There are so many things missing, last night
Last week, and now quieted by irreverence
Two feet deep and thick with sickness
We are lost and no longer linger. Still
I can reason your denial in difference
Came upon you for thought, and mine
I must say thrust upon me in shame.
I shut my book to save your eyes.
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
p.s. with an uncompromised view for any other is...well, it is compromised.
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Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Art by: Toujours
No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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«Oldest ‹Older 4001 – 4200 of 5811 Newer› Newest»Morning Mayo & Goodnight Amy & OPJ!
Tuesday. Only notable for being 'Trashy Mag Day' in the UK. I wanna pick up a New & a National Inquirer, stop off for a peppermint latte at Costa and spend the rest of the morning imbibing gossip and caffeine to perk up my mind and body; thanks to darn capitalism I have to work instead...
Leeds lost, Bristol City lost & my beloved Special One is off to Inter Milan.
B*****s.
Kass xx
Awww thanks Anon!! Gerard IS, like, sooooo totally silly and adorable. And pretty and funny and buff and smart and talented and completely amazing - you seriously can't have forgetten the "ammaaayzing" you uncouth heathen!!
Kass xx
Like he is so amazzzzzzzinnngg!
Like, he is even, like speaking that way. Catch the most recent surs interview
he is forgetting his lyrics. Is is SOOOOOOO adorable.
that is what the link was supposed to say, that he forgot his lyrics
yeah and?
I took it to mean that Anon was suggesting that we are Mayo/SS fangirls and are no different to those Gerard fangirls commenting on the clip.
Still, it's no surprise he forgot the lyrics during a show on last year's European Tour - given that he seemed like he pretty much lost his whole mind during that period!
Kass xx
And if we feel the silence
Leaving this all behind us
Looking for something more to say
I don't know where I'm going
Only know where I been
But you move through my soul like a hurricane wind
We've been so lost for so long
I don't know how to get back again
And we're drowning in the water
That flows under this bridge
When you're fighting the current
You forget how to live
And I wanted to reach you but I don't know where to begin
And you remain
he pretty much lost his whole mind during that period!
more like nearly two years
Hi Kass! and anyone else who's here! Just caught up - busy holiday. I am very tired... but...
ergo - I am glad you had fun at your rodeo! The pictures were beautiful. :)
L - I hope you had a great birthday! I sent a message that I hope you received.
Toujours - That's wonderful that you had the cake you wanted and your family around you! :)
Anon 12:53 - Thanks for answering regarding Keyser Soze. I thought it made some sense in another context, as well.
sDock - I think we're all soldiering through this problem. My way was to attack head on, after other methods had no effect... But now I just speak as vaguely as possible. :) But I do say most everything I wish to, as I think all of us should.
Anon 1:35- I did think I was the first one to point out the relationship btwn Tinc and cabal, but then again, I don't read every comment thoroughly, particularly those of people I interact with infrequently. The point being that we can interpret hints/clues and use them as a source of discussion or apply them in a way that makes sense to us. Not only that, but I like hearing others' reactions. I find others' perspectives interesting and sometimes eye-opening. I think its a great learning experience when we do share.
Amy -
"Amyranth said...
Who is lost in plain sight can speak As you have always claimed, in truth.
Mayo's asking those who have left to come back and speak. Tell your Family why you really left."
Thank you. I was wondering if some action was desired, as I interpreted that way.
It is also possible that the post is about some other relationship(s), especially after I look at anon comments. I guess I just wondered if Mayo wanted US to respond.
And I was thinking of another issue altogether, as well, and that might be part of the crux of the problem... who knows, but I thank everyone who responded :)
I just have a great distaste for obliqueness, myself, but I do try to conform somewhat to the standard set here, and that, not very convincingly... and I feel guilty about it. Hence my preoccupation with the meaning of this post.
MAyo I guess I have the meaning of the post wrong. See above^^^. I hope you enjoyed the holiday.
♥ BB!
Ooops Wendy!!!! I am sorry I missed you tonight. :( And many of us night crew were here :( Is your internet connection fixed?
*missing BC* too
*hugs*
Miranth and the wild, mind, goose chases
Thanks anon, you make me smile!
so glad I could oblige you.
you best wipe that smirk off your face Miranth...it's not going to work ^_^
ok I won't remotely attempt to figure out what the anon is on about with you but hello Miranth, yes had a lovely weekend thanks, and I love the area up there.
Mayo hope you're well. I'm good though it's raining. My cat (the 16 yo) decided to go out and I just called her to come in at 8pm and she is drenched! How can a cat that will run if you flick water at her walk around in the rain! I suppose sometimes the situation is different enough that she feels it is acceptable, like she is defying the wrath of nature as opposed to putting up with juvenile flicking behaviour from her person. Lol
wishing you wisdom,perseverance, clarity and health much love EP xx
SS hope your bruises are healing, at least the bodily ones, perhaps the pride will take longer! No only kidding I'm sure the kids had an absolute ball having you to play with.
wishing you speedy recovery, energy and youthful enthusiasm lotsa love EP xx
goodnight all xx
Morning Mayo,
How are you? Great, I hope. It's back to life, back to reality, and back to work for me today. Funny, I'm not dreading it as much as I thought I would. Must be riding the wave of a manic upswing. We'll see.
Words, words, words are floating around in my brain today. Crashing and colliding into one another and forming one big hot mess of....well, something. I should write, write, write it all down. Share it with the world before it consumes me. A magnificent fire that would leave nothing but a pile of ash. Ashes to be blown away by the next gentle breeze. And then and there, I would disappear and the question would be....
Did I really exist at all?
Something to ponder.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Oh well, at least I would have kept someone warm for a little while.
Wow. Morning BlogBelieve! Would you believe that I don't really have anything to say today? Oh well.
Have a good one, Mayo. Mayo? MAYO!?!? Oh, just checking to make sure you're still there. Bwah!
SS!!!
You doing okay? I hope so. Hope you have a lovely Tuesday!
PH!!!! I ♥ you for pointing out Johnny Cash. RAAAAAAAWWRRRR!
You know what? That's gonna be my thought for today.
*Everyone could use a little more Cash in their life*
Later BlogBelieve! WHOOOOOOOOOO! ^_^
XOXO
Did you hear the one about the person who remained silent only to be heard?
Emily Dickinson
All but Death, can be Adjusted—
Dynasties repaired—
Systems—settled in their Sockets—
Citadels—dissolved—
Wastes of Lives—resown with Colors
By Succeeding Springs—
Death—unto itself—Exception—
Is exempt from Change—
Virginia Satir
Feelings of worth can flourish only in an atmosphere where individual differences are appreciated, mistakes are tolerated, communication is open, and rules are flexible -- the kind of atmosphere that is found in a nurturing family.
