There are so many things missing, last night
Last week, and now quieted by irreverence
Two feet deep and thick with sickness
We are lost and no longer linger. Still
I can reason your denial in difference
Came upon you for thought, and mine
I must say thrust upon me in shame.
I shut my book to save your eyes.
Who is lost in plain sight can speak
As you have always claimed, in truth.
p.s. with an uncompromised view for any other is...well, it is compromised.
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Yes, I am aware.
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No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
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«Oldest ‹Older 2201 – 2400 of 5811 Newer› Newest»Hello tj and cookie anon goodnight RW
Hello!
Want a cookie? I have some left, but ran out of milk...
(sorry)
:)
is it too late to have a cookie? are they all gone?
I still have cookies! :)
Want one?
The kids in The Orphanage would probably want some cookies.
What orphanage? Where?
yes, please, anon, i would!
what kind are they, they look good. :)
and hello entropy. how are you?
I have:
Collosal chocolate chip (the chips are the size of small cakes)
Soy nut graham cracker crunch
Green tea white chocolate snaps
Almond ginger snicker bras
and Peewee Peanut Butter dots
Hello entropy.
Anon if the offer is still good I would like a Collosal chocolate chip.
I may disappear again blogger s giving me some problems tonight
It's this awesome movie called The Orphanage. I just finished seeing it.
Hey, Teej and anon!
i can't decide!
um...
may i try the green tea cookie?
Hey, Martha!
Blogger seems to not like only you or something. Meanie.
One CCC for Martha...
...and one Green Tea for Toujours...
I have no milk, though, but I have some PomPom juice and some extraordinary thick peach juice in a box
there was some snow today.
Hello Entropy!
Would you like a cookie too?
*comes back from surfing*
Snow??
thank you anon. I have smoothie would any one else like one
May I have a smoothie please, MJ?
thank you very much, anon. :)
i've got some root beer, so i'm good on the beverage front. thanks, though!
Yes RW up in the mountain areas. They said on the news if you go up there you should bring chains
Hello Resurrected Wreck!
Would you like one of my cookies?
Yes RW what kind
Smoothies make me hurk.
Nah, I'm good, thanks, though! I'm not a big fan of cookies. Except for maybe oreos, even then the center has to go away before I eat it.
More for the other girls!
I like Oreos too!
Ever tried a Grasshopper cookie?
I tried to make some of those, but the legs would bake right...
I am sorry to hear that anon.
Entropy you don't know what you are missing
oops...wouldn't bake right...
I would love a chocolatey cookie, please and thank you, anon.
Any kind but Red Bull, MJ.
I love snickerdoodles
You know what sucks I changed my sheets to my summer ones from my winter ones and it gets cold again
The weather can't make up its mind, MJ. It's the same over here. Today was the first day I was able to go out without a jacket on.
One chocolately chip cookie coming right up for Resurrected Wreck!
Can I get you a drink? I just received a fresh shipment of Eggplant juice and Kitten Whiskers Whiskey.
i used to bake a cookie from a recipe from the 13th c. nun hildegarde of bingen.
they were good for you! medieval medicine!
Sounds interesting.
Eggplant juice??
What sort of ingredients were in that cookie, TJ?
lots of spices, resurrected wreck -- nutmeg, ginger, cinnamon. they were all good for your nervous system.
very invigorating!
Well sure! Eggplant juice is very wholesome! Try some? You just have to get past the color a little bit...
Sounds tasty, TJ :)
Er... I think I'll pass, anon, thanks just the same.
I have mango carrot juice.
Mango carrot, eh? Does it taste good?
they are -- but if you're at all sensitive to ginger, you can't have too many at once. whoo!
*sigh*
i used to bake all the time.
I haven't done baking in a long time. Just haven't been motivated to, I guess.
i stopped being able to bring home stuff like eggs -- my grocery store was a half-hour walk from my apt.
bye-bye baking.
except for biscuits.
i lived on baking powder biscuits.
I haven't had any yet I forgot I had it
carrot juice is nasty. Mango might save it though.
Is it still good, MJ? I mean, if it's been sitting around for a while it might have gone bad.
TJ, my sister is the baker in the family. She also makes homemade jam. The domesticated woman she grew into is a far cry from the holy terror of a teenager I remember her being!
I love carrot ginger soup. Haven't tried carrot juice though.
Well, I like carrot juice! Tastes especially good with eggplant juice and a smidgeon of PomPom juice! :)
I'll take your word for it, anon!
I'll be right back! I have some catching up to do!
-A was supposed to bake cookies yesterday, now she'll have to do them tomorrow. :P
Well, I better head off to bed! I've got to get up really early tomorrow so I can get started on my Crack of Dawn cookies and Sunrise juice!
Goodnight all! Thanks for sharing my cookies with me!
