One that requires a little back history, current insight, and whatnot...
I was so overwhelmed that the thought of walking off into oblivion sounded rather reasonable. It was then, with seven days worth of living layered on my body that I found those words. I can speculate that if I had stumbled upon them at any other time I would have completely missed the punchline. (Oh, the drama.) And, here they are again. Their missive as apparent now as it was then...only I have been there, done that.
And I am now, as I was then, required to debate myself long into the night the commitment of my endeavors. Yet, I am unable to get past the immediate burden of now. The constant demands of my time, my mind, are as good a place as any to wait it out. Work. One might assume that it is my fear of failure that has me stalled. That may have been the case then, but not this time. This time it is fear of becoming stale, stuck, tired and ridiculous…and my own overactive scrutiny as evidenced by the aforementioned fears. I can think shit to death, but right now I am not in the mood.
Perhaps, I am lazy. So what? Maybe I need a reprieve from self-deconstruction. Nope. I will just put it off for a little while and take a break. Tomorrow, next week, next month aren't going anywhere and all weigh heavy on my mind. I will give them due course, in time. But this, this moment that is happening right now…I have to deal with that first (even if it is nothing). And I know when I am ready and after proper deliberation, I will be comfortable, not resigned, with my decision.
Then, I am sure to hear the brilliant, overcooked opinions of those looking out for their interests in the guise of caring suggestion. They'll think me an idiot who blundered upon reason. Fuck ‘em if they don’t get it.
All of that back there and the way the author selected his words to sound like what they tell.
“lifts and lets fall. lifts and lets fall.”
“which spurts fragments of anguished glass.”
I see it, the crane in the scrapyard plowing through the wreckage and pulling up piece after piece without inspection. It sounds just like that, the pick and pull, the overflow spilling over the sides, the popping of the windows. That is an amazing talent; to be able to choose words in such a way as to make the reader see what they hear. Or is it, hear what they see?
And it is dark and fateful. It asks me to consider what will tear me apart. How easy it is to devour prey. Hunger, either voracious or timid, is base. And there is always a suitable meal. There it is so beautiful, enticing that we can’t resist the need, the desire, to grasp it tightly holding it steady so that we can get our fill of it. Our free hand may then break it down to its pieces parts. What is consumed will either be used for sustenance or pulled apart and re-pieced for an altogether different machine. One built from recycled guts. Delivered to a showroom near you, or shit on the heads of unsuspecting park patrons. Either way...we are what we eat.
And the contrary always appeals to me, reminds me that I can be full of shit.
Natural versus manufactured destruction...involuntary dismay and the crow and the crane and we are preening. Is it less evident because it is instinctual or because it is easier to sleep at night?
p.s. I will undoubtedly revise as it has re-established its hold of my time and my grooming.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
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«Oldest ‹Older 4401 – 4536 of 4536Hi Miranth, sorry to have taken so long...L is doing better, thanks for asking.
Hi Amy, sorry not to have said Hi to you either.
Hi and Bye Lewis, great to see you.
Elvis Costello, oh my yes. One of the best songs in history, that's just my opinion. Thank you for posting that, Nice Anon.
And the Foo Fighters, also cool. Good choices; I like them a lot. Thanks for those too. :D
Holy shit. Check this picture out!
She looks GORGEOUS!
-A
HI triston and I must go
unfortunately my other life becons
and still haven't heard a good answer to my question from any anon
"It matters so much to me because I...."
without referring to any regular on the blog.
why do you see it as important for you to point things out when we are capable of dealing with things ourselves?
bye all ♥xx♥
Hi triston. Don't get all horny now ;)
Miranth, that's great about your niece. I hope she has a great summer, and you as well.
What I actually need is a tan. I'm white as a sheet, but I can't see myself getting any color anytime soon ^_^
Amykins (I hope you don't mind me calling you that) how are you? J, how's L?
... Ate my goddamn comment!!!!!
Hi misty triston!
OP-J - I had an eloquent comment typed out about how I learned the wisdom of refraining from feeding the trolls from you and L and BC! And I am here, despite my need of sleep, as I have many children to care for, to support the community and add a shot of color to the sea of black that I saw back there. These ideals I learned from you guys and I can't help but be thankful for that :) *big hugs*
And I do agree that hounding TJ is cruel today of all days, but I am not going to engage the cowards.
EP none of my questions are being answered either, it goes both ways.
How's that car going for you?
-A
Fangirls can say whatever they want about the ones they think are "haters". Those "negative opinions" are allowed. "Haters" are bitches and cowards and cunts and haters and negative negative negative, and you can abuse them.
But bad opinions about The Idol are NOT allowed.