Well, it's certainly going pretty slow both here and in the office this afternoon. I think I may actually pass out from the boredom. If I do have a great night...
Kass xx
Now that I have some time to pop in here, for the entirety of last night, I dreamt I was stuck in jail.
Yuh. I don't even know what I was in for, but my stay was for two weeks, and the only thing they fed us were:
1. a frozen pie shell that had been cooked
2. one whole graham cracker
3. one half graham cracker
They also put in two baby snakes for our pets, to keep us company.
It was miserable.
Anyway, RE: Gerard, I, alone, can't save him. You, alone, can't save him. He has to save himself. And that is if there's even a problem, which we don't know. If he is currently battling against drug and alcohol use, I hope, as I always have, that he finds the help he needs in someone he is able to trust.
Mayo, SS, all of BlogBelieve, have a great Tuesday. Listen to your music loud or you may miss something.
Later, everyone.
If he is currently battling against drug and alcohol use, I hope, as I always have, that he finds the help he needs in someone he is able to trust.
Why trust the friends who have been there for you since the beginning when you can listen to skank-tramp telling you how fucking hardcore you are now.
Hey Blogbelieve. How is everyone?
Hey Mayo, how have you been?
Me, I'm okay. Sorry I haven't been around lately. Feeling lost for words.
I hope you are well my friend. Just know that I miss you and I think of you often.
Friends, all the same goes for you.
Have a lovely day everyone. Chins up, okay. ♥ to all of you.
.
shine lollipops and rainbows
:)
Love - My cool and bizarre family, the friends who stuck by me, a crow perched on my shoe, baby birds, summer parties, tiki torches, Pele and Hi'iaka, favorite parts of favorite songs, a clever turn of phrase, lehua blossoms, my garden, the ocean breeze, exciting rock concerts, musicians who are nice when you meet them, sunshine through trees, ice storms, O Keahi A Lonomakua, quantum physics, thought experiments, being out of a job I was starting to hate, people who champion good causes, my training brothers and sisters, Small Wheel, playing an interesting video game, Mozart's requiem....
Hate - Clowns! ^_^ Sexism, racism, homophobia (but maybe even more than that, people who look the other way or make excuses when those things go on,) animal testing, the Bush administration, this war, hummers (the vehicle, I mean,) my scummy ex boss and supervisor, being cold....
Miss - Grampa, my Trisky, Pendragon, when SB and Jo-chan were little, working with mean dogs, Mayo, my close friends who moved away, Mahina, Hini, Soul Calibur3 with my stupid friend, my writing ambition, really long hair, days of not knowing any better, old-values MCR, when things I like were brand new, those trees that blossomed last May and smelled like candy....
Want - To go to Japan, the ambition to publish this silly book, a new TBS record and tour, a full-length Leathermouth record and some concerts, the nerve to ganbatte, to meet up with BlogBelieve friends, and a hundred million dollars also....
hello mayonaise!!
i am so very late today!! 4.22pm in the UK and i'm only just now making it in!!
so anyway mayo, no new words. hope you are Ok?? we miss you when we don't see that you've been around you know!!but we do understand if you can't.
take care and hope you are having a good tuesday!
SS how ya doing?? good i hope! maybe see you around soon! have a good one SS!
hi there family!
hi mustard, anima and anyone else!
elena just wanted to offer you a big old *hug* if you read this then thats good!
hope everyone is having fast moving tuesdays!!
re the gerard way is he/isn't he debate............i was watching an interview from last april/may for the first time in ages, one of the few old interviews i have watched for a while, all the ones i've watched recently are the recent interviews. what jumped out at me was the way he came across, it was hard to pin point and then i realised what it was. he sounded and appeared very clean in it. sounds weird but just came across as totally in control with everything he was saying and doing. thats how he was up until PR. since then his interviews have varied from being hyper crazy OTT to being slow, down and almost incoherent. whether or not he is using/drinking again none of us knows for sure. obviously we just don't know. but my point is that if he was not using again then why (in alot of more recent interviews) does he come across as appearing to have signs and symptoms of such behaviour?? thats all i'm saying.
what he does in his personal life is his own business. and i for one would never judge him for his addictions, none of us are perfect. i wouldn't even be disappointed as it must be so hard to stay clean and sober particularly in that environment. i just worry about how he would handle it all. i just hope he doesn't hurt himself along the way.
anyways lovelies i am off to make some food.
will try and pop in a bit later.
hiya K!!
i'll have a recent go and your love hate miss want game later if i get time.
i can't remember what i wrote first time round but it probably is very boringly similar as nothing much changes in my life!!
thanks the sun
i am burning food again so i have to really go!!
and a hundred million dollars also....
me too K!!
And the Ninja Wizards! Of course I didn't mean to leave them out of "Love."
hey FASC! Okay, I can't wait to see what you've got. :)
*aaa-choo*
Excuse me! Yes, I'm sneezing again.
*thinks I need another cookie and cup of tea*
Good morning/afternoon/night Mayo, SS, Kass, Miranth, Ergo, FASC and Possum (wherever they may be), Mustard, Sdock, Smoke, watchers, lurkers, those who have faked it and those who haven't in the land o'blogbelieve!
How are you all this morning? Did you all have a restful night filled with tranquil dreams? I hope you all did!
Miranth: We missed you last night!
Yes, my internet connection seems to be working properly now!
I hope you and your family are doing well!
To ponder or do whatever you wish with today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Gifts From The Heart
Michael Josephson
According to legend, a young man while roaming the desert came across a spring of delicious crystal-clear water. The water was so sweet he filled his leather canteen so he could bring some back to a tribal elder who had been his teacher. After a four-day journey he presented the water to the old man who took a deep drink, smiled warmly and thanked his student lavishly for the sweet water. The young man returned to his village with a happy heart.
Later, the teacher let another student taste the water. He spat it out, saying it was awful. It apparently had become stale because of the old leather container. The student challenged his teacher: "Master, the water was foul. Why did you pretend to like it?"
The teacher replied, "You only tasted the water. I tasted the gift. The water was simply the container for an act of loving-kindness and nothing could be sweeter."
I think we understand this lesson best when we receive innocent gifts of love from young children. Whether it's a ceramic tray or a macaroni bracelet, the natural and proper response is appreciation and expressed thankfulness because we love the idea within the gift.
