When I was young I was picked on quite a bit. The usual set of circumstances, I was an easy target (smart, quiet, odd, insecure) and once the kids found my buttons they didn’t relent. For a long time I tried to ignore them. I spent a lot of time reading because I thought that with a book in front of my face I would blend into the background. And, for a while I did. From behind those first books I developed my love of the written word. Beginning with the marvels I found in the library and then later the stories I found in my own head. My need to escape elementary school torment helped foster my imagination, I suppose. I need to thank those kids for that.
So anyway, a few times the kids pretended that they wanted to be my friend. A kid would ask if I wanted to hang out on the playground either at recess or after school. The first couple of times I bought it. It was a pathetic display of desperation that, looking back now, makes me laugh. You can see that kid, right?...very awkward, over-filled book bag, disheveled clothes, greasy hair, hopeful smile. I would wait for my friend to show up and of course they wouldn’t and I would eventually trudge home. Sometimes they would gather somewhere along my route and give me a hard time shouting “Who were you waiting for back there?” and “Did you really think we’d be friends with you.” It was worse when they would wait until the next day bringing my humiliation to school to share with the rest of the class.
Why am I telling you this? Well…insight I suppose and also to offer some context that you may draw from for those times when I seem a bit vague (yes, really). I have had to overcome and still battle with some pretty substantial trust issues. Always present in the back of my mind is the voice telling me to watch out for anyone who gets too close because they probably have an ulterior motive that will leave me in a rut. It has taken me a long time and years of therapy to be able to ignore that voice and share even my more simple weaknesses with friends (without the guise of fiction). And, so I share this piece of myself, my past with you.
p.s. I am not sure what you will glean from my palate but my gut holds plenty.
(Not at present: soon and I'll let you know when.)
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«Oldest ‹Older 4001 – 4200 of 4973 Newer› Newest»I do actually look quite good in hats, TJ. I don't own a cloche though. Maybe I should get one!
J, did you just say you burned Jell-O??
Belated congrats, EP! ^_^
Your confectionary sounds delectable!
oops sorry I had lunch then watched red Dwarf
thanks mustard TJ
TJ I was checking out the cowboys for you!
Hi RW BC J
thanks J and BC
J I'd say the water had superheated, it can go well over boiling then when you add anything it suddenly goes to vapour
and goodnight all who've gone to bed and sweet dreams
maybe the water was superheated?
YA THINK?!
;)
It was the weirdest thing...it just came straight over the sides of the pan like lava from Mt. St. Helens. Strawberry Jello will look like that.
Hey BC, L's doing some better today, still not eating but is on the liquids so she's coming along.
and thanks RW too
that haircut looks very cute
and TJ that was a sociology study, I think they are up to 42Up or something now
Yes, RW, I certainly did. It's a first for me, at least!
See, L wanted some Jello, and I thought I'd make it tonight so she could have some in the AM. Alas, it is not to be. :(
That's cezy, J O_o
Better luck next time!
i think a cloche might be very fetching, resurrected wreck. :)
sorry, i'm back and forth tonight. trying to catch up!
That's good to hear about L, J. i hope you're well too?
I've always wanted a cloche, TJ. Not sure why I don't have one yet.
BC, I'm doing ok. The Mom Adventure went pretty well today, no big issues brought up, no picking at me about situations I can't fix. All in all a good day.
What'd you do today?
Oh I have to share part of my dream last night, which was so clear and went for ages.
For some reason my hubby and I had to walk miles and we got a storm warning and could see really bright lightning flashes so stopped in this town and this flock of sparkling golden little birds flew past and I knew they were flying ahead of the storm.
We too shelter in a house and I looked out the window...
and this is the best bit..
the storm was shaped like this huge grey dog (or maybe wolf) made up of swirling clouds and the lightning bolts were inside it's legs and it was walking through the town. It walked past the house and I watched it walk on through a park, it seemed to be doing very little damage though.
But it seriously looked awesome, I'd love to know someone who could CGI it for me.
Then later I was in a classroom though unsure whether I was the teacher or not (I had previously been copying bible verses in a church)and I walked to the class and had to turn MCR down as it was playing loudly and we all knew it was Gerard singing as he was one of the students, and I sat down at the table beside him with the group I was assigned to and all his notes were crumpled up and he was smoothing them out to get me to help him with the project.
It was heaps more detailed but that was gist of it
The storm dog was really amazing
Did you guys know there was full on Viggo peen in Eastern Promises? I was all O_O
i used to do hats all the time too, resurrected wreck, but i never tried a cloche either. maybe they're just scarce these days?
Ergo, that sounds like an awesome dream! And congrats on your ribbons!!
Hi carrie, I haven't seen it but I have seen stills, yep full on frontal peenage
oh that storm dog really does sound fantastic ergo! i could see the scene so clearly too, like something out of an anime.
wow. cool dream, the little birds too.
can i borrow your brain sometime? my dreams have all been bad lately.
I did know, Carrie! That's his second full peen movie, actually.
Hi, by the way :)
Actually, a miliner in town has cloches in her shop, TJ. Maybe I should pay them a visit in the fall.
thanks carrie!
I'm heading down in a couple of hours to collect the stuff after the show closes
Storm dog sounds cool, EP!
I love vivid dreams like that!
Hey RW! I am still unbelievably surprised by peen in a movie, since it happens so seldom, well, unless you're into porn and stuff.
a cloche would be perfect for autumn, too, resurrected wreck. no brim for the wind to catch.
:)
Viggo has never had a problem with nudity.
Shame there was no nekkid Aragorn...
Hi Carrie, well that's certainly some news. Although I don't care for Viggo myself, I know those who do will be pleased!
Ergo, your storm dog sounds like something in a Stephen King book: an ordinary event that arrives in an unordinary fashion. It DID present such a clear image; that's one of the coolest dreams I've ever heard!
Good point, TJ :)
Although I don't care for Viggo myself
O_O
sure TJ!
