My Grandma used to say "You only get so many words when you're born and once you've used them up...that's it."
She said the same thing about steps too.
"Once they're gone you don't get anymore."
Words and steps, I think she meant that they are the measure of a life.
She was a cool lady.
p.s. and in those last few moments they won't occur to you either.
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hahaha!
what a brilliant first comment!!
well done RW!
Hi Ergo. Good luck with the job :)
That's a pretty, big heart!
I just looked up images of bundt cakes. I don't see any resemblance between them & G-Way's ass.
wow! impressive heart there!
hey there blogchicks. :)
I had some success RW. I did apply to one job near the campus area, and maybe found a couple of apartments, but other than that, I'm not gonna make any big decisions about where to live yet.
The only thing I want is a place where there is 24 hour security or a doorman and that it's near my school where the area is populated. Me being on my own, I can't take any chances.
Hiya, TJ :)
How was your day?
Good idea, BC. I shall keep my fingers crossed for you that you find something suitable.
when seafood goes bad
That's a pretty heart there anon. Hi TJ :)
HAHA!
That's cute, EP :)
Hi TJ hows things?
hello resurrected wreck, bc, and ergo!
today wasn't too awful. :)
actually, i finished up this drawing i've been working at for a month, so that was very good. i posted it at my blog, but i could put up a link here, if you'd like...?
and how's it going for you guys?
Mikey Way has a nice little wonton soup ass.
Thanks RW. I talked it over, and it's looking that we'll be doing some apartment searching in the city either this weekend or maybe next week. I'm gonna bring my mom and one of my brothers, if possible.
But if I can't find a place in time when school starts, I'm gonna focus on securing a job and maybe live in a hotel for a while, which I think would be kinda cool ^_^
And an update about last night's storms: Power went out most of the night, but around 5 am when it was *still* thunderstorming, it came back on, and the storms didn't end til about 7 or 8 am. A tornado touched down in a nearby area where one of my brothers live, and there was some homes and businesses damaged, but no serious injuries.
I just had a peek at your blog, TJ. Your drawing is beautiful!
Have you ever thought about doing that professionally?
Oh please do Tj I'd love to see it
Huh. A girl was murdered in her boyfriend's apartment 3 blocks away from my house.
-A
I lived in a hostel my first week and a half of university, BC, and it worked out fine, though I got little privacy as I was sharing the room with 7 other people.
Oh geez, A! It's like nowhere is safe anymore >_<
Do they think her boyfriend did it?
won ton soup ass?
sort of watery with dumpling things in it?
Lol, that's a funny picture Ergo. I'm gonna take a look at your piture TJ. RW, I bet you didn't have a lot of space huh?
Hi Amy, I'm sorry to hear that. How did it happen?
I think today we got a bit of the storm you had last night, BC.
Holy cow Amy!
I hope they get whoever did it
Lock yourself inside
Have you ever thought about doing that professionally?
quite often, resurrected wreck, and thank you!
amyranth, that it very frightening to have something like that happen so close to where you live. things like that are usually isolated though, crimes of passion.
a man in my old apartment complex murdered his daughter while i was living there. they lived right across from me, in the next building, actually. but it was still a pretty safe neighborhood.
I had a look at your blog TJ it's lovely
"that is very frightening" is what my fingers would have typed if they could actually function.
Was it bad RW? Luckily, it's quiet and nice right now, and we're gonna have lovely, cooler weather for the rest of the week. Whew!
Not much space at all, BC!
thank you, ergo. :D
it was fun to draw, even though all that hair took forever.
Anyway, I should turn in now. I'm up past my bedtime!
Have a lovely night, all :)
good night, resurrected wreck, sweet dreams!
goodnight RW sweet dreams
RW, Teej and Ergo
I don't know yet if the boyfriend is a suspect, they won't even say how she died because it's part of the investigation. I think that means "She was torn to shreds and only the killer knows where we found her arm" or something.
Really bad.
Anyway, this is the third "incident". First that poor bastard that got shot in the alley 3 houses away. Then the guy that got stabbed by a group of guys behind the Safeway that's 5 blocks away, and now this poor thing. God love 'em.
-A
yikes, amyranth.
Amy it is a terrible world sometimes
Ergo and Teej, you're telling me.
I snooped around a bit and I was close. According to one of the neighbours, she was beaten beyond recognition. Christ Almighty.
-A
Goodnight RW
Oh the poor woman! How terrible . I suppose the first suspect will be the boyfriend
So many times it's a domestic relationship that goes bad
we had a grandfather kill his wife and both grandkids then tried to kill his daughter when she got home, and no one knows why , they suspect dementia, but you have to wonder how it could happen
oh geez, amyranth, that's horrible.
Beyond, it's fucking beyond.
Even worse, they were talking in the news today about the guy who beheaded the guy on the Greyhound bus? Turn out, he not only did that, but cut off the guy's ear, nose, part of his mouth, and was observed by a police officer consuming other parts he'd hacked off.
*sighs*
You know, people say they don't wanna bring children into a world this evil, but I hope that if I do, I can raise them to be better than some of the scum that currently infects this planet.
-A wants to give birth to a child Super-Cop.
today i was reading about the scientist who committed suicide when the fbi started closing in on him, and all of a sudden, i just saw suicide as this totally incomprehensible action.
it was strange, like looking at something from underneath or froma great height, and seeing it in a completely new way.
i mean, it's a given, right? suicide = bad. but all of a sudden, i understood that it is an individual murdering themself. deliberately.
and all these recent horrible murders...it combined in my head and the weight of that decision, and that awful amazement that we have the ability to commit murder on ourselves...
well.
sorry. just some of what i was thinking about today.
amy that's the thing, you want to bring them up to make it better, but it's hard trying to make them cautious without being scared
TJ I always see it as an act of desperation, but it is like you said
Anonymous said...
are you looking for Triston?
August 5, 2008 4:12 PM
may he die of syphilis and forever burn in Hell
Good Evening !
How's everyone doing today? Mayonaise, you're grandma sounds like she was a cool lady. I miss my grandma a lot. After she died, I kept dreaming about her. In this one dream, we were shopping at Extra Foods, and she kept walking away from me. I kept running after her, but after she went around every corner, she would disappear. Finally I caught up to her, and she told me not to worry, she wasn't going anywhere, and everything was going to be alright. I think that was her way of telling me it was alright to let her go. Not really forget her, but it was her time, you know?
