I arrived suddenly, and knew for certain that I was in the best place. It was warm and calm and I stood quietly in the moment, waiting for my turn. But, I quickly realized I was alone. Figuring my wait would be short; I let out a breath releasing the smoke from my lungs and viewed my new environment. All around me the black tar covered ground seemed endless, as if I stood in the parking lot for the world’s demise. Its emptiness ran undisturbed to the limits of my sight, and I thought, “When does it all get here?” Then, as I dropped my spent cigarette to the ground, intending to snub it out with the toe of my boot, something caught my eye.
At the hem of my faded, old black shirt was a white thread and without reflection I pulled it. As I pulled, it continued to reveal itself. So I continued to pull, believing that my shirt would soon unravel. But instead, my shirt remained intact while the string started to wind around itself, twining, until it became as thick as a hangman’s rope. With both my hands I began to work against gravity to slow it down, but it quickly stole my grip allowing the rope to spill out, coiling at my feet. When it stopped its fall, the weight of it almost pulled me over and I realized it must be connected to me. I pulled up my shirt and discovered it cleanly attached to the center of my chest.
Then I noticed smoke coming up from the center of the pile and realized the rope had coiled itself around my still lit cigarette. I frantically began to kick at the rope, fearing that it would fuse its way to my heart, igniting it. My success gave way to alarm as I heard from behind me the approaching sound of children’s laughter. When I turned, they were upon me. Several of them grabbed the rope and ran past me. As I watched the rope begin to take off I grabbed for it, but it slipped in my hand. When it disconnected from my chest I fell to the ground and grabbed for its end, but it trailed off behind them, leaving an inky trace.
I remained on my knees. A dull pain echoed in my chest as I watched the children huddle together holding hands to ears, whispering. Several of them looked over at me, but quickly returned to their attention to the group. I felt like an idiot. Oddly, they seemed unfazed by my presence and began to jump rope, their laughter in time with its swooshing rhythm. So, I asked them “Don’t you know you’re playing with the end of me?” My reply came in the most unexpected way, as the smallest of all the children approached me with the seeping end of the rope, smiled and said, “It’s your turn.”
p.s. I’m always fucking late.
Monday, October 27, 2008
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(waking or dreaming)
I am eating Halloween candy for breakfast.
TUA news from Gerard
OPS the reason anons pick on you sometimes is because you set yourself up as a target. And because they see the behavior in you that probably gets them mad. I know I was personally insulted when you told a person here that G-d would strike her dead. (I can't write His name when saying something like that).... If she spoke blasphemy, that is between God and her. Not you. Let Him deal with it. He in all His wisdom and patience will deal with her blasphemy.
Then there is your talk about Frank and they way you treat Mayo and SS which is honestly disturbing to some of us. It's not the "precious" and "my baby doll" or any of the stuff you say it is. It is more like the porn you wrote about Frank. The things you said you wanted to do to him, unrepeatible things with a strap on, and the things you wanted him to do to you. The thinly veiled porn you write about him on your other blog. Yes that is your business and no one has to read it. But the fact is that is how you feel about Frank.
You have done more than anyone else here to PROVE that you know SS is Frank. You even called Frank SS in your porn list of things you wanted to do to him. The Germany thing where every person knows you believe in your heart that Frank and Gerard had sex in Germany, to the point where you wrote about it on the internet. Then coming on here and telling Mayo about what he should have done in Germany. Back tracking and trying to say it was about Eliza which would STILL prove that you think you are talking to Gerard...... Even though everybody knows that you told the internet about Frank and Gerard in Germany.
Now some people might think you are just sweet to SS. But the ones who were around any time you had a major melt down because he didn't say something to you at the right time, that goes for your recent melt down when Mayo posted Fimble's words, knowa that your obsession is scary. That is why you get compared to Annie Wilkes. Annie Wilkes was sweet to the man she loved. After all she was his best fan. She called him her sweet heart and precious she shown him all of this affection, always with a smile. But she was possesive over him and that led to her trying to keep him.