I have the most complicated surreal dreams most nights.
the storm dog was sort of a mix of the clouds they make with paint in water and part mistier
It didn't look nasty either, it seemed quite a friendly dog face.
oh and at the bullriding the guy was announcing a bull who is rarely ridden full time, saying it'd come out of the chute and go into a tight left hand spin, which it did, and the guy rode it the 8 sec and when he jumped off the bull was dizzy.
A dizzy bull looks really really funny, he staggered a bit then stood there with his legs apart, like people do, until he could trot back into the pens. He's probably never done it that long before!
J good call, now you mention it, it was like a Steven King idea!
Viggo is pretty good, Aragon would be better though!
Thank goodness for that J. Whew. I did absolutely nothing today. I stayed home cooking a bit, and watched some of my DVD's.
I am sexited that my concert is next Sunday already though, and I ordered a new outfit to wear on that day. Woo ^_^
Well, Entropy intimated that without a beard and an accent, the guy was ooglay, which I don't so much agree with, but I am way older than her and thus may have lower standards. :)
RW, I love when you make those O_O faces. They make me smile, and laugh :)
Hi carrie
oh thank you ergo. i do appreciate it -- i'll get your brain back to you before you need it for tutoring...er, i mean titoring. :)
Well, Entropy intimated that without a beard and an accent, the guy was ooglay
Who, Viggo??
Hey BC, and TJ, and everyone here.
Yes, Viggo!!!
Hey, I hear ya, I think he has the rugged good looks bigtime.
I usually like my men prettier, Carrie, but I make a big exception for Viggo.
Hey, have you heard from Entropy lately?
Yes, he is quite the kick ass actor, and that is always attractive.
BC, which concert is it again? Sorry to say I've forgotten.
Ergo, have you read "Desperation" by SK? Your dream made me think of that book.
Who, me? I talk to her every day. She is fine as a frog's hair cut four ways, she's just not so much feeling the blog these days.
rugged but sensitive..
I don't think so J I have read a lot of his but I don't think that one. I'll have to check in my library
say hi to her for me please carrie?
*HI Entropy!*
hey there carrie. :)
you know, viggo wrote the intoduction to one of those souvenir books from the lotr trilogy, and i was quite impressed! he's very skilled with the whole word thing, a philosopher and a poet too.
the whole package. yup. :)
She is fine as a frog's hair cut four ways
Er... I'm not sure what that means but I think it's good, yes?
she's just not so much feeling the blog these days.
That sucks, but I totally understant. Please say hi to her from me :)
*brrrr*
J, it's the rockstar energy mayhem festival that I'm going to. I think they might have played commercials on TV or something?
you know, viggo wrote the intoduction to one of those souvenir books from the lotr trilogy, and i was quite impressed! he's very skilled with the whole word thing, a philosopher and a poet too.
And a talented artist as well!
*waves to Entropy*
I don't want to spoil people for Robin Hood on BBC, but I gotta say it's making me a little emo.
And a talented artist as well!
well, there you go. viggo is mayo.
well, there you go. viggo is mayo.
0_0
BC, I haven't heard of that one. Which bands will be there, and which ones are you going to watch?
HI ENTROPY!
And HI PJ! And Wendy, and Pixie, and Siobhan, and Miss T, and everybody else who's MIA these days.
I guess I'd need to say "HI SS!" in that case as well.
:(
carrie I loved Robin Hood!
especially Guy...
*swoooon*
Ergo! Did you see the finale, because, yeah, I'm not so loving on the Guy now. More want to deball him.
J, there'll be lots of bands(In which I'm too lazy to post the names) but I'm only there to see at least two: Five Finger Death Punch and Machine Head, although Wendy thinks I should check out Disturbed, but we'll see.
I can't stand to sit in my seat all day because my energy tends to be all over the place, so I have to get up and go sight seeing or get a drink or something, otherwise I'll be bored.
Cameras are allowed, so I'll be able to take pics.
That'll be good, BC. We did the same thing at PR, wandered around during the first part of the shows, ate, etc, then got to our seats when the "bigger" bands came on. Do you know, we went to four shows, and didn't see Linkin Park once? Usually by that time we were so hot, tired, and ready to sleep we'd leave after MCR.
I did Carrie, he's not a nice fellow really...
but with that guyliner and black leather I can forgive him anything
J, that's probably what my initial plans are for the day of the show. Just walk around a bit, etc etc. I remember after when PR was over, when we left the pit, I was so damn thirsty I was willing to pay $6 for a large drink, and well, I was desperate enough to drink my friend's raspberry ice tea.
That's how bad the thirst was. For me, that was the worst thing about the pit, despite the bruises, getting kicked in the head, and a sore body that I had endured, nothing compared to the intense thirst.
I left after MCR at the PR show I went to too, J.
That heat last summer was enough to make you sweat from places you'd never known you had, yet dry up your mouth like you were in the desert. It was vile. But it was worth it. :)
I'm in no particular hurry to be in a pit again, not after Columbus in May this year. Those guys that were shoving and hitting people were dangerous. If it hadn't been for Matty (is that how he spells it? IDK.), there would've been more folks hurt than there were. They had nine ejections that night.
Which one were you at, RW?
it's a shame a lot of people just want to be assholes, or they drink and act like idiots.
I remember concerts were pretty much everyone wanting to see the show, now some just want to hurt people
It definitely did J. My opinion, I thought the pit at my PR sucked, even though I hurted.
I'll be willing to go to another one if I could :)
It's disheartening how things change Ergo
There were what looked to be at least a dozen guys in their late teens to early twenties. They were there for Billy Talent, but apparently not for the music itself. Seems like all they wanted was to push people around, see them get hurt, and be the loudest bunch there. I actually hit the ground at one point, and the only thing that saved me from getting trampled was L. She grabbed for my arm and pulled me right back up. It was like a spring-action, I was down, then I was up.