That is the logic they follow.
This is so fucking true I had to quote it in bold.
And I meant the Foo Fighters song at 2.09, btw.
Goodnight Ergo!
BC, Amykins! That's new! Sure, let's do it. Does this mean I can call you Easter Bunny again? XD
-A
but anon why do you care?
*really must stop refreshing8
Haters are 'small minded' too anon. Remember that.
No one here has answered my question why THEY care EP so sorry, why should I answer? They care when people 'bash' a stranger. I care at least for tonight about the psycho amount of fangirling.
Personally I didn't care too much until Amyranth took it upon herself to tell everyone who doesn't like Gerard not to post here anymore and take it to VV's when from the beginning of the blog we have been free to post what we want about Gerard.
Speaking of VeritaVenoms.
Anonymous said...
I could have sworn I saw a picture from his 'wedding' where he was holding a Cavit wine bottle.
You did, Beta. According to fangirls it's apple cider.
July 15, 2008 11:25 PM
its just bizzness...nobody sells albums by sitting in a corner acting normal....unless of course your a real talent like say an Eric Clapton, a George Harrison, a jeff Healey, or a Stevie Ray....everyone else has to wear Blue Mascarra and yell "look at me"
I went to an Eminem concert. { not my choice I was lured into it by one of you sly females}
He wasnt out there 2 minutes before he called all the girls in the audience whores
and all of the girls CHEERED
The look on my face was priceless I'm sure.
Now does he really believe that....maybe....but probably not! I'm sure the guy has some woman in his life that he probably worships.....but that doesnt fit in with his public personna...and it sure the hell doesn't sell albums OR HIM.
All of these antics are bizzness
I'm sure these guys get caught off guard and get caught doing things they shoudn't.....but how would you like if everytime you made a mistake it hit the papers....not much fun I'm sure.
Helpful advice anon said...
See what can happen when you feed the trolls?
With summer vacation still in full swing, I still say the best thing you can do is just scroll right on past them. They are bored and looking for reactions, and for you to turn on each other, so that they can have some entertainment in their sad, little lives. The best way to get them to stop is to just simply ignore their rantings. That way they will go elsewhere to find excitement.
Trust me, I've dealt with trolls for years. ^_^
Goodnight, Blogbelieve.♥
July 16, 2008 1:40 AM
COPIED, PASTED AND BOLDED FOR EMPHASIS.
Take care Ergo ♥
I'm having a hard time deciding whether or not I should go see Billy Idol in concert next month. He'll be performing at one of the local casinos here. Damn
Somewhere tonight Gerard is puking and lying in the puddle of his own filth.
All of these antics are bizzness
Except Gerard's 'bizzness' use to be stickign up for women.
Mistake? He made the same 'mistake' many times then and he made it on purpose.
How do you explain the fact that Jimmy Urine did the same thing years ago?
Anonymous said...
Speaking of VeritaVenoms.
Anonymous said...
I could have sworn I saw a picture from his 'wedding' where he was holding a Cavit wine bottle.
You did, Beta. According to fangirls it's apple cider.
I remember one of the fangirls saying that she's been drinking that 'apple cider' since she was a kid.
Yes to this group pf people anyone who does not love Gerard and wish HATRED on peopel who don't love him is a troll and their opinions are not welcome. Because someone who is not the owner of the blog said so.
Yeah fangirls believe what they want.
That's why I said before that when he drops dead with his nose caved in the fangirls will just think that he's moved somewhere else where the haters won't bother him anymore.
Fangirls aren't the brightest.
You think Gerard will OD? Nope.... I think he will off himself on purpose.
Anonymous said...
Yes to this group pf people anyone who does not love Gerard and wish HATRED on peopel who don't love him is a troll and their opinions are not welcome. Because someone who is not the owner of the blog said so.
To this group of people, anyone who comes here to start shit is not welcome, and shouldn't be.
Because someone who has read what the owner of this blog has said, thinks so.
And I believe he thinks so too.
-A
Well I tell ya what anon...I'm a musician....and I really don't care if people talk good or bad about me.....as long as they are talking about me.
Jimmy Urine did something years ago.....and your still talking about it.....and him ;)
If he were reading this...I promise you...he would LOVE IT!!!!
Damn, well Amy, I guess you can call me by that name, although I don't have to like it ^_^
I don't know. Kurt Cobain already did that and even Gerard use to steal Cobain's words he won't steal his death too.
You think Gerard will OD? Nope.... I think he will off himself on purpose.
That's what I've worried about since last summer.