Gratitude doesn't always come naturally. Unfortunately, most children and many adults value only the thing given rather than the feeling embodied in it. We should remind ourselves and teach our children about the beauty and purity of feelings and expressions of gratitude. After all, gifts from the heart are really gifts of the heart.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hoping you all have a drawer full of macaroni bracelets, pages torn from coloring books and dried dandelions -- And, a heart filled with the warmth of gratitude!
Have a great day, everyone!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
Hi K and FASC, Sun, and Mustard. (Kass, Princess, Solly, Ergo all from earlier!)
Just popping in again. FASC, I have to say I agree with your statement re: Gway. Everything you said is exactly what I think and feel about the situation. As you said, I just want him to take care of himself.
And hi to Wendy too!
Hi Anima! How are you? Hope you're doing swell. :)
The weather forecast calls for thunderstorms today, my favorite. however, it also calls for thunderstorms on Saturday, and I'm supposed to be doing an outdoor show on Saturday.
O_o
I wonder how that is going to work out.
Love: Really cold rooms with a really warm bed, yellow daisies, my iPod, extra time, my closet, quiet, music, the dissection of it, smoothies, movie theatre popcorn, the smell of bleached towels, chocolate, unselfish giving, how the Converses, leather jacket, and rolled-up cuffs on skinny jeans made him look like John Travolta circa 1978 (I laughed. Really. Hard.), being a glow-in-the-dark kid
Hate: intolerance, racist and homophobic remarks, another's unhappiness, feeling helpless, radio, living through other people, nights when I can't sleep, mornings when I wake up 6 minutes before my alarm goes off >_<, that it takes me months to hear a really cool, kickass guitar/bass/drum part, not being able to say things I want to say, the way I'd like to say them
Miss: trips to fast food drive-thrus at way too early in the morning that caused questionable looks and stares, my best friend, my other best friend, the words that meant more to me than any other's, that night I was in the second row and the world stood still, black and white confetti, MCR, connecting, the feel of that one, single, solitary lighter, feeling, when it all meant something
Want: peace, inner peace, to live out of a suitcase, to feel dirty and grimy 300 days out of the year, to leave some things behind, my band back, all of my hard effort to mean something to someone, somewhere, the feeling of accomplishment, everyone to be happy
Hi Anima and FASC!!!!!
*big hugs*
How was graduation, Anima? Did you celebrate much afterwards? Silly question, eh? :D
FASC: You're not burning the dinner; you're cooking cajun style!
;)
Hey Kapunua, I am swell, thanks for asking. :)
We had thunderstorms all weekend. Absolutely unbelievable. Some of the craziest thunder and lightning I've ever witnessed. Supposed to get more.
I hope your Saturday show doesn't get rained out. If it does rain, maybe it will let up just in time for the show. :)
How was graduation, Anima?
*feels puzzled* Did I graduate and no one told me?! Or did I post something whilst drinking and told some wild tale?
I think that was someone else, but thank you for asking Wendy. :)
I heard about those storms, Anima. Sounds awesome! Yeah, I wonder if the show will get rained out, or if I will simply get rained on. Ah well. There is a line in a Hula that goes, "I long to see Hi'iaka dancing Hula in the rain." We'll see. ;)
Splash, who is "him?" And ooooh, you just gave away your skin tone! ;) Actually, you just said more about yourself than I think you ever have. Wow! ^_^ to feel dirty and grimy 300 days out of the year, Umm, eww, no.
Wait a minute.....
*is confused - again*
Didn't we talk about somebody graduating the night of Amy's party? Perhaps WE graduated from Thunderbird to Night Train that night! ;)
Or, I could have climbed aboard the Crazy Train again!!!
Either way, you are welcome, Anima!
Didn't we talk about somebody graduating the night of Amy's party? Perhaps WE graduated from Thunderbird to Night Train that night! ;)
I think we were talking about someone graduating. Damn, my memory fails me again! And yes, I believe we did graduate from Thunderbird to the Night Train! Then we hoped about that Crazy Train!
....
Mustard, I loved reading all of that about you. :)
Kapunua, yours was lovely too!
I really appreciate you guys sharing all of that with us.
I'm ridiculously happy today.
Also, I had been fretting because there were two people I worked with whom I really liked, and I hadn't heard from either of them, except from other friends who had been telling me that they had the wrong idea about what had happened--supplied to them by my scummy ex boss. I had been considering letting it go, but instead, I decided to write to both of them.
I figured, I had nothing to lose, since I had already lost them, and the least I could gain would be knowing that I had done what I could. So no matter the outcome, I sure feel better.
Aside from that, it's just a beautiful day. Yet I feel, oddly, like something is about to just burst into chaos.
By the way, Blogger is sucking on a huge fat pink plastic one today.
*hopped aboard*
^_^
miranth said...
Not only that, but I like hearing others' reactions. I find others' perspectives interesting and sometimes eye-opening. I think its a great learning experience when we do share.
Which is odd seeing as you never share any of your theories. You just ramble vaguely and smugly imply that you are 'in the know' which I can assure you, you are not.
You guys want to hear something weird? I can't pronounce the word "daquiri" on the first try, like ever. I always say "da-qui-ri." Why do I feel the need to accent the wrong syllable?
Hey guys, check out the Twenty unhealthiest drinks. No big surprise there.
I've been trying for the last 1/2 hour to post something but Blooger is being an asshat.
Hi everybody.
Damn. Now I have to get back to work.
Hi errbody! I'm bored at work and decided to pop in for a sec!
Love – The laughter and hugs of the coolest kid in the universe. Music that makes you feel something. Fresh cut grass. Sunflowers. Not having to do a damn thing on a lazy Saturday. Cute shoes. Hair stuff. Winning an argument, even if it's something meaningless. I walk away going, "YES! I WIN! I WIN!" Going to the movies and laughing the whole time because everything relates back to Mayo. O_o Being inspired. Riding for six hours with my sister to see one of our favorite bands. Actually getting to see that band and walking away going, 'DAMN! That was unreal!'. Yeah, that feeling. :)
Hate – Ignorance and hate in general. Close-mindedness, like thinking that just because someone hasn't had a recent haircut and has tattoos, he's obviously no-good when in fact, he's trying to do something right for a change. Bullying. Lies. Seeing talented people with so much potential wasting away and feeling helpless to stop it.
Miss – A blue-eyed angel. My Gramma’s cooking. Being seventeen and not having to worry about much of anything. My old office across town. My friend who moved to Germany.