:D
generous cookie anon, please sir (or ma'am, as the case might be), can i have some more?
*hopeful waif face*
resurrected wreck, i grew up with all that sort of thing -- when my family had our farm we were totally doing the ingalls family scene. canning, garden veg, selling eggs for extra money, homemade clothes.
i learned how to cook making choc chip cookies with my mom.
oh! and my mom used to make this one cookie -- we can never remember what recipe it was now, but it required that she place a miniature marshmallow on the center of each cookie before baking. the marshmallow would brown a little, and melt a bit...
my dad called them "chicken shit cookies"
*heehee*
Thanks, anon & goodnight! :)
Hullo, A! :D
night, other anon, enjoy your exceptional health. What with the juice and all.
Oh, I'll leave the rest of the cookies here on the table in case anyone else wants some more!
(tosses cookies on the table)
:D
oh, fooey. me and my long comments.
i missed out on more cookies. :(
*perks up*
thanks anon! good night and please come back anytime! :D
The marshmallow cookies sound yummy, TJ :)
Goodnight anon and hello Amy.
Rw it has been n the refrigerator unopened
Hallo RW!
Teej? Did I hear that it's your birthday?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISSY TEEJ!!
*confettis*
-A
Hallo MJ!
I have a frickin day off! Holy SHIT.
-A
Thank you anon
My mom was always very encouraging to my sister and I in regards to any creative pursuits, culinary or otherwise.
I remember the first cake I ever made. I was pretty young at the time, under 8. We hadn't learned fractions yet at school so when the recipe called for 3/4 cup flour I thought it meant 3 or 4 cups. I was generous & put in 4 cups. And blue food colouring, to make it interesting.
I still remember sitting in the bath while it bakes, and my mom proudly bringing me a piece when it was done. it was lopsided & heavy as anything, but I et it anyway!
missy teej?
i love that! :D
thanks, amyranth!
Rw it has been n the refrigerator unopened
It should still be good then.
How's the job going, A?
I have eight more working days then I have 2-4 weeks off - huzzah!!
blue to make it interesting. :)
that's very cool. and adorable!
do you have anything planned for your day off amy
RW, it can go to hell for all I care. :P Stupid job. *sighs* Why can't I just win the lottery? Even $100K would be nice, because I could take some time off without worrying about payments.
Teej, you are indeed welcome! How was your birthday?
-A
Job sucking, A? :(
it's only just started, amyranth, but so far, so good!
i have my fingers crossed it won't be too bad.
MJ, lots of cleaning, and Indy.
I hope this movie is good. More Raiders and Crusade and less Temple.
-A
RW, job sucking hardcore. Too much work, not enough money. But isn't that always the way?
-A
I hear you, A.
i'm thinking i should go to bed.
i didn't get to sleep until about 3:30 or 4:00 am yesterday, and then i woke up at 6:45 this morning! wtf?
i crashed this afternoon, but still.
sleepy.
good night everyone, thank you for the birthday wishes!
Have a good night & a good birthday, TJ :)
I should head to bed too.
Have a good night, all :)
YEOWTCH!
I swear, we cut that cat's nails!
-A
mayo,
of course i'm going to write about my birthday -- what did you think? *grin*
it's just that when i was a girl, my birthday was the one day in the year when i was absolutely special, and i practically crossed off the days on the calendar i was so excited for it to arrive.
these days, not so much.
i don't hate my birthday. i still want it to be that day i'm special.
doesn't work out that way, any more, and so i'm usually a bit apprehensive about the day. will it absolutely suck, or will it just be meh.
it's already better this year, and the day is only an hour-and-a-half along. having cookies and friends mitigates the melancholia.
and for the first time in a very long time, i'm going to bed on my birthday eve wondering what happiness will greet me when i wake up, and i have a feeling my dreams will be shiny and bright.
and i never ever thought this blog would last long enough for my birthday to come around while on it.
thank you, mayo. again, and always.
sleep tight.
Goodnight RW and TJ
Amy are you still here
Mayo, are you Robert Smith? :)
MJ, just barely. Bordering on dead over here.
Robert Smith? I'm Robert Smith!
-A
Well than it sounds like you are about to go to sleep.
Yeah, I think so. It's been a LOOOOONG week.
Goodnight MJ!
Goodnight Mayo and SS!
-A
Goodnight amy
*tip toes into blog*
Hi everyone! Just wanted to say hello and goodnight. Will try to catch up soon :D
*blows kiss to all*
*comes in high from second hand ummm..... richly aroma filled smoke*
*can't quite see straight, so I haven't caught up*
*thinks I shall never get this smell out of my hair - or nostrils*
Hello Mayo, SS, Martha, Amy, RW, TJ, Anons......etc....etc.....
How are you all? Did everyone have a GREAT night? I DID and I hope you all did as well!