Amy, L's doing ok, had some pain this AM but got it under control pretty easily. She's down to one of the "evil pills" starting tomorrow, and from what I've seen, she's much better off without them. (Those would be the ones from the dr.)
Thanks for the "voice of reason" plug there; not really, I'm just over the same old broken record.
*sniffs air*
Do I smell bait?
Hey Triston! How're things? (The bait comment does NOT refer to you, Mr. Vampyre. Just lettin' you know.)
Miranth, I loved the story about the pigs! Keep an eye on them, and (ready for the bad joke?) count your chickens before they eat!
I know, that was bad. Sorry.
To this group of people, anyone who comes here to start shit is not welcome, and shouldn't be.
YOU start shit too, AND you tried to drag Mayo and SS into it. Quite a change of tune.
And believe me it was just sharing opinions about Gerard until you came along and told us it wasn't welcome.
Thanks for the "voice of reason" plug there; not really, I'm just over the same old broken record.
*sniffs air*
Do I smell bait?
Are you accusing again?
I actually have more an image of Gerard getting sloppy ass drunk and falling into his pool if he has one.
And I really really really do feel sorry for Frank and the other guys because I think they will take it really bad.
What I don't agree with is that regulars can say whatever shit they want to start trouble with each other AND try to drag Mayo and SS into it, but god forbid someone talks about Gerard then we are told to leave.
Why texting harms your IQ
Txts n emails mk ppl stupid coz they R worse than smking pot & lead 2 a st8 of 'infomania'
By Michael Horsnell
THE regular use of text messages and e-mails can lower the IQ more than twice as much as smoking marijuana.
That is the claim of psychologists who have found that tapping away on a mobile phone or computer keypad or checking them for electronic messages temporarily knocks up to 10 points off the user’s IQ.
This rate of decline in intelligence compares unfavourably with the four-point drop in IQ associated with smoking marijuana, according to British researchers, who have labelled the fleeting phenomenon of enhanced stupidity as “infomania”.
Research on sleep deprivation suggests that the IQ drop caused by electronic obsession is also equivalent to a wakeful night.
Infomania is mainly a problem for adult workers, especially men, the study commissioned by Hewlett Packard, the technology company, has concluded.
The noticeable drop in IQ is attributed to the constant distraction of “always on” technology when employees should be concentrating on what they are paid to do. Infomania means that they lose concentration as their minds remain fixed in an almost permanent state of readiness to react to technology instead of focusing on the task in hand.
Workers lose productivity by interrupting a business meeting and disrupt social gatherings because of their infirmity, the report said.
The brain also finds it hard to cope with juggling lots of tasks at once, reducing its overall effectiveness, it added. And while modern technology can have huge benefits, excessive use can be damaging not only to a person’s mind, but to their social life.
Eighty volunteers took part in clinical trials on IQ deterioration and 1,100 adults were interviewed.
More than six in ten (62 per cent) of people polled admit that they were addicted to checking their e-mail and text messages so assiduously that they scrutinised work-related ones even when at home or on holiday. Half said that they always responded immediately to an email and one in five (21 per cent) will interrupt a meeting to do so.
Furthermore, infomania is having a negative effect on work colleagues, increasing stress and dissenting feelings. Nine out of ten polled thought that colleagues who answered e-mails or messages during a face-to-face meeting were extremely rude. Yet one in three Britons believes that it is not only acceptable, but actually diligent and efficient to do so.
The effects on IQ were studied by Dr Glenn Wilson, a University of London psychologist, as part of the research project.
“This is a very real and widespread phenomenon,” he said. “We have found that infomania, if unchecked, will damage a worker’s performance by reducing their mental sharpness.
“Companies should encourage a more balanced and appropriate way of working.”
The report suggests that firms who give employees gadgets and devices to help them keep in touch from wherever they might be should also produce guidelines on use.
These “best practice tips” including using “dead time”, such as travelling time, to read messages and check e-mails and turning devices off in meetings. David Smith, commercial manager of Hewlett Packard, said: “The research suggests that we are in danger of being caught up in a 24-hour ‘always on’ society.
“This is more worrying when you consider the potential impairment on performance and concentration for workers, and the consequent impact on businesses.”
He said that although the company produced such technology, it was similar to a motor manufacturer making a 150mph sports car and telling drivers to stick within speed limits.
He added: “Similarly, ‘always on’ technology has proven productivity benefits but people need to use it responsibly. We know that technology makes us more effective, but we also know that misuse of technology can be counter-productive.”
GETTING THE MESSAGE
I feel for Frank too. He has to know it's coming.
Hey J...How are you doing angel!!
