I am precipitant, and temptation proffers madness. I can’t resist. I love the fucking rush of blood to my head, my heart hammering my ears. The rhythm and intensity set me to cruise. I am making decisions just moments before the situation even presents itself. And it all works out.
With your assault on my senses still pushing adrenaline through my veins, I decided to give myself a brief respite from self-induced ubiquity. I righted myself before you…almost completely relieved of the obscurity that may have impaired your perception (I am absurd). I focused my energy inward and provided you with a unique, cogent vision...handed to you in haste.
Without contrast.
For just a moment I tethered myself to you. In the dark and held captive by brick and chain link, you held the truth in the palm of your hand. While I stood, waiting for the fucking bomb to drop. I wanted to pull you aside, then. I wanted to tell you, whisper it in your ear. I wanted you to see me. Register my words with my voice. But, translation was lost in my subtle introduction, and I know I caught you off guard. My strength diminished, I walked away with the truth in my fist, my secret under a floodlight.
With you.
I admit that you may not know, but I need you to know. I need for you to know.
After all of that, and even if misunderstood, I have to say that your presence is appreciated…and I must admit often anticipated. But, it was never my intention to lead you. I hope I have not caused you concern, and I must ask, are you angry? Are you angry with me? If you need reassurance, if you question my intent, I could tell you again.
My friend, all you need to do is ask.
p.s. and even then I am amazed.
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please!
Sorry, Miranth :(
hello there, redrum! i think it's too late at night for me to be amused.
about pens.
was it a micron?
Damn you RW!!! ;)
I've never been on top before! But that's the closest I've made it! YAY!
You know you really can't be better then them if that's the way you're going to act.
All right, if you think I'm being unfair, I'm sorry. I certainly did not intend to do so. I simply wanted to say something to Mayo. As far as letting people in on the info, it's not my info to tell. I won't break a promise. Like I stated above, I only wanted Mayo to know that we knew. Maybe I shouldn't have done so, but it seemed innocent enough.
I honestly had no agenda in doing it, and had second thoughts about posting it. But I left it. So, sorry if it made you uncomfortable.
J
A sharpie obviously.
No, think bigger...
(Hello!)
Isn't that what got Kapu bitched at the other night by Elena?? Look I want you to be better then that!
Goodnight Carrie, sweet dreams. Hi TJ, miranth *big hugs*
Oh dear.
Is this what it's like in here late at night?
Bicker, bicker, bicker.
1:21 has it.
Well, now four of you know who Mayo is or SOMETHING about him and the OPS are among them! How about the rest of us! Don't we get to know? Or do you have to follow them around the country and then only tell three other people?
thanks redrum it was obvious. :-)
Hi, Redrum :)
Wait, Tujours, Elena and th eOP know who Mayo is? I dont' get it, how come they get to know? After all this time!
Anonymous said...
Well OPS you are saying that Elena and Toujour obviously told you a secret about Mayo's identity. Now you are acting all braggy like you get this post and you are not gonna tell anyone else. It's the same thing every where you look.
April 26, 2008 1:17 AM
WTF??? How the Hell do you get THIS out of what I said?
J
sharpie, eh?
a sharpie in your pocket, redrum?
*raised brow*
Goodnight.
your "logic" fails to impress me
Well you have some secret that Toujour found out that you refuse to share with the rest of the blog that is according to you SPECIFICALLY about Mayo, what else could it be.
What??
Wow. I guess I didn't know that to be in on this blog thing you had to follow MCR around the country.
Toujour how come you're only telling a few people? That is not fair to the rest.
Oh my Lord. I never said anything about TJ or Elena or ANYBODY, go read the fucking comment. You seem to be assuming a lot, "Anonymous".
J
Don't you judge me.
Hello and good night, RW.
Soooo who is Mayo then? I would like to know!
i don't know any secrets, anon.
i am an imaginative fool, and nothing else. look elsewhere for drama please, and stop tapping on the glass.
it makes me restless.
Goodnight RW. Damn, you anons amaze me. All you do is bitch, moan, and then bitch some more.
You don't have to mention names OPS, it is quite obvious! I thought you were better then that.
So the OPS are not talking about you then, well then who told them the secret of Mayo that they shared with only three other people on here?
Don't you judge me.
now i'm amused!
chortling, in fact. :)
It is easy to see that Elena bitched Kapu out for sayign she guessed out Mayo's riddle the other night, I wonder if she will bitch out the OPS for saying that they have a secret with Mayo and three other people. Probably not!
Nothing's obvious, you're simply trying to make it sound that way. Planting seeds of doubt in everyone's mind. I tell ya, all I hear is "BLAH BLAH BLAH".
Go to bed.
J
Hi RW, toujours, OP-J redrum and BC!
Unless Mayo is being facetious ;) or misleading or I am particularly obtuse, I could conjecture a great deal as to the meaning of this particular post... but I shan't! :)
Pickled Possum - Thank you for the kindness regarding my niece :)) I really appreciate it. She is particularly brave as she's starting to realize how very ill she is. Hopefully the treatment will work, as you say, and thank you again :)
Just back off Elena, TJ and the Punks! They are allowed to talk to and about Mayo however they want!
"Planting seeds of doubt"?? Is that not what you were doing when you put up that post?
I have returned!
RW, it worked! you're a goddess!
Anon - I think Mayo may have given many people a key. Or someone is playing games with everyone!
I want to know what the secret is that the OPS and three others know. Why would Mayo tell only them a secret and tell them only to tell certain people?
Fuck you Mayo that is NOT fair.
