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I am
Who you think I am not
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Yes, I am aware.
Art by: Toujours
No Contest
even if no one gets me, if i'm the only one laughing at my jokes, i won't hide myself away from life. it's uncertain and it's dirty and it's fucking exciting, and i want to be a part of all of it.
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
it's too good to waste in hiding.
toujours
February, 21, 2009 1:27 AM
heart full
Today on my way home from class, I stopped off at the petrol station for some petrol. I paid on my card which wasn’t a lot, and then as I was getting into my car, I saw an old man walking past the building. He had a red and green stripy jumper which was frayed at the ends. He was also wearing some jeans that were dirty and had holes all over.
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
I sat there and became intrigued by him because I didn’t know what he was doing, so as I sat there and watched him, he continued doing what he set out to do.
He walked past the trash cans and first picked out a cup with some drink still in it (one of the cups that you get from burger king that has coke in it). He then walked over to the next trash can and pulled out the end of a half eaten sandwich. In my shock horror, he ate it and then went to sit on the wall to drink the drink he had found.
I felt sad, I wanted to give him my last $4 that I had but I was told when I was younger that you should never give people money, you should give them something they need or can use because that way, if they had an addiction, they would not be able to use the money for their addiction. So I went into the shop and bought a chicken sandwich from their deli counter and then walked out of the building.
The guy was still sat at the wall drinking his drink so I walked up to him and asked him if he would like this sandwich. He thanked me and said that he was hungry.
I should of felt good after that, doing something for someone else but all I could think of is where his next meal will come from or where in fact he will sleep tonight.
Fimble Star
September 30, 2008 8:08 PM
(Tonight, although I am cold and my feet are sore, my belly is full.)
It helped.
Jennicula,
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Thank you for sharing your story. Although it only appeared briefly, I was lucky enough to have caught it.
Once upon a time, for me, that was the best part of this place...having my words related back to me from another's perspective.
And it never mattered to me who said it, just that it meant something to the writer.
Blog header image by: Anima
I would like to credit the photographer and thank her for sharing her work.
something
Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are. If you've had a shitty day and you feel like people just don't want you to be happy, and when you find yourself struggling to make it through the day, just keep on believing and keep the faith. Also, from personal experience, don't push people away. When they say they want to help and that they are there for you, let them in. Believe me, I know how fucking scary that thought is, but don't shut others out.
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
paperheartxx
September 22, 2008 11:07 PM
Retro-spectacled
Sometimes, when you look back on stuff in your life, you know, the crap that makes you shake your head and say, "Holy shit, what the Hell was I thinking?" it's part of what makes you - you.
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
I'm not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I have made small mistakes and really big, fucking scary mistakes. Would I change those mistakes and blunders?
No. Wanna know why?
Because they make me - me. They help make up the person that I am, what I've learned the hard way. Hopefully I've learned from my mistakes and have become a better person for it. And, hopefully I don't repeat those same mistakes. Although, sometimes I repeat variations of certain ones, but I'm working on that. :)
Jennicula
June 11, 2008 11:19 AM
aloft
Blazing against the sun
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
like locusts,
samaras swarm the sky
and skitter to an earthly end,
dry
like clever words.
I want to make them fly up,
flip heaven upside down
and dance across the top of hell
and sing your thoughts
to the sound of thunder
that you love so well,
rip open the littered sky
and bathe in the light
or draw across the firmament
the blanket of the night.
In only a day they have
covered the ground,
their brief flight
yielding nothing permanent
on infertile land,
a fleeting moment of swarming glory
that calls to mind our own
short story:
Diamonds and petals,
the loom and the light,
the inkdark moon, foxfire marsh,
an open, waiting hand.
Clever winged seeds
of childhood reminiscent--
and like the idiot grown-up heart,
as stubbornly indehiscent.
Weaver Girl
May 26, 2008 11:27 PM
Electric Blue
…today I saw a ulysses butterfly it was in our yard and settled to feed on our hibiscus. They really are fantastically beautiful things, the electric blue is amazing, however as they sit with their wings closed they are rather nondescript and dull. Sometimes people are like that, from the outside they seem unappealing but within there hides an amazing beauty for those lucky enough to see it. I hope you appreciate beauty in all things, and look for it perhaps where others miss it.