There was a little kid at the barrier that was getting mushed. We were all afraid he was going to get hurt really seriously, if not outright killed.
i think i'm actually starting to get the hang of being in the ga at concerts, but the big ones are no fun.
but the best thing to do is simplyhang out at the venue all day and grab the barrier when you get inside.
then it's fuuuuuuuuun. :)
Which one were you at, RW?
Toronto. It's where I met Gerard and Frank.
I don't mind the pit but stay to the side, drunk fucks seem to like the front middle
Not always a feasibility, TJ. Not everyone can stand outside all day and/or all night. Hell, there were lots of people who weren't able to even go to any shows on this last tour.
RW, did you enjoy PR? How was your experience meeting G and Frank?
I avoid the pit completely. I like to have a nice comfortable seat with a good view.
J, it was definitely a good thing that L was there to help you. At my PR, a girl behind me asked me if she could hold on to me because she was getting pushed around by a few kids.
i like the side too, not too far off but not in the center, either. and when a mosh pit opens up, i make sure to stay out of the way -- i know i'm not up to one of those.
I enjoyed PR, J. I prefer the smaller venues, and I had good seats. I only really watched two bands - MCR and Placebo.
F & G were perfectly sweet when I met them. Weird to think that the very next night Gerard turned into caveman on stage.
RW if I'm ever unsure I'd rather get a seat, that's what I did fro MCR here, I'm too short and chicken, but MUSE was all GA as was Silverchair, smaller crowds though so it was ok
I'd love to see Placebo I really like his voice, were they good?
very good point, j. not everyone can or even wants to hang out at the venue, but it sure is a great way to make friends, though. :)
I second that RW. I like smaller venues; they're more intimate, obviously.
Placebo were excellent, EP. The friend I went to PR with is a fan. I'd heard a couple of songs of theirs before, but they totally won me over at PR.
In addition to meeting Gerard and Frank, we also met singer Brian Molko from Placebo. He was perfectly charming.
One thing I noticed about Gerard, Frank and Brian & any other rock stars I saw wandering around the grounds is just how diminutive they are in real life. Must be their stage presence that makes them seem so big.
Yes Ergo, they were extremely good at our shows. I ended up buying one of their greatest hits CDs. He's got a weirdly appealing voice, doesn't he? We also got into TBS through PR, although not too heavily. And I hear a lot of LP on my radio station, so I wasn't as psyched to see them. I like them, but most of their songs sound alike to me.
♥♥
My biggest PR regret after-the-fact is that I didn't watch the TBS set.
Oh, and I nearly came face-to-face with Jimmy Urine through a wire fence, though I didn't know who he was at the time.
I thought Placebo were boring at my show, the only band I thought was decent was Julien K, but I'm thinking it was only because Chester from LP was doing guest vocals with them.
Most annoying thing was that Ville Valo couldn't stop smoking. He kept lighting up every few minutes, with most of the smoke heading directly towards the pit area :/
My friend and I wandered the grounds quite a bit over the course of the day (which is how we spotted Frank walking his fat little doggie), and we noticed that the "baby bands" were the ones who were trying the hardest to look like rock stars. The established acts didn't really bother.
I know, RW, aren't they? When we met MCR in Charlotte, Frank came out and passed out water bottles to the people in line. I remember thinking that he looked like a skateboarder kid in his long shorts with his hair long. See, I expected him to be a little taller and a little wider (no offense, Frank). Gerard was about the height I expected. The most shocking thing was: HE WAS WEARING LONG SHORTS AND A SLEEVELESS TSHIRT!
Everyone was amazed that he exposed his arms to the sunlight...
Everyone was amazed that he exposed his arms to the sunlight...
You mean he didn't ignite & turn to dust? ;)
I think G-Way would have totally fit in at the Anne Rice parties I used to go to.
Anyway, time for me to turn in.
Have a nice night, everyone :)
You mean he didn't ignite & turn to dust? ;)
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Lol. I'm surprised he didn't, but hell, I don't show off my arms either. There's no color when exposed to the sun.
good night, resurrected wreck. :)
Goodnight RW, sweet dreams :)
it's kind of funny that you're all talking pro rev...i just realized i'm wearing my pro rev t-shirt.
synchronicity!
RW, no, he didn't, but it was a distinct possibility! heeheehee
Really, G, we love ya, white arms and all.
Goodnight RW, see you later.
"With one breath,
With one flow,
You will know
Synchronicity."
Think I'll head off, too. Maybe get some extra sleep tonight.
Goodnight Ergo (congrats again!), BC, RW, TJ, hope you all sleep well. I'll talk with you tomorrow.
Mayo, again, you're part of the compilation comment. Sorry, dude, that Jello fiasco really took it out of me. :P
Go ahead, yuk it up. I thought it was hilarious--that is, after I cleaned up the stove...
Goodnight to you, my friend.
love, faith, hope, Jello
goodnight RW sweet dreams
I think it's only those who love the idea of celebrity that try too hard.
people who do it because they love it are far more normal offstage
(actors too)
My Dad was in a performance of Caberet with June Bronhill ( a famous female opera singer) and the young producer said they would be doing warm up improvisation and such , real stereotypical "AC-TOR" stuff and she grabbed my dad and announced "And we shall be back when you've finished this nonsense"
goodnight J sweet dreams, love to L
I remember GW saying something about staying out of the sun over here as you just tan without even trying
and it didn't fit his idiom
It's barely gonna be one a.m., but I think I'm gonna turn in early and go listen to my ipod for a while.
goodnight J, TJ, Ergo, sweet dreams guys. But first...
BC: How are you sweet cheeks? Did you decide what to wear to the MOM event yet? Any new Killer developments? *wiggles eyebrows*
I'm doing well sugarplum, thank you for asking. I hope you're well? I miss you super much *smothers with sloppy kisses* Wait, I'm going to a Methods of Mayhem show? Lol. It's the rockstar energy concert, silly buns ^_^ I did manage to order a new outfit. It consists of purple Tripp pants, and a gray L.A. Ink tattoo shirt. I don't want to look like a slouch attending the show(But I will bring comfty shoes) No new Killer developments. I haven't been to the shop in a while. It's making me feel emo not being able to see him. Maybe next visit I'll approach him with a friendly "hello"?