Do you remember MIRACLE WHIP?
I can't hear anything else, just blah blah blah. It's drowning out the rest of the conversation.
Hi TJ, are you ok?
J
Miranth said...
Anon - I think Mayo may have given many people a key.
How come he just gave it to them? WHy not give it to everybody??
There is another blog?
Oh shit.
That sucks.
And no, I shan't tell a soul what I suspect, as the knowledge (if it is such) was hard fought, believe me. Never in my whole life... :)
Anonymous said...
I want to know what the secret is that the OPS and three others know.
Honey, I DID say "four". Can you not add?
J
Hi cupcake *tackle hugs*
In case they do the deleting thing again.
Original Punks said...
Mayo:
Telling secrets. Or maybe keeping them.
Two people picked up on your hints. They let you know, in their own way, that they heard you. And now you're telling them so.
Two other people heard you, too, vicariously. Because we're fortunate to know the individuals involved, and have their trust.
Please know that YOUR trust will not be misplaced in the four of us.
Here's hoping you have a pleasant evening and tomorrow, my friend.
love to you
J (and L from the couch)
Original Punks said...
Carrie, it's nothing earthshattering. A couple folks figured out something, and let us know what it was.
*hugs for BC!*
Hi hun :)
hey there miranth. hi j.
i'm mostly ok -- being at my folks' place is making my head all weird, is all.
A chortle will do.
So then who are the others? What secret did Mayo tell them and why did they tell only you? And if it is such a secret why are you bragging on the blog about it?
If only two figured it out, maybe they weren't supposed to tell it to the OPS for them to use it to stir up shit on the blog? So much for their trust.
Anons face it.
SOme people here know more than others. Toujours, Elena went to a show. They obviously met the band. They found some things out.
It is natural that they told ONLY their friends, you would do the same thing too.
Leave them alone. It is their right to know and if Mayo trusted them, then he had a good reason to trust them. It is not your business. Don't judge and stop asking. They are allowed to talk to Mayo about whatever they want in whatever way they want.
These anons sure as hell need a rattle and a baby bottle.
Miranth, guess what? I'm thinking of going to my first ozzfest this year *pretends to gasp* I'm gonna keep an eye on who's gonna be in the lineup :)
it was a much needed chortle.
i thank you, sir.
Yup. No names. Thanks for proving that, "Anon".
See, this proves it doesn't matter what I say, anywhere, anytime, about who or what or why.
"Anon", do you have an approved list of topics I'm allowed to choose from?
J
I am not bragging Anon, I am being facetious (and somewhat embarrassed) - given that you can't see the flush across my face.
J you and L have been anons more times than I can count. You got caught at it once. You blamed others for hacking.
Maybe you are just making up that someone close to Mayo told you a secret to upset people. It wouldn't be the first time you did something like that.
I wasn't talking to you Miranth.
Pick a little, talk a little, pick a little, talk a little
Cheep cheep cheep, talk a lot, pick a little more
I'm off. Good night.
anon @ 1:43, elena and i didn't meet the band. we saw frank before the show, but didn't get to talk to him because of all the fans around him, because we were just fans waiting to talk to him and he didn't have time to stay all day.
after the show, the band didn't even come out. we watched the buses go.
you are writing fanfic scenarios, i'm afraid.
By saying that Mayo's trust will not be misplaced in the four of you you are saying that Mayo specifically placed his trust in just four of you.
Why you four?
Toujour are you saying that you are not the one that Mayo told his secret to, who told the OPS?
Miranth, don't worry, they're talking to me about the bragging. They always have issues with me. And it's always the same ones, over and over.
J
BACK OFF, ALL OF YOU.
Mayo can tell anybody WHATEVER he wants at any time and you have no right to question him!
So he told a friend of the OPs a secret and they told the OPs. Get over it. They are allowed to talk to him about it.
good night redrum. sweet dreams even though i think you just sassed us.
xp
BC! *hugs* You will so enjoy Ozzfest, given your taste in music, if I've noticed accurately. I'm thinking of going again this year, but getting there early. I'll have to check the lineup too.
OP-J feel free to bring up any topic you like - any at all - you'd be doing me a kindness. Please *pleading* :) take no notice of anyone else in your field of vision... :D *hypnotizing OP-J* *laughing maniacally* :)
Aww anons are getting all butthurt over the fact that Mayo trusts some people and not others? Well here's a newsflash for you, Mayo can pick and choose who he is allowed to confide his trust in! Wow imagine that, him getting to choose who he tells his secrets to! Too bad it isn't you, oh well, get over it. Stop picking it out on those that he chose.
anon @ 1:47, if mayo told me a secret, i didn't get it.
THis reminds me of Miracle Whip.
I seem to remember the OPS getting CRAZY over Miracle Whip when Mayo had a "secret blog" and didn't invite them.
But now Mayo is telling secrets to nly the OPs and their friends and that is OK? That doesn't seem fair now does it?
So who told the OPS Mayo's secret then?
No RW -
It's usu quiet here at night, or we party, those are the times I like best!
elena.
elena.
elena.
where the fuck are you?
Wait, here's what I'm thinking.
Someone here met Mayo. It must be someone who went to a concert. Mayo told them a secret. The only secret here is who he is. That's what this whole blog entry is about, telling the secret. That's according to the OPS.
Those two people told the OPS Mayo's secret.
The OPS came on here and told Mayo that they knew his secret and that it was safe with them.
That's what I have so far. Otherwise I am lost.