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
ergoproxy
April 29, 2008 4:45 AM
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
I read your post again and suddenly without warning memories of construction paper filled my head. I remembered all the lop-sided flowers my girls made when they were young. Bright blue, yellow and pink flowers that were cut out with blunt end scissors would fill the windows to decorate for Easter. An occasional bunny was attempted but those usually ended up looking like creatures from a horror movie. Flowers were so much easier. I can close my eyes and hear the paper being cut into petals. I can smell the Elmer’s glue squirted on in huge blobs to attach each misshapen petal to form the flowers. We had a huge arts and crafts box full of wonderful items just waiting for their imaginations to turn into something wonderful. In my mind I see my daughters, as they once were, small, blond little girls sitting on the floor surrounded by scraps of paper and other art supplies. They would create their masterpieces then proudly show each other. Oh and Lord the messes that would ensue if the glitter made an appearance. Now, the box is forgotten. I’m not really sure where it even is anymore. The few flowers so lovingly created that survived are faded and dusty and high on a shelf they sit. Time marches on, so many things get left behind.
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
Today was the first Easter I spent alone. I don’t think it really upset me until I remembered the construction paper flowers. Of course I understand that my daughters are growing up and have lives of their own. But understanding doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I miss my little girls in their frilly Easter dresses. I miss the laughter that filled the house when they found what the Easter Bunny left for them. And I miss making the damn flowers.
Elena
March 24, 2008 3:57 AM
From the corner.
I wonder if you noticed
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
all our friends playing
Some had never tried before
and the result was amazing.
Poems from the corner
from the left and right
We did our best to keep them flowing
Late into this night.
If nothing else was accomplished
I hope we made someone see
How truly beautiful and amazing
a poem can be.
Sdock10
March 13, 2008 11:36 PM
Thank You. Truly.
"This little world has grown around us, out of nothing, and it is a remarkable thing. Even the dark and dirty parts, the violent parts. Humanity will not thrive without passion."
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Redrum
March 1, 2008 3:13 AM
Uncondensed
Your words are what give value to this space.
Never do that again.
Yes, I am aware.
Character Advocacy.
"Don't ever pretend to be something you're not. You are who you are, and no one can change that. The people who don't like the real you are just gonna have to suck it. Don't take shit from anyone. Don't crumble. Throw a few birds, and walk on.
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
I'm still trying to do this, so maybe we can work on it together."
mustardisbetter
January 16, 2008 4:48 PM
Art by: Toujours
“I decided to stop pitying myself. Other than my eye, two things aren't paralyzed, my imagination and my memory.”
Jean-Dominique Bauby
Jean-Dominique Bauby
4,234 comments:
«Oldest ‹Older 401 – 600 of 4234 Newer› Newest»Hi OP J. Hi Ergo. I'm feeling better today, just a bit cold. Hi fimmy fim, newbies, anons.
damn
Guard dog, the other word is actually BITCH.
i remeber that talk we had, bc! it was fun getting to chat comics. :)
i think the one you're referring to is "castle waiting", by linda medley. i tend to recommend that to a lot of people.
I have many things here and I also warn before using any of them.
Awwwh, let's play nice. Please...come on!!
fim whank you is a fabulous addition to the blog believe vocab
Star, do your parent know you blog like that?
I just don't like people who barge in rudely, demanding answers of any nature, without so much as a how do you do. If people are nice, I am nice back. Odd how no one seems to notice that. ^_^
Actually, a bitch is simply a female dog...just saying.
Glad to hear that, BC.
Elena, where'd you go?
J
It is also a bitchy woman!!
A bitch is also a bitchy woman? Sure, ok. English must not be your first or second language.
Hi TJ! How's life on the road? Are you still going to be writing the gothic while you're traveling?
J
T-bone, what on earth do you mean?
I'm here
ergo, well i am glad to have done something positive for a change. hahaha
My love, I knew you would reply.
I am your only lovely, I love you more and more, my love
Well whank goodness, it's echoing in here. Where's the donuts, I mean dotuns?
J
J, I'm feeling much better, just a bit cold and I have to wash my hair. Thanks how are you?
Enjoy your shower RW
"barge in" I thought this was the internet...isn't it pretty much open to the public? "Any nature"..."what is your favorite colour?" Come on...I think any reasonalble reader would understand I was just trying to make a point that that question should be answerable by everyone...
TJ and I are planning on working on the gothic while in line at the KC concert.
J
Do not put Whank and donuts in the same comment.
BC, I'm on a new level of the insane asylum due to my mother driving me there. But hey! It's all good now, cause Lombard is here!
T-Bone, what's up?
J
Unfortunately, Star, you know exactly what I mean.
Hey dudes!
Finally some free time O_O.
Looks fun in here tonight?
Elena:
CAN AND DID!!!!! heeheehee
J
elena I can imagine that, you definately need t-shits printed up!
Hi Mustard, how're you feeling today?
J
Fim,
Do you know what he means? DO YOU?
O_O
Oh, so basic manners don't apply on the internet? Then it's perfectly fine for me to tell you you behaved like a prick after all. No problems, I see!
And it wasn't the "favorite color" thing that was rude; I explained it to you.
She said that her dude had basically insulted her. Your answer:
Solly, as a dude, I can tell you, he wasn't asking, he was telling.
