Tuesday, August 12, 2008

For giving myself time.

We are all in some way the same. Any of us can be traced on parchment and placed over another and the outline will match, at some point. Keep turning the page until it fits just right. Call it coincidence, if you will.

I can hold you up against me and often the lines match up perfect.



The following is an excerpt from an old handwritten journal.

Yesterday I saw my reflection and waited for an answer. I stood there like an idiot, swaying and staring. It took a while, but what I found was strength and self-respect. The bags packed themselves and walked right out the door. My hand held tightly to all that really mattered, my own heart. All of my abandon had left the poor thing in a sad state, atrophied. But if I am patient and use it a little more each day it will regain its once youthful bounce. It will be fit for giving...forgiving. Forgiving.




(I needed the white noise as well.)


p.s. it is yours and no one can take it away.

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Emerald said...

Doing ok, RW. Just finished up dinner, feeding the bunnies, and starting on a load of laundry. Wooo-Hooo, it is excitment central tonight!

resurrected wreck said...

Lol!

Well, I did laundry & drank iced tea tonight - I am out of control! ;)

Emerald said...

Careful, RW. Don't get too wild with that iced tea! I had two whole glasses of .... water! But that sake Amy was talking about sounded good.

Anonymous said...

I just want to SING!

resurrected wreck said...

Sing Knights of the Round Table, 9:17pm!

Emerald said...

SING!

Sing.

resurrected wreck said...

I've never tried sake. What does it taste like?

Emerald said...

Pure fire, RW. Pure fire. :)

resurrected wreck said...

0_0

Emerald said...

I was foolish enough in my youth to take a drink of 151 rum from the bottle.

Never, ever do that. Even if you are 22 and think you can hold your liquor.

Anonymous said...

Sing the Crapenters for me please!
I asked you too,now you must!

resurrected wreck said...

I've never been able to hold my liquor, L, so that probably would have put me right under the table.

Emerald said...

I think that was the night I called it "Lard Hiqour". J. hasn't let me live that down.

resurrected wreck said...

I had a bad Hurricane hangover in New Orleans in '98 and nearly missed the Anne Rice costume ball, which was the whole reason why I went down there in the first place >_<

resurrected wreck said...

"Lard Hiqour"

O_o

Anonymous said...

sorry, not my thang

Emerald said...

See, they never tell you in the advertisments what you NEED to know.

WARNING- Overuse of this beverage may result in massive hangovers, swearing you will never, EVER, drink again, countless things you will have to apologize for that you didn't even know you did, pregnancy, marriage proposals and other possible disasters.

Use with caution.

Anonymous said...

And Saint Attila raised the hand grenade up on high, saying, "O Lord, bless this thy hand grenade, that with it thou mayst blow thine enemies to tiny bits, in thy mercy." And the Lord did grin. And the people did feast upon the lambs and sloths, and carp and anchovies, and orangutans and breakfast cereals, and fruit-bats and large chu...

resurrected wreck said...

Overuse of this beverage may result in massive hangovers, swearing you will never, EVER, drink again

I spent a very memorable evening hunched over a toilet in a youth hostel in Houston thinking that very thing, L.

resurrected wreck said...

Follow. But! Follow only if ye be men of valour, for the entrance to this cave is guarded by a creature so foul, so cruel that no man yet has fought with it and lived! Bones of full fifty men lie strewn about its lair. So, brave knights, if you do doubt your courage or your strength, come no further, for death awaits you all with nasty, big, pointy teeth!

Emerald said...

"Lard Hiquor" is akin to "Soft Pore Corn". :)


"...and the number of the counting shall be three. One is not enough. Four...is right out..."

Anonymous said...

What's he do? Nibble your bum?

elena said...

[singing] Brave Sir Robin ran away...

bravely ran away away...

When danger reared its ugly head, he bravely turned his tail and fled.

Yes, brave Sir Robin turned about, and valiantly, he chickened out.

Bravely taking to his feet, he beat a very brave retreat. A brave retreat by brave Sir Robin.

resurrected wreck said...

I warned you, but did you listen to me? Oh, no, you knew it all, didn't you? Oh, it's just a harmless little bunny, isn't it? Well, it's always the same. I always tell them--

resurrected wreck said...