The way you hint about Jamia, and the things you have said about her off the blog on other sites which weren't hints. The way you have a frequent melt down when you aren't getting enough "attention" from them.
The porn writing, the melt downs for attention..... These are all things you would expect to see from twelve year olds on Buzznet. Not from adult females. Twelve year old fangirls act possessive over their favorites. They get into fights over their favorite rock stars. They write their sexual fantasies out for the world to see. You are supposed to out grow that as you grow into adulthood. You are well into adulthood and you are still writing your porn fantasies on the internet. You are still jealous of "the wife" and talk about how much she ruined. You have a melt down when you don't get "attention" from people you THINK are your favorite rock stars.
That is what makes you scary to behold and makes some of us honestly worry.
To be honest, anon, I find what you've written above to be much scarier than anything else I've read on here from the OPs or anyone else.
As we start another semester at the Academy
Too cute ^_^
Stuck in the past
Broken record
Dead horse
Etc.
I agree with you, 12:12. I also agree that people who think they have some kind if "connection" with rockstars via the internet are usually delusional. The fact that the OPs obviously believe that Mayo is Gerard and Frank is SS proves to me that they are sick.
For fuck's sake. Click the link to the new TUA site and read what Gerard wrote. Obviously, that was not written by Mayo.
Of course, people will say idiotic things like Gerard didn't actually write the thing on the TUA blog or that he didn't write his message on the band's myspace. This is ridiculous, considering that he signed his name. You might as well say he didn't write the comic or the lyrics to TBP.
I feel sick...bleh. why after having a good time and fun the night before you must pay a price the next day?
It's just evil I say!
They need to make a pill so we can eliminate hangovers once and for all!
I'm going to lay down again.
Hope you all had a great Halloween.
Writing in a casual conversational style to an intended audience and penning thoughts, prose and verse for your personal journal are two very different things.
Writing in a casual conversational style to an intended audience and penning thoughts, prose and verse for your personal journal are two very different things.
Lol. Yeah, you just keep right on telling yourself that.
When Gerard writes, "I am well," on one of his blogs, maybe I'll think he's Mayo.
Not gonna happen, though.
Unlike Frank who has written things on some of his bulletins AFTER SS had written about them here.
Unlike Frank who has written things on some of his bulletins AFTER SS had written about them here.
Like? Example, please.
My personal fave was 'Interests; Bowling' a week before news of the Love Cats surfaced.
When he put 'then there were three' as is his blog header the day before it was announced Frank would be leaving the UK tour.
I liked how he was talking about Gandhi at Christmas last year then Frank's New Year Bulletin encouraged us to read Gandhi's autobiography.
Interest Architects. SS had it on his profile and then later Frank issued a newsletter raving about a band called the architechts.
Mayo
Wow, I really planned on spending some time here last night but things just didn’t work out that way. The night started out great. Fred and I added “eyes” to mom’s house and the trick or treaters loved them. Michael Myers even stopped by. I loved looking at the costumes the kids wore. One girl was even dressed as a cereal box. Good times, good times.
Eyes
Anyway, my girls stopped by on their way to various parties. I never did get a pic of my costume that really shows it very well. I was a disco queen. This sequined nightmare was a long jacket over gold pants. I even had high heels that were gold but the heels were clear plastic. Oh Lord I just wanted to break into “I Will Survive”.
Sunshine and Stormy
Stormy towers over me
So the bad part of the evening came when “Sunshine” called to tell me her new car we just gave her got hit in a parking lot. She was crying of course. Then on top of everything else a spider bit me. At least I think it was a spider. All I know is I have a huge lump on my leg that is very painful. Maybe it was radioactive and I’ll get superpowers out of it. I hope so cause it really hurts like a bitch.
I hope your Halloween went a bit better than mine. Did you have fun?
Well I’ve got tons of work to get caught up on. I really hope I get to stop by tonight. I miss talking to everyone. Take care.
Elena (ouch, it hurts to walk)
the leathermouth zombie story.