This is all getting a bit 'King Henry the eighths court' isn't it? I mean it's ridiculous and tragic. I'd laugh if so many people weren't being insulted.
Let me say, I did not say that Mayo told anyone anything. I said that someone guessed something, and they told us their guess. In confidence. I did not say it was Mayo's identity. For all you know, it could be that he bought a villa in France, or had plastic surgery as a child, or stood in the middle of the Brooklyn Bridge and sang "Tiptoe Through the Tulips."
And you know, you guys have totally shoved that "hacking" shit into the ground. We never accused anyone of hacking into our account. People saw the email I sent SDock and Mustard. Nothing was ever mentioned about hacking. Leave that poor dead horse in the street, will you?
We're not leaving.
J
Anon at 1:51 lay off just lay off. I personally do NOT recall the Punks lashing out over Miracle Whip but whatever.
Seriously if someone had confided in YOU a secret that Mayo had said, would YOU share it with the whole blog? I doubt you would! So stop judging the Punks and leave them alone. If they want the whole blog to know they will tell them. Until they decide that it is between them, Mayo, and whoever else Mayo told.
IT IS NOT YOUR BUSINESS
Miranth, if the school thing and going to the ozzyfest works out, I might plan on bringing more than one friend with me. I am well aware of some of the things that goes on there.
Besides, I heard Lacuna Coil might make a reappearance.
I hope so. The website is supposed to release more info soon so I'll keep an eye on that.
And you know, you guys have totally shoved that "hacking" shit into the ground. We never accused anyone of hacking into our account. People saw the email I sent SDock and Mustard.
Were you the ones who posted it here with Sdock's name for all to see?
If you weren't accusing them of hacking with Orange Little Bees what WERE you accusing them of?
Perhaps, TJ. But it was delivered with fondness.
Mostly.
(This message does not exist.)
Let me say, I did not say that Mayo told anyone anything. I said that someone guessed something, and they told us their guess. In confidence.
But you said that Mayo's trust was not misplaced in the four of you. That means that HE HIMSELF placed his trust in the four of you not by accident.
Which is it?
They did say that Mayo had placed his trust in the four of them.
So it's not his identity. Is it anothe rblog that he's keeping that only four know about?
This is JUST like Miracle Whip.
SO WHAT!
Kapu said that she took a guess too and when Elena questioned her, she brushed her off! "Oh I had to go to bed"!!! How come that is alright to do?
Cupcake, the key word is try to ignore the BS drama.
Kapu said that she took a guess too and when Elena questioned her, she brushed her off! "Oh I had to go to bed"!!! How come that is alright to do?
K said that she figured out "sharp" by herself. She never said that Mayo put his trust in her.
Mayo "placed his trust" in some people on here according to J. THere is a difference.
(This message does not exist.)
and i did not read it, nor did i giggle out loud over it, nor am i typing this comment...
all is illusion.
BC - I've never had any trouble at all at Ozzfest, even wandering by myself, though I go with a few friends, invariably. People are pretty cool there - though you may have to avert your eyes at some of the antics, if you are easily embarrassed. Lacuna Coil - I think I like their music - I've prob. only heard a song or two, though. It would be good to have more women musicians represented, though, so - Very cool!
Twisting everything yet again. I DID NOT POST THE ORIGINAL EMAIL. Just because I said everyone saw it doesn't mean I put it there. We kept up with the blog while we were gone, we saw the day it was posted.
When I said Mayo's trust was not misplaced, I meant that if the guess turned out to be correct, none of us would mention it.
Tell me, do you always hound people this relentlessly, or is it just me?
J
Mayo "placed his trust" in some people on here according to J. THere is a difference.
So good for them and good for him! Who cares who he trusts and doesn't trust with his secrets?
meant that if the guess turned out to be correct, none of us would mention it.
But you DID mention it. Why even tell him that in the first place?
This reeks of Miracle Whip.
I still think that Tourjours knows who Mayo is and told Elena who told the OPS. That makes perfect sense. Then the OPS came on here and decided to talk about it.
I'd want to know who Mayo is too.
OP-J - You're right, we could be guessing incorrectly, which is why I rarely speculate. And no, I am not one of the 4 for anyone reading.
Does anyone know where I can read elena and TJ's gothic in its entirety?
Thanks
Miranth, yeah, I agree more women musicians should be represented there, but I could care less. I go to concerts for the music and to have a great time, and that's about it.
I'm hoping at least the lineup will be somewhat good, if not, there's always HOB.
Well, reek on, sister.
You guys are too funny.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
J
HOLY FUCKING SHIT
So we're back in Elementary school? Mayonaise, in all honesty, this blog is like a foreign tongue to me. I don't get it.
Anons, whatever the fuck the OPs know, it obviously isn't supposed to be out in the open. Yes, this does remind me of MWM. Yes, I was hurt by that, and yes, this whole thing is a little upsetting right now, but just give it a rest!
Really, these games are getting old and tiring. It's stupid, it's childish, it's immature.
Two people picked up on your hints. They let you know, in their own way, that they heard you. And now you're telling them so.
Perhaps I can clear this up.
I was the anon who said that two people had "gotten it". And an anon from earlier was correct, it is unlikely that the Original Punks would even ask one of them what it was. The "two people" the Punks are talking about are not the "two people" I was talking about.
Perhaps the Punks know of two other, separate people who guessed something about Mayo, however.
So please, calm down. Everyone here was taking guesses as everyone here is allowed to do.
You guys are too funny.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
Please answer me on how you felt about Miracle Whip Me, J.
