There are so many things missing, last night
Last week, and now quieted by irreverence
Two feet deep and thick with sickness
We are lost and no longer linger. Still
I can reason your denial in difference
Came upon you for thought, and mine
I must say thrust upon me in shame.
I shut my book to save your eyes.
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
p.s. with an uncompromised view for any other is...well, it is compromised.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
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something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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«Oldest ‹Older 1601 – 1800 of 5811 Newer› Newest»Saint Frank sold everyone who doesn't like MSI down the river and NO ONE DARED question him about that.
Even if he had to do the interview he could have POLITELY disagreed with him sayng that you were all jealous!
Pick and choose your battles.
Oh Dear Lord, I just have to see a blue name on this page.
Carry on..carry on...
Hi, Solly :)
i spy with my little eye....
something....
that starts with...
the letter "p"!
anyone want to take a guess?
anon you hate Mayo's. why are you here?
tj,
I spy gets you in trouble. I don't play that game.
and being so self-righteous and all?
aw, sdock, not with me.
go on, guess!
Pickles?
Popsickles?
Pirates??
nope! not pickles -- guess again!
nope, no popsicles, no pi...wait.
*checks under the desk*
nope, no pirates!
guess again!
Um...
*thinks*
Pete Wentz?
eeeeewwwwwwwwwwww!
no way! no pete wentz here!
Er... piggies?
*is running out of guesses*
Anonymous said...
Saint Frank sold everyone who doesn't like MSI down the river and NO ONE DARED question him about that.
Oh my God...Drama much? Who the hell cares? Maybe he really does like the group. Will the world stop turning if he does?
Okay, I don't like the band, I don't like a lot of their lyrics but I'm pretty sure they are not going to cause the fall of mankind.
Honestly you'd think the guy had committed some terrible crime. Only he knows why he did what he did. At the end of the day does this really matter? Stop judging without knowing all the facts.
piggies, huh....
wellllll....
*looks down at toes*
yes! i'll give you that one! yay!
now it's your turn. :D
Yay! :D
Okay, I spy with my little eye something that starts with... *looks around*... T.
Well Mother fucking shit I go to work on my ipod for a little while and the most interesting things happen.
Hello Everyone.
So on the whole FI interview with the other male ass in msi. As I remember everyone was very upset with FI when it first came out. But because it was pointed out that he hadn't actually said anything about their music that he was lying. He said things about them having a good work ethic.
As far as the we are all jealous fangirls shit. Yes I would have loved if he had stood up and said something. I am disappointed that he let that one slip by. But I am sure after hat letter about Eliza showed up he was in the shit house for while. Even if he didn't do it.
So I don't think he wanted to stir shit up.
Hi, MJ :D
"t".
hmmm....
*looks around*
Hello RW.
Shit. I always seem to miss all the fun
Sexy Sadie what have you done
You made a fool of everyone
You made a fool of everyone
Sexy Sadie ooh what have you done.
Sexy Sadie you broke the rules
You layed it down for all to see
You layed it down for all to see
Sexy Sadie oooh you broke the rules.
One sunny day the world was waiting for a lover
She came along to turn on everyone
Sexy Sadie the greatest of them all.
Sexy Sadie how did you know
The world was waiting just for you
The world was waiting just for you
Sexy Sadie oooh how did you know.
Sexy Sadie you'll get yours yet
However big you think you are
However big you think you are
Sexy Sadie oooh you'll get yours yet.
We gave her everything we owned just to sit at her table
Just a smile would lighten everything
Sexy Sadie she's the latest and the greatest of them all.
She made a fool of everyone
Sexy Sadie.
However big you think you are
Sexy Sadie.
hi martha. :)
i'm gonna guess a...
tassel???
:D
Nope!
Guess again, TJ.
hey.....
wait a minnit.
me? do you spy me?
Hello TJ
hey.....
wait a minnit.
me? do you spy me?
*squeals*
You got it! :D
Where did Solly go?
we're playing i spy, martha -- you wanna play?
i got it!!!!
whoo-hoo!
*victory lap*
that was a good one, resurrected wreck. you are very clever. ;)
FI is no saint, period. And I doubt anyone sees him that way here.
Maybe he just doesn't behave as foolishly, publicly. But he sure ain't perfect.
Heehee!
I will give it a shot
By the power vested in me as the Queen of England, I hereby knight thee, Frank Iero.
Have you ever noticed how the teenies and fangirls on buzznet or INO actually call other people teenies and fangirls, but won't admit to it themselves? People always think they're somehow different or special.
Some of you aren't fangirls, I'll give you that. But some of you need to re-evaluate. Cuz if the Dead! hoodie fits...
