Friday, May 16, 2008

An obscene waste.

Honorable Mention.

I am the clown.
Because you asked me to
and I am colorful enough, so
I quickly make the change.
It’s an easy switch in contrast.
Then, you are off and running.
Up and down the row
I am chasing you and I am out of breath.
You are elusive, but you see
I am the clown.
And I will use a trick to catch you.
I must catch you, because I have to tell you
I am not a fool. But, I have failed.

The pulsing lights drawing on
Death and destruction flash above
And beyond you. The images are mostly grave
Punched in and out in perfect time.
They were too many and too long, but
I had to remain until the end.
I knew they would tell the story.
Then, the images stop.
I achieve execution in a flash of bright white
Then perception returns to me, the clown,
Looking at you down the row.
I can’t move but to say the end.
But, I forgot the most important part.

Then, you are gone.
For a moment, I am frantic to find you.
But, I also don’t want to lose my character.
It is of every color and
Can give me up a reckless fool.
While I pretend to know the rest,
I search for my friend.
His name is random, and
He was sitting next to me.
Before you came along…
And as I am just about to take my leave
You appear again, but now
You are the clown.

And you want to tell me that
I am just a fool.



p.s. strung out on pointless prevarication and cardboard collusion.



(...fucking nightmare)

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ergoproxy said...

hello Mayo

Original Punk J said...

Hello Mayo, thanks for a new post. It's quite interesting. Hope you're well this morning?

J

ergoproxy said...

oh mayo are you ok? Your post sounds very frustrated and sad

Original Punk J said...

BTW, goodnight Cupcake, sleep well!

J

ergoproxy said...

oh and J I do of course know Mental as Anything they were big here, and I love Madness, they are a frequent play on my mp3 too

Martha Smith-Jones said...

hello mayo

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Goodnight CC


And I remember Madness as well. One step beyond and our house.

ergoproxy said...

goodnight cupcake sweet dreams

J is it just you and me?

so mayo how are you, I do hope you're well

ergoproxy said...

oh hi MJ!

I liek Michael Caine (the rsong) adn One Step Beyond and Wngs of a Dove, but yeah pretty much a ll of their somngs
I actually watched a live concert of theirs fromn 198 something that was shown here a couple of weeks ago. I loved their use of brass

Original Punk J said...

I'm not even going to pretend I know what you're saying, exactly, Mayo. But the theme of 'clown' and 'fool' seems rather prevalent.

You're talking to someone...but who? Best Friend? Wife? Brother? Or someone else entirely?

Whoever it is, it seems you believe they think you're a fool. Easily led? Maybe obtuse? Their words, not mine. I'm just not sure yet. No doubt L will know when she reads it, she's much better at interpreting you than I am. :)

So, what's been going on in your life, my brother?

J

ergoproxy said...

oh please excuse the spelling errors! horrendous! My excuse is it's getting darker and I really need a light on!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

The post kind of reminds me of the clown and augustine

Original Punk J said...

Hey Martha, yeah, "One Step Beyond" was great.

Anybody remember Oingo Boingo? Danny Elfman's band? He's another on my list of vocalists. Strange little man--always looked like a mad leprechaun to me--but wicked voice.

J

Martha Smith-Jones said...

J Up until a few months ago I had Oingo Boingo on my old MP3 player. That song I like little girls reminded me of R. Kelly

Anonymous said...

Good morning everyone!

I'm staying in bed today. I don't feel well. I was just reading some of your comments to distract me from my tummy ache.

I hope everybody here is well though!

Anonymous said...

Ergo, I wanted to tell you that you made me giggle with your comment about Garry the snail.
I love Garry!

Thanks for that!

Original Punk J said...

*epiphany moment*

This is about her, isn't it? The ghost in your nightmare. The everpresent voice that won't quit yelling in your face. The (now) observer in the crowd, calling you the clown, the fool, when it's actually she who is acting the clown, the fool, now.

Don't listen to her, honey. She's nothing but white noise now. There are so many of us who can't hear her, who WON'T hear her. We're beside you the whole time.

Trust us. We'll help, any way we can.

J

ergoproxy said...

Oh yes I rememeber them!

I have 2 versions of Total Eclipse of the Heart on my mp3 I loved that song and if I'm alone still sing it as loudly as possible!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Hello Siobhan I am sorry you have a tummy ache

Anonymous said...

hmmm...a bit of an operatic theme to this.

Bit like Bugs Bunny in the Rabbit of Seville.

ergoproxy said...

hi siobhan I hope you feel better soon.

I love Gary the snail, our cat is called Gary too. You see the one where he gets the mad snail disease and bites everyone? And the one where spongebob forgets to feed him?

Original Punk J said...

Good morning to you, Siobhan! Sorry to hear you're feeling under the weather.

Don't eat so many weird things, ok? :D

Martha, there's a song of theirs called Wild Sex (in the Working Class) that I really like. Yeah, I know, imagine me liking that song! heeheehee

I Love Little Girls was the first song I heard by OB. Yet again on MTV.

J

ergoproxy said...

anon - a true classic!

Anonymous said...

Hello Martha!

How are you?

What time is it where you live?

Original Punk J said...

Anon, you're a cartoonaholic too? Ergo's right--a true classic! I always loved the part where veggies grew out of Elmer's head.

And there was the "Ride of the Valkyries" take-off, the one with "Kill da Wabbit". What was it called?

Then there was the "Scarlet Pu-Pu-Pumpernickel." YEAH!

J

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Siobhan I am well and it is 12:12 where I am

Anonymous said...

Hi Ergo!

Hi OP (J)!

No, I haven't watched those episodes yet but I love Gary (Garry? Gerry? haha). I love his meow.

Yes, J, I should stop eating weird things and I should stop eating so much at a time.
But I'm greedy Siobhan. :-D

ergoproxy said...

I'm just going to pick some mandarines (or clementines is it?)

Anonymous said...

io sono niente a te

Anonymous said...

Nonsense, anon! You're not 'niente'.

Original Punk J said...

3.13, who are you speaking to?

J

Original Punk J said...

"Lucky" for you I took Italian in college...maybe.