She said:
I know the difference between a question and a statement and dude, he was asking me...
And you told her,
Obviously, you don't.
Gosh, you sure have a short memory.
hey mustard!
you see poor Ray's unflattering pic?
TJ and I are planning on working on the gothic while in line at the KC concert.
And the Sunshine Band?
I'm okay, just catching up. :)
Excellent idea Ergo...
Hey T-bone
What's up?
op,
I was just lurkin' like usual, then sdock was rippin' on her "dude" so I felt compelled to jump in. Little did I know that this blog had a female or shall I say bitch of a guard dog that jumped all in my you know what. Apparently,I did not follow the prescribed blog rules. The bottom line is that kap hates me, and sdock just wan't to have fun.
Hi Elena. Thank you oh helpful squeak squeak. I'm thinking of getting myself a copy because the plot sounds really interesting from what I read. Yeah that comic talk was a lot of fun :)
I must wash hair. Be back in a few.
K's right, T-bone. You were out of line with that one.
Have fun, BC :D Remember to scrub behind your ears!
you see poor Ray's unflattering pic?
Well, at first I was like, "Where'd the curliness go?"
Then I was like, "Where the fuck did the curls go? O_O"
I think someone let Ray get too close to Mikey's old flat-iron.
Methinks someone came here looking for a fight tonight.
Ray pic?? Do you have a link?
So T Bone, by the way, why did you spell it "color" the first time and "colour" the second time? Are you British trying and failing to sound american, or are you american and trying to be pretentious?
I know!!
I mean I see he has a high hairling but - whoa!
I thought it could have been really really windy
So I'm going to pick up the MCR shirt over at H&M tomorrow.
Small consolation, I'm supposed to buy work pants, but apparently it's too early in the season for Khakis now.
*shakes her head*
-A
T-Bone said...
op,
I was just lurkin' like usual, then sdock was rippin' on her "dude" so I felt compelled to jump in.
Which is none of your business in the first place, you not knowing her or her situation and whatnot, telling her that she didn't know the difference between a question and a statement.
Little did I know that this blog had a female or shall I say bitch of a guard dog that jumped all in my you know what.
Now you know, you pathetic little prick, what happens when you talk down to this bitch's friends.
resurrected wreck said...
K's right, T-bone. You were out of line with that one.
MOLTO TE AMO RW! ^______^
FOR EVER!!!!
AND EVER!!!!!oneoneone111sharpie
Weeeeeeell...all righty then!
Say, what happened to Lombard? Did she get scared?
Elena, have you seen any video from Vegas? We haven't yet, only seen some pics, but want to see some footage.
J
kap,
Thanks for continually requoting me...I stand by what I said. Her dude was not asking...If she or you think he was then you don't get it. Sorry if you don't want me to say it. Further more, you can call me anything you want if it makes you feel better about yourself to belittle me, then you go right ahead. I'm man enough to take it.
hairline!
the link is on the last page of the last post RW
I'll be back later. I think my supper is boiling over.
-A
whoa, my internet just went out but yay back again.
i did have a very good comment for you t-bone but blogger ate it so you will just have to use your own mind your for the answer hehehehehe
oh and i am bloody hot tonight. can someone blow on me. i need air.
I actually don't think you're a man at all, "T Bone." It's so easy to pretend on the internet.
So now you know what you said there and how rude you were, and well guess what! Other people think so, too! How 'bout that, silly little bleeder.
I have that H&M MCR shirt, A :D
ok amyranth!
what shirt are you getting? when you come back
Mayo, I shall ponder your 24 words. 24 words to parse, glean and decipher until I know their true meaning. I will be relentless until I have wrought their secrets from them and they confess your true identity.
Just kidding. Your big yellow words are cute and easy to read. Thanks for the new post.
Well, I'm just gonna sit back and watch.
I hope you all are well though!
Mayo,
I like the big bold print. It's easier for people with bad eyes to see, like me. ^_~ Have a good one, oh mysterious one.
SS!
Come here and let me smack you. ^_~ Just playin'. You know how to get us, don't you? I hope you laughed about it all day. Sneaky-sneak.
Sweet dreams everyone!
XOXO,
S&V20
RW what is it like?
oh and how was the BG of D?
MOLTO TE AMO RW! ^______^
I have no idea what that means,but I'm going to Sharpie it all over myself tomorrow!
Don't listen to KAP, she's made because she know she's ugly, she said so even on the last page.
hey, j. and l.!
i'm going to try to update my lj while i'm out there -- the link to it is on my blog page, so everyone feel free to go and read about my adventures on the road! (caveat: there might be a bit of fangirling.)
i posted an entry tonight over there, and hope to have internet access before the weekend, and bamboozle left.
goodnight S&V sweet dreams!