Type O Negative was wonderful; as was Three Inches Of Blood (what an improvement from just over a year ago). Unfortunately, I did not get to see Hatebreed. *sigh* I was in desperate need of FRESH AIR by the time they came on! :P
But, I did have tons of fun just hanging around outside the HOB during Hatebreed's set *big smile*
I met the most handsome, intelligent, sweet, friendly, lovable...
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
GERMAN SHEPHERD!!!!!
He really was beautiful -- and thirsty! Luckily, Mr. Jagermeister man
(wonders how much it hurts to have all your teeth filed into fangs)
is, apparently, an animal lover too and he was kind enough to ask if 'my' dog would like some bottled water.
The actual owner of said doggie said it was okay to give him some water. So, we did and the dog was most grateful!
Ummm.....I'm not exactly sure why I just told the world that story....must still be the side effects of the fumes!
Before I forget:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEWIS!!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TJ !!!!!!
For the birthday girls
I hope you both have a fabulous day!
To ponder/encourgage/ignore today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"The only thing that stands between a man and what he wants from life is often merely the will to try it and the faith to believe that it is possible."
Richard M. DeVos
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Have a happy day, everyone!
I am going to bed, so
SWEET DREAMS to one and all!!!
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy
PS: Hello to Miranth, FASC, Possum, Kass and PJ!
Hi Elune!!!
*blows kisses back*
Goodnight Elune!!!
*wanders in to Mayo's from the porch*
*hands stuffed in pockets*
*whistling jauntily but epically awfully*
*uses the time to blow up more balloons*
*places them in two large nets above the doorway, with a trip wire connected between Mayo's two large potted begonias*
*goes to TJ's room and scatters orange blossoms around her room*
*leaves a sweet little plant for Lewis, on the table, next to some scattered cookies*
Oooh! Chocolate!!
*munches one*
*thinks 'thank you' to whomever left them*
*lets the party sheep out *
Happy Birthday Toujours!!
Happy Birthday Lewis!!
Hi 616!
616 said,
*thinks I shall never get this smell out of my hair - or nostrils*
I completely understand!!
I was like that for days after Big Day Out!!
Have a great day everyone!!!
*PP woz here*
*Hi PJ!*
Hi Wendy! I left you a silly message last night!
Hi martha, if you're still here!
I am very tired and not feeling well, so I shall try to sleep again, but I did wish to leave messages, even so.
TJ- Happy birthday!!!! :) *hugs*
Lewis - Happy birthday! :D
L- Happy Birthday on Monday I believe! ♥ *hugs*
When is the party, guys?
=========================
BEEN READING OVER OLD POSTS, as I couldn't sleep, but can't stay long to chat... as I find my attention strays just now... but they are very intriguing. Mayo, I found the calendar post interesting, once I recognized it, as well as others, but Keyser Soze? :) Surely not in intent... Anyway, there was a lot to ponder. My head is spinning, but it no longer hurts... :)
I'd still like to ask - is anyone else supposed to take a stand, in truth, as it were? And I responded to your post (properly) two nights before this. I see, looking back that you had asked for our thoughts...
Have a wonderful day blog-family!
%hearts;
PS - GO RED WINGS!!!
*can't resist* :D
Hi PP!
And that should be...
♥
a heart!
Good morning Sunshine!
Morning BlogBelievers!
It's a smashingly gorgeous day here in South Georgia, the most fabulous state in the world!
Happy Birthday to TJ and Lewis! Make it a good one, guys!
Good morning!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOUJOURS!!
I made you a special Birthday cookie-cake for the occasion and am serving it with a special batch of Sunrise Juice!
Enjoy your day!!!
:)
Oops!
I guess it's also Lewis' Birthday?
Well, Happy Birthday to you too! I made a big enough cookie-cake for both! It's about the size of Texas, so there should be enough for everyone!
Enjoy!
Mayo,
Hello, how are you today? I hope you're good, like really really good. I could have slept later but why? It's such a lovely day and the sun was already beaming through my bedroom windows. So, here I am, babbling, wandering around BlogBelieve, and pondering my breakfast choices(which are extremely limited because I didn't go grocery shopping yesterday). Toast and Coca Cola anyone?
You know what I must do today. Grrrr...
Mayo, I'm sending you wishes of sunshine, warmth, and breakfast in bed! Wouldn't that be awesome?
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Just don't let crumbs drop on your sheets.
So I should make a grocery list, right? Can't I just write down "everything" and hope I remember it all? Yeah, I know...Nope.
Who is lost in plain sight can speak as you have always claimed, in truth.
But are you really lost if you always know where you are?
I am so empty.
Mayo:
You have to know how frustrating it is, right? You're a writer, or you write stuff, but still. I'm not a writer by any means, but it was becoming a way for me to get my head cleared.
But, I can't now for some reason. It's like there's nothing inside worthy of telling or even retelling. I haven't been in any certain mood, it's been all over the place.