Hello little boys, little toys
We're the dreams you're believing
Crawling up the walls
Running down your face
Razor sharp, razor clean
Feel the weapon's sensation
On your back...
With loaded guns
Now hold onto me pretty baby
If you want to fly
I'm gonna melt the fever sugar
Rolling back your eyes
We're gonna ride the race cars
We're gonna dance on fire
We're the girls Le Disko
Supersonic overdrive
So what's it gonna take?
Silver shadow believer....
Spock rocker with your dirty eyes
It's a chance gonna move
Gonna fuck up your ego
Silly boy gonna make you cry
If what they say is true...
You're a boy - and I'm a girl
I will never fall in love with you
Anon,
I am wearing my Dead! hoodie right now. It fits. It's snuggly and warm. But I don't put mine in the dryer because I don't want it to shrink.
Or anon some people try to see the good in all people.
I for one don't always see the good in people. And when I see someone acting like a jack as I am more than likely to call them on it. While others feel that it isn't their place.
You need to remember that not everyone here is the I will call you out person. Some people feel that it is better to wait and see. And others feel it isn't their place to say anything. I hardly think that is a fan girl
go for it martha!
Baroness,
I ♥ you.
Just sayin...
or some people are just angry with someone
no, i meant, tell us what you spy. :)
What is the name of that group I have that song on a cd some place dame I am going to be up all night working with my Ipod now.
I spy with my little eye something black.
hmmm, something black.
*looks around*
Mayo,
Tootalooo! I'm up way past my bedtime.
Hope you're well!
Talk to ya later!
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Shit is so much funnier at 2am!
licorice?
Goodnight sd
No it is bigger than that.
Night, Solly :)
Something black...
Anons?
eye
My soul?
No
My milk shake brings all the boys to the yard,
and they're like,
it's better than yours,
damn right it's better than yours,
I can teach you,
but I have to charge!
My milk shake brings all the boys to the yard,
and they're like,
it's better than yours,
damn right it's better than yours,
I can teach you,
but I have to charge!
I can see you're on it,
you want me to teach the
techniques that freaks these boys,
it can't be bought,
just know thieves get caught,
watch if you're smart
lala-lalala,
warm it up,
lala-lalala,
the boys are waiting,
lala-lalala
warm it up,
lala-lalala,
the boys are waiting,
My milk shake brings all the boys to the yard,
and they're like,
it's better than yours,
damn right it's better than yours,
I can teach you,
but I have to charge!
My milk shake brings all the boys to the yard,
and they're like,
it's better than yours,
damn right it's better than yours,
I can teach you,
but I have to charge!
and once you get involved,
everyone will look this way so
you must maintain your charm,
same time maintain your halo,
just get the perfect blend,
plus what you have within,
then next his eyes are squint,
then he's picked up your scent,
lala-lalala,
warm it up,
lala-lalala,
the boys are waiting,
lala-lalala
warm it up,
lala-lalala,
the boys are waiting,
My milk shake brings all the boys to the yard,
and they're like,
it's better than yours,
damn right it's better than yours,
I can teach you,
but I have to charge!
leather jacket?
No not eyes or a soul but I like that.
It is something I like
Not that either Tj
is someone ready to burst?
Love that song Milkshake
coffee?
(that's what i like...)
I spy with my little eye something black and alive.
oh oh oh! do you have a pet, martha? a dog or a cat??
A kitty??
Parade?
Oh wait, the Black Parade is dead.
Never mind.
2:10 & 2:12 = true love
it's one of my cats. he his black and his name is Barney
Ghost Ship, it rocks.
Nice one RW about tbp
I lurvs kitties!
aawww! barney! :D
cool, martha. good job!
definitely bigger than a licorice. *heh*
I love kitties to that is why I have 3 . I had 4 but one died.
It might rain this week
3 kitties!
I don't even have one :/ I'd like to, but my current place just isn't big enough.
We're going to have a thunderstorm in a couple of days over here, MJ. Which is why I think my head has been hurting.
Did you guys see the pic of the hoodie I was going to get my nephew? I picked it up today.
I am sorry to hear about your head RW.
Yes 3
Barney, Simon and Makona
Tj guess where i got the last one's name from
oh, it's sad to lose a pet, martha.
what are the names of barney's housemates?
I don't think so Rw
You know what I don't have any MCR stuff other than their CDs
The one that died was Domino
Oh and a dog name lucy.
i asked the question too late.:(
but...makona.
isn't that an anime -- the three girls, swords, drawn by clamp, starts with an "r"...
argh! i can't think of the name!!!
makona is the little wizardy plump white creature, with the jewel in his head, right?