"I am nothing to you." Now now now, don't start talking like that. Everyone is something to someone else. Sometimes you just can't see it.

J

Original Punk J said...

Ok, we killed the blog.

J

Martha Smith-Jones said...

The blog is dead

Original Punk J said...

Well, I guess I'll turn in for the night.

Mayo, have a good rest if you can. If sleep comes, hope your dreams are restful. No more nightmares for you.

Family, tomorrow is Friday, good End of the Workweek for you all! See you later.

peace, love, happiness

J

ergoproxy said...

woo hoo they are ripe! now I have a bowl of mandarines- yum

Anonymous said...

Well, we talked about Gerard's hair. Let's talk about Pete Wentz' hair.

He's in love with the flat iron, isn't he?

ergoproxy said...

oh goodnight J sweet dreams

well it doesn't take much to slow a blog when there are 3 of us and an anon

anon I bet you are something to someone though

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Goodnight J


Siobhan did you hear Pete is selling the photo rights to his wedding.

ergoproxy said...

I hope he doesn't MJ but then it may stop the paparrazi hounding they could get. They should donate the money to charity though

Anonymous said...

Goodnight, J! Sweet dreams!

Yes, I heard about that, MJ!
I think he needs a new flat iron, haha!

Original Punk J said...

Dear SS,

It's a rainy night in Knoxville, the neighborhood is quiet, and so is the Castle. That's a relief; as I'm sure you saw, we had an anon explosion earlier. Vultures everywhere--what a mess. ;P

Have you been looking up? Did you see that special one up there? That's for you, baby. Always. As long as you can see it, you'll never go wrong.

True colors, yeah?

I love you, precious. Goodnight and sweetest of dreams.

J

Anonymous said...

I heard that Asshole Simpson is already getting botox injections.
Is she insane?

Anonymous said...

Gaaaaaaaaah! Wtf? This happens when you're reading too much MK posts.
I mean Ashlee Simpson.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

EP he sold the rights to people. Or I should say Ashley sold the rights. I don't think most people who read People know who Pete is.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Siobhan you must remember that she is the girl who said that you should love your body the way it is and than got a nose job

ergoproxy said...

what does she need botox for! sheesh

mayo , you about or did you post and run? Hope you have a nice Friday if you;re still about.

Anonymous said...

Yes, I know!
I wonder what happens to the people who went through ps and then weren't content with the results afterwards?

They must go crazy. It's irreversible.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

I think Pete should run. Not because of Ashley but because of her father. That guy is creepy. He was all over Jessica until her career hit a stand still and Ashely started dating Pete.

Anonymous said...

I think enough people know who Pete is now. He's on the gossip sites all the time. A little attention whore if you ask me.
Didn't he make a video in which he showed guys how to apply guyliner?
Hilarious!

ergoproxy said...

I think star parents can easily go overboard, it's a bit creepy.

I think a lot of people probably aren't happy siobhan, or they get it hoping it'll make their life better and find they are still the same person inside (excluding of course corrective or surgery for really problematic features)

I don't think i'd inject a toxin into my skin, it just strikes me as really dangerous

Anonymous said...

Yeah, Papa Joe is creepy. He is a priest/pastor, isn't he?

I wonder what he told Ashlee about her nose and chin job.
Isn't vanity a sin?

ergoproxy said...

actually reminds me of a Maury povich show which was a "you dumped me and look at me now" thing and a girl had had the obligatory boob job, lipo hair bleach teeth done etc to look like a typical "after" woman and the guy came out and she's all "look at me, look what you're missing" etc and he just sat there and said "I didn't dump you because of how you looked"

- priceless moment

Martha Smith-Jones said...

A bunch of people in Hollywood were having this dr come to their house to have injection parties for botox.

He was injecting them with motor oil.

Anonymous said...

I would become a nutcase. I need control over my whole body.
If I was aware that I wasn't able to frown anymore because of that botox I would immediately want to do it all the time.
Also, I'm a big hypochondriac. I would always ask myself if my headache or some other random things happening with my body would be resulting from that botox injection.

Anonymous said...

Bwahahahaha, Ergo! What did the girl say then?


MJ, I read that too. They said that Priscilla Presley was one of his 'patients'. She got the same 'motor botox' treatment.

Martha Smith-Jones said...

Yes she did. She is trying to get it fixed

Anonymous said...

She looks awful. As if she skinned someone and is now wearing it as a mask. She has a dead face. She was so beautiful. She always would be without the botox and motor oil shit.
Same goes with Melanie Griffith. She looks like the 'swamp monster'.

ergoproxy said...

I saw that on tv that doctor is a quack but it shows how easily people will let someone interfere with nature

and Siobhan you are so right they do look like dead faces, I really admire actresses that age naturally - and then there are men like Michael Douglas! scary!

OK I'm off to make dinner, take care MJ and siobhan you too mayo if you're there, I'll be back to goodnighing soon

Pixie said...

"I'm staying in bed today. I don't feel well. I was just reading some of your comments to distract me from my tummy ache."

siobhan sweetie, get well soon *hugs*

I wish everyone a nice morning, how good that it´s friday huh? can´t wait for the weekend to start ^^

thanks for the new post mayo, hope you´re doing fine :)

Martha Smith-Jones said...

later ep. I can't stand the lip injections that some people get.

Kassiopeia said...

Morning Mayo, Siobhan, Ergoproxy & Pixie,

Yay, Friday, Yay!

I gotta go but it's always good to see a new post.

Have a good day, y'all!!

Kass xx

Anonymous said...

Aww, my sweet Pixie! Thank you!

How are you?
I missed you yesterday.

Bye Ergo! Take care!

Kassiopeia said...

Oh, and Hi to MJ too!

Martha Smith-Jones said...

hello pixie how are you.


Well I am off for the night it is 1:11am here and it has finally cooled down

Night

Pixie said...

yeah siobhan damn technology again ^^

I have to go soon to catch the bus to work...

I´m ok I guess.... I already packed 6 boxes that I have to bring to the post to send them to my parents and you can´t even really see in my room that I packed some things... still so much stuff *hmpf*

Anonymous said...