I was almost there last night, but it didn't happen. It was a really good post, and it made me happy to see that that person is now happy being who they are. So, I was almost there.
Anyway, I hope you have a nice day today. Sundays are meant for doing jackshit, so get out there and do jackshit! It'll be fun, I promise!
Later, Mayo.
SS:
We hope you're well!
And hoping you didn't
Get sucked into Hell!
But, from the looks of it
We all might as well!
Oh jeez, I suck bigtime, right? We do hope you're well though, and happy, and cool, and playing the part of an awesome opossom!
See you around!
Mustard,
It's "jackfuck", remember?
Lost or do you mean hiding? Hiding out in an ocean of anonymitiy? Perhaps. But then, you are back to the "what is truth?" anyway.
Yeah, "jackfuck," damnit.
I thought with it being Sunday, I should be on my best behavior. ;)
I hide in my head when it lets me. I find truth in there sometimes.
But is it really truth? How do you know? What if the truth is in your heart and you don't bother to look there?*
*sdock is in a pondering mood today
Feel free to ignore me or join in the discussion. I'm trying to write a grocery list and get dressed too!
TJ and Lewis, I'm sorry I missed your birthdays! I hope they were good 'uns.
So, yeah, I don't dare leave the house this weekend. I went out last night and ended up in the effing Hamptons (just for pizza and ice cream) totally forgetting it was a holiday and then wished I hadn't even bothered.
This is the beginning of the damn tourist season. Grrr, citiots.
Later guys!
Should have won! Cracking good song.
My truth is different than your truth.
Or, it could be that one person's truth holds sway over everyone elses. Like, Big Brother type shit.
And I think where we find truth is in different places. Maybe it isn't in your heart or your head or anywhere in you. It can be out there somewhere.
I must be away though. I'll catch up with this later. Pondering minds and all. :)
Later guys!
Right, Mustard.
The truth is out there.
But where?
I'm off to Wal Mart!
I bet they have some to sell if I am willing to pay.
Fuckers have the monopoly on everything.
Hi Jules, Hi GS!
Byeeeeee!
Hey guys! Morning Splash, Solly and GS.
Reality, like time, art, beauty and truth, is subjective and only exists as you perceive it. However just as with those other fluid ideas, there are some rules to which most people adhere. Rules that keep things like flat earth from being reality, "Bush is a good president" from being truth, and MSI from being art.
^_^ Heehee.
Speaking of "the truth is out there,"
X FILES MOVIE SOON.
Have fun at WalMart, Solly! I've got more yardwork to do and a whole big bunch of chores. Then I think I'm going to attempt to make business cards. Now how the hell do I do that?
OMG. Today is the Coca-Cola 600. The longest damn race of the season.
It takes forever and ever and ever. GO TONY!
I see you guys were discussing fate and dying and stuff. Well, I already know how I'm gonna die. Martha is going to put spiders on my and I'll die of fear. She will almost get away with murder except somehow, somone will find Mayo's blog and that will be the only evidence against her. Death by spiders.
^_^
.
Brighter than sunshine
:)
I'm going to die by getting frustrated with idiots and I will eventually go and pee on the third rail. Or maybe chew the veins out of my wrists. I want it to at least be interesting.
I'm surprised no one's linked this yet. When and how will you die?
Good luck!
I only have 42 years left.
:(
Oh my gosh, I also wanted to tell you all my dream. It's funny, two nights ago I had a dream about Fiero and he was throwing things at my ex supervisor and I thought that was hilarious.
Well last night I had a dream that Gerard and Eliza were on Dancing With The Stars (I've never even seen that show,) only it took place at a mental hospital. She got thrown off really early in the show, and someone had to replace her but there was no one around. I was a guard at the mental hospital (note: as children my cousins and I used to have a pretend game where we were guards at a mental hospital) and Eliza kept trying to get back onto the show to dance with him. The other guards and I had to keep turning her away.
Then she found a way in through the boiler room and she was climbing up this ladder that led to a bridge. I told her to go away and she said, "But I just want my picture to be in the Dancing With The Stars calender!"
I told her to go and make her own calender, which she did. Then she came back to the mental hospital where Gerard was dancing by himself in this long hallway made entirely of windows (oh yeah, I get the significance,) and the hallway led to the cafeteria where a bunch of people were waiting for him to finish his dance and go eat. Eliza stood herself firmly under the glass hallway and started showing him the pictures of herself in her calender. I couldn't tell her not to do that so I was just like, "Meh. Fool."
It was pretty weird.
baaaa
where all the cool sheep go to paaaaaaaty
baa
Jules.
Your dreams rule all dreams.
Just saying...
Oh and I am going to die at 72 from a heart attack.
That figures...
I'm off to lay in the sun and listen to my Meat Loaf greatest hits CD!