This is the hoodie, MJ.
i didn't see the hoodie, resurrected wreck, sorry. what one is it?
that's so cute RW
Yes it is but i named my makona after the black one in xxxholic
late with the question again -- but what a cute hoodie!
oh, cool, martha. i've only read a couple of volumes of the xxxholic manga. clamp are always good though, so i know i'll end up finishing them eventually.
It says Milk, Hugs, Rock & Roll, TJ.
Thanks, anon @ 2:29am :)
That is a cute hoodie.
I am watching the anime for xxxholic right now.
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Why you dress like me
is it honesty or you just a fool
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Why the school kids laugh
cause the papers got it wrong again
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Take a piece of me
serve me up on a plate in your restaurant
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Is it ‘cos I’m fly
‘Cos I said what I said
when I said what I said but I didn’t say
Is it ‘cos I’m hip
Why you dig my shit
and you say I am a fan now I understand
Is it ‘cos I‘m hot
Why you mention me in your V.I.P memories
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
I ain’t buying or selling today
I‘m just looking around
For some decent conversation
No hidden agenda
No phony pretender
No holding on out for no sweet sixteen
Or peppermint dream
I’ll call you please don’t call me
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Is it ‘cos I’m Smart
Why you break my heart
with the lies you tell baby kiss and tell
Is it ‘cos I’m wrong
That you jump right in
with no discipline baby sink or swim
Is it ‘cos we’re friends
why you use my name just to entertain yeah
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Time keeps ticking and running away
And It’s taking us fast to a brand new free dimension
Too cool to mention well that’s the intention
But some of us too dame blind to see
It’s setting us free
To say goodbye to jealousy
Is it ‘cos I’m cool
Well, I think it's time for me to turn in.
Have a good night, MJ, TJ, anon(s) :)
how old is your nephew, if you don't mind me asking RW?
He's two, anon.
Well, your CD collection looks shiny and costly.
How much did you pay for your bad Moto Guzi?
And how much did you spend on your black leather jacket?
Is it you or your parents in this income tax bracket?
Now tickets to concerts and drinking at clubs,
Sometimes for music that you haven't even heard of.
And how much did you pay for your rock'n'roll t-shirt
That proves you were there,
That you heard of them first?
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
Ah, tell me.
How much did you pay for the chunk of his guitar,
The one he ruthlessly smashed at the end of the show?
And how much will he pay for a brand new guitar,
One which he'll ruthlessly smash at the end of another show?
And how long will the workers keep building him new ones?
As long as their soda cans are red, white, and blue ones.
And how long will the workers keep building him new ones?
As long as their soda cans are red, white, and blue ones.
Aging black leather and hospital bills,
Tattoo removal and dozens of pills.
Your liver pays dearly now for youthful magic moments,
But rock on completely with some brand new components.
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
Excess ain't rebellion.
You're drinking what they're selling.
Your self-destruction doesn't hurt them.
Your chaos won't convert them.
They're so happy to rebuild it.
You'll never really kill it.
Yeah, excess ain't rebellion.
You're drinking what they're selling.
Excess ain't rebellion.
You're drinking,
You're drinking,
You're drinking what they're selling.
;( goodnight Rw
thanks for the reply RW. I can just picture a little boy in that hoodie. So gorgeous!
He's only two and already has a better wardrobe than I have, anon!
G'night, everyone :)
Martha Jones said...
Well, your CD collection looks shiny and costly.
How much did you pay for your bad Moto Guzi?
And how much did you spend on your black leather jacket?
Is it you or your parents in this income tax bracket?
Now tickets to concerts and drinking at clubs,
Sometimes for music that you haven't even heard of.
And how much did you pay for your rock'n'roll t-shirt
That proves you were there,
That you heard of them first?
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
How do you afford your rock'n'roll lifestyle?
Ah, tell me.
Very good. Like it
That last song goes out to msi
Anon It is by cake.
good night resurrected wreck. thanks for playing i spy with me. :)
sweet dreams!
That's a good one right there
Hmm.. Cake. Which cd may I ask?
(just so there is no confusion, I am not the other anons from before)
Cake
Motorcade of Generosity
left alone in the castle.
*hangs head and kicks dust as walks away*
MJ you still round??
Thanks.I like Cake. Comfort Eagle is a good one too.
You're welcome I have fashine nugget and a few singles.
lewis! is it true -- your birthday is sunday, too?
Goodnight all. Thank you for the Cake lyrics.
Seems I missed MJ, crap.
I agree Anon, Comfort Eagle is killer. Can I ask you somethin anon?? Did you happen to catch the SURS bits with (some of) MCR going round? I don't have the stomach to watch it, and I just want to know if it's true that Frank nodded in agreement to the jealous fangirls/MSI Non-fans bit. Any thoughts???
good night, anon. sweet dreams.