I'll promise I'll take lots of pics. Love and hugs to you! And I might tell someone that he has a nice ass. I just want to pinch it ^_~
Pixie: I miss seeing you here
Siobhan: You too
I discovered one of the newest joys earlier today: The opening of a shop that sells band t-shirts, CD's, and other paraphenilia. For me, it's the greatest news since my first discovery of pizza back who-knows-when *big smiles*
goodnight everyone!
goodnight BC sweet dreams
good night j, and good night bc. :)
oh! j. you quoted the police!
how did you know that's what popped into my head after i wrote that? :)
good night again. sweet jello-free dreams!
hey TJ when you have my brain just be prepared to pay close attention to finger skillz and be everso slightly obsessed with MUSE
Hi Precious,
Yeah, I burned Jello tonight. In my own defense, it was boiling too fast, and when I added the powder, it went WHOOSH all over the stove.
I shall have to practise my boiling skills, apparently.
That aside, I've been thinking about you today, wondering what you're up to out there. You haven't been around for such a long time, I'm beginning to worry if you're alright. I realize you're a busy man, lots to do, always on the run. I respect that.
Whatever's keeping you occupied, that's ok. I know you're still here, whether in "body" or in spirit. You're on the other end of that cable, behind the monitor, peeking in when we least expect. That's the kind of thing you do: you take care of those you love. You watch, you listen, you advise, you comfort.
It's all these things, and so many more, that make you the very special man you are. Don't argue with me, you ARE very special. Not perfect, not beyond reproach, but exceptionally good.
Your strength will carry you far as the years pass. That, along with your innate kindness and loyalty, will make the difference in all your relationships.
Take comfort in the fact that there will always be someone out there who cares for you, who loves you, come Hell or high water. True colors, baby, never forget.
Goodnight, darlin'. I love you.
My heart to yours, always.
*takes notes*
1. finger skillz
2. MUSE obsession
i think i can do that, ergo!
:)
I'm off to collect my stuff from the show, I'll be back but if you're off to bed before then sweet dreams
thank you, and congratulations once again! it's very neat knowing a champion. :)
Step off the train, walking down your street again
Passed your door, but you don't live there anymore
It's years since you've been there, and now you've disappeared somewhere
To outta space, you've found some better place
(chorus):
And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain
And I miss you, oh, like the deserts miss the rain
Could you be dead? You always were two steps ahead
And eveyrone, would walk behind where you would run
I look up at your house, I can almost hear you shout down to me, where I always used to be
(chorus):
And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain
And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain
Back on the train, I ask why did i come again?
Can I confess? I've been hanging around your address
Years have proved, to offer nothing since you've moved
Now you're gone, I can't move on
(chorus):
And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain
And I miss you, yeah, like the deserts miss the rain, i miss you
I step off the train, I'm walking down your street again
Passed your door, but you don't live there anymore
It's years since you've been there, and now you've disappeared somewhere
To outta space, you've found some better place
(chorus):
And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain
And I miss you, yeah, like the deserts miss the rain, I miss you
And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain
And I miss you, yeah, like the deserts miss the rain, deserts miss the rain
(like the deserts miss the) like the deserts miss the rain
like the deserts miss the rain
And I miss you, yeah, like the deserts miss the rain
And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain
I iz back!
that's a nice song anon
is it for anyone in particular?
I think it's a good one for all the blogbelievers we don't see so much anymore.
A few have been mentioned, but I'd like to add cupcake, I miss my aussie mate.
and wasn't it in a SNL skit, with Chris Kattan? He wore sequins and People always fell in love with him. Or have I got the wrong song.
mayo,
sometimes i just don't know what to make of things. maybe it's just that i jump to conclusions, or maybe i give my imagination more leeway than i ought. it's difficult to back down from certain ideas, because magic is real and dreams do come true. i say this as one who has experienced it.
i'm someone who believes. i'm not credulous, i'm not gullible, but those six impossible things before breakfast? believed and seen.
but it isn't always enough to live on. discouragement paces alongside me.
i've been trying to figure out how to combat it, and i think i have a plan. when my belief turns inside out, when my hope transforms into despair and begins chewing on me, i need to create.
i've already tried this out a couple of times, months ago, before i willingly became homeless, and it worked. it was amazing! i was able to turn my mood around by simply making something.
once i wrote, i worked on one of my stories. the other time, i drew. but any creation should suffice. textile arts, painting, singing, baking...it's the act of creation, i think. it's a positive when negation overwhelms you.
i was going to try it again today, but i ended up taking a nap instead. i had an awful dream. next time, i'll finish the drawing i'm nibbling away at.
but it's a good plan, don't you think? and maybe while creating, i'll shore up my belief, feed it until it's shiny and strong again.
mayo, how have the days been going for you? have you been enjoying them in easy pleasure, have they been bright beautiful days of laughter and friendship? or have they been clunky and rattling, hitching along in fits and starts?
i hope the former, even though i know all life is both sour and sweet. and if the latter, lean on your friends, all of them, even if some of them are just silly rambling words on a screen. trust in what you believe.
somehow, incredibly, i do, even through the doubt and discouragement. even if i end up alone, i think i'll probably still believe in a hopeful tomorrow.