Hi, Elena :)

Nice song choice!

Emerald said...

I think most of us has thought that at one time or the other, RW! These days, not so much.


Amy, are you still sad?

Hey, Python anon. How are you?

Emerald said...

Hey, ELENA! How are you doing tonight?

I used to have that bunny...

resurrected wreck said...

It reads, 'Here may be found the last words of Joseph of Arimathea. He who is valiant and pure of spirit may find the Holy Grail in the Castle of aaaaaagggh'.

Anonymous said...

NO! NO SINGING!

Anonymous said...

.You must cut down the mightiest tree in the forest... WITH... A HERRING!

Anonymous said...

Follow!

BUT! Follow only if ye be men of valor, for the entrance to this cave is guarded by a creature so foul, so cruel that no man yet has fought with it and lived! Bones of four-fifty men lie strewn about its lair, so brave knights if you do doubt your courage, or your strenght, come no further! For death awaits you all! With nasty, big, pointy teeth!

Anonymous said...

Cut down a tree with a herring? It can't be done!

Anonymous said...

AHH, he said it again!

resurrected wreck said...

We are now no longer the Knights who say Ni.

We are now the Knights who say...”Ekki-Ekki-Ekki-Ekki-PTANG. Zoom-Boing. Z'nourrwringmm.

Anonymous said...

What? "Is?"

resurrected wreck said...

Hi, K :)

Where's my shrubbery??

Anonymous said...

No, not "is!" Can't get very far in life not saying is!

Anonymous said...

"The Castle of Aaaauuuggghhhh"
What is that?

Anonymous said...

Oh man, why'd you get me started? I'm the typical Monty Python obsessed geek.

Anonymous said...

He must have died while carving it.

elena said...

Hey RW, L and K

I'm okay. How is everyone?

Anonymous said...

The French Taunting has something to do with why I was so happy and squeeing the other night. ^_^

Anonymous said...

Look, if he was dying, he wouldn't have bothered to carve 'Aaaauuuggghhhh'. He'd just say it.
Maybe he was dictating it.
Oh shut up!

Emerald said...

Doing good, Elena.


BRB, I have to throw in a load of laundry.

Anonymous said...

THis is one of my favorite Monty Python sketches.

CARIBOU, GOOOOOONE!

Anonymous said...

Hi Elena!

resurrected wreck said...

Isn't there a Saint "Aaaaavvvveeeesss" in Cornwall?

Anonymous said...

i want a Cookie Pussy cake from Carvel.

elena said...

You can't expect to wield supreme executive power just because some watery tart threw a sword at you.

resurrected wreck said...

You were squeeing over French taunting, K?

Anonymous said...

Do you think he could have mean, 'Camaaaauuuuggghhhh'?

Anonymous said...

Here's another one i love. I WISH TO REPORT a BURGLARY!

Anonymous said...

Look, if I went round saying I was king, just 'cause some moistened bint had lobbed a scimitar at me, they'd put me away!

resurrected wreck said...

No no no, it's "Aaaaauuuugggghhhh" from the back of the throat.

Anonymous said...

No, I wasn't squeeing over the French Taunting, but it had to do with what I was squeeing about. I got to have a conversation with some people I really admire, but if I told about it here the anons would flood my pages and would try to mess it up. But oh man, it was so cool! And it started with the French Taunting! And The Usual Suspects. ^_^

Anonymous said...

No I mean, "Whoooouuuuaaa!" as in surprise and alarm

Anonymous said...

My nipples explode with delight! Drop your panties, sir William, I cannot wait until lunch time!

Anonymous said...

I told you, we're an anarco-sydicalist commune. We take it in turns to be a sort of executive officer for the week..

resurrected wreck said...

I love the French taunting! ^_^

resurrected wreck said...

Oh, you mean like, "AAAHH!"

Yes, that's it. "AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!"

Anonymous said...

Trading was crisp at the start of the day with some brisk business on the floor. Rubber hardened and string remained confident. Little bits of tin consolidated although biscuits sank after an early gain and stools remained anonymous. Armpits rallied well after a poor start. Nipples rose dramatically during the morning but had declined by mid-afternoon, while teeth clenched and buttocks remained firm. Small' dark furry things increased severely on the floor, whilst rude jellies wobbled up and down, and bounced against rising thighs which had spread to all parts of the country by mid-afternoon. After lunch naughty things dipped sharply forcing giblets upwards with the nicky nacky noo. Ting tang tong rankled dithely, little tipples pooped and poppy things went pong! Gibble gabble gobble went the rickety rackety roo...