Yes, I know I shouldn't be that excited about it, but I am!!!
Ahhh, Gerard had to dance by himself? You should have danced with him, Jules!
*thinks Gerard would probably love to be on Dancing with the Stars*
My dreams are so effing crazy. I like dreaming though, I think it's good times. ^_^
I'm going to die at 86 from cancer, but that is not my fault, but rather the fault of my DNA.
Err, I also think that the test does not know about the other really cool and healthy anti-cancer things I do so I thin it's wrong and I will live to be 113. That's my goal, unless the average life span rises drastically and 113 becomes like standard, then I want 123 or something. I like living. I wanna keep doing that crap.
Well that was the other thing in the dream, Princess, they were doing the tango and I was like, "Holy crap, I can tango better then anyone here, and I'm just a mental hospital guard. I should totally go on Dancing With The Stars."
Note: I cannot, in fact, tango. But dude, someday I would so love to learn.
good morning everyone. :)
thank you wendy, pickled possum, and cookie-anon for the cake, flowers and cookie-cake! so nice!
and thanks to everyone else for their good wishes!
so far, my birthday is...*whispers*...okay.
*knocks wood*
my folks have church today, so i was alone when i woke up -- went out to get my coffee and they had leaned my birthday card up against the coffee pot.
that amuses me. :)
Eurovision winner
Dima Bilan
O_o
Hahaha! Gerard doing the tango? That's funny. He would totally be strutting and stuff. I would like to learn how, too. I have absolutely no rhythm though. Like zero. Me on a dance floor? Not pretty or fabulous at all.
Yes, I will die at 72 from cancer.
O_o
Which is weird because I actually have high blood pressure so you'd think it would be heart-related. Meh, I still think Martha is going to murder me.
Is it today, TJ?
If so then, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
What Breed Of Liberal Are You? (Assuming you are a liberal.)
I got:
Your Liberal Breed: Social Justice Crusader
You are a Social Justice Crusader, also known as a rights activist. You believe in equality, fairness, and preventing neo-Confederate conservative troglodytes from rolling back fifty years of civil rights gains.
I guess that's no huge surprise.
Oh, I didn't know it was today, TJ. Hau'oli la hanau! How old are you, gal? And why, you are a Gemini! What's your moon sign and ascendant and all that?
That dude is dramatic! The whole time I was watching it though I kept thinking it would be sooooo bad if that ice skater accidentally ran over his his toes.
O_O
His his toes? See! That's how much it bothered me!
Okay, going to eat. Back in a bit. :)
Anon - a travesty! Turkey should have won. Eurovision is nothing but political back scratching now.
* am not a bad loser, just against injustice *
thanks smoke, thanks kapunua!
yep, it's today. :)
let's see, i can't remember my ascendant at the moment, but my moon is virgo (which is probably why i can err on the side of "prissy" lol).
Ah well the moon is your emotional needs and such. I always find it more telling than the sun sign.
My moon sign is Gemini, I guess emotionally I need intellectualism, fairness, and a bit of madness. ^_^
Okay, well I guess I should get out there and start planting stuff. :) Later guys!
S(S)S if you're around (but maybe you're not, because maybe you're doing some kind of family Memorial Day thingie?) then I'd be interested to know your results to the liberal test, assuming you are one. Are you a social rights crusader too? ^_^
Hi TJ - Happy Birthday! I left a note on your blog because I thought I'd missed it.
So, are you doing anything nice later?
I'm going to die at 71 from cancer.
Hiya, by the way.
_A
moon sign is definitely important kapunua -- it's the face you show to yourself, after all. i think it's virgo's perfectionism that gives me most of my trouble.
enjoy your day!
gnothi, i just saw your greetings, in fact! thank you. :)
i have a sneaking suspicion my folks are going to take me out to dinner, though they have been pretending nothing is going to happen today. *heh*
Hallo Prissy Missy Teej The Birthday Girl!!
I'm "baking" you a cake. :D
-A
moon sign is definitely important kapunua -- it's the face you show to yourself, after all
How do you find out your moon sign? I always thought I was a bull through and through.
-A
prissy missy? lol!
what kind of cake??? :D
What kind do you want?
I was thinking something in chocolate with strawberries, but it's YOUR birthday.
-A
amyranth, your moon sign is also based on your birthday, so all you have to do is find a moon sign chart and look it up.
your sun sign is the face you show t the world, your moon sign your inner self, and then of course, all the other planets have their influence on who you are. your true "horoscope" is actually very complex, and specific to just you.
it's a snapshot of the stars as they were over you at the moment of your birth. no one else's will be exactly the same.
it's so interesting, don't you think? :)
oooh, what kind of cake do i want?
when my dad and i would share a birthday party, we always had german chocolate, so that's a special cake to me.
or, black forest cherry.