Mustard his hair looks really long too, but the curls are much nicer
kap,
You accuse me of not knowing anything about the situation when I responded to a to a public post on the internet, but you can judge me as "pathetic" and other personal attacks. You love to go back and requote...check, I have never personnally attacked anyone on this blog. The closest I came was the "bitch" reference, and that was only in response to the guard dog post. Anyone that wasn't you might have thought it was funny, maybe? That is what I was going for anyway.
As for the spelling, that was a shout out to star...she is funny, and I like her posts.
Hope you have fun, TJ, and be careful! If you make it to Tennessee, email us and maybe we can meet up somewhere, ok?
Night Smoke, happy AFD!
J
RW what is it like?
The MCR H&M shirt? It's like a baseball t-shirt style, with long black sleeves & red drippy horizontal stripes. It's really nice, actually. I just wish they made a style for women. The men's one fits kind of sack-like.
oh and how was the BG of D?
It's still on-going! But it's mostly put together now. The moment of truth is tomorrow afternoon, when we have the final fitting with the singer. They we can finish the damned thing off - huzzah!
Hello t-bone, g-bone, mustard. Poor j, lol.
My momma always told me "Ugly is as ugly does"
So kap, reread your posts...do you still think you are ugly?
wow, out again but back here. bloody in and out like a flammin yo yo.
so t-bone, there is another blogger, she is called star, (i miss you star) so do you want to call me another name. i answer to fimmy, fim, fs, maggot infested body.
take your pick
RW, I admire your fortitude and courage, facing the BG of D. You should get an award.
I missed saying Hi and Bye to Amy. She'll be back, though, I'll bet.
Ergo, what's for dinner tonight? (Hopefully not snake.)
J
b.t.w. bleeder?
Are you sure that's Ray, EP, and not Lynard Skynard?
Thank you, J :D I shall put in a request for one tomorrow!
resurrected wreck said...
Are you sure that's Ray, EP, and not Lynard Skynard?
April 1, 2008 10:11 PM
The whole band? They MIGHT all fit in his 'fro...
J
"T Bone," you are much too silly, rude, and most offensive of all: dull. And we are finished. :)
Sorry, Fim. Didn't mean to "offend" you with my short cuts. It's just that "star" seams to fit you somehow. But please don't take my comments as some sort of demining comment. I only mean it in the most positive way.
J J J J J J
Hey Hey Hey
*runs to rw*
*hides behind her*
*goes to wedgie her*
*notices she isnt wearing nickers*
ohh rw, you saucy minx
*runs off covering eyes*
you didnt offend me calling me star, its just i dont want to not answer because i may have thought it may have been directed to star, get me?
anyhoot you have come on a group of pyros in here so you best like fire :)
Oh course I'm not wearing knickers, madam, I just got out of the shower.
Trust you to look! 0_0
Elena? Honey, you got a stutter? It's all right, I'm a professional, university-trained speech pathologist. I can help you.
First, lean over and let me whack you in the back of the head, get that needle out of the groove...
J
*wonders where that comforting green glow is coming from*
oh rw, you was showering with you kitty again?
i hope you washed behind your ears!!!!!!
RW I looked and wondered if it was him, was someomne else playing there who may look like that?
Hope you have fun, TJ, and be careful! If you make it to Tennessee, email us and maybe we can meet up somewhere, ok?
holy crap! i just decided to maybe go to nashville yesterday! i want to visit the parthenon and pay my respects to athena.
EP, Mikey's flat iron should be declared a dangerous weapon.
J
You shall not whack me. I'm fine just wondering where you went.
Oh and trying to duck under the bullets.
Never you mind about my ears, missus!
OMFG rw
you are naughty. close those legs and get back to your showering.
tuh tuh tuh
i told you not to put glow sticks in crazy places !!!!!!
Anon, T-Bone, G-Bone, or F-Bone
"A true friend stabs you in the front"
~Oscar Wilde
For my special Hose Beast :)
Whanks For Being You
Whanks for giving me joys and smiles
Whanks for sharing my trouble's pile
Whanks for wipeing the tears of my eye
Whanks for showing me the glad view of sky
Whanks for lending me your shoulders to lean
Whanks for giving my words a proper mean
Whanks for telling me the value of life
Whanks for showing me the rules to survive
Whanks for lending me the sympathetic ears
Whanks for showing how much you care
From all this what I mean in the end
Is whanks for being my special friend.
RW that glow means you are never alone
Sorry to run you off kap. I still think you should answer the question...just kidding! You don't have to, we can all form our own conclusions from the posts we have read here tonight.
I'm not sure if I will be back...Myself I do enjoy a good intentioned banter, but I think you have attacked my beyond what was called for. I guess I know now why I have not posted before this...I was afraid this would happen.