(feel free to pat the idealistic little girl on the head *grin*)
good night mayo, and i hope tomorrow is a day in which all your best things surround you, and make your heart light.
sweet dreams, my friend.
goodnight TJ sweet dreams
hope you create something wonderful ♥
Mayo what a weekend I had! Of course the wins at the show were great but I love going. It's just so great to see kids having so much fun, the rides and the lights, the music the food (though really I don't know how I ate that stuff as a kid!), seeing all the people you know around town and I must admit being on a ride that spins you around and flings you out , turns you upside down and whips you back up, well nothing quite like it is there? I used to go to the huge show in our capital when I was younger, more rides than you could ever ride on, showbags, exhibits, mini circus, animal cometitions ring events wood chopping pavillion exhibits. We'd spend a full day there, as a teen we'd get there before the gates opened and then run to side show alley, get on the rides while they were quiet, usually ensuring a longer ride, especially with some innocent flirting with the young operators. Ride as much as we could until we were all rode out, then grab lunch ad wander about all the rest, sit and watch dog judging, wander through the cattle and horses with their sashes and rosettes. Then into the showbag pavillion, that was when they were sample bags, full of chocolate and candy, not toys and stuff like today, and it was much cheaper (yes I do the old "back in my day..." terrible isn't it. But the whole thing still makes me smile. The time it rained and we were soaked on the Orbiter, then walked down the middle of the paths while everyone else huddled under marquees, trying out new rides, deciding which ones looked way too scary.
I know your post talks of unhappy memories but I really do hope you don't dwell o it all, those things can make us the sort of person we are, but I think people forget just how much the good memories can too, if you let them.
I hope you have a whole lot of really good memories, dust them off and bring them to the forefront of your mind, focus on them and the way they made you feel, and you'll definitely have a brighter outlook
Wishing you fun, faith, fantasy and fortune lotsa love EP xx
SS hope you're well, and also hoping you have many brilliant memories you can recall to make you smile and hoping that you will create so many more memories for you and all those you love
Sending you laughter, luck and love
lotsa love EP xx
goodnight blogbelieve see you in my morning
♥xx♥
wow that was longer than I expected !
and I always meant to try and win a goldfish in a bag and never did.
Maybe next time :)
night ergo!
congrats on your wins and glad you had a great time!!
morning mayo! look it's me...here in blue! i just have to say:
HAPPY 11 MONTH ANNIVERSARY BLOGBELIEVE!!!
wow and wee and wowee! it's a long time! thanks mayo. really, i do mean it from the bottom of my heart!
hope you are doing good? take care and have a relaxing sunday if you can?!
SS...missing you!! i don't think you've been around?! i don't think so but hey i am not the best detective as you know!
have a good one SS!
morning family!! it's great to be back! still got a shit load of washing to do!! but i quite like it..it's therapeutic!
right gotta go!
have wonderful sundays everyone!
love to you all!
washing = laundry
i'm sure you know that but just to clarify!
oh is it!
HAPPY 11 MONTHS!!!!
and hello fasc, so nice to see you back, it was great reading your holiday reports, a bit like a roving reporter
"and now the daily update from our woman on the spot, FASC"
and cleaning after is always the worst part of going away!
hey ergo!!!
i think packing to go and cleaning after is pretty much equal in levels of shittiness! the packing to go is stresstastic and the cleaning after although therapeutic to be getting it done is quite exhausting!!
the spending of too much money and over eating is alot of fun at the time!!
right i am gone!!!
oh and i'm glad you liked my roving reporter comments! you have no idea how long it takes on a mobile phone!! headache inducing!
right i'm really gone now!
Good morning/afternoon/evening Mayo, SS, Ergo, J, BC, Elena, Carrie, RW, TJ; various anons, lurkers and watchers; all goldfishies in bags and bowls in the land o'blog believe!
How are you all on the 10 month Anniverary of Blogbelieve? Well balanced and blissful, I hope! And, well & happy too! ;)
Happy Ten Months BlogBelieveN\
FASC: I missed you to the moon and back! Welcome home!
******ergo said...
“it's a shame a lot of people just want to be assholes, or they drink and act like idiots.
I remember concerts were pretty much everyone wanting to see the show, now some just want to hurt people”******
I agree, Ergo! I just don’t understand the intent to cause pain. That type of thing really does not happen, much, at shows around here (thankfully). Sure, there is the occasional ‘teeth getting knocked out’ but, it is accidental and it does not happen often. NOLA security is very, very good at crowd control! Two words can explain that: MARDI GRAS. An additional five words can further enhance that explanation: “Laissez le bon tempts rouler!” (Let the good times roll!) We are a bunch of mellow, laid back people afterall! ;)
I would like to add that when I go to a ROCK SHOW, I expect to see a ROCK SHOW - not a political rally. Afterall, if I wanted to attend a political rally, I would purchase a ticket for one of those. As Amy (and MCR) has/(have) so eloquently stated "Shut Up and Play"!
*Exceptions to the rule: Concerts such as "Live Aid", "Farm Aid", "Live Earth" and other benefit/awareness shows where you KNOW exactly what to expect!*
I would also like to add that I absolutely adore hearing Paul Stanley talk about his "Love Gun". Now, THAT, is what a rock show is supposed to be about (in my humble opinion). I pay, you entertain me and make me smile - for hours and hours afterwards!
******Bleeding Chaos said...
“Most annoying thing was that Ville Valo couldn't stop smoking.”******
O_O and *gasps
Them’s fighting words, sweetcheeks! ;)I think we should all respect Mr. Valo’s ‘artistic vision’ and the way he chooses to express himself. Viva La Revolution!!!!!
(Pssst...I do still love ya!) And, sorry I got the summer tour wrong. There seem to be so many this year!
To ponder the fun (or not) today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"The more fun you have, the greater your value to yourself and to your society. The more fun you share with others, the more fun you have."
"The Path that is best for you is the Path that keeps the best of you in play"
"...and the Truth will Make you Laugh."
"In the beginning it was fun. In the end, it was all for fun. And in between is where it tickles most."
"All for fun, and fun for all!"
"You can only have fun helping other people have fun if you're having fun doing it."
"Fun is better than winning."
"You ask: 'What is the Meaning of ME\WE?' I/we answer: 'When the will of the one is one with the will of the many."
