.
I could easily mistake MSI for Lords of Acid.
Just statin'.
I am sorry if it seemed as if I was upset. a lot of times I just say what is on my mind. I go straight to the point.
I lack a lot of social graces when it comes to conversation.
no problem MJ :)
I too really dislike that veiled (or not so veiled) insinuation from anons at any blog.
and thanks anon who qualified also
Just another example of how it becomes difficult to know who is addressing who, but it all got clarified in the end
hi smoke, amy, sdock
I HAZ SNICKERDOODLES!!!!!!
*places offering at throne*
Martha you don't need to apologize.
hello sd I am well and you?
Snickerdoodles!
I'm in!
SNICKERDOODLEZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MJ,
I'm sleepy for some reason but otherwise pretty good, thanks for asking.
The SNL Presidential Special thing is on again and Tina Fey still makes me laugh!
LeATHERMOUTH SHOW DATES WITH M.S.I.
Body: Our good friends M.S.I. asked us to do four East Coast tour dates with them and how could we say no. We couldn't. We are very excited to be able to play a handful more shows before the new year and with some good people as well. So, we hope to see you all out there .
12.04.
08 Thursday @ The Station
Portland, ME
M.S.
I and Tub Ring
272 St.
John Street
tix: $20.
00
times: 7:00 PM
ALL AGES
12.05.
08 Friday @ Lupo's Heartbreak Hotel
Providence, RI
M.S.
I and Tub Ring
70 Washington Street
tix: $20.
00
times: 7:30 PM
ALL AGES
12.06.
08 Saturday @ Starland Ballroom
Sayreville, NJ
M.S.
I and Tub Ring
address: 570 Jernee Mill Road
tix: $22.
50
times: 7:00 PM
ALL AGES
12.07.
08 Sunday @ Toad's Place
New Haven, CT
M.S.
I and Tub Ring
address: 300 Yorke Street #1
tix: $20.
00
times: 7:30 PM
ALL AGES
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