As any good poem will do, I was moved to another place. Taken back to a day long ago when I was twelve, no maybe eleven, and had spent a good portion of the afternoon alone foraging around in the yard. Aside from some awkward social issues, I was content (even the social issues contented me because it gave me the excuse to be alone). So that particular day, standing in my yard, breathing in the warm fresh air of spring, I recall being rained upon by helicopters. I collected them all in a box, or perhaps it was a bucket, and climbed my favorite tree as high as I could and re-released them to the ground. It was my intention to allow them a second flight, to once again be aloft.
It is amazing how similar we are, humans. Inhale (I’m), exhale (here). At the very core we exist, our attempts to make our lives enjoyable or in some instances passable should be worthy. Take it in, the amazing, the simple, the meaningful and give it away, just the same.
As I have said (and as some have speculated) I am privileged to have a few places to spout off (last count...Three, “oh lucky me.”). Of course, some of my words were never intended to be read by anyone other than the one I wrote them for and in some cases no one at all. These places have never intersected, until now. I have been reminded to rip myself open. So, I have gathered up these words for a second flight.
Her fingers weave through my hair
And her breath is a reminder (that I breathe)
In and out, slow and almost silent
I'm
It is amazing how similar we are, humans. Inhale (I’m), exhale (here). At the very core we exist, our attempts to make our lives enjoyable or in some instances passable should be worthy. Take it in, the amazing, the simple, the meaningful and give it away, just the same.
As I have said (and as some have speculated) I am privileged to have a few places to spout off (last count...Three, “oh lucky me.”). Of course, some of my words were never intended to be read by anyone other than the one I wrote them for and in some cases no one at all. These places have never intersected, until now. I have been reminded to rip myself open. So, I have gathered up these words for a second flight.
Her fingers weave through my hair
And her breath is a reminder (that I breathe)
In and out, slow and almost silent
I'm
h e r e
I'm
h e r e
I'm
h e r e
Her evening promise
brings me rest.
When I wake, whenever that may be
I can tell her anything
and she believes
And I understand
the weight of trust.
She begs me for more,
more anything, more everything
and I oblige, within reason
I can give endlessly
and she will return the favor.
She is at once present
and future entwined
For years in the making
and each moment a step
closer to letting go.
p.s. but once I am dead, Dis.
The written word, in any form, is a powerful gift. But, it can also destroy.
7,161 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 4201 – 4400 of 7161 Newer› Newest»Oh, well there you are. Sorry, I was beating you just then so I missed you there.
Yo, I'm back there...but now I am here.
I wonder if he was gonna write a post based on the topic at 11:45?
That would be WEIRD.
-A
should have trolled for first comment, at least, way more dramatic.
Hey there, Mayo, L says "Happy Nine Month Anniversary" and congratulations on about 40 or 50 kids!
J
You so should have gotten first, Mayo.
Mayo you are everywhere.
Good to see you.
Yo, Mayo, what's up? O_o
Hey Mayo.
Hi everyone else. Congrats Amy. You're first ^_^
Hiya!
What's up Mayo-Mano?
-A
'lo, mayo. :)
hello mayo how are you?
totally has to bitchslap you too.
How silly are we? Totally waiting!
Hello mayo and bc
We're all ears, Mayo.
Well, some of us...
Yeah, at first you were there and now you are here.
So where are you?
Hello Mayo! How are you?
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!
Except me J. I don't have kids ^_~
and how are you? *big squeezy hugs*
*noms on her ice cream*
I'm glad I have a snack! So, what's going on anyway?
-A
so whatcha been doing?
Mayo,
I feel like you're Donald Trump and we're about to get fired. ;)
So Mayo
What's new?
Hey MJ, long time no see. How are you?
You said yo, and that amuses me to a greater extent than it should. I would say keep on keeping on, but dayum, it would just be nice to find out, YO?
So yeah, I am pretty good. A bit of a pissy mood earlier. But, I am over it.
How are all of you?
Mya, I'm not even remotely ear shaped.
-A
Clinton as VP, y/n?