Want – To be the best mother that I can be. To be able to make a difference with someone, somewhere. Is it possible? To be able to see that favorite band one more time. Oh, and more cute shoes. And a house. I have to have somewhere to put those shoes. :)
When I stop and think about all these things, I realize just how lucky I am. I don’t want for much of anything because I already have it. You guys have just added to that. I thank all of you for being here and for being my friend. That goes to all of BlogBelieve, Mayo, and SS.
You guys are pretty damn special, in case you didn’t know. ^_^
That's lovely, Princess. I noticed the same thing for "want." Maybe I purposely left off some certain things, but on the whole, I don't want for much that I couldn't get if I put my mind to it. That's a blessing. And I found a whole lot more--and more significant--to love, than I did to hate and want. Interesting, right?
GAH! And I hate days that drag by and then I catch myself saying, 'But you'll be wishing for more time eventually' and then I get all confoozed and I have a headache.
And migraines. I hate migraines. >_<
Anima: That was a fun 'ride', wasn't it?! I think we flew that Thunderbird to the home station of the Night Train Express. Rode that for awhile until we reached the land of OZ(zy) where we hopped aboard that Crazy Train and rode it all the way to Boone's Farm (where the party sheep were waiting) ;P
We must do it again...soon!
Pssst....COOKIE ANON: would you please add some Ginger and Gotu Kola to the cookies. Anima and I seem to need the memory boosters!
I must be off now. Have a great day, everyone!
Looking at all of these things, all of our values, all of the things we love, the things we hate, miss, and want, it's easy to see now why this place works.
We all have a lot of the same fears and regrets, a lot of the same feelings, and I think that sometimes that all gets lost in the mix until you're forced, voluntarily, to write it out.
I think that's a biggest part that makes this whole thing so special. That, and the one thing we care so much about, the one thing we want to see again, or the one thing we miss a whole fucking lot, or want to see around for years and years to come, is the one thing that ties us all together, and will forever.
Not only is that pretty damn amazing and special, like Smoke said, we are, too.
See you guys (Anima, Jules, Smoke, 616, FASC, Jen, Anonymous, Mayo, and SS) around!
Mustard, I absolutely agree. Lovely how you put it all together like that. It's so true.
Princess, I love what you wrote. Thank you. Don't forget you are pretty damn special too. LHM is one lucky little man.
Jenn, it's nice seeing you!
....
Wendy, haha! Goodtimes! We should definitely do that again soon. :)
farawayclose said
re the gerard way is he/isn't he debate............i was watching an interview from last april/may for the first time in ages, one of the few old interviews i have watched for a while, all the ones i've watched recently are the recent interviews. what jumped out at me was the way he came across, it was hard to pin point and then i realised what it was. he sounded and appeared very clean in it. sounds weird but just came across as totally in control with everything he was saying and doing. thats how he was up until PR. since then his interviews have varied from being hyper crazy OTT to being slow, down and almost incoherent.
I believe that what you witnessed was GW not on anything, he gets extremely nervous and anxious. He then might (speculation here) go take one of his xanax to keep him on an even keel, to calm himself. Hopefully he isn't "using" again.
This is all my opinion.Thought I'd throw it out there to ponder.
(I have seen drug addicts and I have been around people on drugs.My brother used, he ultimately died from it. Not till many years later. He was clean for over 20+ years, for the most part)
Just thought of something.
Wouldn't it be cool if we could go back and find our old Love/Hate/Miss/and Wants? You know, to see how they have or haven't changed? Maybe we could all do that sometime.
Okay, anywayz.
Addendum:
Love: Finger skillz
Muwhahaha.
Bjork - It`s Oh So Quiet Lyrics
It`s Oh So Quiet It's, oh, so quiet
It's, oh, so still
You're all alone
And so peaceful until...
You fall in love
Zing boom
The sky above
Zing boom
Is caving in
Wow bam
You've never been so nuts about a guy
You wanna laugh you wanna cry
You cross your heart and hope to die
'Til it's over and then
It's nice and quiet
But soon again
Starts another big riot
You blow a fuse
Zing boom
The devil cuts loose
Zing boom
So what's the use
Wow bam
Of falling in love
It's, oh, so quiet
It's, oh, so still
You're all alone
And so peaceful until...
You ring the bell
Bim bam
You shout and you yell
Hi ho ho
You broke the spell
Gee, this is swell you almost have a fit
This guy is 'gorge' and I got hit
There's no mistake this is it
'Til it's over and then
It's nice and quiet
But soon again
Starts another big riot
You blow a fuse
Zing boom
The devil cuts loose
Zing boom
What's the use
Wow bam
Of falling in love
The sky caves in
The devil cuts loose
You blow blow blow blow your fuse
When you've fallen in love
Just a personal opinion and not a reflection on anyone but xanax are evil, evil little pills. They make me mean as hell (or meaner, rather) and in an addict's hands, ummm, it can be a very bad thing. Okay anyhoo.....
Mustard,
Finger skillz? How could you forget? ^_^
Also, seeing someone doing exactly what they were born to do and owning it. Even better, seeing that person about fifteen feet in front of you. :)
MAKES ME WANT TO GO TO A SHOW LIKE NOW!
Okay, back to work for me.
S&V20 said...
Just a personal opinion and not a reflection on anyone but xanax are evil, evil little pills. They make me mean as hell (or meaner, rather) and in an addict's hands, ummm, it can be a very bad thing. Okay anyhoo.....
Unfortunately it can be like that
just swinging through, and signing in to say this:
what everyone forgets is that the gerard way we see in interviews and on stage is NOT the man who lives inside his skin.
all speculation about his motives is therefore, moot.
and now i'm offblog, so feel free to pick apart my pollyanna opinion as much as you like, i won't be here to debate it with you.
toujours said...
just swinging through, and signing in to say this:
what everyone forgets is that the gerard way we see in interviews and on stage is NOT the man who lives inside his skin.
all speculation about his motives is therefore, moot.
and now i'm offblog, so feel free to pick apart my pollyanna opinion as much as you like, i won't be here to debate it with you.
May 27, 2008 1:30 PM
Will do. Part of what was said is true..to a degree. If you have first hand knowledge of what signs are of someone who is addicted, you can spot them rather quickly.
True we don't know him "out of the spotlight", so to speak.
It doesn't take away from the fact when you see interviews and the like, you are going to actual real glimpses of a personality that do sneak out.
Basically, that is what people are referring to for the most part in observing his behavior.
Perhaps not, TJ. But the face he used to show in concert and in interviews was so much kinder. This new one is angry, arrogant, disinterested and sexist. It'd be one thing if he'd just decided to quit fighting against the things he used to fight against, quit fighting for what he used to fight for. But to go in the opposite direction, that gives me bad feelings.