It's true TJ. And Happy Birthday. I hope you have a fun one. :)
Good night anon and you are welcome. Lewis I am here I went to get some food.
Happy Birthday Lewis & TJ (different anon)
you too, lewis. i never had a twin for my birthday before. :)
Happy Birthday you two
thank you, anon. :)
Howdy MJ, glad you came back have a question.
Thank you very much anon. It's greatly appreciated. And a very happy unbirthday to you. :P
you are very welcome TJ
thanks, martha! :)
Thanks Tj. And oddly enough, we have another. We're triplets. My buddy Nicky shares our day too. I guess a lot of people enjoyed themselves nine months to our day -over the years. ;)
that's happy thought, lewis -- or a slightly icky one, depending on your point of view!
Thanks very much MJ, you know you're fab. :)
So can I ask you guys, the SURS interview -what the earlier anon was saying, that Frank just agreed -with whom? -About the people who claim to dislike MSI are jsut jealous fangirls? Who said this, and did he really just nod in agreement??
lol Lewis what is your question
Lewis, I have been a long time lurker here, and I do remember your posts from the past.
You don't seem to visit here as often. I hope you can rectify this. I always enjoyed reading your words.
Could go either way TJ. I was leaving it open for personal interpretation... Of course I personally meant it the naughty way. But that's a me thing. Do you have any special plans. I didn't until yesterday evening. I'm going to see Dr.Jones with my ma and our best friend. Should be awesome, we've not gotten to see her much.
I think the anon was talking about an interview with Frank and Steve from msi. Where Steve said that that the only reason people didn't like them was because they were Jealous of GW and Lyn-z. it was from when they were on tour together
but i haven't watched the new interview yet
Wow, thanks anon. I really appreciate that. Dispite the fact that- that's a little creepy to me. ;p No really, thank you for that. I've just been disenchanted with a whole slue of things and people lately. It's hard to be positive much, and I don't want upset things.
i'm here in kentucky staying with my folks, lewis, and i guess we aren't going to do much. (i think maybe they have a tiny surprise for me, but that might just be my wishful thinking.)
Oh really MJ!? A band member of MSI said that -and Frank nodded in agreement -While They Were On Tour Together???
;)
Well, that changes everything. Thanks MJ.
Lewis, you do not upset things.
Not everything is chipper, things need some balance.
...and no need to thank me :)
I hope it's cupcakes Tj. :)
You know, I've gotten a lot of flack being so close to my ma; I really think it's sad that it's no longer the norm. So, I hope you have a lovely time with your parents Tj, even if there aren't any cupcakes. :P
I don't know if he actually nodded. it was an interview in Kerrang.
And they are coming across as a shitty mag.
They are the ones who call Lyn-z Mrs GW but than agree with her that it is wrong. I really wish they had had the balls to say. You know we are only talking to you because you are married to him.
Cool anon. (I feel inclined to say thanks anyway.)
:)
I do think finding balance is just as difficult as maintaining joy though. I believe it is a Life Skill. I haven't found a book on that one yet. Well, I might have, but I haven't bothered to read it -as that would be rather balancing... ;p
thanks, lewis. we'll just have to see what the day will bring.
i'm really only hoping to get a moolatte from dairy queen. they are soooo good. :)
No Martha, it's really, we are only talking to you because of who you are married to, because we know it sells our magazines and all the fangirls can make us money.
I see no problem in being calls to your parents. Especial now that the economy is going to shit. You are going to need all the help you can get. Or they might need all the help they can get.
Ahhh, the lovely and wise MJ. You speak volumes Martha, such a valid point. And you just stopped me from turning in my Badge. ;p Thanks for that MJ.
If it was in Kerrang... Blah Blah Blah. ;) I feel the hate rising. Or maybe it's just bile... give me a minute to figure it out. ;p
...oh, and I forgot...we need a spot to fill.
We don't have a Dairy Queen here Tj. I am so curious. Their just infamous. Are they really so grand as their reputation makes them out to be? Or was it just that that was the first ever chain?
So true anon. As much as I find -well, all of that relationship false, disturbing, terrifying and disgusting on certain days -I do feel sorry for him, with what she said in that last bit. I hope to God he wasn't standing next to her when she said all that vile shit. It would have crushed and enraged me, if I were him.
And very true MJ! It would be the latter in our house! Halfies of all the paychecks simply go to the cost of living! And what a living!
I wonder how she would have taken that. To have someone tell her that. That we the people interviewing you don't think you have any talent. We just want to sell magazines to the fan girls that love your husband and are hoping that you will tell them how big he is.