"The more, come to think of it, the potentially merrier."
"It's more fun when you're not the only one having it."
"Happy are those who get to talk. Happier are those who get listened to."
"The purpose of fun is to have it."
"Fun is where it's at. That's why you have to be there."
"If it's not fun, tell me, why are you still playing?"
"Ask not what fun does for you, but what you do for fun!"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I hope you all have a day filled with sharing the fun and the love!
Hugs and love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi PJ, Possum, Kass, CTV, Entropy and SS!
FASC!!!!!!!
Come here woman, please?
*pounce tackle hug smooch*
It's so good to have you home - safe and sound too!
If it's not fun, tell me, why are you still playing?
Fun is where it's at. That's why you have to be there.
The purpose of fun is to have it.
Wendy!
*smoooooch*
I love those 3 quotes.
I must say it's a rare day I am not laughing about something, sometime.
Not everyday is brilliant, but if something gets you chuckling it's always better.
For all the time we have to be serious and responsible, a smile or a laugh not only brightens your day, but that of those you share it with.
I have a quote , I cannot recall who to attribute it to but:
"God is just a comedian, playing to an audience to afraid to laugh"
so Blogbelieve - share the laughter
help make your part of the world a little bit brighter
Okay, I am searching for the sandman and I can't seem to find him. Perhaps this will help:
Not tonight
I heart HIM!!!!
Goodnight and sweet dreams to one and all!
Ergo!!!!! Have a got a lullaby for me? Or, perhaps, some scothch?
*smooooooch*
Ergoproxy said...
"God is just a comedian, playing to an audience to afraid to laugh"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Pea-shaw (did I spell that correctly? I know how sensitive some people are to spelling and grammatical errors!) ;)
I fear nothing! Except black widows and brown recluse spiders and water moccasins/cotton mouth snakes (which, honestly, don't stand a chance against me and my perfected shot gun/riffle aim)! ;)
Lullaby for Wendy :)
and I 'aint askeared of much, 'xceptin big hairy eightleggedy beasties!
lol
and speaking of an absurd world
I have just watched Mr T - yes the old "Pity Da Fool" BA Baraccas in a red t shirt selling the Flavor Wave Turbo bench top cooker
OH MY GOD!!! He just said "I pity the fool"!!!!
about a cake!!!!!
oh well I suppose he got payed
He just said "Jibber Jabber"!!!!!
Does anyone hear the "your career is over train" leaving?
Please MR T for the love of the A_Team STOP DOING INFOMERCIALS!!!!
Ohhhhh! Thank you honeybunch! I promise, I shall dream a little dream for YOU! :)
PS: Mr T. OWNS my heart!!!! Well, sort of. You have to admit, Dirk is hotter than hell! ;)
Here's something to help you dream:
cause thats the way of the world
I'm telling you, I didn't do it. But, if I did do it, it was an accident!
Hi Mayo!
Hi Everyone!
I am too tired to stay, I'm going my ass to bed.
Just wanted to stop and say hi!
Blow everyone a kiss!
It's so good to see all of you, i will come back and read later when i have had some sleep!
My heart to yours
pj
hey PJ sweet dreams :)
Wendy Dirk was a good reason to watch A Team, and Battlestar galactica!
and Cheap Trick!! I love that song!
and I had such a thing for Robin Zander
Hi PJ!!!! We missed you!
Heck, Ergo; who didn't have a crush on Dirk? I adored both him and Apollo on the original Battle Star Gattliticala@ Oh heck, I can't spell or type for crap tonight! Perhaps THIS is why you should not consume alcoholic beverages while on antibiotics! OOOOPS!
LOL at myself!
*takes schthoch from Wendy*
lol
'night I'm off to bed :)
xx
i call bullshit what do you want to call it?
Hi Bloggies!
Pucker up!
*smoooch*
>_<
Damn it,lips! Stop it!
Just because that new lip balm has unexpectedly made you look like you should have a wooden disc inserted in your lower lip, is no excuse to act that way!
>_<
*holds scary lip balm threateningly over rubbish bin*
Right. Let's start again.
Morning everyone!
Hi Mayo! Pyjamas or no pyjamas - in summer?
Hi SS! Pyjamas or no pyjamas - in winter?
*PP is feeling bored*
*and annoying* ;)
Fxxxing Absolutely Super Cool to see you back in blue again! Glad you had a super time. =)
616,
*waves*
I hope you are starting to feel as well as you sound. =)
Ergo,
Whoa! Congratulations! That was a fantastic list of results. =)
Mustard@10:15pm,
Thank you for sharing your story. My heart started hurting for that sweet, trusting, little girl being left on her own.
You know that little girl would have had a place saved for her, if the friends she had back then, had been those she knows now.
PJ!!!
Lovely to see you back here again!
Ooh, remember ages ago, the guy who left his girlfriend stuck on the loo? Well, he ended up with probation.
But,
he has 6 months jail for flashing his teenage neighbour. O_o
Have a great day everyone!
*wanders off, dragging bottom lip behind*
HAPPY 11 MONTH ANNIVERSARY, BLOGBELIEVE!
Thanks for this, Mayo. Unforgettable.
SS, be well and be swell!
PP!!!
We're here at the same time!
What have your lips done to you? O_O
One day you're waiting for the sky to fall
The next you're dazzled by the beauty of it all
Precisely. Exhausting, isn't it?
BlogBelieve,
Happy 11 Months! Have a rockin' Sunday!
All the PR talk last night made me realize that at this time last year, I hadn't even been yet. Who would've known that it would turn into one of the most awesome nights of my life? Damn, I love that band.
*waves to PJ*
Welcome back, FASC!
Now, I can't wait to hear about MissT's an GS's wild weekend!
Mwah! Mwah!
^_^
Ha! Well, if you don't mind, then why should I complain?
a little bullshit never killed anybody. i do love you.