You're opening up more, little guy! As much as I like it, I don't want you to feel obligated to do so.
And sorry if I haven't been around lately, but a lot has been on my mind, and yeah.. I am regretting some recent events. Haha. Missed me? Nahh, you have about 40 other frequent commenters daily. =D
I'm going to go make some s'mores then park my arse in front of this computer. I'll be back soon guys!
xoxox;
- 007
<3
it is desperation, you're right, ergo, that and the inability to see beyond the pain. you become inable to see into the future., the pain becomes so unbearable, and you only see it going on forever. isolation only increases the certain feeling that this is your lot in life.
but what struck me today wasn't so much the mindset behind the act as simply that it's even possible.
to make that your last decision, your last act of free will.
i'm just...the impact of it was a very forceful realization, today.
1156 that's not very nice
hi paperheart! bring me back some s'mores, i need them!
Need company that bad 11:56?
PH!!! *hug*
of course I miss you!
TJ from experience with some teens it's that one moment, it's before they even think of what they are doing, then it's too late
but to make that decision, like you said , just to be able to see it as an option, is difficult to fathom, I suppose unless you've felt what they feel it's impossible to understand
*places plate on table*
*hugs Ergo in return*
^_^
HAY IT'S PH!
-A
HEYY!
IT
IS
AMYRANTH!!
^_^
*Toothy grin* lol
Hi grasshopper, how are you? *squeezes PH until she can't breath* :)
TJ from experience with some teens it's that one moment, it's before they even think of what they are doing, then it's too late
yes, you get caught up in the pain, and really don't think beyond it. and it's part of the reason why so many teen suicides are often boys -- they tend to choose methods that leave them no leeway, guns, for instance. with pills, you have the chance of mistaking the fatal amount.
but do you ever have moments like that? not suicide -- i mean, moments where something you never considered much suddenly rings a clarion in your mind and you understand it in a whole new way?
it's remarkable.
How're you feelin' kiddo?
Did someone say you brought S'mores?
-A
for PH
I didn't say that as a dig at you Amyranth. But as a dig at her. I quite LOVE it when you take a swipe at Kapu ^____^
BY GOSH, BY GOLLY,
It's Bleeding Chaos!!
*runs up to BC*
*jumps*
*hugs BC till her face is blue =] *
I am feelin' pretty confused Amy! Hahaha how are you?!
And yes, S'MORES are here. ^_^
STILL TALKING ABOUT YOU
Kapunua said...
Well, thank you for liking me. I had missed that comment. I try not to let things get to me, hey. ^_^ Ah well! What can you do. :)
8/5/08 8:50 PM
Did you notice..... the 'porchie ass kissers' are almost all gone.
smoooooooooores
i was hungry, paperheart. you arrived just in the nick of time!
:)
Two A.M. in the downtown street, there on a corner two strangers meet
In the night
And then until the daybreak, they're gonna love or then before light
A heart will break, there in the night
Look in the alley, along the road, there the losers stand
There in the rain they bide their time, hustling what they can
They bet just to get that bottle in their hand
There in the night, somewhere in the night
Oh, they do what they do, just to get through, there in the night
And on a street in the heart of town, the lady in black she turns around
In the night, yeah
She stares at the man in the Cadillac, he
drives by but he'll be back, yeah
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/bFI ]
Before the light, there in the night
See the guy along the road, who can he be
Wait awhile he'll turn around, see the man is me
'Cos when I sleep I dream, dreams won't set me free
There in the night, somewhere in the night, yeah
Oh, we do what we do, just to get through, there in the night
When the sun goes down, there the night will wait
Then slowly move for the kill
If you would come back again, it would take away this pain
But I don't know if you ever will
There in the night, somewhere in the night
Oh, there in the night, somewhere in the night, yeah
(Solo)
Oh, there in the night, somewhere in the night
Oh, there in the night, somewhere in the night
TJ yes things do hit me like that sometimes, and usually you just have it happen, no leadup or warning
Set the night to music
Set the night to music
Look at all the stars tonight,
look at all the moonlight
Look at us we're all alone
Oh and it's just like a dream,
some romantic fantasy
Darling come and hold, hold me close
We could be making love
And with the slightest touch
We could, set the night to music
We could set the night to music
We could do what we want to do
It'll only take me and you, to
Set the night to music
Find a rhythm all our own, melt
into it nice and slow
Love ourselves away from here
Your heart beating next to mine,
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/LAwU ]
perfect love in perfect time
Watch the world disappear
This moment is ours to take (This moment is ours)
And with the love we make
We could set the night to music
We could set the night to music
We could do what we want to do
It'll only take me and you, to
Set the night to music
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, yeah
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, yeah
This moment is ours to take (This moment is ours)
And with the love we make
We could set the night to music
We could set the night to music
We could do what we want to do
It'll only take me and you,
To set the night, set the night
Set the night to music
Set the night to music
We could set the night to music
We could set the night to music
We could set the night to music
Set the night, set the night, set
the night, set the night...
soon very very soon
Toothy grins all around!!!!!