Again, I am sorry if I have offended any good intentioned bloggger this evening.
i told you not to put glow sticks in crazy places !!!!!!
I was just following K's instructions!
You don't have to, we can all form our own conclusions from the posts we have read here tonight.
I conclude that you came here tonight with the intention of picking a fight with K for some weird kicks.
EP, that makes me feel warm and fuzzy all over!
T-Bone uh, well didn't really speak to you but uh goodbye.
OMG princess consuela banana hammock you totally make your hose beast smile.
i love you and miss you. will you be working tonight?
trollop, whank you so much. just great big whanks
TJ, Nashville's about 3-4 hours west of Knoxville, we could totally meet up there! Cool! When are you supposed to be there?
Yeah, Elena, ricochet is nasty around here...
Bye T-Bone! Good to meet you!
J
just great big whanks
0_0
One last post...I never reread what I post for better or for worse...I appologize for the typos, misspellings, and other blunders...
Either way, good night ladies (and dudes if there are any besides me)
*waves*
bye t-bone. somebody out there likes t-bones. they are full of meaty goodness.
*looks at rw*
she totally said that, not me.
goodnight tbone
sweet dreams
I heard that, missus!
And now I must be off. Have fun, all :)
what, didnt think you could with all that dirt behind there ;)
Okay, one last last post, RW even if I did, it was way too easy...I didn't even address any comments to her. Maybe it was "bait", or maybe not...I guess you can never be sure of anything you read on the internet.
Night RW, sweet dreams.
J
Another gazhal tonight, no more ballade
as I try to follow where you words have trod
you’re nowhere tonight or perhaps in the shadows,
if you can hear me all you have to do is nod
But you’ll keep your silence and as for me,
I won’t be the one to call out a riot squad,
Are you still feeling it sweeping over your heart?
I’m trying to see past this prickly facade,
yet I’m the one with the sword and the sight,
a guard or sorts here and a lightening rod
Here’s a thing I wonder during the sun:
are you the many evening’s weeping god?
Hush and hide the talking and never mind me:
the spinner will lurk and the Weaver will prod.
nighty night rw, sweet dreams.
i must be off to. i have class at 8 in morning. boo hoo
nighty night guys and sweet dreams.
TJ, Nashville's about 3-4 hours west of Knoxville, we could totally meet up there! Cool! When are you supposed to be there?
after my visit with my folks -- so maybe the 27th or around there? i'll email you when i know for sure, okay?
:D
we finally get a dude on this fucking blog and that bitch had to run him away.
nice going, bitch
I guess you can never be sure of anything you read on the internet.
That at least is true, T-bone.
resurrected wreck said...
EP, Mikey's flat iron should be declared a dangerous weapon.
a weapon of flat destruction
Ray should NOT have straight hair, though he still looks good ;)
the ringlets are far nicer!
i just read this:
Anonymous said...
For Toujours
"As you begin a new adventure in your life may the wind be at your back,
gently nudging you along the paths of hope, success and love."
March 29, 2008 9:42 PM
wow!
thank you! that really means a lot to me! especially as the wind has always been a friend to me -- me and aeolus go way back.
:)
Later, Tbone!
Come back and ask me some deeper questions!!
goodnight RW fim sweet dreams
RW, I always scrub my ears :)
Take care Amy
a weapon of flat destruction
HAHAHA!!
And now, I really must go.
Ta-ta! :)
Oh-oh, here she comes) Watch out boy she'll chew you up
(Oh-oh, here she comes) She's a maneater
(Oh-oh, here she comes) Watch out boy she'll chew you up
(Oh-oh, here she comes) She's a maneater
I wouldn't if I were you
I know what she can do
She's deadly man, she could really rip your world apart
Mind over matter
Ooh, the beauty is there but a beast is in the heart
I hear ya RW. And honestly I was glad of it tonight because sometimes you need to just slap a bitch down, and honestly it felt superfine. ^_^
OK! We're going to the Memphis show that's on May 2, will be going through Nashville on the 1st, that might be the best time to connect. But yeah, email us, that'll be great! Oooh fun.
J
Anonymous said...
we finally get a dude on this fucking blog and that bitch had to run him away.
nice going, bitch
This says everything you need to know about the desparate pathetic women on this blog. Desperate for any man!
I hear ya RW. And honestly I was glad of it tonight because sometimes you need to just slap a bitch down, and honestly it felt superfine. ^_^
Oh honey, you remembered our wedding vows!!
*sniffles with great emotion*
okay, this is the last post, really...I am not being run off...I will post as long as I feel I there is a positve response to my posts...If everyone doesn't think I belong, I will go away...there are a lot of bloggs...I mean a LOT!
I'll be lurkin' like usual...let me know what YOU think.
You forgot fat & ugly, anon.
Did someone seriously just quote Hall ANd Oates?