Not baiting anyone....lived in Los Angeles for a year and knows how a lot of this works ;)
You def want to get people talking about you....and it seems his publicist is doing their job. ;)
But MCR sales will go through the fucking ROOF.
Sorry for the delay!
Blogger *eats comment*
M *sticks tongue out* I copied it this time! HAH!
Amy - You are right - people do know me by this name - and its nice to have a twin! :)
The children are not my own and I don't remember how they were all sent to my care....? But they are very, very sweet and they do remind us to enjoy these days. I am sure your Mom had some fun, too, even if she wouldn't admit it ;)
J - I am very glad to hear that! What strategy or therapy worked for her?
ergo - bye for now. Hopefully I'll 'see' you soon! :)
BC - When we tan, we're left with horrid tan lines, so you're prob. better off being pale! I wish I was! :((
Amy - Helen Mirren is gorgeous! I wouldn't have guessed anyone could look that good as they age. But her attitude rocks as well!
When Gerard dies? Yeah but LynZ will get all the money!
Yeh she'll get the money from the band AND from his comic which she doesn't even like. Well she doesn't like his band either.
Anonymous said...
To this group of people, anyone who comes here to start shit is not welcome, and shouldn't be.
YOU start shit too, AND you tried to drag Mayo and SS into it. Quite a change of tune.
And believe me it was just sharing opinions about Gerard until you came along and told us it wasn't welcome.
There seems to me that there's a difference in sharing opinions and sounding like you're wishing some one ill.
And when I came in, there was a lot of wishing someone else ill, that I didn't think was very nice.
Oh, and the dig about being nasty? Won't work. I've never presented myself as The Sweetheart around here, but I have learned some lessons from being here. It's a shame that not everyone else can.
Once again, your opinion is like your asshole. Once you've shared it, is there really a reason to keep sharing it, over and over? Lots of people get angry when anons share the opinion that Kapunua isn't a great person. Lots of Anons get angry when someone here shares an opinion that they don't agree with.
We'll never agree, we'll only disagree. Maybe we need to start disagreeing once, and leaving it at that.
-A
Personally I don't think I'll care when he dies. Just another stupid fucking waste of a rock star anyway.
Miranth....Tan in the buff!!!....send the vamp pics!!
Just a suggestion..you know...to get rid of those tan lines.
There seems to me that there's a difference in sharing opinions and sounding like you're wishing some one ill.
And when I came in, there was a lot of wishing someone else ill, that I didn't think was very nice.
You mean like TJ wished hatred on the anons who were saying that Gerard might die? yeh I saw that too.
*clears throat* okay, let me try this again:
Hello Triston!!
Hehe
and wish HATRED on peopel
Second 2.38 anon, do you have access to an online dictionary? Because it might help you with your spelling.
Wow, the anons are still going!
Has anybody heard from toujours about her surgery?
Hey...you know me...always the helpful one. ;)
Lots of people get angry when anons share the opinion that Kapunua isn't a great person. Lots of Anons get angry when someone here shares an opinion that they don't agree with.
We'll never agree, we'll only disagree. Maybe we need to start disagreeing once, and leaving it at that.
Hahahaha YOU were the one who 'shared that opinion' and tried to get Mayo and SS to see it your way. Don't even try to shift the blame to anons.
And you obviously still think so or you wouldn't have done that.
Which I think is great because it makes both of you look bad.
Well Hello Bleeding Chaos!! How are you doing my little young thang!
Wow one typo and you bring in the dictionary argument? Because you have never made a typo? That is the weak argument of someone who knows they don't even HAVE an argument to begin with.
Hahahaha YOU were the one who 'shared that opinion' and tried to get Mayo and SS to see it your way. Don't even try to shift the blame to anons.
*blinks*
*rubs her eyes*
*blinks again*
Did anyone else see that?
Anyone?
Bueller?
-A
Amyranth, your stupidity makes my head spin. Sorry but it's true.
Are you saying that you didn't Amyranth because I remember that you did.
Uhhh I don't know what Amyranth is getting at but like I said, I remember that too. She spent a few good hours shit talking Kapu and then told Mayo and SS that she hoped they would see it her way.
amyranth = ♥ & smarts
Well obviously anon. You are ALLOWED to shit talk Kapu because she is a hater. But your negative opinions about a coked out slag rock star are not welcome here.
*yells at the vamp* I am doing good, thank you for asking!! Lol
Hiya KD. I think her surgery went well, but won't get the results until Friday it seems.
amyranth = ♥ & smarts
I agree and she is right about Kapu ^______^
Anons....ya'll are starting to sound like my ex wife....bringin up old shit...and repeating the same things over and over...Damn...Let it go!!!
Its like being married....with no make up sex.