Mayo,
Morning! How are you? Get up and have some breakfast! I just tried a brand new cereal, and, well, let's just say it seemed like a good idea in the store. Blueberries and all. Oh well, oh well, oh well.
Happy 11 Month Anniversary and thank you for this place! I never get tired of saying that because I know how lucky we are to have found each other.
Have a great Sunday!
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Are we really only a month away from a whole year?
SS,
Miss you like crazy, man!
Stop by and visit when you can!
We haven't seen you in a bit
and the Princess is ready to throw a hissy fit!
Bwah!
Hmm. That remains to be seen, now, doesn't it?
HAPPY 11 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!
Mayo!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mayooooo!!!!!!!!!
MAAAAYYYYY-OOOOOOOOO!!!!
♥ you dude! Thanks for the past 11 months! Can you believe it? Me either! Have a great Sunday!
Oh snap!
You guys are gonna make SS really believe that I am in need of being smited. NOTTTTT!!!!!
SS thinks I'm very clever and funny. ^_~
Maybe?
Bwah! Hope you are doing okay, dude. MISS YOU LIKE WHOAHHHH!!!!
9:43 & 10:01 go run off and do your love thing somewhere else
10:42,
Speak for yourself. Some of us might like to watch them do it right here.
hello, blogbelieve.
i'm hopped up on coffee (natch), and listening to loud live music in my headphones (and occasionally singing out loud, which is no doubt terrorizing the dog. lol) and spending this pretty sunday morning in my favorite way: hunched over the computer, going clicky clicky clicky clicky!!
anyway: eleven months. huh. i never ever would have guessed it, but man, do i like it! happy anniversary blogbelieve, and happy anniversary, mayo!
:)
Hi guuuuys!
How are you all today? Right here, it is breezy and cool, which is a little depressing to me. I need at least another two weeks before I will accept "breezy and cool." Just yesterday it was 90 degrees and I was sharing a pool float with Beautiful Boy while 30 Seconds to Mars was playing."YOu say you wanted more, what are you waiting for, I'm not running from youuuuuuu!" IT'S HIGH SUMMER. Err, uhh...
I wanna share some pics from yesterday if no one minds, especially these awesome ones of a preying mantis that we all found. Yeah?
go for it, kapunua. :)
Cooool!
I just cut and paste some stuff from my LJ, as well as some of the locked stuff too. :D
i peeked over there already this morning (when i was catching up on my flist), but i don't mind seeing them again. :)
The names have been changed just because I know I get teased a lot here and I don't like my friends getting dragged into it.
So yesterday at the party, the party favors were Baoding Balls, I effing kid you not. The best part was that the insert on how to use them read: For relaxation, place two balls in hand and move them about.... That was funnier than it should have been to the adults, because every once in a while we would open the box, read the insert and go, "Khhkhhkhh!" I've had a pair of Baoding balls since I was in my twenties and I know how to use them in both hands, but no one else really did so I was showing some people how to do it. Sifu walked in just then, saw me with them and said, "I thought yours would be bigger. And brass." And I just lost it. Toward the end of the day, I was showing Sije Empress Teishi's Mom how to use them but the pair I had were really teeny. Beautiful Boy was carrying his around, which were bigger and I wanted to show her using his ones so I called him over, and then panicked: "Uhhh, wow. I have no idea how to ask you this."
Hilarity, of course, ensued. It ensued many, many times, actually.
We had a great time giggling it up about those damn Baoding balls. Beautiful Boy was carrying his around and totally forget that he had them in his hand, and he had his other hand in his pocket when Scarred Hardcase (from the other school, but the toughest of the tough in the entire academy,) asked him, "The hell, are you standing there holding your balls?" and he got all "OMG, NO, I just have my hand in my pocket!" before he remembered that he had the Baoding balls. The humor was in the fact that he really had forgotten that he was holding them.
He wanted me to go swimming and I wasn't sure I wanted to be showing off my ridiculously white legs and my seven year old one-piece bathing suit from Target, surrounded by beautiful, young girls in cool looking bikinis and I told him that the chlorine hurt my eyes since the surgery. "Wear goggles," he said. "Or drink enough beer that you can have beer goggles and then wear them in the pool." I did end up going in the pool, with my sunglasses on and then I put the goggles over them, which made him laugh pretty hard.
But there was more to it than Baoding balls. There was cake and swimming and long talks. In the pool, Empress Teishi's family had these really cool toys and one of them was a huge, gold round one. I climbed on it (with help from Beautiful Boy; it was slippery and hardly anyone could climb on!) then sat in the lotus position and called out, "Hey guys, who am I?!" Everyone was like, "BUDDHA LOL!"
Sehing Matt Damon was there, making me feel like even more a wolf among sheep. He came with his on-off girlfriend, and as usual, I wasn't sure even how to talk to him. The dude knows I had it bad for him a few years ago; he has to know. I am the most obvious ho-bag there is.
Randomly, when I was between Beautiful Boy and Sehing Matt Damon once, Empress Teishi's mom looked at me and quoted, "She's got a lot of pretty, pretty boys that she calls friends."
Boy, do I ever.
In the pool, I talked for a long time with Beautiful Boy about everything under the sun (mostly college, since he's going into the medical field and I am going back to school,) travel, and we compared scars. And out of the pool with Sharp-witted Brownbelt Boy about Kung Fu, people with issues, our own issues, and how they don't really go away when you "grow up" the way people seem to think they do. I like this kid. He seems so quiet and nerdy, sitting there in orange pants looking for all the world like a seventeen year old Langley of the lone Gunmen, but then when he gets going with his wit, he's fully hilarious and very observant.
Before he left, he bowed to everyone and I just gave him a hug. Scarred Hardcase teased him and said, "Ooh, a girl hugged you, go tell everyone on the internet!" And Sharp-wit said, "You know, it's actually really nice chatting with her. She's a good chatter. You should try it sometime." It was too funny.
At the end of the day, Scarred Hardcase found a mantis in the grass and picked it up. It was a juvenile one. We all held it and it was so sweet. Then he let it climb on his face.