Anons, whatever the fuck the OPs know, it obviously isn't supposed to be out in the open. Yes, this does remind me of MWM. Yes, I was hurt by that, and yes, this whole thing is a little upsetting right now, but just give it a rest!
Thank you Paper.
But, did the OPS give it a rest when Mayo was hiding Miracle Whip?
Miranth, for the gothic story, you can check out Toujours' ectoplasmic blog. That's where the story is posted at.
Anons, whatever the fuck the OPs know, it obviously isn't supposed to be out in the open.
Then why did they put it out in the open in the first place?
Hello, Miranth. I obviously know nothing, or else I would've gone to bed early.
J
You didn't say it was Mayo's identity but you didn't say it wasn't. I can't think of anything else it could be since Mayo is all mystery.
What is the secret about that Mayo is keeping from everybody but our select people? Can you at least tell us what it is about, J?
But, did the OPS give it a rest when Mayo was hiding Miracle Whip?
I honestly don't remember.
Then why did they put it out in the open in the first place?
I don't know that either, maybe to let Mayonaise know that they had an assumption that they thought was right? I would like to know the answer to your question as well Anonymous.
They can't answer the question about Miracle Whip because they know they chewed Mayo a new asshole about that. But when they are the ones holding Mayo's secret they think that is alright.
J, just ignore them. Real life owns pathetic, stupid, internet, moronic blog drama.
Papherheart, the OPS did chew Mayo out over Miracle Whip, not only Mayo but BC because she knew about it and did not share her info with the others.
Now they know something about Mayo and it is obviously something important if they are talking about having hs trust, and promising that they won't break his trust. If it was something little they wouldn't have bothered telling him that! And are not sharing their info with others. So I ask you why is that OK?
all is illusion.
The operative statement.
One understands what you are trying to convey...but to connect "that" with "this"...it can NEVER be associated with what you say was the intent. Silence was preferable. That is, if my interpretation is correct.
I am no fool. I still wish the best future, be that whatever it is,for one.
okey-doke, i'm going to bed. i'm tired, i'm confused, i don't know anything, i want to know something, and there's a calendar on the wall across from me with a hyuge picture of a hummingbird on it that is kinda freaking me out.
and i'm worried about elena.
so sweet dreams, all -- even you, you nosy, persistent clueless anons.
Anon, it really isn't okay for them to put it out in the open and then not share any info when asked. Yes, it's not fair. It could be nothing, it could be something. I really would like to know, but clearly, we probably won't find out.
*PH is tired*
2:20, you just confused me more. i was playing with redrum. what are you talking about?
When MWM was exposed, I called BC out about keeping it from the majority of the other bloggers. Both L and I gave Mayo our opinion on the subject of the blog, as did everyone else. We did not hound him about it. We said our piece and left it at that.
The difference here is that Mayo instigated the MWM incident. He did not instigate this. As a matter of fact, there was nothing to instigate. None of us have met the man. And why is it ME getting the Spanish Inquisition here? If you think Elena and TJ know something, why not ask them? Yeah, I see that you asked TJ. One or two questions. She answered them, and you took her at her word. Why the grilling with me? Your turn to answer a question there, "Anon".
J
Sweet Dreams TJ! =]
<3
I'm confused, tired, and curious as well. I'm super confused actually.
super confused sounds kind of fun, paperheart. like a superhero or something. :)
Well I think it's time for me to head off, I really can't think of anything to say.
Take care everyone, and ladies?
I love and trust you all.
I mean that too.
Don't be dragged down by anything, remember there are so many more important things, we only need eachother.
Mayo, SS, Lovelies, have a wonderful weekend.
You are ALL beautiful, and I'm always around if anyone needs me.
xoxo cupcake
Lol. It does, doesn't it TJ? Goodnight my bumblebee!<3
Cupcake, you really are amazing and caring. Sweet dreams Cuppy-cake!<3 (i'll try to respond to your comment sometime tomorrow. =])
good night cupcake -- good to see you, even if we didn't really chat. :)
Anon - everything here may be an illusion. And that's ok.
Toujours - Sorry about your parents' place! And goodnight! SOrry I didn't respond sooner - trying to catch up. Unsuccessfully!
BC- I do care if women are represented, but I am a lot older so I know how it was and can be. That said - I do appreciate music for its own inherent value and buy tickets accordingly! :)
And thank you for the gothic location!
J I agree with BC - real life has its own drama as I well know. SO maybe we should scroll by. *shrugs*
TJ - what's up with elena - did I miss something? I hope she's ok!
Goodnight PH!
And goodnight cupcake - and remember you are beautiful, too - inside and out. :)
BC, Miranth, yeah, I know that, but do the "Anons"? Obviously not. I'm done with this garbage.
I saw you guys were talking about Ozzfest earlier? I've never been. I know that the Rollins Band played it one year; Henry Rollins told a great story about that when we saw him in concert.
J
Go back and read the post "Can you smell a rat" post and see how the OPS responded to being left out of Mayo's secrets by other bloggers (BC) and then tell me it's alright for them to tell Mayo how his secret is safe with them, safe from the other bloggers.
Op-J - I probably know nothing at all. And that would be sad indeed, but most probable in every case.
Original Punks said...
Did anyone here actually see a list? Or did someone merely talk about it?
I really want to know this info so please, if anyone knows, tell me.
And Amy, no, I'm not saying Mayo is BC. I think Mayo's called her a rat. Check the title of this blog. He, as Mayonaise, actually commented twice on this "Other Blog", one called "fear regret deletion". His comment, on HIS OWN BLOG SUPPOSEDLY, was "Not my fear, not my regret, not my deletion..." and something else I don't recall, but it was definitely saying that it wasn't him.