(because, whoa, it's just sooooo good! *grin*)
Teej, I've always thought that Horoscopes were incredibly interesting, especially based on how accurate they can be if you don't make it a literal translation.
And apparently, my moon sign is in Taurus also. Taurus Sun, Taurus Moon. It explains almost everything.
-A
whoa! yes, yes that really does explain a lot!
oh my gosh, amyranth -- double taurus. i do not want to ever get on your bad side! lol
*pets amyranth*
Teej, it sure as hell explains the horns under my bed!
-A will be right back. Gotta change loads.
TJ - a meal sounds nice, make the most of being spoilt :)
I can't take the ' When will you die ' test as I don't know my genetic history :\
your sun sign is the face you show t the world, your moon sign your inner self, and then of course, all the other planets have their influence on who you are. your true "horoscope" is actually very complex, and specific to just you.
That's why I get so annoyed when people do "horoscopes" based on just the sun sign. The sun is one (kinda small) aspect of the entire chart. You have to consider each planet 9even though the slow moving ones are more generational,) and then you have to see which planets are not only in which sign, but in which house. Then which sign is on which house, and then you do the aspects.
So when people say "Oh well she's a scorpio and he's a gemini, they're not compatible," or "I'm a Sagittarius so therefore I'm cheerful," I'm like, WRONG. You have to look at the entire picture.
Hello Gnothi!
Tests like that are just for fun, but sometimes it's better to not know, even on a "LOL, I'M GOING TO DIE AT 42 WITH A DICK UP MY ARSE" sort of way.
-A is sure that's not a REAL option.
Hi Amy, TJ, S&V, Gnothi...everyone!
Gnothi: the best EUROVISION winners EVER
(well, they are MY personal favorite Eurovision winners)
Guess who
^I LOVE that video^
TJ: You're welcome and HAPPY BIRTHDAY again!
Make a wish
AMY!!!!!!!!!! How are you feeling? Better, I hope!
I'm off to take ANOTHER shower now.
*wonders if tomato juice will get THAT SMELL out of my hair*
hmmm......
Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
Wendy
PS:
LEWIS you get to make some wishes too
Have fun everyone!!!
Ooops,
Miranth: Your comment made me very jappy!!!! Thankie you!!!
I hope you're feeling better too!
*big hug*
kapunua, there are so many things about myself that fell into place once i did my natal chart -- little "a-ha, so that's why i always do that" moments.
even if you don't put any stock into the prognostic aspects of astrology ("aspects", lol. sorry 'bout that!), it's a valuable tool for self-knowledge.
gnothi, it will be nice, if that's what they're going to do. otherwise, i'll try to spoil myself.
i have some experience in that. :)
Yikes.
Sun, Moon and Mars in Taurus.
Venus in Cancer!
-A
My moon and sun and everything is Scorpio. 100%
I am pure evil. :)
Yummy! My mama loves me. She made me cream puffs.
oh, wendy! i love wishing wells. :)
*pulls out a shiny coin*
*turns back to well*
>.<
*makes wish*
*drops coin over shoulder into well*
*waits for the splash*
:D
For me too, TJ. Especially the planetary aspects. Those made me go O_o That's where you get to the real down and dirty little secrets about yourself.
Princess, oh wow! That's so intenst. ^_^
To find out how you pursue lovers, check Mars. To find out how you set the bait, check Venus.
There's a lot more to those two planets, but I always found that little comparison aspect really fun. ^_^
WENDY!!
Not horrible. I sent out a few queries today, hopefully I'll hear back.
This natal chart is interesting!
-A has a lot of bulls in her field.
Six - now how did I guess it would be that one ;) It certainly went down in Eurovision history.
Amy - yes, it is probably for the best not to know.
Your lurid description reminded me of Edward II; made me cross my legs!
Your Liberal Breed: Social Justice Crusader
Let's go crusade, Jules!
SCORPIOS WILL RULE THE WORLD!
Be back later guys!
-A
what i really found interesting about my chart was the breakdown of the elements in it -- i use the four elements in pretty much everything i do anyway, so it was natural for me to look at that.
i have almost no fire in my chart -- which maybe explains why i take so long to get started on things. *heh*
see ya, amyranth!
Venus is in 02 Degrees Scorpio:
Your feelings about others are deep, powerful, intense and complex. When you like someone, you do so totally and obsessively if you do not like someone, they do not exist. Your faithfulness and loyalty to your lover is unquestioned, indeed at times it is too much so -- you get so possessive that you almost smother your partner. At times, your feelings are kept deep within you and, because they are so complex and intense, they frighten you -- this is the way that you try to ignore them. But the more you try to do this, the more explosive things get when you eventually do express them.
I am one intense girl. Muwahaha.
Be back in a bit!
I feel like Mayo has lost interest in this blog and the lovelies. It makes me really sad. I feel like I lost a friend and I didn't do anything wrong.