Hi there, Kass! Long time, no read!

Did you read MK's 'review' of Brit's second appearance on that show which name I forgot?

Brit couldn't act and the script was caca.

I almost wet myself! Bwhahahaha

Pixie said...

well I know that was just a short visit but better as no visit at all huh? ;)

ok I have to go to catch my bus ^^

Anonymous said...

Will you be on tonight then, Pixie?

I will send you an e-mail!
You must be pretty busy shipping all your stuff to Germany!
I wish I could help you!

Pixie said...

have a nice day guys! *hugs*

Anonymous said...

Aww, bye Pixie! See you (hopefully)!❤

Pixie said...

yeah I´ll be online this evening :) oh hell yeah, I could need help, I´m kinda freakin out, it´s too much plus my organs act up... I need a breaaaaaaaaak ^^

anyway bye :)

Anonymous said...

anonymous said...

For you, my love.

I need you today, tomorrow, and always.

I Need You

"And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'Cause you've brought me too far"

I love you.
May 15, 2008 9:04 PM


My love, my heart

you have me
today
tomorrow
always

I am here for you
whenever you need me
whisper my name
and I’ll be there

call to me
say you need me
and I'll come running
to be with you

holding you in my arms
loving you
sharing truth and reason
mercy and hope

in our dreams
our heaven
our life
always

I love you

When you look at me

“I reach for you, you reach for me
With a look alone our hearts entwine
Forever in love, yours and mine”


be well
my love

Anonymous said...

Goodnight, MJ! Sweet dreams!☽☁

Anonymous said...

Bye, Pixie! *huggety hug*

farawaysoclose said...

good morning mayo!
thanks for the new post. i am trying to understand it. it actually does sound like a fucking nightmare!! it reminds me of nightmares i have had where i am frantically running and searching for some one/something. and they are never resolved those nightmares, not for me anyway. and you know clowns are just too damn scary anyway!! made me think of that dr who with those clock clown type people! freaky!

you sound sad mayo. don't listen to anyone who tells you that you are just a fool. just tell them to fuck off and walk away. you don't need people like that!

so another badly deciphered post done by fasc!! sorry i really should not bother. i bet you skim on past shit like this kinda yawning and saying wrong!!

anyway whatever you are doing today mayo, hope its fun!! take care.


SS good morning to you!! where've you been? we miss you!! crazy bizzy still hey?! take it easy OK and have a fruitful friday!! (erm don't know why i wrote that??!) but heck it is friday!! this week has flown! i seem to always be saying that!! the worrying thing with that is that time is flying! i am noticing that as i get older. one year passes so damn fast!! between the ages of 11-18yrs, you know school years, how slow did they go!!! felt like a lifetime!

anyway hello lovely family!
how are we all doing??

hello to anyone around.
siobhan hope you feel better soon.
have a good day kass!

PP when you arrive, i forgot it was winter with you!! that is the time you need your man in bed with you for warmth!! and to put your cold feet on!! so no star shapes for you! embryo curls all the way!

FASC - I thought you and mr bloke were doing well?

aaah we are miranth, its just that his name is still not worthy to appear in a first comment at mayos!!

right i am sure i have forgotten something??

oh yeh TJ hope you feel better soon!

right i'm outa here!!

love to you all!

ergoproxy said...

hey Mayo, shame we diodn't get a comment from you todauy but I suppose you do what you can. As fasc said you post sounds so frustrating and futile. Trying so hard only to find nothing has changed, that they see you as you see yourself? I hope that isn['t it. you are worthwhile even if you don't always believe so. adn if someone you care for says you're a fool then they are the one with the problem. Or did you do something they see as foolish? If you did it's never too late to change, to rebuild. Either way if this post does relate to how you feel I hope you can change things for the better,. You know you have virtual support. Which does help, as many of us have found. So wishing clarity, fortitude, resolve and hope to you and those you love
much love EP xx

SS how are you? Hoping you're well. So who is your favourite vocalist? Do you have memories from your formative years of bands or singers who really stood out for you? Perhaps you could share it with us? Or not. lol don't want to be accused of begging for your attention!
So sending you peace, comfort and serenity lotsa love EP xx

goodnight blogbelieve I'll look forward to hearing the interpretations when I awaken. I'm sure there will be more definitive thoughts than mine.
Take care all have a great friday
XX

ergoproxy said...

god! forgive the poor punctuation and spelling! seriously it's sort of dark where I'm sitting and I've had 2 glasses of wine, and I'm tired...

do I need more excuses?

lol

'night!

miranth said...

HI.

I didn't get to catch up all the way. It grows late.

Martha - I thought you responded (anon) to a question about LynZ last night, but it wasn't you. I appreciate your comments about animal loving people! That's very sweet of you and thank you for having my back the other day.

FAsc - I see ;) Hopefully soon he'll do something to warrant first place! :)

kapunua - I think Mayo likes us all - YES, YOU TOO. Or he wouldn't be here. (though I think he regrets the decision (being here) about now!) I missed a question you asked me my first day here. I wasn't the anon asking for relationship advice. Better late than never! I only went back and revisited the past on here recently. Good luck and its true of friendship - that is gets tested periodically - and we see how strong we are. But it does hurt. Good luck!

OPs - L and J - sorry I've missed you here, but I hope you're doing well!

Bellatrix *hugs* to you too!

=====================

Mayo - I realized who one of my anons from the other night prob. is. I'll give her the benefit of the doubt and assume she was not the one that threw my niece in my face! I won't get into how I know cause it's not important and I still don't want to hurt her feelings. I will say that I felt sorry for her and I empathized with her passion. I didn't realize then that her passion was just jealousy. I will take steps to check my reasoning. If its true, I may not be back for a bit, at least until the sinking sensation is gone! :) I can smile about it now, but I realized during LOST and could barely pay attention. And you might know how much I love LOST!

You prob. won't read this idiocy, but as the post is about foolery and idiocy, I thought it appropriate. In any case, I feel that you are no fool, but you do care too much, sometimes where its not deserved, and I think I may have made that same mistake... I was trying to cheer the person up by being facetious. Now I'm the one who feels awful.