Disco queen? AWESOME! ^_^
What about listing his location as The Gathering Place when MCR were in Oahu, or Middle Earth when in New Zealand.
the way he writes on his blog is the way frank writes. did you see some of his old Rutgers work? I love how he ends his essays 'in conclusion, blah blah blah'
In conclusion, geese are pretty awesome.
Franks Myspace newsletter: 'I'm sure you all have blogs to attend to'
Frank has a myspace? I thought those were all proven to be fakes. As was the Rutgers journal.
No doubt some insider with the band or S//C fucking with people. MCR has always surrounded itself with people who like fucking with fans. Eliza, WMHC, HeyChris, etc. Wonder why that is?
I think another member of MCR, possibly Gerard, mistook the pic on Frank's Transformers t-shirt for Optimus Prime, when it was actually one of the bad guys. That's why he said About me--Optimus Prime (apparently) on his profile and this was about a week before the MSG show. That actually made me think Mayo might be Gerard and that message was for his benefit. The next week Frank wears a transformers t-shirt to the MSG show.
Because most of their fans are a bunch of gullible morons?
Just a guess...
not his personal myspace the LM or s//c myspace, i can't remember which one.
Yeah, I can totally see Miss E doing this shit, and I'm sure she still has friends who work in and around the band. She'd think it was so fucking funny.
Miss E scares me. Is she still friends with Alicia?
i doubt it's a band insider as frank has given lots of clues himself, personally, things that wouldn't be known to wmhc etc. too bad if you weren't around for them. the idiot that has been posting these things trying to convince people should just stop.
if miss e was ss and ppl thought ss was frank, she would not behave the way ss does. she would want people to hate him for what he did to her BFF eliza.
MCR has always surrounded itself with people who like fucking with fans. Eliza, WMHC, HeyChris, etc. Wonder why that is?
Because fame has a habit of turning normal, kind people into dillusional idiots. Look what it's done to Gerard.
undies on the outside?
frank wears shorts over jeans on stage.
ss told mib he would do something crazy at the philly show
*delusional
you are all forgetting the most obvious thing...k met frank and came back from the show even more obsessed with impressing him. the nutella and toast is too random even for her. it has something to do with when she met frank. the porkies were desperate for ss to read her stupid poem. he either told her or confirmed what she thought. he can't keep secrets, look at the time he told the world about gerard's shaving accident.
Gerard had already told that story himself onstage one night, which is why Frank thought it would be okay for him to tell it.
I'm sure she still has friends who work in and around the band.
LOL! I'm sure she doesn't!
SS has said things in advance about MCR, S//C and LM. Frank is the only link between all 3 things. that's why i don't think it's a roadie or wmhc cuz they wouldn't know about stuff that was going on with s//c etc.
This is all BOOOOOORING.
If I wanted conspiracy theories I'd rent a movie.
YAWN YAWN YAWN YAWN YAWN
If i wanted to read this stuff Id still have an account at Buzznet
Did you know the moon landing was faked?
I can come up with tons of reasons why it's so if I wanted to.
Yeah, and Jesus dying on the cross? All faked.
I have proof!
I have proof!
Let me guess...SS said so, right?
Anonymous said...
If i wanted to read this stuff Id still have an account at Buzznet
If you don't like it...GTFO
don't let the door hit you on the way out
Kapunua did meet frank after the show. After the show they ate nutella and toast and read poems and lived happily ever after :)
afternoon ♥♥
:)
you color my heart
the perfect shades of red
(you are my dream)
I know I was personally insulted when you told a person here that G-d would strike her dead. (I can't write His name when saying something like that)..
Here i will write it for you...God.
See? I didn't get struck with lightning or nothing. I don't think God will care if you use his name. He is a nice guy, BUT i don't think he would appreciate you judging others....leave the judging to him. That is his job.
If you want to talk blasphemy, read Preacher. It's one of the comics Gerard said Three Cheers was based on, along with Sandman.
The entire plot of Preacher revolves around the hero's quest to hunt God down and "make him pay" for all the wrongs he has done to humanity.
So maybe if anyone is so offended by any mention of God in a less than worshipful manner, I'm thinking they probably shouldn't be a fan of MCR.