In other news, I am trying to design a business card, and I am failing with great industry.
Crap...tornado sirens are going off. One was spotted just 4 miles away! Eeekkk!
LOVE:Him
HATE:Him
MISS:Him
WANT:Him
Hello Mayo,SS and Family!
First of all,HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY Toujours,Lewis and L!
I’m sorry guys I missed ‘em.Hope you had great days!
So,I’m finally back from my volunteering.I had to deal with clowns and 50 or 60 children.I guess I can say every fucking muscle in my body hurts at the moment,but I honestly had fun.
Besides,we scraped together something like 2.000 euros for the paediatric department,so yeah...it was worth it.
Oh,and SS,I see we had a similar week-end.Don’t worry,you’re not alone.I played hide and seek with some children and lost miserably. ;)
Right,I’m going to have a shower.I’ll be back later.
Love you all!
*HUGS & KISSES*
Kapunua said...
Perhaps not, TJ. But the face he used to show in concert and in interviews was so much kinder. This new one is angry, arrogant, disinterested and sexist. It'd be one thing if he'd just decided to quit fighting against the things he used to fight against, quit fighting for what he used to fight for. But to go in the opposite direction, that gives me bad feelings.
May 27, 2008 1:41 PM
Hello K. Part of what your saying is true. I do not believe he is angry. I think he is confused (which could lead to anger)
I haven't seen that.
I do fear he has become somewhat arrogant, but don't you think that was there all along? Only now because of the fame it has really gone to his head.
Back in the day as I call him the "old Gee" he was kinder. You are kinder when you are trying to attain such fame and notoriety.
Now that he has it, he seems to forget how he got there in the first place. The fans. That makes me sad.
I don't know why I worry about some dude I don't even know. I guess beacuse I related so much to the "old Gee" and I'm afraid he is disappearing right before our eyes.
Anonymous said...
LOVE:Him
HATE:Him
MISS:Him
WANT:Him
May 27, 2008 1:46 PM
That sounds good. I don't want him though. I got one and that si enough to deal with. Or is "you" that want him?
Sorry about those couple of typos. The rented fingerz aren't working well for me right now I guess...
Don't make me repost that Bjork song again... Oh so quiet...until
You rented your fingers? That's a new one on me!
mustardisbetter said...
You rented your fingers? That's a new one on me!
May 27, 2008 2:10 PM
No, not on you on me. An old Robin Williams joke. You might not be old enough to remember his stand up routine. When he scerwed up a line, he would say "Please excuse me, rented lips" It was very funny at the time..
Eh,I guess you had to be there.
I could have said the "typo fairy" visited me
Ya know, mustard is better. There are no calories in mustard. I like it better too
Want to join my club? I'm notorious for really bad misspellings and letting my fingers get ahead of my brain, and then taking up two more comments trying to correct the mistake. And nine times out of ten, I just tell the Typo Fairy to fuck off. Muwhahaha.
The earliest I remember Robin Williams was "Dead Poet's Society." I love that movie.
it wasn't me who said that
mustardisbetter said...
Want to join my club? I'm notorious for really bad misspellings and letting my fingers get ahead of my brain, and then taking up two more comments trying to correct the mistake. And nine times out of ten, I just tell the Typo Fairy to fuck off. Muwhahaha.
The earliest I remember Robin Williams was "Dead Poet's Society." I love that movie.
I rarely have typos. I proof read and re-read everything.
The Clash is on music tv! Must go blast it.
Should I stay or should I go..
It was me who said that.
I miss some of the people that used to be here.
I haven't written or spoken in a long time. I post songs once in a while for you all.
Oh well.
i miss many people too.
Must run for now. So much to do, so little time. Thanks for chatting, (the ones that actually did) and for the periodic awkward silences. 0__o
I may be lurking later...as I do from time to time.
x
Should I stay or should I go
o
hello again guys!
hello anons!
By the way, Blogger is sucking on a huge fat pink plastic one today.
K that is so funny!!
anima thanks honey!
I believe that what you witnessed was GW not on anything, he gets extremely nervous and anxious. He then might (speculation here) go take one of his xanax to keep him on an even keel, to calm himself. Hopefully he isn't "using" again.
This is all my opinion.Thought I'd throw it out there to ponder.
thanks anon @ 1.13pm.
i know GW gets nervous and anxious, he always has. my point was that back along he came across as very calm and in control and more recently very skatty and all over the place. same person, so what changed?? and i really hope he isn't taking anything including xanax. but thanks for your point and nice to just make comments without bitchiness. thanks very much.
BELLA!!! lovely to read you!
what everyone forgets is that the gerard way we see in interviews and on stage is NOT the man who lives inside his skin.
all speculation about his motives is therefore, moot.
i hear you TJ but we don't know him so we can only compare what we see of him through the interviews and stage performances. thats all we've got to go on.
great reading the love, hate, miss wants. mustard i can't remember where they are....our first ones??! it would be good to compare. i think i will maybe be more open now. i was less open back then.
and mayo did his which was sweet.
did SS do one??
Because some of us are afraid to get jumped on by regulars and "anons" for showing "concern" or fondness for Mayo, this is being done anonymously. Many of us have been discussing this recently.
Mayo, either something is going on with you, or you are just about done with the blog and its Lovelies.
First of all we hope you are all right and nothing bad is going on with you.
But if you have simply lost interest in us, some of us (not speaking for all of us, just some,) want to know: what can we do to win you back?
If Gerard has relapsed and is trying to keep it under control, I hope he remembers there are people he can turn to who love him unconditionally. He can talk to them about it. Anytime. Sleep is for wimps.
We all fuck up sometimes and none of us are in a position to judge. Asking for help is not a sign of weakness, it shows great strength and courage.
I hope he realizes how much he is loved.
Hey, Mayo? Better late than never.
Saying this may cause a little grief, but I don't know. I think it's worth it to say.
Personally, I don't feel like I help you anymore. I don't feel like I help much of anyone here anymore. There's been some sort of feeling of disconnection residing either in me, or on the blog, which may be my own personal fault, but nevertheless.
So, I guess I just want you to know that we're still here, and we still want to help, and we still like seeing you around, and we still like reading your posts, and a lot of us still wait up, sleepy-headed and glossy-eyed waiting for new words -- to hear from you, to see how you're doing.
Some of us still worry about your well-being and whether or not you're happy, sad, mad, frustrated, or all of the above.
Some of us still like to dissect your posts, and I assume this is still okay for us to do. I, personally find joy, and sometimes not, in trying to find meaning in them.