And here I meant to spin everything positively while I was here, but the truth will out!

Take care everybody!

miranth said...

Oh, and tomorrows love and your lover and any other lovers - we need more love on this blog, so, please,

go crazy!!!!

Anonymous said...

You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you

Anon616 said...

Good morning/afternoon/evening Mayo, SS, Ergo, FASC, Kass, Possum, Siobhan and Pixie!!!!, watchers, lurkers, busy and/or lazy residents of blogbelieve!

How are you all today? Did you all have a nice day yesterday? I hope so! And, as always, I hope today is even better!

Mayo: Thank you for the new painting! I'm not sure whether or not I like the 'feel' of this one....
Clowns, fools, tricks, not being able to reach the one you're trying to reach, death, destruction. It all seems a bit ....confused.
Perhaps it will appear much less confused when the paint dries completely! I bet it will!


For Mayo -and anyone else with nightmares- To trap nightmares and let only the sweet dreams through

SS: I'm hoping you are nightmare free!

Carrie: Good luck with that birthday party tonight! I shall keep you (and your house) in my prayers ;)

Ergo: *big smoooooch* Oh, is that Merlot I taste? ;P

For pondering purposes today:
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
“What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, 'This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!' Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, 'Never have I heard anything more divine'?”
F. Nietzsche
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I hope we all have a day we would be happy to live again - and again!

Hugs and Love,
~Namaste~
6/Wendy

Fimble Star said...

goodmorning everyone.

sioban, i hope you are feeling better. i am a wuss when it come to being poorly so get well fast.

hope you all have a sunshiney day and remember to smile just once. n maybe it will brighten your day up and bring rainbows to your skies. so as usual

taste the rainblow.
;)

last night was a mad catch up but yeh, i see the true colours of some people shining through. surprised? only with one or two but heck, its a shit down the sinker for sure.

have a lovely day everyone.

bean - hope you're having fun in the lakes whoop whoop, no hanky paky with your collegues ;)

bye
xx

Kassiopeia said...

Goodnight Ergo!

Hi Miranth!

I've always wondered what the 'Mayo doesn't want you' Anons are smoking - if he wanted to ditch us it would be pretty darn easy to delete the blog - but we are so obviously fabulous (or 'fantastic'?) that now he's grown to love us he can't bear to be parted!

Hi NIN Anon!

I love Trent Reznor. For anyone who doesn't know you can download his whole new album The Slip for free from here.

His music is an acquired taste, but at least it won't cost you anything to acquire it...

Kass xx

Anon616 said...

*runs back in*

Hi Miranth!!!!! How are you this morning? All's good, I hope!
*big hug*

Amy: I keep forgetting to tell you how wonderful your drawings are. My would love those anime drawings. You are very talented, methinks!!!

Goodnight and sweet dreams to one and all!

Kassiopeia said...

Hello also to Wendy & Fimble,

Thanks for posting the 'What-the-f**k-is-that-roadkill-doing-on-your-head?' link FS. He so very briefly had Helena-hair again as well, it almost makes me wanna cry!!

But I'm a grown adult with more important things to worry about so I won't.

Kass xx

Anon616 said...

Ooops, one more thing:

Siobhan: Get well soon, cousin o'mine!

Pixie: How's the packing and shipping coming along?

Hi Kass and Fimble Star!
How are ya'll on this fabulous (and very wet) Friday?

Okay, now I'm REALLY off.....

*wave farewell (for now) to all*

miranth said...

*Runs back in herself, while cooking breakfast*

*hugs* Wendy! I am good - I hope you are too!

PS _ I wouldn't ask for relationship advice, in any case. I like boys - yes I said boys a lot - but if I have to ask for advice, I usually let them go. Too much like work. I like low maintenance ones. :D

Anonymous said...

Kass, Trent Reznor is a musical savant! A man with a brain like that seriously heats me up.

Anonymous said...

...and Miranth you can stop playing the guessing game because you are failing dismally.

Anon616 said...

*runs back in ONE MORE time due to link malfuntion*

*pouts*

Here you go Mayo:
(and anyone else having nightmares)

Dreamcatchers let only the sweet dreams through

I hope it worked that time!

Miranth: What are cooking? Is it pasta???? :D

Kass: I feel the Trent love too!
Thanks for the link!

Smoke said...

Morning everyone!

I'm packing and drinking coffee and stuff. Well, mostly drinking coffee right now but anyhoo......

Mayo,

O_O

I could slap you silly. You know clowns scare the shit out of me. Dude, I won't even lie. I read through your post and started imagining you as a clown chasing me and AAAAARRRGGGHHHH!

I don't know about you, Mayo. I just don't. I never have and I guess I never will. Have a great weekend, Mayo-man. I hope you are okay.

SS!!!!!!!!!

I'm gonna say it again and I'll scream it if I have to. We miss you! I hope you are right where you want to be though. If not, well, come tell us all about it and bitch and whine, and we will totally listen! I swear to God! I think I have made an artform out of bitching. I got super-duper-skillz! We can have an official Bitch-Off! Nah, you don't strike me as a glass half-empty type. ^_~

Jokes aside, I hope you are okay. And like I said last night, either way, we're here for you. Okay? Don't you ever forget that.



BlogBelieve!

Hmmmm, I don't know that anything I say will make a difference. Just like Fimble Star (Fimble Venoms^_^) said, some peoples true colors are shining through. And well, I just don't know what the hell to say sometimes. It just blows my mind. Soooo, with that, I am done for today!

PLAY EFFIN' NICE WHILE I'M GONE!!!

And miss me and stuff. ^_~

♥'s to you all!

See you Sunday!

XOXO,
S&V20

resurrected wreck said...

I like this post, though I really can't say why.

resurrected wreck said...

hmmm...a bit of an operatic theme to this.

There we go, that must be why I like it. I'm big on the over-the-top dramatics.

resurrected wreck said...

Well, we talked about Gerard's hair. Let's talk about Pete Wentz' hair.

God, how I hate his hair. It makes him look like a waxwork figurine.