I'm for it. I would have voted for her if she'd gotten it. I mean hell, I would have voted for frigging Kermit The Frog if he'd gotten it an was running against McCain, but you all know Obama is my dude.
I am going to be sweating until November. Then it will remain to be seen whether or not I will chew my veins out of my own wrists or not.
Did you sling a hairbrush? Cuz if you didn't, you should have.
Relieves stress.
J: I hope Mayo has a good job. He's going to have to pay a fortune in child support!
Mya: Speak for yourself about those ears ;)
Bc i am well I hope you are as well
Sleepy, I guess. Thanks for asking.
Why so pissy earlier?
Mayo, you still owe us a bedtime story don't you?
I'm warm. And damp. And eating ice cream.
-A
yay first for amy!!
mya you're all ears? must make clothing hard to find
i had a blended iced latte today -- what'd you get, mayo?
Pretty okay, Mayo.
I got you a cow.
Pissy Mood?
No problem. We all have those.
Hey Mayo!
Why don't you tell us who you are MAYO.
Doing pretty well tonight, M. Tired b/c I was out all day today. L's hurting some from the fibromyalgia, but otherwise alright. What were you pissy about?
J
Pissy moods are fun. I get my most creative when I'm in a pissy mood.
I'm Here
I'm good thanks mayo,nice fine day and all :)
LOL Ergo!
Hey, a first is a first, but around here, it never happens once!
-A is wearing her fanclub hat.
Well Mayo, I'm a little tired after giving birth to the twins; but, I should be back to 100 percent by tomorrow.
I'm glad to hear you are well!
That's good MJ. Yep, I'm good, just listening to some tunes.
I wouldn't mind Clinton being VP, as long as John McCain doesn't become President. His ideas about the war are pretty fucked up and unrealistic.
"You couldn't shut me up if you tried"
"So yeah, I am pretty good. A bit of a pissy mood earlier. But, I am over it."
I'm sorry. Dude that sucks. You know we all lay it out there...but if you are over it, that's good too. Don't hold it in too much.
And thanks for swinging by when you said you would. Could you tell we sexcited?! ^_^
Hiya star
amy would you like me to autograph it?
mayo have you been well apart from pissy earlier?
life treating you nicely?
Hey Mayo, when do you think you're going to end the blog?
Just out of curiousity.
So Mayo lots of Lovelies here.
Not that we were waiting for you or anything.
No hair brushes...just a bunch a bad words.
And yes, I am often inspired when I am pissy.
Why don't you once and for all take control of your blog Mayo and tell CERTAIN people how they should behave ie a certain group of people who chased others away.
*were*
Fuck. :/
Please do Ergo!
-A
Sweetcheeks, did you the e-mail I sent you? I hope Cupcake received hers......
I threw my hairbrush at the cat once. Completely unintended.
Poor thing is terrified of the bathroom now.
-A
Amy, you're eating ice cream? No fair. I had someone go to the store and fetch some for me >:)
Mayo,
Bad words are the best and most fun.
Just sayin....
I know them very well.
I'm often pissed off when I'm pissy
Awwww, try it sometime, Mayo. You can even say bad words as you sling the hairbrush. That works best. Bwah!
*chorused*
hello, himself! an' pleased to be seein' you here!
So Mayo, what did your discontent inspire you to do? Something positive, I hope?
"It t'was the winter, of our Discount Tent."
*giggles to herself*
-A
sugarplum, yeah I did. Thank you very much :)
Did I tell you about my summer concert plans yet? I'm not gonna go to Ozzfest after all.
Were the "bad" words justified Mayo, or were you just in a bad mood?
*grabs artline finepoint marker*
to amyranth...
couldn't ask for a more fabulous club president
lots of love
Ergoproxy ♥xx♥
*hands back hat*
BC, it's not just ice cream, it's a hot fudge sundae with peanuts on it.
*OM NOM NOM*
-A
Mayo, you remember FuckFest2007? Was your pissy mood on that level of pissy, or what?
One of my favorite swear "words" is "motherfuckin' sonofabitch". Or "sonofabitchin' motherfucker". Feel free to use it.
Hey, have you seen the new Indiana Jones movie yet? If so, how is it?