Thank you Lewis. I am trying to think I might know where a DQ is
ahh ha ha -anon! ;p
Well, does she not simply giggle -when asked the deep think questions MJ?? If I had THAT job ( as an interviewer) I'd say outright 'you are truly not paying me enough to speak to an instrument of the downfall of humanity...'
There is a DQ stand at southland mall. I knew I had seen one some place.
Lewis do you know where a Sonics is. I am always seeing the commercial but there are none any where near me on my side of the bay
i don't know what to tell you, lewis. there's just something about that soft-serve ice cream. :)
Oh really MJ!? Kickass! (Do they really wear those little apron's and hats!?) Have you been to Del Taco in Sac? My friends over there took us by one after a concert. I was simply astounded that they were open SO LATE! And, I'm not sure if the food was all that grand, but -it was a 5 in the morning. So.. and now I'm hungry. :(
It's really all relative. I think alot of the controversy is really there to generate sales.
That's what makes the entertainment industry go around, unfortunately.
Anon more like all of the good bands are to busy to talk to us. So it came down to you are the homeless guy who lives in front of the music store. You won the coin toss
Oh Tj stop! You guys are killing me! How did this turn to food!?? Kitchen raid!
You know, I've seen the comercials for Sonics too MJ, and I've not EVER seen one in Sonoma County. What a croc that their everywhere! Why do they insist on wasting air time on channels that play in zones without their product/stores/rests/etc? So foolish. Really, all that effort -and for what?
I can't remember Lewis. I always just pass by the DQ. There is a stone Cold at that mall now so I go there.
yeah, but their PR people do all the organizing, especially when it's around a tour or new release.
I assume there's a lot of action behind the scenes.
yum, cold stone creamery
i had never ben to a sonic either, lewis. i'd see the ads all the time in the pacific nw, but no actual restaurants.
there's one here though -- pretty good iced lattes. :)
ahh ha ha MJ! Well, if that homeless gentleman happens to live infront of a REAL music store, I bet he's not so sad about being homeless. At least I wouldn't be! Good tunes is good tunes. ;p
So sad and so true anon. It just kinda sucks that we seemed to have someone in the industry with real worth, that took responsibilty for the power he had -and used it for good - towards and deep affection for/to their fans. It is me or do I sound like I'm talking about a jedi? GW The Jedi Knight. ;p
It is really funny because I am always see these commercials for things that I can't find. Like Walmart Super centers.
Anon the entertainment industry feeds on the bottom feeders of the world. Just look at the hills
Oh lord, please don't talk about the action anon... ;p I simply couldn't take it tonight!
Ohh, Cold Stone. They have the most awesome cake batter flavor. I seem to be on a kick here.
Your making me jealous TJ.
Funny Lewis! I don't think he is a Jedi knight. Just probably well intended and naive in the first instance.
I think the industry can seriously harden a sensitive individual.
*heh* sorry, lewis.
happy birthday!! :D
Mayo
Wow if I had a dollar for every time I rolled my eyes tonight on the blog I’d be a very rich woman. There were some anon’s who were just hell bent on branding us all fangirls. Okay first off let me say that fangirls is a stupid word. Let us be politically correct and call them fanpeople. You know what I’m not even gonna go on a rant about that word cause I know if I do I’ll just start rolling my eyes again and I’m starting to get a headache. I’m just gonna go to my point. These anons claim that we are fangirls because..well okay from what I’ve gathered, because we don’t sit and pick apart members of MCR. Now I have to wonder why anyone would think doing this is a good thing. I mean if you don’t you get the whole derogatory “fangirl” label. So then I guess following that thought process you’re an intelligent person if you do pick their actions apart. This boggles my mind. Okay last time I checked the group was made up of five guys. Not super heroes, just guys. So why would anyone think they’re perfect? Aren’t they just people? Why would it be a good thing to judge people I don’t know? Okay this makes sense in my head but I’m not sure I’m explaining it right. I guess my whole point is why is it wrong to like a group of guys? Why is it wrong to see the good and not look for the bad? Martha had a great comment she said “Or anon some people try to see the good in all people.” Exactly. That’s what I do. I just try to see the good. Is that wrong? Am I supposed to look for flaws? I don’t look for flaws in anyone. Maybe cause I know how flawed I am and I really don’t want anyone pointing that out. So maybe this is wrong but I truly don’t think so. Ever stop and think that if everyone tried to see the good in others how much better life would be? Look there is so much ugly, bad shit in the world what’s wrong with looking for good? I’m tired of negative, nasty comments. Hell, I’m just plain tired of a lot of shit. I want to see the good in people not the bad. Oh man, this makes so much sense in my head but I fear it’s not making it to the page. Shit, I guess the bottom like is this. I am a fangirl, no strike that, I’m a fanperson. And I’m happy about that. I refuse to judge anyone. Why the hell would I think it’s my right to do so?