Siobhan did you hear Pete is selling the photo rights to his wedding.

Welcome to the Simpson family values.

sdock10 said...

Mayo,

I am pressed for time yet again and seeing how my life has turned to a deeper more icky shade of shit I don't know if I will get the chance to talk to you later. Deep conversations await me when I get home this evening.

I will let the post linger in the air for a bit before I go waving my hands and spewing and blowing all my hot air and spit all over it.

Hope your Friday is more than you thought it could be.

Love to YOU Always,
S

p.s. You can always wake up.

miranth said...

Jesus Christ Wendy!

Are you psychic?










It is PASTA - no lie - I figured I'd make breakfast and lunch at once - and that's the only thing everyone will eat twice in one day!

:))

resurrected wreck said...

That sounds ominous, Solly :(

resurrected wreck said...

*rereads above comments*

God, I'm bitchy this morning :/

resurrected wreck said...

Well, can't stick around. I hope everyone has a lovely, relaxing day :)

Anonymous said...

Sdock

I just wanted to say this before I head off for the day, and I also left a comment at TOT.

I sort of get an idea of what might be happening, and I think I've been in a similar situation.

An extra big hug to you today.

miranth said...

No Anon - I am not guessing your identity cause I don't know you. And don't want to, quite frankly!




I 'know' this other person. That's what sucks...

She's not a bad person, though!

miranth said...

Really gotta go!

Bye All...

Pixie said...

"Pixie: How's the packing and shipping coming along? "

hiya my cousin (wendy) , well it´s a lot of stuff to pack and I can only carry 2 boxes to the post, because they´re too big or too heavy to carry more... so it´s just a lot of packing and a lot of visits to the postoffice *hmpf*
2 more hours of work and it´s weekend yay :)
how are you doing? *hugs* hope to catch you online wendy!

damn break is over.... ^^

farawaysoclose said...

aah look at frank!!

oh and pixie i meant to say hope everything is going ok with the move!! its that panic you get when you think that you are so not going to be ready and packed in time!!! but you will be!!

Anonymous said...

Don't pretend like you didn't see this.


Kapunua said...
Guess what, homeslice, I would have emailed you this to spare the blog this ridiculousness, but you don't even have a profile, thus forcing me to do this here, since you refuse to just get over it.

K, you still won't talk to me, despite apologies, entreaties, and assorted other crap.

No Carrie, you never apologized, and what's more is that I don't really want or need you to, if you can understand that.



Carrie DID aplogize. More than once. You are incapable of forgiveness.

Did you ever apologize to Bleeding Chaos for saying she was stupid and dense? Did you apologize to Mya, Angel, The Original Punks? People you called idiots, dillusional, worthless?
you are incapable of admitting you are wrong.

Anonymous said...

Yawn.

Anonymous said...

Is you still there, Pixie?

Anonymous said...

Forgiveness is freeing up and putting to better use the energy once consumed by holding grudges, harboring resentments, and nursing unhealed wounds. It is rediscovering the strengths we always had and relocating our limitless capacity to understand and accept other people and ourselves.

Anonymous said...

Hear, hear

Anonymous said...

Eric Hoffer:
The remarkable thing is that we really love our neighbor as ourselves: we do unto others as we do unto ourselves. We hate others when we hate ourselves. We are tolerant toward others when we tolerate ourselves. We forgive others when we forgive ourselves. We are prone to sacrifice others when we are ready to sacrifice ourselves.

Anonymous said...

Yes, 111th comment!!!1!!eleventy!!1

I already had the 69th comment!!11!!!


Yes, I'm bored. Forgive me.

Carrie said...

and now, for something completely different

http://listoftheday.blogspot.com/2008/04/photobombers-of-day.html

Anyone who actually knows how to turn that into a clickable link, have at it. I think I've found a new hobby.

Anonymous said...

I forgive you siobhan

^_~

Anonymous said...

Here you go, Carrie!

Anonymous said...

Thank you, anon! ^_^

Anonymous said...

Oh God, Carrie! Hysterical pictures. Especially the one with the three girls at the beach in the front and three boys imitating a threesome. HAHAHAHAHHAHAAHA!!!

Carrie said...

Thank you for making that clickable, one of these days I will figure it out. I still have trouble bolding stuff, I am not too snazzy with the computer.

Anonymous said...

It's easy Carrie. You just use the tags.

Like this: (b)Carrie(/b) But you have to use the < and > instead of ( and ).

Carrie

Carrie said...

Like this? The slash thing turns it off, right?

Anonymous said...

I drink the honey
Inside your hive
You are the reason
I stay alive

Carrie said...

Yay!! I have learned a new skill. And now, a morning nap is in order before I do a quick clean of my house to get ready for the teen invasion. Cue Gerard singing "Teenagers scare the living shit outta me...."

Anonymous said...

Yay, Carrie! You made it! You're right the slash is the end of it.

Have fun with the party.

Anonymous said...

Mayo:

Funny you should share with us your nightmare.

The only nightmare I've ever had occurred three years ago today. And it was exactly that: a "fucking nightmare." It was the worst present ever.

I'm not able to forgive yet, and I'm sure he'll even remember. So, we're at a crossroads, just like we always seem to be. He is there, and I am here, and I don't know my father anymore.

The Clown vs. The Fool

I guess it's all in how we play our cards.

I don't know who I am.



I have to think about it. Hopefully I will have formed some kind of idea by the time I get back here.

Have a nice Friday, Mayo.


SS:

I'm gonna post some Police lyrics if you aren't careful! I can do a mad Sting impersonation on "Message In A Bottle." Bahahah! I'm just pickin', dude. Just letting you know we haven't forgotten about you, and that we completely understand if your "cezy bizziness" has gotten the best of you. It's all cool. Just hoping you're okay.

Have a great Friday and Party Hardy!

Anonymous said...

Goodmorning everyone!

Hi 616, Carrie, FASC, Fimmy, Miranth, Mustard, Pixie, Princess, RW, Siobhan, Socky, and those about to grab Friday by the short and curlies!