Go read it folks.
J
November 14, 2007 1:12 AM
Anon, I know, it really isn't fair to accuse someone of the same thing, months back, and then do the same now. I know that. I see where you are coming from, but for all we know, what the OP's and whoever else have figured out, may just be something so minuscule, that it isn't a big deal. OR something that is completely ridiculous. We don't know anything.
So, let me ask the OP's this,
Is Mayo's new "secret" going to affect the whole blog?
Goodnight Cupcake. Hi grasshopper *hugs*
Miranth, yes our gender should be well-represented. Indeed! But I don't respect those that has to sell their body in order to gain respect or fame.
And you're welcome for the story :)
Yeah, well, that's my cue, I guess.
Night, guys. For those who tried to support me tonight, thank you.
J
Hey BC!
J, I'm not against you, I'm not against anyone. I'm just trying to figure shit out, for my own peace of mind, so I won't go to bed worrying.
Miranth, I'm still here =]
THis is what Toujours said on the Miracle Whip Me fiasco:
toujours said...
bc, be strong, don't worry too much. (lol - that's funny coming from me!)
he knows we're all here to catch him if he needs us. he's one of us now. we take care of our own.
pactum serva, right, bc?
November 8, 2007 9:22 AM
Well now the OPS are in with "the cool kids" the clique that follows Mayo around. The "secret" clique.
So now obviously it's OK for them to be sharing in the secrets.
Toujours has never hidden the fact that she was in on the "special clique" but the OPS used to be totally against it.
miranth, i just haven't heard from elena, and i didn't like the sound of her last night time comment to mayo...
and this isn't getting me any closer to sleep.
good night all.
J, that's all it is. Garbage. That's why now I stay away from it. It's just fucking stupid and a waste of time to be arguing with anons on a blog.
I heard ozzy might headline this year's festival miranth :)
And there's rumors metallica might be playing as well.
J, how was the henry rollins concert?
but for all we know, what the OP's and whoever else have figured out, may just be something so minuscule, that it isn't a big deal. OR something that is completely ridiculous. We don't know anything.
If that was the case, if it was something miniscule, would they have gone on here promising to keep it a secret? You don't have to do that for something miniscule. It is obviously a big enough deal that they have to promise the secrecy of only four of them, to not "Misplace Mayo's trust.
TJ, I'm sure shes fine. Don't worry, sleep well<3
You're right Anon.
night j, sweet dreams.
Anonymous said...
toujours said...
i always liked au stories. especially s-e-c-r-e-t ones.
you goof. ^.^
(i'll never tell)
October 17, 2007 9:11 AMbr/>
That was Toujours making suckers out of everyone who didn't get an invitation to Miracle Whip Me way back when.
See THIS is what is going on again. Only one the OPS fought against this behavior. Now they are a part of it and are acting just like it.
*sigh*
(i'm never going to get to sleep)
i would just like to point out that when i wrote this:
he knows we're all here to catch him if he needs us. he's one of us now. we take care of our own.
i was actually referring to all of the lovelies, not just the ones who had found the alternate universe.
i'm a little tired of that being misinterpreted.
PH - I don't think you need to be worried in the least. :) No dishonorable intent, on anyone's part, if what I suspect is true.
BC - I agree with you that it should be about the quality of the music rather than gender, and that women should be more fully represented as many are great musicians.... and should not need resort to attention seeking tactics to be noticed as good musicians. So I wonder if that system is broken. I seriously think so. And that's from an outsider.
PS. Paperheart, I don't know anything. About anything, or anybody, or whatever.
I am apparently one of the worst people on the face of the Earth. Or so these "Anons" would have people believe.
J
er...totally didn't mean to bold my comment there.
and when i was writing at the alternate universe, i was addressing myself to mayo. regardless of what anyone thinks, i was not there making fun of my friends in blogbelieve.
Original Punks said...
Where's this infamous list, then? I can't seem to find it. And Chaos, you've been caught in so many lies it's not even funny.
And for fuck's sake, take some grammar lessons. "Much" is not the definitive adjective.
Me? Jealous of her? No fucking way.
Why did you, BC, feel it was necessary to post anonymous comments on Mayo's blog anyway? If he trusted you so much, you could've just said, Hey, let's tell everyone about the other blog," and he would have gone along with you.
Right? Or doesn't he listen to his favorite fangirl?
J
November 14, 2007 2:59 AM
Original Punks said...
PS. Paperheart, I don't know anything. About anything, or anybody, or whatever.
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Then what is this:
Mayo:
Telling secrets. Or maybe keeping them.
Two people picked up on your hints. They let you know, in their own way, that they heard you. And now you're telling them so.
Two other people heard you, too, vicariously. Because we're fortunate to know the individuals involved, and have their trust.
Please know that YOUR trust will not be misplaced in the four of us.
Here's hoping you have a pleasant evening and tomorrow, my friend.
love to you
J (and L from the couch)
TJ - Thank you for the information about elena. That's worrying as she is often plagued by troubles... I just hope she's ok.
okay, so totally going to bed. i'm off-balanace enough that i'm explaining myself and what i wrote at the alternate universe to anons, something i thought i'd never do.
i hope this is the third time i've said good night to you all, because i certainly need the charm.
Original Punks said...
Oh no you don't, don't you EVEN think about running off and hiding. That means, to me, that everything I said was true. If you're innocent, Chaos, you'll tell us exactly what happened. If you're guilty, you'll run like the lying fucking weasel you are.