That sux.....actually it doesn't even do that. :/
J - :D We are counting them - perhaps we shouldn't! :)
I am reminded of the scene in animal farm where none of the other animals can tell the difference between the pigs and the humans...
Kapu has actual porn workers on her friend page on live journal so I think that is fair game if you ask me.
Oh no, not that I DIDN'T do it, but you know, I swear that the anons beat me to the punch on that one. In fact, I bet you, if I go back a post or so, there's more Kapunua bashing done by people under the ANONYMOUS tag than there is done by me.
I said shitty things, and nobody cared.
Anons just keep piling it on though. If it's not on Kapunua, it's on J and L, or Elena, or Teej, or Solly and Smoke and Fimble.
Seriously, you'd have to be goddamn blind not to see that.
-A
Porn workers who probably give her porn..... and video game stuff to take the place of real life.
I also think she is a 'not so great person' and, sorry, but that is fair game.
Quality over quantity Amyranth.
Whats the matter BC...its getting a little loud in here!!
Its like hitting on a girl in the third row of a ZZ Top concert. She knows something stupid is coming out of your mouth....but she just can't quite make it out.
I doesn't matter how MUCH you did it. You still did it and I wouldn't say "no one cared" because that is a shit excuse. "Oh when I do it no one cares. Anons do it MORE"!!!
That is bullshit and it's weak.
Its like hitting on a girl in the third row of a ZZ Top concert. She knows something stupid is coming out of your mouth....but she just can't quite make it out.
You could use some of your worst lines and she'd never know?
-A
Triston, I'm just dandy. :D Have you been keeping busy musically, i.e., latest gigs, etc?
Miranth, L's started taking vitamins and supplements that are recommended for people with CMP/FM. Ginger root, CoQ-10, magnesium maltrate (? I think), B-12, couple other things I can't remember. Her dr had had her on gabapentin, which is used frequently in treatment of nerve disorders, but it seemed to make her worse, so she's been weaning herself off it slowly. He had her on 1800 mg a day--the max dose! She was in agony. But thanks to Ergo, Amy, and a few others who I've unfortunately forgotten but am grateful for, L's doing her own care and feeling a lot better.
Amy, no, she hasn't gone for a massage yet. She's found another therapist who specializes in CMP/FM, and is trying to decide which one to go to. She's also going to try t'ai chi, that's supposed to be good for the knots.
PORN WORKERS!!! Sounds interesting.
um...where can I find me some of those?
Amyranth that is the biggest bullshit excuse I've ever read.
You still did it. Saying "well the other kids do it MORE" is bullshit. You still did it and you have no right telling people that THEY shoudl take their negative opinions elsewhere when you have no problem putting yours here, AND trying to get Mayo and SS to "see it your way".
triston - I KNEW you were going to say that! I almost mentioned it, but then I realized it would encourage your naughtiness :) You are right about all the repetition of the same tired story with none of the benefits of the resolution....
Hmmm, I managed to make that sound very prudish! Good on me :))
Thanks for the info BC :)
Gotta go. Goodnight everyone.
(this is just too silly)
Triston her friends list is video games and porn workers and models. A combo of geeks and losers (where she fits in) and "cool" people to make her look not so lame.
Breathe
Stretch
Shake
Let it Go
And one of her friends is a professional cutter.
No J...I've had the last month off...I have been having a blast.
My first gig back will be this Friday night at Smittys After hours bar!!!...Ya'll come on out!! I aint had none of that in a while...I'm gonna tear it up!! ;)
Anonymous said...
I doesn't matter how MUCH you did it. You still did it and I wouldn't say "no one cared" because that is a shit excuse. "Oh when I do it no one cares. Anons do it MORE"!!!
That is bullshit and it's weak.
Anons took it to a way worse extent than I did. I didn't write porn about her and the others. I don't write porn about anyone.
I didn't post her personal information online. I didn't get her fired from her job.
I don't attack her whenever she comes online.
In fact, we just do not talk at all. She's fine with that, and I'm fine with that.
Try to deflect back on to Kapu.... nice job. Subtle
OK OK....lets all write porn.....I see there is a lot of tension here that needs releasing!!...Damn
Triston, oh nothing. I just felt like yelling *whistles innocently* ^_^
Amyranth that still does not give you the right to tell people to take there opinions about Gerard elsewhere just because YOU don't like them. You put your opinions of Kapu up here. You tried to convince others that your opinion was the right one. You have no right to tell others not to do the same with Gerard.
Well there is a pic of a girl CUTTING herself on her friends page. Cutting and modeling it. How sick can you be!
There once was a man from Nantucket.....