OMG Carrie, that link is so funny!! I had to go and find tissues I was crying so much!! Happy 16th Birthday wishes for your daughter, and good luck for tonight =)


Ergo said,
lol a bug deal - that's how it sounds if you're a new zealander.

Ergo, the New Zild accent is pure aural beauty!!

But don't expect me to be sharing my fush and chups with you anytime soon ^_~

*encourages bloggers with voice email to have Ergo pronounce 'six'
=P*

*hugs Ergo ^_^*


FASC 3:34pm, You never fail to make me laugh ^_^ !!!!!!
and to put your cold feet on!!
*evil laugh*
Isn't it fun seeing them nearly shoot out of bed when you do that!! ^_^

Anon 4:26pm, You must mean some other blog, because that was so incorrect.

Princess, safe and happy travels =)

And I finally googled 'taste the rainblow'.

Dirty birds!

Fimmy especially!! ^_~

Have a great Friday everyone!

P.S. Mayo, you sure ride the rollercoaster a lot, don't you? Maybe it's time you tried the dart throw instead =)

P.S.S. Yeah, I know it should be p.p.s! Consider yourself officially pickled, SS!
*sticks a label on SS and puts him up on the shelf*

Night everyone!

Anonymous said...

Leave me alone, anons. I m allowed to dislike whoever I want, just like everyone else. I don't have to like people once I see what they're like. I don't have to like people for any reason. Have you ever apologized to me for the awful things you've said? Have any of you? For any of this? Will you ever leave me alone? Any of you "anons" or regulars just not signed in? Hypocrites. If you don't like me, don't talk to me, don't read me. That's what I do. Oh, but I'm not allowed to do that either, huh? Because now I have to like, and answer everyone who pesters me to? But it's okay for you not to offer me the same false courtesy.

Just go away.

Mayo, I don't pretend to get this post but i gotta tell you, the whole "clown" thing doesn't sit well. >_<

Well, those birds I was supposed to get died before I could get to them. Ah well. We'll see what comes next.

Smoke said...

Mayo,

Save me.

SS?

Superhero skillz, please. I need someone to come save me from in-law hell.

O_O

HEEEEEELLLLLLPPPPPP!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

a clown's smirk in the skull of a baboon...
by EE Cummings

a clown's smirk in the skull of a baboon
(where once good lips stalked or eyes firmly stirred)
my mirror gives me,on this afternoon;
i am a shape that can but eat and turd
ere with the dirt death shall him vastly gird,
a coward waiting clumsily to cease
whom every perfect thing meanwhile doth miss;
a hand's impression in an empty glove,
a soon forgotten tune,a house for lease.
I have never loved you dear as now i love


behold this fool who,in the month of June,
having certain stars and planets heard,
rose very slowly in a tight balloon
until the smallening world became absurd;
him did an archer spy(whose aim had erred
never)and by that little trick or this
he shot the aeronaut down,into the abyss
-and wonderfully i fell through the green groove
of twilight,striking into many a piece.
I have never loved you dear as now i love


god's terrible face,brighter than a spoon,
collects the image of one fatal word;
so that my life(which liked the sun and the moon)
resembles something that has not occurred:
i am a birdcage without any bird,
a collar looking for a dog,a kiss
without lips;a prayer lacking any knees
but something beats within my shirt to prove
he is undead who,living,noone is.
I have never loved you dear as now i love.


Hell(by most humble me which shall increase)
open thy fire!for i have had some bliss
of one small lady upon earth above;
to whom i cry,remembering her face,
i have never loved you dear as now i love

Anonymous said...

Kapunua said...
Just go away.

Mayo, I don't pretend to get this post but i gotta tell you, the whole "clown" thing doesn't sit well. >_<



0_o

Anonymous said...

"In the movie of my life, starring you instead of me..."

elena said...

Hello all

Finally made it to work only 20 mins late. If I could I would fire myself and go out and enjoy this beautiful day. Alas, I can not.

Hope everyone has a nice day. If not nice then how about acceptable? Sometimes that's about as good as we can expect.

elena said...

Mayo

I missed saying goodnight to you last night but something came up. Funny how something like saying goodnight means so much to me but it does. Anywho, the way things are going I may not get to say goodnight tonight either. Really don't know what's gonna happen today. Hell, I don't know what's gonna happen in 10 mins but really isn't that true most of the time? In the blink of an eye things can change. Oh hell, I'm really thinking too much today and without enough coffee. That's it. I'm gonna close the store a minute and go get some. I refuse to face anything else without coffee. Have a great day, Mayo. That's an order. I like to boss you around. Of course you listen to my commands just as much as my kids. Why do I even bother to talk? What I say is just gonna be ignored anyay. Oh, not talking about you right now I'm talking about my daughters. They hear my voice as white noise, I know that's true. Still I gotta try. Wow, I am rambling. Coffee damn it. I need coffee. Back soon.

Elena (headed for Starbucks, customers be damned)

Anonymous said...

It's time to feel good

Walking On Sunshine

:)

Anonymous said...

Mayo, guaranteed if you are dreaming of clowns, it will turn into a nightmare.

anima said...

Hi Mayo, I am sad. Extremely bothered by your post - especially the title and the p.s. I hope this is not how you feel about yourself right now. Hoping with all my heart that it was all just a nightmare, a horrible dream that you can wake up from soon. My friend, there is always a way to make this all better. The answers are right in front of you.

Sending you love today. I hope you will accept. ♥

....

Solly, I wish you all the best too sweetie. I will be thinking about you.

....

Blogbelieve, I ♥ you guys.

Hope to be around soon. :)

Anonymous said...

asskisser

Anonymous said...

You know what to do to stop it. Complaining won't get you anywhere.

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
asskisser

May 16, 2008 12:16 PM


Perhaps the rest of her arm says 'Buy Ma-----'s new album "Hard Candy", available in all good record shops'?

Otherwise its as fucking tacky as the 'more than Mrs' she had at a recent UK gig. Really? because if you were you wouldnt be milking it.

anima said...

Anon, if you are talking about Mayo, I don't think he is complaining... he is struggling... and you know as much as I do that letting it out in some way helps to put it into perspective. We all do it.

Anonymous said...