Come night comes shadows to your side
Come night comes every tear you've cried
Come night so comes your time to see
Come night comes hatred to my heart
Come night comes healing of my scars
Come night so comes my time to be
Come night I m there again
Come night come night I reign
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/42Fr ]
Beware for the night will find you
Beware for I am there behind you I slay
Come night comes all those things my dear
Come night comes all those things you fear
Come night so comes your time to die
Come night comes so the one below
Come night so comes my time to smile
Come night I'm there again
Come night come night I reign
Beware for the night will find you
Beware for I am there behind you I slay
Hold on
I'll be back for you
It won't be long
But for now there's something else
That's calling me
So take me down a lonesome road
Point me east and let me go
That suitcase weighs me down
With memories
I just wanna be the one you run to
I just wanna be the one you come to
I just wanna be there for someone
When the night comes
Let's put all the cares behind us
And go where they'll never find us
I just wanna be there beside you
When the night comes
When the night comes
Two spirits in the night
That can leave before
the morning light
When there's nothing left to lose
And nothing left to fear
So meet me on the edge of town
Won't keep you waiting I'll be 'round
Then you and I
We'll just roll right out of here
I just wanna be the one you run to
I just wanna be the one you come to
I just wanna be there for someone
When the night comes
Let's put all the cares behind us
And go where they'll never find us
I just wanna be there beside you
When the night comes
When the night comes
I know there'll be a
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/2n ]
time for you and I
Just take my hand and run away
Think of all the pieces of
the shattered dream
We're gonna make it out some day
We'll be coming back
Coming back to stay
When the night comes
I wanna be the one you run to
When the night comes
To be the one you'd come to
I wanna be the one you run to
Ooh
I just wanna be the one you run to
Wanna be the one you come to
I just wanna be there for someone
When the night comes
Let's put all the cares behind us
And go where they'll never find us
I just wanna be there beside you
When the night comes
When the night comes
Ah ah when the night comes
When the night rolls down
Ah ah when the night comes
I wanna be with you
Ah ah when the night comes
Oh ah when the night comes in
Ah ah oh
Ah ah when the night comes
When the night comes
Ah ah when the night comes
I wanna be right by your side
Ah ah when the night comes
Yes baby
Ah ah oh
Don't do that to me woman
Ah ah oh
Ever stayed when the night
time gets in here
Ah ah when the night comes
I wanna rise and up in the
When the night comes
Ah ah when the night comes
Ah ah oh
Love me
You know the night
time, darling
(night and day)
Is the right time
(night and day)
To be
(night and day)
With the one
you love, now
(night and day)
Say now oh baby
(night and day)
When I come
home baby, now
(night and day)
I wanna be with
the one I love,
now
(night and day)
You know what I'm
thinking of
(night and day)
I know the night time
(night and day, oh)
Whoa, is the right time
(night and day, oh)
To be with the one
you love, now
(night and day)
I said to be with
the one you love
(night and day)
You know my mother, now
(night and day)
Had to die, now
(night and day)
Umm, and my father
(night and day)
Well he broke
down and cry
(night and day)
Whoah! whoa baby
(night and day)
When I come home baby now
(night and day)
I want you to
hold my hand
(night and day)
Yeah, tight as you can
(night and day)
I know the night time
(night and day, oh)
Whoah is the right time
(night and day, oh)
To be with the
one you love
(night and day)
You know what I'm
thinking of
(night and day)
Whoah! sing your
song, Margie
Baby
(night and day)
Baby
[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/FnxZ ]
(night and day)
Baby
(night and day)
Oh, Baby
(night and day)
Do I love you?
(night and day)
No one above you
(night and day)
Hold me tight
(night and day)
And make
everything all
right
(night and day)
Because the night time
(night and day)
Oh, is the right time
(night and day)
To be with the one
you love now
(night and day)
Oh yeah
(night and day)
Tease me
(night and day)
Squeeze me
(night and day)
Leave me
(night and day)
Ah, don't leave me
(night and day)
Lawdy baby
(night and day)
Take my hand, now
(night and day)
I don't need
(night and day)
No other man
(night and day)
Because the night time
(night and day)
Ow, is the right time
(night and day)
To be with the
one you love
(night and day)
Oh yeah
(night and day)
I said baby
(night and day)
Baby
(night and day)
Baby
(night and day)
Baby
(night and day)
Whoah! baby now
(night and day)
Oh come on baby
(night and day)
You know I want
you by my side
(night and day)
I want you to keep
(night and day)
Oh keep me satisfied
(night and day)
I know the night time
(night and day)
Everyday is the
right time
(night and day)
Yeah to be with
the one you love
now
(night and day)
Well you know
it's all right
:-D=
:Dz
^_^
m
All toothy grins for you
anon that's a lot of songs
*is proud of Amyranth*
I like who I like EP
Hey everyone
It's getting a little BOW-CHIKA-WOW-WOW in here!
*fans herself with a magazine*
-A
*fans Amyranth*
What can I say I like how you deal with things and PEOPLE
Hi elena!
Hiya Elena!
-A
can't wait
must wait
waits
waits
waits
♥♥
"Toothy grin anon" just come right out and say that you like it when Amyranth attacks K because you hate K. Don't beat around the bush.
Having one face for all the world to see sure can make you popular.
Woo! Two hearts anon!!
♥♥
-A
I am not denying it 12:32. yes, I like it when people put Kapu in her place, yes I love it when Amyranth doe sit!!! Don't pretend like they weren't talking SHIT about Amy on K's blog either!! So don't pretend!
Hi hearts
Well that is really mature, if you like to see people attacked.
♥
▼
☺☺
Hi Ergo and Amy and.....
anyone else who is nice
wow!
so many swoony songs. :)
i like the one at 12:23 the best, i think.
but they're all...very....
nice --
*swoons onto the couch*
*face turns blue from grasshopper's hugs, can't breath* ^_^
Hi Elena, hi hearts anon ♥
hey hi there elena. :)
Hey TJ and BC
Dont talk about Trison that way!
He's a vamp and cant get syphilis nimrod.
Seriously,thats a terrible thing to wish death on someone as well
what is wrong with people!?
no need for me to post anything tonight. someone's done it already
and alot of em too
0_0
12:43 - If you noticed from my conversation earlier, a lot. There's a lot of fucked up people in this world.
-A
dont know any of those songs or lyrics
goodnight all
Tell it like it is Amy ^_^
You know, I have never seen the South Park episode where they do Queer Eye, and I have to say it's pretty freaking funny.
-A
hey is that you beloved imortal, at 12:45? :)
O.k, good god.
TO:August 5, 2008 8:28 PM
I can't believe I have to come in here and address this bullshit, but I want it all very clear. I don't know why my comment -My Direct Comment to Kapu, On Her Blog- was copy/pasted over here with the fallacy that I was talking shit about other lovelies?? I don't get that at all.
I was merely addressing a comment Kapu (and an anon) left (on the previous post) about (I believed!) my comment to Your Heart anon for sharing the lovely poem.
My comment to her wasn't meant to cause shit. It wasn't meant to be smarty. I meant simply, to Kapu -that I was sorry that I had missed the lovely poem when SHE had posted it. It was in no way a reference to anyone -at all, in any way, other than to her. I simply don't -remotely- get how my comment to her could be taken as a jab (or an ass kiss) to her or ANYONE else for that matter. That is just bullshit.
I have a lot going on right now, and I would appreciate it if someone had something to say to me -or ask me- that they have the fucking balls to stick to me straight. -And that is a direct reference to the anon that implied I was personally trying to start shit or kiss ass. I don't aim for either, but I can see clearly -that some do.