Night Mayo
Elena (I too am wearing a DEAD hoodie)
One more thing……I don’t know why but for some reason I want to leave you some lyrics. I have loved this song for years.
Reason to Be (Kansas)
So long, someone is waiting
I got places to go, I got things to see
No more procrastinating
For this is the moment that was meant for me
And I'm moving like a wave on the ocean
Drifting to the opposite ride
Traveling with no destination
Just riding the tide
People they say that I'm foolish
They say that I'm living in a fantasy
I say, everything's easy
It's better than living in futility
So, I'm standing here in back of the curtain
Waiting for the start of the show
Acting like an actor is easy
If you can let go
Someday something will find you
A magical feeling you could not foresee
A feeling so devastating
From that moment on your life's a comedy
And suddenly you're light as a feather
You're falling like a leaf from a tree
The things you thought you needed are fading
Your reason to be
Your making me sad anon. :( I get ya though.
Eww. The Hills. I think reality t.v. is what Really turned the outside world against us. It would certainly drive me to rebel.
Why do I feel like everything I'm typing now has a ring of sci-fi to it? It's getting late, I think!
I want one of Cold stone's cakes. They look so good. Del taco I think there is one over by Bayfair mall. I almost went there one time by they had french fries. That just didn't seem right
Reality t.v. is as real as "the hills". It's all edited shit.
I think that reality TV is what fucked up the minds of the younger generations. All they see on tv now are people who have no talent winning big.
Like that kid who was going to sue AI because he didn't get to be on it. So he asked if he could be a reporter. So he was given seats out in the bleacher section and that wasn't good enough. Now he is famous. He was on Jimmy what his name show last night.
Their not Jedi's either Elena! ;p Hope you are doing well! And night night if you are off already! <3
I won't hold it against you TJ -and again Happy Birthday to you too fellow day-er! :D
MJ, have you ever heard of Mike's in Cotati?? Apparently his place is infamous -his comercial's are certainly annoying! But they don't serve fries either. That is just so weird to me to. That's like Christmas without Santa (or deep religous meaning, for some!). The very idea is So Confusing!
Just ask yourself this if the hills is real life why do they need so many writers for it.
Goodnight Elena
No Lewis I haven't heard of Mike's.
It may be edited anon, but I believe those people still actually think and behave the way they are potrayed on screen! THAT is what scares me!
And MJ, I think it fucked more than the littles of this country! It's like fluoride in the tap water -it's seeping into our brains.... you ever feel pod-ish?? ;p
it's never "real" because real life would bore the pants off anyone.
How many exciting things do you do in a day?
I find the hills boring every time i have come across it someone is getting their nails done.
time for me to hit the hay, i'm afraid. i should've been asleep a while ago...
good thing somebody invented coffee.
toodles and pip pip.
...because the 'actors' are so screwed over on pills they have to be 'directed'??
I'm being a shit! Anyway, I'm to get offline now. You know, I still haven't built that shelf MJ! Such a bum! I'm very glad to have stopped by here tonight, everybody made me feel so much better. Thanks MJ, Anon, TJ (and Elena!) -you really helped me tonight. I'm not ready to give up on certain people yet. ;) (But of course, I won't be expecting any lightsaber heroics either!)
See ya round Mj. <3
And anon, I hope you come back out some time. You should pick a name and hang with us. We need more friendlies. ;D You're words really meant something, thank you.
-loves ladies! (and possible gents!) -l
goodnight tj
-Oh, none what so ever anon! ;p
Even getting my own nails done is rather boring MJ! And I would always keep thinking -how clean are those tools?? :(
Alrighty, nighty night gang! I hope everone is well -and have a grand B-day TJ! -loves you guys, l
goodnight lewis
you're very welcome Lewis
mayo,
i was sitting down by the ohio river today, where three days ago a boy drowned and was lost to the water forever. elena and i were texting to each other about…well, philosophy really, and masks (strange to see that come up in conversation here tonight), and the elusive nature of truth. i had questions i needed her opinion on.
i always have questions, actually. i’m always testing myself, always gauging my reaction for its verity. is that how i really felt about that? is that how events really unfolded? reality is mutable, it truly is, and i want to be certain that i know myself and my story.
you’re part of my story now, you know. you’re the part i can’t pin down, as tricky and as fluid as the river in front of me this afternoon. i’m not suggesting you’re deadly, mayo –- but you’ve come into my story and changed its landscape, most definitely.
mayo, are you the truth?
i believe you are, with all of my heart, but i have no way to verify it. i just have to trust that i’m reading your currents right, even though sometimes, when i’m worrying, i hope i’m reading them wrong.