I hope you don't think of yourself as an obscene waste. I know it holds no value coming from someone else, as it's necessary to believe it inside, but you aren't.

Truth sometimes hurts, I know. But, there's no reason to keep running from it.

I think we'd all be a little bit happier if we could all just believe in ourselves and nothing more.

You'll find it. Just stop running away.

Anonymous said...

the wedding band

Amyranth said...

Ah Mayo.

I've been getting the "fool" angle of that in the last two days. I was stupid enough to let my roommate move out without paying rent, and not keeping anything for collateral. Yep, I'm a fool.

Hey, anyone need to move to Calgary? I have a room.

I just need to keep reminding myself that my parents faced worse than this when I was a kid, and still kept a roof over our heads, and food in our bellies, even though the clothes weren't exactly new.

I just have to keep on keepin on.

And, of course, get a new roommate that's utterly terrified of me.


-A

Safe on the Waves said...

Hi everyone.

Hi Mayo. Nice post, but, like usual, it went over my head and I don't understand it.

Anonymous said...

Mindless Self Promotion

sister midnite said...

Mayo, dude -- you need more chillaxin' time. Just sayin'.

Howdy friends & family, how are y'all?

Long weekend comin' up - YAY!
One week's vacation also comin' up - more YAY!!! Finally, some down-time to play in Castle de Mayo! ^_^

Hope you're all good. Except for the asshole anons -- they can go play in fucking rush-hour traffic.

(Believe me, if I found a legal way to thin out the herd, I SO would.)

Anonymous said...

Skunk-Z has the face of a female boxer.

Safe on the Waves said...

LOL @ Fisch!

Amyranth said...

Hey SIS M! Long time no see!

I hope everyone enjoys the long weekend. I get to work. :p

Oh well.

-A

Anonymous said...

Hi there, Elfe!

Hello again, everyone!
How are you doing?

Safe on the Waves said...

Okay, how left this comment on that picture:

tackymuch: 05/16/2008 9:25 AM
I wonder how much Mama Way loved watching her daughter-in-law kneeling on the floor flashing her crotch during the show?

I applaud you.

elena said...

Okay coffee mission complete. I feel better.

Mayo, your post is upsetting. It's been said that our real life often spills into our dreams and nightmares. Is this what's happening? If so, then stop running and try to change what's wrong. Don't let things get out of control.

Sit back, drink some coffee and focus. You're a strong man with a good heart. Look at the people you have here who want to help you. Problem is we can only listen to the parts you offer us. Incomplete view for sure. Still we listen and we try to help. Remember that. You are never truly alone.

Safe on the Waves said...

Ich serh gute, danke. Und du, Fisch?

Anonymous said...

anon 12:16

you are so right. Lyn-Z is such a fucking asslick.

it's one thing to sharpie messages to Gerard but to do it to his mother is so over the top that it gives me douche chills

Anonymous said...

Etwas besser, Elfe. I stayed home today because of my tummy ache.

Safe on the Waves said...

Meine Fisch ist Krank!! *cries*

I hope you feel better.

Anonymous said...

its on her right arm so some one wrote on her. probbly Gerard?

Anonymous said...

i'm calling Lyn-Z "AL"(ass lick) from now on.

Anonymous said...

The doucheness of those two annoys me so much.
I really would like to know what other bands (and their fans) think of their (stage) appearance.
I bet they're pissing themselves laughing.

Laughing stocks!

Anonymous said...

Aww, thank you, Elfe! I'm getting punished for eating too much and too fast and too many different things at a time.

Safe on the Waves said...

Proberly Fisch. They're both very laughable.

toujours said...

good morning, everyone.
good morning, mayo.

okay, well, i know it's almost noon where i am, but i swear i just woke up, so i can say good morning can't i?

i woke up once already today...before six am, just out of the blue and wide awake. i don't know why. i read for a little while, then lay back down. a dream reached out a pulled me back into sleep, a dream in the shape of a gentle someone and i followed willingly.

and now, my second waking, and coffee at last and more dreams and nightmares...

mayo, what can i say to you about this post? don't we all see ourselves as fools and idiots sometimes? and don't our friends always reassure us that this is not so? and still that nasty little gremlin voice in our head laughs at us and we listen to it instead.

i know i've called myself a fool often enough. (but never a clown, eek)



if this is truly a dream you've had, then it's you talking to yourself, and there's a meaning in it.

i read it, and there's a meaning in it for me, just like i always draw a meaning out of what you write.

and because i am your friend, i will say to you (though i know my words may be disregarded), you are not a fool, mayo. sometimes, a goof, yes, but i have never seen you as a fool, nor as a clown.

never.





...more coffee. aspirin for this head. i need to wake up and start trawling the internet for a temp job.

can't crash at my folks forever.

Anonymous said...

I saw a pic of Baldy Way yesterday on which he was wearing a t-shirt with the words 'Mikey Fucking Way' on it. This is doucheness at its best. How full of himself must he be?

FREMDSCHĂ„M ALERT!!!

Anonymous said...

i just watched a video on youtube from last nights MSI show and that little fucking jerkoff Jimmy Urine was making fun of Ville Valo from HIM.

Gerard is not gonna have many friends left just by associating himself with that asshole

Safe on the Waves said...

HI TJ. Mmmmm coffee.

Siobhan said...
I saw a pic of Baldy Way yesterday on which he was wearing a t-shirt with the words 'Mikey Fucking Way' on it. This is doucheness at its best. How full of himself must he be?

FREMDSCHĂ„M ALERT!!!

^Awww. Poor Mikey.

Original Punk J said...

Elena said...
Okay coffee mission complete. I feel better.

Mayo, your post is upsetting. It's been said that our real life often spills into our dreams and nightmares. Is this what's happening? If so, then stop running and try to change what's wrong. Don't let things get out of control.

Sit back, drink some coffee and focus. You're a strong man with a good heart. Look at the people you have here who want to help you. Problem is we can only listen to the parts you offer us. Incomplete view for sure. Still we listen and we try to help. Remember that. You are never truly alone.