Anonymous said...

^One of my favorites.

Anonymous said...

English, bedwetting types

Anonymous said...

Nerd Alert!

Anonymous said...

Oh, the other day I had said I was in a bad mood because everything was falling and breaking and my day had turned into Prawn Salad.

This is the Monty Python sketch Prawn Salad.

Anonymous said...

LOL, I don't deny! Let's see. I wonder if I can still do this one from memory. Hang on.

Anonymous said...

Shut up, you American. You Americans, all you do is talk, and talk, and say "let me tell you something" and "I just wanna say." Well, you're dead now, so shut up.

resurrected wreck said...

I hate to leave the Python fest, but I've got to turn in.

Have a good night, all :)

Military fairy

Anonymous said...

NERDZRULE!!!

resurrected wreck said...

Goodnight, you sons of a silly person!

Emerald said...

Good night RW, you silly, silly person you!

sdock10 said...

Mayo,

Have a nice night, okay? Go out and look at the stars. Check out the moon. It's gonna be a full one this weekend. Oh fuck, what if it's cloudy where you are...hmm well go out and listen to some frogs or crickets. Oh fuck, what if it's raining? Well, go out and play in a mud puddle. Splash around and shit. Oh fuck, what if it's like storming ahd there is really bad lightning? Well, get your crazy ass back inside! What the hell are you doing outside anyways? My goodness, go watch a movie or write a play or something.


BWAH! Yeah, I know.


Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. Ideas for your consideration.

Anonymous said...

isn't it awfully nice to have a penis? / Isn't it frightfully good to have a dong? / It's swell to have a stiffy. / It's divine to own a dick, / From the tiniest little tadger / To the world's biggest prick. / So, three cheers for your Willy or John Thomas. / Hooray for your one-eyed trouser snake, / Your piece of pork, your wife's best friend, / Your Percy, or your cock. / You can wrap it up in ribbons. / You can slip it in your sock, / But don't take it out in public, / Or they will stick you in the dock, / And you won't come back.

Emerald said...

"He's here for an arguement.

...and NOTHING more."

Anonymous said...

three cheers for your Willy

MCR's next album ^_^

Anonymous said...

Why is it that no one remembers the name of Johan Gambleputty... De Von Auschvern Spllendenschlitter Kraskren Von Fried Dingle Dangle Dungle Burstein Von Nackthrasher Applebanger Horowitz Tikoldansig Grendenottle Speieltinkle Grendlich Grumblemeyer Speltervassic Kershlich Himble Eisen Bahnwagon Guttenabend Bitte Ein Nurnberger Bratwurstle Gersputen Mitz Weimacher Uber Hundsfut Gumberaber Schonedanker Kalb Fleisch Mittle Aucher Von Hautkopf...

of Ulm?

Emerald said...

"aurgument."

Typo fairy strikes again.

elena said...

I'm French. Why do you think I have this outrageous accent, you silly king?

What are you doing in England?

Mind your own business.

Anonymous said...

"Well you're dead now, so SHUT UP!" That's one of my favorite lines. ^_^

Emerald said...

Good night, SDock. Sweet dreams.

Emerald said...

"Oh, we've already GOT one, you see."

Anonymous said...

That one with the tinny and woody words that I linked to up there? The one where I said "CARIBOU, GOOONE"? Check that one out. The part where Michael Palin starts singing to Eric Idle and he drops dead is one of the funniest things ever.

elena said...

Night RW

Night sdock

Anonymous said...

Solly, where you been, girl? Sweet dreams to thee. ^_^

Anonymous said...

I know, it's a classic.

Emerald said...

Does anyone remember the FULL name of the politician with the last name ending in "O-lay-biscuit-barrel?"

Anonymous said...

AnyTHING goes in!

AnyTHING goes out!

Fish, pajamas,

old bananas,

mutton,

beef,

or trout!

Anonymous said...

Whats the whales name from Carvel anon 9:40
Dont let us down...