Anyway, to the anon from earlier today, if you were looking for me -and wanting to talk to me; please say so straight. (As in, one comment.) There were simply too many anon's around today to understand that straight. I wasn't mad (about anything, including our previous encounter- I want that clear to you.), and you didn't hurt me. I just wasn't sure what exactly was happening today. It was really confusing. Alright?? I am only saying this, just in case.
I hope everyone is well. I won't bring this crap up again. But one last time -I meant nothing to Kapu -other than, I dug the poem. I was sorry I missed it when she posted it. I like the poetry she posts. I wasn't trying to start anything, I wasn't trying to kiss her ass -I was simply being HONEST. I really hope that is clear to everyone. Cuz this is just shit.
WOW,
My computer froze when I was scrolling down through the comments! 0.0
Not cool.
amy I like South Park, Have you seen their Cannibal the movie?
LEWWISSSSS!
Rawr. I replied to your email a little while ago. =]
*eyes well up*
I thought I was the only one who had ever seen it...
The sky is blue, and all the leaves are green, the sun is warm like a baked potato! I think I know precisely what I mean, when I say it's a Shpadoinkle Day!
-A
Lewis, I wouldn't worry about it. I don't think anyone was implying that you did anything. I'm pretty sure your comment just got caught in the CopyPasta.
-A
Hiya Paper babe, I will respond tonight. I promise ya. I am not hangin here. I can't deal with some of this crap. But I hope you are good doll?? I love ya, and you will here from me very soon! I won't leave ya hanging! I just wanted to let you know that real quick! Be happy babe! :P
-loves
Hi Lewis
I don't pay attention to anons trying to cause trouble
I don't think your comment could be misconstrued I think they just C&P'd the whole thing
AMY!
Yesterday I was working, and guess who I saw at the mall?! Can you guess? I bet you can't!
AMY!! I sing that often!
I loved that movie, that and them in Baseketball
Copypasta? Is that an Italian dish?
Thanks Amyranth. I really hope that is the case, cuz otherwise -total shit. I hope you are well too! I am out of here! <3
Oh, and I wasn't refering to Smiley Anon in my earlier comment. I was talking to another. Alright? Hope that's clear too. -Nighty night all.
Lewis, don't worry too much hun! You always are the one to respond quickly, whereas I take forever to think of something to say!
And I'm doing good! Still a little, confused and what not about Saturday's happenings! I hope you're doing good my dear!
<3
goodnight lewis sweet dreams
I think copypasta is one of those that is generally nice, but at times leaves you with a bad taste in your mouth and a stomach ache
PH... Umm....
Peter Mansbridge?
-A
Elena, CopyPasta like "Copy and paste" on the internet, but yes it can be an italian dish. You serve it with Spaghetti.
Ergo, my god, I think we have two of the same favorite movies in common! I thought BASEketball was AWESOME.
-A
NOPE!
I saw, ALL of the bands from Warped!! I guess that they were passing through from Toronto to get to Saskatoon for today's show! I was SO close to All Time Low.
This totally makes up for my dad not letting me go! And you can imagine me, standing there, drooling like a donkey, over really talented and attractive musicians, in like, arms length from me.
I was in heaven.
Goodnight anon. Hi lewis
No WAY PH!
That's so awesome! Although, you're right, not the same as onstage, but still fucking cool!
I can't wait for tomorrow@!!
Did you say anything to any of them?
-A
K, maybe not ALL of the bands, but, A LOT of them.
Or A LOT of people from A LOT of the bands. Hahaa
OH PH!! lucky you!!
Amy, well, I was at work, so I had to stay behind the counter and take orders.
I wish I had, but you know, just being in the presence of some really awesome people felt great.
Ergo, it was a day to remember!
K, maybe not ALL of the bands, but, A LOT of them.
I'll be honest, I did just visualize a little manga-style PH standing behind a counter while mounds of guys wearing signs that say "Alesana", "All Time Low", "The Academy Is..." stroll by nonchalantly.
Good eye though, I can rarely pick musicians out of a crowd!
-A
oops i missed lewis! hi and bye lewis!
i'm starting to hop back and forth. i realized that i haven't saved any of the field reports i made while out on the road! D:
so i'm here, and i'm
~in the past~
on old posts. :)
oh! paperheart! that sounds like...well, it sounds like i have to be very jealous of you! *heehee* what a great experience though. :)
Toothy grin anon, you are always waiting to jump on a crazytrain aren't you? first with Carrie, now with amy, whoever you think is against K you are behind, that is just sad and telling of your shallow little life.
Haha.
These dudes were soo easy to spot, since the customers walking around the mall yesterday mostly consisted of the elderly. SO, when I see really attractive, and familiar looking people, who aren't like, 90 years old, and who certainly look like they aren't from Winnipeg... well I know these things!
Plus, one guy walked past and said "Oh, well I hope we don't run into any fans". I had to roll my eyes at that one.
*sigh*
I always seem to miss famous people.
I missed Matthew McConaghy by about an hour at a liquor barn last year
And I definitely served one of the people from Alesana.
PH, I'd be as jittery as all fuck if I were you!
Let's see... famous people...
I met Dan Akyroyd at a liquor store once!
And... um... Gerard at Warped Tour.
Uh... Oh! And Avril Lavigne!
And that's about it.
-A
I just got a call from J
She and L are at the hospital. L isn't doing very well. They just took her down for a CT Scan.
They wanted me to tell you all hello from the ER.
what's Dan Akaroyd like?
I met Richard O'Brien from Rocky Horror
and a few aussie actors and opera people
but noone really good
my Mum helped Bob Geldoff choose a book for his daughters at an airport in Asia
Fer Fuck's Sake.
L, GET BETTER!
J, STAY STRONG!
...
FUCK'S SAKE.
-A
Lewis
I have just caught up with all the comments and I think you were addressing me. (unsure)
I am the anon you originally spoke to on your old blog. I think that's what you meant by "previous encounter".
Rest assured the only comments I have posted today were at 6:15 and 6:30. I otherwise have not been online until now.
I hope that helps with your confusion. Take care.
oh, i hope l. will be alright. that's scary.
Fuck!
Elena, send all of my love to J & L. Make sure Opal knows that I'm missing her and I'm thinking of her.
Oh, and I send hugs through my brain, to both J's and Opal's!
Dan Akyroyd is... well... jolly. Nice, but not very talkative. He was promoting his Tequila, Patron. $80 for a bottle.