May 16, 2008 12:37 PM



What Elena said, Mayo. After all this time, after all we have been through, remember you are ONE OF US, not just the host of this blog. You and SS. Look how many have their hands reached out to you. It may be virtual, but there is a living, breathing human being behind each of these screens.

Wendy gave you a pic of a dreamcatcher earlier today. I would like to think you have one. Just remember to leave it in sunlight. Leather and a quartz, Mayo.

Look within.

Love,
L.

Kassiopeia said...

Hi Mayo, Safe, Elena, Siobhan & Anon!

Don't cry but I'm off now and I'll see all you fabulous people on the other side of the weekend - unless I can fix my modem/home internet connection that is.

"Douche chills". Thank you Anon, I shall add this to my vocabulary. Learning new terms of abuse is fun!

And has anyone else actually listened to the new MSI album on their MySpace? They've since removed many but all the full tracks were at one point available to listen. Bearing in mind that I have atrocious taste in music, I thought a lot of them were pretty sweet. How amusing is it then, that the vast majority of the watching public credits their increase in fanbase solely to who their bassist is f***ing?! Poor Jimmy may savour the increase in his bank balance, but that still got to hurt even the most secure ego!

I love you all,

Kass xx

Original Punk J said...

Good Afternoon, Elena, Siobhan, Safe, TJ.

Hope you all have a wonderful day, or at least one where you don't wind up screaming like a banshee before the day is out!

Love,
L.

toujours said...

hello, safe on the waves.

coffee and english muffins with apple butter...double yum. :)

Anonymous said...

Hey guys!

One flea-bitten, emaciated, anemic, head-trauma little reject of a fledgling starling later...

Awww, the poor thing. Well he is with me now, in a little plastic nest, on a heating pad, warm and fed.

So he needs a nice name, the first baby of the season. Anyone?

Okay, I have to go to the store and get some supplies. Later all.

Original Punk J said...

Have a good weekend as well, Kass!

Love,

L.

Kassiopeia said...

OK,

1). It takes me way too long to type my comments - Hellos also to OPL & TJ, and

2). Ville is a finnish love god. I withdraw my previously-stated sympathy for JU!

Now I'm really going...

Kass xx

toujours said...

hey there, l. good to see you. :)

Safe on the Waves said...

Hi L.

Have a nice weekend Kass!

elena said...

Siobhan

Mikey wore that shirt at each concert of this last tour. I loved his sense of humor in doing so.

I wear my Mikey Fuckin' Way shirt to bed every night.

It's funny. Perhaps you don't get this?

Anonymous said...

You really have a MFW t-shirt, Elena?

Nah, I don't get the humor. I only get the doucheness, hahaha!

Anonymous said...

Siobhan said...
The doucheness of those two annoys me so much.
I really would like to know what other bands (and their fans) think of their (stage) appearance.
I bet they're pissing themselves laughing.

Laughing stocks!

Linkin Park have commented that Project Revolution will have more 'serious' bands this year. It may not be a coincidence.

Anonymous said...

how about naming it garry?

Anonymous said...

I just read on a gossip site that Jimmy Dean was allegedly lusting after a twelve-year-old boy in the 1950's and that Marilyn Monroe had an affair with Joan Crawford.
All not confirmed rumors, of course.

Anonymous said...

Linkin Park have commented that Project Revolution will have more 'serious' bands this year. It may not be a coincidence.

Certainly not, anon!

Safe on the Waves said...

"Anonymous said...
Siobhan said...
The doucheness of those two annoys me so much.
I really would like to know what other bands (and their fans) think of their (stage) appearance.
I bet they're pissing themselves laughing.

Laughing stocks!

Linkin Park have commented that Project Revolution will have more 'serious' bands this year. It may not be a coincidence."

I read that interview as well, when LP were promoting Pro Rev Euro. They said it wasn't going to be a "punk/emo fest" like it was in the US. I think all the things that happpened over that summer pissed them off because the festival was no longer about music to the people atting the gigs. It was about sharpie messages and love bites. It's very sad really.

Anonymous said...

Well if it is flea ridden how about.....oh i dont know,maybe Lynz?

Anonymous said...

In a few minutes I will be able to give you 7 crucial facts about masturbation. They say it's a life saver. Uh-huh!

elena said...

Siobhan said...
You really have a MFW t-shirt, Elena?

Nah, I don't get the humor. I only get the doucheness, hahaha!


Sure do have that t-shirt. Love it. Too bad you don't see the humor. I sure do.

Doucheness? Wow, do you see things like that a lot?

Anonymous said...

How embarrassing for MCR. I think this was the last time LP asked them to participate in PR.

toujours said...

kapunua, how about naming your baby starling "iarilo"? a russian/ukranian sun god celebrated at this time of the year (okay, in a very beltane-esque fashion, if you get my meaning *ahem*), but the name means "strength", and might help the bird recover...?

i also like "favonius", the roman god of the western wind and the harbringer of spring...his name means "favorable".


can you tell i always look at mythology for name ideas first? lol

Anonymous said...

I didn't mean you with the doucheness, Elena!!!


And what is sooo funny about him wearing that t-shirt?
I really think the guy is so full of himself just like his brother and that t-shirt shows it even more.

But it's okay if you like it and think it's funny. I just don't.

elena said...

Siobhan

It's fine you don't get it.

However just know that I think Mikey is one hell of nice guy so yeah, your attitude towards him bothers me.

Oh well, you have your opionion and I have mine.

Safe on the Waves said...

I'm hungry. =(

Anonymous said...

Oh well, you have your opionion and I have mine.

Exactly, Elena. ^_^

Safe on the Waves said...

Can't eat for another hour!!

Safe on the Waves said...

*Whine*

Anonymous said...

Why can't you eat, Elfe?

Safe on the Waves said...

I have to wait for my zwiebling to get home before I have my dinner. Cowbag!

Anonymous said...

zwiebling?

Safe on the Waves said...

See I suck at German.

My twin.

Safe on the Waves said...

me?

Safe on the Waves said...

me?

Anonymous said...

Oh, you have a zwilling, Elfe?

Safe on the Waves said...

me?

Safe on the Waves said...

me!!!

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