J, T'ai Chi is supposed to be great for a lot of things. I know that my friend's grandmother started doing it and her arthritis really started to ease after awhile. She was down to low grade painkillers, and only on really bad days after a year or so of weekly classes. I tried to convince my nan to go, but she prefers walking her dog I think.
-A
And naked ass anime characters. Grow up freak!
You're welcome KD. Goodnight and sweet dreams :)
Don't get horny on us now vampy ;)
Goodnight KD!
-A
I'm done with you Amyranth. You are a hypocrite and you just don't get it. You think that you are allowed to shit on real people and try to turn others against them, but they are not allowed to have an opinion of a rock star that you happen to like. You don't even make sense.
But I will not be taking my opinions of Gerard elsewhere just because you said to. People have expressed their disappointment in him here from day one. That's not going to change least of all because of you and a bunch of fangirls.
Is Wendy ever going to come back again I wonder? I really hope her reaction wasn't that prolonged.
-A
but anon....Geeks and losers are just someone elses perceptions. I don't feel the need that I have to hang with the "Cool" people so that I feel Accepted...that is just another perception...I know most of both around here....and when I say that most of the "really Cool" people are jag offs... I don't mean maybe.
and thats just my perception....I am very opinionated though and say what I think. ;)
Triston, I wish we COULD come see a live (pardon the expression) band this weekend, it would be cool to do that again. L and I used to know some guys in a band when we lived in Chattanooga, and we'd go see them when they played. They were a cover band, did all kinds of '80s stuff. I worked with the bassist, and his best friend was the guitarist. They had 2 different drummers when we knew them, one was another co-worker, the other was a friend of the guitarist's.
Mercy, the memories of that guitarist. We almost had a thing, but couldn't seem to work things out. Ah well, now he's bald and alone. :( AWWWWWWWWW!
Anon - Now THAT game I can play...
An Argentine gaucho named Bruno...
:)))
OP - J That is great news that she found alternative therapies that worked for her. I am amazed that the doctor prescribed such a high dosage. They should monitor reactions and up the dosage accordingly... Or change the medication altogether. But its better for her if the vitamins and alternative supplements work well. T'ai chi has been lauded by everyone I know who took classes. It also helps people de-stress, which is also good. I think the fact that she now has the correct diagnosis is a good part of the solution... Tell her I am sending her positive wishes and I am proud of her tenacity! and *hugs* too.
Amy I heard from Wendy a few days ago....but not since....she is probably fine.....I think its a phase or some kind of girl thing....I just don't know. :D
OP - J - I am going to see my friend Cuddy's band this week! Can't wait! Then he gets to open at Warped (local acts play too) I am so excited for him!
Amy, L got a DVD on t'ai chi today, and I'm thinking about joining her for the exercises. Can't hurt, might help. Who knows? I'm always up for things to help the arthritis.
And about Wendy...she's recovering still, but has some big-time antibiotics which are helping. Plus some pain pills. She and I email frequently. She said she's not quite ready to come back full-time yet, but DOES miss us a whole bunch! Do you have her email address? If not, I can send it to you if you like.
Yes J...its a terrible thing...we do get old....and Bald....and fat....some of us end up in wedding bands...and some of us end up in the Quarter playing for 25.00 a set plus tips......its a sad sad state of affairs....but whats a guitar player to do.
The thing is if you stay in the public eye....you watch your weight...you do whatever it is you have to do for your hair...and when something breaks you fix it...because 8 out of 10 people that are watching you are....very superficial...its all about "the Look"
I'm done with you Amyranth. You are a hypocrite and you just don't get it. You think that you are allowed to shit on real people and try to turn others against them, but they are not allowed to have an opinion of a rock star that you happen to like. You don't even make sense.
Wow, speaking of not making sense. I'll explain this one last time.
I said shitty things about Kapunua. I realized it was a bad idea and never brought it up again.
Now, I come on here tonight and see a bunch of people taking the piss on Teej because she was frustrated, upset, and stressed and got angry because of the constant Gerard bashing.
Let's make this clear.
You are pissed off at me because you believe that I thought it was alright to bitch about Jules. You do not realize that I know now that it wasn't, but it's too late to make amends now, isn't it?
I am pissed off because you are HARASSING someone who could possibly be SERIOUSLY ILL. That is the biggest pile of shit you could dig yourself into on this blog right now.
Then, you start ripping out old arguments, beating old dead horses, all because I think you need to LAY THE FUCK OFF OF MY FRIEND.
If you're just here to antagonize someone for the fun of it, go to hell. If you wanna share your opinion, fine, but don't be surprised if you don't find that everyone shares it, or even a few who outright disagree with you. If you can't deal with it, pick up your toys and go home.