and no, i’m not asking you if you’re a liar. it’s my own perception that i don’t trust, me i’m questioning, not you. you’ve become one of the subjects i have to test myself on.
i don’t mind the added uncertainty you bring to my life, i truly don’t, because i’m a better person now than i was before the blog. in here i tend to be all healy-feely intuition ("follow your heart, mayo. use the force!"), but i used to be more head than heart, i used to think too much, about everything. you should’ve seen the amount of research i would do before heading out the door!
awful.
but now i know i can trust my heart, as well as my head, here on the blog and out in the world, too. i know my strengths and weaknesses, more clearly than ever before. i trust in my own interpretation of my story, because no one is going to take my life away from me, ever again.
your truth is your own, mayo. i hope we here on the blog can help you acknowledge it, and claim it. it’s your own story, it’s worth living well.
good night, mayo-sama. most sweet dreams to you.
Anyone still here
It WOULD be just like me to be gone for 17 years and then show up at 4am! Friend of ours, S (the woman who tells people that Bob's lipring is actually a fishhook that's grown into his lip), was over for dinner. She and I sat until 1am talking about guys, then she left, and I couldn't shut down mentally.
So, I came on the blog, and spent a looooong-ass time doing all the quizzes I hadn't done. Let's see, what were my results?
Personality Disorder Test:
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Low
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
Ok, I feel all right about that one. Nothing I didn't expect.
Dating Test:
My Top Ten Traits:
1. Liberal
2. Big-Hearted
3. Adventurous
4. Practical
5. Sensual
6. Romantic
7. Funny
8. Intellectual
9. Shy
10. Stylish
My Top Ten Match Traits:
1. Liberal
2. Big-Hearted
3. Practical
4. Adventurous
5. Intellectual
6. Religious
7. Sensual
8. Funny
9. Romantic
10. Outgoing
Again, not unexpected.
1950s Pin-Up Test:
Jayne Mansfield, with 56%
Bettie Page, also 56%
I can also very much live with this!
THEN I got to the various names tests. Since my first name can be either the full "Jennifer" or the nickname "Jenny", I used both, so I have lots of new names:
Pirate Names: Cap'n Doris Greasepalm/Pirate Antonia the Periwinkle
Mexican Wrestler Names: El Pollo Mas Macho/El Taco Mas Sexy
Mafia Names: Lucia the Gun/Big Fat Monica (I DO NOT like that last one!)
Significant Other Pet Names: Spanky Nuts/Silly Buns
I did the Gangsta and Taxi Driver ones, but was unsatisfied with those results (read: NOT FLATTERING)
The Sex Test: Big ol' 5/10. But some of those questions were unfair! How should I know, and why should I care, the average teen's sexual-beginning age? I don't have a teenager. I haven't been one for a looooooooong time. :P
The Hell Test: Move over, Star and PJ, because I'm with you in Level Eight! How, I don't know. But it doesn't surprise me. Probably won't surprise the Anons either. Again, :P
*pants for breath a little*
The trouble with being away for so long is that there's too much to say when you come back!
FASC, Possum, again, TOO FUNNY! Far, all I can say is, Aw bless. *hugs* You're definitely the Linking Queen now! Possum, I'll email you back one day--I hope tomorrow, uh, later today.
HI WENDY! One day we'll meet up again, I hope it's pretty soon...
Elena, TJ, like L said, we can all be crazy together. We actually live about a mile or so from the local insane asylum (which is smack in the middle of a walking park, I kid you not), so y'all can come to TN and we'll all just move right in! Good idea, yais? :D
SDock, I think your comments to Mayo are more insightful than ever. So :P to that anon that said you have no ideas of your own.
I'm gonna have to write another comment before this one blows up the page. When I started, Martha and Lewis were here, and an Anon. Hi to you all if you're still here, and goodnight, if you're not!
*fingers cramping from too much typing*
J
Hey Martha, how are you? I'm feeling some better. I've been in one of my "I hate everything" moods. Really can't bear myself when I'm like that.
J
morning mayo! hope you are fine and dandy and have a lovely saturday!
morning SS you too sweetheart, have a good one!
really quick this morning cos.... well i'm bizzy!!
hi martha if you are still around!
hi/bye TJ!
lewis!!!! i missed you! damn! sleep tight anyway!
resurrected wreck said...
"Multiple exclamation marks," he went on, shaking his head, "are a sure sign of a diseased mind."
Anonymous said...
So FASC is crazy?
haha! i am slightly crazy anon!!!!!!