Anonymous said...

Wait a minute. I didn't eat the salmon mousse

Emerald said...

I'm off for the night, guys. Take care and sweet dreams.

Love,
L.

Emerald said...

SS,

I know you are still around, my friend. You promised you would still be with us, and I have no doubt of that.

You are always here in spirit, even when you don't pop in for awhile.

Take care, and sweet dreams.

Pactum Serva.

L.

Anonymous said...

Fuckie the Whale!

Emerald said...

Mayo,







Night.

Love,
L.

elena said...

Night L

Sweet dreams

Anonymous said...

Oh man, I found it! 20th Century Vole!

SPLUNGE!

it means maybe yes, but possibly not, and I'm not being indecisive!

Anonymous said...

What are the figures, what are the facts, what do people mean when they talk about things?

Too early to tell, too early to say... it means the same thing. The word "say" is the same as the word "tell". They're not spelled the same, but they mean the same!

Anonymous said...

Sey, sey, taht si crreoct! Ta the mnemot I'm wroking on "The Mating of the Wersh".



"The Mating of the Wersh" by William Shakespeare?



Nay, by Malliwi Rapesheake.

Anonymous said...

I want to know why the regiment presented the accused with a special pair of gaiters!



He used to ... do things for them. He used to... oblige them, sir.


How did he oblige them?


He ... used to make them happy in little ways, sir.



I want to know how he made them happy.




He used to ram things up their ...


All right! All right! No need to spell it out!

Anonymous said...

Dennis Moore,
Dennis Moore,
Riding through the woods.
Dennis Moore,
Dennis Moore
With a bag of things.
He gives to the poor
and he takes from the rich
Dennis Moore,
Dennis Moore,
Dennis Moore.

Anonymous said...

Hillary Cliton!

Anonymous said...

Dennis Moore,
Dennis Moore
riding through the land
Dennis Moore,
Dennis Moore
Without a merry band
He steals from the poor
and gives to the rich
Stupid bitch!

Anonymous said...

Redistribution of wealth is tricker than I thought!

Anonymous said...

Errr, that should read "trickier."

Anonymous said...

El oh el. Right, well, good night!

Anonymous said...

Demi Moore!

Amyranth said...

T'is.

-A

Anonymous said...

LOL

Anonymous said...

Titties?

Amyranth said...

Hooters?

-A

Anonymous said...

Time for the blog to get fun ^_______^

Anonymous said...

Milk Bags?

Amyranth said...

BEWBS!

-A

Anonymous said...

jugs?

Amyranth said...

Tee-tahs?

-A

Anonymous said...

Fun? When? I'll wait here.

toujours said...

the monty python quotes were more fun, tbh.

Anonymous said...

T'is the night. Time for FUN!! ^____^

Anonymous said...

Toujours don't be a spoilsport!!! It's the good stuff now!!

Anonymous said...

party poopers!

Anonymous said...

Dong?

Anonymous said...

You said poopers...

Anonymous said...

Wang?

toujours said...

frankly, it's boring.

Anonymous said...

Wiener?

Amyranth said...

Hey Teej.

Typical night around here huh?

How was your day?

-A is in between supper and the computer.

Anonymous said...

Franks and Beans!

Franks and Beans!

toujours said...

day was good, evening, fruitless.

how was the day in your corner of the world, amyranth?

Anonymous said...

how big is your thumb?


one eyed monsters! rawr!
cumming for you

Anonymous said...

Yeah yeah whatever, I'm so destroyed. :/

Anyways, one more quick thing before I go (yeah, for real this time.) TJ, I'm glad I caught you! hit up my Livejournal, homeslice! Because, OMG! ^_^

Okay! K, out!

Anonymous said...

*offers Toujours fruit*


Better?

Amyranth said...

Day and evening both fruitless. Still no luck with a job. If I don't have one by Monday, I'm probably going to hit the local DQ or something.

-A

Anonymous said...

*offers Amyranth fruit*

What'd DQ ever do to you?

Anonymous said...

A- you will eat all your profits

toujours said...

ok, 10:53, that made me grin.

*shares coffee*

toujours said...

amyranth, you and i just need to start our own business, that we do.

Amyranth said...