-A
Mayo
Well fuck. Didn’t my comment earlier tonight really start something? Thing were going just fine until I brought down the wrath of the anons. Suddenly there they were and yes, they are still going and going. They just move from one topic to another. Yep, Elena made an off color joke and the shit hit the fan. Well la-de-fuckin’-da. Know what? While I’m sorry this went on for hours I’m not sorry for what I said. No, wait. The only person I will apologize to is you Mayo. If my comment offended you, then I am sorry. Other than that – nope not sorry at all. I truly believed that I was with a group of mostly grown women who would see it for what it was – a joke. I was obviously wrong.
But here’s the thing, Mayo. I really don’t give a fuck what they say to me. Or about me and my “poorly written” porn I wrote for you. I can take that with a grain of salt. What I do not understand is why so many anons here chose to say such hurtful things. Yeah, I sound like a broken record, don’t I? Guess, I’ll just never understand. Okay, and what I think is worse is saying hurtful things under the anon tag. What the fuck? Shit, if you have something to say to someone then have the guts to say it using a name. Yeah, I get it really. It’s so fucking easy to trash someone when you know that your identity is safe. Spew shit and you don’t have to worry cause your anon. That is being a coward.
Mayo, sometimes with all the shit going on in my life it’s so fucking hard to come here. This used to be my safe haven. A place where I could come and talk with friends. Not so much anymore. Yeah, I have some really close friends who I trust with all my heart. It hurts to see them trashed. It hurts to see ANYONE trashed. And still I keep coming back to the same question – Why do they do it? It is one thing to have an opinion about someone but quite another to say vile things about that person.
I’m tired Mayo. Tired mentally and physically. I feel like I’m being worn down. But even so I will remain. I made a promise, and I will keep it. I can’t change anyone else. I get that. I really get that.
Night Mayo
Elena (and to think I really thought I was going to win a Noble prize for that story)
Thank you J...I believe I have one of them. What Wendy wants me to have...she will give it to me. :D
Triston and J, thank you for the update. J I think I have Wendy's email around somewhere in the depths of my inbox.
Mira, is your friend's band only playing local Warped? If they're on tour with them, I'd like to check them out.
-A
BTW, that face was supposed to be a frowny. :(
Miranth, how cool for your friend! That's exciting. I'm sure he and his band will be fantastic. And I'll definitely tell L what you said. :)
First 3.04 Anon: amen and hallelujah!
So...anybody reading anything good right now?
Cheers Elena, in more ways than one.
-A
And if shes reading this " Get well real soon Beautiful"
Ya think she'll like that. { looks around}
Hmmm...maybe I should send flowers. ;)
J...I stayed in Chattanooga for two weeks during and after the hurricanne...It was beautiful and I had a great time...I almost hated to come back to the swamps.
Goodnight Elena, sweet dreams *hugs* Amy, just because I feel like it *hugs*
Well my sweet ladies...including the anons!!...I like you all as well, just lighten up a little, everyone has an opinion.
I must be off...6 AM comes early and I have many bids to give tomorrow!!! I am rolling right now...money money money money!!...thats good I was starting to get a little concerned about a month ago...thought I might have to go out and get a real job....yikes!
Have a great ...whatever it is wherever you are at!
xo
Amy - They have an agenda in saying the shitty things that they do. You don't need to justify anything to them. I do understand your feelings. I didn't wish to come here, as I had nothing to say, but I came to check up anyway and felt that anger. I also felt strength though, to defend this community and add to the camaraderie that exists even as we tread through bullshit. That's what matters :)
You've been here longer than I have, so perhaps you know this too..
Though I am perfectly certain of the fact that some would like us to leave. So please don't let them get to you.
presented to
Elena
for the most outstanding work of an ideal tendency in blog porn.
☺
Elena: YES. *applauds madly* I agree with everything you said. Excellent!
Amy: YES. *applauds madly* Your comment at 3.21 was also excellent! I agree with you as well.
Triston: Chattanooga IS beautiful. I really liked living there, it's a good size, not too crowded. But, they ran out of jobs for me, so...it was off to ATL. Bad move, but hey.
and don't anyone leave.....coexhist!
nite all
Goodnight Triston, good to see you again! Good luck tomorrow.
And I'm sorry, KD, I totally missed speaking to you! Hi KD! Bye KD!
Thank you Nobel Prize...
Thank you my friends.
Goodnight
Goodnight Elena, we'll talk to you tomorrow, ok? Sleep well. Love you.
*hugs BC back*
Goodnight Triston!