There's just this wall thing that feels like it's causing a seperation.
You talked directly to us a couple of times, in great length, to describe your feelings, so I felt it was appropriate that I could do the same, and I hope that's okay.
hi anon @ 2.58pm.
just my opinion but i think mayo is fine. just busy probably. i hope thats all it is anyway.
right guys anyone interested in the umbrella academa i have just found a fucking brilliant gerard way interview with fan boy!! really good!
NEW UMBRELLA ACADEMY INTERVIEW FOR ANYONE INTERESTED!!
Thank you; that's so kind. I'm glad you liked it.
*hugs to Mayo*
hi mustard.
i don't think my words have ever helped mayo. i still worry about him though.
i think he's OK. well as OK as he has ever been??!
don't necessarily understand what you mean mayo but hey atleast you are still alive!!
hello if you are still lurking!
Will they leave Kapu alone now or will they bother her more?
Thanks for letting us know which side you choose.
Anon: Honestly I don't care what they say of me. Well, most of the time I don't, I guess. ^_^
Well that is an incredible story to go with that quote (no, not mine,) and wow, "Locked In Syndrome," I can hardly think of anything more horrifying. I can't say that I'd be able to be that willful and strong in a situation like that (but on the other hand, what else could you be? You'd have to make the effort to do something,) but for myself, there's just no reason for self-pity. I'm happier than I've been in years. I want to start my own business! No, I want to teach. Or get published. Or, I don't know what I want to do, but it will be something. This time, it will be something awesome.
Though I still fail at making business cards. >_<
Good for you, Weaver Girl. It is a beautiful piece of work.
Will it silence the multitude of critics? No, but they are unhappy people to begin with.
You know what? Then you're here for the wrong reason if you think he's got to choose sides.
IT'S HIS BLOG.
Damn.
Mayo,
You're a cool dude. I got some stuff to say to you but I'll wait until later, okay?
Personally, I think we need more Weaver Girl. When you're good, you're good.
Just sayin'.....
PPU,
You made me smile. :)
Just thought I'd let you know that.
BACK TO WORK FOR ME! GRRR!!!
Later taters!
*gives PPU a Wet Willy*
Maybe you don't have hard heart. :)
FASC, I ♥ you. I just thought you should know.
Smoke, "MOTHERFUCKER!"
farawayclose said
thanks anon @ 1.13pm.
i know GW gets nervous and anxious, he always has. my point was that back along he came across as very calm and in control and more recently very skatty and all over the place. same person, so what changed?? and i really hope he isn't taking anything including xanax. but thanks for your point and nice to just make comments without bitchiness. thanks very much.
No bitchiness here. When you are hyper, (I don't know if GW is all the time) when you may be having a bad day, you can have scattered thoughts.If you don't eat properly you can have the same scattered thoughts as well. Although your cognitive ability can become impaired with certain antidepressants which sucks big time.Who knows whats going on.
Thanks for a coherent, non bitchy response too.
Oh, just for the record NJ anon never said anything about suicide,let alone say that about Mayo. Unless, someone was using that name one day. I haven't seen that yet..
However, some people think they are slick and try to have an anon come out of lurking by saying such a thing. Others tend to taint a name by pretending to be someone they aren't. Not nice either.You do get familiar with the way a person writes. Which some try to emulate to no avail.
Anywho...thanks for an interesting discussion and I didn't mean for this to be long.
can some one explain mayos recent addition to me?? sorry sounds like i'm just a bit crap to be out of the loop?? i seem to live my life out of the loop though so if some one could explain that'd be great??
Hello, PPU, and thank you. I will hug you now, but watch where you put that horn.
Hi Princess, and thank you too, same goes. Except without the horn part.
Templates are stupid and are for losers. Nah just kidding. My business card idea so far:
"Hire me, bitches, and give me some money."
Of course I'm going to pretty it up with pictures of flowers and such. Nice, right?
The quote FASC? I googled it; the story of its source is a long one and kinda amazing. You learn something new every day, (if you're lucky.) ^_^
FASC, I ♥ you. I just thought you should know.
thanks mustard!! its nice to know!
Thanks for a coherent, non bitchy response too.
no worries anon @ 3.44pm! i think alot of us come from the same place. not geographically of course!! but that would help me out with my meffing time zones!! i am always behind on everything!!!!
thanks K!
i might go google it now.
K, I really want my collection letters that go out to say this:
"PAY YOUR SONOFABITCHIN' BILL OR ELSE I WILL TAKE YOUR HOUSE, YOUR CAR AND YOUR KIDS WILL NEVER SEE SANTA AGAIN"
Muwahahaha.
I am terrible.
Really, I'm going back to work now.
Anonymous said...
If Gerard has relapsed and is trying to keep it under control, I hope he remembers there are people he can turn to who love him unconditionally. He can talk to them about it. Anytime. Sleep is for wimps.
We all fuck up sometimes and none of us are in a position to judge. Asking for help is not a sign of weakness, it shows great strength and courage.
I hope he realizes how much he is loved.
He knows.
Oh and hey and bye FASC!
And thank you for that MF, Mustard! I needed that! :)
btw the two recent deleted comments are me. blogger is being such a big dogs cock, so i've been double clicking to get the comment through and then deleting one. just thought i'd say.....
not important but well....
you cannot get rid of me that easily princess!!
I was hear yesterday and I wrote about the steel I could see in Kapunua, how when she was down on her luck she kept joking and smiling. I think that makes some angry, but I am glad when others see it. That goes for a lot of the people here. Kapu, and others, keep on trucking. You go out there and do what you want to do and have success. Not all anons are angry and vultures. Anyways keep trucking!
I am not the crush anon though!
*hugs to Mayo*
*VOMITS ON KEYBOARD*
How fast you noticed it just goes to show how you were lurking and refreshign the first page.
"I wanna see what your insides look like."
Every time I hear this line I think of this place because here in blogbelieve you truly get to know people based purely on written thoughts. It's kind of the opposite of real-life.
The next line however, reminds me of the nasty, viscious anons that attack relentlessly.
love
my family, my beautiful children, my husband, my friends, chilled dry white wine, cigarettes, music, the start of the football season, freshly laundered bedding, chocolate, king prawns, chilli sauce, wheatgerm, daffodils, the sea, the smell of fresh cut grass, standing out in torrential rain and getting soaked to the skin, my childrens' smiles, the fact that i am still alive.
hate
destruction, war, pain, loss, racism, homophobia, ignorance,feeling misunderstood and taken for granted.
miss
my dad, my independance, my life pre kids, my life pre marriage, old MCR, waking up on a sunday at 1pm cos i fuckin could!
want
to feel i mean something to anyone other than my children, to feel genuinely happy, to grow old and see my grand children and great grand children, sometimes to run away from everything!! i would always come back but just for one day....to see if i was missed.
to stop feeling like this is all i have to offer.
god what a bleak and miserable bitch i am. its kind of true though.
i'm outa here guys.
love to you all!