-A
1:20, like I said. I didn't deny that I like when people go after her. If it's Carrie or te OPS or Amyranth.... its deserved.
More important that the bitch....
GET BETTER OPL!!!!
I know it means so much to them both that you are all sending such positive vibes their way.
Oh poor L!
I hope all is ok , if you talk to them send them my best
Richard O'Brien was really nice, but tiny!
and I was only about 16 or 17 so I wasn't huge and he seemed small to me
Damn, I hope L gets better soon. All my best get well wishes *hugs* stay strong J!
Agh.
Anyway, I gotta go. I gotta be up early for Warped in the morning.
I'll see you guys later.
-A
bye Amy have a great time!!!!
I'm jealous as of now!
Bye Amy! Have lots of fun for the both of us!
I have to go to. Well, I'm just going to read a book and listen to music.
Sweet dreams all, and play nice.
xoxox
<3
Have fun tomorrow Amy..
My daughters loved Warped this year.
goodnight PH sweet dreams
good night amyranth, good night paperheart. :)
Night Paperheart
Sweet Dreams
i must go too titoring time
and I won't be around tomorrow I have work, that'll take some adjusting!
*wonder if I can snaffle computer?*
*in a school*
* not good idea*
so i'll be on when I'm on!
take care guys
GET WELL L!!
bey elena BC and Tj and any anons about
♥xx♥
BE STRONG J!!
*bye ! *sheesh*
Bye Ergo
Hey is everyone gone?
I will take that as a "yes"
not totally gone!
but i have to be getting to bed, so i'll say good night, and scoot off.
good night elena, give l. my best for a speedy recovery.
good night blogebelieve. :)
*augh*
i was attacked by ye olde typoe fairye!
it's "blogbelieve", obviously.
good night!
mayo,
i've been re-living the first days of my road trip through those optimistic bombastic good nights i wrote to you then. *embarrassed grin*
i've really allowed myself to be sidetracked, haven't i? or maybe it's just the necessary downtime after something like that, the space needed in which to digest the experience.
or maybe it just is, and i don't need to analyze it. *grin*
today, after finishing my drawing, i started reading a terry pratchett book. i love his witches. they are among the best fictional witches i have ever read, and there's a whole lot of truth in those characters. i think he must know a few in real life.
but even though he's writing comedic fantasy, i always get a bit inspired by his witches, always sit up a little straighter. he reminds me of who i am, somehow. reminds me to stick to my ideals, and my view of the world.
mayo, even though i've been feeling muddled and somewhat off-kilter here lately, i have done my best to keep my promise to you. i have done my best to make sure that nothing i post here is less than my truth.
and so, because i've been all over the place since perched here in kentucky, so have my comments. and perhaps there have been a few good nights where i could be accused of putting a spin on things, but that was more out an embarrassment to be on the verge of writing yet another morose comment, or a desire to talk myself around to a more positive mindset, then anything deceptive.
and even those were truth, too. i think back over all the words i have placed on your blog, and i stand by all of them. i meant every one.
earlier tonight, i stepped outside. it was warm, but there was a night breeze. you know i never feel alone out in the night, and that's how it was again tonight. i looked up at the clouds covering the stars, and listened to the raucous tree-frogs, and felt the breeze on my face, and grinned because old words rose in my mind.
wish i may,
wish i might,
have the wish,
i wish tonight.
:)
and all of these pieces of my puzzle today. what i learned at bamboozle. what making art does to me. what i knew about myself as a witchy child and what hasn't changed. what the night gives me.
and what writing a good night to you each night means to me.
i'm sidetracked, maybe, but not lost. my eyes are on the horizon, where tomorrow lives.
good night, and a deep nourishing sleep to you, my friend. may your dreams renew and refresh your bright spirit.
Sleep well, TJ
Mayo
Okay while I love your latest post it sorta saddened me. I’ve told the story before about how I lost both of my grandma’s within days. Thinking about them is hard sometimes. I try to remember all the good memories. I want to share one with you. It was about my Green Grandma. No, she wasn’t green and her last name wasn’t Green. I gave her that name when I was a very little girl. Why? Well, because she and Grandpa had a green car. (That’s how I told my two sets of grandparents apart). Anyway the name stuck and I always called her Green Grandma when I was little then later I simply called her Green. She thought it was funny.
So anyway, Green truly came from a different time and place. She only went to 4th grade. Her family lived on a farm and the kids were needed at home. She had 12 brothers and sisters. Green taught herself to read with the newspaper. She never learned to drive. And yet if you drove her somewhere once she could always find that place again. Often I tried to test her on this. I would take her somewhere and then the next time we went I’d ask her to give me directions. She always could. She was a remarkable woman. And she was always full of surprises.
The story starts with me and Mom and Green in the car. It was 1981 I think. Remember John Holmes and what he was famous for? Yeah, the porn star and his very impressive…yeah. So anyway my mom and I were talking about the news that day. John Holmes was involved in a murder investigation. The Wonderland Murders. Now my mom certainly didn’t want to discuss a porn star in front of her mom. So we were speaking around that fact. Just mentioning the murders. I remember I was driving, Green was in the front and Mom was in the backseat. (Trust me I pretty much always drove. My mom never has gotten the hang of it). So I’m looking back at my mom and I mention that one of the victims was a woman. Without missing a beat Green perks up and says. “Well if John Holmes was involved bet she died happy.” Oh holy shit I almost ran off the road. I couldn’t believe my sweet little (4”10) grandma knew who John Holmes was. Let alone make a crack like that. My poor mother started choking. I glanced over at Green who very seriously added “Well they say it’s at least 12 inches” This time I gave up and laughed so hard. I don’t think Mom has ever recovered from the trauma.
So that’s my story about Green. God, I miss her so much.
Night Mayo
Elena (And my other grandma? Yep, she was a character too)
Hi and bye, anyone who's here.
My back aches terribly, so I am off for a soak in the tub.
But I did wish to say:
J and L - I was wishing L would feel much better soon, so I am upset to hear she's worse and back in the emergency room. I hope they find some information to help with her treatment. My best wishes go with you. ♥
ergo - Good luck - I am sure you'll do well!
Wendy - My aching back is preventing me from sitting at the computer, but I hope you are enjoying time with the niece and nephew!