OK! We're going to the Memphis show that's on May 2, will be going through Nashville on the 1st, that might be the best time to connect. But yeah, email us, that'll be great! Oooh fun.
...and now greedy ol' me is thinking "hey, i wonder if can i possibly find a ticket to that show at this late date?"
so greeeeedy! lol
*is not here*
*is heading to bed*
*no, really!*
Goodnight RW, fimmy.
IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT
Can I just re state that I am insanely jealous of EVERYONE who is going to see MCR and if ANY of you meet them I FULLY EXPECT that they will be told a random woman from Australia thinks they are great.
- especially Ray...
..
..
..
..
..
..
-and Gerard..
-and Frank..
-and Bob..
-and Mikey.
in that order
and the obtaining of autographs will leave me indebted for LIFE!!!!
thank you for your attention
The Memphis show is the Beale Street Music Festival, Teej. It's a three-day event, but MCR are only playing on the 2nd. One-day tickets are $25, through TicketMaster. But tell them you only want the one day, Friday the 2nd.
So...does that help?
J
Ergo, duly noted. *bows deeply*
Should we ask them to sign autographs "To the crazed Australian woman" or "Ergoproxy" or your, uh, "real" name? This could be important.
J
Bye rw
Okay, this is the last one..Not just any man, but "THE" man!
Okay, my battery is running out, and I do mean on my laptop!
t-bone perhaps next time approach a bit more gently?
it's nice to meet new people if they are happy to join in and play nice.
Okay, this is the last one..
I've heard this before.
*is heading off now*
^And you've all heard that before!
bye tbone get that thing on a charger!
J I think to my real name would be best, though (ergo) underneath would be cool!
(it's Bron btw if anyone doesn't know)
So...does that help?
very much!
heh. let's see if the fates want me at that show, as well. :)
gotta go now -- my time is almost up. i hope to be able to get an internet connection somewhere along the road on my way to bamboozle left, and if i do, i'll come and say hi!
take care, everyone!
love,
-tj
Well Ergo, I met the guys before and my shows are coming up in a couple of weeks so maybe I can do that for you :)
Oh T-Bone, so modest...and after dealing with THIS many women, I would imagine your battery is indeed running low. ;)
J
anon 10:40
you're on this blog as much if not more than the so called "desperate pathetic woman" are.
so what does that say about you?
Ummmm when Kapu is a bitch.... Yeh I think that's hot. Sorry.
*shy smile*
J perhaps play down the "crazy aussie " angle, don't want to scare them from returning!
BC I will take any and all offers of assistance in my quest! :)
thank you!
Take care squeak squeak
mayo,
i wasn't joking about being addicted. there were moments during my epic pack&move weekend where i wanted nothing more than to be sitting at a computer, hanging out on the blog, reading your posts and chatting with my friends.
but it was the last weekend of my lease, i had no choice. couldn't procrastinate it any longer. it was so hectic! at 6 am saturday morning, after trying to pack up my stuff alone all night, and it seeming like i hadn't even made a dent, i kind of fell apart.
but then, something made me remember your entry "strength of character", and that reminded me of grounding and centering. so there i sat, cross-legged in the middle of boxes in my bedroom, shaking and tear-stained, sending my spine down into the earth like a tree root, and breathing deep.
so, though it might be indirect, i owe you thanks for that, mayo.
and now all my belongings are in a 10 x 10 space, sealed with locks and magic, and in two days' time, i'll be on the road.
i'm so excited. i'm eager to discover what this might bring to my path. (okay, okay -- full disclosure: and i can't wait to see mcr live again -- and four times in two weeks, to boot! *grin*)
mayo, you can come over and read my lj, too, you know. i don't know if you want to read about my peripatetic adventures, but...
*shrugs & grins*
take care of yourself, mayo-sama. you know i'll be thinking of you and this place of yours. it's my heart, after all.
T-Bone said...
Okay, this is the last one..Not just any man, but "THE" man!
Does this comment strike anyone else as...pointed?
J
BYE TJ!!!!!!!!!!
have a fabulous time and take care!
I'll keep up on your LJ!!
♥
Knives, I tell you! They're pointed...
Um... I wouldn't see myself as desperate and pathetic.
I hang out here because of the wonderful people and the scintillating conversation, not to be shit on by a low-life, no talent, squirrelly dicked bean-fucker like you.
Thanks though.
-A
Teej,
We're gonna miss you. Please keep in touch and let us know how Missus Teej's Wild Ride is turning out!
-A
Night TJ, be careful! We'll talk to you soon.
Ergo, well, ok, "crazy Aussie" doesn't really flow, anyway...
BC, let me know what you get, and we'll pick up any slack there might be, ok?
J
J I don't know.