There's just this wall thing that feels like it's causing a seperation.
Mustard, I don't know if you mean between the Lovelies and Mayo, or just the Lovelies themselves, but I feel that the seperation began with us, and it's starting to affect Mayo and SS to some extent.
-A
Oh FASC, I didn't find what you wrote bleak at all, but rather human and lovely, like when everyone else did it.
Well gosh, anon, for you to have known the time difference between when Mayo was on and when I noticed, you must have been refreshing the front page, too. I was, like many people probably were. I do that around the 4th or 5th day, and sure, partly because I'm eager to see if Mayo posts anything.
here's something weird: I've been a vegetarian for ten years, and just now struggling (and constantly failing) to download templates, I totally out of the blue craved raw meat. O_o
Love: As much as I can possibly accept.
Hate: What this has become.
Miss: Childhood. Nothing. The past is past.
Want: Too much.
I'm afraid I would have to agree, Amyranth.
*singing merrily*
"Sun is shining, weather is sweet, yeah..."
OMFG EPIC CRASH OF THUNDER!
I can seriously not get enough of this song.
I want to climb into the speakers.
On which one Anon?
-A
I was refering to your comment at 4:19, Amyranth.
What song are you having sex with, Splash?
“There is something haunting in the light of the moon; it has all the dispassionateness of a disembodied soul, and something of its inconceivable mystery”
Joseph Conrad
I like quotes too
What song are you having sex with, Splash?
WHOA! Easy girl!
"A Beautiful Mess" - Jason Mraz
in a new interview with Jimmy Urine, he says he can't believe MSI have been playing sold out shows every night on this tour.
i wonder why that is
Mayo, that was very sweet of you. :) I love when you post the work of others. It's the best.
Sorry I missed you. We had to evacuate our offices and move to the first floor. Everything is okay though. Just a tiny tornado that never touched ground.
Then I went to lunch and worked for a bit. Just swinging back in to thank you.
4:59 I think that was precisely the outcome he expected.
Do we have to discuss those degenerates again?
Ah, yes.
Thank you Anon. Food for thought for the mentally starving.
I'll be back later. I have some gardening to do.
-A
MSI Tour Dates
My highly, uneducated guess: Super small venues.
good morning!
Good morning Ergo!
-A
i think the "LykE LynZ Iz So KeWl" MCR fans are filling the seats for MSI
nice to see that poem up, reminds me of similar trees here
anima so glad the tornado didn't touch down, that is too scary
mustard- lol
hi amy!
Well, The Other Douche from that band was wearing the Mikey T shirt. And they're saying they're not trying to milk the MCR thing? These people are playing a crappy game.
*shakes head* why they would even link themselves with this band, is beyond me.
Has any other band sung their praises?
hi elune, well I had never heard of them before last year but they have had a bit of a following prior to all that.
and is the quote Mayo put up about someone who has become quadriplegic or similar? It's an inspiring choice for the person who is in that situation, but for an able bodied person to choose it it strikes me as sad, like they are so tied up for some reason the only things they can be free with are inside their own mind
"Personally, I don't feel like I help you anymore. I don't feel like I help much of anyone here anymore. There's been some sort of feeling of disconnection residing either in me, or on the blog, which may be my own personal fault, but nevertheless."
Mustard, you took the words right out of my mouth. This is exactly how I've been feeling. What is up with all of you being in my head today? Well, maybe it's because I have trouble writing what it is I want to say. Always.
...
Thank you Ergo. :)
...
Amyranth and FASC, I loved reading your love, hate, miss, want posts.
Glad to see you are ok anima. When you mentioned a tornado warning earlier sounded scary
Hi Mayo,
Weaver Girl rocks, right? Yeah, I know.
Hi BlogBelievers!
This has been the longest day ever. Grrr.....
PPU,
We might have to fight it out over the #1 Fan status.
Just sayin....
Oh and a few other things....
PH, you made me smile with your Johnny Cash shout out last night. You are such a cool young lady!
Mustard, your words to Mayo were right on! Yes, yes, yes!
Anima, glad you are okay.
*waves to Fimble Venoms Sock Star*
*Snogs Solly* ^____^
I'm sick of trying to make business cards. I can't download the right template. Doing it on my own, I keep getting the margins wrong.
I will now set fire to my computer using my mind.
Except I'm really just going to make dinner.
fasc thanks for the interview link that was interesting
Jules,
You make me laugh way harder than I probably should.
Off to feed my hungry doggies! I shall return shortly!
I just had time to read up on Mr. Bauby. How inspirational. I think that's all I have for right now. I'm amazed at the fight some people have in them under some of the worst circumstances imaginable.
Hi, Ergo! Hello, Sdock!
Anima, stopped by your blog. Glad you're okay. :)
Kapunua when I did ours I just measured up a business card and used a table in Word ( I had a pack of pre perforated cards to put through the printer so I measured them) took a smidge of adjustment when I printed but wasn't too hard.
You've looked at Microsoft's templates for download? I assume that's where you've been.
Nero has a business card option but I've never used it
I'm nauseated.
*passes the Anon some saltine crackers and a 7-UP*
hi mustard!
I met a guy who was born with very deformed legs and as a teen decided to have them amputated, he's basically a torso but what an amazing guy!He does school talks and is so funny and inspirational
some people have such strength of character and determination that shines in times of adversity, while others give up
I just got my new S//C shirt! YAY! I am soooooo jappy!
Mayo -> *is jealous*
Muwahahaha.
Jules,
I laughed half the way home about your 'raw meat' comment. ^_^
Thanks Anon, Solly, and Mustard. I really appreciate it.
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Mustard, I must go check! Thank you sweetie. :)
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I gotta run. I hope to swing by later tonight.
Anonymous said...
I'm nauseated.
May 27, 2008 5:52 PM
Just don't puke near me please
Where the FUCK is my S//C goods?
TISNF!
Anon, do you need a dramamine?
Would it be wrong, like terribly, possibly horribly wrong to eat blackberry cobbler and ice cream for supper?
TISNF?
Bwahahaha. TISF. You got your last order WAYYYYY before me. BAM!
I'll try not to puke on your shoes 5.59.
I think the crackers made it worse.