So sad and so true anon. It just kinda sucks that we seemed to have someone in the industry with real worth, that took responsibilty for the power he had -and used it for good - towards and deep affection for/to their fans. It is me or do I sound like I'm talking about a jedi? GW The Jedi Knight. ;p
aaah lewis you are so sweet and funny!
right guys! i don't even have time to do those quizzes!! damn!
i won't be around until some time tomorrow as i'm away tonight staying with my bro in law and family!
have a great weekend guys!
love to you all!
J are you still here
I am well j I hate to hear that you are in a shitty mood
Hello and goodbye FASC
I am, MJ! What passes for it, anyway. :) I had some thoughts about "fangirls", interviews, and who thinks what about whom.
J
Op J!! hello!
you did the quizzes!! i want to do them but it will have to be another time!! seetime is the meffing problem!!
love your names! so funny!
and i think alot of us are rather evil it seems!!!
take care J, nice to see you!!
really gotta go!
EDIT
see time
arghh!
hi/bye MJ!!
really gone now!
spill J I want to know your opinion.
Hey Far, good to see you too! As you know, I AM the world's worst emailer, so it's no wonder you haven't heard from me...I'll have to do better than that.
I loved your story about missing the bus the other day--laughed b/c I could see it all happening!
Yep, took all the quizzes. OH! I forgot to add my Popsicle Test results: Blimey I'm Limey! Or did I already say? L was the same. Do you know, she only hit Level TWO in Hell? Our answers were almost the same, how'd I get to Level Eight and she's only on Level Two? Hmph.
Hope you have a nice weekend away, Far--have a good time! Catch you later, hopefully!
Martha, I'm actually on the upswing. The Full Moon is over, thank Heaven, and everything else is settling down. And then I get to spend most of the day tomorrow with most of my family! YAY!!!!!!! *sarcasm*
J
Lol Well at least it is just one day
a new page is coming up
me
Let's start with this "fangirl" nonsense.
I do not dispute the fact that there are a fair number of us on here who appreciate MCR for their looks as well as their talent. But, I just don't think there's ONE of us that likes them SOLELY for an "eyecandy" factor. Speaking from personal experience, I loved the music long before anything else. When I first saw the video for "Helena", I was grabbed by the sound, the voice, the raw power of the whole thing. I didn't really notice the guys specifically.
As far as talking about the music, I'm not one to sit and tear apart lyrics/melodies/whateer and say, "Did you hear the chord progression on this-and-that?" b/c I don't know music that way. I love a smart lyric, and I can talk about that quite a bit, but I just don't get into that kind of discussion either. I like moods, the way a song will make me feel.
Back to the looks thing. I like to look at Frank, I'll admit it. He is extremely attractive to me. But, I do like to do other things, too. He is not an obsession. He's a cool guy who I'd love to sit down and talk with; he's an intelligent person and I like to talk with intelligent people.
Again, too much typing probably, but if anybody calls me a fangirl again, Lucia the Gun's gonna have to put the hurt on 'em!
J
I didn't notice that they were good looking until I started watching Frerard videos
Greetings Mayo, SS, TJ, Elena, Lewis, Martha, anon(s), watchers, lurkers, jedi knights, knights on white horses, knights of the round table and dark knights of blog believe!
How are you all this morning/afternoon/evening? Good, I hope. I also hope you all had a wonderful Friday night!!!
Ergo: Where are you? I hope you're okay! *big smoooooch*
Lewis: GREAT to see you, love! How have you been?
L: GREAT to see you again too! Is J still not feeling well :(
Martha: *blows a kiss* I'm here; but I'm tired (and, you might be gone by the time I finish typing this greeting) ;)
Pixie and Siobhan: HELLO my cousins!
MissT: Yeah, phone call, RIGHT!
*wink nod wink*
*realizes what a s-l-o-w typist I am when I'm tired*
*yawns*
So, has anyone been to the Jagermeister Tour yet?
Type O Negative and Hatebreed!!!!
Yep, that's tonight! HOORAY!!!
*(slow) happy dance*
*trying not to excite myself too much*
*needs sleep*
To ponder (or not) while I am (hopefully) off in dreamland:
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You must have control of the authorship of your own destiny. The pen that writes your life story must be held in your own hand.
Irene C. Kassorla
and:
You were born an original. Don't die a copy.
John Mason
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Have a happy Saturday everyone!
Ohhhh.....and, because I KNOW you're all waiting for the test results:
;)
The sex quiz:
9 out of 10 correct!!!!
I would give Dr. Ruth a run for her money!
Spicy foods...yep. That explains a lot, doesn‘t it?!
*note to self: cut back a little on the Tabasco and other Cajun spices*
and:
The personality disorders test
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Low
Dependent: Low
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
WOW, I'm boring!!!! :P
Goodnight and sweet dreams to one and all!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
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