*noms on fruit*

Well, maybe not HIT it. Maybe I'll ask if they could pretty please let me work there for money or something...

*noms more thoughtfully*

-A

Amyranth said...

Indeed Teej!

What should our business be?

-A

Anonymous said...

a little birdie told me that Mayo had buns of steel.

Anonymous said...

*leaves extra fruit for later*

Have fun

Anonymous said...

Hey Mayo, lettuce see your buns.

toujours said...

thanks for the fruit. :)



hmmm, amyranth, let's see......

what could we sell....

oh! let's have a pagan bakery!

Amyranth said...

Ooooo..

MOON COOKIES!

toujours said...

yeah yeah, and special sabbat cakes!

and on the holidays we can close early and put a sign in the window that says "off consorting with beezlebub"

*hehehehehe*

Anonymous said...

The Witch's Oven

Amyranth said...

You gotta believe SOMEONE would vandalize that sign.

And it would be me first.

XD

-A

toujours said...

nice, nice very nice!

"half-off pastries if your name is hansel or gretel"

lol

Anonymous said...

I knew you'd get it!

Also a play on witches coven.

toujours said...

yep, i got it.

stoopid little greedy children! always felt sorry for that poor old woman who was reduced to living in a house she made herself out of flour and water and honey...

*sniff*

*sniff*


why when i imagine her grinding her own grain, and hauling her own water, and pulling the comb...

what a brave brave soul!

Amyranth said...

Bastard Kids.

-A

Anonymous said...

She wanted to EAT me! Poor old woman, MY...!!!

Amyranth said...

*ponders this*

But why did you eat her house?

-A

Original Punk J said...

Halloo, Amy, TJ, Gretel, various Anons! What be shakin'?

Anonymous said...

I was abandoned in the woods in case you forgot.

Amyranth said...

Oh, right yes!

Asshole Parents.

Hiya J!

-A

toujours said...

hi j. :)

gretel, one day you'll have to accept responsibility for your actions, and not always go on about how society has mistreated you.

Original Punk J said...

I believe Gretel and her brother were one of the earliest examples of child abuse documented. Let her eat the house! It's the least we can do!

Anonymous said...

Goota go to bed now. I saw a nice cozy bed waiting for me in a little cottage by the road. Nighty night.

Anonymous said...

Gotta, actually.

Amyranth said...

Speaking of society mistreating people, I gotta go close all the windows. The neighbours are smoking pot again. :P

-A

toujours said...

ah, but j., what about the poor thing trying to eke out a living in the woods, only to have her very own home compromised by a roving band of ne'er-do-wells?

why didn't they knock?

why didn't they wait for the homeowner to return?

there are no easy answers...

Anonymous said...

contact high!!

toujours said...

good night gretel. no hard feelings, of course. :)

Original Punk J said...

Goodnight Gretel. Have a snack before you retire. ;)

TJ, kinda sounds like this blog, doesn't it? Come in without knocking? Cause a fuss? Yeah, we know who REALLY ate the Witch's house: MEAN ANONS.

AHA!

Amy, that reminds me of something L and I came up with the other day:

"All that and a bag of weed."

:D

Amyranth said...

Anonymous said...

contact high!!

That would be the cat. He freaks out now when I close the door because there's no smell wafting in.

Either that or he'd a spastic cat.

-A

toujours said...

you know, j., i never thought of it like that before...it does sound a lot like the blog! except, maybe,we're all hansel and gretel here...


>_>


i've always wondered what that big brick wood-fired oven was for, there in mayo's kitchen...

especially as he doesn't have a lot of baking ingredients in the cupboards...


um.


*eep?*

Original Punk J said...

So Amy, no luck with the job hunt yet? I'm sorry about that.

TJ, any word about moving back to Seattle?

Anonymous said...

Hi everyone

Original Punk J said...

i've always wondered what that big brick wood-fired oven was for, there in mayo's kitchen...


It's so Elena can keep baking her evil cookies, of course!

As far as WE know...

Anonymous said...

Mayo is metaphorically fattening us up on his delicious words. Luring us in with his grammery goodness.

Original Punk J said...

Hey BC, how are you tonight?

Amyranth said...

Did someone say graham crackers? We could make s'mores!

And I just found out that the manager that made me quit my job has left. Today was her last day.