You're welcome, Anonymous! Just don't go on the Tilt-A-Whirl any time soon, mmmmkay? :)
Hey, SMOOOOOOKE!
Ergo, thanks for sharing that. People sometimes just amaze me.
nauseated anon I always like toast with vegemite
or ginger cookies
*passes over selection*
other anon
*gives big sheet of plastic*
I was thinking cream puffs for supper so blackberry cobbler sounds very nutritious. It has berries in it so there.
MUUUUUSSTTTTTAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRDDDDD!
Hi Sickly Anon! Hi Other Anon! Or however many there are. Hi Ergo!
My thoughts exactly, Smoke.
*wonders where her S//C shirt could be*
I think the crackers made it worse.
GAH! That'll be the last time I try to help!
;) Just pickin'.
I dunno what else will make nausea go away. Actually throwing up always helps.
I am eating a seriously yummy dinner. Check this out. It's fresh organic herb salad, with three types of cooked beans, sliced tomatoes, and tofu fried in a bit of olive oil, with light raspberry pomegranate dressing.
OMG, I came.
You know, Smoke, it's so weird, and I wonder if that happens to any other vegetarian. You're merrily going along, happyassing around not eating any meat, ladeeda, I am so moral, then randomly, BAM! GARRBHAGHAGBEAHGHA! I WANT TO EAT RAW FLESH!
I never do, of course, but sometimes the craving just hits me. Like maybe twice a year.
All this talk of food products and tilt a whirls is making it worse!
Now I'm nauseated and dizzy.
Argh! ^_~
sdock10 said...
Would it be wrong, like terribly, possibly horribly wrong to eat blackberry cobbler and ice cream for supper?
May 27, 2008 6:04 PM
Not at all. Go for it.
Jules,
I don't even know how to respond to that because I am laughing so hard.
Anonymous said...
I'll try not to puke on your shoes 5.59.
I think the crackers made it worse.
May 27, 2008 6:04 PM
Good. Cause I don't have any shoes on and it would be gross squishing between my toes.
Have some ginger ale, it usually helps
I am eating a seriously yummy dinner. Check this out. It's fresh organic herb salad, with three types of cooked beans, sliced tomatoes, and tofu fried in a bit of olive oil, with light raspberry pomegranate dressing.
Eff you and your awesome culinary skillz.
I had a smoothie. It's a no-brainer. Throw the shit in there, and let her go!!!
Thanks, anon! I am going for it as we speak and it is very good!
Sickly anon, uhhh dramamine?
Hi Jules, Hi Ergo!
nauseated and dizzy
Are you pregnant?
Oh man, all this talk of barf, and tofu, and cobbler, and stuff is, you know, doing my upchuck reflex in!
Roll call!
Hey, everybody!
Jules,
What if you just sucked on a piece of raw meat? Would that be wrong?
Anonymous said...
Good. Cause I don't have any shoes on and it would be gross squishing between my toes.
Have some ginger ale, it usually helps
May 27, 2008 6:12 PM
The ginger ale may help. Thanks!
But did you have to give me the gross visual?
I am not feeling well at all now.
^_~
Sucked on a piece of raw meat?
*vomits*
What if you just sucked on a piece of raw meat? Would that be wrong?
Oh my. Can't resist.
O_O
Oh, good memory anon who is nauseated..shoes.Can't be an anon if you know about shoes...can you?
Feel better. Hope no one is pregnant, unless they want to be.
Oh, good memory anon who is nauseated..shoes.Can't be an anon if you know about shoes...can you?
Feel better. Hope no one is pregnant, unless they want to be.
Wha?
O_o
smoke&venom20 said...
MUUUUUSSTTTTTAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRDDDDD!
Hi Sickly Anon! Hi Other Anon! Or however many there are. Hi Ergo!
May 27, 2008 6:07 PM
Hello Smoke, I'm the Anon from this afternoon talking to mustard and others
Now, I want chips.
Hi Solly! As good as this dinner is, I'm jealous of yours. >_<
Splash, that's the thing, I have no culinary skills to speak of. Sometimes I Just Go For It. ;D
I'm not sure I'm full yet; I might try to cook something else too if I get inspired, or maybe I'll do that tomorrow. Oh wait, I have Kung Fu tomorrow. OMG leave the house?!!
Princess, I hope you imagined the sound effect because it was somewhere between the Tazmanian Devil and Stitch. ^_^
elune said...
nauseated and dizzy
Are you pregnant?
May 27, 2008 6:13 PM
O_0
NO!
I'm out of dramamine Sdock. Feel sorry for me.
hey smoke and sdock
I have to be off now, titoring this morning
K I know vegetarians who've done that, ones who became vegetarians as opposed to were always brought up that way.
I couldn't be a vegetarian, I like meat too much
anon hope you feel better soon, or it could be an opportune time for me to leave the blog!
bye all see you later!
sdock10 said...
Jules,
What if you just sucked on a piece of raw meat? Would that be wrong?
Well I mean, would it still be attached?*
*To like, a person?
Have fun titoring, Ergo! See you later!
Rented Fingers Anon, right? Just want to keep 'em straight. :)
I guess that's true, Ergo. I ate lots of meat when I was a kid, and I liked it best still raw.
sickly anon said...
Anonymous said...
Good. Cause I don't have any shoes on and it would be gross squishing between my toes.
Have some ginger ale, it usually helps
May 27, 2008 6:12 PM
The ginger ale may help. Thanks!
But did you have to give me the gross visual?
I am not feeling well at all now.
I sorry...
Sorry anon, I didn't mean to offend.
RE: Dramamine
"Brooklyn (If You See Something, Say Something)"
Right?! I haven't listening to that one in ever.
maybe you need to lie down for a while
Bye Ergo! Titor something for me!
Sickly Anon, Awwwh, I do feel sorry for you. Being nauseated is the worst!
Jules, Depends. Do you want it to still be attached? I was thinking like some raw steak or something.
I forgive you other anon.
^_~
Going lie down now.
mustardisbetter said...
Have fun titoring, Ergo! See you later!
Rented Fingers Anon, right? Just want to keep 'em straight. :)
May 27, 2008 6:21 PM
Yes..haha..rented fingers..too funny
You didn't offend Elune. ^_~
Hi Rented Fingers Anon!
Anonymous said...
I forgive you other anon.
^_~
Going lie down now.
May 27, 2008 6:25 PM
Thanks.Feel better.
Mayo,
So, what ya doing? Want some of my cobbler?
Too damn bad! I ate it all and it was good. It was so good that I'm pretty sure it was a sin.
But so worth going to hell for...
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