RE: crying on the bus - If the Mom ONLY spoke to the child after she screamed, she was rewarding the child's behavior. Obviously, the child wanted attention - and only received it after crying. The Mom should have paid attention to the child before she cried - or at least provided something to occupy the child as ergo said. Anyway, I worked with children who had no language skills at all, so I had to think three steps ahead. Its a shame we don't have parenting class in high school - its the most important thing we do, yet few know anything about it. Makes no sense to me...
Anon 9:56 - I am merely pointing out that mayo has the option to leave if its too stressful, as he's very busy. And that I, for one, would understand that decision. As his posts often serve as double entendres, coupled with his ps and the period, that may have been one of his meanings, if you will. (It may not have been, as well.) Also, I asked him to reassure anons (some of whom may only care about the blog - without regard for others' feelings) that the blog wasn't ending just yet. That may have been his response. It may have been meant sarcastically. I don't know.
I did also state that, in time, words/ideas would return. They always do.
Insulting others' intelligence is rude, btw, but perhaps you were ignorant of that fact.
Mayo - You might wish to read the statements above, as they also relate to the post. I believe I am being teased about my words - and symbols - to you - and that some anon is answering me, as I once thought you answered me anonymously (exactly once). If that makes any sense :) I am not bothered by it at all, though.
PS - Yesterday I messed up - its there are greater concerns in the world not their. It is worth repeating, I think.
PPS - TJ - I love the feeling evoked by your words above. :)
Have a good day, guys.
SURPRISE!
*another rare occasion of me being early - or, a not so rare occasion of me being late*
Good morning/afternoon/night Mayo, SS, Elena, Ergo, TJ, Amy, BC; the maybe soon to arrive FASC, Kass, Possum and Miranth; various anons, watchers and lurkers; all our sick, troubled and/or missing friends in the land o’blogbelieve.
Mayo and SS: I hope you are both well and happy!
J and L: Please, please, please be well - the both of you! You know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I’m sending the best wishes I have to L!!!! J, don’t forget to eat and get some rest while tending to L. You have to take care of yourself too!
Ergo: Good luck today! Your first day back to school (so to speak). I hope all goes smoothly! *smooooooch*
Amy: Have a great time at Warped and try not to get too dirty! ;)
Elena: How's that twitching? Has it stopped yet?
Paperheart: It’s always so good to see you posting! *huge hug*
Lewis: It’s great to see you back and posting a bit again! I hope things get better for you soon. Very soon! *huge hugs for you too*
I spy LILLIAN AXE lyrics!!!! I am always happy to spy those! Thanks anon who posted those. Or, is Steve hanging out here these days? I didn’t know he was spending time, here, at the castle! I usually run into him at the HOB.
*waves and smiles at Steve*
*recalls just how great he smells and decides to pounce and give him a nice, tight, long hug - again*
;P
“Vision In The Night” is not one of my personal favorite tunes. I much prefer “Dream Of A Lifetime”, “Ghost Of Winter”, “Nobody Knows” and “Picture Perfect” from their first album/cd! I love “Show A Little Love” and “She Likes It On Top” from their second album (Love and War, title track - which I also love). And, I adore just about everything on Poetic Justice, Psychoschizophrenia, Fields of Yesterday, the compilation Out of the Darkness - Into the Light and their live cd released in 2002!
I highly recommend their most recent cd “Waters Rising”! Heck, I highly recommend ALL of them. For those who prefer something a little heavier, I recommend Steve’s other band - NEAR LIFE EXPERIENCE! And, of course, if you are a guitarist, I recommend Steve Blaze’s signature guitar:
Take a peek, t’is a beauty (all three models are beauties).
The Blaze Guitar
I think I like the blue one best! ;)
Okay, that is my history lesson and gift of music recommendations for today. I do enjoy giving lessons on subjects I love and I do love the music of Lillian Axe!
In case you can not find any of the above mentioned cds, please think about purchasing a little DISTURBED, NIGHTWISH, APOCALYPTICA, POISONBLACK or CHARON!
*big smile*
A wish today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”
Author Unknown
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm sending dozens of hugs to all who need extra hugs today. Hang in there, everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Mya, A Rose for Emily, Mel, Heavenly Mother and Guardian Angel!
Miranth: I hope you feel better soon, too! Try soaking in a nice, hot apple cider vinegar and epsom salt bath. Well, not too hot! We are not trying to season and cook you! ;)
Elena: Thank you for letting us know what was going on with J and L! Goodnight and sweet dreams!
Goodnight and sweet dreams to one and all!
*blows kisses*
Thank you Wendy! A virtual *hug* is all I can manage right now :)
PPPS - I miss the missing, too.
:)
Morning Mayo, E, Miranth & Wendy,
Wednesday. It's not as bad as Monday, and that's the best that can be said for it.
Touching post there Mayo, but I'm a realist - love and family can't pay the mortgage but a f***-off big house and plasma TV can help you get laid, which is a kinda the same thing or at least the precursor to it.
Just saying...
Have a great day!
Kass xx
"Hello" and "What freaking time is it?" from the homestead.
We got back about 3 am. L's had both morphine and Toradol for pain, and 2 other somethings I can't remember for nausea, and saline for dehydration. She's had a CT scan of her abdomen, both upper and lower quadrants. And after all that, the dr said they didn't really see ANYthing. He also said that sometimes a pre-diverticulitis attack will act like a real one, so he's prescribed 2 antibiotics and 1 pain med for L.
There's nothing major that's broken or in need of mending, thankfully. But after all is said and done, he basically told her it's diverticulitis. Oddly enough, that's kind of what I thought it was when we first went, but they said it was stomach flu, so who am I to diagnose?
L wants me to say a big THANK YOU to all the people who sent her their well-wishes. Thank you to Elena, Ergo, Amy, Wendy, BC, Bubbles (we got your brain-hugs!), TJ, Anon (BI?), Miranth, and anyone else I may have missed.
On the way home, we were so fuckin' tired we were laughing at the stupidest things. You know when you get the giddy giggles? Well, L told me thank you for taking her "bawlin', horkin' ass" to the ER again. So I said, "Hah, sounds like a politician: Bawlin Horkinass for city council--District 12." And then we laughed like mad things for about 20 minutes.
So now I'm off to bed (oh HALLELUJAH!), L's already gone to hers, my eyes hurt and so do my feet, her stomach hurts, and Dumplin is running around like it's Catnip Day at PetSmart. (He's happy that we're home.)
One or both of us will talk to y'all tomorrow.