J
If was inspired by pissy moods I'd be fucking brilliant.
*counts her toes*
23 again? Dude..
Thank you for the shirt Ergo!
-A
mayo, i feel like we scare you a bit. (lowercase makes me feel like i whispering).
And you know, it makes me so angry. This race totally pointed up really deep issues of racism and sexism that I really almost had begun to think were buried. But a black man and a woman run for president and up they sprout again in the form of "edgy humor." A T shirt that read "Bros before Hos" with pictures of Obama and Clinton? Come on! Did you all know about "Citizens United Not Timid" (yeah, way to be oblique there!), an
anti-Clinton group founded by Republican guru Roger Stone. Honestly!
What an ugly world this can be.
hello little dustbunnykins!
*hands over small foil wrapped chocolate brownie crumbs*
TJ: please do something about the evil typo fairy! She's eating my words again. :(
I was inspired to write a bunch of angry shit and although it relieved my mood it will never see the light of day.
Well, I should never say never.
Mayo, why did you let us know ahead of time when you were going to be on?
*Totally jealous of Amy's ice cream*
Gahhhh; you're making me hungry ^_^
Shit, Mayo! Let it all out!
Let it out here!
We do...
fuck it. my thoughts and my typing are not in sync with one another. missing words. :(
Why?! Oh yes, I know!
yeah. "never say never" -- that should be embroidered on a little pillow for your recliner, mayo. *grin*
I mostly curse when I'm angry. I don't have the wherewithal to sit and write ANYTHING.
Bull in a china shop, you see.
-A
It's kind of cool to see Mayo here bitching about his day like the rest of the lovelies.
Amyranth said...
BC, it's not just ice cream, it's a hot fudge sundae with peanuts on it.
Do NOT ask me to work out for you to!;)
Mayo,
So long as you wrote it down and got that shit out, that's really all that matters, right?
You have to let it go.
*shares some of her ice cream with BC*
I think there's more in the kitchen, if anyone wants some hot fudge sundaes with peanuts.
-A
Well, it's good that writing makes you feel better. Throwing things and punching people makes me feel better so, yeah, good for you. :)
Never say never, sometimes the angry shit needs to come out.
Oooooh! Thankee, Miss Ergo!
*shares the crumbs out among the three*
Anima,
Yes, I am a bit overwhelmed.
mayo I find sometimes it's good to get it out,it doesn't have to be shared, just giving it a place is often enough
Mayo
If writing it made you feel better than it served it's purpose.
Just make sure you hide it really well. Crap like that can be bad if it gets out and you don't want it to.
wow 100 comments in 10 minutes!
Amy I would like some Ice cream. Please
Mayo,
Are you really feeling better? And don't be scared of us, we're just a bunch of crazies, but harmless.
mayo is so obviously the anon writing about how cool it is that mayo is here bitching about his day with the lovelies.
yeah..right...cool.
An ugly world but a beautiful world. A better, revised view of the Milky Way.
mayo, the blog's a bit sink or swim once you're commenting...just go with the current.
and stop proofreading. that just slows you down.
Let it go.
I agree.
Then why tell everyone a head of time? Everyone that would have been in bed by now is staying up for you.
Glad you could get something out.
It's hard being all clogged up in the head.
fuck you Blogger! Thanks for eating my comment.
My friend, it is what it is. Sometimes it is best that you keep things to yourself. Sacred.
....
I do miss my pen and paper.
12:10, I am certainly not Mayo.
*almost* feel sorry.
* EVERYONE STEP AWAY FROM THE MAYO...
HE'S OVERWHELMED *
Sorry Mayo, we can't help it. It's just fucking cool when you stop by and talk.
oh I just heard a snake eating a frog noise somewhere, at least it sounded outside
he is slow because he is posting as some of the anons as well Teej
*adds some ice cream to another bowl for Martha*
-A
Hello knipp. Thanks Amy *gratefully takes ice cream*
When I get angry, sometimes I pretend that my punching bag is Howard Stern, or some other kind of pig headed asshole that pisses me off.
When I'm not doing that, I blast my metal really high. Makes me feel a hell of a lot of better.