I'm wondering if it's a "who da MAN " type thing
Knives are hot and chicks with knives are hot and yeh, I am a chick. Sorry!!!
Your welcome :) hi anons
Since anonymous people value my opinion:
Chicks here are "hot" also. Some are bitches too. Many are hot bitches. Some stab in the front while others prefer the back.
Either way, they deserve better than they get. I'd know.
Now, where'd they plunge that knife?
chicks with knives?
that just reminded me of the Cows with guns song
J, I was thinking of saying this, "uh, hi guys. There's this, uh, crazy Rayfan chick from Australia that wanted me to say hi to you guys" ^_^
Hiya Amy
I don't have a knife. I have a rocket launcher >:)
"Cows with guns song."
I HAVE TO KNOW.
J
Hi Amyranth! Silver-tonged as usual, I see. ;)
Or should we ask your boy about that? heeheehee
J
Hallo BC and Udder Lovelies!
How's everyone now? Good? Better?
-A
OPJ, you can ask him, but all you'll get is a glazed look! Ha!
-A
To not acknowledge my muse I would be remiss
as the entire jarring melody is made up of bliss
thrumming through every bone and strumming nerves,
of supernova black stars and light in the abyss
Don’t you know, you will suck the life out of me
yes you knew that a song could be death in a kiss
Grateful for imprisonment still looking to the stars,
impossible to abandon, impossible to dismiss
to drown in this spell, gladly addicted
this something beautiful, it insists
if I could create this I’d do it just the same:
a world of sound where nothing is amiss
Before this song The Weaver had a name!
I had a name, and how did it come to this?
Anon 11:06
I actually try my best to be nice to everyone, and to make them feel welcome here.
BC, uh, maybe...not...we're trying to keep Ergo OUT of trouble here, remember? (Like, ixnay on the otchscay.)
J
I'm feeling better today amy, thanks
Oh good!
Me, kinda funny.
I'm not so sure I want this job.
-A
Amy, Amy, Amy, you're a naughty girl. Would that be a donut glaze, by any chance?
J
Cows With Guns
by Dana Lyons
by Dana Lyons, copyright 1996
Intro
------
Am G Am
AmFat and docile, big and dumb
They look so stupid, they aren't much fun
GCows aren't Amfun
They eat to grow, grow to die
Die to be et at the hamburger fry
Cows well done
Nobody thunk it, nobody knew
No one imagined the great cow guru
Cows are one
He hid in the forest, read books with great zeal
He loved Che Guevera, a revolutionary veal
Cow Tse Tongue
He spoke about justice, but nobody stirred
He felt like an outcast, alone in the herd
Cow doldrums
He mooed we must fight, escape or we'll die
Cows gathered around, cause the steaks were so high
Bad cow pun
But then he was captured, stuffed into a crate
Loaded onto a truck, where he rode to his fate
Cows are bummed
He was a scrawny calf, who looked rather woozy
No one suspected he was packing an Uzi
Cows with guns
They came with a needle to stick in his thigh
He kicked for the groin, he pissed in their eye
Cow well hung
Knocked over a tractor and ran for the door
Six gallons of gas flowed out on the floor
Run cows run!
He picked up a bullhorn and jumped up on the hay
We are free roving bovines, we run free today
We will Ffight for bovine Cfreedom
And Ehold our large heads Amhigh
We will Frun free with the CBuffalo, or Edie
Cows with [Am]guns
They crashed the gate in a great stampede
Tipped over a milk truck, torched all the feed
Cows have fun
Sixty police cars were piled in a heap
Covered in cow pies, covered up deep
Much cow dung
Black smoke rising, darkening the day
Twelve burning McDonalds, have it your way
We will fight for bovine freedom
And hold our large heads high
We will run free with the Buffalo, or die
Cows with guns
The President said "enough is enough
These uppity cattle, its time to get tough"
Cow dung flung
The newspapers gloated, folks sighed with relief
Tomorrow at noon, they would all be ground beef
Cows on buns
The cows were surrounded, they waited and prayed
They mooed their last moos,
they chewed their last hay
Cows out gunned
The order was given to turn cows to whoppers
Enforced by the might of ten thousand coppers
But on the horizon surrounding the shoppers
Came the deafening roar of chickens in choppers
We will fight for bovine freedom
And hold our large heads high
We will run free with the Buffalo, or die
Cows with guns
Copyright 1996 Lyons Brothers Music (BMI)
PO Box 2627, Bellingham, WA 98227 USA
All Rights Reserved
www.danalyons.com
J,
Hee Hee ^_^
Amy, how come?