I met Elvis last night. Seriously.
He looked damn good
for a dead rockstar.
We didn't eat nutella on toast.
He did give me one of his scarves.
Really? I had coffee with Kurt Cobain. He seemed depressed...
I guess Kurt didn't have a good halloween. He should try haunting other places next year.
^_~
Mama, we all go to hell.
Don't they have antidepressants in the afterlife?
They have antidepressants, but no herion.
Bummer.
*heroin
Raise a little Hell, raise a little Hell, raise a little Hell
I'm on the highway to hell
I thought heaven had everything.
Kurt must have going south.
No wonder he's depressed.
Where do bad folks go when they die
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
Go to a lake of fire and fry
see them again 'till the Fourth of July
I knew a lady who came from Duluth
Bitten by a dog with a rabid tooth
She went to her grave just a little too soon
flew away howling at the yellow moon
Where do bad folks go when they die
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
Go to a lake of fire and fry
see them again 'till the Fourth of July
People cry and people moan
Look for a dry place to call their home
Try to find some place to rest their bones
While the angels and the devils try to make 'em their own
Where do bad folks go when they die
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
Go to a lake of fire and fry
see them again 'till the Fourth of July
Gonna raise hell, gonna raise hell.
Gonna raise hell, gonna raise hell.
Little boy at peace.
What is this place?
Beyond the stars?
Open up your eyes.
What are these things?
You're moving toward
Head so full of wonder!
Worries in the past!
Could it be that you are free at last?
NO!
Little boy you're going to hell
You said bad words
Threw rocks at the birds
And now this is your hotel
You ain't going back
This ain't Disneyland it's hell
Little boy it's time for you to pay
For hurtin' that bird
And not going to church
And staring at boobs everyday
Thought you were in bed
Instead you're in hell
Hell isn't good
Hell isn't good
Hell
Oh Hell isn't good
Hell isn't good
Hell
Hell isn't good
Hell isn't good
Hell
Metallica
BTW
The moon landing was not faked.
I had proof.
Had to burn the papers and pictures.
The evil conspiracy theorists were coming for me.
I believe in aliens.
George Bush is one of them.
George Bush isn't an alien. He's a Texan.
Dennis Rodman is an alien.
John Kerry, Nancy Pelosi, all of the Kennedy's and Joe Scarborough are aliens too.
The proof is in the eyes.
I was abducted by aliens.
I ♥ aliens
:)
you are so wonderful
♥♥
I ♥ ET.
Eliza is an alien O_O
John Kerry is not an alien, he is the result of an alien experiment gone horribly wrong.
They cross-bred Lurch from The Addams Family with Jed Clampett's dog. Eeeeeeep!
:)
i ♥ you most of all.
5:27
Eeeep! That explains it. They should have used Lassie.
(South Park's Eric Cartman encountered the Greys in the premier episode, "Cartman Gets An Anal Probe.")
Gosh, reading the anons is like watching dumb & dumber
:)
♥♥
more?
:)
Do it in private please.
We are here to serve man 5:41.
You'll be served first.
♥♥
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Gosh, reading the anons is like watching dumb & dumber
November 1, 2008 5:41 PM
Which one are you?
Looks like someone needs to be probed. O_O
aaaaahhh
thank you
:)
♥♥
Going find that recipe book and preheat the oven. How much do you weigh 5:41?
^_~
:)
♥
*
*
*:
i should have known it was you
*giggling*
you're so good at making me smile
:)
♥♥
She seems to be to tough for my liking. I like them sweet.Maybe if you put some sauce on her....
Secret's in the sauce...
53 days left until Christmas!!
*sings*
TOWANDA!
nope, don't need no sauce. i'm soft & sweet enough as it is.
...and i smell good too
maybe that chainsaw will tenderize her a little :)
We can hide her car in the river....
my love ❤ ❤
Perhaps with a nice chianti...
my love of my love ❤ ❤
i love youuuu
i love youuu more!
Don't worry my pretty, you don't need all of your brain. We will only take a bit.
i love youuu more than more!
i love youuu more than more than more !