Hey Mayo.
You seem more relaxed than the other times you have commented.
You must have needed to blow that valve* for a while ^_^
*lights mayo a cigarette*
*that is not meant to be dirty!
*zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........*
Oh my gosh, and i just found the most awesome thing. You guys know how I'm always babbling about the duality of light, and how it "knows" when it's being watched? This article kinda pretty much explains that better than I ever could with my clumsy vocabulary.
I'm sorry you are overwhelmed. My only hope is that you feel safe here. It is your place after all.
Ergo.. um.. I hate to ask, but how does one "know" what that sounds like?
:S
-A
Damn the day the doctor took you off the meds, Kapuanua!
we should set it up like Santa, each have a turn sitting on mayo's knee while the others wait behind gaily tinselled barriers in a zig zag pattern
he does not seem relaxed, he seems tense awkward and nervous as usual.
with no personality
anon 12:11
Hell no, not for me. I'm almost always here at this time of night talking to the other bloggers. And right now that's what I'm doing.
Oh my god! This splits me up.
Well, hell, wouldn't you be nervous about thirty women throwing questions at you all at once?
*slings a hairbrush*
Jesus.
What?! I'm awake! Really! I am!
Mayo,
When I feel a little overwhelmed I try to lighten the mood.
So:
What's silver and red and waddles into walls?
A hungry zombie baby with forks in its eyes.
It's an oldie, but a goodie.
Nope, I am slow because I am typing one-handed.
Hey, what time IS it where everyone else is?
It's 10:16pm here in Calgary.
-A
Thank you amy
Naughty Mayo!
ewww, where is the other hand
OH MY GOD!
Not "Please Be Gentle" jokes, Sdock.
;)
Amyranth said...
Ergo.. um.. I hate to ask, but how does one "know" what that sounds like?
well.....
we have a lot of frogs, and they are a favourite of tree snakes, we hear it often enough.It's very loud, it only happened once though, so it must have been a small frog
One-handed, you say?
Nope, I'm not gonna ask!
kinda already been there, ergo. no thanks.
*sitting on the floor, by the couch*
*cappuccino cookie bits on open palm*
Wow, okay, then. O_o
LMAO!
Eww, you're so naughty.
*No, but not works, too. O_o
It's "Mayo-time"!
Oh God Mayo
Where is that other hand?
Blogger Mayonaise said...
Nope, I am slow because I am typing one-handed.
June 4, 2008 12:16 AM
For RW
O_O
amy it's 9:17
Mayonaise said...
Nope, I am slow because I am typing one-handed.
wouldn't expect anything less!
lol
I like you Mayo.
Mayo, me too.
Fun, isn't it?!
Gutter!
Where the hell were you all of yesterday!?
for once, i am glad i have a slow dial-up connection.
*steadfastedly not looking in mayo's direction*
here, little dustkin, nice fuzzy little dustkin.
Amy, it's 11:19 here and I am currently watching some SVU
Wow, listen to the Vultures spew! Y'all sound a little tense yourselves, you nasty ones. How many of YOU need meds?
Smoke, throw that hairbrush, ok? You have good aim. :)
J
Boob?
Mayo, I'm going to assume you have a cat on your lap.
Wait, shit, no that doesn't work.
-A
Mayo is totally holding a cookie in the other hand, you guys.
Err, EDIT!
Delete comment.
Sorry.
Shut up anon, at least she's not pesting him to look at her stupid fucking pictures, she is acting halfway decend to don't get her started
A cookie? Or a smoothie?
Smoothie for sure.
Ergo, that's a real talent you have there.
"Oh my god! What was that horrible noise?"
"Oh, that. Just a frog being eaten by a snake" *wanders along happily*
O_O
-A
Amy you almost forgot our cat jokes didn't you
Smoothie? Well if he is, that's just cold, seeing as how I almost burnt the fucking house down trying to make one yesterday.
i'm typing one handed too. this is rough!
I think mayo may have injured his hand helping small woodland creatures in need
You guys crack me up, seriously...