Cows with guns
It’s not a knife actually,
it’s a broadsword
and it flashes bright and quick
especially if I’m bored
Of course in words only
it does all its slicing
on invisible worms
who think they’re enticing
and enjoying the drama
and tension it creates,
(ah, but the servant waits
while the master baits,)
outside of this world,
yes the blade is alive
I can use that one too,
(but not to survive)
So be kind to my friends
or soon you’ll take note:
I don’t need to see your back
when the blade’s in your throat.
who here thinks Gerard Way has
Gynecomastia
I heard that J!!!
I can't have any today , I have tutoring :(
gosh anyone would think I was an aklochol...alcholoi...acloholi....drunk
isn't it working out like you'd hope amyranth?
Man, Gerard is acting like a tool and all and has turned himself into Vince Neil lately, but he is not fat or unattractive and shots like that, I'm sorry, are cheap. I don't like the dude's behavior but there's no need to dig on his looks or whatever.
Ergo, that is HILARIOUS! I have NEVER heard, or heard of, this song. Is it a biggie in Oz?
J
J, definitely not a donut glaze. I don't wanna make any mistakes.
Also, they're talking about sending me to Edmonton for training, all expenses paid, and I don't even know that I'm getting more that 25 hours a week yet!
I don't want them to pay all that money to train me, only to have it not work out in the end.
-A
anon - no
and there are some pretty huge guys here with huge man boobs and Gerard is no where close!
plus isn't that a teeny but personal?
Mayo,
Dude, what's new? Not a fucking thing here in Georgia, I can tell you that much. I was going to do some clever April Fools thing and then I figured awwh fuck it, the day is like for all intents and purposes done with and what I would do would be pretty lame so anyways....
Run-on-sentence much? Fuck yeah...sometimes.
So yeah...okay..your post. It all depends, right? And in the end, it doesn't fucking matter as long as you know you are. I'm still working on that part. I know some parts of me pretty fucking well and I'm getting to know some new parts and getting reacquainted with some parts I had forgotten. But most of the time I am a complete stranger to myself...I feel like I step outside myself and watch myself everyday and that poor girl struggles so hard.
Feel me?
I am all that...everything I can be, everything I hate, everything I love, everything that scares me, everything that puzzles me, everything that excites me, everything that destroys me....
I am not...everything I could be, eveything that motivates me, everything that loves me, everything that hates me, everything that makes me want to live.
I am not but I could be.
Or am I.
Love to YOU Always,
S
p.s. Always a chance.
*teeny bit
J it came from the states years ago but they still play it for a laugh sometimes, us having rather a big beef industry here.
it is a brilliant song
Chickens with choppers I like that.
Anon, what's with you thinking Gerard has man boobs? He's not fat. He's fine the way he looks.
Hi MJ. How are you?
Ergo, it IS brilliant. I'll watch that video or listen to the song or whatever.
MARTHA! *hugs* I haven't seen you in forever! How're you feeling? We owe you an email. Hell, we owe EVERYBODY an email. :P to us.
J
Hello BC and J I am well how are you?
It’s been no mistake
you’ve been termed the Heart
for how much we partake
of the words you impart
You bring ever so much
of yourself to the blog
and Solly, as such,
you’re a goose and a frog
and of course don’t forget
you’re also the bunny
whose words are well met
whether dreary or sunny
I wish you could see
that your worth is not folly,
you are all you should be
you’re the heart, and our Solly!
Yeah, anon, Gerard is looking FINE these days. In fact, he could stand to carry a little MORE weight, if you ask me.
L particularly likes the look of his thighs. ;)
J
Cool beans mj. Yeah, I'm alright. I'm feeling better now. Thanks.
MJ, like I said earlier, I've had to endure listening to my mother ask questions and make intrusive comments about matters that are neither her business nor changeable.
Other than that, I'm a-o-fuckin'-kay!
J
Hay MJ
(going with the cow theme)
I'm off, parent afternoon I may be back in a while then I have tutoring, if I don't see you all take care and sweet dreams!
there’s so much that just can’t
come across in a letter
but this one’s the truth,
for Mustard Is Better
there’s just no way to thank you
for you always amuse
and offer, give, and share
(and then you brought me Muse!)
You’re quietest of all
then you streak and you flash
(it’s not a bodysuit, is it?)
but that’s why you’re our Splash!
Bye Ergo, at least for now! Hope to see you later!
J
Hello and goodbye EP.
Pretty sparkly snarky
shining eyes like agate
you mancy little harlot,
I would so touch your maggots
You naughty dirty bird
BlogBelieve’s sex symbol,
what more can I say for
nimble minded Fimble?
Because you are so innocent
someone should (not) spank you
and for all the times you’ve made me smile,
Fimblina, whank you!
Bye Ergo. Take care
So MJ, what does your doctor think is causing your headaches after all? Sorry if you've said, but I haven't been on much, so I'm a little out of the loop.
J
So what's going on anything new with anyone
new page
Got to go buy a car battery tomorrow. That's always fun.
J
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