Wow, sorry. Am I interrupting something?
O_o
-A
:)
:)
:*********************
Now, kiss my ass
too much static
until next time, my sweet
♥♥
(but my heart is clear)
I know what you mean amy.
Sometimes the love around here is overwhelming.
Hi, A :)
♪♪ I love you more today than yesterday...♪♪
6:09 you are an exhibitionist.
♪♪ But not as much as tomorrow...♪♪
hmmm...who could 6:09 be?
Eh, a little love is nothing. Clearly, there was a touch of parody going on though.
Would you like a chocolate bar 6:10? I have nutty ones, and nut-free ones.
-A
triston!
Hallo RW! How was your Hallowe'en?
-A
I'll have a piece of the nut free, thank you.
I've had more than enough nuts for the day :)
Did you have a good Halloween?
New piccie of my nephew
He's two and a half.
My Halloween kinda sucked, A :/
How was yours?
He's a beautiful boy RW!
6:18, it wasn't bad. We dressed up, handed out treats, drank, watched BAD horror flicks from the 60's-70's, and played a game of Zombies!
So, not a bad night. I'm still working on my costume.
*hands over some nut-free bars*
How was everyone else's Hallowe'en?
-A
Thank you, 6:21pm :) I think so too!
RW, he looks like he's got little vampire fangs!
He's a cute kid!
-A
Hey guys
Thanks, A! ^_^
Luckily for my sister, he appears to have outgrown his biting phase.
Hi, BC! :)
*squeeze!*
Hi RW *squeezes back* How was your day?
Hallo Amy and nut anon
Not bad, thank you, BC :)
How was yours?
Hallo BC!
Ugh, that biting phase can be BAD too. I remember in elementary school there was always a few kids that were known biters, so you stayed the hell away from them, regardless of what grade you were in.
good morning!!
HI Amy RW anons
Klaatu barada nikto
That's good RW. Mines is alright, just a bit boring.
Hi, EP! :)
How's things?
Good morning ergo :)
hi BC!
RW he is a cutie!
Thanks, EP ^_^
Gotta head out now to eat crepes with a friend.
Have a lovely night, everyone :
vampires don't want love. they want your blood. they won't get none of mine. i need it.
things are good
hubby is attacking the yard with a backhoe, ably assisted by our daughter
later I shall have a turn
I don't want your money, honey,
I want your love
^_~
Bye RW!
Hiya Ergo!
Euw, blood.
Bye RW
Ergo, what are you guys doing to your yard?
-A
see ya RW
did you guys see my halloween story?
I don't want love.
I want some wine.
Best to keep your blood 6:34. Vampires are never satisfied anyway.
*ears pricked*
Did someone say wine?
*rattles down to the wine cellar*
*rattles back upstairs and puts the basket on the table*
Three Red, Three White. Take your pick.
No, Ergo, I didn't see your story, is it on your blog?
-A
amy we are going to put irrigation pipe over to the chickens and also run a pipe to where we are going to have a pig pen in the side paddock.
Also our front drain that takes water from the kitchen sink keeps blocking up so we are going to dig it up, move it and replace it. It's only 2 inch pipe and broken and not lain well and we are going to put 4 inch on more of a slope and at the moment it runs straight down to the front of the yard, so we are taking it out to the paddock as it'll irrigate a bit of the grass, our laundry and bathroom does the same.
Oh wow that is way more detail than anyone would be interested in!
yes it is amy, I'd love if you had a look
Ergo, I liked your story!
Poor Marcus!
And that seems like an awful lot of work, how long until it's done?
*uncorks a bottle of Cabernet Savignon*
*hold empty glass to amy*
Can I have some too ?
it'll be at least all today and then more either during the week or next weekend
it's his brothers backhoe and nothing needs doing immediately so there is no rush
thanks too :]
and can I haz some white pls?
*holds out glass*
oh the pig pen isn't happening now, but may as well lay the pipe over while we are doing it
*pours a glass for the Anon*
Why, of course!