J
The same could be said to you, right now. So are you going to tell the "secret" that only four of you know, or are you going to run?
you're welcome miranth. keep her in your thoughts. i am.
TJ - *hugs*
Original Punks said...
Now why is it when I ask someone a direct question they suddenly disappear?
Anon, can you tell me that?
Maybe you don't have all the answers after all.
J
Couldn't the same be said about you right now too??
Woah, bolded comments much?
Sorry, reading back to the old blogs..
J, you're not a bad person.
Nope, I'm going to bed, like other people say they're going to do when they don't want to answer questions.
But I guess it's ok for them to do it, and not me, right? How nice.
Go ahead and repost all the yelling I did at BC earlier. We're over all that. Yeah, I was angry with her.
What do you want from me? Tell me, honestly. What do you want me to do that will make you happy?
J
Okay, maybe they aren't bolded. lol. I think I"m just tired and seeing them bolded
BC- Ozzy, Henry Rollins, and Metallica? DId I hear that right? If so, I'd better get tickets early cause they'll sell out.
J - Are you going to Ozzfest?
I know I'm not a bad person, PH. But somebody sure as Hell wants me portrayed that way.
J
Nope, Miranth, I'm not a big heavy-metal fan, but I'm glad for those of you who ARE going.
J
Goodnight J - you don't have to answer anything you don't want to. And I'm prob. incorrect anyway, that's if I saw the same thing that others did! Goddess only knows...
*hugs* and sweet dreams!
Miranth, can I ask what you saw? I'd understand if you didn't want to say anything.
Miranth, exactly. The quality of the music is much more important than how one should behave or dress according to the record company, execs, or whoever pressures one to act in order to gain attention and spotlight.
Original Punks said...
Nope, I'm going to bed, like other people say they're going to do when they don't want to answer questions.
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Yes, Kapu said that she guessed a riddle of Mayo's. YOU are saying that you are keeping a secret for him, there is a big differenc there. Elena bitched her out for guessing, and then going to bed.
But obviously you are allowed to tell eveyrone that you found out this big secret f Mayo's, promise in public to not betray his trust in you.
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Go ahead and repost all the yelling I did at BC earlier. We're over all that. Yeah, I was angry with her.
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It is exactly the same thing that you are doing to everyone here right now. How come you are allowed to be angry with BC for keeping Mayo's secret but it is alright for you to keep Mayo's secret?
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What do you want from me? Tell me, honestly. What do you want me to do that will make you happy?
J
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Tell everyone the secret. The way you bullied BC about back over MWM.
you guys crack me up
J, you're not a bad person. Not at all. Goodnight and sweet dreams.
Miranth, with the exception of Henry Rollins, Ozzy and Metallica are rumored to be some of the headliners for this year, but I read that Metallica is touring with Down in the summer. I think they'll announce the lineup soon.
You chewed BC out for keeping a secret. Kapunua got chewed out for taking a guess.
Now you are here promising to keep Mayo's secret between four of you.
How is this any different than MWM?
mayo,
a short good night from me, maybe. i'm going to try, anyway.
do you want to know what i did today? i ate my lunch while standing in front of my mom's azalea bushes. i didn't mean to, but i went over to watch the butterflies and was entranced.
i also stood in the cemetary my folks will be buried in someday. i stood by the unbroken ground i will grieve over. it was a beautiful place, and a peaceful place, and i turned to my mom and hugged her and said i liked it very much.
and then tonight, a thunderstorm, so no stars to sit out under and regain my center.
and then tonight, and being thrown even more off-balance than before.
i don't know.
i am a fool for even thinking it.
and "heaven help us" today like water in a desert, because i'm not there, and i'm afraid i only have two more chances to be truly alive.
i'm not ready to come in off the road. no matter what the fates have in store for me, i just want to stand and listen, and be a part of that, you know?
i don't want the temp job, and the paid bills. i want the water. i want to send it back out into the world in my own way, because otherwise why am i even breathing anymore.
(i think i caught some sharp off of you. don't worry, it'll pass.)
and this is the last night i am going to complain about this. i'm not at the concerts, so fucking what. suck it up, right? stop being fearful and renew my trust in the powers that be that have brought me this far.
straighten the spine. stop dithering.
so.
follow your heart, mayo-sama. even as confused and foolish as i am tonight, i know that's always the answer.
your heart burns true, this i believe, and this i trust. listen to it.
sweet dreams, beautiful man.
PH - As others seem to think it important to keep silent about what it is, and I was not at all sure, alone, after I read new material earlier, I don't think it's right to say it and I could be very wrong and anger people with my mistake, as I often do. I only think I know because I came here later (after administering medicine to my niece, who is more important right now) and I noticed that others think they figured something out and my mind may have wandered the same path earlier. But given this is a communal experience and others feel it is not our place to divulge, I shall not do so, though I do wish to grant your request as it just may reassure you :)
God that was long winded! I feel bad about it as I am particularly honest (my blog is entitled Verity, after all)...
And in any case, I could be very wrong, where would the truth be then?
Do you think that Elena would have bitched at the OPS for this the way she bitched out Kapunua for going to bed without answering her question? No.
That is either because Elena likes certain people and doesn't like others.
OR, it is because Elena already knows the OPS secret about Mayo.
There is no secret.
As I said, and you are obviously choosing to ignore, "When I said Mayo's trust was not misplaced, I meant that if the guess turned out to be correct, none of us would mention it."