Thanks Mira. It means a lot to have you say that.
J, thank you as well.
Hey Elena, can I touch your Nobel Prize?
What would a Nobel for Porn look like anyway?
I should probably go to bed. I'm going in to work tomorrow to quit. Hooray for me!
Goodnight Lovelies, Mayo, SS (checks behind the curtains) and anyone else who wishes to have a goodnight sent their way.
-A
goodnight triston :)
elena - goodnight :) and I don't have anything to add to what you've stated so eloquently!
amy - He is only playing the detroit show :( But he may be touring more in future...
Thanks J :) and *hugs* for you, too :)
Goodnight Triston. Congrats on the nobel prize Elena :D
Aw miranth, you make me proud :)
I guess I'll head out, too, it's very late.
Goodnight Amy, BC, Miranth, Nice Anon that Posted Song Lyrics (again, EC is the Man)! See (most of) you tomorrow.
LOVE/FAITH/HOPE/BELIEF/ACCEPTANCE/TOLERANCE
Morning Mayo!
Morning Guys!
Just passing through on my way to the kettle.
"Be excellent to each other"
Oh, and FYI - Posting on VV's isn't just for "haters"; some of us just see a total numpty who set about ruining a good thing and like to poke fun because it's human nature and we're bored!
I never said I was a nice person...
Kass xx
Oh Kass, you say the nicest things about yourself...how're you feeling?
Night night amy, sweet dreams
Goodnight Amy *hugs* :)
Thank you BC :) It means a lot to have you say that! I did realize their agenda recently... though I have truly had little time to visit.
Speaking of which, I must go to get a few hours of sleep!
Hi Kass!
Goodnight J and BC :)
*big hugs* :)
Goodnight J, sweet dreams. Hi there Kass, good to see you at the same time while I am awake. Woo! :)
Hey Mayo,
Short but simple tonight.
If you're thinking what I'm thinking, then you're thinking the "anon" feature should be deactivated. This isn't the first time folks have come on the night following a person's surgery and run riot over them. Where's the compassion?
Now please don't think I'm telling you what to do. By no means do I presume to do that. I just think that some like to jump on others when they're down and out, so to speak. They take advantage of another person's weakness/illness/blues/etc, not giving any quarter to the victim.
Quite the childish behavior. And the relentlessness is like a dog with a dead rat. Let the damn thing go already!
Ok, that's my rant for you tonight. Thanks for letting me say my piece.
Goodnight Mayo, enjoy your Wednesday.
Love to you, my friend.
Goodnight miranth, sweet dreams! *hugs*
Dear SS,
You probably read my goodnight to Mayo, and thought, Wha? Turn off anonymous comments? But how will I comment?
Again, just a suggestion: you could come up with a "black" name to use when you visit. Each time you come back, you could use a different alias, thereby avoiding identity theft and/or constant hounding by nasty anons.
Yais? Good idea? Or complete lunacy? You be the judge.
*wonders what nasty anons would do if you signed in as Precious one day*
*laughs to self*
Ah, good times. :D
Just kidding. Or maybe not...;)
I'm too tired, I'm making no sense.
Goodnight, baby. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
Hi/Bye OPJ, Miranth & BC!
I am well and hope you all are too. I've just been reading back so I was a little distracted and now I have to go do the stuff I'm paid to.
Have a great Wednesday!
Kass xx
Goodnight or Good-day as the case may be!
I did not catch up, so I have no clue what is going on, but I do wish any who are facing difficulties now the best of luck and strength to deal with what they must. ♥
TJ - I am wishing you positive news on Friday and I hope the mean anons don't get to you. As I have said, some want us to leave, but we should not oblige them. And I think our host would be offended! :)
Nice Anons - Please come back!!!
MAYO - I have had remarkably little to say here, for some reason, and no time to say it in anyway. I do still thank you for this place in which to gather, though the room smells musty, at best, :) just now...
I have realized that some wish us to leave and shan't oblige them, as I am stubborn. :) But I do wish you to be careful whom you trust. I know I repeat myself, but as I can't communicate more clearly and it weighs on my mind when I am here, I'll repeat it just hoping you've figured it out. But perhaps you just see things very differently. *sighs* Take care of yourself in any case.
PS - And I don't think you are GW, to repeat that thought again, as I have no new words. :(
Perhaps I should borrow someone else's.
Have a great day, lovelies. And nice anons :)
PPS - Perhaps you are right J... Few nice anons seem to be commenting anyway, so they wouldn't suffer from a Time Out for all of the mean anons.
Plus it would be making an unequivocal statement, as much here is subject to interpretation...
yep, sure is...
New post y'all!
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