*pours a glass for herself and Ergo. Places wine bottle on sideboard*
So, it's the first of November, and it's 17 degrees celcius outside. I could be in shorts right now if I wanted.
-A
yard with backhoe
*sips wine*
so amy, anon you had nice halloweens?
Hi guys
hi elena!!
loved the pics earlier, esp the eyes!
Thanks Ergo
Fred found those and I thought they added just the right touch!
17 degrees! wow amy, you are just a bit cooler than us and I AM in shorts
though it is getting warmer as it's only morning
Hallo Elena! How was your Hallowe'en?
Ergo, not bad. Costumes, kids, drinks, movies, board games. The usual.
-A
Hey Amy
I kinda explained my Halloween in my comment to Mayo earlier today. Oh and there are some pics too.
Ooh. Okay, I'll go look.
-A
Haha! Sweet! I hope YOU get Spiderpowers. I've been bitten twice this year, and so far, squat.
And I like your disco queen. I just dressed up as a whore. *shrugs*
Sunny and Stormy look great! Did they make those flapper costumes?
-A
did you have lots of trick or treaters elena?
No Amy they bought those costumes at Hot Topic.
There were a bunch of trick or treaters at my Mom's house. It was fun to see all the costumes. Fred and I also watched Ghost Hunters Live but I must say it was sorta boring. I think we are much better ghost hunters. LOL
The best costume I saw last night was a 5 year old boy dressed as Clark Kent, dressed as Superman.
Did anyone else carve pumpkins last night? I did Spiderman because I'm a dork.
-A
you are far more awesome ghost hunters elena!
really cool moth I just found
moth posing for halloween
...things I do rather than housework!
Euw. Moth. :P
-A
oh the backhoe is around the font now, and we have a lot of big rocks in the yard.
so I shall have them for my garden
what font is the backhoe around, ergo? trebuchet? kartika? papyrus?
;)
lol TJ
how are you?
I had a look and I think the font is "digesdefuckoutovdeyard"
does anyone wanna see a vid of me yesterday?
not too bad. :)
i had an email form my editor (i love saying that!) earlier, and when i saw it i got all nervous. i thought: shit, he's goig to tell me they found someone else to write the article. :(
but instead he was all happy that i was excited about his idea, and discussed a few points that i brought up, and said he was "selfishly" waiting to see what i was writing for him.
they like me, ergo! :D
haha ergo! actually, i totally love that font. srsly.
sorry anon, i can't watch vids on this computer, but you go ahead, don't let me stop you.
oh yes please anon
oh TJ that is fantastic!
he can obviously see your writing skillz
it was definitely an ego-boo, ergo. :)
other than the yard-destruction, how's it going for you?
ego-boo?
like for halloween?
I think typo fever is catching!
lol, no it's short for "ego-boost". :)
That's one big moth ergo.
digesdefuckoutovdeyard - font sample
well apart from noise everything is good
I am sorting out some work for my class on tues, I am going to try and do a little prac separating food colouring by chromatography, like forensics do, a simple version so I'm testing to see how it works.
We are goinfg to d a forensic science unit, try and make it interesting so they won't act up too badly
it is anon she has really pretty wings too, they are sort of crinkled
wow! that's a bold font!
forensics is so popular now, isn't it? i think it's interesting though, like the sherlock holmes method of science. :)
good luck with your practice! (should we be wearing any protective gear?)
i just caught up on the moth pics -- the wings almost look like the folds of cloth. very pretty markings, too.
I love ergos moth pics
me!
oh congrats anon!!
*happy dance for you*
the pumpkins and cloth in the pic were from elena
Do you have large spiders there too ergo.
too shy to share the video. sorry.
oh yes we do anon, and I hate them!
the most common big ones we get here, like at our house, are huntsmen and bird eating spiders
fortunately the latter live outside in burrows or under stuff so you don't see them
huntsmen are my most hated creature
aaww, that's too bad, anon. i'm sure people here would have loved to see it. was it of your halloween costume?
Bird eating spiders! Seriously? How big are they?
That sent a slight shiver down my me.
that's ok 9:11 anon :]
toujours, I wouldn't tempt fate.
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