That's all the explanation you're going to get. I am done with this ridiculous interrogation, and I am done with you, now and later, in whatever form you decide to take.
Again, you never told me why you hound, grill, annoy, pester, interrogate, pick at, and flog ME, specifically. I'm interested. And, you didn't give me my approved list of topics I can talk about. I'm sure you have an opinion about that, just like everything else I do.
You got anything else to say, you're sayin' it to the door, cause I'm outta here tonight.
J
I think I have it figured out now.
THis post is to someone on this blog. Someone who met Mayo. He tried to tell her. He introduced himself, He caught her off guard.
If you put that together with what the OPS said, it was TWO people who "figured out Mayo's secret" according to the OPS.
Those two people told the OPS.
Now four of them have to keep Mayo's secret.
So who here would have met Mayo? Toujours said she didn't meet the BAND but she could have met Mayo. Elena was with her when she went.
Elena would tell the OPS anything.
That's the four of them.
Yes, BC, and its awful to think that music of great quality has not been heard because some musicians would honorably refuse to conform to those particular standards.
It sounds like it'll be difficult to choose which shows to see this summer!
Again, you never told me why you hound, grill, annoy, pester, interrogate, pick at, and flog ME, specifically. I'm interested.
That's what you did to BC about the Miracle Whip Me blog when she had a secret is it not?
Why did you do it?
You wanted answers of course.
Now you are the one keeping a secret but no one is allowed to even ask you what it is. You called BC all kinds of names. No one here is calling you names even.
Just asking you to tell us the secret that Mayo is keeping that only four of you know.
The same way you badgered BC. Only you did it in a much worse way.
Anonymous said...
I think I have it figured out now.
THis post is to someone on this blog. Someone who met Mayo. He tried to tell her. He introduced himself, He caught her off guard.
If you put that together with what the OPS said, it was TWO people who "figured out Mayo's secret" according to the OPS.
Those two people told the OPS.
Now four of them have to keep Mayo's secret.
So who here would have met Mayo? Toujours said she didn't meet the BAND but she could have met Mayo. Elena was with her when she went.
Elena would tell the OPS anything.
That's the four of them.
That actually makes perfect sense.
But why would the OPS flaunt their knowledge instead of keeping it to themselves? Like they promised Mayo they would?
TJ,
GOodnight Sweetie<3
Miranth, lol. My brain is not functioning, so I had to re-read that comment a few times. BUUT, I understand. I mean, I sometimes think I get something about Mayo, but I know I'm never right. I'm just hella' confused and I feel like I'm in the dark. With all the arguing and upsetting stuff on these blogs lately, I'm just scared that the same things are just repeating themselves over and over again from a few months back.
When you do know something that you think you can share, since I am 100% too dense to figure anything out, could you please let me know? I hate this confusing feeling. I really feel like I'm in the dark here right now.
Mayonaise; care to shine some light in here. Open a window, or something. Do you know what the fuck everyone is getting hyped up about?
No?
Didn't think so. lol.
I'm off to bed. I must be up for guitar lessons then work in about 7 hours! Goodnight<3
xoxoxo;
- 007
Anons, probable, but HIGHLY unlikely.
Goodnight Anons, BC, Miranth, TJ, OP's, lurkers, Mayonaise, SS.
But why would the OPS flaunt their knowledge instead of keeping it to themselves? Like they promised Mayo they would?
That one is easy. They want to show off and make others feel left out of the little "four person secret club." Basically what the others did to everyone else during MWM.
The true colors of the OPS is that the only reason they were so angry with BC and hounded her for keeping Mayo's secret, was not because Mayo started a secret blog. It was really only because they were not ON the secret blog. They were not in Mayo's clique.
Now they are in Mayo's clique because they know his secret. Now they are OK with keeping secrets.
You can bet that if they had been on MWM blog they would have gloated over it just like the others did. They would not have been bothered by it.
It bothers me because I thought that they weren't like that.
Goodnight PH, sweet dreams.
It sounds like it'll be difficult to choose which shows to see this summer!
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Aye, I think it would. Too many festivals and shows to look up this summer O_o
For me, I will wait and see what the lineup will comprise of, and then check out some other festivals to see which bands are performing.
Anons, probable, but HIGHLY unlikely.
Paperheart, those words mean opposite things. Probable is the opposite of unlikely.
And it seems really likely.
Re-read this post. Read it like it is to someone who Mayo met at a concert, someone here.
Think about who Elena is best friends with.
Then read the OPS post to Mayo about keeping his secret.
PH - When I am sure I know something, I will tell you. And like I said I really wasn't sure, in isolation, that I was correct - I kept rereading and rereading and still wasn't sure! My niece did laugh at me though, which was good, so someone was amused at all this! And I may be thinking something entirely different from the other four, again, in isolation :) I don't think anyone has the right to get mad about this either, if you're referring to MWM. I posted as confused anon at that time to offer support to the family and I remember what it was like. I am not worried at all. :)
Cliques? Yes, I sometimes see it happen here on the blogs. But me? I don't think that I belong to one. I come on whenever I can. Whether it's before school, after school, before work, after work, during school, late at night, I get here when I get here. I sometimes do feel super left out, and not welcomed. Sometimes I feel unwanted, not needed, and just like an annoyance, or disturbance to the blogs.
Does that stop me from returning? Nope. I do like everyone here. I do care for everyone. Including Mayonaise and SS, so when I hear that Mayo may have a secret, I begin to worry. Is it good, is it bad? If I'm not meant to know, then I won't find out. I don't really feel like I have a connection to either Mayonaise or SS. I don't have any 'inside jokes' with them, I'm not included in the fun conversations. I never really ever have a chance to actually speak directly to either of the two. It would be nice though, just so I know that they know I exist.