PICTURES!
Sharp-wit and Sije Empress Teishi.
Beautiful Boy and Empress Teishi.
Mantis on the hand of Scarred Hardcase, Sehing Matt Damon in the background.
Sije Empress Teishi with the mantis.
Scarred Hardcase letting the mantis climb on his face.
Coolest pic of the day.
A really swell closeup of the mantis on my hand.
We thought it was really cool because we actually do the Mantis Style. Mantis style is one of my favorites, along with Crane and Tiger.
So it was pretty neat!
TJ, that's so sweet. Thanks. They are the same pics, actually. ;)
i hope you don't mind that i didn't comment -- i start to feel like a creep when i comment every single time. stalker on the flist! lol
i thought the mantis was cute but to let it crawl on my face? *eep* i might not be able to hold still for that!
oh! but it looked like it was a very fun afternoon. i haven't been to a backyard party in a loooooong time.
TJ, there's nothing stalkery about about you. ^_^ LJ thrives on comments; but you should never feel obliged to. Either way it's cool.
Yeah, I am so into mantids, too, I think they are beautiful, graceful, like little aliens. But they do bite and they have powerful mandibles. They are hard to provoke, but they are capable and I'm not sure I'd let one walk on my face either. He let it walk over his eye, too. O_o
Oh man, backyard parties are such a typical Long Island thing. Each Sunday I know at least two people who are having one. ^_^
the matt damon guy is hot!!!
And .... the scarred guy is kind of scary looking.
He so is, 12:00. :)
Scarred Hardcase is scary. You definitely want him on your side. ^_~
Ahhhh! It sounds like you had so much fun! It's makes me grin when you talk about what's going on in your head when you're explaining what went on. It's so cool. :)
Well hey, I gotta get going. Once again I need to go buy more damn worms. Maybe I will go crazy and buy a season of X Files on DVD. It's such crap trying to watch my old tapes; they color is off and the tracking sucks.
Hmm, should I?
Later all! Thanks for letting me ramble. Thanks for looking at the pics, TJ and anon! :D
Oh, hey Splash, nearly missed you! ^_^ It is a busy, ridiculous, embarrassing place in my head. I'm glad you don't find that annoying.
It sounds like a story, K. You should write it in a fiction story.
Not at all!
Have fun finding worms! Talk to you later!
The hottes thing, I ever read on this place when when that guy was touching your hair with his sword... It made Mayo's porn look bad! Sorry Mayo! that one image.... yum. So sweet, like a movie scene..
...fades away...
see you later, kapunua -- i might just start commenting a lot, you know. fair warning!
i'm listening to "desert song" again and for some reason, this morning it's making me sad and melancholy.
/random personal factoid
How long has it been, what, like, five or six months since I've been hanging out in left field listening to "Desert Song?"
SISTER MIDNIGHT!?!? WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!
Bwuahaha. ;)
That mantis is cool! He looks like a little alien!
I know.
what can i say mustard, i totally forgot i had it on a cd with me. :)
i've switched over to 30 seconds to mars though,a nd it's still maing me a bit melancholy, so there must be a bit of that in me today that the music is leaching out.
no clue.
(what does cyndi lauper know, i wonder? hmmmm....)
We just wanna have fun!
wow, massive proof-reading fail!
*facepalm*
Hi, TJ :)
hey there, resurrected wreck. :)
how's the day?
Not bad, TJ :) I only just woke up about an hour ago!
How's Sunday been for you so far?
K, apart from what you may think, I think you DO have a chance with beautiful Boy. And I think you should go for it! Just ask him out!!
The worst that can happen, is he can say no. Then, you can still be friends right? Honey I think you should!
it's not too bad, resurrected wreck. i'm writing a massive update email to my sister, and that's always fun. :)
Cool :)
I'm bedating whether to head outside or just have a day in. It's a nice sunny day, but my feet are recovering from breaking in a new pair of shoes & could probably use the day off.
Mayo/Carmine/Gerard
get out of your wife and get on your computer with a new post please.
Kap, beautiful boy is not beautiful. Sorry. Maybe you can still get him
bedating? Is that Smaw Poese for debating? If so, I love it!
Well, I managed to pack up and unload more of my stuff today. Looks like I'll be out of here by next weekend, unless I can find a way to drag it out a bit longer.
Hmmm, I think I need some hands to pull me on up out of here, right?
Yeah.
Pull, Mayo. Pull!
Well, I'm gonna go be lazy on my couch for a bit.
T'is, Solly :) T'is a cross between "debating" and "bedazzling".
It's thinking, only sparklier.
Aloha kakou! Back, worms acquired as well as season 5 of X files (the one with Bad Blood!) and the movie I paid for a month ago and they got my number wrong so never called me to let me know it had come in. O_o
Now, baking a cake for birdies.
SollyWolly, I know it's hard, but this is Life kicking you to get moving. If you resist, it's going to kick harder. Go with it. ^_^
Nice anon: Thank you! I really don't want to date Beautiful Boy, though. Too much work. Sparring and bantering will have to do.
Mean anon: Well, I don't care if you think he is beautiful or not. I think all my friends are.
birdie cake? yum?
resurrected wreck, i hope your poor little footsies feel better.
my folks are back from church, so i can't sing out loud anymore. fooey.
*grin*
What kind of cakes do birdies like?
I bet birds like birdcakes.
*didn't know birds liked cake*
Thank you, TJ :)
Hi, Mustard :D
The cake I make for my birdies is some whole wheat bread soaked in blueberry juice till it's the consistency of stuffing. Then I add in some wads of peanut butter, some wheat germ, a little honey, raisins, rolled oats, and vitamins. Mix and bake! They go crazy for it. ^_^
In fact, the titmouse screams when she sees it and puts her tuft up, then she attacks it like a beast and eats in in a few minutes.
4215 at 2:10.
Actually, it sounds pretty good!
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