Man, I love smoothies, but they have a lot of calories. I got a bit of a "smoothie gut" so I been layin' off lately.
I've been busy, sorry I couldn't lend a hand yesterday.
I want to thank you in advance Mayo since don't know when you will bolt. It was nice of you to drop by, people were complaining like forever about you with the not hanging out thing, so nice to throw a bone, so to speak. I actually kinda like you, most days. And you do write some phenomenal things that make me think. So, thanks.
Amy
Mayo is petting my Bigglesworth.
Mayonaise said...
Nope, I am slow because I am typing one-handed.
June 4, 2008 12:16 AM
So, uh...whatcha wearing, Mayo? You want us to start talking dirty?
Hell, if you've been to the SP blog, you know we're good at it!
J
Awwwww, Mayo. You are funny.
Not if you use yogurt.
They are healthy and all things right and good with the world.
he does not seem relaxed, he seems tense awkward and nervous as usual.
with no personality
Well, partially yes, but he is using slang and less formal language. Relaaaxed, even if a little overwhelmed. I like it
Sorry, Mayo. That was a bit awkward, you being here and all.
*12:13am/PP swims diagonally out of the blog current and makes for shore*
Nice to see so many of you here at once =)
Later all!
or he's currently directing traffic.
or conducting a symphony.
or signing peace treaties.
Wendy, where have you been young lady? ^_^
Mayo,
Smoothies are dangerous.
Just sayin...
That was totally supposed to say
Mayo is petting Mr Bigglesworth.
Shit
Elena, that's not cool. He was just stroking my Hazel.
-A
Hi pickled possom. Bye pickled possom. Take care.
Not if you let Sdock make it, cuz ummmm, you won't get one.
*snickers*
Bwah! Couldn't help it.
Not the way I make smoothies, mine have no calories at all.*
*Not really.
Smoothies will burn down your fucking house.
Do not listen to Mustard or Smoke.
Ah, still doing what you do, I see.
STFU, Sdock.
Smoothies will solve all the world's problems.
Smoothies will burn down your fucking house.
Will the hire a dog to burn down a hospital?
How dare you guys make fun of my smoothie catastrophe yesterday!!!
I thought you were my friends!
And my own sister!!
Will they kill your friends, and ride their corpses like a carousel?
Hello and goodbye PP.
But also, with the being masterful, so bow down.
Mayo, you feelin' the love?
...
Me too! Don't worry about a thing. We have you.
...
*beep* My hubby is calling...
i've been in hiding, sweetchecks. what have you been doing?
Yes Jules, yes smoothies will do all that.
Was that sloths or lemurs, can't remember?
hey PP my antipodean pal! nice to see you
Hey S&V if you are still here. Today when I took a shower there was a spider in there with me. I thought it was dead but it wasn't.
Mayo,
Is there anything you want to ask us, tell us, or talk about with us?
Oh man, someone remembered. It was sloths!
hi possum!
Martha Jones said...
Hey S&V if you are still here. Today when I took a shower there was a spider in there with me. I thought it was dead but it wasn't.
Make her stop, Mayo. MAKE HER STOP!
^_~
Smoothies aren't the be-all and end-all.
I like Iced Tea myself. Less work.
And then I can eat my fruit, fresh.
-A
Hi and bye Possum! We miss you like mad. *hugs and kisses*
Guys, I'm not even going into that whole cat-petting thingy. But I know Mrs Slocum would say:
"My pussy got all wet and I had to dry it out by the fire!"
J
me!
or mayo
I think i'm a bit late
My eyes are beady.
It kinda feels like those entries that have been tucked away, but not the right day.
And there are no sweaty palms.
milkshakes are better
i'm on top!!!!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!!
I am glad that you are all here and that my little prompt seemed to work.
And before anyone asks, yes I do notice some are missing and I do find it troubling.
I no longer question this whole thing. I just go with it, you know?
Sugarplum, just chit-chating a bit here. I wanted to tell you that I'm not going to ozzfest after all. I'm going to the mayhem tour instead.
You don't have to hide :)
The ignoring that is happening in her from Mayo is warming my heart! Thank you Mayo. I am sorry she is still here
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