Mayo, you were lucky to know your grandmother. I never met either of mine; they both passed before I was born. I'm glad you could enjoy yours.
SS, apparently sleep is overrated, do you know if that's true? Break it to me gently, please. Did you see all the night/love songs tonight? I really liked the one at 12.21, about setting the night to music. Mmm hmm, I do like that one a lot.
See you all tomorrow, kids! Sorry to babble, but my mind is still working, even though the rest of me is yelling, "FUCK IT! LAY THE FUCK DOWN!!!" So I shall.
love, faith, hope, antibiotics, stay the fuck out of the ER
morning mayo!!
hope today finds you good, well, happy and all that! have a good one!
morning SS!
i don't think you've been around?? but sending best wishes your way incase you are being a lurky mcClurker!! (have i spelt that right?)
night TJ!
elena...your story about green grandma was too funny!
hi wendy! i think you've gone to bed now? thats early for you!
hi miranth, hope your back feels better soon.
hi kass! work hard! the sun has just come out here! i am sick to death of the rain! it's august ffs!
hi J! hope you have a great sleep after all the stress! send my love to L! glad you know what is going on with her. poor L...i hope she feels better very soon!
ergo are you back to school today? your term starts early. we go back 3rd september!
amy, have fun at warped! i think i've read that somewhere!
hello to anyone arriving soon...solly, princess, mustard and anyone else!
big hello to PP cos i always miss her!!
ok i think thats it.
happy wednesday blogbelieve!
love to you all!
Hello to anyone here. I was supposed to come back earlier, but I was having problems, so I never did. I spent the rest of the evening reading, and in the midst of it I was having a talk with my friend, but right in the middle of the conversation, I fell asleep, with my TV still on. Totally accidental. I couldn't help it. I was tired.
So I'm here to give a goodnight to anyone here, and to return back to sleep since my eyes are desperately trying to close.
Sweet dreams everyone
BlogBelieve,
Have a great Wednesday!
L.,
Get well soon!
Catch you all later!
I miss Mustarddddddd!!!
Mayo,
Have a magnifabulous Wednesday! Sure, I know that's asking a lot, but you might as well go for it.
Right? Absofuckinglutely.
Stay cool!
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Smile and try to do better than the best you can.
missing you
needing you
wanting you
loving you
its killing me
still
i will
I Will
♥
Love is patient and love is surely kind
This I know and still I never really knew
But when I see you I feel so alive
And I know love makes any dream come true
And I will wait at the door to your heart
And stay forever if that'll bring
Your precious piece of heaven here to me
And I will stand in a storm in the dark
And never ever wanna leave
I'll do anything you need
You know I will
♥
hey all
FASC I'm doing a special tutoring program so it's starting after the start of term, I ma testing kids tomorrow to get an idea of whet their ability is
then tutoring from friday
hey sdock have a goo day
and yeah I noticed Mustard missing, she's ok?
Hi Kass
wendy *smooch*
miranth Pp and everyone else
thanks for the well wishes :)
Mayo
well back to the grind for me, it's been 6 years! lol well since I've actually worked at the school. It'll be interesting to see how it goes, I'm sure you'll miss me. well I'll miss hanging about the castle while I do my house work
Wishing you success, serenity, reflection and wisdom
much love EP xx
SS miss seeing you about, you know we all think of you, hope we still pop into your mind at inopportune times and you have a smile
Sending you lols, rofls and roflmaos
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you , for a little while in my morning!
♥xx♥
FASC I'm doing a special tutoring program so it's starting after the start of term, I ma testing kids tomorrow to get an idea of whet their ability is
then tutoring from friday
hey sdock have a goo day
haha
obviously the tutoring is in english! lol
Oh dear it may be a loooong day :)
Goodmorning chickadeedoos!
Hi Mayo!
Hi SS!
Hmmm. That little full stop of Mayo's is still there.
Well, it could be his final definitive statement on the goings on here the other day...
or Mayo:
has a spot.
is saying stripes are so last season.
is a glyph.
had an extremely abbreviated message to impart to us.
is trying to raise the profile of punctuation via an multi-pronged advertising blitz.
was figuring out how to make a smiley face.
;)
S-Sssssssssss!
You still hanging in there?
Everyone else, I think I've managed to catch up with you at your homes.
Have a great day everyone.
'Night. =)
>_<
That should be... a multi
*stops to shake her (t)assles*
Cheers, MissT's Grandma!
Very wise advice indeed we should all remember to use.
*streaks on out into the night*
Scorpio (10/23-11/21)
In order to reduce the amount of stress in your life, you need to hand things over to someone you trust. Delegate some of your tasks at work or at home to another person who could use the experience. You can't worry about adding stress to their life by doing so -- right now you should just be concerned about creating a few calmer, quiet moments in your own day. Deciding what tasks to give to which people won't be too hard -- you know who you can count on.
No. No, I do not. >_<
Grrrr! I'm a control freak. I know it.
MAYO!!!!!!!!
It's a Venom kind of day. How's you?
Good morning SunShine!
SS!!!!!!
What ya doing?
I seez you! Not really but ya know...
What you say? I can't hear you!!!
Bwahaha! I thought they were funny. Hope you are doing okay, dude! We miss you!
good morning blogbelieve!
good morning, mayo. :)
for some reason, i got the notion this morning that i need a wonder woman icon for my lj. idkw.
so i poked around lj's comic book icon communities (which seem to focussing on batman these days. go figure.), then caved in and went to google.
so i've been looking at pics of wonder woman all morning. *grin*
and now i kinda want to resurrect my idea of drawing an authentically bronze age aegean wonder woman. i was so gung ho for that at one point. i have an entire file folder stashed away stuffed full of research on greek and minoan bronze age culture.
her gear alone was going to be so cool: sandals and greaves, woollen chiton, cuir bouilli armor, the whole thing. i had it all figured out.
and then i got sidetracked (who, me? how is that possible? lol) and started researching ancient greek foods, and ended up devising two amazonian menus -- one purely bronze age (from their original period of isolation), and one fusion-style, with classical greek elements (themyscrian era, from after they came in contact with hercules, etc.)
you see, i didn't eat bonbons and watch soaps when i was a housewife. nope. i wasted my time in much more practical ways. lol
anyway!
gotta go. hope today's a good day for everyone!
see you all tonight.
bye, blogbelieve.
bye, mayo. hope your day is either completely productive, or filled with completely pointless (but fun) activities. no middle ground! :)
HEY MAYO!!!