Yes, I see this place "divided and conquered". Didn't we all promise ourselves we wouldn't let it happen? Well fuck, guess what guys? We all let it happen.
That is what disappoints and upsets me the most.
Anon, I see your point. If I'm saying doesn't make any sense, then please disregard it. I'm sleepy.
Miranth, thank you. I always like "Confused Anon". =]
Geez, where's Phil when you need him?
BC, these blogs are quite the soap opera aren't they? :P
P.S. Dude, out of respect, I'm sorry this has to happen again on your blog, Mayonaise.
Yes they are PH, and on that note, I'm signing off. Don't want to read anymore bullshit for the night.
goodnight grasshopper, miranth, sweet dreams guys.
PH - if there are any cliques here, I don't belong to any, I can assure you! I type very slooooowly, so if I don't welcome you its because I've forgotten which names I read when I scroll up to begin laboriously typing *laughing*. If you ever feel unwelcome, though, its best just to come back later - works for me, every time.
And PH - I may never have 'spoken' to Mayo or SS, either, but I still enjoy the company of friends here!
I love the TV show LOST, but I kinda feel like I'm in it right now... :)
Goodnight BC! *hugs* And it's good to have difficult choices about which concerts to see, much better than the alternative :)
Mayo
I’ve not spoken tonight cause to be honest my life it in the fucking toilet right now and no, it isn’t getting any better. I just want you to know that I am here even though I don’t comment. I do find comfort in this place. Today when you posted I was here but even your words couldn’t make me speak. I’m confused, hurt and trying to figure out what to do about my life right now so I knew anything I’d write would be just plain shit. Still I want you to know that I am here and that I do hear you. I realize it’s terribly pathetic of me but I find happiness in the fact that I believe you hear me too. Thank you for that.
Fuck, one more thing. About the anon’s bringing my name into this conspiracy. I think my favorite was the anon who said that I had met you and that I was keeping that a secret. Damn Mayo, I feel really bad about this but I don’t remember you. You would think I’d remember something like that, wouldn’t you? Shit, I can’t stop rolling my eyes over that one. Holy crap, where do these idea’s come from? But wait, maybe it’s true. Were you that guy I met at the grocery store by the frozen fish sticks?
Night Mayo
Elena
PS – Wait you must have been the guy who wanted to know if I wanted mustard of mayo on my hamburger, right?
mayo,
no, i didn't go to bed. why? because i called laverne instead. i had to, she started saying stupid things in our text messages. stuff like "i'm not important."
i ask you, what kind of crap is that? so we've been talking -- it's kansas all over again -- my mom even came out to yell at me, and all elena did was cackle and giggle and say that i was gonna get grounded.
dammit!
she's giggling in my ear right now. the twerp.
but anyway, i am writing this comment to you to warn you, mayo-man.
see, i'm not going to try to get to the memphis show. i'm going to go over to kansas and elena and i are going to road trip it up to st. louis together.
you know what happens when we get together. your blog feels the combined havoc of laverne & shirley!
so, you know, it's only about three or four hours from kansas city to st. louis, but we might have internet capability on the road.
avert your eyes, mayo! protect your tender sensibilities!
caveat blogmaster!
good morning mayo!
i like this new post. you sound kind of crazy but definitely human!!
a crazy human that appears to have swallowed a dictionary! i like that though!
whoever it is you wrote this for mayo, make sure you spell the truth out to them when you get the chance. otherwise time may lapse and it may never be fully stated. i am just speaking from past experience. don't wait for this person to ask, go get them, look at them face to face and say it!! go on you can do it!!
take care mayo and hope you have a wonderful saturday!
hello SS! hope you are doing good my friend?! have a lovely day. hey it's hard not to, saturdays are the best!!
morning family!!
i've not caught up, quelle suprise! please don't think i am a shitty friend i just don't have the damn time!! i am thinking of you all though! did notice rather alot of anon comments though which is a tad worrying so maybe later today i'll give em a skim!! do i even want to??!!
anyway guys have toptastic saturdays!!
big footie game today!! chelsea v man utd!! it's a really biggy and will decide whether me and fim will acknowledge kass on monday!! or vice versa!
love to you all!
hi elena and TJ!! and anyone else that may still be around, and anyone else about to appear!
why are we all bolded!!
you been fiddling mayo??
well just wanted to wish you guys a lovely and sunny saturday, we have awesome sunny springweather here... :)
pixiee!!!!!!
hi anon, do I know you? how are you?
It's me, Siobhan!
I knew it! hahaha just wanted to make sure before i spill secrets ;) haha
so still problems?
Well, I haven't tried it.
Wait.
HAHAHA!!!!!
It works.
Here I am back in black, er, blue!
yay weird huh? so we can stop insulting others for the problem muahahahaha :)
how´s your day so far? well i was lucky I got pancakes this morning *laugh* and I already sent emails to ferrycompanies ^^
I just woke up and had my daily dosis of gossip.
I'll have breakfast now (no pancakes!) and then head off to the laundromat.
What happened here last night?
I think Mayonaise should rename the blog into 'Dynasty - the blog years'. :-D
hopefully you won´t meet the psycho again ;)
how´s the weather in cologne? I´ll have to go to the shop to buy food for our lasagne this evening.... well I´m the one who´ll cook it... better that way... otherwise we won´t have lasagn ethis evening *laugh*
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