Holy crap Princess, that's alotta Scorpio! You want fries with that, baby?!
TJ, I'm the same way re: the elements. And mine are mostly water and air. Little to know earth, and some fire. I'm such a dragonfly.
oh, anon. :(
i don't think he has. take heart, okay? mayo's here, as much as ever. don't you see him in that corner over there?
i'm mostly air, with earth the next prevalent, kapunua. a flighty-minded earth witch. *grin*
* sulks *
'S not fair. I want to play astrological charts :(
* sits in corner with Mayo *
'course, that would explain why i like to whistle.
:)
No Toujours, I don't see him, I don't feel him and I don't feel any connection between him and this blog anymore. I feel like he just posts to keep the blog open, says a few words because people bother him to and then leaves for a week. I know it happens and friends lost interest, and he wasn't even my "friend" to begin with but I miss him. I miss the banter and the games he use to play with us. I feel like something I like, is dying or someone I liked to talk to, went away. It's stupid to feel like that. It's just a blog.
My day so far:
I almost got stung by one massive mothereffing bumble bee. That sucker was huge. And again, I totally flailed around like a little girl.
I have "I'm Yours" stuck in my head and it is awesome.
I'm digging way deep inside to find stuff. Still not quite sure what it is I'm looking for.
Cannot wait to come back and chill the hell out.
:)
Have a beautiful rest of the day Mayo, SS, and all of BlogBelieve!
anon, it's not stupid to feel that way -- it's how you feel, there's no right or wrong about it, and i have always maintained that this blog is special -- we've turned it into something more than "just a blog".
but i'm sad that you don't feel him here anymore. maybe, if you just hang on awhile, that feeling will return. maybe this feeling of yours is just a low spot.
i sympathize with you, though, because i know how i'm going to feel when this is over.
*hugs*
Mahhhhhhh! Bumble bees don't like to sting unless you get close to the queen, because bees die when they sting you. He probably didn't mean anything by it. ^_^ Maybe you just startled each other. I pet mumble bees, I think they're so sweet. :)
I don't think it's stupid, Anonymous.
It's okay to feel that way.
Maybe Mayo is off finding what he needs in real life now, which is awesome, 'cause I'm at that crossroads myself.
Maybe he's doing the same thing I'm trying, but failing royally, to do.
:)
Oh hells yes, TJ. I'd be ridiculously sad if it ended, too.
Well, that gargantuan thing acted like he was gonna sting me. Divebombing me and shit, buzzing around me. Eeek!
I do not like them. They frighten me. Yep! I'm a chicken!
I flail around, too, Mustard. You're not by yourself. Right now love-bugs are irritating the shit out of me. I can't even sit on my back porch. >_<
I think you are forgetting he only started to interact with us when SS began to. SS was the one who started the banter and games, gave us riddles and write stories for us and put our words on his blog, mayo didn't even acknowledge or speak to us at all until SS did.
Back later!
Don't let anything cool happen!
On playground duty one day I was showing the tiddlies that Bumblies won't hurt you by letting one crawl over my hnd and stroking it.
BAD MOVE.
Caught them all at lunch time trying to do the same but by grabbing them in their fists.
Didn't think that one out very well :\
Awww, GS! That is funny! I would never be able to let one crawl on me.
so my folks just got back from church, and it turns out that they are going to take me out to dinner tonight -- to the restaurant i liked best when i visited last month.
catfish for dinner...yum!
and then a moolatte for dessert! yay!
no cake though, so i'll just have to make do with the internet ones i'm given. :)
Catfish are yummy. :)
Dudes,
It is hot outside.
Just saying...and speaking of bugs, I was just outside walking around my yard and some buzzing flying thing tried to land on me and what did I do?
I flailed and jumped around like a crazy person. I think it just hit me on accident.
Catfish are da bomb diggity!
I iz jealous!
I had warmed up pizza and hot wings.
That's great Toujours, have a good time.
Right, I'm off, tea's ready.
TTFN
I just ate a whole pepperoni pizza and now I feel sick.
Mama cooked like she was expecting thirty people to come eat dinner.
O_O
I ♥ my mama.
Bye GS!
Anon,
I'd feel sick, too.
THat's sweet, TJ! Aww GS, kids are so ham-fisted sometimes. Poor little bees! Princess, I hate those damn love-bugs. My cousin and I got swarmed by a bunch of them at the docks in Florida once. i remember her flailing around like maniac screaming, "WHY CAN'T THEY GO DO IT IN A TREE OR SOMETHING?!" Solly, it's nice and warm here, too. A balmy 72. :)
I just planted my palm tree! *dances*
i had never had catfish until last month, and now it's like my favorite fish.
i can't wait. *wiggles happily*
Why did you eat the whole pizza? Was you scared someone was gunna take it from ya?