Mama said knock you out!
Bwahaha! I'm bored. What?
love, faith, hope, antibiotics, stay the fuck out of the ER
At Warped today. I'll be able to accomplish 3 of the 5.
L, I'm so fucking glad you're okay. I was worried it was something really bad, especially because I saw CT Scan and thought "OMG, that... fuck that could be anywhere! AUGH!"
So everyone can get out their little Bubble-nests, and stay cooped up all day with your fun things and ice cream instead.
No owies.
Alright, have a good day Lovelies and Mayo and SS!
-A
Hello?
Hello?
Okay fine. So I'm alone. No problem I talk to myself all the time anyway...
So Elena how are you today?
Pretty good just a bit bored. Things here at the bookstore are a bit slow today.
Really? That's too bad.
Yeah, hopefully it will pick up later on. I'm here all day. So how are you?
Not bad. Just spending some time thinking about things.
Things?
Yeah, life and the choices I've made.
Oh, that can drive you mad and believe me for me that's a short trip.
I suppose that's true. Oh, be back soon. I've got to take this call.
No problem. Talk to you later.
hey elena, are you still there?
Quick Check for Alzheimer's
The following was developed as a mental age assessment by the School of
Psychiatry at Harvard University . Take your time and see if you can read
each line aloud without a mistake. The average person over 40 years of age
cannot do it!
>1. This is this cat.
>2. This is is cat.
>3. This is how cat.
>4. This is to cat.
>5. This is keep cat.
>6. This is an cat.
>7. This is old cat.
>8. This is fart cat.
>9. This is busy cat.
>10. This is for cat.
>11. This is forty cat.
>12. This is seconds cat.
I had NO problem doing this test! ha!
Now whose cat was it? :0 teehee.
Have a fun day everyone. Have to run errands and gas up the car! Argh! I am on running on fumes swear! Later.
Quick Check for Alzheimer's
>
>The following was developed as a mental age assessment by the School of
>Psychiatry at Harvard University . Take your time and see if you can read
>each line aloud without a mistake. The average person over 40 years of age
>cannot do it!
>
>1. This is this cat.
>2. This is is cat.
>3. This is how cat.
>4. This is to cat.
>5. This is keep cat.
>6. This is an cat.
>7. This is old cat.
>8. This is fart cat.
>9. This is busy cat.
>10. This is for cat.
>11. This is forty cat.
>12. This is seconds cat.
>
>Now go back and read the third word in each line from the top down
Re-do! Sorry!
In my haste, I forgot the punchline! This is the correct funny version. Puts fingers to head shaped as a gun, pulls trigger.
Sorry about that. I had to take that call.
No worries. Is everything okay?
Just another person wanting something else from me. Soon there will be nothing left. I'll have nothing to give.
I understand that feeling. You can give and give and yet it's never enough. Or it's never good enough.
You sound defeated.
No, never that. Not defeated just tired of the battle.
But it never ends, does it?
Uh, pretty sure that falls under the catagory of "life". Yeah, the unending battle.
Between good and evil?
Depends. I think first you have to decide just what's good and what's evil. The line between the two can get quite blurry.
Sorry have to deal with a customer. Be back.
I must have something! I cannot do three things at once. Try and grab something to eat, write my list, talk on AIM (which I never hardly ever do) and write here. Is that 4 things?! I think it is.(having a convo with myself as well for Elenas sake)
I hate when AiM blinks at you I lose my train of thought. I dont know why it pisses me off. Grrr!
Elena, I just had a convo with myself for a minute too. So now you dont have to feel bad. You crack me up sometimes. :P
Later guys.
Oh hi BI
sorry did I miss you?
Does anyone care for a few riddles?
Elena, I understand how you feel. I have asked myself those same questions many times.
Why am I here?
What have I done with my life, not too much, except raise a wonderful human being who is self sufficient and smart with a good heart. At least thats something.
Other from that,what? Am I done?
I never feel I measure up with certain things.
Never smart enough, good enough, etc.
Then there are times I say that isnt true. I am all those things and then some. We all have good and bad days.
Its healthy to questions yourself, your life, what direction you want to go in.
As for me, I am still trying to figure that out.
Never had a "career" being a Mom and a wife was my career.Yeah, I had jobs. Never accepted the promotions. What if they find out I cant do it. Stupid, I know. Hey, you live and learn.
In all that time, I felt there was no more me. I was numb. I had lost myself. I was a caretaker for alot of people. I was taking care of my brother, my Mom,sick altzheimers, my husband, my kid.I had to work, take care of the house and bills. It all seemed overwhelming. I never talked to anyone about MY feelings. they didnt count.
I was wrong, they did count! I counted. I started acting out. Wanting my own friends, wanting to find my own identity again, I wanted to "feel" something again.
Tired of living up to everyone's expectations of me. I was burnt out.
I was the "go to" person if someone needed advice or help, come to me.
I had to learn how to say no again.
Well, I got "me" back but almost at the expense of losing a good husband because I did not know how to communicate that to him.
I needed to figure many things out in my life. I have come a long way.
I feel better that I have myself back again. I make no apologies (only if I have to of course)
I take care of "me" now and if people dont like it or me, too bad.
I do take people's feelings into consideration but I have to do what is good for me as well. I am not selfish. Try not to letthe little things get to you.
You wrote that the other day Elena.
Its true. I have to always remind myself of that.
I am still learning things about myself and the world around me.
How to cope with stress and how to relate to people.
I have learned that if you want respect, you have to give it.
I have alot to offer yet. I am not done. It's ok not to be perfect!
So, Elena, when you ask yourself your questions, know your not alone. No one and nothing is perfect. Try and be grateful for what you have and for each day.
Each day we are given is a gift. I like those gifts.
This should keep you busy for a while. haha
Sorry about the ramble. I had to force the oatmeal down. I need my fiber ya know! Bleh.
Now, I am done and off, with list in hand. (glad I reminded myself)
later again!
I'm tired of this page. I'm going to post them anyway. ^_^
To romanticize me is your human need
and on my wings your souls will pierce the veil
yet on your carcass I will gladly feed
and opportunistic scavenger prevail.
Elena, go back to the previous page and read what I wrote you.
If I wrote in vain. Oh well.
I cant get out of this house!
I suck at riddles! Most,not all.
Gotta go. Laters.
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