Wow.

-A

Original Punk J said...

There's something sweetly ironic in that news, Amy.

"Instant Karma's gonna get him
If I don't get him first..."

--U2, "God Pt II", about Albert Goldman and his "biography" of John Lennon

toujours said...

sorry! i left for coffee.

j., i've been doing searches and wracking my brain, but so far, nothing. i don't want to just head over there without a place to stay the night. :/


hi, bc. :)

elena said...

Hey was someone talkin' bout my cookies?

My ears were burnin'

Original Punk J said...

Do you have a job lined up yet, TJ? It's always so hard to get one (job or home) without the other.

Original Punk J said...

Yeah, that would be me. :D

Hey Elena! I'm assuming the coast is clear?

toujours said...

hi elena. :)

nope, not really, j. i'm signed on with a temp agency there, though, so i was planning on calling them once i had a local address. :/

Original Punk J said...

Sounds good, TJ. What made you change your mind about going back? I thought you were going to try somewhere new?

elena said...

Yeah the coast is clear...

Or "It is a cold day for poontooning."

Yeah no one will get that, I know.

Anonymous said...

Hi elena. Hi TJ, good luck with the job and home search :)

Hi amy, sorry to hear about the job :(

Hi J, how are you? I'm beat, I was helping to remodel the bathroom. We start day two tomorrow. As for the on campus housing offer I mentioned earlier, I'm going to decline unfortunately.

My family is driving me nuts about the whole school thing.

Anonymous said...

This place gave me a friend, and then took away that friend. This place also gave me strength when I needed it. I just don't know how to feel about it anymore.

Original Punk J said...

Um...you're right, Elena, I didn't get it..."poontooning"? Do tell!

BC, here's what you do: move the rest of your family to the on-campus housing, and YOU stay in the house! See, you'll have a newly remodeled bathroom and everything!

There's your answer. :)

toujours said...

i was going to try someplace new, j., but then i started looking at my finances, and other things, and realized that at the moment, seattle's my best bet.

plus, i really miss my cat. :(

Original Punk J said...

Anon, I'm sorry you lost your friendship because of the blog. But, at least you've been able to gain something from it. It's a roller-coaster kind of place at the best of times.

Is there anything we can do to help you?

Amyranth said...

Anon, friends come and go, but inner strength gets you out of bed in the morning.

-A

elena said...

Hey Anon. Yeah...


Poontooning. LOL

That is a line from the movie "Top Secret."

Hey BC

Anonymous said...

Hahaha J. That would actually be a great idea. Gah, some of them think that majoring in music business is not going to benefit me after college. I'm more worried about getting a place in time for when classes start. I start taking the placement tests next week already.

I'm having doubts

Original Punk J said...

Oh I remember "Top Secret"! Val Kilmer, right? Man, that was a long time ago. I love movies like that: the Leslie Nielson movies, Charlie Sheen did several too, I can't remember any names for the life of me. And "Airplane!", of course. Ted's drinking problem...too great.

Anonymous said...

Are you so sure your friend has left anon?

Anonymous said...

Thanks, Op J and Amy. Yeah, don't know what to say. I appreciate you guys sympathy, that's what I will say. See I figured it out. In the meantime I think I'm just going to go to bed and pout and think about the fickleness of the human race, and how sometimes it is better to just not care at all in the first place. And no, this is NOT Mayo related.

Anonymous said...

I think I'm gonna sign off before my mood sours. Goodnight everyone

elena said...

Surely you can't be serious.

I am serious... and don't call me Shirley.

Anonymous said...

Is it SS related OPS?

Anonymous said...

yes, 12:53, I'm fairly certain.

Amyranth said...

*shuffles back in with her pajamas on a bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch*

Amyranth said...

*AND.

Fer fuck's sake. I think that's almost my signal.

-A

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry anon. I just know from experience that things are not always the way they seem.

Anonymous said...

It's just the OPS getting mad at SS again only they know how they pushed him away the last time they went off on him for 'ignoring' them so..... Now they do it anonymously.

Anonymous said...

No, I am not the Ops. I am someone with a whole other cabinet of issues. Nothing to do with SS or Mayo.

Anonymous said...

OK, sorry, it just seemed like them getting mad at him again.

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