*does happy dance*
WHOOP! WHOOP!
Check me out botches!
bye, gnothi. :)
YAY SOLLY!
Oh man, I don't eat fish. I used to love the taste of it, then I saw some fishes at the aquarium and I thought they were cute.
I can't eat anything that has a brain. This excludes shellfish and some boys I dated.
Say, guys. I wrote this last night as I was drifting off to sleep and then I put it in my LJ.
I was thinking about putting it on some writing communities or something. It's meant to be acerbic but educational. What do you guys think? Are there any typos in here, or bad info? This is what I wrote:
"Thou eyes are like stars."
"Thy will soon know true love."
"Thee shall surely understand."
"Thine should flee from my wicked thoughts."
Surely you have heard such pretentious mangling of what used to be the English language in what many self-called "writers" are pleased to call their "poems" and "prose," right?
Well, hard and fast rule about using archaic words in order to sound impressive and, well, archaic: unless you understand how to use them, DON'T. This is a huge pet peeve of mine. I see "writers" all over the internet beating these poor old personal pronouns against the brick wall of their own insufferable airs. And I don't know which I hate worse: the people who, completely without irony and thinking they are so fantastic, write with such pretentious idiocy to begin with, or those who praise them for being "archaic," "baroque," "deep," and "romantic."
They are not. They are pretentious fools who never bothered to learn the rules.
Let me break it down nice and simple for anyone who wants to learn.
First let me stress that the use of "thee/thou/thy/thine" was only appropriate when speaking to someone of the same or of lower class than you. It is informal and if you were addressing someone above you in rank or class, you would not use any of those pronouns. Now let's get to what means what. Here are the basics:
Thee: Objective, intransitive
Thou: Nominative, transitive
Thy/Thine: possessive
That too tough for you? Then allow me to elaborate:
Thee means "you," you got that part right. "Objective" means that something is happening to the pronoun, to the "you" in question. It is intransitive; the verb can go no further than "thee." I give this to thee." "Fool, I smite thee." "I would love to bitchslap thee." Thee is the object of the sentence. With me so far? (Two exceptions: the use of "thee" in Stephen King's Gunslinger series, in which "thee" was just a term of endearment. But Stephen King knows the rules and that's why he can break them sometimes. If you're going to attempt to be a writer and break some rules, have a good reason for breaking them and make sure the reader understands it, or the discerning reader will just take you for an idiot. The second exception is the Quakers who sometimes use "thee" instead of "thou." This might be where King got the idea in the first place.)
Thou is nominative. It is transitive, it does or is things. "Thou art a fool." "Thou hast not learned a thing." "Thou makest me so angry with thine idiocy."
Thy and thine are possessive. The next time you see anyone using "thy/thine" as a nominative, kill it dead, squash it. To make it simpler: think of "your" and "yours." Would you say "Your will soon know true love" or "yours should flee from my wicked thoughts?" Unless you were a freaking idiot, you would not, at least not without attempting humor. Corny as it is, "Thine eyes are like the stars" is correct. "Thine does not understand" is NOT correct. "Thy brain is like a jar of sand." Get me?
(The same goes for "who," "she," and "he," and "whom," "her" and "him." Think of how you would use those pronouns when attempting to use pretentious, needless, outdated terms like thee/thou/thy/thine.)
Better yet, unless you are being ironic or humorous, leave them out altogether. Except for in rare cases when "thee" can sound sweet and endearing, you're just going to sound pretentious. Very few writers can get away with sounding pretentious. Mostly, don't attempt any archaic sounding words if you don't know their meanings. Even if you think you know their meanings.
A note on "ye" while we're at it: it is an old plural pronoun for "you." You would address a group of people as "ye" and never as "thou" or "thee."
And a quick word on adding "eth" to words, the way people do in order to sound "Shakespearean." Even as a gag, this fails, because most of the time people put it in the wrong place. "Taketh thee-eth this-eth booketh...." First of all, after a "thou" pronoun, the following verb would most likely end in -st. "Thou hast," "thou makest," "thou lovest." The -eth ending usually goes in an imperative case: you're telling someone to do something. "Taketh thou this book." So adding -eth to the end of every sentence more or less just shows that you don't know where these suffixes go.
Unless you are trying to be funny, if you have not understood this entirely, do not bother to use "thee/thou/thy/thine," unless, of course, you wish to be known for an idiot by those who do understand how to use them. It is not "a stylistic choice." It is not "bending the rules." It simply shows that you don't know what you're doing. On the other hand, if you're trying to consider yourself a "serious writer" and you're still using these wrong, please keep on. It lets the rest of us know that you just don't get it.
If you're not a serious writer and you're just trying to be funny, then go for it.
What do you guys think? Does it sound okay?
Oh I love fried catfish, and cheese grits, and hush puppies and french fries and some slaw.
Yummers!
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